@@josevlog945 this exactly. One of my science teachers was christian and I had talked to him about it, but tbh he was in the same 'boat' as me about knowing what to trust and believe
teachers are so mean when they tell you to stop asking questions,asking questions is how you oh I don't know *LEARN* teachers should know that,that's the number 1 rule to teaching,ask questions
Sad you went at 10. Not because you were supposed to NOT leave, but because people probably didn't take you serious at the time due to your age. I mean in my country, the republic of turkey, people sure as all the might hate LGBT people. Especially ones in pubrety as they're seen as young and stupid.
0:31 wow you already sound like me, haven’t watched the full video yet but ended up with some religious trauma in the end for being neurodivergent and lgbtqia+ Update: I needed this video. Thank you. I’m almost 22 and I am still scared of talking to my family about it because the church we went to taught that they fail as parents if I don’t follow the rules which really affected our relationship
Yeah, you should ask questions, that's how you learn. Faith was never meant to be completely blind, it's something you should search for and seek out. Most problems with the faith come from people who never questioned or actually explored it because they never asked themselves those answers either.
When I realized I was Bi I started to distance myself from my religion and very religious people of my family because I’ve herd of conversation camps that do very bad things to try and show that this way of life is bad. Illy came out and helped me realize some things with this video, they really are the person we all need in our lives.
For almost 16 years I was the most faithful, devout, God-fearing Christian boy... I was praised for being so nice and kind and generous, for embodying what it meant to be a follower of Jesus. But then cracks that had been long withstanding, unanswered questions, inconsistencies began to widen and suddenly everything fell apart. If I'm a girl, what does the Bible say? If my friends are gay, what will happen to them? If we have free will, why did God control Pharaoh? How did the ark work? It was deeper than a few simple questions, and it was too much. How can one keep one's faith if the item of faith makes no sense and can't be proven? I tried to maintain it, but it fell apart under the words and abuse of people toted as the best Christians around. And what for? I stared at the sky one night, lying on a vast stretch of grass and thought, how beautiful it is to be free from divine purpose? How marveolous that we're so tiny and inconsequential? How much better are actions motivsted out of genuine love than fear of hell? I have religeous trauma, but I am myself, my own, and not defined by it or Christianity any longer. And that is freeing.
I am so sorry for what people have made to you, even under the name of Jesus Christ. My testimony is quite the opposite... For almost 22 years of my life I was an atheist, and questions like yours is what prevented me from believing in God. But being an athiest almost got me killed, for purposelesness is a road to suicide... man needs purpose in order to live, and purpose can only come from being created by a creator. So after many events of my life, I started seeking God, and after seeking Him with all my heart, strength and mind, He came to me and made Himself known through signs and miracles... and then I knew that He is real, He saved my life and He is good. If you were taught that you should do good out of fear of Hell, you were taught wrong. The love of God is to love one another, just as He loves us, and there is no spirit of fear that comes from God. Tell me, what keeps you from trusting in Jesus Christ? Have you never seen any sign or miracle of His?
@ Tell me them, so I may help you. One thing we must do when seeking answers is to listen to both sides. What made me not believe in the first place is only listening to the naturalistic/atheist side…
@@PowerPlayerz100 Heaven is for forgiven people, people who have been forgiven by God from their sins, through the blood and sacrifice of Jesus Christ and have repented from their sins. Homosexuality is a sin, for it is not the intended purpose of God for man and woman, and the disobedience of God’s law always brings death and wickedness in the end somehow, which attracts God’s judgement against wickedness. God allowed homosexuality to exist because man sinned against God and caused corruption in all of creation, corrupting the flesh and the spirit, breaking the link between man and God. Homosexuality can have a number of causes, like: a past event that made one believe that they are born this way or that they are attracted to the same sex, or it can even be spiritual oppression from a demon. I have seen a testimony from an ex homosexual that instead of praying to God to take the “gay” away, they asked God why were they gay, and God answered her, showing her past events that led her to believe that she was gay, when in fact she was not. In the end, she did not feel same sex attraction anymore.
This hits close to home especially after Christian camp were there were some f-ed stuff being said i started questioning my faith and not feeling safe in the community. Great video as always ❤
You had a similar experience I did. The camp I went to was a Pentecostal one, and that very camp experience was what led me to swear off religion entirely.
It's refreshing to see atheists that knows how to respect other ppl's beliefs. Very contradictory to "Christians" who thinks their beliefs deserve entitlement 😔
We appreciate you respecting others beliefs. And we also respect your beliefs. It's very much possible for people with differing opinions to live harmoniously with each other ❤
I can relate to this soooo much. My parents also used the “ if you can memorize lines for shows, why can’t you memorize verses?” on me. I feel so terrible about it and the fear of my teacher sitting me down and yelling at me until I cried always maked me scared of going back to church.
this is the same with the memorizing the Quran too(except probably harder as its in Arabic). id feel guilty that I can remember most movies/songs word for word but no the quran it was sad. I'm doing better now and taking the memorization at my own pace
@ as far as I know, this is an exclusively Lutheran thing which is ironic because Martin Luther didn’t actually say peoples should memorize the Bible. Most other Churches do something different
I agree with you. I've always said that it's okay to question your religion or to want to know, why you do said religion. The inventions that were made weren't so they can be all normal. It was so they can question and learn about them.
It's okay to question your religion... I do from time to time and I usually have people that do answer my questions and point me to corresponding verses... It's sad that so many don't have that opportunity but I feel like if your not getting answers ur in the wrong church
I renounced my Christianity in my teens. What did it for me was our pastor. He would always say 'come as you are' while also saying 'you must change everything about yourself to please God'. I just learned to love myself and your saying to give that up? No thanks, I'd rather burn.
