I'm so proud of men that realize that being feminine doesn't mean you're a Women. Feminine Men are very important to humanity. You have a role and purpose in life as a Feminine Man.
Many men who identify as trans are feminine but many more are not naturally feminine at all. Not in appearance or interests. Just as some gay men are feminine and some are not. The same for heterosexuals. I find it odd that he categorizes himself as "queer". Is it because he sees himself as non sex stereotypically male? The term "Queer", like "lesbian" and "woman" are being used in ways which represent something very different than its traditionally understood meaning.
I tried Hormones for 2 month and felt Exhausted all the time. Now I dress Hippie Androgynous and have Long hair and a Beard. I found the middle way between my Masculine and Feminine self. I need both Aspects of myself because I am a Whole Human who Embraces all of who I am.
@@bend3rbot lets analyse the nonsense /lies many amongst you believe in: lie: schools are of use (fact. schools keep slavery alive and stands for dumbing down the population of mankind) lie: moon and mars landings, (fact: even masons know they cannot leave - earth is closed system, unless you want to drown, there is no other place created for us to live in.) lie: news channels share truth (fact: these are for politic propaganda) lie: money has a value of its own (fact: it is just a tool of this world, which value has been agreed upon world wide) lie: NASA lies (globe and all....) (fact: NASA stands for TO DECEIVE) - you havn´t searched - have you? lie: the lgbtq++++ propaganda (fact: it is a part of masonry depopulation agenda, 500 000 000 souls, thats their goal.) lie: Evolution and the dinosaurs. (fact: mankind is not hybrid kind) to keep stating that there was an evolution, then we ain´t humans, we aint then mankind, we are then hybrids. Are you a hybrid? Lie: holidays (xmas, Halloween, new year eve and so on) (fact: PAGAN HOLIDAYS, to praise BAAL, the god of this world) lie: U.F.Os (fact: they are demons/evil spirits in high places, against whom we fight daily = spiritual warfare) lie: rules and laws rule the world (fact: signs and symbols of masonry do) lie: believe in being educated (fact: found daily living with the lack of knowledge) lie: religions are ways to heaven (fact: JESUS CHRIST is only way to heaven. Religions, no matter its name = masonic garbage) lie: our dead loved ones stay around to “ghost” (fact: hunting and ghosting is job of demons, not of humans. We, humans, come from GOD and return back to HIM and all the stories of having been seen a ghost - terrifying, scary, dark, cold - again no job of analysing been done here by you- right?) Lie: Humans have no immune system and we need vaccines as these save lives (fact: humans HAVE IMMUNE SYSTEM and vaccines are created for one or two purpose: to kill or to cripple) lie: there is no GOD (fact: There is GOD, who redeems sinners and we are directly created by GOD, Psalms 139:14 I will praise thee; for I am fearfully and wonderfully made: marvellous are thy works; and that my soul knoweth right well.) to keep claiming that there is no GOD and we aint created directly from the dust of the earth, we soon run out logic, regardless to we place “evolution” in our claims or not.) 15 lies, should i go on?
Only a question, does that hairstyle alone make a man look feminine iyo? I remember, some decades back nearly all male rockstars looked that way and I guess most of them did`t want to be perceived as feminine.
@@miriamlana833No, his hair doesn't make him look feminine.... Its his tone of voice, language used and soft demeanor. 😊 He seems like a very sweet guy.
@@RayAlexWilliamsthanks for your story. Are you biologically male? I'm asking because I'm new to all this lgbtq and I'm not familiar with all the terminology.
I'm a detrans woman from FTM in a very similar situation. But on top of health factors and feeling better physically, stronger, more balanced etc I also experienced a deep and intense internal set of changes. My balance issues and physical pain issues, deep sense of resistance etc all healed March thru May this year. I've only started expressing externally as a woman the last 2.5 months, and I empathize some of your challenges now trying to de-masculinize. I hope that this topic can continue to shift us to a focus on deep truth, health, and nature. Both our own and reconnecting with nature outside of us. I'm glad you had great experiences, I too healed and grew a lot into a responsible, successful, capable man. For a while. But now is the time to embrace my new deeper changes and healing. I'm so grateful to find another detrans person I relate to 🙏❤
Have you watched Buck Angel, he likes to talk to people who’ve de transitioned, maybe you could do that? He’s seriously concerned by people being pushed into the ideological side
@@lilacscentedfushias1852 I'm going to be interviewed by Benjamin Boyce soon and I just interviewed for a detrans documentary. It would be crazy cool if Buck Angel ever talked to me, I admired him so much as a kid!
I don't know you, but I'm freaking proud of you for being authentically you! It shouldn't be about anyone else but you. If the transition is making you feel worse than any dysphoria then you are 100% making the right choice. Be yourself! You seem like a great person! ❤
Very interesting. I’m a woman. Never had the option to don or doff my biology. Would never have even tried to. Had it always been easy to “be my true self”? Of course not. This BS that we’re telling ourselves and our young people is so toxic. Life isn’t meant to be easy. Sometimes you just gotta be comfortable with being uncomfortable. That’s life.
Because you are unhappy; you can make others unhappy. A senator said being transgender is like having ice cream for breakfast, lunch, and dinner as he totally missed the point and natal males who are trans are most likely restricting. And I'll tell you this! Nothing is worse for a young person than to see someone like yourself bemoan their sacrifice and complain. That mindset is what makes households dysfunctional and makes kids not want to grow up to be their parents or perhaps not grow up at all. Who wants to get sit at the adult table and be angry?
Dani, life is not easy. I could write a book, I’m sure so many others could too. Puberty can be the most difficult time for young people. My , then, 14 year old daughter told me2 years ago, ‘you have no idea how I feel, you never had hormones’.
Because your cisgender experience applies to all humans? The issue isn’t with trans people. The problem is with society’s obsession with binary and not having sufficient trans healthcare so the already tiny amount who de transition can be even smaller by having better screening and acceptance of agender and non binary people
@@LeMattiekinz I am not “cisgender”. I take great offence to that terminology, not least because it was popularised by people whose intentions were very shady. And the binary is a biological reality. Not a single person on this planet would exist without it! Feel whatever you want to feel, but your feelings do not change the fact that there are two biological sexes. And this video only helps to prove that!
I wish you all the best as you embrace your maleness. The expenditure of mental energy you describe is exactly what I imagined it would be for a trans person. Thank you for the honesty.
I love seeing LGBT people who are chill and operate as individual people, with no loyalty to some dogma or another. Good for you for doing what was right for you then, and what is right for you now!! I transitioned about 10 years ago (FTM) and it has worked out seamlessly for me, but if I ever hit a point where it made sense for me to stop HRT, that’s what I’d do.
