COVID-19 Lockdown Casualty-Loyalty
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- Опубликовано: 21 авг 2024
- Soft White Underbelly interview and portrait of Loyalty, a woman who lost her job, house and car due to COVID-19 layoffs.
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The work done with this channel is priceless. Providing money is fantastic and very much needed-we may not understand why some use the money for drugs, abortions etc but, this is the truth of the individuals we see in these videos. Their truth is that they, for whatever reasons, need the money to continue their addiction-the story and reasonings of why they need the money for whatever they ultimately end up purchasing is their story. This channel is more than an avenue to provide cash but an avenue and an invitation to hear these stories.
Everyone has a story. Everyone. Not everyone has someone to sit without distraction and actually listen and hear what is being said. Hearing makes us aware, responsible and accountable. Most of us or all of us have been or are (at one point or another) judge mental before a word is ever spoken.
After viewing these videos and hearing the stories, these individuals can no longer be a “no-name” in the streets. They have a name. They have a story. They are someone’s mother, father, sister or brother. They are OUR brother and sisters we are seeing.
To understand that there are Americans struggling and to hearing their stories is the fruit of this channel. To understand that these individuals are not too different than us is priceless. They are us and we are them.
It is hungry work Mark does-it is not easy to travel into the abyss that is the world of these individuals and go home and have it just “shut-off”. I’m sure the emotional aspect tied to creating content for this channel is a harsh mistress no doubt.
To those sharing their life with us: thank you for sharing your story and your truth. I see you and I hear you.
Beautiful. Thank you Crystal.
Love this!! ❤️
This was beautiful.
Thanks for putting into words my exact feelings about this channel. Perfect 🤩
Very well said..🌻
I think this is the first time an interviewee asked for advice. " do you have any advice for me?" She's genuine
Yep. She made me cry. Ive been there.
I'm sure Mark gave her some solid info &/ hooked her up with the right people. It seems I remember he did this before.
@@SuzanneDeniseB Aww, honey, I hope you're doing ok.❤
Yes. That was very genuine. She can make it if she applies her strength to kick her habit. Rooting for her!
She's lost and is seeking guidance. I hope that she gets it. As I listened, I was thinking about all the help available for people impacted by COVID, and she's clueless.
She needs resources. She is so capable of coming out of this.
She is smart. She just needs a little guidance.
Give her some
Exactly she doesn’t even want to do this stuff she just doesn’t have anyone trying to help her it’s sad
@Madison Fuller I agree she definitely needs some guidance and she will be ok.
She died y’all
She’s a great example of why we need to stop looking at struggling people as if they earned the struggle. People are dealt a shitty hand everyday.
YES EXACTLY please see the humanity in people goddamnit !
Yes, and we need to celebrate the ones that even all those shitty adversaries dealt to them keep going and want to better their lives. I know tons of immigrants like that. They were dealt misery and now they do anything in their power to keep going.
Agreed!
As my parents told me, "you may not be interested in the Vietnam War but the war is interested in you." In this game (and it has been proven by science to be just that - a game), the challenge is to work with the hand you've been dealt - period. The game is focused on knocking you down to see if you can get back up and then it will knock you down again. The game is only concerned with whether or not you get back up. Failure to get back up is a loss.
If an 8 year old can decide their gender then an 8 year old can decide to become a winner. After all, you can't have it both ways.
And this is correct…..
She’s literally begging for help and guidance. Please help her.
It's so sad, she is wanting help
@@RandallSGregory?
@@RandallSGregory o you don't know me or what I do to help ppl. I'll end this conversation here. Have a good day.
@@RandallSGregory first of all, how do you know if we have or haven’t done something for our own communities? I live in the deep Deep South and I have helped my own community in the past, mostly during Katrina. California is a shit show in regards to homelessness and drug addicts and California created the problem so they can fix it. They enable these people instead of helping them. So when people like me are begging for someone to get help, we aren’t asking to sugar coat it for an interesting video. We are asking because we see the fear and desperation in that person and they are pretty much screwed living in that state and that’s also why other folks who have their shit together are leaving California for Texas and Florida. Please don’t comment if all you can do is insult others, at the very least don’t fucking tag me because you don’t have an answer either.
@@JudiSM79 Who, please is RssTTK. I didn't see that in comments at all in this section.
I just turned 25, 8 months ago I lost my jobs due to covid, then my fiance overdosed on heroin, then I lost my apartment, then I was robbed, my addiction was the only steady thing in my life. the only reason im not homeless is because I had a few friends willing to let me couch surf and I sold art because I am an artist. I relate so much to you. We will both be okay, we will both survive. Now I have a job that I love and I just moved into an apartment that im turning into home. I believe in us.
I believe in you Zenaida, wishing you the best of the best and grab your life, live in the moment, you are so young, talented and clever. I hope you recover from your addictions and do not waste the best years of your life as I did. I WOKE up one day and realised I was in my late 40's and still addicted, I jepardised all that was good for me, sabotaged it all because I didn't believe I was worth all the amazing opportunities which came my way. It is too late for me but not for you. Sending my love & all my positive energy your way. xx Ali from south Wales xx I hear ya!
be a beacon of hope,you have bin already as ive just found your comment an it drew me in,hope is powerful,more than we give it credit,without it what do we have,im so happy for you,i hope i can find my way as you have,keep shareing the good stuff man
@@aliwalker7667 It's not too late for you.
Good luck I just got clean and it is amazing. You deserve better than a life of addiction 💓🙏🙏🙏
@@aliwalker7667 so sweet of you, thank you for being so kind 🙏
I cried. This could be anyone of us. Be grateful for what you have because we could all loose it in a blink of an eye
Me too. 😢
We should also be emphatic as you mentioned that we could all lose it
@@ranaeid2390 Amen!