@@mignonne_ Threats of "burning in hell" is exactly why religious trauma happens. Your god doesn't sound so loving if he's willing to put people through eternal damnation for being themselves.
It's interesting to hear communion is earned in some other churches! I used to go to church with my family when I was pretty young, and communion was done every day for everyone. The more you know! ✨
As a teen who’s just trying to discover their religion, this video helped me so much to realize i’m not alone in this. I’ve only had my sister, who’s also new to Christianity, help me learn about my faith. And not having a well developed relationship with her has made it really difficult and awkward for me. Thank you so much for sharing your experience ❤✝️
i’ll pray for you ❤️ following God isn’t easy, but it’s so worth it. even if your prayers aren’t answered immediately, they always will be answered eventually. i’m so happy you’re broadening your horizons and i hope that you can find some kind people within the church instead of ones that make you feel the opposite of God’s love. God bless you
I'm Roman Catholic and am always interested in hearing about other religions. In the Catholic religion, despite how by the rules many claim us to be, is very relaxed and we do things different. We never had to memorize the Bible, just prayers. Our classes went from Kindergarten to 8th grade and the last two years were for confirmation classes. During that time, we chose our patron saint and participated in community service. It's what got me interested in doing it in the first place. I was sure in my faith, but I was always reassured that I had to be sure and I could always pull out if I was unsure. I wish more religions were as understanding.
... you see that you're in a trap and you think it's fine because nothing has happened yet? Personally take how I left the religon and actually read the bible, all of it where you find Matthew, Mark, Luke, and John weren't real people so literally almost all the stories (including the last supper) were all made up. They're saying 'Jesus was real' and that he didn't have a body because it went up into heaven? Nah; and even if so then christians are purposefully lying to you.
I also find it interesting hearing about other religions! I too am Roman catholic and I really enjoyed this video. I’m not sure I’d ever receive communion if I had to memorize the entire bible.
@@tuna._.fishhh it's basically like the saint u are devote for and get most inspired by her/his testimony, making him/her your guardian. (If I'm wrong just correct me, but that's what I know.)
Well, as an (ex) catholic myself, this video are soooo relatable, I was also pressured to do an confirmation, anxiety, and coincidentally or not, I was also bullied in 6th grade… So, basically, it’s also religious trauma lol, adults shouldn’t force their faith into their children like that, this only makes them more resentful about religion, thanks for this video illy, and I’m sorry for what happened to u, stay safe
I grew up in a catholic family. For the first few years of my life, I was the faith believing child. Always believing whatever my mother, father, or priest told me. I even became an alter boy when I was old enough. I went through first communion and confirmation. For me, what started my faith crisis was thinking about the Norse gods from Norse mythology. I started asking myself “if my religion is correct, does that mean that everyone else is wrong? Are Muslims wrong for not being Christian? Are Hindus wrong for believing in multiple gods?” This started me on the path that took me away from my faith. Eventually I left my church and became agnostics. I don’t believe in god, but I didn’t know what was truly out there. Eventually I became an Athiest, but more along the Agnostic side than full Athiest. I don’t believe that there is an afterlife, but I’m not certain of this.
I love mythology but I know they are just myths. Barely anyone believes in the Old gods anymore and if they were real, they would have been fallen angels. And yea, Muslims, Hindus, Jews are wrong.
There is plenty of evidence of an afterlife. Look up some first hand accounts of near-death experiences and unexplainable ghost sightings. It's fascinating.
@ Not about me. It’s about Jesus. And every religion (other than Judaism for obvious reasons). Respects Jesus and Jesus said: He is the way, the truth and the life. So, yeah, I’m going with Jesus. Hope that helps.
I remember that my school had a field trip to the police station (wow very fun 🙄) and we passed the church school for a shortcut, but then a teacher and nun yelled at us for “trespassing” my dad said that it was ironic because there is a line in the Bible that says to forgive “trespassers”
I’m lds and I’m proud to say the church I grew up in encouraged people to ask questions we don’t want you to blindly believe like if you ask the question about why did god break my friends arm they will give you different answers and encourage you to keep asking
Growing up autistic and in the church, life was rough. Mass never held my attention, and I never got to participate in the sacraments because of home things. I’m now out of Catholic school and no longer with the church, but happy.
I love your videos your my comfort channel they really help me through my bpd outbursts and depression please keep making videos , love from England ❤️
I'm catholic and I only live my religion the way I'm comfortable with. My family accepts it and I question a lot of things. I think if religion makes you hate other people or even hate yourself, it's not healthy
I questioned my religion when I was told people I knew who were not straight were going to hell and deserved it. I renounced my religion when my friend killed himself and I was told he was going to hell and deserved it. This was when I was in middle school and have no regrets.
I feel this. I'm sorry you had to go through that experience. It's a scary and upsetting experience, especially when it feels like no one is on your side and you don't know how to communicate to feel included or to feel understood. I'm glad to hear you found your answers. Praying for you and hoping for the best.❤✝️
Taboo is the biggest evil of the world. All things should be talked about and communication is the key to all kinds of health. As someone who is currently suffering from religious trauma, not because doubts but because of the hatred and ostracizing I'd suffer if I ever break the perfect child mold I built to show my true colors (gay christian alert), I wish nothing but the best in the same or worse situations. Amazing video, Illy! :)
Even tho I'm an ex-Muslim and have no affiliation with Christianity whatsoever, this was so fucking relatable. I wish no one would ever have to endure such hardship, to lose sight of who they are just because of some ancient stories that people of the time made to make up for their lack of knowledge. But we all know that wish is never coming true
Both me and my friend used to go to church when we were 6. We are both 22 now and we both have religious trauma. Hers was caused by really bad rumors about her family and mine is more life/ other Christians beliefs that are more harsh. We both stepped away and we are happier because of it
Religion doesn't like it when you point out its flaws. Therefore, it's elders, who are all indoctrinated, tell you to "just have faith" aka, "just shut up."
