Saddest Song Ever Written - WARNING: You Will Cry. Grab Your Tissues.

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  • @Stranger_In_The_Alps
    @Stranger_In_The_Alps 10 месяцев назад +24909

    If someone notices this, I’m still alive and fighting depression

    • @colleencunningham840
      @colleencunningham840 9 месяцев назад +675

      The world is a better place with you in it!

    • @rob4100
      @rob4100 9 месяцев назад +320

      God bless you sir take one day at a time

    • @BigRedsWife
      @BigRedsWife 9 месяцев назад +210

      If you ever need someone to speak too please reply to my comment and we can exchange FB or emails etc and I'm always here if you need to talk my friend
      You're doing good ...
      Not turning to drugs or alcohol is by far the very best thing you can do for urself and sadly way too many ppl lose themselves after losing someone they love because they turn to the wrong outlets to face whatever they're grieving... Everyday even if you don't notice it you're getting a little bit stronger and while you're heart will never be the same you WILL learn how to live with this new way of life if you make the choice too...
      You got this 🎉

    • @aimeetelese7194
      @aimeetelese7194 9 месяцев назад +58

      @Stranger_in_the_Alps. Your pain in palpable. My heart goes out to you. Depression is SO DIFFICULT. While you are walking in darkness please know there is light ahead. It may feel like there will never be a light. It took a long time for me to find that light but, I did FIND IT. You will find it. Please hold tight. Allow yourself the bad days. Search for the good days. You are in my prayers. Please know that you are not alone. There are so many out here who truly care about you. Please don’t ever forget that.

    • @josephstory4417
      @josephstory4417 9 месяцев назад +57

      I lost my sister last year. The only thing that keeps me going is the fact that my niece is now my responsibility.

  • @zerxalex2274
    @zerxalex2274 2 года назад +8688

    The saddest part of life is when the person who gave you the best memories become a memory...

    • @jd_vlogs3770
      @jd_vlogs3770 Год назад +167

      I litterally lost her she was everything to me I still wake up and remember all the good memories and how happy I was back then

    • @samturner8238
      @samturner8238 Год назад +52

      I lost my grandmother and a guy hung out with all the time my best friend I grew up with him

    • @amsodoneworkingnow1978
      @amsodoneworkingnow1978 Год назад +40

      Then he tells you that the biggest mistake of his life was letting you go.

    • @johnnygann2095
      @johnnygann2095 Год назад +22

      Facts!

    • @rockiebieber6994
      @rockiebieber6994 Год назад +1

      @@johnnygann2095 no

  • @jonaruiz2414
    @jonaruiz2414 2 месяца назад +579

    Almost jumped off a cliff by the beach, I fell to my knees and started praying instead. 🙏 God is good

    • @madgodfire1
      @madgodfire1 2 месяца назад +6

      Man, god is good you need to pray everyday and mean it, it helps sooo much. I pray for your peace

    • @user-ku9bp1so9n
      @user-ku9bp1so9n 2 месяца назад +8

      Hey brother if no one said they love you, I do I'm dealing with homeless and my sons mother passed away yesterday as 2yrs ago so please fight

    • @user-ku9bp1so9n
      @user-ku9bp1so9n 2 месяца назад +6

      I suffer with mental illness and still am.My mom passed away 3years ago and my sons mother passed away 2years ago as of yesterday and when my mom passed i lost my son and just about ended it but I kept fighting and I got my son back home and we lost my apartment and moved with aunt cuz step dad passed last Easter so I was taking care of her and she passed two months ago and now me and my son are currently homeless and I thought about quitting but I promise my mom I would never leave my son. Your song touched me brother you have talent 😢

    • @bluebird9825
      @bluebird9825 2 месяца назад +5

      Thought about driving off the road for fun. I didnt and im glad you didnt jump. Lifes hard.

    • @JoshuaCurtis-ww8vw
      @JoshuaCurtis-ww8vw 2 месяца назад +1

      Life is real hard and almost not worth it

  • @user-ol8do5ee7f
    @user-ol8do5ee7f 6 дней назад +11

    My 31 yr old son passed 14 months ago , his father's fault and i am still in a sort of denial. I have several close friends i confide in and cry to. I work planting seeds and plants in my yard and it makes me feel better to nurture them. I am filling photo albums with my son's photos. I also pray many prayers and pray the Rosary daily. Thank you for helping depressed people like me.

    • @pointlesslab4179
      @pointlesslab4179 3 дня назад +2

      So sorry. You can still be a light to people around you and you can wield it more strongly when you’ve come through a dark place.

    • @kitamccleary6597
      @kitamccleary6597 Час назад

      @@pointlesslab4179 wow, that is powerful. Yes, it is very true as well. Thank you for your wisdom.

  • @deebs8089
    @deebs8089 2 года назад +11895

    “When a man cries it isn’t because he’s weak. Its because he’s been strong for to long”

    • @benyalsonqa
      @benyalsonqa 2 года назад +251

      Fucking facts ❤

    • @seaneschendal6349
      @seaneschendal6349 2 года назад +91

      is there something wrong with me if i haven’t cried this hole video and i am boy and 12…?

    • @amitbhattacharje
      @amitbhattacharje 2 года назад +48

      True my friend.... But there's no hope for me

    • @norbertvogel9504
      @norbertvogel9504 2 года назад +19

      Thank you...

    • @norbertvogel9504
      @norbertvogel9504 2 года назад +101

      @@seaneschendal6349 you are just happy to be 12.... go on and you will see.... made a good job up to now👍👍👍👍

  • @your.local_bandgeek
    @your.local_bandgeek 5 месяцев назад +3790

    Been fighting for 6 years and still going. I’ve lost 5 people to suicide and I cannot tell you how hard this has been. I needed to hear this tonight. Thank you.

    • @hope3419
      @hope3419 5 месяцев назад +33

      @your.local-loser (Sorry for the paragraph) I admire your perseverance and strength. We can’t forget those we have lost. I hope you find peace and healing and I am rooting for you!

    • @Usergeooo
      @Usergeooo 5 месяцев назад +23

      God is with you no matter what

    • @madelinavila2723
      @madelinavila2723 5 месяцев назад +13

      I promise you God wants to heal you. Even more than that, He wants to give a whole new life. He chases after you everyday. You’re His precious one, but He can’t do anything if you don’t let Him.

    • @yvonnehanika5518
      @yvonnehanika5518 5 месяцев назад +9

      @your.local_loser please please change your name.... Change it to I am WORTHY. Blessings and hugs to you my friend.

    • @AchuZ8
      @AchuZ8 5 месяцев назад +4

      Too buddy how are you feeling.. don't isolate your self Okey.. talk to your family members or friend. Stay strong king

  • @Motivation_JJ_Is_On_Fortnite
    @Motivation_JJ_Is_On_Fortnite 3 месяца назад +303

    I’m fighting depression, and I’m still alive because I want to make my little brother proud, so that one day I will see him again…one day I will see him in heaven.

    • @Scott......
      @Scott...... 2 месяца назад +10

      Stay the course. You are loved.❤❤❤

    • @davidshirahjr-ug2gr
      @davidshirahjr-ug2gr 2 месяца назад +5

      You’re worth the world! ❤

    • @Motivation_JJ_Is_On_Fortnite
      @Motivation_JJ_Is_On_Fortnite 2 месяца назад

      @@davidshirahjr-ug2gr thanks

    • @vickie9405
      @vickie9405 2 месяца назад +7

      The ONLY thing that saved my life was Jesus . Years of addiction, domestic violence, and depression and I finally got the courage to walk into a church I passed by every time I left my home. I felt so awkward and scared but the minute the door opened I was embraced and i met Jesus my savior he saved me and took away all my guilt I carried for so long. I am so grateful I have been renewed and had the opportunity to start over with a completely clean slate. My friends.. if u haven't yet I urge u to.. u will never be the same.

    • @bastiaans2694
      @bastiaans2694 2 месяца назад +2

      Let their love guide you❤️

  • @jonm-pe2mb
    @jonm-pe2mb Месяц назад +112

    When I feel depressed i turn on as many lights as I can. Open doors if nice out. I clean the house. Sometime with my old 70s music playing.
    And I read Proverbs and Psalms. I thank God for all he has done for me. To know God is beside me is all I need. Ive been on that dark road. Drugs and Alcohol are not your friends.

    • @weaverdreams
      @weaverdreams Месяц назад +1

      Thanks ❤❤❤❤❤

    • @LiOnOfJuDaHiSnEaR
      @LiOnOfJuDaHiSnEaR Месяц назад +1

      Great Job ! Just don't even think about anything when you get in your head. Run outside look around and see the people moving around bc it tells you mind you're not alone. Then, for some reason and trust me I know the hardest part go somewhere random don't think about meeting up with anybody or anything just get yourself to a coffee shop somewhere it doesn't have to be the funnest place or your favorite just get around people see them talking monkey each other feel that connection cuz when you stay in that house in that room The only person you have to talk to is that person in your head that has nothing but bad intentions

    • @LukeW91
      @LukeW91 Месяц назад

      Thank you for that comment for all of us to relate to. I’m thinking it’s time to leave the toxicity behind and connect with God to hopefully save my life from a long term self harm I’ve been purposely enduring. Be well, and may anyone suffering find peace and strength.

    • @jonm-pe2mb
      @jonm-pe2mb Месяц назад

      @LukeW91 You can do it. And the feeling of being sober minded will feel better than alcohol or drugs. I started at a very young age. But once sober a glass of water felt good to my body. It had only known alcohol for 40 years.

  • @cleo_lus
    @cleo_lus 6 месяцев назад +5593

    this song seemed to come out of nowhere for my recommendations so I’m taking it as a sign that I needed to hear it. I feel this through my whole soul. This is a felt beauty.

    • @wekieh
      @wekieh 6 месяцев назад +19

      Imagine taking the algorithm as kind of a destiny that choses what you „need“ to hear. I honestly think thats sad bro. No offense whatsoever

    • @gabrielasolis2657
      @gabrielasolis2657 6 месяцев назад +9

      Same here it just got recommended to me rn

    • @estebanmunoz9279
      @estebanmunoz9279 6 месяцев назад +3

      x2 Idk. no words guys...

    • @CommanderOfCologneYodshi
      @CommanderOfCologneYodshi 6 месяцев назад +5

      I agree!! I had the same!!

