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Hi dear! On this channel I will share my journey with you how NOT to die from anorexia... I am still alive by the grace of God. I have suffered from all kinds of eating disorders since 31 years (!!) now. It is a miracle that I am still alive! And though I seem to be 'at my last end', I will keep trusting that I am still alive for a reason. One of which is to share my story with you. I will give all I have to give as long as I keep breathing. And I hope that you can use it for the better to prevent you and/or your beloved to suffer as much from this disease as I have. Topics I certainly will address: anorexia, bulimia, binge eating, orthorexia, intestine issues, intolerances, fear, anxiety, what I eat in a day, panic attacks, urges, overeating, undereating, purging, medical help, hospitalisation, inpatient treatment, outpatient treatment, twelve step program, spirituality, Higher Power... and so much more! Subscribe and like not to miss out on anything. 
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"Faith without works is dead." You have to do the work. Your biggest fear is the fear itself. You're so intelligent, that you're over thinking and analyzing everything. You control; you don't trust anyone. You're getting so much love and support; it's up to you to open up your ❤️ heart and except it and trust someone again. It's never too late to begin again. Choose LIFE! You want to help others? BE A MIRACLE! You have so many gifts. Sending big hugs ! 🥰😘🙏🙏🙏🇺🇲
Some tough words here, but so true. I am someone else who is rooting for you, Angelique. You remind me a lot of Psalm 22, which begins with, “My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?” and ends with telling future generations of the Glory God has shown.
If you think about it Lique, the diabetes and intestinal issues can’t be fixed until you get on a regular eating schedule and gain weight. There’s a huge chance that once you start getting healthy you may work the diabetes out.
Letting go of the illness and trusting people instead stands in the way of many Ed recoveries. It’s the fear that breeds the need to control and to trust others requires acknowledging your own way isn’t working and someone else’s method might save you. It’s a humbling experience to realise you don’t have the answers despite having a great intellect. An Ed mind is a damaged one and healing comes when you realise you aren’t the best judge of what is good for you and you require assistance from others despite however damaged you are from previous experiences. Letting go of your own rules and trusting others releases shame and is the only way Ed’s heal
@@meherenow i completely agree. This is the first and most important step to recovery.
So true !
I am so happy for you. Someone reached out a hand and you took it. Hold on to it! I believe in you and your strength!
Yes, hold on tightly!❤
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Thrilled to hear you have an admission date and a minimum of a 6 month program. Praying for your recovery and strength to guide you through this!
A good friend of mine had a 3% chance of survival and she beat the odds and is now doing very well. You’ve got this!
THIS is the most wonderful comment!!!!!
This didn’t age well 😢
@@solanabailey8511welp she's definitely not in this earth anymore...I don't know about the universe itself that we are living
You are literally the best person ever Angelique!!! Such strenght and loveliness :)) we are all rooting for you!!
Dear Angelique, always so good to hear again from you. You're like a ray of sunshine. Such a wonderful young woman. I hope with all my heart for all the best for your health. Soon you will be in the hospital and you will be surrounded with people that are trained to make people get better again. Yes, trust in them. Let go of all the control and it will be fine. Wishing you all the best. Viele liebe Grüße aus Hannover 💜 💜 💜
The clarity you show in this video will pull you through the hard times in the future. Having the awareness you have, will transform your future. One step, one day at a time💐❤️
Healing from any mental health struggle is rarely, if ever, linear. Hindsight is 20/20 and you’ve learned from the past and are now making informed decisions because of that which is so important. I’m proud of you Angelique. You are bravely taking bold steps to save your life. I know God is with you and will continue to be throughout the next days and months. It will not be easy, pleasant or linear, but just continue to put one foot in front of the other and you will gradually move from surviving to thriving! I believe in you and am praying for you ❤
Thank you Liza! 🙏🏻❤️
Accurately and eloquently expressed, Liza.
What a good time to start your recovery. Easter is a new beginning. He is risen indeed! You can do this. You are strong. Prayers for the staff that they can help you overcome your fears. Prayers that they can help you manage your diabetes and intestinal problems.
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Amen 🌿👍☮✌🌹
We all make mistakes when we are scared so please ignore anyone who tries to shame you for past behavior. No one is perfect and God knows the negativity in the hearts of people who are not supportive. You are doing great and yes, 20% is a very good percentage and it will increase! We are surrounding you with love and gentle warm hugs all the way through this process. You are stronger than your fear because you are not trusting your life to people you are letting it rest in God’s hands and He loves you so much. 🙏🏻💜💜💜💜💜💜
NO one is shaming her OR not being supportive. Just because someone has firm advice or is given their opinion doesn't mean they're the enemy
@@kellyfrancis1873 I agree. I don't see haters here either, except for maybe one or two people. The rest of the people come from a place of worry, most of them former ED sufferers themselves.