Me tooo i cant stop thinkin about her
True
Can we get an update on her? My heart hurts for her so bad. I really hope she got the help she needed. She is so genuine. ❤️
I hope Mark was able to help her. I think she worth it. She has LD. Problems like me you can't see it on the outside but you do feel it. I'm 🙏for her.
I would love an update on Loyalty. She needed help and deserved it so much❤️
A couple of comments earlier on have noted that Loyalty has unfortunately died
@@roymaddocks3184 where?
@@aiya1475 I'm sorry. I don't know
This young girl pulled at my heart while I was in my home cooking. She was born with 3 strikes against her, yet she still won't say a bad word about her mother. Talk about unconditional love 💔💔💔💔 Lord, this child deserves help🙏🏽🙏🏻🙏🙏🏿🙏🏾🙏🏼🛐🛐✝️✝️
Oh sweetheart, if your fiance took off after you lost everything he was not worth a dime.
I wonder if he contributed to her losing everything. If he did shame on him but then again I at least hope she wasn't supporting his drug habit (only if he had one) because no man should take advantage of a woman in her situation and vice versa. She's still young (plus attractive) and has a much better chance than some other ppl who aren't as young. I'm talking like middle age and beyond.
That's right Sharon H... she dodged a bullet with the fiance. Not worth it. Hopefully someday she'll know that. 💞💖
@@ms.sanchez3924 No, as she says, it was due to the Covid shutdowns.
But it was worth it because, as AOC said in her tweet, every single shutdown and layoff was worth it, because it got Trump out of office!
If he was worth a 💩 he would have helped her figure out how to get unemployment they would have been good.
@@djbillybass Exactly, a little guidance and this girl could go a long way. Hopefully SWU has shown her the path. I wish her only the best. One life saved off of Skid Row is priceless 💞
When she said “You have any advice for me?” And stared at the camera. I almost broke. That was one of the more pure innocent moments of the show.
101%. Me too. So cute!!
It broke me
I agree
She is a fighter. She has the best attitude of any interviewee I’ve watched on this channel. She’s been thru some tough shit but she doesn’t come off like a victim like many of them do. The girl poured concrete for a living-she has a work ethic and a good heart-she needs a break right now. I hope she doesn’t let the fentanyl take her down. And Mark gives her good advice at the end.
Thank you for being a kind caring and open minded person. Thank you.
none of them come off as victims excuse me
I became homeless during covid. I am in my 50s and never thought this could happen. Like her, I was doing all the right things when I lost my job and nearly lost everything.
I hope things are better for you now
So sorry to hear you got hit by it all too❤️
....and the billionaires gained even more. Funded by taxes meant for Healthcare and education
How are you now?
@@diesto-vg5jz
My old boss made millions from Covid from fake numbers saying he lost more than he really did
I like the way she kept asking him questions. Looks like She’s always trying to learn more. Smart girl.
Man I’ve never wanted to rescues someone so much in my life. If I could I would provide for her everyday for the rest of my life and make her life easy and fulfilling as possible. Don’t give up girl. Ur body is still a temple. Don’t look at yourself as being less then anyone. You’re perfect. I have faith in you and I know u will get through this and have a great life one day soon.
❤️
Genuinely hope you reach/have reached out to Mark! His email is available, this comment has received positive attention, if you're genuine in this absolutely reach out to potentially provide long term stability. Everything helps.
I almost lost it when she asked, "Do you have any advice for me?" It's right there for her, she's got the strength, she just needs some things to go her way. An update would be fantastic.
Loyalty: "I might look normal or seem physically normal but I don't feel normal on the inside."
I felt that.
Me too....every day
Loyalty, try Prevention Point,, for rehab
Ditto
@@renatalove5212 what are talking about. She don't look like a junkie. Her hairs clean, clothes are clean, shes thick...
@@renatalove5212 according to you, every ugly person in your opinion is a junkie or on drugs lol.
Out of every person I have seen on your screen Mark, and I have seen them all. This is the one you want to help Mark. Im a adult now but was a runaway growing up and I can spot the savable. She is a diamond in the rough. Please guide her Mark.
Yes!
I agree ! She needs guidance ! The love of a parent. I get so upset when I hear how these young children/adults are thrown to the world when their parents aren’t there. Where are her parents family ?
Has he helped ppl in the past? (Not shade, I’m legit asking cuz idk)
Yes if he helped Amanda then he can help her no questions asked atleast shes on the same mindset as he is in whether shes using or not all the money spent for amanda would do this young lady good and get her back on track.
@@meenamyrie9902 yes he has he did a gofund me for a scammer kelly n is currently helping Amanda and in my opinion Amanda will relapse I hope Im wrong but I think that time,money, opportunity and respurces are being wasted helping Amanda because she didn't want to get clean she is being forced I know Im in recovery rn and everytime the justice system or cps made me quit i went back to using
These videos are a reminder of humility. She's suffering, in pain, maybe scared and lost and she's still has the decency to check if she's being respectful to the platform. Beautiful spirit.
“Unruly” kids are just kids with loads of trauma that doesn’t get treated in foster care. The system designed to care for our most vulnerable is severely broken and way underfunded. These are human lives. The government needs to DO SOMETHING.
My heart breaks for this young girl, her life story is such a tragedy. I just want to hug her💔
Totally agree girl... it's awful to be thrown to the wolves with no coping skills!!! I've seen so much I promised myself my son would be self reliant whatever his path. God bless the lost ones but the soul of this young lady she just needs to listen there is a reason she is on this path sadly. I look forward to her update she is ready and just needs guidance. You can do it sweetheart😍
Life is a house of cards. We are all one or two emergencies away from losing it all. i genuinely feel for her story.
My mother always said this.
