I just barely found out about religious trauma. This is me 100%. The "rapture" had me terrified so much so that one day at the age of 15 I walked into my house and noticed no one was home (from a large family) I immediately thought I had been left behind and the terror struck me as. I sat in my room and cried in fear. Later realizing my family came in asking why I was crying. I told them they laughed. It was funny at the time. Bit now I realize it was not. I was so triggered
That's so sad. I used to cry at night not wanting my family to die in the tribulation, so I feel you on that fear. I'm sorry that you went through that, and I hope that you are healing from it.
Thanks for sharing your experience. It's truly eye-opening. I was born and raised from a moderate muslim family. While I did not experience "indoctrination" the way people who grow up in church, monastery or "pesantren" (it's a religious residential school for Islamic community), I did experience fear and anxiety due to the indoctrinated religious ideas. Now that I know such a thing as RTS, I couldn't believe it took us this long to realize the negative impact of telling children that there is a man in the sky that watches you 24/7. He has a list of things he wants you to do. If you don't do it, you will be punished forever, eternally in lake of fire. Imagine what damages that will be given to the children, insane.
Yes it's so crazy what they teach you "out of love" I'm glad to be rid of it. I'm glad you're here and I hope the info is useful to you in your healing journey!
As a survivor of a cult, it’s tough to listen to and a triggering of painful memories. To this day 25 years later I remain agnostic if not strait up atheist.
When I was ten, my mother told me that "the Lord" told her not to allow me to go over my uncles house. He had 3 daughters, and I would play with them. That was my only outlet to play, socialize and be a kid. I couldn't do anything kids did. I could never play with kids in the neighbors because she said everyone was trying to voo-doo her. All I could do was go to school, church, and work at the restaurant with her that my uncle owned. That's where my social isolation began and last for three years. When I entered high school, nothing was the same, as I always felt I didn't belong and I felt this viscerally, and I've had issues ever since. Being around ppl outside of work and school did not feel normal and I still struggle to this day, and I'm 51. And forget about relationships. If God loved me, why didn't he help me out that psychology hell hole? You don't have to be neatened or sexually abused to suffer. Psychological trauma is just as bad. My kids don't understand my weirdness, and it was hard to form a bond with them as kids, probably because I was so detached as a person. Can't bond and connect with anyone. It's like a living death. My oldest sister would always say "nobody wants to be bothered with you" and that turned out to be a self-fulfilling prophesy. I hate this life, and literally wake up wishing that I didn't.
Hi! I was also raised in a church similar to yours. Many of the things you mention hit home for me. I suppose I was always an outsider, or felt that way, and there was a lot of status climbing in my church. Not only was it controlling, but it was exhausting. My PTSD comes in nightmares that I have to find a long skirt to go back to church in. :(
I'm sorry that you experienced that. And yikes at the finding long skirt nightmares!! I've had similar dreams and I have never been so happy in my life to wake up from them. I wish you well on your recovery journey. You're not alone.
We all have a lot of healing to do, and it' is a privilege to begin. I am so glad that you are out! You're not alone in your journey. I hope you are doing as well as you can be and finding peace!
I never considered myself as having ptsd from trauma either until I hit every symptom and was like ..... oh 😬 it’s also just life to go through stuff and you don’t need to diagnose yourself as having anything, but I hope that having some guideposts will help you navigate whatever it is that you are going through 🙏🏼❤️
Wow the beating when crying wasn’t in a cult for me, that was from my own dad.🥺 Growing up, you’re right about the anger. Growing up I always hid my anger, or suppress it A LOT. And especially crying, I’m also highly sensitive. And it lead me to feeling suicdal. For me it’s more of emotional, physical, religious, abuse all together. I’m now realising a lot of emotions of anger and sadness, and learning it’s okay to cry, it’s okay to be angry.
I'm sorry to hear that. I've also experienced that. You deserve to express your anger and heal from the cruelty you had to experience . You are allowed to experience all human emotions and express them. Proud of you for doing the work to realize it, I know it's not easy.
Very insightful and given the beliefs of some religions, you can see where it leads to. The whole rapture idea I can see leads to being hypervigilant because you never know when it might occur to be ready at all times.
I got iver being in a cult but realizing I was lied to since birth about a magical being that I must live my life serving forever.! That's what I haven't gotten over like I thought.
