I flimed this video before i left Florida so this video was filmed a few months ago . It's kind of an old video. I can't believe how much i used to mask 😢 also im not a full blown sociopath . I have alexithymia with traits of aspd
Hmmm, this makes sense. I had seen your other video, your newer video and this one and is like night and day. I suppose, masking is a thing. I used to do it by means of surviving a hurtful childhood and essentially a fawn response to smooth the waters. It’s interesting. It’s like night and day but good that you are revealing the true you in your newer videos. I know I used to put on a face back then myself so I get it. It’ll be a process but I’m sure you can get in tune with your emotions eventually with time & effort as you process your trauma. It’s good that you’re trying. That’s the most that anyone can ask for. Keep on going. 頑張てね？
Please correct me if I'm wrong about anything, because I can never know your own experience no matter how much I try to cognize it. I am not intending to come across like I know more about your experience then you do, I hope my intention to validate your experiences comes across correctly. If it doesn't, I sincerely apologize, and I understand that regardless of my intention, it doesn't change the impact on your end, and I am willing to listen as to what I did/said that has a harmful impact on you and learn how to avoid that in the future. At the end of the day, I want to show you the love and understanding that you expressed that you need from others.
tired of the sociopath / psychopath hate too. having different brain chemistry doesn't automatically make you a "serial killer" we all have free will. Most of the crappy ppl i've met have been neurotypical to be honest lol
Thanks for educating me and all the other people interested in learning about your thoughts about your life. Believe me when I say life is confusing period. Understanding people are very confusing as well. You are definitely not alone. Look forward to your future videos. Take care. 😊😊😊
i relate quite a bit, i dont have aspd but i do have autism, adhd, ocd, then osdd-1b and av/szpd. depending on front depends on what pd traits we have more of, some have npd traits too but its pretty few members. we grew up with little to no one advocating for our well being or safety because we had the 'annoying' audhd so we just cant feel positive emotions very strongly anymore. it makes me really angry that people can just completely destroy your ability to love and be cared for because they just dont like you for being born neurodivergent, disabled, or poc.
You are such a beautiful person. I love your energy and the positive vibes you give off. I'm sorry that bad things happened to you. I have PTSD and some situations I just can't be a part of and I think that's why I've been alone for so long. I know I don't fit in. I have trouble making friends and people don't understand me. So I've learned to be comfortable with myself.
* This is just unsolicited advise, feel free to ignore.* Maybe if you do start dating on dating apps or however you give it like a 3 date rule before telling them you have aspd, that way you don’t have to worry as much if they’re dating you because of that. Maybe just broach the topic about being neurodivergent first since there is a stigma obviously and most people will probably react emotionally from what they’ve seen on tv before really logically thinking about it and trying to understand you as a person. Sorry if this comes off as patronizing I’m just trying to think strategically about it. If you keep at it you’ll find someone who will fit with you and is a good person. You’ll probably go on a lot of “whatever” dates before you meet that person but just thinking of them as learning experiences of what you do and don’t like, practicing dating and trying to have a good time maybe it won’t be so bad. I know when you encounter a lot of bad people it’s hard to believe that good ones actually exist but they’re out there. It’s kind of a numbers game sometimes. *Also there is nothing wrong with putting your comfort and safety first, you deserve to find someone who will respect you’re boundaries 100% I think your positive thinking that you’re not a lost cause and you’re trying to get better and you’re grateful for the progress you’ve made and you’re trying to build a life that will make you happy really shows how strong of a person you are and I wish you all the best. Also I hope you can learn to like yourself more!
Finally something that could explain me lol. If you ever watch Dexter and said damn I feel just like him you might have this. I’m autistic and I have definitely question sociopath all my life. I’m gonna go take that test and I just seen you on jubilee thanks for being there.
