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I am so Broken Over the Loss of my Wife-But I Feel Hope-Christmas was Filled with Hope
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- Опубликовано: 26 дек 2023
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Jenny Appleford or Kyle Appleford
7211 Haven Ave, Unit E-407
Rancho Cucamonga, CA 91701
Kyle’s Channel:
/ @kyleapple9702
INSTAGRAM: jenny_appleford
INSTAGRAM: kyoooooapple
FACEBOOK: Our Brave Jenny
For business inquiries: veganapplefords@gmail.com or kyleapple66@gmail.com
DIAGNOSIS:
March 19th, 2021 Stage IIIA Non Small Cell Lung Cancer (Non-Smoking)
February 2022 Stage IV Non Small Cell Lung Cancer (spreading to Brain, and other parts of lung and lymph nodes)
Gene Mutation EGFR with Exon 20 Insertion
TREATMENTS: Received or currently Receiving
2021: 8 Rounds of Chemotherapy (Carboplatin and Paclitaxel) with 30 concurrent radiation treatments to chest and lung
Failed Immunotherapy directly after Chemo and Radiation (Durvalumab, 1 round)
2022: Chemotherapy
10 rounds of Chemotherapy (Carboplatin, Alimta, and Avastin)
6 with Carboplatin, 4 without
Targeted Brain Radiation (Completed)
Most Recent Treatment plan, prior to passing:
Whole Brain and Spine Proton Therapy (Radiation) 13 sessions
Clinical Trial Medication NOLA
The purpose of my channel is to document my cancer journey to look back on, and/or help anyone else going through anything similar. It is also to potentially help loved ones supporting those who are in this fight as well. This is also an easy way to update a lot of people at once. My main goal is to have footage of this journey for my husband and children to look back on. I originally created this channel as a sort of video diary for my
family.
Thank you so much for following along on this journey. Your love and support help me so much.
We will remember Jenny forever. She made cancer a little less scary- that’s such a sacrifice. She let us in on the journey. 🐞
Perfectly said.
Exactly 💕💕
I agree! Jenny made cancer and the journey less scary for sure! I feel like I know her and I know I definitely LOVE her!❤
I feel like I was a part of ya'lls life for a while. I'm glad you are feeling hope. You were such perfect husband and are such an amazing Dad. You handled Christmas with such Grace, just like Jenny would want. All of the first will be tough for all of you and it my heart breaks. Many Prayers🙏🙏💔❤ 16:52
I wish he would stop grifting off her death
When I see little Winnie looking up at the camera with her bright and happy smile, I see Jenny's face. When I see Ellis's demure and thoughtful smile, I also see Jenny's face. She really left the best of her in your kids, they are wonderful. I love how you are each other's rock in these challenging and triggering days. I know how it feels to spend Christmas after heavy and recent loss. It's very hard. You're doing great, Kyle. Thanks so much for sharing your life with us, letting us be part of your journey and being so open and honest about your feelings. One day at a time. Lots of love.
I love this comment. It’s exactly what I’ve been thinking! IT IS SO HARD TO LOSE A DEEPLY LOVED ONE AND SPEND THE FIRST HUGE HOLIDAY WITHOUT THEM THERE IN CORPOREAL FORM! Kyle, you are showing people from all over the world that there is hope! I know you must’ve put on a good face while hurting so badly. You will look back at this time, and so will your kids. You ALL will remember this first Christmas without your beautiful Jenny … and talk about IT, and all the memories that haven’t come to the surface yet … you know what I mean? New Year’s Eve will probably hurt big time. Take care of yourself, Kyle. Take care of YOU. 🙏
Well said.
I thought the sane thing 🥹
Perfectly said. ❤
I am so thankful you shared this video with us. I do believe Jenny was right there with you and saw the children’s Christmas. I know you will have ups and downs but ,for now,enjoy the peace that God has given you. May he guide and give you unsurpassable strength to help you with beautiful Jenny’s memorial service. I know it will be a wonderful tribute to her. I am in agreement I think all of the Holidays especially the first ones, are the hardest and triggering. I am older and having just a few health ups and downs. I have always loved Christmas!! Even though !I enjoy it,…… I found myself sad at times this year. I am very thankful for you that you can breathe and ,maybe linger,with the thoughts that hope and love are the greatest gifts of all. God bless you and your children always. Hoping 2024 will be nothing but steadfast healing,happiness,hope and love for you and yours!! ❤️💝💙💓🙏
For you, Kyle.
