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I feel there is to much fakedisordercringe online, that no one leaves space to focus on all the various symptoms of disorders. As a mental health professional, I see people accused of faking or that many say is faking, which is more harmful behavior than the person doing the actual alleged faking. There are dozens of DID associated symptoms and catagories that are not classified under DID. You do not need to have DID to have a type of dissociative disorder. We should say people r faking as a way to help the people that aren't? Yeah, that's not helping. It's hindering what I can do. The cost is hundreds of patients never being properly diagnosed because they are told they do not have the symptoms someone online says they need or have in order to have DID, when in fact, their dissasociation has nothing to do with DID. No one can exist with a rare or unique form of anything online because they are told they were faking. I have a common condition but a rare form and when I spoke with others on a discord about it, they were like 'WE never heard of that or we never have that happen to us" (basically I was ostrosized out of my own discord become my symptom were not like everyone else's. Rumors went around that I was faking my condition for attention, faked records and wanted clout. I had to delete my channel. 2 years later, I had major surgery for my condition and only then did one of the 15 people ask if I was OK. You have to have the "Perfect diagnosis" with the "Perfect patient" One of my clients is a tiktoker and she was left untreated properly because videos like this and audiences that agree, said they were faking because it "seemed" fake. I think we should take care to educate those about why people fake or they just might not be faking at all. Like my client I have seen in about 8 videos now 😢 It needs to stop.
Seeing DID on social media just made me feel unsafe sharing about my own condition, or even showing my face online because I'm worried people will find out I have DID or accuse me of faking. I've had IRL friends figure out I have DID and then their perception of me changing because all they know about it is from people online. I'm always so confused by people online that have very distinct looks between alters, because it's not something I've found possible. Clothes are expensive and we only have one budget, so we have to share. It feels more like wearing hand-me-downs from a sibling if I wear stuff that isn't my style.
This has happened to me too. I was friends with someone long enough to feel like telling them was the responsible thing because we were becoming close, or they would be getting a nasty surprise and that's not fair. And my now ex friend said "Oh the TikTok disease? Cool." She then started treating me very differently, made a bunch of assumptions, became passive aggressive, and eventually ghosted me. It was a painful experience, and I can thank the DiDaboos for that, due to the massive amount of misleading and harmful content that they pump out.
We go to second hand stores for a lot of our clothes. As for telling people that you have DID, you should do what is safe and works for you. I tell people because I'm privileged enough to have a system that has a lot of communication. We've been talking and working together since the body was 7. That's over 20 years experience as a system. I want to help fight the stigma by being good representation for the community. However, I have no expectations that others should have to do the same. Being a system is ultimately about survival and I'm just fortunate enough to be in a place in my life where I can focus on more than that.
@@bluskye7899 While I'm definitely not at that point in my life right now, I appreciate your efforts in being good representation. I'm in a position where thrift stores are often above my means & some of that is from DID impacting my job opportunities, etc, however I'm not representative of everyone with the condition. Being a system is about survival, but I'm always glad to see people with DID thriving.
The baby talk and faking a lisp when a little is fronting is so offensive and creepy. When you dissociate to a state of age regression, your mind goes back to a point of trauma or a point of innocence and carefreeness to help cope with terrifying circumstances or emotions, but that never involves talking like that. It limits my vocabulary and causes a stutter and difficuly making sense of things or stringing words together or it causes the feeling of being physically smaller and having an attachment to childhood needs and comforts. There's a huge difference between actual age regression and an adult putting on their stereotype of what they think a baby sounds like. Even if that person is dissociating, it's only just enough to pad out the embarassment that one would normally feel from recording yourself doing baby-blowing-bubbles speech and putting it online to get the attention that you want. Edit: If the excuse is that the little is co-conscious, then WHY was the adult alter letting them post online
Good points & questions, thank you for sharing. It's also interesting that this little is aware of this tiktok trend & can participate in the trend so well
Response to ur edit: when they said they were co-con they also said "we are 4 and 6" implying there were 2 littles fronting (everyone keeps talking abt an adult being co-con w them so i thought i should mention it)
Are you sure it’s ’never’ ? /gen /nm I have a very high pitched voice, and I don’t know if it’s some kind of anatomical difference or what, but my mom was very very abusive to me in my younger years, so I’m wondering if it’s possible to develop a higher pitched voice in order to please adults around you/not be abused. I do not have did, but sometimes I feel like I age regress, and usually my voice becomes higher than it already is
@@michelle_manaFr that’s like the girl who pretends to be a dog and literally thinks she is one, how does a dog know TikTok trends and how to record and post a video?
Well, I didn't quite wake up in time lmao, I tried. Portrayal of DID on social media is what extended my own denial phase much longer than it should have, because I couldn't recognize it in myself. It was so bad that they almost caused me to not seek professional help at all. It was my boyfriend who sat me down for a serious talk. Had DID been portrayed without the extra drama and attention seeking, and the really crude stuff, all that is stigmatizing the disorder, my life would've been different, and quite frankly I'm mad about it because it's so dangerous and debilitating.
I’m trying to get evaluated and these people make me not want an answer so I can pretend it’s no. I know logically that it’s not like the movies, or tiktok. But I already have a lot of issues with sharing my current diagnosis. I have CPTSD with high dissociative symptoms, as of right now. When I bring it up in my daily life I get asked invasive things about what caused it. If I share I usually get told I’m lying or people act like it’s a lot more extreme than I’m comfortable believing, so usually I just refuse to talk about it altogether until I have to explain some sort of symptom. I lie about my dissociation. I call it daydreaming, or if I trust someone, I’ll downplay it and say I depersonalized when it’s more like I just lost all awareness. If I hadn’t drove like this or ended up he’s away without my wallet, I would not be looking into it at all because of the stigma these kids are willingly creating.