    • @kingjohnny6097
      @kingjohnny6097 6 месяцев назад +7

      Same here🤍🙏🏼

  • @alxbksucksanyway
    @alxbksucksanyway 5 месяцев назад +2455

    Never had to struggle with depression, but man I can’t imagine how hard it must be to deal with it, respect to everyone going through it

    • @lordldj4847
      @lordldj4847 5 месяцев назад +50

      Tbh I don’t even know if there’s a way to heal the depression each person experiences because each reason of depression are different to each other, for me I believe that the depression within me doesn’t leave but I learn how to control it because sometimes I gain strength to it and lessons of my life

    • @lubomirkubasdQw4w9WgXcQ
      @lubomirkubasdQw4w9WgXcQ 5 месяцев назад +13

      it sometimes happens with chemical inbalances in the brain i think, so maybe a good diet can help it in some cases

    • @ThomasORourke-ts3ns
      @ThomasORourke-ts3ns 5 месяцев назад +2

      P.s just say on the tex tom tell me👁️

    • @AristelCrowley
      @AristelCrowley 4 месяца назад +12

      I love to see a person who appreciates a sad song without having to act he's in sum oh-so-depressed-and-sad person just because they hear a sad song

    • @Justababyyy
      @Justababyyy 4 месяца назад +1

      Thank you so much god we need more people like you as someone who has been fighting depression and many other mental illnesses/disorders. It’s my birthday today I’m so surprised I’m still here after many many attempts but Im getting the “help” that I “need” I hope you have an amazing day/night

  • @zehradeniz6402
    @zehradeniz6402 17 дней назад +31

    I want to meet, hug and spend time with everyone who listens to this song and feels bad right now. I wish this were possible and we could heal together :')💛

  • @Kita...M3
    @Kita...M3 2 месяца назад +139

    Im a survivor! Every one of you are valued and worth it ❤

    • @adrianhaynes5506
      @adrianhaynes5506 2 месяца назад

      1:44 been there myself one evening I'd end up with a mouthful of tramadol and codine over 60 pills in half of them in my mouth and a bottle of squash.
      Parked up behind the church where my grandmother is burried, a police officer pulled up alongside my car, sees me and all the pills spread out on the dashboard, Amazing grace blasting over the radio by brother called me worried about our mum and the fact she was suicidal after loosing her husband our dad.
      At the time we'd lost our garage MOT business to a massive fire
      Fighting a loosing battle with the insurance company .
      My brother at the time unaware he had made me jump spitting out the pills from my mouth

    • @rapperibrahim2182
      @rapperibrahim2182 Месяц назад +2

      But it's still feel like I've already died inside 😶

    • @MrPetemay
      @MrPetemay Месяц назад +1

      That's the best advice anyone can have. Survive first ❤️

  • @TheKev1981
    @TheKev1981 6 месяцев назад +1574

    I recently lost my mother and father in a murder/ suicide and the depression is indescribable. I feel your pain. Writing my music helps me cope as well. But I'm quite confident that it will never completely go away.

    • @cannon-grahammusic9800
      @cannon-grahammusic9800  6 месяцев назад +312

      I’m so sorry for your loss. I see you. I am sorry for that painful tragedy. No one should have to go through that. I think you are right. Sometimes the pain doesn’t go away. But when the pain won’t go away sometimes we can redirect that pain to accomplish something good and positive. I love you. I hope you’re doing well.

    • @krystlekane9874
      @krystlekane9874 6 месяцев назад +40

      i’m so sorry. i wish i could hug you right now. wherever you are, im sending you love.❤️

    • @paratrooper73
      @paratrooper73 6 месяцев назад +7

      I am sorry for your loss. Sending you healing and love

    • @jamesmacleod661
      @jamesmacleod661 6 месяцев назад +9

      I was diagnosed at the age of 7 I've been living with it for 30 years the one thing I've learned is no matter what anyone says there is some one out there that loves you, and no offence to anyone I'm not talking about religion.

    • @rice783
      @rice783 6 месяцев назад

      I can't hear anything.

  • @MrBootneck3027
    @MrBootneck3027 11 месяцев назад +479

    I'm an old man now. I can tell you that it ALWAYS gets better, and it's worth hanging around for. Courage Willow.

    • @cannon-grahammusic9800
      @cannon-grahammusic9800  11 месяцев назад +18

      So true! It always gets better. Thanks for sharing!

    • @RKar2009
      @RKar2009 11 месяцев назад +6

      Seems to just get worse, even at 63

    • @Lauriebird1
      @Lauriebird1 10 месяцев назад +10

      Anxiety and Depression is no fun even at 60 yrs old

    • @maddoxhuston3605
      @maddoxhuston3605 10 месяцев назад +4

      Thank you man

    • @maddoxhuston3605
      @maddoxhuston3605 10 месяцев назад

      @@RKar2009I’m sorry man

  • @idajansenvanvuuren4356
    @idajansenvanvuuren4356 14 дней назад +10

    Always, reading my Bible, drawing closer to God. He heals the broken hearted. He is turning this shattered pane into a lead glass stained window through which His glory shines. Spirit filling with hope and joy.

  • @user-gm6lm5xr1u
    @user-gm6lm5xr1u 2 месяца назад +64

    It's been black & hopeless for too long. I'm only here for my very young granddaughter, I'm her hero and I can't bare to hurt her

    • @Donna-ep6yr
      @Donna-ep6yr 2 месяца назад +3

      Somewhere, some far distance - someone is glad you’re trying. ❤ you are a hero ….for a continuing to be.

    • @gmac8395
      @gmac8395 Месяц назад +1

      She's needs u as much as u need her. Trust in the signs he is giving u. Listen .

  • @iamaperson.9471
    @iamaperson.9471 6 месяцев назад +2409

    My brother, well done. You've made me cry for the first time in five years, and the last time I did it was over my father's casket. I'm 16 and struggling with PTSD and depression, but this song's reached because I think I've found love, and that's given me hope. Thank you.

    • @kaitlyng8968
      @kaitlyng8968 6 месяцев назад +37

      A few months ago, I was going down a conspiracy theory rabbit hole on TikTok. I’m usually a very optimistic person but, this nearly ended me. I was so anxiety ridden and so depressed, that I thought about ending it all. It was truly one of the most scary times in my life. I couldn’t even get up out of bed, without thinking that we were all being manipulated. I got out of it by returning to my childhood memories. Listening to music, watching Harry Potter. It got me out of the darkness and back into the light.

    • @modiochoa9485
      @modiochoa9485 6 месяцев назад +9

      Wow I'm here with you in the same boat brother you got it I know it gets hard life is more difficult than it should be I understand stay strong✊🏼🩵

    • @your_local_ipadkid3277
      @your_local_ipadkid3277 6 месяцев назад +9

      hey man, i’m 15 and i was cured of ptsd last year. there’s a light at the end of the tunnel ❤️

    • @jemiplants7344
      @jemiplants7344 5 месяцев назад +5

      Stay strong Bro, we're still here so that must mean something. Doesn't matter if tommorow ain't better. As long as we're here, in present, living. And we'll live again, tomorrow, the next day, the next week, and many more. We'll live.

    • @NCVluminati
      @NCVluminati 5 месяцев назад +8

      Im 16 too and 2 years ago I constantly wanted to die. But for some reason I decided to watch anime for the first time in years. It was violet evergarden that i watched, that day was the first time i had a good cry in years and i started to recover after that, i started sleeping better, I can actually socialize in school and eventually this willing to die disappeared. Now I'm trying my best to help others recover from their BIG SAD.

  • @janetpitts7302
    @janetpitts7302 9 месяцев назад +604

    The sun just turned black for me on August 22nd, I was diagnosed with lung cancer which has spread to my brain, im scared to death waiting for doctors to start my treatments, yes, my sun is black right now!!! God will see me through this though!! Thank you, lovely song!! ✌️

    • @Aluminari2
      @Aluminari2 9 месяцев назад

      Praying for you Janet. I've seen some amazing result trials from ivermectin and fenbendazol. Make each day count. ❤

    • @ifam2311
      @ifam2311 9 месяцев назад +27

      I just prayed for you💕💜🌺🙏🏼

    • @motherofanangel1143
      @motherofanangel1143 9 месяцев назад +17

      Ur comment bought tears to my eyes 🥺🥺 I'm so sorry to hear that,
      I do see u have faith in God nd i pray healing over u in Jesus name, the only devine healing can come from Jesus, he sees u!! I pray that God will give u the strength nd guidance u need to get through these terrible times, but keep the faith bc HE LOVES U!! ❤️ God bless u 🙏🏼

    • @tambri4254
      @tambri4254 9 месяцев назад +13

      Praying for you❤

    • @springterry532
      @springterry532 9 месяцев назад +17

      I want to hug you.

  • @user-uo2vt7lr6g
    @user-uo2vt7lr6g 3 месяца назад +16

    I'm 59. Been suffering with debilitating chronic pain for 6 yrs. Have severe depression, anxiety and PTSD. Every day is a struggle. I'm trying every day to hang in. I'm here.😢

  • @arpitarora1176
    @arpitarora1176 4 дня назад +3

    I've been working through the pain and struggles of depression since 5 years.
    Lost my father recently to suicide due to severe depression.
    To all the people out there going through the challenge, just want to let you know you're alright feeling this way. I'll always be here if anyone wants to talk it out or just weep in silence and say nothing.
    Love you all. God bless you my fellow warriors!

  • @tirsinaim150
    @tirsinaim150 Год назад +171

    " The most hard pain is when you feel to cry but you got no tears to drop anymore "

    • @user-sr9ps8pz6m
      @user-sr9ps8pz6m 11 месяцев назад +1

      Yes!! That's the worst

    • @sadtiger2022
      @sadtiger2022 11 месяцев назад +1

      Where I'm at

    • @user-xg5yb6yt4u
      @user-xg5yb6yt4u 11 месяцев назад

      Itig

    • @zerorusoftheknight5851
      @zerorusoftheknight5851 10 месяцев назад

      I haven't cried fr for ages. The last time I cry cried was when I was watching Rengokus death in demon slayer, and even then, I couldn't fully cry, or shed all the tears that I needed to both overr that and many other things.

    • @kerriangrypoet1236
      @kerriangrypoet1236 10 месяцев назад

      That's how I feel right now.

  • @henessy.-.45
    @henessy.-.45 Год назад +1272

    I wrote a note, loaded the gun...got into bed, took a shot of scotch and was more than ready...when i realized it would be my mama bringing my 5yr old daughter home in the morning and THEY would be the ones to find me. I just couldn't imagine them having to deal with that. I got help, got clean (15yrs sober now) i still struggle with depression and im sure i always will, but i no longer feel hopeless. Now, Im actually a mental health/addiction counselor...Not all things can be taught by reading a book...its easier to talk to someone who's lived it. Prayers to all of you that are struggling

    • @janelleschmidt2250
      @janelleschmidt2250 Год назад +45

      That’s because u are a wonderfully thoughtful person, Ty for NOT taking the shot, uR perfect today , must know this, namaste

    • @henessy.-.45
      @henessy.-.45 Год назад +19

      @@janelleschmidt2250 thank you for such a nice comment. Namaste 🙏

    • @hauntedchannel9163
      @hauntedchannel9163 Год назад +7

      Thats amazing! Congratulations!

    • @janelleschmidt2250
      @janelleschmidt2250 Год назад +14

      Isha kriya is the one life changing thing I do now, a gf of mine committed suicide While I was at her house two years ago and all I could think was why did she take me with her… I think part of our problem is being and living an American life we get so out of sync of how truly wonderful life is Supposed to be and so many things we don’t see & never told or even acknowledged of the thousands of wonderful things that we do do, we are criticized & judged & thrown aside in this culture rather than being protected, nurtured, & cultivated, u r loved & I hope u feel it🤗🤗🤗

    • @inanaeugene9315
      @inanaeugene9315 Год назад +3

      Congratulations 👏..

  • @cherylhampton910
    @cherylhampton910 День назад

    When my sun
    turned black was finding my sister murdered, a couple years later my brother was murdered. This match 19 I found my mother cold as ice after she went up stairs to rest. I thought I was a strong person so I thought at that time. I kept myself locked in my room for months. I prayed to God of the whole universe to give me strength. I know I had to get help professionally. I had PTSD they told me. But finding a church, meditating everyday helped me, I’m still scared to leave my house but I’m better each day. One day, one step at a time. I know he hasn’t brought me this far to leave me. May God bless you and continue to make us all stronger. Hugs. Keep writing. Music heals

  • @CreepyVillage
    @CreepyVillage 3 месяца назад +79

    Well, i've been suffering from OCD since my childhood. I have lost my 5 years because of my terrible OCD and i'm still fighting, now i don't cry anymore because it seems like no tears left inside me, sometimes it feels like i'm burning from inside as i've lost all my friends because of my terrible mental health conditions. l literally feel lonely, sometimes even feel like i'm stuck in this body but i'm figuring my ways to find the meaning of my life. The meaning of success for me is to at least add a little value to some people lives and i don't really fancy getting any materialistic fullfillments. I just want to live a decent life peacefully.

