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- Опубликовано: 8 июл 2024
- we’re all frightened. that’s okay. let’s stay indoors and watch me talk about my rapidly depleting sense of self and bionicles. we can all get a bit lost in the woods sometimes x
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"it's not like i hate myself, i just don't know who i am" i so wonderfully heartbreakingly honest and true
we all felt that
@@saramartins95 escapists all of us are
I understand that feeling. Except that I've been feeling like that for the past 3.5 years
felt that way my whole life lol
yeah I felt that
it’s like that thing with the bus: when you want a bus, there’s no bus, but when you *do* want a bus there’s-
This happens to me every day and it's almost infuriating
There's - someone to mug you on it
BUSES EVERYWHERE!!!!😂😭
bless him
Listen to No buses by Arctic Monkeys
great video bert. big kisses
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@@BertieGilbert1 hey im from morocco i just want to tell u that u have a beautiful smile
@@BertieGilbert1 u
This reminds me of the film Barbie as the island princess. There’s a part where her elephant (yes her elephant) is distressed because she thinks Barbie is going to forget about her when she goes off with the prince. Then Barbie sings to the elephant about there always being more love inside of you. *Moral of the story, any time your going through a crisis , indulge in some barbie elephant existentialism.*
Fatema Begum Zaman that’s beautiful. if barbie can share, so can i
God I love that film and this comment
I thought the same thing while I was watching 😂
That was my favourite film growing up wow
Sorry for being dumb but did she basically just tell her elephant “girl just love yourself, queen” as in just move on and get your own life? Which is good advice but still so brutal lmao
"i become intensely passionate about specific things for a brief period of time and then i move on"
i haven never related so much to bertie than with that statement
Lou Shipp I do the same thing. Recently, I learned that it’s something called hyperfixation. If you’re curious, I felt like I understood myself a little better after researching it, so maybe you will too.
kaijuno damn ive done this for a long time and never knew this was a thing.. thanks a lot
Dxyn all good! I’m glad you learned something new
@@dxyn8695 thanks a lot! +5 for ur karma :)
Wow
Even though this was a really lulling talk, you kept my attention so well with all the cuts and swaps. Never directly addressing the problem but explaining it so vividly. Beautiful
Bethany Lara so glad you liked it! was nervous that this stream of consciousness, very loose approach would end up feeling pointless/a little meandering
@@BertieGilbert1 (didn't get a notif about this reply so apologies for the lateness 😄 far too polite)
sometime that can be the best thing though! It's a lot easier to connect with for some people and also, if something doesn't make sense on a basic level, it allows people to digest it in an alternative way that will fit their own narrative so it can find people in a way you never thought! I love pointless stuff 😊
Bertie be like: lemme just build a lego thanos in an abandoned ass building
exactly
What’s an ass building
@@jade728 school
@@nefos8531 brilliant
I don’t know if this is helpful but when I was 21 I didn’t know who I was, when I was 25 I thought I knew who I was, then I turned 27 and found out that was wrong - when I’m 30 I’ll probably cringe compassionately at the person I think I am now. Guess I’m just trying to say it’s never too late to find out / decide who you are- and if you don’t like yourself now, the good news is that change is painful and if you’re going through something painful/uncomfortable you’re probably in the process of changing / going through something that will make you change. Idk man, this made sense in my head. Please keep searching, expressing, going for it. don’t give up. your best days are ahead of you. we care about you. Stop murdering obi wan. Stay safe
Someone once told a friend of mine, after meeting me many times: "I like Bob, but every time I meet him he's a different person."
thank you random dude from the internet
This was helpful, I'm 27 and lost.