Hey, I just wanna say that I listened to one of your interviews and kept thinking for the whole time that oh damn, you're... you're there just describing my exact thought patterns and life experience? Well, I haven't been through the exact same things, but I'm autistic, traumatised and AFAB as well and it seems I have quite a few antisocial traits. I didn't know I have because all the descriptions about ASPD point towards criminal and/or cruel behaviour, and I'm not like that. I want everyone to be happy - and I mean everyone, I don't have that hateful disregard towards "outsiders" that people often seem to have - and I try to be as good to others as I can, but I often don't have capacity to let my own feelings get involved very much. Listening to that interview was also the first time ever I've heard another person to describe the thoughts about being indifferent to other than most crucial damage. I've learnt to mask my autistic (and probably antisocial) traits but I tend to do it just to a degree of not being completely left out of social circles. I don't mask to fit in but to not get completely judged, hated or abandoned. So: _thank you_ for being there.
I'm so glad that you kept your faith in Jesus even after the horrible things you experienced at the church. May God bless you. You are a light for people who want to understand and for the people who are in the same situation as you!
From what I’ve seen of your content (2 videos) it seems like you’ve been through a lot… soo much. Given what you’ve been through (and what its done to you) I respect that you’ve chosen to try and be a better person. Why do you think you chose a path of good over a more destructive path? Why have you chosen to identify as a good person?
@@ChocolateAutizzy I ask this question because, without getting into too much detail, well my step daughter I’m convinced is dealing with undiagnosed ASPD and seems to have chosen a more destructive path. And I’m not sure how (or if we can even) get through to her to convince her she could be on a better path.
@@ChocolateAutizzy she’s about 17 now (Ive been with her since she was about 9-10) and hers hit really hard at about 12-13 which was right after she had been molested by a family member over the summer which we didn’t find out about until years later (though we suspected something had gone wrong). She has self destructive tendencies (she cuts), impulsivity, violence and aggression, she’s manipulative, and has put herself in some dangerous sometimes life threatening situations. But she doesn’t seem to think she has a problem. Im just hoping this is something she can grow out of on her own, because we can’t seem to be able to get through to her.
@MaxPowers2.0 She's too young to acknowledge that she has a problem. She's also too young for me to say that she has aspd . If I were you, I would look for a therapist who specializes in trauma therapy and set up an appointment. If she says she doesn't want to go "make her " because you're the adult, and honestly, if she continues down this path, she will most likely end up in jail when she's older. Hide all the sharp objects in the house in your room and lock the door . Instead of yelling or reprimanding her for lying or being self-destructive. Ask her if she wants to talk about "why " does she feel the need to lie or hurt herself or others. It's best to do this one on one in a public place like a restaurant or something. That way, she's less likely to overreact, and if she does overeat stand your ground, do not yell or get upset. Just remain calm until she is ready to talk. She needs to understand that you care about her, and hopefully, that will help her to care about herself.
I'm 15 mins into the video and I get "ASPD empathy" from the things you said happened to you, lol. So it's better I don't speak out my thougths. I'm autistic (as you know if you read my comments) and on the bipolar spectrum.
