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The majority of young kids claiming DID, you can tell they're faking. You can tell they're acting, their "alters" don't talk or act like genuine people, they talk and act like Disney Channel actors.
It also kills me when they will watch a show and five seconds later get a character from it. Fictives are real, but that is NOT how it works. Usually fictives are from a piece of media that was extremely helpful during the time of trauma, and is your brain trying to figure out a way to comfort yourself during the time of trauma. You can’t just watch something and then get an alter from it that’s 100% not how it works.
This, all of this. My introjects/fictives came from the media that got me through some back to back trauma. They don't front fully often & I feel immense shame having them
Literally went to the movies once with someone (and other friends) and they walked out claiming they were one of the characters and then like acting like any opinion you had of the character was wrong. Had to listen the whoooole car ride about their “memories” of being that character. It was hell. It made me stop talking to them about my interests overall. Plus there were interested I had and they’d be like “oh you should join this server because one of my friends is literally ____ from _____.” They were in their 20s…
Yeaaaaah, I've always found it kind of curious how these fictives are almost never, like, Big Bird or Peppa Pig with these folks. They're usually cool characters from anime, video games, etc. they'd clearly like to be.
@@LittleMissLounge I don't know many people who grew up watching sesame street as a comfort show at an age where DID forms but I'm not a professional You also just answered for yourself WHY these people latch on to some of those fictives/introjects (claimed)- They want to be them subconsciously. They will take on their mannerisms. I can also answer from personal experience sometimes you connect deeply with a characters backstory too
@LittleMissLounge as a diagnosed system , what you said doesn't necessarily mean anything. When I was younger in 2018 I found comfort in the JJK manga during a stressful and traumatic event, and since it was a comfort material I developed many introjects from it. Just because the alters are from a popular media/anime/manga it doesn't necessarily mean it's "fake"!!! hope this helps :3 ❤❤
I have PTSD and waiting on a proper C-PTSD diagnosis. During my long history of trying to get treatment my doctors did look at DID because I do have some of the symptoms but I didn't fit the diagnosis. I'm fine with that. What matters is getting the help I need.
I was diagnosed at the age of 40 after spending years finding myself in strange places , or waking in the morning believing it is four months earlier then what it is and being in an argument with loved ones I know I didn't start, my wife has found me sat on the floor playing with toys and she's tried to communicate and got no response though my alters trust her enough now and my alters all have there own inner world though I've always pictured it like a hotel with a notice board to try to communicate with the others and they have there rooms, I still do everything I can do to keep my exposure to triggers down so that I can live as normal a life as possible now as my life from 4-22 was a living hell
It's crazy, a mental illness that only 1.5 percent of the world's population is diagnosed with is suddenly flooding the internet with teen self diagnosed "sufferers" This trend happened with BPD and before that ADHD, I hope this isn't a permanent fixture of internet culture, just makes it harder for people genuinely suffering to get diagnosed with these conditions and get help.
It's really disheartening. I've been struggling to get an adult autism evaluation for 5 years now. 3 different drs tell me they will not- with my current stating specifically that he believes ASD is currently being overdiganosed, especially in young females as it's gaining popularity on the internet. I've been struggling with my mental health quietly since I was 8/9 and now that I'm 25, trying to get mental health assistance thought personal research I've done prior to vine even being an app, with a health professional, trying to use health insurance, and now being told no bc being mentally ill is a trendy way to get attention in 2024 when we were literally lobotomizing people at one point for less is ABSURD to me ffs
As someone who actually has BPD and ADHD, it is so hard to see people faking these disorders and spreading misinformation and then also acting like it is easy and fun to have these disorders. I feel for anyone who is actually affected by DID because I know how it feels to see people faking what you have and acting like it is super cute and quirky.
I remember as a teen having alter egos for myself, and having a rich inner world... but it's a conscious thing that seems pretty common; like stage personas. D&D characters. Fanfiction. Sometimes I couldn't handle something but my alter ego could, and especially for teens/young adults, they're exploring who they are and who they want to be. IDK if these people are feeling more comfortable expressing themselves through alter egos and determining they must have DID but it really does sound damaging for people who genuinely live with the disorder.
As someone whos professionally diagnosed, it's exhausting trying to find someone who genuinely has DID to be friends with because every single online chat or forum is filled with these teens who fake it and ruin the community and the reputation of the community. My trust is completely broken when it comes to meeting and talking new systems because this one person who I got close with eventually felt guilty and told me they were just pretending the entire and joined chats to learn how to fake it better 🥹 they made up stories about trauma and everything so people wouldnt fake claim them. Thanks for making this video 🤝
That truly sucks. It's so sad because the internet can be a place to meet people who share similar/same disorders but then we suddenly got this wave of so many teenager that desperately try to define themselves by taking on disorders they saw were being mentioned online. I hope you find someone trustworthy 🙏
i don't have DID but i want to make a character in my project that has it. i've been doing research about it but i honestly don't know what's real or just misinfo and it's so frustrating. and i'd ask people who have it but i have no way to know if their experience is truly DID and asking for a diagnosis would be rude and demeaning
i’m a professionally diagnosed DID system of 50+ alters and i have a tiktok page dedicated to just speaking on DID. i originally made it to show how debilitating this disorder is, i can have a line of customers at work and completely dissociate only to find myself at home or out in public with my fiancé later on with no memory of how i got there and still thinking it’s three weeks prior. i have this feeling of anxiety that doesn’t just magically go away after a switch. i have alters who make me so anxious that i feel physically sick when the thought of them being out in the world controlling our shared body comes up. conversations with people who remind me of my abusers are hard, conversations with people in general are hard, like ordering food at a counter? six other people want something different and we end up having enough food to feed an army. i find things that aren’t mine or that i don’t remember purchasing, i wake up in places i don’t remember going to. i don’t ever know what day it is and sometimes i’m not even sure what month or week or year it is. i miss birthdays and anniversaries and can’t remember where i put things bc someone else moves them. i like certain foods that other alters hate or alters will eat things i cannot have. recalling my childhood is near impossible, i lose track of time or forget to take care of myself bc i don’t realise just how long it’s been- the list goes on and on do we have good days? absolutely, yes! we can communicate very easily and effectively (besides prosecutors bc apparently they’ve never heard of communication 🙄) with each other on most days and have a very complex innerworld that everyone (that is to our knowledge of existing) is aware of. A LOT of therapy helped to make that happen (plus i have depression, which i’m on antidepressants for, and that has helped our communication skills immensely for some reason) and that’s something these kids don’t really notice or realise. it takes alot of work to get to the point me and my system are at, yet i still have really really REALLY bad days. there are days that it’s physically impossible to not dissociate all day or days that it feels like i’m using all of my energy to pull myself out of bed and try to exist. this disorder is hell, why anyone would want to fake it is beyond me. i have gone months not knowing who i am or what is going on around me or been frontstuck so long it gives debilitating headaches. i have regular migraines bc of the constant chatter in my head and i will say, sometimes switching HURTS, it really depends on the alter for me but i always briefly loose my vision and i feel almost as if my body is lagging behind me. its hard to explain the feeling, and i’m sure this is different for every system, it’s not fun. also to add about the whole technoblade and dsmp introjects being everywhere, on didtok it’s commonplace to introduce alters that are in your system, however i have noticed- as my introjects are not typical introjects that people have- that if you claim you have this introject in your system and it’s not from something typically used by self diagnosed teens (and adults, it’s not just kids) on tiktok…it’s seen as being satire or a fake system. it’s discouraging bc having DID doesn’t mean you have to have fucking genshin impact or anime alters bro. introjects can quite literally be your abuser or your partner/comfort person, this means introjects can be anyone the brain has deemed as safe. i don’t have a Castiel alter bc i love supernatural and i kin him, i have a castiel alter as a protector bc i find safety in certain characters, i don’t have k-pop idols bc i’m a kpop obsessed freak and i WANT to have them there to interact with myself instead of having a parasocial relationship, they make me feel safe…so my brain conjured them up. alters can be other races, genders, ages, whole ass people and there’s SO much misinformation out there on tiktok that i want to help people know and understand that it isn’t like that. i have an alter who is the embodiment of one of my abusive family members, he’s a horrible person, and i put up with him tormenting other alters day in and day out. dissociation is exausting and mentally taxing. it’s not a fun disorder bc you have your fucking technoblade comfort character in the headspace and have built in friends! we didn’t always get along, but we had to learn to get along. lastly, to answer the question of if conversations like that one about the content being done actually happens, that is based solely on the system and how good their communication skills with eachother are. sometimes i’ll find notes and have no idea when it was written or if that person will ever see my notes back, and other times we can have a full blown discussion in the headspace. it’s not a one size fits all situation, but it can happen for some and not for others. did is different for each and every system.
