I'm Honestly Fighting for My Life

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  • Опубликовано: 7 ноя 2024

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  • @VivianKuvare11
    @VivianKuvare11 Месяц назад +498

    I've been unemployed for the since 2022 as a university graduate. Battled with countless illnesses in the past 3 years and I honestly got to a point where I felt like God wasn't just seeing my situation. I left the faith for a while, but realized I'm honestly nothing without Him. I'm back and I won't backdown till I see the goodness of God in the land of the living

    • @MLagarde0425
      @MLagarde0425 Месяц назад +24

      Wait for the Lord be strong and wait for the Lord. Surely you will see the Goodness of God in the land of the Living.

    • @angelahall-sheisprekeducator
      @angelahall-sheisprekeducator Месяц назад +5

      @@VivianKuvare11 Keep pressing! when it gets harder we are headed to something greater but we must first passed the tests !

    • @lilzuplada1564
      @lilzuplada1564 Месяц назад +3

      Praying for you and with you

    • @SimplylivingTena
      @SimplylivingTena Месяц назад +6

      Praying for you all it deeply saddens me to see so many of my younger population being sick.

    • @LashusJourney
      @LashusJourney Месяц назад +7

      Keep on keeping on. What gets me through a lot of the challenges is remembering the people back in the Bible, like Job, David, Daniel, Just to name a few.

  • @Wififaith
    @Wififaith Месяц назад +402

    This is my story right now. Praying for us all who is in the season of the unknown.

  • @Drsamariamcolbert
    @Drsamariamcolbert Месяц назад +241

    I completely understand. One thing God told me in prayer. He never closes one door and opens another. He closes one door. We can’t go back.
    God then puts us in a holding pattern called transition or an incubation period. We are being prepared. Then God opens up our next door. It never happens without the middle stage. Stay consistent. God is with you in the middle. Keep maintaining your integrity. Keep your heart pure. God
    will make it all make sense in due time.

    • @xheartiiz
      @xheartiiz Месяц назад +11

      Very true lady! And the middle stage is SO HARD!

    • @zudiegrace
      @zudiegrace Месяц назад +2

      Love this.

    • @ogtalkchannel
      @ogtalkchannel Месяц назад +2

      Great post never thought of it that way. God bless you❤️

    • @MLagarde0425
      @MLagarde0425 Месяц назад +1

      Well said !

    • @BaBeBaks
      @BaBeBaks Месяц назад +2

      I could not have said it better! Thank you❤

  • @theeladyj
    @theeladyj Месяц назад +209

    This is real, I feel as black women put too much pressure on themselves, its okay to be still. You are exactly where you need to be.

    • @DrShonTV
      @DrShonTV Месяц назад +3

      🙏🏾

    • @BrianaWhiteside
      @BrianaWhiteside  Месяц назад +15

      Thanks for this!

    • @ennvee1989
      @ennvee1989 Месяц назад +5

      Wow I needed to hear this. Thank you sister 🙏🏾❤

    • @julietteanne6570
      @julietteanne6570 Месяц назад +2

      Amen!!!

    • @radicaljoyinc
      @radicaljoyinc Месяц назад +11

      Yes, yes, and yes again. We don't have to have it all together and know everything right now. Rest is a part of our success.

  • @josettejackson8445
    @josettejackson8445 Месяц назад +311

    I know exactly how you are feeling. There is no formula for this. I too believed in all the things I thought I should do. I have been in this place for the last 6 years. Honestly, at times I really hate being here. It hurts a lot and what is most disheartening is that there is hardly anyone who can truly relate to my experiences. God has allowed everything to be taken from me. My job, car , relationships and recent my health has been in a mess. Following God looks nothing like what people make it out to be. I too have been looking for persons who is or would have experienced the things I have. I looked high and low. I often want to give up but, just as you rightfully say there is nothing to go back to. I too feel like I’m locked out from the future and the door I came from is locked too. At times I feel like I’m going insane. Nothing makes sense. The discomfort is crazy. I often have the same questions about whether or not I have heard God correctly, if I am truly save. Honestly , I don’t not recognize myself anymore. I feel like I’m living someone else’s life. So just know you are not alone.This is hard as heck. Trusting God is not for the weak, even though I don’t see myself as being strong. This is just not easy. My advice to you is to give yourself grace. The hardest part of this you have already overcame. You made the decision and you have kept walking. At times I have had to break my days into hours and minutes just to make it through the day. Then minutes became hours that turned into day , weeks and months. When you said that you were at the mercy of God it made me cry because that’s all I can say at times. I honestly do not know how I’m still alive and I’m being transparent and real. Just keep walking. Just keep giving yourself the grace you need. Stop being hard on yourself. God does not expect the impossible from you. Your are the one looking to do the impossible. I have had to keep reminding myself of this especially what I feel like I’m going to break. Just keep walking. Just keep going.

    • @meh3766
      @meh3766 Месяц назад +16

      Ma'am--- please watch Pastor Kevin Ewing, particularly his teachings on dreams, curses, fasting, and altars. This does not sound normal. I have roots in the occult, and *this sounds like that.*

    • @BriW444
      @BriW444 Месяц назад +5

      Wow! Thank you for sharing although I haven’t been in your shoes. I understand the parts of feeling these similar emotions. So happy we can relate on that aspect but giving yourself grace is key, and self love too

    • @taylorangel7700
      @taylorangel7700 Месяц назад

      Yeah, I know what u mean. I think we may need deliverance because there may be strongholds that may need to be broken. Look into a good deliverance ministry!. Demons come when everything seems to be going well and invade to kill steal and destroy, even as Christians

    • @merindaarvie28
      @merindaarvie28 Месяц назад +4

      Add fasting

    • @renarich4942
      @renarich4942 Месяц назад +16

      Sounds like you are under a spiritual attack. Fasting, prayer, journaling, therapy, self love, bolstering your support network.
      Memorising scripture. This is your wilderness experience you must believe God is in control. You must let Christ take away all your sins.

  • @txLALA
    @txLALA Месяц назад +192

    If you want to hear from God, read his Word. If you want to know God, read his Word.

    • @everythingBible.withPrim
      @everythingBible.withPrim Месяц назад +13

      Yes!!! Golden! This is the way He revealed Himself to me.

    • @growden100
      @growden100 Месяц назад +3

      Absolutely

    • @ChristineGarrett-w5p
      @ChristineGarrett-w5p Месяц назад +4

      Yes!!!! You hear from God when you recognize His voice. Recognizing Him comes from knowing what He said (the word of God), knowing His character and personality ( found in His word). Get in a Bible believing church, pray for a spiritual mentor. I’m believing God for your peace and closer encounter with God, believing for restoration of all your losses. Hold on sister. You have defeated the enemy and have ALL authority OVER the enemy. 🙏🏽❤️🙏🏽

    • @MissAprilCakes
      @MissAprilCakes Месяц назад +2

      People say that but u can’t talk to Him like how a person can talk back to you.

    • @LRamey
      @LRamey Месяц назад +5

      @@MissAprilCakesthat’s true as well… He doesn’t talk to me like me and You ..its very short and brief for me.. it’s like a knowing in my spirit that the answers are coming from Holy Spirit..
      He also gives us dreams, prophets and each other to minister to❤

  • @jacqlene7
    @jacqlene7 Месяц назад +225

    We need fast and pray. Let’s bombard Heaven for Dr. Bri

    • @kiykiyaaa
      @kiykiyaaa Месяц назад +8

      I'm here for it!!!

    • @StandinOnBuiznessMinistries
      @StandinOnBuiznessMinistries Месяц назад +23

      For the whole body of Christ ❤🙏

    • @Key-Key444
      @Key-Key444 Месяц назад +4

      @@StandinOnBuiznessMinistries yes

    • @DariaEvans-mq3wy
      @DariaEvans-mq3wy Месяц назад +4

      Yes 🙌🏾 Let’s pray for our sista. In Jesus name 🙏🏾

    • @SunnaLeTV
      @SunnaLeTV Месяц назад +12

      I'm in agreement 🙏🏽 when we starting? There's a few of us under this warfare. Let's pull an Esther on the kingdom of darkness.

  • @TheOutliersDream
    @TheOutliersDream Месяц назад +91

    You are describing my life, I found your channel today for a reason. I've been in the midst of spiritual warfare since the day I was born. No one has ever loved me. My heart has been broken so many times. But I know God is with me always. My life has always been hard, but in December I was afraid..I did not want to exist anymore. I have been praying so hard for my mind to stay strong, for God to lead me out of this darkness. Please don't stop speaking, keep speaking what's in your heart. You are speaking to my heart, to so many people's hearts...hitting rock bottom, being in that stuck place you're talking about feels like it's inescapable, truly the dark night of the soul. But I think, I hope the the road is tough right now, because the light is up ahead...the butterfly struggles to get out of the cocoon. Stay encouraged! Bless you

    • @monaemcfadden
      @monaemcfadden Месяц назад +2

      Sameeee

    • @MyEleganceisaStatement
      @MyEleganceisaStatement Месяц назад

      🙏

    • @ElleKay4Life
      @ElleKay4Life Месяц назад +2

      I love you sister! And so does God. Praying for you.