I'm a nonbinary transfem and I appreciate this testimony! Transition definitely doesn't fix your life, but most of us are happier than we were before--even if we find ourselves with new problems, they tend to be preferable. For Ray, they weren't, and that's fine too. The point is for people to be happier, and I'm glad we live in a society where people can give it a shot rather than never know. I think a lot of the problem isn't the act of transition itself, but the overly rigid ways we think about it on both the cis and trans sides of the fence. The pressure to "pass", internally and externally, is immense, and it ends up reinforcing restrictive, sexist prescriptions for speech and behavior. It takes work to not let it get to you, whether or not passing is even your goal. What's remarkable is how many of us--almost all of us--prefer to take on that work rather than reverse course.
@@RayAlexWilliams- in Jesus name, I'm so happy you are getting to genuinely love yourself the way you were designed to be- a male in a male's body. Keep growing to be comfortable in your own skin. You're the only who can do that, because that is how you were designed to be even before you were born. Repent and draw closer to Jesus. Obey Acts 2:38 in the Bible. God bless
Thanks for sharing your experiences. Glad you are back on track and that you worked through whatever it was you needed to work through personally . You did obviously experience quite a lot of physical damage but it is good you didn't go the way of surgery.
I work as a pharmacy technician. Most the medication isn’t tested long term, meaning they have no clue what being on pharmaceuticals for years actually does to people. I think you are extremely wise to focus on your health and well being over, trying to sustain a lifestyle to please others. I’m proud of you for having the courage to just be the authentic you.
@@picklesbangyourhead3005 so was Zantac (ranitidine) which was recalled a couple years ago because it was found to cause stomach cancer after long term use, so saying something has been on the market for a long doesn’t mean it’s safe.
HRT for male to female is typically a testosterone block and exogenous estrogen. It's pretty well understood what estrogen and estradiol does to the body, even the male body, at the doses we see for male to female HRT. This is not necessarily an unknown area of medicine. If we required 50 years of testing before we approved any new medicine, then nothing would get done. Certain androgen antagonists, sure, those can get more complicated, depending. But as far as I can tell, there are no red flags or alarms coming out from researchers about these drugs.
Love how honest you are about why you have chosen to de transition. Appreciate the fact that you personally are doing it for your health and to support a less stressful life for yourself. Wishing you a happy and healthy future.
Glad to hear that the return to physical health motivated you and that your body responded so well. The journey somehow allowed you to integrate your psyche and embrace your masculinity. B est of luck! Do you have any advice for young people considering transition?
@@YouHaveAnEffect I'll try to keep it short because RUclips isn't the best medium to type lol. Between all humans are certain expectations no matter how correct or incorrect. When expectations are violated, humans literally experience cognitive tension. Some basic expectations between gender, and this is context dependent, are that men and women should look and operate in certain ways. When a person who is trans, and not passing, it's expected that wherever he or she goes, they will violate gendered expectations. There are consequences for this, some positive, neutral, or negative. It's really a big ask of the majority of people who don't adhere to mainstream, pop gender ideology to change their behaviour in the face of non-passing trans. I'm not sure if this person was passing or not but for people who aren't passing, they'd be embarking on a lifelong, uphill battle trying to get society to see them as they want to be seen. If you have time, check out expectancy violation theory (EVT).
Good for you! Glad you realized it, and glad you are bravely telling your story. Have a family friend who has decide to transition and I am really worried about his health. I am hoping more start realizing this and perhaps he will do the same. Kudos to you
This is so well spoken. Non-judgmental, self aware with no regrets, a bunch of gratitude, and lessons for the vault of life's journey. It makes me sad to see others who are having difficulty detransitioning because they are going through more shame and probably feel even more scrutiny. It's just a pathway. Some people have gender journeys, or sexuality journeys, or relationship journeys, weight/appearance, mental health, it goes on. Sometimes all intertwined. It is just difficult when a journey is more physical (like a gender or weight journey) and therefore more public.
Well done my friend 👍 Here's my thing, I'm biologically female and have breast cancer - my cancer was caused by Estrogen and it worries me the effect that will have in the future on young people who are being given large amounts of these hormones. I see you and you are gorgeous exactly as you are. Bless you 😘
It’s hard to be human and I am happy you’re figuring out that being you is enough. I hope you do an update in a 3-4-5 years, to see how you feel when you’re a few years past detransitioning.
I think the reason the medical professionals aren't worried about what happens when people stop taking those medications is because it hasn't been widely researched. Thank you for sharing the internal process that occurs within someone like you. More people need to highlight the medical aspects of taking medication for LIFE and its potential impact on the body systems functionality long-term.
You are searching for a new form of masculinity. Please keep talking and posting updates. You may be a role model to many and maybe become a famous trendsetter.
Just one step in your lifelong exploration of who you are to yourself and others. There are so many ways to express your own person these days. Trans. Non-binary. Queer. Straight. And things in between. I have begun following a Japanese woman who met her husband when she was male and they had a relationship and that relationship lasted after she transitioned. Congrats on feeling good about this process.
Jesus loves you so much. I'm eighteen years old and I was depressed and anxious, but then Jesus saved me. Now I have hope in an awesome future with Jesus. I just want to say that He wants to save you too. He died for my sin and your sin in the Cross. Now He is alive and His coming is very near. You just need to believe in the death and ressurection of Jesus. If you have any doubts about giving your life to Jesus, answer this comment. Sending lots of love.
Very emotionally mature. You are beautiful, as a male. You are quite androgynous looking, but you do look and sound male, when you state that. I think you are very handsome and manly, a the same time. Congrats on your growth and healing within your gender.
*And this is why people shouldn't demonize people for calling themselves non-binary. you can still dress and act like the opposite sex without having to transition. it's a less invasive option*
Glad you're taking care of you! I'm a woman, like Dani below, and I've never even thought about what a gender identity feels like. It must be rough. Best wishes!
You look good too - your energy and aura are giving strength, health and peace. You're gonna be okay. My ONLY problem with people who go on hormones, puberty blockers, etc. - are the HORMONES !!! Proudly subscribed! One thing though - never be worried or care what others think of you - Be You - cause You seem pretty cool to me - As Is !!
I've been in hormonal transition for 22 months, I started at 27, gave up after 7 months, returned at 31 and have been retraining for almost 2 years. I SUPER support you, and I super understand all these issues, I have a video on my channel about my experience. I'm tired of pronouns, of many things, but I'm still taking the hormones, I really love the effects, they won't make me pass, I just want an orchiectomy, and I'm really in doubt about the silicon, because I'm in this non-binary aspect, What matters is your happiness, but I feel great, there are ways to have safe hormonal therapy (orhiectomy) and transdermal estradiol.
