I too have had serious problems with my emotions and have suffered great times of depression. Mostly, my depression has been centered around career, marriage, and significance. I too have felt similar feelings about adequacy and feelings of being a failure. Earlier this year, I took a huge step for myself in dealing with these vices. I started to put into practice what I already believe theologically, that God is sovereign over all things and that includes my position in life and circumstances. God has blessed me with a good job, but the possibility of me ever being able to get married is almost none because of where I live. And because of that I am very sad. But, I gave it all to God. I released myself from feeling bad about circumstances that I am not able top control. I do what I am able and let God have my burdens. Olivia, from my perspective, you have so much. You have someone you love and want to marry. I would give anything for that. Do your best to handle in life what is in your control, and release the rest to God for his sovereign hand to work out. It is through releasing those things to him that you can find true joy. I am not there yet, but I am working at it.
I too have had serious problems with my emotions and have suffered great times of depression. Mostly, my depression has been centered around career, marriage, and significance. I too have felt similar feelings about adequacy and feelings of being a failure. Earlier this year, I took a huge step for myself in dealing with these vices. I started to put into practice what I already believe theologically, that God is sovereign over all things and that includes my position in life and circumstances. God has blessed me with a good job, but the possibility of me ever being able to get married is almost none because of where I live. And because of that I am very sad. But, I gave it all to God. I released myself from feeling bad about circumstances that I am not able top control. I do what I am able and let God have my burdens. Olivia, from my perspective, you have so much. You have someone you love and want to marry. I would give anything for that. Do your best to handle in life what is in your control, and release the rest to God for his sovereign hand to work out. It is through releasing those things to him that you can find true joy. I am not there yet, but I am working at it.