As a child I had a real lisp until 2nd grade when I got speech therapy at school. So in that case littles having lisps makes sense. However, I believe young alters being online on camera is problematic for many reasons. I was diagnosed with DID in 2000 when it was still called MPD by some. I've come a long way and am better at protecting myself online now.
This is so wild to me that people fake disorders like this. I have personal trauma from being friends with an irl in an extremely toxic situation with someone who I absolutely know was faking did from around 2020-early 2023. I would be told I was a horrible person and resort to cutting when I called them out on contradictions in their story and was convinced that the people in the head were real or else I was told I was a horrible person and blocked right after being told off and believing that the 50+ people in their head hate me. has lead me to have immense trust issues and anxiety that I have been clinically diagnosed with, the emotional and mental trauma lead me to being actually institutionalized from the absolute mind fck that I was going through. I know that the person I’m referring to has found the did community online and probably thought there was no harm in emulating it, but their manipulation and mental torture has lead me to daily suicidal ideation. I just found your channel and idk if you’ll read this but if you haven’t made a video on this already I would love if you talked about how faking disorders CAN and WILL lead to harm for the people around them and how it’s not just a cute way of coping. I don’t usually comment ever but I feel like it needs to be said.
This is the first video of yours I've seen. Normally I stay away from DID channels nowadays, even though they're what had me go get diagnosed. I've been trying to be an actor since I was a child, and the diagnosis/treatment have set me back so much. I've spent so much money on treatment and just trying to stay alive, it's been almost ten years and finally feel like I'm somewhat healed and able to take on the mental toll that work would bring me. Doesn't change the fact that every day is still a struggle and i feel like a failure for not being able to support myself as an adult. I'm not ashamed of my disorder anymore, but it causes me so much humiliation and frustration. I admit, I used to romance it when I watched videos about it. God, I was stupid.
i have to say with DID it is very hard to find a mental health professional that will treat you, The treatment for DID is trauma work and other forms of therapy. It’s not as easy as just get help as most mental health professionals have no clue how to treat DID. Also the treatment can take years of consistent therapy which a lot of us who have been abused from a parent or a trusted adult which means we have to get away from them in the first place. Moving around can make it very hard to get consistent help and therapy. Also A lot of Doctors will refuse to diagnose People with DID even if they meet the criteria as it’s an abnormal psych condition. It is kinda frustrating to hear if you think you have DID get professional help cause it’s more complex than that.
In my personal experience my alters helped me perform day to day functions my entire life. I literally dont have a memory where i wasnt being guided by them. so I sort of see them like the little spongebobs in his head when he freaks out except we all sort of worked together to operate the meat mecha that is my body. As for drugs, cannabis is legal here and it works wonders for my cptsd but if i ever overdo it, it makes me feel the need to switch over and over and it usually leads to panic attacks or mental breakdowns. My experience with this disorder has been absolutely horrific. Ive lost two jobs because of it. Both of those jobs were lost and while i have no memory of the things i did to lose those jobs there is overwhelming physical and video evidence of me doing it. Its so fucking scary to know that. im currently on disability because in 2019, after years of ignoring it and gaslighting myself into believing i was fine, i woke up from a blackout while i was driving and almost hit a person and their child. I had been experiencing more and more frequent blackouts so my partner and i decided that it was safer that i just focus on my mental health. Ive only driven a car once since then and im still pretty scared it'll happen again. DID, at least for me, is a horrible experience that scares me to my very core and i would never wish it on anyone. Its like watching yourself commit a murder spree while you're tied to a chair.
I dissociate. My official diagnosis is CPTSD with dissociative symptoms but I am considering being evaluated for a dissociative disorder because my episodes have increased and gotten weirder, which I was warned might happen when I got diagnosed. I don’t want to get into specifics or hear what non-professionals think I have, but I do want to say that these people really make me afraid of this diagnosis. I already don’t like bringing up my current diagnosis because it comes with questions and speculations from people. It’s like some people can’t fathom why someone may not want to share the traumatic events that gave them a trauma diagnosis. If this is the current perception of DID, I really don’t look forward to having to explain my shit, or deal with people trying to guess what happened to me because these kids often cite pretty normal stressors as the source. It’s hard enough getting any diagnosis. You can feel relief over knowing what it is and how to treat it but trauma disorders come with the heaviness of accepting ‘it was bad enough to actually change my brain chemistry,’ and the fear of having to talk and think about the memories you try and push out of your head, and finding out the gaps in your memory aren’t just full of boring but normal experiences you just forgot. Add people intentionally giving it a horrible and cringy stigma for clout, and it’s going to scare a lot of people away from being diagnosed. I know they don’t accurately represent DID. I suspect most just want to have it, but have some other diagnosis that might include some form of dissociation, or possibly psychosis symptoms they mistake for it. But a lot of people don’t. A lot of people have not had to talk about these disorders being a possibility for them in therapy. So they have these kids acting even worse than the movie portrayal of it, which I don’t think are intended to be realistic much of the time. I hope I don’t have it just so I don’t have to argue that I’m not lying because they expect me to dress up as existing fictional characters and talk about how fun it is to have all these characters in your head with zero lapses in awareness.
