Was this was the hardest episode to watch? ANTM (C2 E5) @Luxeria
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- Опубликовано: 19 сен 2024
- America's Next Top Model cycle 2 and Mercedes' Lupus, did production show her situation as ignorant? Honestly this episode was quite difficult to watch, the models undergo a personality test and coaching to get better at being interviewed and then are photographed in a water tank.
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It’s sickening how much ANTM wanted to portray the “aggressive black woman” stereotype when all the women were doing is standing up for themselves 😒
No kidding. XC
I felt this exact way! I couldn’t help but feel uncomfortable about the obvious stereotyping she mustn’t have even known she went through
Say it louder for the people in the back!!!
Yet it was perfectly “admirable” when Tyra would pop off and tell someone how she felt about them.
@@xXxKaley2013xXx i think tyra had some internilsed race issues the way she ripped other women of colour down
‘I feel vulnerable, I feel tired, I feel weak and my hair is falling out’
Tyra - ‘work harder and drop the attitude’🥴
Fkn Tyra man....
What about calling the medical examiner?
Yeah tyra tell her that in a hospital bed too🤦🏻♀️ (she totally would)
Lupus is a Gravely disabling, federally recognized illness! I didn't see any people on Tyra's show even investigating lupus at all!
You can’t spell TYRAnt without Tyra 😩
Sadly it's a widespread attitude to certain chronic illnesses, even among doctors. Constant gaslighting and being told you're fine to do normal things and that you can keep up with normal life, even when inside it can feel like you're physically rotting and you can barely move from your bed to the bathroom.
I've faced it for 24yrs (albeit a different chronic illness) The best thing she could do is leave the competition, focus on healing, and then try for a different season imo
I never get tired of the 'Daytime tweed with an evening chiffon' Trinny and Suzanna. 🤣🤣🤣
At the perfect time hahahahahahaha
Both the original and the scary call version
A shame I cannot find this clip anywhere, for meme purposes lol
Lmao I know every episode 😂😂 not enough gout lately ..
Ugh! That outfit though. A mid-calf dress with trousers underneath. How are they fashion 'experts'.
As an Iranian American, I can tell you my father also said these awful things to me about being a musician and modeling when I was younger as well. He didn’t need to hang on to / continue that way of thinking but he chose to. My mother, on the other hand is my #1 fan and divorced him sooo - In the bin.
Love, I'm so glad to know you have support, and I hope that these days you have more lovers than haters. ❤
Ur mother sounds fabulous
I remember being so disgusted that they would make Mercedes, someone with an autoimmune condition, get into that already dirty water last.
Yup, perfect thing for someone with a compromised immune system
they can't even use a "we didn't know" excuse because she had literally JUST been outed. the lack of care they had for Mercedes' health and safety (and the other girls, in different ways) is disgusting.
Omg I never thought about that!
Poor Mercedes, it definitely feels like they’re glorifying suffering in silence and the “pull yourself up by the bootstraps and get over it bc you are less important than the amount of work you can do” attitude that drives me absolutely insane 🙃 the stress is clearly making her more ill and they’re like “oooh yes get those shots of her feeling miserable and trying to hide it from everyone 😈”
It feels very “bootstraps” discourse doesn’t it!
Agreed!
The hardest part watching it for me is that this "bootstraps" mentality is still so prevalent, at least in the U.S. I struggle with disabling chronic illness, and while I'm finding some help where I *might* be able to find a job I can do with some tools to help me do it, I still may not succeed. If I find that I simply cannot work, my understanding of what benefits I might be able to get through social security still would leave me living basically in poverty. It's sickening. I really wish people wouldn't exploit people like Mercedes for inspiration porn. That's her life she has to live every day! And autoimmune diseases like lupus are often doing long term damage over time, meaning her struggle would likely get harder as the years go by. I hope for her that treatments have gotten better and that she's well managed these days.
I agree. She deserved at very least a counselor to talk to. At very very least.
Janice needs to go in bin for that how awful
Exotic feels rooted in fetishization . Because it’s only “exotic “to the outsider . But they use it as if it’s a solid adjective , when it is subjective. Which to me implies the person using it to describe someone else thinks of themselves as the center /baseline.
As a biracial bisexual person your commentary about how people treat those identities similarly is spot on. People constantly want to put you in one box or the other rather than accept what you’re telling them.
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I'm asking really honestly about it, I want to learn, but how come can someone say "I'm bisexual biracial" and then complain about being tagged by others?
Team biracial bisexual! 👏🏼
@@clickchick6861 The issue isn’t the specific label, it’s others’ blatant ignoring of how a person identifies themselves. If I say my name is Kiss, I expect to be called Kiss, not Kat or Mary or anything other than what I explicitly tell and give permission to others to identify me by. Its a social boundary that is being set and if you respect it, you are respecting the person. It’s a pretty simple concept.
A biracial person should be called biracial if that is how they describe themselves, they should not be forced to “choose one” because others decide to be narrow minded and try to force their ideas onto them. Same for sexuality and any other label a person has chosen to express their identity to others. Labels can be very personal and help people express to others their view of themselves and their own perspective. For many people it can be a challenge to get to a point where they have a way to express their understanding of themselves to others (or even just define it for their own sake), so when they do finally reach that point and someone else denies or tries to change it, it is like denying a part of that persons humanity and their life experiences. It’s disrespectful and lazy.