@@QUBIQUBEDI'd Point Out it's Flaws About Why Some Religions Foolishly Believe The Earth Is 60.Thousend Years Old When The Earth is Actually 4.543 Billion Years Old 😁 So Ha
I grew up as Orthodox Christian and I never needed an examination pass in order to attend Communion! The more you know huh, it's very interesting actually
I felt the exact same way when I made my confirmation. I don't go to church anymore, but I do believe in something/someone, and I also believe in science. I also got confused about what to write on school tests, LOL.
I volunteered as a confirmation leader last year in my Lutheran Church (big congregation so we had small groups that broke up). I always encouraged kids to ask me questions because I wanted them to understand their faith and I believe questions should get answered. It must always be remembered though, no one deserves grace on merit, Jesus just chose us despite it. I just hope my involvement has positively affected other kids in that church. I welcome you to church no matter who you are and however you are.
Illy, thank you so much. This is the kind of video I needed. I’ve always felt displaced in the Christian community, it’s why I left. You’ve given me visibility I’ve been searching for all my life. Thank you ♥️
I remember questioning my faith when I reached my teens because I saw so much cruelty happening in the name of Christianity and being a neurodivergent queer girl coming to terms with her sexuality and experiencing a lot of pent up anger from being bullied and emotionally abused, I thought that my natural feelings would send me to hell. This feeling gave me even more anxiety than I was already experiencing. I left the church when I was fifteen and now my spiritual beliefs lean more towards the Pagan side, which always made more sense to me.
Ex Mormon here, always felt like something was wrong with me because I didn't get it like everyone else, I used to pretend that I understood that I felt the spirit, I felt trapped and controlled, it got especially confusing when I realized I was bisexual Then it came crumbling down in 2020 during COVID, and I left and I'm a much happier person now.
Growing up as an autistic person, I always wanted to learn about my religion and pray but when I see people going to church even my grandparents I always thought “How do I pray or what I can say to God if I mess up on what I tell him?” And to this day I still have trouble praying or figuring out what I want to do or what to believe. But my dad told me one day that he doesn’t have a religion. He only believes the Bible by the book itself. And he told me ‘it will take time and patience, even if it takes years’.
amen !! I have a suggestion for praying though, if you ever don't know what do to. A good way is to read the psalms, and pray them back to God. That may sound a little weird, but the Psalms were originally prayers themselves. You basically just read the words back to God, but in your own voice, thinking of your own hardships or triumphs.
I would go to church when I was younger, but now as someone who doesn’t believe in Christian religion and doesn’t attend, I’m glad for the small community we have. I still go to the Brunswick stew making every year to give to the community, despite me no longer believing.
As an autistic girl who grew up in a Christian family (Free Will Baptist) I can kinda relate. Sometimes I’m confused about religion or certain things about it like “What is my role in the church or in gods kingdom?”,”am i doing this right and being a good Christian?”,”Am I ever going to find love?” Etc. I wasn’t able to read the Bible as a kid, due to me being severely dyslexic growing up. Veggie tales, prince of Egypt, and other Christian media became the only way for me to learn about god and the story’s of the Bible. Heck, in my teens I got this book called the Action Bible, which is the entire bible in comic book form. Honestly, this is the best way for me to read the Bible, because I struggle with reading books due to how they’re layed out. Being a Christian is tough, especially when you’re on the spectrum. Thankfully my family and the people in my Christian community don’t mind me asking questions about the Bible or about god. Heck, God loves it when we ask him questions, so don’t be afraid to ask a question to him about anything. Even tho I may not fully understand god or the Bible or anything like that, i know that god loves me, i know he’ll never forsake me or anything, i know…i belong with god, even tho i sometimes feel like i don’t fit into the church. Great video as always Illy! Your videos are always a joy to watch, and you’re still very relatable…I don’t know why.
When I was a kid religion was everything, my family my school pushed so hard for me and other kids to be good and faithful to the church or else, if we got it wrong we where condemned and made to be seen as evil, we weren't aloud to read the bible and only specific sentences and verses where picked out to make it look really pretty and all good, but one day I read a the first bit of the bible Adam and eve and it broke my whole world down, I have since never looked back due to trauma and other events in my life but I highly relate to everything in your video and ye I'm a happy atheist now (:
Amazing video! As someone who also asked the wrong question to the wrong people at chruch and the feeling if being fake, thank you for sharing your story and it nice to see how many other people can relate
0:42 the books and things moving on the bookshelf is an insane amount of detail to me 5:08 here too, the clothing changes and even the brown haired person's scrunchie and hairstyle T-T
Wait wait wait wait wait, that cat question is actually really good, what happens to animals when they die? They can't understand the Bible! What, just because humans sinned means every animal gets to go under the same punishment? I'm genuinely confused now 😭
I've had similar experiences growing up in a religious jewish environment for over 11 years. Beforehand, i grew up reform and i never really questioned my faith until my mom and stepdad converted me, my oldet brother, and themselves to hasidism. For my parents, they found some kind of joy out of the lifestyle but my brother and i hated it. Despite one of judaism's values being to ask questions, i was never taken seriously about mine by my teachers and i was heavily ostracized by my peers bc of our differences in upbringing. It didn't help i was also neurodivergent and a budding queer (and later trans) individual. One thing that made me denounce my faith was when i opened up to a teacher about my troubles with bullying and my home life and how it wasn't fair that god put me through such pain and all i got back was "god does that to test you because he loves you"; considering the extremely traumatic events i experienced in middle school, it made me despise god since. Nowadays, I understand I've got religious trauma and it's very upsetting when you wanna have some kind of community in your religion but I'm happier practicing my own way. I'm just lucky i had better teachers in high school who took my inquiries more seriously.
