So, I did Ayahuasca... | My Spiritual Perspective and Experience

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  • Опубликовано: 10 июл 2024
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  • @AfuraNefertiti
    @AfuraNefertiti 4 месяца назад +5

    Thank you for sharing your experience. And the psa about supporting the tribes and doing it correctly ❤

  • @EverInFantasy
    @EverInFantasy 9 дней назад +1

    I’m mixed and in the process of connecting with my mestizo ancestors from Ecuador so thank you for the extensive information in this video! I’m working to learn about all of my ancestry around the world before taking part more actively in more intensive spiritual experiences. But thank you for showing support for the tribes, culture, and land:)

  • @jackietripp1716
    @jackietripp1716 5 месяцев назад +24

    There are many self proposed guides here in Asheville but i would never want to do it that way. Go to the source in the rainforrest and respect respect respect. While i was getting my clinical certificate in Herbalism I learned that the ayahuasca vine also contains a substance that is used for lamp oil. So i suppose it " lights the way " in many ways....

    • @RuneChaosMarine
      @RuneChaosMarine 5 месяцев назад +1

      Asheville NC represent!

    • @RuneChaosMarine
      @RuneChaosMarine 5 месяцев назад

      @@user-ni7qx8zx1r most of north carolina is being over developed, as well. some cities are trying to keep the homless out. but you know.

    • @nursebettycares9119
      @nursebettycares9119 5 месяцев назад

      Where did you attend to get your clinical certificate in herbalism?

  • @athlene110
    @athlene110 2 месяца назад

    Hi Jacob. Thanks for sharing everything. I'm glad you did extensive research to make sure you were safe (mentally, physically, spiritually and emotionally) while doing the medicine and of course, that you listened to your intuition to know when it was the right time for you to do it and where. I loved at the end that you talked more about your healing journey. Please do more videos on your healing journey when you can/feel like it as I am also on my healing journey and like learning how others are coming along and what they've been doing. 😊🙌

  • @usmankhan-dp6ul
    @usmankhan-dp6ul 5 месяцев назад

    Again great video. Bravo! 😊

  • @SeanFish4
    @SeanFish4 2 месяца назад

    Nice video. I can see the shift in your energy 👍

  • @edb2478
    @edb2478 5 месяцев назад

    Hey buddy! Just checking in on you! I’m so proud of you and very happy for you!

  • @sewisinc.4545
    @sewisinc.4545 5 месяцев назад +5

    Right yesterday it was when I wondered if you were doing okay because you hadn't posted a video in a couple of weeks. Glad to you see back.

  • @Nils_Ironwolf
    @Nils_Ironwolf 5 месяцев назад +3

    The fire and the drum. The mystery in the mist. You are on the Great Journey, and I am incredibly proud of you!

    • @mattias5157
      @mattias5157 5 месяцев назад

      Where did you have your ayahuasca experience? There are many ways, but in the Shipibo tradtition that I´m familiar there is neither fire nor a drum present during the ceremony.

  • @kevinspaganjourney2593
    @kevinspaganjourney2593 5 месяцев назад

    Sounds like an interesting and very spiritual experience. Hope you found everything you were looking for brother

  • @timothylawson1512
    @timothylawson1512 5 месяцев назад

    Thank you for sharing your experience.

  • @user-kj2fh8wh3e
    @user-kj2fh8wh3e 4 месяца назад +1

    wow. You've grown so much since the last time I saw you, I've not been able to watch you as much as I used to because of work. But I stopped working and I went on your channel to catch up, and after this video I can see that you have grown so much both spiritually and mentally. So fun to see.

  • @lisapatterson9297
    @lisapatterson9297 3 месяца назад

    Thank-you for this!!! I have done some plant medicine healing and have been very curious about ayahuasca ❤

  • @J0kerScars
    @J0kerScars 5 месяцев назад +2

    Nice to see you open up to trying this out. I remember in older videos you were hesitant and a bit against using psychedelics or other type of drugs when it came to spiritual meditations/activities.

  • @wanderingwolf1272
    @wanderingwolf1272 4 месяца назад

    thank you for sharing. it was very enlightening.

    • @Gbc-ww8hp
      @Gbc-ww8hp 4 месяца назад

      On Instagram.......