4:41 this does not happen to me or anyone with DID that I know. I can rarely communicate with my alters unless I'm in immediate danger or percieved danger.
8:27 maybe other people have different experiences, and my dissociation isn’t related to DID, but her filming herself and holding her phone while dissociating kinda goes against what dissociating is in a lot of cases… when you dissociate, you are kinda frozen in time and very in your own head. I can’t pick up my phone and film myself while in genuine dissociation because I can’t really consciously move
Switching isn't just Outfit changes. It's being vulnerable if alone out in public, possibly falling and hitting your head or body on something. Then there's the confusion and headaches as well as the lack of energy after
i have diagnosed dpdr (another dissociative disorder, basically the sister disorder of did). because of the dumbasses faking or exaggerating did on tiktok, spreading misinformation about dissociation in general and creating stigma around already very misunderstood conditions, those who actually suffer with conditions that are rooted in or result in dissociation are unable to share their stories and build communities of support. i used to have to start from scratch when explaining dpdr, dissociation and my mental health, as a couple years back people were previously generally unaware of and uneducated about dissociation. now i have to debunk misconceptions and exaggerated stereotypes about did before i can even discuss my own experience. i've done extensive research on did through academic, media and interpersonal sources 0 though i'd never want to speak over or for those who have did, it doesn't feels appropriate to not correct did misinformation and just let people walk away from a conversation still very misguided. me having dpdr and chronic dissociation at least makes me more able to relate to and discuss real did, infinitely moreso than those who are faking it. (obviously it would be more ideal if somebody who had did specifically was able to engage in dismantling these stereotypes but there are only so many people with did and they can't be everywhere all at once.) i fucking hate it when fakers ask
exactly it doesnt have to be hell all the time but i wont ever have a normal relationship, ill never be able to have a normal day, my mind can never be normal and i never know whos next to be active or turn dormant
8:03 i knew this system personally and theyve been professionally diagnosed with DID im not in contact with them anymore but i believe theyve integrated now
I think the issue of feeling like faking something like this to feel valid is in itself pathological. A lot of developed countries are hyper individualistic, but also young people are seeking escapism more than ever. I honestly feel really bad for them :(
I’ll be honest, you’re giving a lot of grace (which is kind) to the very clearly performance based aspect of these tiktokers. The transitions, the editing, the uniformity, the full “control” some seem to have.. it’s all a fabrication and a type of social contagion. Also, the autonomy given to alters is strange because these identities do not have personhood. They aren’t distinct entities that can experience rights violations separate from the host or “original” person.
I appreciate your videos so much! I'm totally shocked how people use mental disorders for their own fame... Especially when they do it under the purpose of "education", while they pushing the stigmatization forwards.
I had a friend in high school that was clearly faking DID. She talked CONSTANTLY about her alters and the drama between them, their opinions, their fights in the headspace... oh yeah, and they were all different sexual orientations. Each alter had a very obviously different personality, fulfilling any and all of the exaggerated, over-the-top DID tropes. At the time, I didn't really understand what DID was and found it pretty confusing and strange, but I didn't want to question something I didn't know anything about. I did some fairly extensive research and decided... yeah, she's likely faking. I still remained friends with her, even if I didn't 100% believe she had DID. However, it quickly became absolutely exhausting to be around her. I'm an introvert with a small social battery, and it became really stressful to listen to her talking and talking about the endless drama in her head. When she wasn't talking about DID, she was crapping on exes and ex-friends and it honestly was so draining (side note, I can't imagine what it must be like to be a therapist). She would constantly say she "wasn't faking," and "wasn't a liar," even though no one had said she was. I think there were other underlying issues that made her feel the need to fake, such as narcissism and pathological lying, and a lot of insecurities that led to her attention-seeking behavior. These are very valid mental health issues that can be worked through with therapy and the like; but instead of actually confronting these troubles, some people self-medicate by diagnosing themselves with DID. It's honestly pretty sad and I wish they could understand that they're only hurting those in the community.
As far as I know, system hopping refers to complex systems with different side systems or subsystems. In this case, system members will stay in the same overall system but travel between subsystems. For intersystem hopping, I would be very interested in some paranormal field studies. 😃
I've been in group chats with people who claimed their alters completely left their system and went into another person's system, affected that person's inner world and then went back into their own system (two different bodies, not subsystems in the same body.) and they called it system hopping. I think there might be different uses of this term 😂
Personally considering how shit our healthcare is here and how easy they dismiss women i self diagnosed with adhd and autism , i did extensive research though i didnt just see a relateable tiktok, i now have gotten it confirmed by a therapist. Self diagnosing in itself isnt a bad thing to start accomodating with certain mental illnesses or disabilities cause you can pretty easily get dismissed as a woman, a person of color etc, even if you DO have something. Certain diagnostic criteria are very shiet and very not up to date and based entirely on men. That being said dont spread misinformation until you have an official diagnosis. Also there are certain things , like DID or schizophrenia that you cant really ”self diagnose” thats just make take on it.
I remember self-diagnosing with schizophrenia in middle school. I had been experiencing mounting anxiety, depression, paranoia, and hallucinations. It was comforting and helpful to think I had an answer, and I was able to try certain coping methods I had read about. In this way, I think self-diagnosis is a valid, helpful tool. It can give you a start when maybe you don't have access to a clinical professional. However, it doesn't give you the right to start speaking on behalf of those who have a disorder as if your experience is law. Mental disorders are by nature complex, and it's impossible to make an unbiased diagnosis of yourself, especially without the proper education and training. To continue my example, I was hella wrong about the schizophrenia. I have psychosis, but not all psychosis stems from schizophrenia. Mine might stem from PTSD, something I hadn't even considered at the time. I'm glad I waited for a professional diagnosis before spouting misinformation online about a disorder I didn't have.