    • @Theuntitlededitor
      @Theuntitlededitor 3 месяца назад +1

      Join Hare Krishna Friend

    • @KaylaMccorvey-jo9fb
      @KaylaMccorvey-jo9fb 3 месяца назад +1

      Sorry for I'm sorry if I hurt your feelings

    • @michellewhite7249
      @michellewhite7249 2 месяца назад

    • @thesaylors6914
      @thesaylors6914 2 месяца назад

      Jesus is the only real help ❤
      He can deliver from any thing that torments us!
      He delivered from anxiety and depression and healed me when my kidneys were failing but not my kidneys are healed and I’m no longer anemic!
      Only Jesus

    • @artistkaar4002
      @artistkaar4002 2 месяца назад

      Bro this life is meaning full I just suggest you to know about Krishna and pray or understand Krishna he given us geeta a book who have every answer and Krishna is hindu God he suffers alot in his life I may help you 😊

  • @gunjitaarora
    @gunjitaarora 4 месяца назад +888

    I am currently 17 and this song took me back to the time when I wasn’t able to see any light at the end of the tunnel. I was 11 when I lost my mom to cancer. It was a very hard phase for me and it still is when during the nights i start reminiscing my memories with her. But somehow at that point I picked myself up and decided to make my mom proud. After a few years passed by, in 2022 I lost one of my best friends, which triggered everything that I was holding inside. It was a very very dark place for me because of all this and also because I was in my high school and I had a lot of pressure of studies. I was never good at them, so it was hard for me to cope up with things and live up to the expectations of my family. At the same time my father decided to get married again, and I was totally not okay with it, so that built a whole lot of stress in my mind too, because it was hard for me to look at someone else in my mom’s place. I used to have suicidal thoughts everyday, extreme anxiety, and I tried one or two times to end myself and give up but every time what kept me going was the belief that my mom was watching from up there and that I had promised her that I will make her proud. Till date I am fighting with all those thoughts but I can proudly say that I am much better and that I didn’t give up. So all I can say to the people who are going through all of this is that there are many people out there who look upto you and who actually care about you, even when it doesn’t seem like it trust me there are. And you should start believing that if our good days don’t last long, our hardships won’t either. One day all of this darkness will come to an end and you will look back and proudly say to yourself that you did it, you didn’t give up. So take one step at a time, believe in yourself and just know that many people are out there to help you, you just have to ask for it, even if it’s hard, just try once, trust me it makes everything a lot easier.
    And for all the people who have been fighting all of it for a few years or months, i am proud of you. You are doing amazingly well, and you are very strong. Just don’t loose hope, the light will find it’s way to you. YOU ALL CAN DO IT!! ❤❤

    • @Luddyasrat10
      @Luddyasrat10 4 месяца назад +10

      Hey dear I can feel you ... I lost my mom before 8 years, and currently I’m 22 years old. In my channel you can find what I have written for my mom titled “purity “

    • @Anon.7982
      @Anon.7982 4 месяца назад +6

      God bless you! Have dealt with same. You are strong and amazing! ❤️🙏

    • @suryanshmishra5262
      @suryanshmishra5262 4 месяца назад +6

      Stay strong dude❤️👍

    • @eggs3285
      @eggs3285 4 месяца назад +2

      A really Nice example for people who thinks that,You did it well,i'm sure that you're Mom it's proud of You 100%,things like this makes me feel more motivated for keep trying,thanks You very much for share you're history

    • @Galatic_
      @Galatic_ 4 месяца назад +6

      Hi I saw this and decided to reach out to see if you are still ok

  • @user-ep6sf2wz8r
    @user-ep6sf2wz8r 9 месяцев назад +704

    I’m a war veteran and I have been fighting this for the last 29 years to present. Thank you for this song and you bring awareness to this. 😢

    • @maxinerowe2925
      @maxinerowe2925 9 месяцев назад +15

      Thank you for service

    • @SouthernrufflesLLC
      @SouthernrufflesLLC 9 месяцев назад +13

      Thank you for your service!

    • @loripolston6695
      @loripolston6695 9 месяцев назад +18

      Thank you for your service to our country.
      Hang in there for the next chapters in your life.
      I have Bipolar, PTSD, anxiety disorder and agoraphobia.
      I'm disabled too.
      I'm only 52, but my body feels 85.
      Thank you for sharing your story.

    • @adrianscott1406
      @adrianscott1406 9 месяцев назад +10

      Thank you for your service and courage and strength to continue to work on your struggles

    • @Hillbillyblonde60
      @Hillbillyblonde60 9 месяцев назад +3

      You are not alone. We feel we are even in a crowd. I have tried, only to wake up week or two later in ccicu. That made me feel worse. Feeling failure once again by not being able to kill myself right. I hear 3rd time's a charm 😢

  • @markmunnsr2558
    @markmunnsr2558 2 месяца назад +9

    The sun turned black in Jan 10, 2010! My baby boy Connor died and birth, I asked my ex wife to watch my kids, she ended up taking them hiding and getting me for abandoning my 2 children. So I lost 3 children that year. I was walking in circles, with no where to go and no purpose. I was and am a strong Christian. I was so hurt I couldn’t even look up to God because I was so angry, Hurt! When I started talking to God and my sister? The sadness began to leave me. I was in this position for almost a year. I give God the glory for all the good, bad, and the ugly. Father if anyone here is reading this? I ask you touch them and take they’re depression and replace it with your joy, happiness and love amen

    • @michaelrodgers7742
      @michaelrodgers7742 10 дней назад

      My son was born jan 10 2010 he is good and healtly i have suffered with bipolar very hard depression since 2011 im sorry for your pain..

  • @praiseandworshipusher5452
    @praiseandworshipusher5452 18 дней назад +3

    I haven't listened as yet but my world turned black in 2002 when I lost my mom. I became so depressed for a period of time. But one day I heard the voice of the Lord Jesus saying and I quote "you are so busy being depressed that you can't see what's in front of you. That my friend was my second mother who God had placed in my life to continue this walk called Life amen. She has been and continues to be a mentor amen. May the Lord God Almighty continue to bless and keep you always 💯
    Suzettte 🕊️

  • @elizabethjones2088
    @elizabethjones2088 8 месяцев назад +948

    Just remember these words
    It’s not you who wants to die
    It’s the illness trying to kill you
    These words are the reason I am still alive to write and share this.
    You are not alone x

    • @namelia4439
      @namelia4439 6 месяцев назад +17

      Thank you. Thank you for this astonishingly simple yet life changing statement. It seems like it should’ve been so obvious all these many years now that I’ve read your words…w all my heart and soul, thank you, thank you, THANK YOU!!!!!! Keep fighting to LIVE!!!!!

    • @HallieBunch
      @HallieBunch 6 месяцев назад +3

      Now

    • @nitinbalyan1023
      @nitinbalyan1023 6 месяцев назад

      ​@@namelia4439❣️❣️

    • @alishour5519
      @alishour5519 6 месяцев назад +2

      God it hurts I don't want to continue it's not the song it's the pain

    • @RobbyFoster-io8nj
      @RobbyFoster-io8nj 6 месяцев назад

      Okay brother I Ben there too many times to count but I came to realize it's only darker from the inside out but at the same time we learn from those darkest moments we over come an you will to and who ever else reads this just know there is a light 🕯️

  • @rebeccawarner4392
    @rebeccawarner4392 5 месяцев назад +422

    Years ago I tried to take my life. I had just given birth to my 3rd daughter and my husband was off with yet another of his gfs. It was a black time. So in the midst of slicing my arm my baby started to cry, something she'd never done. That did it ! God spoke. Life hasn't always been kind after that point, but I made a promise that day that no matter what, I wouldn't waste the life I was given. So I try. There are people with more sorrow, look to the light and be thankful. I'm sure this won't help anyone but I felt the need to share. Thank you for a reminder and a heartfelt song. Bless you and hugs'n love 🤗🥰

    • @idkvwad
      @idkvwad 5 месяцев назад +14

      It takes a lot of strength to carry all of that pain. I'm proud of you. Big hugs from Minnesota.

    • @user-rh9fl9nn7x
      @user-rh9fl9nn7x 4 месяца назад +11

      Still fighting the black, writing poetry and song helps, my partner chose to die, leave his 13 yr old and me who loved him dearly, clearly our love wasn't enough❤

    • @georgemelvin880
      @georgemelvin880 4 месяца назад +4

      @@user-rh9fl9nn7x awww, so sorry about your loss Suzanne. I truly understand how it feels losing a loved one, my wife passed while having our daughter, wasn't easy for me though but I'm grateful to God for today 🙏. My deep and sincere condolences, how have you been? 🌺😢

    • @user-bw2oe1wm4k
      @user-bw2oe1wm4k 4 месяца назад +3

      @@georgemelvin880sorry for hear that, maybe i will die in this year, i’m sad all the time

    • @xX_Ywolf_Xx
      @xX_Ywolf_Xx 4 месяца назад

      @@user-bw2oe1wm4k don’t bro it ain’t worth it
      Trust me keep going I’m suffering too but I don’t stop

  • @lmanning1965
    @lmanning1965 10 дней назад +3

    I was misdiagnosed with clinical depression all my life. In 2015, I took a bottle of pills and.emded up in a psychiatric hospital. A friend saved my life he picked me up and had his father drive my car and took me to the ER. That is when I learned I had bipolar disorder and was put on the right meds. Sometimes, checking yourself into a mental hospital can help. Also, counselors, friends, family, and church family can save you from yourself. Just know you are a child of God, and with his help, he can pull you out of the darkness. I spent 10 years in the darkness and never realized until I was at the end that I couldn't see the light.

  • @basharleenaa.l.8553
    @basharleenaa.l.8553 18 дней назад +5

    God was the only one taking me out of depression, praying for each going through hard times

  • @iloveguitarhero8081
    @iloveguitarhero8081 6 месяцев назад +1238

    You know you've made a good song when you make yourself cry from how beautiful /sad it is

    • @omarrojas7183
      @omarrojas7183 6 месяцев назад +6

      Yea.

    • @silkroad1201
      @silkroad1201 5 месяцев назад +8

      Yeah, kinda cringe though. It's like laughing at your own jokes

    • @iloveguitarhero8081
      @iloveguitarhero8081 5 месяцев назад +3

      @@silkroad1201 meh,

    • @Jamesonn404
      @Jamesonn404 5 месяцев назад +28

      ​@@silkroad1201 sometimes laughing at your own jokes or crying at your own songs isn't necessarily cringe. That just means that you value what you created and you think it's genuinely good, and there is nothing wrong with that.

    • @rustyshackelford934
      @rustyshackelford934 5 месяцев назад +3

      It feels like he’s acting to illustrate to you how “sad and emotional” this song is, because it isn’t particularly. Especially based on the title of the video. He’s selling something. I dunno put a bad taste in my mouth.

  • @Josiah_Heesen
    @Josiah_Heesen 5 месяцев назад +59

    I’m not very happy that RUclips age-restricted this video when teenagers are some of the people who should hear it the most!

  • @user-ms5ju5di3g
    @user-ms5ju5di3g 2 месяца назад +31

    God took me safely through after loosing my job after 24 1/2 years. That's when Jesus Christ carried me 💛💛💛🙌🙏

    • @davidgaertner6081
      @davidgaertner6081 Месяц назад

      Carrier to where?

    • @jeannettemell6124
      @jeannettemell6124 5 дней назад

      @@davidgaertner6081 To His loving arms. Mock all you want, I’m living proof that Christ is the savior. My mother took her life when I was 14 leaving behind 12 children. Then 9 years later my brother who was 2 years older than me hung himself in my grandmothers backyard. I went down a long road of heartache and drug/alcohol addiction. I prayed constantly for Jesus to help me, it took many years but literally just woke up one day and didn’t want to live like that anymore. It was the Lord who did it, I’m not strong so no way it was of my own strength. Once I started reading God’s word life made so much sense and I will never look back.