love that Sherlock Holmes character. It is typical of the normie toast eating crowd to stigmatize anyone who is a little neurodivergent. Then if we look around the most brilliant people are usually neurodivergent. Anyone from Albert Einstein, Elon Musk, Bill Gates and SO many more. It must suck to be a boring normie..😁
It sounds very funny to me how you say "I would protect them with my life". I mean the fact that you say that. But it's ok. I mean we know that's how neurotypical people would say it. Lovely greetings from the autistic girl from Berlin, Germany
I think my boyfriend hates me he slowly started to treat me different i mention him that he was acting weird and he said i was over reacting i let it go because it was “small” things like questioning my intelligence or calling me liar for no reason, but things got worse i started having a lot of body pain and my face got swollen it turns out i have lupus and i have something called moon face he started being mean to me after that he doesnt want to hug or kiss me.. i am very sad i asked him if he still loves me and he said yes, so i ask him then why you are so distant with me now? and he anwser because your face looks like shit and you dont look cute right now.. at that moment my heart break i stay silent and then he says everything would be back to normal once your face gets back to normal i keep quiet and silent i couldnt believe what i was hearing because before the first 3 years of relationship he told me he would love me no matter what that if i ever get sick or old he would still love me so hearing those words coming out of his mouth just opened my eyes to the sad reality which is unconditional and pure love doesnt exist is just words.. he got mad because i stay silent he says are you not going to say anything? I just replied you called me shit face and ugly… and he plays the victimg and says that i just wanted to fight and he left the room we live together and have 5 years together i dont know what to do i really believed that i have found real and pure love but everything was just based on looks i feel like he doesnt love me anymore but he doesnt want to leave me either im heart broken 💔💔
@@TheViktorPutin i know its just heart breaking he just called me 💩 face today and then he goes to sleep like nothing happen we live together its just hard i dont have where to go right now im just in the other room 💔😢
I’m sorry that you are dealing with that situation. He’s wrong for that. Make plans to move, save up money, and ask God to help you with your situation. God bless you 🌟
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I flimed this video before i left Florida so this video was filmed a few months ago . It's kind of an old video. I can't believe how much i used to mask 😢 also im not a full blown sociopath . I have alexithymia with traits of aspd
Please continue to be kind and love yourself ❤ 🎉
Hmmm, this makes sense. I had seen your other video, your newer video and this one and is like night and day. I suppose, masking is a thing. I used to do it by means of surviving a hurtful childhood and essentially a fawn response to smooth the waters.
It’s interesting. It’s like night and day but good that you are revealing the true you in your newer videos.
I know I used to put on a face back then myself so I get it.
It’ll be a process but I’m sure you can get in tune with your emotions eventually with time & effort as you process your trauma.
It’s good that you’re trying. That’s the most that anyone can ask for.
Keep on going. 頑張てね？
@@mikaylakooperShe stated she is a Christian
That sounds more like it to me!
Please correct me if I'm wrong about anything, because I can never know your own experience no matter how much I try to cognize it. I am not intending to come across like I know more about your experience then you do, I hope my intention to validate your experiences comes across correctly. If it doesn't, I sincerely apologize, and I understand that regardless of my intention, it doesn't change the impact on your end, and I am willing to listen as to what I did/said that has a harmful impact on you and learn how to avoid that in the future. At the end of the day, I want to show you the love and understanding that you expressed that you need from others.
tired of the sociopath / psychopath hate too. having different brain chemistry doesn't automatically make you a "serial killer" we all have free will. Most of the crappy ppl i've met have been neurotypical to be honest lol
Most crappy people that I've met as also been nerotypical 😂
@@ChocolateAutizzy 💯💗💗💗
It's really impressive how you've managed to get through life with numb emotions. It's testament to how hard you try. I really admire that
Thank you for sharing this. Life is so unfair. I hope you get better and get the love that you want.
Thanks for educating me and all the other people interested in learning about your thoughts about your life. Believe me when I say life is confusing period. Understanding people are very confusing as well. You are definitely not alone. Look forward to your future videos. Take care. 😊😊😊
i relate quite a bit, i dont have aspd but i do have autism, adhd, ocd, then osdd-1b and av/szpd. depending on front depends on what pd traits we have more of, some have npd traits too but its pretty few members. we grew up with little to no one advocating for our well being or safety because we had the 'annoying' audhd so we just cant feel positive emotions very strongly anymore. it makes me really angry that people can just completely destroy your ability to love and be cared for because they just dont like you for being born neurodivergent, disabled, or poc.
i send you a hug, sweetie! have patience and may you find what you need in life. you sound like you do have everything you need to succeed :*
You are such a beautiful person. I love your energy and the positive vibes you give off. I'm sorry that bad things happened to you. I have PTSD and some situations I just can't be a part of and I think that's why I've been alone for so long. I know I don't fit in. I have trouble making friends and people don't understand me. So I've learned to be comfortable with myself.
thank you so so so much for sharing ,realey relatable and helpful for my autistic brain. and also i ABSOLUTLY LOVE YOUR VOICE gurl🤍
* This is just unsolicited advise, feel free to ignore.*
Maybe if you do start dating on dating apps or however you give it like a 3 date rule before telling them you have aspd, that way you don’t have to worry as much if they’re dating you because of that.