I’m a 12 year old who recently changed my religion, and I felt the exact same way with my old religion, wondering if god even saw or cared about me, but reading more into other religions I realized Hellenism (as bad as that sounds) was the religion I was comfortable in
I went through something very similar, believing myself to be the see of evil. Turns out, I'm just argumentative. I have since turned away from God and no longer believe he is being filled with love. Like most people you meet on this Earth, what he says and what he does are two very different things. Thank you for having the guts to expose your trauma.
THANK YOU ILLY this video is so genuine. Thank you for being brave enough to put this out into the world. I hope everyone who watches this feels seen ❤
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Growing up autistic, I had many problems with religious education, particularly contradictions I would find, but I am still practicing.
Can I get some examples, I have a few mates who brought this up to me, and neither I and them can recall the verses they said. It would really help me
No but seriously dinosaurs is like where my own belief was put into question. That and general science education which you know is SCIENCE.
It is for this reason I am atheist
@@josevlog945 this exactly. One of my science teachers was christian and I had talked to him about it, but tbh he was in the same 'boat' as me about knowing what to trust and believe
@@josevlog945a lot of the important scientists were Christian
As a fellow autistic person who grew up going to Catholic school, I felt this. They don't really know how to respond to us.
Well they gotta start figuring it out.
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I'm pretty sure my religious environment growing up was heavily autistic (it certainly has been since my teens), so I never really had this problem.
LOOK IN THE URL LMAOOO
It felt so unreal having to memorize all that stuff
teachers are so mean when they tell you to stop asking questions,asking questions is how you oh I don't know *LEARN* teachers should know that,that's the number 1 rule to teaching,ask questions
NEVER stop asking questions and learning.
Teaching religion is hard because they don't know any more than anyone
I felt that when I switched schools
I’m autistic too and became atheist by the time I was 10 because the adults told me “just have faith” and it didn’t satisfy any questions I had.
I saw that as 'shut up' and they said it even after I told them, 'love'.
Sad you went at 10. Not because you were supposed to NOT leave, but because people probably didn't take you serious at the time due to your age. I mean in my country, the republic of turkey, people sure as all the might hate LGBT people. Especially ones in pubrety as they're seen as young and stupid.
What questions do you have
there is evidence that points to God's existence.
@@Iamafanofthings50That is? Please tell
You are so incredibly talented when it comes to story telling. Your way with words and the way you convey emotions is just absolutely brilliant.
Illymations is my boyfriend ❤❤❤
As someone who is questioning their faith this video came at just the right time
Same
same
As someone who recently reGAINED their faith, please be careful! :3
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@@alexdeghost2729 Wait, why must they be careful?
0:31 wow you already sound like me, haven’t watched the full video yet but ended up with some religious trauma in the end for being neurodivergent and lgbtqia+
Update: I needed this video. Thank you. I’m almost 22 and I am still scared of talking to my family about it because the church we went to taught that they fail as parents if I don’t follow the rules which really affected our relationship
wait what we're the same!
Speaking of LGBTQ , the video's ID/URL is *nXLTlyimGAY* .I know it's a bit random but I Just wanted to point out the fun coincidence .
Toxic, toxic toxic. That's absolutely unacceptable! There's parents that pull this same manipulation tactic
Tbh those are legit questions.
It seems really unfair (and somewhat problematic...) to just be quiet, listen, and join the herd mindlessly.
it IS unfair
Not mindlessly wdym
The bible literally says seek the truth. We’re not mindlessly listening tf?
Yeah, you should ask questions, that's how you learn. Faith was never meant to be completely blind, it's something you should search for and seek out. Most problems with the faith come from people who never questioned or actually explored it because they never asked themselves those answers either.
Agree
When I realized I was Bi I started to distance myself from my religion and very religious people of my family because I’ve herd of conversation camps that do very bad things to try and show that this way of life is bad. Illy came out and helped me realize some things with this video, they really are the person we all need in our lives.
> conversation camps
lol. It's any BUT conversation. It's conversion, and it's just as bad.
God loves you no matter your orientation❤❤❤
For almost 16 years I was the most faithful, devout, God-fearing Christian boy... I was praised for being so nice and kind and generous, for embodying what it meant to be a follower of Jesus. But then cracks that had been long withstanding, unanswered questions, inconsistencies began to widen and suddenly everything fell apart. If I'm a girl, what does the Bible say? If my friends are gay, what will happen to them? If we have free will, why did God control Pharaoh? How did the ark work? It was deeper than a few simple questions, and it was too much. How can one keep one's faith if the item of faith makes no sense and can't be proven? I tried to maintain it, but it fell apart under the words and abuse of people toted as the best Christians around. And what for?
I stared at the sky one night, lying on a vast stretch of grass and thought, how beautiful it is to be free from divine purpose? How marveolous that we're so tiny and inconsequential? How much better are actions motivsted out of genuine love than fear of hell?
I have religeous trauma, but I am myself, my own, and not defined by it or Christianity any longer. And that is freeing.
this was so nice to read! i’m glad u found ur place in life!!
I'm so happy for you finding yourself
I am so sorry for what people have made to you, even under the name of Jesus Christ.
My testimony is quite the opposite...
For almost 22 years of my life I was an atheist, and questions like yours is what prevented me from believing in God.
But being an athiest almost got me killed, for purposelesness is a road to suicide... man needs purpose in order to live, and purpose can only come from being created by a creator.
