The reality of relapse, Living with liver disease

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  • Опубликовано: 9 ноя 2024

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  • @kotameaders995
    @kotameaders995 Месяц назад +5

    Beer is what I usually crave. But I’ve found that much of the time, what I really want is to relax and enjoy something cold and carbonated. Sometimes I’ll put a can of sparkling water in the freezer until it’s super cold and then enjoy it the same way I would have a beer - maybe sitting outside or while watching a game. For me, it really satisfies about 90% of the craving. The thought of not waking up hungover and depressed takes care of the remaining 10%.

  • @kevingibson7214
    @kevingibson7214 Месяц назад +3

    The way you speak about your consumption, is exactly they way I was. High test beer which lead to vodka. Still sober and living day to day

  • @sarahgoldey2792
    @sarahgoldey2792 Месяц назад +12

    i m saving about 600 a month that was going for wine and weed,i smoked weed for 48 years,you really made an impact on my life,very grateful to you and your family,I was in a bad place mentally and spiritually when i ran across your channel,without upsetting things i will say i was in the most desperate mental state a person could be in ,the s word

  • @CCSI322
    @CCSI322 Месяц назад +2

    This channel is phenomenal. Thank you for taking all this time and effort to share all of these videos. My ex drank I picked her up from hospital several times but I didn't pay attention to it. She was the love of my life and even was for a while after she physically attacked me twice. I know it's not my fault I just wish I could have done more to help her. And with alcoholism in my family I wonder if I will end up like them.

  • @Catlady12341
    @Catlady12341 Месяц назад +2

    It’s just so hard. 😞 we hurt nothing but the one body we’ve been given but keep doing it again…..some days it’s maddening.

  • @AmericanMike815
    @AmericanMike815 Месяц назад +4

    I have justified my drinking by saying I only drink light beer. But now I drink 2.5 - 3 gallons of beer every day. I haven't been able to control my drinking for a long time now. I appreciate your channel and what you have when theough. 🙏 I need to change right now......

  • @truthseeker6370
    @truthseeker6370 Месяц назад +2

    I have relapsed and Need to get sober again.
    I got great help from AA when I began going for myself vs just going to get my sheet signed for DUI probation. Upon finding my "home group" I started working the steps. I was too afraid to do the Necessary 4th and 5th Step. It would be freeing in reality. My ego and pride kept me from doing it....then relapsed. I Now see how important that process is.

  • @almaconnor9171
    @almaconnor9171 Месяц назад +16

    Praying for you LD and all here that we may never relapse…again.

    • @almaconnor9171
      @almaconnor9171 Месяц назад +5

      There’s a guy on another channel who just got his channel, about his alcoholism. He just relapsed. Let’s pray he gets right back up because he is REALLY sounding so defeated.

    • @liverdisease-qb6rk
      @liverdisease-qb6rk  Месяц назад +1

      Thank you almaconnor!!! I am praying for you too my friend! Never again.... God bless❤❤❤❤

    • @liverdisease-qb6rk
      @liverdisease-qb6rk  Месяц назад +1

      ​@@almaconnor9171can you tell me the name?

    • @almaconnor9171
      @almaconnor9171 Месяц назад +1

      @@liverdisease-qb6rkI believe it’s Slayer Sober? Someone else in this thread mentions him also. He’s having a really rough time, the guilt is just pouring out of him 😢

  • @littlesherm
    @littlesherm Месяц назад +6

    I spent 4 years sober fearing alcohol excessively. I ended up relapsing and it actually made my footing stronger in my sobriety. I never quite understood how some say relapsing is part of recovery... until I relapsed. Then it all made sense, and I am grateful for my relapses. I learned a lot from them.

    • @liverdisease-qb6rk
      @liverdisease-qb6rk  Месяц назад +2

      Thank you for sharing littlesherm!!! I really appreciate you being so open and honest. You are exactly right, it's part of the recovery process. We learn so much from them. The WHY that we don't want to drink anymore is one of the biggest that I took away each time. Thank you again! God bless❤❤❤❤❤

  • @kennithminnich
    @kennithminnich Месяц назад +25

    Jails, hospitals, and death is all that awaits if we relapse. Good luck to those who feel differently. I have seen it dozens of times...Never ends well

    • @liverdisease-qb6rk
      @liverdisease-qb6rk  Месяц назад +6

      Kennith.... you couldn't be more right about this. It's unfortunate, but true. Thank you! I have seen it too many times myself. God bless❤❤❤❤

    • @veritas3379
      @veritas3379 Месяц назад +2

      What's the solution?

    • @kennithminnich
      @kennithminnich Месяц назад +1

      @@veritas3379, I was a chronic alcoholic. AA worked for me. 11 years sober.

    • @sheilastanaland
      @sheilastanaland Месяц назад

      @@veritas3379 if you relapse, pray to the Lord and ask him to forgive you and give you the strength you need to get up onto that wagon again. Then do it immediately, and try to avoid situations where you are tempted.

  • @Happylluk
    @Happylluk Месяц назад +4

    Thanks for the videos. I'm an alcoholic. I'm gonna try to start AA. Your story is inspiring. I'll pray for u. ❤

    • @Grybyx
      @Grybyx Месяц назад

      Change your self talk with positive affirmations. " I chose healthy options as I care about my future ".
      Constantly talking negative just reinforces a self image.

    • @Rover19666
      @Rover19666 10 дней назад

      You can do it, thousands do daily, ask God for help

  • @davidlafond8327
    @davidlafond8327 Месяц назад +16

    Hi LD, I everyone! Sorry I’ve been gone for a bit. Unfortunately, after almost 2 years, I have relapsed. I’m so disappointed, this was my longest stretch of sobriety. I’ve stopped now though, and I’m just gonna get right back on track! Thank you all for your support! God bless!! ❤❤

    • @amandaflaherty7528
      @amandaflaherty7528 Месяц назад +1

      Hey David!! It's so good to see you!!! Don't worry about what's been done. You've got this!!! You should be so proud of yourself for your honesty, accountability, and for picking yourself back up. You are going to be just fine. Here's to your health, my friend! ❤😊🎊🎉😊❤️

    • @Micru866
      @Micru866 Месяц назад +1

      David, don’t beat yourself up about it this moment does not negate the 2 years sober. Dust it off and keep moving forward. We are all here to support you.