As a fellow human, I can perfectly understand how all these early teachings about God impacted and weakened our ability to stand for ourselves and support our dreams and projects in this world, but what if the messages we got from others represent in actuality God's will? that thought, that possibility is what is robbing me of my sleep. How can we completely sure as humans who can see beyond this life that those teachings are not God's will. All my life I have felt as if God's Will is to humiliate as by "divine force, aka "punishment". It's as if God were telling us: if you do not do as I say, you will get severely punished. I feel like God is asking me something I cannot give as a human creature. I've reached my limit. Totally I agree, there's no encouragement of human development yet we all know that our passions are genuinely ours, came from God (or we would not have them otherwise). We are told God gave us free will, but then we are blamed for wanting to thrive in the only world we've ever known. So there's a huge contradiction of "divine purpose". There's only encouragement towards the afterlife or eternity, that way our psyche is conditioned to believe that all this life's achievements are worthless in the eyes of God almighty who's the owner of everything and every one as if the only way to live in their company was for us to be willing to humiliate ourselves in from of Him as if we hold absolutely no dignity at all. I got to tell you: sometimes I so as if I was talking like a demon, and that is frightening beyond words. The thing is we were told the teachings of the Bible are God's own words spoken through his disciples and through Jesus Himself. The Bible taught that this world and its things are evil and thus should be avoided, so how can we go against that? Is it wise to challenge an almighty God? How can we know that we are gonna hold some measure of power and control over our own life beyond this life? All these questions are frightening in themselves. Religious people taught me that if one gets so ingrained in earthly pursuits, or his/her soul is, then his/her salvation is at stake because earthy things prevent us from loving God as He expects to be loved. Can religious trauma, as defined by psychologists, be considered another form of rebellion against God's Will/Commandments? Is God's Will to bypass the needs and wants of the human psyche as if they don't exist? I was taught that God wants us to honor and put Him in the first place, as the first commandment states. and only so we are allowed to enjoy the things of this earthly life. Sometimes I feel God is and thinks almost exaclty like a fascist army officer
I think this is a good representation of the inner dialogue that goes on when we attempt to hold conflicting beliefs that make no sense and all contradict each other. It's sounds like you're trying your best but are still a little bit scared and confused, please remember that there is nothing wrong with you, the reason this is confusing is because it makes no sense. I think it's important to start with who you want to be and walk boldly towards it. A lot of these questions are designed to keep you in confusion and you do not actually need to ask or answer them. Come back to yourself, ask yourself who you want to be, and start there.
My apologies after googling your name and finding your yoga website I see that you live in California and the person I am thinking about lives in Miami. Disregard, God bless you and I hope the wind is always at your back.
For me I was wrongly diagnosed and put on meds. They made me have SI. Messed up spiral was that completing "it" would mean I'm burning in hell for ever so I actually didn't commit because of that. Then though just the thought was a sin so I was stressing. Because of my family dynamics I learned to read people and also not be trusting. I never felt like I could talk to my pastor. In my 5 pastors I've had at churches only 1 seemed truly humble and relatable. I still wouldn't confide in him though. Hard part is still believing in God. Knowing the Bible enough that when I question a part of it I can instantly think of several areas in where that's wrong. I went through this with a therapist who use to be Catholic and even they were like "WOW, wow, wow, okay. 🤯" (They were very expressional lol) Was raised Evangelical Lutheran so not as strict as you but still strict by many peoples standards. Oh let's not forget worrying about burning in Hell is a sin also since if you believe you are saved. But those who believe will try to follow the guide lines which I often stumble at leading me to worry. Rinse repeat.....
I relate to most. Except one thing... But first. I grew up religious, not a cult though... But that and chronically bullying from being on the autistic spectrum. Led me to develop diagnosed PTSD, Avoidant/Borderline/Dependant & 5 of 7 Paranoid PD, Dysthymia, and anxiety disorder, gender dysphoria. The thing I don't relate to, is that this world is good. I have individuals that are tho. But the world in general? Is not a safe place. Is not good. People treating each other like shit so easily... There's really on a societal level an empathy deficit. And I'll forever be hypervigilant and distrustful.. But that comes with the growing up that I've had. I don't physically hurt anyone, I keep to myself. There's a lot of anger, mostly towards myself... push on that, take my little bit of space that I have for myself away... Eventually you're going to find yourself in a deep black splitting. Again I won't physically lash out, I hate violence... But boi, all the things that you did, I'll surely let you know how awful all that was. And then I go home, cry, hate myself some more.
