Childhood Signs I Was Gay
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Today on the show, I’m telling you all about my first ever crush on a boy named Alex back when I was 11 years old and other childhood signs I was gay.
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i wish my gay moment of reckoning was this clear. i made two barbies kiss.
Me too ugh youth
SAME!!
Quite frankly.. who hasn't?
Bro-
SAMEEEEEE I-
Wait- I’m Asexual-
...... *Bunny Ex. Has stopped working*
LMAO
My lesbian story is absolutely weird.
At first, I said I would only get married after I had a career. I wasn't interested in romance and I didn't know that a girl could like a girl. Within a few years, that resolution evolved to me simply saying that I would never get married. I've always been a theatre kid, and I remember once when I was younger, my mom had said to me, "Maybe someday, you'll be in New York and you'll meet a guy who likes theatre and you might like each other and get married."
I imagined the following:
A New York City apartment
I get home
He gets home
I make dinner
We don't talk for the rest of the night and we sleep in separate beds
Very intimate relationship, I know.
I once lied about crushing on a boy on my bus in kindergarten because everyone else was saying they had crushes and I thought, "A crush... I'm supposed to have one of those, right?" And I basically spun a spinner in my head to select a random male to "crush" on.
Just recently, my sister and I were talking about the games we used to play with our stuffed animals when we were younger. We are both creative people and all our games were narrative. We had characters that we used consistently in an ongoing story. We realized that the gender distribution of my lead characters was seriously skewed toward females. Out of 8+ characters who got the spotlight at different points in the story, all of two were male (hell, one of them was the other's sidekick, so he probably doesn't even count as a real lead). This contrasted with my sister's lead characters, who had a roughly equal gender distribution. All my female characters were either a) in a rock band, b) completely boss fighters, c) entrepreneurs, or d) all of the above. Man, single-digit-child me was a crazy feminist. I really wish I could find some studies on stories children tell and see if they say anything about how the child turns out later in life.
I only ever shipped characters because they looked good together. I remember only one romantic relationship. It was this dog named Melody who had a boyfriend who was so irrelevant that I don't even remember his name. Their dynamic boiled down to this: Melody got off stage after a performance, her boyfriend said she did a good job... and that was it.
I found out what being gay was in third grade. There was a guy singing on TV (it was probably Mackelmore) and I was in a phase of constantly asking my mom what songs were about, so I asked her what the man on the TV was singing about.
"He's singing about gay people."
"What's gay?"
"Gay people are only interested in the same gender."
Being my little third-grade self, I did not understand that the phrase "interested in" had other implications. So, I immediately concluded, "Everyone in my grade is gay because the girls only talk to the girls and the boys only talk to the boys."
By fourth grade, I understood the implication and decided, "I don't like kissing people, but I'd rather kiss a girl than a boy." I told my neighbor, who was my age, and she said that she'd much rather kiss a boy. I could not comprehend why she would ever want to kiss a boy.
I didn't realize it at the time, but, in retrospect, there was this one girl who I definitely liked. Everyone thought she was a jerk, but she had never been mean to me. I was like, "But she's so sassy and confident! She's so cool!" She'd do random things and say weird stuff, but she didn't care at all what anybody thought about her. One time, I had a dream in which she put a plastic bag on her head and up and walked out of the school to go to the mall. I told her about the dream in ELA and felt so insanely happy with her reaction.
"That is actually something I'd do. Guys, our reading group is now called the Plastic Bags."
In fifth grade, I put it on my life's bucket list to kiss a girl before I die. I even developed a demi-crush on one of my friends. I remember when we went to see a show together and she was cold on the walk back to the car, so I gave her my jacket and put my arm around her. It still didn't occur to me that I might be a lesbian.
In sixth grade, I had my first all-in crush. It was a girl I had in ELA and math. She was very academically-oriented and she had a competitive streak that I found adorable. Her voice was cute. I ended up placed next to her at the end of the year. She was always done her work early, so she'd take out one of the Chromebooks and look up images of Siamese kittens. One day she showed me an image and said, "Look at them, they're so adorable!" Then, I thought, "Stop being adorable, it's hurting me."
One day, I realized I was looking forward to ELA more than I was looking forward to Drama Club.
"Wait, do I have a crush?"
I started looking up tons of quizzes and articles and then finally identified it. It was a crush.
"Wait, am I gay?... OH MY GOD, IT ALL MAKES SENSE NOW!"
I came out to my sister and her friend as gay ace. I sort of tried to come out to my mom, but she told me not to rush the labels, she said that she liked girls at my age too, and I asked her to pretend that I never said anything.
There were some passing attractions in the summer; I had tried desperately to impress another academically-oriented girl who did crosswords in her spare time. Then, my second crush was worse than the first one. God, she was something! I had, like... post-traumatic crush disorder from her at the beginning of the year. She literally determined that I was afraid of her (which I was, but not for the reasons she thought). If I go into that crush, this comment will be twice as long, so I'm just going to move on.