Thank you for sharing your story, Ray. It is really tragic how personal discovery and exploration are used as political bludgeons to downplay the experience of those who are genderqueer. Ultimately hormones, passing training, clothes and adopting social conventions are *tools* to help us understand ourselves better. Some people find comfort in gendered codes and conventions, and good for them! The human experience, however, is too complex for that to be what’s right for everybody who expresses their gender differently. Some people might dislike you for detransitioning, others will applaud you, and hold you up as some sort of anti-trans martyr. Both groups of people are missing the point entirely, which is about figuring out who you are, and what works for you, as unique and beautiful of a human being you are. “Despite everything, it is still you”
It's great that you highlighted the fact that human minds can change over time, and how you do not regret your decisions. Also about how mainstream trans activism have issues instead of feeding transphobic views of different cults to use this as a weapon againts common tran people's lives... And definitely about how trans is not black and white being queer cannot be mapped and catergorized it's just trans people are trying to live up to the expectations of society trying to be the perfect "man" or "woman" because getting passed for one of them in the binary world is the only way for most of them to surivive. Cis people are already inside that trap, now trans people too... I think someone idetifying themselves as trans people is the first way to know that humans cannot be catergorized into two strict caterogories.
What was the impetus for your transition? Now that you’ve gone through a medical process and found it to be incompatible with your health, do you think you were an ideal candidate for medical transition? Do you think other options for people dealing with gender dysphoria should be explored more before presenting medical interventions?
I can only speak about myself, but I was probably not the ideal candidate for medical transition. My reasons for transition are too complicated and personal to explain in a comment. But I didn’t have debilitating gender dysphoria or anything. In retrospect, I probably could have benefited from other explorations but at the time the decision made sense. I try not to think about it in terms of regret.
@@RayAlexWilliams so odd. More and more people are mentioning how they never had dysphoria yet they are put on a medical pathway. Or they mention other mental health conditions that go unaddressed. I’m suspicious of the medical and pharmaceutical industry, especially in the United States. There are too many conflicting interests where these professionals are profiting from their patients’ choice to transition, and yet I don’t think many vulnerable people are presented with the full picture of potential negative outcomes or given alternative therapies to explore.
@@9395gb are you referring to a specific case or state? I’m not sure who sued whom. Either way, the profit incentive was there long before any law suits. In the coming years, I suspect there will be more but from de-transitioners and their families who were told they only had two choices by professionals: a dead child or a trans child.
Thank you for sharing your journey with us. Be true to you. Being trans shouldn't make your life harder and unhealthier. I wish you much love and happiness.
This phenomenon will stop trending in a year or so. People will lose interest in becoming part of it just like they lost interest in lip fillers, buccal fat removal and bbls and Qanon last year. Also how can you replicate a biological women's looks or essence, especially that of the most gorgeous biological women in the world (which let's face it ,that's what they are desperate to get)?? It is not realistic or attainable and never will be. Cosmetic surgeons and endocrinologist aren't beauticians or magicians. And makeup doesn't work either. It can only enhance what's there but it can't turn someone into a woman or supermodel. This is all smoke and mirrors.
@@9395gb Sounds like you have issues! You don't let yourself masculinize in youth and become anorexic to stunt male characteristics especially if hormones and blockers aren't coming. Blockers alone will make a male TALLER than he would have been if male puberty played out. I heard teacher in the 90s describe how one fella couldn't handle a summer growth spurt and when he came back people treated him differently and he killed himself. That failure to either stunt or to except the new body was attributed as a developmental issue and not a gender issue like it is today. Everybody of age wants to push the kid toward acceptance and forcing that but that in my eyes is akin to rape and needs to be met with force.
I fully respect your de-transition and I'm happy that you finally found yourself again. But for allot of us, transitioning DOES fix our lives, and not all of us are thinking too much about passing, how we carry ourselves etc. Just like allot of cis people also don't put that much effort into it. It just comes naturally. I don't necessarily need to be called a woman. Opinions from anti-trans people don't really affect me anymore. I just follow my heart, what sparks joy. And transitioning is hands down the best thing that ever happened to me. I thought I'd be ostracized by Family, friends and potential partners. But the complete opposite happened. Suddenly people approach me instead, which feels weird haha. I thought I was just a lazy, shy and melancholic person, but found out that I'm actually quite driven and outgoing! I just had to be comfortable with myself
U go girl..lol😊 That's good. Our being OK with ourself is where it's at! I'm also mfm No regrets! Just phases of personal development and growth into more and more,what works!....for me! From Post op!❤
Based. You're going to make it, bro. Stay strong. Glad you're back on the righteous path. You have a nice jawline, don't waste it trying to be something you're not. Whether you're gay or straight, you're going to have better luck finding the right person for you by simply being who you are.
@@MrBibi86 never try to fit in cause we will never "fit in", always be yourself without claiming labels. Labels only limit us. Those who see you as you won’t make you feel like you have to try. Around them you won’t have to, it’s pretty cool and boost self esteem a lot
I will admit I started watching with judgment but I realize we're not all the same it's okay for you to be who you are not everyone is born the same and you have a good head on your shoulders you don't have to lift weights or watch football to be a man lol I'm sure you can be a great friend to a lot of people I'm glad you're feeling healthier, I would say people are putting way too much priority on gender when it's really a small part of life just be yourself
@@RayAlexWilliams hello, thank you for sharing. I was just curious and I am always trying to learn more. I have been on HRT for about a year and a half and have already reached Tanner stage 4 in my breast development. I would not consider what I have as small man boobs. I don't really interact with very many people and I really appreciate your response. Have a wonderful day. 🙃☮️🖖
Truth is important. There are all types of men and women. Some more feminine some more masculine, and that's ok. Keep it, don't cut it, because you will NEVER become the opposite sex, it's a delusion, it's impossible, and it won't bring you happiness. Just be you
Prioritize your physical health and well-being. Ray, given what you experienced with your health that looks like a sensible choice. I hope I never have to face that and my medical experience with transition remains positive. I am not sure I could mentally handle detransitioning even if I started to have negative effects from the HRT. I too wanted to stop having to constantly think about gender and did not transition twenty-five years ago because of that. For me that was the wrong decision since my dysphoria never really went away and resurfaced with a vengeance.. Now that I am living female I am more connected with my authentic self. I find it interesting how you felt the need to transition, but now that you have detransitioned you feel more in touch with your authentic self. Do you think your transition was somehow a mistake? If so what put you on the road to transitioning in the first place.
I find it interesting that you never identified as a woman. Why, if you don’t mind me asking did you embark on this medical journey if you weren’t actually “trans” I ask because I have trans people in my life. They don’t subscribe to “ queer” TQIA+ ideology they NEED to be the gender they feel inside. There’s no if ands or buts when it comes to their gender. No hate , no disrespect. You deserve to live your life however you like. It just seems like a lot of mental, physical and medical gymnastics to end up back where you started .
