DEALING WITH SUDDEN LOSS & GRIEF: LOSING MY MOM 😢(EMOTIONAL) MOTHER-DAUGHTER STORY
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- Опубликовано: 18 сен 2019
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I lost my mom on New Years Eve 2023. I (never married) have lived and been with her 57 years, my age. I am the 1st born son of the 4 sons. She was close to 77 and die of cardiac arrest. Words can't describe total and unequivocal brokenness of my heart. My father pass away 9 years prior. She was the church pianist and giver of love and 35 churches (my father established) around the world but closed during Covid and remaining few. Suddenly she die, I am lost without purpose and can't function properly. She saved my life many times. I just don't know where to begin. Even eating, drinking and sleeping is just hard for me. But i had to forced my self to eat as my tears rolled down and forced myself to swallow. As I prepared for the livecast funeral service, I am comforted by your video that I am going thru exactly the same what you have gone thru. I was able to be her caregiver for last 8 years of her life. Mom, we love you forever, your love echoes in eternity. I will make a move about my mom, one day. It's called "Loving a Prodigal Son".
I’m so incredibly sorry for your loss and my heart goes out to you as I know exactly what you’re going through!! I promise you will get through this know matter how hard it is right now! I know because felt the exact same as you! I felt empty and alone and it was like losing my best friend, a spouse (because we lived together too) and most importantly my mom! The daily routines were just stripped away. The unconditional love from both our parents just gone! So like you never married and no kids you feel empty but as hard as that was it has made me stronger! I think you’re exactly like me where our precious angel moms taught us everything but not how to live without them. But you will survive this because she won’t let you fall!! She sounds like a. Angel and she will forever watch over you! Just take one second at a time! Sending you so many prayers and my deepest condolences!! 💐🙏🏻❤️
I’m just lost my momma. She stopped breathing in my arms. Praying and yelling mom please dont go yet please. They got her to the hospital and put her on life support only for ppl to come say goodbye to her. I was just. Holding her. Thank you for helping me feel not alone. I want my mom just to call me.
Oh Nannette I’m so sorry for your loss! My heart breaks for you and I’m sending you prayers and hugs! You’re definitely not alone and it’s just such an empty whole in our hearts! I know they are with us in spirit but as you know it’s just not the same! Sending you my deepest condolences and love! I will be praying for you! It’s such a roller coaster of grief for all of us! Big hugs 🙏🏻❤️🙏🏻
@@KristiAllureBeauty god is with you and your mum I have lost my mum praying for you stay strong ok 🙏🙏✝️🇱🇷🇱🇷🇱🇷🇭🇲🇭🇲🇭🇲
I suddenly lost my mom in June 2020. She was 62. I was 32. She was a single parent. It’s forever been just her and I. She was my soulmate. The air in my lungs. The beat in my heart. Each day that I awaken, is more and more of a struggle as time goes on. We texted 100 times a day if I wasn’t with her. We texted one another love and miss you at 12:30 am. She went into cardiac arrest at 2:30 am. My life isn’t life without her. I feel everything you’re feeling. We support you 🙏🏻💔
My mom taught me everything in life……but to live without her 😞
I’m so sorry Lindsay I know I exactly how you feel! It’s like a big part of me died with her and that pain just never goes away!!! It’s so hard when it’s so sudden and I don’t think any of us will ever understand! The amount of emotions you will feel is just unreal! You’re not alone and there’s a whole community that’s so supportive and wonderful here on my channel so please know that we will all support you! Whenever you need to vent I’m here! I know every ounce of that pain! I still struggle! I’ve never felt so alone in my life without my parents! I’m all alone now and I just have to try and accept that the best I can! I know our angels are with us! Sending you all my love and prayers!! ❤️🙏🏻❤️
The air in my lungs, the beating of my heart my soulmate ... exactly how l described my mom.. I lost my mom too in 2022 aug 22. I just want to die and go be with her! Its the hardest thing I ever endured... how is this my life, I ask every day! Hope you are staying strong.
I just lost my mum also I'm 33 was just me and her my whole life in another country away from our family don't know how il live without her 💔
I lost my mom in February. I still been searching all over the internet to find something to help me get through this loss but I guess that won’t ever happen. I’m my mothers only child and we were best friends as well. I never thought I could feel something so painful. 😥 praying for you 🙏🏽
So sorry. I lost my mom suddenly in October from a ruptured abdominal aortic aneurysm - she was my only family. I miss her so much and still cry almost everyday. Try to remember the good times.
I can relate soo much. I wish I had a sibling so I had someone who understood and could walk with me through this...I feel like my life will never be the same. I miss her soo much. Sending my love your way. Prayers for comfort for all hurting 💛
Me too it’s glad to hear other ppl talk about it
I am sorry for your loss I know your pain! 😢 I am hurt I loss my Mom August 29th 2020 I loss my Daughter 2019 and my auntie 2017
@@shaylanewlife my god yes I really hope we can get through this it’s such a traumatic experience
I am 36, my mom died unexpectedly at 65 and it was devastating, father died from cancer when i was 8, so my mom and i were best friends and she was my 16 yr olds best friend as well, we talked everyday. Glad i could cry with you today, its been 2 weeks since my mom has passed and when i feel better, I get a day like today where I just cant rummage a smile.
I’m so dirty incredibly sorry for the loss of your angel mom. My heart goes out to you and your family. I’m so glad you found my video and you were able to not feel alone in your grief. I know how painful it is to lose both parents and feel so alone even when you have people surrounding you. I never felt so alone in my life because nobody can fill that void. I know they are with us and keeping us strong but it’s not easy! Just get through each day taking it one second at a time. Big hugs to you and I will be praying for your comfort and strength! It’s long road of grief and you will have those days that are just purely tough and others like you said where you can rummage a smile through the grief! Allow your emotions to go through those roller Coasters and no you’re not alone! ❤️🙏🏻❤️
Just lost mine a few days ago. This is the worst feeling I've ever had in my life. My best friend is gone.
I lost my mom suddenly in May of 2017 when I was 32. I have never watched a video of yours before but I wanted to tell you how much I identify with everything you said about your mom and how you felt and feel. My mom was my best friend too. I hope you're doing ok.
Thank you so much Chris means a lot!!! Sorry about your mom too! Holidays are so tough especially the first one but as we both know (losing my dad 4 yrs ago) every holiday is still so difficult!! God bless you and your family through the hardest time of the year!!!
@@davidmcclendon5057 wow the disrespect
What is the name of the first song ???
3 years since she’s been gone, feels like yesterday. Died suddenly. Also in her sleep. I’m holding her ashes while listening to your video. I still can’t believe it. I forget she’s dead and everyday and have to re-live the shock when reality hits me again. I don’t know what’s wrong with me, if anything. My Brother and Sister seemed to have moved forward with acceptance. My wife is over it and gives little support. Never ever felt so helpless. But these moments I share with strangers like you all help. Thank you. But Damn the universe for this screwed up plan, to tear away what we love most. I don’t think I’ll ever see wisdom or good in it. Acceptance is where I’m stuck. Cheers.
Oh George I know exactly how you feel and I’m going through the same thing!!! Little over two years now and I just have secluded myself in a sense from my friends because I do feel all alone in my grief and anger to the universe for taking my mom and dad both so suddenly! I know that pain and nothing is wrong with us! When you have that kind of bond it’s like a part of us died that day and it’s hard to keep moving forward! I’ve stayed in denial and my mom and dads ashes are next to me every minute of the day so I get it!!! My immediate family is gone and that’s a hard pill to swallow because I’m literally all alone. Your message hit home with me so I get it! This community here gets it and we are here for you each other!! Nobody understands more than us and a lot of us on here are still going through it so I’m glad that’s helping you a little! Like you staying in denial gets me up every day because I don’t think I can face it yet! But like you said the minute I do it’s like I re-live that pain!!! We are all in this together and feel free to message any time! Sending you my prayers and support! 🙏🏻
My beloved Mother passed too about two months ago. I understand your pain... it’s sooooooo hard. We will get thru this. May God take care of you and your family during this difficult time. I have the resurrection hope and this helps me going. If you have a Bible, please read John 5:28-29. Also Isaiah: 25:8...
First, I’m so sorry a put your beloved mom and my deepest condolences to you as well!!! May god bless your soul and broken heart right now!!! It’s the most difficult and devastating time to lose someone we love so much!! I’m just getting through the days as best as I can! I’m so glad I shared my story so we can reach out to others who are bearing the same loss!! Thank you for sharing that verse with me! I will check it out!!! Good bless you and your family as we all get through this difficult time!!! 💕
I just lost my mom this past June. I don't know what to do anymore. I feel like I've lost myself. I don't even feel like I can properly care for my sweet 12 year old son because I'm so consumed in my pain and sadness all the time. I am lost. She was my best friend. The rock of the family. I still feel and smell her everywhere. It kills me. I'm sorry for your loss. Ik what it's like.
Oh Misty I’m so sorry for your loss. My deepest condolences and prayers to you and your family. I know exactly what you’re feeling and I honestly didn’t think I could live a second when my mom passed. So I completely understand but it’s been little over two years now and I truly believe my mom has given me the strength to keep going. I’m not going to lie it’s been rough and a roller coaster of emotions and there’s days I want to crawl in a hole and disappear with my mom but our beautiful angel moms won’t let us. Your precious son needs his mommy as much as we need ours so know your stronger than you even know. I’ve learned to just take one second at a time and allow myself to continue grieving when I need to. Holidays and birthdays are horrendous and I’ve never felt so alone in my life. And trust me I’ve had days where I’m like who would really miss me I have no kids I’m over 40 and my family is gone but I push through that and remember that my mom would be so mad at me if I didn’t continue fighting. I’ve just consumed myself in building my RUclips channel that my mom and I started and I just want to make her proud and that helps me get through the days. You have your beautiful gift of a son and your mom wants you to follow in her footsteps. I have a video uploading at 7am this morning and it’s dedicated to my parents in heaven and all those that have lost a loved one. It’s a blush palette that was created for our loved ones in heaven and I just broke down during the video. It’s raw, it’s how I’m currently feeling but I hope it helps give others hope in knowing our loved ones in heaven are still with us if we can just believe in seeing the signs. My community I’ve built on RUclips have very similar stories to us and a group of very supportive women that know exactly what you’re going through. Lean on us and know I’m here if you need to vent anytime! You can also dm me on IG! Sending you lots of prayers and hugs misty!!! 🙏🏻❤️🙏🏻
My mom is I heaven now, I would give anything just to hear her sweet voice one more time and hold her hand and kiss her on the forehead and tell her how much I loved her. My mother was my best friend and companion for my entire life, I will always remember her forever, there is no getting over it for me. This is by far the most painful time in my life. I cried through the entire video because it hit home with me, my life will never be the same again, I need my mothers smile and kind words back in my life. I am totally lost without her. Thank you for being so strong to share the loss of your mother in heaven with us. May god give you the strength to overcome your grief, I I’m devastated as you are. I know that I will be reunited with my mother in the afterlife with the lord. Please remember that she was the best mother you could ever wish for. My bond was so strong that my life will never be the same again without her. I will always from now on do things to honor my mother’s life, she would always donate to different charities and help others in need. I am truly blessed to have her as my mother. Thanks again for opening your heart and sharing your love with us. Your mother will always be with you in spirit.
Jorge I’m so incredibly sorry for your loss! My heart breaks for you and I know how incredibly hard this loss is! Like you said it’s a pain so deep it’s hard to even comprehend. It’s like a part of us died with them and life will never ever be the same! Grief is just a feeling like no other. I live that your honoring your mom and all the wonderful things she did and yes all we have are those amazing memories to hold onto the best we can!! Your mom sounds like a wonderful woman and now our Angels 👼 are looking over us!! Sending you hugs and prayers!! 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻
I was extremely close to my Mother. I lost her Feb 5th 2021 and I am still numb after 11 months. We were extremely close. I feel so lost without her.