This one hurts. I'm sorry that you hate yourself. Truly. I've been there and I resonate with this really hard. I hope that you know that you can slowly but surely walk out from that. you don't have to go through your life hating yourself and mistrusting people. It sounds like you already have some good individuals around you and I hope that them being part of the world gives you hope. I think as a world we are trending in the right direction as far as empathy and human rights becoming more conscious topics as opposed to 100-300 years ago. But i understand if you are still in a space that feels reall difficult. One thing that I did was try and find ways to be proud of myself, so even if I had a shitty day, there was at least one thing I did that I could be proud of myself for. Then one day it became two things, then and it kept climbing from there. Your'e not alone in how you feel, but I encourage you to win the battle for your mental health. You don't deserve to hate yourself.♥️
@@AngelDeSantis Oh, if you take on centuries of things, Yes! I do believe it is getting better. But these last few decades? Idk about these... They are surely, taking a step back again. I've only lived on this place about 36 years. So, my experience is limited, and certainly only 1 viewpoint. Societal pressures like, late stage capitalism, And people getting more divided. (I think? seemingly? I mean, there always has been... But it feels we're worsening again... After that world war...) I mean, I think what we are seeing is human's survival instincts kicking in. And instead of helping them, getting those basic needs met. We condemn and hurt them more for how they're behaving. But fail to realize, that when you get a crisis hit... Boi, how fast is that grocery store emptied again? Boi, how fast are you grabbing that gun to either defend or raid your neighbours for how you may have another day? Sigh... T_T. This world hurts. And seeing all that...
Angel you're doing a great job! Do I have your permission to translate in Italian few minutes of your videos?Let me know thanks.( Brief clips to bring a lot of people to your channel, that's my idea......)
Your cult seems they were a little rough on you. Sorry you had to endure that. I grew up in a Pentecostal/Full Gospel/Apostolic style of Church. Our women could wear make up, however the skirts and shorts better below the damn knees. lol I grew up with the Hell, Fire and Brimstone preaching. You better believe I would run my butt up to the alter. Cry my eyes out, because I still had a desire to watch the Smurfs You read that right... Smurfs. The Smurfs were deemed "Evel" and thus I no longer was able to watch it. It seemed like everything was deemed evil as a kid. I felt awful and ignorant, cause I was unable to see Satan's tricks. I guess I fell for them every damn time. I grew up in a Pre-Millennium Dispensationalism (damn that is a big word) teaching. We were the whole, "Jesus is going to come back any moment!!! Don't get left behind." While I was really intrigued by the Rapture Teaching, I was also deathly afraid of being "Left Behind." If you got left behind, you was about to get your ass kicked by God, them after smashes you to bits, he was going to throw you in HELL. This wrecks havoc on a kids mind. As a kid, you would come home and your parents not home for some reason, or end up separated from them in the grocery store, for just a little too long, and your mind would immediately think, "They have been Raptured!! I have been 'Left Behind'" It would have been tough times for a 9 year old. Good Video by the way.
Thank you. And I agree that it is absolutely terrifying to be taught that you might be left behind and be threatened with hell as a child, I'm sorry you had to go through that. Glad that you no longer believe it and I hope you are able to continue your recovery!
