For what it's worth, I'm sorry she's not here now, but I'm very glad that you are. You do good work, and help people Anna; and just the work you have done on yourself is an inspiration. I think your sister would be very proud of you. Your fans are.
I celebrate my dad's birthday by sitting down listening to all of Led Zeppelins songs smoking a joint like he would. I will do that till the day I die. It's been almost 3 years since I lost my dad. RIP dad! Hope you have all the weed and infinite rock and roll up there.
"if they were alive" - my brother has been missing for almost 23 years, so the "if" is very literal in my case, even though you know the truth deep down.
Its so beautiful to honor someone's life after they have passed away. I know someone who has lost their son but on his bday every year, they keep a small gathering of his close friends and watch videos and clips of him and cook his favorite meals to cherish every memory they had with him.
Hey Anna! Your Surviving Suicide excerpts helped me go through the loss of my sister, especially that first year. I don't know if you'll read this, but I hope that you'll know and see how many people you've helped and continue to help every day.
@@Lioness9885 I'm so sorry. You are not alone. It's on Anna's website tumblr: drive.google.com/file/d/0B0SH-RHW5vemelBFdGlfSTFnMTg/edit?resourcekey=0-uJ60WWxvgaH9FEAZBTWDPQ
My father passed away in July. We weren't on speaking terms for seven years. I didn't see him but he tried to reach out to me many times. He wished me happy birthday and Christmas but I just was angry. I feel it. I feel the regret about not taking the chance to face that anger. Truth be told, I miss him and it's so weird to think I won't be able to speak to him ever again. The only solace I had was that my father's best friends let me know he loved me and that he's proud of what I've become. I don't expect these feelings to change, I think they're in stone. I feel like I'm just going to learn to live with it. His birthday is in March, it's awhile from now, but it'll be the first time in now eight years that I'll wished him happy birthday. I'm going to get him a wrench to place on his grave.
I had a somewhat similar experience with my dad, but it's been 4 years, and his death anniversary was this week. I was enraged after all he did, but I also grieved his loss intensely for longer than a year. Offer yourself kindness and compassion in order to forgive yourself and allow the anger to simply be and cool down by itself. The feelings soften and change when you are gentle with yourself and allow the pain and hurt to heal.
Thank you for posting about this and letting us in on something deeply personal to you. I lost my younger brother a little over five years ago when he was 29, and I had just turned 30. In the time that has passed, I’ve learned and now better understand loss and grief. A person who says that “the pain will lessen with time” has probably never lost someone close to them. Time only seems to expand the irreparable hole in my heart. With each passing day I only feel a deeper longing for his presence. In this universe that now exists without him physically, he remains with me in every thought, decision and step that I take. Just as a limb can be physically removed from a person’s body, the feeling of that limb will always remain.
In a similar vein, I lost my brother last year. There's not a day that goes by that I don't think of him, or I'm reminded of him by something. He was the kindest person I know- and I'll miss him until I die. I have your book and been meaning to read it, but had to pause after the first couple chapters. I'll make my way through it some day. Definitely agree with your sentiments- wishing you the best Anna
Your channel's helped a lot of people, myself included, and probably saved some lives, too. I think wherever she is, she's proud to have you as her sister.
I feel you so much when you said that you've lived more of your life without your sister than with her. It's the same for me with my brother and it just feels so strange that he feels like this massive part of me even though I've lived the past 15 years without him. Also that feeling of wondering what they would be like and look like now. I'm the youngest of three, but I lost both my brother and sister. I found it really surreal when I "grew older" than both of them. They always seemed so much bigger and more grown up, but now it feels like I've become the big sister.
Losing a sibling is such a painful experience. It’s been 11 years for me, and it still feels like it was yesterday. Thank you for sharing this great perspective with us ❤
When i lost my mom i had this fear that i would forget what my mom looked like, which had never entered my mind before til then. I love you. I love your channel. Thank you for sharing.
I just lost my nan so once again Anna, you've uploaded at the perfect time for me. Grief is hard, like really hard but hearing brilliant wisdom like this helps a lot. Thank you for being you 🙂
Happy birthday Christina! Anna, I’ve lost My parents and all my grandparents & one brother so i feel where you are coming from. Unfortunately, it’s part of life & the sadness part of life at that. I Love the way you think & how well you express yourself. Thank you for sharing! ❤❤❤
Every time I want to end it all, I just remember my siblings and I wouldn’t want them to go through that trauma. I don’t want the 5 year olds to wake up one day to death
I lost my sister when I was 13 and recently lost both of my parents so this words ring very very true. I appreciate this short and thank you for making it as well as sharing your feelings. I hope to always keep those I've lost alive through their memory. Thank you again.