I came out to my friends from Drama Club in eighth grade. I used a Legally Blonde reference.
"If the question is gay or European, I am definitely not European."
They were supportive and I managed to come out to my mom (again) the next day. I gave her a massive rant about all the girls I had ever liked in an attempt to provide her with enough evidence that this was not a phase or just curiosity. She was okay, and we had this exact conversation:
"So, I can just be gay now?"
"If that's what you want."
I'm the type of person who needs numerical evidence of their feelings, so I took to quizzes again to fully affirm that I was not headed down the completely wrong path. I found scenario quizzes and discovered that I was not asexual.
So, I stayed mostly closeted throughout eighth grade, then one of my tablemates came out as bisexual at lunch and I gave him a pride pin and came out to everyone at the table. I made some friends in math that were all LGBTQ+. One day, I was in math with them and the fire alarm went off. We needed to evacuate the school. At first, everyone was just annoyed that they were losing class time that they could've used to do their homework, but when we started walking down to the high school, everyone knew something was wrong. I stuck with them and they all consoled me as I panicked when the social studies teacher announced that we would not be returning to the middle school. They sent us all home early.
Something just suddenly clicked in my mind that day. A switch just flipped and I realized, "Girl, nobody cares that much that you're gay. We've got bigger fish to fry."
I sat down on the bus and said, "Now would be a prime time to tell you all I'm gay."
After that, I decided I was publicly out and that I wouldn't hesitate to casually mention my gayness when the topic came up in conversation.
Turns out, a lot of confessions were made during the evacuation. One kid finally told the teachers that he was moving to Cuba (when he wasn't planning on telling them for a few more weeks), and quite a few kids exchanged "I love you"'s and confessed to crushes. So, I guess it's just something about a high-stress situation that just puts everything into perspective.
Anyway, this has been a needlessly detailed account of my lesbian life story. If you made it this far, thanks for reading.
ok but what happened that made you have to evacuate now I'm curious
@@riverlakeluv9722 The engine of one of the heaters exploded and filled the building with smoke.
I love this so much
My mom asked me why I was 10 minutes late to dinner, my closeted ass was like “Reading a book” LOL 😆 Thanks fir sharing your “”book””
@@13._.1 pffft-
I use that excuse for things all the time-
probably better than saying "spiraling down LGBTQ+ youtube for hours" :>
while I was still absolute confused questioning chaos a few months ago I would space off in the bathroom thinking about stuff and watching LGBTQ+ stuff on my phone... it didn't occur to me until like two months ago that my parents might think I was doing _other stuff_ in there- o o p s
basically I give the excuse that I'm "thinking" which tbh isn't all that false, it's just thinking about what the hell I am while floating around the abyss of questioning my identity
I am less in the abyss now but still questioning things so like
it still might happen sometimes
hopefully not as often lol
Your story made this 66 year old man cry. Bless you my friend.
same here and same age
Do you guys like the thumbnail of Alex and I? Who knew the boy on the left (me) had such a big crush on the boy on the right?
I love it
i also like it :)
I ship it!
@@lunarpurrductions so do i
Omg The Alex that your talking about is my cousin he has a british mother.
I realize that normal girls didn’t think it was weird to look at the Victoria Secret models, and when I made two dolls kiss, and also when I would always be like “Am I gay for looking at teen magazines?”
Why would you want to look at same sex models if you're straight? Dang, teen girls nowadays
@@rebeccacummings6697 huh
Teen girls and most women now days are no longer marriage material.
@@sabbs_ what?
@@rebeccacummings6697 why not?
this is so fricking cuteeeeeeeeee
Awe thank you. I figured it was time I tell the story of how I knew I was gay.
@@PoweredByRainbows I support you no matter what ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
i awwed so hard when he talked about the part where he wanted the other boy to kiss him at the museum. so adorable i love it!
@@PoweredByRainbows I am lesbian myself and I’m planning on coming out next week and your videos make me so happy! ✨🤙💅🏻🏳️🌈👑😽
@@Thee_Bo_goat I wish you well!
I'm cis/het and a mother to two young girls. As a young child, I always knew that I liked boys. I would chase them around the school yard trying to get a kiss. It makes sense to me that other people would also be aware of their attractions from a young age, regardless of who they are attracted to. Now one of my daughters is as boy crazy as I was, always talking about the prince she wants to marry or the school boy she has a crush on. My other daughter has stated she'd rather marry a girl from her school. My response to both of them is "Great, as long as they agree to marry you back." I'm thankful for the increase in LGBTQ+ representation in children's media so that they can both see themselves represented, no matter how they end up or who they love. I'm glad to see more identities and relationships being normalized because every consenting relationship is valid. TLDR a child with any kind of queer attraction is just a normal as my childhood straight attractions.
you are a great mother
Your a wonderful mother! I hope both your straight and gay daughters get very loving partners in the future!