I know how you feel a lot of people are wanting me to get diagnosed either based on what I was describing or because someone with it is noticing the same symptoms from them. I was mostly scared of the fact of what if I was copying or maybe I’m just copying a purple haired character who had it. I would mostly make a hassle saying I didn’t need one because of the fear of knowing and I am pretty hard on myself. And now it’s gotten even harder to diagnose because the type of trauma I’ve experienced isn’t considered trauma or traumatic due to social norms. It’s sad people in general now are trying to make it cool when people don’t relise it’s a defense mechanism that a majority of the population doesn’t know they have and effects the brain….
I don’t have DID but have been clinically diagnosed with Borderline and Major Depressive Disorder. 7:13 I can say as someone that has tried maybe 20 different therapists that not every single one can/will suit your needs. Unfortunately there is an aspect of having to “click” with someone in order to be able to get the greatest work out of therapy (in my experience.) out of the 20 or so I was lucky to find 2 that could really help me (one of which being my current therapist). Please keep trying if you would like to seek help, all hope is not lost.
Bro imagine me being in a room with with them knowing that I have strong mental issues as well as emotional based trauma. Who can’t tell the difference if it’s anxiety or something more serious….and doesn’t know who or what I am all together and they pull the whole anime ordeal…..Im walking out. People need to relise faking it is not cool it’s more disrespectful than anything . I’ve had a friend who has similar experiences like me and actually dose have it….and it’s putting on a label and stereotype on her that isn’t true.
Not diagnosed but currently suspected of some kind of dissociative disorder... If another member dressed the body I would expect a different member would just think they're wearing their usual outfit until they look down. And depending on how foggy the brain is that day forget many times that they're dressed differently from usual lol. Forgetting what you're wearing Is a question on the DES for a reason. Though usually you want to appear singlet so you're not going to make drastically different outfits and might even toss/ hide old styles in an act of denial.
Great video! You are very respectful of these topics 😊 My heart goes out to those who truly are suffering with DID 🩷 It's sad to see people might be pretending and performing for views. It just makes it harder in so many ways for those struggling 😢 I dont have DID, but i have some experiences with dissociating from trauma. It's very unsettling, and it makes me feel embarrassed afterwards. Not remembering where I went or what I've done. It can be frustrating. I didn't know what was happening for many years. I just thought of it as being somewhere else.
I feel so awkward typing this but having a violent alter is not fun. He once got into a fist fight with a drunk man on the public bus, that was traumatizing, when I realized what was going on I literally had a bloody chain necklace in my hand. That was not a cool day. There was another time my husband had to physically stop him from beating a guy in the back of the head with frozen hamburger because he cut us in line at the grocery store... These experiences are not cool, or fun, or quirky, they could put me in jail one day. System responsibility sucks. Don't get me wrong I know why it's like that but that doesn't make it any less scary. We have coping mechanisms now that help this particular alter in these moments of distress for him where he lashes out but in the beginning shit was hard. He once threw a like 40lb wood block chair across the living room at my brother. Now I'm just complaining.
9:50 "REALLY COOL"???? AS A SYSTEM THAT SOUNDS LIKE A NIGHTMARE! If everyone in my system suddenly was near front having influence and being loud while I'm also HIGH sounds like a vomit inducing oberstimulating nightmare... that's just us though... all systems are different I guess.
Your friendly local DID system here 02:34 I don't feel like they're bragging, more like making a joke?.. I know in my past that I've joked about my mental breakdowns as a coping mechanism, pretending that "It's all good, it's fine, hehe haha fun times".. I know I'm not the only one in my system who does it.. It's just something we do to just shove all the bad away in the moment so we can deal with it later in therapy or process it silently.. Is it healthy?.. Probably not.. Again, this TikTok sounds like something I would say after having a breakdown and needing to go to work 10 minutes later.. Just joking to deal with the mental pain and trying to ignore it 04:25 Answer to your question.. This has happened to me before.. It's really weird, not gonna lie!.. XD.. My dress style is more neutral fem style, long sleeves, stripes, nearly everything I wear HAS to have a hood, that kind of thing.. My one alter, lets call her Vee for safety, they are very different.. Rocker punk is the best way to explain their style.. fishnets, baggy tank tops over a sports bra, black on black on black, fake piercings, jewelry up the wazoo, you name it.. One day I promised Vee that I would let her get a haircut to her preferred style since I was getting bored of a constant buzz.. so she switched in and did it.. I don't remember anything until hours later when I switched back before therapy the same day.. Even my therapist said I looked uncomfortable in her clothes as they were definitely not my style.. In summary, yes, it does happen.. If I'm home, I can change no problem.. If I'm out, I just have to suffer.. Thankfully Vee is the only one with a problem with my style.. XD 06:19 The system, as a whole, as to take responsibility for every alters actions, no matter what it is.. I have a persecutor alter who has made it his job to push everyone away and destroy important relationships in my life.. I have lost many friends because of him and he even tried to shove my partner away (Luckily my partner knew about him and didn't let him break us apart.. we're engaged now.. X3).. I have apologized to everyone he has lashed out at.. I've even had to apologize for things Vee had said without my knowledge on a few occasions.. It's the systems responsibility to work together 06:33 I've had this happen many times.. It takes time to find the right therapist who will actually help you.. Took me 6-7 years to find my current one and I love her to death, shes the absolute best (Plus the therapist could have quit to find better opportunities for themselves, again something I have had happen to me) 07:22 I've said this in a comment on another one of your videos.. I'm very against littles being on social media.. Even if I were to have a video of them or was co-con with them, I never would post it.. It's exploitative and kinda predatory.. They should be supervised if at all possible because of the danger they can get themselves into.. Not "Stick a fork in a power socket" or "Eating something they shouldn't" trouble, but the "Being taken advantage of" kind of trouble (Although, funny fact, my 5 year old alter knows how to drive but my 8 year old one doesn't.. Do I let them drive all the time?.. hell no!.. But I know now in case there ever is a problem on the road)
I Live in Denver and I go to the City hospital and they won't even give you an ADHD eval if you Smoke weed let alone much else or not without trying to blame the weed in the first place.