  • @fit4nature298
    @fit4nature298 4 месяца назад

    Very informative. Frontline spiritualism. Thanks for this

  • @Timetravel1111
    @Timetravel1111 5 месяцев назад +12

    Hail Odin and sky gods wisdom’s.

    • @mattias5157
      @mattias5157 5 месяцев назад +3

      Haha, Odin himself just tried ayahuasca for the first time a while ago and went: "Well, that´s some strong mead!"

  • @suzannebeam6935
    @suzannebeam6935 5 месяцев назад

    I just found your channel yesterday and am thoroughly enjoying your content. Thank you for sharing this experience with us. My boyfriend is considering trying Ayahuasca and I'm going to have him watch this.

  • @maevelogan6069
    @maevelogan6069 5 месяцев назад +1

    Thank you for sharing your experiences with us. For me the Spirit Journey is a Healing Journey, for as I've connected to Spirit I have found wounds that have needed healing and my journey began with meditation...

  • @kev1734
    @kev1734 5 месяцев назад +1

    I'm so happy for you! You look so damn comfy in that poncho 🥰 Very interesting I know a little bit about ayahuasca. Mushrooms actually helped me begin healing. I was a lot more comfortable in my own skin after that which helped me work through depression. But everything has to be in moderation and or balanced.

  • @Aethuviel
    @Aethuviel 5 месяцев назад +7

    So many pagans stop at learning about the myths and stories, or comparing it to Christianity, but you really go all the way and show that you are serious about spirituality, not just the "costume" of it. Since ours is a faith broken by many generations, we need to go to places like these to help rediscover it, bit by bit.
    I wonder if you know about Bruce Parry, he made the documentary series "Tribe/Going Tribal" and is a seriously dedicated and respectful person when visiting tribal communities, a lot of the episodes deal heavily with the spiritual as well, and he did have some experiences like this. I've also read a couple of more recent articles about his goals and he's a very interesting man.
    Myself, I'm interested in this as well but being TTC for a time now and hopefully looking forward for a few years of pregncy/ies and breastfeeding, obviously I won't be doing this now, but maybe when I'm 40.

  • @PaganRyan28
    @PaganRyan28 5 месяцев назад

    Awesome video

    • @Gbc-ww8hp
      @Gbc-ww8hp 4 месяца назад

      On Instagram.........

  • @garymorgan3443
    @garymorgan3443 5 месяцев назад

    So happy you had the aya experience. Remember... you must do the work to get the reward. Best of luck.

    • @Gbc-ww8hp
      @Gbc-ww8hp 4 месяца назад

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  • @johngaltman
    @johngaltman 5 месяцев назад +3

    I have thought about trying Ayahuasca to help with PTSD from some of my experiences I had in the military, 21 years and both Iraq and Afghanistan, but I am truly afraid that some of the experiences would be way too much to handle without the right people around to help guide the experience.

  • @Sllayt3r
    @Sllayt3r 5 месяцев назад +1

    I’ve been microdosing for a while now but the yearn for this plant medicine is getting stronger. I’m 40 next year and I think it might be about time. ❤

  • @be-twixt
    @be-twixt 5 месяцев назад +1

    So happy you got to experience such a thing. I have not done that type of hallucinogenic medicine but understand through other types. Each medicine is different than others in aspects of course. I’m also curious if this medicine awakens the spirits of its own land only or if it shows you the spirits of the land you take it on. Honestly would love to see you travel and get more chances to partake or get to watch allowed shamanistic practices in various cultures. I find it fascinating. I salute the poncho 🫡 it’s been through it and survived.😄

  • @sophieb1211
    @sophieb1211 5 месяцев назад +1

    Thank you so much for sharing this. I’m a few years in on my own healing journey and I go back and forth on the idea of trying plant medicine. But honestly it freaks me out, I’m scared of the change it might bring, what I might see even… but by the same token, maybe that’s exactly why I need to try it. Can I ask, what was it that tipped you over and made you decide to try it?

  • @heatherwelch3747
    @heatherwelch3747 5 месяцев назад

    Hi Jacob i am a beginner into Norse paganism and i am currently on my own healing journey. my sister is pagan and she got me started but i chose Norse paganism because i feel a deep connection with the Norse Gods, i have learned so much from watching your video's and i look forward to learning more. thank you so much.