Thank you, this helped me a lot. I've always been lost and didn't know who I am and looking back at my past selves I always cringe as you said because i changed so much. It's like I'm in a constant midlife crisis xD
Thanks bro. This helps. I wrote it in my journal ❤️❤️
i was talking about this with my therapist last week. lately i feel like i'm not myself because i have a lot of walls up. i'm very private about the kind of things i enjoy. like my music taste, my taste in films, even though it feels really cathartic to meet people who like the same things as me, i keep it to myself most of the time. but i feel like i do have a tendency to let my interests shape my ENTIRE personality, like other things invent me rather than i invent myself, you know? but i don't really know where to start to build my own personality lol. BIG QUESTIONS! it feels nice to not feel alone though. i've been following you since your ol' vlog days (lol) and even though i'm kind of a 'silent' viewer, it feels really comforting that someone i've been following a long time feels the same kinda way as me. thank u for everything x
I relate to this so much, especially about keeping my interests private. And sometimes i think if I'm not good enough at a hobby of mine, I let it define who I am which is really bad especially since these are the things that are supposed to bring me joy, I think these videos are helping me reflect how I see myself haha
freya f-e “other things invent me rather than I invent myself” whew I felt that so much. I’ve never heard it worded like that and I really really related. But sometimes I also wonder, isn’t that what happens with everyone? We’re all shaped by our encounters with other people and our different environments and experiences in life, so in many ways I feel like we’re all amalgamations of those different things. Sometimes I feel like what we’d call our “personality” is consisted by the elements that constitute our “self” down to its very core, and that is shaped and expanded upon through all the things we experience throughout our lives, like music we listen to, movies we watch that stay with us, other people in our lives... those things do influence us a lot of the time and some of them shape our personality but that doesn’t mean it’s not “our own” personality. After all, our unique personality is what determines which experiences will influence us, and which will not play a significant part our story. Sorry for the long text. Much love 🤍
I don't know if it's really possible to completely invent yourself. It sounds like a lot of pressure though. Maybe there's no amount of self-reflection or soul searching that can accurately show us the people we'll want to be tomorrow. Maybe the best we can hope to do is to honor the people we feel like today.
Or maybe we are all destined to be something specific and if we don't find that thing, we'll die unfulfilled.
I've heard a lot of autistic/aspie ppl describing smth similar to wht u guys are tlkng abt here
But isn't that how a personality is made? Your experiences, likes and dislikes kinda make who you are.
your ability to articulate things that ruminate constantly in my brain always brings me such comfort
a very lovely comment, thank you
Put ruminate in there for no reason just to feel deep and smart
Still stuck on how your two "FRIENDS" knew you were gonna get mugged and did nothing to help you?????
i had my mum pick me up from the bus stop for months after that, thanks JOE and HUGO (that was their names)
@@BertieGilbert1 i bet the bus stop lady was in on it too
@@HugoDockingDocs 😂😑
Notice how he says ‘was’ their names..🧐🤔 sounds like a double revenge murder to me Bertie. A murder on the double decker express if you will x
The lady who didn’t let you borrow her phone feels like she should belong in a comedy sketch show. Absolutely hilarious.
NO REMORSE
@@BertieGilbert1 you coulda learnt a thing or two from her >..
Ok but that obsessiveness for brief periods of time over random things is something I can really relate to! To the point of where I can track my life three what game/movie/tv show/band/celebrity I was obsessed with. And no one I know seems to have it as obsessively as I do...
i used to cope with things by immersing myself in different hobbies or peices of media for brief but intense periods of time and trying to make that "thing" into my personality for a while
im getting a bit better at just liking things casually but everytime something goes wrong in my life i seem to just cling to things and ideas and try to become them for a while to escape
so i guess what im saying is i get it? lol
sorry for the unnecessary paragraph but im pretty tired so ive got no filter
it’s bad iwhen you meat a new friend and that thing your obsessed with is a huge part of your personality and they just don’t get that it changes and ‘don’t recongnise ,’ the new you or whatever
Hannah Burden believe me.. we dont know each other... but i do
Oh yeah same😂
@@RoLaarr i do that more than i like to admit...
rn its w star wars LMAO
wowie look at bertie back at it again with another relatable existential crysys masterpiece of a video... feel ya bud
i really should just calm down
nahnahnahnah you should keep going... I mean how else are you gonna get that emotional honnesty
I know he's talking about a bunch of random things but his thoughts seem so organised(?) I don't know I've always envied that about Bertie
My analogy for this was how sometimes you just really can't figure out your music taste and you go through all your playlists but none of the songs feel enjoyable anymore like "I'm only listening to this because I liked it in the past. I don't actually like this now. What do I like right now? What is my music taste like? I don't know. I won't know till I find the next song/band that I fall in love with.."