- Love from a fellow omnisexual and genderfluid ✨✨
thats sweet. :)
I found out I was a lesbian when I started crushing on girls in shows and movies, i haven’t had an irl crush yet, due to me being an introvert I currently crush on yellow diamond, weird to say but yeah.
Same
Late to the party, but nah it’s completely fine. I also have those kind of crushes (except with guys as I’m gay) and I’m also an introvert.
Yellow Diamond from Steve Universe? Hell yeah she's awesome
not as bad as my asexual ass (i suppose asexual isn't the exact right wording but i'm not sure what is) i'm only into nonexistent aliens in movies and tv. i don't want anything with another human as the idea alone disgusts me. however if it's one of the many non existant crushes i have that i kind of tend to swap between when it comes to my number 1 spot (so for a long time it'll be character A then for a long ass time it'll be B then i'll discover a new one and add them to the list) it's extremely awkward to when asked oh do you like someone to just be unable to reply because to reply with the one i truly like in that moment would defenitely wierd people out and they would probably not understand at all.. probably also why i've started just coining myself as asexual it's easier to just say i'm not into anything than to explain this wich doesn't even have a name
Wuh? Yellow Diamond?
Aww. What a cute story. The coolest part it being able to still see him today. I wonder, was he accepting?
He was very accepting. I mean he understood it was more of a compliment to how good he looked and how nice he was so he didn't take it offensively. He just wasn't gay which sucked for me.
STRAIGHT ALLY 🤝
HI FRIENDSHIP 🍼🐷🇯🇵
I remember in 2nd grade seeing this new girl with blonde hair and super cute. I so wanted to kiss her. I knew at that point I was straight. She never would go out with me but that was OK, she turned me straight. My parents were worried that I might become a sex pervert or even a predator. They took me to church and had me talk to the pastor about not being a sex pervert. They never accepted that I was just being me. I hope my story helps others who are going through the same thing.
@@bryonpierce ¿?
Yes sir. You are the good people
You are a good person, I always thought I was a straight ally until my sexuality fell into question
Bro I was OBSESSED with rainbows
I was always obsessed with the most attractive girl
and I said "Oh I'm cLuB RaiNbOw"
I like that. Club Rainbow for life!
When I was around 7-11, I would say that I hated pink and purple because they were "girly."
Turns out, girls are pretty cool.
This is why schools need to teach lgbtq+ so that children can know what being lgbtq+ is and that it's not a bad thing
They dont meed to learn about being gay at young age. They dont even learn about being straight at young age
@@harleybowers2335 Actually yes they are. Children always see straight couples everywhere, and come to learn that that is accepted. But they’re never taught about LGBT relationships, so they come to believe that they are wrong.
@@novamarpo3 yh but parents dont like that because kids become gay as a joke or they think its cool . It happens alot these days
@RS - 05LE 838978 McClure PS im not saying everyone but i find it really annoying when ppl say there bi but dont even like the opposite gender
@@harleybowers2335 i understand maybe it should be taught alongside sex ed?
How are you so underrated???? This is so frickin CUTE!
Awe shucks. Thank you!
*COUGH* SEE YOUR FLAG! I’m a demiboy as well :>
HI FRIENDSHIPS 🍼🐷🇯🇵
@@PoweredByRainbows woah, this is so cool I’m able to talk to you like this!
How is it cute? Roles reversed I’m pretty sure y’all would get super mad at a straight man flirting and writing songs for a lesbian.
I’m so glad that you told this story. When I was 12 years old I started to realise I was attracted to both genders. A lot of people told me I was “too young” and I was “too young to be busy with relationships”
So thank you for making me feel a little more comfortable.
Me I love both boys and girls
ugh i hate it when people say "youre too young to know" it litterally makes no sense at all
@@luv4eva1111 ikr??
if kids are old enough for you to assume they have a crush on someone or for you to make jokes about it than why tf does it matter what their gender is
Oh gosh. Looking back I now realize I've had so many girl crushes without even knowing.
I KNOW!!!! I realized i liked my best friend from second grade, and there was this girl who i thought i was jealous of and just wanted to be her friend but just now i realized i liked her too
Dude that same thing happened to me
So I'm not a girl anymore 😶
My mom says I'm not trans (he/they) because I had "no early signs" even though I commonly liked to hang out with boys rather than girls, was very (in cis terms) "tomboy"-ish and wanted to be a boy but thought that "you get what you get and you don't throw a fit" applied to gender until recently. Am I a boy?
six months late but your parents dont decide your gender
9 months late but your parents dont decide your gender
1 year late but your parents don’t decide your gender
I relate to the "suppressing every emotion and getting mad at myself" part so much thank goodness I'm not alone
I used to kiss my friend (that was a girl) on the cheek after recess as a "joke"
I am a girl and have no clue how my family didn't realize xD
Random Robloxian lmaoooooooooo
THATS SO CUTE IDK WHYYYY I wish i had good friends....