This is insane to me that this showed up for me today. It currently is September 15th and tomorrow is my birthday. Every year I’m reminded of the man I first dated who was kind, silly, and the theater boy cliche. The first guy to ever say he liked me back and to learn he had a crush on me. We were young then and it was a lovely time. I miss him every time it comes around to my birthday. I’m turning 23 tomorrow and he would be been 24 today. Our birthdays are only one day apart. I was 16 years old when I had to experience grief and the loss to someone I cared about due to depression and suicide. I may not have known what love was back then but I know I carry him with me wherever I go. I’ll call that love now. Happy birthday Ethan. I love you and miss you.
I think it’s good time to reflect on them when their birthdays come up 😊
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Happy Birthday to your sis 💗 thank you for being brave and vulnerable, Anna! You do amazing work… This one halted me. Yesterday was my dad’s birthday and it was the first one without him. I don’t even have the words to describe the feeling… I appreciate so much how you said… everything. Thank you, thank you. 🙏🏻 ✨
Everyone grieves in their own. People shouldn’t treat all grief that way. That’s one reason i hate the idea of the 5 stages of grief. It way oversimplifies it.
I agree it’s all about love. When I first read about her I was heartbroken…it’s important to never let this habit slip, because as you said she is still part of who you are and will always be
“When the lights shut off, and it’s my turn to settle down my main concern, promise that you will, sing, about me, promise that you will, sing, about me”. Never truly lost if we keep their spirit alive
I lost my mom last year in July due to covid, she was my whole world... it was so sudden, and I don't even get the chance to say goodbye.... I feel robbed, there were no heartwarming final moments, no cliched Hollywood final 'I love you' words, no final facetime or such, till this day I still struggle to come to terms with it, there is so many things I want to give and show her, and while the tears have dried up the anger remains, I can't even reminisce about her without feeling upset and this is so frustrating because I love her so much :( I don't know if I will ever get over this, but as Dwight from the Office said, "life goes on" and such...Hopefully in time I can come to terms with it, and while this goes beyond every possible logical explanation in my head, I hope there is an afterlife, and my mother is up there singing and being happy with the angels, you don't have to watch over me mum, as long as you are truly in better place, and be happiest as possibly can, I miss u, so much, my life is a lot darker without u in it..
I lost my mum a couple of months ago to depression. We went through the highs and lows of our personal mental health journeys together. She is my person, my absolute best friend, and I feel really lost at the moment as we planned to move out together to a different country for me to go to uni, and her to start nursing again. Thank you for sharing, it's so so helpful, you have no idea. Thank you x
And I am on the opposite end of it, loosing my Grandfather barely a week ago. He lived a long and blessed life to the ripe age of 94, and it wasn't unexpected due to some health issues he has had for the last few months, but doesn't make it any easier. Taught me everything I know about gardening, and will carry on his tradition and love of growing things.
I lost my mom may 11 unexpectedly. I miss her all the time I feel like a different person without her but I know she’s here still just in spirit 😢 I feel for you
6 years ago I began watching your channel and saw the authenticity of love for your sister that changed my perspective on how we were pinned against eachother in childhood. We now see eachother past all the familial abuse we’ve endured together. Big sisters are a pillar of strength ❤ We are strong despite everything I will always love her. I would’ve never been where I am today without your channel and I hope you know you helped someone out there very much 💞
I lost my Mom at 14, and I lost my first cat earlier this year at 37 (I got her when I was 20). Losing my first cat hit me so much harder, but maybe it's just because it's more fresh in my memory. Don't get me wrong, I loved my Mom, but at 14, I had no idea how to cope with it. When I lost my cat, it occured to me that I spent more time with my cat than I did with my Mom. I know I will meet them both again one day
I lost my grandma a few weeks ago. This is my first time experiencing any sort of loss in my life. This helps me to prepare for the future when annual celebrations come. Thank you Anna.
Yes true I’m on the same wave as you every spare moment I think of them my dad pass 1992 he was my rock an mum sole mate 2020 I lost my mum she was my everything at 92 her life journey was unbelievable now I can share this with my kids an grandkid’s
It's tradition for us to celebrate loved one's birthday or death anniversary every year, our relatives visit and we have a gathering to eat and reminisce memories of that loved one, from our great grandma, grandpa and our recently departed grandparents. We'll keep you alive, just like how you've let us feel your love whilst you were alive ❤️ I miss you
I just lost my grandma a couple of weeks ago, and it’s been very painful. This helps; there’s so much more I want to say I on this but I don’t want to overshare. I just want to say thank you for your wise words, Anna
I was 9 when my mom passed, her birthday is exactly one week after mine, I celebrate her birthday every year and I'm 40 so I've been alive far longer. It's completely valid and something that has helped me through the years--happy birthday Christina!
