As a freshly cracked egg myself, I don't think I've ever even asked myself this question. The question I ask is am I trans. Transition just seems such an obvious necessity that I've never stopped to ask why.
Huh, I'm in the same boat. I wonder a bit if I'm going into it too quickly, but then it's like, I've finally put a label on who I am and I want to become that person as soon as possible.
@@jstn167 I get the feeling of wondering if I'm going to quickly. I just presented as a woman in public for the first time yesterday and now I really don't want to present as a man at all😅. It sort of feels like I'm speeding down a black run on a ski hill, still in control and able to steer, but almost impossible to stop.
i transitioned to be a truer version of myself. i couldn't pretend to be someone i wasn't anymore. and yes, i could only do this once i realized who i realized who i was. love the new space Claire, i am eagerly awaiting what you will do with it.
Great to see you so happy in the new place!!! Your videos are so on point for me .54 yo here and this video is so accurate. Thank u for you and all you do for us in the community. You keep me sane in a crazy world.
You are a pure beauty!!! Absolutely glowing in front of that huge window!!! Your sweetness and honesty is so endearing. To answer your question, I think people transition to feel whole as themselves. How can you be truly happy if you are at conflict with your emotions and your perception of yourself? Thus, you transition so your body equals your view of yourself. I fully support this, and think it's absolutely beautiful that today's medicine is able to help achieve such great milestones in a person's life. Congratulations to everyone in the world who has been able to do this, and I hope all others who wish to do so, are able to as well. You are all amazing, and deserve happiness!!! Much Love!!
Hi Claire, I sent you my transition story some time ago now so you know why I did. I think you hit the nail on the head in this video, "transition to live", great well thought out video as usual. Thanks for being visible. Love and Hugs. Mel xx
Someone who was positive and optimistic as a youth was growing increasingly bitter and cynical. Not that there isn't a lot of good reasons in this world of ours, but I identified the need to transition as a major factor. The thought of transitioning scared me though because everything I was taught told me that it was wrong, consequently I put it off for over 40 years. Beginning to transition has restored much of that positivity and optimism I once had and I truly wish I had done it sooner.
I spent 30 odd years living with an intense hatred of myself. Which I thought was just a normal part of depression. Then, about 2 years ago, my egg began cracking. I'm still years away from being able to transition but there's something a little cathartic about now knowing why I've always been such a mess! These videos give me little years of happiness and hope.
Definitely part of it was to stop living a lie, but also to answer the ever burning question of can I correct this and will my life better if I do (I can answer that now and say - hell yes!). It did take a crisis point to help motivate me to actually go through with it. I reached the point where I didn't want to live any further as I was; I couldn't no longer pretend to be something I never was. I delayed a long time due to lack of support from those around me and needed to have the courage to go against everyone around who was telling me not to. It was definitely scary at the beginning, but felt it was something I absolutely had to do regardless of whatever the outcome was going to be. Realized that I was never going to feel right about things until I was actually doing something to correct it. Also realized that all the negative comments I was receiving from family was only focusing on the short term. I decided I was in it for the long term.
Of course, we all have different stories. I was one of those primordial types. In this century, even in the earlier decades, the idea that there were transgender people in the world and that transition was possible was in the air. In the 1950s, 60s and 70s people had heard of Christine Jorgensen, and later Dr. Renee Richards, but sex change was something exotic that happened once or twice in some Scandinavian country. I didn’t know it was possible when I was a child. I knew I should have been a girl and prayed at night that I would wake up as a girl in the morning. Later I read every tabloid and magazine that had a sensational story on the subject. I learned about April Ashley and Coccinelle but I never knew I could change myself and make a normal place in the world. Somehow I eventually found out it was possible to transition and have the surgery in San Francisco but Vietnam and the Draft got in the way. Afterward, I went back to college on the GI Bill and worked in fast food until I ran away to California to change my life. It wasn’t a known thing and it wasn’t done but somehow I did it.