I am now the 69th like, this is a high honor
I screamed at this bcs it literally happened to me too in 2nd grade elementary school. Except, it was right when my teacher was teaching. Me and her randomly just "let's kiss😏" and sneakily went under the desk to kiss lmaoooo
@@joontheestallion796 vjnkdivuhdifj omgg
It's crazy how forced heterosexuality is on us and how it messes with our heads. It was so ingrained in me that I mistook the feeling of friendship and the feeling of attraction as opposite. I didn't understand why I would rather hang out with a female friend verse my supposed male crush until I was older and then understood that was because the female friend WAS my crush and I was only deluding myself to believing the boy was my crush in order to fit in.
I have realized that I had a lot of gay moments until now. But it only hit me when I became as obsessed with a female singer, as my friends had become with the Jonas brothers when they were little.
At seventeen. I’m oblivious, I know.
Yeah, that's typically how it goes. We think it's hidden but the truth is, everyone around us knows. lol
Same
Powered By Rainbows Oh my gosh that is so true
Everyone I've came out to already suspected that I'm gay and each time I was somehow surprised
I used to think I was straight and be disappointed by it... thought about girls then reminded myself that I was straight... happened for years even after I knew that bi is a thing
why am I so dense
like
yeet the internalized homophobia already
YOU LIKE GIRLS DEAL WITH IT
but yeah this summer I finally yeeted myself into the "questioning my identity" hole because I found a bunch of LGBTQ+ and ally friends on a discord server and seeing them being so proud and open helped me confront myself and give myself that smack in the face and be like "you are not straight, so what do you do now?"
so I'm bi and grayromantic and I think demisexual but I've been wondering if I'm aegosexual recently
so yay it took nearly 14 years to realize I wasn't "straight but weird" and over 14 to kinda figure out what I am lol
I feel like I'm late-
like my friend figured out he was gay in third grade-
well being aspec makes it insanely hard to figure out your orientation
but anyway I'm rambling now so I'll just stop now lol
I’m in a OSDD system and let me just say:
We have a lot of lgbtq rep in our system!
Kai (me, host): Pansexual/Asexual and demiboy
Julia (female): raging lesbian
Sophie (female): bisexual but shy about it
Casper (male): gay but hides a lot of things
Im bi, and took the time to find out more about LGBTQ+ and im pretty young-
S M O R T
S C E E N C E
It takes a lot of guts on your part to talk of a very intimate part of your life. Boy love is a very beautiful thing. Most all boys at this age have a strong need for love and affection, however it usually has little to do with sexuality or gayness. Pre puberty boys are usually quite open to being hugged and even kissed to fulfill this natural need. Unfortunately, in some cultures, particularily modern american culture, authorities and powers over boys of this age do every thing humanely possible to prevent these boys from seeking out, recieving or giving of this affection. Strong propaganda from schools and churchs and even the threat of legal consequences are sadly quite successfull in supressing this natural need. Fortunately, I live in a non american culture which does not at all suppress boys natural desires. However, these desires of boys change dramatically at the age of puberty, where lines become more clearly drawn as to whether this affection converts into a gay desire or a non gay desire. Additionaly, I have noticed a current trend worldwide, where the natural desire of boys, at the age of puberty, tends to be more open and less discriminatory in sharing that desire without much regard to gender, which I think is also very beautifull and positive.
Thank you for sharing. Telling stories like this is so incredibly important. I’ve realized I’m bisexual pretty recently (within the last year or so) and there’s a few things that looking back I should’ve known lol. In particular I remember reading those quotes that say “If you don’t act like lesbians sometimes, are you really BFFs?” And being like “Oh. This must mean like when I fantasize about my best friend’s and my wedding.” 😂😂
This is the most wholesome story ever, I just came to terms with my bisexuality a few days ago and I thought I’m a late bloomer when it comes to sexuality because for a while I thought I was straight but now I’m starting to see it differently. I’m starting to like guys at my school a little more (this is summer vacation, one of my friends is trans and another says they identify as any pronouns and this opens another can of worms for me) I don’t really know what my sexuality is so for now I just identify as bisexual panromantic with a preference for girls. I don’t really like traditionally masculine men and I feel like that’s a stereotype for gay and bi men; that they have to like ultra masculine men and that they have to look and act feminine. I don’t look feminine at all, in fact I look and act straight, if you didn’t know me you’d assume I was just a normal teenager but I’m autistic and I think that plays into it.
I mean... when I was five I believed I would marry my best friend (another female). I wanted to kiss her, to be with her, all that jazz. It’s kinda of funny, we barley see each other now a days, but we can still pick up right where we left off. It’s not like I like her anymore, but she was my second crush. My first was a boy like 10 years older than me XD. I was not ashamed, I didn’t know to be, I was never taught to be. I didn’t realized that I actually liked all genders until I was a lot older. Heh...