So after many events of my life, I started seeking God, and after seeking Him with all my heart, strength and mind, He came to me and made Himself known through signs and miracles... and then I knew that He is real, He saved my life and He is good.
If you were taught that you should do good out of fear of Hell, you were taught wrong.
The love of God is to love one another, just as He loves us, and there is no spirit of fear that comes from God.
Tell me, what keeps you from trusting in Jesus Christ?
Have you never seen any sign or miracle of His?
@ Tell me them, so I may help you.
One thing we must do when seeking answers is to listen to both sides.
What made me not believe in the first place is only listening to the naturalistic/atheist side…
@@PowerPlayerz100 Heaven is for forgiven people, people who have been forgiven by God from their sins, through the blood and sacrifice of Jesus Christ and have repented from their sins.
Homosexuality is a sin, for it is not the intended purpose of God for man and woman, and the disobedience of God’s law always brings death and wickedness in the end somehow, which attracts God’s judgement against wickedness.
God allowed homosexuality to exist because man sinned against God and caused corruption in all of creation, corrupting the flesh and the spirit, breaking the link between man and God.
Homosexuality can have a number of causes, like: a past event that made one believe that they are born this way or that they are attracted to the same sex, or it can even be spiritual oppression from a demon.
I have seen a testimony from an ex homosexual that instead of praying to God to take the “gay” away, they asked God why were they gay, and God answered her, showing her past events that led her to believe that she was gay, when in fact she was not.
In the end, she did not feel same sex attraction anymore.
This hits close to home especially after Christian camp were there were some f-ed stuff being said i started questioning my faith and not feeling safe in the community. Great video as always ❤
Same
You had a similar experience I did. The camp I went to was a Pentecostal one, and that very camp experience was what led me to swear off religion entirely.
Man, as a christian, nobody should ever be treated like that. That's not what jesus was like.
Nothing like religious trama to create some quality entertainment! Seriously though I love your videos.
✝️✡️🕉️☪️I’m Atheist, but I love you Christian people & other different religions out there. Love yourself and love the world you live in❣️
It's refreshing to see atheists that knows how to respect other ppl's beliefs. Very contradictory to "Christians" who thinks their beliefs deserve entitlement 😔
Awe thank you :3. This christian loves u!!❤
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We appreciate you respecting others beliefs. And we also respect your beliefs. It's very much possible for people with differing opinions to live harmoniously with each other ❤
I’m with this Athiest, I love all of you guys, even with my religious trauma
I CAUGHT IT EARLY! As someone who grew up religious, I'm excited for this video.
SAME
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ME TOO!!
I can relate to this soooo much. My parents also used the “ if you can memorize lines for shows, why can’t you memorize verses?” on me. I feel so terrible about it and the fear of my teacher sitting me down and yelling at me until I cried always maked me scared of going back to church.
That does not sound Christianity of someone to yell at you until you cried
this is the same with the memorizing the Quran too(except probably harder as its in Arabic). id feel guilty that I can remember most movies/songs word for word but no the quran it was sad. I'm doing better now and taking the memorization at my own pace
@ as far as I know, this is an exclusively Lutheran thing which is ironic because Martin Luther didn’t actually say peoples should memorize the Bible. Most other Churches do something different
This is reminding me how I was baptized at 8 while incredibly sick with the flu; the ceremony was more important than my well-being.
because its perfectly safe, Holy Water isn't going to kill you
If it makes you feel better back in the early Christian years some Christians got baptized in prison
@@niamhturner1451 that's not the point
@@niamhturner1451they were SICK.
That's just irresponsible parenting.
I agree with you. I've always said that it's okay to question your religion or to want to know, why you do said religion. The inventions that were made weren't so they can be all normal. It was so they can question and learn about them.
It's okay to question your religion... I do from time to time and I usually have people that do answer my questions and point me to corresponding verses... It's sad that so many don't have that opportunity but I feel like if your not getting answers ur in the wrong church
I'm sorry you had to go through that. Religious faith should never make anyone feel bad about themselves
I renounced my Christianity in my teens. What did it for me was our pastor. He would always say 'come as you are' while also saying 'you must change everything about yourself to please God'. I just learned to love myself and your saying to give that up? No thanks, I'd rather burn.
we enter the shower dirty but to get clean
what is the use of entering the shower if you dont get clean?
You'd rather burn in Hell forever and forever because you accept your sinful nature instead of changing your ways like how Christ taught us?
Absolutely, I enjoy life so much more
@@mignonne_ Threats of "burning in hell" is exactly why religious trauma happens. Your god doesn't sound so loving if he's willing to put people through eternal damnation for being themselves.
@mignonne_ That's basically threatening people with eternal torture if they don't join that boring religion
It's interesting to hear communion is earned in some other churches! I used to go to church with my family when I was pretty young, and communion was done every day for everyone. The more you know! ✨
Yeah thats wild to me since even first time visitors were given communion at the one I went to
As a teen who’s just trying to discover their religion, this video helped me so much to realize i’m not alone in this. I’ve only had my sister, who’s also new to Christianity, help me learn about my faith. And not having a well developed relationship with her has made it really difficult and awkward for me.
Thank you so much for sharing your experience ❤✝️
i’ll pray for you ❤️ following God isn’t easy, but it’s so worth it. even if your prayers aren’t answered immediately, they always will be answered eventually. i’m so happy you’re broadening your horizons and i hope that you can find some kind people within the church instead of ones that make you feel the opposite of God’s love. God bless you
@@ilove_seungminfollowing god isn’t worth it for everyone, it’s traumatic for so many people
I'm Roman Catholic and am always interested in hearing about other religions. In the Catholic religion, despite how by the rules many claim us to be, is very relaxed and we do things different. We never had to memorize the Bible, just prayers. Our classes went from Kindergarten to 8th grade and the last two years were for confirmation classes. During that time, we chose our patron saint and participated in community service. It's what got me interested in doing it in the first place. I was sure in my faith, but I was always reassured that I had to be sure and I could always pull out if I was unsure. I wish more religions were as understanding.
