When he asks “and did they leave?” And she answers “they did.” The emotion in voice knowing that they left and didn’t come back alive. What a horrible, senseless tragedy.
She couldn't have known tho. She gave them permission to leave before the shooting ever started, but I agree, she must feel awful, even tho there is no way she could have ever known what was about to happen.
This was before the shooting and not after. The guilt must be there regardless, but it would be a different story if she allowed them to leave after the shooting began.
And some people actually think arming teachers is the answer?!? They're EDUCATORS! Not soldiers! The answer is not to arm Teachers - the answer is to disarm citizens who have no need for such weaponry; The answer is NOT to turn every facet of our society into a war zone - the answer is to make our schools, theaters, shopping plazas, grocery stores, churches(!) safer.
look into the history of school shootings in America: because sadly school shootings are not a new thing, there has been many long before columbine and sandy hook look it up. k12academics has a complete list and information on all school shootings from the 1800s throughout until 2000s. school shootings have happened throughout the 19th and 20th century. guns do not need to be banned, gun safety needs to be more widespread taught, and mental health screenings need to be a requirement before getting a gun, parents need to use judgement, based on their son or daughters mental stability, maturity and grasp on safety and general reality before deciding to allow them access to guns. schools should also have armed guards; same as any other government building; people shoot up schools because the people in schools are pretty much guaranteed to be unarmed and unable to fight back. if there are armed guards schools would less likely be targeted, notice not too many people try and shoot up courthouses, or social security offices because there are trained armed guards in them.
Maybe, but actually banning these weapons means changing the Constitution, which is a tedious process that rarely succeeds and takes decades. In the meantime, I am all for arming teachers.
Exactly, you are a very sick person if you think more guns is the solution. It’s just a way to keep making gun manufacturing companies and the NRA rich.
@@denisebranch4719 It used to be that way, but a lot of times it doesn't really make sense... Nowadays most schools have updated their system to where the we practice to assess where the shooter is and make the decision whether or to get the hell out or barricade and stay.
I hope you're being sarcastic because kids were getting shot all around her and she's letting people go on a pass during a supposed "drill". She's the type of person I would never want my kids to EVERRRRRR be their last hope during a situation like this. I can see why she's blond because she's absolutely clueless.
@@sweezy7455 the kids went outside before everything started. You clearly are the last person I want around me to understand something for me when I don't have my hearing aids!!!! Gosh, is not that hard to understand how and why every kid was in each place. She was thinking it was a drill and yet she acted more quickly than she can remember and all her students inside the classroom were BEHIND her! That's a lot!!!! Except for the kid that didn't want to leave her side and I'm really sure that she was probably still protecting that kid with her body since the glass was on her feet!.
Very disturbing! And,he has his head down the entire time of every part of this trial when the teachers&students are on stand! And the video where he plugged his ears to avoid listening to the audio of the shooting was pathetic! Total coward!!🤬
Only time I’ve seen him look up is when one of the young men showed his back where he was shot. They should cuff his hands and his dumb lawyers should tell him to sit up. So pathetic.
Something about Gina makes me connect to her. I was in marching band but she was colorguard but something about her draws me to her. I feel so bad for what happened to everyone but some reason her life I connect to. I know band is part of it but I don’t know what else.
You can tell she’s an amazing teacher, what kids want to help a teacher grade papers during their free period? Those are the teachers kids love, no doubt about it.
She's taken on some of the blame but NONE OF IT BELONGS TO HER. Ma'am you're a soft, beautiful spirit. The only person to blame is the psychopath sitting with his head down the whole time.
This teacher is so sweet. It sounds like she was definitely in shock during the shooting. I hope her PTSD isn't too severe and she can heal from this immense grief. Beautiful soul
she seems like such a sweet soul. i feel terrible for every single person who has ever had to experience a situation like this. rest in peace to the victims of this tragedy and all the others
This kid deserves no mercy!!!!! And whomever sells guns and large amounts of ammo to these kids when they know damn well it’s not for hunting animals should also be held accountable!!!! This is just ridiculous!! Pure evil!!!!!
That’s what I say..who the hell would sell assault rifles, 30 round magazines and enough ammo to kill 400 people to an 18 year old? A gun store owner...🤬🤬
no he wasn't he was 18 5years ago hes 23 now so he was fully able to buy a gun at the time that's why i say give him life in a padded cell in solitary confinement make him truly be friends with his "demon"
@@Sam-oo1uoBut they didn't have the time to return once it did begin. If she had never let them leave, they would've survived with her. That's why she feels guilty, though she could've never have predicted it.
@@nevaskomaeda3051 I feel so sorry for her. She could never predict what happened. It's time for gun owners to accept responsibility for their guns. They should be charged.
I feel bad for her because she probably thinks about how if she told them no to leaving that maybe they’d still be alive. I bet that thought just eats her away. I hope she finds peace
And it’s so sad because she thinks it’s her fault but Gina Ashley Luke and Martin were out there at the wrong time even tho Ashley was only injured by a bullet as she crossed the hallway from the bathroom as she had been shot once
I can only imagine the years of therapy this lady will need for all the survival's guilt she had to deal with. So so unfair, she seems like a kind person and a dedicated teacher. Sweet lady, if you are reading this, this is not your fault, God bless you !