  • @joshuaxavier1127
    @joshuaxavier1127 6 дней назад +2

    God: I swear there's hope. If you could only know just how much I love you, how special you are to me.
    I felt that. Im so desperate to hear Jehovah tell me this. I wish he could just speak from heaven. He spoke to so many people in the past, why not me? I'm desperately looking for comfort, but I'm not finding it. However, these words felt like Jehovah was talking to me.
    Thank you for this song!

  • @TheLikeButton2
    @TheLikeButton2 5 месяцев назад +583

    I'm 34 a Marine Veteran and this hit me so deep I actually had me first good cry in a long time. I'm gonna fight everyday but I will never lose. Because I don't have a choice. My family needs me here.

    • @aadyamehra_
      @aadyamehra_ 5 месяцев назад +18

      Stay strong, man, we're all in this together. Send good wishes to you and your family.

    • @Flyingintheuniverse2001
      @Flyingintheuniverse2001 5 месяцев назад +8

      Keep going 💪 give yourself more love 🙏🔥

    • @janehunyor3243
      @janehunyor3243 5 месяцев назад +5

      Praying for you and hoping you can find something that helps to relieve your pain...if you like animals, please look into getting one of those special dogs who are rescued and trained to help with PTSD. You will save the dog and I think the dog can save you.

    • @WilliamVC24
      @WilliamVC24 5 месяцев назад +5

      Love you bro, keep going. Thank you for all you’ve done for this country.

    • @NeoRimeOnline
      @NeoRimeOnline 4 месяца назад +5

      You're not alone brother. Semper Fi!

  • @amandafritz5675
    @amandafritz5675 Год назад +451

    I was diagnosed with major depressive disorder in 1995. In 1997, my uncle promised we would beat depression together as he believed depression was part of the devil. 4 days later he was found in his apartment from suicide. To this day, I still remember his last words to me and hold on to my end of our promise. 25 years and still hard some days.

    • @michaelengelberth4513
      @michaelengelberth4513 Год назад +23

      dont ever give up do it for him man

    • @ImHalfHearted1987
      @ImHalfHearted1987 Год назад +4

      Don't give up I believe in you! Stay strong, stable and HAPPY!

    • @musm1988
      @musm1988 Год назад +2

      I’m sooooo sorry about your uncle. Suicide is so devastating.

    • @davidleclair5155
      @davidleclair5155 Год назад +1

      Don't give up. I lost my mother to this as a young boy. Whoever you've lost. Would never wish for you to dwell on and live your live based on their death or suffering. Help who you can and do your best.👏

    • @Tony-df7bz
      @Tony-df7bz Год назад +1

      🙏🏼😍

  • @tinamcmurry6417
    @tinamcmurry6417 Месяц назад +8

    It's hard to find someone who actually cares

    • @tinawinstead1841
      @tinawinstead1841 Месяц назад +2

      Very lonely world, that's what's destroying me 😢

    • @LuvNikNac
      @LuvNikNac Месяц назад +1

      Jesus actually cares. He knows all the pain you’ve been through…He’s just waiting for you an wants to heal you 🤍 I understand how you feel

    • @LukeW91
      @LukeW91 Месяц назад +1

      I’m a stranger, but I care. How is that possible? Because I know that you are worthy of abundance and you’re God’s creation. You are magnificent in your own way. 🙏

  • @younglady649
    @younglady649 2 месяца назад +8

    I lost my mom this year only a month ago. She was my best friend. She was there for me for 2 years when I was battling 2 types of cancer. By the grace of God I beat it after fighting those 2 years. Sadly my mom wasn't as lucky because she couldn't beat hers. I sometimes feel like I let her down. She could help me but there was nothing I could do for her. I miss her more than anything. I just want my mom back.

    • @parispoet
      @parispoet 22 дня назад

      I am so sorry for your loss. I know just how you feel becuz I lost my mom & best friend 4 yrs., 4 mos. ago and it still hurts so much! I miss her every single day. We never stop grieving. 😥💔😭

    • @rosie9486
      @rosie9486 21 день назад

      I'm so sorry you are going through this and im happy for you that you beat cancer. I lost my dad to cancer when I was 10. He was my rock, the only one i have ever fully trusted.. and I still struggle with his lose at 35. I wish you all the best. You will see your mother one day and I can assure you she is looking down and so very proud of you, you didnt let her down. Keep living life with love in your heart. ❤

  • @AntonioSantos-os8fx
    @AntonioSantos-os8fx 2 года назад +1520

    The sun turned black for me and my wife when we lost our 6 year old daughter to cancer and it is still very much so. Great song man.

    • @AimeeAimee444
      @AimeeAimee444 2 года назад +39

      😔 Sending you both love and prayers.

    • @msoperator510
      @msoperator510 2 года назад +29

      Heartfelt Condolences to you, your wife, & family. 🌷

    • @castleofall867
      @castleofall867 2 года назад +20

      God Bless you and your family

    • @rachellbrown7951
      @rachellbrown7951 2 года назад +43

      So very sorry. I definitely feel your pain. I too struggle everyday from the loss of my only child. She was 9 years old and she died in an auto accident. 1 year before her death, I lost my mother. Then again, 2 years after my daughter died, I lost my dad. It’s definitely not an easy journey, but GOD!!!

    • @JackBQuick79
      @JackBQuick79 2 года назад +24

      Damn Antonio, i too am a father. Its impossible for me to understand what u are feeling. But i know what its like to love like that. U have my empathy. I wish i could hug you bro.

  • @Starrytchi
    @Starrytchi 2 года назад +3456

    I lost both of my parents to Covid last year, two weeks apart. It was so hard for the first 6 months. I was 15, man. (Now 16) No kid should ever lose their parents that young. But I’ve managed after a deep depression that somehow didn’t take my life. (Ruined my grades though haha) The sun turned black for 6 months, but it shined again and I’m okay now. Well, maybe not fully, but I’m getting there.
    I love you mom and dad, and I’ll see you again my loved ones.

    • @Cookiecutter160
      @Cookiecutter160 2 года назад +77

      Bless you

    • @c.carrillo7813
      @c.carrillo7813 2 года назад +133

      You sound incredibly strong. 15 is so young to endure such hardship, but hopefully, by the sounds of it, you will share your struggles and be relatable to people that need support the most. Making your existence so valuable. Best of luck 🙏

    • @Robinhood179
      @Robinhood179 2 года назад +67

      Lost my mom to Covid and almost my dad at the same time but he pulled through. I feel your pain with my mom though. I still dream about her weekly.

    • @Starrytchi
      @Starrytchi 2 года назад +50

      @@Robinhood179 - I am so sorry you've experienced this pain, too. It sucks and makes you angry at the world. I dream about my dad mainly almost nightly, but my mom does appear every other dream with them in it. I was closer with my dad.

    • @Starrytchi
      @Starrytchi 2 года назад +42

      @@c.carrillo7813 - Thank you so so much, you have no idea how much that means to me. Just,, thank you, that's all I can really say.

  • @donnanichols5540
    @donnanichols5540 3 месяца назад +24

    I'm 61 and have suffered with depression all my life. I had a wonderful childhood great parents and 4 beautiful sisters. Been married to my husband for 43 years . Started seeing each other at the age of 16 .we have to grown amazing daughters, one married to a wonderful man they have given me 4 grandchildren who are my heart. It's been a struggle for me not knowing what makes me feel so sad inside lonely even when I'm with my in a room of family and friends . I hide it well but sometimes the pain is so deep inside of me. It's like I'm screaming and no one can hear me. 😢😢😢😢😢

    • @annihull6373
      @annihull6373 2 месяца назад +3

      Hugs. I see you. Blessings.

    • @TimTommy-og8be
      @TimTommy-og8be 2 месяца назад +2

      Im here if you need to talk, I know this pain

    • @kh-il4em
      @kh-il4em Месяц назад +2

      God hears you and He cares.

  • @olivedavies7669
    @olivedavies7669 Месяц назад +2

    Hi Cannon thanks for the beautiful song. Yes I suffer from depression and anxiety and I am seeing a psychologist. I have given my life to our Lord in 2008 and I am still on track. I lost my fiancee 6 weeks before our wedding and that triggered a ripple effect for me. He just had a massive heart attack while I was in church and he was at my house that morning he came and took me to church and then he usually stays there and we spend the day together when I get home but he was a corpse in my house. I was devestated and a few weeks later I was in hospital the anxiety that happened in 2022 October 22nd. Still miss him and and struggling to get used to him not bring around. I am.on medication which helps but there are days that I just cry continuously and I stay on my knees and pray to our Father who is the only one who can help us. I pray that you and your friend will go for counseling or see a therapist. Everything of the best for you all. God is great we must just believe. On Monday I had one of those never ending crying days. I pray that we will all get through this eventually. Thanks again for the beautiful song. God Bless.❤❤

  • @buffbiker71
    @buffbiker71 Год назад +195

    I had 2 best friends. One took his life at 23 on the day of the other's funeral. People tell me the pain will fade. 20 years later I'm still waiting.

    • @amyelizabethparker1758
      @amyelizabethparker1758 Год назад +2

      God touch you NoOne!

    • @candelacandela3109
      @candelacandela3109 Год назад +14

      Pain never fades when you love with all of your might. But you can turn all of your pain into a beautiful memory and do something in their name. Life is what you make of it. Love to live and live to love

    • @sasha219
      @sasha219 Год назад +13

      The pain stays the same. You learn how to live with it over time. Somedays it hits you as hard as the day it happened. Other days a smile crosses your face over a thought from long ago

    • @jp9er4life
      @jp9er4life Год назад +5

      In a way you are lucky,you have two angels watching over you,makin sure you have a spot up there in the sky....it all makes sence one day.

    • @Christian-k23
      @Christian-k23 Год назад +4

      Shit I feel the pain lost close fiends 3 days after my first friend died

  • @Jonathan-fn7ls
    @Jonathan-fn7ls 2 года назад +643

    I lost my dad to suicide 3 weeks ago. It was his 2nd attempt, his 1st attempt was last year. He OD’d and survived, but was never really the same and it broke my heart. 3 weeks ago I found him hanging from a tree in our backyard, his youngest son (I’m 20)… He tried so hard for so many years, therapies, medications, you name it, we tried so hard as a family unit to support him but ultimately he couldn’t fight the battle anymore. I sacrificed most of my adolescence to be at home because I wanted to be with my family. My dad was my best friend, as a result of trying to help him with his mental illness we developed a very unique and open father son relationship. He just felt like he was a burden to us and holding me back, but I was more than happy to sacrifice anything to rather stay in with him and do something at home with him, if anything at all. I preferred that. Not gonna get too sappy with this, but I just really fucking miss my dad and just want one more bear hug, even though I’m 20 lol. I just want to look up at him again and call him Daddy one more time.
    Love you dad, I don’t think the grief will ever get better with time, it just changes form slightly, but it’s still ever so painful as the day I found you. I miss you so much, I can only hope and pray that you’re at peace now. 🖤🖤🖤

    • @lazarus7898
      @lazarus7898 2 года назад +37

      So sorry to hear your pain Jonathan, I understand from personal experience of being at the place of desperation to commit suicide, I think I know partly where your dad's thoughts and feelings were at as he was going through the battle of should I or should I not leave this world. Please You must not put any blame on yourself for this ..... its not any of your fault why this happened. I have learned from my recovery of suicidal tendency that I was not able to focus on what my family members would go through experiencing my taking my own life, especially the person who would find me. The mental illness and depression takes away your ability to be rational, logical or think straight, it just sucks you into a place of lostness and all hope has gone. Sorry if I seem to be going on and on but I am trying to say to you, do not be hard on yourself and blame any of this on yourself as your grief process unfolds in your life. God bless you and I pray that you will be comforted by the people around you who love you very much 🙏