As a system, I can’t imagine how much it would hurt to see people online hurting the community and themselves while pretending to have a disorder that they know nothing about
disclaimer, I'm clinically diagnosed with DID and other things. On drugs: I've only used cannabis gummies, alcohol and caffeine; the THC, as my therapist puts it (paraphrasing) is like going into the rooms of my Parts and rummaging through their drawers, rather than a more respectful way of establishing communication. Though it Does help break down the communication barriers. Some less than great side effects are memories I'm not ready to process leaking through. I am curious about going through therapeutic sessions and have brought it up to my therapist, but they emphasized going the more respectful route and trying to build a rapport with my Parts organically. on dressing: when I do go cloths shopping, I try to get a piece or two that the most common Parts fronting or co-concious would like, and otherwise just worry about having comfortable clothing because we've also got sensory issues and uncomfortable clothing just sucks. on child alters: a huge thing I don't get is why the people in these videos sound like they do when a child part is fronting or co-con, I/we have numerous occasions, even in blips throughout the day where one or another pops out to say hi to our cats, or when we see a dog, or when they want a candy or something. One of them loves to go outside and look at all the pretty things, which helps combat my agoraphobia, but the most different our voice gets is higher pitched and a bit louder, because excited child. Maybe it's one of those 'DID affects everyone differently' things, but lisping, baby speak, etc isn't something we do as far as I know. It feels so disengenous when I see it in videos. And yes, it *is* dangerous. If you have DID, chances are you were seriously harmed as a child, why are you (the people in the videos) endangering your child parts putting them online like this? NONE of my child parts are out alone, there's Always an adult with them, we protect them the way we should have been protected when we were a child. It just makes no sense to me.
I’m not diagnosed but I think I have some kind of dissociative disorder (match most of the criteria for OSDD so maybe that), and this just makes me so scared to open up to my friends about the struggles I go through on the daily. Plus, my best friend has been friends with a DID faker before and found out they were faking so I don’t want her to think I am faking what I go through too
Genuine question - could someone really have an alter who’s an addict without the whole system being addicted? If the body is physically addicted, like with an opiate, wouldn’t they all be addicted? Or does one alter just front when they use the substance?
I'm not sure, I've heard a lot say that addictions or behaviors can be separate between alternative states. Hopefully someone can give you a better answer
This is general and valid question. Accourding to most experts like Melissa Kaufman, Spegal, Courtious, Ross and Kluft. It is plausible to a point. Some alternative states can smoke and not smoke, some can drink and other don't. Hence, the reason why I repeatedly say alternative states shouldn't be online educating as they claim they are doing with past beleifs and no guidance by professionals. Its dangerous, because it's ( a mental state of a fragmented mind, based on severe past truama) Hope that helps some. So yes they can have different likes and dislikes. They can have different tasks and challenges. But they are still one body and mind. Just the brain activity is different then normal people. This can be corrected with intense therapy like emdr, cbt, dbt, eft and dnms.
Okay so my understanding is that the body is addicted but the other alters may not realize why they feel miserable and having with drawl symptoms when fronting after an alter that partakes in an addiction has fronted due to not remembering the use of the drugs when switched out or a protector type alter might hide what happened to protect the rest of the system and the body, the memory gaps would make it hard to realize what is going on and getting treatment for the addiction, whether it be substances, sh, difficult. So basically an addiction could go unnoticed by the system until said system ends up in therapy doing work to lower amnesia barriers protecting the host(s) or the addiction becomes so bad that the rest of the system trying to protect the host(s) from the knowledge fail and it leads to them needing medical care. But claiming that the body isnt addicted and that it is limited to only one alter is unrealistic.
This disorder is not glamorous. We've had embarrasing situations where littles almost came out at work and we were worried about them fronting and losing our job. Thankfully we've worked with our therapist and that hasn't been an issue for a while. Also some systems are RAMCOA systems and that's terrifying too. We had to put on headphones in grocery stores where parents were with their children so a parent wouldn't say certain phrases around us and accidentally make us do embarassing things. We avoided people with their dogs for the same reason. Terrified of them saying a certain phrase and all of a sudden acting very strangely and obeying commands. Headphones and music are our best friend. Lol. Thankfully we've worked through some of this stuff in therapy and some commands aren't as effective anymore. Some still are though but it's harder to trigger so it's not as much of a concern thankfully. We still like to wear headphones while we're out in certain places though just in case. This disorder is terrible. We were in denial for a while but we definitely have it according to two separate therapists including our current therapist who specialize in this stuff. Truly we wish we didn't have this disorder and weren't abused. We don't know why anyone would want to have this.
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as an undiagnosed (fighting for diagnosis) system I hate the portrayal of DID on social media lol we're already so badly stigmatized
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I feel there is to much fakedisordercringe online, that no one leaves space to focus on all the various symptoms of disorders.
As a mental health professional, I see people accused of faking or that many say is faking, which is more harmful behavior than the person doing the actual alleged faking.
There are dozens of DID associated symptoms and catagories that are not classified under DID. You do not need to have DID to have a type of dissociative disorder.
We should say people r faking as a way to help the people that aren't?
Yeah, that's not helping. It's hindering what I can do.
The cost is hundreds of patients never being properly diagnosed because they are told they do not have the symptoms someone online says they need or have in order to have DID, when in fact, their dissasociation has nothing to do with DID.