@@clickchick6861 just because someone acknowledges that some of their identities can be described in words and use that as a springboard to talk about their experience doesn't mean it's ok for others to use those identities to generalize "or tag" them.
What you are doing is victim blaming people with marginalized identities by trying to frame them having a discussion about struggles they've experienced as causative, equal, or responsible for provoking the hate they've experienced.
At best you're telling them they shouldn't call out problematic attitudes. At worst you're saying the only reason they've experienced hate is because they've spoken up. Racists don't need you to tell them you're biracial to hate you. Same with anti-LGBTQ bigots. Existence in public is sufficient to paint a target on your back.
The minimum you should be supporting is people being able to freely talk about what's happened to them. Further. They should be able to say how that is hurtful, traumatic, or dangerous.
If you're honestly looking to learn don't equate people speaking about their experience and calling bigotry to account with bigotry itself or try to silence them.
I love how they encourage and praise Sara for embracing her heritage (and telling April to embrace her Japanese side) but don't even mention Camille repeatedly wearing clothes and telling us how important her Jamaican heritage is. The bias against her is SO obvious.
“Being a strict parent does not create better, well behaved children, it makes them much better at lying and deceiving.”
Brilliantly said !!! ❤️❤️
Honestly as a chronically ill person, I feel like Mercedes was really in denial of her own limits, and production is really pushing her with it. You cannot force yourself through it, hard work will not improve it, and feeling like you need to fight it to prove yourself will only land you in the hospital. She probably had a very long road to walk after this show and I feel so bad for her.
Also Lux youre stunning💚
It's kind of not surprising only a year into diagnosis. I know it took me some time to accept my ever changing limits early on too.
@@sarahmoore6183 Oh it’s definitely understandable. I just hate that she was put into a situation where she is guaranteed to not receive any of the care she needs to both cope and adapt. It really seems like she was trying to prove she could beat it, and putting that on international TV was the worst thing to do honestly.
She probably didn't know her limits yet..she's only had a year of knowing and it seems like she's had her mom's support that whole time...she probably hasn't seen how she feels in a new environment or on her own
That's very possible, especially when limits can vary widely day to day.
@@marshmallow4646 yup funnily enough I was diagnosed same year as this season!!!I was the exact same . I don't have lupus (well currently that hasn't been investigated but has been suspected due to skin issues)so I dont know , but thats my crappy countries health system. 5yea waiting lists to see a consultant. I was og dx with fibromyalgia and m.e...but 18yrs later they are mind boggled since the original dx makes no sense and I'm on fentany and oxy and diazepam for the pain as it is so bad and i dont sleep😢
It’s crazy when you think about the fact that the ADA (Americans with Disabilities Act) was not passed in the USA until 1990. So in the early 2000s this was a very young law and many companies were still not complying properly (as we can see with Mercedes here).
They still aren't complying...
It was roughly the same in the Uk. I was born in the late 80’s with Cerebral Palsy and our Disability Discrimination Act passed into law around 91 and I was still struggling to get support at school in 99.
@@onceuponamelody that is certainly no lie
The ADA isn't a fix-all. It's not like there are disability cops you can call when your boss won't provide accommodations. The ADA is only as powerful as the employer's fear of an employee's ability to successfully bring a major lawsuit.
Not only was this episode low-key ableist towards Mercedes, they pitted minorities against each other when a couple of the girls talked about their background. Back then, I actually used to enjoy this show, now…I’m so glad you’re pointing how how problematic this show actually is. More people need to know.
Would you prefer swan honks 😆🦢
@@cafeAmericano you're not disagreeing with any of the points.
@@cafeAmericano It’s not woke when stuff like this happened on a daily occurrence. Touch some grass and pay attention to real life, you might learn something.
@@cafeAmericano you added nothing but an exposure of your own ignorance
@@CWazBroadwayBandGeek you know it's problematic? Your face... You should pay reparations to people for having that mug
My mother has lupus and I have unfortunately lost a cousin due to lupus complications, and how they are handling this "storyline" with Mercedes is SO gross and ableist, like, come on.
I had a friend, a successful chiropractor, with Lupus. She decided she would not let it hold her back no matter what. She was admirable and strong... and she went out on her own terms. RIP Terry. You are so dearly loved. Lovelies, if you are struggling with an invisible disability, please don't accept ableism; take care of yourself because you are worth so much more than what you can produce.
Couldn't agree more. As someone with lupus it seriously does affect daily life
I just have to say, you look absolutely gorgeous in this video, I love the pushed back hair, the natural makeup with lots of lashes and your outfit is killer, you really look phenomenal.
Thankyou! I’ve been enjoying a minimal shadow look with super bold eyeliner a lot recently!
@@Luxeria everything about you is so pretty in this video.
This is exactly my thoughts!!! She’s looking FAB 🔥🔥🔥
@@Luxeria it makes you look younger and radiant!!
Exactly! Lux has healed so fast she’s a Swan! 🙏😍
I remember watching this back in the day and being surprised that Janice was so shocked that some people think she's a b****. I thought the same thing this time: If she genuinely isn't aware of how she comes off, she has no right to judge the girls on how they present themselves.
But she's on the PTA! Everyone knows PTA stands for "no b*tches allowed" or that seems to be what she implied.