When I was about 6 years old in kindergarten, I became best best friends with this one girl. One day at recess I kissed her on the cheek because I thought that was how you show that you care about someone, but everyone else was staring at us and calling me gay and gross. I’m still friends with her to this day, but I think that’s the earliest sign of my gayness lol.
(Also, she recently came out to me as bi so woohoo even though she’s in another state now)
Dang-
In my school I used to kiss on cheek everyone on cheeks and hug them that much that they wanted to run away from me lol. Some didn't some did. I feel ur pain. I'm lucky nobody knows what lbgtq is-
IM SO PROUD OF YOU
*your lgbtq+ friendly thoughts*
I did it
Wow
I am twenty three, and I had a a crush with someone older than me when I was 19. That man is still gorgeous, and very noble. I still keep that experience as one my best moments in life.
Very cute story, thanks for sharing.. you are such great story teller, I was picturing everything the whole time as you were telling the story.
Meanwhile: Aces not even noticing they're Ace until they're in their 20's or 30's because they just don't feel attraction XD
Also, wondering what was wrong with me, why I hadn't ever been in a relationship, for YEARS!! lol
and then there is me.. who just dubs myself asexual despite it not being exactly the case.. i just don't want any humans I WANT ALIENS !.. but alas none of my crushes actually exist so i might aswell call myself asexual cuz there is no better way of describing it.. i've got no name i've got no flag.. so i'll just take another because that's what fits the most
My brother is aroace and the only person ever that supports him and all that in the family is me
I'm a demisexual trans gay man.
@@masonhull3190 Yeah, it can be difficult having people say, "You just haven't met the right person! I just haven't met enough people!"
@@WybieLoonArts Yeah i absolutely despise that sentence, like why can't you just fuckin say "ok" or something else that would validate them instead of ridiculing them, aromantic, asexual and aroace peeps don't need to be with someone to prove to you that they're aromantic, asexual or both, they don't need to prove jack shit.
Just like gay men don't need to have boyfriends to prove that they're gay, just like lesbians don't need girlfriends to prove that they're lesbian.
Like I'm 100% support my brother, I fully know he is aroace unless he tells me otherwise at any point.
@@litchtheshinigami8936 oh. yeha. you should get more alphabet warriors to recognize or validate that as an orientation and not fetish
i don't know exactly when my moment was, but I remember watching the 2003 peter pan movie trailer on r e p e a t because I just thought that the girl who played wendy was ridiculously pretty, so maybe that. Also (looking back on it now) i definitely had a crush on one of my friends when i was in 5th grade
YES!! in the middle of coming out to my parents as bi, i realized i definitely had a crush on my best friend in 2nd grade. I told this to the other girl in our trio back then (who is a still one of my closest friends today and also bi) and she was like "omg yes you definitely did"
The day I knew I was bi: Being attracted to Luke from Jessie.
The day I knew I was a Demiboy: Looking up the term
Yo same
But I'm demisexual
I Love this channel! I love learning more about my community and knowing I’m not alone. Thanks to channels like yours I got the courage to tell my parents about my sexuality. I love your channel and I hope it grows more and more every year.
WHY DO WE ALWAYS FALL IN LOVE AT CHURCH CAMP?! Lmaooo, my first crush story sounds a lot like yours, I'm lucky I discovered my own identity so early in life.
I think if I hadn't realized I wasn't straight when I was 11 years old (still innocent and having never heard homophobic statements) I would've gone through so much more pain, instead I only had a brief denial phase in middle school that didn't last longer than a year
This is the cutest story 💕 as a kid I never knew what being gay was or that it was an option for girls to love girls and guys loving guys. I just didn't know it was a thing until maybe 5th grade. I knew what it was but I think I thought it was only for boys, until I started watching degrassi on a weird channel that also has a little show called south of nowhere. Oh my, did that show stir up some stuff for me lol. But before then I thought boys were kind of gross and I didn't have crushes unless I made myself have one. Usually it was a boy I had never spoken to or even really knew more than his name, but I thought that's what I was supposed to do at that age. Its very cool of you to share this with everyone lol.
My crushes name is zavion he is really cute, but I admired his creativity and how focused he was, for the coronavirus I can't see him anymore 😔😭😭 but I was on a zoom meeting today and one of my friends named Criyah was in the tile, then I saw zavion in the background and I was literally about to cry (in joy), just seeing these video's just make me so ◡̈⋆ⒽⒶⓅⓅⓎ😊
Matt you really express yourself so well and this is a very very interesting video. I had feelings for a young boy in school but didn’t understand what those feelings really were. Please keep on making these videos; I’m really happy that I found your RUclips channel!
bruh this seems like some story straight out of wattpad
my gay moment was when I planned my wedding with by best friend in kindergarden
I loved this story! I can look back and see signs I was gay, and understand why I was so disinterested in girls and dating. I figured I just wasn't going to have a relationship, and stay single forever.