No one can exist with a rare or unique form of anything online because they are told they were faking. I have a common condition but a rare form and when I spoke with others on a discord about it, they were like 'WE never heard of that or we never have that happen to us" (basically I was ostrosized out of my own discord become my symptom were not like everyone else's.
Rumors went around that I was faking my condition for attention, faked records and wanted clout.
I had to delete my channel.
2 years later, I had major surgery for my condition and only then did one of the 15 people ask if I was OK.
You have to have the "Perfect diagnosis" with the "Perfect patient"
One of my clients is a tiktoker and she was left untreated properly because videos like this and audiences that agree, said they were faking because it "seemed" fake.
I think we should take care to educate those about why people fake or they just might not be faking at all. Like my client I have seen in about 8 videos now 😢
It needs to stop.
Seeing DID on social media just made me feel unsafe sharing about my own condition, or even showing my face online because I'm worried people will find out I have DID or accuse me of faking. I've had IRL friends figure out I have DID and then their perception of me changing because all they know about it is from people online.
I'm always so confused by people online that have very distinct looks between alters, because it's not something I've found possible. Clothes are expensive and we only have one budget, so we have to share. It feels more like wearing hand-me-downs from a sibling if I wear stuff that isn't my style.
This has happened to me too.
I was friends with someone long enough to feel like telling them was the responsible thing because we were becoming close, or they would be getting a nasty surprise and that's not fair.
And my now ex friend said "Oh the TikTok disease? Cool." She then started treating me very differently, made a bunch of assumptions, became passive aggressive, and eventually ghosted me.
It was a painful experience, and I can thank the DiDaboos for that, due to the massive amount of misleading and harmful content that they pump out.
Well said and honest. Same here it's not about looking different or wigs etc like they make it out to be.
@@CensorshipIsOpressionwell said 😊
We go to second hand stores for a lot of our clothes.
As for telling people that you have DID, you should do what is safe and works for you. I tell people because I'm privileged enough to have a system that has a lot of communication. We've been talking and working together since the body was 7. That's over 20 years experience as a system.
I want to help fight the stigma by being good representation for the community. However, I have no expectations that others should have to do the same. Being a system is ultimately about survival and I'm just fortunate enough to be in a place in my life where I can focus on more than that.
@@bluskye7899 While I'm definitely not at that point in my life right now, I appreciate your efforts in being good representation.
I'm in a position where thrift stores are often above my means & some of that is from DID impacting my job opportunities, etc, however I'm not representative of everyone with the condition. Being a system is about survival, but I'm always glad to see people with DID thriving.
The baby talk and faking a lisp when a little is fronting is so offensive and creepy. When you dissociate to a state of age regression, your mind goes back to a point of trauma or a point of innocence and carefreeness to help cope with terrifying circumstances or emotions, but that never involves talking like that. It limits my vocabulary and causes a stutter and difficuly making sense of things or stringing words together or it causes the feeling of being physically smaller and having an attachment to childhood needs and comforts. There's a huge difference between actual age regression and an adult putting on their stereotype of what they think a baby sounds like. Even if that person is dissociating, it's only just enough to pad out the embarassment that one would normally feel from recording yourself doing baby-blowing-bubbles speech and putting it online to get the attention that you want.
Edit: If the excuse is that the little is co-conscious, then WHY was the adult alter letting them post online
Good points & questions, thank you for sharing.
It's also interesting that this little is aware of this tiktok trend & can participate in the trend so well
Response to ur edit: when they said they were co-con they also said "we are 4 and 6" implying there were 2 littles fronting (everyone keeps talking abt an adult being co-con w them so i thought i should mention it)
Are you sure it’s ’never’ ? /gen /nm I have a very high pitched voice, and I don’t know if it’s some kind of anatomical difference or what, but my mom was very very abusive to me in my younger years, so I’m wondering if it’s possible to develop a higher pitched voice in order to please adults around you/not be abused. I do not have did, but sometimes I feel like I age regress, and usually my voice becomes higher than it already is
@@michelle_manaFr that’s like the girl who pretends to be a dog and literally thinks she is one, how does a dog know TikTok trends and how to record and post a video?
@@madampawsy1903 This can happen and has been reported a bunch in abuse surviviors
Well, I didn't quite wake up in time lmao, I tried.
Portrayal of DID on social media is what extended my own denial phase much longer than it should have, because I couldn't recognize it in myself.
It was so bad that they almost caused me to not seek professional help at all. It was my boyfriend who sat me down for a serious talk.
Had DID been portrayed without the extra drama and attention seeking, and the really crude stuff, all that is stigmatizing the disorder, my life would've been different, and quite frankly I'm mad about it because it's so dangerous and debilitating.
I’m trying to get evaluated and these people make me not want an answer so I can pretend it’s no. I know logically that it’s not like the movies, or tiktok. But I already have a lot of issues with sharing my current diagnosis. I have CPTSD with high dissociative symptoms, as of right now. When I bring it up in my daily life I get asked invasive things about what caused it. If I share I usually get told I’m lying or people act like it’s a lot more extreme than I’m comfortable believing, so usually I just refuse to talk about it altogether until I have to explain some sort of symptom. I lie about my dissociation. I call it daydreaming, or if I trust someone, I’ll downplay it and say I depersonalized when it’s more like I just lost all awareness. If I hadn’t drove like this or ended up he’s away without my wallet, I would not be looking into it at all because of the stigma these kids are willingly creating.