Lovely to hear that you are getting some help. ❤
So happy and grateful to hear from you. You are showing great courage and bravery. Letting go of the control we have is so frightening. Continued prayers and positive thoughts for you and your journey.
You can do it honey!! Keep strong
Even if it was maybe not the best option I'm so happy to hear that you will at least get some help, that your health will be monitored and you will not be alone. Very happy to hear too that you will be forced to stay for 6 months, so you can't run away if you get scared (I understand if you do though, you'rein a very difficult situation and fighting for your life). Totally focus on the 20%, I'm so happy to hear that you have a chance of survival.
I am just now taking pain killers because I can’t stop crying and yelling help me God!! I have Sarcoidosis and I eat for relief from pain. Im terribly overweight now 357 pounds. Please keep me in your prayers as I keep you in mine. God watch over you and keep you in his arms this Easter Sunday 🐰✝️💜🙏♥️
Am praying for you this very moment dear! 🙏🏻❤️
You are not alone sweetheart… I totally get you… 💖
I am feeling so hopeful for you! I want to tell you about someone in my family who I love very much. She had a heroin addiction and lived like a zombie. She also became deathly thin because of it and we feared she would O.D., be harmed by someone or have a heart attack.Her battle continued for 12 excruciating years, for her and us as well. After so many years of stagnating, existing and not having a good quality of life, she decided she wanted more for herself. She had to give up many toxic friendships and that was the hardest part. She decided on her own terms that her fruitless lifestyle had totally run it's course, and she started over. That was twenty years ago. She was a brilliant mind and has an amazing professional job with computers and found love. Looking back at pictures when she was 30 years old and 90 pounds, I said, " I can't believe that was you." She answered, "It wasn't". I feel like you are at that point now. Your ED journey has absolutely has run it's course. I know you can do this!
My mom was anorexic when I was growing up. She started declining when I was 10. Everything was about control. She couldn't be alone because then her fears and panic attacks would come a d that was really not something I should have been around as a child, but this was 30 years ago and we were already poor and living on welfare in Germany.
Doctors told her to eat high calorie fatty foods because back then the misconception was that fat would make you fat. Now I understand that eating nothing but fat, which she wasn't eating solid foods due to the anxiety, but she would drink heavy cream...now I understand that that way of eating only made her lose more weight because she practically set herself on a ketogenic diet.
Watching your mother die every day and being tied to her bedside for a child is demonic as hell. I already had few prospects of a future being poor and she thought I would just spend my entire life taking care of her. I finally moved out after going to counseling with my school psychiatrist once a week and my grades declining. Nobody knew what was going on at home with me because the shame caused me not to want friends to see my mom like that.
Well, the welfare authorized for me to get my own place so I could graduate after my school psychologist advocated for me.
I ended up leaving Germany and I moved to the US.
My mom had replaced me with her mother. The whole family guilt tripped me about me leaving. I figured why they were so invested on trying to keep me stuck with my mom, because nobody else in my family wanted to deal with her.
I didn't talk to her for 10 years.
My grandma passed away so my mom reconnected in hopes of me coming back and I refused.
Now she had to do the work herself in getting better when she realized there was nobody there to enable her.
A few years later with lots of therapy, she left her apartment she hadn't left in 20 years and she got on a plane to visit me and we had our first solid food meal together.
She found faith in God and so did I, so to me our relationship now is nothing short of a miracle.
She's still in Germany and I choose not to return because Germany and the German mentality never sat right with me. Germans can be very judgmental and restrictive and I'm a free spirit kind of person especially after having been caged up and tied to deaths bedside.
My mom is now 65 and has a fulfilled active life and she's now overweight enjoying food again with her 45 year old boyfriend who cooks with her.
My mom's anorexia came from a chain of traumatic events that she had to face.
Doctors didn't really have the time to do the investigative work about the circumstances but her anorexia was psychosomatic.
I'm glad your friend found a way out of the heroin addiction and recovered.
It is possible,but the work is hard.
I can't get my childhood back. It was a heavy price to pay.
In a way I'm happy how my life turned out and having had that experience with my mom made me allergic to people's fears and people trying to project their fear onto me or trying to control me.