Janice: *is the biggest b!tch*
Everyone: "you're a b!tch Janice"
Janice: *surprised Pikachu face*
As someone who has been recently diagnosed with ADHD, dyslexia and I’m suspected of having autism, what you said that the show won’t help but expects the same level as people who ‘normal’ spoke to me on so many levels. I was always told that I just need to work harder my whole life, compared myself to others, wondering why everyone else could do things so easily . I have internalised it so much and can relate to just saying “I’ll be fine or I don’t need help” as I felt like I wasn’t in a position to reach out.
You are not alone and you deserve help when you want/need it and respect always. I wish you the best as things start to make more sense in context of your diagnosis. I know for me it was both validating and frustrating when I learned about my ADHD diagnosis and what it meant for me.
Even professionals in mental health and neuropsychiatry often push the "you just have to work harder" thing. Yes, by working really hard many obstacles can be overcome - but trying really hard all day everyday is EXHAUSTING. For neuronormal people it would be like doing everything for the first time everyday, doing things doesn't become routine easily and many skills can't be learned, concentrating takes energy, controlling the need to fidget takes energy, keeping up with schedules consumes every day. It's not uncommon for especially women to be diagnosed with adhd in adulthood after suffering a burnout.
Hey there. I'm 35. Was diagnosed with Dyslexia when I was 8. ADHD at 33. And identified as being on the spectrum at 35.
I'm currently 35.
I believe in you. But most importantly I believe in your ability to set boundaries that you're not like everyone else. Need accommodations. And can succeed.
That moment when Mercedes said “if I can show my family…” broke my heart. I have a chronic neurological illness. I have learned that you MUST listen to your body when you have an illness. If you fight it then you will crash and burn. The more you ignore the faster it builds up. I hope that this have gotten better and she has been able to find the balance that people need.
What a loaded line the "intuitive" directed at Camille with, "now I don't care if you punch me" like they really tried so hard to push the idea of her is aggressive but her reactions never feel like they warrant that. It's such a forced narrative.
And tou're spot on about the way they've framed Mercedes lupus, the whole thing reeks of inspiration porn.
Such a coincidence: they are encouraged by a “personality coach” to tell their secrets and be genuine (because supposedly their careers will depend on *that*), and then comes an “intuition advisor” telling those same things they’ve disclosed right back at them.
It would be hilarious if the production wasn’t exploiting these very young and gullible women in a very vulnerable moment of their lives.
This has a "if you want equality, just work as hard as everyone else" vibe to the story of Mercedes.
How were production towards her if she didn't feel comfortable disclosing her condition to her competitors?
The ableism in this show is consistently wild.
Well that’s why Janice asked a question about how she noticed her “energy levels being low” as if the judges spend any time with the girls to notice that. The producers wanted her to talk.
that wasn't an option. I remember several competitors advocate for themselves when the show originally aired. Suddenly, after they spoke up, they had a glaring flaw and needed the boot.
As a disabled person, the story with Mercedes makes me so upset and angry. Thank you for pointing it out in your videos. Love your commentary.
Thank you for pointing out the ableist attitudes rife in this episode. I myself have a chronic autoimmune disease now (and had the beginnings when this was being aired, but not nearly enough to diagnose or even realize something was actually “wrong” with me). I really appreciate your understanding attitude about her ordeal. Even after I was properly diagnosed, which takes years, and I was continuing to struggle and work, no one ever cared or tried to make things easier for me. There was just a constant attitude of “if I can’t do it, go work somewhere else.” I wasn’t even aware of my rights at the time, and this was the 20-teens by then! Thank you for always being an advocate for my community! 🖤
As someone with a serious autoimmune disease, an invisible disability, I appreciate your response to this. 💖
Especially because she's probably on something like methotrexate that's adding to fatigue / hair falling out / feeling less able. My dad was on it for sarcoidosis in the early 00s and slept for 3 days every two weeks when he took it.
Autoimmune sucks and also immunosuppression sucks. Poor girl.
Same
@@falconinthedive yup. Methotrexate is fantastic but has horrible side effects
Thank you so much for your comments on disability and the way they handled it on the show. I became chronically ill a few years ago and it's been very difficult to accept myself because of my internalized belief that if I just tried harder I could be as able as everyone else. Hearing you talk about it makes me feel cared about
I'm not sure if it will help but I have found a lot of validation in social media groups centred on disabled, chronically ill and neurodivergent people, basically anyone who may need more rest than others, who may have unique strategies and recharging. Especially spoon theory which explains how certain daily actions take away from the total amounts of spoons (energy) you have per day. It helped me be kinder to myself for needing lots of alone time due to being neurodivergent.
adding to Itri Vega's answer, twitter is especially good for disabled, chronically ill and neurodivergent people seeking support, as we have some communities over there with very kind people that will welcome you anytime
I exactly the same
As someone with an 'invisible' disability, it's incredibly difficult deciding when and if I'm going to share that with someone like an employer. If I don't say anything they think I'm lacking in my performance, if I do say something they think I'm using it as an excuse. It's an incredibly frustrating thing to deal with, and I felt for Mercedes in this episode.
Yup, it's a horrible position to be in
Mercedes was forced to out herself after the producers trying to get that moment over and over. It was hard to watch. Why do people with medical issues have to let others know shit they don't want to share? It's so invasive
Culture/race giving a competitor an "edge" feels very much like the excuses of people being upset with affirmative action/diversification. The "edge" is only truly there if entities are looking to diversify and that's typically only done for token points and monetary/tax incentives. Being multi-racial myself, I heard this so much growing up. Let me just say having been through uni, working for the feds, and now working in the private sector: Having an "edge" over the competition is usually thinly veiled fetishism, tokenism, elitism, and performative social justice.