Im not sure if my experience was the same. I literally a couple months ago started to try and heal. Ive been out of the church for 5 years but never realized until 2 or 3 months ago something is very wrong. I have been diagnosed with ptsd and cptsd. I just right now heard about religious abuse trauma. I have wake up literal screaming nightmares because i went through many excorcisms and every session was hours at a time. I also have trauma from other things not related to church that happened in my home or maybe it was to do with church IDK. So im at the very beggining of understanding things and starting my healing journey. I was raised in this cult/church from the time i was 4 and so i dont know anything about anything rn if that makes sense. It was a pentecostal church with the speaking in tounges etc. Kind of struggling really bad right now. Ive also been diagnosed with bi polar and borderline personality disorder. I was diagnosed while still in the church wich was why the excorcisms. They kept telling me im demon possessed. It was and still is so terrifying. I struggle immensly with this fear of being demon possesed. I hope that wasnt to dark but im not sure if this is the same as you guys went through. Theres a lot more but thats the basics
I wanted to add that I not sure that allowing this psychiatric terms as PTSD define us is a good thing since it can be really detrimental to the perception of the healty self we want to be. I think it is best to avoid them, because they can be use both ways also, I mean this whole multi-millon business of pharmaceuticals and mental illness can work as stigmatas for our self image, which in turn is detrimental to our self love. I am ok with using the to clarify the eefects of psychic abuse, but in the lonf run I think there are not helpful especially since they can be use by other people to condemn our uniquess as individuals. I think it's best to stay away from labels, but is a personal opinion
That's a very fair assessment. It definitely is unhealthy for some people to be diagnosed with anything because it allows them to say "I guess I'm broken" and stop doing the work to heal. But I think the kind of people who end up here are actively trying to heal and are not the kind of people to give up. I also am not a doctor or a clinician of any sorts, so take everything I say with the entire bag of salt!
I just barely found out about religious trauma. This is me 100%. The "rapture" had me terrified so much so that one day at the age of 15 I walked into my house and noticed no one was home (from a large family) I immediately thought I had been left behind and the terror struck me as. I sat in my room and cried in fear. Later realizing my family came in asking why I was crying. I told them they laughed. It was funny at the time. Bit now I realize it was not. I was so triggered
That's so sad. I used to cry at night not wanting my family to die in the tribulation, so I feel you on that fear. I'm sorry that you went through that, and I hope that you are healing from it.
I use to have reoccuring nightmares of the same thing. Not alone in this
Thanks for sharing your experience. It's truly eye-opening. I was born and raised from a moderate muslim family. While I did not experience "indoctrination" the way people who grow up in church, monastery or "pesantren" (it's a religious residential school for Islamic community), I did experience fear and anxiety due to the indoctrinated religious ideas. Now that I know such a thing as RTS, I couldn't believe it took us this long to realize the negative impact of telling children that there is a man in the sky that watches you 24/7. He has a list of things he wants you to do. If you don't do it, you will be punished forever, eternally in lake of fire. Imagine what damages that will be given to the children, insane.
Yes it's so crazy what they teach you "out of love" I'm glad to be rid of it. I'm glad you're here and I hope the info is useful to you in your healing journey!
As a survivor of a cult, it’s tough to listen to and a triggering of painful memories. To this day 25 years later I remain agnostic if not strait up atheist.
I'm sorry that it is triggering. I hope you are able to slowly work through the pain so you can release it. You are not alone.
yes! i was apart of a religious cult for 3 years and your vids help me so much. I appreciate you so much for speaking out about this!
When I was ten, my mother told me that "the Lord" told her not to allow me to go over my uncles house. He had 3 daughters, and I would play with them. That was my only outlet to play, socialize and be a kid. I couldn't do anything kids did. I could never play with kids in the neighbors because she said everyone was trying to voo-doo her. All I could do was go to school, church, and work at the restaurant with her that my uncle owned. That's where my social isolation began and last for three years. When I entered high school, nothing was the same, as I always felt I didn't belong and I felt this viscerally, and I've had issues ever since. Being around ppl outside of work and school did not feel normal and I still struggle to this day, and I'm 51. And forget about relationships. If God loved me, why didn't he help me out that psychology hell hole? You don't have to be neatened or sexually abused to suffer. Psychological trauma is just as bad. My kids don't understand my weirdness, and it was hard to form a bond with them as kids, probably because I was so detached as a person. Can't bond and connect with anyone. It's like a living death. My oldest sister would always say "nobody wants to be bothered with you" and that turned out to be a self-fulfilling prophesy. I hate this life, and literally wake up wishing that I didn't.
I recently had a PTSD episode in a charismatic church. After healing of church-related hurts, they came screaming back. Took me a week to recover 😢
Nice to see this part of disorder discussed, there is a need to reexamine things in religious practice 👍👍
Thank you, and yes I agree on the need to re-examine religious practices!
