I Didn't Know I Had an Eating Disorder.... *Almost30 Episode 4
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- Опубликовано: 15 окт 2022
- This is a super personal episode of almost 30..i talk about a time years ago when I didn't know I had an eating disorder. I wrote a letter to myself 10 years ago before I started struggling w/ food + weight
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This letter to your 19 year old self contained things so many people need to hear. Thanks for sharing this video 🙏🏽💖
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We love u❤❤❤❤
Hi Jo❤
Ahhhh it’s like a Disney channel collab seeing two of my favs!!
Jo Jo Jo! You are awesome and I love growing and glowing with you
This video hit deep. As someone who’s struggled with an ED as well and decided over the past week that today would be the day that I’m going to make an change in my life this video gave me a positive outlook on the struggles that I’m going to face and I couldn’t be more grateful for you positing this. This is going to help so many people like it just helped me. ❤️
I’m so proud of you for taking that step 🥹🥹 as someone who recovered after it felt nearly impossible at times, I know you can do it good luck on your journey 🤍🤍🤍🤍
I am so proud of you! you are so amazing and so strong! God bless you 🙏❤Jesus loves you 🙏❤
this series is so powerful.. i've been struggling with an eating disorder for 2 years i appreciate you so much for being honest and open with us❤️
I hope i articulated everything good! thanks so much for the love and so so sorry for what you've gone through
I love how you don't hide anything. You don't skip anything. You simply keep it real. I love it.
This series is so amazing! And so proud of you for being able to share this part of your life with the world. You're doing Great Alisha love you!!
I love the concept of this video! Right now I’m 19 to this video is kinda like a letter to me and advice for me cuz i am not the most confident in my skin ….so thank you for sharing your journey with us and i will always be an Alisha Stan!❤❤❤
I hear ya girl, skin was always my issue too! It was my insecurity 🥹
me too.
So I don’t have an older sister and I am currently 19, so this felt like some advice that an older sister would give. It was exactly what I needed to hear with all the struggles I’ve been going through thank you Alisha❤
Thank you for posting this 💝 I’ve been there and I know how badly it sucks~ so happy your health, both mentally and physically, has improved tremendously. Much love!
I’ve recovered from an ED this year and it’s incredible how sneaky they can be + how many of us are struggling without even knowing! You are like a sister to a lot of us (myself included) and sharing your personal experiences and the things you’ve learned is not only brave, but so helpful to all of us! Thank you Alisha and let’s get this self concept poppingggg❤
i’m literally gonna start crying right now. as someone who has been through absolute HELL with my ED, i hate that you have experienced that too. i’m so proud of you and in awe of you everyday alisha 🤍🤍🤍
i love you!!
@@AlishaMarie i love u more than life, you already know that but u saved my life and i will never be able to repay you 🤍
my dear, i love you, admire you, and adore you so much. thank you, again, for continuing to be willing to open and brutally honest about what life really is like. like so many of us i’ve seen you grow immensely on my computer and phone screens for most of my life in such awe and love. please always continue to remind yourself to be kind to yourself, and give yourself the grace you give others. love, always ❣️
@@AlishaMarie I’m training with a eating disorder and mental health and want I’m having a bed day or a mental breakdown or stress out or having a panic attack or anxiety attack i watch your video because you help me calm down and I love your video so much your my favourite RUclips and I also truly with self harm but I’m doing so much better now ❤I hope you get better so soon
15 years struggle and still trying to recover.
