Actually, in patient programs still tube feed even when your still able to eat meals so that you get extra calories. Many people come to the table to eat and just wheel their feeding tube in with them.
I have watched all the videos many times but still haven't seen anywhere where you talk about your fears, besides the intestine stuff, I wanna know specifically what you were afraid of in the hospital, what made you so scared you wanted to run away? Were you afraid of gaining weight or eating? And what about it made you feel scared? I've noticed in my journey answering these questions is what frees you and allows you to recover 💚
I have watched most of Angelique’s videos. She passed away about a year ago. I recovered from anorexia 58 years ago. Most people had never even heard of it back then until Karen Carpenter died from it. The scariest thing for Angelique in the hospital was probably not having control of everything. For a lot of anorexics the underlying issue is the need to have absolute control of something, and what you do or don’t eat is something you can take control of.
Another way that you're helping others Angelique is by documenting your journey. Most people do not know how severely lacking health care for eating disorders is. In the Netherlands and elsewhere. Your brave choice to share your journey publicly has put this information out there. It is a testimony that increases knowledge, understanding and compassion. It may change someone's mind in ways that causes them to better support their family member, friend, patient, or even causes them to effect systemic change.
@@Doritbardola Btw, I’m reporting your nasty comments for harassment and bullying since you are apparently on some kind of crusade on here. You need to be blocked from this channel.
I’m so happy to see you survived the virus episode. I’m glad you have a doctor who is listening to you and is working to help you. Blessings to your friend for his help. You are strong and brave. Prayers for continued progress.
@@shelleyclark4759 She is literally replying under all the comments to spew her nasty attitude and talk awful about Lique. You should see some of her comments.
@Dolly Bow Get a life and stop harassing her, even if you don't agree with her choices (I don't think anyone has to) no need to behave, like a cruel bully and comment something nasty under every comment. I don't understand how people have this much time to hate on a person they don't eveknow, doesn't make sence to me how people always seem to become like this when the people they follow don't do things like they think the should, the narcissism of some people.
One thing all anorexics do have in common and i am saying,every single one with no exceptions.Anorexia is ultimately a long slow suicide.Ask anyone with anorexia to name one positive thing that anorexia brings to their lives.The answer is simply nothing.
It's good to see you. I'm glad you got past the virus and hope you gain back your strength fast. As far as the ER in the USA, I have gone to the ER a few times and once they find out about my mental illness they tell me to go see my psychiatrist. I had appendicitis and the ER sent me away twice saying if I have pain see my psychiatrist or my therapist. I finally got help when my appendix burst. That's only one example. It's happened 3 different times for other reasons that were physical in nature not mental. I feel like if you have a mental illness of whatever kind the ER doctors don't think you can have a physical illness, only mental illness. That's my interpretation of how I've been treated. Now if I need the help of a doctor in the ER, a personal doctor or whatever, I put it off so long because of the fear of being rejected again. It has led to significant health problems now because of that fear. Nobody wants to be seen as just a mental case but that is how these Dr's make me feel. It has also led to my depression and anxiety and my eating disorders getting worse as well. Dr's need more training on how to deal with people with mental health issues ( not just in the USA, but everywhere). We are actual people with physical bodies that at times need medical help. We are not just a head with mental health issues, but that is how we are treated sometimes.
Are you kidding me?! (about your appendicitis) that’s so bad that they didn’t take you in immediately. My appendix had also burst, but it was because I waited 2 weeks to go to the hospital, because I didn’t want to bother my family…so that’s my fault. But I also have narcolepsy, and before getting a proper diagnosis, they made me spent hours in the psychology department, because they thought my symptoms might be signs of a depression..😑
I don’t know if having a family member with you, who can conform that your symptoms are not the usual ones, you have something else. Tell them the appendicitis story. As a person with mental issues you can have all health issues other people have.
There are just some things you can NEVER understand until you experience it yourself. Your will to live inspires me to keep fighting, Angelique. Doesn't matter if you're happy, sad, angry, rebellious, or feeling sorry for yourself. What you've given us is REAL! And, that's becoming rare in this world where FEAR is fed to us 24/7. I love who you are. 💕
Oh I’ve experienced it my self, she complains to much instead of trying to get herself better, she’s been in hospital loads of times they just give up she won’t comply
@@Doritbardola So, you've experienced it as you. Not as Angelique. Big difference. As the saying goes, 'Don't judge a man until you've walked a mile in his moccasins' Not or own, the other person. Which we know is not possible. So... don't judge... period.
@@Doritbardola Can you find somewhere else to spew your venom? Frankly, you have a lot to learn about love, empathy, and kindness. You must have had a very harsh upbringing if all you do is judge others and express negativity.
Little bit about me: I am a mother of 3 grown men. One has a alcohol problem and is having health issues also. I totally understand what your mother is going through. It is so hard to see your child go through a time of hardship. My son and I have had a strained relationship until I could finally separate his addiction from who he is. I can still see him as a young child and this can make it difficult. I am there for him and love him over his mental issues with addiction.
I'm glad that you're able to carry your own grief, anger and pain to be there for your sons. People in the comments section don't understand how common it is for family to distance themselves from their ill and suffering relatives. Thank you for sharing a parent's perspective.
The fact that you’re still alive shows that you haven’t given up and you’re still fighting. Ignore the hurtful comments and focus on the majority that are saying such kind things. You’ve created this beautiful community that cares about you and is cheering you on, hoping and praying for your recovery. I’m finding inspiration from you to keep fighting my own battles in life, Angelique. Keep hanging in there! I believe in you.
@@Doritbardola She has an ED. It’s not that simple. You clearly don’t understand mental illness and addiction issues. If things were so simple, there wouldn’t be so many people struggling from those problems.
Was hoping for an update. I’m extremely saddened that you’ve left. I think about you daily and please don’t take this harshly BUT you have ALOT of excuses. ALOT. Outside of death there’s no where else you can go except to GET SERIOUS about getting well. You can blame every Dr,Psychiatrist every harsh talking nurse but at the end of the day their job IS TO SAVE YOUR LIFE. It has to be frustrating to them to see you taking a bed,that takes months and weeks to get only to not follow the plan,blame others and ultimately leave. They can guide you and help medically but it boils down to YOU!! YOU have to want it. Not just say you do but prove it with actions. And your actions do not show that of someone who TRULY wants to get better or you’d still be there.
You are so correct. She is deep in her ed and will not relinquish her control over food. She has been this way for years. Treatment will not work without "a leap of faith" and total surrender to her doctors and their treatment plan, not her own made up treatment plan. I hope she gets her "come to Jesus" moment and can finally move forward in her life. So incredibly sad. She needs intensive psychiatric, specialized care. 😥
@@artemis1style That’s not my intention AT ALL! I genuinely care about her. I truly check EVERY SINGLE DAY for an update,I pray daily for her healing and strength. But there comes a time when one has to stop giving excuses. I’ve been there,I’m not passing judgement AT ALL! I was in active addiction for 14 years and had any excuse in the world. But once I was DONE the excuses stopped. I truly wish she were in the states and could go to a dual diagnosis center that would treat ALL issues at once!! That’s her best shot.
There are specialized ED hospitals and clinics in the Netherlands. I truly believe she would claim to experience the same problems in the states, because she isn't really ready
I think you are a phenomenal woman, Angelique. Ignore people that give mean/awful comments because obviously they do not have experience with an eating disorder, let alone an ED as serious and long standing as you are. You are a miracle and being similar age as you (I’m 43) and sick since similar age (age 12-13) and very very ill at times, I am fucking impressed by you and what you are doing. You ARE working hard and I can tell by the strength of your voice and the clarity of your thoughts etc. You are going to do amazing things, Angelique. You are here for a reason and I feel you have so much to offer this world.❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
Hello Lique, I'm so happy to see you smiling and pushing through these struggles. People will always judge, point fingers and act like they know what's best for you. Yet they don't even know you personally. Just keep trying. That's all we can do. One day at a time. I'm proud of you! Like you said it feels like we are all in this together. You help me with some things I'm going through and I know you said this channel has been so helpful to you. I'm glad you're feeling better from the virus and now you can start focusing again on getting better with the eating. Take care of yourself! Much love, Heather ❤
It’s hard for anyone to understand what anyone is going through unless it is themselves. You are not alone in that I have to eat every 2-3 hours as well to prevent hypoglycemia. It’s annoying and we may lose sleep but I always figure I am doing something good for my body and that is always a positive. I hope you feel better ☀️
I do think the hospital was your best bet despite the hiccups there. I truly hope you didn’t lose your window of opportunity, we sometimes think an opportunity will open up again and life has other plans. That being said, I am still rooting for your recovery and just have to trust that you truly do want to recover and are doing your best to do so. If that’s the case hopefully you can keep getting stronger on your own and enter the hospital at another time.
