She looks to be 60+ Her mother was 14 years older which would make her 74+ Her father was 32 years older than her mother which would make him 106+ -But he’s still alive?
@@carlograziano722 trauma can confuse the mind about what and when something happened.. I can see she has definitely been traumatized but her brain is struggling with remembering it clearly, which is probably a good thing for her. She still talks like a child.. 😢😢😢😢
“Who would want a woman that is tainted?” That breaks my heart. You are a lovely lady and worthy of being loved. I wish you peace and comfort and happiness.
I understand you're trying to be nice and caring. Sadly, she's tainted for life. Trauma like this never goes away. She's broken for ever. Therapy and good people around you can help heal your wounds but the scars will always be there. Also if she feels tainted, she is tainted. Because it's her feelings.
I understand what you guys are saying, but I don't think using the word tainted is the best choice. Tainted means infected, contaminated, corrupted, or spoiled. These words are not a healthy way to perceive oneself. Of course she is allowed to feel that way, of course her spirit is broken beyond belief and will never be recovered. But I personally just don't feel like it's a good thing to tell someone who has lived such horrific things that they are indeed a corrupt and spoiled human. Just imo and thoughts for conversation. No offense intended.
A person can only be "tainted" by virtue of their own action, or inaction. That could not possibly apply to this lady. She didn't have any choice or chance.
This is so incredibly hard to listen to, but so necessary. This is probably one of the strongest women I've ever seen. I'm so sorry for the abuse you had to endure.
I’ve been a sexual abuse therapist for many years. This story was still very difficult to consume. Lord, set Ella free and restore her soul! 🕊️ Make her feel new like You do. Amen.
So many people failed her as a child. I hope she's able to continue to find peace despite a background of pain and torture. I pray she continues to stay strong
When he asked what kind of teenager she was, and she replied she didn’t know I paused the video for ten minutes to process that level of abuse … holy Christ
I agree, the ad should have been at the beginning or end. But I believe he pays the people he interviews, tries to help as much as he can, and brings light to the parts of society that we ignore. He, unfortunately, needs to have some sort of income as well.
This interview brought me to tears. Then, when Mark asked Ella how old she is, and Ella smiled - wow! Her smile lights up a room! I smiled right back at you, Ella! Thank you for your bravery and courage to share your story. Much love to You.
Never got to go to school either. I'm sure the teacher would have reported it ... of course they didn't let her go to school. Had to have her husband teach her to read. Dear god.
This poor woman has had one of the worse childhoods I have ever heard of. My heart breaks for her and her father needs to be arrested and sent to prison for the rest of his life! If you’re reading this Ella please know you’re loved and have a friend. If you ever need to talk I’m here just reach out! Hope your future is great from here on out!!
human trafficking is the new word for the old problem. Child rape, abuse of any minor and the like should be a death pen case. She had no one fight for her, protect her and she was a gold fish in a swam of sharks that did nothing but harm her in so many ways. Hugs Ella. It took so much courage to do this interview.
@@luvyatubers hear ya, luv. maybe not necessarily in the interview, unless she wanted to, but the whole network should be reported [again, if needed] to those who crack those nuts. hard to imagine they didn't leave 'legacies' i just want as much care to the victims/survivors as justice to the pedocrims so respect those with the strength to deal with the pedocrims
This is so heartbreaking. Might be one of the hardest videos to watch so far. Lord protect the helpless children out there who are being trafficked or abused.
Without a doubt, this is the most horrific story I have heard in quite some time. It is truly miraculous that this beautiful human being has survived. I am in awe of her strength and I sincerely hope she finds peace.
It is bad but if you want one that is way worse, I suggest you look up "Lisa - My parents were pedophiles" here on SWU. This one is probably one of the worst I've heard.
I can't believe she had the courage to get sober! I can't imagine going through life after that, let alone being sober and actually having to face and deal and go through all of what she's been out through.
@@KittySkeedI don’t think this is an appropriate way to talk about cases of child sexual abuse. This may be ‘entertainment’ but it is much more complex than that. We should all be careful and sensitive when talking about ‘true crime media’. You could say ‘another harrowing case I heard of this’ ‘this comment made me think of this other case’ etc. Instead of saying ‘if you want *one* that is way worse’ it’s not sensitive and dehumanises the victim, like they’re not a person just a case, and it also puts victims in ‘competition’ which is not something that should be done. Bad is bad. Trauma is trauma.
I doubt you'll ever see this but THANK YOU for being so strong and brave enough to tell your story. I cannot begin to fathom the things you have gone through and I'm so, so sorry that everyone growing up failed you. You've gone through hell and back and to still be standing and be able to speak out takes a lot of guts. I'm so happy to hear you're over 200+ days sober. I genuinely smiled when I could hear the giddiness in your voice! You deserve all the love in the world. Thank you for sharing your story and giving those who are still voiceless a voice ❤
Dear Ella, I just want you to know that your story saved my life today. I was going down a very dark road and thinking that it’s all too much to come back from… hearing what you’ve endured and overcome and feeling this giant pull or heaviness in my heart that makes me so badly want to break out in tears and reach thru the screen to embrace you and tell you over and over that YOU ARE ENOUGH! YOU MATTER! YOU ARE SO VERY LOVED! YOUR STORY AND LIFE HAVE A GREAT SIGNIFICANT PURPOSE AND HAD NOT BEEN LIVED IN VEIN! YOU ARE STRONG, BRAVE, and COURAGEOUS!!! YOU ARE AN INSPIRATION! As awful as it is, your story has given me some much needed hope. I am incredibly grateful for you sharing this today. As I type this you just got to the part where you said, “if I can help 1 person…” 😭😭😭 well, you did! I’d appreciate talking with you further if you’d be open to that. I could use a mentor or some guidance because I cannot seem to figure this out. Whether I hear from you or not, THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU! Please keep doing what you’re doing. 🙏 ❤
Katie, Many things have happened in my life - I was sexually abused by my Dad from ages 2 1/2 - 13. Also I’ve had many losses. I also found someone who who ‘offed’ themselves last year - It was an unbelievable tragedy. This is SERIOUS stuff. I BEG you to reconsider. PLEASE, Katie: Think about anyone who ever cared for you, and think about all the innocent people who would be impacted by your actions. 🌸 You drop that rock in the pond and you have NO idea what shores it would reach. It’s been over a year and I still struggle with the pain and flashbacks and I didn’t even know the person. Relatives, first responders, the guy who had to come determine the time of d*ath, neighbors, people who went to school with them, people they worked with, teachers - SO many people were affected. Please remember 988 is always there or even 911. Or you could go in the emergency room & they can get you into there front of the line for therapy which is what I did the day I found them. I was so traumatized and didn’t know what to do. Katie - tomorrow is a new day. You never know how your life might turn out over time. Please hear me. Please, Katie. 🌸 P.S. Ruby Wax has some good videos and books on her personal journey with this subject.
Dear Katie, you can still find happiness and love. I don’t know you, but I want to say something to remind you hope still exists. 1% of the evil people in this world do 95% of the worst things, so don’t think everyone is like that. There can still be love and joy for you. I’m so sorry about everything you endured. I hope you find peace. Please be forgiving on yourself, you are not a lost cause. You deserve life and respect and happiness. I hope you can find a way to remind yourself of this. Don’t forget 💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜
My God; I try not to indulge in rage or anger - but when this lady spoke about her "father" killing puppies and making her bury them... I have to check myself .... Some people deserve Hell and worse. ...
Religion is such a joke emotions and feelings are normal, anger and rage are normal emotions to feel and justified especially because of this situation
As a fellow cp trauma survivor, this woman is a hero to me. She is so brave, so wise, so kind. I am in awe of her and wish her all the best with her recovery and her future. I want her to know that there are thousands of people rooting for her - she has our support!
My grandfather is David Ross Baxley. He was on the FBIs most wanted for this stuff. When she said his name was David I got chills. My grandfather evaded prison for years and thankfully he's incarcerated now.
@@leanneadams2549 my mother has a similar story to this woman and turned to extreme drug use so she was stolen from me by the trauma David Ross Baxley caused. He had 3 girls with my grandmother and she knew about him and left all 3 girls with him anyways. My mom was never a mom to me but because I know what she went through I hold no anger. I just hurt for her and what she went through. Her older sister (my aunt) drank herself to death 2 years ago and it's just so sad how much this sicko changed my family forever. I don't consider him a grandfather and thank God I've never met him myself.
how many prayers does it take for someone to stop lying to themselves about how ur really telling people you know someone needs help and will not only refuse to help in anyway but pretend to have done sumthing.. one day I hope you need help.. just any human hand.. but all u get is a million hands 2 atta time.. they clap together and u hear a faint mumble and it just repeats... that day ull see the true power of ur god.. and ull realize it's humans that help humans.. and what kinda lazy son of a bitch it was who started the practice of telling people something greater could do so much.. how many people have help those unworthy becuz they said to have the ability to talk to a greater power.. to this very day fools stand in line hook line and sinker paying those who've contributions to society is nothing more then always taking.. this poor woman has been told and made to believe that what been done to her has to define her.. in reality it's her choice to share this tale but if she decides to never speak on it I'd respect both the same.. she hasn't been Tainted in anyway.. it a fucking shame no one's had the balls to tell her her beauty comes from within and it's brand new every morning your eyes open.. don't spend another day in a prison of shame.. if telling your story brings u to a place of shame u need to shed it like old skin.. spend ur days making memories u want to speak on.. if u feel the need to share only do so when the end result is a net sum gain.. you owe no one nothing and this one life is yours try to not let those who've stolen time from u get any profit on investment... there the ones who need to shoulder the shame.. that weight is on them.. you've carried that outrageous weight far to long.. I think u might find the strength you have from carring it this whole time makes u inna league far above those who cast judgment..