Thank you for that important and compelling testimony, Ms. Matlock. I hope you are mentally and spiritually on the mend today after that awful, traumatic experience. God bless. ⚖️
Imagine the actual terror that must have went through her when she realized it wasn't a drill, I get the feeling she was a really calming influence and god only knows what would have happened to the student who couldn't leave her side if she had not have been there, god bless you, your grace composure truly humbles me!
almost 6 years since this terrible massacre. valentine's day has never been the same. bless this teacher and all that she does, what she has done for over 10 years. she seems like the type of teacher to truly care about a student and their future
As much as I'd be afraid to send my kid to school if I were an American, I have to say that these teachers-- every single one of them --I would be absolutely confident that they would take care of my kids. They should never have to go through these types of situations ever, but they sure as heck handled it the best they could!
The likelihood of something like this happening to you in the USA is almost minuscule believe it or not. here in the us we have an extremely hyper partisan and hyperbolic corporate media who make bank off of these kinds of incidents. Which fuels deranged men to do more stuff like this. Wash rinse repeat.
She will never ever be the same again. The guilt she will feel will tear her apart. I can't imagine but I've had a similar situation with my neices murder that did just that to me & still does 5 days later. I'm so so so sorry. You deserved so much more than this. Those babies deserved more than this. 💔
so much survivors guilt especially being as just two of the victims who passed are the same boys who she let leave her classroom. i feel terrible for her, a lot of these teachers must blame themselves sometimes & its unfair. it’s nobody’s fault but nicolas cruz’s. everybody was doing everything right that school day except for him.
Looking at each and every parent's face, I can't begin to imagine the pain they're suffering. Some of them look completely gone, like all the life has been sucked out of them. Losing a child to cancer or an accident is hard enough, but to lose them from someone purposely killing them is inconceivable. I am so sorry, I wish I could bring them back or do anything to lessen your pain. Justice will be served, I don't care how bad of a childhood you had, it doesn't justify you killing innocent people, nothing justifies that!! RIP to those sweet, innocent babies and my condolences to all the teachers as well ❤️❤️❤️
To me it looks like he is bored and drawing... Sick monster either way that needs to be put down sooner than later... Too bad our legal system demands this long drawn out process when the death penalty is an option.
I wonder if he's on medication that has helped him and maybe now his thinking is logical. Maybe he does have remorse. He will have to answer and pay for his crimes no matter what he feels now.
It's sad how she kept denying what her own senses were telling her and she caught on way too late. But no one can prepare you for something like this and schools dont have a way to alert others of whether its a drill or a real emergency
Really sucks Americans give the killers the fame they want. We do the opposite here in Canada and try to not even name them when we can, I believe this type of coverage only creates more goals and aspirations of these cowards
Agree 💯 they do that for everything. There is a police pursuit on the news here in LA at least once a week like it’s a TV show. People want 15 min of fame.
You couldn't be more wrong about that. We do not give these killers Fame. We put them on trial, usually televised, when found guilty we lock them up and throw away the key. Sometimes we even execute them. We don't bury our heads in the sand and ignore these criminals we face them head on and give them the punishment that they deserve. There are mass shootings all over the world. How each country deals with it is different. We give them a fair trial it is decided by their peers if they are found guilty we punish them appropriately.
I think if we publicly executed people like this it would send an exact message that Americans want sent but apparently we have to follow the constitution even though our own government doesn’t.
But also Canada are looked on by the rest of the world as a joke. They let people off with everything way too easily. Canada not “naming” school shooters etc so as not to give them “fame” is just another excuse for Canada being a push over nation. The world has no respect for Canadian law. That’s very well known. People may argue Americans maybe too much the other way, and are too harsh with consequences…but I say it’s better than being a joke of a nation. And no I am not American (nor Canadian) I am British (Scottish to be exact) .
Why make this teacher identify dead students when the students have already been identified by the police and everybody else don't you think that she's been through enough that is not even necessary for their case this is unacceptable I feel so sorry for this teacher and all the students of what they went through
They are going for the death penalty. He has already plead guilty to all of it. But the State is attempting to get the jury to send Cruz to his own demise.
@@lanfaye5824 Exactly.. one side makes the person look like a monster and the other defends by making them a victim of circumstances... and then they see who persuaded the jury better
I can attest to how her brain was trying to process this while it was happening. I was a bank teller and held up. I thought it was a training drill. I was fairly new to the job and we covered things in our training course. It turned out to be very real and I’m disabled from it.
This sentencing phase is going to take 4 months. I can't imagine how expensive and traumatizing this is. Especially the students and teachers who now have different jobs, different schools, are trying to move on with their new normal.. Will now be known all over again as the victims of the school shooting. At first I had to go look and see why these videos were being posted now, when he pled guilty almost a year ago. I wish they could do a damn poll if he should get death or not. Or school shooters should AUTOMATICALLY be sentenced to death to persuade the next monster from getting any ideas.
Imagine raising a child, all the love you raise them with, all the time, energy and money you invest in them all gone, because some little idiot wanted some attention. I hope the parents can get over the injustice and anger as well as the immense loss.
@@mariademers3111 i would probably get over the wanting to kill him stage, and possibly get over the fact it just isnt fair regardless of the legal outcome, but obviously you never forget a child you lost. I'm really talking about the raw pain in that post.
Back in the day there use to be speakers in the classrooms that teachers could talk back and forth with the teachers. Now they have student runners delivering messages. They should go back to the speakers..
They very much still have the intercoms in classrooms. They also have email and message chats. They have always had "student runners" for various things. Its nothing new and certainly isnt a factor in school shootings. Ya know what we did have when you were in school that we dont now. Normalcy of child abuse, schools turning a blind eye and looking the other way. Stop it. 😕
Julletta is and was so connected with each of her students, she should be a positive inspiration to those students presently in University perusing teaching degree’s. Everyone was going about their school activities no one person could have seen or predicted anything that day or any other day and therefore no one person especially Julletta should place any burden upon themselves.