Day by day you’re going to find
life is still very kind.
One day you’ll look back and see
how proud of yourself you will be.
No one can replace Jenny‘s space
but you’ll move on in your own pace.
Love to you is given from near and far
and especially from the one that has become a star
We’re all so very proud of you, Kyle
Awesome new blogs from the apple family! It's important to know how blessed we are regardless of our situation!
Very pretty
Gail...that poem is beautiful. 💔❤❤❤
Thank you all so very much
Beautiful 🙏🏻💗🕊️
I love how the kids took each gift in, Winnie looking through her books and placing them all nicely on the couch, Ellis looking at each gift in delight . You are raising your children with gratitude. You are doing a great job, and what a beautiful Christmas you gave the kids incorporating Jenny in for the kids and you. Yes, there's hope❤
I noticed this too with the kids. I’ve said a thousand times what wonderful children they are. They appreciate every little thing. I’ll never forget beautiful Jenny, and how every day she was always greatful and thankful for something. They truly have , together, created such beautiful children.
❤❤ we have..not a hope so hope, but a know so hope...❤❤
I noticed that as well
I was going to comment the same statements about those beautiful kiddos. Most kids would tear through their gifts without even noticing what they were!
You're right...with everything you wrote.
❤
I love how Jenny wrote all the recipes out. She thought of everything and thats why you will be okay.
Jenny planned everything out. Going through all she went through and she still thought ahead, planning the future for you and the kiddos. She was an amazing woman.
Kyle, write this down. This feeling of hope. What it feels like, the moments you felt it in, and the moments you felt gratitude. Write it down and keep it close to you, maybe in a drawer so that on those days when you feel absolutely broken, you can remind yourself that hope is still there. It is still there, even on the hardest days. Don't let go of that. Blessings to you and your sweet family always.
Yes this memories need to go in your journal. 16:52
Very good advice
So true, I just have depression not triggered by anything. I have learned that on my worst days, it's only temporary, so just have to get through the day even if I accomplish nothing and it's really helped me.
Christmas belongs to those who suffer; it’s not really about merry-making with food and gifts, putting our feet up with time off, but the otherworldly joy of a Savior who comes precisely for the broken hearted. You are the reason for the Feast. Your pain is the reason for Christ’s incarnation-a light to those of us struggling in darkness. ❤️
Your family is beautiful and Jenny lives through you all, and is still very much alive in soul.
Beautiful Words!!❤
Yes, beautifully put .. thank you for this! May I use part of your insightful comment for a FB post? … with full credit to a “commenter”. We all need to think more about the reason for the season. ❤️🇨🇦🙏
That is a beautiful sentiment in honor of a bright and beautiful soul. ♥️🪽
Silent viewer here and i just wanted to say you sir are doing amazing. Your kids are absolutely sweet souls and so well mannered.
Kyle might be the best dad I’ve ever seen. For not having a dad growing up, you wouldn’t know it. He’s such a good daddy to his beautiful babies❤ Winnie “ I very did want this!” So cute.
Every person who lost a loved one, says the first BIG DAYS without them, are very hard to handle. I am keeping you, Ellis and Winnie in my prayers. May God bless you.
🌬❣Yes ! You are so right. 😢
Yes, the year of "firsts" are the toughest. 😭
Every event will always be tough. I lost mom at 17. There isn’t a day I don’t miss her. She missed the birth of first grandchild , great grandkid. My daughter looks like her.
Yes so many firsts and “you would enjoy this if you were here because it was your thing” 😢 I still buy my dad’s favorite candies for Christmas a decade after he passed
@@HumdrumCurio I agree with you. One thing that can never be erased or get stolen, is the beautiful memories in our hearts. Both my parents died 26 years ago. Three months apart, after 50 years together. It feels like yesterday.
My husband passed 8 years ago suddenly at work. I kept saying to myself how will I do this. 8 years later I have done it. I still think of him everyday. Take care it does get better.❤❤❤
When my friend Cathy died after about 6 months her husband said to me ‘I had no IDEA how much she did to make this family work!’ He was so amazed. And grateful for how thoughtful she was.
kinda sad he didn't notice that before she passed no?
@@Dana_at_LAX I believe that family dynamics lead to a division of jobs and typically mental load is the woman’s to carry
My loved one passed on Christmas Eve...Kyle, you are an amazing father. In addition to being hopeful, I think you have handled this devastating situation with GRACE! Jenny is so proud of you!