this series is so inspiring and special. you changed and matured over the years and you are AMAZING! I love you so much❤
this video/letter is just good for everyone in general. proud of you for sharing your story, some days it's hard and other days you're the one telling people to ditch the scale- but you will never regret ditching diet culture (i know i haven't)
this video was so beautiful. you have evolved so much as a person it’s crazy to watch honestly after all these years. the way you’ve opened up to us about so much in such a short amount of time too is overlooked. love you sm alisha🥹❤️
I absolutely love this series, it feels so comforting and I am always looking forward to the next video. Seeing you go through your journey whilst being kind to yourself is very inspiring. love you ;)
I can't say thank you enough for making this! I have went through the same struggles and have felt the same way. My body image has been what triggers if I am happy or not and it is something that is a daily thing I have to work on. I am so proud of you! Please never forget how special you are and have you are touching peoples lives everyday xo
alisha i've followed you for so many years and i'm just so proud of you. you are one of the very few "influencers" that have never made me feel shitty about myself or fed into my eating disorder. thank you for your transparency babe it truly means so much
Thank you for making/posting this video. I think I needed this video right now more than ever. I feel so seen. Thank you for sharing something so vulnerable but so important ❤️❤️
Thank you for sharing, Alisha. I really do appreciate the letter you wrote to your younger self and the things you reminded her (and me) of❤
Struggled with an ED for five years and have been beating myself up for gaining weight due to recovery ever since…but it’s getting a little easier every day. So proud of how far both of us have come!
Good look on your road to recovery I was on the verge of anirexia it is horrible on the mend. Light was at the end as I knew I could put back on the weight I had lost. You can do this. No meal plan just nutrious. 💜💫
Thank you Alisha for being so open. Those are good reminders for everyone. I have 2 years until I'm 30 and I'm honestly looking forward to next year to look back on everything this last decade has given me and what it has taken from me as well. Sending you love!
I’m so proud of you !! I feel like a lot of people needed to hear this ❤
This is so true! Love that you wrote this out like this. Because these are not just tips to someone in particular, this is advice EVERYONE needs to hear. they don't have to do anything with it... but they needed to hear it. to be aware of it
This made me cryyyyyy!!! I really wasn’t expecting to when I clicked to watch but after listening to your letter to yourself it really resonated and tbh I needed to hear exactly what you said. I started to think about what I would tell Me 10 years ago and BOY the tears streamed -this was such a good idea, I’m deffo doing this properly for/to myself when I have a hot minute and some composure
im in my early 20's struggling so badly with this, and it made me feel so much better knowing that I'm not alone and that you've been able to come out on the other side of things. Thank you
i’ve been watching you since i was about 12 and now i’m almost 19. i’m so glad i’ve gotten to grow up with u and watch someone who is REAL with us :)
I just turned 19. I’ve been watching you since about 2015, and this letter is something I really needed to hear. Growing up with you has been so amazing, all love lida
this series is so powerful and i’m so proud of you alisha ❤ this letter to your 19 year old self contained things that so many people needed to hear 😊 thank you for sharing this video! Even though, i’ve never had an ED, i’ve struggled with my weight and ngl, i’ve gained so much weight over the pandemic during quarantine. i always think about losing weight and being able to eat healthy but i don’t know how to get started or what to do ❤
This series is incredible and really adding value to the RUclips space right now, thank you Alisha. You are making vulnerable and impactful content!
I’ve watched you since i was 12 and i’m 21 now, i’ve learned so much from you, and this series is so powerful💗 much love
I'm turning 19 next year, and as an OG subscriber I just wanted to say how much I needed to hear this and how inspiring it is to hear you talk to your younger self like an older sister with words of advice. Thank you for being so transparent and real for us. I'm so proud of you !
loved this so much, love the whole almost 30 series, you have some really good messages in this that younger girls today really need
I’m in tears. Beautifully said. I needed to hear this today. Thank you thank you THANK YOU for using your platform to spread body positivity!💗
Just wanted to say I love the woman you have become. I truly feel like I know you. I am turning 28 in two weeks and have been subscribed to you for a literal decade !! 🤯 You and Ashley remind me just of my sister and I (same age difference too). Thank you for continuing to be your authentic self!❤❤
Thank you for taking the time to make this video. As someone struggling with body dysmorphia, this has helped me feel so much better. I know how difficult it can be to discuss past weight issues, but this has helped me more than you know. Thank you so much Alisha, we love you
I love how real and honest you are with your audience because you opening up helps so many others going through the same things they feel heard and seen. Thank you for that ❤❤❤❤❤
As someone who found out at the end of last year that I have had binge eating disorder for 10+ years of my life getting rid of my scale has helped so much, now instead of working out to be super skinny and a super low weight, I workout to be strong. Thank you for being so open 💚
Absolutely loved this video. I’m also approaching 30 and have always gone in and out of body dysmorphia on what seems like a yearly cycle. There are a lot of things you stipend in todays video that spoke loudly to me and made me feel like “I can do this too!”.
