Second Part to Yesterday’s Video
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- Опубликовано: 20 авг 2024
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Hello Everyone!
I’m back with part 2. I filmed this within the same day but I wanted to give my first video some time for people to see it. I got a little distracted in this one and honestly, this is exactly how I am in person. I feel like this video has the most of my personality out of the rest lol. Regardless, I wanted to share my thought process and the changes that I’m going through.
It’s funny, whenever I’m in a good mental state, I know that this is the prime time to get things done. I know if I can start a healthy habit now, even if my mental state regresses again, I can just follow my routine to stabilize myself again. I’ve asked my chat for some advice on asking for help, and I think the next video I’m going to do is reading off what I’m going to tell Carlos. Ahhh, a little nervous just thinking about it 😩
Anyways, love you all! Thank you to everyone that comments, you guys help me so much 🥺🤍
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To those who are experiencing the same types of struggling 🖐🏿, your videos are perfectly coherent in all of there incoherence. I've now watched all of your videos and you have showed me someone who deals with many of the things I deal with. I appreciate your joy in spite of the struggle, please cultivate and keep that. I lost much of my joy along the way and am working to get it back. I've been pretty miserable again lately. Today has been good though. Problem is, I just can't ever seem to keep the good vibes for long. I just don't have the endurance to keep things moving. When some bullshit happens, my whole being seems to shatter and I have nowhere to go. Then I'm angry, ruminating, dissociating...gone. I'm married with 3 daughters so when i disconnect, they see the shell of a person. It sucks. Anyway, keep keeping your videos real. If people don't like the content, they'll stop watching. There will still be those who identify with and appreciate it. It's risky being seen, I trust it'll be worth it somehow.
You know what, kuddos to you for recognizing this in yourself!! While your daughters may see you during those down times, they’re also seeing someone fighting to get they’re life back together. Don’t ever give up that fight!! And trust me, I know it’s easier said than done. But everyday is a battle and you’re choosing to be here to fight it anyways you can. Don’t let life knock you down!! Find joy in anything you can! Even a silly video like mine is 13mins of not being present in that negativity, embrace that! Thank you for taking the time to comment and watch my videos!! You are an amazing role model to your kids and I’m wishing you nothing but the very best!! Joy comes and goes, but we can celebrate it for when it’s there’s and that we get to experience it at all. I sound like a preacher right now 😂😂
good luck yazmin!!! you got this papi
Ahh thank you!! ❤
you're athletic with perfect skin - you won the genetic lottery, so just remember that whenever life starts to feel overwhelming
Hello! Thank you for your comment!! You know, this is the second comment I’ve gotten that talks about my looks. While I understand the privileges that can come with looks, like in the dating world, as of currently, they’re not helping me even if it’s a little bit. They’re not helping me with my job, or my school, or my mental health. In addition, I’m still confused how this relates to what I’m talking about. Being attractive hasn’t helped me in my life, except maybe when finding a date. Which, if I can be honest, there’s more to life than that. I don’t know, I feel like every video now someone mentions how I look and I just fail to understand why that’s so important
What has helped me though when life gets overwhelming is remembering the people in my life who love and support me. Now that, I’m very lucky to have!! And very blessed ☺️
I love your videos 👍😁❤
Thank you so much!!! 🥺❤️
Ngl i kinda want to do a my story video because of you. But for all the wrong reasons 😅. I really felt like because of my trauma I would never find someone akin to me to love. I really felt like people would hear me and just roll their eyes and think I'm a weak person, making justifications for my poor choices. I know there were way better ways for me to handle things, or at least try to, but I avoided confrontation. Hearing your story really made me comfortable with not being perfect. I always felt like I was lesser, missing something, forsaken, but simply most people arent perfect. And frankly, childhood trauma is probably the best time to have it, cause you learn, and grow, and most people are making mistakes even with a healthy life.
Honestly is trauma dumping really that toxic? I just want to relate, I feel like my recent change to a religious mindset is only explainable through my past.
I feel like those are all the RIGHT reasons to make videos!! For me personally, it just feels good to let it all out. I was so worried of who was going to watch my videos and just general anxieties of having my truth being out there. But honestly? No one’s really watching lol. And I like that. It lets me be more open and just get shit off my chest. I also avoid confrontation like the plague, and alot of times I never say what needs to be said. These videos are like a validation on my feelings. I think you should try it!! It’s worth a shot! And worse case, you can always delete them! At least you tried it out to see
❤ Do you ever feel like a plastic bag drifting through the wind....
wanting to start again!! 😢 DO YOU EVER FEEL!! ALREADY BURIED DEEP!!!
You are so very sweet. The world was a very good place for me when I was on top of things as a full-time artist. Now,, for me, it is all almost unbearable to go on. Now, everything is conflated... I understand you. I would do anything to... I think I'm going to start vanlife before I end up.... nevermind... I love you and your videos
I'd listen to you talk everyday
Thank you so much for your comment!! What type of art do you do? If possible, do you have a page where you share your art? I would love to see it 😆 you should totally start a van life if you can! While I’ve heard they’re alot of work to start, it’s also rewarding to work on a project and see it to completion. I hope that you’re able to be back on top of your art again. Thank you for your existence, just know on this channel, your presence is always welcome 🤍 I’m wishing you all the best in your journey ☺️
Hehe also it feels good knowing someone out there likes my videos. You’ll be on my mind when I make them from now on ☺️
@@FUN2SEE100 I'm a musician, novelist and poet. Maybe I'll share some with you.
@@FUN2SEE100 that'd nice to know :) you're on my mind a lot as well lol, that's as weird as I'll get.. if you knew my real name there are plenty of sites to see examples of my work, including an alias on this site, Apple, Spotify, borders, and various others.. yea, maybe I'll share later
You are awesome Yasmine. Thanks for sharing!
Thank you for your continuous support 🤍