    • @Bucksforlifer
      @Bucksforlifer 2 года назад +13

      I’m sorry 😢

    • @georgecharlescoetzeewilken662
      @georgecharlescoetzeewilken662 2 года назад +23

      Im thinking of you,i pray for you,im also a Dad,a grandfather a husband and was also almost there,may God bless you,keep you strong and just remember all the good what he have done,keep your head up and Never give up,love you my son although i dont know you,God blessings for you and the family

    • @Jonathan-fn7ls
      @Jonathan-fn7ls 2 года назад +14

      Lazarus, George, thank you for sharing your experience and reaffirming that God is the only way we can get through insurmountable challenges that we as fleshly Men can’t beat alone, but only through the spirit of God and his Son. I know that it wasn’t my fault, nor my families. But to see the person you love so much suffering is an indescribable pain. Even through his darkest moments, he still had Faith. And that is the only thing that really matters. I can understand why he did what he did, I’ve been diagnosed with major depression at 18. Although I’ve never had suicidal tendencies, I do understand to an extent the suffering that’s involved.
      Depression is rough on my Dad’s side of the family, he lost 2 family members to suicide as well. This silent killer is devastating in my family, but I will remain Faithful and thankful for what I have, and I WILL break the cycle even if it’s the last thing I do.
      Thank you for reminding me I’m not alone and other people have been through stuff like this, it’s easy to get sucked into a black hole and feel completely alone. God bless both of you. George, ek sien Oom is ook Afrikaans. Ek ook, wat is die kanse dat ek in een van my mense vas loop op die internet? Dankie vir Oom se woorde. 🙏🏼

    • @josephb6035
      @josephb6035 2 года назад +16

      That really blows ,the medical establishment is more concerned with making cash, it's those not so connected that can really make a change

  • @MowglyMo
    @MowglyMo Месяц назад +3

    Men don't cry, let the voice take over 😊

  • @michellelockhart458
    @michellelockhart458 18 дней назад +8

    My sun turned black when my 2 month old son died from sids , I was angry at God, I slept 18 hrs a day and when I was awake I was throwing up,then one night Jesus brought my son to me, so I could say goodbye and gave me comfort and understanding 😊❤

  • @crazyvideoholic9380
    @crazyvideoholic9380 Год назад +163

    one thing worse than depression is not having a feeling of what being loved is like

    • @c.white-achampong6982
      @c.white-achampong6982 Год назад +3

      This is really true, especially when you know what being loved is and is not

    • @crazyvideoholic9380
      @crazyvideoholic9380 Год назад

      @@c.white-achampong6982 that hits really hard

    • @A.Love.language
      @A.Love.language Год назад +7

      I realised that last night.
      I feel like I am sooooo alone and so scared that I have to carry on another day/week/month/year with this feeling. I feel homesick for a place that's was never home and heartbroken over a love I have never had and its hurting.

    • @anshulgautam5865
      @anshulgautam5865 Год назад +3

      Damn right 😢

    • @godlovesuall
      @godlovesuall Год назад +2

      God loves you don’t for get I feel it to stay up 🆙 🙏

  • @Brandi.65
    @Brandi.65 3 месяца назад +328

    My Son suffered from bad depression for years. But I kept praying and showing love. Now at 40yrs. Old he’s happy and fixing to have his first baby. Thank you, Jesus for lifting my Son up and healing him. ❤

    • @JamezEd1tz
      @JamezEd1tz 3 месяца назад +6

      Amen

    • @uniqueone2731
      @uniqueone2731 3 месяца назад +8

      Your comment made me so happy. And I really hope you are enjoying that grand baby

    • @m19y29
      @m19y29 3 месяца назад +7

      @brandi.65 - news flash for you. If “ jesus” had anything to do with it, then your son wouldn’t have depression in the first place.
      He is alive and well not because of “ jesus” and “ prayers” it was because he was able to somehow fight through it.
      So good work on his part, not freaking jesus

    • @xreallylazy
      @xreallylazy 3 месяца назад +6

      @@m19y29 Jesus gave us all free will. Just because something bad happens doesnt mean it's his fault. Doesn't mean "Oh well if God was so loving then this, this and this wouldn't have happened." God isn't the reason he had depression, but he is the reason he doesn't. John 3:16 King James Version "For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life." Get saved today ❤

    • @m19y29
      @m19y29 3 месяца назад +4

      @@xreallylazy - BS

  • @tiggs593
    @tiggs593 11 дней назад

    Thank you for writing and sharing this raw emotional song!
    "No-one cares, so I silently weep. And I hurt."
    CPTSD has left deep marks on my soul. The need to be vigilant. Having to earn love & respect. Knowing I am a burden, not loved but tolerated at best. Outwardly smiling, coping, hanging on, fighting. Inside hurting hurting hurting until there is only emptiness.
    Depression is ugly, wrapping me into a cloak that looks great on the outside but dark on the inside. A cloak of pain, isolation, exhaustion, self-loathing, numbness, hopelessness.
    Then the solace found in making plans to end it all. Finally a goal, a solution, a way to end the suffering, stop being a burden.
    When my sun turned black, I followed my plan, but I couldn't even do this one last thing right.
    The first thing I learned was just how broken & devastated my children and husband would have been, had I succeeded. Far from feeling relief for losing their burden, they were deeply affected and nearly losing me shocked and saddened them to their core.
    Today - several years & loving family support & ongoing therapy later - I can see and understand better what has led to my path. I am beginning to learn new, healthy coping mechanisms. I am starting to believe that I am worthy. Worthy of the love, respect and compassion I give to everyone else. Finally realising that in the last 50 years I learnt to survive, but not to thrive.
    These are baby steps. And - like a toddler learning to walk - there is a lot of tripping & falling over, a lot of knocks & bumps, cuts & bruises. It is finding that will and motivation to get up and try again.

  • @Ha-zh1sp
    @Ha-zh1sp Месяц назад +2

    You can tell the man was holding back tears, Im currently fighting it and I just have no emotions anymore, but this makes me wanna cry but I can’t.

  • @shawnaduffy1756
    @shawnaduffy1756 11 месяцев назад +86

    My sun turned black when my son's lifeless body found. Arrested my eldest son for his murder. I went to inpatient care because I was not safe to be alone. I use music, I talk it out, and I have a great support system.

    • @robinoconnor100
      @robinoconnor100 10 месяцев назад +1

      Glad you made it through…

    • @cherylmontgomery2074
      @cherylmontgomery2074 10 месяцев назад +3

      Bless you 🙏❤️ xo #RIPMYBOY 🕊️ Casey Durham 🕊️ xoxo Love you so much miss you like nothing of this world 🌎 💔 xoxo 1985 _ 2022 .... God how I miss you man .. love always and until we see each other again { Moms } xoxo #Wareagle #Lookgoodfeelgood 🙏

    • @markkennedy4854
      @markkennedy4854 10 месяцев назад +4

      That's terrible, the old story of Cain & Abel. So sorry for your loss & family tragedy. My mother was devastated when my younger brother Kevin died, even more devastated when her 5 yr old granddaughter was killed in a car accident. RIP Kevin & Rozlin "Rose" 🌹💔😥

    • @JaneDoe-jc3hw
      @JaneDoe-jc3hw 10 месяцев назад +12

      Found my 21 yr old son dead of a gunshot wound Aug 31 will be a yr. I want to die everyday. Faith is getting me through.

    • @BARTOZZI-OFFICIAL
      @BARTOZZI-OFFICIAL 10 месяцев назад +5

      Take as good care of yourself as you can. No words...

  • @user-ol5vt1dw3d
    @user-ol5vt1dw3d 4 месяца назад +88

    I am a man with little time left. God is where I find my refuge. My sun turned black a long time ago when at 17 my addiction started. First I lost my family, then my business, lost my home, and then lost the respect and love of family and friends.
    Drifted around in my addiction for years 30 years to be exact. At the end I was physically, mentally, and spiritually broke. Went to AA I was directed there to God. Then about 3 years ago I went on a trip to Michigan from NC I listened to the Bible going and coming I got thirsty for more, so I have been reading the true word every since. I had a moment of suicidal tendencies and called mental health and checked myself in. I returned home and something started to grow on the inside. I kept reading and I got better. My relationship with God and faith is what is healing me.
    Love God, believe and have faith, just the size of a mustard seed and your thinking will change.

    • @TheIcarianPaths
      @TheIcarianPaths 3 месяца назад +4

      Amen brother. Love seeing others share how they came to find Christ and the love and forgiveness found in Him!

    • @NoMo070
      @NoMo070 3 месяца назад +5

      There is nothing curable for depression more than the relationship with god!

    • @debburollish6387
      @debburollish6387 3 месяца назад +4

      You are very strong sir

    • @bluebean8755
      @bluebean8755 2 месяца назад +2

      Keep it up, man!

    • @burdenedwithgloriouspurpos851
      @burdenedwithgloriouspurpos851 2 месяца назад +2

      That’s amazing! So glad to hear that you are doing better and I hope you know how valuable you are, and care about (and treat) yourself as you should now: with love
      - from someone who somehow overcame self-hatred by the power of the living spirit of Jesus Christ in me (and thru his unconditional love and forgiveness/grace 💕)

  • @jacksel9298
    @jacksel9298 2 месяца назад +1

    This video might be 3 years old by now, but i'm glad youtube recommended this, and i'm glad you created this. Never thought about suicide, never will be, but i can't deny times can be rough... Personally going through something myself, but i hope that in time my emotions can get restored so i can be there for others again.

  • @Paralius
    @Paralius 13 дней назад +1

    My wife. My mom. My sister. My dad. My brother. And all my friends. They’re what I think about that keeps me going. Sometimes when I’m in that moment, the fork in the road when one decision changes everything permanently, I think of them. Especially my wife. I think of her smile. And I think of all the ones I lost to that stupid fork in the road. Gotta keep going

  • @iloveyousoniwillneverleave9653
    @iloveyousoniwillneverleave9653 5 месяцев назад +515

    this, as some random 14 year old kid, made me realize how little i know and how much i have yet to feel and learn at a time where i really needed it. Thanks dude, beautiful song and I hope everything's okay for you in life.

    • @zzz0fia
      @zzz0fia 5 месяцев назад +56

      as a 14 yr old person, i never saw another 14 yr old being so mature

    • @iDxnii.
      @iDxnii. 5 месяцев назад +43

      ​@@zzz0fia As a 16 year old person, I consider this 14 year old to be more matured than me

    • @pi3.14etc
      @pi3.14etc 5 месяцев назад +14

      im 14 too. i feel like its the age where we really start to grow up and be accepted as a teenager. like yeah we are legally teenagers at 13 but 14 is just when we start to mature. i hope no one has to relate to this song but i know some people will and thats okay (sorry if this comment makes no sense)

    • @cockstealer
      @cockstealer 4 месяца назад +11

      As some random 14 year old, i hate my life. It's painful and I don't want to deal with school anymore. Last year was the best year of my entire life so far and this year is already looking down. Keep your life on a good track, cause when you're in a deep state you can never recover.

    • @iloveyousoniwillneverleave9653
      @iloveyousoniwillneverleave9653 4 месяца назад +4

      @@cockstealer bro i promise you no matter what has happened things will be better of all the things i could promise thats the one i'd emphasize the most. with time and life's trials people learn everything they know about life and i promise you one day if you never give up you'll learn and see for yourself based from those lessons things do get better you just gotta keep going and keep fighting for a view from the top

  • @georgemurphy5061
    @georgemurphy5061 6 месяцев назад +98

    The SUN turned BLACK when my youngest SON died. God sent MERCY , GRACE & LOVE to soothe my soul. GOD'S LOVE ENDURES FOREVER.