    • @DrShonTV
      @DrShonTV Месяц назад

      🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾

    • @TheOutliersDream
      @TheOutliersDream Месяц назад +1

      @@ElleKay4Life I'm so thankful today because your words truly touched my heart. Today I feel like God has put me in the midst of angels...I love you tooI❤

  • @DrKenyaShanell
    @DrKenyaShanell Месяц назад +68

    I appreciate your vulnerability, Sis. As a woman who answered the call to ministry at only 25 years old, I totally share your sentiments. I had to come to grips with a hard truth... for me, it was understanding that we are called to a life of suffering. I had to understand that once I gave God my yes, it was no longer about me and what I desired. I wish I could guarantee that things get easier. I wish I could tell you that your sacrifice will one day bring you some great reward here on earth. After thirteen years, I thought that surely if I did enough for God, then I'd be granted all that I desired. It only led me to more sacrifice, more heartbreak, and more tears. Doing God's will is never easy. Jesus was the ultimate example. He had no home, betrayed by those closest to Him, and died a gruesome death. That's what giving God a yes looks like, unfortunately. But the greatest reward awaits us, "Thy good and FAITHFUL servant, well done." Be encouraged, Sis. Count it all joy! It will all make sense soon❤

    • @newbeginnings5610
      @newbeginnings5610 Месяц назад +6

      I had to catch my breath reading. Verily here. I don't even have words. I second everything. It is hard. 🙁

    • @mariacormier7555
      @mariacormier7555 Месяц назад +1

      Well said Sis ❤

    • @DN-wy3ud
      @DN-wy3ud Месяц назад +2

      I also considered that I might be fated to a miserable life if I follow him. I'll continue following him but omg😭

    • @DrShonTV
      @DrShonTV Месяц назад

      🙌🏾🙌🏾🙌🏾

    • @BrianaWhiteside
      @BrianaWhiteside  Месяц назад +1

      This!!! First off, you’re beautiful. Secondly, thanks for an honest answer.

  • @DariaEvans-mq3wy
    @DariaEvans-mq3wy Месяц назад +39

    This is my story right now. I was obedient to God and turned from sin.. and ALL HELL broke loose. I’m fighting for my life too. There’s no going back for me either. Spiritually and physically. I love you and I’m praying for you. You got this sis❤🙏🏾 God has us in the palm of his hand.

    • @stephenxadonai
      @stephenxadonai Месяц назад +1

      FACTS ON FACTS!!!

    • @DrShonTV
      @DrShonTV Месяц назад

      🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾

    • @BrianaWhiteside
      @BrianaWhiteside  Месяц назад +1

      Thank you for this message! I'm praying for you because I know EXACTLY what you're articulating.

    • @JaniceLThinker
      @JaniceLThinker Месяц назад +2

      You know that is Satan and the Kingdom of darkness trying to prevent you from achieving your glory for the Lord GOD. Gods protection is with you the wicked cannot snatch you out of His hand.

    • @AskMeAnn
      @AskMeAnn 23 дня назад +1

      @@BrianaWhiteside Your story sounds familiar, while I have heard testimonies and even have one myself, the most popular is the story of …. Guess? Moses!
      He was most privileged, and yet most wretched and ambition-less, future-less looking individual, he was shepherding his father inlaw’s sheep, later however he is known as a friend of God.
      Another person comes to mind! Guess who it is? He probably would have ended up being in the Sanhedrin but he disappeared for a long while and comes out and in one of his letters, he comments that the people in Corinth call him weak. Yes! That Paul!
      From my experience and the people who have gone ahead, God does all these wonderful (because that is what we do most of the times-we wonder why) things to bring glory to His name and to bring us to the place where He wants us to be. If you keep obeying God, you will see it, that in our weaknesses, His strength is revealed.
      I was in a very lackluster place about two years ago and was learning to trust God in a major way. One thing God told me that struck was ‘I have a plan’ and ‘Trust and obey’. It helped me to trust Him and when i doubted, I prayed’Father forgive me for doubting You, I believe You, help my unbelief.
      I play this song whenever I have bad dreams because it’s so anointed. Listen to the lyrics . There are other anointed songs like this, I could send you links if you don’t mind.
      ruclips.net/video/1uE1n_WrdhM/видео.htmlfeature=shared
      Don’t feel you are alone in your testings. Remember, we have a great cloud of witnesses in heaven cheering for us. There are also witnesses on earth going through this with us.
      Be alert and of sober mind. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. Resist him, standing firm in the faith, because you know that the family of believers throughout the world is undergoing the same kind of sufferings. 1 Peter 5: 8 - 9

  • @kimbery_love
    @kimbery_love Месяц назад +66

    I thought no one knew but she does😢 I completely understand, I am fighting for my life, may GOD have mercy on all of us🙏🏾

    • @BrianaWhiteside
      @BrianaWhiteside  Месяц назад +6

      Wow!! I’m lifting you up in prayer!

    • @LashusJourney
      @LashusJourney Месяц назад +1

      Praying for you @Kim 🙏🙏

    • @kimbery_love
      @kimbery_love Месяц назад

      @@BrianaWhiteside thank you 🙏🏾

    • @kimbery_love
      @kimbery_love Месяц назад

      @@LashusJourney thank you 🙏🏾

    • @ofeliagayle3219
      @ofeliagayle3219 Месяц назад +1

      I honestly share the same feeling! Sometimes I wonder what did I do to be going through so much. Im this close to walking away from my 9-5. I cry so much too. There has to be something greater will come out of this for us!

  • @StephDavis77
    @StephDavis77 Месяц назад +44

    Hi Briana, I'm only halfway through your video, so I may be speaking prematurely, but I just wanted to share my testimony with you. I will do my best to keep it super short. I walked away from my career completely to pursue God because I had made my career my idol. I'm in year 10 of that transition and I can truly tell you that God has worked it ALL out, BUT, it took some time. Overall, the lesson I learned in it was that God definitely wanted me to want Him more than I wanted career and purpose. I don't know if that's what you're going through, but your feelings and struggles sounded very familiar. God bless you, sis.

    • @BrianaWhiteside
      @BrianaWhiteside  Месяц назад +7

      Hey there! Thanks so much for your testimony. I’m so happy to hear that God worked it out for you. As far as my journey is concerned, it wasn’t that my career was an idol because I never fully bought into academia. Essentially, some part of me knew that I wouldn’t be there forever. I think what I was trying to articulate in the video was the hardness of the next phase. For so long, I’ve known what to do but now I have to trust His leading, and, if I’m honest, He’s leading slow lol. This video culminates a 3 year breaking process but I didn’t expect RUclips to push this video. I thought I would be chatting with my faithful friends on here and not the entire world.

  • @Mattersoftheheart
    @Mattersoftheheart Месяц назад +44

    Your uncomfortably is anointed!!! The crushing is producing oil!!! I’m going through the same thing while raising 6 children. I’ve never been so vulnerable in my life. The warfare in the mind is insane but Yah has been my mind regulator 🙌🏾 Anybody can do nothing but it takes a somebody to do something and you are a somebody ❤️

    • @BrianaWhiteside
      @BrianaWhiteside  Месяц назад +3

      Thank you so much for this message; I truly appreciate it. While I don’t know what it’s like to have children, my mom raised 5 of us as a single parent. Just know that your labor for your children is not in vain. I literally wouldn’t be where I am today if my mom didn’t train me up in the way I should go.

    • @BicheBug1996
      @BicheBug1996 Месяц назад

      ​@@BrianaWhitesideARE YOU A MEDICAL DR WITH A PRACTICE???

  • @darknlovelyslg
    @darknlovelyslg Месяц назад +51

    Your story is not isolated! Me...since 2020. The journey brings many lessons and renewed faith in God and self. Allow God to strip the old you away, so he can build the divine version of you! It's definitely not easy. Praying for you and your testimony in the making!🙏🏾

  • @trbreadfortoday
    @trbreadfortoday Месяц назад +70

    “Until the time that his word came to pass, The word of the LORD tested him.”-Ps 105:19
    Thank you for sharing. You are not alone. Unemployed for last 7 months; last 3 of 4 years since God told us to move to GA and ALL HELL and loss and lack has broken loose.
    But the only consolation is that God promises one day at a time. And if He’s chosen to breathe life, he has a purpose.
    But this warfare is real. I appreciate you sharing in the midst cause I too have been looking for more soldiers in real time battle. I woke up this morning just DONE but this video has brought a semblance of encouragement. And it “randomly” popped in my feed.
    You’re on purpose.
    Selah.