I am sorry for your loss 💕
🌅so sorry🙏
These videos break my heart because I know if I lose my husband before he loses me. I’ll be devastated and I wouldn’t know how to live without him. SMH 😢 you can see how much you love her and miss her. ❤
I know what you saying 😢. My husband has Heart & kidney failure and I get absolutely frightened when he goes off to bed at night.
I want to go before him.
You will live fine without him, we are selfish at our core by nature and our brain is designed to move on no matter what tragedy we have in our life!
Not true and not a nice comment.@fwdflashwebdesign
@@denisejeffery3602sending prayers 🙏
Just make sure you tell them you love them and don t take them for granted because you just never know when its time for them to go .my husband died in 2013 and i though i would never cope but some how you just do , you never get over it you just learn to live with it .❤
She fought cancer with so much dignity, bravery and love to share her journey with all of us ❤️ She is watching over you now. I bet the first person she saw when she crossed over was her friend she wanted to see that had passed from cancer. 🙏🏼
To be honest, Christmas is hard on a lot of us, with or without a loss! It’s become harder as the years go by. Blessings to you and yours.
💓 it never get easier we just move on
@@CatherineStone-mp1tqyou are right,,,,just one foot in front of the other. One day at a time. Although some nights I do pray not to wake up the next morning
So so true❤️💔❤️
@@patticakes8656Amen! Just take little baby steps. Use the money you have hoarded in her memory to buy yourself a few spa days for comfort.
Kyle, you brought Jenny with you, to all of us.
Ellis and Winnie are absolutely beautiful children.
You showed them love, in spite of profound loss.
You're such a wonderful Dad.
What a wonderful way to remember Jenny, by ‘bringing her with you’. ❤️🙏🏻🕊️
Ellis is SUCH a sweet, thoughtful boy. Handing Winnie a gift first, making sure she didn’t accidentally knock into the Christmas village with it. 🥹 You and Jenny have raised those kiddos with so much love and it really really shows. You’re doing great, Kyle, even if sometimes it might not feel like it, you are so strong for them. Your family is never far from my thoughts, wishing you comfort and peace in the new year.
He is really a sweet thoughtful child
Agree. Such a sweet loving boy.
I agree ❤❤❤ what wonderful humans y'all have made!!!
Watching the memorial right now. I can't stop crying. Jenny's had a huge impact on me. I think of her and the loved ones she left behind. I just can't imagine the pain they are feeling. Jenny I miss you so very much even though I never met you. Sending you all so much love and peace in your heart & soul.
You know why you held up on Christmas better than you thought you would, it is because Jenny was right there with her arms around you and loving you. Our son passed away on Christmas Day 2017 and our 22 year old granddaughter and her husband, also 22 years old both passed away this May and one in June so this was a very different Christmas and we are glad it is over too. You are going to be okay at Jenny’s service too because her spirit is going to be right there with you. Jenny is so proud of all of you, ❤️❤️❤️🥰🥰❤️❤️❤️
I would like to say I am so sorry for all of your losses. God Bless you as you grieve . Your loved ones are still with you . Sending big hugs to you and your family .💖
My god I’m so sorry to hear of your losses God bless you .🙏🏼❤
@@starlightdreamer1999 thank you, that is so nice of you
@@denisomahoney5464thank you for your kind words
You are so consistent with your children, and unselfishly serving their little hearts. Praying for you to have strength and to continue to express reality with hope. That's really hard, but you are doing it, and Jenny must be so proud looking down from Heaven!
You said it so well!!!❤❤❤❤❤
This! Anen!❤✝️🙏
So beautifully put! Lotsa love to you for your kind n wise words.
“Hope” is the thing with feathers -
That perches in the soul -
And sings the tune without the words -
And never stops - at all-….
By Emily Dickinson
So happy to hear you speak of hope, Kyle. Merry Christmas to you and the kids. ❤️
That was beautiful. Thanks for sharing. Hope you had a wonderful Christmas
I LOVE how Ellis is so
Organized and putting his gifts in one place
I am soooo impressed by Ellis!!!❤❤❤ In fact, I have renamed my pet gerbil after him [even though the gerbil, a.k.a. ‘Missy’] is a girl…
Thank you Kyle, for letting us share your day with you. Your children are an absolute delight. Your people worldwide, have shown so much love towards you. Their gifts have been something else haven't they? All those outfits for Winnie, just amazing. The toys, wow! Embrace it all Kyle. Jenny is all around. ❤🇬🇧
I just looked to see if you had posted. We love you and the kids Kyle. Just rest and let some peace fill your thoughts and mind. We are still praying and sending love and hugs ❤
It’s wild, right? I always wake up right around when Kyle posts and look for the new video. Jenny’s energy is strong.