    • @kirtitomar2962
      @kirtitomar2962 6 месяцев назад +3

      Virtual hugs to you. Your child is with God safe and fine. Stay strong just like you are rn. 💗

    • @Evsta
      @Evsta 6 месяцев назад +1

      I am VERY sorry that HAPPENED to you THAT sounds very TRAUMATIC I hope EVERYTHINGS ok

    • @realgazze_
      @realgazze_ 5 месяцев назад

      God bless your son and may he stay within the lords presence ❤️❤️❤️🙏🙏🙏

  • @user-cx8fr4ix7q
    @user-cx8fr4ix7q 14 часов назад

    What you're doing right now is going to change generations upon generations and save tons of lives. Keep up the good work. You're awesome Man.

  • @rachelhartleben2912
    @rachelhartleben2912 16 дней назад +1

    Found out someone I loved hurt someone else I loved. In a way that I had been hurt as a child. I had prayed for God to keep this particular kind of hurt away from my family. He didn’t.
    I felt so betrayed. I've always been someone who sees beauty everywhere. I find it because I seek it. After finding out about this... I couldn't see beauty anymore. Things, even people, that had brought me such joy before... just didn't. For months & months.
    Part of me just wanted to go home. Eternal home. Part of me was so mad at God I didn't know if I wanted anything to do with Him.
    So, every day, I just... got up. I breathed. I cried. I would occasionally reach out half-heartedly to God. Not sure if I even wanted Him to reach, too. There were times if I had felt He was reaching, I would have slapped His hand away. Or turned my back to Him.
    He was so, so very patient.
    It has been the longest period of waiting I've ever known. I still am waiting, to some extent. My relationship with God will never be what it once was, but I am convicted that if I just continue to get up every day, and breathe, we will grow closer than ever before. I had to forgive Him. I know... me forgive God! As if He would, could! Ever do anything that needed forgiving. It was still imperative that I did. Things have been getting better since then. Like I said. He has been so patient.
    So, I just trust. I get up. Every day. Breathe. And trust in God. Trust in His love. Trust in His plan. Trust in His infallible ability to bring good out of even the darkest circumstances.
    Thank you for your soul-deep song. God bless you!

  • @breanna8090
    @breanna8090 5 месяцев назад +117

    It takes a very very special person to be called 3 days in a row from a suicidal friend. A depresssd person who would be too shamed and embarrassed to call anybody but the suicide hotline , you must be an amazing amazing friend. God bless you. For a depressed person to not be ashamed to call you 3 days in a row they must know you can be trusted at every single cost and you are indeed a special human. I don’t know anyone like you. I wish I did. You don’t know how valued and special you are. I hope you read this.

    • @cannon-grahammusic9800
      @cannon-grahammusic9800  5 месяцев назад +7

      Thank you for your kind words Breanna❤️

    • @elizeocardosodejesus8612
      @elizeocardosodejesus8612 4 месяца назад +2

      Jesus loves you and wants to save you. He died on the cross to free us from sin and hell. He loves you and wants to change your life. If you feel like receiving him as your Savior in your heart, just say from your heart and confess with your mouth: Lord Jesus, I accept you as my only and sufficient savior, write my name in the book of life and cell with your blood and forgive my sins, change my life, amen. Big hug family ❤. Jesus loves you

    • @elizeocardosodejesus8612
      @elizeocardosodejesus8612 4 месяца назад +2

      JESUS LOVES YOU ❤!

  • @sonjadunning1579
    @sonjadunning1579 Год назад +495

    A few years ago I lost my home my husband my job and a couple of weeks after that my eighteen year old son died in a car accident. I never felt that kind of pain in my life and it took me awhile but somehow I made it here to share this with you and anyone who might need to read it. You would be surprised how much strength you really have . I've found some much needed grief counseling and time really made a whole world of difference.

    • @cooperthomas2278
      @cooperthomas2278 Год назад +12

      I’m realy sorry to hear that that sounds horrible

    • @ad7my701
      @ad7my701 Год назад +13

      I’m soo happy you made it and you are really strong thanks for sharing your story ❤

    • @zitofan4life
      @zitofan4life Год назад +8

      I hope you are well. Take care

    • @mage1439
      @mage1439 Год назад +6

      There are no words for what you've been through, but I hope you see that number of likes and see that at least that many people have thought of you with love.

    • @MidwestMotor
      @MidwestMotor Год назад +9

      Bless you! Well, I lost my religion a long time ago but if I had some kind of power I would reverse all this and take all your pain & confusion away! I wish I could hug you and just listen to your story. I don't get life and seen too much. Now all I can do is try to help and consul people. Hang in there please. I'm trying to also.....

  • @user-pm9kt8bs4x
    @user-pm9kt8bs4x 10 дней назад

    I was diagnosed with a Panic and Anxiety and Agorohia disorder in the late 80's..Was raising my daughter at the time (4 years old) then became where going to a grocery store would bring it on..Go to concerts and Nascar Races (as I loved to do) came to an end.. Finally my doctor gave me meds and therapy and I finally got back to Me..Folks plz never be ashamed of an illness, plz get help...Thank You Sweet Fella for writing this Song... You're going to HELP Alot of folks..Take care of Yourself in Cold Utah I s Warm here in South Carolina,but I as Welll Hate Winter Time... mareekirbyfromSouthCarolina 😊🌞🌻☀️🌼🙂

  • @williamnunya6584
    @williamnunya6584 3 дня назад

    PTSD, anxiety n cancer survivor/patient n my wife of seven yrs of back n forth left me on my birthday n been hell since n if wasn't for my dogs there's no telling. 🙏💯 They saved me as much as I saved them. 💔💯🙏

  • @janpierce6791
    @janpierce6791 6 месяцев назад +442

    We lost our 32 yr old grandson last week the Lord’s peace is all that’s getting us through.

    • @darrenmaples6367
      @darrenmaples6367 6 месяцев назад +13

      A peace that surpasses all understanding. God bless you and your family. 🙏

    • @pattyrice2683
      @pattyrice2683 6 месяцев назад +10

      So very sorry for your loss

    • @maebird920
      @maebird920 6 месяцев назад +8

      I’ve found my dark place . Looking for the sun again😮

    • @danielmeliet3997
      @danielmeliet3997 6 месяцев назад +8

      God bless you and keep you. May the lord bring you peace. I’m deeply sorry for your loss. I’ve always believed my super power was being the biggest empath I’ve ever known I cry when others cry and can feel anyone’s pain. Keep going. You will see him again. This life isn’t the end it’s just a step.

    • @SpeedDemon1152
      @SpeedDemon1152 6 месяцев назад

      I’m sorry for your loss, god bless my friend and have a safe life

  • @marshabailey4484
    @marshabailey4484 9 месяцев назад +241

    My sun was black from 2017 to 2020. I'm an alcoholic and I've been sober since December 3, 2020. It was a horrible life I was living. Depression is all consuming. Thank you for giving us an outlet. You are definitely a blessing. Thank you!

    • @blbrookover
      @blbrookover 9 месяцев назад +7

      Stay strong on your journey. ❤

    • @terri1047
      @terri1047 9 месяцев назад +6

      Congratulations on the stop drinking It's ur first bid step

    • @patsybensend
      @patsybensend 9 месяцев назад +8

      Congrats on your sobriety !! Hang in there ONE MINUTE at a TIME, someone will always be there… reach out anytime you need

    • @SB-ew9dx
      @SB-ew9dx 9 месяцев назад +3

      Stay strong and that is not easy reach out if needing help..

    • @carriegarrison5378
      @carriegarrison5378 9 месяцев назад +3

      Alcoholism is so very painful for the addict and more so to the loved one.
      Semi colon tattoos are mental health awareness. Suicide. Depression. Anxiety

  • @kimberlygoodban7261
    @kimberlygoodban7261 Месяц назад +2

    I was in an abusive relationship for 8 years, 3 of it was nothing but abuse. I finally got away from him but it cost me my home, my kids, and my job. I was in a very dark place, only people I had were addicts and it was hard to not use with them, instead I found one person that was willing to help me get my life together in a better environment. I got a job, I got to see my kids more, I fought with everything in me to get my life back. I finally got a home, then I got my kids back. Here 7 years later I’m also married and happy.

  • @Michelle-bi9ys
    @Michelle-bi9ys 2 месяца назад +2

    Hi. My is Michelle. Back in summer of 2023. Me and my kids just recently lost there dad to drug addiction and suicide. And that took me way into my addiction and I ended up losing everything that once was so important to me. I was able to go to treatment and go to meetings and then I found a higher power. That people still cared deeply and didn't blame me for not helping there dad out. I had to stand up straight and get away to get my life and my kids back. I couldn't stand there anymore watching him. So I focused on getting my myself and kids back. Today I can say I love the person I'm. 6 months sober

    • @edalopez3580
      @edalopez3580 2 месяца назад

      I'm proud of you .y sun is black and I also lost everything that meant sumthing to me ..ism stuck now and can't find me ..I'm lost n don't no were to begin .I don't deserve anything I had anyways ..but anyhow sincerely I am proud of you !!

    • @MatthewReardon-rm7kd
      @MatthewReardon-rm7kd 16 дней назад

      I hope u are doing better x

  • @bruhseriously2698
    @bruhseriously2698 Год назад +626

    You know it's a good song when you get a graphic warning

    • @AdelineCowgirl
      @AdelineCowgirl Год назад +15

      Every video about suicide that I have ever watched on youtube has had a warning

    • @chrissemenko628
      @chrissemenko628 Год назад +8

      Big brother "protecting" us🙄

    • @Its_Zero_1
      @Its_Zero_1 Год назад +3

      ​@@AdelineCowgirl true

    • @codmw3921
      @codmw3921 Год назад +4

      @Adeline I don't believe that the songs never too late - three days grace, coming down - Five Finger Death Punch or, 45 - shinedown have warnings (even though 45 isn't about suicide its commonly thought that it is)

    • @DGRIFF
      @DGRIFF Год назад +2

      Twice. Lol

  • @shirleylynch6132
    @shirleylynch6132 Год назад +223

    I haven't heard it yet, but I know I'll cry. I lost my son at 34 overdosed. So I'm getting my tears ready. He was in Puerto Rico and I was in Colorado. My heart has never been so broken. In memory of my son, Joshua 06/03/2019 😥💔

    • @georgemelvin7687
      @georgemelvin7687 Год назад +8

      Awww, so sorry about your loss Shirley, my deep and sincere condolences, how have you been? 🌺 😢

    • @jeancarpenter5283
      @jeancarpenter5283 11 месяцев назад +5

      Dear Lady, Condolences 💐 always 😢🙏

    • @weinerwagon6667
      @weinerwagon6667 11 месяцев назад +4

      So so sorry. Deepest condolences. I cannot fathom. May you find some peace. ❤

    • @dentonosborn115
      @dentonosborn115 11 месяцев назад +2

      I'm sorry brother

    • @DorothyThompson62151
      @DorothyThompson62151 11 месяцев назад +6

      My husband passed away March 28th 2020, and I'll never be the same. That next June would have been our 30th anniversary. Although the loss of my husband was awful, losing a child has to be worse. I have two sons, and I don't know how I would ever cope if I lost either one. My oldest son married a woman who somehow pushed me completely out of their lives, three grandsons and all. It's been almost 20 years since we spoke but he's alive. I can watch him online because he's a professor. So I have an idea where he lives. I cried a river of tears at that loss, so Shirley, you must have cried an ocean of tears and probably still do. I'm so sorry for your loss. I believe your son is in a better place, and you'll see him again someday. His Spirit is watching over you. I believe that with all of my heart because my husband gives me signs he's still with me. I feel touches, and I live alone. Just gentle poking so I know he's with me all the time. May God bless you with peace, love and strength.