I lost a dear childhood friend a few years ago. Her birthday gift that year was going to be a donation to the charity she dedicated her life to. Now it's my yearly tradition to remember her by.
I relate to your story on a spiritual level. I lost my brother when he was 19 and I was 16. I just wish I knew where he was, how he would look like or what kind of person he would be now. It's been 12 years as of today, who knows what could have happened to him in such a long time span. I'm sorry for your loss and hope you found your way through the grieving of your sister.
In a lot of countries it is not abnormal to continue to celebrate even after the loss. Even so, in this one if it’s beneficial for your own mental health and wellness, continue to do so. The people that judge aren’t the people to keep around. You make videos that are helpful, entertaining and beneficial to so many. Hope the rest of your day goes well, have some cake.
They are with us. It just hurts so so deep that they're nor here here with us. But yes we keep celebrating them, it's their day, and that birth day will always have happened, even when their last day has happened. They're definitely in the stardust and I KNOW I'll see my Dad again. Until then I'll just float about here, feeling lost without my Dad. I miss you Dad, more than I knew I could miss another person. Happy birthday Christina! 🥳🥳🥳
I'm so sorry for your loss. I couldn't imagine losing my brother. Grief is love that can't be shared with the person you've lost. Keep sharing that love for her with your family.
I totally understand Anna. I still pause and send birthday wishes to my sister who passed away a long time ago. I honour her in my memory. It’s very important for me to do this for myself and I will never forget. Grief is many things along the way. It is truly a journey and she will always be a part of me. Sending love to the universe so it can shine right back 💕💕💕
I appreciate this post very much. I am pretty practical and understand the weird feeling of celebrating events like birthdays or christmas for people who are no longer alive on this plane of existence. But the way you phrased about honouring your love for them touched me deeply and help me understand. Thank you Anna.
Happy Birthday to your sister :) I have this kind of a relationship to the people who have died in my family as well.. and I live near a beautiful graveyard, which I often need to cross to go into the woods. I think about my uncle, who only got to be 22 and how strange it felt for me, to be his age and now I am slowly coming to the age of my aunt, who died at 33. I always wondered as a kid, why they chose to die. But adulthood is hard, I now understand. Many pitfalls, many accountabilities, so much going on. It gave me some peace of mind to finally find acceptance for their decision. Though, no year passes, that we dont think about the "what ifs". I lived through early childhood with a big bubbly family and now they are almost all gone. Its hard, but I have genuinely good friends that feel like a second family to me, so I wont be as lonely in the end. Thanks for all your videos and thoughts!
I'm so sorry, rest in peace and power to her and may you heal yet celebrate her presence and the time you had together during her birthday ❤️ might be nice to watch videos or photos of you two, and cut a little cake or something with her in spirit.
Thank you so much Anna my mother died 2 years ago when I was 42 years old and now I’m starting to live again but now my life is different I’m no longer afraid and I now have courage to take a leap of faith. In memory of my mother I remember to live my life and worry about me rather than worry and focus all my time on others. Rest In Peace mom. Thank you so much for making me the last of our legacy. Happy birthday Cristina ❤❤❤
I relate to this and im kind of glad to know there’s others in the same situation I’ve been. I lost my sister about 15 years ago i would say even had a cousin pass away a year ago. It’s sad to think about but appreciate those that remain in uour lives reach other to those you miss and haven’t seen tomorrow because you’ll never know when it’ll be the last day you see soemone. Hope i was able to impact atleast one person.
thats very lovely from you ana, I totally agree, I have never been through a difficult time losing someone like you did but i would do the same thing, have a nice day ana :)
Thank you for the endorsement. My father passed one year ago this month. His birthday was in June, along with father's day. This past June I bought two father's day cards. One for my brother, who's a Dad himself, and one for our father. Keep up the good work. ✌️&❤️
Lost my sister grandmas a lot of relatives and patients and losing my mum too at 27 in therapy I realized that they don't want me to hang on like memorizing their bdays and the day they left tears and memories are gd but they are happy peaceful
Lost my mother when 10ish year, I celebrate my mother's birthday. I find that Its more celebratory as opposed to celebrating a memorial day which often reminds me of the days months leading up to their lost.