Have you ever been driving along, like on the interstate, and suddenly "come to"; realizing you've been driving in a sort of trance, taking in none of what you did for the last 10 minutes while in control of a 2 ton killing machine. You were simply not there, for whatever reason. And now you have 'Sudden Awareness" and it's a tad confusing. You were driving along listening to a podcast, about four miles from your exit on the highway, and next thing you know you are taking the exit, with no awareness AT ALL of the last bit of driving, or the podcast, or of anything. I think we've all done that at some point if you've been driving more than a few years. So that is my confusion in this DID reality. How do the 'hosts' and other alters all seem to stay present and aware of all that is and has been going on. Do they ever not 'come to' in a strange location with no idea how they got there, what they are doing, where they are going? I mean, since 'someone else' was driving the car so to speak? Do they not run into people who appear romantic or friendly toward them, when 'they' have in fact never seen or met the person before? How do they handle school/work/relationships? Say it's finals week, but a 11 year old alter is fronting and is not going to be able to do your physics final as a college sophomore. They're 11. What happens if a male alter creates a relationship with another male, and the female host is suddenly awoken to having a sexual encounter with a gay male? If an 'alter' is six years old, what happens if that one is 'fronting' when your partner is wanting some sexy time, or sees you nude, or any of that? That would be wrong on all counts. Doesn't matter that the host body is of age, the alter is six years old and cannot consent or even know what sexual intercourse is, or even aware that this is a 'partner', not a guardian or parent. Eh, too many questions to believe any of it.
Good video. I don't know why so many people are addicted to the DID diagnosis but instantly reject the idea that they could have Imitative DID instead. Some people are aware they're faking but some aren't, some people even say if you think you're faking, you're not and it makes you valid, like wut?? I don't think the therapist in one of those earlier clips would have said that about being so close to getting them to admit they are faking, in those words. Sounds like they just worded it like that for shock value, as the majority of these DIDtokers are in it for the attention, they want to be popular and liked, and even negative attention is good attention to them. But if a therapist is trying to help them out of their delusion, its not a bad thing, and maybe they should trust the person that actually went to school for their degree and didn't just stay home trying to create new and interesting "alters" for likes..
The "switches only happen when triggered" thing is true but sometimes the trigger is just... "host needs to switch" or something like that. Sometimes we have switches that occur for "no reason" but the reason was just "Hey I can't handle this right now, I need a break, someone else handle it" or "I want to be out" Not all switches take hours or days either. Some definitely can, and I've been there and it is painful, but I don't like this idea that if someone has shorter switches they're faking. Our switches can last anywhere from a few second to days. There's a range, and that's ok. Some systems only have short or only have long switches. That's just as valid. Also in general for the video, I feel like some of your points could've hit more if they were in line with the video. You had a section titled "offensive introjects" but then went on to talk about how "DID isn't fun" and yeah, it definitely isn't, but that isn't really addressing why you think these introjects are offensive. Plus, I'm still not sure where the distinction is made between "real DID with introjects" and "fake DID with introjects" because that wasn't explained, you simply said "Well, these introjects are of a dead person and if you really have DID that's not your fault but if you're faking it let them rest" and it just kinda left me confused and like... idk wanting to hear more about it.
It's hilarious these are literal children filming "a day in a life" of DID as if being triggered into an alter switch has the capability to even use a phone, let alone set one up, film and edit a video. The whole D in DID is DISSOCIATIVE. Dissociating affects everyone differently and auto-pilot is real, but anytime myself has been in periods of dissociation [non-DID], I was nearly catatonic. Function fine, but barely string together thoughts, concepts of time, sensations, ect. Like, the sheer fact that these people are doing this, fluently, is actual filmed proof they're faking 8/10 times lmao
i'm a bit late but i was diagnosed w autism when i was 5 (ik not the same topic but the same outcome). ppl online fake it all the time and they think it's fun and cool and quirky but for me, i can't touch certain things w/o having a meltdown, if something isn't done my way, i'll sook about it, i have a set way of doing things, i have a weird thought process. my stims? sometimes they make my limbs sore. the other day, i was watching Sonic Prime (i love Sonic) and my legs started violently moving. it's happened before multiple times, same with my arms and it makes them sore for a bit. if i'm hyperfixating on something, i will not be able to shut up about it to the point where i start muttering phrases or lines from said thing (mainly Sonic). seeing ppl fake it is annoying. they want autism? take mine!!
As someone who’s questioning if I have a dissociative disorder, it’d be better for people to say ‘I think I have did/OSDD’ instead of ‘I def if have it’ since it could be a LOT of different things! And also I think they should try to come offline/stop posting and keep track of any alters they may have with a journal/app instead of making content online, since the online community can also be very toxic
uhm as someone who has been diagnosed. I cant talk for other ppl with DID but no.. convos like these dont take place :') Ah and I also dont get why all of them constantly talk in plural. Idk its a covert disorder and if you are you right now, everything you say refers to you alone, no? but again, maybe its just me
at the moment i am always there, others can switch in but i cant leave anymore, so it feels more than we than just I. I personally dont know what is goin on, I still have amnesia but i know I've been there for the last months, and also the others who are still able to front have trouble remembering their names and cant really show me memories anymore, they say something keeps them from interacting or reaching the other layers (not the deepest ones though, they were always out of the question). Anyway I still use I, when another one takes control I sometimes feel that they wanna use we or start using it and then correct themselves, it is scary and idk, at first I though it was a sign of healing but since I can feel my emotions the others cant really front, one of the "front-ones" said he was a split of another alter who cant switch anymore, idk i feel like i am losing my mind. i am sorry for the rant
Oh my goodness I'm trying to read this but I have trouble concentrating and remembering. I'm DID diagnosed by Dr Joan Turkus in Bathesda MD retired now, of course anyone can say that. This epidemic of the imitators has pushed me out of all spaces. Every system is as varied as our finger prints. However there are hallmarks of course, the most prominent being unexplained abnesia and covert. The more I heal the more I catch myself using we so I just pretend I'm including my dog, as I live alone and she is always by my side. LoL it makes a good cover. This video is a good job not because everything was correct which of course how could it be but because of the respectful manner. Gives us a safe feeling. Parts are created within the trauma space and then left there in order to function in the outside world. Depending on the situation this alter will not be conscious of passing time untill they are needed again. This is just one example. In healing I attempted to capture the attention of whoever comes out into consousness and work to bring them into the here/now space where healing can take place. It's a long process and each is given according to their needs. That is how I personally operate. I'm fragmented, each alter is split into three. I have no other names but my birth name. I won't go into why, just that it was necessary to hide. I still do not have defined alters like front person. It's more of a rotating job. We're an autonomous collective. I do switch quite often however there is a stream of communication between those who are in the conscious space most often. Thank you I hope I've made sense. 15:23 15:23
@@irinag6796 I hope that you are doing a bit better by now and Im sorry I didnt see this sooner. I dont know if it can be a sign of healing really. I havent been an adult for long and in germany, you cannot be diagnosed when you are a minor. I really can't speak on behalf of other people since this is all fairly new to me as well (it has only been two years) maybe, if my treatment goes on like this, I would also find that talking in plural will become a natural thing but as of now, I cant imagine. Sending you all the love though :)
