One year without my Mom. Dealing with the death of a mother as a young adult (Lost My Mom To Cancer)
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- Опубликовано: 23 мар 2020
- Here’s my review of one year without my Mom. I lost my Mom to cancer in March, 2019. Dealing with the death of a mother as a young adult is something I would have never thought I’d experience. Not in a million years. Since then, I have been dealing with grief and loss, and I want to share my experience with you in this video. I am talking about what it was like to live without my Mom, what surprised me about grief, and what helped me process my loss.
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I am sorry for your mother and i am Indian and i am respect you because you are talking about your mother and i love it your experience
could you ban the Jake Mcclendon dude before I actually go to Ok and find him?
@Jake McClendon ahahha it doesn't work like that
I lost my mother due to covid in may..its so heartbreaking and painful n empty without mom..i just miss my mom every moment
@Jake McClendon wrong address ninja
I lost my mother 5 days ago to cancer as well. She was on hospice for 2 months. I now sleep day and night to find peace. My mother was only 50. 😢 my beautiful mother is gone! 💔
Bless your poor soul, friend. 😔 My own mother passed at 59 a week ago, from cancer as well. I just turned 22 4 days before she passed. My sleeping patterns are watching things to make me forget the pain until it’s daylight and then I go to sleep. Grief and depression meds with our ability to keep a healthy circadian rhythm , and I’m sorry that we are both going through similar experiences so far away, but so similar in nature. May our beautiful mothers suffer no longer, taken from us too young. I prayed for my mom to hit her 60th birthday while yours only made it to 59. I know you wrote this comment 3 weeks ago, Becky, but I pray for you and bless your heart and spirit. I found faith through my mother’s battle with cancer, so I will pray for you. ❤️🩹
Believe me, I loved my mom the same
You said you were cryin and sleeping how can you sleep thinking about your mothers death I can’t not sleep at night I don’t know how you do it
@@abelperezjr9948 My mother passed away due to ovarian cancer. It was one of the most gut wrenching experiences. However when she passed away I couldn't sleep well unless I had the TV on. This happened for the first week. We did have peace my sister and I, why? Because its emotionally taxing to see someone you care about deteriorate, it's taxing to cling on the hope or faith despite what happens, and it's horrible being anxious of receiving a call from the hospital or the family member who's helping you out with possible bad news.
I lost my mom 2 weeks ago due to stage 4 breast cancer that spread latterly everywhere... my mom was 49 y/o and I’m just 20 , I wasn’t excepting that to happen even I know it could happen to some people, but I felt like it’s never gonna happen to my mom , she is strong she had powerfully passed through 2 cancer attacks but she is still fine and strong as I always knew her. I can’t describe how sad I am now how lonely I feel, everything is totally different without her .. She always treated me as I’m her little kid not as a grown girl and suddenly I feel like I’m 40 years older to my age ..
Don't worry sister... God is there for you... I too undergo the same sitution my mom passed due to Stage 4 breast cancer.. I can't even realise that I have lost my mom in my early age.. & I miss her sooo much.. God loves you soo much sister... I'll keep praying for you sister... God is everything for us in times of trouble.. He loves us & he cares for us...My mom was just 43years old.. And I'm 19years old... Feels depressed & lonely but I believe and hope that God will change all the sorrows in our life to joy...
How are you now ? Is life still without meaning?
I’m 22 and my Mom was only 49 when she passed recently. It was an unexpected situation when it happened. My Mom always treated me like a child always saying I’m her baby and now I feel like I’m older. I feel so alone
@@kerenben8443 amen
I had cancer when my kids were 14 and 15 yrs old. It was aggressive and I had a lot of chemo. There were times when they almost lost me. They are still scared of anything happening all the time. I am so sorry for your loss. The grief can be overwhelming. I was when my dad died. I cried for 3 years. You are not alone. I think support groups are great. There are many others feeling just like you do. It helps to talk to people who are in the same situation you are. Take care.
I lost my mom just 3 months ago from ovarian cancer. She died 3 weeks after diagnosis and it was very traumatic, not planned. She never made it to chemo. I’m only 24. I’m angry, I feel like it’s not fair. Everyday it hurts and it will. But my brother and I are sticking together through this.
i’m 20 years old & i lost my mom 3 weeks ago. at this age, it feels like just the beginning & i need my mom more than ever rn. the pain, the heartache is absolutely so unbearable & it’s nothing i’ve ever felt. idk how i’m going to live life without her, god i miss her so much.
hope you're managing okay, hun
It doesnt matter how old is a parent, it will always be a shock when they die
My mom passed yesterday. She was 49 and I am 32. We grew up together and she is my best friend. I am absolutely shattered and do not know how I will go on.
Hope you are finding some peace after your tragic loss.
I lost my mom just about a year ago and to this day I feel destroyed inside. It's something I have to learn to live with to this day.
Allow yourself to feel the pain. It will hurt less one day. I'm so sorry for your loss, Tomoko. ❤
@Jake McClendon why Lol?
My dad died 4, almost 5 years ago. Cancer. Clicking on this video made me cry instantly. It doesn’t go away ever I guess. But it gets less intense and you get better at managing the overwhelm.