Wow. This woman has overcome addiction to heroin, alcohol, and her childhood, and she's still alive. She is perhaps the most hard-as-nails, screamingly metal, badass I've seen, ever.
"and i can still keep a secret today." She is holding so much darkness and pain. BIG healing and magic to you beauty. There is a PLAN for you. Your voice is needed in this time. The road youve been dragged on is not in vain. We love you. I love you.
The same shit happened to my mother. Her uncle would kill her dogs if she didn't do what he wanted.This hit me like a ton of bricks this poor woman.I hope you find peace in love
@@carynmartin6053 religious folk can be some of the worst abusers. Worshiping god or Jesus doesn’t make people good. many times it makes them self righteous and judgmental.
6 minutes in and i’m floored. What she went thru, Her dad’s reaction to any retaliation from her as a child by invoking her watching the torture of her dogs has me physically shaking and sobbing. I will be thinking of this woman’s story and resilience for the rest of my life
Im a teacher (4th grade) and during my 2nd year of teaching, I was told Id have a student in my class whose parents were arrested for creating porn withhim and his sister (6th). The psychologist and social worker had a meeting with us to discuss best practices and laws when he was in our rooms. I went home and cried basically. Ella is correct unfortunately, ive been aware of other cases since then. This story is so hard to hear let alone experience. Im so glad shes fighting for her future she deserves ❤
Teachers are good sometimes. But I saw them ignor many kids because of they knew the family. Plus now we deal with indoctrination. It's like they want the kids to live in the system. So they retire in Florida or Arizona very comfortable. It makes me sick! I have first hand knowledge of this. Ironically we bought our house from two school teachers so they could buy a new house with a pool and a cabin on a lake. He was my husband's teacher. The teachers unions made them a lot of money, plus all the fundraisers.
I'm so glad that the school did their best to be considerate of the kids' experiences. Was their classroom behaviour noticeably different from other kids?
Congratulations to you Ella on your sobriety! Thank you for bravely sharing your story. I am a therapist that specializes in trauma and addiction, and I am in awe at the insurmountable amount of courage you have on this path of healing. You have helped not one, but thousands of people just by sharing your story, and being an advocate to abused children and adults. By sharing your story you teach that healing is possible, sobriety is possible, and most importantly that your story exists, and there are thousands of other children and teens that need help. You are an incredible lady and deserve all of the love and friendships that your heart can hold. Sending you peace, healing, and hugs. 🤗❤
Question...is it normal for a survivor of CSA to use such vulgar words to vividly describe the ąɓü§ə they've endured? Especially to the degree she explains she went through? I ask because I, too, am a survivor of CSA. Thankfully, I didn't have to endure the level of what she describes she did. However, I did have to endure some pretty awful stuff. Personally, I could never use the words she did when describing the repulsive and abusive facts I've gone through. It would, personally, cause me to have vivid flashbacks of what happened, and I'd actively do whatever it takes to ensure that I don't put myself in a position where that would/could happen! You definitely wouldn't find me using such graphic words, especially during an interview with a very popular influencer on a top music focused social media platform, to describe what happened to me! Seriously, she's using so many triggering words. If the words she's using aren't triggering for her, then, shouldn't she at least be concerned about inflicting that type of emotional labor onto other survivors, who might be watching/listening? Which, she knows how horrific things can get after being exposed to triggers, so why would she still choose to use that language? I know that I try to be as mindful and empathic, as one can be, especially when I know I'm going to be around others who have experienced something similar or worse.
@@-Dolce_Far_Niente- She uses "vulgar" language to describe what happened to her, because what was done to her IS vulgar, and highly disturbing. If it was triggering to you, then perhaps you shouldn't have watched this video, knowing the content by the video title. Would you rather describe her sexual assault as "intimate" or some other nicey-nice word? That's not the truth, there was nothing intimate about it. Sometimes truth hurts. If you're triggered, then work on yourself to overcome your triggers. Everyone is free to speak their own truth, in their own words, no matter how horrible that truth may be.
Thank you for your empathetic and heartfelt response Danielle, I hope Ella read it! There are so many of us out here rooting for her, she is an incredible woman to have endured so much, and who wants to help others to recover from trauma. The world needs more people like her...and you.
This is the story of a hero. She went through some of the darkest valleys known to man, and rose above it all with a light that no one has been able to put out. Ella, you are an incredibly beautiful woman and I wish you peace, love, and happiness. There is good in this world and you are one of those good people ❤️
This kind of things always happened as stated above. There is no reason to believe it happened any more often just because an overall sexual liberation took place or because now they could tape their abuse. Correltion and Causation are NOT the same thing and I think you project your own conservative moral unto a problem which almost isn’t connected - if at all.
She said something that hit me “drugs make you weak”. Such a simple statement, yet so profound! She’s a wonderful woman and maybe one day I’ll get the pleasure of meeting her and we can pray together 😊
also keep in mind that these were people whose entire job was to manipulate children. they probably told these kids it was modeling or acting to make it seem okay/harmless. they couldve had people serve as those things to create more of a “professional” environment in an attempt to make it more confusing/harder for the children to tell.
@@kayc5496Terrible, terrible company with awful ethics and a multitude of reports that instead of a qualified therapist they will really just put anyone in front of you
@@kayc5496 besides the sponsorship being poorly timed and placed in the middle of the video, betterhelp is known for being a generally low-quality sellout app that unknowingly shares personal user data and often overcharges people for therapists that are unequipped or uncertified. they have a myriad of scummy business practices and are entirely carried in the PR department by youtube sponsorships
Absolutely. This has made me want to adopt more than anything I've ever seen. I hope she is able to move forward and realize this isn't her fault, it isn't her future. Poor woman. I wish I could just give her a hug and tell her it's ok.
Of all the videos this has really got to me. I first felt physically sick. Then I felt so sorry for Ella. Then immense anger towards her father and perpetrators. Then just helplessness. I don't know how it's possible, but I hope you find peace whilst still on this earth Ella.
Has anyone noticed that she still kind of talks like a child? There's some parts of the video but she still has the same cantor in her voice that a child would
I think that’s pretty common in csa survivors; theyre almost stuck in that mindset of helplessness and torture. Also she wasn’t allowed to go to school so her education was stolen from her as well as her childhood.
Yes, mentally and emotionally the brain goes back to that age and what ability the person would have to express what is being talked about at that age❤ bc there are still unprocessed emotions...it is literally a memory coming out ( even when she says she doesn't remember in her recall memory). The body and mind express in a certain way ( for example as a child) bc it is actually memory ;as memory is made from all of our senses. So when she says she can't remember certain things it is bc it has been blocked out and frozen unprocessed for safety. BUT, she may remember a smell or a voice , or another image that is attatched to the event❤.
This is horrible. This poor woman has gone through something NO child should go through. This world is sick and twisted to the point of no return. The trauma this lady went through is absolutely horrid! 😡😡😡
We know that there are probably a million children out there that have gone through this to one degree or another. To hear a victim speak of the horrors of being treated like nothing more than an object used to satisfy the filthy perversions of adults, is gut-wrenching. Thank you Ella for sharing your painful childhood memories with us. You are strong to have survived this. You are strong to be here sharing this. Very strong. May peace, and comfort be yours.
Literally treated her like she was not a human. No birthdays, no holidays, no friends, no education, nothing. She didn’t even know her age. This is a HORRIBLE story. It’s crazy that someone could even live an even semi-normal life after this. That man needs to be under a prison!!
I watched this yesterday, There is no way I could watch it again. Her poor life. I thought about this all night. The thought that kept coming back up was for the realist that like to post things like "she is tainted:. This message is for you. You can F....right off. There is no way she should be called tainted and broken. She is a survivor of atrocities to human beings and children at that. It's evil what she lived through and GOT AWAY from. To get to the place where she is and even want to help others is a miracle and a blessing. I would use the following to describe her: Miracle, Survivor, Strong, Beautiful, Blessed! I will always think of you, Ella and love you from afar. Thank you for your story. I wish you many beautiful blissful years of love, hugs and beautiful friends.
Wow. This is the first time I’ve heard a story this similar to my own. At least one that involved a woman older than myself that managed to make it through. Everyone else I’ve met, with similar experiences has long since passed. It is such a lonely and painful journey, one that no one else can relate to. Thank you for sharing this mam. Thank you for giving this girl some real hope.❤
My Dad was sold as a young kid by his mother in the 50s. He remembers other kids on the room also. He just passed away a few years ago from natural causes. He was the most compassionate, loving and amazing Dad. He could help people in ways no one else could, because he so deeply understood this kind of pain. So many people loved him. I am absolutely amazed by people who have gone through such evil. Such strong, amazing survivors. I wish these evil people were thrown into the depths of the sea as soon as they even tried to hurt one child. We still need to push more for justice for survivors. I'm sorry you ever had to go through any of that.
Ella, I want you to know that your words helped me , more than you will ever know. I have a somewhat similar past , currently on drugs and have been becoming more and more suicidal. You are right , the drugs weaken me , not help me, they keep me stuck with my thoughts. Thank you for sharing your story and for giving me that push I needed to get sober again. 🌹❤️
I have a trauma past and I celebrated 10 years clean in February. It does weaken us and once you aren't using substances you have to face yourself and your traumas without anesthetizing. It's painful but very healing. I hope the very best for you. 🙏🏻🫂
When she talked about the little dogs in the backyard and having nothing of her own, you could tell that hurt her more than anything. Made me cry. Her mom was a victim herself of a creepy scumbag and her grandparents let her mother be taken by a predator. She had no chance.. No one watching out for her at all. No school to report suspicious stuff, no friends, no family.. Just isolated with a sick pedophile. That's so fucking scary and sad to know there are hidden children out there still going through the same things.
The trauma that people will endure and be subjected to, and still have the ability to push forward and still live their lives. The resiliency, the strength, just speechless. Salute Ella. Purely inspirational and one of the most humbling and heavy interviews I've ever watched on SWU.