Srishti Sinha bloody hell thats my entire taste in music summed up
it could be because you're going through a phase where music just doesn't cut it. it'll come back if you want it to . roll with it my man, i'm sure it's the universe letting you know there's other things out there for you to discover x
Thank you, this is beautifully honest. I feel like as a young adult I am constantly in a state of fear ( although, as you mentioned, that is not to say there aren't things which bring me happiness); more specifically a fear of wasting time and not living life to the best of my ability. Which ironically stops me from living all together as I get too obsessed with what a good use of time qualifies as. I feel guilty when I don't achieve anything in a day and can't comfortably sit and do nothing.
I guess I'm just wondering if anyone else feels this?
Melissa Magg can 100% relate. i think it’s important to try and nurture a healthy relationship with the idea of success. collaborate with the universe, don’t let arbitrary things completely dictate your happiness
@@BertieGilbert1 thanks for taking the time to answer xx Yes I agree, this need for success is a constant stress, especially when studying Fine art ahhh. I guess it is easy to be self-deprecating when creating, so I'll work on improving my relationship with the idea before I go insane :)
I love your work and look forward to seeing future projects x
So relatable! Let's hope we'll find a way to carry on, despite questions unanswered! Take care :)
That's exactly how i feel, my anxiety is awful at the minute because of it and I particularly struggled today. I'm obviously not glad that you feel like this but it's comforting to know I'm not the only one. Let's keep going x
Anne-Laure
I'm glad you and Sav are still on RUclips. I really appreciate this sort of content.
we need to feed our cat
@@BertieGilbert1 and feed us
"It's not like I hate myself, I just don't know who I am" That hits deep. You can't hate a person if you don't know who they are. Maybe we distract ourelves because getting to know ourselves bring a possibility that we are people that we hate.
i just clicked on this but i can confirm that the title is correct
"Do you remember furbies"
Me positioning my long furby so I can clean: no
We're all stupid and boring? Not me, bro. I'm built different 😤
YES, NICE
@LaytonChronicles
You most certainly are, and your channel shows it. I've subscribed. Glad to have found you. =-)
the intensely liking things for a period of time really reminds me of special interests, they're interests autistic people (like myself) get and can get super excited over & can go on about for hours, sometimes it's one interest forever but for me i have different things at different times. they can heavily define periods in my life, like in my memory some things are during the hunger games era and others are during the snail era. (thought u might find this interesting (: )
I can relate to this to some extent, although I am not autistic. I can timeline my life using all my interests and obsessions. I could be so distracting, honestly. I have this problem:
Often I have to work on a particular project, as I study at university, and I simply cannot focus on my task, because I am thinking about my current interest, practically daydreaming and thinking about how my life could change if I made that area or hobby my main thing.
The good thing is that I still am very interested in my field of study and I try to treat it as a constant obsession, taking different branches of it as a "current topic". I study Architecture so I sometimes get obsessed with Photoshop or Illustrator and spend tons of time on RUclips learning some tricks, or I would watch history of architecture documentaries, or just sketch some stuff, or make my own research about different materials or even architects.
It gets really hard however, when I watch all seasons of Masterchef or other cooking shows and then cook for every meal of the day or read about Ancient Egypt or decide to watch all films in which Tilda Swinton has participated, or watch Video Analysis on paintings and artists, films, and all sorts of stuff which has nothing to do with architecture. I have been trying to pick up a new language for a few years now unsuccessfully, for this same reason. I just never continue. Something else comes and occupies my mind. I really have to work hard to bring myself back to architecture sometimes, because in life you have to be persistent about your "thing" in order to become good in it and build a name for yourself. It brings me so much anxiety. I often think that nothing would come out of me, when I try to speak to my mother about my interests, she says that I am filling my head with nonesense.