The closer I get to 30, the more I want to focus on loving myself and listening to my body and what feels good and right and healthy.
I am 19 almost 20 now, and I needed to hear this. This felt like a letter to my heart. Thank you❤
As a 19 year old who has watched you since you were in high school, this video is everything I needed right now. Its been so crazy to watch you grow. I struggle with a lot of these same issues and like I said before this is something I needed to hear right now.❤
I needed this❤I “recovered” from my ED but gained so much weight back to where my head goes back all the time. It’s a constant battle and some of us just need this reminder
what u say, do and upload really does impact people in ways u cannot imagine. including me. thank u, alisha
I love you!!!! I’m proud of you for making this
this was an unreal video. truly felt so raw, real and vulnerable. SO happy you are being true to you with this new content 🤍
This is in all honesty the one video if yours I can relate the most. I'm very hard on myself about weight and food and suppressing all bad memories have just made it worst. Thanks for the video, it has helped a lot❤️
I’m at work on my lunch and I started to cry towards the end.
Ohhhh my goshhhh ALISHAAAAAA
I look up to you like an older sister. I’ve seen you’ve grown and change and adapt over the years and it makes me think about my life and how I can do better too.
You’re not alone and we can turn our lives around together. I’m turning 26 this year and I’m married but it feels like I should be thinking about life differently. Granted I still have my party and goofy days but it’s still in the back of my head to be on your shit and eat right.
I wish you all the luck and love as you conquer these last few months as a 29 year old and I’m very excited what this new ALISHA era has to bring!!!!
Love you always ❤
-Alicia (sounds like alee-see ya )
This was amazing. I hope it was as therapeutic for you to write as it was for others to hear. I love what you’re doing with this almost 30 series. Sending love ❤
Absolutely sobbing at this video, I am SO PROUD of how far you’ve come❤️ this hit home
This was truly amazing. Thank you for sharing . You’ve come so far and I’ve watched you for years and I can honestly say you are at your best in so many different ways. You’re so beautiful inside and out. Never forget that ❤LOVE YOU BESTIE
I literally cried while watching this. Cause I am almost 30 myself will be next year like you and I totally related to almost everything you wrote to yourself. Struggled with my body and my self esteem since highschool and I also had a undiagnosed ED myself back then. This hit deep for sure. 😭 thanks for sharing Alisha and being such an inspiration. I’m so glad you are doing so well and I’m def looking forward to more almost 30 related content. And as someone who has been a long time subscriber(since you started) i am so proud of you ❤
We are So proud of you Alisha ❤️
This is the most needed and insightful video! So many young girls and women learn these lessons the hard way. Sending you a big hug!
The way I sobbed over watching this. 🥺 This resonated with me so much as someone who has struggled with weight their entire life. Thank you for being so raw and real and for encouraging us all to love the skin we’re in. 🥺💕 I think this is one of your best videos yet.
I love this. I am 23 and have struggled with food and an ED my entire life. This video was very helpful and I’ve been learning to start worrying about how I feel rather than how I look. Thank you❤
Thank you so much for this! I have recently been struggling with food and the way I look. You are my all time favourite influencer and this video was really well done and thank you for opening up about this because I know it can be hard to do so💛
Thank you for being so open about this I think this is what everyone needs to hear
I've been watching your videos since I was 16. Seeing how much this channel has evolved is amazing! Thank you Alisha for making content we can all relate to. Thank you for sharing something so personal with all of us. I am wishing you love and happiness, and positive energy! ❤
This made me sooo emotional. Thank you Alisha for being so real with us 💖
I am 56. I was so moved by this video! I sat in my kitchen watching in with tears streaming down my face. I am going to do the same thing. A letter to my 16 year old self! Thank you for being so transparent and vulnerable. You are the best! Love all of your content! Sending love and light from my house to yours. XOXOXO P.S. I wear green all of the time, too!