It took me 23 years, but I finally realized I like guys. I've never really looked at anyone and gotten a crush before, so maybe that's why it took me so long. That, and a lack of education beyond relationships being a man and a woman.
I've been out of the closet for 5 months, and dating my boyfriend for 4. I'm so much happier now, and it's felt so natural the whole way. I didn't even know I was repressing things before.
I just found the channel, and thank you. I've learned stuff, and you helped give me the courage to start wearing my pride wristband to college.
Keep it up!
Adorable. Good for u.
Thank you for sharing this beautiful story♥️
Awwwww you're so cuuuute❤️ I also was a boy scout AND had a crush on my best friend and now we're dating
Awe! How cute! 🏳️🌈
Powered By Rainbows you really helped me with your videos to come out to my best friend and I was shocked he felt the same way!
Wow. We are from neighboring counties in PA. Crazy. Hello fellow Pennsylvanian! Ah Pennsylvania, the state where it's always raining and the entire state is under construction lol
Ahh cool! Well hopefully one day we can meet up at like a pride event or something since we live so close. That's so cool though! And since you're so close, if you're above 18 and want to help LGBTQ causes here locally, email me at mhaslam@paequality.com because the other organization I work for PA Equality Project, we could always use more help.
Adorable! I hope some day I can share my coming out story on one of my streams / videos!
Thank you! It is good to hear such stories.
I cried and smiled at the same time😊😊😊 cute story.
Childhood signs I was gender fluid:
My earliest childhood memory that wasn’t me throwing up was me in a dress
My favorite board game when I was like 3 was called “Pretty Pretty Princess”
When I was 4, my babysitter wanted me to play with action figures. I just never played with them.
There’s others from later but because I got too scared to do super feminine stuff, there’s not really much
thank you so much for sharing your story!
This is so cool i still have know idea my awakening I just gave up. Btw love this vid ❤️
Huuum,I think this helped me a ton.
I've been questioning my sexuality for many, many years. Perhaps 7 years, ever since I was at my 2nd year of College. The reason why it's so hard for me is because since I had a lonely teens and I still haven't had any kind of relationship, I did question myself many times I felt interested in someone. "Do I like boys just because I want too, considering society builds us like that?"; "Do I have a crush on this girl or am I just grateful that she's helping me?"; "Do I like this girl or is it just because I've been lonely for so long, that my brain answers to any kind of attention?"
With so many questions, I hate to listen to people saying that LGBTQ know since ever who they like. Like... Is it that simple? Cause I've questioned myself this for years.
Watching this video made me realize that apparently it is indeed quite obvious. So I guess it wasn't my brain playing tricks on me. Thinking about my childhood... I think I really do like both. I still don't know if bi, or pan, or somewhere in the polissexual umbrella
My lesbian story is pretty basic and has probably happened to dozens of others, but I will still share.
I remember in kindergarten I got really close to my friend. I think her name was Adeline or something. At the time I didn't know that I was lesbian, I didn't even know what being gay was. I had a huge crush on her. I would always think "boys are so lucky, they get to date girls". I had a few other female friends, but they were just friends. Unfortunately, she moved away.
And then there was another girl who I had a crush on (without knowing it). It was through senior kindergarten to 1st grade. I would always hang out with her, I remember thinking that she was so pretty and cute. Me and other girls would talk about the boys in our class and all of our crushes. I felt left out since I didn't really have a crush. I would always force myself to like one of the popular boys in our class. Kids who were good at sports and tag. Stuff like that. As I got older and went into the higher elementary school grades (4th-6th). I would always find myself forcing "crushes" on boys in my class. Mainly for validation from other classmates and also so that I could relate to the other girls in my class.
In mid 6th grade, I had heard of lgbtq+ terms and whatnot. I still thought that I was straight. Probably due to comphet and heteronormativity. And then... here comes anime.
Ah yes, literally how I discovered that I was queer.
I first started watching Attack on titan. I had a huge comphet crush on Levi Ackerman, and a crush on Mikasa and Ymir.
So I thought "Maybe i'm bisexual". But the thing is, whenever I developed a crush on an anime guy, I would obsess over them for a few weeks and then *BAM* . Every speck of attraction I felt for that man left. I kept going through that over and over again for multiple anime guys. I then came across the term "abrosexual" and It felt so familiar.
So I basically thought that I was abrosexual. But here's the thing. I was always attracted to women, but I was rarely ever attracted to men. And after my attraction for men suddenly "returned" (when I found a new anime guy I liked) I wouldn't be attracted to the previous man that I had a huge crush on.
That's basically what happened through ages 12 to late 13. (I am currently 14 rn though.)
But then suddenly, I found myself on lesbian tik tok. (I was 14 at the time. right after my b-day)
I heard of the terms "heteronormativity" and "compulsive heterosexuality".