I feel exactly like you do. I am so sorry for your loss. Losing our mothers changes us forever and ever.
I really have no words. Hang in there. Your Mom would want you to go on.
That is what keeps me going.
Hi Laura. I’m so incredibly sorry for your loss and my deepest condolences to you and your family. I know that pain oh so well and after two and half years now, I’m still also very numb! It hits the hardest at Odd times after awhile but always around holidays as you are experiencing! Wish I could give you the biggest hug! I will praying for you and yes it does chamois forever! Feels like life will never be the same but you’re right our moms want us to keep going and I know they’re always with us and looking over us! Through the worse days of my life, she has helped me see the sun the next day. Both my parents I know help me through that but as you know nothing can ever take that pain away! I would give anything to have them both back and with me. Hang in there as well and I’m always here if you need me! You can find me on IG as well . I have some amazing ladies that I’ve really bonded with over the loss of our moms and dm me frequently so know that you’re not alone! My RUclips channel and building what my mom and I started is the only thing keeping me going after losing my family! We just have to hang on those precious things! Hugs and prayers to you!!! ❤️😘✨🙏🏻
@@KristiAllureBeauty
Thank you so much for replying to my message. Last year my Mom went into the hospital in late January and never came back home. So it’s really getting rough thinking about all this up till Feb 5 when we lost her. My Mom was a very funny lady! We were always clowning around. I guess I miss being able to call her anytime to tell her anything! I still talk to her. I always will. I think grief comes in waves. One minute I am ok and the next is like no this really didn’t happen!
Mom watched Nature shows all the time and talked about the circle of life. She talked to me about saying she would die and I always said no don’t say that! But she was basically trying to prepare me I guess! We never want to let go!
I pray for all of us especially the daughters who lost their Moms. I now try to focus on the things Mom would want me to, to make my life better. She taught me so many things. All we can do is HONOR our Mothers by remembering them and living the best life that they gave us literally. I am going to make a book of thousands of photos I have of my Mom this year. Gonna take a long time to gather all the photos.
Their Legacy must go on and be shown to our children!
Thanks for listening!
I am so sorry for your loss girl😢 I lost my mom to sudden cardiac arrest on September 14th, 2019. She went in her sleep as well at 42. There were no warning signs, and what you said about them being here one day and just gone the next is the truest thing. She complained of chills, fever, and body aches the day before...we all thought she had got the flu or something. She went to sleep that night and never woke up and her autopsy confirmed what we thought. My mom was on beta blockers for a heart murmur, but aside from that had no real health problems. That shock hits you like a train, and nobody can prepare you for it. I woke up that morning to get ready for my sons first birthday party, and soon there was a knock at my door. My stepdad, sister, and moms parents walked through flooded with tears...the last time I seen my grandma like that was when her son died (my moms brother) 10 years earlier in 2009. I knew I was about to hear someone passed away...no one could prepare me for that heart wrenching moment when my stepdad (who I looked at as my father) asked me to sit down and he said the words that will forever haunt me...”Brittany...your momma passed away last night” I felt like someone ripped my heart out of my chest . I fell to the floor in tears and they all gathered and we just laid together and cried. There’s so much I can say about that moment, but just know I feel for you so bad losing both. You are so strong. Me and my mom were like you and yours ...talking everyday if we weren’t together. I’m so sorry. It gets tolerable, but you never get over it. You learn how to cope because you have no other choice. Sometimes you’re okay, and sometimes you’re breaking down again. Prayers for you in the days to come.
Oh Brittany I just cried my eyes out reading this!!! I’m so sorry about your mom and can’t believe how similar our stories are and very close together timeframe! I don’t think we will ever understand why and I’m sure you feel the same but I’m still in denial. I feel like if I come to terms with it I will fall hard and I won’t be able to come out of that rabbit hole. I have a strong background of anxiety and depression and I tread that line every single day! My emotions like you are so up and down and this time of the year just makes it ten times worse! I miss my parents and I feel so alone in this world without them! Like you said we have to keep living but man is it painful! Not being married or with children doesn’t always give me purpose but my loved ones do and I just try my hardest to keep fighting through the grief and pain. It took so long to adapt to not having her by my side everyday and like you hearing their voice. It’s just the most unspeakable pain. I know exactly what you meant when I heard those words as well. Your moms is gone she passed away! I still can’t get that nightmare out of my head! I like you just dropped to the floor but I was alone at the time in our house that we lived in and I can’t even explain how painful that was! I was so mad at god for so long for her taking her and my dad so close together! Just pray everyday that I can wake up and put a smile on my face for her and let her know I will survive. It’s hard though. It’s so nice and comforting to hear others stores and no we are not alone so thank you so very much for sharing yours!!! Big hugs to you and much love and prayers sent your way!!!! ❤️🙏🏻😘
I lost my Mom in June...the pain is worse now then before...I hear her in my head...the words, the pitch of her voice, her sayings...I hate the regret, she used to pop her gum...drove me mad...I would give anything...
I’m so sorry for your loss Drew! My prayers and condolences to your and your family! I know exactly how you’re feeling and it’s just not fair right! I wish I can tell you the pain goes away but two years later I still feel it but I’ve learn to fight through it. Some days better than others! Big hugs to you and we are all here for each other to feel a little less alone! 🙏🏻❤️
I lost my beautiful daughter 16 months ago. I came across your video last night. It's as if your words were coming out of my mouth...my daughter and I lived together too. I was a single mom. She was 27 years old. She was not only my daughter..she sometimes felt like my mother, my sister, my best friend. She was my soulmate..she was my person..we did everything together. She died unexpectedly too. My world is forever changed. Like another mom put it..it feels like an "internal prison sentence " I've gotten wonderful signs from her.. I just can't wait to see her again. I noticed you made this video a year ago..how are you doing? I feel so lost...I just cant fix this😭😭😭😭😭
Oh Paula I have no words! My heart just aches so badly for you! Just started balling reading your message and thank you for sharing and reaching out! My condolences to you and your beautiful angel of a daughter! I wish I could give you the biggest hug right now! I don’t have children but I could never imagine losing one that’s what most say is the deepest pain! What you said about her being your mother, sister and best friend that was my mom too! Many don’t even understand that kind of bond! Especially living with your daughter like my mom and I! I was 40 yrs old living with my other half as If it’s your spouse as my therapist put it! It’s like losing so many roles in your life all in one! It’s just gut wrenching and a nightmare that never goes away! Still almost two years in July I feel numb and the only way I get through a day is to numb that pain by staying in denial because I can’t allow myself to go down that tunnel of depression I know I can’t get to. I don’t know if that’s healthy but it’s the only way I know how to cope! I had to move away from the area to get away from the everyday but I know that’s not easy to do for most but our house was a rental and I couldn’t afford it on my own plus it was being sold so it was a forced choice but good in a way. When you loose that person in your life that “person” you’re whole world it changes you forever! A part of me died that day and I’m just trying survive with what’s left of me and I miss her second of the day and I still cry daily every time I look at her face in her pictures! Both my parents I just would give anything to hear their voice! I’ve never felt so alone in my life! All I can say from my situation and I know everyone is different is that grief is a roller coaster of emotions and some days I have her strength and her courage to put a smiling face live because I know she’s inside me and others I’m just sad and sometimes angry that god took her from me so unfairly but I just try to ride out those emotions and take one second at a time so my anxiety doesn’t reach a bad point of an attack! It’s a challenge and I’m not going to say it gets easier but you learn to just cope with the pain. I just try to see life through her eyes and know she would be so angry with me if I didn’t live the best I can. I hope that helps and I will be saying lots of prayers for you! Please reach out whenever you want and know you’re not alone because there’s a whole community of us out there grieving together! Much love to you! 💔😓
@@KristiAllureBeauty thank you so much for getting back to me..you are so sweet and kind..your mom would be so proud of you!! This is the hardest journey we will ever be on. I still can't believe God makes us live like this...im always on you tube listening to near death experiences. I just need to know where my daughter is. I never thought of life after death because I had no reason to...but after she died I got signs that she was trying to reach me. From listening to thousands of them I learned that our spirits go on and people see their loved ones and we are here to learn lessons...everyday I wake up and I say I made it one day closer to seeing my daughter. I know she will be the first one greeting me when I cross over. I've never been so excited to die..this is hell on earth to me. They say God won't give you anything you can't handle...well I don't believe that..because this is more than I can handle 😔. I keep telling myself I'm a warrior now and I have to make it to the end. I hate that I have longevity in my family..I could possibly live 50 more years..im 53 years old..I cant imagine 50 more years without my daughter..I get panicked just thinking about it. I thought about taking my life..but studying all these near death experiences..im afraid it will mess up me seeing my daughter or he will say..oh no Paula you didn't finish your work on earth and make me come back and grieve another child again. No way!! I never want to come back here.. im so sorry you had to lose your mom..I know and feel your pain..we both lost "our" person. My daughter was the sweetest person I knew. She always had the biggest smile.. she was so loved..we both now have the best guardian angels helping us. I pray we find some comfort until we see them again. I dream of that first hug. I'm never going to let her go🥰🙏❤
Nothing is more painful than losing my mother. I lost her suddenly in December 2019 to brain aneurysm and I went for therapy in 2022 because I was still not able to get over or accept it. I get confused on certain days not being able to tell if she’s really gone or if Im just imagining things. I dream of her every night. I feel completely empty inside.
I’m so sorry for your loss and I know exactly how you feel! My mom was July if 2019 sudden like you, just out of nowhere and no warnings so I don’t know if we will ever be able to accept it! I do my best to distract my mind but like you there’s days where I also feel like it’s not real. It’s this roller coaster of emotions that just take over! I know exactly what you’re feeling but I also know our moms are not going to let us fall and trust me when I say easier said than to accept! Just one day at a time! Sending you big hugs and prayers! ❤️🙏🏻❤️🤗
@@KristiAllureBeautythank you for the comforting words. Your video was one of the first ones I watched when I was looking for consolation but, I had no strength to comment because I couldn’t, didn’t accept the loss back then. But I cried my heart out with you while watching this. Thanks again for sharing. ❤
I am so so sorry for your loss! Watching this broke my heart into peices. I lost my mom a month ago suddenly; she had been sick with possibly the flu, I am requesting her medical records and autopsy now, but she also had Multiple Sclerosis my entire life. She was 69, I'm 35. I am heartbroken, I have no idea how I am going to live without her 💔 she was my best friend and my biggest cheerleader. I spoke with her the night before she died, she promised she was going to the doctor the next day bc her symptoms were really bad, she could hardly catch her breath to speak to me. But never in a million years did I think I would wake up the next morning to see 3 missed calls from my cousin and her to tell me my mom was gone 😭
I’m so incredibly sorry for your loss Fatima! My heart breaks for you as I know that call and that feelings! It’s a nightmare I can’t shake and I was just telling someone today how I still am in shock and denial without any closure! I highly recommend the autopsy and regret not doing one to this day!!! Our moms were the same age when they passed! It breaks my heart that neither of my parents even reached the age of 70!! I still can’t comprehend why! I don’t think I could survive this but I’m still here so I promise you will by the grace of god keep going but like many of us we learn to cope somehow! Maybe it’s our moms who are our angels that keep us going! For me the routine of day to day life took a lot of adjusting because she was like my spouse because we lived together and spent every second of the day together so that was just very difficult to adjust not having her there. I ended up moving away because I couldn’t stomach being in my hometown anymore. Too many memories and after she passed I just needed to run away from that in order to keep going. Now I keep myself so busy in my RUclips channel we started together to keep me going. I determined to make her proud and that’s all I can concentrate on. I promise you will get through this but allow yourself to grieve and just take one second at a time! Sending you love and prayers! 🙏🏻💕
Here in 2022 and I lost my mom on her birthday 1/31 and I feel the same way you explain here. My depression and anxiety is so bad now. She passed so fast. I pray for everyone reading this to have peace within their broken hearts 💔
This video gave me so much peace. We share the same exact story. Thank you 💜
Oh Ricardo lots of prayers sent your way! Thank you for sharing that! ❤️
My mom left us in May 2021 I feel so alone there’s not a day I don’t miss her some days are worse than others everyday I think of her there’s not a day we didn’t talk I could call her now if she was here and she will wake up an listen an talk blessings and peace to any one dealing with the loss of loosing a Parent it’s a pain that hasn’t left me yet love you Mommy 🥰
I’m so incredibly sorry for your loss! I know that pain and it’s pretty intolerable! Just know she is with you because it’s my mom’s strength that’s getting me through my days! It’s a roller coaster of emotions and the grief comes in waves! I still have moments and it’s been almost 3yrs in July! I had a panic attack a couple days ago because out of nowhere that grief hit me and it felt like I couldn’t breathe but I’m know my mom was there and she got me through it! Praying for you!!! ❤️🙏🏻❤️
I just came across your video. You articulated every thought, feeling and emotion I have . God bless you.