I did the same. I take estrogen and have done so for 12 years. I got denied cross hormones by 6 psychologists for many, many years. I then told a new psychologist that I wanted to be a woman and got treated within a couple months. It wasn't exactly a lie as I definitely didn't want to be a man. In my youth, I starved myself through restricting protein and calories to preserve my body at that size. I was always trying to remain a boy and few psychologists knew what to do with me but I ran the clock out in youth. I had to stop the Tanner progressions which don't stop even later in life. The blockers, estrogen, and later castration actually lowered cholesterol, blood pressure, and triglycerides, and helped me maintain my youth which is what I wanted. For about a decade, I grew my hair out, put in earrings, and carried a purse. That's as far in the female direction as I could take it. It was a half assed effort but I wasn't going to let the sun permanently set on my youth. I had to do it and was scared that doctors would take me off my regimens if I didn't present as female. I've since shortened my hair, pulled out the earing, and carry a back pack. I shall keep the name "Autumn" and be called "he/him". What prompted the change was seeing 3 people live like I always wanted and it was right at the height of debate this winter over banning transgender medicine for youth. All of this really effected me. Furthermore I now have cover with WPATH which allows for a male to identify with his birth gender, get castrated, and then take estrogen as HRT. Non-binary folks have also done a dance around this as well but they weren't really well known when I transitioned. I guess I have a somewhat non-binary transition but my identity is "adult boy" which is someone who brings all of their physical traits from youth into adulthood and lives an extended adolescence where the sun never sets.
@@DorianPaige00 Sounds like you have Gerascophobia (sometimes called Dorian Gray syndrome) a fear of getting old, probably caused by a childhood trauma? It doesn't sound like you're transgender/transsexual.
@@user-jf3lo6ss2i I'll play the non-binary or transwoman card if I have to play it. I did live as a transwoman for over a decade and it was way better than living as a man. So there is some gender issue element to it. If I don't want the masculinization of male puberty then I have gender dysphoria. Once WPATH approved natal males who want to present as male, have an orchiectomy, and take estrogen as HRT, then it was okay to come out. I went almost two decades before I was treated as nobody would sign off but 12 years into transition and I'm happy and keeping with the regimen. It's like a facial surgery would say. Procedure are can be done to make one youthful and feminine at the same time. See, the problem with having a conversation with people like yourself is you'll use "trauma" to take away our medicine as every depressive or maladaptive thought has to be countered and worked through before transition can begin as that was actually was almost codified into law in Missouri. HRT has improved both my mental and physical health and I should be allowed to stay on it. We know what fear is like because we've all had to sit out for years while we waited for hormones. We know what reversal is and we don't want that. If that is taken away, we have nothing holding us back as we once had our rights and now we don't have them. Those are the folks who are at the front of civil wars. Coupled with the fact that you have them going back into natal male puberty, safety should be of huge concern this coming season with transyouth being forced at gun point off of their medicine. This will not go down well! Furthermore who the hell wants to get old. Okay, my ideal age range is maybe 5 years for normal. I looked around and I couldn't find any man I wanted to be like. The holidays were full of men complaining and begrudging and bemoaning their sacrifice and again it wasn't just one person. I had a strained relationship with my father initially but when I told my mother the full extent of what I wanted she boo-hoo-hoo'd it and tried to shame me into masculinization and then it became far worse with her. Luckily I was around 16 when I finally got confronted as I don't think I could have handled my parents behavior at a younger age.
I don't think you as a human need to take on political discourse. I believe you have the right to make choices for yourself. I believe that your success comes from being true to yourself at every point of your life. Thank you for sharing your experiences with others! I'm proud of you ❤
I'm so proud of men that realize that being feminine doesn't mean you're a Women. Feminine Men are very important to humanity. You have a role and purpose in life as a Feminine Man.
I totally agree. I was just talking to someone about that the other day.
Many men who identify as trans are feminine but many more are not naturally feminine at all. Not in appearance or interests.
Just as some gay men are feminine and some are not. The same for heterosexuals.
I find it odd that he categorizes himself as "queer". Is it because he sees himself as non sex stereotypically male?
The term "Queer", like "lesbian" and "woman" are being used in ways which represent something very different than its traditionally understood meaning.
100%
how are feminine men important to society what? lol
Chemical castration has life long effects.
I tried Hormones for 2 month and felt Exhausted all the time. Now I dress Hippie Androgynous and have Long hair and a Beard. I found the middle way between my Masculine and Feminine self. I need both Aspects of myself because I am a Whole Human who Embraces all of who I am.
Interesting wardrobe choice! ❤
@@bend3rbot
lets analyse the nonsense /lies many amongst you believe in:
lie: schools are of use (fact. schools keep slavery alive and stands for dumbing down the population of mankind)
lie: moon and mars landings, (fact: even masons know they cannot leave - earth is closed system, unless you want to drown, there is no other place created for us to live in.)
lie: news channels share truth (fact: these are for politic propaganda)
lie: money has a value of its own (fact: it is just a tool of this world, which value has been agreed upon world wide)
lie: NASA lies (globe and all....) (fact: NASA stands for TO DECEIVE) - you havn´t searched - have you?
lie: the lgbtq++++ propaganda (fact: it is a part of masonry depopulation agenda, 500 000 000 souls, thats their goal.)
lie: Evolution and the dinosaurs. (fact: mankind is not hybrid kind)
to keep stating that there was an evolution, then we ain´t humans, we aint then mankind, we are then hybrids. Are you a hybrid?
Lie: holidays (xmas, Halloween, new year eve and so on) (fact: PAGAN HOLIDAYS, to praise BAAL, the god of this world)
lie: U.F.Os (fact: they are demons/evil spirits in high places, against whom we fight daily = spiritual warfare)
lie: rules and laws rule the world (fact: signs and symbols of masonry do)
lie: believe in being educated (fact: found daily living with the lack of knowledge)
lie: religions are ways to heaven (fact: JESUS CHRIST is only way to heaven. Religions, no matter its name = masonic garbage)
lie: our dead loved ones stay around to “ghost” (fact: hunting and ghosting is job of demons, not of humans. We, humans, come from GOD and return back to HIM and all the stories of having been seen a ghost - terrifying, scary, dark, cold - again no job of analysing been done here by you- right?)
Lie: Humans have no immune system and we need vaccines as these save lives (fact: humans HAVE IMMUNE SYSTEM and vaccines are created for one or two purpose: to kill or to cripple)
lie: there is no GOD (fact: There is GOD, who redeems sinners and we are directly created by GOD, Psalms 139:14
I will praise thee; for I am fearfully and wonderfully made: marvellous are thy works; and that my soul knoweth right well.)
to keep claiming that there is no GOD and we aint created directly from the dust of the earth, we soon run out logic, regardless to we place “evolution” in our claims or not.)
15 lies, should i go on?