I was thinking of contributing, but then thought, “Why did you leave the hospital against medical advice?” You need to take the help offered rather than thinking you know more than Doctors. Yes, do whatever you can to stay alive including staying in the hospital. Overcoming an eating disorder is like quitting heroin. Hard, hard, hard. You go girl!
I was so worried about you when you had the virus and when I heard you left the hospital. I'm so glad you made it through the virus and that there is a plan for getting you back into the hospital with a plan. It's so validating when someone in the medical system actually admits that they made a mistake. As someone who lives with chronic illness I've dealt with a lot of medical mistakes and I'm still here. I'm confident you will be too. All the best Angelique.
Do not get this twisted. There was no “mistake”. She left because her eating disorder told her to, not the hospital. She wants to control the entire situation, if she can’t, she calls foul and runs. Blame game.
@@gma8903 I agree. Her anorexia brain has brought her to where she is now. It makes her take the wrong decision again and again and again. Running away from the hospital was a wrong decision. She must understand that she will not get well until she trusts the doctors. Now she is longing for another bed in another hospital, and here we go again ...
I can‘t wait for the „after“ video. When you are recovered, with a healthy weight, looking strong. Going on a walk… going on vacation. This is what i wish for you. I hope the next hospital visit will be successful. I Hope you can Change your ways and humble yourself. ❤
I absolutely Love this video, especially the last few minutes. It's so true that the truth is always the best even if it mirrors something we don't want to think about, even if it's ugly, even if it's something we've been trying not to face. I Love how you liken this community to having a relationship, any kind of relationship, where that type of openness and honesty is important, as well as admitting when you're wrong or when perhaps you could entertain another idea (and when I say "you" I mean anyone). Thank you for this analysis of human nature and for checking in with us and for not giving up. You are a beautiful human.
Dear Lique. I’ve been watching you for a few months, but never commented until now. I have known many of your struggles in my past and it is only by the grace of God, in Christ , that I am alive today! You came quite strongly to my heart and mind earlier tonight as my husband and I were getting into bed and so I prayed in Jesus’ mighty name that He would enable you to lean all your weight upon Him for everything you need! I sense a deep earnestness in you Lique, despite your brokenness, and I think it takes tremendous courage to be willing to hear some of the things I’ve seen people posting about you and to you on this Chanel. I’ve felt hurt for you even though I don’t know you. I pray that you will know the love and comfort and compassion of my Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ, and that He will guard your heart and mind in Him. 🙏 It’s 3 am Melbourne, Australia time and I am laying next to my sleeping husband as I write to you. I pray it is a deep encouragement and great comfort to you to know that the Lord had put you on my heart earlier tonight before I even knew you had posted! Look up dear Lique, and live in Jesus’ name. Lots of love, Kaye 🙏💕😘
@@catherinemitchell3721 The devil brought sin and sickness. Don't put that on God. Jesus came - God the son- to pay the wages of sin and sickness. He died a brutal death so we could be forgiven and healed!!
@@catherinemitchell3721 Because without pain, we would not know pleasure...and without sorrow, how would we recognize joy? There are two sides to everything...cause and effect. We also learn a LOT from pain. Sometimes, we never find out the reason why we have to suffer it, and sometimes it finally occurs to us. God, or your higher power, is a higher consciousness. One thing does not exist without the other, and God (or what you see as that) KNOWS who is able to handle that pain the most. Of course we ALL have pain, but do you ever notice some people have more than their share of pain? I have noticed something since being diagnosed with cancer......long term and terminal illnesses changes people. I truly believe that certain people are given things to deal with, because they have the inner strength to carry it. Through their fight, they learn empathy... things about human nature and spirituality, and through that, are able to help others in a way they couldn't before. Take Angelique for instance.....you would look at her in her physical state and perhaps thinks she is not strong....but you would be wrong. Here she is, inspiring THOUSANDS of people who are also ill with various things to KEEP FIGHTING. Through it all she remains GRATEFUL, even when sick. She is a prime example of this. These are things that only a person who has suffered will understand and can use to help others..... this is why God allows pain.
You've handled the assumptions with so much maturity and kindness. Elated that you've beat the virus and to learn that the hospital will have a plan for when you return! 🤗 💝
I love your outlook on how important kindness is because yes, we are all in this relationship and are here because of our love and support for you and each other. Sending you hugs and all healing prayers. 🙏🏻❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
Only you can help yourself, whether you’re willing or not. This is completely in your hands, you have all the knowledge you need, it’s time to put it into action. You’re acting like a child, we all have struggles in our lives, you have to choose if your life is worth fighting for. I hope this message gets to you and inspires you to be the change!
Dearest Lique, you answered your critiques with grace and honesty. So good to know that you have a plan going forward and that your psychiatrist has some compassion and humility in admitting errors in your treatment. I wish only the best for you my friend. Lots of virtual hugs as our spirit knows when we feel the love of others. The power of love and prayer is indeed tangible. Love from Constance 💖👍💕🙏
You are a beautiful soul! I’ve been watching and waiting for an update. Your last video was scary! I thought you were gone! I totally understand the struggle of eating disorders, as I’ve fought for years. I’m in my 50’s now and have gastroparesis. I weigh enough, but can’t eat much because my body doesn’t like to digest. I have faith in you! You are continually in my thoughts and prayers! Lots of hugs!
I'm so glad that you are proud of yourself because you 100% should be! You are doing this your way and that way is completely valid. Although I'm not a spiritual person I completely understand why it's so helpful to you. Stay strong fighter ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
This is one of the most challenging illnesses not only to fight from our side - but for others to understand from the other side. Even between those of us who are sick or have been sick, their is still so much misunderstanding,, frustration, hopelessness, etc. Put those voices aside for now. They are from hurting people desperate to push some of their pain away, even at the expense of others. When we are well, we can show them there is a different way. Keep doing what you are doing. You are becoming your own super hero. Even in your humanness, we all make mistakes. Keep going. We all have vulnerabilities but banded together we will conquer this. Praying and rooting for you. I see the fight in you, I believe in you ❤
and sometiems those outside think they understnad and help and do just opposide,even with good meaning they comment and ask and with their words they only push us down, soemtiems i honestly wish they ywoulde be better silent, when they dont know
Thank heavens you are recovered from your infection! It’s disappointing that there have been stumbling blocks in your path, but I have complete faith in your grit and determination. You will succeed!
So happy to see you! I was just thinking about you today & wondering how you were doing. Then I was scrolling through my videos & there you are! Hopefully you get back in the hospital soon & get on with your recovery. Sending you lots of love & healing!
As someone who has been going through their own spiritual recovery, I understand, it is hard. You help me keep going. You truly amaze and inspire me. Love and prayers coming your way!
Angelique you should be proud. I as a stranger am so proud of your unwavering resilience. I have ( & continue) to deal with physical health issues as a result of mental health issues. The infinite pain becomes unbearable for all affected family, friends & ourselves. The result is an entirely lonely battle of which only we ourselves can wage. It gives me great hope seeing your progress since the last upload. Stay strong duck x
I had a very rough time in hospital, but they saved my life. I still have nightmares about some of my time there, and I wanted to leave every day. I pray that they get the plan together and that you can let go of the control and allow them to do what they are trained to do. I am a type A personality and would be considered controlling. You HAVE to let go of the control. We are not always thinking right when we are malnourished. Trust in the Lord and lean on Him.
It's so good to see you Angelique. I listen to only what you tell us, about what's going on with your health, etc... As always, I pray and wish for you all the best, in your journey to recovery. You are a fighter and I'm glad you've gotten through that bad virus. Stay positive, God bless you. ♥️🙏🙏🙏
Hello Angelique. Good to see you again. So glad you are doing better. I suffered from anorexia myself, so I understand the struggle. I have a friend who suffers from gastroparesis due to the anorexia, and when she is not able,to eat, due to her stomach issues, she is tube fed, however, there are times that she is able to eat, and is still tube fed, to help her get more nutrition. I’ve dealt with stomach issues myself, and also had my gallbladder removed. I would look into purchasing nutritional drinks. It contains protein and concentrated calories to help you gain weight and receive the nutrition that you need. You have improved so much. You are strong and a fighter, and should be proud. You are helping a lot of people that are going through the same thing by telling your story. Will continue to pray for you.