Hi! I was also raised in a church similar to yours. Many of the things you mention hit home for me. I suppose I was always an outsider, or felt that way, and there was a lot of status climbing in my church. Not only was it controlling, but it was exhausting. My PTSD comes in nightmares that I have to find a long skirt to go back to church in. :(
I'm sorry that you experienced that. And yikes at the finding long skirt nightmares!! I've had similar dreams and I have never been so happy in my life to wake up from them. I wish you well on your recovery journey. You're not alone.
Everything you said I can resonate with and I was in a cult until I left. I have a lot of healing to do.
We all have a lot of healing to do, and it' is a privilege to begin. I am so glad that you are out! You're not alone in your journey. I hope you are doing as well as you can be and finding peace!
Great video! Thank you for doing these! You are doing amazing work for people like me! Thank you so much!
I'm struggling so much lately. I don't think of myself as having ptsd or trauma but I can relate to every one of these....
I never considered myself as having ptsd from trauma either until I hit every symptom and was like ..... oh 😬 it’s also just life to go through stuff and you don’t need to diagnose yourself as having anything, but I hope that having some guideposts will help you navigate whatever it is that you are going through 🙏🏼❤️
My friend Trevor raves about u! Thanks so much for speaking on this!
Thank you for the support, so helpful.
Thank you so much! I'm glad to hear it 🙏🏼
Wow the beating when crying wasn’t in a cult for me, that was from my own dad.🥺
Growing up, you’re right about the anger.
Growing up I always hid my anger, or suppress it A LOT.
And especially crying, I’m also highly sensitive.
And it lead me to feeling suicdal.
For me it’s more of emotional, physical, religious, abuse all together.
I’m now realising a lot of emotions of anger and sadness, and learning it’s okay to cry, it’s okay to be angry.
I'm sorry to hear that. I've also experienced that. You deserve to express your anger and heal from the cruelty you had to experience . You are allowed to experience all human emotions and express them. Proud of you for doing the work to realize it, I know it's not easy.
Very insightful and given the beliefs of some religions, you can see where it leads to. The whole rapture idea I can see leads to being hypervigilant because you never know when it might occur to be ready at all times.
thank you so much for this! you are literally an angel, Angel!
You're so welcome! I hope it was useful!
I got iver being in a cult but realizing I was lied to since birth about a magical being that I must live my life serving forever.! That's what I haven't gotten over like I thought.
As a fellow human, I can perfectly understand how all these early teachings about God impacted and weakened our ability to stand for ourselves and support our dreams and projects in this world, but what if the messages we got from others represent in actuality God's will? that thought, that possibility is what is robbing me of my sleep. How can we completely sure as humans who can see beyond this life that those teachings are not God's will. All my life I have felt as if God's Will is to humiliate as by "divine force, aka "punishment". It's as if God were telling us: if you do not do as I say, you will get severely punished. I feel like God is asking me something I cannot give as a human creature. I've reached my limit. Totally I agree, there's no encouragement of human development yet we all know that our passions are genuinely ours, came from God (or we would not have them otherwise). We are told God gave us free will, but then we are blamed for wanting to thrive in the only world we've ever known. So there's a huge contradiction of "divine purpose". There's only encouragement towards the afterlife or eternity, that way our psyche is conditioned to believe that all this life's achievements are worthless in the eyes of God almighty who's the owner of everything and every one as if the only way to live in their company was for us to be willing to humiliate ourselves in from of Him as if we hold absolutely no dignity at all. I got to tell you: sometimes I so as if I was talking like a demon, and that is frightening beyond words. The thing is we were told the teachings of the Bible are God's own words spoken through his disciples and through Jesus Himself. The Bible taught that this world and its things are evil and thus should be avoided, so how can we go against that? Is it wise to challenge an almighty God? How can we know that we are gonna hold some measure of power and control over our own life beyond this life? All these questions are frightening in themselves. Religious people taught me that if one gets so ingrained in earthly pursuits, or his/her soul is, then his/her salvation is at stake because earthy things prevent us from loving God as He expects to be loved. Can religious trauma, as defined by psychologists, be considered another form of rebellion against God's Will/Commandments? Is God's Will to bypass the needs and wants of the human psyche as if they don't exist? I was taught that God wants us to honor and put Him in the first place, as the first commandment states. and only so we are allowed to enjoy the things of this earthly life. Sometimes I feel God is and thinks almost exaclty like a fascist army officer
I think this is a good representation of the inner dialogue that goes on when we attempt to hold conflicting beliefs that make no sense and all contradict each other. It's sounds like you're trying your best but are still a little bit scared and confused, please remember that there is nothing wrong with you, the reason this is confusing is because it makes no sense. I think it's important to start with who you want to be and walk boldly towards it. A lot of these questions are designed to keep you in confusion and you do not actually need to ask or answer them. Come back to yourself, ask yourself who you want to be, and start there.