That's só great. You should see Orland my politique biography by Paul b preciado
For me hormone theraphy just make me soo happy and do good.❤
You can be a feminine man, nothing wrong with that
Only a question, does that hairstyle alone make a man look feminine iyo? I remember, some decades back nearly all male rockstars looked that way and I guess most of them did`t want to be perceived as feminine.
I’m actually starting to lean more into the masculine side of things!
@@miriamlana833No, his hair doesn't make him look feminine.... Its his tone of voice, language used and soft demeanor. 😊 He seems like a very sweet guy.
@@RayAlexWilliamsthat’s awesome.. you can be proud of your masculine and feminine traits :)
Bring you is who you were born to be. 👍😊
You seem like a very cool and authentic person! Being healthy and natural is so important! Much love to you!
Thank you 🙏
@@RayAlexWilliamsthanks for your story. Are you biologically male? I'm asking because I'm new to all this lgbtq and I'm not familiar with all the terminology.
Yes, born male
I'm a detrans woman from FTM in a very similar situation. But on top of health factors and feeling better physically, stronger, more balanced etc I also experienced a deep and intense internal set of changes. My balance issues and physical pain issues, deep sense of resistance etc all healed March thru May this year. I've only started expressing externally as a woman the last 2.5 months, and I empathize some of your challenges now trying to de-masculinize.
I hope that this topic can continue to shift us to a focus on deep truth, health, and nature. Both our own and reconnecting with nature outside of us. I'm glad you had great experiences, I too healed and grew a lot into a responsible, successful, capable man. For a while. But now is the time to embrace my new deeper changes and healing. I'm so grateful to find another detrans person I relate to 🙏❤
Outside of your imagination, you we’re never actually a man.
“Deep truth, health, and nature”-well said and totally resonate with that. Wishing you well on your journey
Have you watched Buck Angel, he likes to talk to people who’ve de transitioned, maybe you could do that? He’s seriously concerned by people being pushed into the ideological side
@@lilacscentedfushias1852 I'm going to be interviewed by Benjamin Boyce soon and I just interviewed for a detrans documentary. It would be crazy cool if Buck Angel ever talked to me, I admired him so much as a kid!
I don't know you, but I'm freaking proud of you for being authentically you! It shouldn't be about anyone else but you. If the transition is making you feel worse than any dysphoria then you are 100% making the right choice. Be yourself! You seem like a great person! ❤
Transitioning takes too much mental energy. All of the mental gymnastics must be exhausting. It's good for you to share those feelings with others.
meaning he was not trans at all.
@@monicacarolina6480But the doctors who treated him said he was. Do you believe in "Science"?
@@monicacarolina6480 no one is.
Very interesting. I’m a woman. Never had the option to don or doff my biology. Would never have even tried to. Had it always been easy to “be my true self”? Of course not. This BS that we’re telling ourselves and our young people is so toxic. Life isn’t meant to be easy. Sometimes you just gotta be comfortable with being uncomfortable. That’s life.
Because you are unhappy; you can make others unhappy. A senator said being transgender is like having ice cream for breakfast, lunch, and dinner as he totally missed the point and natal males who are trans are most likely restricting. And I'll tell you this! Nothing is worse for a young person than to see someone like yourself bemoan their sacrifice and complain. That mindset is what makes households dysfunctional and makes kids not want to grow up to be their parents or perhaps not grow up at all. Who wants to get sit at the adult table and be angry?
Dani, life is not easy. I could write a book, I’m sure so many others could too. Puberty can be the most difficult time for young people. My , then, 14 year old daughter told me2 years ago, ‘you have no idea how I feel, you never had hormones’.
Because your cisgender experience applies to all humans? The issue isn’t with trans people. The problem is with society’s obsession with binary and not having sufficient trans healthcare so the already tiny amount who de transition can be even smaller by having better screening and acceptance of agender and non binary people
@@LeMattiekinz I am not “cisgender”. I take great offence to that terminology, not least because it was popularised by people whose intentions were very shady. And the binary is a biological reality. Not a single person on this planet would exist without it! Feel whatever you want to feel, but your feelings do not change the fact that there are two biological sexes. And this video only helps to prove that!
@@LeMattiekinz But non-binary people sometimes need/want hormones.
I wish you all the best as you embrace your maleness. The expenditure of mental energy you describe is exactly what I imagined it would be for a trans person. Thank you for the honesty.
So glad you didn't do any surgeries. All the best in the future and thanks for sharing.
I love seeing LGBT people who are chill and operate as individual people, with no loyalty to some dogma or another. Good for you for doing what was right for you then, and what is right for you now!! I transitioned about 10 years ago (FTM) and it has worked out seamlessly for me, but if I ever hit a point where it made sense for me to stop HRT, that’s what I’d do.
I'm a nonbinary transfem and I appreciate this testimony! Transition definitely doesn't fix your life, but most of us are happier than we were before--even if we find ourselves with new problems, they tend to be preferable. For Ray, they weren't, and that's fine too. The point is for people to be happier, and I'm glad we live in a society where people can give it a shot rather than never know. I think a lot of the problem isn't the act of transition itself, but the overly rigid ways we think about it on both the cis and trans sides of the fence. The pressure to "pass", internally and externally, is immense, and it ends up reinforcing restrictive, sexist prescriptions for speech and behavior. It takes work to not let it get to you, whether or not passing is even your goal. What's remarkable is how many of us--almost all of us--prefer to take on that work rather than reverse course.
Congratulations 🎉- I hope you will continue to love yourself and embrace life.
Thank you! And that’s the plan
@@RayAlexWilliams- in Jesus name, I'm so happy you are getting to genuinely love yourself the way you were designed to be- a male in a male's body. Keep growing to be comfortable in your own skin. You're the only who can do that, because that is how you were designed to be even before you were born.
Repent and draw closer to Jesus. Obey Acts 2:38 in the Bible. God bless
Thanks for sharing your experiences. Glad you are back on track and that you worked through whatever it was you needed to work through personally . You did obviously experience quite a lot of physical damage but it is good you didn't go the way of surgery.
I work as a pharmacy technician. Most the medication isn’t tested long term, meaning they have no clue what being on pharmaceuticals for years actually does to people. I think you are extremely wise to focus on your health and well being over, trying to sustain a lifestyle to please others. I’m proud of you for having the courage to just be the authentic you.
Lupron has been around for awhile
@@picklesbangyourhead3005 so was Zantac (ranitidine) which was recalled a couple years ago because it was found to cause stomach cancer after long term use, so saying something has been on the market for a long doesn’t mean it’s safe.
HRT for male to female is typically a testosterone block and exogenous estrogen. It's pretty well understood what estrogen and estradiol does to the body, even the male body, at the doses we see for male to female HRT. This is not necessarily an unknown area of medicine. If we required 50 years of testing before we approved any new medicine, then nothing would get done. Certain androgen antagonists, sure, those can get more complicated, depending. But as far as I can tell, there are no red flags or alarms coming out from researchers about these drugs.