    • @liverdisease-qb6rk
      @liverdisease-qb6rk  Месяц назад +2

      Hey David!!!! Thank you for having the courage to share my friend! I'm sorry that happened. It's ok!!!! It happens to a lot of us. I'm so glad to hear that you are back on the wagon and not drinking anymore. I know you have got this man!!!! You saw what it was like again.... and know that's not the life you want to live!!! God bless❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

    • @davidlafond8327
      @davidlafond8327 Месяц назад +4

      Hey, thank you everyone for the kind words and well wishes! I’m back on the wagon and moving forward! I am so grateful for this amazing community! God bless!! ❤️❤️❤️

    • @amandaflaherty7528
      @amandaflaherty7528 Месяц назад

      @@davidlafond8327 🎊🎉🎊god bless you, too, David!! 😁❤️

  • @dubbelsue3584
    @dubbelsue3584 Месяц назад +10

    LD, you are rockin sobriety., brother. One, minute, one hour, one day at a time. Your daily vids are helping all of us.

    • @stanleycostello9610
      @stanleycostello9610 Месяц назад +5

      I am going to be 20 years sober on the 29th. When I was beginning my journey, I said to myself, "You can have a drink anytime. Just wait an hour." Then it became just until lunch time. Then it became a full day. And then 20 years. I don't mean to sound prideful, but if I can do it, anyone can. Quitting drinking is one of the best things I've ever done. Believe me. Peace.

    • @micki45melanson91
      @micki45melanson91 Месяц назад +4

      Help

    • @liverdisease-qb6rk
      @liverdisease-qb6rk  Месяц назад +2

      Thank you dubbelsue! I really appreciate you saying that!!! Thank you for watching everyday! And thank you for letting me know that they are helping!! God bless❤️❤️❤️❤️

    • @liverdisease-qb6rk
      @liverdisease-qb6rk  Месяц назад +3

      ​@stanleycostello9610 congratulations on 20 years my friend!!!! That's spectacular!!!!🥳

    • @liverdisease-qb6rk
      @liverdisease-qb6rk  Месяц назад +4

      ​@micki45melanson91 what can I help you with my friend❤️

  • @AlcoholicG.O.A.T
    @AlcoholicG.O.A.T Месяц назад +17

    Ld I started a youtube channel, you definitely helped me get the courage

    • @liverdisease-qb6rk
      @liverdisease-qb6rk  Месяц назад +2

      Hey there!!! That's so awesome to hear! I will have to go check you out! Have you made any videos yet? God bless❤❤

    • @AlcoholicG.O.A.T
      @AlcoholicG.O.A.T Месяц назад

      @liverdisease-qb6rk yup I have made a couple, I'm getting organized for my first topic. It would be great if you checked it out brother!

  • @USBP464
    @USBP464 Месяц назад +1

    Hard learned words of wisdom indeed. I'm only five months alcohol-free, so thanks for this.

  • @dianehodge2011
    @dianehodge2011 Месяц назад +9

    When you have that thought, play the movie in your head to the very end...

    • @liverdisease-qb6rk
      @liverdisease-qb6rk  Месяц назад +2

      Exactly!!!!! It never ends well!!! God bless❤❤❤

    • @veritas3379
      @veritas3379 Месяц назад +1

      I've played the tape forward and still did it. I don't want to suffer anymore

  • @patrickcoyne5696
    @patrickcoyne5696 Месяц назад +1

    Good on ya mate,I no drink just fuckes everything up Everytime.

  • @Dianeayr
    @Dianeayr Месяц назад +9

    All respect to you L D. Coming on here every day, just know you are helping so many people, hope you stay strong. Your family and your liver will thank you for it.

    • @liverdisease-qb6rk
      @liverdisease-qb6rk  Месяц назад +4

      Thank you diane!!! I will continue to talk about this everyday, unless I am not feeling well. This is my mission now! God bless❤❤❤❤

  • @Gary_OC
    @Gary_OC Месяц назад +6

    I have 6 months sober today. Thank you so much LD. This video was perfect timing 🙏🏼

    • @d-lowatts2050
      @d-lowatts2050 Месяц назад

      Congratulations Gary! I know the struggle, and seeing these comments help us thank you

    • @Gary_OC
      @Gary_OC Месяц назад

      @@d-lowatts2050 Thanks D. LD Truely is a superstar for what he does for this community. God bless and have a lovely day.

    • @liverdisease-qb6rk
      @liverdisease-qb6rk  Месяц назад +1

      Congratulations on 6 months gary!!!! That's so awesome!!!! You are doing great!!! Keep it up! I know that life has gotten so much better for you now!!!! God bless❤️❤️❤️❤️

    • @liverdisease-qb6rk
      @liverdisease-qb6rk  Месяц назад

      ​@@Gary_OC❤️❤️❤️

    • @Gary_OC
      @Gary_OC Месяц назад

      @@liverdisease-qb6rk Thank you so very much LD. I greatly appreciate your kind words and support. 😎 Indeed it’s the best decision I ever made and life is multiples better. Living in the present day by day. Appreciating the things I took for granted. God bless my friend and looking forward to your future videos and wisdom. 🙏🏼 ❤️

  • @cheryldeanley2074
    @cheryldeanley2074 Месяц назад +7

    One other thing I wanted to share is, the last couple times I relapsed, the first shot I wanted to throw up. That had never happened to me before. The crazy part of it is I tried with everything I had in me to not throw it up. I didn't want to lose that shot in the toilet. How insane 😮 ❤❤❤

    • @liverdisease-qb6rk
      @liverdisease-qb6rk  Месяц назад +1

      It's not crazy... happened to me too. We know it's poison, but we just want that feeling again. ❤❤❤❤❤❤

  • @jakobwiklund5688
    @jakobwiklund5688 Месяц назад +9

    Tack!

    • @liverdisease-qb6rk
      @liverdisease-qb6rk  Месяц назад +4

      Oh wow!!!! Thank you so very much Jakob!!!! This is so very nice of you!!! Thank you for your support and for your generosity my friend!!! It is greatly appreciated!!!! God bless you my friend ❤️ 😊

    • @hollyd5068
      @hollyd5068 Месяц назад +2

      Jag alskar sverige, we got this!