  • @VchaosTheoryV
    @VchaosTheoryV 5 месяцев назад

    I've had many great experiences on Shroomies. It's all about set and setting. With the right friend and music, the experience can be life changing. I've seen the creation of mankind, the connection between God and Mankind through the painting of Leonardo Divinci, etc. I'm glad you were safe and had a great time. The beautiful thing of it is as well is that those lessons that you've learned and seen will forever be with you for years to come.

  • @WolfMage888
    @WolfMage888 2 месяца назад

    I agree - there are some many other avenues of spiritual healing, spiritual connectedness and spiritual understanding. Ayahuasca is not a cure all, not meant for all, and not the answer. I am concerned that it has become a trend, a phase, or the in thing to do. You gave a lot of warnings I hope people will appreciate your concern. Risk v rewards, in truth, seek other opinions if you have any doubts. Listen to your intuition.

  • @torkforsaken5363
    @torkforsaken5363 5 месяцев назад

    00:01 Congratz Jacob, I’m honestly happy for you.
    07:04 I want a poncho too.

    • @Gbc-ww8hp
      @Gbc-ww8hp 4 месяца назад

      Jude_spores.......

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      @Gbc-ww8hp 4 месяца назад

      On Instagram.........

  • @kahwigulum
    @kahwigulum 2 месяца назад

    Ayhuasca is not just a root boiled into tea. It's a root boiled into tea taken with the emulsified leaves of another plant which acts as an MAO inhibitor which helps the psychoactive effects of the root take effect. If you just boiled down the roots and drank them as is without the MAOI, your stomach acid and intestines would filter and break down the drug as they do any poison, and all you'd do is throw up with very little or no psychoactive effect. Ayhuasca is often associated with the jaguar spirit as it's said that it was the jaguar which led men to know which roots to ingest. Participants are often also said to experience jaguar imagery as well, and gain the ability to talk to animals during the ceremony.
    One thing the uninitiated participant needs to know is that you will puke and shit your guts out. This is normal. You will also see things that are uncomfortable. This is expected. My advice is to walk towards the conflicts. If you see a door, go through it. If you see something intimidating, confront it. Let go of your ego and just let the experience take you away as if you are floating on a river. Give up to the experience and enjoy where it goes. As long as you fight the experience, the worse the experience will go. Just relax and realize that you chose to do this, so affirm yourself by going through with it.

  • @WafflingWillow
    @WafflingWillow 5 месяцев назад +1

    Does make you think that Gods aren't so omnipresent as I had believed, and they seem to be more localized. I guess that might be why I kinda struggle to connect with Greek and Norse Gods, because I live so far away from them. Not that they can't visit internationally, but I wonder what that means for when you pray to them, how much influence do they really have in your area?

  • @ANToxic777
    @ANToxic777 5 месяцев назад +1

    I was wondering if you will get to interact with persistent Norse entities, yet it seems ayahuasca being ayahuasca so rainforests come non-negotiably :D
    I wish there were a way to commune with the spirits as reliably. Amanitas are very reminiscent of psylo journeys in the cases, where enough sanity remains to remember. While nightshades are far too risky to try on your own.
    And even if the entity does end up taking the shape of your query - how can one tell that what is summoned it not an imposter?
    Discernment is the greatest hail Mary.

  • @Meg.Radiant
    @Meg.Radiant 5 месяцев назад

    I am interested! I have used psychoactive plant medicine (cacao and blue lotus) but not psychedelic. I've had amazing results with those so far!
    I have a question - i use a walker. How was getting around there? I use it more for balance than anything, though I tire easily.
    Thank you for this video!