As a child I had a real lisp until 2nd grade when I got speech therapy at school. So in that case littles having lisps makes sense. However, I believe young alters being online on camera is problematic for many reasons. I was diagnosed with DID in 2000 when it was still called MPD by some. I've come a long way and am better at protecting myself online now.
This is so wild to me that people fake disorders like this. I have personal trauma from being friends with an irl in an extremely toxic situation with someone who I absolutely know was faking did from around 2020-early 2023. I would be told I was a horrible person and resort to cutting when I called them out on contradictions in their story and was convinced that the people in the head were real or else I was told I was a horrible person and blocked right after being told off and believing that the 50+ people in their head hate me. has lead me to have immense trust issues and anxiety that I have been clinically diagnosed with, the emotional and mental trauma lead me to being actually institutionalized from the absolute mind fck that I was going through. I know that the person I’m referring to has found the did community online and probably thought there was no harm in emulating it, but their manipulation and mental torture has lead me to daily suicidal ideation. I just found your channel and idk if you’ll read this but if you haven’t made a video on this already I would love if you talked about how faking disorders CAN and WILL lead to harm for the people around them and how it’s not just a cute way of coping. I don’t usually comment ever but I feel like it needs to be said.
It was well said. The glamorizing of DID is getting worse and misinformation has spread to those thinking what they do is reality unfortunately.
This is the first video of yours I've seen. Normally I stay away from DID channels nowadays, even though they're what had me go get diagnosed.
I've been trying to be an actor since I was a child, and the diagnosis/treatment have set me back so much. I've spent so much money on treatment and just trying to stay alive, it's been almost ten years and finally feel like I'm somewhat healed and able to take on the mental toll that work would bring me. Doesn't change the fact that every day is still a struggle and i feel like a failure for not being able to support myself as an adult. I'm not ashamed of my disorder anymore, but it causes me so much humiliation and frustration. I admit, I used to romance it when I watched videos about it. God, I was stupid.
i have to say with DID it is very hard to find a mental health professional that will treat you, The treatment for DID is trauma work and other forms of therapy. It’s not as easy as just get help as most mental health professionals have no clue how to treat DID. Also the treatment can take years of consistent therapy which a lot of us who have been abused from a parent or a trusted adult which means we have to get away from them in the first place. Moving around can make it very hard to get consistent help and therapy. Also A lot of Doctors will refuse to diagnose People with DID even if they meet the criteria as it’s an abnormal psych condition. It is kinda frustrating to hear if you think you have DID get professional help cause it’s more complex than that.
lately i’ve been watching all of your videos while cooking, it’s so entertaining 🙏🏽
Thank you, I'm really glad to hear it!
I watch while cooking and doing dishes! Twinsss!
Hi, a system here, thanks for making these, Michelle.
In my personal experience my alters helped me perform day to day functions my entire life. I literally dont have a memory where i wasnt being guided by them. so I sort of see them like the little spongebobs in his head when he freaks out except we all sort of worked together to operate the meat mecha that is my body.
As for drugs, cannabis is legal here and it works wonders for my cptsd but if i ever overdo it, it makes me feel the need to switch over and over and it usually leads to panic attacks or mental breakdowns.
My experience with this disorder has been absolutely horrific. Ive lost two jobs because of it. Both of those jobs were lost and while i have no memory of the things i did to lose those jobs there is overwhelming physical and video evidence of me doing it. Its so fucking scary to know that. im currently on disability because in 2019, after years of ignoring it and gaslighting myself into believing i was fine, i woke up from a blackout while i was driving and almost hit a person and their child. I had been experiencing more and more frequent blackouts so my partner and i decided that it was safer that i just focus on my mental health.
Ive only driven a car once since then and im still pretty scared it'll happen again.
DID, at least for me, is a horrible experience that scares me to my very core and i would never wish it on anyone. Its like watching yourself commit a murder spree while you're tied to a chair.
I dissociate. My official diagnosis is CPTSD with dissociative symptoms but I am considering being evaluated for a dissociative disorder because my episodes have increased and gotten weirder, which I was warned might happen when I got diagnosed. I don’t want to get into specifics or hear what non-professionals think I have, but I do want to say that these people really make me afraid of this diagnosis. I already don’t like bringing up my current diagnosis because it comes with questions and speculations from people. It’s like some people can’t fathom why someone may not want to share the traumatic events that gave them a trauma diagnosis. If this is the current perception of DID, I really don’t look forward to having to explain my shit, or deal with people trying to guess what happened to me because these kids often cite pretty normal stressors as the source. It’s hard enough getting any diagnosis. You can feel relief over knowing what it is and how to treat it but trauma disorders come with the heaviness of accepting ‘it was bad enough to actually change my brain chemistry,’ and the fear of having to talk and think about the memories you try and push out of your head, and finding out the gaps in your memory aren’t just full of boring but normal experiences you just forgot. Add people intentionally giving it a horrible and cringy stigma for clout, and it’s going to scare a lot of people away from being diagnosed. I know they don’t accurately represent DID. I suspect most just want to have it, but have some other diagnosis that might include some form of dissociation, or possibly psychosis symptoms they mistake for it. But a lot of people don’t. A lot of people have not had to talk about these disorders being a possibility for them in therapy. So they have these kids acting even worse than the movie portrayal of it, which I don’t think are intended to be realistic much of the time. I hope I don’t have it just so I don’t have to argue that I’m not lying because they expect me to dress up as existing fictional characters and talk about how fun it is to have all these characters in your head with zero lapses in awareness.