I have been filled with worry so it is so good to see you, Lique. I pray that you continue to fight your fears that hold you back, that you conquer the eating disorder even one inch at a time. Sending you gentle hugs💕
As a person who has lived with Anorexia for over 45 years I won’t say ‘you are looking better’ as that can sometimes translate to ‘you have put on weight’ which to an Anorexic can be utterly terrifying.I will say that I am happy to see a new video from you and that you survived such a horrible virus. I hope that your Faith will continue to sustain you as you fight the endless battle with this evil disease. Even in your darkest hour your Faith will remain strong and you will never be alone. If/when you go back into Hospital I hope that the physicians will remain true to their words and any pre agreed treatment plan will be adhered to. I wish you well, I wish you peace x
I agree with you about looking well/better. I take it to mean I’m getting fat too. I think I might have offended people as that was something I’d asked about. I wasn’t asking to be nosy, it was just something that I thought about. I wasn’t being malicious or nasty. You can read my comment just above this one. If you do read it do you think it seemed offensive? I really hope not because that’s not what I wanted 😢. I think we’re on the same page about our feelings when certain comments are said. Even if they are doing it thinking they’re saying the right thing. But the anorexic voice takes it away & interprets it as fat. You may feel differently but I just felt like I understand. Stay strong & don’t give up ❤
Thank you dear! I don’t feel fat or interpret comments on my appearance that way… but I do think my appearance doesn’t really matter now… I just really want to be healthy snd get stronger… but am not offended by anyone. I totally know they mean well and appreciate there positive and kind reaction! ❤️ And your understanding comment too ❤️
Look I can say what I want and Ive nursed people like you and her and I mean well and she understood. I compared her face by a split screen shot to a few weeks ago and she has put on weight THANKFULLY. Part of treatment is letting go of body image and acceptance that you need to look different to survive and you need a layer of body fat to fight infection and walk about
@@Emjay_____71 I feel like my comment may have been misunderstood. I was commenting on Jane O’ Callaghan and saying I could relate to her feelings around wellness feeling like people mean fat. I had written a previous message which made no assumption that Lique feels the same. I was explaining how I felt. Nothing to do with anybody else except my own experiences. These things are related to passed issues. I don’t think that saying things such as “people like you” is very helpful. If you go and look at my very first comment which stated how pleased I was to see Lique back as I had been so worried. I apologise to you Lique & the rest of the community if I’ve upset anybody. ❤️
I'm so happy to hear this update!! Please, keep working through the criticisms. We ALL do things out of fear!! We just dont have an extreme situation as you do!! Sending all my love!
So happy to see this video. The truth is no one can understand what you are going through. This is an amazing channel and there are so many people who care deeply. I pray that the Higher Power keep you strong and may you get the help that you need. You are loved and you are strong..God bless you
Glad to see you alive. You having overcome the virus shows that you are not supposed to go. Dear you don't owe anyone explanations. People who criticize and doubt will always do so, so they will keep you in a loop of having to excuse and explain. Don't waste your time and energy on this. Go your own path and hold your head and heart up high to reach your goal of showing and leading the way to recovery. Don't let these people risk you to fail. Illnesses like this come with behaviours and relapses as a matter of a fact. It's our duty to encourage you to keep going and to help you accept yourself so you can focus on solutions instead
13 THOUSAND views in 5 days Angelique......now you know that you are still here for a reason. I love you and will be popping in and out to check on you!
I can’t believe what people say to you! I’m so sorry. We are to share one another’s burdens. I know you are doing your best and that you want to live! I will keep praying. You are a beautiful person. People always let us down but God never will. He knows the big picture. Why we have to go through things not sure but never lose your faith. God is good.
Thanks for posting this video Lique! I know it wasn't easy but it was so good to see and hear from you. Yes, you suffered a setback but don't get discouraged. There will always be "3 steps forward and 2 steps back" on any road to recovery. I'm glad the psychiatrist really listened to you and it sounds like your treatment plan will be more of what you need when you go back there. You're in my thoughts and prayers Lique! Hugs and kisses to you as well!
hi! my names Ethan and i was diagnosed with anorexia at age 15, i’m 18 now and struggling with the worst relapse i’ve ever been through. But your videos are giving me strength and determination to turn this around and to find some joy in life again, i admire your words and the way you speak it connects with me on such a deep level. i feel such a big sense of human connection with you, shared by our common illness which we are both fighting against, and i wish my 15 year old self could’ve heard your words because you are so healing to listen too. thank you so much for creating this channel, keep fighting. I know you will get through this, you will come out on top because you are a strong person.
I really encourage you to follow others who have recovered as well as they have fought against the Ed and come out the other side and know what it takes to get there
Hi Ethan, what a brave soul you are to share this! Please take my example also as a way you DO NOT have to go… even though your struggle may be immensely hard for you now (I don’t doubt that a second!) your change of fully recovering are huge compared to mine. Reach out whenever you want and learn from my mistakes! And certainly follow youtubers who have recovered and learn from them. Really happy to have you here though! Always keep faith dear, YOU CAN BEST THIS! Bug hug 😘
Dear Sweet inspiring Angel, you are amazing and so very strong and don't focus on the negative comments, they are not worth your time. We are all rooting for you and very proud of you. Keep as strong as you are and looking forward to getting the plan started. Thank you for taking the time to share. Sending hugs your way. 💜💜💜
Oh my goodness you have no idea how fantastic it is to see you...and how wonderful to know that you beat the virus, I was so concerned as the days went by and there was no word, but I'm thrilled to see you have survived...it just goes to highlight your strength, determination and possitivity. You are loved 💕
Glad to see you recovered from the virus 🙏I am glad you are eating and you have the help of your friend ❤️ just keep fighting and stay strong 💪 my friend 💞Wishing only the best for you ! God bless you my friend 🙌 Don't let fear get in your way ! We love you ❤️ Blessings from Florida 🙏🙌🌴🌴
Please do not listen to anyone who feels the need to give you a negative comment. This is YOUR journey and you are allowing others to join you. It's your gift to others. You are a fighter and you have proved that with every video. You are doing exactly what you are supposed to do and you are beautiful in every way. Please talk about God as much as you like. This is your channel and if God is giving you strength and peace , sharing that with others is a very good thing to do. Please stay strong and positive. You can do this !!!! Bless
I’m happy your feeling better. I understand about being sent home by ER. Myself having an eating disorder plus addiction, I used to go to the emergency for help. As soon as they saw I have an ED and addiction they sent me home. Keep fighting, we can fight together.❤
❤sending love sweetheart!! Stay strong, suffering is never for nothing!!! You are building endurance, patience, compassion, empathy, your desire to keep fighting in the face of your struggles is such an inspiration!! Fight the fear, keep doing that next thing dear, and know that you are loved!🤗❤️🙏🏻
It does seem like you have put yourself back to where you were a month ago. You said you wanted to go to hospital more than anything and you were struggling to stay alive etc etc. You got that saving grace and you let it go. Hope you don’t do the same again.
She is not ready to give up control. Without total surrender I don't know how any treatment plan will be successful. Most of her life has been dominated by this disorder. 😥
Dearest Lique, your life and fighting spirit is a testimony of faith and determination in itself. Your very bravery and honesty is beautiful and spiritual. I have diabetes 2 and understand the eating times and how draining it can be. I'm so grateful I found you. The energy will be slow to return as your body is working very hard. I believe in you and your journey. Lots of love and hugs to you. God bless you!!🙏❤️🤗💞💞🙏
I’m praying you get back into the hospital and stay until you can get into a long term treatment facility 🙏 You deserve recovery and happiness 💜 Keep fighting 💪
Hi Lique, did you ever think about going to Belgium for treatment? Some insurances pay for treatment in Belgium too. From what i know, they also treat traumas etc, not just the eatingdisorder like the do in the Netherlands. In Belgium it is not all about BMI like they do here. Also there is the U-center in the Netherlands. They ask clients to pay a part of the bill itself, the rest is payed by the insurance. For the money needed you can start a go fund me. Was just thinking about you and wanted this to tell you. The waitinglist at the U center is also not that long than in most clinice in the Netherlands
U-center would have been so great indeed… but ‘part if the bill’ is 4.000-10.000 euros 🥴 That is a lot… I set up the gofund (see description box below) to see if it is possible. Have another option too. But also expensive😳
❤ Some words from your ‘sis’ in Norway 🇳🇴: First: When I saw you in this video, I immediately observed your face, you looked better! 🤗 Yes, you look tired, of course you are, but your smile is stunning and beautiful, oh, like sunshine 🌞! I support every ‘little’ win in your struggled life, Cannot bother you anymore, but know this: My prayers continues, 🙏❤️🙋♀️ With the help and grace from the biggest winner of all time: Jesus, you will survive, dear Lique! I am so happy to know you!
Sweetest Angelique 💛. Glad to see you in better form and I send you my biggest hug, my strongest prayer and my brightest healing light. Please continue to fight the good fight. Every day that passes, makes you that much stronger 💞✨🙏
God, this is really sad :/ she really can't see that she's not doing everything she can, if she was, she'd still be in the hospital. And she has a high expectation of others to change but is struggling to change herself (if anything, that should give her more empathy for healthcare workers). My question is, what did you see your future like before this illness? What kind of life did you want as a woman who is 40? Did you want a career in nutrition and writing? Did you want to travel/learn languages? Have a partner or kids? What were your hobbies? You share mostly about recovery/illness and I wonder who you are and want to be aside from your illness. It may be good for you to reflect on, create a vision board and work towards life goals.