  • @thewolfgirloracle
    @thewolfgirloracle 5 месяцев назад

    The only time I went through a Ayahuasca ceremony was about 18 years ago in Tennessee at a retreat I went to. A Peruvian Shaman along with his female assistants were there to facilitate the 4 day ceremony. We were actually given guidance 6 weeks before we even did the ceremony! We were asked to stop eating meat, ween off of caffeine, nicotine, alcohol, and processed foods. We needed to start an outdoor meditative practice (at the time I was Buddhist, and had a pretty rigid indoor practice, so I just had to translate that to the outdoors). The ceremony itself was very powerful for me. The question I had was "who am I now...what have I become". Over the course of the first 3 nights it was a slow build up. The slow build up is important to eliminating anxiety about what you are doing and what might happen. The fourth night I purged, and as disgusting as it was, it really felt GOOD to release all the pain and trauma that plagued me. I did this trip on a whim because a friend was going and didn't want to go alone...but I truly feel like it was MY destiny to do it...not hers. I agree with you that we could have used a couple more days. I also agree with you that doing the ceremony in the jungle among the Spirits of THAT land using that land's plants might have been even more powerful. Maybe I wasn't ready for that at that time. I'll tell you what...I am ready for that now! I hope to do exactly the same kind of ceremony as you did sometime very soon. Thanks for your insights!

    • @thewolfgirloracle
      @thewolfgirloracle 5 месяцев назад

      Also...Ayahuasca tastes horrible. It was probably one of the worst things I have ever made myself drink LOL!

  • @julieking5151
    @julieking5151 5 месяцев назад +1

    Maybe a dumb question, but was the cleansing something that happened taking the Ayahuasca? Or something you did to prepare to take it? Neat experience, thanks for sharing ❤️

    • @Gbc-ww8hp
      @Gbc-ww8hp 4 месяца назад

      Jude_spores..........

    • @Gbc-ww8hp
      @Gbc-ww8hp 4 месяца назад

      On Instagram.........

  • @cbluebeard
    @cbluebeard 5 месяцев назад +1

    Careful with the dark chocolate in the states. Loaded with heavy metals.

  • @123canadagirl
    @123canadagirl 5 месяцев назад +1

    It’s not something I’d do as I have medical issues. It looks like they screen you ahead of time so hopefully no one has a serious heart condition or something else that going through all the diarrhea and vomiting will not be good for them. I have kidney problems so for example diahhrea and especially vomiting are to be avoided if possible. I think they should have a medical person on staff though in case to be safer. The rest of the retreat sounds interesting if I skipped the tea drink. But probably you could do that somewhere else then as the tea ceremony with this plant seems like the main element of this retreat. Stay safe all who decide to go. Vomiting can lead to extreme dehydration so hopefully they encourage the participants to drink adequate water afterwards

  • @dameranhel
    @dameranhel 5 месяцев назад +2

    As far as your experience goes with the plant medicine, Do you feel it had a significant impact on your perspective when it came to your personal practices or beliefs? I'm curious about how that process was for you as a Norse Pagan.

    • @TheWisdomOfOdin
      @TheWisdomOfOdin  5 месяцев назад +6

      I experienced both Norse themed visions. As well as South American. I definitely think everything is connected more now.

    • @morethanmeetstheeye1355
      @morethanmeetstheeye1355 5 месяцев назад

      @@TheWisdomOfOdinThank you for sharing your experience. Having followed your page I feel like I can trust your words.
      Oh - I saw in a long ago video where you showed a Druid sacred space with the basin and footprint carved out of a crag/boulder in Scotland. Just outside of St. Andrews there is the same basin and footprint. The Magick of it is the font/basin is spring fed and never goes dry and never overflows! Dunio Den. The space has been dated to 4,000 bc.
      I was there in September ‘23. That two hour visit was incredible. I was alone and then two women came to it as well. The feel there was both serene and had an energy that you can only feel at those crags.

    • @dameranhel
      @dameranhel 5 месяцев назад

      @@TheWisdomOfOdin thank you for your response. I appreciate it.

    • @Gbc-ww8hp
      @Gbc-ww8hp 4 месяца назад

      Jude_spores........

    • @Gbc-ww8hp
      @Gbc-ww8hp 4 месяца назад

      On Instagram.........

  • @molotulo8808
    @molotulo8808 5 месяцев назад

    Do morning glory seeds, to trio on lysergic acid amide.

    • @Gbc-ww8hp
      @Gbc-ww8hp 4 месяца назад

      On Instagram.........

    • @Gbc-ww8hp
      @Gbc-ww8hp 4 месяца назад

      Jude_spores.........