Many medications are not tested long term as they are new. That's not the same for hormones.
Thanks for sharing. It sounds as if you did some deep soul searching and realized that you can be happy just bring you!
Love how honest you are about why you have chosen to de transition. Appreciate the fact that you personally are doing it for your health and to support a less stressful life for yourself. Wishing you a happy and healthy future.
Thank you 🙏
Congratulations! This is the bravest thing I've heard anyone say in a LONG time. I'm sorry your health was negatively affected.
Happy to hear your taking a healthy approach to life. Wishing you all the good things.
I’m glad that you’re learning to be comfortable with yourself. You are always enough.
This.
I love your words here.👍
Good for you! Glad to see you're feeling good. You actually sound freed up 😊 Blessings
Thank you for your honesty. Wishing you everything good in life ! You are very brave !
Thank you for sharing so honestly about such a personal topic. 💕🙏
You are so welcome!
Glad to hear that the return to physical health motivated you and that your body responded so well. The journey somehow allowed you to integrate your psyche and embrace your masculinity. B est of luck!
Do you have any advice for young people considering transition?
Hey Ray… thanks for sharing your story. Great job!
You explained things very well, Ray. Glad you're concentrating on your health.
Sounds like you matured. I especially took note of how considerate you are on violating expectations (I'm a social psychologist). More power to you.
That’s a really interesting comment! Good topic to discuss and think about. I would like to hear more of your thoughts or explain further
@@YouHaveAnEffect I'll try to keep it short because RUclips isn't the best medium to type lol. Between all humans are certain expectations no matter how correct or incorrect. When expectations are violated, humans literally experience cognitive tension. Some basic expectations between gender, and this is context dependent, are that men and women should look and operate in certain ways. When a person who is trans, and not passing, it's expected that wherever he or she goes, they will violate gendered expectations. There are consequences for this, some positive, neutral, or negative.
It's really a big ask of the majority of people who don't adhere to mainstream, pop gender ideology to change their behaviour in the face of non-passing trans. I'm not sure if this person was passing or not but for people who aren't passing, they'd be embarking on a lifelong, uphill battle trying to get society to see them as they want to be seen. If you have time, check out expectancy violation theory (EVT).
@@DubG9 thanks! That helps and I will look up EVT!
@@DubG9btw he has a new video out today with an update!
@@YouHaveAnEffect thanks. I'll check it out. These de-transition stories are incredibly interesting to me.
Good for you! Glad you realized it, and glad you are bravely telling your story. Have a family friend who has decide to transition and I am really worried about his health. I am hoping more start realizing this and perhaps he will do the same. Kudos to you
This is so well spoken. Non-judgmental, self aware with no regrets, a bunch of gratitude, and lessons for the vault of life's journey. It makes me sad to see others who are having difficulty detransitioning because they are going through more shame and probably feel even more scrutiny. It's just a pathway. Some people have gender journeys, or sexuality journeys, or relationship journeys, weight/appearance, mental health, it goes on. Sometimes all intertwined. It is just difficult when a journey is more physical (like a gender or weight journey) and therefore more public.
Very brave and honest of you. Nice job
Thank you!
"Back on line" is a great way of putting it.
I’m glad you’re feeling better and hope your message reaches people going through the same process hopefully before they start transitioning
Well done my friend 👍 Here's my thing, I'm biologically female and have breast cancer - my cancer was caused by Estrogen and it worries me the effect that will have in the future on young people who are being given large amounts of these hormones. I see you and you are gorgeous exactly as you are. Bless you 😘
Must be exhausting to focus so much on oneselfe.
There's a discomfort and it prevents folks from doing things.
If you don’t focus on your self then who will.
Narcissism?
It’s hard to be human and I am happy you’re figuring out that being you is enough. I hope you do an update in a 3-4-5 years, to see how you feel when you’re a few years past detransitioning.
I think the reason the medical professionals aren't worried about what happens when people stop taking those medications is because it hasn't been widely researched. Thank you for sharing the internal process that occurs within someone like you. More people need to highlight the medical aspects of taking medication for LIFE and its potential impact on the body systems functionality long-term.
No. It's because suing them for medical malpractice will be difficult. This is why they aren't worried.
You are searching for a new form of masculinity. Please keep talking and posting updates. You may be a role model to many and maybe become a famous trendsetter.
Just one step in your lifelong exploration of who you are to yourself and others. There are so many ways to express your own person these days. Trans. Non-binary. Queer. Straight. And things in between. I have begun following a Japanese woman who met her husband when she was male and they had a relationship and that relationship lasted after she transitioned. Congrats on feeling good about this process.
Jesus loves you so much. I'm eighteen years old and I was depressed and anxious, but then Jesus saved me. Now I have hope in an awesome future with Jesus. I just want to say that He wants to save you too. He died for my sin and your sin in the Cross. Now He is alive and His coming is very near. You just need to believe in the death and ressurection of Jesus. If you have any doubts about giving your life to Jesus, answer this comment. Sending lots of love.
Ray, I’d really like to hear your thoughts of the commonality (overlap) of AGP and tech jobs/careers.
I think the correlation is likely explained by another correlation: that of autism and AGP.
Very emotionally mature. You are beautiful, as a male. You are quite androgynous looking, but you do look and sound male, when you state that. I think you are very handsome and manly, a the same time. Congrats on your growth and healing within your gender.
*And this is why people shouldn't demonize people for calling themselves non-binary. you can still dress and act like the opposite sex without having to transition. it's a less invasive option*
Underrated comment.
I would call you androgynous not non-binary
Glad you're taking care of you! I'm a woman, like Dani below, and I've never even thought about what a gender identity feels like. It must be rough. Best wishes!
You look good too - your energy and aura are giving strength, health and peace. You're gonna be okay. My ONLY problem with people who go on hormones, puberty blockers, etc. - are the HORMONES !!! Proudly subscribed! One thing though - never be worried or care what others think of you - Be You - cause You seem pretty cool to me - As Is !!
Very good video! You cover both the medical and psychological issues.
I didn’t see any of your videos before but you seem happy and that’s the main thing👍
Nice job, I am glad you are on the path to health.
I've been in hormonal transition for 22 months, I started at 27, gave up after 7 months, returned at 31 and have been retraining for almost 2 years. I SUPER support you, and I super understand all these issues, I have a video on my channel about my experience. I'm tired of pronouns, of many things, but I'm still taking the hormones, I really love the effects, they won't make me pass, I just want an orchiectomy, and I'm really in doubt about the silicon, because I'm in this non-binary aspect, What matters is your happiness, but I feel great, there are ways to have safe hormonal therapy (orhiectomy) and transdermal estradiol.