It must have been extremely hard with hospital (and then with awful virus). But you can't believe how happy I am hearing you are going back! You haven't giving up yet and here we are for you whatever it comes! ❤️
I am so glad you are here still with us! Thank you so much for uploading, i am so thankful. You are amazing stay on your path, and believe in yourself. I pray to god that you'll survive this part of your life. Your soul is so beautiful, stay strong.
Please help me to understand.How do you feel mentally when you are eating?Whatever that feeling is,is that the barrier that stop's you from making progress?.I know you have gut issues and i do believe you eat,but you know its not enough.I know you cannot exercise,so this would be an ideal opportunity to slowly gain a little weight.Help me understand.Remember i fought anorexia for 25 yrs.But its breaking down those barriers.What are your fears?
So good to see you up!❤ The video sound was so low and I had my phone all the way up so I was unable to hear anything at all. Just seeing you is a blessing.❤🙏🌹
Turn your captions on 😁👋👋😁I had to do that 😁now I can read what she is saying 🌞she doesn't have those speaker things to make it louder...just a regular phone 😇💗💗😇
In America, they also send you home after 24hrs, before I meant to go to the emergency room for the virus so they could help you recover from the virus, here too though the emergency room doesn't treat us for anorexia, only 24 hrs then they sometimes will try to get you into a psychiatric hospital though if there are beds available, they transfer you, but your sent home usually. I was scared you wouldnt be able to recover from the virus without the hospital, I wouldnt of been able to eat or drink being that sick so thought it would be helpful to go to the emergency room just for a day to be stabilized so you could survive the virus
Also I still have questions about what your fears with your anorexia are? I think knowing them can help us to help you and also help us understand better
I believe someone mentioned it here or in another video.. but what you said regarding feeding tubes is incorrect. A person who is able and wanting to eat can indeed have an NG. They are used in many circumstances.. often not even just for eating disorders. You of course would decide what is right for you.
You are incorrect. Feeding tubes are not used unless there is some medical complication (that, guess what - you don't about!) or the person cannot or will not eat on their own. As with anything, the facts of each case are different. But using a feeding tube is not the automatic go-to. Eating by mouth is.
@@NicoleLaurenEsq Hi Nicole! I'm not here to argue. Feeding tubes are used for a variety of reasons - of course eating by mouth is first choice. All I'm saying is that they are not used solely for those that refuse to eat ..and yes, medical complications would imply they need an NG. Again..this could be people dealing with other health issues aside from eating disorders. People can have feeding tubes and ALSO eat by mouth. Have a great weekend!
@@leanneeggenberger9127 I'm not arguing. But you stated as fact that Lique is "incorrect." She isn't "incorrect." Things aren't always black and white, and pretending they are is how disinformation spreads.
God bless you precious Angel. I have been praying for you and I’m sending you all the love, light, and hope humanly possible. I have been watching your videos for some time and I feel deeply that you are doing your best and that you ARE healing 🙌 Please keep trusting your intuition which I believe is what God and the angels are telling you to do. You have got this!!! 😍🙏☀️💓
So proud of you and don’t mind the complainers or rude people. Stay focused on your health wellness and finding things that make you smile. Love love love to you
Every single time I see you I'm so proud of you. A lot of people don't have the ability to put themselves into other people's shoes, they don't imagine all of the complications that you are facing. But I see you, and I'm so glad I get to hear your story and stand by your side along your way. I'm glad to see that you are speaking your mind freely and standing your ground. I will stay around for as long as you keep posting videos, because people like you help me become a better person myself and face my fears. And please don't let their word tarnish your relationship with your spirituality. Lately I realized that faith isn't about believing something without proof. Faith is about embracing the possibility of absolute goodness, when it is so easy to only conceptualize absolute badness. You're doing it right, Angelique, but you already know that.
Hi Angelique! I'm glad you could record a video!! I've been experiencing food freedom lately and it's amazing so I hope for you that you can find the strength to recover too! I've been documenting what I'm eating on my channel, maybe you can get some ideas! Sending love from Hollywood! xo 🤗🥰❤💕💕
If people don't want to listen to what is keeping you fighting - faith, Jesus etc, why don't they stop watching??? It's a community but it's YOUR channel and its about your recovery and what is and isn't working for you. People really get on my nerves. God bless you abundantly 🥰🤗🇬🇧
To everyone in the comments: I see such lovely sweet and amazing people in these comments. Sending you all a lot of love and I hope you're all doing well. 💗💗🤗🤗
Keep fighting, keep surviving! I see your strength and I see your fight. A simple quote that helps me whenever I struggle is from the Revenant: "You breathe. Keep breathing"
Hi Angelique, you are certainly a warrior and I appreciate that you share your struggle with us. I am curious about your long range physical goals. How does the hospital will measure your success? What are they doing for you? Will the hospital address your intestinal problems? How is your disability not covered by insurance? I want the best for you and I’m not sure your country is offering you a road to health and healing. Sending love.
Thank you Linda! I did answer most questions in previous videos… I will have to wait on the plan the hospital will make to know what their goals for me will be. When I know, I will certainly share it with you!
You can wither in fear without professional help, with the likelihood that the outcome will be awful… OR, you can wither in fear with professional help, with the possibility that the outcome will give you a fighting chance. I believe you will not like either choice. But you do have to make a choice, and you do owe it to yourself and your loved ones to make the choice that gives you the best possibility of having a fighting chance. So put on your boxing gloves, fighter. Get in the ring, and stay in the ring. This is a match between you and fear. I know you have what it takes to stare fear in the face and say, “you will not win.” Know that you are loved. God bless you.
So happy to see an update from you! I have been worried about you and praying for you and your caretakers. Keep resting 💗. I like your Psychologist! Ask if they can give you something to help with the panic attacks if you haven’t already.
It’s good to see you looking so much better. I hope the psychiatrist is truly preparing a plan for you because you can’t keep waiting weeks and weeks. I want to see the day that you are able to walk easily and get back your strength. ❤
Actually, in patient programs still tube feed even when your still able to eat meals so that you get extra calories. Many people come to the table to eat and just wheel their feeding tube in with them.
I have watched all the videos many times but still haven't seen anywhere where you talk about your fears, besides the intestine stuff, I wanna know specifically what you were afraid of in the hospital, what made you so scared you wanted to run away? Were you afraid of gaining weight or eating? And what about it made you feel scared? I've noticed in my journey answering these questions is what frees you and allows you to recover 💚
Answer this in video today! ❤️
I have watched most of Angelique’s videos. She passed away about a year ago. I recovered from anorexia 58 years ago. Most people had never even heard of it back then until Karen Carpenter died from it. The scariest thing for Angelique in the hospital was probably not having control of everything. For a lot of anorexics the underlying issue is the need to have absolute control of something, and what you do or don’t eat is something you can take control of.
Oh it's so good to see you ❤️❤️❤️ thank you so much for posting 💖 You are absolutely amazing... praying for you everyday 🙏
Another way that you're helping others Angelique is by documenting your journey. Most people do not know how severely lacking health care for eating disorders is. In the Netherlands and elsewhere. Your brave choice to share your journey publicly has put this information out there. It is a testimony that increases knowledge, understanding and compassion. It may change someone's mind in ways that causes them to better support their family member, friend, patient, or even causes them to effect systemic change.
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That is so true. The only proper care in Ireland is in the private system but a stay can cost 10 or 20 thousand. Who has that?!
@@Doritbardola Btw, I’m reporting your nasty comments for harassment and bullying since you are apparently on some kind of crusade on here. You need to be blocked from this channel.
@@sweetluvgurl I agree 👍
@@sweetluvgurl I reported her as well and now the comment is gone. Hopefully the others are gone too.
I am glad you did make this message. It’s always a treasure to hear from you. Please keep fighting; I believe in you!
Well don’t she’s manipulative
@@Doritbardola I’m a grown woman; i don’t need you to save me from people on the internet.
Wake up please
I’m so happy to see you survived the virus episode. I’m glad you have a doctor who is listening to you and is working to help you. Blessings to your friend for his help. You are strong and brave. Prayers for continued progress.
I’m not
@@Doritbardola Life is too short to watch videos you don’t like or agree with. I hope you find something to watch that brings you joy.
@@shelleyclark4759 She is literally replying under all the comments to spew her nasty attitude and talk awful about Lique. You should see some of her comments.
@@sweetluvgurl I know. This is the first time she replied to me. My comment was hopefully a kind way to suggest they move on.
@Dolly Bow Get a life and stop harassing her, even if you don't agree with her choices (I don't think anyone has to) no need to behave, like a cruel bully and comment something nasty under every comment. I don't understand how people have this much time to hate on a person they don't eveknow, doesn't make sence to me how people always seem to become like this when the people they follow don't do things like they think the should, the narcissism of some people.
One thing all anorexics do have in common and i am saying,every single one with no exceptions.Anorexia is ultimately a long slow suicide.Ask anyone with anorexia to name one positive thing that anorexia brings to their lives.The answer is simply nothing.
It's good to see you. I'm glad you got past the virus and hope you gain back your strength fast.