"i thought it was a school shooter drill" .... From kindergarten to my college days i experienced drills, each year we do fire drills... But a drill when there's school shooter? 😳 The US must do something with this school shooting problem.
It’s insane! I graduated in 2011 & never did an active shooter drill! Sadly, when my son started school in 2017, he came home telling me that they had practiced what to do in case a bad guy got into school. There was also a letter sent home explaining the drill & why they have one. I couldn’t believe it.
@@TheKnallkorper crazy! We only ever had tornado drills & fire drills. We are in a small town though so maybe that’s why I was shocked when they started doing them here in 2016.
May God comfort this caring teacher and all the other teachers there, as well as, all the innocent young adult students who had to endure this horror! Lord, please help them lean on you! It is a nightmare all teachers worry about in this evil world we are in! I practice these lockdown drills yearly with a classroom full of students, also, and it gets more worrisome each and every drill we have to endure! We are now taught to flee if possible, then hidewuietlyAvoid, then defend, fight like your life depends on it!
God im cryn now .i can't imagine as a parent or teacher . She seems like a loving sweet gental kind teacher who loved each and every single one of those kids rest in peace and all of my love to the victims and the victims freinds and families and the teachers we lost as well as the ones who taught such smart amd incredible kids
Just her dialog of thoughts....Is it a drill, Is it not a real drill? Those words are chilling....The memory will always remain in her thoughts! RIP to the ones that lost their lives from this horrible day.
This woman just seems like a calming soul. I bet she definitely was able go calm the students the best way she knew how. Her voice is calming. Teachers definitely deserve way more protection and also the students. This should never happen in any school in this country. My heart goes out to everyone that went through this and the families of the injured and deceased.
@@Jvlerah I don't know that she could support any more than she did. She wasn't even sure it was a real event or a trial. American teachers are not paid enough. My sister is s teacher and earns twice as much as American Teachers. I know that we all agreed there would be no more trips to the U.S. It's too dangerous.
This is so heartbreaking 💔 Prayers for all the victims' families and the teachers, staff and other students who have to relive this horrible tragedy everyday for the rest of their lives
I can't even imagine the horror having to see those gruesome photographs. I would have nightmares for life. Prayers for all these people. In this case, I don't think sorry quite cuts it. This kid took and ruined innocent lives in a very violent way.
@@DietMountainDew_ yeah i think so. during the trials i think they would put the pictures and videos on the screen but the public aren’t allowed to see. i could be wrong tho.
@@patiencesommer4728I hope your wrong, it's cruel and what's the point if she can't recognise the corpses? What does it prove? They could be disfigured...
What a beautiful spirit this woman has. So kind and nurturing. I pray for her and all the victim's of this devastating event. May God touch their hearts and steal their pain somehow, someway. 🙏 ❤️ 🙏
That poor teacher. She couldn’t have known. I understand that she will always feel guilty but I hope that she understands that there was nothing she could have done. She cares about those kids and it shows. The only one guilty here is Cruz.
@ Bri Foust. Yea he is guilty. I think everyone agrees. I would not blame a teacher but to think that it was a drill when shootings happen in America almost on a daily basis is a bit out of touch with reality.
@@rk-lj3sm Sounds like the school was scheduled to have a drill that month. Usually teachers are aware, but schools will sometimes try to do "surprise drills". The school was due for a drill which is why she thought that.
It seems so cruel to make the witnesses relive the horror of that day when he confessed and the world knows he did it. And he sits there doodling while the teacher is retelling events as they unfolded and identifying her students who were killed by that monster. If there ever was a death penalty case, this is it. Hope any appeals are shut down quickly and he doesn't get to live for years in prison.
unfortunately, courts can't decide based on a confession. there are still chances the confession could have been forced or falsified, so they need to get every witness testimony and every piece of evidence because cases are so trivial. it could land an innocent person in jail and the real perpetrator runs free. there's already many innocent people in jail because of this mindset
@@crateredcallisto2854It's a good thing to take the time to have a fair trial. And I heard about victims feeling better after a trial that it helped them, sadly other people will feel victimised again by the trial.
Bless her heart 💜 she loves her students and you can tell no family should ever have to Go through this and that judge should make that boy look up and get his hands off the table and fingers out of his ears 👂
i dont understand how human beings can cause such pain on others. not even animals would hurt their kind like this. rip to all those who lost their lives, they were robbed.
You can tell the raw emotions coming back on this teacher's face when she had to identify her students. She was doing so good testifying and I don't know how the parents are holding up in these moments. Seeing these lifeless bodies over and over again...😢😞
I’m a teacher, Luke and Martin, RIP. This woman will not let anyone out of her classroom for the rest of her natural life. I’m praying for her peace forever!
I feel terrible for everyone that has to testify and bring them back to that horrible day....let him burn in hell for all of this pain he put upon these individuals and family...
I'm sickened by the fact that the indoor campus monitor ran up the stairs to safety without warning the four children in the hall to get to their classes! Had he yelled out "Hurry get to class" - or something to that affect - the children most likely would've been saved. Instead, he thought of himself first! The coward ran up to the second floor and hid in a closet! He knew in advance when he was walking towards the east entrance directly behind the three students who entered before him. He passed Gina in the hallway? Said nothing?! There was about 15 seconds in time -maybe 20 seconds lost to the victims. They may have stood a chance! Not one adult has been held accountable which is absolutely pathetic and such a travesty! When will our children be put first in this country? When will their lives and safety matter? What does it take? This was a mass massacre! It takes the heartache and grief of these beautiful parents - Max Schacter - The Montaltos.. The Hoyers - all of them ...to protect our children. What 's going on here? Everyone failed these children! It's an outrage!