Jenny is watching and I’m sure she is beaming with pride how well you are keeping her traditions alive. Happy Christmas to you all and praying 2024 brings you Love, Peace and Happiness.🙏🥰
❤❤❤so beautiful. I feel same way. Beautiful jenny in heaven looking down so proud of her dear Kyle's strength
My therapist told me, “happy” isn’t an island we get to live on. Emotions are like waves, always coming and going.
Happy Holidays to you and your kiddos. Sending you hugs. 🤍
Jenny is watching and saying " Good Job Kyle" ...you have done her proud in every way. ❤❤❤
The kids look so grateful for each and every gift. You and Jenny are raising grateful children. ❤️🙏🏻🎄🕊️
Hope is a welcome visitor, and I’m glad you got through one of the most difficult firsts Kyle. You are doing amazing. Just enjoy what you have and keep moving ahead. Jenny is right beside you and she s so proud of you and the kids.Looking foreword to what the next weeks bring,I know Jenny’s service is coming up soon and that will be another hard first. Praying for you ♥️🙏🏽
Grief. A gift unwanted, but a gift just the same. It's given me the gift of seeing. I see more clearly, the pain of others. I see the signs from angels when I was blind to them before . It's given me the gift of hearing. I hear more clearly what people are saying or what they are not saying for that matter. It's given me new friends who also suffer through grief, to show me that I am not alone. It opens my eyes to my old friends and to value them and tell them how much I love them. Grief. It's a gift unwanted, but a gift just the same.
Kyle...I'm 71 y/o and I can remember being given "The Shy Little Kitten" when I was about your daughter age. How I loved that book! Merry Christmas.
Kyle, you’ve inspired me not to give up , this Christmas has not been easy 🙏🏼♥️
Sending you prayers and a big hug.❤
I'm sorry for you're going through ❤
Praying for you as well.
@@janeleslie4192🙏🏼🥺very grateful for your words. Thank you ❤️🩹
@@janeleslie4192 ♥️🫵🏼♥️🫵🏼♥️
Look at those beautiful babies so excited for Christmas! With their jammies, and smiles. I love how you honor Jenny- because you are right, she is with you. You feel her, because she is there when you need her. When you are that connected, you just know.
Such kind words and so perfectly said! Jenny is a part of them. The love they have for each other keeps them connected.
We are on a cancer journey as well. My hubby was hospitalized and we spent Christmas there. He was released the 26th. ❤ Hang in there. So many folks love and care for your family.
Amanda’s loss was also huge. Nick was tremendously loved in the theater community and his loss was profound. I’m glad Amanda is a good guidepost for you.
Darling Ellis was so organised. I guarantee he was itching to open his much wanted Lego Kit, that he didn't accidentally see. Winnie was so funny moving her clothes to the couch. My heart was breaking watching Winnie and Ellis. I can only imagine how you were feeling, watching them by yourself. Merry Christmas.
Dear Kyle,
I'm sure Jenny's soul helped you to ease your sadness, your brokenheart, during those tough days.
She filled your heart with hope that's another sign from her.
❤❤❤❤❤
I’m so proud of you that you made the bed , I get it! I lost my husband a year ago on December 23rd.
YOU have brought me hope by saying the exact same things I have said… I hear in you the hope and survival that I have lived and continue to live . I wish I could tell you that the grief goes away , nor do I want it to. In my mind it honors the love that my husband and I share. I will tell you , somehow, it gets easier to get through those really bad moment and they are a little further apart.
Tell your stories and use her name , if someone is uncomfortable with that they can walk away. I refuse to take care of others who are uncomfortable when I’m honest about my journey after they have asked . I certainly don’t go on and on with major details, but I will say “ it sucks , I miss him.”
I am new to your channel in the last 24 hours , last night I prayed for you and your children through tears . You will be ok.