Wishing all the best blessings
Thank you 🙏
Thanks for sharing your point of view.
Ray, do you think you still would have detransitioned even if you did not have the negative health issues from hormones? I am curious about this.
Prayers for you That you accept and continue to love yourself as you are.
Can I ask why you originally transitioned? I've been taking HRT for about 10 months, and well, I'm watching this video.
Thank you for sharing your story, Ray. It is really tragic how personal discovery and exploration are used as political bludgeons to downplay the experience of those who are genderqueer. Ultimately hormones, passing training, clothes and adopting social conventions are *tools* to help us understand ourselves better. Some people find comfort in gendered codes and conventions, and good for them! The human experience, however, is too complex for that to be what’s right for everybody who expresses their gender differently. Some people might dislike you for detransitioning, others will applaud you, and hold you up as some sort of anti-trans martyr. Both groups of people are missing the point entirely, which is about figuring out who you are, and what works for you, as unique and beautiful of a human being you are. “Despite everything, it is still you”
It's great that you highlighted the fact that human minds can change over time, and how you do not regret your decisions. Also about how mainstream trans activism have issues instead of feeding transphobic views of different cults to use this as a weapon againts common tran people's lives... And definitely about how trans is not black and white being queer cannot be mapped and catergorized it's just trans people are trying to live up to the expectations of society trying to be the perfect "man" or "woman" because getting passed for one of them in the binary world is the only way for most of them to surivive. Cis people are already inside that trap, now trans people too... I think someone idetifying themselves as trans people is the first way to know that humans cannot be catergorized into two strict caterogories.
❤ I really hope you have a safe and healthy de transition.
What was the impetus for your transition? Now that you’ve gone through a medical process and found it to be incompatible with your health, do you think you were an ideal candidate for medical transition? Do you think other options for people dealing with gender dysphoria should be explored more before presenting medical interventions?
I can only speak about myself, but I was probably not the ideal candidate for medical transition. My reasons for transition are too complicated and personal to explain in a comment. But I didn’t have debilitating gender dysphoria or anything. In retrospect, I probably could have benefited from other explorations but at the time the decision made sense. I try not to think about it in terms of regret.
@@RayAlexWilliams so odd. More and more people are mentioning how they never had dysphoria yet they are put on a medical pathway. Or they mention other mental health conditions that go unaddressed. I’m suspicious of the medical and pharmaceutical industry, especially in the United States. There are too many conflicting interests where these professionals are profiting from their patients’ choice to transition, and yet I don’t think many vulnerable people are presented with the full picture of potential negative outcomes or given alternative therapies to explore.
Either way, I hope the path you’re on now makes you healthy and happy.
@@Amanda-xx7sjthe activists sued for gender affirming care though. So I'm not sure if the medical industry can be fully blamed.
@@9395gb are you referring to a specific case or state? I’m not sure who sued whom. Either way, the profit incentive was there long before any law suits. In the coming years, I suspect there will be more but from de-transitioners and their families who were told they only had two choices by professionals: a dead child or a trans child.
Thank you for sharing your journey with us. Be true to you. Being trans shouldn't make your life harder and unhealthier. I wish you much love and happiness.
I pray this will be my son sometime soon.
This phenomenon will stop trending in a year or so. People will lose interest in becoming part of it just like they lost interest in lip fillers, buccal fat removal and bbls and Qanon last year.
Also how can you replicate a biological women's looks or essence, especially that of the most gorgeous biological women in the world (which let's face it ,that's what they are desperate to get)?? It is not realistic or attainable and never will be.
Cosmetic surgeons and endocrinologist aren't beauticians or magicians. And makeup doesn't work either. It can only enhance what's there but it can't turn someone into a woman or supermodel. This is all smoke and mirrors.
@@9395gb Sounds like you have issues! You don't let yourself masculinize in youth and become anorexic to stunt male characteristics especially if hormones and blockers aren't coming. Blockers alone will make a male TALLER than he would have been if male puberty played out. I heard teacher in the 90s describe how one fella couldn't handle a summer growth spurt and when he came back people treated him differently and he killed himself. That failure to either stunt or to except the new body was attributed as a developmental issue and not a gender issue like it is today. Everybody of age wants to push the kid toward acceptance and forcing that but that in my eyes is akin to rape and needs to be met with force.
Love your child … as long as they are thriving happy and having their needs met be grateful
I fully respect your de-transition and I'm happy that you finally found yourself again. But for allot of us, transitioning DOES fix our lives, and not all of us are thinking too much about passing, how we carry ourselves etc. Just like allot of cis people also don't put that much effort into it. It just comes naturally. I don't necessarily need to be called a woman. Opinions from anti-trans people don't really affect me anymore. I just follow my heart, what sparks joy. And transitioning is hands down the best thing that ever happened to me. I thought I'd be ostracized by Family, friends and potential partners. But the complete opposite happened. Suddenly people approach me instead, which feels weird haha. I thought I was just a lazy, shy and melancholic person, but found out that I'm actually quite driven and outgoing! I just had to be comfortable with myself
Wow!!!! I had no idea it effects your health so much!!!!! I hope Your Health improves!!!!! ❤❤❤❤❤
U go girl..lol😊
That's good.
Our being OK with ourself is where it's at!
I'm also mfm
No regrets!
Just phases of personal development and growth into more and more,what works!....for me!
From Post op!❤
Honestly good on you for realizing that it's a times a scam. I'm a tomboy female who occasionally dresses well girly. I never wanted to transition
Thank you for being authentic.
Thank goodness you haven't cut anything ❤so happy for you 👌
Good for you. Embrace your uniqueness and enjoy your new found health.
Thank you 🙏
you are very brave ❤ best wishes for you!
Based. You're going to make it, bro. Stay strong. Glad you're back on the righteous path. You have a nice jawline, don't waste it trying to be something you're not. Whether you're gay or straight, you're going to have better luck finding the right person for you by simply being who you are.
and what is the righteous path?
@@MrBibi86 Not mutilating your privates, pumping your body with estrogen, and wearing dresses.
@@MrBibi86 never try to fit in cause we will never "fit in", always be yourself without claiming labels. Labels only limit us. Those who see you as you won’t make you feel like you have to try. Around them you won’t have to, it’s pretty cool and boost self esteem a lot
>you have a nice jawline
lmaooo go the fuck outside
Welcome back to simplicity❤️ appreciate your honesty
I will admit I started watching with judgment but I realize we're not all the same it's okay for you to be who you are not everyone is born the same and you have a good head on your shoulders you don't have to lift weights or watch football to be a man lol I'm sure you can be a great friend to a lot of people I'm glad you're feeling healthier, I would say people are putting way too much priority on gender when it's really a small part of life just be yourself
I actually do lift weights 😎
@@RayAlexWilliams good it's healthy lol I was just generalizing one doesn't have to be super masculine to be manly I wish you luck stranger
I have a question. Did you not have any breast growth after 8 years of hormone replacement therapy?