I lost my mom 4 days ago to ovarian cancer. I'm only 26 and am absolutely shattered. What you said about "keeping you in the dark" resonated with me - my mom also kept me in the dark about the worst of her suffering and the prospect of death, probably to protect me. She passed away a few days after her first chemo session, which actually worsened her condition. I miss her so much, she was the closest person in my life and I don't know what I'm going to do without her 💔
I can really feel you .. my sincere condoleances. I lost mom one month ago to colon cancer. She was diagnosed in August 11, 2021 with final cancer and it was the worst day in my life. She was my friend, my light, my happiness. Now i feel literally dead inside.
I too can feel the pain I lost my mom three months before .. iam also 26 .. literally iam dying.. love u ma 🥲
You are not alone brother... i lost my mom 5 mos ago because of covid she died at 52yrs old..
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I lost my mom 3 months ago on 12/31/2021 to breast cancer. She kept me in the dark about her health so her death came to me as a shock. It hit me so hard and ever since then, I haven’t been the same. Still trying to figure out how to balance my emotions cuz I don't even know what I feel anymore. I was 26 when she passed and she was 53. March 09 made me 27 and May 27 would have made her 54. I didn't have the opportunity to see her in the last 5 years. So she died without me by her side and that kills me each time I think about it. She was an amazing woman and I miss her so badly.
My mom died at 62, trust me I'm just as hurt, heartbroken and shocked. Regardless of age, fitness or addictions as you say. When we love someone we will gireve them.
Sorry for your loss.
I am 34 ,not married and have no kids ,I lost my mom 3 days ago and feel so empty and alone ,I have my dad and brother but it's just not the same .She was very sick for 2 years and I am glad atleast she is not in pain anymore and truly I feel kind of like I have PTSD ,because I was there with her watching her deteriorate and I feel a bit traumatized
I'm so, so sorry. The first few weeks will feel like you're going through the most traumatic period in your life because... you are. If you ever feel like you need any help, consider reaching out to a grief counsellor - it has helped me more than I could ever explain.
You can also go through the comments section and see that you're not alone in your feelings. But most importantly, allow yourself this time to feel whatever it is that you're feeling. You don't have to be strong for anyone, it's okay to be where you are at right now. Healing takes a long time.
Take care ❤
We are in the same boat. I lost my mom a week ago. I am also not married no kids. I hv two older brothers but both are married so I live alone. Sometimes I feel so numb.
@@nnikiemosete96 I am sorry for your loss ,I understand you completely ,I live with my elderly dad ,and now I clean the house thinking of my mom,because she used to clean it all the time .I know she is out of pain and that comforts me ,I feel she is very close to me now spiritually.May both our moms rest in eternal peace ,stay strong dear ,you are never alone 💓
@@LauraMaliszewska thank you ,you are very kind 💓.I don't think we have grief counseling in my country sadly ,hope when corona is over I can go to my psychiatrist ,maybe talking there would help more .I am stronger now though ,my mom was truly the kindest and loved me so much ,I feel her so close to me now ,and for her I will continue to live and strive ,in her memory 💓I was blessed to have her as a mom ,she is my guardian 👼 now 💓
I'm 32, not married, no kids. My mom has cancer. I'm not sure she will improve. Especially since she's avoiding me since her appointment this Monday. She's avoiding sharing bad news. I'm devastated to know it's coming and scared to death to deal with it..
This gave me goosebumps. I'm 22. I lost my mom in September 2019 to Stage 4 skin cancer. She was 47 too. I feel so alone. Couldn't relate to anybody. I'm blessed because I got to spend her last two months with her but I miss her so much. Nobody knows what to do or say to me and it just never gets mentioned because nobody can relate.
Thank you!❤
Thank you for sharing this, Michael. I hope my story helped you a bit. You are not alone, but the feeling of loneliness will never really go away. I've been okay for the most part but today I'm not feeling well and I miss my Mom more than usual. I came here and I saw your comments and it made me feel less alone. It's incredible that we can find support in each other in this wat.
Your Mom loved you very much and was so proud of you. Remember that. ❤️
I can't even stay an hour without my mom 1 year😨😨=hungry,depression,scared,crazy
I'm so sorry for this grand loss of losing a parent..... I truly am.. 😔Please read this, I pray this brings peace and of course, hope for the future as it did for me : www.jw.org/en/library/books/dead-live-again-tract/dead-live-again/
At 19th of november i will also be 22 and my mom has stage 4 cancer on her intestents , or u can say colonar cancer, no hospital accepted her, even the best, and i realy feel you my friend and hear when i see that im not the onlyone, i get some kind of strength, she is still alive and now i understand how important she is to me, im crying im praying all day but only god knows now and she is 47 too
@Jake McClendon we get it Jake your mom didn't love you. Kindly eff off lol.
I lost my mom two weeks ago and i still cannot wrap my mind around it. I miss her so much it hurts.
I lost my mom 3 weeks ago. I just can’t believe it. My heart feels like it’s crushed. Prayers for you
I lost my mom yesterday. I'm 16. it's the worst thing that could happen to me
If you ever need to talk to someone, you’re not alone
I lost my dad. We were so close and it shattered me. I cried everyday for 3 years. At first my grief was physically painful and it took a long time for it to gradually get down to a level I could function. I am a sympathy crier. Whenever anyone tears up, I do too. I am a lot of fun at funerals.
Same, dad, 3-4 years now slowly better.
Thank you for the video. I lost my mom this year on January from cancer. I was 19 back then and my first sem in uni. My mom was 49. She was strong and beautiful. Watching this, I don't feel alone anymore.
much love to you ❤
Same.