  • @nightangel486
    @nightangel486 5 месяцев назад +1

    Always use the buddy system lol

    • @Gbc-ww8hp
      @Gbc-ww8hp 4 месяца назад

      On Instagram........

  • @RemainRealProductions
    @RemainRealProductions 5 месяцев назад

    Amazing, Psychedelics are an incredible gift. Natural ones of course.

    • @Gbc-ww8hp
      @Gbc-ww8hp 4 месяца назад

      Jude_spores.........

    • @Gbc-ww8hp
      @Gbc-ww8hp 4 месяца назад

      On Instagram.........

  • @urban_druid
    @urban_druid 5 месяцев назад

    Would you be willing to take it in a location where Norse ancestors preside? I am curious if you would see more Norse spirits.

    • @TheWisdomOfOdin
      @TheWisdomOfOdin  5 месяцев назад +3

      I think taking mushrooms in northern environment would make more sense and have similar effects

  • @Wilhelm4131
    @Wilhelm4131 5 месяцев назад +1

    Having experimented with psychedelics in my youth I do believe they have their place in society under correct conditions but for most people they can do more harm then good. No one I know really became better people just more confused and degenerate in their behavior. They usually lost all sense of themselves and gave up on who they are and their connection to their ancestors. Or they life would just kick in and whatever you learned would go away like it was a distant memory. Also, calling it medicine is highly subjective.

    • @hawktalk639
      @hawktalk639 5 месяцев назад

      They really helped me find myself after Christianity. Still do. Psychedelics mean "mind manifesting", and I guess some folks probably should leave their minds unmanifested.

  • @cherihayward350
    @cherihayward350 5 месяцев назад

    I've done shrooms would love to try that

  • @noahhecker6672
    @noahhecker6672 5 месяцев назад

    Expand your mind man ✌️

  • @blackstonewielder19
    @blackstonewielder19 5 месяцев назад

    One of the only bad ceremonies conducted by a South American curandero I've heard of was when he decided to mix in brugmansia (hallucinogenic, but also very poisonous) and the participants weren't properly informed

  • @RemainRealProductions
    @RemainRealProductions 5 месяцев назад +1

    A lot of the spirits you see, are probably the very same Gods you worship, in their natural form not influenced by culture

    • @Gbc-ww8hp
      @Gbc-ww8hp 4 месяца назад

      On Instagram.....

  • @mrcjc9298
    @mrcjc9298 5 месяцев назад

    I’ve been told by people who dropped a••d about their experience. If it’s anything like that, it wouldn’t appeal to me. I like to keep a clear head.

  • @betmo
    @betmo 5 месяцев назад

    i feel like not using medicines where and how they should be...is inappropriate...it feels like folks try drugs to try drugs 🤷‍♀️ i know that your journey is leading you towards shamanism...so it makes sense but i agree with you about using the drugs in place...using the medicines for the right reasons makes sense

  • @westwing23
    @westwing23 5 месяцев назад

    I guess the only question I can come up with is, how to vet these people. Especially when english isnt their native language.

    • @TheWisdomOfOdin
      @TheWisdomOfOdin  5 месяцев назад +2

      The facility I used was run by English speakers who provided Spanish translation at the event

    • @westwing23
      @westwing23 5 месяцев назад +1

      @@TheWisdomOfOdin Awesome! Thanks Jacob!

  • @gabrielsmith-nilsen9953
    @gabrielsmith-nilsen9953 5 месяцев назад

    The auto tracking on your face was a little distracting, It seems to be delayed slightly when you move side to side.

    • @TheWisdomOfOdin
      @TheWisdomOfOdin  5 месяцев назад +1

      Yeah not using that feature next time lol. Still fiiguring out the new camera

    • @Gbc-ww8hp
      @Gbc-ww8hp 4 месяца назад

      On Instagram...........

  • @KerolosAmgad1
    @KerolosAmgad1 5 месяцев назад +1

    All respect from an atheist

    • @Gbc-ww8hp
      @Gbc-ww8hp 4 месяца назад

      Jude_spores.........

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      @Gbc-ww8hp 4 месяца назад

      On Instagram........

  • @molotulo8808
    @molotulo8808 5 месяцев назад

    Just do Kratom. Kratom saved my life!