My sister in law lost her husband suddenly in July 2021 and this was her third Christmas without him. She has two teenagers so pulls Christmas together for them, but would rather just skip the holidays. It is the hardest time of the year for her and she said it probably always will be. She is still heartbroken over the loss of her husband, but said it does get easier the more time that passes. Her grief group has helped her so, so much. I hope you have a grief group you are going too! She lives in Pasadena and I think you are in So. Cal as well. If you want the name of it and contact info, please let me know. They have been an immense help to her! Sending you and your kids lots of love. You are doing amazing and Jenny is so proud of you! Take it all minute by minute..... you will get through this! Sending you lots of love. Happy New Year!
What a magical Christmas you gave your children. Jenny would be so proud of you. Much love from Australia. 🇺🇸🎄🇦🇺
yes indeed ❤
Even more touching is that Christmas breakfast comes from Jenny’s cookbook.❤️🙏🏻🎄🕊️🏠
Kyle the memorial service 🙏🙏🙏 was beautiful ❤️ and may God bless you ❣️ all and give you all the peace 🕊️🕊️🕊️🙏🕊️🕊️🕊️ you all need ❤
I love how you decorated your home. It is beautifull. Jenny is looking down on you smiling.
Absolutely best advice…..we laugh, we cry, we rag on my husband’s funny little ways, I made him alive to our grandson who was too young to have memories. He will forever be with us as long as we keep his love within us💙
It wasn't hard for me to feel Jenny there with you all. What a wonderful father you are to the children. I snapped a pic of Jenny's pancake recipe and a little of Jenny, you and the kids will live in our home and hearts every time I make pancakes. Love and prayers to each and everyone of you. Hope Flower enjoyed Christmas too. ❤🙏☃🎄
For the first time just like a Christmas miracle we can hear the hope in your voice, bless you dear Kyle.😊
Ellis and Winnie are the most precious children . Ellis is so mature for his age, gently handing out gifts . Winnie is a little sparkle ✨ Praise the Lord for the beginning of hope for you ❤ I pray daily for you all . Jenny is so happy watching you and the children . Wishing you a blessed New Year ❤🙏🙏
Jenny is smiling . You are making her so happy Kyle. You are so stronger than you think. Love will continue to carry you and your family 🙏🏽♥️🙏🏽
I wish I could give this video a million likes!!! What a beautiful message Kyle! The kids are so beautiful and resilient thanks to you and Jenny! I still bring my mom after almost 28 years! God bless and comfort you all!🙏 Jenny never gave up hope and you're carrying that on!!!❤
Ellis and Winnie,
Your dearest mother. Jenny, was an Angel amongst us.
I never got to meet her in person, but there was no need. She touched my heart, as well as thousands of people, with her voice, her smile, and most importantly, with her selfishness, and love for others.
I miss her smile, I miss her voice, I miss her overall beauty- inside and out.
Your mother really loved people and wanted to bring awareness to the horrible illness that LUNG CANCER is.
God truly blessed us with such an unforgettable person such as your mama.
The first time that I had a friend that lost her husband I noticed that she would always talk about him, what he liked, etc. and after this vlog, I realized that that is normal and needed. You have opened our eyes and hearts to understand grief and how you deal with it. Bless you and your family! 🥰
Hi Kyle, I want you to know that I pray and think of you and the kids daily. I miss Jenny, too. Still hurts, but do hang on to hope. It will get you through your grief.
Kyle, that’s a very sweet way to honor your beloved Jenny by not being afraid to talk about her❤. I know she would have loved that and you’re right she was right there with you. Good job following her recipes and keeping with the family traditions on Christmas! Looks like the kids had a great time opening up their gifts too!
You’re also right that holidays are a triggering experience, however, the way you handled it was inspiring and leaving you with a sense of gratitude is just a wonderful way to honor Jenny. She would be so proud of you!!
Wishing the entire Appleford family as well as Jenny’s sister Ashley and her husband and kids as well as Jenny’s brother, Michael and her mom and Dad a very safe healthy and prosperous New Year. Peace on earth goodwill towards man.
Jenny’s service is in just a few days. Her legacy of being kind towards everyone will continue. 🐞🕊️🌟💫🌈🌈
Kyle - you got through Christmas, the kids did too.👍 I love watching how caring Ellis is to Winnie - that’s because you and Jen modeled that loving support. I think it was wonderful that you brought Jenny everywhere you went. She is truly with you everywhere you go. Day at a time -
So happy to hear how positive and hopeful you are feeling! This New Year I wish for healing for all of you! You have a ways to go, but take it one day at a time! Stay strong Kyle
You are such a wonderful father and Ellis and Winnie are so blessed to have you. I love, love, love the way Winnie smelled her book - like a true bookworm! Praying that that feeling of hope continues for all of you.