Hugs to you dear same my mom died a year ago and I'm 19 yrs old. I can't go through it. I can't imagine my life without her ,she was a whole package of laughter and entertainment also she was a great healer. I feel strange now everywhere I go,I don't like talking to ppl anymore even w my family,I don't feel like eating anymore. Also I'm going through delayed grief.
My gosh,Cancer has become such a common word like every other person is either dying of cancer or heart attack. My deepest condolences to the ppl whose loved ones diesd of cancer. I can truly understand how does it feel.
Lost my mom 9/06/21 due to COPD and years of smoking. She was 63 and I’m 32. I’ve never been without her. I thank God for relationship. 🙏🏽 I’m lost now but I have faith God will keep us and Guide us.
I can relate so much. I have never thought I would loose my mom at a young age because she did not have any illness at all. After basic operation she needed treatment but all the hospitals were closed because of corona, and it was too late to help, I am shocked right now, even 3-4 months passed. I turned 24 y o, I just think that we would never share moments together, my wedding, my children and etc, my graduation from masters. The death happened all of sudden. My grannny outlived my mother, and she cries when she looks at me and my sister. I know we all loose our parents but I thought it would happen when I am 50-60 yo. My mom wanted to live so much, she was such a kind person angel. She was just 52.
No one from friends experienced this, so they could not tell something to me and I can understand but now I understand who are my true friends are.
Hi Fatima, thank you for sharing your story with us. I'm so sorry your Mom passed away. She shouldn't have gone so soon and it pains me to know that you will have to come to terms with her not being there with you in person on your special days and every single day, too. But in time you will learn how to celebrate your life with your Mom's love that still lives in you. Take your time to heal, Love. ❤
The same thing happened with my grandma 3 years ago but it was do to doctors and nurses negligence, we found out that she had a blocked vain which was causing her pain and discomfort.
She went to the hospital one day and the doctors couldn’t find anything wrong with her or didn’t care to find out then she was sent home , one week later the pain did came back which caused her to have a heart attack do to immense pain that lead to her death while sleeping.
I totally feel you... My mum passed away the previous Wednesday because of corona virus, all of a sudden... I am still in shock... I don't know how to live after that..... I don't know.... The feeling is unbearable.... Also all of my friends have their mums and I feel hatred for them for some reason.... I don't want them to speak to me sweet words without knowing how it feels!!!!!
I can relate to this so much. I am 21 years of age and my mum passed away 2 weeks ago. It was so sudden and I have been in deep shock. I always think about those things that she would not be apart of anymore like my wedding, children, new job and just everything. My friends have been amazing but it is also hard because they have not experienced anything like this. Hearing other stories similar to mine has helped in a weird way.
@@allymills7637 I can understand your situation just be strong and have faith is what I can say this pain of lossing mother is immense and this is never ending pain. I know it hard I have been through this my mom passed away just few days before my 22nd birthday. I couldn't save her life 😭😭 😭😭 It was all of a sudden. Mumma Rest in peace I love you Mumma and we all miss you so much please come back Mumma 😭😭 Yesterday was my mom and dad's 28nd marriage anniversary. We all felt so lonely without Mumma on this day and seeing dad tearing was more painful to witness 😖😭😭😭😭😭😭 .
I recently lost my mom suddenly. She had a stroke 3 years ago but recovered well. I am only 27, soon 28. I talked with her on facetime the day before. Our last physical contact was 3 weeks ago. We hugged and kissed. I told her, "I am worried you will get a stroke or die during your vacation." she said, "Don't worry, it won't happen." - It happened... Her body collapsed. Life seems meaningless right now. It's been a week now.
I lost my mother last December 23rd at 9.46pm to AML Blood cancer. She was clinically ok until the last day. She was diagnosed only on October 16th and left me within 69 days. I am 25. She is the one and only closest person I ever had. I don't know what I am going to do now!
My mother died last March. Tonight is very hard for some reason. Thank you for this video.
Thank you for sharing, Laura ❤
I lost mine in march 26th
@@kentaratsuken8468 I am sorry for your loss x
@@lauragrillo27 thanks
Im so sorry beautiful ♥️😢
I lost my mom January of last year. Then 6 months later my father committed suicide. Thank you for posting this. It’s been a very hard year for me. This really helped
Oh dear you are so strong! Do you have someone to talk to? Do you have a healer or therapist?
When I found out about my mom's cancer I was full of hope, the results were good, she didn't look bad but within months her state changed drastically, I know what you feel....
I hope your Mom is getting better ❤️
I lost my mom this way 4 hours ago. It is a nightmare.
@@tonytaf107 I lost my mom a week ago (Wednesday March 10)in the morning she died from Lupus.
Sorry for your loss
@@JustAHoax16 Hermano, I'm so sorry for your loss. Hope you are doing alright. It is a tough time and we have to go through. I'm with you mano and all the best and courage ;)
@@tonytaf107 i lost my mom today , and the tomorrow seems impossible.I wish i held her a little tighter .
I don’t typically comment on RUclips videos but I can connect with your loss. My mom died a year ago today and she passed away at the age of 56 after her 1 year battle with endometrial cancer. I was 22 when I lost my mom. Time does heal a bit of the pain but it is still very difficult. I miss her every day.