Looking back I now recognize that my mom was also a victim of narcissistic abuse and she was made the black sheep and I was made the scape goat.
Now I'm 44 and I suppose I'm "living my best life"...from welfare recipient to owner of my own truck and business.
I've made my "American dream" come true and my mom is able to share and part take in it.
She even spent 2 weeks on the truck with me. Like I said...we made up for lost time and now that we don't have resentments and guilt and the disease and the past separating us our relationship couldn't be any better.
I thank God for the restoration because the things that happened were pretty much impossible to overcome and to forgive. It truly took divine intervention.
Happy to see you hon!! Hold on to that 20% still praying hard for you. Don’t ever give up, many hugs and prayers coming your way and please keep us posted!! Much love. ❤️❤️☀️🌷🌸🙏🙏🙏
Puzzles, word searches, Velcro darts sound good. Books on tape that you listen to are also good. Something you can cuddle when upset is helpful. A scented candle you enjoy can also be calming. Much love and best wishes.
Gentle hug, tender words spoken to you in faith you are working to save yourself. Much love, words of support, comfort coming to you. You are amazing to share your dearest life with us.
Lique one thing that I've learned and has helped me grow for the better....is to listen to constructive criticism....it's not like great to hear ...but I be honest with myself....not judge but be honest....and I give in to what is right....then I make the change in my habit or behaviour etc etc.....and it has helped me alot.....so I've have changed for myself and others...and thanked the others for advise ....because this is help....but it's how you then help yourself . .it's easier to dismiss as judgement but if you use the honesty ....you will know what's best for you.....we do need others to help see from other stand points.....it can be such a true gift depending on how you receive it.
She will only get better in the clinic if she wants to and is willing to change.
exactly!
Of course! That’s a fact for anything anywhere
“When fear knocks on your door, send faith to answer. Fear is a feeling that has only the power we give it. You can feel fear and still do anything you know you need to do, even if you ‘ do it afraid’” - Joyce Meyer
You are a wonderful person. I will be praying for you and your recovery. Stay positive, and I wish you the best of luck! Bring a coloring book and some crayons or colored pencils. It may relax you and help with your anxiety.
I love Joyce Meyer. She's awesome!
Mindfulness colouring books for adults are a great distraction 💙
I BELIEVE IN YOU!!!! I have had an servere Eating Disorder, but im am praying for you and so is the rest of this channel, you are so brave and amazing for coming this far!
Hello Angelique, I just wanted to let you know I am lifting you up in prayer for healing, strength and good health. 😊
I really believe we are here on earth to learn lesson and overcome struggles. You can do this, God is with you, he’s just waiting for you to take those first terrifying steps. I struggle with EDs also. It’s really difficult to let go. I’m 52 and my ED started at 10 yrs old. So I do understand the mental fight in your head. I believe in you! You will do this and shine!
I'm 62 and still battle....started at 15...xxx
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@@lynettetamblyn165 so sorry to hear this. My batlle is 28 years now.
@@marjol3in It's exhausting...xxx
@@lynettetamblyn165 absolutely. I was in remission for about a year,but relapsed after my lipedema diagnose. When I was weight restored it became very obvious how my ED started as a teen: the undiagnosed lipedema, which causes big hips and big legs and a small upperbody. I can't pay 12000 for liposuction, so I relapsed into restriction and losing weight again. I still have lipedema, but least I am skinny. I can't live with a big lipedema body.
You’re such an inspiration. You’re attitude, Faith, love, openness is all amazing.
I’ve been struggling with severe anxiety and depression since I was 10-12 years old. I find it hard to stay positive most days but just watching some of your videos and listening to your words has helped me more than I thought.
I know our problems couldn’t be more different but in some way I can relate to you even if it’s just a little bit and your story has moved me.
I’ll be praying for you ❤ thank you for sharing your story and being so vulnerable and open. It’s amazing. You’re helping so many people.
Dear Lique, I think there is at least 80% chance you survive 💪! You are extraordinary and capable of miracles. So glad, you posted this.
Massive hugs!!!
I have been following you for a while and am always here if you need anything. I am praying for you daily .
Thinking of you always! Audiobooks & music I find really beneficial, especially listening on AirPods, adult colouring books, there are some lovely ones & you have something beautiful that you have created to look at. Love always x
I came to say the same thing!! I LOVE audiobooks and podcasts esp when I am not able to really concentrate! I for sure don’t hear 100% of the book etc, but that is ok! It’s a place to start! And the colouring books is good idea for many people (I tried… it’s not for me!!)….. so many of my friends love them!