I didn't get to go to my GG when she was dying. And wasn't able to attend her funeral because of my abusive biodad. Her birthday was 5 days after mine. On veteran's day. And it still hurts every year since. But I always either save a slice of birthday cake. Or light a nice candle. I cook or bake something just to remind me of time in her kitchen. Or curl up with a knitted throw or a light quilt....and watch the birds. She loved birds and I've not been as huge a fan. But her favorite...hummingbirds....they are something kind of magical. I want to be as strong as her one day. And show my family the same unfettered love she did. I have never been unsure my GG loved me. Which unfortunately is a rare thing for me. And I want to be that pillar for my loved ones. Someone who you know loves you unconditionally.
I have acknowledged people who have passed on, and those people I’ve spent a time with and moved on with our lives in separate directions which know their bday I have continued to acknowledge it to them as well. I also remind other relatives of a bday of someone who has passed of it as well. However, of all those who I know, only a few know mine, and wish to keep it that way, and that numbers keeps dwindling as times passes.
I try and think of all my friends that I've lost. I think it's nice to not let their memories go. Sure, I know they are gone, but no reason I can't smile still at a shared joke, or being someplace and thinking how much they'd have loved it or most likely would be with me there if they hadn't died. I hope some do that when I pass.
I’ve been doing it without any breaks. There’s always something that will bring a memory of them every once in a while. What’s scary and haunting is when you see someone who is their doppelgänger. I was shook for two weeks after. I asked the individual if I could take his picture. He granted me permission. I showed those pics to his best buds when he was alive, and they couldn’t believe it either. I also sent his son the pics. But what sent chills up my spine and I was frozen in place not wanting to turn around to see another one of my dead siblings talking through someone else. This coworker didn’t know my brother, but he spoke with the exact phrasing, and terminology as he did, along with his attitude. I felt my hair turn grey in an instant. I’m just glad I didn’t wet my pants. My dead relatives seem to appear in my life to make sure I keep them in mind.
I can relate to this. Our , my brother, and I, mom passed away last year from Metastatic Breast Cancer. My dad is still going through the grieving process just like we, my brother and I are. She would have been 56 this year (August 9th was her birthday that had just passed). Even though, I have been busy with work and with just life in general, I still keep her in my heart and remind myself that she is in a better place. And maybe one day, we'll meet again.😞💔
My friend used the E.E Cummings “I’ll carry your heart with me” as a way of celebrating her mom who passed away while she was still in high school. For what it’s worth I think we do carry people who have left us. We just find ways to keep them with us
I lost my mom this January.
I'm 25, I will bring her with me forever in my thoughts
Wish you blessings
I lost my mom with 23 little over 3 years ago now. I send you love and strength 💕
I lost my mother in December, also 25. i wish you all the best.
My mom died last month, just before her 65th birthday. Hope you have a lot of love around you.
For what it's worth, I'm sorry she's not here now, but I'm very glad that you are. You do good work, and help people Anna; and just the work you have done on yourself is an inspiration.
I think your sister would be very proud of you. Your fans are.
I wonder how she would have helped so many without this tragedy. Did this forge a more thoughtful woman, or would she be the same, anyway?
I celebrate my dad's birthday by sitting down listening to all of Led Zeppelins songs smoking a joint like he would. I will do that till the day I die. It's been almost 3 years since I lost my dad. RIP dad! Hope you have all the weed and infinite rock and roll up there.
"if they were alive" - my brother has been missing for almost 23 years, so the "if" is very literal in my case, even though you know the truth deep down.
Must be Very difficult I hope you one day find peace ❤💜💕❤💜💕
I’m so sorry, I hope you and your family finds peace ❤
I'm so so sorry 🥺
Its so beautiful to honor someone's life after they have passed away. I know someone who has lost their son but on his bday every year, they keep a small gathering of his close friends and watch videos and clips of him and cook his favorite meals to cherish every memory they had with him.
Hey Anna!
Your Surviving Suicide excerpts helped me go through the loss of my sister, especially that first year. I don't know if you'll read this, but I hope that you'll know and see how many people you've helped and continue to help every day.
Hi where are these please? Lost my sister almost 2 years ago (can’t believe it, sometimes feels like yesterday)
@@Lioness9885 I'm so sorry. You are not alone. It's on Anna's website tumblr: drive.google.com/file/d/0B0SH-RHW5vemelBFdGlfSTFnMTg/edit?resourcekey=0-uJ60WWxvgaH9FEAZBTWDPQ
My dog died earlier this month. This applies just as much pets as it does humans.
She brought a lot of joy and spontaneity to our lives.
My father passed away in July. We weren't on speaking terms for seven years. I didn't see him but he tried to reach out to me many times. He wished me happy birthday and Christmas but I just was angry. I feel it. I feel the regret about not taking the chance to face that anger. Truth be told, I miss him and it's so weird to think I won't be able to speak to him ever again. The only solace I had was that my father's best friends let me know he loved me and that he's proud of what I've become.
