By far the hardest thing not to do. When you've made grave mistakes, feeling the need to admit everything down to every last detail. It's normal to be guilty about mistakes of course and it's good if you can see where you went wrong but with OCD no matter what you have set up in your head to deal with it it crushes it and you're left with chronic, violent guilt, pain etc. Constantly asking myself am I really bad, am I really good? If everyone knew life would be over, I should go to the police, I should post it on social media and so on. It truly is devastating. Bed bound every few months. It feels like you only have two awful ultimatum and nothing will ever be the same again no matter how much you fight, accept the mistakes, accept uncertainty... It's a life long sentence.
I'm so grateful this video exist, bc I was just feeling horrible with myself thinking "but it's not that I'm scared I may do something or think something or feel something, it's that I actually did" So I felt like I couldn't even put myself in the OCD category, I just felt I was a horrible person and really had to let people know what I did/thought/felt. Thank you so much 😭
@@tango-bravo it took a long time but basically by letting the thought just go through my head and not giving into the compulsion to confess. It was hard and I take medication which helps.
@@celiamould Im going through it so bad right now, and now I fear that I will be exposed because I told someone what happened. Also being fearful of people appearing and knowing who I use to be
It tells me that if I don't confess this to every tiny detail, if the details are even accurate, that when I die, I'm going to hell! That I'm a terrible person.
@@mitalinath1068 a combination of a lot of praying, reading my bible, believing God can move mountains, meds and pushing through every time i needed to confess. I just didn't give into the compulsion to confess...it took a lot of work and pushing through but it can be done...
@@celiamould I am literally dying. I confess one thing and then 3/4 new things pops up in my head. If I find someone attractive..then also I must confess. And this cycle continues. I broke up with my partner fr this.
Thank you for your video. I did have time when my brain work well again, like i dont care about other's opinions and feeling grateful every minute. That was when i practiced mindfulness and reached certain level in which i could focus on presence. Things got bad when i had a lot of deadlines and spent no time to practice, i gradually fell back into the circle of anxiety and it just recalled all bad memories, and it very hard now to practice and gain back that time. Now my thoughts always about fear and guilt for past reason. And my toxic behavior cause new troubles. I have shared alot to my friends and I regret doing it. Sometimes I think they are crazy too. I trust nobody even I had some achivement in the study i at first really love it, my family is fine to me, no conflict, everything appear the best dream normal people wish. But I keep seeing that they are faking it because I remember all the terrible thing they did to me. But my case is like i am still dependent on my parents so much, maybe that is a big trigger, i believe. Hope when i could take care of myself by myself. I at least have control of my life..
I’ve been really struggling with this, but the truth / confession would really hurt someone I care about and they don’t deserve that. As much as I want to own up to my actions, it would cause them a lot of pain. They’re no longer in my life as much, but I’d still rather I suffer than them because of my actions. I’ve confided in close friends, therapist and through journaling but it’s still torture.
How did you overcome this? I'm getting the urge to confess really messed up stuff I've done. I'm so scared right now. I would rather die than tell my family these inappropriate things.
My ocd tells me that if i don’t confess every single detail about something my partner is going to leave me or my family is not going to love me anymore. But by confessing constantely i am hurting them more
Are the stims urged by compulsions? Like does your brain tell you that you have to do it or else? Or is it something you do to soothe/ ground yourself (I stim for that reason) or to try and distract yourself from the thoughts? Because if it’s the latter I don’t see how that’s an issue unless it’s something harmful like hair pulling.
By far the hardest thing not to do. When you've made grave mistakes, feeling the need to admit everything down to every last detail. It's normal to be guilty about mistakes of course and it's good if you can see where you went wrong but with OCD no matter what you have set up in your head to deal with it it crushes it and you're left with chronic, violent guilt, pain etc. Constantly asking myself am I really bad, am I really good? If everyone knew life would be over, I should go to the police, I should post it on social media and so on. It truly is devastating. Bed bound every few months. It feels like you only have two awful ultimatum and nothing will ever be the same again no matter how much you fight, accept the mistakes, accept uncertainty... It's a life long sentence.