Angelique- sending so much love and strength to you. You CAN do this. Don’t look as far ahead as “recovery”…. Just look for one day at a time and keeping yourself alive. The big picture can come in time! All my love to you❤
Don’t forget sudoku puzzles!
Someone once told me you have to have had experience of reaching out for help and the vulnerability of putting your trust in others before you can truly help anyone else..if you want to live the dream you have of helping others you must overcome your own trust barriers so you are aware of the process of doing so when you ask others to do the same. Your recovery will be about working with others not doing it independently..developing those skills to work with a team and allowing them to guide and support you will be essential
Lique so delighted to see you and communicating with us. I will be praying for you around this time of EASTER and rebirth. I hope it will be a time of healing for you.
Keep fighting 🧡🙏 healing the underlying concerns sounds like a great thing. Do what you can and don't give up!
I’ve been thinking of you Lique! Stay strong, this is your chance to shine! You’ve got this! ❤
At the end talking about the quote - for some reason I cried uncontrollably. I wish you well with all my heart ❤️ Lique. Whatever is to come it will be OK.
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You are an incredible person I have every faith in you. Stay strong sending my love and prayers.
You're looking upbeat today! Wow! Lots happening. Glad you will be going somewhere. 6 months!!! You should be able to make some progress in that time.Yes, you will raise that percentage, steadily, from 20% to 100%! Love to you, Lique!
I was so happy to see you this morning! You look great! Big hug! Love you exactly as you are! My daughter likes to use those adult coloring books with color pencils (they are geometric shapes or scenes that are very detailed) to de-stress sometimes. She’s a grown woman with three children and a full time job. My son, loves to paint but never takes the time anymore. They are 33 and 36. Ashley and Adam. Look forward to hearing from you soon. 20% + being a daughter of the King! That’s huge!
I forgot to say, I love you!!!!❤️You will be in my thoughts and prayers sweetie. Yes, keep being yourself, stay true to who you are, you are the sweetest most honest soul! I absolutely love your beautiful words of wisdom!!!🤗❤️hugs and kisses
I'm so happy to hear of this big step to wellness. I'm impressed that the clinic is fighting for you too. Bless you Lique and I have a good feeling about this. Sending much Love!!!
Dear Angelique, hello! So happy to see that you posted. Even more happy that you have a date finally for the clinic! You are being sooooo brave and we are here to help and encourage you. It sounds like your recovery will be a team effort and we as your followers are here for it! I have a few ideas for distracting yourself that have helped me in a similar situation. Coloring, doing jigsaw puzzles,origami, making bead bracelets, legos, sticker books, paper dolls, and puzzle books. Many adult puzzle books have things like logic problems which I’m sure you would be good at. Amazon has all of these things. Hope this helps! Will be thinking about you in the coming days because I truly feel like we are on the precipice of good things for you, and yes, hopefully a miracle! Hugs to you xo….🧸
Happy to hear that you have a date, and the minimum of 6 months. This was the best choice. Acknowledging the fear, & continuing to do the work, will give you the confidence and feeling of accomplishment.
About feeling alone on Easter, Dear…you know the true meaning behind Easter, so you are not, and never will be..alone. 🙏🏻
Good luck with the move. I'm looking forward to this part of your journey. You can do it! 🥳🎉💪
I'm so glad they agreed to help you, it is scary but we are all sending you love & strength ❤
When I was recovering from surgery my grandmother gave me something called a Buddha Board. It is a way to paint with only water. I found it very meditative and relaxing, kept my hands and my mind busy
wishing you all the best 🫂
It's good you are focused on the 20 percent. I am encouraged by you to never lose hope. I was going in a hopeless situation but now I am better. We all are human. People watching ur channel have to realize life is unpredictable but we have to keep the faith. It matters that we encourage one another and show compassion. My name is Renae. I have been thru the worst in my life. I know I can beat anything else in my life.
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Hi there, glad to hear from you! I am so happy you get to be somewhere to get some help. You deserve to be who you are meant to be in life. You already are so sweet and kind. Now we just need your health to get better and you can shine even brighter. It's always good to see you and hear what's happening with you. I'll be thinking of you as I always do. Take care and talk to you soon! 💞
I like your attitude and your strength. I and many others are praying for you and for your recovery. You are inspiring many. I get upset about the negative comments from people who want to bring you down but I like how you won't change your truth for anybody. I enjoy and get a lot of strength from your videos. Hang in there. I have faith in you and God is on his throne caring for you. ❤❤
Hello Angelique! You have so much strength!Lovely to hear that you are getting some help!