There are moments in this video where I’m certain I see Jenny in the sparkle of Winnie’s eyes. I can literally see Jenny’s smiling face and it’s so beautiful and happy. Merry Christmas Kyle and family, and may the new year bring you peace and love.
I saw it too. What a beautiful sight!
Yes as I was watching her unwrap her gifts, I was thinking how much she looks like and is gentle and kind hearted like her mom
Thank you Kyle for telling us about Amanda saying to talk about our spouses that we just lost. I think I have been always remembering him dying instead of just talking about him and everything that he accomplished when he was alive and loved to do. Thank you so much and I will start doing this immediately. God bless you and the children.
Good afternoon Kyle you did so well, you keep those babies happy and you did just that so you pat yourself on the back, what a wonderful dad, keep going Kyle, because you are doing great 👍
I just know that Jenny is so proud of the way you're handling everything.
Sending you, Ellis & Winnie love & happiness from my heart. ♥️💚💚💚🐾🐾💚
Since my one and only is in his 20s and I don't have grandchildren, I was living vicariously through your video. There's something almost magical watching young children open gifts, and in your case, two ADORABLE children who looked so happy. 🥰 Thanks for your Christmas morning with us.
You are not broken, never say that. You are wounded for if you were broken that would mean permanent, not fixable. Remember, this too shall pass. Give it time my friend.
Remembering sweet Jenny this Christmas time. I'm sure she is happy and whole in heaven...Kyle, you are doing so well with your children...Always remember Jenny is watching over all of you.....Hope you all enjoyed your chocolate chip pancakes! They sound delicious! Take extra good care of yourself, Kyle.....Know that Jenny is there with you in spirit.....You will always feel her around.....We love and miss you sweet Jenny.......God Bless you and Kyle and your children.....Love, Cherie....
Well done Kyle. I’m so proud of you. I lost my little brother in May and his wife of 33 + years, is going through the same. We meet once a week just to spend time together, but we talk openly of Johnny and it really does help. I’m so proud of you! You’re doing an amazing job! Winnie is able to express her loss more easily than Ellis, but his loss is etched so intensely on his face. Please know this and keep his therapy going. Thank you for the update, it’s great to see you and the kids! Loving you all so much!!!!! Hugs and prayers!
I always wake up in the middle of the night when you post. It’s a weird sixth sense. I’m so grateful whenever you share, but I obviously understand when you can’t.
Looking forward to Jenny’s service this weekend but I also know it will be so hard for you and all of Jenny’s loved ones.
We love you Kyle ❤
You're a class act Kyle and I can already see it wearing off on your kids. Jenny is undoubtedly proud of you all.
Christmas is such a magical time as a child. My parents didn't have a lot to give us on Christmas but they did the best they could and we always appreciated any presents that we got. You're doing an amazing job Kyle and I can't express how much you are an inspiration to so many people. Your children are always going to know that they're loved far beyond material possessions. The truest and most meaningful gift you can give is your heart and the love it contains.
Kyle. Jenny will always live on in her and your babies. She left you with the most special gifts in them. I am so happy you are letting hope into your lives. You are so wise beyond your years. Please go easy on yourself. ♥️
You are the best Dad on this planet 🌎 ❤
Kyle, thank you for sharing your of life after the death of Jenny. My husband is currently on inhome hospice care with Multiple System Atrophy, a rare, terminal disease. He is doing relatively okay at the moment. We have been married 52 years and can't imagine the grief I will feel when he dies. Your videos about what life is like for yu without Jenny and how you are handling it all, are very precious for me. As time goes by and his symtoms get worse, I already feel the pain of his leaving us. I try not to think about any further than to enjoy the every moment we have now. Thank you, Kyle
Talking about my dad with my mom is and has been the one thing that has felt not only natural and easy, but it keeps him alive with us and 9 years later, he is just as alive and talked about as he always has been! Keep talking about and to Jenny!! It is incredibly healing and hopeful and fills hearts (takes away the fear of talking about her in others) away! It’s a beautiful way to always keep your beautiful wife with you and the kids everyday forever!! ❤❤❤ Hugs, love and prayers from the Hoosier state! 🙏🏻♥️♥️♥️🦋✨🐞🕊️🐾🌟♥️
I am so sorry for everything you're going through... I honestly am not the best with written words but there's so much I want to say in this comment. I just want you to know you're a very kind and gentle soul who should not have to go through this pain.