    • @liverdisease-qb6rk
      @liverdisease-qb6rk  Месяц назад +2

      @@hollyd5068 ❤️❤️❤️❤️

  • @Andyjonescreative
    @Andyjonescreative Месяц назад +14

    Yo dude, just wanted to thank you for your videos. They have helped me so much. I've been dry now for 3 months thanks to you mostly. I can't thank you enough. One issue I'm running into is that because I lied to everyone about my drinking, I can't really tell anyone how great I feel now that I have stopped but that's not a real problem. Thank you brother 🙏

    • @liverdisease-qb6rk
      @liverdisease-qb6rk  Месяц назад +4

      Hey andy!!! You are so welcome my friend! I wish I could take credit, but YOU did all the hard work. I just talked about it. Thank you!!! I am so happy for you!!! God bless❤❤❤

  • @fernandolozano7930
    @fernandolozano7930 Месяц назад +3

    For me it’s not only a thought but a feeling !!! 😢

    • @Iwantalloftheinformation
      @Iwantalloftheinformation Месяц назад +3

      I'm still where the impulse is still much stronger than the voice that says don't do it, I shut it out.

  • @tjk6220
    @tjk6220 Месяц назад +12

    I just watched Slayer's video about his relapse. Very timely. Watching your video's and other content creators who are genuine about their highs and lows do help with my addiction. I am at that tipping point where evening drinking has evolved into late afternoon drinking. Watching the clock so to speak as to give myself permission to start. Your journey is an incredible story...I know I need to get help as its a very slippery slope I am on. God bless you and your strength and fortitude.

    • @liverdisease-qb6rk
      @liverdisease-qb6rk  Месяц назад +5

      Thank you my friend! He is part of the reason I am talking about this today. It really got to me. I hope that you continue to hang out here, and something that I say or someone else says that helps you make that next step. God bless❤❤❤❤

    • @ShadesOClarity
      @ShadesOClarity Месяц назад

      @@liverdisease-qb6rk I saw it too and offered my support. I hope you are successful getting through it.

    • @joanthomas1755
      @joanthomas1755 Месяц назад +2

      “I’ll only drink white wine” - that always lasted about 45 minutes and right back to the Tito’s 😢

    • @joanthomas1755
      @joanthomas1755 Месяц назад +2

      And sorry about the beer thoughts! You got this.

    • @tjk6220
      @tjk6220 Месяц назад

      @@liverdisease-qb6rk thank you !! I obviously have a ton of work to do as I still succumb to my addiction daily. But.... truth be told this is the first time I have admitted this. My wife found a couple bottles in my office and she was devastated. Keep up the great work !!

  • @jkhelms
    @jkhelms Месяц назад +11

    Everything you say is true! I can tell it's been weighing on you too. Your descriptions are spot on. Stay the course!

    • @liverdisease-qb6rk
      @liverdisease-qb6rk  Месяц назад +1

      Thank you jkhelms! It really has. It happens so often, and it makes me so sad. God bless❤❤❤❤

  • @LA.Drillmf
    @LA.Drillmf Месяц назад +1

    I messed up and relapsed after months of sobriety I got overstressed and overwhelmed and convinced myself to take one drink and I went right back to where I was I’m going to outpatient treatment tomorrow morning I’m sick of being sick all over again it’s awful being an alcoholic is awful that’s addiction it’s poison but I got this I will recover today I was a winner and I’m 24 hours sober again

  • @oldroscoe2590
    @oldroscoe2590 Месяц назад +1

    Over 30 years sober here, my main memory of my drinking days was the brutal hangovers and having to bend over with a terrible headache and nausea to tie my shoe laces. I made it to retirement which wouldn't have happened if I hadn't stopped drinking. Lot's of drinking stories and lots of sober stories now.

  • @smilinkylen5621
    @smilinkylen5621 Месяц назад +1

    Ive relapsed hundreds of times. The feeling i expect is relief, the feeling i get is instant withdrawal from just 1 drink. The fun is gone and the magic left a long time ago. Its just not worth it anymore.

  • @Maggie-x8r
    @Maggie-x8r Месяц назад +5

    77 days sober! Alcohol is one hell of a drug..thank you for sharing

    • @liverdisease-qb6rk
      @liverdisease-qb6rk  Месяц назад +1

      Hey maggie!!! Congratulations on 77 days sober!!! That is so awesome to hear!!! Good for you! Keep up the great work!!!🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉 God bless❤❤❤❤

  • @robertcampbell9992
    @robertcampbell9992 Месяц назад +1

    I definitely relate! 68, retired military , went on to complete a second career, motto was work hard let’s grab a beer, turned into several. 7 months sober! I’m definitely a better man!

  • @lynntalley1524
    @lynntalley1524 Месяц назад +1

    Your videos are so very helpful. I just found you this week..The timing could not have been better. Thank you.

  • @leeandreadillard345
    @leeandreadillard345 Месяц назад +5

    Omg I feel you! I’m starting alcohol therapy tomorrow! Tired of the diarrhea lol

  • @CHlLLUMlNATI
    @CHlLLUMlNATI Месяц назад +7

    LD thanks for the reminder thank god for you brother

    • @liverdisease-qb6rk
      @liverdisease-qb6rk  Месяц назад +3

      Hey chilluminati!!!! You are so welcome and thank God for you too my friend! God bless❤❤❤❤

  • @lynnemerrell5137
    @lynnemerrell5137 Месяц назад +3

    Hi from Eastgate Texas… being brutally honest with myself keeps me in line

    • @liverdisease-qb6rk
      @liverdisease-qb6rk  Месяц назад

      Hello from Eastgate texas!!!! God bless❤️❤️❤️❤️

  • @Hunnie_B
    @Hunnie_B Месяц назад +4

    Such an important video here LD, we all appreciate it so much 🙏🙏

    • @liverdisease-qb6rk
      @liverdisease-qb6rk  Месяц назад +2

      Thank you so much hunnie_b!!! You are so welcome! Hope you ate having a great day! God bless ❤❤❤❤

  • @betsyross6519
    @betsyross6519 Месяц назад +1

    Our stories are all the same ! Minor differences, but there All the same !

  • @UnseemlyGenie00
    @UnseemlyGenie00 Месяц назад +2

    That angel and devil on your shoulder 😔. Its good to keep it in your mind front and center and yes even the good days can be a trigger. Thanks for bringing up this topic LD. I'm trying to be better

  • @michelleg1076
    @michelleg1076 Месяц назад +2

    This video is so true! Sometimes that war with yourself is so strong!