Ella, you are not tainted. You are resilient and these evil people did this to you at no fault of your own. I am so sorry you weren’t protected. This is one of the most horrific stories I’ve heard in awhile and I cried along with you. I wish I could’ve just hugged you and held your hand. Thank you for your bravery for sharing your story and I hope you can continue your healing journey.
I get wanting to rename it the kids’ sake. But the fact is, you cannot erase the word pornography. These particular pedophiles are not only child abusers, they are profiting off the creation and distribution of pornographic media. Yet another attempt to water down the power of words. Orwell 1984.
@@ronswansonsdog2833agreed. I'm sure it makes people feel safer and good about themselves to change wording, but it's just as you said, watering down the truth of the matter. Protecting your own sensitivities doesn't actually help anyone.
@@ronswansonsdog2833Its not an attempt to subdue the power of words, in fact, calling it sexual abuse material is much more powerful than calling it porn. The same way that people say that the phrase “sex with a minor” is wrong because its not sex, its rape. Its not porn as the world knows it, its material of one of the worlds most heinous crimes.
even if ella hasn’t helped me with child sexual abuse (i haven’t experienced it) she GREATLY helped me understand a lot of abuse i endured from my ex for 4 years. i was ages 16-20 and it impacted me so much. when she spoke about your brain not allowing you to remember things i completely understand what she’s saying, i’ve experienced so much of that and “putting on a face” even when you’re hurting inside. i hope she understands how strong and impactful of a woman she is. may ella find peace and happiness in every lifetime to come.
fuck…just the darkest, most depraved behavior. So courageous of her to talk about it. Hat’s off to her counselors, supporters and those who finally helped her. Hat’s off to Ella. Mark, yet again, another amazingly raw look into the human condition. To hear of that kind of vile darkness and to see her pain in such focus is…indescribable. The results of childhood sexual abuse are undeniable and almost universal. Knowing that her experience didn’t kill or turn her into some kind of monster is amazing. That it didn’t break her beyond repair; that she is finally able to see herself as good enough, even if just in punctuative moments, gives hope. Human resilience is on full display, scars and all. Cheers to you both.
As a police officer for over 20 years. Yes, the past in the 70s and 80s we absolutely did (i believe) drop the ball on cases like this. I think it was more the culture back then to believe the parents. 2024, the amount of precautions we take to protect children is more then i can ever type. Ranging from doctors and psychologists to over night protective boarding. It breaks my heart to hear this womans story
It definitely wasn’t only the 70’s or 80’s! It’s still happening today at a much higher rate than back then. Heck the sex industry is FAR larger and more powerful than ever before.
Oh, believe me, it's still rampant. My abusive (in every sense of the word) ex husband, I left 13 years ago, when our girls were 6 months and 3 years. They are now 12 and 14, and I just found out he's now abusing our youngest in some of the same exact sick ways... and I can't even get a copy of the police report she gave to the police, in order to give it to the court for her representation, because there's a minor involved in the case....Yeah! My 12 year old daughter!!!!! Who I drove to the station to give her report! I am her mother! How am I supposed to prove my daughter isn't lying against her abusive, manipulative, Narcissist of a father... without her report?!?! And btw, this is what happens when your sentence for Domestic Battery for 3 years lands you a 30 day vacation at home on an ankle monitor! Eff our effed up system, it's ruined the last 13 years of my life and our daughters entire childhoods so far.... with no end in sight! I'm so tired. But I will never give up on my girls! Even though I'm hanging from my last thread! And you shouldn't have to be able to afford a lawyer, in order to keep your children, with no claims against you proven... brought to court after the ex didn't like the answers he got from the police and CPS investigations. And now this is month 6 without my girls for the bigillionth time! Wake up people!
It was a different time. I am glad that your particular area does things differently now. "... there are miles to go before I sleep..." Thank you for your service.
Mark you not a good listener…. This woman comes on to pour her heart out wanting to be heard.. and then you are not paying close attention obviously. I do this for a living so I understand the importance of staying present when someone is being vulnerable. After so many of these videos, you’re interviewing skills are still kinda shit. I’m here for the people tho like this beautiful spirit. You are so greatly loved!!!! ♥️♥️♥️♥️ May you find the peace your heart so, so needs. You are not alone. I’m so happy you found someone who loves your daughter. You’re breaking a generational curse far deeper than u know. You are so good enough. Also it’s not “child p0rnpgraphy”.. it’s child s3xual abus3 material. We need to call it what it is. P0rnogrpahy involves CONSENT. A child can not do this. Smh..
This is hard to watch, as she says- Who would do this to their own daughter? There is no justice in this world. I hope all the children who have lived through this kind of abuse could get the right help and therapy to get more peace in their lifes. To not be reliving the nightmares disturbed adults forced up on them.
Many never get over it. Sexual assault trauma neg affects many aspects of ones life and can pop up at any time, unexpectedly. Therapy may be needed throughout life just to retain a sense of stability. Kudos to Ella for getting clean and continuing with her therapy. She deserves happiness.
As she speaks, she relives her entire traumatic ordeal. You can see her drift off to that sad, sick place. I hope she continues to be supported by loved ones who can help her heal. Thank you for your story, Ella. You may free someone else in bondage. Thank you for your courage!
Mark, this is one of your most remarkable B&W still portraits. You have captured the beautiful TRUE strong soul of Ella. Who she really is. Hope, enlightenment, love. Bravo.
Our world is quite literally filled with these people. Simply checking the stats on porn use makes that overtly obvious. Billions of them. Hundreds of millions in just the US alone. With research it is readily apparent that the majority of adult men eventually become pee dough filic as they age, the number of over 30 years people who are still sexualizing those outside of their generation is ever increasing. I was molested and raped by my forty something year old ex step brother in law when I was 12, following years of molestation by my much older teen cousins beginning sometime around 4 or 5 I assume, but can’t remember for certain. So I have spent many years researching this and it’s readily apparent that men become pee dough filically attracted as they age. What is normal attraction as a teen boy quickly develops into pee dough filia as they age into adults and growing more severe throughout their adult lives. What’s worse is that this does appear to be affecting women as well, with the advancement of pornography online. So yeah it is a very sick world that god created.
It's astonishing to realize how privileged we were as children, despite the verbal abuse. Hearing about this woman's ordeal has made me appreciate our past in a new light. Lots of love from down under.
I've been pretty silent over this the last few months so I'll do a quick recap. Back in late September I started having leg pain and shortness of breathe. After having major back surgery I assumed there was a complication. I ended up going to Stonesprings Hospital and that ended up being transferred to a higher level care-- good ol Reston Hospital 😫. Then the proceeded to admit me to the ICU and the next day took me into emergency surgery for a thrombectomy on one leg. Well it went terrible so they stopped. Two days later after multiple dopplers and scans they figured out I was filled with blood clots in both my legs cutting off blood flow to them, two in lungs and multiple in my arms and where my IVC filter was and that was a area was a hott mess express too. The next day they did a almost 8 hour thrombectomy to get my legs clear in which it didn't work so then everyone was panicking. We decided I needed a even higher level of care but UVA and MCV had no beds so they sent me to fairfaxs ICU where they did a upper thrombectomy and removed removed the clots in my abdominal cavity the best they could and removed by IVC filter. They discharged me a little after about 2 weeks with no real answers as to what to do but wait it out on blood thinners which I have been on since 2012. Fast forward to last week same symptoms started and I went to Stonesprings then right to Reston and back in the ICU unit. I was supposed to have surgery today but they realized quick this morning they weren't ready for me so I got the news around 3pm it wasn't going to happen so order dinner and scheduled surgery for Thursday. I just got word that they are going to split this surgery up and do half the surgery tomorrow. Please say prayers for me as this has been a extremely hard, full of loneliness, extremely scary and so incredibly painful. I'm trying to keep a open mind but it's so hard. All prayers are so needed at this point in time. There's so many things I left out because they are too personal or just for time sakes but know I am struggling more than I lead to be. If anyone is over near Reston Hospital and would like to visit and all that, I would be so grateful ♥️🧡♥️I've been pretty silent over this the last few months so I'll do a quick recap. Back in late September I started having leg pain and shortness of breathe. After having major back surgery I assumed there was a complication. 😂❤❤
@emanuelgaff1349 Sorry, but you're using the word "privilege" incorrectly. I realize it's an "in" word now, but you're using it incorrectly. There's nothing "privileged" about not being raped repeatedly (and filmed as well) as a toddler and throughout your entire childhood.
She already said she didn't get to go to school at all. Then he asks her twice in a row assuming she went to school. I know he interviews a lot of people but I felt like he wasn't actually listening to her... I need more empathy please.
Maybe he was having trouble processing this intense information for himself. You should show a little empathy and look at the whole scene we're watching and Listening to. You are being callous in your own way. Ease up a little.
@sleepychitlins perhaps it came across as that, I just have a similar history as this woman so I feel very defensive of her. I normally don't comment in such a way.
@@chuloon.centralit’s okay to feel defensive of her, I felt similarly as you but ya looking back it seems he was just having trouble processing the information
I. Know Mark says he receives a lot of hate but if he reads this, take it as constructive. Of late that has happened a lot. Maybe the interviews are becoming mundane work. All the same, this was sad.
I've seen lot of your interviews, this one hurt, the epitome of evil, how did she survive this childhood, how? You beautiful soul, I wish you profound peace.
Ella, I can't describe how much respect I have for you. You're healing beautifully and you're bringing positivity and kindness into the world despite your past. I'm inspired by your strength and courage and attitude. Despite everything, you've now taken control of your life and have steered yourself (and others) toward peace, love, and happiness. Shame and guilt and all the other negative feelings/emotions you've struggled so deeply with are fading away - as they damn well should be. You are a GOOD soul and a remarkable person. Ella, Thank You so much for doing this talk. And Thank You so much Mark for producing/sharing such valued and important content.