... you see that you're in a trap and you think it's fine because nothing has happened yet? Personally take how I left the religon and actually read the bible, all of it where you find Matthew, Mark, Luke, and John weren't real people so literally almost all the stories (including the last supper) were all made up. They're saying 'Jesus was real' and that he didn't have a body because it went up into heaven? Nah; and even if so then christians are purposefully lying to you.
I also find it interesting hearing about other religions! I too am Roman catholic and I really enjoyed this video. I’m not sure I’d ever receive communion if I had to memorize the entire bible.
Im trying to learn about different religions at the moment so I was just wondering what’s a patron saint?
@@tuna._.fishhh it's basically like the saint u are devote for and get most inspired by her/his testimony, making him/her your guardian. (If I'm wrong just correct me, but that's what I know.)
Just got the worst news of my life and this genuinely made my day
I'm sorry to hear you didn't receive the best news. Hopefully, your day gets better
I can relate to the questions.
My main one was, “If God made Adam and Eve, wouldn’t that make us all related?’
Technically speaking yes 😅
Yesss
I'm surprised no one could answer that to you. In my circle we would often reference that we're all distant cousins
I ALWAYS used to ask that question-
@@ookami5329 nah,they’d usually hear me ask it then immediately change the subject.
7:29 king in the background made me so happy😭🫶
Well, as an (ex) catholic myself, this video are soooo relatable, I was also pressured to do an confirmation, anxiety, and coincidentally or not, I was also bullied in 6th grade… So, basically, it’s also religious trauma lol, adults shouldn’t force their faith into their children like that, this only makes them more resentful about religion, thanks for this video illy, and I’m sorry for what happened to u, stay safe
I don't have that much religious trauma but I got lucky with my confirmation teacher he's my friends dad and he's hilarious.
Same. I’m extremely resentful of Christianity and most if not all Christians I meet
@@eveningjaguarthat’s harsh
@@micellaragua Too bad
I grew up in a catholic family. For the first few years of my life, I was the faith believing child. Always believing whatever my mother, father, or priest told me. I even became an alter boy when I was old enough. I went through first communion and confirmation. For me, what started my faith crisis was thinking about the Norse gods from Norse mythology. I started asking myself “if my religion is correct, does that mean that everyone else is wrong? Are Muslims wrong for not being Christian? Are Hindus wrong for believing in multiple gods?” This started me on the path that took me away from my faith. Eventually I left my church and became agnostics. I don’t believe in god, but I didn’t know what was truly out there. Eventually I became an Athiest, but more along the Agnostic side than full Athiest. I don’t believe that there is an afterlife, but I’m not certain of this.
I love mythology but I know they are just myths. Barely anyone believes in the Old gods anymore and if they were real, they would have been fallen angels. And yea, Muslims, Hindus, Jews are wrong.
There is plenty of evidence of an afterlife. Look up some first hand accounts of near-death experiences and unexplainable ghost sightings. It's fascinating.
@@ForeverMe217what makes them wrong but you right?
@ Not about me. It’s about Jesus. And every religion (other than Judaism for obvious reasons). Respects Jesus and Jesus said: He is the way, the truth and the life. So, yeah, I’m going with Jesus. Hope that helps.
@@ForeverMe217 but how do we know that?
This was so sincere and emotional, Illy. Thank you for making this.
I remember that my school had a field trip to the police station (wow very fun 🙄) and we passed the church school for a shortcut, but then a teacher and nun yelled at us for “trespassing” my dad said that it was ironic because there is a line in the Bible that says to forgive “trespassers”
13:50 I know this might sound random but by pure chance the video's URL's *nXLTlyimGAY* which is a fun coincidence .
Of course bill cipher would know that
Haha true :D
WHAT THE HELL IT IS ??? Congrats on the URL for coming out, I’m so proud of it :D
thanks for that, Bill Cipher.
I’m lds and I’m proud to say the church I grew up in encouraged people to ask questions we don’t want you to blindly believe like if you ask the question about why did god break my friends arm they will give you different answers and encourage you to keep asking
Growing up autistic and in the church, life was rough. Mass never held my attention, and I never got to participate in the sacraments because of home things. I’m now out of Catholic school and no longer with the church, but happy.
I love your videos your my comfort channel they really help me through my bpd outbursts and depression please keep making videos , love from England ❤️
Love from Texas
I’m so glad my family aren’t religious.
Edit: By the way, I don’t have anything against religious.
Same somewhat, Ive seen my friends get scolded at for getting bad grades cause they didn’t “pray hard enough” like.. what the shit.
@@Trix_starz oh gosh that... yeah
I'm christian and I don't have anything against atheism.
As an atheist who grew up Mormon, a lot of this resonated with me. And no I'm not atheist because of the religious trauma, but it certainly helped.
same experience here!
I'm catholic and I only live my religion the way I'm comfortable with. My family accepts it and I question a lot of things. I think if religion makes you hate other people or even hate yourself, it's not healthy
Exactly! Love isn’t for just the people who fit the perfect religious mold, it’s for everyone!
I questioned my religion when I was told people I knew who were not straight were going to hell and deserved it. I renounced my religion when my friend killed himself and I was told he was going to hell and deserved it.
This was when I was in middle school and have no regrets.
Bro what? If your friend killed yourself and people said he deserved it why you blaming it on Jesus?
@@mignonne_ he's not blaming jesus he's blaming the faith for forcing his friend into that situation to begin with.