I can personally justify this occurence with my form of education (at school we used to learn all subjects, from Literature and Philosophy, to Advanced Mathematics, Programming and Chemistry) and the Internet which is constantly feeding us with endless quantities of information. I find it really overwhelming...
why is this an all encompassing expose on my entire personality
milo i actually felt so attacked. the obsession thing (drag race bionicles and the democratic primary ?? how dare you??) the lame torment joke..the lego suicide ?? i feel exposed
re: a deteriorating sense of self - today I had the thought that I've been approaching the question of "who am I?" from the wrong direction. I've been coming at it like this is something I have to uncover, as though there's an intrinsic me I haven't yet figured out, and once I do find that person I'll be happier/complete/etc. but now I'm thinking that it would be better to ask, do I like the person I am now? and, if not, who do I want to be?
... which is still horrifically daunting. I've got no clue how to answer that. (does anybody?) nor do I feel like I've got anything to say to anyone. so I guess we're in this together. like, do I just chase the things I enjoy and hope that leads somewhere? do I try to force it? anyway I liked your story about getting mugged. it was an awful thing but you certainly have a knack for storytelling. good luck pal
i feel like we could have a long conversation. this is how my mind works, like, all the time.
I left uni in June and honestly have just felt so hopelessly lost ever since, not sure what I want to do or who I am, don't have enough money to have a place of my own, kinda feel like I'm floating through life, not unhappy like you said but just not really anything 🤷♀️ hits deep huh
i was just stress baking and then had a mini breakdown bc i couldn't find any chocolate chips and then i opened youtube and watched this and,,,,,,,,,,yes
may you one day find chocolate chips again x
I have this thing with the Olympics like I was watching ceremonies and competitions non-stop for the past week.
coertendre that’s kinda similar to when i was obsessed with drag race! i found the competition aspect really interesting. stats make sense, stats can’t hurt you
girl, you have done it again. constantly raising the bar for us all, and doing it flawlessly
it's ok it's alright to be stupid and boring.. in one's self, that is probably ones most true self anyway, and if people are not nice to you, then they have no sense of humour to be stupid and boring with you, Find people hom love you as you are and leave the rest.
I'm lost too.. I feel the same, and your message is thought provoking, in a funny good way, helpful.
My college went online because of the corona virus so we all have to move out and I’m the last of my roommates to leave so my room is very empty and depressing to look at. Feeling a bit sad BUT your videos cheer me up immensely!!!! Very thankful for all you put into the world!!!!!!
happy to help! hope to continue to do so for years to come x
that’s literally me right now all of my roommates left this morning and i just finished packing all day
All men in their 20's have an inevitable rekindling with bionicles
This was so interesting to watch, mostly because it’s how I talk so it was weird seeing it in someone else but also I love the shots you got it’s all so aesthetically pleasing :)
ok why is no one talking about how stunning and pleasing the colors on the videos are
This video is my spirit animal when it’s 2am and I’ve forgot how to love things
There is no "true self" so trying to define who you are is ultimately pointless lmao. Accepting this helps I think. Great video (:
Megan agreed, people think you “find” yourself but really you create yourself.
I... love how soothing this is, the way you shot it, the way your voice sounded, and the general atmosphere. Its languid and slow paced, until you realize that what you're hearing is your truth as well, and suddenly it becomes like a trap that makes me think more and more and more. It's like you present these ideas and I'm like, oh cool. And then, Oh shit. Its me, thats me, thats what im at right now and i dont know how to get out of it. and its scary and shit but watching you reminisce about childhood toys-- with cuts from old commercials-- its like youre looking at the past and youre trying to find yourself in those past memories, because thats when you're most sure of yourself, and of your 'self'?
