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Delta
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I’m a 26 year old woman professionally diagnosed with Narcissistic Personality Disorder and Antisocial Personality Disorder (narcissistic sociopath). Sharing my experience to hopefully spread awareness about this complex, stigmatized diagnosis.
FAQ:
•“Can a narcissist be self aware?”
Yes.
•“Is my ex a sociopath/narcissist?”
I can’t answer that. I’m not a doctor.
•”Are you in a relationship?”
Yes. I’m engaged to a beautiful woman.
•”How did you get diagnosed?”
I was forced to go to residential treatment center for anorexia and the issues NPD&ASPD were causing me.
•”Are you sure you’re not misdiagnosed?”
Yes. I’m sure. I was in residential treatment for almost a year where I was observed 24/7. Keep your diagnosis thoughts to yourself. No one cares.
•”Can I be your sugar daddy?”
No. Stop asking me this. It’s annoying.
FAQ:
•“Can a narcissist be self aware?”
Yes.
•“Is my ex a sociopath/narcissist?”
I can’t answer that. I’m not a doctor.
•”Are you in a relationship?”
Yes. I’m engaged to a beautiful woman.
•”How did you get diagnosed?”
I was forced to go to residential treatment center for anorexia and the issues NPD&ASPD were causing me.
•”Are you sure you’re not misdiagnosed?”
Yes. I’m sure. I was in residential treatment for almost a year where I was observed 24/7. Keep your diagnosis thoughts to yourself. No one cares.
•”Can I be your sugar daddy?”
No. Stop asking me this. It’s annoying.
I’m a Narcissistic Sociopath: one of my backwards thought processes
I’m a Narcissistic Sociopath: one of my backwards thought processes
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10 Weaknesses of a SOCIOPATH, By a Sociopath
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10 Weaknesses of a SOCIOPATH, By a Sociopath
the issue of sexism in diagnosing cluster b personality disorders
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the issue of sexism in diagnosing cluster b personality disorders
ASPD and NPD: I’m pathologically manipulative
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ASPD and NPD: I’m pathologically manipulative
Core Beliefs of a Narcissistic Sociopath
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Core Beliefs of a Narcissistic Sociopath
I have ASPD and NPD: pathological envy
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I have ASPD and NPD: feigning ignorance
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I’m a narcissistic sociopath: I briefly felt GUILT
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I’m a narcissistic sociopath: I briefly felt GUILT
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I’m a Narcissistic Sociopath: How I Know I Truly Love My Partner
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SKIT: me (a narcissistic sociopath) talking to someone about guilt
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I’m a narcissistic sociopath: 8 situations where guilt makes zero sense to me
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the 9 diagnostic criteria for being a NARCISSIST and how they apply to me
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7 incorrect assumptions people make about me as a narcissistic sociopath (ASPD + NPD)
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Diagnosed NPD & ASPD: how I worked on my need for narcissistic supply
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we shouldn’t tell people they can’t change/manage their mental illness
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we shouldn’t tell people they can’t change/manage their mental illness
how I experience my emotions as a sociopath (ASPD)
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I have NPD and ASPD: how I got diagnosed
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I’m a diagnosed narcissist: do I think Colleen Ballinger is a narcissist?
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i am so envious of your arms :')
Wish you all the best , must be hard exposing yourself, one thing you do have is bravery
Amazing Perspective. Thanks for sharing
I have so much respect for you for your transparency ❤️❤️❤️❤️
Uuuumnm yeaghhh😂
A single stick breaks easily, whereas a bundle of sticks is difficult to break. Cooperation is strength, and it is a higher level of survival. Toddlers only think about themselves because they are weak and underdeveloped. So the narcissists and so on believe they are strong but continue to sabotage their own survival through their weakness and delusion. It’s laughable and sad. I just feel sorry for you. I wouldn’t want to be that weak. Sounds like living in hell, and deluding yourself into thinking it’s heaven. Lol. Clown mentality. Maybe that’s why so many psychos are clowns too? Lmao
Surviving your bad childhood by cutting off your emotional development and basically turning yourself into a robot is actually not surviving your bad childhood at all. It’s just the opposite: it is letting your bad childhood destroy and define you 100 percent. That’s not survival. That’s weak. You hate weakness? Well that’s WEAK!!!! And anyone and everyone can see that. The only one who has blinders on is you. Please understand that it doesn’t take any work at all to have a reprobate mindset. That’s again, the opposite of personal development. It takes strength to rise above it. In fact, that’s what makes us different than animals. Right now it’s ALL about you and your needs. It’s not that love is weak, it’s that you are weak because you have no love to give. You know that deep down better than anyone. You have no love to give because you are in survival mode because you have been through a tremendous amount of pain and abuse. It’s a vicious circle and you are like a hamster on a wheel. But who are you hurting? Only yourself. 