@@mignonne_also they didn’t say what religion they deconverted from
Oh gosh.
I'm so sorry for your friend and you, I hoe you're doing okay now
@@nightwalker9875 Christianity
I feel this. I'm sorry you had to go through that experience. It's a scary and upsetting experience, especially when it feels like no one is on your side and you don't know how to communicate to feel included or to feel understood. I'm glad to hear you found your answers. Praying for you and hoping for the best.❤✝️
Taboo is the biggest evil of the world. All things should be talked about and communication is the key to all kinds of health. As someone who is currently suffering from religious trauma, not because doubts but because of the hatred and ostracizing I'd suffer if I ever break the perfect child mold I built to show my true colors (gay christian alert), I wish nothing but the best in the same or worse situations. Amazing video, Illy! :)
> Taboo is the biggest evil of the world.
Yet those Christian people were stupid enough to elect someone evil as president. Get the irony?
5:05 Oh dear. I know pretty much exactly where the "maybe the church will fill in the gaps!" Train goes. :(
I was littoraly just watching illymation as this came out!!!!
*literally
You posted! Im so happy❤
I literally have been binging your videos recently and also watched ur Jewish video yesterday
Even tho I'm an ex-Muslim and have no affiliation with Christianity whatsoever, this was so fucking relatable. I wish no one would ever have to endure such hardship, to lose sight of who they are just because of some ancient stories that people of the time made to make up for their lack of knowledge. But we all know that wish is never coming true
Both me and my friend used to go to church when we were 6. We are both 22 now and we both have religious trauma. Hers was caused by really bad rumors about her family and mine is more life/ other Christians beliefs that are more harsh. We both stepped away and we are happier because of it
1:04 what's wrong with asking these questions?
Yeah they kinda need explanations
Religion doesn't like it when you point out its flaws.
Therefore, it's elders, who are all indoctrinated, tell you to "just have faith" aka, "just shut up."
@@QUBIQUBEDI'd Point Out it's Flaws About Why Some Religions Foolishly Believe The Earth Is 60.Thousend Years Old When The Earth is Actually 4.543 Billion Years Old 😁 So Ha
There nothing wrong with asking those questions. You can find it in the Bible
@@ImNotEnoch but what if these questions aren't answered in the Bible?
I grew up as Orthodox Christian and I never needed an examination pass in order to attend Communion! The more you know huh, it's very interesting actually
it's so interesting to learn how others do it!
@@illymationi grew up as nothing!! :D when I found out that Christians got to drink wine under the drinking age my mind was blown😭
@@Trix_starzit’s not usually alcoholic wine
@@illymationhi ;-3
@@Trix_starzif it makes you feel better; I never got wine when I was a Christian. I got grape juice to go with a cracker
I felt the exact same way when I made my confirmation. I don't go to church anymore, but I do believe in something/someone, and I also believe in science. I also got confused about what to write on school tests, LOL.
Damn-
I just realized I have religious trauma 😭😭😭 you opened my eyes thank you ❤️❤️
I volunteered as a confirmation leader last year in my Lutheran Church (big congregation so we had small groups that broke up). I always encouraged kids to ask me questions because I wanted them to understand their faith and I believe questions should get answered. It must always be remembered though, no one deserves grace on merit, Jesus just chose us despite it. I just hope my involvement has positively affected other kids in that church. I welcome you to church no matter who you are and however you are.
I’ve learnt more from this video than I have at church…
Then you need to start paying attention
@@micellaraguanah
@@micellaragua nah
Illy, thank you so much. This is the kind of video I needed. I’ve always felt displaced in the Christian community, it’s why I left. You’ve given me visibility I’ve been searching for all my life. Thank you ♥️
I remember questioning my faith when I reached my teens because I saw so much cruelty happening in the name of Christianity and being a neurodivergent queer girl coming to terms with her sexuality and experiencing a lot of pent up anger from being bullied and emotionally abused, I thought that my natural feelings would send me to hell. This feeling gave me even more anxiety than I was already experiencing. I left the church when I was fifteen and now my spiritual beliefs lean more towards the Pagan side, which always made more sense to me.
Hey Illy glad to see your back because you are one of the best
Great Video Illy, really eye-opening. And I can totally relate to this.
Ex Mormon here, always felt like something was wrong with me because I didn't get it like everyone else, I used to pretend that I understood that I felt the spirit, I felt trapped and controlled, it got especially confusing when I realized I was bisexual
Then it came crumbling down in 2020 during COVID, and I left and I'm a much happier person now.
I went through the same thing but thankfully I had a very nice pastor who helped guide me
awesome
I have adhd, I am Jewish, grew up Christian I had trouble too and feel it glad we have so much in common glad I am not alone
As for what my religious trauma was me finding myself and coming out the closet and finding out that Christianity is very anti gay
Luckly I found out my Jewish heritage and found out that I didn't need Christianity but not to give up on religion at all
so you're Christian... not jewish
Growing up as an autistic person, I always wanted to learn about my religion and pray but when I see people going to church even my grandparents I always thought “How do I pray or what I can say to God if I mess up on what I tell him?” And to this day I still have trouble praying or figuring out what I want to do or what to believe. But my dad told me one day that he doesn’t have a religion. He only believes the Bible by the book itself. And he told me ‘it will take time and patience, even if it takes years’.
amen !! I have a suggestion for praying though, if you ever don't know what do to. A good way is to read the psalms, and pray them back to God. That may sound a little weird, but the Psalms were originally prayers themselves. You basically just read the words back to God, but in your own voice, thinking of your own hardships or triumphs.
@@-V0rtx-I might start doing that, that’s so smart
I would go to church when I was younger, but now as someone who doesn’t believe in Christian religion and doesn’t attend, I’m glad for the small community we have. I still go to the Brunswick stew making every year to give to the community, despite me no longer believing.