I know how you feel a lot of people are wanting me to get diagnosed either based on what I was describing or because someone with it is noticing the same symptoms from them. I was mostly scared of the fact of what if I was copying or maybe I’m just copying a purple haired character who had it. I would mostly make a hassle saying I didn’t need one because of the fear of knowing and I am pretty hard on myself. And now it’s gotten even harder to diagnose because the type of trauma I’ve experienced isn’t considered trauma or traumatic due to social norms. It’s sad people in general now are trying to make it cool when people don’t relise it’s a defense mechanism that a majority of the population doesn’t know they have and effects the brain….
I don’t have DID but have been clinically diagnosed with Borderline and Major Depressive Disorder. 7:13 I can say as someone that has tried maybe 20 different therapists that not every single one can/will suit your needs. Unfortunately there is an aspect of having to “click” with someone in order to be able to get the greatest work out of therapy (in my experience.) out of the 20 or so I was lucky to find 2 that could really help me (one of which being my current therapist). Please keep trying if you would like to seek help, all hope is not lost.
Bro imagine me being in a room with with them knowing that I have strong mental issues as well as emotional based trauma. Who can’t tell the difference if it’s anxiety or something more serious….and doesn’t know who or what I am all together and they pull the whole anime ordeal…..Im walking out. People need to relise faking it is not cool it’s more disrespectful than anything . I’ve had a friend who has similar experiences like me and actually dose have it….and it’s putting on a label and stereotype on her that isn’t true.
Not diagnosed but currently suspected of some kind of dissociative disorder...
If another member dressed the body I would expect a different member would just think they're wearing their usual outfit until they look down. And depending on how foggy the brain is that day forget many times that they're dressed differently from usual lol. Forgetting what you're wearing Is a question on the DES for a reason. Though usually you want to appear singlet so you're not going to make drastically different outfits and might even toss/ hide old styles in an act of denial.
Thank you for sharing!
Great video, thank you for doing this.😊
Thank you for the support, Eva!
Great video! You are very respectful of these topics 😊
My heart goes out to those who truly are suffering with DID 🩷 It's sad to see people might be pretending and performing for views. It just makes it harder in so many ways for those struggling 😢
I dont have DID, but i have some experiences with dissociating from trauma. It's very unsettling, and it makes me feel embarrassed afterwards. Not remembering where I went or what I've done. It can be frustrating. I didn't know what was happening for many years. I just thought of it as being somewhere else.
I feel so awkward typing this but having a violent alter is not fun. He once got into a fist fight with a drunk man on the public bus, that was traumatizing, when I realized what was going on I literally had a bloody chain necklace in my hand. That was not a cool day.
There was another time my husband had to physically stop him from beating a guy in the back of the head with frozen hamburger because he cut us in line at the grocery store...
These experiences are not cool, or fun, or quirky, they could put me in jail one day. System responsibility sucks. Don't get me wrong I know why it's like that but that doesn't make it any less scary. We have coping mechanisms now that help this particular alter in these moments of distress for him where he lashes out but in the beginning shit was hard. He once threw a like 40lb wood block chair across the living room at my brother. Now I'm just complaining.
9:50 "REALLY COOL"???? AS A SYSTEM THAT SOUNDS LIKE A NIGHTMARE! If everyone in my system suddenly was near front having influence and being loud while I'm also HIGH sounds like a vomit inducing oberstimulating nightmare... that's just us though... all systems are different I guess.
Your friendly local DID system here
02:34 I don't feel like they're bragging, more like making a joke?.. I know in my past that I've joked about my mental breakdowns as a coping mechanism, pretending that "It's all good, it's fine, hehe haha fun times".. I know I'm not the only one in my system who does it.. It's just something we do to just shove all the bad away in the moment so we can deal with it later in therapy or process it silently.. Is it healthy?.. Probably not.. Again, this TikTok sounds like something I would say after having a breakdown and needing to go to work 10 minutes later.. Just joking to deal with the mental pain and trying to ignore it
04:25 Answer to your question.. This has happened to me before.. It's really weird, not gonna lie!.. XD.. My dress style is more neutral fem style, long sleeves, stripes, nearly everything I wear HAS to have a hood, that kind of thing.. My one alter, lets call her Vee for safety, they are very different.. Rocker punk is the best way to explain their style.. fishnets, baggy tank tops over a sports bra, black on black on black, fake piercings, jewelry up the wazoo, you name it.. One day I promised Vee that I would let her get a haircut to her preferred style since I was getting bored of a constant buzz.. so she switched in and did it.. I don't remember anything until hours later when I switched back before therapy the same day.. Even my therapist said I looked uncomfortable in her clothes as they were definitely not my style.. In summary, yes, it does happen.. If I'm home, I can change no problem.. If I'm out, I just have to suffer.. Thankfully Vee is the only one with a problem with my style.. XD
06:19 The system, as a whole, as to take responsibility for every alters actions, no matter what it is.. I have a persecutor alter who has made it his job to push everyone away and destroy important relationships in my life.. I have lost many friends because of him and he even tried to shove my partner away (Luckily my partner knew about him and didn't let him break us apart.. we're engaged now.. X3).. I have apologized to everyone he has lashed out at.. I've even had to apologize for things Vee had said without my knowledge on a few occasions.. It's the systems responsibility to work together
06:33 I've had this happen many times.. It takes time to find the right therapist who will actually help you.. Took me 6-7 years to find my current one and I love her to death, shes the absolute best (Plus the therapist could have quit to find better opportunities for themselves, again something I have had happen to me)
07:22 I've said this in a comment on another one of your videos.. I'm very against littles being on social media.. Even if I were to have a video of them or was co-con with them, I never would post it.. It's exploitative and kinda predatory.. They should be supervised if at all possible because of the danger they can get themselves into.. Not "Stick a fork in a power socket" or "Eating something they shouldn't" trouble, but the "Being taken advantage of" kind of trouble (Although, funny fact, my 5 year old alter knows how to drive but my 8 year old one doesn't.. Do I let them drive all the time?.. hell no!.. But I know now in case there ever is a problem on the road)
I Live in Denver and I go to the City hospital and they won't even give you an ADHD eval if you Smoke weed let alone much else or not without trying to blame the weed in the first place.