Not all of us
Not everyone. There are a lot of people that have 3-6 months of income saved for emergencies. (I’m not one of those people)
Not everyone but you're right.
A very profound statement Jesse. My brother-in-law lost his mind when his wife sent him divorce papers. He shot her 5 x with a shotgun
I like that when he asked if she's ever been in love, her 1st thought was about her own self love
Came here to say that too. I love that.
Loyalty, try Prevention Point - for rehab
The way she just casually said “I wasn’t good enough for foster care” like it was nothing made me so sad 💔. People don’t even realize after a while the way they talk about themselves.
We believe and repeat what we are told about ourselves.
Hearing her story is so frustrating because she's clearly intelligent and has a lot of potential. She just needs life to give her one break.
The way she said, “Do you have any advice for me?”, was heart breaking. I wish the best for her.
The only thing I didnt like was in the beginning when he said "just a mom".
I think he meant that in the context of, “no abuse, but a heroin addicted mom”, “just” a mom addicted to heroin.
Ironic her name is Loyalty, and she's never gotten any from the people in her life. God bless her. 🙏
Heart breaking
I feel so terrible for this girl because you can tell she’s begging to be normal but just doesn’t have the tools. She has been self all the wrong cards. It’s really not her fault she’s turned out this way. She has a lot of potential. I really hope someone watching this lays for her rehab and thsn helps her get a job and place to live. She deserves it
I relate to this comment fsr too much for it to not hurt
This channel should be provided to schools. I try to watch one of these videos a day. It makes your heart compassionate to the pain in the world, how lucky I am and how grateful I am. Thank you.
"The harder the journey, the better the destination".
Loyalty, look within. You're stronger than you give yourself credit for.
She's to young to understand her wisdom
@@stephenvolk7748 Yes, she is wise. She will come out of this and be stronger for it.
Yes, I hope she can see what I see - that she is an intelligent, thoughtful individual just absolutely full of potential and deserving of all good things in life. I just wish I could hug her. 🙏
@@ostarasloom7205Yes, I, too, also wished I could hug her and say "its gonna be ok."😥
She’s not understanding the most important thing.
Get off the drugs and out of skid row. It will not end well
there.
Even though she is 25....she almost needs a family to "adopt" her. A family to love her and help her get stability. She wants to work...she wants to do the right thing!
A family she can count on.
I totally agree, she would do well with a loving family behind her, support her, educate her, most of all love her. Super sad she is stuck down there...
I’m in Tennessee. I wish she would come back here. She could turn her life around.
I want to adopt her, more then anything in the world. I have a 25 year old son. I wish the government would give me a great big house thats run down and so me and my kids could fix it up. It would give them something to feel good about them selves doing and it would help us all in the long run. So many broken kiddos (to me) that just need love and I have all the love to give 😪 even my bio kids are on board with their brothers and sisters. They already have 4 lol
@@babygirlamy1973 i like the tattoo.
What a beautiful soul. I think if she takes Mark’s advice, she can get herself together again. She’s intelligent and got what it takes. I have a 25 year old. This may be the interview that’s touched me the deepest. I hope we see an update soon. She truly deserves the best and has so much to offer.
@@Weightingtablesafter Thank you 😊 I had her at 18.
I love her so much. You can tell she's honestly tried. There is hope for her and I hope she gets the help she deserves
I’ve never commented on any of these videos, but Loyalty...
I want to jump in my car, drive halfway across the country, and search Skid Row for you. I love you, brave one. I will never stop thinking about you now. Ever. I pray you know your value and worth have not changed bc of your situation. You have a beautiful spirit and soul. I am rooting for you! ❤️
Me too
Such kindness 💜
Seriously thought about making that drive! Skid row is about 2hrs away from me....breaks my heart to know she has no family, no support, and a man that left her homeless with HIS car payments! (the disrespect) I pray she finds peace and gets back on her feet! I wish I could be a shoulder for her!!!!
Loyalty love who you are bc you have a beautiful soul . Get out of there , just walk away from it you are worth it !
Loyalty is so young and has her walls up.
But, today we saw those pretty blue eyes breaking.
Loyalty needs the tools to life we have learned from responsible parents.
Her pimp told her horrible things about herself.
Loyalty needs to know that strength to walk into rehab.
Never hookup with another loser again as long as you live, your self worth is more.
Loyalty please don’t put another tattoo on your pretty face.
Stop the drugs we don’t want to see a follow up on you being dead.
You said you were waiting to hear advice you got it from me❣️
She stated she was born 4 months premature. That is an undeniable, (imprinted fighting spirit), from deep within her soul! May God bless you, baby girl.
tear drop
This one really got to me. She knows. She knows whats going on, and she's trying so hard to keep it together. I sincerely hope she is given resources to get through, and finally be pushed in the direction she wants to be in.
The dynamic between these two was really touching. He definitely has a strong paternal instinct. She just ate it up. She so needed to just be a kid for a minute. A kid that matters to someone. This does have to be thankless work at times. A heavy load for everyone.
This is the first episode that made me feel compelled to donate. I hope Mark can help her off cam.
Sameeee
Same
Lol yeah i bet he did help her...
Yes
@@coryobrien8154
Trolls are always welcome so normal people can feel even more normal.
She's a really decent lovely person who really deserves a serious break. I really hope that she gets help and guidance which will lead her to a better life. She doesn't know what to do. Sometimes when you don't know what to do, you do nothing.
She really does deserve a break. I hope she makes it.
Im in that stage unfortunately
Word. I wish I could help her
This makes me so sad. She's a strong person and has a lot of potential. 💔
One thing I noticed is how smart, insightful and caring these people are...meanwhile I see a lot of “clean/functional” people who are quite the opposite, yet they are still making it in the world.
What a crazy irony...
Intelligence, insight, and being caring don’t make money/pay the bills ... not saying it in like a dick way, but its the sad truth
@@007nadineL This is so very true.