I'm so sorry. I miss my Mom, too. Thank you for sharing this.
Hi Stefatea, I have lost my mom too... Can you share how you have coped up... It would be really helpful to me... 😭
I lost my mom 10/8/20 to ovarian cancer n it feels like i cant get over the fact shes gone. Your vid helped me alot
I'm so sorry.
I feel your pain every day till this day. I lost my mom in Oct. 5th 2015 to Ovarian Cancer. 3months, 2 surgeries later, she didn't make it....it all happened so fast it seems like. The youngest of 5, I'm consistently dealing with depression every day of my life. No matter how I express my feelings, it saddens me, and life is never the same.
@@shubert418 im sorry to hear that, it feels like a piece of you is gone. Time helps nothing, its your mom we lost...everyone i always talked to told me shes in a better place n if she was still here she would suffer...i feel no one gets it unless they lost their mother. Your heart feels empty. I send my best wishes to you! Your mom was a warrior!
@@Aquadecember23 I'm going through this now as well. It's hard when people say that my mom's in a better place and no longer suffering because I keep thinking "why did she have to suffer in the first place on earth". I know they mean well but we all want our mom's with us
@@tay8215 coming up a year next month, i still have yet to fully accept it. Time helped heal 25% of it but it feels like its not real still. I still think shes gunna txt or call me or sometimes i feel shes on vacation n cant get in touch...but even writing this to you i still cry n always will bc you lose a piece of your heart n that hole is never filled. 💙 I wish you the best, your mom is always apart of you no matter what, stay strong. (It doesnt get better, atleast for me bc no one can replace your mother) ❤️❤️❤️
I lost my dad October 2021…. From cancer. It was super aggressive and I was with him throughout the entire decline… it haunts me. This video did help a bit, thanks!
I'm 18 and my mom died 5 months ago to a stroke. Your words have helped me a lot. I felt like I was all alone but more I listen to stories related to this I feel like there are people who feel the same and I am definitely not alone. It's a different kind of pain than breakup, disappointment and other "minor" stuff. I miss her so much. Thank you for making this video
I found you as my Mom is on hospice and I needed this. Thank you for sharing your journey 🙏🏽
My Mom is dying and I’m grieving every day.
LOL
@@jakemcclendon8036 ur messed up
💔🙏🏼
Hope you are doing well ❤️
Sending Love to you
my mother passed away an year ago due to thyroid cancer her death was a real shock to me and I haven't recovered from it till now...I just lost a part of my soul🙂that 'keeping you in the dark" was so true...my mother never showed me how much she is suffering for the past 8 years...she don't wanted to see me in pain...I miss you amma❤😢
Thank you for this. My mom passed yesterday and it hurts… it helps to know I’m not alone 🙏🏽
I lost my dad 3 weeks ago to leukemia, I'm 24, he was 60, things have just started to sink in recently, never would I have imagined that this would be the outcome, the doctors told us the prognosis of dad's sickness was going well, until recently when the leukemia cells spread to his joints. There are nights where I can't sleep unless I cry myself to sleep, I'm currently trying to comfort myself by watching videos like these. Thank you for sharing your story.
My mum died on Wednesday just gone from Diabetes. She was 63. I'm only 32. My older sisters are aged 37 and 40. I'm really really lost right now. She was my rock and my best friend. Her health was deteriorating really badly and she told the person she was being looked after by, told him not to say anything to me and my sisters because she never want is worrying. She passed away in Sierra Leone. I'm in Canada, Vancouver. I'm mad, angry, sad and confused. I'm out in Canada by myself. My sisters are in the UK, London. I moved from the UK to Canada in 2020. She dropped me off at the airport. We spoke every single day without fail. I just wish there was something I could have done. I beat myself up at times for purchasing her ticket to go back to Sierra Leone in July of this year. I know for sure your video will help me with the grieving. I've been listening to her voice notes, every morning. I literally spoke to her 10 minutes before she died. I'm so broken. I'm very appreciative of your testimony ❤❤
my mother passed away 2 days ago on her birthday I'm 19 I just started collage and thought I would share my journey throughout my collage days with her she just turned 57 and had cancer twice and had really suffered for the past 3 months and couldn't eat nor sleep which makes me think she's at peace now away from all the suffering and pain but her place is empty and it will always stay this way with no room to fill just left with all the memories .
my mind is blank and can't think strait and sleep well since her passing.
I got to spend some time with her before her passing and then had to bury her with my own hands with my family and still refuse to believe it and she was out on work and is coming late which is shattering me .
she was the most precious person in my life and she will always be .
I just hope and pray that no one has to go through this pain and if you do I hope it gets better for you and everyone around you .
More power to you ♥️
She ( my mom ) was 56 and I'm 23 right now.
I couldn't stop myself from comenting. I lost my mom 2½ months ago due to pressure stroke and lungs infection tho she never had any pressure issues before or we didn't know about her lungs infection cz there was no symptoms. She was totally healthy but suddenly our life changed just in a moment. She suffered for complete 1 month and at last she passed away and we were not with her at the last moment cz she was admitted in hospital in a different city. I miss her everyday. Life became a mess, struggling in organising our lifes. It's really hard to live without your mom.
I have lost my mom 3 months back. The story is almost same. She was healthy, suddenly she felt a pain in her stomach and now my world is so tough
My mom was my best friend too.. People that haven't lost a parent or aren't close with a parent just can't understand. They think they we are weird for being so devastated. They think we grieve too long. They expect us to get back to work immediately.