I don't expect these feelings to change, I think they're in stone. I feel like I'm just going to learn to live with it.
His birthday is in March, it's awhile from now, but it'll be the first time in now eight years that I'll wished him happy birthday. I'm going to get him a wrench to place on his grave.
I had a somewhat similar experience with my dad, but it's been 4 years, and his death anniversary was this week. I was enraged after all he did, but I also grieved his loss intensely for longer than a year.
Offer yourself kindness and compassion in order to forgive yourself and allow the anger to simply be and cool down by itself. The feelings soften and change when you are gentle with yourself and allow the pain and hurt to heal.
Happy Birthday Christina. The world is a little dimmer without your presence 😔😢
Thank you for posting about this and letting us in on something deeply personal to you.
I lost my younger brother a little over five years ago when he was 29, and I had just turned 30. In the time that has passed, I’ve learned and now better understand loss and grief.
A person who says that “the pain will lessen with time” has probably never lost someone close to them.
Time only seems to expand the irreparable hole in my heart. With each passing day I only feel a deeper longing for his presence.
In this universe that now exists without him physically, he remains with me in every thought, decision and step that I take. Just as a limb can be physically removed from a person’s body, the feeling of that limb will always remain.
"They're alive, and we'll see them in the stardust"
Love that
In a similar vein, I lost my brother last year. There's not a day that goes by that I don't think of him, or I'm reminded of him by something. He was the kindest person I know- and I'll miss him until I die. I have your book and been meaning to read it, but had to pause after the first couple chapters. I'll make my way through it some day. Definitely agree with your sentiments- wishing you the best Anna
Your channel's helped a lot of people, myself included, and probably saved some lives, too. I think wherever she is, she's proud to have you as her sister.
I feel you so much when you said that you've lived more of your life without your sister than with her. It's the same for me with my brother and it just feels so strange that he feels like this massive part of me even though I've lived the past 15 years without him. Also that feeling of wondering what they would be like and look like now. I'm the youngest of three, but I lost both my brother and sister. I found it really surreal when I "grew older" than both of them. They always seemed so much bigger and more grown up, but now it feels like I've become the big sister.
Losing a sibling is such a painful experience. It’s been 11 years for me, and it still feels like it was yesterday. Thank you for sharing this great perspective with us ❤
Indeed i feel for you ❤💜❤💕❤💜❤💜💕
When i lost my mom i had this fear that i would forget what my mom looked like, which had never entered my mind before til then. I love you. I love your channel. Thank you for sharing.
I just lost my nan so once again Anna, you've uploaded at the perfect time for me. Grief is hard, like really hard but hearing brilliant wisdom like this helps a lot. Thank you for being you 🙂
I’m so sorry for your loss. Sending you my love ❤
Same. 93. She lived way past where life was good, though. Lots of love for you and your gram!
What is grief but love persevering. My father fought cancer and ultimately passed in June. Wherever he is now, I will make him proud.
I cannot get over or you know, ‘let it go’…. I am just satisfied that I keep learning to deal with it better.
To everyone who feels worthless and that no ones cares about them, people will miss you when you are gone.
That must be so hard! Thank you for your reflections and vulnerability. Take care of yourself!
Happy birthday Christina! Anna, I’ve lost My parents and all my grandparents & one brother so i feel where you are coming from. Unfortunately, it’s part of life & the sadness part of life at that. I Love the way you think & how well you express yourself. Thank you for sharing! ❤❤❤
This showed up on the birthday and wedding anniversary of my grandfather. My grandmother died recently and this has been a really hard day. Thank you.
Every time I want to end it all, I just remember my siblings and I wouldn’t want them to go through that trauma. I don’t want the 5 year olds to wake up one day to death
Hang in there. I hope things get better for you soon.
I lost my sister when I was 13 and recently lost both of my parents so this words ring very very true. I appreciate this short and thank you for making it as well as sharing your feelings. I hope to always keep those I've lost alive through their memory. Thank you again.
I still celebrate my grandparents’ birthdays. 🙂 it feels nice to honor them
This is insane to me that this showed up for me today. It currently is September 15th and tomorrow is my birthday. Every year I’m reminded of the man I first dated who was kind, silly, and the theater boy cliche. The first guy to ever say he liked me back and to learn he had a crush on me. We were young then and it was a lovely time. I miss him every time it comes around to my birthday. I’m turning 23 tomorrow and he would be been 24 today. Our birthdays are only one day apart. I was 16 years old when I had to experience grief and the loss to someone I cared about due to depression and suicide. I may not have known what love was back then but I know I carry him with me wherever I go. I’ll call that love now. Happy birthday Ethan. I love you and miss you.