One thing that helps when I need to recover is praying, I pray everyday hope it helps you too!
Sending you lots of light 💚❤💫🌻🌼🌺🌹🏵
So very impressed by your strength and persistence during all of this. When you are at the clinic, they will make sure you are cared for and comfortable, and hopefully that will free up your mind to focus on recovery, and feel the love ❤. I truly believe you can recover; surrendering is the first step, and you’ve taken it. Now, one foot in front of the other.
Beautifully written ❤️
Praise God you are here another week❤. You keep fighting for yourself, you deserve to live and tell others about your journey. I’m partnering with you in prayer. Our God is big enough to carry you through this healing. Don’t give up.♥️
I am so happy you are fighting. It's good you are going to get some help. You are a wonderful person. Your nice words and inspiration make me feel better.
I am really praying for you. After following you from the beginning, if anyone has a chance, it's you. Your will to live, your awareness and your willingness to give up your control, may save you now from this problem
You are going survive ❤ You have made it this far, youve got it in you to fight until you make it. I believe this with my entire heart!
I am praying your admission went well yesterday, and you are full of hope and health. Much love to you.
How do you know it was yesterday ?
You have a lovely smile. It is encouraging to know that you will have supervised clinical care at this time. All good wishes for improved health.
There's wonderful, encouraging song I was taught as a child. I would be reminded of it during the times throughout my life that I needed healing. "Shackled by a heavy burden. Beneath a load of guilt & shame. Then the HAND of JESUS TOUCHED ME. And now I am no longer the same. He touched me! Oh He touched me! And oh the JOY that floods my soul. Something happened & now I know!!! JESUS TOUCHED ME AND HE MADE ME WHOLE!!!!". Be encouraged sweetie. Send virtual hugs, smooches and prayers to you!!!
I thoroughly believe that your optimism, strength, and will to live will keep you alive 🙏🤍 You can do this my love
Hi Lique!❤ You look so pretty today! Thank you for the update. I am always praying for you ❤God bless 😊
Hello. I just wanted to say that I’ve been through a very similar battle when I was young. Love is what you need, and assistance in eating. When I would eat, I felt such painful emotions and out of control. But love surrounding you can be very healing during this difficult process. Please know I’m always available via zoom…..or Facebook to simply listen. I want you to live and I hope you can find it within yourself to live. You’re so worth it.
That is sooo sweet of you! Thank you… 🙏🏻❤️
Lovely to see you again. Kia Kaha dear Angelique. From one who has a twelve step program to another. ❤
You’re remarkable Lique your strength is second to none! Be a fierce Lion 🦁 and fight all the way! Have so much hope for you so happy you have an opportunity grab it with both hands 🙌🏼 we love you so much poppet and we’re with you all the way every step! lots of love ♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️
I’m so impressed with your strength and being open with all the challenges you are facing. One thought, would be to play solitaire on the computer or maybe a puzzle online or listen to a book online. I truly admire your strength and being you. I wish you all the strength and love to keep you here. Hugs from the Seattle Washington. ❤❤❤
May God Bless you. You are not giving up. There is no such thing as a 100% in anything. You are strong at your core. You are loved. I'm sending my love to you from Vermont USA.
Happy Easter Lique. Hope you are being blessed and all your plans/ prayers are coming together.
Thinking and praying for you and all that support you. Kia kaha✝️🎇💞 NZ
April 11th set to enter a non eating disorder clinic where she will buy, cook and eat her own meals. But the clinic can offer support such as drawing blood and ordering blood work. Sounds like a free room situation for 6 months where she will not be alone. Changing her eating has to come from her.