@Jake McClendon exhibit A
That is because society is sick and still doesn’t acknowledge grief. Grief and the death of people were very important occurrences in all old cultures. You are normal, they are not. Keep your heart pure.
Lost my mumma in march last year, it's almost been a year, im 41 and mum was 66 she passed due to stage 4 pancreatic cancer. We didn't get time for treatment and I nursed her at home til she passed, I felt and heard her last ever heartbeat . She was my only parent. She was incredible and my best friend and other half. I am lost without her but keep fighting everyday to be the strong woman she raised, some days I can sit with it and hold my grief but the weight gets too much to bare and I can't breathe, so most days I distract myself and look for her in my children, in nature, in cooking, in my memories of her. In the joy she brought to us all and the unconditional love and hope she created in and gave us all. I take her with me everyday and every step I take is for us both.
It’s been 120 days since I lost my mom to goblet cell carcinoma in November 30 2021. She kept a lot away from me to protect me. I always knew she was lying to me and knew she was trying to protect me but after she died I wished that she didn’t hide so much. The last time I saw her I reacted so badly cause I saw death on her & 3 days later she was gone. She had a heart attack in the shower in the same day they were putting her in hospice. I’m not close to my dad or brother & I feel like I’m on this island alone. She was my best friend & I miss her tremendously everyday. 💔😢
I lost my mom 4 days ago to stage 4 breast cancer. She was only 57. I am 27. It hurts so much. So much.
This video helped because I don't know anybody going through the same. I can't believe I won't get to hug her anymore.
Thank you
Feel you so much😪 I also lost my mom at 57 to stage 4 breast cancer. I am 26 and its exactly what you say I cant believe I would never hug her again🥺
I’m 32 my mom was 68 I lost her two months ago to advanced breast cancer I cry everyday.
I have done therapy, yoga, meditation, cardiovascular exercise for seven years. I lost my mom one year ago to a brain tumor. I love this video thank you. All of the work I did helped me grieve without the shame and trauma
I lost my mother on 2nd August 2023,she was only 55 years old.she was suffering from chronic liver disease. We were planning of liver transplant surgery but 1 week before surgery she got infection and left us after 9 days in the ICU. I was so close to her .I miss her so much each and every single minute 💔.I became so much alone.I saw your video to get some mental support.I have exams on next month..I can't concentrate on any anything..she was my support ..I never understand why God gave such punishments..
Oh my god, Same with my mom, she died at age 50. We never got to talk about death. Though we both knew that it's nearing 😔😔
I'm so sorry.
Lost my mom yesterday. I can’t help myself, I’m ruined. I just turned 28 a day before she passed due to COVID . The worst thing in the world I can’t visit my country to be there for her funeral. I just want to hear that it will get better , Bc now I’m sinking
So sorry for your loss. I understand completely. The anniversary of my Mom's death is in a few days, it's been 9 years. I miss having my morning coffee with her. I miss playing video games with her. I miss her laugh, her wit and wisdom. I miss her encouragement, I took it for granted that she encouraged me the most in everything I pursued. I did realize that my Mom was my best friend my whole life, I had life long friends that eventually became jealous of my career success and we no longer are friends because of their betrayals as a result of their jealousy. I didn't lose my Mom until I was 50. I hope my daughter doesn't have to deal with losing me too early. It's been so hard for me even though I was 50 years old when I lost my Mom. I was glad my Mom got to know me in my late 40s because I grew a lot as a person and the way our relationship became best friends. The thing that's helped me when I feel depressed about my Mom's death is to cry but then remind myself to live life for me and my Mom. I'm living for both of us because I'm like her so much. Just remind yourself after you have a cry that your Mom wants you to be happy and live your best life but you will always miss her.