@@thorlove6050 thank you for taking the time to explain all this. As someone who is still a young adult (I'm only in my mid 20's) and hasn't been in treatment for long at all, you explained a lot of things that I haven't thought about before (I kinda always end up ditching my therapist and psychiatrist, sabotaging my own progress which is very stupid I know). Your reply turly made me consider if using plural bothers me this much because I am still, at times, in denial about my own diagnosis. It feels like saying "we" is the final step for me to admit/accept that I really have been diagnosed with D.I.D and that I really can't just undo the thing I have been told by several medical professionals. I kinda forgot about this comments I made, I really hope no one took it to heart. It was just my first thought that I commented. Again, thank you for writing all this, I hope you are doing good :)
@@Azranhaha your comment was well taken, it's how you felt at the time and it's important for you to feel confident in that. Denial is another Hallmark and I still have parts that believe we are magically one single. I can say for myself it's been a life long process to embrace my diagnosis with complete acceptance. Perhaps it's true for everyone. I myself never feel completely comfortable with any professional. I have good reasons. I look at it this way... No matter who I see it is up to me to do the work. Counselors run the gambit from good to bad so I try to find someone who actually listens and doesn't sugarcoat my BS nor abuse my little ones. That is my litmus test. I move on when the partnership is no longer productive fore me. Any good professional will help in that process. The main goal is to protect yourself and work at what you can, challenge yourself but remember your self-care. Coming out of denial takes times, my caregivers wouldn't even tell me my diagnosis for the first two years because at the time they believed it was too shocking for a DID patient to take. I don't let anyone try to pigeonhole me into one particular mode of therapy, I can't tell you the number of times they have changed treatment modalities over the years. However I keep an open mind to anything that might be of help in recovery. Send you lots of love and hopeful energy. You've been strong enough to get this far so your strong enough for the job ahead. ❤️
Tbh I respect fictional alters more than real ones because fiction ones don't disrespect people and their families who might have died 😢 irl like technoblade. And at least the fictional ones are limited to the world of fantasy won't hurt anyone irl
My two cents on all this is really people who fake whether intentional or are genuinely misguided are often hurting themselves more so than the community. I think in large enough numbers we can start seeing bigger impacts but I think there is enough good information out there to outweigh the bad. I'm not that much on tiktok so maybe I'm wrong here, but also I don't really care all that much. When I'm explaining my disorder to people in my life I've always needed to start from scratch because misconceptions are everywhere and even if they've gotten good information about DID, it might not be perfectly applicable to me/my system. There will always be people who fake and wrongly self-diagnose, and for people in the latter category I can imagine it would be difficult to admit when they are wrong which keeps them stuck in a now ingenuine presentation. For what you touched on in the video: Introjects, we have a couple but they are very different from exact copies, some are still stuck in bad patterns of behavior others are not. I really don't have much more personal experience so I can't say much else. System awareness in adolescence, our parts started to become more individual/distinct in adolescence and awareness started a little there but if given the right resources/information (not much internet back in my younger time) there were some very clear signs by 11/12 (hearing voices, amnesia (noticed by others), feeling possessed (that was mostly speech insertion and heavy depersonalization/lack of control/third person view), and acting like a much smaller child at not appropriate times/age regression) that something was wrong and I could've been set down the path of figuring out my brain sooner (got diagnosis at 24 after a near decade of misdiagnosis), maybe, all hypotheticals here, so I think a lot of care should be taken when addressing the especially young teens, because some are probably genuine and they are vulnerable, especially given the trauma history and there are probably ones non-DID still with trauma history. System Headspace Meeting: this kind of round table convo is possible and an avenue for bettering communication, cooperative decision making and integration! (see coping with trauma related dissociation ch. 27). We only have enough communication for small discussions and then we either play a game of telephone or use external tools like a journal for more facilitation. Systems farther along in therapy, or those who started out with less fragmentation/more integration/better communication may get there faster. I know a few systems who have this level of communication but they have been in therapy for 6+ years more than us We have recorded switches like you mentioned for therapeutic purposes, watching it back can be very distressing so we don't do that often. Most of our switches are very uncomfortable but others are so fast and occur when parts are already near that it doesn't cause as much physical/psychological distress and looks very fluid, it really depends. I would personally never do a "switch on camera" intentionally because I don't know if it will be distressing or not. Better to stay grounded and aware and in control but I have a bias since my communication isn't the greatest. I think posture changes are pretty common with switches, I think there may even be a documented slight hyperarousal post-switch which might be leading to that common observation. System hopping I believe was originally a C-DID term to explain alters moving between the complex layers of their system. (I'm not C-DID so this might be wrong). But another body??? oh absolutely no. not a thing We dream! Lots of nightmares unfortunately though :( but did you know DID people can switch while asleep? On some sleep studies with I think the full head of electrodes, you can actually see it happening!
I’m medically recognized with C-DID. I cannot get diagnosed since I’m underage and can’t go to the doctor that actually can diagnose it. You can thank my home situation for that lol. (My gran doesn’t think I have it) However, while I am a bit open about it in spaces I feel comfortable with and friends, I would never EVER post on TikTok about it. For one, TikTok sucks. Two… it seems kinda… attention-seeking in a way, yk?? Like- I stand by people educating others, but the people making clearly attention-seeking content I do not. idk TikTok is weird and I stay away from it
My cousin is convinced she has DID. She thinks getting dizzy, shaky, and weak is a switch. Maybe, honey, but diabetes runs in your dad's side of the family and your glucose is sitting at 30. Let's stop for lunch and revisit the DID thing in an hour. Not saying she doesn't have it, I just have my doubts.
I don't remember deleting any comments. Maybe you replied to someone's comment & they deleted theirs, or i accidently deleted it. Feel free to comment again!! Sorry about that
can you guys stop fakeclaiming literally anyone who posts ANYTHING ab d.i.d?? if theyre not spreading any misinformation then for the love of god leave them alone?? you guys love to nit pick everything and anything for no reason...
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The majority of young kids claiming DID, you can tell they're faking. You can tell they're acting, their "alters" don't talk or act like genuine people, they talk and act like Disney Channel actors.
The Disney channel reference took me out
The phrase "I think I have symptoms of..." really is a heplful phrase people should use more when beginning their mental health journies.
It also kills me when they will watch a show and five seconds later get a character from it. Fictives are real, but that is NOT how it works. Usually fictives are from a piece of media that was extremely helpful during the time of trauma, and is your brain trying to figure out a way to comfort yourself during the time of trauma. You can’t just watch something and then get an alter from it that’s 100% not how it works.
This, all of this. My introjects/fictives came from the media that got me through some back to back trauma. They don't front fully often & I feel immense shame having them
Literally went to the movies once with someone (and other friends) and they walked out claiming they were one of the characters and then like acting like any opinion you had of the character was wrong. Had to listen the whoooole car ride about their “memories” of being that character. It was hell. It made me stop talking to them about my interests overall.
Plus there were interested I had and they’d be like “oh you should join this server because one of my friends is literally ____ from _____.” They were in their 20s…
Yeaaaaah, I've always found it kind of curious how these fictives are almost never, like, Big Bird or Peppa Pig with these folks. They're usually cool characters from anime, video games, etc. they'd clearly like to be.