That conversation could have been more uplifting, if they had listened to each other rather than playing I've Got It Worse™. And it very well may have turned into that but production was definitely promoting colorism (whose voice we should listen to back by authority), racist stereotypes about angry women of color--especially black women--, and capitalism in the since of bodies as a commodity. Pop culture really does push and promote cultural narratives.
@@elizabethharris7203 Agreed! They both said insulting comments and they could’ve come together and celebrated each other instead.
I hate how they keep making Camille seem like aggressive and hard to talk to when she hasn’t done anything to anyone 😂
god the way everyone treats camille makes me so annoyed and angry. she is just trying to exist as her authentic self and everyone has made her out to be some aggressive bitch or something when she really isn’t. but when janice dickinson, who is WAY worse than camille, acts in that way (again, way more extreme and worse) she’s praised for it and no one ever gives her any shit 🙄
Keep the swan honks coming! I absolutely love them! Makes me laugh every time! 🤣💖
Your definition and breakdown of the social construct of "exotic" is spot on!
I am literally suffering from an auto immune dease called Hashimoto's dease and I can tell you it's not at all joke it's hard every single day. So they are definitely not giving the one a brake with the auto immune dease. It's never easy to even explain how one feels with such a dease. And it has not changed since the 2000's I also found out a year ago. Love the videos gorgeous you actually make me feel better. Love you ❤️
I've looked into hashimotos for myself. Between thyroid, autoimmune, and a metabolism disorder.. then last year I started getting immune system reactions to alcohol and weed. I quit both of those and went gluten and dairy free too, I felt so good! Diet helped until I got pregnant (with nausea I ate whatever I could). Baby aside, it gets so hard to function daily! With chronic fatigue, hormones off, inflammation, people don't see anything so they think you're lazy or lying. After going through several doctors who just aren't willing to fully support, I'm convinced we are our best healers.
@@katiep3027 yeah we are pretty much alone on this because no one can understand it only if they go through it themselves. And unfortunately I'm in a bad situation money wise so trying to go gluten free is to expensive. I have given up on life. I'm constantly sick and can't function anymore. So I'm just done with life. I'm constantly making people unhappy to. So God can just take me already.
@@Tashycat78 I know it can be very easy to feel defeated, especially when there's little control of your own body. I hope you're able to find some good resources to help you along the way.
Your surgery looks like it's healing so beautifully! It of course could be the new way you did your foundation, but the subtle and natural changes done seem to suite you perfectly Lux, so happy for you!
Right??? My God. .. She looks so....
Breathtaking
Wow Lux, I love your hair! Thanks for the amazing consistent uploads, they always come at just the right time. America’s Next Top SCANDAL Girls!
Thankyou!
I remember in the latest RPDR All Stars season that Yvie Oddly felt unhappy with how the edit portrayed her disability and illness. As if she was just dealing with it and inspiring everyone by doing so instead of really showing her genuine struggle and the reality of living with disability. This storyline with Mercedes reminds me a lot of that.
Disability and illness is something that is quite difficult to portray on tv appropriately but this whole idea of just hiding your disability or ignoring your struggles to “inspire” people is clearly something that still needs to be worked on.
I love painting to your videos! People will ask me if I listen to chill music while I paint... the truth is it's you and my other favorite youtubers in the background 😆✌🏽
Oh wow amazing!! 😂😂
I always do my eyebrows lol
I do the same! Keeps me smiling while I craft:)
Can't tell you how much permanent damage I have caused myself because I pushed myself passed my limits. I have multiple chronic illnesses, those around me didn't believe me(including some doctors) and this made me start thinking I just needed to push harder. Now I'm years farther into my disease than I should be.
Ugh yes... I feel you. Idk where you live but I'm in the US. I think part of that feeling like we have to push ourselves is because we don't live in a society that says "rest is productive too". once I learned to prioritize rest, especially when listening to my body, I stopped before over doing it.
Like I'm reading about myself, Margo 😢. It also caused serious self-esteem issues because I could do less and less in the same time, had to start declining work and social outings. I thought that made me a loser, less than others, because *other people* acted like that.
Then came the moment I had to go from a ft position to a pt freelance, but because I was still not diagnosed properly - not taken seriously enough - I didn't get any benefits, no help etc. It didn't take long before my body hit a wall: due to lack of very necessary treatment, yes, but also because I mentally and physically pushed myself too much, far too long, far too much as a result of expectations (mostly other people, society... but you internalise that. And you don't need to be American for that. I'm Dutch, and my background is in journalism, one of the most stressful, pressured environments) and lack of income.
Many of my illnesses should have been less severe, which is bad enough and has caused plenty medical problems, like chronic pain, mobility issues, weight gain, hair loss, atrophy, connective tissue problems, vein and lymph damage etc etc. But, I'm in a wheelchair, with brain-damage, DNA-damage, fertility loss, severe nerve pain, and heart problems (and more), because I was considered either attention seeking or a whiner, as "no one could be that ill. I just needed to suck it up".
I still notice a huge lack of empathy, or even sympathy from society and even family. But I decided, after my 2nd burnout and my steep decline, that I should stop listening to others. Went to therapy to learn more about my triggers and to truly feel I'm not my illnesses, I'm not my symptoms or consequences, I'm not less. The reaction of others still hurts sometimes, same as how chronically ill people are marginalised and judged, but I no longer let it rule me.