God Help us. This is too much to handle. I can't imagine the sleepless nights and tears that never end in broken souls. God bless her and all that survived the horrors.
The FBI had Nikolas Cruz tips from concerned callers and they did nothing!!! The victims of this tragedy deserve every bit of the pay out they got. But, I know it'll never take the place of their loved ones or their piece of mind.
Prayers for this teacher; the strength of everyone who testified in fact. I can't imagine having to keep any semblence of composure recounting this horrific event.
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When he asks “and did they leave?” And she answers “they did.” The emotion in voice knowing that they left and didn’t come back alive. What a horrible, senseless tragedy.
Wait was the larm going off when she let them leave for the media center? Or it was prior to all this happening?
The alarm didn't go off until well into the tragedy.... they were the first ones shot... she let them leave when all was well.
@@BIGBOYMATD omg that's awful!! 💔
She shouldn't have let them out the door if there was shooting. Wtf
@@louiseskip3488 it was before she knew there was a shooter
The guilt feeling must be immense... knowing that she gave them permission to leave. I pray that she will find peace.
She couldn't have known tho. She gave them permission to leave before the shooting ever started, but I agree, she must feel awful, even tho there is no way she could have ever known what was about to happen.
This was before the shooting and not after. The guilt must be there regardless, but it would be a different story if she allowed them to leave after the shooting began.
And to think of the little girl would have just gone to a different room .she might it made it
And some people actually think arming teachers is the answer?!? They're EDUCATORS! Not soldiers! The answer is not to arm Teachers - the answer is to disarm citizens who have no need for such weaponry; The answer is NOT to turn every facet of our society into a war zone - the answer is to make our schools, theaters, shopping plazas, grocery stores, churches(!) safer.
I agree fully 👍🏾
look into the history of school shootings in America: because sadly school shootings are not a new thing, there has been many long before columbine and sandy hook look it up. k12academics has a complete list and information on all school shootings from the 1800s throughout until 2000s. school shootings have happened throughout the 19th and 20th century. guns do not need to be banned, gun safety needs to be more widespread taught, and mental health screenings need to be a requirement before getting a gun, parents need to use judgement, based on their son or daughters mental stability, maturity and grasp on safety and general reality before deciding to allow them access to guns. schools should also have armed guards; same as any other government building; people shoot up schools because the people in schools are pretty much guaranteed to be unarmed and unable to fight back. if there are armed guards schools would less likely be targeted, notice not too many people try and shoot up courthouses, or social security offices because there are trained armed guards in them.
Maybe, but actually banning these weapons means changing the Constitution, which is a tedious process that rarely succeeds and takes decades. In the meantime, I am all for arming teachers.
Exactly, you are a very sick person if you think more guns is the solution. It’s just a way to keep making gun manufacturing companies and the NRA rich.
As a previous teacher I can say she’s probably dealing with immense guilt over letting students leave.
As a non teacher I can say she’s probably dealing with immense guilt over letting students leave.
What?! Did something she did cause more students to get murdered?! WTF!! 😭
If an active shooter isn't the teacher supposed to make everyone stay put??
@@denisebranch4719 It used to be that way, but a lot of times it doesn't really make sense... Nowadays most schools have updated their system to where the we practice to assess where the shooter is and make the decision whether or to get the hell out or barricade and stay.
I wouldn't have let them leave
She seems like an amazing teacher keeping track of everyone and thinking of their well-being. Geez our teachers are so special.
Yes is a great teacher
Definitely an amazing teacher.
I hope you're being sarcastic because kids were getting shot all around her and she's letting people go on a pass during a supposed "drill". She's the type of person I would never want my kids to EVERRRRRR be their last hope during a situation like this. I can see why she's blond because she's absolutely clueless.
@@sweezy7455 the kids went outside before everything started. You clearly are the last person I want around me to understand something for me when I don't have my hearing aids!!!! Gosh, is not that hard to understand how and why every kid was in each place. She was thinking it was a drill and yet she acted more quickly than she can remember and all her students inside the classroom were BEHIND her! That's a lot!!!! Except for the kid that didn't want to leave her side and I'm really sure that she was probably still protecting that kid with her body since the glass was on her feet!.
Yes, they are. Well said.
It is so disturbing to watch Nicholas draw on his tablet while a teacher describes the horror he inflicted on the school.
Seriously how is it fair or allowed that he can distract himself like this. He should be handcuffed.
Very disturbing! And,he has his head down the entire time of every part of this trial when the teachers&students are on stand!
And the video where he plugged his ears to avoid listening to the audio of the shooting was pathetic! Total coward!!🤬
Only time I’ve seen him look up is when one of the young men showed his back where he was shot. They should cuff his hands and his dumb lawyers should tell
him to sit up. So pathetic.
Finally someone says what I’ve been thinking.
@@cB-my5db wouldnt it be worse if he was looking at them? I dont think the victims want him to look. at least I wouldnt
my heart dropped when she said Luke, Martin, and Gina's names, i wish her all the joy that life can bring her
those kids where just in the wrong place at the wrong time it's not her fault
@@paulhynes170 Nobody said it was her fault..