@@LittleMissLounge I don't know many people who grew up watching sesame street as a comfort show at an age where DID forms but I'm not a professional
You also just answered for yourself WHY these people latch on to some of those fictives/introjects (claimed)- They want to be them subconsciously. They will take on their mannerisms. I can also answer from personal experience sometimes you connect deeply with a characters backstory too
@LittleMissLounge as a diagnosed system , what you said doesn't necessarily mean anything. When I was younger in 2018 I found comfort in the JJK manga during a stressful and traumatic event, and since it was a comfort material I developed many introjects from it. Just because the alters are from a popular media/anime/manga it doesn't necessarily mean it's "fake"!!! hope this helps :3 ❤❤
I have PTSD and waiting on a proper C-PTSD diagnosis. During my long history of trying to get treatment my doctors did look at DID because I do have some of the symptoms but I didn't fit the diagnosis. I'm fine with that. What matters is getting the help I need.
I was diagnosed at the age of 40 after spending years finding myself in strange places , or waking in the morning believing it is four months earlier then what it is and being in an argument with loved ones I know I didn't start, my wife has found me sat on the floor playing with toys and she's tried to communicate and got no response though my alters trust her enough now and my alters all have there own inner world though I've always pictured it like a hotel with a notice board to try to communicate with the others and they have there rooms, I still do everything I can do to keep my exposure to triggers down so that I can live as normal a life as possible now as my life from 4-22 was a living hell
My alters will not switch for others. They say, “We are not a circus sideshow.”
can i also say that if need accures??
You can say whatever you want @@Balls-Haver
It's crazy, a mental illness that only 1.5 percent of the world's population is diagnosed with is suddenly flooding the internet with teen self diagnosed "sufferers" This trend happened with BPD and before that ADHD, I hope this isn't a permanent fixture of internet culture, just makes it harder for people genuinely suffering to get diagnosed with these conditions and get help.
These waves always pass but leave long-lasting damage to communities and major setbacks to the mental health system...
It's really disheartening. I've been struggling to get an adult autism evaluation for 5 years now. 3 different drs tell me they will not- with my current stating specifically that he believes ASD is currently being overdiganosed, especially in young females as it's gaining popularity on the internet. I've been struggling with my mental health quietly since I was 8/9 and now that I'm 25, trying to get mental health assistance thought personal research I've done prior to vine even being an app, with a health professional, trying to use health insurance, and now being told no bc being mentally ill is a trendy way to get attention in 2024 when we were literally lobotomizing people at one point for less is ABSURD to me ffs
As someone who actually has BPD and ADHD, it is so hard to see people faking these disorders and spreading misinformation and then also acting like it is easy and fun to have these disorders. I feel for anyone who is actually affected by DID because I know how it feels to see people faking what you have and acting like it is super cute and quirky.
I never understood the system hopping thing, my brain fails to compute that
I remember as a teen having alter egos for myself, and having a rich inner world... but it's a conscious thing that seems pretty common; like stage personas. D&D characters. Fanfiction. Sometimes I couldn't handle something but my alter ego could, and especially for teens/young adults, they're exploring who they are and who they want to be. IDK if these people are feeling more comfortable expressing themselves through alter egos and determining they must have DID but it really does sound damaging for people who genuinely live with the disorder.
As someone whos professionally diagnosed, it's exhausting trying to find someone who genuinely has DID to be friends with because every single online chat or forum is filled with these teens who fake it and ruin the community and the reputation of the community. My trust is completely broken when it comes to meeting and talking new systems because this one person who I got close with eventually felt guilty and told me they were just pretending the entire and joined chats to learn how to fake it better 🥹 they made up stories about trauma and everything so people wouldnt fake claim them.
Thanks for making this video 🤝
That truly sucks. It's so sad because the internet can be a place to meet people who share similar/same disorders but then we suddenly got this wave of so many teenager that desperately try to define themselves by taking on disorders they saw were being mentioned online. I hope you find someone trustworthy 🙏
i don't have DID but i want to make a character in my project that has it. i've been doing research about it but i honestly don't know what's real or just misinfo and it's so frustrating. and i'd ask people who have it but i have no way to know if their experience is truly DID and asking for a diagnosis would be rude and demeaning
can we talk about how those 'did' people are like 13-15 middle school kids? they all want a cool disoreder like wtf
i’m a professionally diagnosed DID system of 50+ alters and i have a tiktok page dedicated to just speaking on DID. i originally made it to show how debilitating this disorder is, i can have a line of customers at work and completely dissociate only to find myself at home or out in public with my fiancé later on with no memory of how i got there and still thinking it’s three weeks prior. i have this feeling of anxiety that doesn’t just magically go away after a switch. i have alters who make me so anxious that i feel physically sick when the thought of them being out in the world controlling our shared body comes up. conversations with people who remind me of my abusers are hard, conversations with people in general are hard, like ordering food at a counter? six other people want something different and we end up having enough food to feed an army. i find things that aren’t mine or that i don’t remember purchasing, i wake up in places i don’t remember going to. i don’t ever know what day it is and sometimes i’m not even sure what month or week or year it is. i miss birthdays and anniversaries and can’t remember where i put things bc someone else moves them. i like certain foods that other alters hate or alters will eat things i cannot have. recalling my childhood is near impossible, i lose track of time or forget to take care of myself bc i don’t realise just how long it’s been- the list goes on and on
do we have good days? absolutely, yes! we can communicate very easily and effectively (besides prosecutors bc apparently they’ve never heard of communication 🙄) with each other on most days and have a very complex innerworld that everyone (that is to our knowledge of existing) is aware of. A LOT of therapy helped to make that happen (plus i have depression, which i’m on antidepressants for, and that has helped our communication skills immensely for some reason) and that’s something these kids don’t really notice or realise. it takes alot of work to get to the point me and my system are at, yet i still have really really REALLY bad days. there are days that it’s physically impossible to not dissociate all day or days that it feels like i’m using all of my energy to pull myself out of bed and try to exist. this disorder is hell, why anyone would want to fake it is beyond me. i have gone months not knowing who i am or what is going on around me or been frontstuck so long it gives debilitating headaches. i have regular migraines bc of the constant chatter in my head and i will say, sometimes switching HURTS, it really depends on the alter for me but i always briefly loose my vision and i feel almost as if my body is lagging behind me. its hard to explain the feeling, and i’m sure this is different for every system, it’s not fun.
also to add about the whole technoblade and dsmp introjects being everywhere, on didtok it’s commonplace to introduce alters that are in your system, however i have noticed- as my introjects are not typical introjects that people have- that if you claim you have this introject in your system and it’s not from something typically used by self diagnosed teens (and adults, it’s not just kids) on tiktok…it’s seen as being satire or a fake system. it’s discouraging bc having DID doesn’t mean you have to have fucking genshin impact or anime alters bro. introjects can quite literally be your abuser or your partner/comfort person, this means introjects can be anyone the brain has deemed as safe. i don’t have a Castiel alter bc i love supernatural and i kin him, i have a castiel alter as a protector bc i find safety in certain characters, i don’t have k-pop idols bc i’m a kpop obsessed freak and i WANT to have them there to interact with myself instead of having a parasocial relationship, they make me feel safe…so my brain conjured them up. alters can be other races, genders, ages, whole ass people and there’s SO much misinformation out there on tiktok that i want to help people know and understand that it isn’t like that. i have an alter who is the embodiment of one of my abusive family members, he’s a horrible person, and i put up with him tormenting other alters day in and day out. dissociation is exausting and mentally taxing. it’s not a fun disorder bc you have your fucking technoblade comfort character in the headspace and have built in friends! we didn’t always get along, but we had to learn to get along.
lastly, to answer the question of if conversations like that one about the content being done actually happens, that is based solely on the system and how good their communication skills with eachother are. sometimes i’ll find notes and have no idea when it was written or if that person will ever see my notes back, and other times we can have a full blown discussion in the headspace. it’s not a one size fits all situation, but it can happen for some and not for others. did is different for each and every system.
