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These self-destructive behaviors (smoking, going back on your vegan morals) are not actually grounding. Deep down he thinks he needs to be punished, so he is punishing himself by doing things that he normally would never dream of doing. True grounding would be to admit you have been self-centered, closed off to the bad things you have done, etc., but accept yourself for who you have been and love yourself despite these things, knowing that you have a lifetime to understand yourself better and do better.
Stay in there man, I hope you find a solution. The world needs you and people need you
Thank you 🙏❤️😘
I've gotten into these spirals before, not nearly as intense but I've had a lightly similar experience.
Remeber that just as much as life is full of meaning, purpose and connection, it is also not. Yes, be mindful of your actions and how they ripple and affect the world, but also your only purpose is to be your truest self, be kind and do what makes you happy in your little minignless blip of a life. If you need to eat fish once, fine. smoke a few cigs, that's okay.
You may see syncronicties but they are also just happy coincidences.
I've been vegan for 8 years but sometimes you just have to enjoy life and eat a little chocolate.
Du brauchst keine Zigaretten rauchen oder Tiere essen, du brauchst dringend professionelle Hilfe. Ansonsten wird so ein Zustand immer wieder kehren, hoffentlich nicht noch schlimmer.
Lieber Ferdi,
ich habe deinen letzten Podcast gehört und dachte vielleicht helfen dir meine Reflections, auch wenn ich dich natürlich nicht persönlich kenne und nur durch deine Podcasts mir vorstellen kann, durch was du durchgehst. First of all: You will be fine. You will be fucking fine! It might take a while, but you eventually will! Und du machst schon die ersten richtigen Steps: “You don’t know how much help you have until you actually ask for it” Das hast du selbst gesagt und das ist fucking true!
Ich kann mir vorstellen, dass du in letzter Zeit sehr viele Ratschläge bekommen hast, wahrscheinlich auch viele ungefragt (wie ich hier auch). Obwohl ich es eigentlich gar nicht mag, Leuten zu sagen, was sie machen sollen, habe ich das Gefühl, dass du wirklich danach fragst und daher hoffe ich dass du meine Worte hier nicht negativ aufnimmst.
Ich habe das Gefühl , Ferdi, dass du eine Routine brauchst, wo du Beschäftigung hast. Das heißt nicht, dass du ins Hamsterrad einsteigen sollst und direkt in die hustle culture einsteigst. Ich meine damit erfüllende Arbeit, bei der man instant gratitude erfährt. Vllt auch körperlich beanspruchende Arbeit wie Gartenarbeit, Holzarbeit, Arbeit in der Natur , die einen echt Grounden. Bei der du am Ende des Tages ein “Produkt” hast: ein Gemüsebeet, ein Vogelhaus, whatever… Irgendwas wo du “self fullfillment” erfahren kannst.
Mir ist bewusst dass du durch diese Routine und diesen “banalen” Tagesablauf nicht mehr im “flow state” bist und in dem moment nicht mehr deinem highest excitement folgst. ABER ich denke dass dich diese Gewissheit zu wissen, was dich am Tag erwartet, sehr stark grounden kann. Durch diese “Normalität” vllt auch Banalität des Alltags kommt man meiner Erfahrung nach am meisten runter. Der regelmäßige Kontakt mit Menschen, die einem normalen Alltag einhergehen ohne ständig über große Themen und the new world vibration zu reden und dann am Ende des Tages so körperlich kaputt zu sein, dass man ins Bett fällt, kann dir vllt gut tun. Was denkst du?
Eating meat, dairy products, smoking das sind nur Symbole für “grounding”, denke ich, aber nichts wahres, denke ich. Das sind keine langfristigen gesunden Lebensentscheidungen. Vllt kurzfristig als Symbol, aber das ist nicht das Wahre… I’m not judging you at all, whatever helps you. Aber ich denke einfach nicht das es eine nachhaltige Lösung ist, weil du deep inside nicht wirklich davon überzeugt bist.