I wish everyone suffering from an illness lots of great days, strength, support 💙. Don't be afraid to seek help if you have trouble guarding your boundaries. You(r health) deserve it!
there's such a difference between "I'm better now" and "I'm better FOR now." Mercedes was saying "I'm better for now," during the shoot, but they portrayed it as "I'm better now."
Thrilled for another wonderful deconstruction of ANTM. You're always a bright spot in the week.
‘Shandy, if you can rob someone you can do this’
LUXERIA, you’re a mess woman *Mr burns voice* 😂😂😂
That "Intuitive advisor" is hilarious. Jennifer Aniston allegedly went to her to find out how to have a baby and her amazing advice was "adopt". She also tells women to burn their bras and underwear because they carry toxic residue of previous lovers. 🤣🤣
I'm sure she's laughing all the way to the bank.
She sounds horrible.
@@teijaflink2226 Yeah unintentionally funny though.
My god you look extra beautiful in this video!!!! How dare you keep getting more attractive!? ❤️❤️❤️
😂😂😂 Thankyou! I’m taking great care with my healing 🥰
Seriously!!!
Omgomg i thought the same think! I GAGGED hahahaha nahhh I GASOED from shock!!! Beautiful woman!!!!!
How very dare you.....
two things i have opinions on- i cannot find statistics on what the modelling world was like diversity wise in 2004 but camille talking about her struggle as a black model and then april responding in a way to make her seem more oppressed is counter productive and discounting antiblackness in the modelling industry. of course this is 2022 vision but i felt like that should be pointed out. and then with sara i can speak from being muslim/middle eastern and say that a lot of conservative parents especially father figures still associate jobs like modelling and acting with promiscuity so there are comparisons to sex work within the ultra conservative part of our culture
Hmmm. J. Alexander; Runway Diva = Good! Camille; Model Diva = Trash medium assumes is going to punch her because she puts people off by literally sitting there. Okay sis. How incredibly dangerous and toxic this show is. I wish the unhelpful ghost camera would haunt Tyra and the entire production team. 👻
Soundproofing is when you're equipping a room to not have any outside noise get through--what you're talking about is acoustic treatment! Depending on your budget, maybe look into getting a few bass traps instead of a ton of thinner panels. Thinner material doesn't absorb lower frequencies but thick material absorbs low *and* high frequencies. If you don't account for bass reflections, you might waste a ton of money just making your room sound more dull and boomy
Lmfaooo I laughed so hard at your reaction to Janice outing Mercedes cos it was the exact same as mine. It felt like watching someone be outed for being LGBTQ+ it was awful. Flashbacks to high school.
coach: that's where charisma comes from-
me: trauma?
coach: it comes from public self-acceptance
me: oh.
Just discovered your Channel and Roly’s. I adore your friendship and personality. Thank you for your content and making me laugh your such a beautiful human 💜🏳️⚧️xx
Thankyou lovely!!
I'm not one to leave comments - I don't recall ever doing so, but I just wanted to tell you how much I appreciate you. I'm going through a break-up and I'm absolutely heartbroken. I can't even see what I'm writing because I've been crying for days, barely holding it together to go to work. I've been binging your content because it's the only time I laugh and I've been howling like a banshee with laughter in between the tears. Thank you for what you do, you have brought absolute joy, and an incredibly bizarre and wonderful vernacular to this corner of the internet. When I'm feeling down I remember that it could always be worse, I could be in a daytime tweed and an evening chiffon, or even worse have GOUT. Huge amounts of love for you 🖤
😂 not daytime tweed 😱😨
Hang in there, it gets better ❤️x
I love how you point out the editing and the role of he producers and such. I watch with such different eyes now. Thank you so much.
I really apperciate you talking about how difficult it is to live with Lupus, or anything, and be expected to be on the same level as anyone else. We are conditioned to think if we can't do things as easily as the majority then there is something wrong with us. I worry about her. Suffering in silence is what many of us do to this day.
Yup, I still really struggle with these expectations
@@ljslupylife Thank you for sharing this. I really appreciate it. It's nice knowing I'm not alone.
@@LisaTebrinke you definitely aren't. Always around if you need to talk or vent or whatever
yesss! Absolutely makes my day whenever Luxeria drops a new video. This must be my favourite makeup look too - STUNNING!
I was so sad when Xiomara left. She had such an amazing personality and she was so supportive. I love her.
Your videos have gotten me through moving out from home. Last year I moved away for college and I felt really homesick, but watching your videos cheered me up and made me forget it.
Today I went back to my new apartment after being at home and with my family for a few weeks and I feel homesick again.
Every time you upload I feel like it's the perfect timing. So thank you for putting out this amazing content!
When Lux takes the opera glasses at the start and says 'Whomst! The Scandal!' I only needed it to continue 'The Scandal rule the waves!'
As someone with many autoimmune diseases it was interesting to see this reaction video. It's heartbreaking when your body refuses to keep up with you. It was also nice you not hollering gout throughout this sensitive video. Maybe since you see how hard lupus, gout, etc. are you could be more sensitive to them and not use them as a joke. You seem like a warm, kind hearted person and I'm sure you never mean to hurt people but similar to lupus, gout can change peoples lives... need walkers, wheelchairs, companions to help with daily needs since your body is in too much pain to complete everyday things. I enjoy your content but maybe use this as food for thought. Hope you're having a lovely day!