Oh Tammy! I’m so glad you reached out and I’m so sorry for your loss! I find comfort when I hear from others that understand all these emotions! I will be praying for you and god bless you as well!!! 🙏🏻
I lost my mum suddenly in April, she passed in her sleep. My eldest sister was her carer and found her when she was just going to help her get ready for the day. I'm 19 and my father has never been present in my life. No one can describe how abandoned you feel when the person you've depended on all your life is taken away. i'm now technically homeless and couch surfing most nights as neither of my sisters have got thr space for me as much as they try to provide it. But I feel your pain. I hope we can heal. I'm so sorry for your loss.
In so incredibly sorry Michaela!!!! I know that feeling of being alone and dits scary but just remember and I know it’s easier said than done but god doesn’t give us more than we can handle! I know it’s torture right now but our moms are our angels and they won’t let us fall!!! I have to believe that to keep going on! My heart and my prayers are with you and you will get through this! I promise you! You’re not alone because she’s always with you! Xoxo 🙏🏻❤️
I’m so sorry for your loss. I know just how you feel. My mother was my best friend and I lost her 4 months ago. I pray that it gets better for us and for anyone else who is grieving from the loss of their mom.
Thank you Lucia and I’m so incredibly sorry for your loss. My deepest condolences to you and your family!! I know how hard it is to even breathe without them and my heart goes out to you! Sending you big hugs and lots of prayers for all our broken hearts! This community has been so helpful in knowing I’m not alone! Everyday is a struggle but knowing I’m not alone and we all share this common bond helps! Big hugs Lucia!!! ❤️✨🙏🏻 I just dedicated my last video in December to my parents in heaven and it explains the significance of the Monarca butterfly 🦋 that my mom loved.
I'm really sorry for the loss of your beautiful mom. I lost my mom suddenly as well last month and I can understand the pain 😥 praying for you.
I’m so incredibly sorry Wendy and my heart goes out to you as well! Sending you lots of hugs and prayers! Take one second at a time and I know how painful it is but just lean on your loved ones and allow yourself to grieve!!! My deepest condolences to you and your family!!! ❤️🙏🏻❤️
Hi Kristi. I just lost my Mom on December 20th of this year, about a week ago and it was also very sudden and unexpected. As you said in your video, it is still very raw and I'm in utter shock and disbelief. I'm 54 and my Mom was 73.
Four years ago, my Mom moved 300 miles north of where I live in Chicago to the upper Penninsula of Michigan, and ever since, I've been driving up to visit her every other month to spend time with her, (she lived alone and couldn't drive anymore) take her to doctor appointments and help her with things around the home and do grocery shopping for her, coik nice meals for her etc., since she had challenges with mobility. On December 18th, I drove up to spend the Christmas holiday there for a week, and this time my husband went with me, thank goodness! The day after I arrived there, I took her to a doctor appointment an hour from her home and then took her to a dentist appointment where she was finally getting her permanent new dentures (after having about 20 teeth pulled 6 minrhs prior) just in time for her 2nd annual Christmas family reunion (there would be about 14 people coming) since she moved there. She was so excited knowing she would have a beautiful new smile finally after she fell about 10 years ago and broke her front teeth. I dropped her off at 3 p.m., since they said it would take a couple of hours for the procedure, and went back to her house to pick up my husband to run some errands. I went to pick her up at 5 p.m. but they said it would take another 15 or 20 minutes so my husband and I went down the street to get a quick bite to eat and as we left the restaurant I had 12 missed calls from the dental office. When I called them back they said as they were getting her ready to leave, she suddenly complained of a severe headache ache and then passed out. So, I rushed back there to see an ambulance outside. The paramedics said my Mom was having trouble breathing on her own and was having what's called ventricular fibrillation. I arrived at the E.R. of the hospital a few minutes after they got my Mom there and they said they had to shock her heart once to get it back to normal rythem but had to put her on a ventilator. A couple hours later, other doctors came in and ordered a head CT scan where it was discovered that my Mom was suffering a brain anyerism which they told me was significant. This hospital did not have any neurosurgeon who could do the type of operation which could save her life so they took hours calling other hospitals to find one which would accept her case. She was flown down to U of M in Ann Arbor at 3 a.m. but by the time she got there, with all the delays for 9 hours, there was nothing they could do as the bleeding had caused too much damage. My Mom passed away the next day.😔 My Mom was also everything to me and I feel such a sense of emptiness that I can't express and can't get through each day without crying all the time. I can hardly sleep and wake up crying. If it weren't for my husband and soul mate, I don't know if I could survive this tragedy without losing my mind. I am so very sorry for your loss and I just keep telling people to cherish the ones they love because you never know when they'll be gone from your life. My husband also suffered an unspeakable loss 3 years ago when his 18 year old daughter, the light of his life as her called her, took her life with her own antidepressants. My father narrowly survived prostate cancer several years ago, and my Step-Mom (I lovingly call her Mom #2) made it to the hospital just in time after suffering a major blood clot in her brain earlier this year, which she is doing well now, thank goodness. Even my husband was diagnosed with 3 blood clots in his right leg 2 years ago but was put on blood thinner for a year and has been off of them for a year now and is okay. I'm so afraid now all time, like I'm going to lose everyone I love.
Sorry for such a long post but I didn't think I would be honoring people who have suddenly lost a loved one unless I told my story in some detail. So many don't get the chance to tell their story in a public forum like this and maybe help someone else who has experienced this kind of loss and I wanted you to know that hearing your story helped me.
My very sincere condolences. Kimberly
Hi Kim. Thank you so much for sharing your story and it really is so healing to share our grief and I know it makes me feel like I’m not alone. My deepest condolences to you and your family. I know exactly what you’re going through and my heart goes out to you. I know both our hearts are pretty broken and we were so blessed to have relationships with our moms! It’s special and one of a kind but on the other end so painful when it’s gone! I know the holidays were horrendous for me and I can only imagine the pain you went through! My prayers and love to you my friend and thank you again for reaching out! I’m so glad I did the video now because if I can just bring all our broken hearts together maybe we can all just start healing at some point together!!! Xoxo ❤️
Our only hope in this world is Jesus Christ. He loves you more than you could ever know. I pray my best friend's story will help you.
Precious Memories-By Sonya Lakey
Family Story
Little did our family of six know that Friday evening, September 24th, 2021, would be the last night our family would be complete. We laughed together, played games, sang, and enjoyed listening as our 16-year-old son, Ethan, played the piano for us. I packed a lunch for Ethan for a church mountain hike he was going on the following day.
My mother (who was visiting from out of state) and I woke early with Ethan on Saturday morning. He hugged me and smiled, never pulling away or rushing me. He got in the car, waved, said he'd see me later and he loved me. It was hard to watch my "new driver" heading out on his own that morning. As Ethan pulled out of the gate, I turned to my mother and said, "It's just so hard letting go." Little did I know how much "letting go" I was really doing. That was the last time I saw Ethan. He did not make it home that evening.
That afternoon, a friend tried to contact my husband, leaving an urgent message to call him back. He tried several times to return the call to no avail. As we were preparing supper, an overwhelming feeling of deep concern for Ethan filled my heart. I quietly blinked back tears. I glanced out the window, half expecting to see a police officer pull up to the house, but no one arrived. However, within a few minutes, a patrol car DID pull into the driveway. In my heart, I feared the worst. My husband and I went out to meet the officer, who confirmed our fears. Hesitantly, he told us our son had fallen off of
a bluff and had succumbed to his injuries. Our hearts were crushed; they still are.
Yet, in all of our brokenness, deep, continual grief and loneliness, our family has such a blessed Hope and assurance that we will see our dear son and brother again. You see, when Ethan was a young boy, he was saved; he put his faith in Jesus alone to forgive his sins and to take him to Heaven when he died. He realized some very important truths from the Bible that he would want to share with you.
His Story
Everyone is a sinner. Sin is any violation of God’s Law. God is holy, just and righteous, and He cannot allow sin in His presence. Ethan realized that he - like all of us - had sinned; and his sin separated Him from God.
“For all have sinned, and come short of the glory of God; ” (Romans 3:23)
“Wherefore, as by one man sin entered into the world, and death by sin; and so death passed upon all men, for that all have sinned:” (Romans 5:12)
He understood that, because of his sin, he deserved to spend eternity in Hell.
“For the wages of sin is death;” (Romans 6:23a) [Wages: price]
“But the fearful, and unbelieving, and the abominable, and murderers, and whoremongers, and sorcerers, and idolaters, and all liars, shall have their part in the lake which burneth with fire and brimstone: which is the second death.” (Revelation 21:8)
Ethan believed that Jesus, God’s Son, paid the price for all sin when He died on the cross - because His sinless sacrifice was the only thing that could satisfy the just demands of a righteous, holy God. Jesus was buried in a borrowed tomb, but He arose the third day, triumphant over sin, death, and Hell. Jesus is alive today!
“For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.” (John 3:16)
“For by grace are ye saved through faith; and that not of yourselves: it is the gift of God: Not of works, lest any man should boast.” (Ephesians 2:8-9)
Ethan was sorry for his sin, repented (turned), and received by faith the free gift that God offered to him.
“For whosoever shall call upon the name of the Lord shall be saved.” (Romans 10:13)
“...but the gift of God is eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord.” (Romans 6:23b)
Because of this great salvation, Ethan lived his life serving Jesus. He worked hard to spread this Good News to the world. He is alive in Heaven with Jesus today; and because of this great HOPE in Christ, we know we will see him again soon - not because he was a great kid, but because of his faith in the great Saviour!
“And I give unto them eternal life; and they shall never perish, neither shall any man pluck them out of my hand.” (John 10:28)
Your Story
What about you? What if you had fallen to your death that day - What if you were to die today? Where will you spend eternity - Heaven or the Lake of Fire? There will not be any parties in the Lake of Fire. It is a place of eternal torment for those who reject God's Son.
The Word of God is very clear that there is only One Way to Heaven.