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Something about Gina makes me connect to her. I was in marching band but she was colorguard but something about her draws me to her. I feel so bad for what happened to everyone but some reason her life I connect to. I know band is part of it but I don’t know what else.
You can tell she’s an amazing teacher, what kids want to help a teacher grade papers during their free period? Those are the teachers kids love, no doubt about it.
She's taken on some of the blame but NONE OF IT BELONGS TO HER. Ma'am you're a soft, beautiful spirit. The only person to blame is the psychopath sitting with his head down the whole time.
This teacher is so sweet. It sounds like she was definitely in shock during the shooting. I hope her PTSD isn't too severe and she can heal from this immense grief. Beautiful soul
This happened four years ago, and Ulvade only recently. It boggles my mind that despite this, nothing changes in the US. Tragic.
9:40 “So *prior to this happening* did anyone ask permission to leave your classroom” “They did”
For all the people confused.
Thank you for clarifying… I missed that part.
Poor woman, she is grieving the loss of her students. She is guilty of nothing but caring for her students.
Poor lady was in bad shock and denial at the moment. I cannot imagine. She seems like an amazing teacher and person.
she seems like such a sweet soul. i feel terrible for every single person who has ever had to experience a situation like this. rest in peace to the victims of this tragedy and all the others
This kid deserves no mercy!!!!! And whomever sells guns and large amounts of ammo to these kids when they know damn well it’s not for hunting animals should also be held accountable!!!! This is just ridiculous!! Pure evil!!!!!
He's not a kid ffs!
That’s what I say..who the hell would sell assault rifles, 30 round magazines and enough ammo to kill 400 people to an 18 year old? A gun store owner...🤬🤬
no he wasn't he was 18 5years ago hes 23 now so he was fully able to buy a gun at the time that's why i say give him life in a padded cell in solitary confinement make him truly be friends with his "demon"
@@Psyminds The amount of people not getting that is astounding.
No he wasn't a kid when he did this. 19 isn't a kid. He was older then all of his victims.
She seems like such a sweet lady. The fact that she’ll beat herself up for letting them leave is so unfortunate.
She is a sweet lady, but you can see the pain, I remember her from class 2009
I know that is heartbreaking! She could never know but still people blame themselves. I pray she can find peace.
How do you know 'she'll beat herself up for letting them leave?' They left before the shooting began.
@@Sam-oo1uoBut they didn't have the time to return once it did begin. If she had never let them leave, they would've survived with her. That's why she feels guilty, though she could've never have predicted it.
@@nevaskomaeda3051 I feel so sorry for her. She could never predict what happened. It's time for gun owners to accept responsibility for their guns. They should be charged.
Nicolas needs to have his head up, listening and paying attention while testimony is being given.
What a cowardly freak
I absolutely cannot describe the rage and hate I have for these killers. It is beyond words.
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I feel bad for her because she probably thinks about how if she told them no to leaving that maybe they’d still be alive. I bet that thought just eats her away. I hope she finds peace
And it’s so sad because she thinks it’s her fault but Gina Ashley Luke and Martin were out there at the wrong time even tho Ashley was only injured by a bullet as she crossed the hallway from the bathroom as she had been shot once
She will never think something is a drill again.
They all will, that fear and memories will flood back all over again. Just horrible
My heart dropped when she mentioned Luke’s name. She cared so much for all of them kids❤
I can only imagine the years of therapy this lady will need for all the survival's guilt she had to deal with. So so unfair, she seems like a kind person and a dedicated teacher. Sweet lady, if you are reading this, this is not your fault, God bless you !
Thank you for that important and compelling testimony, Ms. Matlock. I hope you are mentally and spiritually on the mend today after that awful, traumatic experience. God bless. ⚖️
Imagine the actual terror that must have went through her when she realized it wasn't a drill, I get the feeling she was a really calming influence and god only knows what would have happened to the student who couldn't leave her side if she had not have been there, god bless you, your grace composure truly humbles me!
almost 6 years since this terrible massacre. valentine's day has never been the same. bless this teacher and all that she does, what she has done for over 10 years. she seems like the type of teacher to truly care about a student and their future
Mrs madlock, used to be my teacher in high school, sweetest lady ever
I hope everyone involved in this horrific event has access to ongoing counseling🥺
Uh I don’t think “counseling “ will do it. Tranquilizers are a better bet
As much as I'd be afraid to send my kid to school if I were an American, I have to say that these teachers-- every single one of them --I would be absolutely confident that they would take care of my kids. They should never have to go through these types of situations ever, but they sure as heck handled it the best they could!
The likelihood of something like this happening to you in the USA is almost minuscule believe it or not. here in the us we have an extremely hyper partisan and hyperbolic corporate media who make bank off of these kinds of incidents. Which fuels deranged men to do more stuff like this. Wash rinse repeat.
@@orangechickengorl true
@@orangechickengorl except this doesnt happen in other countries. orders of magnitude more dangerous in the USA
@@Drew_goo Or it just isn't reported in other countries
@@Curious-Irish-Angel delusional
He’s loving this. He’s inflicted damage on so many people and he is LOVING this.
I’m confused on how so many people missed the “prior to this happening” when questioned about the students she let leave the class
She will never ever be the same again. The guilt she will feel will tear her apart. I can't imagine but I've had a similar situation with my neices murder that did just that to me & still does 5 days later. I'm so so so sorry. You deserved so much more than this. Those babies deserved more than this. 💔
Oh well some people just get shot big deal get over it
so much survivors guilt especially being as just two of the victims who passed are the same boys who she let leave her classroom. i feel terrible for her, a lot of these teachers must blame themselves sometimes & its unfair. it’s nobody’s fault but nicolas cruz’s. everybody was doing everything right that school day except for him.