I've felt born in the wrong body since so young wish I had a female body, never could really put the finger on why I was depressed, when im myself I am so happy, I only started wearing female clothes every day for the past year or so now, waiting to start HRT this year, hoping I won't have to live in guy mode for much longer lol I might go full time as I start HRT I know I won't pass as well right away unless I do makeup but I just want to be myself
We are trans because we were conceived that way, had a childhood that assisted in our gender identity if not also our sexual identity, and after doubting, worrying, learning that we are not fitting in our assigned and sometimes forced roles, we take it upon ourselves to transition. Being real and not lying about identity all the time is refreshing. But on a sad note we have enemies who are willing to destroy our humanity even to the extent of killing up. May their souls rest in hell.
Ok, I was and am still a conservative Christian, before transitioning I saw trans women as men in dresses. Ten years before transitioning I was dressing as a woman when I got the chance to do so and feeling like a pile of dirt, and I would ask God to take these feelings away.I did maybe 6 times said this is the last time and get rid of all my stash of clothes, I wish I didn't do that because I really loved them and that gets expensive.I was in such denile I couldn't see I was trans.Then about 5 years ago after getting rid of clothes and a few weeks later buying more, I was asking God to take these feelings away and God said will you praise me for them? Well I'll praise God for anything, because His word says to plus He is in control of every situation that comes into my life. So I did that and a month later nothing is changed and I'm praying for the feelings to go. God said Ok embrace the feelings and transition, God's word says to obey Him, this was like Peter stepping out of the boat.That decision to obey God was like a breath of fresh air, a weight gone and peace. Then I thought I was just a cross dresser, so I started going in that direction for about 3 weeks. Then it came to me, I'm not a part time woman I am a woman. Then I started going to meetings and saw we are just men and women who got the wrong body. Praise God for estrogen and testosterone blockers.
Claire, hello, do you have an email? I'm new and I'm very impressed with your work here, have no fear I'm transgender in transitioning starting at age 63 so I'm new to the community and I think you would be easy to talk to for help. Hope to hear from you soon. Margueritte
im new to this so im a new egg and i never thought of being transgender just that i think differently and questioned myself on why i wanted to wear female cloths or wanting what girls what and it always confused me growing up and made me feel like an outcast and feel super awkward around people and untill last year when i stumbled into trans tik toks and then it started clicking and making sense that i might be trans and to me personally i think i am but im planning on getting therapy to help out but i dont have any trans friends to help me out so i got youtube and tiktok to help me out.
I really really enjoy your videos I just thought I should tell you and I love you as a trans woman and I would love to be your friend and hang out with you as friends but I know that can't happen as far away as we live but there's always dreams!!
Fun, feel comfortable in that gender. At the same time, I am feeling very bad because if I do, there will be health issues accompanied with transition. Don't know how to calm my cravings 😭
@@tiffanyw3064 Weight gain, cardiovascular issues, thromboembolism, antidiuretic effect (kidneys), excess potassium, low calcium, osteoporosis, pelvic disfigurement, no testosterone which performs many functions, lapsed epiglottis, just to name a few.
Hi Claire its Ashleigh I am an Aussie i have watched everyone of your videos right from the start. I think trans people transition because they have to or some wouldnt live (stay alive) without transitioning. Ashleigh 💖
sorry i forgot to subscribe earlier but i found your channel again so here i am. yes, my channel name is NBCWASWRONGTOCANCELQUANTUMLEAP. i love that name, i think i'll keep it.
Fellow trans enby from Seattle! I think its not so much a transition but a redirection. After puberty a path gets picked for you and if you don't agree with that path and the changes/transitioning that is happening, we now get the choice to slowly make our way towards the other path (or choosing something separate from both) which is pretty cool. What you talked about in here reminds me of enlightenment and how people describe the process of always being there (enlightened) but then suddenly being aware of that you have always been in that final state.