    • @mrs.latoyamelvin652
      @mrs.latoyamelvin652 Месяц назад +7

      I touch in agreement with this too I was at my breaking point today too boo hoo crying, it's been 3 months for me no income I left my job in being led to building a business but the people don't come I hide from my spouse cause his narcissistic traits are too dangerous for me to feel ill live and I pray and cry and be wishing to have someone to talk to but no one left for me I relate to all this and praying for a break through for us all, we all must hold on for the time and the hour has come I believe the hour for breakthrough is now.... Cause this popped up on my feed too and surprised me cause I felt I was walking in these feelings alone and seeing everyone else received blessings happy homes and supportive spouses and me humble and praying and reading all day long but lost everything and get broken from people I desire to love and bank account empty I can't help but to wonder if I'm doing something wrong cause I don't think I am but God em i...... this video lifts me up cause I'm not suffering alone this is part of the journey, we shall over come Amen 🙏🏽

    • @daedae181
      @daedae181 Месяц назад

      Popped up for me too. I was feeling down today.

  • @CountryLovinandCountryLivin
    @CountryLovinandCountryLivin Месяц назад +40

    I thought I was the only one going through this. 😭😭😭 I am drained😭😭. I was crying out to God today. The warfare is crazy😭😭😭Thank you for this video. You have helped me to press on. Please pray for me.

    • @DrShonTV
      @DrShonTV Месяц назад

      🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾

    • @BrianaWhiteside
      @BrianaWhiteside  Месяц назад +6

      My goodness! You're definitely not the only one. There seems to be a multitude of us in this place and may we find solace in knowing that everything is seasonal, including this.

    • @mrdanielleebrown
      @mrdanielleebrown Месяц назад

      ​@@BrianaWhiteside Many Americans have been deceived into the lie that their career and education are their identities. This is true even for Christians. We NEED to repriortize life with value in things of God. For instance, God created Eve for Adam deliberately for intimacy. The things that God created produce intimacy. The things built by the hand of man lack intimacy, thus fulfillment. The true church teaches us to value God's creation for more intimacy with Him. The true church will actually teach us how to devalue the idolatry of the world. We will always feel unfulfilled chasing the idols of this culture. I hope that this helps.

    • @BrianaWhiteside
      @BrianaWhiteside  Месяц назад +2

      Hey! Thanks for your message and explanation. While I do agree with you, I want to be clear that my career wasn’t what I found my identity in. Ultimately, I knew it was a seasonal 10 year assignment and now that assignment is up. I think what I was articulating was the difficulty of leaving what you once knew to follow God into an unknown territory. I say that to say, I know this might be the first video you saw from me but I’ve been very transparent, even before I resigned, that my identity wasn’t wrapped in a job. Just wanted to clarify 😊

  • @Lyneishabria
    @Lyneishabria Месяц назад +52

    For some reason 2021 has been the start of everyone’s rollercoaster. It has been like that for me and everything you’re saying is what I’ve been feeling. I think many “Christians” make this walk seem like we’re picking flowers and it’s beautiful. It’s HARD it’s rough it’s scary and it’s lonely.

    • @achavis0609
      @achavis0609 Месяц назад +5

      2021 was the start of God working on my heart and separating me from certain people, places & things. I am grateful for it all.

    • @sj9410
      @sj9410 Месяц назад

      Nah not mine speak for yourself

  • @healwithmare
    @healwithmare Месяц назад +21

    This is EXACTLY the video I have been looking for and exactly the video God wants me to create as well. Since 2022, my life has fallen apart as soon as I began an intimate relationship with Jesus. As soon as I got in the word of God, I have not been able to catch a break. It's been death after death, transition after transition, loss after loss. Yet I still am holding on to my faith and perservering. This journey only got harder when I started being in my bible and actively started refusing to believe the lies the devil has been trying to tell me. I see people around me who haven't even been touched by loss or death or any of the trauma I have endured in the last 2 years. I lost my mom and brother less than 2 years ago so tragically. I am struggling but truly being obedient to God even when it is scary. Thank you so much for this video. You are a BLESSING!!

    • @DrShonTV
      @DrShonTV Месяц назад +1

      🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾

    • @DC-cf8km
      @DC-cf8km Месяц назад +1

      So sorry for your loss 🙏

  • @521Life
    @521Life Месяц назад +46

    I know where you are. And I don’t want to be deep and come across detached or without empathy. I’ve been here… lots of times. I sold my studio, closed up my business and moved to the states from the Virgin Islands because of what I heard and was led of God to do… and as soon as I did….. I lost EVERYTHING!!!!
    But here’s what I learned. It’s not on US to fulfill God’s purpose, It’s His job to do that.
    Psalms 57:2 NLT
    2 I cry out to God Most High,
    to God who will fulfill his purpose for me.
    Psalms 138:8 NLT
    8 The LORD will work out his plans for my life-
    for your faithful love, O LORD, endures forever.
    Don’t abandon me, for you made me.
    Philippians 1:6 NLT
    6 And I am certain that God, who began the good work within you, will continue his work until it is finally finished on the day when Christ Jesus returns.
    Faith isn’t faith until it’s been tested.
    Can’t wait to hear your story on the back end.

    • @harlan5339
      @harlan5339 Месяц назад +1

      God bless, forreal. Also letting go is very important. And also stop looking at everybody else’s life and comparing.

  • @kendrashelynn6140
    @kendrashelynn6140 Месяц назад +72

    To the average viewer, your journey may sound disastrous. But when I hear this, I see you are right where God wants you. One day, you will look back on this video and testify. It’ll be a crossed checkbox in your prayer journal. I’m so blessed by this story you’ve shared! God is going to make it up to you. John 11:4 - an opportunity for God’s glory.

    • @jazmynjanet
      @jazmynjanet Месяц назад +8

      Amen i receive this too🙌🏾

    • @kendrashelynn6140
      @kendrashelynn6140 Месяц назад +3

      @@jazmynjanet please do! My prayer is that someone else would see this and catch what God is speaking to them personally.

    • @CoachTaraTucker
      @CoachTaraTucker Месяц назад +3

      I receive this for myself also.

    • @TheKaydij
      @TheKaydij Месяц назад +2

      This comment made me wanna scream in celebration because I know this is true ❤ she is going to look bk at this 1 day in tears of joy. I cannot wait to celebrate with her !!! It is done 🙏

    • @mogulmade
      @mogulmade Месяц назад +3

      I will restore the years the locusts have eaten. Mine was 7 years 🗣🗣🗣 with so much less than she has. It's reaping season now. But it took giving up control and demonstrating faith, not just talking about it

  • @Marqueyurrr
    @Marqueyurrr Месяц назад +18

    The crushing is how the oil flows…I say this all the time. I’ve never watched your videos before. This came across my feed. I started my entire relationship with God over from scratch because I realized we can be pressured into building false foundations and tricking ourselves into thinking we have unshakeable belief and a firm foundation with God when we don’t. And you’ll always know because when life happens the cracks start showing. We aren’t encouraged to be honest about our doubt. We don’t encourage each other to be real about struggling with our faith. I relate to everything you said and it’s helping so many people to feel seen that you made this video. It’s not wrong to acknowledge that we have struggles with God. He wants us to be honest about it because he’s a real person with the ultimate knowledge and understanding of emotional intelligence to handle it. He doesn’t want our pretend belief he wants our raw doubtful, distrustful selves to give him the chance to be God. All we have to do at that point is stand still while he works it out. This is real. It’s a real relationship with real problems. I hope now that you’ve discarded your mask that it frees you of the burden of thinking you can disappoint God with your doubts and that it encourages you that you’re having these struggles because it means God is working in you. I often think of the chaos that was God creating the world. The tsunamis as he raised the mountains from the seas. The dust that flew into the air when he carved Adam in the soil. Disruption is the hallmark of our mighty God at work. It means he’s present with you. The fact that you’re being attacked with this intensity means the enemy sees a threat forming and is trying to kill it in its inception. I’m going through the same thing you’re going through so I know and I can honestly say I finally get what Paul meant when he said that we could have joy even in suffering. Your perspective is shifting. Which means soon you’ll see fear as something that has no power over you and has no sway over your life. God knows it’s hard for us. He knows we’re struggling. Right now he’s teaching you to overcome fear by giving you the mind of Christ. And when you do, boy oh boy! But for right now, I’m proud of you for stepping into who he called you to be. You’re on your way hun. ❤ Stay in the fight.

  • @Dijah0202
    @Dijah0202 Месяц назад +82

    I have a testimony, the Lord had me quit my job and told me not to work for a few seasons and trust that he would be my provider. A the time, I had no income and had just brought my house. I had owed almost 20000 to the mortgage company and the Lord just told me to trust him. Well, God came through, he paid the full balance. I have several more testimonies. I wish I could go into more detail, God is with you Sis. Trust God, he’s in the details. ❤

    • @TheKaydij
      @TheKaydij Месяц назад +4

      Amen

    • @randomcontent8459
      @randomcontent8459 Месяц назад +9

      That's great for you, but sometimes people's problems aren't miraculously solved, money doesn't fall out of the sky, a roast doesn't just appear in the oven. For those who DON'T receive, remember that there's a lesson in the deprivation, to build character, to build strength. It doesn't mean you're not saved or valued less than someone else. Sometimes, it means you're valued more because God cares enough to teach and/or discipline you.