Have u recovered atleat tell us that uve recovered or not im suffering from it
@@desh_bhakt07 hey did you overcome it?
I'm so grateful this video exist, bc I was just feeling horrible with myself thinking "but it's not that I'm scared I may do something or think something or feel something, it's that I actually did" So I felt like I couldn't even put myself in the OCD category, I just felt I was a horrible person and really had to let people know what I did/thought/felt. Thank you so much 😭
I used to suffer greatly with this type of OCD. It was hell...im doing better now though.
How did you improve?
@@tango-bravo it took a long time but basically by letting the thought just go through my head and not giving into the compulsion to confess. It was hard and I take medication which helps.
@@celiamould Im going through it so bad right now, and now I fear that I will be exposed because I told someone what happened. Also being fearful of people appearing and knowing who I use to be
@@tastelesssoperatatouille4396 how r u doing now?
Hello going current for me how do I overcome it ?
It tells me that if I don't confess this to every tiny detail, if the details are even accurate, that when I die, I'm going to hell! That I'm a terrible person.
You won't. You're human. Everybody makes mistakes. Your okay. ❤
I stopped going to my close ones because I need to to confess all my damn past.
its hard
I completely understand. I was the same.
@@celiamould How did you overcome? Please help
@@mitalinath1068 a combination of a lot of praying, reading my bible, believing God can move mountains, meds and pushing through every time i needed to confess. I just didn't give into the compulsion to confess...it took a lot of work and pushing through but it can be done...
@@celiamould I am literally dying. I confess one thing and then 3/4 new things pops up in my head. If I find someone attractive..then also I must confess. And this cycle continues. I broke up with my partner fr this.
I really needed this thank you ❤️ Real event is so tough because the even is real and the ocd latches onto that and destroys my day to day
Same with me. The event is real but my OCD's interpretation is the problem
Reply if you want to chat
@@drummerdave3391 same
@@nothing-yg9pf Hope you're handling it well
I'm going through this and driving my boyfriend crazy
I’m 16 and I’ve been going through this for over a year, it started suddenly when I was 15 im so lost yet so thankful I’ve found the problem
Thank you for your video.
I did have time when my brain work well again, like i dont care about other's opinions and feeling grateful every minute. That was when i practiced mindfulness and reached certain level in which i could focus on presence. Things got bad when i had a lot of deadlines and spent no time to practice, i gradually fell back into the circle of anxiety and it just recalled all bad memories, and it very hard now to practice and gain back that time. Now my thoughts always about fear and guilt for past reason. And my toxic behavior cause new troubles. I have shared alot to my friends and I regret doing it. Sometimes I think they are crazy too. I trust nobody even I had some achivement in the study i at first really love it, my family is fine to me, no conflict, everything appear the best dream normal people wish. But I keep seeing that they are faking it because I remember all the terrible thing they did to me. But my case is like i am still dependent on my parents so much, maybe that is a big trigger, i believe. Hope when i could take care of myself by myself. I at least have control of my life..
esp with my real event ocd i have the same thign
Same
I’ve been really struggling with this, but the truth / confession would really hurt someone I care about and they don’t deserve that. As much as I want to own up to my actions, it would cause them a lot of pain. They’re no longer in my life as much, but I’d still rather I suffer than them because of my actions. I’ve confided in close friends, therapist and through journaling but it’s still torture.
Great video !!!
This was me a couple of months ago. It was Hell!!
How did you overcome this? I'm getting the urge to confess really messed up stuff I've done. I'm so scared right now. I would rather die than tell my family these inappropriate things.
@@Dummy_Thicc hey how are you now
BURN THE OCD
My ocd tells me that if i don’t confess every single detail about something my partner is going to leave me or my family is not going to love me anymore. But by confessing constantely i am hurting them more
Please does anyone know what to do when you are autistic and you developed a lot of stims to cope
Are the stims urged by compulsions? Like does your brain tell you that you have to do it or else?
Or is it something you do to soothe/ ground yourself (I stim for that reason) or to try and distract yourself from the thoughts?
Because if it’s the latter I don’t see how that’s an issue unless it’s something harmful like hair pulling.
Off topic but the guy Drs.pretty handsome!😊
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