...sickening. And yet some folks think 'all' Parents are the salt of the earth. Not so!!!!! So sorry for this woman... And just think how much more horrible CP is out there because of the internet and the dark web. You never know who is involved in this depravity... neighbors, doctors , lawyers, for sure teachers, clergy, police, politicians, and parents pimping their children on social media...etc
Not exactly but do see when kids are taken from and then killed , it's the same as her father..wrong. usually so they get fat checks..fox Island issue is real . They are in every walk of public imo. Certainly
One of the most soul churning stories.. people that do these sadistic evil deeds to children are beyond salvation.. they don’t deserve to breath air ( my opinion and it won’t change) Hearing this ladies life story makes my bones quiver and cringe. You are not tainted you were systematically abused, that’s not your fault. Congratulations for your sobriety and the fact you still have kindness and compassion having been through what you have endured, it shows your humanity ❤ You’re a sweetheart! You and the other survivors are shining lights through all that darkness! 🤬 it angers me to my core that there’re people who abuse kids and are free in society. “ the worst crime and injustice ever in my opinion “
"When I got out of there, I got lots of friends and I loved it". That shook me to my core. The thought of a young woman just wishing for someone who wasn't going to take from her or hurt her. Beautiful, strong survivor! 💪 ❤
Ella, you are so brave telling your story. I'm certain this will help others who have gone through anything like the horrors you have, Sending you beautiful pure heartfelt love. Proud of you ♥
I feel so bad for this lady. I’ve heard some bad stuff on here but what happened to her is truly evil and sick. If there is a hell I hope the people who did these things to her wind up there. Sending prayers to this lady.
Ngl disturbing cases like this makes me very much more pro child because i think children shld have agency and be able to escape their predecament w/o the disturbance of their horrific parents stopping them due to the total authority they have over their kids. However, kids shld be informed abt consent, and appropriate relationships with people of diff ages eg like same age can be romantic or friendly, adults, can only either be platonic or familial, EXCLUSIVELY etc so they can protect themselves and have more social services that are for the people and accessible. Children like her deserve to escape their predecament no matter what.
So sad. I cannot believe how well spoken she is with no schooling whatsoever. She is obviously very smart and strong. Unbelievable that anybody would treat another human being like that especially their own children. Just so sick.
We’re looking at a human being that never had the experience of being treated like one. This is heartbreaking. It makes you want to take “justice” into your own hands against child predators. This country will prosecute a drug dealer more heavily than someone that preys on children. We have to stop looking at each other as different no matter what race, religion, gender, or political party, and start seeing the humanity in each other so we can start protecting those that need it the most. May God bless this woman and any other people that had to live in that hell 🙏🏾🖤
In Pennsylvania, a DUI will get you more time than a pedophile. If they do get locked up, they get under a year or work release. These laws need to change, but unfortunately, I don't have much hope of that because pedophilia rings are very common with judges, lawyers, politicians, and other high society people.
Ella, Your fortitude leaves me speachless. Thank you for taking care of yourself. Thank you for speaking about the horrific childhood you endured. Please know, you speaking here WILL help others.
For those who keep pedantically doing all this brilliant math about her father’s age as if to superciliously play gotcha with her- she said she hasn’t seen/ spoken to him in a long time. Sometimes when people have been severely abused and go no contact with their parents, it means they stop knowing for sure if their parents are dead or alive. It was obviously exhausting and triggering for her to even say her father is “there,” which could mean all kinds of things, and later she basically says she thinks of him as dead. So stop with your ignorance and inconsiderateness.
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States should never have statute of limitations for crimes like this. Her father should be behind bars now.
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She looks to be 60+
Her mother was 14 years older which would make her 74+
Her father was 32 years older than her mother which would make him 106+
-But he’s still alive?
Agreed
@@carlograziano722 Exactly! This is one sick lady and she sounds guilty of something IMO.
@@carlograziano722 trauma can confuse the mind about what and when something happened.. I can see she has definitely been traumatized but her brain is struggling with remembering it clearly, which is probably a good thing for her. She still talks like a child.. 😢😢😢😢
“Who would want a woman that is tainted?” That breaks my heart. You are a lovely lady and worthy of being loved. I wish you peace and comfort and happiness.
Dito
Amen!!
The answer is no one it’s the truth
Youre disgusting @Welderomejico666
@Welderomejico666 you're disgusting
I bawled when she said “but boy did I make up for that when I got out of there , I got lots of friends” you are so beautiful and strong ❤️😭
🥰 Me too
The fact that she raised a daughter with a good dad, wow. She’s got a bright light in her. Inhuman strength and soul.
I can only imagine how difficult sex is with such an awful sexual history. I hope her family lives a good life (except her dad.)
You're not tainted Ella. You had no choice. It's not your fault.
she most certainly is, she cant even talk normal
I understand you're trying to be nice and caring.
Sadly, she's tainted for life.
Trauma like this never goes away.
She's broken for ever.
Therapy and good people around you can help heal your wounds but the scars will always be there.
Also if she feels tainted, she is tainted.
Because it's her feelings.
I understand what you guys are saying, but I don't think using the word tainted is the best choice. Tainted means infected, contaminated, corrupted, or spoiled. These words are not a healthy way to perceive oneself. Of course she is allowed to feel that way, of course her spirit is broken beyond belief and will never be recovered. But I personally just don't feel like it's a good thing to tell someone who has lived such horrific things that they are indeed a corrupt and spoiled human. Just imo and thoughts for conversation. No offense intended.
@@treehouse8501 I think she’s remarkable to be as composed and intelligent as she is despite her hardships. She’s a beautiful person inside and out.
A person can only be "tainted" by virtue of their own action, or inaction. That could not possibly apply to this lady. She didn't have any choice or chance.
Animals don't even treat their offspring this bad. Her father is the epitome of evil.
Yes...he is a MONSTER.
My gerbil ate all her babies
@@blondie9422it was a protein snack
animals will eat their young if they're hungry. i mean at least i guess they don't fk em first?
So was her mother for leaving her with this monster.
This is so incredibly hard to listen to, but so necessary. This is probably one of the strongest women I've ever seen. I'm so sorry for the abuse you had to endure.
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Exactly what I wanted to say. ...
The only thing we can do is listen to show respect. It's hard to hear i don't know how one would survive this.
I’ve been a sexual abuse therapist for many years. This story was still very difficult to consume. Lord, set Ella free and restore her soul! 🕊️ Make her feel new like You do. Amen.
God bless you for your hard work!❤️🔥
@@amandawhite4590 Thank you, kind soul!
Amen, god bless you for what you do.
Amen
Thank you! Please, Lord- set Ella free and restore her soul. Gift her with angel wings for the hard times. 💖💖💖
So many people failed her as a child. I hope she's able to continue to find peace despite a background of pain and torture. I pray she continues to stay strong
This poor lady is traumatized & scarred for the rest of her life. A very heavy burden indeed.
meh, shes old as hell, so thats not a long time left
You never get over this
You’ve got it all worked out . Not
And NONE OF IT HER FAULT ……. GOD BLESS YOU LOVELY ❤❤❤
I can almost hear the trauma just in her speech pattern, alone. Heartbreaking.
When he asked what kind of teenager she was, and she replied she didn’t know I paused the video for ten minutes to process that level of abuse … holy Christ
yes
Im a grown man crying good on that one too. The hatred I feel has filled me currently
Throwing an ad in the middle of a woman talking about her sexual trauma is crazy ngl
And no other than BetterHelp 💀
💯 Absolutely
Literally how? I just downloaded it
Literally. This channel feels exploitative as hell
I agree, the ad should have been at the beginning or end. But I believe he pays the people he interviews, tries to help as much as he can, and brings light to the parts of society that we ignore. He, unfortunately, needs to have some sort of income as well.
This interview brought me to tears. Then, when Mark asked Ella how old she is, and Ella smiled - wow! Her smile lights up a room! I smiled right back at you, Ella! Thank you for your bravery and courage to share your story. Much love to You.
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@@meldoverfield7782 ❤️
The fact that she went to the police and THEY SENT HER BACK?!?!?! Oh my… this poor woman. She is stronger than anyone I know
I mean police were almost always men, and men are the ones doing this. They all protect each other. They are all the same.
Police cover for these people
Never got to go to school either. I'm sure the teacher would have reported it ... of course they didn't let her go to school. Had to have her husband teach her to read. Dear god.
Agreed. It's an atrocity that the legal system didn't intervene in situations like this back then.
I bet the Father knew someone in law enforcement. A police officer from my hometown was convicted because of inappropriate behavior towards children.
This poor woman has had one of the worse childhoods I have ever heard of. My heart breaks for her and her father needs to be arrested and sent to prison for the rest of his life! If you’re reading this Ella please know you’re loved and have a friend. If you ever need to talk I’m here just reach out! Hope your future is great from here on out!!
It's so sad beggers belief such trauma and abuse and all the victims 😢 💔 how can adults not have stepped in she had no chance
human trafficking is the new word for the old problem. Child rape, abuse of any minor and the like should be a death pen case. She had no one fight for her, protect her and she was a gold fish in a swam of sharks that did nothing but harm her in so many ways. Hugs Ella. It took so much courage to do this interview.
Sharks don't do this to their young. But I understand your point.
People with whom we interact daily carry unimaginable burdens and pain. This is a reminder to CHOOSE KINDNESS. ❤
Couldn't agree more ❤️
for sure. but justice for those like her dad
@@zellipavictims today must tell. She did not have the protection there is today but she should have told his name in the interview
@@luvyatubers hear ya, luv. maybe not necessarily in the interview, unless she wanted to, but the whole network should be reported [again, if needed] to those who crack those nuts. hard to imagine they didn't leave 'legacies'
i just want as much care to the victims/survivors as justice to the pedocrims
so respect those with the strength to deal with the pedocrims
Absolutely!