    • @ShanelChelzz
      @ShanelChelzz Месяц назад +8

      I feel like with testimonies like this be real !! This is exactly what’ the lady in the video is saying these fancy testimony that almost seem so far fetched how were u able to pay off 20k in debt after not working for that long ? Was it a loan from a friend ? Was it a direct deposit ? Why did the lord tell u to stop working and are u back working ? Like what do u consider a blessing that helped u ? It’s questions like this that really helps people put things in perspective I am aware that with God we have to have faith and blindly follow but yall can’t forget that God isn’t stupid or chaotic he’s not just gonna tell us to leave our jobs just because … he’s not impulsive and he’s not trying to prove anything he don’t want us on the street just as much as we don’t want to be there!!!

    • @BrianaWhiteside
      @BrianaWhiteside  Месяц назад +3

      This is such an amazing testimony on God being a provider. Thanks for sharing it.

    • @BrianaWhiteside
      @BrianaWhiteside  Месяц назад +8

      Thanks for this message! I want to respond to the latter portion of your message because you raise some good points!
      1. God does tell some ppl to leave and trust Him. Consider Abraham who was told to leave and then go somewhere that God would eventually show him.
      2. God did tell me to leave but the reason money isn’t an issue is because he started telling me to get my finances in order in 2019, which I obeyed. He also told me to start learning to build wealth so I started learning how to trade and invest. I say that to say, I was prepared to leave but the journey has still been difficult.
      3. I want to be clear, I’m not threatening homelessness and I’m no where near financial insecurity. My video, mainly, was about the difficulty of trying to make it to my destiny. Hopefully, that was clear.

  • @brielyse_
    @brielyse_ Месяц назад +14

    GIRL!! We are in the EXACT SAME PLACE!! You word for word nailed the journey that I’m on in real time! I needed to hear this. You are not alone. ❤

    • @BrianaWhiteside
      @BrianaWhiteside  Месяц назад +1

      I'm glad you heard and it and thanks for your encouragement! I believe you'll make it through this, too.

  • @demiberry5991
    @demiberry5991 Месяц назад +13

    From someone who stopped talking and shut down and became that coward you spoke of for years. I encourage you to keep showing up in the space God has placed you. It is worth every tear and battle. My prayer for you is the same prayer that I have for my adult children and grandchildren. I speak that you will be WISER STRONGER YOUNGER than ones like me who failed your generation.
    God is proud of you and so am I 💞

    • @BrianaWhiteside
      @BrianaWhiteside  Месяц назад +1

      Thank you so much for this message!! I truly appreciate it.

  • @trinibadboy1396
    @trinibadboy1396 Месяц назад +5

    This is Me Listening to Me speaking to myself. My journey has been six years ongoing now and I still refuse to QUIT, I didn't come this far to quit now. I'm going to save this video and watch it daily as a constant reminder to know I'm not the only one. Thank You Young Lady, I really appreciate and needed this❤

  • @AshleyE2
    @AshleyE2 Месяц назад +21

    The way this resonates is crazy. From the death plots, to unemployment and not knowing how i will pay my bills next month. Jesus.....all you can do is stay close to God. Can't go back

    • @happyone444able
      @happyone444able Месяц назад +2

      I completely understand. It’s been one hell of a battle (after battle after battle). I am in the fight of my life as well.

    • @alwaysaccurate8725
      @alwaysaccurate8725 Месяц назад

      Same! Jesus!!!!! God is using other ppl to assist me. I pray you it all works out!

  • @montedixon4117
    @montedixon4117 Месяц назад +44

    I'm right there with you, Briana. Since I sold out completely to God, all hell has broken loose in my life. Everything that could go wrong has gone wrong. I will be praying for you as I stand on God's word. God can not lie, so no matter what, I'm gonna follow Him because I have to live with Him in heaven when my life on earth is over.

  • @tylerwilliams9592
    @tylerwilliams9592 Месяц назад +16

    Ephesians 6:12-13
    12 For we wrestle not against flesh [1] and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places.
    This is one my favorite verses in times of turmoil because it’s a clear description of what you’re facing. Be diligent in serving Christ with all of you in these moments because in those times you might not want to. I can vouch and say it’s worth it!

  • @mapsinvideogames8621
    @mapsinvideogames8621 Месяц назад +12

    You have no idea how impactful your video is to others, God Bless.

  • @kristennicolemann
    @kristennicolemann Месяц назад +28

    You’re not alone. I’ve been through it and you’ll look back at this once you’re on the other side and see how much God had you right where he needed you. When we say yes to God we have to transform and that process is like being a newborn walking all over again. You’re the blueprint and not just another persons story. God is creating the new not only in you, but in others through you!

  • @faithandsamn.526
    @faithandsamn.526 Месяц назад +12

    The devil will isolate you to attack, deceive, kill you. A church home is important for your spiritual health. Small groups are important for discipleship. Discipleship is so important for your strength for your spiritual growth. Even as a leader, you deserve people to walk with you in your journey. To help you bear your burdens. I'm in the DFW and would love to connect to help you find a home. God puts us through situations to develop our intimacy with him. I just watched a sermon with Pastor Stephanie Ike who preached that it's not about the things you do - the praying, the Bible reading etc - it's about the closeness you have with God. I think you are in your wilderness period. Your latter will be better than your former life. Don't be deceived that your life was better before God spoke to you. The goal is God's glory and the cross is heavy, sis!! James 1:2-4 count it all joy. I too believe I am in my valley season and God is gonna see us through as we continue to trust Him. Thank you for keeping it real!!

  • @Em-tf4wo
    @Em-tf4wo Месяц назад +23

    3 years, Exactly. Lost everything and I could speak every word that comes from your mouth as my own. Quit studying, my career and relationships. Just holding on with my last hope. I can’t even go outside anymore. I’m too depressed

    • @victimsofthe3784
      @victimsofthe3784 Месяц назад

      So you are actually accepting depression?

    • @Em-tf4wo
      @Em-tf4wo Месяц назад +1

      @@victimsofthe3784 no I’m going to gym and eating healthy, waking up 5-6 am, doing my laundry, building my business, but I hate my life so much. I gave everything away that I had built. There is no going back to that. Being awakened means that you understand too much, you are too aware of everything evil and you can’t even do anything. Just building my businesses is hard because I don’t want to connect with people, who are worldly. It easier not to know too much, but when we know, we just want to isolate ourselves from evil world. I hate the world. It’s impossible to live normal life after you have awakened.

    • @katrinaflores2012
      @katrinaflores2012 16 дней назад

      @@Em-tf4wo Amen! This is when we decide to fully surrender our lives to Jesus. Our life is now His. There's nothing here for us believers. We just need to share the Gospel with others and love.

  • @tanyakelly3002
    @tanyakelly3002 Месяц назад +3

    This was for me, I needed this message.Thank you for sharing your experiences. We are not alone. God bless you, we are more then conquerors🙏🏽❤️🙏🏽

  • @BSpeaks222
    @BSpeaks222 Месяц назад +2

    Girl, I was compelled to comment just from the title alone. I feel your pain. There are many of us fighting for our lives and God is fighting for our souls. It is scary and confusing during these times. The best encouragement that I can give is to hold on, never give up, believe in yourself, and trust that relief will arrive on time! 🕊🕊🕊🕊

  • @adrienneh.1048
    @adrienneh.1048 Месяц назад +22

    I have legit never seen your content before and almost continued scrolling. However, I stopped by to tell you, Ms. Whiteside, I am familiar with the crushing you described and though you might feel like you’re living in the juxtaposition of your expectation of what obedience gets you and you’re reality, I hope you will believe me when I say, God is in control, He sees you, He hears you and He is with you. KEEP GOING.

  • @VideoSiteAccess
    @VideoSiteAccess Месяц назад +19

    Glad you’re going to see it through to the end. You have got to be a major threat to the enemy to get attacked like this!

  • @blazingthetrail4057
    @blazingthetrail4057 Месяц назад +20

    Dr. Bri,
    I am just coming by to say that you ARE living your purpose! Your video literally spoke to everything that I am going through as well. I am in the “limbo” place as well. And I do think that God is truly allowing His children to really know Him. I mean, know HIM. I can say that, after being in “church” for over 20 years, and I just can’t say that I really knew Him. I’m tired of the shenanigans and all the stuff. But, I get you Dr. Bri. You are amazing and thank you for your transparency.
    Amos 9:13… hold on Sis. It won’t be too much longer!

    • @BrianaWhiteside
      @BrianaWhiteside  Месяц назад

      Ahhh thanks for this message and great to see you!!

  • @april85br
    @april85br Месяц назад +9

    A year & month to date and the battle of despondency has sucked the life out of me. I’ve gotten off my post as a watchman and I KNOW better but I’m so tired. I want to give up & have so in a sense. So when I say I GET IT, I GET IT. But God - He won’t let me give up completely. He’s faithful. That’s the only thing I have to hold onto. It’s all Him bc I have nothing outside of Him. So sis, I OVERstand. As I pray for you, please do the same for me. 🙏🏾 this video is timely. You’re more further ahead then what you see. Showing up is half the battle! I know it’s hard. I know it is. To see no fruit (well the fruit we want to see) is daunting at times. But thank you for allowing God to use you. We love you!