  • @kaylasheets4960
    @kaylasheets4960 2 месяца назад +1

    When my sister and dad died back to back I didnt know how I was going to move forward. I literally laid in bed for 1 year and cried. I think its important to sit in the pain while also accepting this is just a chapter. Its not your whole story. Support is pivotal for brighter days. Stand up comedy helped me laugh again. My friends helped me find joy in the every day. Healing isn't linear and it's a lifelong journey. If you find the small moments of sunshine and gratitude, overcoming the pain, gets easier as time goes on. You aren't your thoughts. You aren't the horrible things that have happened to you. You aren't alone and you are loved ❤You've survived your hardest days. Keep going you beautiful soul. We need you.

  • @cathynew1
    @cathynew1 2 месяца назад +1

    Thank you for this beautiful song. I found it by accident but it is absolutely my favorite now it hit home. And 16 months I lost nine people in my life. One of them was my son. The other one was my husband at 45 years. May God be with you always

  • @rebeccalape8423
    @rebeccalape8423 11 месяцев назад +79

    The saddest part of my life. I lost my mom at 14 and my dad at 15. Glad the sun came back out for me. I would imagine saying goodbye to a child so much harder. My heart goes out to those parents.

    • @leahsmith1679
      @leahsmith1679 9 месяцев назад +2

      You sound like a very humble, kind and wise person. I get the impression your parents were pretty great.

    • @michelledupuis123
      @michelledupuis123 8 месяцев назад +2

      You are a beautiful soul! ❤🕯️🙏🏼

    • @ruthgray1930
      @ruthgray1930 8 месяцев назад +1

      I lost my son to cancer December 27th 2020. My sun still isn’t out, he was 33

  • @KaylanKid
    @KaylanKid 5 месяцев назад +373

    I'm 17 and been fighting depression for 6 years, and I tried committing suicide last year but my brother talked me out of it. And I really needed to hear this tonight thanks so much

    • @oj_uice_4416
      @oj_uice_4416 5 месяцев назад +9

      From a stranger to another i love you brother keep ur head up high. Whats helped me thru my own tribulations was thinking of my loved ones and thinking how hard itd be for them. Last thing i wanna do is hurt them in such a way. You are loved and will be missed dont ever forget that. Again love you brother stay strong ur still young and have much to live

    • @inabil7547
      @inabil7547 5 месяцев назад +11

      I'm 17 too. I am having a hard time. No one is supportive. It's hurting. I guess we should strive strive and strive .
      Love you brother.

    • @oj_uice_4416
      @oj_uice_4416 5 месяцев назад +4

      @inabil7547 you can do it man. I believe in you🖤🖤

    • @camdentrosclair2360
      @camdentrosclair2360 5 месяцев назад +5

      Your loved bro, never forget that

    • @Adventist9917
      @Adventist9917 5 месяцев назад +2

      Get in line scrub... I've been fighting all my life and I'm 28. 😎 Seriously though, I can't help but feel like no one has ever actually cared about me and I feel like I wouldn't be missed at times.

  • @tonyajohomstad
    @tonyajohomstad 2 месяца назад +2

    I live in Ohio and yes I have felt this way before!! I have since found myself and turned to God!! I no longer need alcohol or anything else in my life!! I live for myself and my children and grandchild!! Family and friends are great to turn to!! ❤❤❤✝️✝️✝️✝️

  • @HDAZTX
    @HDAZTX 2 месяца назад +1

    I was close to stepping in front of a train in TX when an angel said I am here. It was my mom. I don't know how she found me that day. I had just ridden to TX from AZ, & my brother had cast me out 4 hours before I got there on a Greyhound. The sun turned black. I was waiting for that train. So tired of being cast aside. Other people also just leaving me. Thought no one cared. But I got a hand up, & am now 6 months sober, including that day by the tracks. March 28, 6 months sober.

  • @flexx2252
    @flexx2252 5 месяцев назад +95

    Before you even started singing i dropped a like, no one is alone, no one, ever. We are in this world together, so we help each other, period.

  • @annsjoholm7310
    @annsjoholm7310 6 месяцев назад +231

    My brother committed suicide 4 months ago, we both come from an abusive family, i could talk about it, heal. He couldn't. I've been on my knees but feel his presence somehow. The feeling of hope is coming, life is so fragile, both fantastic and cruel. Thank you for this song ❤️.

    • @missclassy2878
      @missclassy2878 6 месяцев назад +8

      I’m so sorry

    • @annsjoholm7310
      @annsjoholm7310 6 месяцев назад +5

      @@missclassy2878 Thank you 🙏

    • @reid6usaf_651
      @reid6usaf_651 5 месяцев назад +5

      I’m so sorry, may he rest in peace 😔

    • @annsjoholm7310
      @annsjoholm7310 5 месяцев назад +3

      @@reid6usaf_651 Thank you 🙏

    • @EverythingxBeautiful
      @EverythingxBeautiful 5 месяцев назад +6

      My prayers are with you 🕊️
      My sister put a .32 in her mouth when she was 21 and my Mom tried to take her life so many times,about the 3rd attempt we were in ICU and she was conscious but incubated, and I went off yelling at her why? Why? do you want to leave me so badly? Don’t you love me? If I have to be on this earth and suffer you have to suffer with me ! I think you’re being selfish ,only thinking about yourself and your feelings, what about the feelings of the people that love you? The people that will be hurt alone and heartbroken because of your actions. Then I asked her if it hurt (she sliced her wrists took pills and was in a ice cold bathtub for 2 days) technically she was DOA but the hospital tried a new tx to rewarm a hypothermic body, they said possibility of brain damage from bodies methane gases, remarkably she had no brain damage . She nodded her head yes that the suicide attempt hurt. I said Good! Are you going to try to do it again? She shook her head no. lol
      She never tried to kill her self again and she died a few years later from a massive brain hemorrhagic stroke.
      Cemeteries aren’t for the dead, they’re for the living .
      I pray for your healing and recovery 🙏🙏🙏✝️

  • @lakshmikantamurmu4130
    @lakshmikantamurmu4130 25 дней назад

    A great thanks for this lovely song ❤
    Here's some things you can do -
    1. Go outside for nature viewing
    2. Try drawing, yoga , dance , exercise etc.
    3. Talk to your loved ones
    4. Write a diary
    5. Keep hope , talk to yourself for being positive
    6. Read positive books listen to positive songs
    7. Try to see yourself in another way the positive side of you and dream for big. ❤

  • @sierra2008_vr
    @sierra2008_vr 14 дней назад +2

    3 years later and I still need this... I'm still in a bad point in my life and I really just need help.

  • @markkennedy4854
    @markkennedy4854 11 месяцев назад +255

    If you have never personally dealt with depression, you have no idea how devastating it can be. I have been dealing with depression since 2001, I have been taking several types of anti-depressants over the past 22 yrs & I still have suicidal thoughts almost every single day. The sad part of our society is that most people don't recognize depression as a sickness, but see it as a weakness ☹️

    • @sixlbballz
      @sixlbballz 10 месяцев назад +5

      Hang in there it will be okay❤

    • @ruthparks5120
      @ruthparks5120 10 месяцев назад +13

      Depression is a disease that can sometimes lead to death. 😮
      If someone has never experienced chronic pain, grief, domestic violence, or depression, they really have no business commenting about it--bc they just sound silly, and it annoys the person that IS going through it.
      From the outside looking in --each of those problems seem fairly easy to deal with; but, as you know, when one is going through it themselves, there are many factors that an outsider fails to consider. 😮

    • @karimatheny6579
      @karimatheny6579 10 месяцев назад +4

      Thank you for saying that. I needed to hear it today. And you said it perfectly. 💜

    • @sandralukaszek2562
      @sandralukaszek2562 10 месяцев назад +4

      I also have depression is doing pull my self out other information cry every DAY MY HUSBAND IS ALWAYS DRUNK HE HIT ME
      FOR THE FIRST TIME AFTER 42 YEARS
      I CALLED THE POLICE I'M SO SAD I DIDN'T HAVE HIM ARRESTED
      GOD BLESS
      SANDY

    • @genocash8436
      @genocash8436 10 месяцев назад +4

      You are right. If I say losing my spouse of 20 years, almost ended my life by my own hands..I was selfish. Because of that I’m here. Not by choice just didn’t want my legacy being a p’ssy. Day by day I’m going

  • @hannahjackie1679
    @hannahjackie1679 6 месяцев назад +571

    I am 16 and fighting mental illness, this song is so powerful and I feel like I needed to hear it. Thank you, my friend. I really appreciate all you do for people out there and I'm sorry to hear your story.

    • @erikeriks
      @erikeriks 6 месяцев назад +12

      I know these words may not be of any help to you but I'd strongly advise you to talk about it. Learn to be at peace with yourself. You're still young and you've got a life ahead of you that only you can live. Take care and you'll be fine as long as you have faith in God and most importantly as far as depression goes faith in yourself. You can do this.

    • @missclassy2878
      @missclassy2878 6 месяцев назад +10

      Hey im 16 and battling stuff too. We’re in this together bro.

    • @Ziro_kun
      @Ziro_kun 5 месяцев назад +7

      Breathe air

    • @crazybanguru1096
      @crazybanguru1096 5 месяцев назад +5

      Kid is depressed for silly reasons 🤣 go outside kid.. and see their are many people who is suffering and ur problems are nothing infront of them including mine..

    • @fluxx8057
      @fluxx8057 5 месяцев назад

      @@crazybanguru1096u sound very lonely and insecure. Hope god does good with u

  • @denisetownsend9928
    @denisetownsend9928 2 месяца назад +2

    My sun is BLACK ! 3 Months ago my 39yr old son died from a accidental fentanoyl overdose. I am gutted with sorrow,but I continued to turn to our Lord and with his love and grace I have learned to breathe again. I love you my sweet Dave and will hold you forever in my heart. ❤

    • @KK-qm7jj
      @KK-qm7jj 2 месяца назад

      May supernatural peace from the Lord wash over you.

  • @tanyanorton211
    @tanyanorton211 2 месяца назад +1

    My son is in the Military. I’m his go to person. Sometimes in the middle of the night he would cry. Like I’ve never heard before. All I could say is I love him with all of my heart. Sometimes we have to do something’s in life that we don’t want to. I’ve learned sometimes that is what someone wants. Not that they would ever comprehend. Just someone that is there.

  • @tytaylor8762
    @tytaylor8762 Год назад +175

    Last year I was diagnosed with stage 4 colon cancer and my other half left because of the illness. I was hurt and angry that someone I loved could just walk away when I needed them most. I'm much better now and stronger and I'm beating the cancer. Thanks for this song

    • @thisdeaddog
      @thisdeaddog Год назад +9

      Relatable senbding condolences. Dealing with relapsed lymphoma with secondary testicular. After telling the woman i wanted to only fight for to love she decided To ghost. Meeting her truly was the only time i felt the courage strength and happiness for a possible future, today i sit empty , again. Idk what to even do anymore. I pray for your recovery

    • @glamwithrichelriann
      @glamwithrichelriann Год назад +12

      @@thisdeaddog and @Ty Taylor I have no words. That's horrible what you've both been through. I'm so sorry. This World can be so dark and nasty. I'm so happy you are beating it the cancer Ty and I am 🙏🏻 praying for recovery for both of you!!!!! Keep on fighting. Best wishes!!!

    • @pseudomonasaeruginosa4104
      @pseudomonasaeruginosa4104 Год назад +5

      Keep fighting! ❤

    • @PayStayed775
      @PayStayed775 Год назад +2

      Bless you Brother!