“Jesus saith unto him, I am the way, the truth, and the life: no man cometh unto the Father, but by me.” (John 14:6)
We did not know that Ethan would step into eternity that day; however, because he put his faith in Jesus alone for his salvation, Ethan was ready to go. Some day - perhaps today - you will take your last breath here on earth, and you will step into eternity. Where you spend eternity is determined by what you do with Jesus Christ. Will you accept Him or reject Him? You are not promised another day or another breath. Eternity begins soon - Are you ready?
“...Believe on the Lord Jesus Christ, and thou shalt be saved…” (Acts 16:31b)
“For whosoever shall call upon the name of the Lord shall be saved.” (Romans 10:13)
“(...behold, now is the day of salvation.)” (2 Corinthians 6:2c)
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This testimony has been made into a tract form as well, so if you or your church are interested in having them to pass out, please go to libertyfaith.net and you will find the contact info there. God bless!
Tribute to Ethan Lakey
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Hi kristi. First off, I want to say I’m sorry for your loss. I lost my mom on St Patricks day of 2022. Very unexpectedly. Her and I had been arguing for a full year before she passed and selfish me, didn’t want to speak to her. I hold a lot of guilt everyday of my life. I always think that she was sad.. and I know she was sad because I could see it in her face the last time I saw her when she was alive. I went through her phone after she died.. and she had been screen shotting pictures off my TikTok because that was the only way she could see me. (I had her blocked on everything else) I loved that woman with all my heart and I regret everything I ever said to her. I wish everyday I could take those things back and just say I’m sorry to her. I hope she’s not mad at me and forgives me but it just kills me inside to ever know she was sad. I hated seeing her sad. 😭 she passed away at the age of 42 from cardiac arrest. I was only 24, I had to see her lying there in the trauma bay with a tube in her throat… just lifeless. 💔
Oh my goodness so incredibly sorry for your loss!!! I tell my friends that all the time that life can unexpectedly be gone in a instant and don’t have regrets! My mom and I were literally inseparable and we had our moments like sisters! And we would definitely get on each other’s nerves at times like a married couple would living together! So many times I would wake up in the middle and of the night in panic attacks wishing I could take all the bickering moments back! There were things o couldn’t get over with my brother and it would break her heart and I wish I can take all that back! Unfortunately we can’t and we just have to know that they are still with us and we can still make that up to them! Easier said than done and the pain we feel getting along, talking or not talking is still the same when we lost the person we ultimately love the most! So take one second at a time and that was best advice I got from my therapist! Yours days are going to be a roller coaster of emotions but know she is with you! Sending you the biggest hug and prayers! Losing someone period is hard but unexpectedly is gut wrenching because you don’t have time to say all the things we have to live with now for the rest of your lives! It’s the worse thing we could possibly go through! It’s traumatizing to say the least! Praying for you sweetie! 🙏🏻🙏🏻❤️
I lost my father to a car accident when I was younger. It was sudden and I never got to say goodbye. It was a very hard time in my life. But I always had my mom there with me, my rock. Last month my seemingly healthy mother started having numbness and tingling in her right arm and leg. Her doctors thought it was a pinched nerve but it worsened and she also developed shortness of breath. She was diagnosed with Stage 4 lung cancer with metastasis to the brain. It has been very hard to see her health decline so rapidly. I'm doing what I can to make the most of our time together but to be honest, I am grieving already. I'm on an emotional rollercoaster. It's devastating and my heart is broken in a million pieces. I can only hope and pray that one day we will be together again on the other side. I have been searching for stories to help me cope and found yours. I hope that your heart continues to mend.
I’m so incredibly sorry you are goi g through so much! I know how hard that mystery be! I know how lonely you already feel and how tough that must during this time of the year especially! My heart and my prayers go out to you and precious mom! That rollercoaster of emotions is draining so make sure you take of yourself and embrace every moment you have with her right now! She’s so lucky to have you and it’s a blessing and a curse to have such an incredible mom and support system! Keep me posted and know your not alone. I’ve built a strong community of those who have gone through all this on my channel and I’m starting a series next year on grief and how to live in a world that you feel so alone in with grief. Hope you can join us! God bless your precious mom and sending you both so much love and prayers!!! 🙏🏻❤️
@@KristiAllureBeauty Thank you so much
I just lost my mom 2 days ago. I am so thankful I found your video. Thank you for making this. My mom was also my absolute best friend...we had the exact relationship as you described. She also died suddenly..found in her room in the morning. :'( I don't know what to do at this point but the feelings you shared put everything in my heart into spoken words. 💔
Oh Angela...I’m so very sorry and I know exactly what you are feeling! It’s still numbing to me and all I can say is take each day second by second and know you are going to experience so many different emotions as the days go on! My heart still can’t accept it because when someone that close to you dies so sudden with no warning it literally takes every ounce of breathe away and that pain just gets stronger. I was just having a melt down this morning missing her so much it made me sick to my stomach. Just lean on your loved ones!!! I’m so glad you reached out and I wish I could give you a big hug!!! I feel your pain and I’m still living your pain so know that no matter how alone you feel...you’re never alone!!!! 🙏🏻🙏🏻❤️❤️
@@KristiAllureBeauty 💓💓💓💓
i wish i could give you words to make feel better but i know those words do not exist. i came across your videos looking for death healing of a parent. i can relate with you.... i do have heart problem myslef at 30! THE PAIN WILL NEVER GO AWAY. im still so hurt, we will never be able to count the days because of the unconditional love we had for them.
I lost both of my parents by 44 and my wife at 52 the pain is so terrible I now have severe depression It’s like our whole world stops and we have to go on in pain for the rest of our lives it’s awful at any age
Oh Mark I’m so incredibly sorry for all the loss you have endured! I know that pain and that depression oh too well! You’re right it’s awful at any age. I’m praying for you and I hope your heart finds some because your wife’s and your parents are looking over you and protected. I know it’s easier said than felt but don’t lose hope and faith. I hope you have friends and extended family to help you get through this. Sending you hugs and prayers!!! 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻
@@KristiAllureBeauty thanks I’m broken and I can barely function
@@Supportdog2020 sending you lots of prayers Mark!! You will get through this I promise! I know exactly how you feel and I have my days still but know you will get through the hard days.
I can very much relate. Came across your video while searching how to deal with losing a parent. I just lost my mom January 17th and she was my best friend as your mom was yours. I'm 40 in September and like you, we spoke everyday, many times a day. She was the one who fully understood me and since she died, I've been lost. It's been very difficult for me. Her and my dad were planning to move closer to my brother and I so we could all be together and she could spend the rest of her days with us and to watch her grandson grow up. It's been a horrible couple of months knowing that can't happen now 💔
Kristi, the same thing happened to me at 41. I lost my mother suddenly. Not only was she the love of my life, she was my best friend. I talked to her on the phone for three hours on Monday, August 20th and she was gone Tuesday, August 21st. I lost her to sudden cardiac arrest. I'm heartbroken. I'm praying for you Kristi. It's been since August 2018 and it hurts. I'm praying for you. I wish I could hug you.
Thank you so much Ruby my heart is just broken and the days I distract myself I can get through it and then there’s other where I’m just numb and I don’t even feel like I can breathe!!! Feels so comforting to know there’s others that have gone through the same thing can just understand this pain!!! My heart goes out to you as well and wish can hug you too!!! 😘❤️🙏🏻
I don't know how I came across your video but I have cried the entire time. I lost my mom on 12/27/2020. I could relate so much with the things you said...omg, that part about the "annoying little things"...I feel like that about my mom's little radio! Oh how I hated to hear that thing in the morning! Now, it's one of the things I miss the most. I've gone through a whole world of emotions and even when I think I've moved on a little bit, something comes back and grounds me to the reality that she's gone once again. Thanks for being brave and strong and sharing your feelings like that. I hope that you've been able to find comfort and hope in your life. I am still searching.
Oh Mercy I’m so incredibly sorry for loss and my heart goes out to you and understands all the emotions you’re going through because I’m still going through exactly what you said! I still feel numb and angry sometimes because I don’t think I will ever understand why god took her from me so unexpectedly! I feel lost and alone and I miss my parents so much that I don’t think my heart will ever recover! So much of life that I will never get to share with them like getting engaged or married for the first time. I just feel so numb is all I can say and like you said I go through the motions of life and just when I start to feel a little more normal as soon as the reality hits I fall back into that sadness and emptiness. I just try to take one day at a time and forgive myself on the days I struggle which is a lot especially right now because the anniversary of her passing is coming up soon. Just know you’re not alone and I have to remember that as well. I’m so glad I did this video because I have this huge community of those of us that only understand each other because we’ve experienced that kind of loss! So glad you found me and sending you big hugs and lots of prayers!!!! ❤️🙏🏻❤️
I am so very sorry about the loss of your Mom. I just lost my Mom suddenly, on August 29, 2023.
I had already had lost my Dad and Siblings. It’s Sept. 16th.
I stumbled on your video and I’m sitting here crying my eyes out!!
I can totally relate. God bless you! ❤
Oh Lucy I’m so incredibly sorry for your loss!! Thank you for sharing your pain because it makes us all feel a little less lonely!! I know how deep that pain is and the best advice given to me was just take it second by second because day by day sounded so much harder! I’m just like you alone in this world and dealing with pain by yourself. My heart goes out to you and just know you’re not alone even though it feels like it. When we lose anyone close to us so suddenly and out of nowhere it leaves us with this gut wrenching feeling that’s hard to explain. I still can’t even come to terms with it and I will never understand why! Just take each second as it comes and I’m sending you all my love and prayers!! Reach out whenever you need! I met so many incredible women from this video that have gone through exactly what we’ve endured. God bless you and sending you the biggest hug!!! 🙏🏻💕
@@KristiAllureBeauty Thank you so much for taking time to respond. That really means a lot.
You are in my prayers today.
@@lucyloo7457 You're in my prayers too and hope you are doing okay. Remember one second at a time and know you're not alone. A lot of amazing women came from this video and now join me every Sunday for my beauty stuff and it helps heal their hearts because we all have each other now that really understands those ups and downs. My Glamfam is full over motherless daughters now and it's been so comforting. Eventually I'm going to start a Facebook page for us to have a place to go when we need to share our bad days. So stay tuned and would love for you to join our family. ❤😘
I lost my mom to cancer two weeks ago it's the most painful thing to go through😢 my condolences❤️🌹may your mothers hope forever be remembered ❤️
My deepest condolences to you as well!!! 😢 I’m so sorry about your mom and I hope you feel comfort I’m not feeling alone in this awful grief! Just take one second at a time. I’m still doing through those motions. It’s heart wrenching! Many prayers and hugs sent your way!!! ❤️❤️🙏🏻🙏🏻
I hope you are feeling better as I can see this was 2 years ago. I lost my mum 4 days ago, January 25th 2022.
I am doing what everyone else seems.to be doing, looking for hope,.some way to get through the worst of it.
I am feeling everything you are feeling , I never knew I could feel such intense pain, it's almost physical.
What if I said i love you more, hugged her more, visited more. I know regrets will happen because I am beating myself up.
The tears when they fall are like waterfalls and I just did not know anyone could cry as much. Her favourite song was Memories by Barbara Streisand and no doubt I will be listening to this in repeat for some time.
Replaying her death, her smile, her laugh, her sad face over and over in my head.
You seemed to have a lovely relationship with your mum and that's beautiful.
Did you find some peace ?
Can you smile ?
Do you cry as much ?
I hope you get through all these things and I hope to be able to do these things again one day, even though I don't know how a Christmas will ever be the same again, or a Summer stroll.
Peace and Love form the UK 💙
I’m truly sorry for your loss. I lost my mum suddenly on 21 June last year. One second she was ok, the next she was gone. She is my best friend, soulmate, love of my life... My everything. I understand deeply the pain you are in. I am still in shock and it is pure agony. I believe with all my heart that we will see our mums again. We will be reunited in heaven. That’s what keeps me going. I wish you peace.