  • @WinstonWhite-p8w
    @WinstonWhite-p8w Месяц назад +3

    For many of us walking with Jesus is not easy ! May we remember no victory without a fight🎉❤Much prayer

  • @chaundawalker6741
    @chaundawalker6741 Месяц назад +10

    Oh my sista, be encourage. The Lord will strenghten your heart. Thanks for you transparency.

  • @taniquesomers-thestreetsof5736
    @taniquesomers-thestreetsof5736 Месяц назад +11

    You have always been a trailblazer… this season without nothing familiar.. the familiar is gone.. there’s comfort in seeing your vulnerability..as many of us are trying to be a “good sport” in all this but the truth is it is hard and not beautiful.. you are not alone.. going through a similar situation experience but you have always gave me vocabulary for my experience and encouragement.. you are a blessing even when you feel broken

  • @monicatheophilus
    @monicatheophilus Месяц назад +8

    Thank you sis for your obedience. I also feel like I’ve been in this season for the past three years. I’ve cried and have done all I know to do. Pray, fast, renounce, and repent. But like you said we must see this through. I’ll be praying for you!

  • @_Latoya_Wilson_
    @_Latoya_Wilson_ Месяц назад +10

    Dr B… I hope you know your teachings have not been in vain. Your very first bible study open my eyes so much and things started to click! We are here and we are listening, and a shift is happening in other peoples lives because of your obedience, so thank you thank you thank you!!!!

  • @tarralu
    @tarralu Месяц назад +12

    Crying because I’m going through something similar. It’s like we’re living the same life ❤

  • @janaidandra
    @janaidandra Месяц назад +11

    I’ve never come across your channel. And I believe the Lord placed your video here for my eyes🥹 I have never related to anyone more on the internet. From you grandmothers house (I was raised by mine) too You spiritual warfare dreams (almost every night for me) and even the 3 years you’ve been in the fight. Not to mention feeling like the past is closed for good but the future seems beyond my reach. It’s like I’m in a spiritual hallway…awaiting a promise. Mines begin January 1st 2022. I have felt like giving up more than I’d like to admit. I have NOT had the courage to explain the way you’ve done so graciously in this video. You have really encouraged me today🤍 when you said the phrase “the backside of the promise” I said to myself “girl we gone make it to the other side”.. thank you 🙏🏾 God bless you. So grateful God put this in front of me.

    • @TheMskblue
      @TheMskblue Месяц назад +2

      Same. She just popped up and it was like listening to my own story being told. I listened twice to the entire video. Fighting back tears on my commute this morning. I sensed her exhaustion because I’ve been there. Like you I’ve wanted to give up. Some days I did. I just didn’t do anything to push through and I think that’s ok as well. We gone make it!

    • @janaidandra
      @janaidandra Месяц назад +2

      @@TheMskblue I think that’s so true. It’s like that famous story about the “footprints in the sand”….The person asked Jesus when they got to heaven why were there only one set of foot prints in certain points of the walk. Jesus replied “because that’s where I was carrying you”🤍

  • @sherrihardester2499
    @sherrihardester2499 Месяц назад +16

    I'm in it too. It started end of 2021..
    So much happened, so much loss
    Watched people who betrayed me go on to live a life of ease. I still don't know where he is taking me. I have learned a lot but it is so painful and at times it feels cruel. Im just over it.
    .

    • @sherrihardester2499
      @sherrihardester2499 Месяц назад +1

      I have questioned if it was really God who directed me, is he here. Why would he allow so much pain. I feel like this time has been loss. I know it's not but... Would love to talk if you would like as I feel that I can't relate to anyone.

    • @sherrihardester2499
      @sherrihardester2499 Месяц назад +2

      The longer I have listened the more I relate to you on all levels. I would have said no if I had known. I stepped into deep waters and sometimes abandoned. I don't feel strong but weary.

    • @sherrihardester2499
      @sherrihardester2499 Месяц назад +2

      It's very different to step into something he called you to rather than things happening because it's life. I too miss living. I have never heard of you until today. Perfect timing.

    • @ceceprincess4758
      @ceceprincess4758 Месяц назад +1

      It will get better

  • @NicoleWade-uu9fn
    @NicoleWade-uu9fn Месяц назад +6

    Wow Sis… this has been MY story since 2021… nearly ALL of it… the friends, the purpose, the endz , spiritual and mental warfare, rejection like I’ve NEVER seen, seemingly for no reason.. after thriving. Woman of God, I think the object is we’re supposed to allow the brokenness to happen for our repurposing.. for the NEW. I love you in the LORD. Keep being broken until the new you re-emerges.. in the meantime blaze on through. It costed Jesus and the disciples everything to gain EVERYTHING🔥❤🤲🏽

    • @NicoleWade-uu9fn
      @NicoleWade-uu9fn Месяц назад

      ❤️❤️❤️❤️

    • @BrianaWhiteside
      @BrianaWhiteside  Месяц назад +1

      Thanks for this!

    • @NicoleWade-uu9fn
      @NicoleWade-uu9fn Месяц назад

      @@BrianaWhiteside Indeed, Sister! You helped me ~ God is with us even through these hotter fires! The sword is our tongue.. we’ll confess, profess, and command our way through this🙏🏽💪🏽🔥👑

  • @Queen360_Crown
    @Queen360_Crown Месяц назад +3

    I am currently in this same season and it is tough. However, I am leaning on Gods promises and doing my internal work. The spirit led me to the book of Ecclesiastes and I found clarity and hope in these scriptures. I pray they will also bring comfort to anyone whose heart is open to receiving the messages that lie in those scriptures. Peace and light to all❤🙏🏾

  • @Inthejourney_07
    @Inthejourney_07 Месяц назад +6

    Your rawness is inspirational. My wheels started to fall off back in 2014. I’ve lost and continue to lose things in my life. It's uncomfortable and I wanted to give up on life, but I do not want to give the enemy the glory. It's teaching me to trust in him and not my abilities. God, has saved me too many times to count. Do know he never leaves, nor forsakes us. I wanted a blueprint and God gave me his scriptures to life. God bless you and continue to teach an old woman like me I'm blessed to have you🙏🙏

    • @BrianaWhiteside
      @BrianaWhiteside  Месяц назад +1

      Thank you for this message and your transparency. We will all get to the other side and see God's glory.

  • @martinemonereau1563
    @martinemonereau1563 Месяц назад +2

    I saw this video on purpose. My sister, you are not alone. Everything you have said I resonate with. The wilderness season in Christ is noooooooo joke. Literally dying to yourself every single day. I want to give you a virtual hug and encourage you that this process will be worth it. You will have a loud testimony. God is fighting for you, even in moments where it feels like he checked out, he is there. Hebrews 12:6-10 has helped me!
    I am sincerely praying for you. I pray the Lord strengthens you. I pray he endows you with his endurance. Be encouraged sis, you are surely not alone. God bless you ❤❤❤❤

  • @ciaraspeakslife
    @ciaraspeakslife Месяц назад +14

    Sis! I am praying for you! You are not alone because I’m right there with you. You’ve been plowing and sowing and the Lord sees your dedication and he sees you daughter. I’ll be praying the Lord reveals to you the new thing and that you’ll break through the barriers to see your promise. Expect something different and fresh for the next season. Milk and honey is on the other side of the battle. I know it’s going to be beautiful 🥹

    • @BrianaWhiteside
      @BrianaWhiteside  Месяц назад

      Hey Ciara, thank you! And thanks for rocking with me. 😊

  • @myjournee
    @myjournee 24 дня назад +1

    Hi, I am a new subscriber and thank you for sharing your journey. I am a certified life coach and I can truly relate in my personal life and from what I hear from my clients. Thank you for standing in your Truth🙏🏾💗

  • @deeharper4081
    @deeharper4081 Месяц назад +5

    Dr. B, I have been following you off and on for a while (over a year) and listening to you be so raw and authentic is reflecting my challenges since 2021. Ur challenges is a reflection of so many that are watching u. All I can say is keep pushing. My breakthrough finally came yesterday. Ur breakthrough is coming. Feel what u feel but give it to him and let him use it and u will see what happens. I know u know all that but it's hard to remember and stay positive when you're in the storm. I have no family near me and limited support around me so trust me, I completely get what u have expressed BUTTTT.....HE IS WITH YOU!!!!! The teacher is quite during the test. He got u. Will keep praying for u.

  • @TheQueenBeeReigns
    @TheQueenBeeReigns Месяц назад +2

    I just came across your page this morning and I’m RIGHT THERE. My life feels like it has been in a holding pattern for 5 years. HELL HAS TURNED IT ALL THE WAY UP. But I sense that somethings is about to break in the spirit realm. Something big.