I can tell you really loved your wife... and she was blessed to have experienced a love that was so rare to find on this earth. You gave her unconditional love.
Not sure where I'm going in this .. but, I watch every video you upload and I hope each minute gets easier for you. ❤ you Literally have to take it one day at a time. Don't think too far ahead. Don't put too much pressure on yourself, either.
Merry Christmas Kyle, Winnie and Ellis. I can’t even imagine how difficult it must have been to experience this first Christmas without Jenny being physically present. As always you did a fantastic job navigating this time. Hold on to the hope Kyle, you are weathering the clouds. More will come, no doubt, but being able to make the bed for the first time, not feeling completely broken - these are all great victories. Hold on the hope and the great love you have for Jenny - just to experience the love you shared is a great gift and it will stay with you - just like Jenny. x
Well said!
Dear Kyle it's a privilege to be included in your grief journey and of course it will be different every day until the emotions calm and the reality of your loss doesn't overwhelm you. You don't have to reach any targets or be the same every day. You must go where your loss takes you until one day you will find a place where suddenly you will be able to smile and commune with your lovely wife. It will happen. Many are praying for you. Love from Argyll, Scotland. ❤
Hi Kyle, you got through the Holidays with the support, and the love you needed. The people who keep Jenny alive with their words and their actions. Jenny was right by your side, while you navigated the holidays. You made your children so happy, kept family traditions, visited with family and friends and with that you felt gratitude. Jenny would be… No, scratch the words ‘would be’. Jenny IS so proud of you !! I’m wishing you peace that gets stronger with each and every day of 2024. Jenny, forever by your side, is helping you find peace, and is always filling your heart with gratitude.
Fiți binecuvântați! Un OM adevărat, un tătic exemplu!🙏🙏🙏🎄
absolutely amazing Dad in every aspect. Kyle's compassion, loving heart and loyalty to his wife is just amazing...
Sending prayers and love, you’re doing wonderful Kyle
Carn't imagine what it's like for you you have been through so much now haveing to deal with christmas on top of everything else bless you Kyle you are doing an amazing job jenny would be so proud of you I hope you and you kids has an happiest christmas as possible xxx
You are such a lovely person Kyle Jenny was very lucky she picked you,even though it wasn’t long enough what you both had was very special,you will have bad days but you seem to be coping really good,and of course some days you will feel lighter but Jenny will always be there in the back of your mind.You have two beautiful children that will help fill your time I wish you all a beautiful Christmas.love from Newzealand.
Absolut adevărat!
Kyle, you are such an amazing man, husband, father and friend to all of us that follow you. I pray for hope for you, especially when you are feeling broken, sad or down.
Thank you so much for sharing the story about your grandfather and the bird fluttering around in the garage, before you said it was Jen I knew that it was her, she was sharing with you how wonderful you are and what a great job you did with getting ready for Christmas along with everyday leading up to that.
You will forever miss Jen but in time it will become easier. I have faith that it will. God Bless you, the children, your family and friends. ❤️🙏🏻❤️🙏🏻❤️🙏🏻❤️🙏🏻
Christmas is always hard while dealing with grief. I lost my uncle unexpectedly due to cancer and we had to put my dog down who I grew up with. There are definitely times when I’m ok and happy then I’m crying.
Hi kyle I just wanted to come on here and tell you that you have done such a beautiful beautiful job at Jenny's service. I'm watching it now and I had to pause and just come in the comments and say what a wonderful job you have done honoring Jenny at her service. She would just be thrilled at what her loving husband has done in honor of her. You, the kids and the rest of the family and friends are in my prayers always but especially today. Thinking of you all and thinking of beautiful Jenny. 💕
I agree 100%. It was so beautiful ❤
The bird WAS Jenny . . . Showing HER love of Grandpa’s car.🏠🙏🏻🕊️❤️
Kyle thank you for always being an inspiration. You must be exhausted from lack of sleep. I remember those xmas eve nights...Morning comes quickly. You made it through this first xmas without Jenny. You did a phenomenal job at providing and protecting your children. Love you Kyle..next hurdle is the memorial ❤
I just watched the mills video of Mr. Mills filling the stockings of his 9 children. His wife has been gone now for 4 years after a battled with cancer. You and him are amazing men with your children. Praying for you. Blessings
My heart skipped a beat I was so happy to hear you say you felt hope!!! I’m thankful that your family is having a good time right now. You guys deserve good times right now.