Sometimes all I wish for is 1 more day with my mum or 1 last hug 1 last I love you! Although I couldn't bear to loose her all over again 😭 I will see you again my bella ❤️
Thank you for sharing your story ❤
For me today mark 6 weeks and 4 days without my mom. She passed away 4/16/22. She had Pancreatic Cancer. At the beginning of this year her condition worsened to the point she couldn't eat, walk. The days that I didn't go to to college I took care of her and the days that I did my grandma would be here with her. That Monday I was going to class she wanted to go to the hospital and so my sister took her. In the afternoon I recieved a call in the middle of lecture from the hospital, they told me that at that point they were trying to keep her pain free and comfortable because there was nothing else to do. Next day I went to see her and she could talk a little bit but not move. It hurt so much to see her like that my mom was always a pillar of strength. We brought her home on hospice care next day. At that point she was in a unconscious comma like state. She passed away on Saturday night at 9:27pm. All of our family had said their goodbyes and me too the day before. It sucked, I didnt get to say goodbye right when she was in her last breaths. I was sleeping because my aunt said to take a nap. I hadn't slept 2 days because I was beside my mom. One of my aunts had walked into the room saying "mija, wake up your moms not breathing." I got up in a hurry.I had to be strong I check her pulse and felt nothing. I didn't cry, I felt numb. My siblings were crying, my aunts and uncles were crying. I felt small. I felt weird. I think I was in shock. I called tha nurse, he called the funeral home. They came and took her body away. I finally broke down when then completely covered her and when the lifted her up in their car. And sorry if it seems that I'm going on and on. I just wanted to share my story. I woke up today and started crying and crying. I'm going through some of her papers and was listening to your video and crying again. I can relate with you Laura 100%. My mom was my best friend. She was my everything. I miss her so much. She was the only person I could really talk to. I'm surrounded by people but it feels like in alone. People are moving forward and I feel stuck in place. I cry at random times or when the little things remind me of her. I consider my mom my blessing just like she considered me as hers. I was an unplanned baby. My mom once told me she believed that god sent me to be by her side through her tough times. We were inseparable. As a joke we would say "I'm your therapist and you are mine" Remebering this made me laugh. So thank you. 21 years was not enough time for me with my mom but there were the best. I hate that she would never see me marry and have children but I know she be watching from heaven. Amd now it seems like I am ranting oops 😅, but I feel better now. Thanks laura for the video, it really helped and I feel much better now, feel calm and happy. Sorry for the loss of your mom, she is really pretty and you look just like her! Writing in a journal is a great idea. Thanks. And if you took time to read all this. Thanks
Ugh. I remember watching this after we were told that my mom had only a few months to live. She had cancer and she was very strong and fought so much for my siblings and I, we fought against cancer for a year, but it ended us. Just a few weeks after getting the news of my mom living only for 9-11 months without treatment, she died. She died 8 days before my 21st birthday. She was only 43 and I think that's what hurts me the most, knowing she had a lot of things to do still. It's been four months since her death and it's really, really hard being without her. Knowing I'll spend the rest of my life missing her.
I lost my Mom 3 months ago March 19th, 2024.
I miss her, and it still hurts.
I have anxiety everyday, and it feels like the hurt gets worse than better with each passing day.
She was not only my Mom, but my best friend as well.
My mom just passed away 4 days after my birthday from stage 4 lung cancer, and her wake was today. It spreads through her lymph nodes to her spinal column, stomach, and adrenal gland. She had preexisting conditions that prevented a faster diagnosis. It was 9 months that she lived after first being diagnosed last year. She previously beat stage 1 breast cancer when I was first born in 2001, after a post-natal checkup found a small eraser-sized lump on her breast. The doctors said I saved her life. I’m 22, she was 59, I wasn’t ready to lose her, but no one will ever truly be ready to lose their mothers. I’m so sorry that your mother died much younger than mine when we were around the same age. This video and the comment sections with others with grief experiences are helping me to move on. I will check in on my comment in a year and see how I’ve progressed past this hardest moment of my life. Thank you for sharing your own experience, I know taking the first step in doing so is not easy, but thank you for making it a safe space for others to speak in the comments and help each other out. ❤️
My mother died today at 72. I still think its too young
My dad is 77 years old, but when he was diagnosed with cancer it was still a shock. It was still immensely painful and I was still terrified of losing my dad…I have never lived in a world where he doesn’t exist. For 37 years, I’ve always been able to hear his voice, his laugh, hug him, love him and have been loved by him 💙
You are so right! The pain of losing a parent at any age is so painful. I lost my father to a car accident when I was 9. It was so painful and did not seem real. So growing up I always had my mom to lean on. She has recently (last month) been diagnosed with Stage 4 lung cancer with mets to the brain. She went from seeming perfectly healthy to being terribly ill. When symptoms surfaced, it was too late. I CANNOT imagine my world without her. She is still fighting but we know what reality holds. No matter the age, it's still very hard. She is 74.
@@shage6881 much love to you
I lost my beloved Mom on 30.5.22
Just a few days ago and I feel so grieved.
I don't know what to do 🙏 I feel so sad.Dad also passed away on 31.8.20.
i lost my mum three weeks ago to metastatic breast cancer and malignant pleural effusion, my mother never told us that she still had cancer and underplayed how ill she was... im 25 with two younger siblings aged 12 and 10 to look after. rn im navigating everything but rn, finidng this video just makes me feel not alone. i am surrounded by family and friends but its super hard.
Excellent video! I am sorry for your loss. As more natural as it is to expect that an elderly person dies, it still hurts a lot
Thank you, this was SO relatable. It's been almost three weeks for me without my mom and almost a month before she died we couldn't talk the way we use to because she was sick and in hospidal. I miss her so much that it's actually physically painful.
In my head and heart I always used to think and be thankful that I had her as my best friend, but I wasn't vocal about it enough and now I really hope that she knew how much I loved and still love her.
Thank you for sharing your loss. This is helping me too at this moment.
Youre a beautiful person. Thank you for sharing such a personal thing. Stay strong ♡ Rest in piece 🙏
Lost my mom to cancer related complication this year. Your vulnerability and your voice are a comfort to the ears and mind.
Thank you thank you Thank you so much for this. I could relate with so many things you dealt with. I lost my mom to cancer last month and I am 23 now. I cried the entire 45 mins but I do feel lighter at the end of it.
Thank you for sharing your journey through loss.
I'm sorry about your Mom, you seem like a good person and it helped her reach the halls of your forefathers. God be with you young lady.
I lost my mom 3 weeks ago. I’m 27 but she was 68. However, I feel 68 is still fairly young to die. And I’m certainly too young to lose my mother.
I’m so sorry, Emily. ❤️
I lost my mother at this same age, only 68. When I see an elderly woman the same though comes to my mind: if only only she lived until 80 or 90 I would had her for more twenty years. This make me sad, I would treasure one more day with her, let alone 20 years.