  • @Grace-y6o9
    @Grace-y6o9 Месяц назад +6

    OMG! This is powerful. I can relate a bit. I was in a difficult season last year and i questioned God so deeply. In that season he was so close than ever but i didnt notice him. Last year was a dark year for me but i thank God because this year I've seen his hand in my life. The fact that you are still holding onto God's truth is indication that you are waiting well. God will see you through.
    One time while in that season, i remember crying my heart out and seeing just dankness. I thought it was over for me, i still had strength to pray thank God! I prayed crying out to God then fell in a deep sleep. I was sick in that season plus many other family issues.
    I remember having a dream of healing.When i woke up, i began to claim the healing and i randomly opened my bible. God led me to Psalm 118:17-18" I will not die but live and will proclaim what the Lord has done. The Lord has chastened me severely but he has not given me over to death." I had never heard of this verse before.
    I immediately knew God has given me this word for a purpose. I ran with it, i began to proclaim it daily until i believed it. I got better with time, my worries went away and i was completely healed. This year I'm walking in that testimony, when faced with more difficulties i trust that what he did in 2023 he will do it again. I pray that God heals your heart and take away your pain. It shall be well beautiful lady. You will surely come back to proclaim what the Lord will have done in your life, Amen🙏

  • @rhondae1111
    @rhondae1111 Месяц назад +2

    This video was recommended and I decided to watch because of the title. The message was not what I expected. I’ve started a new life in Texas also. Thanks for your honesty and transparency. Continue to be encouraged.

  • @GoGinaGODISABLE
    @GoGinaGODISABLE Месяц назад +3

    i can honestly say, I have been where you are, I have come out oppression, depression, and I have walked in all of the places you are talking about, I am in the same boat, as I have decided to follow JESUS, I am glad that you are speaking to me and my situation, because I needed you to show up today, I needed you to be here and I needed you to be honest, I am waiting for the door open and to be honest, I am homelessly sitting in a Extended Stay America, lobby, going through the same process you have been and I am here letting GOD took the children of Israel through the wilderness and feeding them the manna daily. I am sorry of hurt and pain, but thank GOD, you have a home to be in, I am grateful for the chair, and the computer to here and to see the message. PLEASE DON'T GIVE UP! PLEASE KEEP SHOWING UP! WE NEED YOU, IT'S WORTH IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I PRAY GOD SENDS HIS SUPER ANGELS TO STRENGTHEN YOU LIKE DANIEL, WHEN HE SENT MICHAEL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FATHER GOD, HELP US, ALL LORD JESUS

  • @hrbynnamtique167
    @hrbynnamtique167 Месяц назад +5

    Dr. Briana, please be encouraged. You are helping so many. I am praying for your continued strength in Christ. As believers, I think that most of us have this type of struggle during our faith walk. We don't understand it fully. But know that you are more than an overcomer. You will be victorious and satan will go back to the pit of hell where he belongs. Don't give up. Don't give up. Don't give up! God has given us all the victory...but it certainly ain't easy.

    • @DrShonTV
      @DrShonTV Месяц назад

      Amen
      Don’t give up 🙌🏾🙌🏾🙌🏾

    • @BrianaWhiteside
      @BrianaWhiteside  Месяц назад

      Thanks so much for this message. I don't plan on giving up anytime soon, especially since I've suffered so much to come this far. As you said, it's not easy but I'm definitely looking forward to the testimony.

  • @creativegemarts
    @creativegemarts Месяц назад +8

    Amen! this was heavy for me!! i felt this all the way through, Ive been in this season for waay to LONG!! . I'm definitely praying for you Bri🙏🙏🌸🌸

  • @blessed7015
    @blessed7015 Месяц назад +1

    Thank you for being so open and vulnerable. It resonates with me, personally. I feel so much of what you are saying...the shutdown, fear, etc. The ongoing struggle is real. I wish you the same things that I pray for myself: courage, strength, etc. God bless!

  • @cwoodyjr
    @cwoodyjr Месяц назад +3

    Thanks for your vulnerability and transparency. It appears you’re being prepared for something significant. My prayers to you for covering and protection in this season.

  • @Faithovafeelings
    @Faithovafeelings Месяц назад +7

    This is my story right now. In a holding season. Can’t go back and won’t go back. But the way forward has been a downward spiral so far. I’m in the word everyday and God restores me when I’m weak. Hold on to Faith. I’ll be praying for us all in this season. ❤

  • @cybillrogers5155
    @cybillrogers5155 Месяц назад +3

    This was nothing but the Powerful Hand I’d God that allowed your video to show up on my feed. This is (in my opinion) God letting us know that what each one of us is going through(although different) we are not alone! I started on this journey in 2017 and just like you and so many others in the comments, I am still trying to figure things out. So I thank you for being transparent because it really open my eyes to see more clearer. ❤

    • @BrianaWhiteside
      @BrianaWhiteside  Месяц назад

      Thank you so much for this message and yes, it had to be God who pushed this message because I had no idea it would reach many people. I hope things turn around for you soon!

  • @Keanujennings
    @Keanujennings Месяц назад +1

    Thank you for sharing your story. I struggle with this as well. Prayers for you, sister. I pray that you receive peace in the midst of your storm. God hasn’t forgotten about you. He’s with you. Amen. ❤

  • @mariawoodspersonaldevelopment
    @mariawoodspersonaldevelopment Месяц назад +3

    Congratulations for having the courage to show up despite the challenges. Your test shall become your testimony. God is with you and He will deliver you. Blessings!

  • @Mark_G77
    @Mark_G77 Месяц назад +2

    I went through a similar season. God was refining me spiritually and I needed to learn how to forgive people who hurt me, truly. To everyone going through a similar season- ask God what needs to be refined in you before Heaven. He will Answer.

  • @cathyecooper4376
    @cathyecooper4376 Месяц назад +10

    Wow..Im 64 years old, I've heard many a testimony but none like this one🥺😔🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽

    • @BrianaWhiteside
      @BrianaWhiteside  Месяц назад +5

      Wow! Well, I don't even have the testimony yet but I'm sure it'll be a good one lol.

    • @ShirleyGoode
      @ShirleyGoode Месяц назад

      @@BrianaWhitesideare u serving a false god😂

  • @NaturalHealthNurse
    @NaturalHealthNurse Месяц назад +3

    Your honesty is refreshing. I will be keeping you in prayer because I know at times even praying becomes difficult. You will be lifted up, and the ears of God are not hard that He cannot hear. As for the spiritual battle “this kind goeth not out but by prayer and fasting” Matt. 17:21

  • @cynthiak_garcia
    @cynthiak_garcia Месяц назад +7

    I am only 1/4 way through your video and everything you have said thus far resonates with the trajectory of my life. Also, welcome to Texas. Trusting Believing God for us. 🙏🏾

  • @DrPatriceJCarter
    @DrPatriceJCarter Месяц назад +1

    Dr. Briana, I simply came here to say THANK YOU and I am GRATEFUL because this life is costly and at times confusing and blessed seasons of transition can come with SO much that you can even explain, describe it or understand and acknowledging this doesn’t negate our love or our faith or belief in the loving care and sovereignty of our Father.
    It reflects that we have this excellency in earthen vessels.
    God bless you as you continue your journey. There shall be glory after this! Hallelujah!

  • @freddricklang1166
    @freddricklang1166 Месяц назад +4

    Never stop fighting, find another level in your fight. Some warriors don’t become warriors until they’re willing to die 🙏🏾👏🏾

  • @sadessamsung7221
    @sadessamsung7221 Месяц назад +2

    May God bless you and keep you. Please know depression can be real for Christians. I pray you find a loving community of believers to walk with and help you. God gives grace for struggle. I pray this for you IJN. I don’t know what it is you are waiting on but I see physical health, I see intelligence, I see beauty and even resilience! You are blessed. You talk about your life being “fine” before God spoke but was it really? Be encouraged, He loves you. For my episode, it was mentors and a loving church that saw me through. Look forward to your testimony!🎉

  • @stayplantedinchrist
    @stayplantedinchrist Месяц назад +5

    First-time viewer, and this is me. My life is at this place... but I keep reminding myself of what he has done before...thats is what's keeping me. I refuse to do what others are doing to get what I want. Sister, you are not alone. I'm not working, but I hold on to my belief and ask God to help my unbelief. 😢 Every day, every day... every day. I feel isolated, and it's just me and God. And I think he wants me to rest in him. Rest in him. Stay planted 🪴👑✝️

    • @DrShonTV
      @DrShonTV Месяц назад +1

      Amen 🙏🏾

  • @22lanisha
    @22lanisha Месяц назад +1

    Amen and we are with you! There are so much more ups and downs than expected. Thank you for sharing.
    I am feeling the same way. I have been on this journey for six years and it has been HARD. Breaking old patterns and beliefs about myself and relationships, following the model to overcome all I've been through. But I am determined to persevere and I am trusting my higher self with what is put in front of me. We need to hold each other up and let us know that we are not alone and we WILL get to the other side of the struggle. I am here for all of it. because I am strong!