This is so heartbreaking. Might be one of the hardest videos to watch so far. Lord protect the helpless children out there who are being trafficked or abused.
"By the time I was 8 I was on heroin..." "Today's video is sponsored by Better Help!" That was jarring
BIG TIME!
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Yeah that was off putting
@@daultonlitteral3143to be totally fair stopping for an ad at almost any point in this video would be sort of off putting
Soft White Underbelly only ever profits off the people who have the actual stories. He takes advantage of them, its unfortunate.
Without a doubt, this is the most horrific story I have heard in quite some time. It is truly miraculous that this beautiful human being has survived. I am in awe of her strength and I sincerely hope she finds peace.
It is bad but if you want one that is way worse, I suggest you look up "Lisa - My parents were pedophiles" here on SWU. This one is probably one of the worst I've heard.
I can't believe she had the courage to get sober! I can't imagine going through life after that, let alone being sober and actually having to face and deal and go through all of what she's been out through.
@@KittySkeedI was also thinking this. Her story has stuck with me since I heard Ill never forget it
@@KittySkeedI don’t think this is an appropriate way to talk about cases of child sexual abuse. This may be ‘entertainment’ but it is much more complex than that. We should all be careful and sensitive when talking about ‘true crime media’. You could say ‘another harrowing case I heard of this’ ‘this comment made me think of this other case’ etc. Instead of saying ‘if you want *one* that is way worse’ it’s not sensitive and dehumanises the victim, like they’re not a person just a case, and it also puts victims in ‘competition’ which is not something that should be done. Bad is bad. Trauma is trauma.
@@garvinwalker9093 I completely agree. Her strength is remarkable. I admire her bravery. She’s one courageous lady! Much love to you Ella❤️🥰❤️
I doubt you'll ever see this but THANK YOU for being so strong and brave enough to tell your story. I cannot begin to fathom the things you have gone through and I'm so, so sorry that everyone growing up failed you. You've gone through hell and back and to still be standing and be able to speak out takes a lot of guts. I'm so happy to hear you're over 200+ days sober. I genuinely smiled when I could hear the giddiness in your voice! You deserve all the love in the world. Thank you for sharing your story and giving those who are still voiceless a voice ❤
What a sick world we live in honestly
agreed shockin wat people have endured
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Dear Ella, I just want you to know that your story saved my life today. I was going down a very dark road and thinking that it’s all too much to come back from… hearing what you’ve endured and overcome and feeling this giant pull or heaviness in my heart that makes me so badly want to break out in tears and reach thru the screen to embrace you and tell you over and over that YOU ARE ENOUGH! YOU MATTER! YOU ARE SO VERY LOVED! YOUR STORY AND LIFE HAVE A GREAT SIGNIFICANT PURPOSE AND HAD NOT BEEN LIVED IN VEIN! YOU ARE STRONG, BRAVE, and COURAGEOUS!!! YOU ARE AN INSPIRATION! As awful as it is, your story has given me some much needed hope. I am incredibly grateful for you sharing this today. As I type this you just got to the part where you said, “if I can help 1 person…” 😭😭😭 well, you did! I’d appreciate talking with you further if you’d be open to that. I could use a mentor or some guidance because I cannot seem to figure this out. Whether I hear from you or not, THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU! Please keep doing what you’re doing. 🙏 ❤
Katie,
Many things have happened in my life -
I was sexually abused by my Dad from ages 2 1/2 - 13.
Also I’ve had many losses.
I also found someone who who ‘offed’ themselves last year -
It was an unbelievable tragedy.
This is SERIOUS stuff.
I BEG you to reconsider.
PLEASE, Katie:
Think about anyone who ever cared for you, and think about all the innocent people who would be impacted by your actions.
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You drop that rock in the pond and you have NO idea what shores it would reach.
It’s been over a year and I still struggle with the pain and flashbacks and I didn’t even know the person.
Relatives, first responders, the guy who had to come determine the time of d*ath, neighbors, people who went to school with them, people they worked with, teachers -
SO many people were affected.
Please remember 988 is always there or even 911.
Or you could go in the emergency room & they can get you into there front of the line for therapy which is what I did the day I found them.
I was so traumatized and didn’t know what to do.
Katie - tomorrow is a new day.
You never know how your life might turn out over time.
Please hear me.
Please, Katie.
🌸
P.S. Ruby Wax has some good videos and books on her personal journey with this subject.
Sending love and light to you both.
@@Lauren-i8i
Dear Katie, you can still find happiness and love. I don’t know you, but I want to say something to remind you hope still exists. 1% of the evil people in this world do 95% of the worst things, so don’t think everyone is like that. There can still be love and joy for you. I’m so sorry about everything you endured. I hope you find peace. Please be forgiving on yourself, you are not a lost cause. You deserve life and respect and happiness. I hope you can find a way to remind yourself of this. Don’t forget 💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜
Much love to you darling Katie. You are a beautiful soul. I just know this.
My God; I try not to indulge in rage or anger - but when this lady spoke about her "father" killing puppies and making her bury them... I have to check myself .... Some people deserve Hell and worse. ...
Hell is a weak cope. He can get out of it by accepting Jesus. It's all bs anyways
Religion is such a joke emotions and feelings are normal, anger and rage are normal emotions to feel and justified especially because of this situation
@@neshadanay3219 if those idiots could read, they'd be very upset.
Facts
@@EmmaSquire-ks9nunaw not even Jesus would accept this guy
As a fellow cp trauma survivor, this woman is a hero to me. She is so brave, so wise, so kind. I am in awe of her and wish her all the best with her recovery and her future. I want her to know that there are thousands of people rooting for her - she has our support!
We love you too!
So sorry you went through that omg 🫂 I hope life is wonderful for you now & you are no longer suffering!
I am soooo sorry. This world is so sick...
We are rooting for you too!
@@montananerd8244 thank you so much!! 🥹
My grandfather is David Ross Baxley. He was on the FBIs most wanted for this stuff. When she said his name was David I got chills. My grandfather evaded prison for years and thankfully he's incarcerated now.
Thank you sharing that information Casey. I’m sure it has t been easy for you. ❤️ many prayers and much love 💯🙏❤️
So you ended up in videos being exploited ? Like you think you're somewhere on the dark web, or was it just physical/segxsual abuse ?
@@leanneadams2549 my mother has a similar story to this woman and turned to extreme drug use so she was stolen from me by the trauma David Ross Baxley caused. He had 3 girls with my grandmother and she knew about him and left all 3 girls with him anyways. My mom was never a mom to me but because I know what she went through I hold no anger. I just hurt for her and what she went through. Her older sister (my aunt) drank herself to death 2 years ago and it's just so sad how much this sicko changed my family forever. I don't consider him a grandfather and thank God I've never met him myself.
how many prayers does it take for someone to stop lying to themselves about how ur really telling people you know someone needs help and will not only refuse to help in anyway but pretend to have done sumthing.. one day I hope you need help.. just any human hand.. but all u get is a million hands 2 atta time.. they clap together and u hear a faint mumble and it just repeats... that day ull see the true power of ur god.. and ull realize it's humans that help humans.. and what kinda lazy son of a bitch it was who started the practice of telling people something greater could do so much.. how many people have help those unworthy becuz they said to have the ability to talk to a greater power.. to this very day fools stand in line hook line and sinker paying those who've contributions to society is nothing more then always taking.. this poor woman has been told and made to believe that what been done to her has to define her.. in reality it's her choice to share this tale but if she decides to never speak on it I'd respect both the same.. she hasn't been Tainted in anyway.. it a fucking shame no one's had the balls to tell her her beauty comes from within and it's brand new every morning your eyes open.. don't spend another day in a prison of shame.. if telling your story brings u to a place of shame u need to shed it like old skin.. spend ur days making memories u want to speak on.. if u feel the need to share only do so when the end result is a net sum gain.. you owe no one nothing and this one life is yours try to not let those who've stolen time from u get any profit on investment... there the ones who need to shoulder the shame.. that weight is on them.. you've carried that outrageous weight far to long.. I think u might find the strength you have from carring it this whole time makes u inna league far above those who cast judgment..
@@cardboardratthe fuck is wrong with you?
Wow. This woman has overcome addiction to heroin, alcohol, and her childhood, and she's still alive.
She is perhaps the most hard-as-nails, screamingly metal, badass I've seen, ever.
"and i can still keep a secret today." She is holding so much darkness and pain. BIG healing and magic to you beauty.
There is a PLAN for you. Your voice is needed in this time.
The road youve been dragged on is not in vain. We love you. I love you.
Thank you for your beautiful words. I believe this too.
So many prayers for this lady please
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You said it right, thank you for your comment❤ God Bless this precious soul, I'm heartbroken for her😢
Yes, I love her too. ❤🫂
The same shit happened to my mother. Her uncle would kill her dogs if she didn't do what he wanted.This hit me like a ton of bricks this poor woman.I hope you find peace in love
So sorry
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I am so sorry your poor mother endured such horror.
That’s so messed up man, I can’t even imagine that level of cruelty
What is wrong with people?
It's unreal the amount of terrible things that a person can go through and overcome. I wish you peace and recovery Ella.
This happens more often than we think. Sometimes on smaller levels then sometimes like this. It’s an evil world and it makes me so angry.
About 5 out of every 10 women experience sexual abuse before the age of 18.
Exactly! God gave Satan the planet and Satan sure set forth taking it over in every evil, despicable way possible!😮😢
@@carynmartin6053Don't blame the Gods for humanities filthy, disgusting and sadistic crimes. It lays the blame at someone else's feet
If there was a God, he would annihilate Satan & rid the world of all evil.