O realized that I wasn't abrosexual, I wasn't bisexual,
I was just a lesbian experiencing extreme comphet (compulsive heterosexuality)
Unfortunately, i'm still constantly hating myself because I just wish that I was straight. Not only that, but i'm confused about my gender. I currently identify as a demigirl, but idk. I feel like the internet is the only place where I can just be myself. It's comforting knowing that there are so many others out there who are like me. I go by he/they pronouns, but no one in my family really respects them. Or even anyone I know irl. I just feel like my family sees me as some sort of joke or burden.
Amen to you. Takes a lot to share such a story on an open platform like this.
One of the most wholesome videos that made me smile and think about my journey of this tragic two years.
I hate having crushes on my straight friends. Like just be gay, bi, pan, etc.
They are normal.
@@SysKeyJS You're like 10, go play with toys.
You can't just tell someone to change their whole sexuality-
@@Kainouaintdead sorry I was making a joke. I wasn’t being literal 🤣
@@danorott 13 actually
But I still have to let go of this homophobic thing...
I just made the switch from being a republican to a communist in the Untied States cpusa.org/
A conversation I had with myself the other day:
"Maybe I haven't always been bi.."
~"aight, then what was your favorite Star Wars movie growing up?"
"Episode VI Return of the Jedi"
~"why?"
(flashbacks to it being my favorite because of the scantily clad ladies and how pretty Leah was at the end of the movie during the ewok party)
"-oh my god I've always been bi"
It was a slow realization and an even slower acceptance. However, after finally accepting myself, _everything_ makes sense.
Relatable😭
I used to have a crush on a disney princess i thought i was so ,"weird"
Its so cute! I'm fighting for lgbtq rights although im straight but everyone should be treated equally no matter who u love!
I'm sure the same can be said for many of us LGBT+ members but seeing your video of your coming out story and signs of your sexuality really hit home. It's very tough to share this very vulnerable part about yourself, especially to such a mass of people. I love that this channel exists and you provide the type of education that you do as well as often just the empowering words that someone may need. I've become pretty comfortable with myself for the most part over the past couple years but every so often you just might need those validating words from a stranger. Thank you for creating such an amazing channel and spreading positivity. Keep being you
Thank you so much! I'm thrilled we can be here for you and for the community.
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The idea of shutting down all emotional responses is so true - fear of self - try that for formative trauma .
Thank You 🙏 so much for sharing this story. Jeez I can sooo relate to it.
That first story is me. Except we were girls at a science museum.
Ok, but what is that 23% for
@@cristian-bull 23 is a cool number and ive never seen someone on youtube with a percentage name
when i was in 5th or 6th grade one of my friends had a sleep over and i had a big crush on on of my other friends i felt really scared that she might find out but in the end she didnt. i remember when we set up our sleeping bags i just really wanted to be close to her. i remember that she was always out there and energetic. i remember when we where in gym we did a gymnastics thing and just goofing around and she picked me up bridle style and i was so red.
feels good to finally confess:)
I'm glad I stumbled upon this channel since it helps me a lot with my anxiety and his voice is very soothing to listen to at night. Thanks for your content.
Thanks for sharing your story, yo are amazing
That story is so wholesome.
How I figured out I wasn’t straight?
So where I live it’s kinda taboo to talk about sexuality and dating and such, so, I never thought about it at all. Also, the only reason why I know that lgbtq+ is a thing is because of the internet. When I was about fifteen, I got way too obsessed with a female fictional character. It took me a while to realize it was a crush. Probably my first real one. Despite not thinking about romance beforehand, not being straight never occurred to me. I never doubted it.
After some contemplation and watching a ton of lgbtq videos on RUclips, I asked myself if I would rather kiss I boy or a girl? Would I rather marry a man or a woman? And the answer was girl or nonbinary person for both. I’m still definitely romantically attracted to boys. Not sure about sexually though, but even if I was sexually attracted to them, it is less than the other genders.
Not sure what the label would be. Even though I know that I don’t have to label myself, I feel that labels are important to me. Right now, I identify as bisexual, but I think saying that I’m panromantic bisexual is more accurate, though that’s a little complicated.
Now I’m also questioning my gender identity. I think I’m nonbinary, but not sure. I want to experiment with gender expression and pronouns and such, but I couldn’t do that where I live, which sucks, but I’m hoping to leave the country for college in a year or so, so I hope that works out.
I recently discovered this channel and I’m loving it. Thank you for the great content
Happy Birthday! Perfect timing for watching the video lol
This was soo cute! I'm glad my crush also turned out to have a crush on me so now we are dating and I love it
Awwwww the alex crush story was so cute
Hah- I’m just pansexual.
Same
Brilliantly told. Was hoping on Alex being gay too in the end!!
Childhood signs i was gay: i said «it must be so much easier to be a guy when it comes to dating! I would much rather be with a girl than a guy.»
Childhood's sign, I was aro Ace. I thought kissing was gross.
This thing should be on My story animated😂😂😭💕.
My story animated doesn't take story commissions. Plus if they did, they would twist his words and do something crazy.