  • @DivineLuxuryLiving
    @DivineLuxuryLiving Месяц назад +4

    This is so relatable. It’s like you’re telling my story. I shed tears right along with you. I have to say it’s a bit refreshing to know that someone understands exactly how I feel. Keep showing up and I’ll keep showing up. May God bless us with everything promised ❤️🙏🏿

  • @jinneasbushindo7554
    @jinneasbushindo7554 Месяц назад +1

    PLEASE don't give up!!! I sometimes watch the show The Chosen and I think about how difficult the journey is. I just saw a RUclips interview with the star of The Chosen and you can see how tired & depressed he is from carrying the weight of such responsibility. To be Christian is to be a rock, but even rocks get worn away by erosion and there's not replenishing them. That's is why it is so important to go as deep as possible with prayer and recognize each and every small blessing that you have, daily. To be blessed that your situation isn't as messed up as someone living on the streets. Even though you push yourself to be strong, you are also to be built to be gentle in some ways too and that imbalance of not nurturing that sensitive side can put undue pressure to be stronger than necessary. God has blessed you with intellect, beauty and a love for the Lord. Do not give in during the tough times because he is with you and you are not alone. Even without a helpmate or partner to bear part of the load (because we are still stuck within this world of flesh & feelings), with the right mindset or epiphany, you can become one with the spirit to push past that loneliness. You ARE loved, you are recognized, you are chosen. Do not forget that.

  • @fefemyluv
    @fefemyluv Месяц назад +4

    I felt like this for nearly 2 years, particularly when it came to my career. I felt like I had gone to law school, graduated with honors, had a solid internship/volunteer record; yet, I could not land a “permanent” job. I had dealt with a couple major health scares on top of my physical disability. I felt like some interviewers were literally so focused on my disability that they couldn’t see my hard work and potential with their company. It was challenging. But the most challenging part was: I am the listener, the counselor for so many. My earthly outlets were few and far between because I was so focused on listening to other people’s issues and struggles-from young to old.
    I don’t think I ever lost touch with God but I felt those questions lingering. I cried out to Him a few times. I just didn’t know what to do except do my best to hold on.
    I don’t know why your video popped up in my algorithm, but I just encourage you to hold on to the faith you do have, any hope you have left, and the breath in your body. Pray your way through your day to day processes. Take it easy on yourself. And know that God sees your pain. Day by day.
    I will keep you in my prayers. I know it’s not easy. These valleys can feel never ending. He loves you.

    • @BrianaWhiteside
      @BrianaWhiteside  Месяц назад +1

      I truly appreciate this message. Thank you!!

    • @DrShonTV
      @DrShonTV Месяц назад +1

      🙏🏾🙏🏾

  • @barbaracann4353
    @barbaracann4353 Месяц назад +1

    I completely understand. I am going through the same thing for 2 years .Thank you for being honest and telling your story .But know that God is faithful even when we're faithless!

  • @lifelivedinpurpose
    @lifelivedinpurpose Месяц назад +6

    I completely understand what you’re going through because I have been in a similar transition but it’s been 7 years for me. But here’s what I want say to encourage you to keep moving forward regardless even if you can barely stand straight while doing it.
    This life is so temporary. Your true riches is in heaven. You’re building up with your investment into the kingdom of heaven treasures for eternity.
    I left my career in 2017 as a pharmacist also led by God to transition into who God has called me to be. Since then I have just been doing everything that he has placed on my heart to accomplish. There is so much that I have wanted for myself that has not come to pass either and I too have fought that for so many years. But through it all I’m reminded that he is still faithfully preparing us for even greater and sometimes greatness takes a lot more time to achieve. Similar to the story of Joseph and his prior life of betrayal from his brothers to being sold into slavery, lied on and thrown into prison. But beyond all of that he was able to accomplish in the end all of what he has called him to be.
    You’re called to greatness! There no doubt about that. Greatness however sometimes takes more times in the dessert to process you and mature you to be entirely who God is calling you to. The period of the wildness is not for the faint of heart but it has built in me a lot of resilience for whatever is ahead for my future.
    Some of us are as I have been told called to be like Sarah. That means it will take longer for us to actually get to the promise God has for us. However in the meanwhile even though it delays I promise you it will surely come. My life even though it’s been 7 years is now unraveling as we speak. Greater is coming trust me! Trust the process, trust the timing and trust the seasons that he brings you through. It’s going to be worth it in the end.
    Then when you get to heaven because this is temporary you will hear “well done good and faithful servant, enter into my kingdom”.
    You’re not alone! Be at peace! And keep your head high and keep going. Be blessed!

  • @slwoolridge
    @slwoolridge Месяц назад +1

    I just found this on my feed. I left everything to move to Texas as of 5 years ago at God’s word. Like you, I’m in a battle for my life as well. You’ve expressed what I have been saying and thinking. Often, we don’t hear raw honesty because it is interpreted as weakness or a lack of faith or even heresy when walking with Christ can be challenging and a struggle. Thank you for the courage to boldly be honest. I am immensely grateful to come across this because I needed to know that I am not alone.

  • @mstasha2022
    @mstasha2022 Месяц назад +3

    I'm not familiar with your channel but this popped into my feed and it has blessed me. I needed to hear this.

  • @DTruth-zx2co
    @DTruth-zx2co Месяц назад +1

    Thank you so much! I have been here in this area for 7 years. What a blessing you are. This is real ministry! If we would ever meet please know there is a big hug coming.

  • @dariacccccccc
    @dariacccccccc Месяц назад +5

    God is good…I AM LITERALLY GOING THROUGH THE SAME THING & I HAVE BEEN SINCE 2020 😓😭😭 But I THANK GOD for his GRACE & MERCY!

  • @lizelias2879
    @lizelias2879 Месяц назад +1

    I wasn’t subscribed to your channel and can I see the timing of this video is a testament of God’s perfect timing. I’ve been in this wilderness season since I left my teaching career in 2021 & it has been the hardest season of my life. Through it all, His grace has kept me. Thank you for sharing 🙏🏾

  • @angelafair6492
    @angelafair6492 Месяц назад +8

    I feel so seen , the last 3 years( 2021) of my life have been the same( since I said yes to God). I am in still in the thick of things,Thank you for sharing!

    • @angelafair6492
      @angelafair6492 Месяц назад

      This is one person that’s had a slightly similar journey with God, It helped me a little. ruclips.net/video/srZcwf7fCkg/видео.htmlsi=lU6eYXLgfFm5rS1J

  • @20PinkPearls
    @20PinkPearls 24 дня назад +1

    *Good morning, Dr. Brenda Whiteside! I just stumbled across your channel when this video popped up in my feed ~ I was compelled to watch it!*
    "First off, I want to offer encouragement to you for this journey you are on; I thank you for your transparency and for adhering to the walk you believe God has you taking."
    I am glad to hear you say you have a company praying for you, as I was going to suggest you find like-minded people with whom to connect (if God directs that) and I trust that you are part of a Bible-teaching, Bible-believing church that helps keep you filled on the Word. Also, do you journal? I feel that if you journal, you may see clearer what God is doing with you or at least regain confidence that He is leading you through. When I'm in a low space, I try to count my blessings, every day ... *Every single one I can think of!*
    And, as one of my wise former pastors used to say, 'When you don't know what to do, do the very next thing God has instructed you to do.' I'm walking in faith with Him right now (trying to unshoulder and cast all my cares onto his big old wide shoulders!) and am blessed to sometimes experience an almost-immediate and positive result when I do 'the very next thing He told me to do.'
    *Responding to:*
    * *08:00* ~ There IS space for you, as evidenced by your continued presence on this platform and the responses to it, here, in views and comments. God might be positioning you as the spear-header, the tossed pebble that creates the ripples in the water!
    * *10:44* ~ Yes, people want what you have to share and offer. For those needing it, God will make it 'pop' up in their feeds and viewing screens. (Remember to not box God in: He created those universities and the concept of tenure. If He sends you to return, He will make a way!)
    * *13:01* ~ If you don't already do it, may I suggest you "write" out encouraging scriptures addressing some of the key issues and feelings you're experiencing and post them about your home. One that gets me through some tough times is from Isaiah 43:19: "Behold, I will do a new thing; now it shall spring forth; shall ye not know it? I will even make a way in the wilderness and rivers in the desert" (ASV).
    * *17:25* ~ Yes, Dr. Brenda Whiteside! If God gave you the assignment, it is worth it!
    I'd also like to suggest some books on spiritual warfare, including Apostle John Eckhardt's "Prayers that Rout Demons and Break Curses" (online here on RUclips) and Joyce Meyer's "Battlefield of The Mind."
    Be blessed!!!