As someone who’s went through similar struggles and I’m the same age, YOU CAN COME OUT OF THIS! I believe in you girl. Just keep pushing on.
My mom was same she died at 29 drugs she did drugs whole time she was pregnant I was 4 pounds my dad died too I was not placeable either at 13 and 14 I was taking care of myself no one cared, there was a lot of violence in my childhood and I still have alot of feeling non normal. I've never tried drugs, and I have two disabled sons I'm married and home, I can relate to everything she said even if we are doing fairly well the damage has already been done, it never goes totally away, I wish her well, it's hard to love yourself
hope you doing well now
So proud of u for not allowing drugs into ur life even when things were tough. May ur family be blessed. 💯
Oh wow😕 I’m really sorry! I wish you peace and happiness💕 *Blessings*🙏🏽 Xx
hats off to you! should be proud of yourself x
🙏
She is looking for help and she's intelligent and insightful. Wise, I would even say. She has a good heart. Please help her if anyone can!
Sooooo step up and help her. You're asking someone else to do it.
@@danielkinn782 She needs help from people in the business of helping -- social services, charity, etc.
She is welcome to heal with me. As said send her out!
@@YA-qj8fx : And that comes from... taxes... increase taxes on the rich and large corporations.
I'm sure Mark has.
There is a gofundme account for the interviewees which you can donate to and say it's for her.
I’ve been meaning to mention this , I learned from a friend who was brought up in a group home when a individual turns 18 they are released, released without luggage.
No luggage, no unique bags just a paper bag.
That’s it.
So please donate all luggage to group homes and places where these young adults exit from.
I would have maybe still had my dad’s wedding ring and other sentimental things, as well as clothing, etc., when I had to leave a foster home if I’d had a big bag or suitcase. Great idea!
I don't know how anyone can be so heartless as to look after a young person and just turn them out on the street at 18 with nothing. Surely they have help to get their next stage of life sorted before they're locked out on the street like someone coming out of prison ? If not then America really is the most atrocious country in the world, they have all the money and facilities and education to help people and yet they fail time and time again, even the basic health care system over there is messed up. I wouldn't ever move to America even if I was paid to go.
I work in a halfway house. We were moving the women quickly from an old house to a newer cleaner all around better facility. I had two women literally break down when I handed them garbage bags to pack. Finally one young woman told me. This feels just like foster care. I can't deal with this. I've been wkg in social services for over 20 years I didn't catch that until she said this. Now it all made sense how the women were having such a difficult time with the moving process even they were going somewhere much better. I learned NEVER give someone a trash bag to pack in.
She is a genuine person. And she has her head screwed on. When she figures everything she′ll be on top of her game like she was before and she′ll succeed even better then before. Good luck to her.
Was she ever really on top of her “game” ? She is certainly on top of this game! Naive people will send her money- and she will buy more drugs.
When she said "sorry can I cuss??" While covering her mouth 😂 shes adorable. I really hope she can crawl out of the hole that is poverty.
Without liberty she will never recover
We are being subjected to this
She’s bad ass Fsho Fsho
She was never a bad kid. She just didn't know how to deal with her mom's death
Bullshit. Her mum is the cause of her issues. People only become truly mature when they realise the negative influence their mothers have on them as adults and learn to be independent
@@downwiththezionistpsychopa9812 you said bullshit he’s wrong, then repeated what he said... “she just didn’t know how to deal with her moms death”
@@twayne4608 where do you see those very EXACT words? I don't see them but saw them in the comment above his.
There aren’t bad kids....only bad parents.
Nope , she didn't have a chance. 😢
This girl is very pure, and needs someone who can embrace that purity, that sweetness, without second intentions. She's only dealt with scumbags who used her.
My goodness, my heart is broken for this girl. I'm only 28 but I've been so blessed my whole life, and wish I had more resources to help people like this. I wish I had the means to provide her a home and job, because she certainly seems like she would make the most of it.
The fiancé didn't stick around when she lost her job and took the car she paid for. He wasn't really there for her. Ever.
It was fuckboy with tattoos 6 ft tall guarantee
@@kmsmaym simp
No. The man wasn’t around the mother. The mothers take the children with them. It’s rarely the dads fault it’s usually he can’t stand to deal with how degenerate the woman is, and the man struggles to discipline her. The mothers then convince the kids that ‘mummy loves you and daddy hates you’ and then they end up like this because they’re constantly searching for a ‘coddling’ love that drugs give you and mothers love gives you which is a fake, carnal type of love.
Real love is a fathers love, discipline, correction, non emotionality, and unconditional love.
Unfortunately when a man hasn’t overcome his own mother he can’t be a good father either
It seems like she just needes someone around, someone who wasnt a stranger
I was n the system when I was young I know her pain dont give up I know it's hard god got up baby he can take that pain away
When she said so honestly and raw - “I’m scared to love!” - then she thought about what she’d said for a second and said “nahhh, I’m not scared” that was such a real statement followed up with such a relatable feeling of defensiveness after expressing some vulnerability... great interview Mark and thanks for taking her questions seriously.
When she asked for advice I just melted, damn.
This girl seems so smart, she’s overcome so much. I hope she figures her life out again soon.
Talk about over labeling. She is so well
Spoken and she expresses herself well. Everything she says makes sense.
How does everything she say makes sense? It’s starts with
It wasn’t the drug addiction, Maybe there is something I don’t
Get. What she says at the beginning is misleading. It’s about Covid?
There is one good outcome possible to drug addiction.
One and only. Getting off the drugs. Not saying it’s easy.
What is. Covid has nothing to do with this. Sorry the title put there
For a reason. That is why I clicked. I love these stories. They are
Always interesting. I disagree that this is due to Covid. It was a good
title. If that’s what she wants to blame. That’s fine.