@@carynmartin6053 religious folk can be some of the worst abusers. Worshiping god or Jesus doesn’t make people good. many times it makes them self righteous and judgmental.
Mark, please continue to stay in contact with Ella. Help her in any way you can. She is so strong and selfless…wanting to help others. 🙏🏻🙌🏼💖
Yes I hope he does too! 😓🙏🏻
He won't unfortunately
6 minutes in and i’m floored. What she went thru, Her dad’s reaction to any retaliation from her as a child by invoking her watching the torture of her dogs has me physically shaking and sobbing. I will be thinking of this woman’s story and resilience for the rest of my life
Im a teacher (4th grade) and during my 2nd year of teaching, I was told Id have a student in my class whose parents were arrested for creating porn withhim and his sister (6th). The psychologist and social worker had a meeting with us to discuss best practices and laws when he was in our rooms. I went home and cried basically. Ella is correct unfortunately, ive been aware of other cases since then. This story is so hard to hear let alone experience. Im so glad shes fighting for her future she deserves ❤
Teachers are good sometimes. But I saw them ignor many kids because of they knew the family. Plus now we deal with indoctrination.
It's like they want the kids to live in the system. So they retire in Florida or Arizona very comfortable. It makes me sick! I have first hand knowledge of this. Ironically we bought our house from two school teachers so they could buy a new house with a pool and a cabin on a lake. He was my husband's teacher. The teachers unions made them a lot of money, plus all the fundraisers.
@@Wonderingwoman1🙄
I'm so glad that the school did their best to be considerate of the kids' experiences. Was their classroom behaviour noticeably different from other kids?
Congratulations to you Ella on your sobriety! Thank you for bravely sharing your story. I am a therapist that specializes in trauma and addiction, and I am in awe at the insurmountable amount of courage you have on this path of healing. You have helped not one, but thousands of people just by sharing your story, and being an advocate to abused children and adults. By sharing your story you teach that healing is possible, sobriety is possible, and most importantly that your story exists, and there are thousands of other children and teens that need help. You are an incredible lady and deserve all of the love and friendships that your heart can hold. Sending you peace, healing, and hugs. 🤗❤
Stated beautifully.❤
Question...is it normal for a survivor of CSA to use such vulgar words to vividly describe the ąɓü§ə they've endured? Especially to the degree she explains she went through?
I ask because I, too, am a survivor of CSA. Thankfully, I didn't have to endure the level of what she describes she did. However, I did have to endure some pretty awful stuff.
Personally, I could never use the words she did when describing the repulsive and abusive facts I've gone through. It would, personally, cause me to have vivid flashbacks of what happened, and I'd actively do whatever it takes to ensure that I don't put myself in a position where that would/could happen! You definitely wouldn't find me using such graphic words, especially during an interview with a very popular influencer on a top music focused social media platform, to describe what happened to me!
Seriously, she's using so many triggering words. If the words she's using aren't triggering for her, then, shouldn't she at least be concerned about inflicting that type of emotional labor onto other survivors, who might be watching/listening? Which, she knows how horrific things can get after being exposed to triggers, so why would she still choose to use that language? I know that I try to be as mindful and empathic, as one can be, especially when I know I'm going to be around others who have experienced something similar or worse.
@@-Dolce_Far_Niente- She uses "vulgar" language to describe what happened to her, because what was done to her IS vulgar, and highly disturbing. If it was triggering to you, then perhaps you shouldn't have watched this video, knowing the content by the video title. Would you rather describe her sexual assault as "intimate" or some other nicey-nice word? That's not the truth, there was nothing intimate about it. Sometimes truth hurts. If you're triggered, then work on yourself to overcome your triggers. Everyone is free to speak their own truth, in their own words, no matter how horrible that truth may be.
Thank you for your empathetic and heartfelt response Danielle, I hope Ella read it! There are so many of us out here rooting for her, she is an incredible woman to have endured so much, and who wants to help others to recover from trauma. The world needs more people like her...and you.
@@witchywoman4139 I am Danielle 😉(Charlotte commented on my comment 🤪) and I SO appreciate your kindness! ❤️❤️
the longest 35 minutes .. her story is heart breaking and i hope she lives a peaceful life and it’s filled with love and support
This is the story of a hero. She went through some of the darkest valleys known to man, and rose above it all with a light that no one has been able to put out.
Ella, you are an incredibly beautiful woman and I wish you peace, love, and happiness.
There is good in this world and you are one of those good people ❤️
For her to go through unimaginable trauma and at the end say she’s happy is so amazing. I hope you continue to heal and live a happy, healthy life.
Same here, we Got Away
Ive watched tons of swu videos but this one is by far the most heartbreaking.
It’s the absolute worst one yet. I can’t believe my ears. “He’s around” when asked where’s her dad now. Omg. !!
“Who would want a woman who is tainted” made me cry
As a child of trauma our minds shut down during said trauma to protect us, that’s why most of us don’t remember much of our childhoods 😢
I don’t remember most of my life because of that and I didn’t go through half of what she did, it’s a miracle she is this strong
“as a child”… right, because this video is about you.
@@richardkellogg-d4dwhat's your problem?
She didnt get to be a child at all, it was ripped away. I cant imagine.
That is the least of her worries….she was literally tortured for almost 20 years…
@EddyG0rdo Oh shut up, her comment is valid. You're just splitting hairs for the hell of it, captain obvious 🖕
...'Raped away'...
@@twhitten828 I meant her childhood was ripped away from her. Sorry it was 6am in thr morning wasn't fully awake
@@Cbow3977 it's true each way
The liberalisation of Pornography was one of the greatest mistakes of the 20th century.
This garbage was happening before it
You’re right, this type of abuse never happened before the libtards, right fellow genius?
@@FuentesBoaall this person is saying is that the liberalization made it much worse.
@@FuentesBoa the cause is sexual perversion. Which is worsened by porn.
This kind of things always happened as stated above. There is no reason to believe it happened any more often just because an overall sexual liberation took place or because now they could tape their abuse.
Correltion and Causation are NOT the same thing and I think you project your own conservative moral unto a problem which almost isn’t connected - if at all.
She said something that hit me “drugs make you weak”. Such a simple statement, yet so profound! She’s a wonderful woman and maybe one day I’ll get the pleasure of meeting her and we can pray together 😊
a makeup person and acting coaches for child pornography. OMG, i'm trying to wrap my head around that. can't do it
also keep in mind that these were people whose entire job was to manipulate children. they probably told these kids it was modeling or acting to make it seem okay/harmless. they couldve had people serve as those things to create more of a “professional” environment in an attempt to make it more confusing/harder for the children to tell.
There are things so depraved you can't grasp.
it was in the 60s and 70s. in many countries it was 100% legal but still taboo
@@drutt1985legal??!! wtf 🤬
@@nikstar1313 yes.
putting a betterhelp sponsorship on a video like this is fucking evil
Right.
Why?
@@kayc5496Terrible, terrible company with awful ethics and a multitude of reports that instead of a qualified therapist they will really just put anyone in front of you
@@kayc5496 besides the sponsorship being poorly timed and placed in the middle of the video, betterhelp is known for being a generally low-quality sellout app that unknowingly shares personal user data and often overcharges people for therapists that are unequipped or uncertified. they have a myriad of scummy business practices and are entirely carried in the PR department by youtube sponsorships
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File this under “How is she still alive, let alone functioning?” Thank you for sharing your story. Im sure it was not easy.
Dissociative identity disorder is what saved her 😿
Absolutely. This has made me want to adopt more than anything I've ever seen. I hope she is able to move forward and realize this isn't her fault, it isn't her future. Poor woman. I wish I could just give her a hug and tell her it's ok.
You call that " functional"?
@@garyhighley9022 Don't be an asshole, Gary. It's okay to have feelings and feel empathy.
Fetty
Of all the videos this has really got to me. I first felt physically sick. Then I felt so sorry for Ella. Then immense anger towards her father and perpetrators. Then just helplessness. I don't know how it's possible, but I hope you find peace whilst still on this earth Ella.
Omg yes. You really nailed going thru the emotions during her story.
Same
Has anyone noticed that she still kind of talks like a child? There's some parts of the video but she still has the same cantor in her voice that a child would
I think that’s pretty common in csa survivors; theyre almost stuck in that mindset of helplessness and torture. Also she wasn’t allowed to go to school so her education was stolen from her as well as her childhood.
@@Jsawyer191 happens to a lot of trauma survivors, not just csa. :)
Yes, mentally and emotionally the brain goes back to that age and what ability the person would have to express what is being talked about at that age❤ bc there are still unprocessed emotions...it is literally a memory coming out ( even when she says she doesn't remember in her recall memory). The body and mind express in a certain way ( for example as a child) bc it is actually memory ;as memory is made from all of our senses. So when she says she can't remember certain things it is bc it has been blocked out and frozen unprocessed for safety. BUT, she may remember a smell or a voice , or another image that is attatched to the event❤.
This is horrible. This poor woman has gone through something NO child should go through. This world is sick and twisted to the point of no return. The trauma this lady went through is absolutely horrid! 😡😡😡
We know that there are probably a million children out there that have gone through this to one degree or another. To hear a victim speak of the horrors of being treated like nothing more than an object used to satisfy the filthy perversions of adults, is gut-wrenching.
Thank you Ella for sharing your painful childhood memories with us. You are strong to have survived this. You are strong to be here sharing this. Very strong. May peace, and comfort be yours.
Literally treated her like she was not a human. No birthdays, no holidays, no friends, no education, nothing. She didn’t even know her age. This is a HORRIBLE story. It’s crazy that someone could even live an even semi-normal life after this. That man needs to be under a prison!!