I think it’s good time to reflect on them when their birthdays come up 😊
Happy Birthday to your sis 💗 thank you for being brave and vulnerable, Anna! You do amazing work… This one halted me. Yesterday was my dad’s birthday and it was the first one without him. I don’t even have the words to describe the feeling… I appreciate so much how you said… everything. Thank you, thank you. 🙏🏻 ✨
Everyone grieves in their own. People shouldn’t treat all grief that way. That’s one reason i hate the idea of the 5 stages of grief. It way oversimplifies it.
I do find myself googling that and found closure in the explanation but yes, its hard because the sadness come and go and i just can’t understand it
Happy birthday to your sister, may she continually rest in peace and power and I'm sure she's celebrating with some cake up there with you 🥰
This is beautifully said, Happy Birthday Christina ( I hope I spelled it Correctly)
I lost my father when I was young. And now that I'm older than he ever was those are questions I ask myself a lot.
Just so you know you've helped me through some of the toughest times I've ever had. Thank you for being you.
Thanks Anna for growing past this grief in a way that brings light to all of us. And happy birthday Christina.
I agree it’s all about love. When I first read about her I was heartbroken…it’s important to never let this habit slip, because as you said she is still part of who you are and will always be
“When the lights shut off, and it’s my turn to settle down my main concern, promise that you will, sing, about me, promise that you will, sing, about me”. Never truly lost if we keep their spirit alive
What a line that is Anna - we'll all see each other in the stardust eventually
I lost my mom last year in July due to covid, she was my whole world... it was so sudden, and I don't even get the chance to say goodbye.... I feel robbed, there were no heartwarming final moments, no cliched Hollywood final 'I love you' words, no final facetime or such, till this day I still struggle to come to terms with it, there is so many things I want to give and show her, and while the tears have dried up the anger remains, I can't even reminisce about her without feeling upset and this is so frustrating because I love her so much :(
I don't know if I will ever get over this, but as Dwight from the Office said, "life goes on" and such...Hopefully in time I can come to terms with it, and while this goes beyond every possible logical explanation in my head, I hope there is an afterlife, and my mother is up there singing and being happy with the angels, you don't have to watch over me mum, as long as you are truly in better place, and be happiest as possibly can, I miss u, so much, my life is a lot darker without u in it..
i lost my sister exactly three years ago, she was one year older than me and it feels so *** wrong to go on without her
I lost my mum a couple of months ago to depression. We went through the highs and lows of our personal mental health journeys together. She is my person, my absolute best friend, and I feel really lost at the moment as we planned to move out together to a different country for me to go to uni, and her to start nursing again.
Thank you for sharing, it's so so helpful, you have no idea. Thank you x
And I am on the opposite end of it, loosing my Grandfather barely a week ago. He lived a long and blessed life to the ripe age of 94, and it wasn't unexpected due to some health issues he has had for the last few months, but doesn't make it any easier. Taught me everything I know about gardening, and will carry on his tradition and love of growing things.
I lost my mom may 11 unexpectedly. I miss her all the time I feel like a different person without her but I know she’s here still just in spirit 😢 I feel for you
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6 years ago I began watching your channel and saw the authenticity of love for your sister that changed my perspective on how we were pinned against eachother in childhood. We now see eachother past all the familial abuse we’ve endured together. Big sisters are a pillar of strength ❤ We are strong despite everything I will always love her. I would’ve never been where I am today without your channel and I hope you know you helped someone out there very much 💞
I lost my Mom at 14, and I lost my first cat earlier this year at 37 (I got her when I was 20). Losing my first cat hit me so much harder, but maybe it's just because it's more fresh in my memory. Don't get me wrong, I loved my Mom, but at 14, I had no idea how to cope with it. When I lost my cat, it occured to me that I spent more time with my cat than I did with my Mom. I know I will meet them both again one day
I lost my grandma a few weeks ago. This is my first time experiencing any sort of loss in my life. This helps me to prepare for the future when annual celebrations come. Thank you Anna.
"We'll see them in the stardust." I don't remember hearing that before. That's beautiful.
This popped up in my feed and today is the birthday of someone I loved who I lost two weeks ago. Thank you, Anna.
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Sending you hugs! I'm an only child but i'd love to have you as an older sister ♥️
Yes true I’m on the same wave as you every spare moment I think of them my dad pass 1992 he was my rock an mum sole mate 2020 I lost my mum she was my everything at 92 her life journey was unbelievable now I can share this with my kids an grandkid’s
We'll see them in the stardust. I love it, thank you Anna.