Sleepless in Seattle... I'm bored as hell. I'm from Texas. I've never been into drugs just marijuana. It's like the people here are zombified on drugs. I'm sad 😒
May I please include some extra nuance to your conversation? I have no intention of attempting any kind of evangelization in my contribution, I would however like to supply some extra dimensión to the discourse. To advance some concepts I would like to present some quotes. First: Isa 56:4-5 KJV 4 For thus saith the LORD unto the eunuchs that keep my sabbaths, and choose the things that please me, and take hold of my covenant; 5 Even unto them will I give in mine house and within my walls a place and a name better than of sons and of daughters: I will give them an everlasting name, that shall not be cut off. Second: Mat 19:11-12 KJV 11 But he said unto them, All men cannot receive this saying, save they to whom it is given. 12 For there are some eunuchs, which were so born from their mother's womb: and there are some eunuchs, which were made eunuchs of men: and there be eunuchs, which have made themselves eunuchs for the kingdom of heaven's sake. He that is able to receive it, let him receive it. Third: Act 8:26-40 KJV which I consider too long to be quoted here. I would love to note first that the term eunuch in these quotes seems to be defined by the Lord Jesus himself to include intersex individuals (eunuchs, which were so born from their mother's womb). Unwilling (some eunuchs, which were made eunuchs of men) and willing (eunuchs, which have made themselves eunuchs) individuals appear similarly defined. May I also note the quote (unto them will I give in mine house and within my walls a place and a name better than of sons and of daughters). I am aware that original Hebrew literally is translated "a hand and a name" greater than of sons and of daughters. I am, however, quite intrigued by the implications that eunuchs are given a name separate from sons and from daughters. I consider myself to be a eunuch (trans). I am not exactly a son and not exactly a daughter. I have a woefully masculine face and physique but I am definitely not a son (AMAB MTF post SRS (GCS)). Therefore I do not fit in sons' spaces or daughters' spaces. I have immersed myself in the philosophical, psychological, political and theological literature and media for a significant portion of seven decades and conclude that I am physically, politically, perceptually and theologically non-binary. Psychologically, I have identified as female since the age of two or three but diligent discipline discouraged any hint or discussion of my feminine identity or behavior. My ideal puberty would have included hormone blockers until a legally acceptable age to begin HRT and GCS (SRS) and then as nearly normal womanhood as attainable. In actuality, the diligent discipline has induced my voluntary celibacy and perception that I have been insidiously gaslighted and have a subtle incidence of complex traumatic stress disorder by the dismissing, ignoring, denying and suppressing of my gender identity. I hope my comments and the quotes are discovered to be beneficial. I pray that nothing is found to be triggering because my intent was to be somehow loving, compassionate and empathetic to each and everyone. If you have deigned to read this entire comment, thank you much!
nice new studio. not that I'm transgender, I think it's an interesting subject. in my normal life I don't call anyone who is transgender. (I think :-) )
I've looked at your pics. You make a much prettier woman than you did as a man. Is that right? You make a better woman that you made a man. That's not right either. . . You are a new and better thing than you were. That's better.
As a freshly cracked egg myself, I don't think I've ever even asked myself this question. The question I ask is am I trans. Transition just seems such an obvious necessity that I've never stopped to ask why.
Huh, I'm in the same boat. I wonder a bit if I'm going into it too quickly, but then it's like, I've finally put a label on who I am and I want to become that person as soon as possible.
@@jstn167 I get the feeling of wondering if I'm going to quickly. I just presented as a woman in public for the first time yesterday and now I really don't want to present as a man at all😅. It sort of feels like I'm speeding down a black run on a ski hill, still in control and able to steer, but almost impossible to stop.
i transitioned to be a truer version of myself. i couldn't pretend to be someone i wasn't anymore. and yes, i could only do this once i realized who i realized who i was.
love the new space Claire, i am eagerly awaiting what you will do with it.