4:41 this does not happen to me or anyone with DID that I know. I can rarely communicate with my alters unless I'm in immediate danger or percieved danger.
I fail to see the joyous part of having DID. Its depressing and isolating. And if you dont have insurance, it's expensive.
if they're Junko then i am Santa..... kids...... just stop, it's not cool or fun to have DID.
God its gotta be exhausting to have to keep pretending all the time
I def don’t have DID but I *do* have very vivid, immersive dreams about being in the Minecraft world 😂
8:27 maybe other people have different experiences, and my dissociation isn’t related to DID, but her filming herself and holding her phone while dissociating kinda goes against what dissociating is in a lot of cases… when you dissociate, you are kinda frozen in time and very in your own head. I can’t pick up my phone and film myself while in genuine dissociation because I can’t really consciously move
Switching isn't just Outfit changes. It's being vulnerable if alone out in public, possibly falling and hitting your head or body on something. Then there's the confusion and headaches as well as the lack of energy after
Also system hopping is completely absurd and down right spiritual
i have diagnosed dpdr (another dissociative disorder, basically the sister disorder of did). because of the dumbasses faking or exaggerating did on tiktok, spreading misinformation about dissociation in general and creating stigma around already very misunderstood conditions, those who actually suffer with conditions that are rooted in or result in dissociation are unable to share their stories and build communities of support. i used to have to start from scratch when explaining dpdr, dissociation and my mental health, as a couple years back people were previously generally unaware of and uneducated about dissociation. now i have to debunk misconceptions and exaggerated stereotypes about did before i can even discuss my own experience. i've done extensive research on did through academic, media and interpersonal sources 0 though i'd never want to speak over or for those who have did, it doesn't feels appropriate to not correct did misinformation and just let people walk away from a conversation still very misguided. me having dpdr and chronic dissociation at least makes me more able to relate to and discuss real did, infinitely moreso than those who are faking it. (obviously it would be more ideal if somebody who had did specifically was able to engage in dismantling these stereotypes but there are only so many people with did and they can't be everywhere all at once.)
i fucking hate it when fakers ask
This is why I want to speak out about this being hell to deal with. It's awful.
exactly it doesnt have to be hell all the time but i wont ever have a normal relationship, ill never be able to have a normal day, my mind can never be normal and i never know whos next to be active or turn dormant
8:03 i knew this system personally and theyve been professionally diagnosed with DID
im not in contact with them anymore but i believe theyve integrated now
Thank you for sharing this. If I had known that, I would not have posted
Absolute BS
I think the issue of feeling like faking something like this to feel valid is in itself pathological. A lot of developed countries are hyper individualistic, but also young people are seeking escapism more than ever. I honestly feel really bad for them :(
Having alters who invited 2 strange men back to your home and you have no idea what happened. I have CCTV now
I’ll be honest, you’re giving a lot of grace (which is kind) to the very clearly performance based aspect of these tiktokers. The transitions, the editing, the uniformity, the full “control” some seem to have.. it’s all a fabrication and a type of social contagion.
Also, the autonomy given to alters is strange because these identities do not have personhood. They aren’t distinct entities that can experience rights violations separate from the host or “original” person.
I mean… you can probably self diagnose a broken leg. The treatment is what you need to see a professional for.
I appreciate your videos so much!
I'm totally shocked how people use mental disorders for their own fame... Especially when they do it under the purpose of "education", while they pushing the stigmatization forwards.
Why do none of them have an alter that doesn't want to do tiktok
It's okay to have alters that dress up but I don't think people should show that online because then no one will take people with D.I.D seriously.
I had a friend in high school that was clearly faking DID. She talked CONSTANTLY about her alters and the drama between them, their opinions, their fights in the headspace... oh yeah, and they were all different sexual orientations. Each alter had a very obviously different personality, fulfilling any and all of the exaggerated, over-the-top DID tropes.
At the time, I didn't really understand what DID was and found it pretty confusing and strange, but I didn't want to question something I didn't know anything about. I did some fairly extensive research and decided... yeah, she's likely faking. I still remained friends with her, even if I didn't 100% believe she had DID. However, it quickly became absolutely exhausting to be around her. I'm an introvert with a small social battery, and it became really stressful to listen to her talking and talking about the endless drama in her head. When she wasn't talking about DID, she was crapping on exes and ex-friends and it honestly was so draining (side note, I can't imagine what it must be like to be a therapist). She would constantly say she "wasn't faking," and "wasn't a liar," even though no one had said she was.
I think there were other underlying issues that made her feel the need to fake, such as narcissism and pathological lying, and a lot of insecurities that led to her attention-seeking behavior. These are very valid mental health issues that can be worked through with therapy and the like; but instead of actually confronting these troubles, some people self-medicate by diagnosing themselves with DID.
It's honestly pretty sad and I wish they could understand that they're only hurting those in the community.
As far as I know, system hopping refers to complex systems with different side systems or subsystems. In this case, system members will stay in the same overall system but travel between subsystems.
For intersystem hopping, I would be very interested in some paranormal field studies. 😃
I've been in group chats with people who claimed their alters completely left their system and went into another person's system, affected that person's inner world and then went back into their own system (two different bodies, not subsystems in the same body.) and they called it system hopping. I think there might be different uses of this term 😂
Personally considering how shit our healthcare is here and how easy they dismiss women i self diagnosed with adhd and autism , i did extensive research though i didnt just see a relateable tiktok, i now have gotten it confirmed by a therapist. Self diagnosing in itself isnt a bad thing to start accomodating with certain mental illnesses or disabilities cause you can pretty easily get dismissed as a woman, a person of color etc, even if you DO have something. Certain diagnostic criteria are very shiet and very not up to date and based entirely on men. That being said dont spread misinformation until you have an official diagnosis. Also there are certain things , like DID or schizophrenia that you cant really ”self diagnose” thats just make take on it.
I remember self-diagnosing with schizophrenia in middle school. I had been experiencing mounting anxiety, depression, paranoia, and hallucinations. It was comforting and helpful to think I had an answer, and I was able to try certain coping methods I had read about. In this way, I think self-diagnosis is a valid, helpful tool. It can give you a start when maybe you don't have access to a clinical professional. However, it doesn't give you the right to start speaking on behalf of those who have a disorder as if your experience is law. Mental disorders are by nature complex, and it's impossible to make an unbiased diagnosis of yourself, especially without the proper education and training. To continue my example, I was hella wrong about the schizophrenia. I have psychosis, but not all psychosis stems from schizophrenia. Mine might stem from PTSD, something I hadn't even considered at the time. I'm glad I waited for a professional diagnosis before spouting misinformation online about a disorder I didn't have.