Brooke so sorry for the loss of your neice
5 days?
Praying for you & your family that ya’ll find peace & comfort 🙏🏾♥️
teachers need to get paid more. this is beyond heart breaking.
so if a shooting happens in quicky mart which it does all the time, they need to be paid more too?
I think the first thing they want is to not get shot up with their students in their classrooms.
Pays don't solve everything
Looking at each and every parent's face, I can't begin to imagine the pain they're suffering. Some of them look completely gone, like all the life has been sucked out of them. Losing a child to cancer or an accident is hard enough, but to lose them from someone purposely killing them is inconceivable. I am so sorry, I wish I could bring them back or do anything to lessen your pain. Justice will be served, I don't care how bad of a childhood you had, it doesn't justify you killing innocent people, nothing justifies that!! RIP to those sweet, innocent babies and my condolences to all the teachers as well ❤️❤️❤️
It really breaks my heart seeing their faces. They all deserve to be smiling and living their best lives with a family that loves them
Well said 💗
I don’t get why the shooter is looking so sad and down… he clearly had no problem doing what he did. This is emotional manipulation.
I think it’s def a play on his part, to show remorse or torture or try to back up his insane excuse.
To me it looks like he is bored and drawing... Sick monster either way that needs to be put down sooner than later... Too bad our legal system demands this long drawn out process when the death penalty is an option.
He’s not sad. He’s bored.
It's all a game to him.
I wonder if he's on medication that has helped him and maybe now his thinking is logical. Maybe he does have remorse. He will have to answer and pay for his crimes no matter what he feels now.
It's sad how she kept denying what her own senses were telling her and she caught on way too late. But no one can prepare you for something like this and schools dont have a way to alert others of whether its a drill or a real emergency
Really sucks Americans give the killers the fame they want.
We do the opposite here in Canada and try to not even name them when we can, I believe this type of coverage only creates more goals and aspirations of these cowards
Agree 💯 they do that for everything. There is a police pursuit on the news here in LA at least once a week like it’s a TV show. People want 15 min of fame.
You couldn't be more wrong about that. We do not give these killers Fame. We put them on trial, usually televised, when found guilty we lock them up and throw away the key. Sometimes we even execute them. We don't bury our heads in the sand and ignore these criminals we face them head on and give them the punishment that they deserve. There are mass shootings all over the world. How each country deals with it is different.
We give them a fair trial it is decided by their peers if they are found guilty we punish them appropriately.
I agree. I’m an American
I think if we publicly executed people like this it would send an exact message that Americans want sent but apparently we have to follow the constitution even though our own government doesn’t.
But also Canada are looked on by the rest of the world as a joke. They let people off with everything way too easily. Canada not “naming” school shooters etc so as not to give them “fame” is just another excuse for Canada being a push over nation. The world has no respect for Canadian law. That’s very well known. People may argue Americans maybe too much the other way, and are too harsh with consequences…but I say it’s better than being a joke of a nation.
And no I am not American (nor Canadian) I am British (Scottish to be exact) .
Why make this teacher identify dead students when the students have already been identified by the police and everybody else don't you think that she's been through enough that is not even necessary for their case this is unacceptable I feel so sorry for this teacher and all the students of what they went through
Most of the time u have to make it theatrical in the court in order to sway the Jury.
They are going for the death penalty. He has already plead guilty to all of it. But the State is attempting to get the jury to send Cruz to his own demise.
I thought it was hallway surveillance pictures of the kids walking after leaving the room. Not them dead.
@@Resiana27 it was both.
@@lanfaye5824 Exactly.. one side makes the person look like a monster and the other defends by making them a victim of circumstances... and then they see who persuaded the jury better
That father has a permanent frown on his face from this tragedy...
This is absolutely heartbreaking.
I can attest to how her brain was trying to process this while it was happening.
I was a bank teller and held up. I thought it was a training drill. I was fairly new to the job and we covered things in our training course.
It turned out to be very real and I’m disabled from it.
Stop wasting the community's time with this. Cook him and let's move on with the healing of these families.
This sentencing phase is going to take 4 months. I can't imagine how expensive and traumatizing this is. Especially the students and teachers who now have different jobs, different schools, are trying to move on with their new normal.. Will now be known all over again as the victims of the school shooting.
At first I had to go look and see why these videos were being posted now, when he pled guilty almost a year ago. I wish they could do a damn poll if he should get death or not. Or school shooters should AUTOMATICALLY be sentenced to death to persuade the next monster from getting any ideas.
He won't get death. All 12 jury members must agree. There is always that 1 or 2 that just can't do it unfortunately...
100%! Public executions. It’s time we send a message.
@@jille5458 He will get death... there is no doubt in my mind. Death chambers were made for monsters like this coward.
Imagine raising a child, all the love you raise them with, all the time, energy and money you invest in them all gone, because some little idiot wanted some attention. I hope the parents can get over the injustice and anger as well as the immense loss.
He didn't get the death penalty???
@@beeshdos5410 hasn't been decided yet
Get over ? How would they ever do that? Could you?
Why would a teacher allow kids to leave not knowing what exactly was going on? I’m not blaming her but I’m surprised
@@mariademers3111 i would probably get over the wanting to kill him stage, and possibly get over the fact it just isnt fair regardless of the legal outcome, but obviously you never forget a child you lost. I'm really talking about the raw pain in that post.