Thanks for mentioning this! As a person who also has several autoimmune diseases and also gout, it is always weird to me, when the word gout is used as a joke. Since it is something which is causing me a lot of pain and led to me becoming a wheelchair user. I still love this Chanel but that always makes me uncomfortable.
When you realize you’re selling your body for your job… that explains so much… a dead body. 😭
A dead body!!
I love when you catch the editing tricks to create storylines or false perceptions of contestants
As a tarot reader, active witch, and celtic pagan, the "intuitive coach" was DISGUSTING. I believe in what I do, and I've accurately read people I've never met before. But NEVER in my wildest dreams would I read someone to a room like that. Ew! Bad! Bad ANTM! In the bin!
And I completely agree that her readings were likely given to her by production. Horrible!
Completely with you there! I am new to tarot and earth magic, but there is no way I would ever do group/public readings, and never when I've clearly been given personal information about them. So toxic, and bringing a bad name to us witches
@@sneakypenguin2861 Exactly! Good luck on your path : )
I do tarot as well, I’m also a pagan Hellenistic witch. Yeah, absolutely disgusting that she would do something like that. It is meant to be a somewhat private thing, unless the person gives you permission to do their reading with a group.
Even if they weren't given to her by production, some of the information can be deduced through basic inferencing. E.g. if Sarah is asking what her father would think if he knew that she was pursuing modeling, you can infer that
1. It's something she's worried about, and we don't tend to be concerned about someone's reactions to something if it's reasonably likely that the reaction will be positive.
2. It's something she hasn't told her father about. And again, we don't tend to keep things from close family members if it's reasonably likely that they'll react positively to them.
It genuinely blows my mind that there are people out there like you and these other commenters that actually believe in mystical "readings". I majored in biology, minored in biophysics, and spent a total of 14 years training as a physician. I've studied everything from macro anatomy to subatomic particles, to biophysics- as well as studying under scientists and doctors so brilliant they seemed almost superhuman- and there is no evidence that tarot "readings" are valid. Not biologically inherited abilities, not learned abilities, not an aspect of neurobiology, not a feature of quantum mechanics or electron manipulation, nor any kind of theoretical mathematic multidimensional concept. I mean, there's literally so much incredible fantastical stuff in our world, I don't understand why people like you exist with what's basically the belief in Santa Claus, but for adults :/
Classy, elegant and beautiful! love your content girl 🖤🖤
Thankyou!!
I'm here for the swan honks 😂
I can't even focus on the clips with you in frame! You are glowing and gorgeous!!!!
BRING ON THE SCANDAL!!! Love you Lux 🖤🖤🖤
Lots of scandals 💀
I honestly love how you censor with swan noises, it makes it so much better and always makes me laugh
"America's next top loveliest 🦢" got me dead 🤣🤣💀
Second thought; I was a photographer for many years until my illness forced me to stop. In that time, I did several underwater shoots, although much less fancy. No huge tank and studio, just a pool with both me and the model underwater (talk about a workout, trying to hold still underwater with your camera in it’s cheap, unbalanced rig and focus on the model, who is also constantly moving). It’s VERY challenging, but SO rewarding when you get the right shots! I really wish I could have done it more often. It’s definitely it’s own skill, aside from general modeling. I got very lucky that I model I’d already collaborated with a lot had a ton of underwater experience. She already knew not to make the instinctive “underwater face” everyone makes, puffing up your cheeks and squeezing your eyes shut. She helped teach the newer model on set the ropes, and helped me learn too, since she had more experience than I did at that point! (This was a just for fun/art shoot.) But my point is, I went in thinking it was going to be difficult and it was freaking DIFFICULT. I’m not sure you can really be prepared for it without just trying it. I’m not at all surprised some of the models had some trouble, I’m just surprised some of them seemed to not have trouble!
Mercedes is making me wanna hug her because I also have an autoimmune condition (not lupus but not dissimilar) and it wreaked havoc on my dreams, my professional life, my everything. And most people do not get it, like they didn't get it with Mercedes. It's autoimmune, it's chronic, but invisible. So it's with you forever and sometimes it's "bearable", sometimes it SUCKS, but it never goes anywhere. Your body rebelling against itself is exhausting, the energy you need to just function at a baseline leaves you with way less energy than most people have available daily. It takes away from you a great deal. I wish more people understood this, but since it's not visible people tend to attribute shortcomings to laziness or a lack of something in your personality/value which is very hurtful. And yeah, stressful circumstances send autoimmune conditions into overdrive, poor Mercedes. I hope she didn't suffer too much while in the competition.
You are not alone 🖤 What you're saying is so true, and it's so hard to live with. I have an autoimmune disease too.
Neither of you are alone. I do have lupus but I also have several other autoimmune conditions and it's hard 💜
As someone with chronic illness and a family who disowned me for having life saving surgery this episode really hit home. You have to take care of yourself first, recognize your own limits and ask for accommodations. It is hard you don’t want special treatment but sometimes you have to accept that you need it.
So sorry you have experienced this hun 💜
For some reason, the 'Mercede's Lupus storyline' (ugh) always stuck with me and was my first introduction to the disease while watching ANTM in my teens in the mid-'00s. But, in my mind, it was no different than any other storyline of any other season - like Amanda's limited vision in Cycle 3, or Amanda and Michelle (the twins) in Cycle 7. But now that I'm 31 and have watched my partner's aunt suffer from Lupus for the past 6 and a half years, this just hits different.