Thank you so much for making this video, Laura. It was beautiful.
It shows how much courage and strength you have.
I'm very grateful to have my parents in my life. Sometimes, I get anxious about their well being. This video made me feel even more grateful, and less anxious.
May your mom's soul rest in peace and happiness. I'm sure she's with you, and proud of you.
It's really good that you're helping others through your videos, even though it must be very difficult at times to make them. I can see the genuineness in your eyes, in all your videos. Keep up all the good work, I hope it keeps helping you get better, and also keeps helping others!
Thank you so much, Dhruv. I wish you and your family all the best.
Thank you so much to share your own feelings and grief experience, i lost my mom two weeks ago due to covid and it is really hard to deal with i feel guilty i feel that i didn´t do enough for her.
Sending so much love! loosing a mother, especially a good wonderful amazing mother is the hardest thing a child can endure. Be strong for her
I lost my mom a month ago, and also don't have contact with my father. I feel orphaned as well and it's a lonely, scary feeling. I'm not sure when to start therapy. All I know is that this is the hardest thing to go through. Thank you for this video, it does help knowing we're not just one but many who are going through this painful journey.
I lost my mum 3 weeks ago, and I also don't have contact with my father. We will pull through. It's really painful
Same here my bitch of a father packed up and left after my Mother died and yah I'm basically orphaned my immediate adoptive family doesn't live in the city I do and my favorite brother found a girlfriend and decided to ditch me so yah I'm a lil scared but somehow I feel empowered I guess
I lost my mom 9 months ago due to liver failure. Just as you, my mom never told me how bad it was, she kept me in dark about the stage of her sickness as I was in varsity writing my exams. So she didn’t want to disturb me.Her death was a shock to me. It kills me everyday that I didn’t get to say goodbye or take care of her at her lowest moments. I had no idea of how bad it was and I spoke to her everyday.
Today I miss her soooo much. I can’t stop crying 😭. My heart is crashed again.
Thank you so much for this contribution. It is so important to share these experiences and thoughts. I also lost my mother a few months ago, so thanks for your courage. Your mother acknowledges it. ☯🔋
Thank you for sharing ur journey. Currently my mom is going through hospice and it's week by week. My biggest fear since I was a child was losing my mom and that day is coming. I cry several times a day and try my best to hold it in when im at work. I don't know how I will react when that day comes but I know it's going to be difficult to move forward in life but I will try my best. My sister and I will look out for each other and she will be my support as I will be to her. Your videos are very helpful. Thank you again for sharing
I lost my father in 1980 when I was 20. I lost my mother in 2009 when I was 49. I miss them both very much. Today I am a therapist and have worked with many people dealing with loss and grief. I want to say that I am very proud of you. You are so mature and wise for your age. You are a good example and encouragement for others. Your mother will always be with you.
Hello I lost my mother 4 days ago to cancer and I am only 20. I don’t know what to do or feel. Would you mind talking with me.
Does it get easier as time goes on? Can you laugh again??
Dear Laura, I admire how strong and loving you are. My heart goes out to you in this time of grieving
Thank you ❤️
Thank you so much for sharing your story. You've helped me tremendously. My mom died not even a week ago and I feel so distraught and lost. I miss her so, so much. Your video gives me hope that I'll be able to reach some sort of acceptance despite probably being sad for the rest of my life too... Your mom was so gorgeous ❤️
you've stirred me for the whole video Actually the brilliance of your tears stimulate mine, i've had a blend of grief and smile have conveyed on my face hearing your compassion expressions about your cherished mother . One thing i want to add that your mom is absolutely fulfills and boasts of you as long as you have successfully exceeded and overcomed the hardship of her mornful absent. Another point to mention , even though your father has had an awful impact in your life, whether all his lack of responsability or apathy, just give him another chance to repair what he can repair , i know it's tough and overwhelming but mainly for the sake of your small family which this resurgence repose your mother blissfully in her tomb. FINGERS CROSSED
I’m approaching the one year mark feeling so lost, thanks for sharing
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I've never really lost an important person in my life so I can't even imagine what it's like to be going through all that, but I just wanted to say thank you for this video, thank you for sharing this ❤️
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Thank you for sharing your story and experiences with grief. Take care, stay safe, God bless.
Thanks for your video and soothing words. I lost my mom to COVID last january and my aunt a month prior to that. My mom and other relatives were infected just the days of my aunt's funeral. My life turned around in all the loss, uncertainty and heartache. I feel that life goes on, but this pain will always last and we must learn to carry it. I recommend the books: the sixth stage of grief, it really helped me these past few months.
As a society, we are not ready for grief, and that is just so sad. Thanks for your video and best of luck.
Thank you so much for making this video. My mom passed away from ovarian cancer a week and a half ago and she also kept me in the dark about how bad it was (as well as my dad keeping me in the dark a bit). We all thought she was going to beat it, and that aspect makes it so sad. I have been watching all of these kinds of videos to help me grieve, as well. Thank you for sharing your experience ❤️
Thank you, Nikki. I'm so so sorry about your Mom. ❤️
I am so deeply sorry for your loss. A mother is invaluable. No words can heal the pain. I hope she would be proud of how far you have come.