I watched this yesterday, There is no way I could watch it again. Her poor life. I thought about this all night. The thought that kept coming back up was for the realist that like to post things like "she is tainted:. This message is for you. You can F....right off. There is no way she should be called tainted and broken. She is a survivor of atrocities to human beings and children at that. It's evil what she lived through and GOT AWAY from. To get to the place where she is and even want to help others is a miracle and a blessing. I would use the following to describe her: Miracle, Survivor, Strong, Beautiful, Blessed! I will always think of you, Ella and love you from afar. Thank you for your story. I wish you many beautiful blissful years of love, hugs and beautiful friends.
Wow. This is the first time I’ve heard a story this similar to my own. At least one that involved a woman older than myself that managed to make it through. Everyone else I’ve met, with similar experiences has long since passed. It is such a lonely and painful journey, one that no one else can relate to. Thank you for sharing this mam. Thank you for giving this girl some real hope.❤
You are loved Sarah. You are held. Everything's gonna be allright.
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You are loved. You are not alone.
My Dad was sold as a young kid by his mother in the 50s. He remembers other kids on the room also. He just passed away a few years ago from natural causes. He was the most compassionate, loving and amazing Dad. He could help people in ways no one else could, because he so deeply understood this kind of pain. So many people loved him. I am absolutely amazed by people who have gone through such evil. Such strong, amazing survivors. I wish these evil people were thrown into the depths of the sea as soon as they even tried to hurt one child. We still need to push more for justice for survivors. I'm sorry you ever had to go through any of that.
We need our own "me too" movement
This story hurts the soul man, ella you deserve all the warmth and safety in the world i pray that you get to heal one day.
Ella, I want you to know that your words helped me , more than you will ever know.
I have a somewhat similar past , currently on drugs and have been becoming more and more suicidal.
You are right , the drugs weaken me , not help me, they keep me stuck with my thoughts.
Thank you for sharing your story and for giving me that push I needed to get sober again. 🌹❤️
I have a trauma past and I celebrated 10 years clean in February. It does weaken us and once you aren't using substances you have to face yourself and your traumas without anesthetizing. It's painful but very healing. I hope the very best for you. 🙏🏻🫂
Wishing you strength, healing, and wellness.
You are loved.
Mark Im glad you give these people an outlet for them to tell their story
When she talked about the little dogs in the backyard and having nothing of her own, you could tell that hurt her more than anything. Made me cry. Her mom was a victim herself of a creepy scumbag and her grandparents let her mother be taken by a predator. She had no chance.. No one watching out for her at all. No school to report suspicious stuff, no friends, no family.. Just isolated with a sick pedophile. That's so fucking scary and sad to know there are hidden children out there still going through the same things.
I make sure to get to know my neighbors because I am looking out for stuff like this in my community.
😢 this breaks my heart, this poor lady must hurt so much
Killing her puppies and forcing her to bury them in the rain if she stepped out of line… what the actual fuck. This poor, poor soul.
The trauma that people will endure and be subjected to, and still have the ability to push forward and still live their lives. The resiliency, the strength, just speechless. Salute Ella. Purely inspirational and one of the most humbling and heavy interviews I've ever watched on SWU.
Yes, this got heavy quick. But also one of the most encouraging interviews for how she's been able to overcome and take back her life❤
Ella, you are not tainted. You are resilient and these evil people did this to you at no fault of your own. I am so sorry you weren’t protected. This is one of the most horrific stories I’ve heard in awhile and I cried along with you. I wish I could’ve just hugged you and held your hand. Thank you for your bravery for sharing your story and I hope you can continue your healing journey.
This breaks my heart , and also makes me so very very angry
Very very
The correct term is " Child sexual abuse material" producer, it's no longer referred to as child pornography
Weird how they changed what it's referred to as. Some Fuckin weird shit going on some places now days
I get wanting to rename it the kids’ sake. But the fact is, you cannot erase the word pornography. These particular pedophiles are not only child abusers, they are profiting off the creation and distribution of pornographic media. Yet another attempt to water down the power of words. Orwell 1984.
@@ronswansonsdog2833agreed. I'm sure it makes people feel safer and good about themselves to change wording, but it's just as you said, watering down the truth of the matter. Protecting your own sensitivities doesn't actually help anyone.
@@ronswansonsdog2833Its not an attempt to subdue the power of words, in fact, calling it sexual abuse material is much more powerful than calling it porn. The same way that people say that the phrase “sex with a minor” is wrong because its not sex, its rape. Its not porn as the world knows it, its material of one of the worlds most heinous crimes.
@@ronswansonsdog2833 I think naming that what's happening in the content is sex abuse is important, it centers what the victims are experiencing.
You never know what people have gone through or are going through. I hope she comes back and does more interviews.
I only went through it once, for her to be abused over and over is just too horrendous. I cry for her.
Sorry for your trauma 😢
@@Freddybender123 Thank you for your kind words, it was a long long time ago but i remember like it was yesterday.
even if ella hasn’t helped me with child sexual abuse (i haven’t experienced it) she GREATLY helped me understand a lot of abuse i endured from my ex for 4 years. i was ages 16-20 and it impacted me so much. when she spoke about your brain not allowing you to remember things i completely understand what she’s saying, i’ve experienced so much of that and “putting on a face” even when you’re hurting inside. i hope she understands how strong and impactful of a woman she is. may ella find peace and happiness in every lifetime to come.
fuck…just the darkest, most depraved behavior.
So courageous of her to talk about it. Hat’s off to her counselors, supporters and those who finally helped her. Hat’s off to Ella.
Mark, yet again, another amazingly raw look into the human condition.
To hear of that kind of vile darkness and to see her pain in such focus is…indescribable.
The results of childhood sexual abuse are undeniable and almost universal.
Knowing that her experience didn’t kill or turn her into some kind of monster is amazing.
That it didn’t break her beyond repair; that she is finally able to see herself as good enough, even if just in punctuative moments, gives hope.
Human resilience is on full display, scars and all.
Cheers to you both.
This is so heavy, I couldn't finish it. I'll go back to this video some other time. God bless you lady.... 🙏 😔
This poor woman never stood a chance, and neither did her mother. Heartbreaking. She is so strong and amazing.
Mark you should change the title to “survivor of” cause that’s exactly what she is, I want to hug her poor thing ❤
As a police officer for over 20 years. Yes, the past in the 70s and 80s we absolutely did (i believe) drop the ball on cases like this. I think it was more the culture back then to believe the parents.
2024, the amount of precautions we take to protect children is more then i can ever type. Ranging from doctors and psychologists to over night protective boarding.
It breaks my heart to hear this womans story
It definitely wasn’t only the 70’s or 80’s! It’s still happening today at a much higher rate than back then. Heck the sex industry is FAR larger and more powerful than ever before.
It was much worse in the 70s and 80s you had NO voice whatsoever for kids@@sarahalderman3126
Oh, believe me, it's still rampant. My abusive (in every sense of the word) ex husband, I left 13 years ago, when our girls were 6 months and 3 years. They are now 12 and 14, and I just found out he's now abusing our youngest in some of the same exact sick ways... and I can't even get a copy of the police report she gave to the police, in order to give it to the court for her representation, because there's a minor involved in the case....Yeah! My 12 year old daughter!!!!! Who I drove to the station to give her report! I am her mother! How am I supposed to prove my daughter isn't lying against her abusive, manipulative, Narcissist of a father... without her report?!?! And btw, this is what happens when your sentence for Domestic Battery for 3 years lands you a 30 day vacation at home on an ankle monitor! Eff our effed up system, it's ruined the last 13 years of my life and our daughters entire childhoods so far.... with no end in sight! I'm so tired. But I will never give up on my girls! Even though I'm hanging from my last thread!
And you shouldn't have to be able to afford a lawyer, in order to keep your children, with no claims against you proven... brought to court after the ex didn't like the answers he got from the police and CPS investigations. And now this is month 6 without my girls for the bigillionth time! Wake up people!
It was a different time. I am glad that your particular area does things differently now.
"... there are miles to go before I sleep..."
Thank you for your service.
I pray the TRUTH be revealed in your daughters' cases and over this World. GOD YAHWEH please send the right people to help. ❤
Mark you not a good listener…. This woman comes on to pour her heart out wanting to be heard.. and then you are not paying close attention obviously. I do this for a living so I understand the importance of staying present when someone is being vulnerable. After so many of these videos, you’re interviewing skills are still kinda shit. I’m here for the people tho like this beautiful spirit. You are so greatly loved!!!! ♥️♥️♥️♥️
May you find the peace your heart so, so needs. You are not alone.
I’m so happy you found someone who loves your daughter. You’re breaking a generational curse far deeper than u know. You are so good enough.
Also it’s not “child p0rnpgraphy”.. it’s child s3xual abus3 material.
We need to call it what it is.
P0rnogrpahy involves CONSENT. A child can not do this. Smh..
This is hard to watch, as she says- Who would do this to their own daughter? There is no justice in this world. I hope all the children who have lived through this kind of abuse could get the right help and therapy to get more peace in their lifes. To not be reliving the nightmares disturbed adults forced up on them.
Many never get over it. Sexual assault trauma neg affects many aspects of ones life and can pop up at any time, unexpectedly. Therapy may be needed throughout life just to retain a sense of stability. Kudos to Ella for getting clean and continuing with her therapy. She deserves happiness.
As she speaks, she relives her entire traumatic ordeal. You can see her drift off to that sad, sick place. I hope she continues to be supported by loved ones who can help her heal. Thank you for your story, Ella. You may free someone else in bondage. Thank you for your courage!
Mark, this is one of your most remarkable B&W still portraits. You have captured the beautiful TRUE strong soul of Ella. Who she really is. Hope, enlightenment, love. Bravo.