I’m finally in a place where I can work on my eating disorder. I struggle with both sides of it binging and then not eating. It’s so hard and it took me a long time to realize I had one tbh. Mental health is such a big part of my life and has been since I was little. Hence why I want to become a art therapist for children! I THANK YOU ALISHA for making this video 🤍🤍 thank you thank you thank you from the bottom of my heart.
I’m 24, I’ve always had a really weird relationship with food. I’m still trying to figure it out and I’m sure it’ll never be perfect but it’s comforting to hear that others go through it. Thank you for talking about this ❤ glad to hear and see you being so much better!
I am so proud of how far you’ve come, i’ve been watching you for YEARS and had no idea of all of this. Thanks for sharing im sure you will help a lot of people with this.❤❤❤
I’m 19 and loving the almost 30 series! a lot of the topics u touch on I can relate to now. I love your openness with all these different stories and love it so much. keep up the great work Alisha! 💕💕
This series is so amazing. The letter to your 19 year old self was everything that I needed to hear. Thank so much for sharing. ❤
this is a beautiful video and i really appreciate you for being so vulnerable 💗
It’s amazing as someone that watches RUclips and people having these perfect lives. Thank you Alisha for showing that side that nobody’s perfect and actually proving that we arnt alone . We love you so much ❤
I grew up with you so this breaks my heart. I'm so happy you have grown. God bless you
I’m really loving Alisha’s new content! I recently rediscovered her channel and you seem so much more free, wise, and just mature! You didn’t stick with the times, you grew sort of as your followers grew too! Keep up the great work!!
Hey Alisha, thank you releasing this (content baby) content. I have been a silent viewer but this video absolutely SPOKE to me. You are such a beautiful person inside out and I have been here since i was 10 (now I’m almost 19) i have been in inpatient and medical wards 7 times for Eds so hearing someone with a following speak so openly about this without being triggering and mentioning figures is so eye opening and such a positive influence for young boys and girls! Im so proud of you! Also, looking forward to waking up on Wednesday and the new pretty basic podcast being released at 8am (I’m in Ireland)
Love you and all of your vids. Say hi to Remi for me ❤
Alisha, I am loving this series!!! The outline of this video was so well done. I love you beyond words, girl. ❤
Your new raw series has been helping me with my own therapy and life discovery 🥹
This video hit so close to home. I’ve been watching you for years since your first apartment which is insane because I’m literally turning 20 next year. To know someone who I’ve looked up to struggles like I do made me so emotional. It was like a big sister I’ve never had giving me advice for my 20’s. I needed this so much. I’ve struggled with eating my whole life, I can’t thank you enough for sharing I love you so much 🫶🏻🫶🏻
I proud of you for sharing such an intimate and vulnerable experience in your life. I could never imagine uploading something like this but it’s so impactful and important. Thank you ❤
As someone who is over 30, I can relate to everything you said. This world can be so hard on women, and it can make you feel like you're not enough. These things needed to be said, and you said them so eloquently. Standing ovation...Alisha!
for many years , i’ve been subscribed to you , aspired to be like you , and when you would be open about your struggles , i would feel nothing but calmness and happiness knowing i wasn’t alone. thank you endlessly for this beautiful video that reminded me of so many things i’ve been needing to keep myself in check with for a while. your beautiful soul , being , and heart has continued to help me for these past years. and for that , i am continuously grateful. thank you thank you thank you.
this was so amazing to hear from you Alisha. I went to in patient treatment for 2 months and am so glad you figured this out. I will say its super important to try not to label foods as good or bad/healthy or unhealthy. In my opinion this has really held me back and I had to just realize that all food is fuel and its ok to indulge and have the things you love. The most important thing i learned is that balance and intuitively listensing to your body r the most important things in recovery. i wish you all the best💕
you’re such an inspiration. i clicked on this video bc i love you and your channel, but i had no idea how much i truly needed to hear the message of this video. tmrw is my 18 bday and i’ve stuggled w a self diagnosed ED for 5 years now. thank you for inspiring me to love myself
All of that is stuff I wish I knew 10 years ago. Everything you said was spot on, thank you so much for voicing it for so many of us that haven’t been able to. You look amazing and you are amazing just as you are 🤘🏻
I am so thankful for this video as someone who struggles with an Ed this is something I needed to hear thank you Alisha for sharing this part of your life with us. So proud of you for the progress you’ve made ❤
I'm still struggling since 2010.