Love it - oh when you travel and you're in your hotel room you are alone, essentially don't hang out with the men's, as bad things will happen and that's how you get into trouble.
Also whilst you're in this foreign country away from your friends and family, we've setup this intimate meet with some random men in this hotel room away from the other contestants. Be nice and polite and friendly
The emotional exploitation this episode was about is so unnecessary. We didn't know Mercedes doing the “I feel like shit, but I'll thrive!”, nor Sara telling us how hard it is to feel like she's lying to her dad, or the other way, saying she feels like an outsider in her own family. How does add anything to a MODELING show? Trash, the whole production is just trash…
12:01 - "I wonder what the producer asked her then." This is a different thing, but I was in a meeting with a producer about a year ago where I gave nearly verbatim the exact same answer as April, except about being trans. It was after a conversation where he had brought up the fact that I am trans and asked if I would ever be interested in playing a trans man. My answer was yes, but I had to be extremely clear that I had no interest in playing a trans man in a show that was just about being trans, where being trans is his only character trait. In explaining this, I basically gave the exact same answer as April did but about being trans.
I have to assume that other minorities also have to make that same distinction when applying for jobs in the entertainment industry, because outsiders really want to make it so that if you're a member of a minority, your identity can't extend beyond being a member of that minority. Like, I'm completely comfortable in my identity as a transgender man, but I like other things too, and I'd like to act in / work production for things that aren't just about being trans. To me, it sounds like April was making a similar distinction with what she was saying.
As the mother of a 18yr old daughter & 17yr old son i can say this, i don't understand or agree with every decision they make or behaviour they do (as long as they're not harmful or illegal) but it's not my job or place to do so. It's my job to help them, in the best way i can, to fulfill their dreams & live life on their terms. My daughter wanted to leave school, i didn't think it was the best decision, i gave her the pros & cons of doing so, then let her make the decision on her own. She did leave, took just over a year off & worked for a little while. But now she's about to start an amazing course at college! I was worried she was making a mistake, but i stood by her side & she's worked things out in her own way.
Hearing these stories of bad parenting or people worried they're gonna disappoint their parents absolutely break my heart.
O M G!! Someone really turned it OUT today! Looking stunning my queen 👑🖤 We are not worthy of the beauty!
Thankyou gorgeous 😂😂
@@Luxeria 🖤🖤
I can't stop looking at her face, so pretty😭
15:36 this meme sends me into orbit EVERY TIME😭😂
same!!
I was having some big feelings today and the sense of comfort I got from Lux was just what I needed! Thank you!
As someone living with several chronic health problems, one of the most frustrating questions I get (from people who mean well) that reflects the attitude you're talking about here, Lux, is "But you're better now, right?" after each major surgery I have to get. I try to patiently explain "I'm better for now, but it's going to happen again." Often, by then, you can tell their mind has moved on and they're not taking that in.
Luxeria--- Your laugh girl @ 18:28 🤣 Made my day!! Thank you for that... I laughed so hard with you,, I had tears in my eyes. Not to mention, you have a fantastic laugh! 😊
The word you are looking for regarding Mercedes' storyline from production is something we use a lot in the chronic illness/disability community and it's "inspiration porn." TV, movies, stories, and media in general LOVE to use us as inspiration for the able-bodied and minded. They want to see us suffer and struggle, but ultimately, overcome and triumph! Management of a lifelong illness is an uncomfortable grey area that no one wants to see nor come to terms with, therefore the reality of these conditions will often get pushed under the rug for something more palatable for a general audience. Thanks so much for seeing through the ableism in this show with Mercedes, poor thing. I can see her smiles sometimes look so forced, she is very much trying to fit in with what the show's narrative is for her. I can't remember how things turn out for her in the show, but either this will be the last mention of her lupus (since she "overcame it" in this episode), or she will get eliminated for "letting it get the best of her" in some way or another.
Let's GOOOOO! Been looking forward to this!!!
It’s a lot!!
Ever since you've been back from surgery you've been GLOWING! Love to see it!
As a mixed-race person I hate it when people try and put me in a box. Because most of the time they go off of appearance and don't realize that you are raised with two cultures and you are not going to be a perfect version of whatever singular identity they view you as..
The way Mercedes is treated in this episode, by production, by the judges, by the editing is horrific. She could have been seriously, irreversibly hurt by having to "push through" her symptoms and not being given any tools to cope with her illness during a flare-up. She wasn't joking about stress contributing to her symptoms: I have epilepsy and my seizures are exacerbated by stress and lack of sleep, which are both guaranteed in a reality show, especially one as toxic as ANTM. Mercedes is so strong and she shouldn't have had to be at all.
Edit: Jessica Kobeissi!!!Another wonderful video! I hope one day you collaborate with (omg I forget her name! She is across the pond on our side) & the other creator is is a photographer AND does ANTM YT reaction vids! I love how you both critique the show/Tyra and how manipulative the show is. If I remember her name I will come back and edit this so you have her name because you two absolutely MUST collab, and not just watching an episode but maybe she can also give I you a photo shoot!! That would be so lovely and heartwarming and FUN to watch!! 💓💗❤️ love you!