  • @RonsMom40-pu1en2gj4p
    @RonsMom40-pu1en2gj4p Месяц назад +13

    I really thought about it during Steeler game Sunday. I didn't, but bro, I could taste it! No fun anyway without Ron.

    • @liverdisease-qb6rk
      @liverdisease-qb6rk  Месяц назад +3

      Hey ronsmom! Thank you for sharing, takes a lot of courage to be honest about that!!!! In so happy you stayed the course!!!!! God bless❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

    • @andysav72
      @andysav72 Месяц назад +2

      Stay strong RonsMom/ Love from Liverpool x

    • @amandaflaherty7528
      @amandaflaherty7528 Месяц назад

      ❤😊 great job keeping strong!! 🎉🎊❤

  • @ShadesOClarity
    @ShadesOClarity Месяц назад +7

    It's happened to me twice since I started my channel. I felt compelled to come clean both times. I was embarrassed and didn't want to post the videos but it was a moral obligation that I did. I hid bottles and cans too. I am still finding old, dusty bottles. Straight to the recycle bin.

    • @liverdisease-qb6rk
      @liverdisease-qb6rk  Месяц назад +3

      Hey shades! It happens. I am so proud of you for going on your channel and coming clean about it. That takes a lot of courage, but you are helping others not feel so alone! Thank you for all you do my friend!!! You are doing great!!! God bless❤❤❤❤

    • @ShadesOClarity
      @ShadesOClarity Месяц назад +3

      @@liverdisease-qb6rk Thanks, L.D. I will continue to do so.

  • @clinece
    @clinece Месяц назад +6

    I'm going to listen to this episode everyday. Thank you!!!!!

    • @liverdisease-qb6rk
      @liverdisease-qb6rk  Месяц назад +3

      That's so awesome!!!! Thank you!!!! ❤❤❤❤❤❤ God bless❤❤❤❤

  • @badboar3385
    @badboar3385 Месяц назад +12

    I think about beer all the time too. Your wife is 💯 about it being about the good times with it. I’ve been a 12 year heavy drinker and been through many of the things you have and many times I think about beer because that was when alcohol was “fun” and with liquor it became about “medicine” to keep me “alive” - sometimes when I think about camping, writing music/playing guitar, cooking/grilling, woodworking, etc…the devil tries to tell me in my head that everyone in the world is drinking except me and that I’m an outsider now because of my sobriety and I won’t enjoy life enough. Can I get an Amen if y’all had similar thoughts?

    • @MakeMoreMusicOk
      @MakeMoreMusicOk Месяц назад +3

      Amen!

    • @Marktheshark-e7f
      @Marktheshark-e7f Месяц назад +2

      Amen brother! My sponsor told me when my mind gives me that pretty picture of drinking that has been at least 20 years ago now, that I need to force myself to think of that last drunk. The barf, crapping my pants. Shaking and sweating. All those "good" times. It helps me some.

    • @sheilastanaland
      @sheilastanaland Месяц назад +1

      Well, the devil is a liar, because I don't drink and I know lots of people who don't. You can have lots of fun without drinking.

    • @lisagreene1458
      @lisagreene1458 Месяц назад +1

      Amen!

    • @amandaflaherty7528
      @amandaflaherty7528 Месяц назад +1

      Amen!!!
      I can tell you, though, that you should flick away that little devil because all these things in life are still such beautiful experiences. They're just different than what we're expecting now. ❤❤❤

  • @bfox420
    @bfox420 Месяц назад +8

    Timely video today. I just got thru a relapse that started about a week ago. Thought I'd have some beers and watch a game, and like you said, what that means for me is getting those 20 oz 10% beers. That led to me drinking all week, and if I'm being honest, I am only sober today because I have a work event tomorrow and want to minimize the beer smell as much as I can (probably too late for that). I don't want to go back to this lifestyle, that's for sure.

    • @almaconnor9171
      @almaconnor9171 Месяц назад +4

      Hang in there. You can do it, but ONLY one day at a time. Don’t spend time worrying about next week or even 2 days from now. Just tell yourself “TODAY I’m NOT drinking”. No ruminating about the future. Even an hour away. Just NOT NOW! NOT today. Good luck to you, God Bless.

    • @liverdisease-qb6rk
      @liverdisease-qb6rk  Месяц назад +2

      Hey bfox. Sorry to hear that my friend. But... I am so proud of you for the courage to be so open about it. That takes grit my friend. I know that you can get back on the wagon, I believe in you!!! Those couple of 10% beers... always leads to more!!!! God bless❤❤❤❤

  • @julesmbc
    @julesmbc Месяц назад +2

    Wow, such a good video! Thank you for sharing what your wife said - great insight from a spouse, love that 😊
    My husband has been sober since 1991, and always is able to say supportive, yet non-co dependent things, as well.

  • @HelloooooTURDS
    @HelloooooTURDS Месяц назад +7

    I just relapsed yesterday. Let my partner down again, but I woke up today and went for a run and have been chugging water. All that means is that today Im 27 days sober instead of 28. Fucking up one night does not discount all the hard work Ive been doing these last 27 days. We just gotta keep on getting up everytime we stumbble until we get it. Good luck to all of my fellow mutants 🖖🏽 We can do this 💪🏽❤️

    • @moosieeeeee
      @moosieeeeee Месяц назад +3

      No, you're one day sober. Don't fool yourself. I used to do exactly what you're doing. I detracted one day from my days sober every time i would drink, and I felt fine with it..BUT, that only made it easier to drink the following week, or month, I would continue to minus 1 day for the day that I drank. Yes, it makes you feel better, but the downside is that it'll be easier for you to drink next time. So please don't do that.
      Just accept that you're 1 day sober, and be REAL and honest. Have integrity. Also, the run and the chugging water doesn't do anything to flush you out, it will hyrdate you yes, but you're looking to do something drastic to change the fact that you drank. And that's okay man. We're in this fight together.
      I'm 2 months sober, but if i simply deleted 1 day here and there, then I would realistically be 7 months sober. But, I had to be honest with myself and my wife. So, I sit honestly at only 2 months sober today. Do I want to be 7 months sober? Hell yeah. But i'm not.