Back in the day there use to be speakers in the classrooms that teachers could talk back and forth with the teachers. Now they have student runners delivering messages. They should go back to the speakers..
Yep I'm in my 60's and I so remember that. We also didn't have any school shooters.
They very much still have the intercoms in classrooms. They also have email and message chats. They have always had "student runners" for various things. Its nothing new and certainly isnt a factor in school shootings. Ya know what we did have when you were in school that we dont now. Normalcy of child abuse, schools turning a blind eye and looking the other way. Stop it. 😕
OMG this is so brutal. Feel so sorry for this teacher. Wish her the best
What horrible guilt she must feel. Please don't beat yourself up, nobody could have imagined what was to become. RIP
Julletta is and was so connected with each of her students, she should be a positive inspiration to those students presently in University perusing teaching degree’s. Everyone was going about their school activities no one person could have seen or predicted anything that day or any other day and therefore no one person especially Julletta should place any burden upon themselves.
God bless this, and all teachers. So hard to keep reliving such a horrific event. You can't ever feel secure again.
Some teachers suck. Not this lady, but others. They’re not saints
I hope she finds peace
The moment that glass on the door shattered I think I would have known it wasn't a drill ANYMORE
These people , families, victims, court staff & our country will never be the same
"i thought it was a school shooter drill" .... From kindergarten to my college days i experienced drills, each year we do fire drills... But a drill when there's school shooter? 😳 The US must do something with this school shooting problem.
It’s insane! I graduated in 2011 & never did an active shooter drill! Sadly, when my son started school in 2017, he came home telling me that they had practiced what to do in case a bad guy got into school. There was also a letter sent home explaining the drill & why they have one. I couldn’t believe it.
My son had to do active shooter training in PreK 😭😭😭 what’s wrong with the world?
I remember doing intruder drills in 1996
@@TheKnallkorper crazy! We only ever had tornado drills & fire drills. We are in a small town though so maybe that’s why I was shocked when they started doing them here in 2016.
Giving this one a death sentence is surely a start to dealing with the problem
Is enfuriatian that he does not have the desency of even looking at the people he did so much wrong to
May God comfort this caring teacher and all the other teachers there, as well as, all the innocent young adult students who had to endure this horror! Lord, please help them lean on you! It is a nightmare all teachers worry about in this evil world we are in! I practice these lockdown drills yearly with a classroom full of students, also, and it gets more worrisome each and every drill we have to endure! We are now taught to flee if possible, then hidewuietlyAvoid, then defend, fight like your life depends on it!
God im cryn now .i can't imagine as a parent or teacher . She seems like a loving sweet gental kind teacher who loved each and every single one of those kids rest in peace and all of my love to the victims and the victims freinds and families and the teachers we lost as well as the ones who taught such smart amd incredible kids
Just her dialog of thoughts....Is it a drill, Is it not a real drill? Those words are chilling....The memory will always remain in her thoughts! RIP to the ones that lost their lives from this horrible day.
This woman just seems like a calming soul. I bet she definitely was able go calm the students the best way she knew how. Her voice is calming. Teachers definitely deserve way more protection and also the students. This should never happen in any school in this country. My heart goes out to everyone that went through this and the families of the injured and deceased.
Her voice is very calming
Her voice doesn't hide the fact that she didn't protect her students enough
@@Jvlerah I don't know that she could support any more than she did. She wasn't even sure it was a real event or a trial. American teachers are not paid enough. My sister is s teacher and earns twice as much as American Teachers. I know that we all agreed there would be no more trips to the U.S. It's too dangerous.
Why doesn't the judge take away the shooters crayon? He's trying to dis connect from the horrible reality he caused. Sit there and pay attention kid
Exactly, he doesn’t deserve the peace
I hope this monster feels the fear he threw onto his victims
He's a psychopath. He does not feel anything.
He doesn't. If he were emphatic, he wouldn't do it.
He covers his ears everytime they play any audio of that day and it's pissing me off. He didn't have a problem that day. He needs to hear what he did
@@lillaurap it's just an act to get attention and sympathy.
@@lillaurap They should make him listen and watch. His stupid act of placing his hand on his head and acting sad is as fake as Amber's acting.
This is so heartbreaking 💔 Prayers for all the victims' families and the teachers, staff and other students who have to relive this horrible tragedy everyday for the rest of their lives
I can't even imagine the horror having to see those gruesome photographs. I would have nightmares for life. Prayers for all these people. In this case, I don't think sorry quite cuts it. This kid took and ruined innocent lives in a very violent way.
Is she looking at actual photos of the deceased? Sorry… kinda late.
@@DietMountainDew_ yeah i think so. during the trials i think they would put the pictures and videos on the screen but the public aren’t allowed to see. i could be wrong tho.
@@patiencesommer4728I hope your wrong, it's cruel and what's the point if she can't recognise the corpses? What does it prove?
They could be disfigured...
What a beautiful spirit this woman has. So kind and nurturing. I pray for her and all the victim's of this devastating event. May God touch their hearts and steal their pain somehow, someway. 🙏 ❤️ 🙏
Amen
That poor teacher. She couldn’t have known. I understand that she will always feel guilty but I hope that she understands that there was nothing she could have done. She cares about those kids and it shows. The only one guilty here is Cruz.
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Bri Foust. Yea he is guilty. I think everyone agrees. I would not blame a teacher but to think that it was a drill when shootings happen in America almost on a daily basis is a bit out of touch with reality.