@@sandiali4740 I was thinking the same thing she said she lost everything house car job because covid 3 months ago yet she used fentynal 6 months ago so it was because drugs!
@@nicestranger1352 Could you specify where she says 3 months?
Just to note, at the end she does say she was getting drug tested at her job regularly and didn't even smoke weed prior to lay offs
@@sandiali4740 She lost everything because of the lockdowns, not drug use! Get it right. The lockdowns led to her losing her job which ultimately led to the loss of everything else. THEN she got back on drugs.
@@YourAverageGoyl
So then we should all be on drugs. Since we have all lost something.
You are stupid. Plain and simple
This one hit me HARD. Reduced me to a puddle of tears. This could so easily be ANY of us. Feeling EXTREMELY grateful right now.
Exactly. This could be me if I didn't have a stable, supportive family all my life. If I didn't get help for my mental health issues when I did. Never ever ever forget how much we need to be grateful for. Wish I could give her a hug.
She broke my heart. She seems to genuinely want to do better but is so lost. I wish her the very best. Praying she gets out of this rut.
She is so young and still so naive/innocent in a lot of aspects of life. I think she needs a good mentor that is truly dedicated to helping her get on track with real life. She needs that routine she once had and the regular testing. I hope she gets the help she needs and succeeds. She’s definitely got the potential and ability to turn it back around. Good luck girl!
You are going to make it Loyalty. I've watched damn near if not all of these interviews and you stand out. Go to rehab any offer of meetings, training any opportunity for self improvement grab with both hands. This is an episode in your life that you can and will leave behind. Take good care. x
She did her first shot of heroin with her mom...thats DARK
It's a reality of many man, my friends mom gave all my friends our first percocets when we were 13. We all eneded up on heroin, lost 2 friends before we graduated. Being poor is rough man, most will never understand.
That’s normal for a lot of people.
My close friends dad was the one who put the needle into her arm, while she and her boyfriend were trying to help him get on his feet (they were 18 yr old parents themselves when they took him in), he got her strung out to try to keep his place on their couch, so she'd "need" him like he needed them. 3 years later, her mother who lived a thousand miles away had her working by day and tricking by night to pay the mom's bills, so that she and the toddler could share a room in her moldy trailer. Families & codependency can be complicated...
My father gave me cocaine to put up my nose when I was 15. Unfortunately the world is a dark, dark place man.
@@Mod2ForPrez I'm glad to see you are still here bro. Salute💯
i wanna go down to skid row & look for loyalty. she deserves so much better.
My heart breaks for her talking about not having a person to care about her.. I felt so bad watching the follow up and getting the impression things have gotten worse for her. She was is proud of her accomplishments. I really hope she can get back to that kind of place in her life again soon.💜
I legit have never wanted to hug someone through the phone so much. This is crazy as fuck.
right? .. me too i just wanna hug her, now as I'm crying for her and everything that's transpired in her young life
Loyalty -
As we both know you won’t be able to do anything in active addiction. If you have Medi-Cal please get into a methadone program ASAP or on a waiting list for in house rehabilitation. Grant yourself some stability in your health first and foremost. One of the many upsides about both Methadone programs and in-house treatment is the social workers there! If you get into in house treatment you’ll have temporary housing and then if all goes well you can get into a half way house. There they’ll set you up with outpatient classes, work training, food stamps, all of that. Here in Sac you can stay in those for up to a year while you get back on your feet. Next, look into vocational training.
Mark has given you a fantastic platform with thousands of people rooting for you and many willing to help, but it’s up to you to take the first step.
You’ve got this. Get ‘em little lady!
❤❤❤❤
Thanks
Great advice.
PLEASE LIKE the lovely woman's comment SO MARK CAN SEE. Thank you. Hopefully he can guide her and get her in the program that you have suggested.
The program here in Sacramento (if she wants to take that leap) is called Mather. They accept people on methadone or you have to be all the way off of everything. Let’s help her out Mark! 👏🏼
Even better, get on Suboxone, apparently it’s easier to get off of that than Methadone
Our need to be loved and protected by our parents is so crucial for our survival that make us override the dysfunctional parts of our family dynamics.
The dichotomy in Her saying that she did her first shot with her mom, then saying she wasn’t abusive is part of that coping/protective mechanism.
They always say their childhood was pretty good and then talk about all of the abuse they have normalized
@@floweuphoria69420 yup…is a coping mechanism to protect themselves. Otherwise she would have perished.
@@analozada9475 I wonder what it will take to break the cycle. The people who victimize were almost always victims themselves at one point. I think at some point the drugs do actually make them forget about the pain but they don’t heal and they lash out at others around them. I think these videos are an important tool in helping people realize but imagine the places where there isn’t any outside influence like the middle east appalachia etc. I Just imagine a dark gray hole where they have to exist and they don’t understand why
She breaks my heart. One good break would change everything for her.
Of all the interviews I have watched, this girl has such potential to find a truly healthy happy life. I so pray she finds someone to help her
That’s so real ,” she was a good mom she just had an addiction.” That’s true for many addicts it’s not that people with addictions are bad people it’s the addiction that makes them
Make bad decisions. Without the addiction there very normal people
It's right but in this case her mother introduced her to drugs and was taking drugs while pregnant putting her in danger I don't think she was a good mother.
@@nad0862 her mother and father were not addicts and they would never have introduced their child to harmful things they loved her even when she treated them horribly
I like your statement. Sure her circumstances made her more prone to drug abuse but she chooses not to put the blame on her mother or anyone. At the end of the day, we all get a shit end of a stick and have choices.
