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I'm formally diagnosed with DID, and let me tell you, it's not just "forgetfulness and mood swings." I think a lot of people who fake it might have a personality disorder, and they confuse emotional states with personalities. But DID is a DISSOCIATIVE disorder, NOT a personality disorder. I can't blame kids for wanting to find themselves, but it does upset me that the stigma of my condition is so heavily exploited. And on that note, DissociaDID is a fucking embarrassment to us who ACTUALLY live with DID.
possible-OSDD system here (undiagnosed but seeking diagnosis, I do a lot of research on this stuff as both an interest and cope) I have a personality disorder and lemme tell ya- it does NOT make me dissociate the way my alters fronting will. my BPD (diagnosed) has never caused the fugue and amnesia the same way as DID/OSDD would, over time I've def learned the differences (I'm oversimplifying bc of youtube's gross filter + it'd be too long to type here anyway) and DissociaDID... I don't even know if they're a system or not but I don't want to fake-claim them but goodness gracious the things I've seen and heard...
lol the top video youtube decided to recommend to me was by that channel (which i don't think i had heard of before)… thanks youtube (and thank you OP for the warning)
Early fall and late spring. Not too hot, not too cold, it makes my body hurt less and no mosquitoes. I think there's a blend of both deliberate malingerers and people who have convinced themselves of actually having a disorder, or an illness. Both are damaging to actual sufferers, it's very isolating. I wish they would seek help so that they can be helped to come out of it, so that they can see through all of the mental gymnastics they resorted to, to live this fantasy.
"Denial is a symptom" I straight up snorted at that.. XD Denial is normal for those with DID, that is a true, but it's not a "symptom".. I denied my experiences with my alters for 4 years after my first encounter with a little of mine.. I learned later as to why it happened, but it scared me.. I ignored and tried to tell myself it wasn't real or that I was delusional.. after 4 years, I said "F it" and asked my therapist about it.. 2 years later, I was diagnosed and now have better communication with 2 others in my system and know more about them and myself.. DID can be really scary at the beginning, its not all fun and games That doesn't mean I can't have fun with my alters.. I have some hilarious moments, funny quotes I was told about, and petty squabbles with my one alter who is dubbed my metaphorical twin (Which is it's own funny story, lol)
Don't worry, I understand how embarrassing it can be to think you have something that so many are faking but end up not having it 😅 For a bit, I thought I may have DID because I would have these horribly violent thoughts that I hated and it just didn't feel like me (I didn't realize they were intrusive thoughts due to the quirky, "Oh, I'mma let the intrusive thoughts win and cut my hair!" Trend that was going on at the time.) After going to many therapists and psychiatrists I've found so far that it's more than likely OCD, not DID. I would have never guessed back then but now it does make much more sense as I really didn't have many of the DID symptoms other than I had these horrible thoughts that made me feel it had to be coming from a different person. There are so many different disorders out there, that's why there are professionals to help but it is also important to do research with their help and guidance if you're able. When it's something relating to your health you should advocate for yourself and if you believe something is a problem, you should tell someone if you can and listen to what they have to say. Getting an official diagnosis can be very difficult and costly, I've been waiting a year just for another psychiatry appointment to see if I do have OCD as well as potential other diagnosis, so I understand getting antsy and just wanting to know what's up by trying to do your own research. Please be very careful when doing so and if you can, try to get feedback from others in your life to help see their perspective and narrow down different behaviors to maybe help aid in your research. Anyways, that's enough of my ranting, thanks for reading! Please just stay safe and do try to stay strong 🥰💙
Thank you for sharing your experience. I can relate to the challenges of intrusive thoughts and the confusion they can cause when it comes thinking you have a disorder like DID or OSDD. I now recognize that these experiences can common and don't necessarily indicate DID or OSDD. I'm really glad to hear that you're seeking help, though it's unfortunate that the process involves such a long wait. It can be really frustrating navigating the healthcare system. For me, it's hard finding places that test for a wide range of disorders and mental illnesses. I found a place that tests for learning disabilities & ADHD, but not an array of tests to assess for other disorders/mental illness. Anyways, I hope you're doing well and that you find the support and answers you're looking for. Take care.
Intrusive thoughts are unfortunately one of things that the internet also turned Cute and QuirkyTM, because they don’t know the difference between an actual intrusive thought and an impulsive one. Impulsive thoughts are the Imma get bangs lulz; where as in my experience with actual invassive thoughts they are violent, scary, or just down right weird/baseless accusations directed at myself that I have no way of actually being guilty of. They are actually awful.
@@srenapplegate4174^^^ exactly. i only really started learning how to deal with my intrusive thoughts healthily this year. i spent so much of my life hating myself for the horrible horrible things my brain tried to convince me i wanted to do.