@@AngelDeSantis thank you I liked that :)
99.9% resonated with me. Ugh, that means i have a lot of work ahead😮
My apologies after googling your name and finding your yoga website I see that you live in California and the person I am thinking about lives in Miami. Disregard, God bless you and I hope the wind is always at your back.
Ha, no worries! And thank you!
loving the content!
Thank you! I hope it's useful!
I was wondering if you live in Florida. You look like someone I went to school with and my curiosity is getting the best of me. Thank you
For me I was wrongly diagnosed and put on meds. They made me have SI. Messed up spiral was that completing "it" would mean I'm burning in hell for ever so I actually didn't commit because of that. Then though just the thought was a sin so I was stressing.
Because of my family dynamics I learned to read people and also not be trusting. I never felt like I could talk to my pastor. In my 5 pastors I've had at churches only 1 seemed truly humble and relatable. I still wouldn't confide in him though.
Hard part is still believing in God. Knowing the Bible enough that when I question a part of it I can instantly think of several areas in where that's wrong.
I went through this with a therapist who use to be Catholic and even they were like "WOW, wow, wow, okay. 🤯" (They were very expressional lol)
Was raised Evangelical Lutheran so not as strict as you but still strict by many peoples standards.
Oh let's not forget worrying about burning in Hell is a sin also since if you believe you are saved. But those who believe will try to follow the guide lines which I often stumble at leading me to worry. Rinse repeat.....
So good Angel 🙏👏🏼
Thank you so much!
I relate to most. Except one thing... But first.
I grew up religious, not a cult though... But that and chronically bullying from being on the autistic spectrum. Led me to develop diagnosed PTSD, Avoidant/Borderline/Dependant & 5 of 7 Paranoid PD, Dysthymia, and anxiety disorder, gender dysphoria.
The thing I don't relate to, is that this world is good. I have individuals that are tho. But the world in general? Is not a safe place. Is not good. People treating each other like shit so easily... There's really on a societal level an empathy deficit.
And I'll forever be hypervigilant and distrustful.. But that comes with the growing up that I've had.
I don't physically hurt anyone, I keep to myself. There's a lot of anger, mostly towards myself... push on that, take my little bit of space that I have for myself away... Eventually you're going to find yourself in a deep black splitting. Again I won't physically lash out, I hate violence... But boi, all the things that you did, I'll surely let you know how awful all that was.
And then I go home, cry, hate myself some more.
This one hurts. I'm sorry that you hate yourself. Truly. I've been there and I resonate with this really hard. I hope that you know that you can slowly but surely walk out from that. you don't have to go through your life hating yourself and mistrusting people. It sounds like you already have some good individuals around you and I hope that them being part of the world gives you hope. I think as a world we are trending in the right direction as far as empathy and human rights becoming more conscious topics as opposed to 100-300 years ago. But i understand if you are still in a space that feels reall difficult. One thing that I did was try and find ways to be proud of myself, so even if I had a shitty day, there was at least one thing I did that I could be proud of myself for. Then one day it became two things, then and it kept climbing from there. Your'e not alone in how you feel, but I encourage you to win the battle for your mental health. You don't deserve to hate yourself.♥️
@@AngelDeSantis Oh, if you take on centuries of things, Yes! I do believe it is getting better. But these last few decades? Idk about these... They are surely, taking a step back again. I've only lived on this place about 36 years. So, my experience is limited, and certainly only 1 viewpoint. Societal pressures like, late stage capitalism,
And people getting more divided.
(I think? seemingly? I mean, there always has been... But it feels we're worsening again... After that world war...)