She had her "1st shot of heroin with her"
In some ways I agree with this comment people can be very high functioning addicts, some even go to work and pay their bills but that doesn't mean it wasn't a chaotic childhood that obviously didn't set her up for success. The foster care system is a failure and has so many stories like this, I don't understand. You should know a kid who's gone through that much shit is just acting out. I definitely do blame the mother for giving her child heroin that is absolutely insane to me but what happens when you're on drugs is your brains prefrontal cortex deteriorates and you lose the ability to make healthy decisions. So while she was probably a good mom at times and probably even did the best she could (in a weird sense) there were many mistakes when she wasn't in a good mental space. No excuses just humanity isn't always that simple. I can see it in her and I could probably see the same thing in her mother. These generational curses are incredibly hard to break but I give her props for building herself up to that point and hopefully she can do it again because she's obviously very strong. Anyone who's gone through that much should be called a warrior in my book. We look at addicts like they're weak for going to drugs but most of the time they've gone through shit you could never even comprehend. Trauma isn't easy to handle. Period.
I hope you see this Loyalty.... You are 10000% the right person to become an addiction recovery counselor. Your story is as inspiring as it is frustrating and heartbreaking.... but the value is in your ability to tell that story with the complete spectrum of emotions.
Keep on loving, keep on fighting
And hold on, and hold on
Hold on for your life
this is my favorite video yet. She is such a genuine soul so introspective so humble, just someone that sadly got dealt a bad deck of cards at the moment. So proud of the progress you made within your life Loyalty, you're very inspiring, I'm routing for you and I wish you all the best.
I swear just watching her interview made me feel like I was watching myself. Everything she described about herself and her life made me relive my own life. Her fears, her uncertainty and several other things made me see myself threw her eyes. God bless this beautiful woman and i hope she finds herself through this madness.
I’m so sorry that you went through that. Stay Strong.♥️
I hope you find or have found yourself through yours as well.
Stay up and only try to make smart safe moves if that makes sense. Nobody should be treated bad
Addict for 12 years myself. I'm 30 now. With 3 years clean. Just dont stop trying. Dont give up. And remember there is ALWAYS a way to get through it all so long as the desire is greater than the addiction.
Congratulations on your sobriety.
@@Louloubug323 Thank you.
I think this is a good podium for those that are blind to this lifestyle. Some people have never known the horrible life of addiction and the daily struggles that come attached. If their were more people out here with half the heart as this man, the world would be a better place. Thank you. God bless
Loyalty seems like a smart girl. She can come out of this. I wish I could give her a hug and tell her it’s all going to get better. She just needs resources and a good friend by her side.
My husband got out of the Navy right as COVID hit. I went from having everything, affording family trips, and having the ability to stay home with my daughter and go to school. To being homeless, both of us jobless, and having nothing but my car. It was a struggle. Most places wouldn't hire anyone during the pandemic and my background is in Law Enforcement and my husband worked on jets. We never pictured living this life, but it has humbled us both A LOT.Now we both work full time, I'm a full time student, and we live at my Moms. Keep pushing girl. Keep applying. I feel you sooooo hard.
@Jessica Williamson Jordan’s comment resonated with me to the core. My significant other and I at the time got out of the Air Force as the recession hit in 2007-2008. NO ONE would hire him and I was 7 months pregnant. We had no idea what was going on until we learned it was a recession on the way. We lost it all!! No apartment just my car. Everything gone. I got 3 small jobs at the mall and did odd jobs until 9 months pregnant. He left me from the pressure of it all. I was left alone with a newborn baby and found a full time job when my son was 4 weeks old. I got a new apartment and I put my baby in daycare and enrolled myself in college with a full time schedule. I paid for daycare for my baby while I worked full time and went to school at night all on my own. It can be done especially if you are single with no kids. Be encouraged and laser focused.
@Jessica Williamson I was a young mom, worked full time 11p-7a and went to nursing school full time evenings. From 3-10pm. It is do Anel but definitely very hard. Having a baby I only slept a few hours a day. Now that I’m older I can’t imagine doing that.... but in your early twenties anything is possible. Keep pushing. You can do it!!
but people still voted for evil democrats thats scary
@Jessica Williamson Luckily my college switch to full time online. So I am in 5 classes. I get up at 5 am. Get ready, get my daughter ready, take her to pre-school, get to work by 9, take lunch at 12 and do some homework at lunch, work until 7pm, get home, bathe my daughter, make dinner, story time and bed time, catch up on school work until about 11pm, sleep, and all over again. I am getting my pre-requisites for my BSN so it can be a little challenging sometimes with chemistry and math. However, I believe 100% that if I keep pushing I will never have to be in that situation again.
@TaketheK I N G D O M We just realized what an amazing resource the VA. They have already helped our family a lot. There are still bumps in the road, but we see a light!
Damn this was real. She's so relatable. Everything she's been through has made her more wise than what she even realizes. If she stays off the drugs she'll be more awake to capitalize on opportunities she might have missed while high
underrated comment
Indeed. Well said
Somebody needs to tell her losing her home and car was NOT her fault.
She knows, that, she said so toward the end of the video. She blames herself for losing herself to addiction and depression and the choices she has made since she lost everything.
I always think when I watch these videos- These people are so open to a stranger about their raw wounds, childhood traumas, and daily struggles and realities. Must feel nice to have someone sit you down and genuinely care to want to get to know you and hear what you say for an extended amount if time. 💖
She’s definitely worthy of a good relationship, and life from what I see. I sleep in my car, and don’t have any family myself. I’m 26 and I work full time.
I wish I could speak with this woman.
Love yourself girl!
Keep your head up, better times are coming!
This girl is on the spectrum. She needs a caseworker and to get on SSI. She could still work while on disability if she wanted to. She needs to apply for benefits until at least she gets on her feet again. Hope the best for you!! You are a strong woman and deserve the best life!! God bless.