Okay so I don’t have this even a little but I do have other stuff and I can say that during the summer when I have nothing to do but binge watch/play, that it definitely does significantly affect my world view even if I don’t want it to. My emotions are more tied to the fictional characters i observe and much less connected to real life. I’m fortunate that I can still clearly distinguish reality cognitively so I’m okay, but I can absolutely see where as a teen someone like me could become so caught up in empathy with the videos they saw that they began to adapt mindset and points of view and emotions etc as to become confused and lose themselves in adopted identities, especially without a strong core identity which is a normal part of figuring yourself out as a teen. All to say, I can see someone getting caught up and resulting in “faking it” without realizing.
Thank you! Self diagnosis is dangerous. I'm trying to find community but it's hard when something just feels "off." So it leads to more isolation with the disorder.
I can see how it for some is a pitfall. If you don't feel like you have an identity which is a problem in itself, and if you have many traits that don't go together and you wonder why you have them and you feel a natural unease, it is perfectly natural to split yourself into sortof identities where there are things going together. I am like that, like if I walk out in the woods, I know to bring other clothes not just for practicality, my woods ego has other taste. The same comes to music, food and even political opinions. Also in the mood cycles I used to have, preferences changed also. I think this is to do with the extra sensitivity to host conflicting traits. And that you are super aware of what you feel. I had ego states that would follow what I did, but there would be no amnesia but a kind of anger towards the other egos because the present one always felt correct. If I had been a teen on SM I might have developed a fake disorder. Or not. So maybe there can be sensitivities to who get to be the fake DID. I wouldnt have to act, I was all these ego states. But I studied psych long ago, before the internet, which made me think critically. So I knew this wasnt DID. This is just what others do when they highight traits to match a situation, the difference is they do it for others I do it for me.
Awww Michelle, the self-cringe! 🤍 You’re only young, everyone is so miseducated in one way or another as a child on the net nowadays, really cannot blame you…”Cyberchondria” is totally real…& the self-growth/putting genuine authentic info out there is a slaaayyyy
Thank you for your kind words and understanding! While it is my responsibility to bring up my symptoms to my therapist & other professionals, as well as do research on the disorder myself, I believe my understanding of OSDD-1B was tinted by the portrayal I was seeing online about it. Your encouragement means a lot-I'm glad you can see my attempt to share authentic information. Take care
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Acknowledging and admitting to having faked something shows growth and self awareness
If you’re referring to the main RUclipsr of the video, they didn’t really fake it, sounds more like they were confused.
I'm formally diagnosed with DID, and let me tell you, it's not just "forgetfulness and mood swings." I think a lot of people who fake it might have a personality disorder, and they confuse emotional states with personalities. But DID is a DISSOCIATIVE disorder, NOT a personality disorder.
I can't blame kids for wanting to find themselves, but it does upset me that the stigma of my condition is so heavily exploited. And on that note, DissociaDID is a fucking embarrassment to us who ACTUALLY live with DID.
possible-OSDD system here (undiagnosed but seeking diagnosis, I do a lot of research on this stuff as both an interest and cope)
I have a personality disorder and lemme tell ya- it does NOT make me dissociate the way my alters fronting will. my BPD (diagnosed) has never caused the fugue and amnesia the same way as DID/OSDD would, over time I've def learned the differences (I'm oversimplifying bc of youtube's gross filter + it'd be too long to type here anyway)
and DissociaDID... I don't even know if they're a system or not but I don't want to fake-claim them but goodness gracious the things I've seen and heard...
lol the top video youtube decided to recommend to me was by that channel (which i don't think i had heard of before)… thanks youtube (and thank you OP for the warning)
Early fall and late spring.
Not too hot, not too cold, it makes my body hurt less and no mosquitoes.
I think there's a blend of both deliberate malingerers and people who have convinced themselves of actually having a disorder, or an illness.
Both are damaging to actual sufferers, it's very isolating. I wish they would seek help so that they can be helped to come out of it, so that they can see through all of the mental gymnastics they resorted to, to live this fantasy.
Mid-fall for me, just getting chilly enough to where my bones sometimes ache, yet acceptable temperature to wrap up in my electric throw~
I think the more vocal more roleplaying like ones are more often purposeful than not.
"Denial is a symptom" I straight up snorted at that.. XD
Denial is normal for those with DID, that is a true, but it's not a "symptom".. I denied my experiences with my alters for 4 years after my first encounter with a little of mine.. I learned later as to why it happened, but it scared me.. I ignored and tried to tell myself it wasn't real or that I was delusional.. after 4 years, I said "F it" and asked my therapist about it.. 2 years later, I was diagnosed and now have better communication with 2 others in my system and know more about them and myself.. DID can be really scary at the beginning, its not all fun and games
That doesn't mean I can't have fun with my alters.. I have some hilarious moments, funny quotes I was told about, and petty squabbles with my one alter who is dubbed my metaphorical twin (Which is it's own funny story, lol)
Don't worry, I understand how embarrassing it can be to think you have something that so many are faking but end up not having it 😅
For a bit, I thought I may have DID because I would have these horribly violent thoughts that I hated and it just didn't feel like me (I didn't realize they were intrusive thoughts due to the quirky, "Oh, I'mma let the intrusive thoughts win and cut my hair!" Trend that was going on at the time.) After going to many therapists and psychiatrists I've found so far that it's more than likely OCD, not DID. I would have never guessed back then but now it does make much more sense as I really didn't have many of the DID symptoms other than I had these horrible thoughts that made me feel it had to be coming from a different person.