I did. I now have small man boobs.
@@RayAlexWilliams hello, thank you for sharing. I was just curious and I am always trying to learn more. I have been on HRT for about a year and a half and have already reached Tanner stage 4 in my breast development. I would not consider what I have as small man boobs. I don't really interact with very many people and I really appreciate your response. Have a wonderful day. 🙃☮️🖖
You just grew up! Proud of you! I am very conservative I think your life will be much more important and fun! than your past!
that’s not the point of the video
Wishing you well and future good health. ❤
The social norms and expectations of being a female is soooo much. Idk why ppl want to transition. Thank you for sharing.
Truth is important. There are all types of men and women. Some more feminine some more masculine, and that's ok. Keep it, don't cut it, because you will NEVER become the opposite sex, it's a delusion, it's impossible, and it won't bring you happiness. Just be you
Huge step forward. Cool!
Thanks for sharing your story
Is this your normal voice and did your voice change at all after the estrogene years?
I KNEW IT!!!! Rachel has beautiful curly hair!! But it looks good on Ray, too!!
Prioritize your physical health and well-being. Ray, given what you experienced with your health that looks like a sensible choice. I hope I never have to face that and my medical experience with transition remains positive. I am not sure I could mentally handle detransitioning even if I started to have negative effects from the HRT. I too wanted to stop having to constantly think about gender and did not transition twenty-five years ago because of that. For me that was the wrong decision since my dysphoria never really went away and resurfaced with a vengeance.. Now that I am living female I am more connected with my authentic self. I find it interesting how you felt the need to transition, but now that you have detransitioned you feel more in touch with your authentic self. Do you think your transition was somehow a mistake? If so what put you on the road to transitioning in the first place.
Your very handsome ... glad you did that and you feel positive!
Wow - Great Video
I find it interesting that you never identified as a woman. Why, if you don’t mind me asking did you embark on this medical journey if you weren’t actually “trans”
I ask because I have trans people in my life. They don’t subscribe to “ queer” TQIA+ ideology they NEED to be the gender they feel inside. There’s no if ands or buts when it comes to their gender.
No hate , no disrespect. You deserve to live your life however you like.
It just seems like a lot of mental, physical and medical gymnastics to end up back where you started .
Hell if I know. The mind is a weird thing.
Did you marry a woman or a man?
I did the same. I take estrogen and have done so for 12 years. I got denied cross hormones by 6 psychologists for many, many years. I then told a new psychologist that I wanted to be a woman and got treated within a couple months. It wasn't exactly a lie as I definitely didn't want to be a man. In my youth, I starved myself through restricting protein and calories to preserve my body at that size. I was always trying to remain a boy and few psychologists knew what to do with me but I ran the clock out in youth. I had to stop the Tanner progressions which don't stop even later in life. The blockers, estrogen, and later castration actually lowered cholesterol, blood pressure, and triglycerides, and helped me maintain my youth which is what I wanted. For about a decade, I grew my hair out, put in earrings, and carried a purse. That's as far in the female direction as I could take it. It was a half assed effort but I wasn't going to let the sun permanently set on my youth. I had to do it and was scared that doctors would take me off my regimens if I didn't present as female. I've since shortened my hair, pulled out the earing, and carry a back pack. I shall keep the name "Autumn" and be called "he/him".
What prompted the change was seeing 3 people live like I always wanted and it was right at the height of debate this winter over banning transgender medicine for youth. All of this really effected me. Furthermore I now have cover with WPATH which allows for a male to identify with his birth gender, get castrated, and then take estrogen as HRT. Non-binary folks have also done a dance around this as well but they weren't really well known when I transitioned. I guess I have a somewhat non-binary transition but my identity is "adult boy" which is someone who brings all of their physical traits from youth into adulthood and lives an extended adolescence where the sun never sets.
@@DorianPaige00 Sounds like you have Gerascophobia (sometimes called Dorian Gray syndrome) a fear of getting old, probably caused by a childhood trauma? It doesn't sound like you're transgender/transsexual.
@@user-jf3lo6ss2i I'll play the non-binary or transwoman card if I have to play it. I did live as a transwoman for over a decade and it was way better than living as a man. So there is some gender issue element to it. If I don't want the masculinization of male puberty then I have gender dysphoria. Once WPATH approved natal males who want to present as male, have an orchiectomy, and take estrogen as HRT, then it was okay to come out. I went almost two decades before I was treated as nobody would sign off but 12 years into transition and I'm happy and keeping with the regimen. It's like a facial surgery would say. Procedure are can be done to make one youthful and feminine at the same time.
See, the problem with having a conversation with people like yourself is you'll use "trauma" to take away our medicine as every depressive or maladaptive thought has to be countered and worked through before transition can begin as that was actually was almost codified into law in Missouri. HRT has improved both my mental and physical health and I should be allowed to stay on it. We know what fear is like because we've all had to sit out for years while we waited for hormones. We know what reversal is and we don't want that. If that is taken away, we have nothing holding us back as we once had our rights and now we don't have them. Those are the folks who are at the front of civil wars. Coupled with the fact that you have them going back into natal male puberty, safety should be of huge concern this coming season with transyouth being forced at gun point off of their medicine. This will not go down well!
Furthermore who the hell wants to get old. Okay, my ideal age range is maybe 5 years for normal. I looked around and I couldn't find any man I wanted to be like. The holidays were full of men complaining and begrudging and bemoaning their sacrifice and again it wasn't just one person. I had a strained relationship with my father initially but when I told my mother the full extent of what I wanted she boo-hoo-hoo'd it and tried to shame me into masculinization and then it became far worse with her. Luckily I was around 16 when I finally got confronted as I don't think I could have handled my parents behavior at a younger age.
My big question do you get back your production of sperm to be able to impregnate someone again after on hrt 8 years?
I haven’t had my fertility tested yet
Congratulations on accepting yourself for who you are!
Thank you 🙏
Love, love this story! One of the lucky ones!❤
Word from the wise, anything synthetic is bad for your health. Facts
Thank God. You are a beautiful man!!!!!
I don't think you as a human need to take on political discourse. I believe you have the right to make choices for yourself. I believe that your success comes from being true to yourself at every point of your life. Thank you for sharing your experiences with others! I'm proud of you ❤
Good for you!
Good on you!! 🥰
What was your dead-name?
You are awesome!!!!
Good for you. Live your truth!
8 years on a t blocker that would have killed me spiro is so nasty feel for anyone on that pill.
Congratulations on just being you!
Way to go, being true to yourself!
Thank god you changed your mind
Everyone has their own journey!
Are you the guy who challenged Matt Walsh?