Hi Kristi, this is the first video I saw of yours, and you are so strong for sharing your story! So very strong! And thank you! My mother also suddenly passed away from a stroke and heart attack on Dec 28, 2019, which I saw her suffer from in the passenger seat as I was sitting in the backseat of our family car. She was my best friend too!!! I loved her so much!!! I experienced my first birthday (25 years old) without her and that felt like daggers to my heart. I also just gradauted from my grad school program and my mom absence on the Zoom call was a harsh reminder of what family milestones will look like. Her death was a tragedy which brought me depression and panic attacks, which was amplified during "COVID 19 stay at home". I miss her dearly and I think that's how I came across your video. A mothers love is everlasting, I just keep telling myself that.
Oh Maria I’m so incredibly sorry and my heart goes out to you! I can’t imagine how difficult that was for you to see that! Big hugs to you sweetie and I know covid is not helping with everyone being so anxious anyway! It’s so incredibly hard and I hope you’re reaching out to someone to help you through this because we can’t do it alone! I know I need practice what I preach but I know how difficult it is to get through panic attacks and depression even before my mom passed! Just know you’re not alone and I will pray for you!!! ❤️🙏🏻
I am so sorry for your loss, I lost my mom to, unexpectedly, everything you’ve said is what I felt, and my mom was my best friend to. I was exactly like you are now, I loved my mom just like you loved your mom. It’s soooooooooooooooooooo difficult. I cry almost everyday still to this day. It’s been 4 years I can relate my dear. My mom was my rock to, and I to have depression to, my mom was there for me. And now I feel so lonely and lost without her. Oh I so get what your saying through this through this whole video. Big big big hugs.
I’m so sorry Sandy. I’m coming up on a year next month and it still just doesn’t feel real. I feel like I can get through a day if I just don’t think about the reality that she’s gone but the minute I think about it I just want to crawl in a hole and lose it. It feels so comforting to know I’m not alone when others reach out like you. Depression and anxiety are so tough to deal with alone but when our rocks are gone it’s even more difficult. Big hugs to you! Feel free to reach out whenever you want. It’s more important we have this kind of community!!! ❤️
So sorry for your loss, through the positive picture you painted of your mother we all know how much you love her. Love your tips, btw. Especially, for the "older" of your fan base :) Peace&prayers
I lost my mom almost two weeks ago. She was 63 and I’m 32. She also was my best friend and we lived together until the very end. It was unexpected as well. I feel so lost.
I’m so sorry Brittany and I know how you feel! I feel lost every day I get up! Our angel moms gave us the strength we need but it’s tough and some days I can get through and others I just want to fall apart and be with my mom! I know I’m 10 yrs older but it’s still young and we still had so much more time with our moms! My mom passed at 69 and it’s just not fair so I get it! I never thought in a million years my parents wouldn’t see the day I found someone got engaged and married! It blows my mind that I’m literally all alone now and many people don’t understand that pain! Especially ones we loved so hard and lived with! Our situations are identical and like my therapist said it’s like losing a parent and spouse at the same time! We are all here for each other and I hope that gives you some comfort!!! Thinking of you and sending you hugs and prayers! ❤️🙏🏻❤️
@@KristiAllureBeauty wow! I needed to hear all that you said! Thank you so much! And you are so right! There’s a lot of stuff I never imagined my parents not being here to see! I know God will work it all out in the end though! God bless you for telling your story! You truly aren’t alone even when you feel like you are, you certainly are not!
@@1dyrfullymade Thank you love and I will be sending you lots of prayers! ❤️
I lost my mum suddenly to, 6 weeks ago and it's horrendous the pain. She was a healthy lady.
I wish you well x
@@davidmcclendon5057 go find a new hobby psychopath
I know exactly how you feel when I lost my mom I almost took my life 3 or 4 times it was suddenly and was definitely hard! Sometimes u feel like you all alone and you need someone but I knew that GOD was always there for me!she dead August 28 ,2021 and my life hasn’t been the same ever since
Hi Tamika. I’m so sorry for your loss of your bra mom! I don’t think our lives will ever be the same but we just learn to live with heartbreak and pain the best we can. Just taking one day at a time. Praying for you and sending you lots love! ❤️🙏🏻❤️
I am so so sorry! I just found your channel not too long ago.. I went back and watch your videos with your Mom.. I was looking for recommendations for makeup for my Mom as you both are similar ages as my Mom and I.. 😢 I loved your dynamics and you both reminded me of my Mom and I.. I can’t even imagine the depth of your pain.. Especially losing both parents that you are close to as I am with mine.. Please know they want you to find strength in this.. You have a purpose! I wish I could give you a hug! Please keep us posted! We are here for you! Prayers to you for strength, love, peace and understanding during this extremely difficult time.. ❤️🙏🏼
Dear Kristi, your love story is touching my heart so much.
I just lost my only daughter 28, October 29th,2020. She didn't wear her seat belt. So everything you shared here is how I'm feeling. I know I'll see her again one day but I'm still grieving and it hurts so much. I loved my daughter very much. I know she loved me too, but she also struggled with addiction so I felt I was losing her to drugs.
She gave my Husband and I her baby when the child was 1 month. So we've had gaurdianship for 3 years. She's a beautiful little girl Mia. We plan to adopt her. Because we both lost someone very special and I'm a Mom and you're a daughter your video touched me so. I hope you're doing better now. God bless you ♡
Julie I just cried so hard reading this message! I’m so incredibly sorry about your daughter! I feel your pain on the opposite end! Your story touches me as well and my deepest prayers and condolences to you, your husband and little Mia. I’m so glad she has her grandparents and my heart goes out to you all!!! I know that pain so incredibly raw and tough right now. I can’t imagine losing a child and feeling so hopeless through her addiction. That has to so incredibly difficult! Time is all we have to heal our pain. It’s been over a year now and I’m just sitting here in denial still. I don’t think my heart as you know will ever feel full again but I’m just learning to manage the pain and brokenness I feel. Sending you big hugs and lots lot love! God bless you all and stay strong for that little Angel 👼 Mia good gave you! ❤️🙏🏻
I'm so so sorry for the loss of your mum. Thanks so much for sharing this with all of us, sending love & hugs during this time.
Thank you so very much Jen. Sorry for the delayed response. I don't always go back to this video and for some reason I don't always get notifications. ❤️❤️
she is a beautiful soul, I remember seeing your videos, she made me laugh. She will continue to live on in your heart. Have Fatih you will see her again. God give you comfort and strength to go on. I am so sad to hear this. So sorry ..xo. Hugs and prayer to you and the family
So very truly sorry...may you find peace in your heart and mind knowing you will see her again...God bless you 🙏🏼💙🙏🏼
I’m so sorry for your loss, she is in your heart it technically happens to everyone in the 🌎 😭
Thank you so much 🙏🏻
She’s coming to visit you through those dreams love. That’s a blessing
I'm truly sorry for your loss, take care of your self 💗 and thank you so much for sharing this news with us. God is always with you 🙏
Thank you for all the love and yeah it’s been incredibly difficult especially Mother’s Day! I miss her so much every day!!! 💔
What a beautiful video. I’m going through the same exact thing as you...everything you said matches what I’m going through to a T. Im so sorry for your loss...I totally understand it.💔
So sorry for your loss too! My prayers go out to you and it’s comforting knowing there’s others that have similar experiences and getting through it is so difficult when you feel so alone! ❤️
I am so sorry for your loss. Sending prayers and hugs to you.
Sending you so much love and compassion🌸 so very sorry for your sweet mother's loss.
Thank you so much Liv ❤️
This is the first video I’ve watched where I feel like someone actually gets it. I didn’t have a father around, my mother was my best friend and lived with me too. Lived with her grandchildren (I have 2 girls) and I lost her in March I’m 33 years old and I feel an adult orphan. I have anxiety feeling alone in the world even tho I have children and a husband no one can replace your mother especially when she is your best friend. It’s irreplaceable. I am so sorry for your loss and I wish there was a platform/group where people who have lost their mothers could go because sometimes you need that (I need it almost all the time). Thank you for the video
Oh Candace I’m so incredibly sorry for your loss! I know there’s no words that can help that pain and I know exactly how you feel! It’s been over two years for me and that pain is still so strong and everyday I wake up I still feel that anxiety and that feeling of being so alone in this world! I know your hubby and kids are there but you’re right nobody can replace that bond with our moms! That unconditional love and that safety blanket we had! I haven’t celebrated a holiday since my mom passed because when she left this world. You have me now and I have built this beautiful sisterhood here on my channel. Thankfully they loved makeup as much as I do so we keep each other going each week and when we are having bad days we just share it in the comments! Several of my glam sisters came from this video because they share exact same stories as us! So please always feel free to comment on any of my videos and we can lean on each other! Few have had our exact same stories living with our moms till they passed and it feels a little less lonely! I’m thinking of doing a Facebook group on this and when I get the time I will start that! I personally have not dealt with my grief. I moved away because I couldn’t bare the pain of my hometown and wrapped myself up in work so that I could survive but I have yet to get help. My RUclips community has got me through this and I don’t think I could have survived the pain had I not done that. I know your girls need their beautiful mom so keep going for them as I know your mom would want that but I didn’t have anyone relying on me and just wanted to go be with my mom and that was tough to get through. But know you now have me too so please feel free to reach out whenever you want and I will keep you updated on the grief group I plan to start! Keeping you in my prayers and sending you big hugs!!! ❤️🙏🏻❤️🙏🏻
Thank you Kristi, it's so hard.
It seems you have alot of wonderful people surrounding you. God will get us both through these days. ♡
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I’m so sorry for your loss. I too lost my mom to sudden cardiac arrest. It’s been 25 years now and it feels like yesterday. Try to stay strong because she’d want that. Always remember...as long as she’s in your heart and on your mind, she’ll never really be gone.💗
I've lost my mum, my best friend, my rock my everything on the 8th of September 2020💔it's still so surreal... I would give anything 2 hug her just one more time... It was sudden... couldn't even say goodbye.. I miss her so much 💔💔I'm 38 years of age n I feel like I'm 10 again 💔
Izabella my heart goes out to you right now! I know exactly what you’re feeling! It’s been over a year for me and that pain is still insufferable! For me it doesn’t even feel real still. It really does feel like you’re an orphan and a child wanting and needing their parent! It’s so much worse than you can ever imagine right! Just take one second at a time because that’s all you can do. Sending you a big hug and lots of prayers!!! You’re not alone in this grief even though it feels like it!!! My deepest condolences to you and your family! 🙏🏻😢
@@KristiAllureBeauty When I found my mom dead in her bed, I fell to my knees in hysterics. I don’t remember a lot from then on, but my two girls said I sobbed, “mommy!” I felt like a child again. Our moms are always our moms. It doesn’t matter our age when they pass, it hits deeper than any other loss. They are our whole world. Life complexity changes the moment they leave us...from that point forward, it’s completely new. They’ve always been there...and then they are just gone. Soo surreal and difficult to move forward with. I know I can’t seem to compute that she’s actually gone...forever...my brain and heart just don’t know what that means. She’s always been there! 🥺😭😞
Apologies for only replying to you now. Just wanted to say big thank you for your video (and comment also) It really helped me a lot❤️I hope ur keeping well too. I don't think I'll ever be ok but I'm doing my best. Sending lots of love❤️
Thanks so much for sharing your lost. I too just lost my mom, my best friend. Your story of your mom is my story. Just hearing your words helped me understand the pain I feel. I pray that your pain is getting better and I hope the same for myself. God bless you
Thank you Andrea and I hope the same for you. My deepest condolences to you and your family. Nice to have the comfort of others who understand all the pain we are feeling inside! God bless us through this time especially during the holidays!!! 💞
This is the first video of yours that I have seen, and I wanted to thank you for expressing the way I have felt for the last 4 months. I miss my mom so much, and I understand what you're going through. God bless you on your journey.