I'm really proud of you for still going and still trying to find those loopholes and getting yourself in even if it's not 100% the treatment you need but at least you're in a hospital clinic setting that's awesome and don't feel bad about running away from treatment because I have been there. I ran away twice and sorely regret it I went back a third time but I was in the middle of a divorce and my insurance ran out cuz I was on my ex-husband's and therefore I had to leave and I have not been able to get back in anywhere since then which was 2019. I am almost at the worst it ever was and there's nothing I can do so I totally get it. you always kind of think the way any disorder is it that you have an option somewhere in your back pocket if you really need it but you feel like you are always in control. but in a treatment center when that control is taken away you do panic and that anxiety and fear is real and I completely understand and you don't need to explain it because a lot of people just don't understand that type of anxiety of being held in a place especially on a cert which I was on as well were it doesn't matter even if you really truly feel like you have a legit reason it doesn't matter they're not going to listen and they know it's the eating disorder talkin and you're trying to tell them it's not but it really is because it's become a part of us. I just wish you well and you take that 20% and you run with it because like you said prove them wrong. be stubborn use that anger and prove them wrong I'm praying for you girl❤🙏
Hi Angelique! This is a lovely video -- you have such a beautiful and genuine heart. I continue to pray for you regularly, as you are a miracle to so many people, and I can see that God is doing great work through you! Keep it up, and try to write down your blessings when you feel overwhelmed. When I'm having panic attacks, I generally talk to God -- I've noticed that as I do this, He helps me to rationalize better and calm down. Sometimes I also play logic puzzles such as sudoku. Just something to keep my mind working instead of worrying. Many hugs!!!
YOU ARE MY FAVORITE WARRIOR THANKS SO MUCH FOR TEACHING US WHATS ABOUT LIFE PURE LOVE AND COURAGE,FIGHT,BE OURSELFS ALWAYS SEND YOU POSSITIVE VIVES FROM MEXICO❤❤❤
Bless you Lique. Thank you for your update.. Glad you have an admission date. It may not be the perfect place at the clinic in terms of being able to offer Eating disorder treatment. At least it's a safe place where you can be and maybe explore some of the underlying issues or find a nurse to talk to when the Eating disorder is strong and you feel panicky.
With just that little bit of extra help and monitoring you may find more strength to keep YOURSELF alive and get yourself a into a stronger body . Like you say from 20% to 40%,60%, 80% to 100%. You keep being the shining light and and be your own miracle. You are so s loved and have so many people backing you up and keeping you in their prayers. Keep an open mind to the opportunities that may lie ahead.... Have a blessed Easter sweetheart despite being alone in the house.
In the clinic, do you like jigsaws? Just simple ones to begin with. To release anxiety playdough is good to use as a stress ball, something to make silly models with,. Then squash them again etc..... Maybe learning simple origami or other paper crafts.... Listening to audiobooks on RUclips or if you have an Audible account , I'll keep thinking of ideas and let you know. Maybe even a little Tamagotchi,/Cyber pet to look after?!!
Take care of beautiful soul and keep true to yourself and who you are. Best wishes and lots of love from the UK ❤
Hi Lique! It is so good to hear from you! I’ve been thinking about you and praying for you. I’m glad you have a date to go to the clinic! Sending you all my love and hugs, and prayers in Jesus’s Name. God bless you! 🤗❤️🙏🏻💞🌷
This is my first time watching one of your videos. Thank you for sharing your story, you are helping others who are struggling with similar problems. I don’t know what types of things you are able to do or what you are interested in, but I suggest you listen to audio books and podcasts or do some type of art and crafts projects while you are alone at home. I find these things to be relaxing and enjoyable. I’m sending you my love and prayers for your continued recovery.
Just adding that I am sending you all good thoughts and healing prayers. You CAN do it. Take it one day at a time one meal at a time. Remind yourself that you want life more than you fear the food or the illness with your intestines. I know others have said it is metaphorical that your hospitalization coincides with Easter. He has risen and you will rise from your situation and live again.
We are all here with you rooting you on! You are going to be a miracle.
I use music to pass the time. When I feel panicked I listen to those songs and watch the RUclips live performances and wish I could be one of the people I. Those videos without my chronic illness.
Much much love - you WILL BE SUCCESSFUL!
Good luck Lique. You can make it through this. I will keep you in my prayers.
Heel veel succes! Ik hoop dat je steeds meer goede momenten zult hebben. Het zal ook moeilijk zijn, maar hopelijk steeds minder moeilijk en steeds meer goede tijden❤
I really hope when you get to the clinic you try to do things to restore your health you have never done before, that you face fear and respond with action and you make empowered choices. I hope you work with the people there and see their strengths not just what they don’t know. I hope you step up to the challenges not feel defeated by them.I hope you find answers to the questions you have surrounding your treatment and you begin to heal but most of all I hope you get rest and find peace of mind and rally enough to save your life
Very well said 🙏
She was doing way better before the hospital stay. Not sure what they did to her there. I miss you Angelique 😔 I can't even express. 💔
So true.
Now it turned out the clinic really couldn't help her and the complications were fatal.
If she would have stayed with the friend where she was she still would have been alive.
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What a nice surprise to get another video from you again! I'm sorry the system keeps failing you (and that people have the audacity to criticise you!), but I'm glad you have that intake date. It's so nice to hear from you. Sending you all my love.