1) stop hurting yourself. 2) stop letting other people hurt you. 3) find God because all good things come from Him. You will never want to change for the better until you accept the fact that you did not survive your childhood-it completely destroyed you. But you can still be an overcomer. It’s going to be a long road however. I will pray for you. I had a bad childhood too so I get it. But Jesus heals. You only feel proud of doing bad things because you want to be in control. You only want to be in control because you want the pain to stop. You think pain needs to be in the picture and you would much rather be the one dishing it out than taking it. You think life revolves around pain. You think pain is a CONSTANT. Someday in the future you will see that your life is not defined by pain. It never was. You just let it be. Let your life revolve around Jesus instead of pain. He’s the only one who is big enough to shoulder your pain. If you don’t believe me just pray that He comes into your life and God will send someone to you to help you grow spiritually. You can only go up! Love is CONSTANT. Someday you will see that. And even if I found myself completely alone in the world I would have love. Why? Because if you know God you are never alone in the world. Because God loves me, I can find good in myself and I can love myself. But right now you think God is a fairytale and Christians are just weak Jesus freaks. That’s because you can’t look back on years of your past and see God-instances and miracles that happened when you were in trouble and God helped you. That’s because God didn’t move in your life on a regular basis. Why??? Because you never even gave Jesus a chance in the first place. Just because you have seen no proof of God in your life, doesn’t mean other people have seen the same nothingness that you got. Think my life was a cake walk? It wasn’t. But God got me through the really bad times. I’m going to pray that if you are sincere and you ask God to come into your life, you will feel his Holy Spirit inside of you. (It won’t happen the second you pray, God is not Burger King. You don’t get to have it your way exactly when you want it. He’s the king of Kings.) But I’m going to pray that you feel His Holy Spirit at least once. Why? Because if He reaches out to you, you will be made new. It’s life-changing! And if you didn’t want help, you would have never made this video. Because your whole video is just one desperate, pain-filled cry for help. Think I’m wrong? You didn’t even introduce yourself. You basically just said I am this disorder. Well let me be the first to tell you that that’s not who you are. That’s who you choose to be. But I don’t see you that way. And either does Jesus!
I view it as weak, because yeah, you used it as a survival mechanism, but you’re only strong enough for the most basic, weakest level of survival, and cannot evolve to higher levels of cooperation and community, which would improve survival further, but you’re too weak to get that or practice that because you’re still stuck in an earlier stage of development
Best definition of the demonic I’ve heard so far.
You are so disgusting 😂❤!!
This is beautiful in a sick kinda way. 💞 I understand you.
So does this basically mean you are holding people unrelated to your fkd up childhood responsible and even punishable for it. Thats unjust. You must be the first person people invite to a party. P.S. why do you think Dr. RUclips is the answer?
Thank you, bow I can understand my father better
thanks for sharing, interesting perspective as I am living w a neglectful narcissist that hates me for me emotions, and care for animals. Thanks 💔❤️🩹
Jesus love you and want you to change that evil mentality, love neighbor like you love yourself, GOD BLESS YOU AMEN
How do you know what Jesus wants???
You're not a Delta. Soldiering is not publicly known.
I grew up with abusive toxic evil spirited narcissistic alcoholic parents . my mother is the covert narc & father the grandiose type. in my family crying was considered a weakness. They destroyed our family. caused rifts between the siblings... they receive satisfaction hurting people and are proud of it. both my parents were abused when they were children and I found hurting people hurt people. I decided I wasnt going to continue the cycle of abuse to the next generation, my new family because of my soul wounds. the best principle that allowed me not to become like them and that worked for me is do unto others as you would have them do unto you Matthew 7:12 and Luke 6:31. I wasn't going to treat others the way they treated me. I wasnt even going to give them the satisfaction for them to say she is just like us. heck no! today, It is still a process of healing... I could just imagine what you had to suffer through. thank you for sharing :)
Thank you for sharing, you’ll probably hate me saying this, but it was brave of you to do so ❤
Thank you for sharing, you adapted to the world you were dumped in I so get that. Your ability to self reflect is highly admirable. Keep speaking your truth & shining light on to your pain until you see the truth of who you are.
So, you acknowledge that the traits that make you feel pride are profoundly negative. You even said they are the "worst parts of humanity". You also acknowledged that empathy, kindness ect. are good. So how do you reconcile knowing that your traits are very, very negative but simultaneously feeling proud of them? You feel proud of being a bad person?