    • @amandaflaherty7528
      @amandaflaherty7528 Месяц назад +1

      Congratulations on all your hard work!! 1 day sober, 27 or 730 days is worth celebrating, and being proud of yourself!! By turning the dial back to day 1, you're not at all discounting all your hard work!! You're just holding yourself accountable. I quit drinking for real for the first time 2 years ago. But if we're going to consider even just moments of relapse, then I would have to say that I'm probably only really 8 months successfully sober. I hope you have a wonderful day and that you continue to feel great about all the hard work you're putting in!! Keep killin' it! 😊❤

    • @liverdisease-qb6rk
      @liverdisease-qb6rk  Месяц назад +2

      Hey there!!! You are absolutely right!!!! Just keep pushing forward!!! All that hard work did not go down the tubes!!! I love your mindset my friend!!!! Thank you for having the courage to share!!! It helps so many others know that they aren't alone! God bless❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

    • @HelloooooTURDS
      @HelloooooTURDS Месяц назад

      @@liverdisease-qb6rk Thank you. Since getting sober, Ive adopted a morning routine of brushing my teeth, washing my face and going for a run, its miniscule, but its worked. I made sure to do the exact same thing the morning after I drank (I bartended a wedding and took a few shots with the family that Im aquanted to). Yes, I fucked up, but I let my partner know right away and made sure that it wasnt going to stop my journey because I stumbled. In the past, Ive been so hard on myself for Relapsing that I would just keep drinking. But Im over the labels, "technicalities and rules" thrusted upon us when getting sober, often by other alcoholics (reason why AA is not for me) and I just want to do it the best I can. I almost feel like every fall is a lesson to learn from- like hey, maybe I shouldnt work anymore events where Im bartending, you know? We just gotta keep moving forward. And watching your videos and reading comments on here daily, has been a real help. Thank you LD, I hope youre feeling better 😚

  • @bman-jy3gh
    @bman-jy3gh Месяц назад +3

    No deals with alcohol! Great video, thanks

  • @antonyhillson1273
    @antonyhillson1273 Месяц назад

    Im 82 days sober had enlarged liver and spleen found out i have iron overload its all improving slowly i drank 6 days a week for years and my family were just viewers your channel make me not feel sorry for myself and your stories help many your channel is great the world needs more people like you

    • @liverdisease-qb6rk
      @liverdisease-qb6rk  Месяц назад

      Congratulations on 82 days!!!! That's awesome! Glad to hear that your health is improving!!! God bless😊😊😊

  • @marjilaplante9579
    @marjilaplante9579 Месяц назад +6

    Listening now and wishing you the best always♥️

    • @liverdisease-qb6rk
      @liverdisease-qb6rk  Месяц назад +1

      Thank you so much for listening and thank you for the well wishes!!! God bless❤❤❤❤

  • @glutitis
    @glutitis Месяц назад +6

    I had a totally different, although equally stupid mindset. I would tell myself, every time, I had clean time under my belt, that the whole withdrawal drama was nothing. Easy. Did it once, can do it again. Here I was, back on drugs again. So stupid. I am so happy, that, I finally feel it. Being free from that rodeo. Love from good old Germany, L D. And special greetings to all addicts, that suffer right now. I know, it sounds rediculous to you people, but don't give up. I needed almost 40 years to do it. I am so glad, to be alive ❤
    ( To hear you talking about that little one in your shoulder really scares me. I think your liver and surrounding organs would instantly react in a very painful way. That scares me. And, I do not want to sound like a weird Stan😂)

    • @liverdisease-qb6rk
      @liverdisease-qb6rk  Месяц назад +2

      Hey glutitis!!!! So good to see you today!!! I know exactly what you mean. I am so happy for you!!!! To read the part where you said that you are finally free, put a smile on my face!!! Thank you so much for sharing and I hope that you have a wonderful rest of your day! God bless❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

  • @judithnicholais1492
    @judithnicholais1492 Месяц назад +1

    In my stop smoking group we say DO NOT FLIRT WITH SMOKING - DRINKING THOUGHTS -- Don't feed them OR DWELL ---I always say Don't tie Tails on our Kites ---- And try to see thoughts as clouds that float in and can float right on out with out our touching them --- ** IF we develop a breathing Practice -- watching the breath all day ( it gets easier than what it sounds ) it keeps Us out of Mind .. I am a fan of a Mindfulness approach and have become more devoted to the breath more recently --- great way to relax the body -- and stay out of mind. The land of Ideas -- let's just say I"m not a big Fan --- Great Message today LD . thank you

  • @micki45melanson91
    @micki45melanson91 Месяц назад +1

    U make me feel like I'm not only one. I love ur advice

  • @78trav
    @78trav Месяц назад +3

    A friend of mine had a beer coozie that said " A day without a buzz is a day that never was". I'm finally beginning to realize how wrong that is, even though I haven't quit yet. We appreciate you as well!❤

    • @liverdisease-qb6rk
      @liverdisease-qb6rk  Месяц назад +3

      Thank you!!!!❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ I appreciate you more than you will ever know my friend! God bless

    • @kotameaders995
      @kotameaders995 Месяц назад +1

      The opposite is true. A day WITH a buzz is actually 2 days that never were because you don’t remember much of the buzzed day, and then the next day is spent being miserable and hungover.

  • @SteveMulready
    @SteveMulready Месяц назад +1

    Comfort and routine is my reasoning for stashing in same place

  • @robertbrooks6167
    @robertbrooks6167 Месяц назад +1

    We keep what we have only with vigilance - the action or state of keeping careful watch for possible danger or difficulties

  • @almaconnor9171
    @almaconnor9171 Месяц назад +5

    The “I have to get drunk days”, lol, oh, how I remember those goodies.

    • @almaconnor9171
      @almaconnor9171 Месяц назад +3

      And I still have the little devil, after YEARS. Alcohol is a spirit; I say it’s an EVIL one.

    • @liverdisease-qb6rk
      @liverdisease-qb6rk  Месяц назад +2

      ​@@almaconnor9171💯. That'd why they are called spirits!❤

  • @FoodieBeautyStan
    @FoodieBeautyStan Месяц назад +5

    Thank you saying what i needed to hear today.