No these ppl are actually omega level mutants cursed with the power of superhuman control over their DID
Duuuude. First video I’ve seen of yours and that opening nature scene was SOOOO cool. Subbed. ❤️
Have you ever been driving along, like on the interstate, and suddenly "come to"; realizing you've been driving in a sort of trance, taking in none of what you did for the last 10 minutes while in control of a 2 ton killing machine. You were simply not there, for whatever reason. And now you have 'Sudden Awareness" and it's a tad confusing. You were driving along listening to a podcast, about four miles from your exit on the highway, and next thing you know you are taking the exit, with no awareness AT ALL of the last bit of driving, or the podcast, or of anything. I think we've all done that at some point if you've been driving more than a few years.
So that is my confusion in this DID reality. How do the 'hosts' and other alters all seem to stay present and aware of all that is and has been going on. Do they ever not 'come to' in a strange location with no idea how they got there, what they are doing, where they are going? I mean, since 'someone else' was driving the car so to speak? Do they not run into people who appear romantic or friendly toward them, when 'they' have in fact never seen or met the person before?
How do they handle school/work/relationships? Say it's finals week, but a 11 year old alter is fronting and is not going to be able to do your physics final as a college sophomore. They're 11.
What happens if a male alter creates a relationship with another male, and the female host is suddenly awoken to having a sexual encounter with a gay male?
If an 'alter' is six years old, what happens if that one is 'fronting' when your partner is wanting some sexy time, or sees you nude, or any of that? That would be wrong on all counts. Doesn't matter that the host body is of age, the alter is six years old and cannot consent or even know what sexual intercourse is, or even aware that this is a 'partner', not a guardian or parent.
Eh, too many questions to believe any of it.
Good video. I don't know why so many people are addicted to the DID diagnosis but instantly reject the idea that they could have Imitative DID instead. Some people are aware they're faking but some aren't, some people even say if you think you're faking, you're not and it makes you valid, like wut?? I don't think the therapist in one of those earlier clips would have said that about being so close to getting them to admit they are faking, in those words. Sounds like they just worded it like that for shock value, as the majority of these DIDtokers are in it for the attention, they want to be popular and liked, and even negative attention is good attention to them. But if a therapist is trying to help them out of their delusion, its not a bad thing, and maybe they should trust the person that actually went to school for their degree and didn't just stay home trying to create new and interesting "alters" for likes..
The "switches only happen when triggered" thing is true but sometimes the trigger is just... "host needs to switch" or something like that. Sometimes we have switches that occur for "no reason" but the reason was just "Hey I can't handle this right now, I need a break, someone else handle it" or "I want to be out" Not all switches take hours or days either. Some definitely can, and I've been there and it is painful, but I don't like this idea that if someone has shorter switches they're faking. Our switches can last anywhere from a few second to days. There's a range, and that's ok. Some systems only have short or only have long switches. That's just as valid.
Also in general for the video, I feel like some of your points could've hit more if they were in line with the video. You had a section titled "offensive introjects" but then went on to talk about how "DID isn't fun" and yeah, it definitely isn't, but that isn't really addressing why you think these introjects are offensive. Plus, I'm still not sure where the distinction is made between "real DID with introjects" and "fake DID with introjects" because that wasn't explained, you simply said "Well, these introjects are of a dead person and if you really have DID that's not your fault but if you're faking it let them rest" and it just kinda left me confused and like... idk wanting to hear more about it.
Thank you for your feedback. I will take this into account for future videos.
It's hilarious these are literal children filming "a day in a life" of DID as if being triggered into an alter switch has the capability to even use a phone, let alone set one up, film and edit a video. The whole D in DID is DISSOCIATIVE. Dissociating affects everyone differently and auto-pilot is real, but anytime myself has been in periods of dissociation [non-DID], I was nearly catatonic. Function fine, but barely string together thoughts, concepts of time, sensations, ect. Like, the sheer fact that these people are doing this, fluently, is actual filmed proof they're faking 8/10 times lmao
i'm a bit late but i was diagnosed w autism when i was 5 (ik not the same topic but the same outcome). ppl online fake it all the time and they think it's fun and cool and quirky but for me, i can't touch certain things w/o having a meltdown, if something isn't done my way, i'll sook about it, i have a set way of doing things, i have a weird thought process. my stims? sometimes they make my limbs sore. the other day, i was watching Sonic Prime (i love Sonic) and my legs started violently moving. it's happened before multiple times, same with my arms and it makes them sore for a bit. if i'm hyperfixating on something, i will not be able to shut up about it to the point where i start muttering phrases or lines from said thing (mainly Sonic). seeing ppl fake it is annoying. they want autism? take mine!!
As someone who’s questioning if I have a dissociative disorder, it’d be better for people to say ‘I think I have did/OSDD’ instead of ‘I def if have it’ since it could be a LOT of different things! And also I think they should try to come offline/stop posting and keep track of any alters they may have with a journal/app instead of making content online, since the online community can also be very toxic
Thank you. I think you are the first honest voice on DID on here
Cosplay is absolutely fine last year like 4 students all coordinator and came in as spider man
I've recently started dreaming in a consistent dream space and I'm wondering if it means I'm getting better or losing the rest of my sanity 😂✌🏻
uhm as someone who has been diagnosed. I cant talk for other ppl with DID but no.. convos like these dont take place :') Ah and I also dont get why all of them constantly talk in plural. Idk its a covert disorder and if you are you right now, everything you say refers to you alone, no? but again, maybe its just me
at the moment i am always there, others can switch in but i cant leave anymore, so it feels more than we than just I. I personally dont know what is goin on, I still have amnesia but i know I've been there for the last months, and also the others who are still able to front have trouble remembering their names and cant really show me memories anymore, they say something keeps them from interacting or reaching the other layers (not the deepest ones though, they were always out of the question). Anyway I still use I, when another one takes control I sometimes feel that they wanna use we or start using it and then correct themselves, it is scary and idk, at first I though it was a sign of healing but since I can feel my emotions the others cant really front, one of the "front-ones" said he was a split of another alter who cant switch anymore, idk i feel like i am losing my mind. i am sorry for the rant
Oh my goodness I'm trying to read this but I have trouble concentrating and remembering. I'm DID diagnosed by Dr Joan Turkus in Bathesda MD retired now, of course anyone can say that. This epidemic of the imitators has pushed me out of all spaces. Every system is as varied as our finger prints. However there are hallmarks of course, the most prominent being unexplained abnesia and covert. The more I heal the more I catch myself using we so I just pretend I'm including my dog, as I live alone and she is always by my side. LoL it makes a good cover. This video is a good job not because everything was correct which of course how could it be but because of the respectful manner. Gives us a safe feeling. Parts are created within the trauma space and then left there in order to function in the outside world. Depending on the situation this alter will not be conscious of passing time untill they are needed again. This is just one example. In healing I attempted to capture the attention of whoever comes out into consousness and work to bring them into the here/now space where healing can take place. It's a long process and each is given according to their needs. That is how I personally operate. I'm fragmented, each alter is split into three. I have no other names but my birth name. I won't go into why, just that it was necessary to hide. I still do not have defined alters like front person. It's more of a rotating job. We're an autonomous collective. I do switch quite often however there is a stream of communication between those who are in the conscious space most often. Thank you I hope I've made sense. 15:23 15:23