I experienced the real-life impact of ableism portrayed in reality TV when a new manager came into the job I was already at for a year and immediately started infantilizing me. The first words out of her mouth when I told her I needed accommodations for my hEDS was "omg, that one contestant that won RuPauls drag race had that same thing and she beat it and I know you can to!!" 🥴🥴 I didnt like her infantilizing me, and so I advocated for myself. She had me let go.
Yes Yvie was able to perform and had certain acrobatic moves she could perform to even more extremes because of her EDS, HOWEVER last year during the filming of drag race all stars all winners she said that in her talent show it would be her final acrobatic performance BECAUSE of the pain/her eds progression.
also just because some people with the same “condition” as another are able to do do something, that does not mean that everyone in that category also should meet that standard. The exception is not the rule. Everything is a spectrum.
I am in a similar situation with my rapidly progressing disability (liver and kidney disease also I think I have hEDS but it’d undiagnosed) however in the past I’ve done so well so it’s hard for me to even accept my own limits! So when doctors tell me things like “oh you may feel like this now but you’ll probably feel better tomorrow/next week/next month” I get really angry AND I feel bad about myself when I don’t feel better.
I hope you are in a better/more understanding job now or are at least in a place where you are able to communicate your limits and have them accommodated xx
Love the new apartment and background, you’ve healed so gracefully 🥹💖
I’m seeing nice changes every week!
You're so gorgeous once again! Can't wait to watch full video!
Just managed to go on a walk even with the pain from my disabilities, watching Luxipooch is the perfect way to take a rest!
You look amazing and I am really inspired by your style. Thank you for being my entertainment in the gym today. 🕶
There's nothing better than luxeria video before sleep. I've had a disgusting day. But my sour mood just vanished, laughing along. Amazing vid, very interesting hearing your commentary on these programs.
I’m excited to see this video. Lol … also I giggled too hard at you repeatedly saying the word that is getting bleeped lol but I appreciate your comedic timing Luxeria!!
Omg Lux I can’t even describe how mesmerised I am by you!!!! Giving stunnelina gorgeus woman on the go
they used boom mics for a lot of early seasons of reality tv
Always makes my day brighter when you upload, Lux. You look like an absolutely STUNNING woman on the game by the way.
Omg Lux you look absolutely stunning!! The way you styled your hair looks amazing on you! That said, I can't wait to see what buffoonery Tyra has in store for us today 😵💫
omg, extra long luxeria vid on my birthday!!!! appreciate u
Happy Birthday 🍀
Happy birthday!!
thank you both!! 💚
The true top model is back! Could you let us know where you get some of the amazing tops we see you wearing plz, im sure im not the only 1 that loves them!❤
I know I'm late to this one, but funnily enough, I tend to save your videos for later a lot of the time.... BECAUSE I have a debilitating chronic illness, and I appreciate having new videos from you to keep my mind occupied on my worse days... today's the worst day I've had physically in quite a long time, so it's interesting that I landed on this video because of that. ANYWAY, I thank you so, so very much for your wonderful takes on people with (specifically invisible) illnesses. I look pretty normal. I don't look sick. It took two years of grueling medical torture before I was finally diagnosed properly, and ten years later I still fight to obtain proper care, and for the past three or four years I've been losing that fight. I will continue to get worse as time goes on, because American Medicaid decided several years ago that people under their "care" are no longer allowed to get spinal implants, and both of my options that my doctor was pushing for me to receive were spinal implants -- a spinal cord stimulator (kind of like a tens unit but inside), and if that failed then a pain pump (pretty much a permanent morphine drip directly into the spinal column as needed). The day their decision to deprive people like me of this care, my doctor was visibly heartbroken for me, and I completely broke down. I will NEVER get any better, save for any future miracle developments, which for me are very unlikely since my condition is incredibly rare. There's no money to be made by curing my disease. It simply is what it is.
Dealing with ableism and judgment in this world is an incredible challenge. I related to EVERYTHING Mercedes said, especially when she said she took her meds out underneath the table and would sneak sips of water to wash them down because people are just so bloody JUDGYYYYY when they see someone taking pills a million times a day. I've been sick a decade now and I STILL hide my medication swigs, even from my immediate family -- and I LIVE with my parents BECAUSE of my illness!! People just don't understand, and often they don't TRY to.
That's why I valued your statements so much in this particular video. Your strong empathy and kind heart give you extremely valuable insight into the life of the chronically ill. You don't claim to understand certain things that you can't possibly know for sure, and you draw from your own experiences wherever you can to help yourself and your audience think about this issue in a compassionate, logical, and sensible way. I cannot thank you enough for your thoughts. It's very rare that I feel seen and heard, but on one of my most difficult days, you've given me that. 💙
(Sorry for the SUPER long comment, I just wanted you to know the basics of my background! Also omg I'm so excited for you to get your augmentation, that's so wonderful! I'm sure you can't wait to wear certain things, hahaha! I'm a flat chested woman on the go, Trinny and Susannah would GAG, and I'd deck whichever one of them tried groping me first! Right in the gout!)
I remember watching this season when I was younger 😂 and now I'm feeling old! Looking gorgeous as ever lux ❤️
YAYYYY you uploading makes my week every time 🫶🏻 i can’t wait to see how this turns out 🧐
😂😂😂 I hope you love it!
I'm not even into makeup but the first thing I noticed was that something was different about your foundation. Call me the next Sherlock!
I really like it 😁
Stacey Dooley watch out! Investigative journalism just got real! 😂🖤