    • @liverdisease-qb6rk
      @liverdisease-qb6rk  Месяц назад +1

      You're so welcome my friend!!!! Thank you for watching! God bless❤❤❤

  • @cheryldeanley2074
    @cheryldeanley2074 Месяц назад +3

    Hey G I enjoyed the video today. I definitely need constant reminders of what its like to relapse. I didn't today and I thank you for that! Love ya ❤❤❤

    • @liverdisease-qb6rk
      @liverdisease-qb6rk  Месяц назад +2

      Hey jersey girl!!!! I am so proud of you!!! I need them myself!!! You are so welcome and I hope you are having a great day!!!! See ya tomorrow!!! God bless ❤❤❤❤

  • @JoeyArmegeddon
    @JoeyArmegeddon Месяц назад +1

    Hey dude, been watching your videos since I started this sobriety thing, 2 months now. I have non alcoholic beers in the fridge for when I get the urge, it’s worth a try. For me it has satisfied the itch.

  • @Manos-de-Piedra
    @Manos-de-Piedra Месяц назад +4

    Hope you are well brother

    • @liverdisease-qb6rk
      @liverdisease-qb6rk  Месяц назад +1

      Doing well my friend! Thank you! Same to you! God bless❤❤❤

  • @truthseeker6370
    @truthseeker6370 Месяц назад +1

    Thank you for sharing your truth...which is All Our Truths. The Demon Sleeping Giant is ALWAYS waiting for us to come back to him.

  • @patrickcoyne5696
    @patrickcoyne5696 Месяц назад +1

    It's tough mate.

  • @Aeoniik
    @Aeoniik 15 дней назад

    LD For you, and I, this is a zero sum game. We simply cannot, ever, use again. For our health. Never forget it brother ❤

  • @johnerickson3336
    @johnerickson3336 Месяц назад +1

    I really needed to hear this. I just had surgery on my knee yesterday because I fell going down some steps and landed on my knee. I”ll be out of work for months. I fell because I was drunk. I’ve been sober for about 11 days now, but I’m really wanting to sit on the couch and drink beer like I’ve done everyday for the last few years. Unreal

    • @liverdisease-qb6rk
      @liverdisease-qb6rk  Месяц назад

      Congratulations on 11 days my friend!!! You have got this!!!! God bless❤️❤️❤️

  • @byrongraham9708
    @byrongraham9708 Месяц назад +6

    One drink is all it takes.

  • @CMoore8539
    @CMoore8539 Месяц назад +1

    Thumbs Up 👍 and shared out.❤

    • @liverdisease-qb6rk
      @liverdisease-qb6rk  Месяц назад +1

      Thank you cindy!!!! Hope your day is going well!!!! God bless❤️❤️❤️

  • @Jimmypagesgreat
    @Jimmypagesgreat Месяц назад

    I work in the long term residential wing of my hospital, the kitchen to be specific, and as i was gathering dishes from the residential dining room there on the tv was an ad for this tequila, i just immediately looked away and went about my work.

  • @Grybyx
    @Grybyx Месяц назад +2

    A famous person 100 years ago said " a woman drove me to drink and I didn't have the decency to thank her ". Not funny in reality.

  • @micki45melanson91
    @micki45melanson91 Месяц назад +1

    You are awesome i have to try harder. Liver disease and still!!!!!!

  • @chrisgmusic4God
    @chrisgmusic4God Месяц назад +5

    Man the truth really hurts. I’m fighting to keep my job because my dumbass did what you’re speaking of. Damn it hurts so bad when you’ve lost the ability to provide for your family because of your (mine) drinking. I hate it but yet still have cravings. And still drink again. It makes no sense.

    • @liverdisease-qb6rk
      @liverdisease-qb6rk  Месяц назад +1

      Hey Chris! I'm so sorry to hear that my friend. That has to be so rough to deal with. I hope that you can find your way my friend. There is light at the end of the tunnel, I promise. Hang in there, keep watching. I am praying for you, I know you can do this! Thank you for sharing. God bless❤️❤️❤️❤️

  • @stanleycostello9610
    @stanleycostello9610 Месяц назад +4

    Highest test beer. I never thought of it that way. As far as hiding bottles in the same place, I think it's because when we're so drunk that if we hide the bottles in a different place we forget where we hid them.

  • @pyenygren2299
    @pyenygren2299 Месяц назад +4

    Here I am, delivering algorithm food.

  • @doubleBFishing
    @doubleBFishing Месяц назад +2

    I love watching you so much LD do you know stevo from jck ass his story is crazzzzzyyyy but one big thing that he says is that he's scared to be forgotten and stuff so he takes all his videos and all that stuff he says that he's going to live forever because even passed his death his videos and stuff are still out there and could impact somebody's lives and all that and that's exactly what you're going to do no matter what it could be a hundred years from now your videos will still be up and they could potentially still be helping people thats just something I like think about a lot cuz I'm super scared of death and I have videos on my fishing channel I have videos on my gaming channel
    you're still going to be able to help people years and years and years and years down the road

  • @jmart604
    @jmart604 Месяц назад +1

    It’s so crazy how much I find in common cause I’m an alcoholic myself
    I did great for 2 months got cocky then went right back into the viscous cycle I was once on
    My fiancé gave my COUNTLESS chances and I ruined every single one of them
    Secrets out
    My family and hers know
    And they don’t trust me(rightfully so)
    But I’m starting today
    Alcohol is NOT my friend I’m sick and tired of being sick and tired. I appreciate your videos so much like you wouldn’t believe.

    • @liverdisease-qb6rk
      @liverdisease-qb6rk  Месяц назад +1

      Hey jmart! It's crazy how much we have in common. It really is. You have got this my friend! I believe in you!!!!! Thank you for sharing and I am praying for you!!!! God bless❤️❤️❤️❤️

  • @daviddimbleby6725
    @daviddimbleby6725 Месяц назад

    Thanks man ❤

  • @deniserusinski5354
    @deniserusinski5354 Месяц назад +4

    Happened to someone I know. 20+years and within months he was back full fledge drinker. Something triggers in the brain they say.