@@irinag6796 I hope that you are doing a bit better by now and Im sorry I didnt see this sooner. I dont know if it can be a sign of healing really. I havent been an adult for long and in germany, you cannot be diagnosed when you are a minor. I really can't speak on behalf of other people since this is all fairly new to me as well (it has only been two years) maybe, if my treatment goes on like this, I would also find that talking in plural will become a natural thing but as of now, I cant imagine. Sending you all the love though :)
@@thorlove6050 thank you for taking the time to explain all this. As someone who is still a young adult (I'm only in my mid 20's) and hasn't been in treatment for long at all, you explained a lot of things that I haven't thought about before (I kinda always end up ditching my therapist and psychiatrist, sabotaging my own progress which is very stupid I know). Your reply turly made me consider if using plural bothers me this much because I am still, at times, in denial about my own diagnosis. It feels like saying "we" is the final step for me to admit/accept that I really have been diagnosed with D.I.D and that I really can't just undo the thing I have been told by several medical professionals. I kinda forgot about this comments I made, I really hope no one took it to heart. It was just my first thought that I commented. Again, thank you for writing all this, I hope you are doing good :)
@@Azranhaha your comment was well taken, it's how you felt at the time and it's important for you to feel confident in that. Denial is another Hallmark and I still have parts that believe we are magically one single. I can say for myself it's been a life long process to embrace my diagnosis with complete acceptance. Perhaps it's true for everyone. I myself never feel completely comfortable with any professional. I have good reasons. I look at it this way... No matter who I see it is up to me to do the work. Counselors run the gambit from good to bad so I try to find someone who actually listens and doesn't sugarcoat my BS nor abuse my little ones. That is my litmus test. I move on when the partnership is no longer productive fore me. Any good professional will help in that process. The main goal is to protect yourself and work at what you can, challenge yourself but remember your self-care. Coming out of denial takes times, my caregivers wouldn't even tell me my diagnosis for the first two years because at the time they believed it was too shocking for a DID patient to take. I don't let anyone try to pigeonhole me into one particular mode of therapy, I can't tell you the number of times they have changed treatment modalities over the years. However I keep an open mind to anything that might be of help in recovery. Send you lots of love and hopeful energy. You've been strong enough to get this far so your strong enough for the job ahead. ❤️
Tbh I respect fictional alters more than real ones because fiction ones don't disrespect people and their families who might have died 😢 irl like technoblade. And at least the fictional ones are limited to the world of fantasy won't hurt anyone irl
My two cents on all this is really people who fake whether intentional or are genuinely misguided are often hurting themselves more so than the community. I think in large enough numbers we can start seeing bigger impacts but I think there is enough good information out there to outweigh the bad. I'm not that much on tiktok so maybe I'm wrong here, but also I don't really care all that much. When I'm explaining my disorder to people in my life I've always needed to start from scratch because misconceptions are everywhere and even if they've gotten good information about DID, it might not be perfectly applicable to me/my system. There will always be people who fake and wrongly self-diagnose, and for people in the latter category I can imagine it would be difficult to admit when they are wrong which keeps them stuck in a now ingenuine presentation.
For what you touched on in the video:
Introjects, we have a couple but they are very different from exact copies, some are still stuck in bad patterns of behavior others are not. I really don't have much more personal experience so I can't say much else.
System awareness in adolescence, our parts started to become more individual/distinct in adolescence and awareness started a little there but if given the right resources/information (not much internet back in my younger time) there were some very clear signs by 11/12 (hearing voices, amnesia (noticed by others), feeling possessed (that was mostly speech insertion and heavy depersonalization/lack of control/third person view), and acting like a much smaller child at not appropriate times/age regression) that something was wrong and I could've been set down the path of figuring out my brain sooner (got diagnosis at 24 after a near decade of misdiagnosis), maybe, all hypotheticals here, so I think a lot of care should be taken when addressing the especially young teens, because some are probably genuine and they are vulnerable, especially given the trauma history and there are probably ones non-DID still with trauma history.
System Headspace Meeting: this kind of round table convo is possible and an avenue for bettering communication, cooperative decision making and integration! (see coping with trauma related dissociation ch. 27). We only have enough communication for small discussions and then we either play a game of telephone or use external tools like a journal for more facilitation. Systems farther along in therapy, or those who started out with less fragmentation/more integration/better communication may get there faster. I know a few systems who have this level of communication but they have been in therapy for 6+ years more than us
We have recorded switches like you mentioned for therapeutic purposes, watching it back can be very distressing so we don't do that often. Most of our switches are very uncomfortable but others are so fast and occur when parts are already near that it doesn't cause as much physical/psychological distress and looks very fluid, it really depends. I would personally never do a "switch on camera" intentionally because I don't know if it will be distressing or not. Better to stay grounded and aware and in control but I have a bias since my communication isn't the greatest. I think posture changes are pretty common with switches, I think there may even be a documented slight hyperarousal post-switch which might be leading to that common observation.
System hopping I believe was originally a C-DID term to explain alters moving between the complex layers of their system. (I'm not C-DID so this might be wrong). But another body??? oh absolutely no. not a thing
We dream! Lots of nightmares unfortunately though :( but did you know DID people can switch while asleep? On some sleep studies with I think the full head of electrodes, you can actually see it happening!
That last part about the electrodes is fascinating!
I’m medically recognized with C-DID. I cannot get diagnosed since I’m underage and can’t go to the doctor that actually can diagnose it. You can thank my home situation for that lol. (My gran doesn’t think I have it)
However, while I am a bit open about it in spaces I feel comfortable with and friends, I would never EVER post on TikTok about it. For one, TikTok sucks. Two… it seems kinda… attention-seeking in a way, yk?? Like- I stand by people educating others, but the people making clearly attention-seeking content I do not.
idk TikTok is weird and I stay away from it
so me turning into vlad lenin when drunk is a symptom of this?
My cousin is convinced she has DID. She thinks getting dizzy, shaky, and weak is a switch. Maybe, honey, but diabetes runs in your dad's side of the family and your glucose is sitting at 30. Let's stop for lunch and revisit the DID thing in an hour. Not saying she doesn't have it, I just have my doubts.
99.99% of DID tiktokers are faking! That's just facts! 😆
girl I love this channel but u gotta mix ur intro audio better, i nearly shit myself it was too loud. rest of the video slaps tho
OMG thank you for feedback
Love the new end screen
I dream always! Thanks for video ❤
did I say something bad? why was my comment deleted?
I don't remember deleting any comments. Maybe you replied to someone's comment & they deleted theirs, or i accidently deleted it. Feel free to comment again!! Sorry about that
Sometimes RUclips randomly deletes comments :(
i like to write my dream down if i Remember ☺
Has nothing to do with the video but could you turn your intro down? Blasted my ears
Abesolutely, thank you for sharing.
can you guys stop fakeclaiming literally anyone who posts ANYTHING ab d.i.d?? if theyre not spreading any misinformation then for the love of god leave them alone?? you guys love to nit pick everything and anything for no reason...