Oh Gigi thank you so much sharing your grief with me and many others on our same journey. I'm so sorry for the loss of your mom as well! God bless you and sending you big hugs.
Ty for sharing this painful journey. It helped me feel less alone and isolated.
I’m so sorry for your loss and I’m so glad this helped you find some comfort in feeling less alone! Our grief journey is forever but we just learn to cope through the pain! I never thought I could ever survive this loss but I’m still here and we sometimes don’t even realize our strength! Take of yourself and praying for your strength! 🤗🙏🏻
I’m so very sorry for your loss. I just found your channel & the first video of yours I watched was the one where your mom did your hair in a headband braid. May you find peace and understanding in this difficult time. ❤️
Thank you so much Kristy and btw great name! 😉 It’s been very difficult but I’m finally slowly getting back into filming and released some videos which helps me get through the days! Xoxo
I am so sorry! I feel your pain. I am truly sorry! 😢
Thank you so much and sending you lots of love as well! ❤️😘🤗
❤️ I send you love. Please take care of yourself. I believe she’s not gone. She is with you. One day we will know why things happened the way they did. Keep moving dear. Your mom is with you. ❤️
I am so sorry for your loss. My prayers your way. Thank you for sharing this video❤️
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Kristie- we are incredibly sorry for your loss and we can only imagine your pain. You are in our prayers- 💜 Amber & Serene
I'm hugging you virtually. I'm so sorry for your loss. May God grant her the highest of heavens and grant you the strength to cope at such a difficult time in your life. Praying this is the last of your grief. God bless you, sweetheart ❤
Thank you so much!!!! ❤️
I am so sorry for the loss of your sweet mommy. I watched your video just after losing my mom. I can relate so much to everything you’ve said, everything you have felt. Such sadness. I am so sorry.
This is the second time I have watched your video.
My mom also went to sleep and never woke up. When god takes people in their sleep, they leave us very peacefully. Let’s hold on to that one very small blessing. They were not in pain. They were at ease. They were not scared. They were at peace. 💕of all of the ways a person could pass, our mommies were at peace.
And now they will walk beside us every step of the way until we reunite with them.
Has your momma visited you in your dreams? I’ve never in my life looked forward to going to sleep/bed. Now I do. My mom has visited multiple times and each time? It has been the lifeline she knew I needed.
I have heard so many things from people to try and make me feel better, bless their hearts. To help w my sadness. But the one thing that has resonated w me?
The one thing that has stuck and continues to ease my pain?
‘Always remember this, your mom was not taken from you… she was given to you’. ♥️
I hope you are healing well. I have thought about you and I really hope you managing in a healthy way.
Our mommies are not gone, they have left ahead. We will reunite w them one day. They will be there to take our hands, just as we would want and expect them to.
Not everyone has been blessed w such loving moms. We were.
Weren’t we? So so lucky.
Oh Cecile thank you so much for that!!! So beautifully said! And you’re so right that nothing can really help with the pain but knowing they were at peace when they left us. She has visited my dreams but not as often as I hoped and when she has I hadn’t been able to touch her and that’s all I want right now! This message came at such a good time because lately I’ve silently been struggling! Grief just really comes in waves and sometimes it’s just so overwhelming! I’ve managed to really zero on making my RUclips channel successful and making her proud on something we started together and that’s helped. But the moment I take a break I can’t breathe because I miss her and need her so much!!! If I just avoid the grief it’s easier. I just never felt so alone in my life without my parents. The nights are the worse for me! That was our time together! When we would eat our dinner and fall asleep head to head every night but that one night she passed I was away from her. I still just can’t wrap me head around it!! Avoiding the grief these last few years is the only way I could survive but when it hits me it’s like a tornado! I’m sure you know that feeling! Thank you for checking in on me and it’s so comforting to have all of you that are going through the same! And you’re absolutely right I know they are always with us!!! Sending you lots of love, prayers and peace!!! ❤️🙏🏻✨
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♥️thank you for replying that meant so much. Truly. I too have to tuck it away also and take breathers from the tears, and the constant lump in my throat. I cannot wait for the day when it will not feel like this. I hold onto the fact that when I look at my grandparents picture? It makes me smile now. Once upon a time, it did not. Instant tears. It made me feel like this was a nightmare. I felt like having a breakdown just by glancing at her picture.
I keep a picture now of my beautiful mom on my nightstand. It took me almost 10 months to be able to do that. I couldn’t even look at her picture. Such an array of emotions. Not to mention the guilt I felt, at not being able to look at her picture? How can that be?
Because she was my everything. She brought me into this world, and loved me more than anyone. Everyday, I have always felt her love for me. We were ‘Us’. God I miss that. So so much.
I am so sorry also Kristi, for you losing your dad already. I can’t imagine. I’ve been scared my entire life of losing my parents. I could talk to my mom about that ( not quite as open w my dad about those things) I am petrified now more than ever on losing my dad now. He is almost 80. He is almost ten years older than my mom. I remember even telling my mom that she is the only person that will be able to help me through that. When I talk to my mom? And tell her how scared I am of being here without her? I can hear exactly what she would say to me. So, I just keep repeating the words over and over. I try so hard to be strong for her. I promised her I would try hard. We never broke promises to one another. So I have to hang onto that super tight and try hard to fulfill that.
Some days, I feel like I am failing her.
I think to myself it’s only been 1.5 years. How am I going to do this when it already feels like forever without her? A phrase I’ve said a million times over!
I pray my mom will continue to visit me from heaven. My dream visitations for her have been such a blessing for me. I am sure your mom would also love to give you one of those spiritual special hugs. I believe she will. Do not give up on that. Remind your momma how badly you are waiting for that moment and that it will not makes things harder for you, rather the opposite. I have done so much research on spiritual connection. I promise it will happen, you’ll see. 💕
I received only one hug from her so far. She sat at the end of my bed w me. We were sitting face to face. I hugged her so tightly and I told her I wanted her to comeback. I was crying, but enjoying every ounce, every second of that hug. She only said one thing to me ‘You are going to be ok Ceal’. ( even by the nickname she always used) We hugged one another so tightly. I will never forget that moment for the rest of my life and I have thanked her daily for it since. How much it helped ease the pain I feel in my soul. I didn’t want to let go of that hug, she was hugging me just a hard. Then I woke up. It was exactly during the time they say is the easiest for our loved ones to visit.she filled my soul with her love once again. I will treasure that moment forever.
My nights for the longest time were filled with such anxiety and also panic attacks. There was a time I didn’t want to sleep. So, that I would not wake up and feel that pain and realization that she is no longer here. Do you know what I mean? I have described to people that losing my mom was a very ‘traumatic’ experience for me. Completely traumatizing. Does that sound crazy? My pain is so deep that I can barely describe it at times.
My mom was my soulmate. I told her that all of the time. (god I am glad I did) But the love that we share w our mommies? That kind of love never ever dies. That type of bond is eternal. Wouldn’t they remind us of that?
Our souls are forever connected. We are a part of them. They are a part of us. Our spirits are and will forever be connected. 👩❤️💋👩They will always always be with us. It sounds like your mom too, was also your soulmate. Soulmates and spirits can never be fully separated. Only physically. Never spiritually.
Remember when our mom’s felt so sad when they would see us cry or when they would catch our tears?
Sometimes I have to remind myself of that. My mom will continually feel my sadness and I have to somehow control all of my tears. I’ve cried so much I cannot believe I am still able to produce tears!
I really want my mom to be enjoying her new journey and this next realm that we have waiting for us. I still want her to be happy, I want her to be looking down and feeling confident with the daughter she raised. ‘C’mon baby girl, make me proud. No more tears ok? Try hard for me please’
‘I’m trying mom. I’ll keep trying for you mom I promise.’
I watched a couple of the videos you made together with your sweet mom. (I had to meet her) You are right, she is definitely beautiful. She looked proud of you Kristi… so proud to be your mommy. Don’t forget, she will forever be your mom. You will forever be her daughter. That never changes.
I believe it is still hard on them when they see us sad. We have to try with all of our might to continue w our journeys here the best we can, and fight through the sadness. To continue making them proud of us. I know when we reunite one day, they will tell us again how proud we’ve made them. For continuing on and for holding it together. For still making them proud this whole time.
I wish I could also explain to you the guilt I too have felt for not being with my mom when she passed. She was so close to being here. I was getting her room all ready for her and wanted to surprise her w that. God just had a different plan. I think maybe had my mom known? She would have chosen what god felt was best.
But with that being said? I know exactly the feeling you have described. In fact, and unfortunately all to well. I wished it wasn’t so.
So unfair isn’t it? That decision was made between god and our moms. Not with us and we had no say. I do not think we will ever understand why life has to feel so mean and cruel sometimes. How is that supposed to make us stronger one day? I hope one day I will realize that. But for right now? I know my mom does not want me to focus on those parts. But rather, the spiritual relationship that we can still have. What still remains.
I have to believe that Kristi, or I will never be ok.
Have you ever listened/watched people’s testimonials on NDE’s ?
Those videos have given me such comfort.
I have become fascinated on what lies on the other side. Where my mom is, what she is doing? I know she is being so loved on the other side.
Please, don’t think I am looney for mentioning that part. I know we all have different beliefs and I respect that. Whatever they may be. I know what I believe and that belief is what will help me heal. The videos I have watched have been a form of therapy for me.
The reading I have continued with, and the videos. Specially, when I am having one of those bad days. I am still struggling immensely. But they have somehow helped ease some of my pain and heart ache.
I wish there was a way I could recommend a few to you. There are a few videos that I have passed onto to others to help during their grief journey. I have received positive feedback following. Perhaps, I can send them to you someway? Only if you want. I don’t want to push anything on you I promise. I just want to help because your story has truly stuck w me so much. It has really tugged on my heart strings. Honestly, when I watched your video? I felt like I was watching myself. 😓 I just had to reach out.
I don’t think there is anything in this world that could have possibly prepared us for losing our moms.
Let’s continue to hang onto them spiritually. ♥️
Praying for peace and comfort 💗
Thank you so much!!! 🙏🏻❤️😘
My Momma was sick for years and I thought I prepared myself but you can’t!!!!!
Hi I am so glad to have come across this RUclips clip about your Mum. I lost my Mum since March 24, 2021. Thank you for having the courage to do this video I was able to relate to everything you have expressed. I have also lost both parents now and Mum being the strongest, I too didn't think I'd be here now without her. My Mum was my confidant and best friend in this world. Mum was always there for me till now and there is a huge empty hole in my heart and I cry everyday and night as Miss my Mum so much. I will end here but thank you so much for sharing.
Oh Rose, I'm so incredibly sorry for your loss and my heart and condolences go out to you and your family! It's such a void in our lives especially when we lose both our parents. I don't think anyone could ever comprehend that until they do lose that. I always thought my mom and dad would be here for all of my precious moments and it breaks my heart into pieces and I don't think I could ever recuperate from that! I know your pain and just take one day at a time. I've had to stay of Instagram and Facebook because days like this are just too hard to cope let alone see others joy. Sending you lots of hugs and prayers! May god give your soul some comfort. 🙏🏻
Same here, everything.....my mom went to heaven January 11th 2021, she got brain cancer outta nowhere...lost her in a month...my mother was my best friend and everything as well. I am VERY lost and sad. Please pray for me.