As far as the ER in the USA, I have gone to the ER a few times and once they find out about my mental illness they tell me to go see my psychiatrist. I had appendicitis and the ER sent me away twice saying if I have pain see my psychiatrist or my therapist. I finally got help when my appendix burst. That's only one example. It's happened 3 different times for other reasons that were physical in nature not mental. I feel like if you have a mental illness of whatever kind the ER doctors don't think you can have a physical illness, only mental illness. That's my interpretation of how I've been treated. Now if I need the help of a doctor in the ER, a personal doctor or whatever, I put it off so long because of the fear of being rejected again. It has led to significant health problems now because of that fear. Nobody wants to be seen as just a mental case but that is how these Dr's make me feel. It has also led to my depression and anxiety and my eating disorders getting worse as well. Dr's need more training on how to deal with people with mental health issues ( not just in the USA, but everywhere). We are actual people with physical bodies that at times need medical help. We are not just a head with mental health issues, but that is how we are treated sometimes.
Are you kidding me?! (about your appendicitis) that’s so bad that they didn’t take you in immediately. My appendix had also burst, but it was because I waited 2 weeks to go to the hospital, because I didn’t want to bother my family…so that’s my fault.
But I also have narcolepsy, and before getting a proper diagnosis, they made me spent hours in the psychology department, because they thought my symptoms might be signs of a depression..😑
I don’t know if having a family member with you, who can conform that your symptoms are not the usual ones, you have something else. Tell them the appendicitis story. As a person with mental issues you can have all health issues other people have.
There are just some things you can NEVER understand until you experience it yourself.
Your will to live inspires me to keep fighting, Angelique.
Doesn't matter if you're happy, sad, angry, rebellious, or feeling sorry for yourself. What you've given us is REAL!
And, that's becoming rare in this world where FEAR is fed to us 24/7.
I love who you are. 💕
Oh I’ve experienced it my self, she complains to much instead of trying to get herself better, she’s been in hospital loads of times they just give up she won’t comply
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So, you've experienced it as you. Not as Angelique. Big difference. As the saying goes, 'Don't judge a man until you've walked a mile in his moccasins' Not or own, the other person. Which we know is not possible. So... don't judge... period.
@@Doritbardola please comment with kindness....you don't know how or what she's going threw....you are not her
@@Doritbardola Can you find somewhere else to spew your venom? Frankly, you have a lot to learn about love, empathy, and kindness. You must have had a very harsh upbringing if all you do is judge others and express negativity.
Little bit about me: I am a mother of 3 grown men. One has a alcohol problem and is having health issues also. I totally understand what your mother is going through. It is so hard to see your child go through a time of hardship. My son and I have had a strained relationship until I could finally separate his addiction from who he is. I can still see him as a young child and this can make it difficult. I am there for him and love him over his mental issues with addiction.
I'm glad that you're able to carry your own grief, anger and pain to be there for your sons. People in the comments section don't understand how common it is for family to distance themselves from their ill and suffering relatives. Thank you for sharing a parent's perspective.
@@emibw To be fair, it is hard to watch someone slowly dying.
@@emibw only with the guidance of God, Jesus and Holy Spirit.
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Amen. My dear niece died....slowly 😭
Its not about you is it?!
Its her story.
Why dont you do a RUclips channel
The fact that you’re still alive shows that you haven’t given up and you’re still fighting. Ignore the hurtful comments and focus on the majority that are saying such kind things. You’ve created this beautiful community that cares about you and is cheering you on, hoping and praying for your recovery. I’m finding inspiration from you to keep fighting my own battles in life, Angelique. Keep hanging in there! I believe in you.
She’s not fighting thoe, she would not take the treatments they were offering,Psychiatrists don’t lie, she’s lost the plot!
@@Doritbardola She has an ED. It’s not that simple. You clearly don’t understand mental illness and addiction issues. If things were so simple, there wouldn’t be so many people struggling from those problems.
Was hoping for an update. I’m extremely saddened that you’ve left. I think about you daily and please don’t take this harshly BUT you have ALOT of excuses. ALOT. Outside of death there’s no where else you can go except to GET SERIOUS about getting well. You can blame every Dr,Psychiatrist every harsh talking nurse but at the end of the day their job IS TO SAVE YOUR LIFE. It has to be frustrating to them to see you taking a bed,that takes months and weeks to get only to not follow the plan,blame others and ultimately leave. They can guide you and help medically but it boils down to YOU!! YOU have to want it. Not just say you do but prove it with actions. And your actions do not show that of someone who TRULY wants to get better or you’d still be there.
She is doing better in this video. Don't put her off by highlighting negatives.
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You are so correct. She is deep in her ed and will not relinquish her control over food. She has been this way for years. Treatment will not work without "a leap of faith" and total surrender to her doctors and their treatment plan, not her own made up treatment plan. I hope she gets her "come to Jesus" moment and can finally move forward in her life. So incredibly sad. She needs intensive psychiatric, specialized care. 😥
@@artemis1style That’s not my intention AT ALL! I genuinely care about her. I truly check EVERY SINGLE DAY for an update,I pray daily for her healing and strength. But there comes a time when one has to stop giving excuses. I’ve been there,I’m not passing judgement AT ALL! I was in active addiction for 14 years and had any excuse in the world. But once I was DONE the excuses stopped. I truly wish she were in the states and could go to a dual diagnosis center that would treat ALL issues at once!! That’s her best shot.
There are specialized ED hospitals and clinics in the Netherlands. I truly believe she would claim to experience the same problems in the states, because she isn't really ready
I think you are a phenomenal woman, Angelique. Ignore people that give mean/awful comments because obviously they do not have experience with an eating disorder, let alone an ED as serious and long standing as you are. You are a miracle and being similar age as you (I’m 43) and sick since similar age (age 12-13) and very very ill at times, I am fucking impressed by you and what you are doing. You ARE working hard and I can tell by the strength of your voice and the clarity of your thoughts etc. You are going to do amazing things, Angelique. You are here for a reason and I feel you have so much to offer this world.❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
That is SO SWEET of you… thank you so much! Will be rooting for you too dear… never give up faith! We can do this! 💪🏻🙏🏻❤️
Hello Lique, I'm so happy to see you smiling and pushing through these struggles. People will always judge, point fingers and act like they know what's best for you. Yet they don't even know you personally. Just keep trying. That's all we can do. One day at a time. I'm proud of you! Like you said it feels like we are all in this together. You help me with some things I'm going through and I know you said this channel has been so helpful to you. I'm glad you're feeling better from the virus and now you can start focusing again on getting better with the eating. Take care of yourself! Much love, Heather ❤
we all struggle daily the difference is this con is PROFITTING off of it because you are falling for this.
It’s hard for anyone to understand what anyone is going through unless it is themselves. You are not alone in that I have to eat every 2-3 hours as well to prevent hypoglycemia. It’s annoying and we may lose sleep but I always figure I am doing something good for my body and that is always a positive. I hope you feel better ☀️
Iodine deficiency can cause hypos. I gave my dad a pint of milk every day to solve his hypos
@@hayleybonnell8837 that is so interesting! I know iodine plays a big part in so many things. 🌼
So good to see you sitting up. What a blessing!
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She needs tough love. We have enabled her
I do think the hospital was your best bet despite the hiccups there. I truly hope you didn’t lose your window of opportunity, we sometimes think an opportunity will open up again and life has other plans. That being said, I am still rooting for your recovery and just have to trust that you truly do want to recover and are doing your best to do so. If that’s the case hopefully you can keep getting stronger on your own and enter the hospital at another time.
Thanks Katie! 😘
I was thinking of contributing, but then thought, “Why did you leave the hospital against medical advice?” You need to take the help offered rather than thinking you know more than Doctors. Yes, do whatever you can to stay alive including staying in the hospital. Overcoming an eating disorder is like quitting heroin. Hard, hard, hard. You go girl!
I was so worried about you when you had the virus and when I heard you left the hospital. I'm so glad you made it through the virus and that there is a plan for getting you back into the hospital with a plan. It's so validating when someone in the medical system actually admits that they made a mistake. As someone who lives with chronic illness I've dealt with a lot of medical mistakes and I'm still here. I'm confident you will be too. All the best Angelique.
@@Doritbardola You clearly have no chronic illness. You can't understand.
@@Doritbardola Because some people have a heart. That must be so shocking to someone like you.
Good Q&A. You go girl! Just keep on. Jesus IS your strength. ❤
She's a master of manipulation
I am _so_ glad that the psychiatrist showed you some compassion and admitted the hospital's mistakes! Finally!
There was no mistake she do not follow hospital plans she’s to manipulative and stubborn, bet she plays them for a fool
I am sad..she must go back to eat.
Do not get this twisted. There was no “mistake”. She left because her eating disorder told her to, not the hospital. She wants to control the entire situation, if she can’t, she calls foul and runs. Blame game.
@@Doritbardola agreed.