Been gaining and loosing weight through bad habits and it def played its toll on me.
Not totally recovered but much more aware about the danger involved.
Thanks for this video and for sharing it with us.
Sending love an light your way❤⚘🇩🇴
tbh i really needed this too. Thank u so much for reminding to do it for HOW I FEEL. Love u so much queen 🥺💜
this is so powerful and an amazing video, I have watched you for years and appreciate this video more than you ever know, thank you
girl this was BEAUTIFUL🥺I’m so proud of how far you’ve come and how great you’ve been working on yourself❤
One of the things I love about you most is how real you are. And so many RUclipsrs are not like that and i appreciate that so much about you. It’s truly the reason that I end up saving each one of the ur videos that I watch to watch later. I love you so much and keep being real and authentic and even when you feel like you don’t need to share that or people won’t want to watch your videos, just know that the people who will want to continue watching your videos, are the subscribers you want. Keep being you babe.
Giving me more reasons why you’re my favorite creator! Thank you for this🥰
I'm literally speachless. All I have to say is I'm so PROUD OF YOU and NEVER GIVE UP. You are a SURVIVOR 💜
This made me cry :( i'm just starting my 20s and and loving myself and my body recently has been so hard because of all the weight i've gained. Watching you talk about this things so frankly made me feel better and not alone 🥺 Thank you for always trying being real with us, it helps a lot 🥺💜
This video is on point and for so many people. I didn't even know this was something I needed today so thank you ❤️❤️
i avoided watching this video right when it came out cos I knew it would break down crying and ofc i am rn. watching you from the very begging and witnessing all the little moments of ur journey really made me proud of you and so happy for you Lida!!! Being someone who struggles w loosing weight and having a healthy relationship with food this really hit home.
I love you so much wish I could give younger alisha a biggg tight hug rn
This was amazing Alisha, you’re such an awesome role model for so many girls. I know this video will be helpful for other girls who are experiencing what you were going through in your 20’s
Thank You so much for making this video, and sharing your actual experiences, mistakes, and takeaways. I’m living in a new country this year with a new family, new environment and new struggles and that letter was exactly what I needed to hear. So thank you, it means more than you’ll ever know.
Same though such an empowering message and one that I feel many people needed to hear! 💜💫
Alisha, I really needed this. Thank you so much for sharing. I related to each and every point you made. I can’t thank you enough😭🤍
Thank you for being so real, knowing that someone that I've looked up to for about 6 years now, goes through the same stuff as me, gives me a lot of peace of mind.
Thank you for sharing this and be vulnerable. This is beautiful ❤
This is my new favorite series on RUclips right now and I just love you
By far one of the best videos you have made, so raw and so real. Thank you for making this 🤍
as someone who grew up watching you and is now having trouble with my relationship with food, watching this video made me feel like talking to an older sister which I don't have and it is GREATLY COMFORTING
ive been struggling with my relationship with food for quite a while now, this year has been the worst of it. this really made me see things a bit differently, thank you so much alisha
You have helped me with this
I have PCOS and I have trouble with weight loss I’ve watched this over and over again and it just makes me feel comfortable to talk about my body image thank you for always being inspirational I’ve watched you for 9 years and I love feeling like I can connect with someone the same way 🥺🥺 I love ya girl
I love this so much! Im a couple years younger than you and to a certain degree I am starting my own little “almost 30” journey. Thank you for being so inspirational ❤️
PS: I’m so proud of you. You should be too.
Love this video and I'm so proud of you for speaking about something that a lot of us struggle with