She's not on the spectrum "because i was born prematurely"
It's just the way our brains are wired.
And it's not necessarily a 'disability' though it is a lifelong challenge relating to more 'neurotypical' society.
Loyalty is lucid and has already proven to herself she can provide stability for herself.
It's really hard when the stool is kicked out from under you..
@@jimurrata6785 we all react differently to the neuro typical world. I agree her premature birth didn't cause her autism, but I understand how alien life feels for her. I self medicated for years, trying to take the edge off. It was a losing battle, and I was the loser as long as I kept drinking.
She masks really well, but would really benefit from having someone in her corner. Like others have said, she should apply for SNAP, that would get her a case worker. She, like many of us, just needs someone to extend a little kindness. If she has her ID, she can contact any social services center. I'm not sure how that works with COVID.
@@dlesliejones Yes, that's why it's a 'spectrum'.
Getting some food benefits and a case worker to help her navigate would be a huge help.
Unfortunately, Covid has made F2F meetings all but impossible, and the amount of physical paperwork + snailmail entrenched in the system just adds to delays and the mounting frustrations most of us feel.
Where do you get your EBT card sent? _the third red tent on the right under the I-5_ is not going to help.
Hell, just not having a physical address is a nightmare (I know!)
Kindness is a blessing if you can find it. For someone who feels they can only depend on themselves (and due to lockdowns) isolation is another stressor that weighs on you.
I'm out of benefits, and can't get an appointment, but I'm not going to use to 'make it go away'.
It is truly hard right now and this young woman is SO relatable.
I hope she gets the hand up she needs.
@@jimurrata6785 there was a time when I honestly thought it was the fourth drink that got me in trouble. I proved I couldn't (safely) take one drink, by trying to prove I could drink "like a gentleman". (...and not wake up from a blackout three hundred miles from home) At least she knows she's on the Spectrum. I didn't have that assessment until two years ago, at 62. Loyalty would do well in jobs that have a high degree of autonomy. The only job I didn't leave after a year, was working for myself. I know we're all different, but it seems to be a common experience. There are near endless resources online to help accommodate and negotiate being spectral. As well as support groups that might be able to help Loyalty deal with the system.
@@dlesliejones And again, on the street you're reliant on a cell phone for getting on the web.
I'm not sure about LA, but public libraries are not a thing here right now.
As for figuring out that you can't even dabble in alcohol, I'm glad you've come to that realization.
Humans (most? animals) are wired for drug use.
Neuropharmacology and the pleasure/reward synapses in the brain don't change for autists.
When I hear an addict tell me 'I hate drugs'. No.... no you don't!
You _LOVE_ drugs, because that's how were wired. You just hate the effects they have on you.
I wasn't diagnosed until my '40's
It was a blessing to _fnally_ have a reason for _who_ I was
Hon, I hope you read this. I am 42. And when you said you're waiting for someone or hoping for someone to just tell you what to do, that no one showed you how live. That tugs at my heart. Because I was like that.... For most of my life. I ended up in the Army because I had no direction and had no idea how to be an adult. And that started a life of... I don't know how to describe, but hell and back several times over. Losing everything several times. 3 marriages to men that were completely unsuited for me...chasing that feeling of security and family and love... Inappropriate relationships/raped, abused, homeless, hungry, alone, suicide attempts, almost dying, ... Like you, I've been through the wringer! And I share your outlook on how it's experience that deepens you. This Wednesday was my birthday... 42. (Cannot believe I am still here). I never really care about my birthday but decided to make this one an actual day for me. Well I get told Friday I'm out of a job and a place to live. Things were going SO WELL! And now I have to decide what the heck to do and no one to tell me how. So I might be lost again. I'm going to try my damndest to bounce back from this! However I admit I had/have thoughts of just ending it all bc I am so tired in every way of starting over.
I'll be your battle buddy. We will survive and thrive. I don't know how to leave my contact info without the world seeing it. But I am offering. 💜
Of all the videos, this one hurt the most. She wants, she has a drive. I don't know the whole story, but she should be helped.
Shes just one of 40 million people that lost their job due to the lockdowns. And the sad part is some people want more restrictions while they work from home in their pajamas making 80K+ a year and never missed a paycheck.
So true
Well said
You are spot on.
And that’s why the government should give us a monthly check for those not fortunate enough to work at home.
This is heartbreaking
It’s channels like this that simply make me do more good for my fellow man/woman.
I was grabbing a coffee at Dunkin Donuts yesterday and standing outside in 28 degree weather is a homeless guy. Went in and asked for a roast beef sandwich on sourdough with cheddar cheese and got an extra coffee. Handed it to the homeless guy and he could not be any more appreciative. We then exchanged a few words and he kept calling me “Brother”, which made me feel good. Could not have been a nicer guy and made me feel good about the whole situation.
Nothing feels as good as giving to people who need it
One time I think this guy mistook me for homeless when I was walking my dog because he wanted to feed my dog something. My dog wasnt skinny just a rescue and I guess I look sad and homeless socially awkward or stand offish for the guy to be trying to give my dog food. But I said wait, Its got onions on it. and dogs die when they eat onions and he gave me a reaction consistent with a homeless guy turning down food for their dog. Like "oh your dogs too good for onions now?"
God bless you and that person too.
In SF this fein lady with a baby in a stroller standing outside a ice cream polar ask for $$, I went inside and found a couple things for them to eat. I gave it to her and she was upset that I wouldn't give her $$. I don't understand b/c I would starve just so my kids can eat. Drugs have to be evil.
@Whole Health for a Whole World I feel you if you go downtown in my city at night you will get swarmed by hecklers if you are dressed halfway decent. Luckily for me I lived on the streets for two years before rising above the bullshit, so I know how to speak their language and basically get them to think twice about any shit they might've been thinking of pulling on me. Also though, I try to give them encouragement and have them realize that we live in America and it's out there to get! Have to buckle down and stop playing games with life.