Knowing I was non binary : Around Middle School I always knew I was bi sexual when I had my first boyfriend since I would always think about girls sometimes around I would see them however I always knew that I would date a girl one day however I didn’t really see myself as a girl in the relationship or a boy or at all around my friends or family but I brushed it off 3 years later I’m in high school in the 11th grade since the same however I felt very different yet sad that I wasn’t so girly and more tomboyish but I knew that I was confused about my gender and I heard nothing but “oh you’re confused, don’t worry about it you’re just overthinking it you’re still a girl” I would bring my diary to school and write in the bathroom about the whole crazy experience however I felt free writing and writing about how hard it was to be myself and I would even write songs on being non binary and play it on the ukulele and even go to GSA after school and lie about to my mom and sister however one morning my mom saw what I wrote and I just cried and throw away my whole diary.. and later that day I was doing my homework on my laptop and I looked up “not feeling like a girl or a guy” and I saw “non binary” and I was so happy to the point I would cry besides wanting to be different in the relationship I would have with a girl one day but knowing that I would be happy to be myself I’m now 17 about to graduate high school in one more year I know I can be happy and dress the way I want to and be super happy with myself and well allow me to introduce myself I’m Austin and I’m non binary and bisexual
Please do the love of god add punctuation to this... I can't read this without dying inside.
I was 7 when I had a crush on a boy knowing I was gay.
My dad would ask frequently Was I Gay. I ignored it and said no, LIE.
3 years later I still like him along with a girl. I looked up what it ment to like boys and girls meaning I was bisexual.
I came out of the closet to my mom she was surprised I went to bed crying.
3 months later I had my mom tell my dad. Then the next day my Dad called me downstairs to ask do you have anything to say. I Lied saying no then he said get it off your chest. I came out of the closet and we had a long conversation. I am proud to be bi and will never be ashamed. Thanks signing out.
Very wholesome content. I love it
The first queer thing I remember of myself: Barbie the Diamond Castle, I wanted to live with my best gal pal in a cottage away from other people.
i can so relate to this cause the same happened to me when i was 10 just the difference between 10 year old u and 10 year old me was that I knew it's called being gay so no confusion, also i had my kiss with my girl "Alex" and i was scared shit less because it was illegal in my country back then and i had a hard time thinking that i might be taken to jail
im 16 and out to my friends only (not to family still)
This is such a cute story! I’m so confused about myself now
This is so incredibly wholesome.
My moment was quite clear. I made two barbies do the “unspeakable” multiple times
i had suspicions that i was gay for a while, but i was playing skyrim one day and thought "fuck it, i'm gonna try marrying a man to see if i like it." and i did, and now i am the big gay
That's almost my same story except it was Fable 3 lol
This is a beautiful story. I too was a gay closeted eagle scout.
Thank you so much for your inspiration
I love this!
I think a big sign is having crushes on others of the same gender
That's me! When I was very young age, i have crush on one girl in my classroom. She was my first love.
I only realized I wasn’t straight about 3 years ago but it answers lots of “weird” things in my life. I’m pretty sure this was my first crush. My siblings and I used to go to a charter school and I vividly remember that anytime my older brothers class and mine did a combined lesson I’d ALWAYS want to be paired up with this one girl from my brothers class. When I was asked why I wanted to be her partner in every lesson I told my mom “because she’s pretty” and when we moved I didn’t cry over losing my friends I cried over losing her. Gah I miss her. 😔
Childhood Sign I was Gay...
My niece and I would be non stop listening to Brittany Spears Hit Me Baby One More Time with the music video on the CD. We would dance to it, while dressed in my mom's silk nightgowns and in her heals. I also was always sure to make her my background dancer. I was 7 or 8 at the time lol
Hey umm I just wanted to say thank you for making this video I’m not out of the closet yet so only a couple really close friends of mine know that I am a lesbian and I’ll probably be coming out of the closet in fourth grade thank you again love your videos.
I'm only 10 and I figured I'm pan i love this kind of stories of coming out and I love talking about how hard it feels and I just want to should HI IM PAN LOVE FOR ME OKAY you're the best matt
I support you!!! I’m only a few years older than you and I’m trans and also pan! Much love and support to you. 😁💖
You helped me so much 💕💕💕
Great video.
First sign of being gay: I told my then best friend now bf that if the end of the world happens we would have to repopulate the earth together. 😅 oh man.
omg my first crush was a scout with me too! but being honest, there are a lot of lgbt people at scouts HAHAH i miss being together with my trope, it sucks being a scout in covid times
Today, at least the brazilian scouts union is fantastic with lgbt people, they even sold pride scout itens this june
The first sign that proved I was gay was the fact that I always said i would get a loving girlfriend and could never imagine myself with a man so my mom knew I was gay at age 3 💀
Awesome story...and rings true!
LMAO I love how he had to say “if you’re a member if my family pls don’t watch this video”
I think I died a little 😆 it’s so true