You inspire me so much. You are so strong and optimistic ❤
I'm so happy for you that they are going to take you❤❤ You are such a blessing 💓
I pray that you get through this one day at a time there’s so much information on the Internet there’s so many other people going to the same thing you know you can do this you know you have to do this just keep praying❤
Lique …no clinic is going to give you permission to eat on your terms…and that’s why you’re going to lose every time…sorry I’m not saying what you want to hear 😢❤
It needs saying, but she can’t see it.
She has to find the strength in herself to give her brain over to her doctors and use her heart and and soul to fight for a just cause---her life. 🌹
Sorry but didn’t she say her body doesn’t process food correctly anymore after a lifetime of anorexia? She developed intestinal problems and a form of diabetes. She can’t just start eating normal like you and me. People go through significant bodily changes when starved that long…so combine that with her neurosis…it’s complex. I get what you mean about trusting the experts but you have to stop and think about that too.
@@Stalemarshmallow I don't know if I believe her excuse of intestinal problems, I think she doesn't want to eat. They could feed her through an IV, she probably won't let them. I don't believe everything she says because she is a mentally ill person. A lot of people like yourself are very gullible on here.
Yep!!
Thank you for getting out of bed and making that effort just for us 😊..you look beautiful today..inside and out ❤..blessings sent to you every night that it's a successful resolution to your challenges..I am rooting for you always 🙏
Thank you dear 😘
Oh dear braveheart, yes, surrender, it is a beautiful thing to see and know who we are truly surrendering to.
Lique, you are never alone! Especially on Easter, focus on Christ, who gave His life for you, don’t lose focus! I have found I am a very fearful person. Many years have passed, and I am finally learning to let go of my own control, one circumstance or hardship at a time. It is when we are at our weakest point, that when we let go, fall back into the everlasting arms of Jesus, that we find the deepest peace. He never lets go, He never takes His eyes off of us. It is we who wander away from His care, and protection. We are in God’s Grace, He has an appointed time for us to be born, and I believe also, a time to die, no one can change that! I am not saying we don’t care for ourselves and others, of course we are to take good care. Whatever God allows in our lives though, is an opportunity for our growth, and His glory, always His glory. He is patient, He waits for us to TRUST HIM fully. He said, you will have tribulation in this earth, and we do. He also said, be fearful for nothing, be not anxious, cast your cares upon me. I know that’s easier said than done, I am living proof, and I am not judging, because I am just beginning to see that by trusting God, that also means to let go of the many fears we have, of ourselves, and others,of life, of death, whatever it is. We are to trust Him enough to see that He does send others into our lives to help us. (That one’s for me!!!😢) It is a very difficult thing when a person has suffered abuse, childhood, or any life trauma, rejection, etc… but that’s just it, we walk by Faith, not by sight. Close your beautiful eyes Lique, let go, and keep trusting God to carry you through, He is your deepest truest strength, it is not your hurts, your past, your disorders, not even your strengths that ultimately sustain you. I have rambled on, and I don’t know always what to say, but my heart aches for you, and longs for you to heal and get better. We all would love that “meet and greet”, remember? ❤ You are in my prayers, much love, K🥰🤗🙏🏻❤️
Hi Lique, thank you for the update, I’m so happy you’re only a few days away from going into the clinic! You are going to do amazing, keep believing in yourself, take this time to fight and heal! Something I can advise for keeping yourself busy as I know quite well when you’re not feeling good it’s hard to read or concentrate on things. Podcasts of your interest, great to listen to. Audio books are wonderful. Get a sketch book and learn how to draw. You tube has great tutorials! Maybe get some of those word search puzzle books or sudoku etc. Recently I’ve been learning how to Zentangle, it’s sorta like abstract art, you don’t need any art skills. Ted talks - there’s thousands of interesting topics. Something else I really want to share with you is make a list of things you want to do when you get better. Make an achievable bucket list for yourself so it gives you something to look forward to and work towards. Have you ever thought about writing a book about your struggles? Maybe a autobiography? You could start writing if it’s something that interests you. When I have bad days and it’s hard to get out of bed, I sometimes watch live video cams from around the world. I see people, cities, wildlife, it helps me feel connected to the world. I hope some of my ideas will help you.. take care
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Wat een geweldig nieuws! En wat ontzettend moedig van je! Ik snap nu beter waar de zitting over ging. 11 april is de dag!!!!! 🎉🎉🎉
Sweet girl...I'm happy to hear that someone is willing to try to help you. Take what help you can get at the moment and work hard to do your part too. You are now in a battle but with God on your side you can do anything. Much love, peace and many blessings to you. ❤🙏🕊
For some things you can do, of course reading is a wonderful escape, maybe crossword puzzles, work search, card games like solitaire, even something as simple as doodling on paper and listening to music or audio books.