Great to see you so happy in the new place!!! Your videos are so on point for me .54 yo here and this video is so accurate. Thank u for you and all you do for us in the community. You keep me sane in a crazy world.
You are a pure beauty!!! Absolutely glowing in front of that huge window!!! Your sweetness and honesty is so endearing.
To answer your question, I think people transition to feel whole as themselves. How can you be truly happy if you are at conflict with your emotions and your perception of yourself? Thus, you transition so your body equals your view of yourself. I fully support this, and think it's absolutely beautiful that today's medicine is able to help achieve such great milestones in a person's life. Congratulations to everyone in the world who has been able to do this, and I hope all others who wish to do so, are able to as well. You are all amazing, and deserve happiness!!! Much Love!!
Hi Claire, I sent you my transition story some time ago now so you know why I did.
I think you hit the nail on the head in this video, "transition to live", great well thought out video as usual. Thanks for being visible.
Love and Hugs. Mel xx
Thanks! And yea, your story was really something else! :D
@@clairemichelle4583 Aww thanks, I didn't realise I was that interesting :D
Always love your videos.
Hope you enjoy your new studio and you get your full worth.
Thanks so much!
Someone who was positive and optimistic as a youth was growing increasingly bitter and cynical. Not that there isn't a lot of good reasons in this world of ours, but I identified the need to transition as a major factor. The thought of transitioning scared me though because everything I was taught told me that it was wrong, consequently I put it off for over 40 years. Beginning to transition has restored much of that positivity and optimism I once had and I truly wish I had done it sooner.
Currently 23, came out a little over a year ago. And when you mentioned a fog, that hit home. Practically a home run no less
5:40 feeling comfortable, talking with friends having some drinks being social. I'm more comfortable now
I do think there is a difference between transitioning now, vs when I did it 30+ yrs ago. But the reasons haven't changed.
I hated lying to everyone I ever met and knew, especially myself.
I spent 30 odd years living with an intense hatred of myself. Which I thought was just a normal part of depression. Then, about 2 years ago, my egg began cracking. I'm still years away from being able to transition but there's something a little cathartic about now knowing why I've always been such a mess! These videos give me little years of happiness and hope.
You could have guest bands playing segway transitions in the background of your videos.. an intimate musical experience.
Definitely part of it was to stop living a lie, but also to answer the ever burning question of can I correct this and will my life better if I do (I can answer that now and say - hell yes!). It did take a crisis point to help motivate me to actually go through with it. I reached the point where I didn't want to live any further as I was; I couldn't no longer pretend to be something I never was. I delayed a long time due to lack of support from those around me and needed to have the courage to go against everyone around who was telling me not to. It was definitely scary at the beginning, but felt it was something I absolutely had to do regardless of whatever the outcome was going to be. Realized that I was never going to feel right about things until I was actually doing something to correct it. Also realized that all the negative comments I was receiving from family was only focusing on the short term. I decided I was in it for the long term.
Of course, we all have different stories. I was one of those primordial types. In this century, even in the earlier decades, the idea that there were transgender people in the world and that transition was possible was in the air. In the 1950s, 60s and 70s people had heard of Christine Jorgensen, and later Dr. Renee Richards, but sex change was something exotic that happened once or twice in some Scandinavian country. I didn’t know it was possible when I was a child. I knew I should have been a girl and prayed at night that I would wake up as a girl in the morning. Later I read every tabloid and magazine that had a sensational story on the subject. I learned about April Ashley and Coccinelle but I never knew I could change myself and make a normal place in the world. Somehow I eventually found out it was possible to transition and have the surgery in San Francisco but Vietnam and the Draft got in the way. Afterward, I went back to college on the GI Bill and worked in fast food until I ran away to California to change my life. It wasn’t a known thing and it wasn’t done but somehow I did it.
Nice place Looks Like it needs a bit More work hope you let us see it all being done
Alright! You got it! Next vlog I'll show the paint drying :P :D
You keep changing studios every 2 months lol. Great lighting and wallshelfs. Shelfs for months.