Bless your precious Souls, all of you 💝
It's a tough time, 1st xmas. So blessed the kids went to bed excited! What a wonder-full job you are doing! 💞
( she is !! Always with you!... true love truly is eternal.) 👼💞
Thank you
Such incredible, kind and loving viewers. Those are Jenny’s angels.🎄🕊️🙏🏻
You’re doing great, Kyle. Every single emotion will come in waves for a long long time..Sadness, Hope, Anger, and eventually Joy. The kids will remember the traditions, and the feeling of the holiday more so than the specific gifts. You can see that Ellis and Winnie are beginning to feel hope, too ♥️
YES, YES, YES- talk about your missed loved ones, keep their stories alive. This has helped me cope with the loss of my son. I can now say his name, tell funny stories about him and remember all the good times we had together. I wish this for you and your children as well. God Bless you in the New Year.
I was just thinking about you. My heart is broken for your family. Im praying for you. 🙏
Kyle Jen would be so proud of you all she s surrounding you all day every day. Praying for you all
Jen was right
You re a fantastic Dad . Hope your Christmas season brought some joy ❤ xxx
Talking about Jenny will help you realize all the precious memories you have that were made with Jenny. She will always be a part of you.
The memorial was gorgeous. The flowers were beautiful. Everyone shared the most wonderful stories of Jenny. I wish I had known her personally but we are all so privileged to have been able to know her through this community. Kyle, you were 100% her knight in shining armour. You took such good care of her and you escorted her out of this life to her heavenly home so sweetly and bravely. I know she’s so proud of you right now. Excellent job on her farewell! She was an amazing woman and her legacy will live on thru you and the kids.
Kyle it's hard losing your loved 1.she held on so long such pain so glad she's at peace.🙏.Jenny will always being around watching over all of you.Always.🙏❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
I understand the feeling of wanting the holidays to be over.
TY for sharing the joyful moments the kids had opening their gifts. I felt like I was there with you. It was also good to see your hope. ❤& hugs!
HOW WONDERFUL IT SOUNDS TO HEAR YOU TALK ABOUT HER AND NOT FEEL HEART BROKEN. WINNIE LOOKS SO CUTE WHEN SHE LOOKS AT YOU AND YOU CAN SEE HOW ELLIS LEADS HER AND SHE WAITS. THEY LEAN ON EACH OTHER. MY FATHER KILLED HIMSELF WHEN I WAS 4 AND I FOLLOWED BY 9 YR. OLD BROTHER. WE ARE IN OUR 70'S NOW AND WE STILL HAVE SUCH A STRONG BOND. THEY WILL ALSO. YOU ARE SUCH A GOOD DAD.
Kyle, you, Jenny, Ellis and Winnie are so loved by friends, family and viewers. Nice to be with family and loved ones and talk, grieve and just be together for the holidays too. Holidays are hard, after loss, but friends/family and your precious children will be there for you:) You're a great dad, so nice you cook with the kids, using Jenny's recipes too, a piece of Jenny is always with you and you instill her love in your life with your kids. Someday they too will use those family recipes and keep pancakes and Christmas morning traditions going. That is one thing I wish I would've done with my kids is cooking, sadly didn't dawn on me, as my mom did all the cooking herself when I grew up, so you kinda do what you know and grew up with. I do love to cook now, and beg my kids to cook with me (they are now 19 and 21), still hasn't worked yet. But my daughter is asking for recipes on things she loves. Kyle you inspire all. The holidays are hard after loss, but I'm so proud of you, and so is Jenny. Love her presence being known the bird. Birds appeared circling above my dad's grave when I visited him and was having a hard time, circling in a circle for a few minutes then disappeared. God gives us signs our loved ones are loved and doing well in Heaven and watching over us. Many blessings to your precious family. Kyle, prayers are going out daily to you, your children and Jenny.
You are doing great Kyle! So proud of all you’re doing. I love the feeling of Hope.
I lost my mom in October 45 years ago. Holidays are always the worst but they will get better. I promise. We talk about my mom (and my dad) all the time. I still make her recipes and carry on the holiday traditions. Love never ends. You’re doing such a great job. Your kids are the proof.
Beautiful that Jenny is being talked about constantly, and I’m doing the same with my son James, 51 who passed away
suddenly and I talk about Jamie all of the time and this is so healthy for the family and a person needs to be remembered and this makes others comfortable as well. Thanks Kyle for sharing your journey, you and Jen have been life changing to thousands. God’s blessings!