As a system, I can’t imagine how much it would hurt to see people online hurting the community and themselves while pretending to have a disorder that they know nothing about
I think there is a song you would like. It's called ten faced and it's implied to have a girl faking did
That's funny I just listened to it & it's not bad
disclaimer, I'm clinically diagnosed with DID and other things.
On drugs: I've only used cannabis gummies, alcohol and caffeine; the THC, as my therapist puts it (paraphrasing) is like going into the rooms of my Parts and rummaging through their drawers, rather than a more respectful way of establishing communication. Though it Does help break down the communication barriers. Some less than great side effects are memories I'm not ready to process leaking through.
I am curious about going through therapeutic sessions and have brought it up to my therapist, but they emphasized going the more respectful route and trying to build a rapport with my Parts organically.
on dressing: when I do go cloths shopping, I try to get a piece or two that the most common Parts fronting or co-concious would like, and otherwise just worry about having comfortable clothing because we've also got sensory issues and uncomfortable clothing just sucks.
on child alters: a huge thing I don't get is why the people in these videos sound like they do when a child part is fronting or co-con, I/we have numerous occasions, even in blips throughout the day where one or another pops out to say hi to our cats, or when we see a dog, or when they want a candy or something. One of them loves to go outside and look at all the pretty things, which helps combat my agoraphobia, but the most different our voice gets is higher pitched and a bit louder, because excited child. Maybe it's one of those 'DID affects everyone differently' things, but lisping, baby speak, etc isn't something we do as far as I know. It feels so disengenous when I see it in videos. And yes, it *is* dangerous. If you have DID, chances are you were seriously harmed as a child, why are you (the people in the videos) endangering your child parts putting them online like this? NONE of my child parts are out alone, there's Always an adult with them, we protect them the way we should have been protected when we were a child. It just makes no sense to me.
I’m not diagnosed but I think I have some kind of dissociative disorder (match most of the criteria for OSDD so maybe that), and this just makes me so scared to open up to my friends about the struggles I go through on the daily. Plus, my best friend has been friends with a DID faker before and found out they were faking so I don’t want her to think I am faking what I go through too
Genuine question - could someone really have an alter who’s an addict without the whole system being addicted? If the body is physically addicted, like with an opiate, wouldn’t they all be addicted? Or does one alter just front when they use the substance?
I'm not sure, I've heard a lot say that addictions or behaviors can be separate between alternative states. Hopefully someone can give you a better answer
This is general and valid question. Accourding to most experts like Melissa Kaufman, Spegal, Courtious, Ross and Kluft. It is plausible to a point. Some alternative states can smoke and not smoke, some can drink and other don't. Hence, the reason why I repeatedly say alternative states shouldn't be online educating as they claim they are doing with past beleifs and no guidance by professionals. Its dangerous, because it's ( a mental state of a fragmented mind, based on severe past truama) Hope that helps some. So yes they can have different likes and dislikes. They can have different tasks and challenges. But they are still one body and mind. Just the brain activity is different then normal people. This can be corrected with intense therapy like emdr, cbt, dbt, eft and dnms.
@@evamarie2247 thank you, that does help ❤️
Okay so my understanding is that the body is addicted but the other alters may not realize why they feel miserable and having with drawl symptoms when fronting after an alter that partakes in an addiction has fronted due to not remembering the use of the drugs when switched out or a protector type alter might hide what happened to protect the rest of the system and the body, the memory gaps would make it hard to realize what is going on and getting treatment for the addiction, whether it be substances, sh, difficult.
So basically an addiction could go unnoticed by the system until said system ends up in therapy doing work to lower amnesia barriers protecting the host(s) or the addiction becomes so bad that the rest of the system trying to protect the host(s) from the knowledge fail and it leads to them needing medical care. But claiming that the body isnt addicted and that it is limited to only one alter is unrealistic.
@@srenapplegate4174thanks. That all makes sense
Great video, michelle. I'll say it again, It needs to just stop. It's a disorder, not a fun trip to gain attention.
Thank you for this video. The portrail of DID on social media sickens me, to be honest.
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You're welcome! I don't have DID & it is still highly unsettling to me aswell
This disorder is not glamorous. We've had embarrasing situations where littles almost came out at work and we were worried about them fronting and losing our job.
Thankfully we've worked with our therapist and that hasn't been an issue for a while. Also some systems are RAMCOA systems and that's terrifying too.
We had to put on headphones in grocery stores where parents were with their children so a parent wouldn't say certain phrases around us and accidentally make us do embarassing things.
We avoided people with their dogs for the same reason. Terrified of them saying a certain phrase and all of a sudden acting very strangely and obeying commands.
Headphones and music are our best friend. Lol. Thankfully we've worked through some of this stuff in therapy and some commands aren't as effective anymore.
Some still are though but it's harder to trigger so it's not as much of a concern thankfully. We still like to wear headphones while we're out in certain places though just in case.
This disorder is terrible. We were in denial for a while but we definitely have it according to two separate therapists including our current therapist who specialize in this stuff.
Truly we wish we didn't have this disorder and weren't abused. We don't know why anyone would want to have this.
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