I find it very special when at a certain time of our existence, one of the very cautiously picked humans I'm subscribed to feels exactly the same as I do. Right now, it just so happens to be you, Bertie.
'lego suicide' is my new aesthetic
maariya khalid same
Ahhh lovely. It’s 8am on Sunday in Australia so this is fab timing thanks Bertie
wonderful news
First video I’ve seen of yours and I specifically love the color, the music, and the editing.
the weird panicked nostalgia vibe to this video is very relateable considering when it was made
im currently trying to simultaneously forget that feeling and remember it again, since last year really almost feels like it doesn't exist
i was hit like a bus with that bionicles drop i COMPLETELY 1000% forgot about those and then suddenly i was swept with early 2000s nostalgia from my 3 older brothers' toy phases
Why nobody told me Evan McGregor and Kurt Cobain had a son?
I'm loving these scene compositions and those old ad interjections. Love the edits Bertie!
your videos have such a beautiful raw honesty to them, it's very freeing, so thank you
i literally have no clue wtf im supposed to do with my life. i just know that i want nobody to know who i am.
Ale Isa fair enough
Who cares , just do stuff
There's so much freedom in that
tofol cano I find that freedom paralyzing
i didnt expect this to have so many likes guys its not that deep im just afraid of social media and of being known.
I love these types of videos. RUclips needs more of this stuff. I’ve thought a lot about this stuff myself and I just want to thank u for presenting this in the way that u did.
I really like this video. The jumps between arbitrary nostalgia with the background of a question of identity and meaning really paint an honest slice of life.
Ok this is one of the coolest youtube videos I've ever seen, legitimately. Really well put together, engaging and beautifully shot! New Subscriber
I feel this way a lot and it’s eye opening to realize that even the people I idolize feel just as vulnerable as I do. Bertie, you consistently inspire me and my short films. Sometimes I see myself more through my films than I do as this meat machine that is moving me around.
This is the first video of you I've watched and I gotta say I love what you created. You brought a set of emotions in me I can't describe, just that they feel new and old. Thank you, I'm subscribing
you should review and rank all the doctors from doctor who
hate them all. all sinners
@@BertieGilbert1 YOU CALL YOURSELF BRITISH MY DUDE
god this is so brilliantly and beautifully put together. I love everything about it.
I completely relate to becoming absolutely obsessed with a certain thing for a short period of time before moving on, and of not really knowing who I am. At this point, I've kinda just embraced the floatiness and decided to just have fun:)
Thank you, Bertie. Always a good day when you upload! 😊
I’ve felt this way for a long time. It was so sad but so strangely comforting to hear another person express they feel that same way. Thanks for all you do, Bert💛
I'm going through an existential episode at the moment of typing this and I never watched this channel before but this was perfect and it both perpetuated those feelings I'm experiencing but also in that way made me feel less alone so thanks this has helped immensely you've earned a subscribe thank you for making something pointless yet meaningful
I've been so excited for this!
I’m so late to the party but I really, really loved this. I wish more people did stream-of-consciousness videos. It was strangely cathartic to watch, but also brilliantly funny
I agree. I keep coming back to this channel, despite it not being super active. I can’t find any other RUclipsrs who have content like this.
you do a great job of translating your thoughts in a beautiful way that anyone could understand and relate to
This was such an unbelievably engaging video. You had my full attention, clinging to every word, every scene. It was remarkable. Thank you so deeply, Bertie. It is always an honour coming back to your channel
i have no idea why this was recommended to me but you are delightful and just what i needed rn
this is so refreshing and honest. thank you
loved to see your thoughts on these troubling times for humanity, stay safe bert
One of the most reassuring talks I've heard in a while. I totally feel the same way.
This popped up on my recommended and I am forever grateful.
title incorrect, this was very interesting and not stupid. people are cool, even with the mundane parts. it's in the mundane and small thoughts of others that we can appreciate that people are all relatable in their own ways. love this
Thanks for the great video, Bertie!