The power of showing respect and compassion and honesty allow these people to feel invited and willing to open up to him. When she said those tears were rare, and she doesn't cry or show her true emotion often... I believe her 100%. These people become hopeless and are robbed or lost from communication and someone actually listening... they're so alone. And they don't have to be. Its hard to love yourself in general, but when you have no one else that really cares about your existence... fck man... It hurts my heart. These people are strong.
She just needs someone to come along and pick her up and teach her and make her feel safe
Something broke in my heart when she said "I wasn't good enough for foster care." Unbelievable. No one should ever feel like they aren't good enough for a home. The "support" this country offers children that come from troubled homes is nearly non-existent. It's a sickening reality across the country and we need to demand a complete social system reform to create support for individuals of all ages. ESPECIALLY the kids. She's carried that lack of worth through her early adult years and it's so unfair. I feel angry that she's where she is. Part of that anger is directed at the drugs, because I am an addict/recovering and understand exactly what it feels like to feel that lost. The other part is directed at COVID, and our lack of control over it. When will it actually start getting better? Time will tell. I hope she stays safe and finds a way out of the fentanyl. She deserves better. 25 years old. This is what we are doing to our kids. These are the tools we leave them to use in an emergency such an unemployment. We must stop pretending the kids are okay. Help them. God help them.
As a mother of a preemie this broke my heart. It is such a miracle this girl even survived being born as premature as she was and thankfully she was blessed to have no major complications from it. Sad to see she beat ALL those odds just to end up living such a rough, sad life so far.
Maybe we'll get an update. I'm sure Mark pointed her in the right direction &/ hooked her up with the right people.
Damn preemies.
Premie babies survive all the time it’s the fact that she was a drug baby THAT premature and survived ❤️❤️❤️ such a beautiful story ❣️
I was to I was 2lbs 3 oz when I was born.
@@Theloc-fq1qq Wow!
I often see “I wanna hug this person” in the comments and thought it was cheesy til now. This sweet girl truly wants out.
She’s a pure soul. We recognize each other. I’m praying for her to get that direction she’s waiting for and stops doing for other people when she doesn’t even have it to do for herself. It’s hard being an empath… especially when they’re down and out. That kind heart cannot be removed. Hugs to her ❤️
This is heartbreaking. If it weren't for my husband, I'd probably be in the same boat as her. Haven't worked since March of last yr. Feeling hella depressed. Just trying to make it thru the days. Sending love to this girl and anyone who reads this.
I understand this A LOT! I was finishing my college degree before the pandemic. I took a break to be available for my family. Due to higher costs, with everyone being home, I started applying for jobs (supplement my husband's income). I've applied for over a dozen (retail and professional) positions. I'm either overqualified or underqualified -- so many people well-qualified people are looking for jobs, the market is saturated.
So, yeah, I get it. Just because Walmart is hiring, doesn't mean I'll get the job.🤷🏽♀️
I feel so bad for you, please keep your head up. Things will pass and get better with time. I'm one of the fortunate people that never lost any work time at all during covid. And I don't understand why every business couldn't have just practiced social distancing, require masks, redesign layouts for people to be separated and just keep working. I don't understand how so many people lost their jobs and some people still aren't working, our society is disgusting.
@@CasperInkyMagoo What the hell? In what industry? The service industry employees have been laid off because of the lockdowns... so what kind of "low" job do you propose she get? FYI- I was unemployed for about six months and have a lot of professional experience and applied for EVERYTHING. Didn't matter what it was. Couldn't find a professional job for six months because of the economy, and jobs like waitressing etc wouldn't hire me because they knew I would be gone once I got another desk job. I applied for every single job where I met the qualifications, didn't matter what it was. Do you really think all of these struggling unemployed people are turning away any job!? Why would anyone? Jesus.
thank you!
tear drop
this girl is cool, you can tell she goes through life with her spikes out and getting to talk about her traumas must've been really refreshing for her. i really hope she gets the right help.
I felt that so hard when she said “ I’m afraid to be in love “
She is one of the strongest person I have ever seen. I wish you were closer, and I could help ...
Such a beautiful soul. I was in "foster care" too and was always in group homes or facilities. I truly believe that this young lady has EXTREME POTENTIAL!
She reminds me of Kristen Stewart ...so much depth in what she says ...”I’ve felt more loss than love” 💔
I wish her the VERY BEST! I hope she gets government SRO and her benefits...after she goes to treatment!
Yeah, she reminds me of her too.
I feel like the fact that she is asking for advice, looking for direction, owns her story, and still has a sense of humor bodes well for her. Keep grinding, and striving to be better! We all have our demons, and I hope you can get to a happy place.
It’s happening to more people than you’d think. I’m 3x her age, recently lost the love of my life, lost my job, and about to loose my house, and a run in with a lying “Karen” caused my dog to be taken. Hang in there Loyalty, you’re not alone!
Her photo is so striking! Like she almost walked out of another era. Bless her.
Oh my God. This is such a precious human. Shes SO real and is beautifully humble and vulnerable. I hope she comes out on top.
I am so struck by her lack of self pity given her difficult life circumstances. It breaks my heart that people can fall through the cracks of society like this. If you’re reading this Loyalty, you’re an amazing survivor and a beautiful soul. Your strength from your life experiences is so admirable. Everything about you from your intelligence, light in your eyes to your politeness and willingness to learn and ask for advice is so wonderful to see. You have humbled me this morning I wish you all the best. I will meditate for you xxx
She is incredibly insightful & self-aware. Inquisitive; teachable, but has so much knowledge that she will (& has already) pass onto this world. An old soul for sure & a beautiful soul at that. Thank you for sharing her story with us.