@@gma8903 I agree. Her anorexia brain has brought her to where she is now. It makes her take the wrong decision again and again and again. Running away from the hospital was a wrong decision. She must understand that she will not get well until she trusts the doctors. Now she is longing for another bed in another hospital, and here we go again ...
I can‘t wait for the „after“ video. When you are recovered, with a healthy weight, looking strong. Going on a walk… going on vacation. This is what i wish for you. I hope the next hospital visit will be successful. I Hope you can Change your ways and humble yourself. ❤
I absolutely Love this video, especially the last few minutes. It's so true that the truth is always the best even if it mirrors something we don't want to think about, even if it's ugly, even if it's something we've been trying not to face. I Love how you liken this community to having a relationship, any kind of relationship, where that type of openness and honesty is important, as well as admitting when you're wrong or when perhaps you could entertain another idea (and when I say "you" I mean anyone). Thank you for this analysis of human nature and for checking in with us and for not giving up. You are a beautiful human.
Really
I know you’re exhausted, but you seem a lot better than when you were in the hospital. You’re a fighter, hang in there 😊
Dear Lique. I’ve been watching you for a few months, but never commented until now.
I have known many of your struggles in my past and it is only by the grace of God, in Christ , that I am alive today! You came quite strongly to my heart and mind earlier tonight as my husband and I were getting into bed and so
I prayed in Jesus’ mighty name that He would enable you to lean all your weight upon Him for everything you need!
I sense a deep earnestness in you Lique, despite your brokenness, and I think it takes tremendous courage to be willing to hear some of the things I’ve seen people posting about you and to you on this Chanel. I’ve felt hurt for you even though I don’t know you.
I pray that you will know the love and comfort and compassion of my Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ, and that He will guard your heart and mind in Him. 🙏
It’s 3 am Melbourne, Australia time and I am laying next to my sleeping husband as I write to you. I pray it is a deep encouragement and great comfort to you to know that the Lord had put you on my heart earlier tonight before I even knew you had posted!
Look up dear Lique, and live in Jesus’ name.
Lots of love, Kaye 🙏💕😘
If God is sooo amazing, why does he allow so much physical and emotional pain?
@@catherinemitchell3721 The devil brought sin and sickness. Don't put that on God. Jesus came - God the son- to pay the wages of sin and sickness. He died a brutal death so we could be forgiven and healed!!
@@leecopeland2061 happy for you & your imaginary friend.
@@leecopeland2061 You religious people are so delusional.
@@catherinemitchell3721 Because without pain, we would not know pleasure...and without sorrow, how would we recognize joy? There are two sides to everything...cause and effect. We also learn a LOT from pain.
Sometimes, we never find out the reason why we have to suffer it, and sometimes it finally occurs to us. God, or your higher power, is a higher consciousness. One thing does not exist without the other, and God (or what you see as that) KNOWS who is able to handle that pain the most.
Of course we ALL have pain, but do you ever notice some people have more than their share of pain? I have noticed something since being diagnosed with cancer......long term and terminal illnesses changes people.
I truly believe that certain people are given things to deal with, because they have the inner strength to carry it. Through their fight, they learn empathy... things about human nature and spirituality, and through that, are able to help others in a way they couldn't before.
Take Angelique for instance.....you would look at her in her physical state and perhaps thinks she is not strong....but you would be wrong. Here she is, inspiring THOUSANDS of people who are also ill with various things to KEEP FIGHTING. Through it all she remains GRATEFUL, even when sick.
She is a prime example of this. These are things that only a person who has suffered will understand and can use to help others..... this is why God allows pain.
You've handled the assumptions with so much maturity and kindness. Elated that you've beat the virus and to learn that the hospital will have a plan for when you return! 🤗 💝
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She is seeking handout
There you are again 💜 Good to hear and see you. I pray you are blessed and filled with joy. A hug to you.
I love your outlook on how important kindness is because yes, we are all in this relationship and are here because of our love and support for you and each other. Sending you hugs and all healing prayers. 🙏🏻❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
You should be so proud of yourself. I am in awe of your willpower and resilience - you can get through this! 🙌🏼
Only you can help yourself, whether you’re willing or not. This is completely in your hands, you have all the knowledge you need, it’s time to put it into action. You’re acting like a child, we all have struggles in our lives, you have to choose if your life is worth fighting for. I hope this message gets to you and inspires you to be the change!
Thank you Tara. Did you make this conclusion after watching one video? Or did you see them from the start?
If you think she is not FIGHTING FOR her life, I am not sure what video you could have possibly watched!
Stop asking these lovely people for handouts
You're new around here aren't you?
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Dearest Lique, you answered your critiques with grace and honesty. So good to know that you have a plan going forward and that your psychiatrist has some compassion and humility in admitting errors in your treatment. I wish only the best for you my friend. Lots of virtual hugs as our spirit knows when we feel the love of others. The power of love and prayer is indeed tangible.
Love from Constance 💖👍💕🙏
Thank you so much Constance ❤️
So glad that Dr is working with you. Praying for you ❤️
You are a beautiful soul! I’ve been watching and waiting for an update. Your last video was scary! I thought you were gone! I totally understand the struggle of eating disorders, as I’ve fought for years. I’m in my 50’s now and have gastroparesis. I weigh enough, but can’t eat much because my body doesn’t like to digest. I have faith in you! You are continually in my thoughts and prayers! Lots of hugs!
So much love to you! I am proud of you, Lique. Holding you in my heart 😘💞
I'm so glad that you are proud of yourself because you 100% should be!
You are doing this your way and that way is completely valid. Although I'm not a spiritual person I completely understand why it's so helpful to you.
Stay strong fighter ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
This is one of the most challenging illnesses not only to fight from our side - but for others to understand from the other side. Even between those of us who are sick or have been sick, their is still so much misunderstanding,, frustration, hopelessness, etc. Put those voices aside for now. They are from hurting people desperate to push some of their pain away, even at the expense of others. When we are well, we can show them there is a different way.
Keep doing what you are doing. You are becoming your own super hero. Even in your humanness, we all make mistakes. Keep going. We all have vulnerabilities but banded together we will conquer this. Praying and rooting for you. I see the fight in you, I believe in you ❤
and sometiems those outside think they understnad and help and do just opposide,even with good meaning they comment and ask and with their words they only push us down, soemtiems i honestly wish they ywoulde be better silent, when they dont know
Thank heavens you are recovered from your infection! It’s disappointing that there have been stumbling blocks in your path, but I have complete faith in your grit and determination. You will succeed!
I agree with your comments. I simply cannot believe her grit and determination! She is truly amazing!!
So happy to see you! I was just thinking about you today & wondering how you were doing. Then I was scrolling through my videos & there you are! Hopefully you get back in the hospital soon & get on with your recovery. Sending you lots of love & healing!
As someone who has been going through their own spiritual recovery, I understand, it is hard. You help me keep going. You truly amaze and inspire me. Love and prayers coming your way!
Angelique you should be proud. I as a stranger am so proud of your unwavering resilience. I have ( & continue) to deal with physical health issues as a result of mental health issues. The infinite pain becomes unbearable for all affected family, friends & ourselves. The result is an entirely lonely battle of which only we ourselves can wage. It gives me great hope seeing your progress since the last upload. Stay strong duck x
Thank you Duck! 😘
I had a very rough time in hospital, but they saved my life. I still have nightmares about some of my time there, and I wanted to leave every day. I pray that they get the plan together and that you can let go of the control and allow them to do what they are trained to do. I am a type A personality and would be considered controlling. You HAVE to let go of the control. We are not always thinking right when we are malnourished. Trust in the Lord and lean on Him.
It's so good to see you Angelique. I listen to only what you tell us, about what's going on with your health, etc... As always, I pray and wish for you all the best, in your journey to recovery. You are a fighter and I'm glad you've gotten through that bad virus. Stay positive, God bless you. ♥️🙏🙏🙏
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Hello Angelique. Good to see you again. So glad you are doing better. I suffered from anorexia myself, so I understand the struggle. I have a friend who suffers from gastroparesis due to the anorexia, and when she is not able,to eat, due to her stomach issues, she is tube fed, however, there are times that she is able to eat, and is still tube fed, to help her get more nutrition. I’ve dealt with stomach issues myself, and also had my gallbladder removed. I would look into purchasing nutritional drinks. It contains protein and concentrated calories to help you gain weight and receive the nutrition that you need. You have improved so much. You are strong and a fighter, and should be proud. You are helping a lot of people that are going through the same thing by telling your story. Will continue to pray for you.
I have been filled with worry so it is so good to see you, Lique. I pray that you continue to fight your fears that hold you back, that you conquer the eating disorder even one inch at a time. Sending you gentle hugs💕
Like you said this has become personal,same for us too. Stay in touch and keep fighting. We do believe you can beat this. We are here for you
As a person who has lived with Anorexia for over 45 years I won’t say ‘you are looking better’ as that can sometimes translate to ‘you have put on weight’ which to an Anorexic can be utterly terrifying.I will say that I am happy to see a new video from you and that you survived such a horrible virus. I hope that your Faith will continue to sustain you as you fight the endless battle with this evil disease. Even in your darkest hour your Faith will remain strong and you will never be alone. If/when you go back into Hospital I hope that the physicians will remain true to their words and any pre agreed treatment plan will be adhered to. I wish you well, I wish you peace x
I agree with you about looking well/better. I take it to mean I’m getting fat too.