Moving on up!
Organization, creative use of space and you could have plenty room for all the music stuff.
Hay pretty lady good to see U living life large. Hope U get all U hope & work hard for. Like the post.
I've felt born in the wrong body since so young wish I had a female body, never could really put the finger on why I was depressed, when im myself I am so happy, I only started wearing female clothes every day for the past year or so now, waiting to start HRT this year, hoping I won't have to live in guy mode for much longer lol I might go full time as I start HRT I know I won't pass as well right away unless I do makeup but I just want to be myself
We are trans because we were conceived that way, had a childhood that assisted in our gender identity if not also our sexual identity, and after doubting, worrying, learning that we are not fitting in our assigned and sometimes forced roles, we take it upon ourselves to transition. Being real and not lying about identity all the time is refreshing. But on a sad note we have enemies who are willing to destroy our humanity even to the extent of killing up. May their souls rest in hell.
Ok, I was and am still a conservative Christian, before transitioning I saw trans women as men in dresses. Ten years before transitioning I was dressing as a woman when I got the chance to do so and feeling like a pile of dirt, and I would ask God to take these feelings away.I did maybe 6 times said this is the last time and get rid of all my stash of clothes, I wish I didn't do that because I really loved them and that gets expensive.I was in such denile I couldn't see I was trans.Then about 5 years ago after getting rid of clothes and a few weeks later buying more, I was asking God to take these feelings away and God said will you praise me for them? Well I'll praise God for anything, because His word says to plus He is in control of every situation that comes into my life. So I did that and a month later nothing is changed and I'm praying for the feelings to go. God said Ok embrace the feelings and transition, God's word says to obey Him, this was like Peter stepping out of the boat.That decision to obey God was like a breath of fresh air, a weight gone and peace. Then I thought I was just a cross dresser, so I started going in that direction for about 3 weeks. Then it came to me, I'm not a part time woman I am a woman. Then I started going to meetings and saw we are just men and women who got the wrong body. Praise God for estrogen and testosterone blockers.
Claire, hello, do you have an email? I'm new and I'm very impressed with your work here, have no fear I'm transgender in transitioning starting at age 63 so I'm new to the community and I think you would be easy to talk to for help. Hope to hear from you soon. Margueritte
I wish you the best in your life and transition.
im new to this so im a new egg and i never thought of being transgender just that i think differently and questioned myself on why i wanted to wear female cloths or wanting what girls what and it always confused me growing up and made me feel like an outcast and feel super awkward around people and untill last year when i stumbled into trans tik toks and then it started clicking and making sense that i might be trans and to me personally i think i am but im planning on getting therapy to help out but i dont have any trans friends to help me out so i got youtube and tiktok to help me out.
I think its because it all gets to us. The whole fitting into the gender binary. The constant trying to pass etc
I really really enjoy your videos I just thought I should tell you and I love you as a trans woman and I would love to be your friend and hang out with you as friends but I know that can't happen as far away as we live but there's always dreams!!
Dia de la Noche'...
Intrigued... You are a gorgeous human living the human experience - perfectly imperfect as we all are.
Fun, feel comfortable in that gender. At the same time, I am feeling very bad because if I do, there will be health issues accompanied with transition. Don't know how to calm my cravings 😭
Health issues? I don't know what your life is like but the only health issue I have had is a UTI from tucking too deep.
@@tiffanyw3064 Weight gain, cardiovascular issues, thromboembolism, antidiuretic effect (kidneys), excess potassium, low calcium, osteoporosis, pelvic disfigurement, no testosterone which performs many functions, lapsed epiglottis, just to name a few.
Nice
Hi Claire its Ashleigh I am an Aussie i have watched everyone of your videos right from the start. I think trans people transition because they have to or some wouldnt live (stay alive) without transitioning. Ashleigh 💖
We do it, because we CAN'T NOT do it. Yea....we stop lying to ourselves then we stop lying to others - even if it was never overt.