I mean, I think what we are seeing is human's survival instincts kicking in. And instead of helping them, getting those basic needs met. We condemn and hurt them more for how they're behaving. But fail to realize, that when you get a crisis hit... Boi, how fast is that grocery store emptied again? Boi, how fast are you grabbing that gun to either defend or raid your neighbours for how you may have another day?
Sigh... T_T. This world hurts. And seeing all that...
Angel you're doing a great job! Do I have your permission to translate in Italian few minutes of your videos?Let me know thanks.( Brief clips to bring a lot of people to your channel, that's my idea......)
Yes of course! I am planning to do some translations of my newer work but please feel free to sample and translate!
@@AngelDeSantis Grazie mille, thank you very much!
i needed to hear this
I'm glad you did.
I don't do therapy because it never worked for me.
Your cult seems they were a little rough on you. Sorry you had to endure that. I grew up in a Pentecostal/Full Gospel/Apostolic style of Church. Our women could wear make up, however the skirts and shorts better below the damn knees. lol I grew up with the Hell, Fire and Brimstone preaching. You better believe I would run my butt up to the alter. Cry my eyes out, because I still had a desire to watch the Smurfs You read that right... Smurfs. The Smurfs were deemed "Evel" and thus I no longer was able to watch it. It seemed like everything was deemed evil as a kid. I felt awful and ignorant, cause I was unable to see Satan's tricks. I guess I fell for them every damn time.
I grew up in a Pre-Millennium Dispensationalism (damn that is a big word) teaching. We were the whole, "Jesus is going to come back any moment!!! Don't get left behind." While I was really intrigued by the Rapture Teaching, I was also deathly afraid of being "Left Behind." If you got left behind, you was about to get your ass kicked by God, them after smashes you to bits, he was going to throw you in HELL. This wrecks havoc on a kids mind.
As a kid, you would come home and your parents not home for some reason, or end up separated from them in the grocery store, for just a little too long, and your mind would immediately think, "They have been Raptured!! I have been 'Left Behind'" It would have been tough times for a 9 year old.
Good Video by the way.
Thank you. And I agree that it is absolutely terrifying to be taught that you might be left behind and be threatened with hell as a child, I'm sorry you had to go through that. Glad that you no longer believe it and I hope you are able to continue your recovery!
Im not sure if my experience was the same. I literally a couple months ago started to try and heal. Ive been out of the church for 5 years but never realized until 2 or 3 months ago something is very wrong. I have been diagnosed with ptsd and cptsd. I just right now heard about religious abuse trauma. I have wake up literal screaming nightmares because i went through many excorcisms and every session was hours at a time. I also have trauma from other things not related to church that happened in my home or maybe it was to do with church IDK. So im at the very beggining of understanding things and starting my healing journey. I was raised in this cult/church from the time i was 4 and so i dont know anything about anything rn if that makes sense. It was a pentecostal church with the speaking in tounges etc. Kind of struggling really bad right now. Ive also been diagnosed with bi polar and borderline personality disorder. I was diagnosed while still in the church wich was why the excorcisms. They kept telling me im demon possessed. It was and still is so terrifying. I struggle immensly with this fear of being demon possesed. I hope that wasnt to dark but im not sure if this is the same as you guys went through. Theres a lot more but thats the basics
Wow! I’ve always felt that
I grew up in the Bakersfield United Pentecostal Church, I am 64 and still dealing with the pain
@@ginamartinez1654 I watched the devil being cast out of church members, it was terrifying.
I wanted to add that I not sure that allowing this psychiatric terms as PTSD define us is a good thing since it can be really detrimental to the perception of the healty self we want to be. I think it is best to avoid them, because they can be use both ways also, I mean this whole multi-millon business of pharmaceuticals and mental illness can work as stigmatas for our self image, which in turn is detrimental to our self love. I am ok with using the to clarify the eefects of psychic abuse, but in the lonf run I think there are not helpful especially since they can be use by other people to condemn our uniquess as individuals. I think it's best to stay away from labels, but is a personal opinion
That's a very fair assessment. It definitely is unhealthy for some people to be diagnosed with anything because it allows them to say "I guess I'm broken" and stop doing the work to heal. But I think the kind of people who end up here are actively trying to heal and are not the kind of people to give up. I also am not a doctor or a clinician of any sorts, so take everything I say with the entire bag of salt!