There are so many different disorders out there, that's why there are professionals to help but it is also important to do research with their help and guidance if you're able. When it's something relating to your health you should advocate for yourself and if you believe something is a problem, you should tell someone if you can and listen to what they have to say. Getting an official diagnosis can be very difficult and costly, I've been waiting a year just for another psychiatry appointment to see if I do have OCD as well as potential other diagnosis, so I understand getting antsy and just wanting to know what's up by trying to do your own research. Please be very careful when doing so and if you can, try to get feedback from others in your life to help see their perspective and narrow down different behaviors to maybe help aid in your research.
Anyways, that's enough of my ranting, thanks for reading! Please just stay safe and do try to stay strong 🥰💙
Thank you for sharing your experience.
I can relate to the challenges of intrusive thoughts and the confusion they can cause when it comes thinking you have a disorder like DID or OSDD. I now recognize that these experiences can common and don't necessarily indicate DID or OSDD.
I'm really glad to hear that you're seeking help, though it's unfortunate that the process involves such a long wait. It can be really frustrating navigating the healthcare system.
For me, it's hard finding places that test for a wide range of disorders and mental illnesses. I found a place that tests for learning disabilities & ADHD, but not an array of tests to assess for other disorders/mental illness.
Anyways, I hope you're doing well and that you find the support and answers you're looking for. Take care.
Intrusive thoughts are unfortunately one of things that the internet also turned Cute and QuirkyTM, because they don’t know the difference between an actual intrusive thought and an impulsive one.
Impulsive thoughts are the Imma get bangs lulz; where as in my experience with actual invassive thoughts they are violent, scary, or just down right weird/baseless accusations directed at myself that I have no way of actually being guilty of.
They are actually awful.
good luck with your diagnosis!!
@@srenapplegate4174^^^ exactly. i only really started learning how to deal with my intrusive thoughts healthily this year. i spent so much of my life hating myself for the horrible horrible things my brain tried to convince me i wanted to do.
Okay so I don’t have this even a little but I do have other stuff and I can say that during the summer when I have nothing to do but binge watch/play, that it definitely does significantly affect my world view even if I don’t want it to. My emotions are more tied to the fictional characters i observe and much less connected to real life. I’m fortunate that I can still clearly distinguish reality cognitively so I’m okay, but I can absolutely see where as a teen someone like me could become so caught up in empathy with the videos they saw that they began to adapt mindset and points of view and emotions etc as to become confused and lose themselves in adopted identities, especially without a strong core identity which is a normal part of figuring yourself out as a teen. All to say, I can see someone getting caught up and resulting in “faking it” without realizing.
Thank you! Self diagnosis is dangerous. I'm trying to find community but it's hard when something just feels "off." So it leads to more isolation with the disorder.
I can see how it for some is a pitfall. If you don't feel like you have an identity which is a problem in itself, and if you have many traits that don't go together and you wonder why you have them and you feel a natural unease, it is perfectly natural to split yourself into sortof identities where there are things going together. I am like that, like if I walk out in the woods, I know to bring other clothes not just for practicality, my woods ego has other taste. The same comes to music, food and even political opinions. Also in the mood cycles I used to have, preferences changed also. I think this is to do with the extra sensitivity to host conflicting traits. And that you are super aware of what you feel. I had ego states that would follow what I did, but there would be no amnesia but a kind of anger towards the other egos because the present one always felt correct. If I had been a teen on SM I might have developed a fake disorder. Or not. So maybe there can be sensitivities to who get to be the fake DID. I wouldnt have to act, I was all these ego states. But I studied psych long ago, before the internet, which made me think critically. So I knew this wasnt DID. This is just what others do when they highight traits to match a situation, the difference is they do it for others I do it for me.
I like summer, but I know other parts of me like fall while other parts prefer spring. I think all of us can agree that winter sucks 😅❤️🥰
I love snow, but it is quite miserable to not be able to go outside. so I agree 🙃
Awww Michelle, the self-cringe! 🤍 You’re only young, everyone is so miseducated in one way or another as a child on the net nowadays, really cannot blame you…”Cyberchondria” is totally real…& the self-growth/putting genuine authentic info out there is a slaaayyyy
Thank you for your kind words and understanding! While it is my responsibility to bring up my symptoms to my therapist & other professionals, as well as do research on the disorder myself, I believe my understanding of OSDD-1B was tinted by the portrayal I was seeing online about it.
Your encouragement means a lot-I'm glad you can see my attempt to share authentic information.
Take care