Oh I can relate Sooooo Much!.. But of course you know that my friend!. :o)
sorry i forgot to subscribe earlier but i found your channel again so here i am. yes, my channel name is NBCWASWRONGTOCANCELQUANTUMLEAP. i love that name, i think i'll keep it.
Fellow trans enby from Seattle! I think its not so much a transition but a redirection. After puberty a path gets picked for you and if you don't agree with that path and the changes/transitioning that is happening, we now get the choice to slowly make our way towards the other path (or choosing something separate from both) which is pretty cool. What you talked about in here reminds me of enlightenment and how people describe the process of always being there (enlightened) but then suddenly being aware of that you have always been in that final state.
it is right of Passage for all Transgender people
Sleepless in Seattle... I'm bored as hell.
I'm from Texas.
I've never been into drugs just marijuana. It's like the people here are zombified on drugs. I'm sad 😒
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May I please include some extra nuance to your conversation? I have no intention of attempting any kind of evangelization in my contribution, I would however like to supply some extra dimensión to the discourse. To advance some concepts I would like to present some quotes.
First:
Isa 56:4-5 KJV 4 For thus saith the LORD unto the eunuchs that keep my sabbaths, and choose the things that please me, and take hold of my covenant; 5 Even unto them will I give in mine house and within my walls a place and a name better than of sons and of daughters: I will give them an everlasting name, that shall not be cut off.
Second:
Mat 19:11-12 KJV 11 But he said unto them, All men cannot receive this saying, save they to whom it is given. 12 For there are some eunuchs, which were so born from their mother's womb: and there are some eunuchs, which were made eunuchs of men: and there be eunuchs, which have made themselves eunuchs for the kingdom of heaven's sake. He that is able to receive it, let him receive it.
Third:
Act 8:26-40 KJV which I consider too long to be quoted here.
I would love to note first that the term eunuch in these quotes seems to be defined by the Lord Jesus himself to include intersex individuals (eunuchs, which were so born from their mother's womb). Unwilling (some eunuchs, which were made eunuchs of men) and willing (eunuchs, which have made themselves eunuchs) individuals appear similarly defined.
May I also note the quote (unto them will I give in mine house and within my walls a place and a name better than of sons and of daughters). I am aware that original Hebrew literally is translated "a hand and a name" greater than of sons and of daughters. I am, however, quite intrigued by the implications that eunuchs are given a name separate from sons and from daughters.
I consider myself to be a eunuch (trans). I am not exactly a son and not exactly a daughter. I have a woefully masculine face and physique but I am definitely not a son (AMAB MTF post SRS (GCS)). Therefore I do not fit in sons' spaces or daughters' spaces.
I have immersed myself in the philosophical, psychological, political and theological literature and media for a significant portion of seven decades and conclude that I am physically, politically, perceptually and theologically non-binary. Psychologically, I have identified as female since the age of two or three but diligent discipline discouraged any hint or discussion of my feminine identity or behavior. My ideal puberty would have included hormone blockers until a legally acceptable age to begin HRT and GCS (SRS) and then as nearly normal womanhood as attainable.
In actuality, the diligent discipline has induced my voluntary celibacy and perception that I have been insidiously gaslighted and have a subtle incidence of complex traumatic stress disorder by the dismissing, ignoring, denying and suppressing of my gender identity.
I hope my comments and the quotes are discovered to be beneficial. I pray that nothing is found to be triggering because my intent was to be somehow loving, compassionate and empathetic to each and everyone. If you have deigned to read this entire comment, thank you much!
nice new studio. not that I'm transgender, I think it's an interesting subject. in my normal life I don't call anyone who is transgender. (I think :-) )
I've looked at your pics. You make a much prettier woman than you did as a man. Is that right? You make a better woman that you made a man. That's not right either. . . You are a new and better thing than you were. That's better.
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