Hi Jennifer. I’m so incredibly sorry for your loss and I know how painful it is! It’s a pain that never goes away but trust me when I say I did not think I could live a day without my mom and my dad but it’s been two years for my mom and four for my dad and I’m getting through the days because I know they’re giving me that strength! Your mom is in heaven and she will carry you through the days! Every day will be a roller coaster of emotions and you will have to go through those emotions one second at a time so hang in there sweetie! This is a wonderful and supportive community and you’re not alone even on the worse days you will get through it! Sending you big hugs and lots of prayers!!! Reach out whenever you need! ❤️🙏🏻❤️
It’s been 2 years today since momma passed away in my arms from cancer watching her take her last breath is so hard. It never stops hurting you learn to love somehow even with the void and the pain. But thank God you had her while you did babe. God bless you she’s an angel now ❤
Thank you so much for that beautiful message and you are absolutely right and they are always with us!! I’m so sorry for your loss! Hope you’re doing well and thank you so much for sharing that!! Grief is brutal and sure does come in waves!!! Sending you lots of love and hugs!! ❤️🤗🙏🏻
I’m so sorry hun. My heart really aches for you. I’m sitting at work at 3:25am watching your video as tears pour down my face. My mom was also a cosmetologist and I lived with her as well. She passed last month abruptly. This is the worst pain ever. My mom was my bestfriend as well. I’m so sorry, I will keep you uplifted in prayer. I’m so sorry 😔
Oh Dede I just starting crying reading this!!! I’m so deeply sorry for your loss!!!! There’s nothing I can say but I know exactly what you’re feeling and nobody can make you feel better at this point! I can’t believe how identical our stories are! Just take it one second at a time. When people would tell me just breathe and take one day at a time...I felt like I was under water drowning in grief and I could barely get through one minute! It’s the most unbearable grief and I feel like a big part of me died with her. I know that’s exactly what you’re feeling. To be honest a year later I still feel that way and the pain is still there but I’m numb and when I’m numb and I’m denial it’s easier to get through the day! At some point I know it will hit me but for right now it’s the only way I know how to get up each day and cope! Plus I have her in my head saying get up and don’t give up! She would do that every morning when I was going through a mental breakdown five years back. For you and I, we didn’t just lose our parent, we lost our best friends, our other halves and like my therapist said it’s like we lost our spouse! Living with that person made it so much more difficult because you miss that everyday routine! My heart just goes out to you and I’m sending virtual hugs your way! Thank you so much for sharing your grief and know that you’re not alone!!! Our moms and our angels are with us in our hearts every second of the day! I know that’s not healing now but it will give you some comfort down the road! Lots of prayers and hugs to you Dede! Just comment whenever you need to and know I will be here! ❤️😢
Your soul if beautiful. I needed support. My mom is sick now. And I was searching youtube to see people around, who go through similar pain. And I found you. You touched my heart! God Bless you!!!! I am so grateful for this video, thanks for being such a beautiful daughter! Your mom is proud to have raised such an angel! ❤️
Oh Anna, I’m so sorry for the delay! Sometimes my email doesn’t show me when I get a comment and then I end up not responding to so many of you! I just saw this message in a new tab I found so here I am and I’m so incredibly sorry about your mom! I know it’s a 11 months later so how is your mom and how are you??? My mom was sudden and unexpected but my dad was sick and that was hard to go through so I know both ends! I’m here if you need anything! Always feel free to DM me on Instagram as well! Sending you lots of prayers and hugs!!! ❤️🙏🏻❤️
@@KristiAllureBeauty unfortunately my mom passed away. I am trying to hang in there. How are you feeling? How are you ?
I just lost my mom unexpectedly 2 days ago from a brain hemorrhage. I didn’t get to say goodbye. I’ve never felt so heartbroken and I don’t know how I’m going to get through this. I just want my mom.
I’m so sorry love. My deepest condolences to you and your family! You will get through this...I promise you! Because our moms are our angels and they won’t let us “not@ get through this!!! I felt the same way as you and my whole world was taken from me and I know exactly what you’re going through! To lose someone so unexpectedly is mind blowing and I will never understand or comprehend why! I still to this day struggle with that! There’s no closure and no goodbyes just a lot or why’s and what if’s!!! It’s so incredibly sad and the worse possible thing we can ever go through! I felt numb and like I couldn’t bare to go through this world without my best friend and other half! I wanted to go with her and she always said the same thing if she lost me. She gave me a strength I didn’t even know I had! I’m not going to tell you there’s days where I still want to crawl in a hole and never come out but there are days where the sun does shine and I could feel her heart in mine. I could also hear her yelling at me to get out of bed and I live! But let me tell you there were many days I couldn’t barely do that! Lean on your loved ones! I had already lost my dad so I didn’t have that parent to comfort me like I did when my dad died. I had to really lean on my loved ones and thankfully I was blessed with so many that wouldn’t let me fall. I’m crying as I’m writing this because my heart still hurts and it hurts for you and all the others who know the pain we are in. My moms passing is almost a year now and I’m still breathing and I never imagined I could do that if I lost my mom! I hope that gives you hope and my heart and my prayers are with you!!! Please always feel free to message me when you’re feeling so badly! You will go through the worst days and there will be days where you can breathe but just take it second by second! That’s the best advice I can give you! I know I’m still doing that and as her year approaches it literally makes me feel ill and if I think about it, all I want to do is fall apart because then it’s reality which I still don’t think I’m even accepting! I know joining a grieving group would help me and I still need to do that! Maybe we can all find a virtual one! Big hugs to you!!! 💔🙏🏻❤️
I’m so sorry for your loss. May her memory be eternal. 🙏🏻❤️✝️
Thank you for that Demetria that means so much to me!!! ❤️🙏🏻❤️
We love you! ♥️♥️
Hey Kris,
I am so sorry for your loss. You and your mom were inseparable and had an amazing bond. I think the last time I saw you guys was shopping in our neighborhood a few years ago. Sending warm and healing thoughts to you and your family.
I know exactly what you’re going through I lost my Father in 2022 to Alzheimer’s Disease and 2 years later I lost my Mother from a traumatic brain injury and I’m 27 right now. It is so heartbreaking and devastating I just don’t know if I can move forward without them your story is very heartfelt and powerful so sorry for the loss of both your parents I know what it’s like to go through this it’s extremely painful and traumatizing GOD Bless You🙏🏻🙏🏻
Oh Gregory I’m so incredibly sorry for your losses and I know oh so well how you’re feeling but I promise you we have more strength than we even realize! I didn’t think I could survive after losing my mom but I’m still here almost 4yrs later now so I know you will get through this! Just take one second at a time and that helped me. You will face a roller coaster of emotions but each day you will get stronger. Don’t listen to anyone and go through the emotions but know even though we feel so alone and trust me I still do I know my parents are keeping me here for a reason and I can’t let them down. So please know you will get through this and I will be praying for you!! 🙏🏻❤️
I’m so sorry. I lost both of my parents a few months ago. It’s been torture. I actually started a RUclips channel recently as a way to put some creative energy into something. It has surprisingly helped me. I’m glad you have videos of your mom for memories.
So sorry for your loss and I know exactly how you are feeling!!! You feel like an adult orphan. I miss my parents everyday! My heart goes out to you and Thank you for reaching out and I hope you find peace and comfort as you start your new venture!!! Happy you’re being able to start your new channel and I will have to go check it out!!! Making videos and editing helps my mind so much!!! Big hugs to you and prayers!!! ❤️
Kristi Allure thank you so much....there is now a huge hole in our hearts, a huge gap in our lives that will never be filled.😓
I am so so sorry for your loss. I just stumbled upon your channel with your beautiful mother’s headband braid video. I love hearing your banter back and forth and your mom’s loving hands in your hair was just such a beautiful show of the relationship you’ve shared with her. When I saw this video it broke my heart for you. I am not and will never be ready to lose my mom but I know that day will come sooner than I can even bear to imagine. I did recently lose the love of my life. My boyfriend of 6 years was killed in a motorcycle accident on June 20, 2019 and I am forever changed. I know what you mean about missing even the dumbest most annoying things. He would call me from the bar at 2am to pick him up. I would be so annoyed but at the same time I was happy that he was calling me and I could make sure he’d get home. I never would have thought that I’d miss those phone calls. He would always tease me and do things just to get on my nerves. I would give anything for him to be here to laugh at my expense. The pain is still raw for me and I have some really low moments. My hope is that you are able to use all the wonderful memories of your mom and your dad to pick you up when you’re feeling at your lowest. They are still here watching over you. Live in their love and carry their memories and continue their legacies. Much love to you sweet girl. P.S. We’re the same age although I never would have guessed you’re 41. You look absolutely amazing! 💞
Oh Danielle my heart just broke for you!!! I’m so deeply sorry for your loss and sincere condolences!!! It’s so comforting to share this grief with so many of you out there experiencing such heartfelt stories and I know the pain is still raw but knowing I’m not alone just gives me so much comfort!! I really appreciate you reaching out and sharing your story. You both were so lucky to share that love with each other and like you said we just have to hold on to those precious memories but as you know sometimes it’s just so hard when we just want them here! And yes all those annoyances we endure at the time what we wouldn’t give to have them back!!! 😢 Big hugs to you!!! ❤️
Kristi Allure thank you! Hugs to you too!
I feel your pain and I am sending you so much love. I lost my mom on the 29th December 2020 and I understand how you feel. My mum was also my best friend, my sister, my confidant and my biggest fan! I related so much to your video, she was my everything and I feel so empty and alone. We spoke everyday...every single morning and I miss her so much. My mum also passed of cardiac arrest. I was on my way to rush her to hospital but before I could get to her she passed away. Thank you for posting this video, I have just cried with you and felt your raw pain, that gut wrenching feeling 😢
Oh Karessa my heart hurts so bad for you! I’m so incredibly sorry for your loss and I know nothing I say is going to make you feel better! I’m so glad you found my video and hopefully it gave you at least an ounce of comfort that you’re not alone at a time where all you feel is alone! I cried just reading your comment because I know that guy wrenching feeling and even almost two years later my pain still feels so incredibly raw. Mainly because I’ve managed to stay in denial so that I can get through this life without my other half. We were so blessed to have our moms and that kind of bond but it’s also a curse because how do you get through life without them. I keep reading that one quote over and over again because it’s so true...”’My mom taught me everything except how to live without her.” It’s a void nobody in this world can fill and my heart feels forever empty there as sad as that sounds. I think maybe if I had kids maybe I would feel different but it’s just so hard to live my life to the fullest when half of my heart is gone. I know how raw your pain is and your emotions will go through the biggest roller coaster of your life but just know it’s okay and when you need to grieve just let yourself go through it and take one second at a time! Sending you lots of love, hugs and prayers!!! ❤️🙏🏻😥
I'm so sorry for the loss of your mother...
I just lost my mom out of the blue too even though she was spotty i still love here she didnt even get to see me since my graduation in 2017 its been so long since i saw her now i will never see her again
😢😢😢😢 U REALLY UNDERSTAND MY PAIN. THATS HOW ME AND MY MOM WAS SAME WAY AS YOUR MOM. PRAYING FOR U AS WELL.
I’m so sorry Nathan my hear goes out to you and sending you lots of prayers!!! 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻
I lost mom about a year ago. I saw your video last year when she passed and I just re-watched it now, and I found it as therapeutic today as I did back then. Thank you.
Oh my goodness thank you for sharing that. I know no matter how much time passes the pain keeps hitting us in waves!! I’m going through a rough patch right now too so I completely understand! Just glad to have this support in our community! So thank you!!! 🙏🏻 Praying for your healing!