    • @liverdisease-qb6rk
      @liverdisease-qb6rk  Месяц назад

      Oh no denise! That is so sad. It can happen, in a second, everything can change. Thank you for sharing! God bless ❤❤❤❤

  • @amandaflaherty7528
    @amandaflaherty7528 Месяц назад +1

    Thank you, LD! What a great reminder. I never want to go back to the living hell I was in before I turned over a new leaf. I dont want that for anyone here. The risk that we take every time we relapse isn't worth the moment we are seeking when we get the urge to drink. I can remember how easy it was to strip myself of my humanity just to feel blanketed in a false sense of security. It didn't matter that i was isolating myself, it didnt matter that I wasn't really living. Being with family meant that I was losing time to drink. It didn't matter to me what people thought about me. I didn't want to be around people for the most part! And then when i did, i had already pushed everyone so far away that i didnt think i was aloud to reach for them anymore (thank god i was wrong). I was working so hard just to go home and kill myself slowly and pretend that I was enjoying it. Never again!! Love you, my friend! And i love everyone here. You're worth investing in yourself and saying no to that little devil on your shoulder. ❤❤❤❤

    • @liverdisease-qb6rk
      @liverdisease-qb6rk  Месяц назад +1

      You are absolutely right Amanda!!!! Thank you for this wonderful comment!!! That life is not worth going back to. Ever!!!!! Thank you!!! God bless❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

    • @amandaflaherty7528
      @amandaflaherty7528 Месяц назад

      @@liverdisease-qb6rk Gid bless you, too, LD!! ❤️❤️❤️

  • @krislic84
    @krislic84 Месяц назад +1

    This is so true! Jacket pockets, under mattress, in between towels or in drawers, in bushes, in underwear.. You just name it. And always an excuse to go to store or leave house.

  • @Kristen10-22
    @Kristen10-22 Месяц назад +6

    I have a headache and would love some pain meds.
    Don’t worry everybody knows not to give them to me. No nostalgia
    I’d lose my fam & b under a bridge

    • @liverdisease-qb6rk
      @liverdisease-qb6rk  Месяц назад +2

      I know exactly how you feel..... it's not worth it!!! Thank you Kristen! God bless❤❤❤

    • @Kristen10-22
      @Kristen10-22 Месяц назад

      @@liverdisease-qb6rk nope
      Devil hasn’t caught us yet! He isn’t getting me back. Nope

  • @lichin11
    @lichin11 Месяц назад +1

    With the history you have with alcohol and the way you communicate, have you thought about trying to contact Rich Roll or someone like him to share your story? He would be perfect for conveying your message while growing your channel. BTW, I've had a problem with alcohol since 2014 or earlier. My normal day is around 40-50 ounces of red wine (steering clear of liquor to help stay alive, but wine kills too). NA beer is my current drink for the past week, trying to stack those NA days between "normal" drinking.

  • @setharp
    @setharp 23 дня назад

    What you're speaking about here resonates so much with me. I would hide stuff. I would feel the guilt. I felt like crap in the mornings. Granted I didn't get the level that you were at but I am 100% sure I would have had I continued down that path. I am now close to 6 months sober. I feel so much better. My blood pressure is now way down. I've lost at least 10 pounds. But the most important thing is that I am now a better partner to my wife. A question I had for you is have you stopped smoking. That is just as bad , if not even worse, than the drinking. It WILL kill you. Half of my family smoked. All of them are dead. Dead from lung cancer, emphysema and heart disease. So if you haven't, use that same go-to gumption you have had for stopping drinking.

  • @KaraLey98
    @KaraLey98 Месяц назад +1

    How interesting that you describe the feeling you get from drinking as euphoric because I just do not get that at all. I’m not an alcoholic have never been one but anytime I’ve had anything to drink. I feel a little bit confused.a little dizzy, then tired, sometimes sleepy NEVER EUPHORIC and so the only time I have a sip of alcohol is at my brother’s house on Thanksgiving so i won’t be an ungrateful guest who spoils the party.
    That’s not to say I don’t have a vice though.

  • @Kristen10-22
    @Kristen10-22 Месяц назад +4

    That thought is the initial start of a possible relapse.
    Start the shame cycle again
    Google actions of relapse
    It shows the cycle

  • @thesundreamers8423
    @thesundreamers8423 Месяц назад +1

    Man, sometimes I think you live inside my head because everything you say is like you are speaking exactly what goes on inside my head.

    • @liverdisease-qb6rk
      @liverdisease-qb6rk  Месяц назад

      Hey man!!!! Long time no see!!!! I hope you are doing well!!! It's crazy how much we all have in common!!!! God bless❤️❤️❤️❤️

    • @thesundreamers8423
      @thesundreamers8423 Месяц назад

      @@liverdisease-qb6rk Dude I think about you literally every day. You are like my Atown (code) SC brother. I still struggle along tittering on the edge of the fence line. On one shoulder I have me telling me where I want to go. On the other I have you. I love you bro. You have become a part of my battle in a positive way. How’s your case? Need me?

    • @liverdisease-qb6rk
      @liverdisease-qb6rk  Месяц назад

      @thesundreamers8423 thank you for that my friend! I really do appreciate it! I'm so happy that I can help in any way! I'll reach out to you on Instagram. Love you too brother!!!! God bless❤️❤️❤️❤️

  • @JonnyChaos
    @JonnyChaos Месяц назад +3

    It's your addict trying to tell you 'beers not so bad compared to spirits, so just have a beer' then it will instantly drag you back to liquor.

    • @liverdisease-qb6rk
      @liverdisease-qb6rk  Месяц назад +2

      You are absolutely right jonny!!!! 100 percent correct. Not going back to that! Thank you! God bless❤❤❤

  • @WallOrange
    @WallOrange Месяц назад

    34 year old man named chad from my local group died last week. RIP. others have said that he seemed to be doing fine recently.

    • @liverdisease-qb6rk
      @liverdisease-qb6rk  Месяц назад

      Oh no. My Chad rest in peace. Thank you for sharing. God bless❤️❤️❤️❤️

  • @marjilaplante9579
    @marjilaplante9579 Месяц назад +3

    Oh so very sad!

  • @ThisIsGutz
    @ThisIsGutz Месяц назад

    Been thinking about beer all day today myself, so it's kinda crazy that I just stumbled upon this video today. I'll have 7 weeks of sobriety this coming Sunday, the longest I've been sober before this is 3 weeks which was a couple years back. I've relapsed too many times in the past and know all too well how the game works. I refuse to give in to the thoughts of "I can have just a few beers and have it under control" because it's bullshit and I know it, I've fallen for that shit too many times to not know. I'm gonna be 28 in a couple months, I still got a whole life ahead of me to live, and I refuse to let the drink rob me of that life.