Maybe just broach the topic about being neurodivergent first since there is a stigma obviously and most people will probably react emotionally from what they’ve seen on tv before really logically thinking about it and trying to understand you as a person.
Sorry if this comes off as patronizing I’m just trying to think strategically about it.
If you keep at it you’ll find someone who will fit with you and is a good person. You’ll probably go on a lot of “whatever” dates before you meet that person but just thinking of them as learning experiences of what you do and don’t like, practicing dating and trying to have a good time maybe it won’t be so bad.
I know when you encounter a lot of bad people it’s hard to believe that good ones actually exist but they’re out there. It’s kind of a numbers game sometimes.
*Also there is nothing wrong with putting your comfort and safety first, you deserve to find someone who will respect you’re boundaries 100%
I think your positive thinking that you’re not a lost cause and you’re trying to get better and you’re grateful for the progress you’ve made and you’re trying to build a life that will make you happy really shows how strong of a person you are and I wish you all the best. Also I hope you can learn to like yourself more!
Finally something that could explain me lol. If you ever watch Dexter and said damn I feel just like him you might have this. I’m autistic and I have definitely question sociopath all my life. I’m gonna go take that test and I just seen you on jubilee thanks for being there.
Just took the hare test well im at 80%! 70.9 more than others!
I was also diagnosed with some level of autism and I love your content. All my best wishes to you girl, you are amazing ❤
Hey, I just wanna say that I listened to one of your interviews and kept thinking for the whole time that oh damn, you're... you're there just describing my exact thought patterns and life experience? Well, I haven't been through the exact same things, but I'm autistic, traumatised and AFAB as well and it seems I have quite a few antisocial traits. I didn't know I have because all the descriptions about ASPD point towards criminal and/or cruel behaviour, and I'm not like that. I want everyone to be happy - and I mean everyone, I don't have that hateful disregard towards "outsiders" that people often seem to have - and I try to be as good to others as I can, but I often don't have capacity to let my own feelings get involved very much.
Listening to that interview was also the first time ever I've heard another person to describe the thoughts about being indifferent to other than most crucial damage. I've learnt to mask my autistic (and probably antisocial) traits but I tend to do it just to a degree of not being completely left out of social circles. I don't mask to fit in but to not get completely judged, hated or abandoned.
So: _thank you_ for being there.
How does aspd come to a person? From a trauma or just born with it? Can it heal? Just wondering❤
Dates being in public should just be standard issue, any guy complaining about that is creepy
Would it be helpful to be able to speak in your natural voice/tone ?
I'm so glad that you kept your faith in Jesus even after the horrible things you experienced at the church. May God bless you. You are a light for people who want to understand and for the people who are in the same situation as you!
From what I’ve seen of your content (2 videos) it seems like you’ve been through a lot… soo much. Given what you’ve been through (and what its done to you) I respect that you’ve chosen to try and be a better person.
Why do you think you chose a path of good over a more destructive path? Why have you chosen to identify as a good person?
I identify as a good person because I didn't want to end up in jail or dead and I also didn't want the monsters that corrupted me to win
@@ChocolateAutizzy I ask this question because, without getting into too much detail, well my step daughter I’m convinced is dealing with undiagnosed ASPD and seems to have chosen a more destructive path. And I’m not sure how (or if we can even) get through to her to convince her she could be on a better path.
@@MaxPowers2.0 How old is she ? My aspd was at its worst between the ages of 14-25.
@@ChocolateAutizzy she’s about 17 now (Ive been with her since she was about 9-10) and hers hit really hard at about 12-13 which was right after she had been molested by a family member over the summer which we didn’t find out about until years later (though we suspected something had gone wrong).