You Are a wonderful person❤ I Also suffer from fear, and it’s true the best medicine is to let it be and don’t fight it! It’s really tough!! I pray that you Are in the clinic ans thrive and live on for a long time ❤
Hi Lique! First of all, respect on taking this huge step towards recovery! I really believe in you and miracles happen when we fight for them and work hard! You are a fighter! I totally get the upcomi g Easter and being alone and also in the clinic. Over a year ago I was hospitalized after surgery through christmas and new year holidays and due to covid there were no visitors allowed. I couldn't sit up for longer times so reading was problematic but I enjoyed listening to audiobooks! I had my earphones and my phone that's it. I listened på fantasy books and just took myself away from the pain and hospital noises. Maybe it's something you could enjoy?
Hi Lique! You are such a beautiful young lady! You're brave, so keep going. Keep looking to God. He has you in the palm of His Hand. I say this a lot in my life. Walk in Faith not fear. I repeat it over and over. And it helps!
regarding what you can do to distract yourself: my ex partner used to do origami when he was in hospital; listening to audiobooks; watercolor I find it extremely relaxing (there is thing thing that you can let go of the control and the colours will mix together beautifully); gentle massage with an essential oil you like; videogames on a tablet; make short videos with your happiest memories, or some comedy, you can try acting! Make up!! I mean even carnival style make up; watch videos of other people's recovery (i don t know if you know Elzani channel) ; play dough paste; some squeazy balls for people with adhd; coloring books with mandalas...
Pretty dope ideas, thanks!
Good luck today lady, thinking about you. You've got this ❤
I couldn't watch your last update my heart hurt too much to finish it yet. I will now as I was deathly concerned but you're revived and I'm seeing God having given strength, I'll finish the last one. I had to continue in prayer. I LOVE seeing you strong. Your personality is back. Look you have energy to express it!!! Please keep eating like that. You got up!!! Please baby my love friend xoxoxo❤🎉
LOVE❤ YOU!! Will be praying for your recovery!!
I do understand a lot what you are saying as I have panic attacks and just run. And I have had issues with eating disorders and when I started to eat my intestines and stomach just couldn’t work well and cause alot of pain which I still struggle with. It’s just so complex. I just love you with all my heart and I want you to win your life back. I will be alone on Easter so together we aren’t alone cause I will think about you. Wish you all great healings my friend I’m with you🙏🏻
You look so pretty today I'm so glad you're getting the help you need love you my friend hugs and prayers from Georgia ❤️♥️🙏🏻🙏🏻
I'm sending you love, light, caring, courage, peace, faith, strength, and grace. God bless you and all of us on our journeys.🙏🙏💕💕✌✌
I missed this earlier, but I'm here on the day of your admission! I loved the message at the end of this video. it's So true, you are such a wise helper 💗! I hope everything is going ok and I hope you aren't too scared 💜💜 if you DO get scared, it is ok - but you get to decide to fight for your survival and wellbeing. YOU WILL DO THIS! IT will be ok! (Also forget about survival percentages. I can say for sure there is NO way for anyone but you to know how you will do or what you will do!) I hope you can quickly make friends with some nurses/staff (being as friendly as possible always makes people work really hard for you and do things they normally would otherwise not do) - and don't forget you're not alone! You have us here too. As far as activities... one fun/low-effort activity that can be meditative and distracting is adult-colouring books. You can get them in many themes (like Biblical, nature scenes, quotes, etc.) if they allow art materials. ((BIG HUGS)) Thinking of you and sending lots of love.
I am so glad you have a date and I'm sure all will go well! As far as an activity I remember your quote of the day where it says the colors on your canvas, how about acrylic paint pour.. choose your colors for the day and use various ways of them onto the canvas which can be a small or as little as you like r&s you pour the colors you see various patterns and things showing up....
A shower of blessings and a big hug on your way!
I'm so glad you have found your way. Don't worry about the people who say negative things. They have not walked a mile in your shoes. You are going to make it. When you do - you should think of making a full documentary about all of this so others won't fall through the cracks like you have done. You already have all the footage you need. Of course that is the future. Concentrate now on getting better!! Bless