    • @liverdisease-qb6rk
      @liverdisease-qb6rk  Месяц назад +1

      That so awesome!!! Congratulations on 7 weeks my friend!!! Thank you for watching and I hope you continue to hang out!!! God bless😊😊😊

  • @lisagreene1458
    @lisagreene1458 Месяц назад

    I know exactly what you mean!

  • @irishkk88
    @irishkk88 Месяц назад +1

    Ive been watching a lot of your videos. You look so much better than you did a year ago! I enjoy watching you because everything you say reminds me of my brother. Even that you both drank and handle of vodka per day plus some.
    My question for you is how are you now vs 8 months ago? Are you still incredibly tired a lot? Kind of wondering if my brothers exhaustion will improve or if this is it forever. Also, do they still say you have limited time left?

  • @Kristen10-22
    @Kristen10-22 Месяц назад +4

    ❤❤❤

  • @penny7537
    @penny7537 Месяц назад +2

    I would tell myself that I'll only drink on the weekend. It never worked out

  • @tjs1189
    @tjs1189 Месяц назад +5

    I would like to hear about how you felt about drinking when you were in the thick of it. Like for me, leading up to my first pour of the day I would get really anxious as ask myself “what the hell am I doing I don’t even want it” and then I would pour it, and it almost felt out of body. Then I would get a couple drinks in and I would feel great and think about how alcohol is almost like my medicine. But then I would go to bed mad at myself and wake up disgusted that I did it again. Rinse repeat. (Apologies if you’ve already spoken about this). I’m day 17 by the way, and loving your content.

    • @paulandrew4415
      @paulandrew4415 Месяц назад +3

      Hey good luck to you, we've all been there

    • @liverdisease-qb6rk
      @liverdisease-qb6rk  Месяц назад +1

      Hey tjs! I will talk about this in tomorrow's video, just for you. Thank you for the idea!!! And... conditions on 17 days my friend!!🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉 that's amazing!!!! God bless❤❤❤❤

    • @tjs1189
      @tjs1189 Месяц назад +2

      @@liverdisease-qb6rk awesome and thank you! That was my daily routine for years while my kids were babies and toddlers. I tried to stop a lot of times and it never stuck. Now I’m on day 17 of a one year sober commitment I’ve made to myself. I want to never drink again but that’s too much to commit to for me right now. I’m hoping this year turns into many more (that’s my plan I just haven’t told my alcohol monster yet). I haven’t rock bottom’d so far, but I know I will if I don’t stop, especially with how my mind always tries to trick me into drinking. That’s my alcohol monster in action, with all the manipulation and lies. Anyways thanks for the reply and looking forward to your thoughts 👊

  • @SwedishBlackMetal
    @SwedishBlackMetal Месяц назад

    Good point with the beer excuse! I managed to just drink a couple of beers for years, BUT this is still highly toxic to the body. Beer is the most addictive drink since it tastes so good, so beer will most definitely get one hooked (again).
    I found out that the Corona Zero 00% is a good alcohol free beer, which I sometimes buy - great beer taste without any side effects and regret.
    I got myself into daily weight lifting workouts and mountainbiking, so alcohol has no meaning to me anymore! Sometimes I still crave it after a stressful day though, but then I feel powerful when I resist.

  • @discoverdevlin2289
    @discoverdevlin2289 Месяц назад +2

    Those voice’s in your head are demons trying to destroy your life. Ask Saint Michael the Archangel to intercede:
    "St. Michael the Archangel, defend us in battle. Be our defense against the wickedness and snares of the Devil. May God rebuke him, we humbly pray, and do thou, O Prince of the heavenly hosts, by the power of God, thrust into hell Satan, and all the evil spirits, who prowl about the world seeking the ruin of souls. Amen

  • @강경화-j8s
    @강경화-j8s Месяц назад

    Check out Bat Country and Delirium Dan .

  • @chrisgmusic4God
    @chrisgmusic4God Месяц назад +2

    God bless you bro. How did you really get your wife to stop hating your guts? Mayans she didn’t. But mine does and I don’t know how to make the triggering and trauma moments stop.

    • @liverdisease-qb6rk
      @liverdisease-qb6rk  Месяц назад +1

      Hey Chris. It took time. That's what it took. She still has some problems that we need to work out. Trust... and time. I hope that things work out! God bless❤❤❤❤

  • @78trav
    @78trav Месяц назад +2

    Im halfway through my 15 pack of Natty light today. My excuse today is my right eye is hurting today. Didn't get much sleep last night. I'll try to taper some more tomorrow.

    • @liverdisease-qb6rk
      @liverdisease-qb6rk  Месяц назад +1

      Hey 78trav. I understand. It's ok. You have made the first step. Just by watching this video my friend! Cheers to tomorrow..... it's a new day and the possibilities are endless!!!! Keep me posted on how you are doing please. Thank you for sharing. God bless❤️❤️❤️❤️

    • @78trav
      @78trav Месяц назад

      @@liverdisease-qb6rk will do man! ❤️

  • @deniserusinski5354
    @deniserusinski5354 Месяц назад

    Just remembered something, my daughter dated a guy. He was sober, but then things started to happen and not make sense. We'll sure enough he started drinking. And things started happening. So she had to break it off. It's been 11 years. And we all say, what a shame because when he was not drinking, he was the most awesome helpful, productive, wonderful person you want to meet. We'll he is in jail and will be there for at least 15 years because drinking made him do something really really bad. He lost everything. Sad,sad,sad. We say omg what a shame.

  • @sdrgthb
    @sdrgthb Месяц назад

    Thanks again Chef. Did you have severe withdrawals for a couple days when you stopped? That’s what scares me. Can I detox in a week? I have work. Thanks brother.

    • @liverdisease-qb6rk
      @liverdisease-qb6rk  Месяц назад

      You are so welcome! I would go through horrible wds. I can't say my friend, it all depends on how much, how long. I would definitely speak to a Dr. Just be safe my friend! God bless❤️❤️❤️

  • @Shillmehowtolive
    @Shillmehowtolive Месяц назад

    25 days since my last relapse. I can’t go back..