I think I might have offended people as that was something I’d asked about. I wasn’t asking to be nosy, it was just something that I thought about. I wasn’t being malicious or nasty. You can read my comment just above this one. If you do read it do you think it seemed offensive? I really hope not because that’s not what I wanted 😢.
I think we’re on the same page about our feelings when certain comments are said. Even if they are doing it thinking they’re saying the right thing. But the anorexic voice takes it away & interprets it as fat.
You may feel differently but I just felt like I understand.
Stay strong & don’t give up ❤
Thank you dear! I don’t feel fat or interpret comments on my appearance that way… but I do think my appearance doesn’t really matter now… I just really want to be healthy snd get stronger… but am not offended by anyone. I totally know they mean well and appreciate there positive and kind reaction! ❤️
And your understanding comment too ❤️
Look I can say what I want and Ive nursed people like you and her and I mean well and she understood. I compared her face by a split screen shot to a few weeks ago and she has put on weight THANKFULLY.
Part of treatment is letting go of body image and acceptance that you need to look different to survive and you need a layer of body fat to fight infection and walk about
@@Emjay_____71 I feel like my comment may have been misunderstood. I was commenting on Jane O’ Callaghan and saying I could relate to her feelings around wellness feeling like people mean fat. I had written a previous message which made no assumption that Lique feels the same. I was explaining how I felt. Nothing to do with anybody else except my own experiences.
These things are related to passed issues. I don’t think that saying things such as “people like you” is very helpful.
If you go and look at my very first comment which stated how pleased I was to see Lique back as I had been so worried.
I apologise to you Lique & the rest of the community if I’ve upset anybody. ❤️
You are a precious person Angelique. Keep your faith and never give up. I believe with God’s help you are going to recover ❤
Thank you Martha 💜
Glad to see you survived what was going on and appear to be doing so much better. That’s awesome. LOVE.
Exactly right! It is YOUR life and experience that only YOU know ❤ Love and prayers to you for continued healing from the USA 🇺🇸😘❤️🙏🏼❤️
I'm so happy to hear this update!!
Please, keep working through the criticisms.
We ALL do things out of fear!! We just dont have an extreme situation as you do!! Sending all my love!
Yayyy I'm so happy to see you honey 🤗. Sending prayers and hugs
So happy to see this video. The truth is no one can understand what you are going through. This is an amazing channel and there are so many people who care deeply. I pray that the Higher Power keep you strong and may you get the help that you need. You are loved and you are strong..God bless you
Glad to see you alive. You having overcome the virus shows that you are not supposed to go. Dear you don't owe anyone explanations. People who criticize and doubt will always do so, so they will keep you in a loop of having to excuse and explain. Don't waste your time and energy on this. Go your own path and hold your head and heart up high to reach your goal of showing and leading the way to recovery. Don't let these people risk you to fail. Illnesses like this come with behaviours and relapses as a matter of a fact. It's our duty to encourage you to keep going and to help you accept yourself so you can focus on solutions instead
Thank you… 🙏🏻❤️
My heart go out to you . I'm so proud of you. What a sweet voice. Keep going .I know it hard for you. Praying for you🙏✝️
13 THOUSAND views in 5 days Angelique......now you know that you are still here for a reason. I love you and will be popping in and out to check on you!
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I can’t believe what people say to you! I’m so sorry. We are to share one another’s burdens. I know you are doing your best and that you want to live! I will keep praying.
You are a beautiful person. People always let us down but God never will. He knows the big picture. Why we have to go through things not sure but never lose your faith. God is good.
Thanks for posting this video Lique! I know it wasn't easy but it was so good to see and hear from you. Yes, you suffered a setback but don't get discouraged. There will always be "3 steps forward and 2 steps back" on any road to recovery. I'm glad the psychiatrist really listened to you and it sounds like your treatment plan will be more of what you need when you go back there. You're in my thoughts and prayers Lique! Hugs and kisses to you as well!
Thank you Cynthia! 🙏🏻❤️
hi! my names Ethan and i was diagnosed with anorexia at age 15, i’m 18 now and struggling with the worst relapse i’ve ever been through.
But your videos are giving me strength and determination to turn this around and to find some joy in life again, i admire your words and the way you speak it connects with me on such a deep level.
i feel such a big sense of human connection with you, shared by our common illness which we are both fighting against, and i wish my 15 year old self could’ve heard your words because you are so healing to listen too.
thank you so much for creating this channel, keep fighting. I know you will get through this, you will come out on top because you are a strong person.
I really encourage you to follow others who have recovered as well as they have fought against the Ed and come out the other side and know what it takes to get there
Hi Ethan, what a brave soul you are to share this! Please take my example also as a way you DO NOT have to go… even though your struggle may be immensely hard for you now (I don’t doubt that a second!) your change of fully recovering are huge compared to mine. Reach out whenever you want and learn from my mistakes! And certainly follow youtubers who have recovered and learn from them.
Really happy to have you here though! Always keep faith dear, YOU CAN BEST THIS! Bug hug 😘
Keep your positive attitude up, I really believe that you can pull yourself through this! My thoughts are with you and always will be! 👍😊
Dear Sweet inspiring Angel, you are amazing and so very strong and don't focus on the negative comments, they are not worth your time. We are all rooting for you and very proud of you. Keep as strong as you are and looking forward to getting the plan started. Thank you for taking the time to share.
Sending hugs your way. 💜💜💜
Thank you so much Julie! 🙏🏻💜
Oh my goodness you have no idea how fantastic it is to see you...and how wonderful to know that you beat the virus, I was so concerned as the days went by and there was no word, but I'm thrilled to see you have survived...it just goes to highlight your strength, determination and possitivity. You are loved 💕
So sweet of you… thank you dear! 🙏🏻💜
I'm so glad to hear from you and that you've overcome the virus! I keep you in my prayers every day 💖💖🙏
Glad to see you recovered from the virus 🙏I am glad you are eating and you have the help of your friend ❤️ just keep fighting and stay strong 💪 my friend 💞Wishing only the best for you ! God bless you my friend 🙌 Don't let fear get in your way ! We love you ❤️ Blessings from Florida 🙏🙌🌴🌴
Please do not listen to anyone who feels the need to give you a negative comment. This is YOUR journey and you are allowing others to join you. It's your gift to others. You are a fighter and you have proved that with every video. You are doing exactly what you are supposed to do and you are beautiful in every way. Please talk about God as much as you like. This is your channel and if God is giving you strength and peace , sharing that with others is a very good thing to do. Please stay strong and positive. You can do this !!!! Bless
Thank you so much Jack! 🙏🏻❤️
I’m happy your feeling better. I understand about being sent home by ER. Myself having an eating disorder plus addiction, I used to go to the emergency for help. As soon as they saw I have an ED and addiction they sent me home. Keep fighting, we can fight together.❤
I'm so glad you survived the virus. 💕 I know you are going to beat all of this. I believe in you! All the best to you Lique.
❤sending love sweetheart!! Stay strong, suffering is never for nothing!!! You are building endurance, patience, compassion, empathy, your desire to keep fighting in the face of your struggles is such an inspiration!! Fight the fear, keep doing that next thing dear, and know that you are loved!🤗❤️🙏🏻
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It does seem like you have put yourself back to where you were a month ago. You said you wanted to go to hospital more than anything and you were struggling to stay alive etc etc. You got that saving grace and you let it go. Hope you don’t do the same again.
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It's easy to sit behind your keyboard and judge people, isn't it?
She is not ready to give up control. Without total surrender I don't know how any treatment plan will be successful. Most of her life has been dominated by this disorder. 😥
Dearest Lique, your life and fighting spirit is a testimony of faith and determination in itself. Your very bravery and honesty is beautiful and spiritual. I have diabetes 2 and understand the eating times and how draining it can be. I'm so grateful I found you. The energy will be slow to return as your body is working very hard. I believe in you and your journey. Lots of love and hugs to you. God bless you!!🙏❤️🤗💞💞🙏
I’m praying you get back into the hospital and stay until you can get into a long term treatment facility 🙏 You deserve recovery and happiness 💜 Keep fighting 💪
Thank you dear 🙏🏻❤️
Hi Lique, did you ever think about going to Belgium for treatment? Some insurances pay for treatment in Belgium too. From what i know, they also treat traumas etc, not just the eatingdisorder like the do in the Netherlands. In Belgium it is not all about BMI like they do here. Also there is the U-center in the Netherlands. They ask clients to pay a part of the bill itself, the rest is payed by the insurance. For the money needed you can start a go fund me. Was just thinking about you and wanted this to tell you. The waitinglist at the U center is also not that long than in most
clinice in the Netherlands
U-center would have been so great indeed… but ‘part if the bill’ is 4.000-10.000 euros 🥴 That is a lot… I set up the gofund (see description box below) to see if it is possible. Have another option too. But also expensive😳
❤ Some words from your ‘sis’ in Norway 🇳🇴: First: When I saw you in this video, I immediately observed your face, you looked better! 🤗 Yes, you look tired, of course you are, but your smile is stunning and beautiful, oh, like sunshine 🌞! I support every ‘little’ win in your struggled life, Cannot bother you anymore, but know this: My prayers continues, 🙏❤️🙋♀️ With the help and grace from the biggest winner of all time: Jesus, you will survive, dear Lique! I am so happy to know you!