Thank you so much ❤️
What a beautiful video. Thank you so much for openly sharing your experience of the loss of your mom. I lost my mom in July 2019. I had to go through my grieving process through COVID completely alone, To this day I am still grieving as I am in the process of selling her home, a cherished place where I grew up. This is a grieving process all of its own. I know in my heart that my mom is with me at every moment and guiding me through everyday. ❤️.
Thanks for sharing with such maturity. I lost my mother due to cancer more than a week ago. And I get that part where you totally collapse with tears but its more important to share than crying for her. I am having flashbacks, doubts. I guess i will find a way, my kinda way to cope up. Thanks again Laura. 🖐
Thank you for making this video, i always feel alone after my mother's death and these videos really helps alot and makes me feel like i have a support group
I'm happy I could be there for you ❤️
So sorry for you. I've lost my dad when I was 9. I feel like people who've lost their loved ones have a special connection and they are special indeed.
I feel the same way.❤ It's like a club none of us wanted to join but now we're here and we've got each other.
Thank you so much for this video. My Mom passed 4 months ago and Im going to get therapy too. Your a strong woman and an inspiration. God Bless You Laura! 🙏❤
Thank you so much Laura. I really needed this video. My own mum has pancreatic cancer (likely terminal). My family and I are going through hell at the moment. I’ve watched a bunch of videos on RUclips about how to try and cope with this situation and yours is one of the best of them. I really appreciate it.
She must be so proud of who you've become. Thank you for this video!
Thank you ❤
Laura! Chciałam ci BARDZO podziękować za ten film 💗 Moi rodzice również zmarli na raka, tata gdy byłam mała, ale mama 2 miesiące temu. Jesteś pierwszą osoba przez którą czuje się zrozumiana 💗 (szczególnie z dzieleniem się z mamą każdą ważną dla mnie informacją, której nikt inny nie zrozumie). Przepłakałam pół filmu ale tak wiele rzeczy do mnie dotarło... Myślę, że potrzeba sporo odwagi by nagrać taki firm i jestem pod ogromnym wrażeniem tego jak wypowiadasz się o mamie i jak dbasz o to by zawsze była przy tobie w myślach. To najdłuższy film jaki w życiu obejrzałam na RUclips ale jestem pewna ze będę do niego wracać w ciężkich chwilach❤️ DZIĘKUJE
Weronika ❤️ Czytam ten komentarz już któryś raz i za każdym razem przechodzą mnie ciarki. Bardzo dziękuję Ci za te słowa i jestem wdzięczna, że mój film mógł Ci pomóc. Nie jesteś z niczym sama, pamiętaj ❤️ Ściskam Cię bardzo mocno.
Laura, thank you for making this video. The fact that you share so openly and honestly is so appreciated. I lost my Mom in 2019 from breast cancer. I regret that I didn't write a eulogy for her because I couldn't get myself together. I was one of the pallbearer for her, but that was all I could do. Deep, deep grief overwhelms me still. I was born on her 35th birthday and her wedding anniversary to my dad. I too am not in contact with my father as he is still alive today. He did not treat her or us children well. My siblings all talk to my father, but I wrote him a letter to release him. So much like you, I feel orphaned as well. I love your heart and your kindness, the love you have for your Mom is incredible. Thank you for sharing your pain, grief, process, and your graciousness. Peace be with you, and hopefully our Moms are smiling on us and at peace, rest and freedom from the entrapment of the sick bodies that they resided in. Many blessings.
I lost my mom last saturday... I will find strength and be the man she wanted me to be. She was a very strong woman.
I've lost my aunt couple of months ago...I know what you are going through and I'm really really sorry about your mom 💔...keep going I like your stuff you are amazing person 👍
I'm so sorry. My heart goes out to you.
You’re such a strong and inspirational woman.
You're so kind ❤️
Hugs. Grief counseling is so important.
🥹🙏🏽💕💐 watching this to process my grief… thanks for being so open about your experience. You hit major key points that I’m going through now . 🙏🏽
Oh, sweetheart. Stay strong!
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Your mom's blessings will always be with you forever.
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Thank you for sharing your experience with losing your mom! It's so incredibly helpful! Unfortunately we don't always know how to work through grief.
Beautiful Mum, beautiful family pictures. I am so happy that you were brave enough to make this video to honor your mom and help yourself to take a step to heal your self. That was very brave.
My beautiful mom passed away of leukemia just over a week ago. She was my best friend and my biggest supporter. I feel so broken and lost, like life is pointless now and I'll never be happy ever again. She was only 53, I miss her so much. 💔
Lost my mom this yest too to cancer. I'm so sorry you have to go through this too. Sending love and strength your way. ❤
My mom was 53 too 💔
Lost my mom to cancer to at just 53.. I hope you have found peace
lost my mom last week and she would’ve turned 53 later this week.
Laura, podziwiam Twoja siłę, dziękuję Ci za ten film, dziękuję, że dzielisz się Twoja zalaba. Bardzo Ci współczuję i życzę wiele siły i zrozumienia dla samej siebie. Podziwiam Cię jako osobę odkąd znalazłam Twój kanał. Jesteś cudownym człowiekiem, a ten film bardzo mnie poruszył. Trzymaj się Kochana ❤️
Dziękuję, Marzena ❤️❤️
Thank you, dear. That was very kind of you to share with the rest of us who are looking for comfort and perspective. God bless you and your late mother. I'm sure she couldn't have been prouder of you.