A similar thing happened to me but we were the ones who heard it so we ran before they got the chance to mug / 'jump' (- using their words) us
this was a really great video bertie- i hope you're doing good!!
Thankyou for this Bertie x
every single shot and line of this was perfect
i do love these videos bertie
i havent watched your videos in like 7 years.. i moved countries, continents, started uni... and u literally just brought back my childhood memories. i missed u, oddly enough, without knowing it,
Your videos are a treat to the eyes. Thanks for the tasty cinematography.
it's the first time i saw one of your videos and i never saw a video like this before
i like it
the title appealed to me
the video appeals to me even more
So glad to rediscover you at this existentially trying time.
You have truly beautiful cinematography
Nice vid matey :-) The mugging story took me back to something similar... When I was 13 I got beaten up out of nowhere and for no reason at all by a bunch of chavs as soon as I got off at my bus stop. The bus was full of people (like, proper adults) & nobody did anything...
ur videos always have a very swag vibe
this comment took me back to 2013
Echoed every single feeling I’m feeling that I couldn’t put into words
I was having a bad day. Thank you for making my day better.
This is thee most boring yet entertaining video I've ever seen in my life,Bertie Gilbert you sir are my new favourite RUclipsr😅😅😅❤
This is so great, why is this literally so calming to me? Thank you for making this video Bertie, took my mind off my life and let me take a step back and just think about a bunch of things. You’re such a genuinely interesting person, and I’d honestly love to see more of these just ramble videos. Honestly I don’t think anyone knows who they are, we’re all just these silly bumblings creatures scratching around for a purpose
Farlander Girl thank you for your kind words! had an epiphany about this channel recently. in the periods when i’m working on bigger projects, this can serve as a sort of visual notes app. loose topics and threads and feelings presented in a calm, low stakes way
Bertie Gilbert that’s very true! I think a lot of people treat RUclips channels as something that you can only upload polished, perfect content to, but it’s so nice to see something that’s like this as it keeps things real
I love you so much and this is the very first video I see of you
i wish i remembered your old videos clearly. i only remember how they looked and how they made me feel warm lol. when i say old videos i mean 2012/13 i think ? then your short films came along and i loved them as well. this is kind of a pointless comment but just know, i’ve been here for a while and still enjoy it all.
This video was oddly comforting as someone trying to find myself too. Beautifully chaotic, perfectly Bertie.
I really loved this very much, it was really similar to poetry to me. You did an amazing job keeping everything so congruent, with none of the cuts being jarring at all.
2:29 but was that Ashley from Degrassi??
Re: love - I always think of myself as a jar that water goes into. If I stand still under the stream and take care of myself first, then the water (love) will overflow into all facets of my life. But if I'm constantly pouring out water into others then I never feel like I have enough.
really amazing how u manage to make the fact that you're losing your sense of yourself seem wholesome
nice.
i really love this
you’re an inspiration I love u
I started therapy going through that same crisis and to be perfectly honest i don't think the question of who you will resolve, ever, unless you're willing to limit yourself through a basic, common to most description, which ends up erasing your edges even more. At some point I started working on my insecurities, became more self assured and realised there was no point in that question and i didn't really need the answer either. Accepting that gave me more sense of self than any answer could.
I definitely struggle with the question too "is it better to like fewer things a lot a lot of things a bit? "
I personally feel like I have a lot of potential in many areas of my interests, but the struggle becomes when I find out I'm not good enough to pass whatever I want and then I've sort of forced to choose something over other things. it's so hard when you're just in love with a lot of things. some say, you can't have everything, but I feel like you can try ~
Gotta admit tho, the thanos lego figure was kinda hilarious
I don't even know how I feel about the content of the video. But something about the whole, like the feel of the video. Weirdly amazing.
oh i like this video a lot. i definitely understand where you're coming from as i am also there currently.
I LOVE THE COLORS!!!! HOW DO YOU CAPTURE THE COLORS LIKE THAT? IT"S STUNNING.
i love when u do videos like this
great vid bert!