I hear you. I lost my bro to extreme disability as a teenager. I was so incredible and I definitely think those things. Thank you for sharing.
It's tradition for us to celebrate loved one's birthday or death anniversary every year, our relatives visit and we have a gathering to eat and reminisce memories of that loved one, from our great grandma, grandpa and our recently departed grandparents. We'll keep you alive, just like how you've let us feel your love whilst you were alive ❤️ I miss you
I always remember my dad for his birthday and for the holidays.
I'm sorry for you loss. 💜 Loved your book that you wrote for her.
I just lost my grandma a couple of weeks ago, and it’s been very painful. This helps; there’s so much more I want to say I on this but I don’t want to overshare. I just want to say thank you for your wise words, Anna
I was 9 when my mom passed, her birthday is exactly one week after mine, I celebrate her birthday every year and I'm 40 so I've been alive far longer. It's completely valid and something that has helped me through the years--happy birthday Christina!
I was depressed all week and bought plants and just enjoyed taking care of them. Randomly well timed short.
Someone is only truly gone when the last person who remembers them says their name for the last time x
I lost a dear childhood friend a few years ago. Her birthday gift that year was going to be a donation to the charity she dedicated her life to. Now it's my yearly tradition to remember her by.
My grandma’s birthday just passed and I had this thought. I didn’t celebrate her birthday but wanted to and this encouraged me to do this next time!
I relate to your story on a spiritual level. I lost my brother when he was 19 and I was 16. I just wish I knew where he was, how he would look like or what kind of person he would be now. It's been 12 years as of today, who knows what could have happened to him in such a long time span.
I'm sorry for your loss and hope you found your way through the grieving of your sister.
In a lot of countries it is not abnormal to continue to celebrate even after the loss. Even so, in this one if it’s beneficial for your own mental health and wellness, continue to do so. The people that judge aren’t the people to keep around. You make videos that are helpful, entertaining and beneficial to so many. Hope the rest of your day goes well, have some cake.
They are with us. It just hurts so so deep that they're nor here here with us.
But yes we keep celebrating them, it's their day, and that birth day will always have happened, even when their last day has happened. They're definitely in the stardust and I KNOW I'll see my Dad again. Until then I'll just float about here, feeling lost without my Dad.
I miss you Dad, more than I knew I could miss another person.
Happy birthday Christina! 🥳🥳🥳
I'm so sorry for your loss. I couldn't imagine losing my brother.
Grief is love that can't be shared with the person you've lost. Keep sharing that love for her with your family.
I totally understand Anna. I still pause and send birthday wishes to my sister who passed away a long time ago. I honour her in my memory. It’s very important for me to do this for myself and I will never forget. Grief is many things along the way. It is truly a journey and she will always be a part of me. Sending love to the universe so it can shine right back 💕💕💕
I really appreciate this! I lost my sister 9 years ago. I’ll continue keeping her memory alive
I appreciate this post very much. I am pretty practical and understand the weird feeling of celebrating events like birthdays or christmas for people who are no longer alive on this plane of existence. But the way you phrased about honouring your love for them touched me deeply and help me understand. Thank you Anna.
Happy Birthday to your sister :)
I have this kind of a relationship to the people who have died in my family as well.. and I live near a beautiful graveyard, which I often need to cross to go into the woods.
I think about my uncle, who only got to be 22 and how strange it felt for me, to be his age and now I am slowly coming to the age of my aunt, who died at 33. I always wondered as a kid, why they chose to die.
But adulthood is hard, I now understand. Many pitfalls, many accountabilities, so much going on. It gave me some peace of mind to finally find acceptance for their decision.
Though, no year passes, that we dont think about the "what ifs".
I lived through early childhood with a big bubbly family and now they are almost all gone. Its hard, but I have genuinely good friends that feel like a second family to me, so I wont be as lonely in the end.
Thanks for all your videos and thoughts!
Lost my SO unexpectedly, the day before her birthday. Makes for a brutal couple days each year, 2 so far.
I'm so sorry, rest in peace and power to her and may you heal yet celebrate her presence and the time you had together during her birthday ❤️ might be nice to watch videos or photos of you two, and cut a little cake or something with her in spirit.