@@rk-lj3sm Sounds like the school was scheduled to have a drill that month. Usually teachers are aware, but schools will sometimes try to do "surprise drills". The school was due for a drill which is why she thought that.
Sweet lady. I’m so sorry she’s got to go through this.
The worst part is a lot of people thought it was a drill... And it became reality within seconds. 😥
It seems so cruel to make the witnesses relive the horror of that day when he confessed and the world knows he did it. And he sits there doodling while the teacher is retelling events as they unfolded and identifying her students who were killed by that monster. If there ever was a death penalty case, this is it. Hope any appeals are shut down quickly and he doesn't get to live for years in prison.
unfortunately, courts can't decide based on a confession. there are still chances the confession could have been forced or falsified, so they need to get every witness testimony and every piece of evidence because cases are so trivial. it could land an innocent person in jail and the real perpetrator runs free. there's already many innocent people in jail because of this mindset
@@crateredcallisto2854It's a good thing to take the time to have a fair trial.
And I heard about victims feeling better after a trial that it helped them, sadly other people will feel victimised again by the trial.
Bless her heart 💜 she loves her students and you can tell no family should ever have to
Go through this and that judge should make that boy look up and get his hands off the table and fingers out of his ears 👂
B E F O R E ! - For those who have poor hearing comprehension.
i dont understand how human beings can cause such pain on others. not even animals would hurt their kind like this. rip to all those who lost their lives, they were robbed.
You can tell the raw emotions coming back on this teacher's face when she had to identify her students. She was doing so good testifying and I don't know how the parents are holding up in these moments. Seeing these lifeless bodies over and over again...😢😞
Teacher really do love their students!
During school drills, we were never allowed to leave or even talk. This is heartbreaking!
She gave them a pass to leave the classroom during a drill with a blown out window, did I understand that correctly?
@@daneen2fabulous no I think this was all right before everything started
@@daneen2fabulous she let them leave before that happened. The questioning timeline was kind of whack.
@@Mrs.Butterworth I know, I caught that later....my bad.
The kids were allowed on a pass before any of the shooting started. She could never have known what was to come. 😔
God Bless this teacher!
I’m a teacher. My daughter is a teacher. My mom is a teacher. This is not ok. That is my mom’s birthday. God Bless her. 🙏🏼❤️
Absolutely heartbreaking 💔
Yes. 💔
I’m a teacher, Luke and Martin, RIP. This woman will not let anyone out of her classroom for the rest of her natural life. I’m praying for her peace forever!
I can’t even imagine. This is so sad.
I can’t even imagine the guilt
I feel terrible for everyone that has to testify and bring them back to that horrible day....let him burn in hell for all of this pain he put upon these individuals and family...
I had a difficult time following her description. But it was clear her heart was broken. Prayers for all.
It's out of my mind how the parents of slain kids could sit in the same room with the jerk who killed them
They do it for their murdered children, they do it to see justice through for their loss
@@NF40375 my daughter is 5 now-I couldn't stay still in a room with someone who murdered her
@@NF40375 I can't stop crying
Think about raising Nicholas or Adam Lanza, how horrible it can be
God bless this teacher.
We need more teachers like her
It's not your fault...
Well obviously
this poor woman, imagine being a teacher and seeing some of ur students die, praying for you🙏
The shooter didn't cry ONE TEAR. It's like he's not listening 😵💫
I'm sickened by the fact that the indoor campus monitor ran up the stairs to safety without warning the four children in the hall to get to their classes! Had he yelled out "Hurry get to class" - or something to that affect - the children most likely would've been saved. Instead, he thought of himself first! The coward ran up to the second floor and hid in a closet! He knew in advance when he was walking towards the east entrance directly behind the three students who entered before him. He passed Gina in the hallway? Said nothing?! There was about 15 seconds in time -maybe 20 seconds lost to the victims. They may have stood a chance! Not one adult has been held accountable which is absolutely pathetic and such a travesty! When will our children be put first in this country? When will their lives and safety matter? What does it take? This was a mass massacre! It takes the heartache and grief of these beautiful parents - Max Schacter - The Montaltos.. The Hoyers - all of them ...to protect our children. What 's going on here? Everyone failed these children! It's an outrage!
"When the chips are down, these civilized people will eat each other"
Something is off with this here teacher . Everyone knew it was an actual shooting except her? Kids were outside her class
@@romilly8575 I said the same thing.
God Help us. This is too much to handle. I can't imagine the sleepless nights and tears that never end in broken souls. God bless her and all that survived the horrors.
This was so hard to listen to, literally sobbing. I feel so bad for her and the ones that were lost 🕊️ may they rest in peace.
Are the families ever going to be able to say what they want to Nikolas in this trial?
Prayers of comfort for all.
And now in Uvalde.. when will they stop allowing these guns to be sold like this!!!!
Criminals don't give a damn if guns are legal or not.
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It boggles my mind that Americans even need to do active shooter drills. This is not normal
Why did he do this?
I literally don’t know how the friends and family’s stayed composed 😭
The FBI had Nikolas Cruz tips from concerned callers and they did nothing!!! The victims of this tragedy deserve every bit of the pay out they got. But, I know it'll never take the place of their loved ones or their piece of mind.
Prayers for this teacher; the strength of everyone who testified in fact. I can't imagine having to keep any semblence of composure recounting this horrific event.
😢Absolutely Heartbreaking 😢words fail me 😢 Sending love and hugs 😢 ❤❤❤
Look at dis coward holding his head down… can’t even look anybody in the eyes