    • @Gbc-ww8hp
      @Gbc-ww8hp 4 месяца назад

      Jude_spores........

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      @Gbc-ww8hp 4 месяца назад

      On Instagram.........

  • @teresa6775
    @teresa6775 5 месяцев назад +3

    Yes, we can all afford to go to south america 🤣🤣

    • @TheWisdomOfOdin
      @TheWisdomOfOdin  5 месяцев назад +3

      It’s cheaper than you might think!

    • @teresa6775
      @teresa6775 5 месяцев назад +1

      @@TheWisdomOfOdin Hmmmm...perhaps I'll check into it.

    • @Timetravel1111
      @Timetravel1111 5 месяцев назад +1

      Well, it’s a spiritual journey so you’re taking this is basically a trip like a vacation so you would plan in advance and find a lower flight that would work with your budget. Generally if you’re going to Mexico, you can get a flight there around $450 and if you find a place where you can go with other people and share expenses like lodging.

    • @teresa6775
      @teresa6775 5 месяцев назад

      @@Timetravel1111 As a female, I'd be crazy not to go with a group. Traveling alone in a a different country as a female is not appealing at all 😄

  • @darrelljacobjr2120
    @darrelljacobjr2120 5 месяцев назад +1

    What happened to your big plan to build a Great Hall and place of worship? You were talking about buying land and blah blah blah! It seems all you do now is travel the world and visit ancient ruins. I've dropped my patreon subscription.

    • @TheWisdomOfOdin
      @TheWisdomOfOdin  5 месяцев назад +3

      If you actually paid attention then you’d know that is all handled by the Fellowship of Northern Traditions. The non-profit that was formed from this page. We have over 20,000 raised that I do not have usage of.
      Patreon has been my soul source of income for 4 years. And I have always communicated that.

  • @Timetravel1111
    @Timetravel1111 5 месяцев назад

    11:40 you’re throwing up, multiple times. It’s not your body’s way of saying this is not good for you -yes. I just think there’s KUNDALINI or mushrooms that could get you in entrance, reflective state. Is it worth it? That’s what I’m wanting to hear. Or people just tell them selves that it’s worth it because it’s hyped- trending? I’m genuinely asking.

    • @TheWisdomOfOdin
      @TheWisdomOfOdin  5 месяцев назад +2

      This medicine isn’t new. It’s something that goes back for countless generations.
      It’s considered a bitter medicine. Think of all the “chemical” medicines with massive side effects. This only has temporary discomfort for very deep levels of mental and spiritual healing. Worth it.

    • @hawktalk639
      @hawktalk639 5 месяцев назад +1

      It's worth it. The purging actually feels good to me... like releasing energy I no longer need.

    • @123canadagirl
      @123canadagirl 5 месяцев назад +2

      @@TheWisdomOfOdinexcessive vomiting dehydrates your body and can damage your kidneys. Hopefully the organization putting on these retreats is aware of this. As a person with damaged kidneys I’d never do this. If you do make sure you drink water and replace all the lost electrolytes you barfed up. Diahhrea can also lead to dehydration.

    • @Timetravel1111
      @Timetravel1111 5 месяцев назад +1

      @@hawktalk639 great point

  • @bullvinetheband7260
    @bullvinetheband7260 5 месяцев назад

    If god has anything to do with it I don't want to be apart of it.

  • @salembookworm
    @salembookworm 5 месяцев назад +1

    Actually kind of sad that you stray away from celtic and norse paganism and dive into this sort of thing.

    • @callsignzuluindiafour7676
      @callsignzuluindiafour7676 5 месяцев назад +2

      I disagree. All forms of religion are important on a spiritual journey.

    • @TheWisdomOfOdin
      @TheWisdomOfOdin  5 месяцев назад +2

      Kind of sad that you aren’t satisfied with 95% of my content that is Celtic and Norse based 😂 I’ll be back in Scotland soon. Chill

    • @Gbc-ww8hp
      @Gbc-ww8hp 4 месяца назад

      On Instagram.........

    • @xOwlStriKex
      @xOwlStriKex 2 месяца назад

      I don't know much about Odin, but it sounds like he would be curious enough to travel to different lands once in a while to learn.