    • @4588ron
      @4588ron Год назад +6

      You're not alone brother. Let music and love be the bridge for your spirit to fly.

  • @thomassonnathan
    @thomassonnathan 6 месяцев назад +175

    My mother passed away when I was 12. It was such an emotional roller coaster for anyone especially as a preteen. When she was in the ICU fighting for her life in a coma due to diabetes complications, all of my aunts and uncles on my father’s side were present and I decided to kneel down on her bedside on the cold hospital floor and sing a song she always sang to me when I was young. It was Amazing Grace. When I got to the second verse of the song, she woke up out of the coma right then and there and sang the song with me as best as she could.
    Unfortunately a few days later she went to her home in Heaven but I was still left alone it felt like. I began to search for love in all the wrong places, took advantage of girls my age and developed an addiction to pornography (which I still fight to this day).
    I am now 31 and happily married with a beautiful 5 year old girl and I think of that story of singing to my mother and her waking up as a reminder that I can find peace in the midst of very difficult times because of God’s Amazing Grace.
    Love you all and please reach out to others if you are struggling, and reach out to those who are struggling.

    • @AlbertasFinest
      @AlbertasFinest 6 месяцев назад +5

      ❤ this

    • @dennislawless3563
      @dennislawless3563 6 месяцев назад +3

      You should be very proud of yourself mate, the fact you're still up and fighting and with a little one of your own shows you what type of man you are. Very well done

    • @ljsart8405
      @ljsart8405 6 месяцев назад +2

      this made me cry. i’m so sorry, i can’t even imagine the pain you felt

    • @thomassonnathan
      @thomassonnathan 6 месяцев назад +2

      @@ljsart8405I’m sorry I made you cry 😢 I just wanted to hopefully encourage others that have experienced similar traumas. I chose, by the grace of God, to turn my past hurts into future positives.

    • @thomassonnathan
      @thomassonnathan 6 месяцев назад +2

      @@dennislawless3563appreciate the kind words brother

  • @CarrieBolen
    @CarrieBolen 2 месяца назад +1

    I've been fighting the worst depression ever the past 3 years watching my daughter suffer from mental health issues and addiction. The only thing that keeps me going is my daughter's daughter, who deserves and needs all the love she can get. I try to remind myself to just live one day at a time and pray because God is the only one who can intervene and make it all okay, somehow.

  • @user-rr1co2ic7f
    @user-rr1co2ic7f 2 месяца назад +2

    Been homeless for two years. My wife passed away. Fell off the waken for a while. Homeless but I do have a job. Keep fighting. Just go to work everyday I'm sober things are coming around. Thanks for the things you are saying. Keep it up

  • @michaelkorhecz4936
    @michaelkorhecz4936 2 года назад +314

    It's important to note: once you get past depression you are so many times more stronger.

    • @Kimberly-ps5sq
      @Kimberly-ps5sq 2 года назад +18

      Sometimes it's impossible to get past it 😢

    • @frankbolger1906
      @frankbolger1906 2 года назад +5

      Kimberly you are so right.
      I am at my lowest tonight 🙏

    • @koguchipower4816
      @koguchipower4816 2 года назад +4

      ​@@Kimberly-ps5sq Yeah I agree, I try keep my chin up and fight each day, I'm 38 and still fighting. It is a mental illness I don't think it does pass? its something we have to except and may have to live with forever.

    • @michaelkorhecz4936
      @michaelkorhecz4936 2 года назад +3

      @@Kimberly-ps5sq i don't think you can completely get rid of it because it is the way your mind tells you something is wrong much like how your body feels pain. I've gone through the big one s like heart break and insecurities I'm 1000 stronger after I figured it all out. Depression will always be apart of our lives but only pay it the attention it deserves "oh I feel bad I'm going to do something about" and no more👍

    • @Kimberly-ps5sq
      @Kimberly-ps5sq 2 года назад +1

      @@frankbolger1906 thinking of you

  • @Mommommommommom
    @Mommommommommom 8 месяцев назад +213

    My moment is right now. I’m listening to your song as I sit at my husband’s grave. It’s been 4 months now without him and I’m still having to remind myself to breathe in and out. 💔❤️‍🩹

    • @chrisp.9172
      @chrisp.9172 7 месяцев назад +8

      I'm so sorry for your loss! It's almost to soon to offer comforting words. Idk where in the grieving process you are but let me feel you they bounce around, you can go from Angry to sad in 1/2 day! Be strong, think of good memories, and blessings always.
      " I pray the good Lord may asuiage the anguish of your bereavement"

    • @priscillac3825
      @priscillac3825 7 месяцев назад +4

      Thinking of and praying for you!

    • @samuelradford6506
      @samuelradford6506 7 месяцев назад

      Boo freaking hoo

    • @whoisharo4689
      @whoisharo4689 7 месяцев назад +5

      My hands on your back. Youre not alone. Lost the only girl I loved to cancer at 31 without being able to tell her i loved her. I think of her weekly. Its unbearable sometimes.

    • @ChloePye89
      @ChloePye89 6 месяцев назад +4

      My heart hurts for you. I don’t think I can say anything to make you feel better but just know in time your heart will handle the hurt differently - your husband may not be physically with you but I promise you he is & he can hear you and your thoughts 🤍

  • @WiseWoman6
    @WiseWoman6 2 месяца назад +3

    My darkest day was losing my only sibling my beautiful big hearted brother & a week later my youngest son was born early & needed to go to the Nicu. I was so broken from losing my brother & then my sweet baby boy sick. I went into a very dark & lonely depression. My son is 22 & going to be married this May 2024 but I will always feel part of my heart is gone 😢😢❤❤

  • @bernadettekuhns7832
    @bernadettekuhns7832 9 дней назад

    Night after night, day after day for months I begged and pleaded with God to take me out of this crazy situation. Begging forgiveness for bothering him so much . Slowing, after so many nights of tempests of sorrow and hollow feelings… it started getting better.. have a quiet calmness now…there are days where I think too much, remembering what led to the upheaval of my soul.. trying to keep my days away from those thoughts ~ that deep down inside nothingness ~ resigning to allow God to take it away and help me see joy even in its smallest measurement. It is working… it will be a battle for sometime yet. But God is Here.

  • @rightinthedome9973
    @rightinthedome9973 Год назад +110

    I've struggled with depression most of my life, I'm 29 now and I was ready to give up. Then I learned about the thief on the cross and found Matthew 11:28 "come to me all who are burdened and I will give you rest" and I gave my life to Jesus and my sun hasn't been black since.

  • @theresanoblin7077
    @theresanoblin7077 Год назад +393

    At 15 years old I lost both my parents and brother in a car accident that I somehow lived through. We were on our way to say our goodbyes to my grandma who died 12 hours after the wreck. That was in 1996 and I still struggle with my depression and probably always will

    • @dinolisi9812
      @dinolisi9812 Год назад +15

      Gezuz .. that’s brutal

    • @terrylynnwentworth1338
      @terrylynnwentworth1338 Год назад +16

      I am so sorry that you had to experience that kind pain at such a young age, not many people experience grief from losing multiple very close family members all at once. I lost my father when I was 15, he was not only a great Dad- but sometimes he was like my mom also. I can't imagine how hard that must of been for u, your a very strong person & remember that your times of pain & struggle is what makes u who u are...

    • @terricollins6097
      @terricollins6097 Год назад +6

      I couldn’t imagine the pain you’ve been through so young. I am very sorry for your loss

    • @mfendel8461
      @mfendel8461 Год назад +6

      I’m so sorry you had to go through that so young . Your so strong ! ❤️❤️❤️

    • @777lancekoa8
      @777lancekoa8 Год назад +15

      "The Lord is near to the brokenhearted, he saves those who are crushed in spirit." | 《Psalm 35:18》♡

  • @alicialawhun91
    @alicialawhun91 21 день назад +1

    The sun and my world turned black when my dad passed away 4 years ago. Some days I wish I wouldn't wake up because I could be with him again. My world is still dark and my depression is still there. I miss my hero more every day. 😢💔

  • @alyshaleles9360
    @alyshaleles9360 14 дней назад +1

    I feel you about Utah winters and depression... It's awful, and absolutely freezing... 🥶 I'm sorry 😐 but thank you for your beautiful music 🙏🎶 🤍

  • @sheriduenes3686
    @sheriduenes3686 Год назад +393

    My sun turned black when I lost my son October 2022 to fentanyl poisoning and depression. Turned even blacker when I found out my brother sold it to him. I am now active in the fentanyl war that makes my son brighter. Great song hugs and prayers to you

    • @dv6496
      @dv6496 Год назад +13

      I am so sorry for your loss.

    • @aruchucky5060
      @aruchucky5060 Год назад +8

      Stay strong Sheri, God will guide and bless you. Prayers to you.

    • @davidcampos268
      @davidcampos268 Год назад +10

      As a father, even the thought of what your going through hurts. with the utmost compation to your situation I am so sorry for your loss

    • @gizzyg5337
      @gizzyg5337 Год назад +9

      I'm sorry for your loss I lost my husband in July.

    • @sheriduenes3686
      @sheriduenes3686 Год назад +4

      @@gizzyg5337 I'm so sorry

  • @debbie960
    @debbie960 11 месяцев назад +144

    I'm 61 and lived with depression all of my life. The worst time for me was when I was 40. I had the end of my life all planned out. My daughter came over that night for a visit and spent the night talking to me, so my time passed. What has helped me get out of the darkness first, was music, and medicine, and there was a forum I hung out in called wing of madness. As I started to get a little past the deepest despair, I was glad I didn't kill myself. I was able to finally notice the blue sky, the flowers and their vivid colors. Just little things I would have missed. I really have to end this saying that music was my huge crutch. I'm still on meds 21 years later, and though I would prefer not to have to be on them, I found out the hard way that I can't do without them. For anyone that is in the pit of despair, it really does get better, find your crutch, your outlet, and stand strong.

    • @karimatheny6579
      @karimatheny6579 10 месяцев назад

      ❤❤❤❤❤

    • @Lineproof
      @Lineproof 10 месяцев назад +1

      if anti-depressants, just know you’ll never get off them if you keep using them. They’re ineffective as a treatment

    • @debbie960
      @debbie960 10 месяцев назад +3

      @Lineproof yeah, I'll never be able to get off them, I tried and it was a horrible failure. Others can be on awhile and get off them, and others recover from depression without any meds. I wish I was that person! 😊

    • @meilinlani3439
      @meilinlani3439 10 месяцев назад +3

      I feed people. I give them resources if they don't have them. Sometimes coats. Homeless people. I like cooking Big at Thanksgiving and going to different parks and feeding people. I gather toys and stuff thru the year for kids around me I know won't get much if anything. Food baskets for families and the elderly. Thats what we did. Now, I try to continue what we started. I will always try to give out love and a sandwich. Along with prayers for a better life and understanding of You Lord.

    • @meilinlani3439
      @meilinlani3439 10 месяцев назад +3

      Amen.

  • @user-wu1dv6jp5j
    @user-wu1dv6jp5j 2 месяца назад +1

    My moments of deep darkness have often been mixed with the use of alcohol. Now that I am sober and have surrendered my ice to the Lord; His grace and mercy and love has intervened my life. I also surround myself with like minded people. On a lighter level, exercise @
    and nature improve my mental perspective. Also, loving and serving others, bringing joy to others keeps me out of those extremely dark and hopeless places. Hope this helps.

  • @DianeSmetheram-hs8cv
    @DianeSmetheram-hs8cv 2 месяца назад +1

    I always described my depression as being in the abyss and being too tired to swim, easier to drown. Thankful everyday I got help and never have those thoughts anymore. Feeling thankful for every new day!