Amen to that & it I agree it is a joy to know her!
Sweetest Angelique 💛. Glad to see you in better form and I send you my biggest hug, my strongest prayer and my brightest healing light. Please continue to fight the good fight. Every day that passes, makes you that much stronger 💞✨🙏
God, this is really sad :/ she really can't see that she's not doing everything she can, if she was, she'd still be in the hospital. And she has a high expectation of others to change but is struggling to change herself (if anything, that should give her more empathy for healthcare workers).
My question is, what did you see your future like before this illness? What kind of life did you want as a woman who is 40? Did you want a career in nutrition and writing? Did you want to travel/learn languages? Have a partner or kids? What were your hobbies? You share mostly about recovery/illness and I wonder who you are and want to be aside from your illness. It may be good for you to reflect on, create a vision board and work towards life goals.
You are on the right path! So proud of you!! ❤❤❤
It must have been extremely hard with hospital (and then with awful virus). But you can't believe how happy I am hearing you are going back! You haven't giving up yet and here we are for you whatever it comes! ❤️
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I am so glad you are here still with us! Thank you so much for uploading, i am so thankful. You are amazing stay on your path, and believe in yourself. I pray to god that you'll survive this part of your life. Your soul is so beautiful, stay strong.
I love how you said that. She does have a beautiful soul.💗💗💗
Please help me to understand.How do you feel mentally when you are eating?Whatever that feeling is,is that the barrier that stop's you from making progress?.I know you have gut issues and i do believe you eat,but you know its not enough.I know you cannot exercise,so this would be an ideal opportunity to slowly gain a little weight.Help me understand.Remember i fought anorexia for 25 yrs.But its breaking down those barriers.What are your fears?
Answer that in today’s video!
You are such a beautiful person. God has you on this path for a reason. He is good. Sending lots of love and prayers!
So good to see you up!❤
The video sound was so low and I had my phone all the way up so I was unable to hear anything at all. Just seeing you is a blessing.❤🙏🌹
Turn your captions on 😁👋👋😁I had to do that 😁now I can read what she is saying 🌞she doesn't have those speaker things to make it louder...just a regular phone 😇💗💗😇
So happy to see you. You are looking so much better than the last time. I keep praying for you ❤.
In America, they also send you home after 24hrs, before I meant to go to the emergency room for the virus so they could help you recover from the virus, here too though the emergency room doesn't treat us for anorexia, only 24 hrs then they sometimes will try to get you into a psychiatric hospital though if there are beds available, they transfer you, but your sent home usually. I was scared you wouldnt be able to recover from the virus without the hospital, I wouldnt of been able to eat or drink being that sick so thought it would be helpful to go to the emergency room just for a day to be stabilized so you could survive the virus
Also I still have questions about what your fears with your anorexia are? I think knowing them can help us to help you and also help us understand better
Spoke about that in several other videos…
I believe someone mentioned it here or in another video.. but what you said regarding feeding tubes is incorrect. A person who is able and wanting to eat can indeed have an NG. They are used in many circumstances.. often not even just for eating disorders. You of course would decide what is right for you.
Yes, you are right. They still can use feeding tube especially with cases like Angelique. This seems really off to me from her side.
@@reenieg8439 yep. 🙏
You are incorrect. Feeding tubes are not used unless there is some medical complication (that, guess what - you don't about!) or the person cannot or will not eat on their own. As with anything, the facts of each case are different. But using a feeding tube is not the automatic go-to. Eating by mouth is.
@@NicoleLaurenEsq Hi Nicole! I'm not here to argue. Feeding tubes are used for a variety of reasons - of course eating by mouth is first choice. All I'm saying is that they are not used solely for those that refuse to eat ..and yes, medical complications would imply they need an NG. Again..this could be people dealing with other health issues aside from eating disorders. People can have feeding tubes and ALSO eat by mouth. Have a great weekend!
@@leanneeggenberger9127 I'm not arguing. But you stated as fact that Lique is "incorrect." She isn't "incorrect." Things aren't always black and white, and pretending they are is how disinformation spreads.
God bless you precious Angel. I have been praying for you and I’m sending you all the love, light, and hope humanly possible. I have been watching your videos for some time and I feel deeply that you are doing your best and that you ARE healing 🙌 Please keep trusting your intuition which I believe is what God and the angels are telling you to do. You have got this!!! 😍🙏☀️💓
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So good seeing you ❤️ I'm so sorry your going thur this. I am praying for you 🙏
So proud of you and don’t mind the complainers or rude people. Stay focused on your health wellness and finding things that make you smile. Love love love to you
Every single time I see you I'm so proud of you. A lot of people don't have the ability to put themselves into other people's shoes, they don't imagine all of the complications that you are facing. But I see you, and I'm so glad I get to hear your story and stand by your side along your way. I'm glad to see that you are speaking your mind freely and standing your ground. I will stay around for as long as you keep posting videos, because people like you help me become a better person myself and face my fears. And please don't let their word tarnish your relationship with your spirituality. Lately I realized that faith isn't about believing something without proof. Faith is about embracing the possibility of absolute goodness, when it is so easy to only conceptualize absolute badness. You're doing it right, Angelique, but you already know that.
Thank you for your wonderful comment dear! Very wise… 🙏🏻💜
Hi Angelique! I'm glad you could record a video!! I've been experiencing food freedom lately and it's amazing so I hope for you that you can find the strength to recover too! I've been documenting what I'm eating on my channel, maybe you can get some ideas! Sending love from Hollywood! xo 🤗🥰❤💕💕
My darling you are a brave soldier that battles and fights all the time .one day you will win the war xxxx
If people don't want to listen to what is keeping you fighting - faith, Jesus etc, why don't they stop watching??? It's a community but it's YOUR channel and its about your recovery and what is and isn't working for you. People really get on my nerves. God bless you abundantly 🥰🤗🇬🇧
Soooo good to see you !! I'm glad your getting a plan and a bed soon. You are getting stronger and I'm still praying for you! God bless !!
To everyone in the comments: I see such lovely sweet and amazing people in these comments. Sending you all a lot of love and I hope you're all doing well. 💗💗🤗🤗
Yahoo! Thank you for thinking of everyone here 👍🏻🙏🏻❤️
the very same back to you too. Thank you for all your love and kindness ❤❤
Keep fighting, keep surviving! I see your strength and I see your fight. A simple quote that helps me whenever I struggle is from the Revenant: "You breathe. Keep breathing"
Hi Angelique, you are certainly a warrior and I appreciate that you share your struggle with us. I am curious about your long range physical goals. How does the hospital will measure your success? What are they doing for you? Will the hospital address your intestinal problems? How is your disability not covered by insurance? I want the best for you and I’m not sure your country is offering you a road to health and healing. Sending love.
Thank you Linda! I did answer most questions in previous videos… I will have to wait on the plan the hospital will make to know what their goals for me will be. When I know, I will certainly share it with you!
You can wither in fear without professional help, with the likelihood that the outcome will be awful… OR, you can wither in fear with professional help, with the possibility that the outcome will give you a fighting chance. I believe you will not like either choice. But you do have to make a choice, and you do owe it to yourself and your loved ones to make the choice that gives you the best possibility of having a fighting chance. So put on your boxing gloves, fighter. Get in the ring, and stay in the ring. This is a match between you and fear. I know you have what it takes to stare fear in the face and say, “you will not win.” Know that you are loved. God bless you.
Please keep on fighting! your worth it !
So happy to see an update from you! I have been worried about you and praying for you and your caretakers. Keep resting 💗. I like your Psychologist! Ask if they can give you something to help with the panic attacks if you haven’t already.
It’s good to see you looking so much better. I hope the psychiatrist is truly preparing a plan for you because you can’t keep waiting weeks and weeks. I want to see the day that you are able to walk easily and get back your strength. ❤
So glad to hear from and see you! Keep up the positivity and your strength! I’ll keep you uplifted in my thoughts and prayers!
Thank you Raquelle! 🙏🏻❤️
Lique,what do you want your life to look like in say,5 yrs time??
You look fantastic I can see health returning to your eyes and faith we are gonna keep believing ...❤️ stay strong ..🙏