  • @thackblanos
    @thackblanos Месяц назад +3

    I've been going thru a similar process for 2+ years now (my life was incredible as well) and I just recently figured out I needed to be more grateful for what I was going thru and what I had in present because I started complaining more about what I thought I was led to do not manifesting. I realized why would he give more things for me to handle when I can't handle what I've been given thus far. Start writing down 5 things every day for what you are grateful for, and this will transition your thoughts from the lack to fullness until your "3 feet from gold" comes......... blessings, my sister. P.S. You just answered your own question "you probably would've never went thru journey if you knew it would go this way". Steve Harvey has some great tips on being grateful, I gave you one.

    • @BrianaWhiteside
      @BrianaWhiteside  Месяц назад +1

      Thanks for your message!

    • @thackblanos
      @thackblanos Месяц назад +1

      @@BrianaWhiteside blessings forward my sister...... stay sturdy!!!

  • @lorraine7964
    @lorraine7964 Месяц назад +1

    God is working tremendously through you. This video is reaching every one of us in our waiting Season and going through similar trials.. I am in this season too. I have cried more the past 3 years since I surrendered to God. I have been fighting warfare nonstop, but I know I am making headway because of this. We are REPAIRERS OF THE BREACH (ISAIAH 58:12). Be encouraged … these demons are putting up a fight but GOD ALWAYS Prevails. We are Praying for you. All will be well. Your testimony will be great! 🙏

    • @BrianaWhiteside
      @BrianaWhiteside  Месяц назад +1

      I agree and I am praying for you. Thank you for your encouragement.

  • @angelahall-sheisprekeducator
    @angelahall-sheisprekeducator Месяц назад +4

    Be encouraged my sister, first time here but I know what its like to be struggling on this Christian Journey ! That statement you said a sanitized testimony is powerful !!

  • @Roccity17
    @Roccity17 Месяц назад +1

    this resonated with me on so many levels;; from the witchcraft lineage to giving everything up to follow Gods path for me;; i have seen his hands on my path but its so hard being a curse breaker;; my heads been just above water for so long, and im so scared and so tired. God bless u darling. God loves u. to whom much is given much is required. much will be given bcuz much was required. dont give up sis ❤️

  • @miriammatthews5904
    @miriammatthews5904 Месяц назад +5

    Thank you for your transparency and for showing up everyday no matter how hard it is. It may feel like all is against you, but you are on the winning side and you are walking it out. I have felt this way as well. A long season of sowing and waiting for the harvest while experiencing warfare in the marriage, finances, false accusation, criticism, just craziness. However, I recognize now that God was doing James 1: 2-4 and in addition to that he was teaching me his ways, so I could rely on his faithfulness. I have learned how to trust in him and depend on his word and experience the supernatural more than I ever have. You have a great destiny and hell is actually trembling. Ruth 2:12 just dropped in my spirit for you. The pruning process does not feel good at all and being in the wilderness Can feel like you're alone but it's all so that we can truly trust in God and be confident in his word because your elevation will come. It's inevitable. God bless you and thank you again! Praying for your strength now 🙏

  • @KingdomWarrior.
    @KingdomWarrior. Месяц назад

    Sis, I haven't even completed this video, and I resonate with you, 2021 is when things began to change drastically in my life too and right now, I'm going through a full season of transition and the wilderness, but God is truly showing me who he is through this whole process. I almost can't explain how wonderful he is even when it doesn't feel like it. He's doing something in his Kingdom with his children, his remnant it's going to be remarkable when we come into full revelation! God bless you and I pray your strength in the Lord forever 💞🙏

  • @Lacittra
    @Lacittra Месяц назад +9

    God move in your children’s lives around the world, give us stamina, peace, understanding, wisdom God to do your will. God Thy Kingdom Come Let Your Will be done.

  • @onelifeonepromise3115
    @onelifeonepromise3115 Месяц назад +1

    I feel a little relieved because you are telling my story in so many ways that I thought I was the only person feeling this way. I been waiting patiently on the lord for a while and the reason being is he is my only resource at this time in my life. I’m doing All the right things but I’m getting the results that I been praying about. I’m lacking in so many things at this time it’s unbelievable. I been asking the Lord for a car for over 5 years and I’m still waiting. Y’all please say a prayer for your sister in Christ. Amen 🙏🏼

  • @debraedmundson7628
    @debraedmundson7628 Месяц назад +5

    Dr B, I can identify with you for your story resonates with me. Afer years of having similar experiences in my journey throughout life with God its only now that I am with the understanding of what it means to be Choosen by God. Its a very different life one that only others who are Chosen can identify with. I heard God voice to me several times I am with you, I got you, these words have been comforting for me. This journey that many of us are on is more for Kingdom Impact that the world has been void of thus far. You are not alone in this journey, I will be praying for you. There is Purpose in this for you . God will elevate you in his way and his time.

    • @brianlewis7632
      @brianlewis7632 Месяц назад +3

      Keep the Faith God is Faithful and will keep His Promises concerning You Stay Blessed 🙌🏿

    • @thedrippoet3431
      @thedrippoet3431 Месяц назад +1

      I'm praying 🙏🏾 for you, Dr. Briana. I receive so much encouragement from you, and you have saved my life so many times through your videos. I thank God for you, and I pray for you a lot. I'm struggling as well and waiting on God. I've fallen and had to get back up and keep pressing forward. Thank you for your honesty and courage. Love you much, sis ❤ I look forward to getting through this journey together with you 🙌

    • @BrianaWhiteside
      @BrianaWhiteside  Месяц назад

      Thank you so much!

    • @BrianaWhiteside
      @BrianaWhiteside  Месяц назад

      Hey Brian! Thanks for the message and great to see you.

    • @BrianaWhiteside
      @BrianaWhiteside  Месяц назад

      Omg! 😱 thank you for saying this!!

  • @deey6552
    @deey6552 Месяц назад +2

    I have been through myself. Lost everything at one point after going "all in" for Yah. Holding to a promise He gave me but in that, I knew something wasn’t right. I finally asked Him to show me the truth. I laid down everything I knew (or rather thought I knew about Him, His Word, Kingdom, authority, dominion, all the words/principles/etc). I just prayed for the truth. And He started showing me. Now I still had to go through the consequences of mistakes made during that time, but He walked me through. Still waiting on some things from Him but He has restored so much. My advice is to ask Him for the truth. Read His Word as a blank slate. I don’t know if you study apologetics but I would recommend starting with Holly Pivec if you haven't. I am so sorry for your pain, I have been there. I pray Yah stregthens you in spirit and in truth.

  • @olak3423
    @olak3423 Месяц назад +3

    Dr. Whiteside, Thank you for sharing this part of your testimony. There is so much to unpack and in so many ways, I relate to everything you’ve said. I am praying for you (May God bless you and give you comfort, staying by your side so that even as you stumble- may you never fall. I pray that Holy Spirit will continue to counsel, encourage, and plead your case. I pray that you continue to receive revelation and that as you continue to allow God to direct your path, you will reach your promised land. God is using you as His mouthpiece to help others with their destiny walk- He is using you as a demonstration as well. He is giving you His framework so that you will be prepared for those who will come to you to discover the Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ. ❤ Stay focused, stay strong, stay abiding in Him.

  • @shekimja3291
    @shekimja3291 Месяц назад

    I don't often comment on RUclips videos, but I needed to let you know how much of a blessing your transparency was for me. I also left a tenure track position in Academia. For the past 4 or more years, I've been a shell of myself with no direction for the future. Going from being a goal-oriented person with clear steps for the future to a place of so much uncertainty has made me feel hopeless. I've recently realized that God is seeking my attention to have a relationship with Him. Your video is just what I needed to prepare for the fight ahead while learning to lean on Him. Thank you and I know you'll be blessed tremendously 🙏🏽 ✨️

  • @manalive8835
    @manalive8835 Месяц назад +3

    It's okay Dr. Brianna. The Ancient of Days will keep us still sometimes whilst He is working on us, but we're programmed in this realm to run on the treadmill until we drop. The only way to get our attention is to keep us still. We have to be stripped down (de-programmed) to be rebuilt righteously. You're going through the fire to remove impurities and will come out refined like gold. Stay strong; peace and blessings.

    • @BrianaWhiteside
      @BrianaWhiteside  Месяц назад +1

      Thank you so much for your message and encouragement!

    • @manalive8835
      @manalive8835 Месяц назад

      @@BrianaWhiteside You're most welcome. The Ancient of Days has got you, you are not alone; He is separating His own, 2 Corinthians 6:17 KJV. Shalom and blessings to you sister 🤗💕💕💕

  • @amberwallace4218
    @amberwallace4218 Месяц назад +1

    Thank you for sharing…I’ve been in this place and it often feels secluded. This week was honestly hard. My words to the Lord are so similar to yours. It’s as if I’m the only person going through it. Hearing your position and heart… gives me hope! He is doing something!
    This is a purifying of the remnant. I can’t go back….my blood line is similar to what you shared and It’s been 3 years for me as well. I DO know that the anointing and the authority is because of this walk. It’s producing oil. We WILL see the GOODNESS of the LORD in the LAND of the LIVING! Sis I’m standing with you! 🙏🏾🤍 Again, thank you for sharing this! Love you!