I don't understand this world. Why do such horrible people exist? I pray for healing for your beautiful soul Ella. Sending so much love ❤
Our world is quite literally filled with these people. Simply checking the stats on porn use makes that overtly obvious. Billions of them. Hundreds of millions in just the US alone. With research it is readily apparent that the majority of adult men eventually become pee dough filic as they age, the number of over 30 years people who are still sexualizing those outside of their generation is ever increasing. I was molested and raped by my forty something year old ex step brother in law when I was 12, following years of molestation by my much older teen cousins beginning sometime around 4 or 5 I assume, but can’t remember for certain. So I have spent many years researching this and it’s readily apparent that men become pee dough filically attracted as they age. What is normal attraction as a teen boy quickly develops into pee dough filia as they age into adults and growing more severe throughout their adult lives. What’s worse is that this does appear to be affecting women as well, with the advancement of pornography online. So yeah it is a very sick world that god created.
without evil, there is no need for good.
Amen 🙏🏽 ❤
Nah, this filth exists for zero purpose.
some people are born with their wires crossed. evil deeds make them happy. or sometimes they dont understand what they are doing.
It's astonishing to realize how privileged we were as children, despite the verbal abuse. Hearing about this woman's ordeal has made me appreciate our past in a new light. Lots of love from down under.
Respectfully, I don’t think not being horrifically abused is privilege
I've been pretty silent over this the last few months so I'll do a quick recap. Back in late September I started having leg pain and shortness of breathe. After having major back surgery I assumed there was a complication. I ended up going to Stonesprings Hospital and that ended up being transferred to a higher level care-- good ol Reston Hospital 😫. Then the proceeded to admit me to the ICU and the next day took me into emergency surgery for a thrombectomy on one leg. Well it went terrible so they stopped. Two days later after multiple dopplers and scans they figured out I was filled with blood clots in both my legs cutting off blood flow to them, two in lungs and multiple in my arms and where my IVC filter was and that was a area was a hott mess express too. The next day they did a almost 8 hour thrombectomy to get my legs clear in which it didn't work so then everyone was panicking. We decided I needed a even higher level of care but UVA and MCV had no beds so they sent me to fairfaxs ICU where they did a upper thrombectomy and removed removed the clots in my abdominal cavity the best they could and removed by IVC filter. They discharged me a little after about 2 weeks with no real answers as to what to do but wait it out on blood thinners which I have been on since 2012. Fast forward to last week same symptoms started and I went to Stonesprings then right to Reston and back in the ICU unit. I was supposed to have surgery today but they realized quick this morning they weren't ready for me so I got the news around 3pm it wasn't going to happen so order dinner and scheduled surgery for Thursday. I just got word that they are going to split this surgery up and do half the surgery tomorrow. Please say prayers for me as this has been a extremely hard, full of loneliness, extremely scary and so incredibly painful. I'm trying to keep a open mind but it's so hard. All prayers are so needed at this point in time. There's so many things I left out because they are too personal or just for time sakes but know I am struggling more than I lead to be. If anyone is over near Reston Hospital and would like to visit and all that, I would be so grateful ♥️🧡♥️I've been pretty silent over this the last few months so I'll do a quick recap. Back in late September I started having leg pain and shortness of breathe. After having major back surgery I assumed there was a complication. 😂❤❤
@emanuelgaff1349
Sorry, but you're using the word "privilege" incorrectly. I realize it's an "in" word now, but you're using it incorrectly.
There's nothing "privileged" about not being raped repeatedly (and filmed as well) as a toddler and throughout your entire childhood.
@@lisahinton9682i agree with you. i think that they were just trying to empathise though.
I understand what you're trying to say
She already said she didn't get to go to school at all. Then he asks her twice in a row assuming she went to school. I know he interviews a lot of people but I felt like he wasn't actually listening to her... I need more empathy please.
Maybe he was having trouble processing this intense information for himself. You should show a little empathy and look at the whole scene we're watching and Listening to. You are being callous in your own way. Ease up a little.
@sleepychitlins perhaps it came across as that, I just have a similar history as this woman so I feel very defensive of her. I normally don't comment in such a way.
@@chuloon.centralit’s okay to feel defensive of her, I felt similarly as you but ya looking back it seems he was just having trouble processing the information
Right, he shldnt have just been throwing questions at her and shldve waited
I. Know Mark says he receives a lot of hate but if he reads this, take it as constructive. Of late that has happened a lot. Maybe the interviews are becoming mundane work. All the same, this was sad.
Thank you for not censoring this for the most part.
I've seen lot of your interviews, this one hurt, the epitome of evil, how did she survive this childhood, how? You beautiful soul, I wish you profound peace.
Ella, I can't describe how much respect I have for you. You're healing beautifully and you're bringing positivity and kindness into the world despite your past. I'm inspired by your strength and courage and attitude. Despite everything, you've now taken control of your life and have steered yourself (and others) toward peace, love, and happiness. Shame and guilt and all the other negative feelings/emotions you've struggled so deeply with are fading away - as they damn well should be. You are a GOOD soul and a remarkable person. Ella, Thank You so much for doing this talk. And Thank You so much Mark for producing/sharing such valued and important content.
I’m sickened by this. This is horrible. Poor lady
...sickening. And yet some folks think 'all' Parents are the salt of the earth. Not so!!!!! So sorry for this woman... And just think how much more horrible CP is out there because of the internet and the dark web. You never know who is involved in this depravity... neighbors, doctors , lawyers, for sure teachers, clergy, police, politicians, and parents pimping their children on social media...etc
Not exactly but do see when kids are taken from and then killed , it's the same as her father..wrong. usually so they get fat checks..fox Island issue is real . They are in every walk of public imo. Certainly
I hope that therapy helps Ella. She has a very smooth voice and I can see the innocence of a child behind her eyes when she smiles.
It's not child pornography,it's images of child abuse
A lot of detectives like to call it C-SAM (child sexual abuse material) because children never consent to it.
Yes, it needs renaming just as you said it!!
@@safeasmush A lot of detectives like to call it C-SAM (child s*xual ab*se material) instead of child p*rn because children never consent to it.
Yes agreed. I hate the “CP” term. It’s child abuse material.
I’ve seen it starting to be called CSAM
Child sexual assault material
One of the most soul churning stories.. people that do these sadistic evil deeds to children are beyond salvation.. they don’t deserve to breath air ( my opinion and it won’t change) Hearing this ladies life story makes my bones quiver and cringe. You are not tainted you were systematically abused, that’s not your fault. Congratulations for your sobriety and the fact you still have kindness and compassion having been through what you have endured, it shows your humanity ❤ You’re a sweetheart!
You and the other survivors are shining lights through all that darkness!
🤬 it angers me to my core that there’re people who abuse kids and are free in society. “ the worst crime and injustice ever in my opinion “
"When I got out of there, I got lots of friends and I loved it". That shook me to my core. The thought of a young woman just wishing for someone who wasn't going to take from her or hurt her. Beautiful, strong survivor! 💪 ❤
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Ella, you are so brave telling your story. I'm certain this will help others who have gone through anything like the horrors you have, Sending you beautiful pure heartfelt love. Proud of you ♥
I feel so bad for this lady. I’ve heard some bad stuff on here but what happened to her is truly evil and sick. If there is a hell I hope the people who did these things to her wind up there. Sending prayers to this lady.
I mean nearly every SW out there has experienced much the same. It is extremely common.
@@sarahalderman3126 what does SW mean?
ella, i am so sorry that you had a horrible experiences, you are the strongest woman i know, your story is an inspiration
This lady has lived a life of hell. If you can't trust your parents , who can you trust. ... She never had a chance....
Ngl disturbing cases like this makes me very much more pro child because i think children shld have agency and be able to escape their predecament w/o the disturbance of their horrific parents stopping them due to the total authority they have over their kids. However, kids shld be informed abt consent, and appropriate relationships with people of diff ages eg like same age can be romantic or friendly, adults, can only either be platonic or familial, EXCLUSIVELY etc so they can protect themselves and have more social services that are for the people and accessible. Children like her deserve to escape their predecament no matter what.
So sad. I cannot believe how well spoken she is with no schooling whatsoever. She is obviously very smart and strong. Unbelievable that anybody would treat another human being like that especially their own children. Just so sick.
Ella - I hope you see this. You have helped me. You have helped.
@@KrumpytheClown ❤️
We’re looking at a human being that never had the experience of being treated like one. This is heartbreaking. It makes you want to take “justice” into your own hands against child predators. This country will prosecute a drug dealer more heavily than someone that preys on children.
We have to stop looking at each other as different no matter what race, religion, gender, or political party, and start seeing the humanity in each other so we can start protecting those that need it the most. May God bless this woman and any other people that had to live in that hell 🙏🏾🖤
Well said ❤
Amen 🙏 💜
In Pennsylvania, a DUI will get you more time than a pedophile. If they do get locked up, they get under a year or work release. These laws need to change, but unfortunately, I don't have much hope of that because pedophilia rings are very common with judges, lawyers, politicians, and other high society people.
My heart breaks for this precious woman💔
Agreed.
This woman needs lots of hugs and love to make up for all of the horrible things that has happened to her.
I wish her love and peace.
Ella, Your fortitude leaves me speachless. Thank you for taking care of yourself. Thank you for speaking about the horrific childhood you endured. Please know, you speaking here WILL help others.
I can’t even begin to imagine your pain. Congratulations on your sobriety, i wish you all the peace you deserve 👏🏼
For those who keep pedantically doing all this brilliant math about her father’s age as if to superciliously play gotcha with her- she said she hasn’t seen/ spoken to him in a long time. Sometimes when people have been severely abused and go no contact with their parents, it means they stop knowing for sure if their parents are dead or alive. It was obviously exhausting and triggering for her to even say her father is “there,” which could mean all kinds of things, and later she basically says she thinks of him as dead. So stop with your ignorance and inconsiderateness.
I thought this was been there. Torture to say Monster…I mean father
YOU ARE NOT TAINTED!!! any man that hears this story and thinks you are tainted is PART OF THE PROBLEM!
NAAH THE AD TRANSITION IS CRAZY
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