I like the way that you humanize people who have these diagnoses
Thanks for sharing, very insightful.
Sounds like someone that belongs in the wilderness. Sounds good.
Blah blah. Do the work. Its called work cuz its hard. Go tell your story to someone who cares cuz o dont. You guys and gals ruin this planet. You give nothing . You take anything.
EXCORSIZE THE DEMON
Stopped listening when she said”my wife”.
They don’t even try
Atleast the only good thing is the fakes are back on their side, thanks to someone…. :) something I couldn’t have accomplished.
You’re beautiful.
Good thing you did it or else I wouldn’t have known.
It’s ok.
Actually, these labels exist to demonize people like you who are inconvenient to the society that created you. A narcissist is simply what they call someone who won't give in to social pressure to conform to that society and sociopathy is when you're disobedient and disloyal to the system that enabled your abuse. You're the way you are because of those things, there's nothing wrong with you, they are rational responses to the primary abuse *and* secondary abuse like this. But you're the aggrieved party and society has the obligation to accommodate and repay its debt to *you,* not the other way around. And if they don't, well, a navy seal can't even test himself in elective combat as an adult the way you've been tested in youth. =)
When you see „connection and bonding as weak“ why are you even married?
Hard to believe that you are like that. You seem so normal and open.
Thise qualities caused you more suffering in probably the worst time of your life. It makes absolute senses that you'd deem the qualities that protected you and gave you strength to survive as good. And in that time of need, they absolutely were good, now its just going to be very very hard to learn that they're not always good. They'll always be a apart of you. A part that you can access any time you're in danger, and now youre learning to grow a different side of yourself that can be equally as helpful in different situations. I hope the best for you in all of your healing and learning. Hopefully one day, you can feel safe enough to let yourself rest from being in fight or flight all of the time. 💖
Thinking and praying for you, for every sinner Jesus heals, loves and saves
All I see is a frightened little girl who deep down is kind and caring but would rather portray the opposite as a defense mechanism.
Exactly. Trauma doesn't cause sociopathy. People are born with it. Narcissists don't admit they are narcissists. That's part of the diagnoses
It's confusing! Is it different to a narcissistic phycopath?
Most people are manipulative, their just more supple with it. The never admit it.
Yeah, everyone who don't agree with mainstream culture is a nazi these days.
Alienhead 10 head ah
Forgiveness is the key. esp for those that hurt you, causing you to "survive
Fuck that! The people who have traumatised her so that bad that she is now a sociopathic narcissist don’t deserve forgiveness! She CAN forgive if she wants to, but she clearly don’t HAVE to forgive! I hate this “You have to forgive”-Bullshit so much! It’s so toxic!
The family cat that my wife loves supposedly so much was on its deathbed, and my wife was supposed to go get her tattoo done, and I told her instead of getting the tattoo save the cats life because I was broke after paying all the bills told her to reschedule it And she went and got the tattoo anyways and allowed the cat to suffer for two more weeks until it was about to die and it went from a $400 bill to $1000 bill I had to pay
Nothing entitles you to manipulate other people for your own desires but you do it freely and are proud of it. Please stop doing that. Misdiagnoses is a massive problem among professionals, they aren’t gods, a very high percentage of them have disorders themselves. People who’ve spent thousands of hours researching the same textbooks, and have the benefit of living with the “patient” for years or decades, and have experienced the behaviour first hand are qualified enough to see the glaring signs of narcissism and psychopathy.
You are Beautiful
Hurting other people isn’t what protected you.
The fact that you are open about it makes you genuine anybody “showcasing” kindness is faking it and are way more psychotic than you could be
Yeah that's true. No one is proud of having compassion or empathy. So fake
existing with your mindset must be draining as hell. kinda like a full time job that pays nothing but negative returns.
actually the complete opposite. i have to deal with nobody's bullsh it, ever. take away the bs in life, your living a good existence.
Wtf is a narcissistic sociopath. Do you mean a malignant narcissist?
I'm sure you've heard all this already, but in case you haven't and for those who haven't: those things _are_ weakness, but _it's okay to be weak._ In fact, the ability to show weakness, to be vulnerable even when it might blow up in your face, that's incredibly strong. Strength comes from _managing_ your weakness, not from trying to hide it or eliminate it; humans cannot exist without weakness, because if we were never weak, we could never be strong. These behaviors are based on fear; a behavior is only as good as its root, and fear is a weakness, making what you perceive to be a strength into a weakness. Casting off that fear and letting down your guard takes immense strength... But it shows, and I can promise that it pays off.