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As an autistic girl who grew up in a Christian family (Free Will Baptist) I can kinda relate. Sometimes I’m confused about religion or certain things about it like
“What is my role in the church or in gods kingdom?”,”am i doing this right and being a good Christian?”,”Am I ever going to find love?” Etc. I wasn’t able to read the Bible as a kid, due to me being severely dyslexic growing up. Veggie tales, prince of Egypt, and other Christian media became the only way for me to learn about god and the story’s of the Bible. Heck, in my teens I got this book called the Action Bible, which is the entire bible in comic book form. Honestly, this is the best way for me to read the Bible, because I struggle with reading books due to how they’re layed out. Being a Christian is tough, especially when you’re on the spectrum. Thankfully my family and the people in my Christian community don’t mind me asking questions about the Bible or about god. Heck, God loves it when we ask him questions, so don’t be afraid to ask a question to him about anything. Even tho I may not fully understand god or the Bible or anything like that, i know that god loves me, i know he’ll never forsake me or anything, i know…i belong with god, even tho i sometimes feel like i don’t fit into the church.
Great video as always Illy! Your videos are always a joy to watch, and you’re still very relatable…I don’t know why.
Always ask questions and never just accept easy answers.
They gave me two options that seem opposites.
I chose both.
There are *both* dinosaurs & the creator of everything.
guad damn, those backgrounds are so, so beautiful. Love this. Thank you for blessing me this fine day, illy
The url is crazy the fact that it’s all caps too 😭
OMG YAY SHE UPLOADED❤❤❤
When I was a kid religion was everything, my family my school pushed so hard for me and other kids to be good and faithful to the church or else, if we got it wrong we where condemned and made to be seen as evil, we weren't aloud to read the bible and only specific sentences and verses where picked out to make it look really pretty and all good, but one day I read a the first bit of the bible Adam and eve and it broke my whole world down, I have since never looked back due to trauma and other events in my life but I highly relate to everything in your video and ye I'm a happy atheist now (:
I am 13(M) and also struggling with confirmation class, i promise that you are not the only one.
you're so real about the questions part
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Religious people can be hell sometimes….
(I’m Christian)
Sending BIG hugs.
illybillysillymation is back :D very excited :D
I know someone who was effected by religious trauma thanks for bringing this into light
Religious trauma sounds really tough. I have no experience with it as my parents are both secular but holy smokes the damage this can do is criminal.
Amazing video! As someone who also asked the wrong question to the wrong people at chruch and the feeling if being fake, thank you for sharing your story and it nice to see how many other people can relate
Your videos are so important
Thank you so much I am feeling the same way right now and I feel like god sent me this ❤
0:18 PEACE OUT!
0:42 the books and things moving on the bookshelf is an insane amount of detail to me
5:08 here too, the clothing changes and even the brown haired person's scrunchie and hairstyle T-T
Wait wait wait wait wait, that cat question is actually really good, what happens to animals when they die? They can't understand the Bible! What, just because humans sinned means every animal gets to go under the same punishment? I'm genuinely confused now 😭
I've had similar experiences growing up in a religious jewish environment for over 11 years. Beforehand, i grew up reform and i never really questioned my faith until my mom and stepdad converted me, my oldet brother, and themselves to hasidism. For my parents, they found some kind of joy out of the lifestyle but my brother and i hated it. Despite one of judaism's values being to ask questions, i was never taken seriously about mine by my teachers and i was heavily ostracized by my peers bc of our differences in upbringing. It didn't help i was also neurodivergent and a budding queer (and later trans) individual. One thing that made me denounce my faith was when i opened up to a teacher about my troubles with bullying and my home life and how it wasn't fair that god put me through such pain and all i got back was "god does that to test you because he loves you"; considering the extremely traumatic events i experienced in middle school, it made me despise god since. Nowadays, I understand I've got religious trauma and it's very upsetting when you wanna have some kind of community in your religion but I'm happier practicing my own way. I'm just lucky i had better teachers in high school who took my inquiries more seriously.
love it allready!
With the questions it gives me young Sheldon vibes
I'll never understand religion.
Not that I don't respect those who practice it. But I simply can't grasp the concept of it.
same
This is like hearing the story of my own life and confusion with religion💜 so glad you shared
the "imGAY" at the end of the url LMFAO
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Omg lol
3:50 I never had to do any of that to get communion thank god
yea me to, and I didnt drink anything
Woo new video! I'm so happy!
This animation and art style goes HARD right here 12:45
0:44 VeggieTales reference
I’m a 12 year old who recently changed my religion, and I felt the exact same way with my old religion, wondering if god even saw or cared about me, but reading more into other religions I realized Hellenism (as bad as that sounds) was the religion I was comfortable in
I'm happy that you've found something that you're comfortable with!!!!
I went through something very similar, believing myself to be the see of evil. Turns out, I'm just argumentative. I have since turned away from God and no longer believe he is being filled with love. Like most people you meet on this Earth, what he says and what he does are two very different things. Thank you for having the guts to expose your trauma.
Wdym what he says and what he does?
@HaloMan-813 exactly that. God is nowhere near as merciful as he should be if he was made of love.
@@chrisdunker54 Give me an example
@@HaloMan-813 1 Samuel 15:3-18
@@amphibiousanimations7721 God wanted Samuel to kill the Amakelites because they attacked his people what's your point?
I’m so sorry you had to go through that, religion should never make someone feel upset.
YESSS I LOVE YOUR VIDEOS
THANK YOU ILLY this video is so genuine. Thank you for being brave enough to put this out into the world. I hope everyone who watches this feels seen ❤