She has self destructive tendencies (she cuts), impulsivity, violence and aggression, she’s manipulative, and has put herself in some dangerous sometimes life threatening situations. But she doesn’t seem to think she has a problem. Im just hoping this is something she can grow out of on her own, because we can’t seem to be able to get through to her.
@MaxPowers2.0 She's too young to acknowledge that she has a problem. She's also too young for me to say that she has aspd . If I were you, I would look for a therapist who specializes in trauma therapy and set up an appointment. If she says she doesn't want to go "make her " because you're the adult, and honestly, if she continues down this path, she will most likely end up in jail when she's older. Hide all the sharp objects in the house in your room and lock the door . Instead of yelling or reprimanding her for lying or being self-destructive. Ask her if she wants to talk about "why " does she feel the need to lie or hurt herself or others. It's best to do this one on one in a public place like a restaurant or something. That way, she's less likely to overreact, and if she does overeat stand your ground, do not yell or get upset. Just remain calm until she is ready to talk. She needs to understand that you care about her, and hopefully, that will help her to care about herself.
Do you find that you get a lot of intrusive thoughts about violent / disturbing things
Which are your sympthom as a sociopath? if you would like to share💛 im really sorry for your experience..
I'm 15 mins into the video and I get "ASPD empathy" from the things you said happened to you, lol. So it's better I don't speak out my thougths.
I'm autistic (as you know if you read my comments) and on the bipolar spectrum.
love that Sherlock Holmes character. It is typical of the normie toast eating crowd to stigmatize anyone who is a little neurodivergent. Then if we look around the most brilliant people are usually neurodivergent. Anyone from Albert Einstein, Elon Musk, Bill Gates and SO many more. It must suck to be a boring normie..😁
It sounds very funny to me how you say "I would protect them with my life". I mean the fact that you say that.
But it's ok. I mean we know that's how neurotypical people would say it.
Lovely greetings from the autistic girl from Berlin, Germany
I think my boyfriend hates me he slowly started to treat me different i mention him that he was acting weird and he said i was over reacting i let it go because it was “small” things like questioning my intelligence or calling me liar for no reason, but things got worse i started having a lot of body pain and my face got swollen it turns out i have lupus and i have something called moon face he started being mean to me after that he doesnt want to hug or kiss me.. i am very sad i asked him if he still loves me and he said yes, so i ask him then why you are so distant with me now? and he anwser because your face looks like shit and you dont look cute right now.. at that moment my heart break i stay silent and then he says everything would be back to normal once your face gets back to normal i keep quiet and silent i couldnt believe what i was hearing because before the first 3 years of relationship he told me he would love me no matter what that if i ever get sick or old he would still love me so hearing those words coming out of his mouth just opened my eyes to the sad reality which is unconditional and pure love doesnt exist is just words.. he got mad because i stay silent he says are you not going to say anything? I just replied you called me shit face and ugly… and he plays the victimg and says that i just wanted to fight and he left the room we live together and have 5 years together i dont know what to do i really believed that i have found real and pure love but everything was just based on looks i feel like he doesnt love me anymore but he doesnt want to leave me either im heart broken 💔💔
get out asap, he doesn't love you if he treats you like that. people who love you will treat you better
@@TheViktorPutin i know its just heart breaking he just called me 💩 face today and then he goes to sleep like nothing happen we live together its just hard i dont have where to go right now im just in the other room 💔😢
I’m sorry that you are dealing with that situation. He’s wrong for that. Make plans to move, save up money, and ask God to help you with your situation. God bless you 🌟
So you said you can’t feel positive emotions but u can feel negative ones. I think I over feel my emotions what would that be called? Sry
Why if those titles are wrong I dont believe you are a psychopath
I was misdiagnosed .I have an underdeveloped amygdala so idk what to call myself
@ChocolateAutizzy but how they know for sure? They scanned your brain?who told you this about the amygdala?
@@ChocolateAutizzy The ASPD is the misdiagnosis?
So, you have Autism + underdeveloped amygdala?
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