I just lost my mom in April, it feels like just yesterday. I lived with her my whole life and I was helping to take care of her while I work from home. She had Lupus and CKD and was a cancer survivor, on dialysis and was hurting real bad. When she passed a bit of my soul died with her. She was my best friend and we spent everyday all day together. I don't know what I'm going to do without her.
Ricky I’m so sorry for your loss and my heart goes out to you! I can’t imagine how hard that was seeing her go through all those illnesses! She was so lucky to have you and I know how empty you feel! Trust me I know what you’re feeling and it doesn’t get easier but you do learn to live through the pain and you will survive this but just take one second at a time. The was the best advice I got. Sending you so much strength and prayers!! 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻
Thinking of you today, Mothers Day March 23rd 2020, I know how hard this must be for you, I too lost my mum on the 6th September last year , my heart goes out to everybody going through the intense feelings this day brings as it's brought home to us just how much we miss their Physical Presence.❤
Long winded post...
33 days ago , I lost my 71 year young momma, my very best friend unexpectedly, to a heart attack.
This is by far, the hardest journey that we've ever had to face. I feel totally lost without her💔 here in our lives. I feel like half of my heart left with her and I am half of a person now.
I know she's in Heaven with our Lord, but we weren't ready, or prepared, for her to be absent in our lives, so suddenly and unexpectedly.
Our last day together was great. She rode in the parade with me. Who knew that early Saturday morning after midnight, she was in the grandest parade ascending up to Heavens gates.
I can't even imagine how life is going to be without her, and how to go on at this point. It's a struggle, one that
To my daughter Chelsea, I couldn't have done this without you. Thank you for being there for me and helping me make her arrangements. I feel so blessed that we were able to spend those last, private moments with momma, doing her makeup 💄 and hair. She was so beautiful, as always.
I know that things will never be the same without her 💔. We were inseperateable. But we all have so very many precious memories of her and our time spent together.
I'll never forget that beautiful smile she had. She could light up a room. She never knew a stranger and always wanted to help someone. She simply loved everyone. She was a one of a kind lady, our lil Diva with her perfect makeup, hair, clothes and jewelry. 😊 19:49
I cannot wait until we are reunited in Heaven some day soon. I love 💕 you so very much Carolyn Asher Beckner 😇😢😭😔
😇 She's dancing in
the sky 😇
Oh Debbie I’m so sorry for your loss and I couldn’t relate more! Thank you for sharing this beautiful tribute with us! Warms my heart but also breaks my heart because I know that pain so well! My mom was the same exact way and very similar story! When we lose so unexpectedly it just intensifies that pain so much more and we never really get closure! Three years later for me and I still can’t even comprehend why! And your right half of my heart is gone as well! Losing both my parents so close together just destroyed me and I feel so incredibly alone and lost without them. I’m so glad you have your daughter to share those memories with! I will never get those big moments of getting engaged and getting married with them. My mom and I dreamed of that my whole life but I will forever be blessed we had the bond we had! Living with her till the day she passed was just the biggest adjustment I ever had to make and I do feel like a big piece of me died that day and my life will never be the same but like you said now they are dancing in heaven! Looking over us in a different way. Every day is a roller coaster of emotions but I just try to take it day by day! My therapist said the day she passed just take one second at a time and time that was the best advice! Sending you big hugs and lots of prayers for healing your heart! Know you’re not alone and so many of us know how intense the pain is. Met so many incredible women on this video and I’m so blessed for that because we now have this unconditional bond. They join me every Sunday for my videos and talking about beauty helps ease the pain as we get to share common memories with our moms when comes to the girlie stuff! Hope you join us when are up to it!!! Prayers and condolences love!!! 🙏🏻💕
That’s awesome. Very awesome
I am so sorry for the loss of your beautiful Mom ❤️
Thank you so much Angel. ❤️
So sorry for your loss, I lost my mother 14 years ago and I can tell you for sure it will get easier over time, but today cry all you want, scream, pray, you need to heal. I also lost my father 4 years ago, I’m still hurting but now I feel stronger and I have to be for my family, 🙏🏻
Michelle Flores this is comforting I can’t imagine 14 years of not speaking to my mum. It sounds scary but I choose to believe yo coz you have been there. Thank you. Mymensingh passed on 13 May 2019.
Thank you for this video.
I just found your video and thankful that I did. I lost my mom in November to Covid and have been struggling so much. She was my best friend. I can relate to this very much. Lost my dad when i was only 1 so losing her has been so hard. I still struggle to find my purpose without her. She was my everything. I am so sorry for your loss. Sending love to you 💗
I’m so incredibly sorry for your loss! My heart goes out to you and I know that pain feels intolerable! Just take one second at a time and let yourself grieve! My mom was all I had and it’s been devastating but it’s been almost 3yrs in July and I never thought I would have survived a day passed the day my mom passed away. When they go suddenly it’s just the worse pain and devastation you will ever feel. I do feel like they are with us and getting us through the days! Giving us a strength we didn’t know we had. This community is amazing and you’re not alone sweetie! Sending you lots of love, hugs and prayers! Reach out whenever you need to! Know that the grief never goes away, comes and go’s in waves and you just have to ride those waves and breathe through it! 🙏🏻🙏🏻❤️
I lost my mother last year in july and I can’t stop thinking about her. I am in a deep sorrow and I really don’t know how to get out of it. I love my mom so so much. I was searching on the internet if some videos could help me finding people going through same. It’s so devastating and I can really understand your pain. It feels like she left me a moment ago. It makes me extremely Sad that now rest of my life I will not be able to see her 😢
Hi Saba. I’m so incredibly sorry and I know how you feel! I’ve never literally been alone like this and it’s an awful feeling! I know my parents ashes are right here with me but that in itself is a constant reminder that I’m alone! And it’s not easy but somehow they gave us this strength to survive this pain! It’s a twisted universe in that respect because I’m sure as you also feel I will never understand why they were taken from us so soon and unexpectedly! I live with it everyday but I try to just keep myself busy with work and making them proud or I won’t survive this pain! We are all here for each other and I’m so blessed to have this platform to share that grief!!! Sending you hugs and prayers! 🙏🏻❤️
I love her forever and ever
I lost my mom 2weeks ago, she was my best friend and I loved her more than anything or money can buy… my mum was a single mother and we did so much to survive together, she taught me how to be strong but not without her. I did not say but, I did not even see her body because I couldn’t travel…. I blame myself for being far from her and maybe if I stayed close it would have been better.
I feel your pain because my pain is unbearable
I’m so incredibly sorry for your loss! I know exactly what you mean and all the guilt we put on our selves for so many different things. Just know how much your mom is guiding you through this. I know because I was in your spot three years when I thought I couldn’t live with out my best friend and everything. We always used to say we would have to go together because there was no way we could live without each other so I know exactly what you’re feeling. But I promise you will get through this. It’s the absolute worst pain we could ever feel! I don’t even know how much I really dealt with it because I can see myself and work to get through the days. It’s the only way I know how to cope. Sending you my deepest, condolences and prayers. Just know your mom will always be with you in your heart. I know it seems impossible and some days I still feel that way. Grief is a roller coaster of emotions that will come and go but no you’re not alone. 🙏🏻🤍
Woo that was touching video and very relatable, I too just lost my Beautiful Lovely Mother too,
on New Years Day, January 1st 2021 some new year's, the saddest day of my life, my Mother and I was very close, very close, she was my rock, my protector, my happiness my friend, she was my mom, and I loved her so very much, i miss her so much this house is not the same with out her, she was the Queen, the Mar-key of this House, and now she's gone not only did i lose my mother in January but I also lost my baby Brother in October of 2020 another sad day of my life, they both died 3-months a part from each other another person I loved very much, my baby Brother, I miss them both very much, I feel like I'M all alone now, and I got to do, and fend for my self now, in this big bad world, my Mother and my Brother both Protected me from the bad and the evil of the world, now there not here to protect me any more, am praying for Strenthening and Courage to get threw this and try to live on, and they both will always live on in me. as the 2 Greastest loves of my life, my Mother, and My Brother. I will always love them and will never forget them and they both will live for ever in my Heart and Soul, Thank You for this Video and so very sorry for your Losts too. be well.
Oh Miss. Phyllis my heart goes out to you!!!! I’m so incredibly sorry for the loss of your mom and baby brother! I know that void you’re feeling and how alone you feel. I’m in your place exactly! I feel so alone and I just try to get through my days the best I can and that’s all we can do. Sending you lots of prayers, love and hugs!!! ❤️🙏🏻❤️
I am so very sorry for your loss. I had just come across your video of your mom doing your hair in the headband braid and found this video shortly after. Everything you had said about your mom I felt and still feel about my mom... Even as I'm typing this I'm still crying. I lost my mom on December 13 2019 and it still feels like it happened yesterday, like this is all a horrible horrible nightmare but I can't wake up from it. I keep thinking I'm going to wake up in the morning and hear her say "good morning" like she always did. I was as close to my mom as you were to yours and it still feels like its not real, like I've cried all I can and still have that never ending well of tears every time I think about her. Watching this video and seeing all the memories you had of your mom has helped me remember all the great memories I had with my mom. They may be gone from our sight but they will never be gone from our hearts and we will always love them and cherish all the memories we had with them. Once again I'm so very very sorry for your loss
Thank you so much Heidi and I’m so very sorry for your loss too!!! I was crying just reading your message and it feels so comforting knowing there’s other that just feel this incredibly, unbearable feelings we are going through. I know yours is still so incredibly raw, even though my mom passed in July it still feels like every thing you just said. I feel like those first few months were just blurry and not real and now I’m just in denial and I’m angry whenever I think of it. I have so many mixed emotions and every day is different and painful. If I distract myself and not think of it I can get through the day but the moment I do I lose control! My heart and prayers go out to you and your family and please stay in touch and let me know how you’re doing! We can help each other get though this terrible heartbreak!!! ❤️😘🙏🏻😢
Kristy Allure thank you so much for the reply. It has been incredibly difficult lately. My stepfather is in a nursing home due to dementia so we still haven't been able to plan a memorial service for her since my husband lost his job and I only work part time at the moment we were barely able to get the money together for her cremation so everything is hitting me all at once. I swear if it wasn't for my husband I would have lost my mind already but he keeps telling me every day "no matter what happens we'll figure it out and we'll get through this" He's truly become my rock lately
It’s so important to have that! My boyfriend was my rock and I had very little to do a service for her but with the help of my amazing family friends that just came to together to help me we planned an intimate service that honored her the best way I could with the little funds I had! Of course as you know we don’t plan these things and man you’re really going through but just remember as I have to keep reminding myself that god doesn’t give us more than we can handle especially when we lean on others because sometimes it’s just too hard to do it ourselves especially when our biggest rock left us! So many prayers being sent your way and I’m so very sorry about your stepdad too! I lost my dad 4 yrs ago and went through a very tough last five years so I emphasize and know exactly what you’re going through!!! Xoxo Big big hugs to you and lots of love!!! 🙏🏻❤️🙏🏻
My mom just died and I wish that I had done better for her. I miss her. I'll always remember her. I took care of her for eight years.
I’m so sorry Aaron and my deepest condolences to you and your family! It’s the hardest thing we will ever go through! I know our angels are with us but it doesn’t make that pain go away! But they are getting through whether we can accept it or not. I didn’t think I can live a minute more without my mom but two years later I’m still here. I’m grieving and some days a lot more than others but this roller of emotions is still going. Breathe through it all because they waves will come in hard. My throughly and prayers are with you! 🙏🏻
@@KristiAllureBeauty thank you, Kristi. I'm talking it all through with myself and remembering my mom fondly.