Keep your head up. You are doing well on this channel! ❤️
Thank you so much Anna my mother died 2 years ago when I was 42 years old and now I’m starting to live again but now my life is different I’m no longer afraid and I now have courage to take a leap of faith. In memory of my mother I remember to live my life and worry about me rather than worry and focus all my time on others. Rest In Peace mom. Thank you so much for making me the last of our legacy. Happy birthday Cristina ❤❤❤
I relate to this and im kind of glad to know there’s others in the same situation I’ve been. I lost my sister about 15 years ago i would say even had a cousin pass away a year ago. It’s sad to think about but appreciate those that remain in uour lives reach other to those you miss and haven’t seen tomorrow because you’ll never know when it’ll be the last day you see soemone. Hope i was able to impact atleast one person.
thats very lovely from you ana, I totally agree, I have never been through a difficult time losing someone like you did but i would do the same thing, have a nice day ana :)
Thank you for the endorsement. My father passed one year ago this month. His birthday was in June, along with father's day. This past June I bought two father's day cards. One for my brother, who's a Dad himself, and one for our father. Keep up the good work.
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Lost my sister grandmas a lot of relatives and patients and losing my mum too at 27 in therapy I realized that they don't want me to hang on like memorizing their bdays and the day they left tears and memories are gd but they are happy peaceful
Lost my mother when 10ish year, I celebrate my mother's birthday. I find that Its more celebratory as opposed to celebrating a memorial day which often reminds me of the days months leading up to their lost.
Never stop celebrating their life. It's good to keep loved ones close to you.
Happy Birthday, Christina. Sorry for your loss, Anna.
I didn't get to go to my GG when she was dying. And wasn't able to attend her funeral because of my abusive biodad.
Her birthday was 5 days after mine. On veteran's day. And it still hurts every year since. But I always either save a slice of birthday cake. Or light a nice candle.
I cook or bake something just to remind me of time in her kitchen.
Or curl up with a knitted throw or a light quilt....and watch the birds.
She loved birds and I've not been as huge a fan.
But her favorite...hummingbirds....they are something kind of magical.
I want to be as strong as her one day. And show my family the same unfettered love she did. I have never been unsure my GG loved me. Which unfortunately is a rare thing for me. And I want to be that pillar for my loved ones.
Someone who you know loves you unconditionally.
My sister died a couple months ago. Therefore, listening to Anna talk about Kristina hits me harder than ever.
I have acknowledged people who have passed on, and those people I’ve spent a time with and moved on with our lives in separate directions which know their bday I have continued to acknowledge it to them as well. I also remind other relatives of a bday of someone who has passed of it as well. However, of all those who I know, only a few know mine, and wish to keep it that way, and that numbers keeps dwindling as times passes.
Positive vibes to everyone here 💜
To you too 💜
I try and think of all my friends that I've lost. I think it's nice to not let their memories go. Sure, I know they are gone, but no reason I can't smile still at a shared joke, or being someplace and thinking how much they'd have loved it or most likely would be with me there if they hadn't died. I hope some do that when I pass.
Sending you a huge hugs with a positive energy!
I’ve been doing it without any breaks. There’s always something that will bring a memory of them every once in a while. What’s scary and haunting is when you see someone who is their doppelgänger. I was shook for two weeks after. I asked the individual if I could take his picture. He granted me permission. I showed those pics to his best buds when he was alive, and they couldn’t believe it either. I also sent his son the pics.
But what sent chills up my spine and I was frozen in place not wanting to turn around to see another one of my dead siblings talking through someone else. This coworker didn’t know my brother, but he spoke with the exact phrasing, and terminology as he did, along with his attitude. I felt my hair turn grey in an instant. I’m just glad I didn’t wet my pants. My dead relatives seem to appear in my life to make sure I keep them in mind.
I lost my mom 10 months ago, and living life without her is so hard 💔
I'm so sorry for the loss of your sister 🥺
Plain but powerful words. Grief is not a cage.
Thank you...
I'm still counting the days without her. 😞
Sorry about your sister Anna. Her spirit is and will always be with you and family. Sending prayers. God Bless.
Our love ones may be gone from earth, but they live on in our heart.
I can relate to this. Our , my brother, and I, mom passed away last year from Metastatic Breast Cancer. My dad is still going through the grieving process just like we, my brother and I are. She would have been 56 this year (August 9th was her birthday that had just passed). Even though, I have been busy with work and with just life in general, I still keep her in my heart and remind myself that she is in a better place. And maybe one day, we'll meet again.😞💔
I needed to hear this today. Thank you.
My friend used the E.E Cummings “I’ll carry your heart with me” as a way of celebrating her mom who passed away while she was still in high school. For what it’s worth I think we do carry people who have left us. We just find ways to keep them with us
very sorry for your loss. happy birthday Christina.
Hugs! All wise words. ❤️
Happy bday and condolences to your sis!
🫂 happy birthday, Christina! 🎂
Happy birthday to her Anna. Thank you
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