Und definitely wird alleine diese Gartenarbeit & smoking nicht ausreichen, um die deepen Probleme aus deiner Kindheit und Familie zu lösen.. das wird sehr viel Aussprache und überwindung brauchen. Wahrscheinlich ist es auch unumgänglich hier deine Familie zu kontaktieren und sie nach Hilfe zu fragen. Du musst nicht sofort nach DL fliegen, du musst erst mentally bereit dafür sein. Daher step by step: reaching out for help, auch bei deiner Mami, die dich unendlich lieb hat (ich denke da an die post OP zeit), vllt eine sprachmemo an sie senden, telefonieren, face timen. Ich kann verstehen dass sie nicht auf der gleichen frequency ist wie du und dass sie vieles verurteilen wird woran du glaubst .. aber du brauchst sie Ferdi, sie war bisher immer dein Anker im leben, sie hat dich gestützt & sie wird dich wieder stützen.. it’s never too late to reach out. Und wie ich am Anfang zitiert habe: “You don’t know how much help you have until you actually ask for it “
Much love & healing energy 💚
Es ist so stark und mutig von dir dich hier zuzumuten, verletzlich und authentisch zu zeigen. Du tust das, was sich richtig und gut für dich anfühlt und spielst gerade alles durch. Bitte bleib in dieser Realität, du bist ein Zeichen, wie es nur einmal gibt. Ich kenne niemanden der so relatable auf Social Media ist.
Es klingt blöd, aber dass du gerade nicht mehr das "Happy Bloom Child" bist, gibt mir Kraft, weil du den Prozess teilst, wie du damit umgehst. Und gleichzeitig wünsche ich dir bzw. dem kollektiv, der Menschheit, all that is in eine Realität auf zu wachen, die sich gut anfühlt.
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Jepp!! Gut gesagt.
Hey brother. Sorry to hear you're going through some struggles. I've had some intense experiences that may be heightened by deep vipassana meditation, and I understand how you can get to a state where you feel ungrounded. It can be challenging to extrovert again and not be so aware of all this stuff if the subconscious. Eating, warmth and things that generally help you get out of your head reasonate with things that can be beneficial to me.
They say in vipassana that two important things are awareness and equanimity. Like two wings of a bird that need to be equal in size and strength. I think these things like ayuasca can bring up some deep awareness, but the equanimity is not equally developed. So I can see that sensitivity you're experiencing and am sending you good wishes you continue to ground yourself and find peace. Loving kindness can be a powerful tool.
I also think that there's no rush to 'deal' with this stuff thats coming up - if you don't have the balance to deal with it now, it's better to relax and it will still be there in the future for you to process. It doesn't need to be such an intense experience!
There's other analogies like a pot simmering on the stove. A simmer can be useful, but you don't want to boil it over. So when the awareness is too much it's better to ground oneself.
Practicing vipassana fairly deeply long term I've found these are skills one practices.
I've spent a lot of time the past few years on ko phangan. I've seen you around a few times but we haven't met. I'm away from the island for a bit though.
Peace and love brother!
Thank you 🥰
Ganz viel Liebe und Kraft 🩵🌸 Grüsse aus Wien
He got sooo woke that he came out all the way 180 not woke
Ferdi, ein Gedanke kam mir beim Hören - versuche mal, in 3 einfachen Sätzen (in der grounded, non-alien Sprache) zusammenzufassen, was in dir vorgeht. Um Klarheit für dich zu schaffen. Das wird dir helfen
Dear Ferd i was in a ungrounded place Last year after an aya ceremony and was afraid to not getting "normal" again. During the ceremony i puked a lot and later on i can "foresee" the next 10 minutes, what exactly would happen, who will talk to me, and what would be said. So my mind was seeing the future before it happens. After the ceremony i was unable to fell in deep sleep for several days, i only slept 2 hours a day straightforward for 5 to 7 days. The memories of the ceremonies we its getting dark where so overwhelming that at a certain point i was not sure that i will be able to be grounded ever again or going mad. After the ceremony i listen a lot to old Genetikk song (im from Germany) and totally feel it. That gives me also hope that it is possible to see such things but also stay in the "normal reality". What helped me beside physical Activity (in my Case Sauna) was everyday appointments. I have a little daughter, bring her to Kita, take here bag etc. beeing accountable for other people gave me a reason to keep on going. That helped me moving my awareness to something else. Also intense cardio and sweat sessions. Maybee you can meet someone everyday and help him to do gardening cleaning what so ever or taking Care of children. Something that need your ongoing awareness. The god thing is that time and gravity is working for you (that was my experience) and i managed to come slowly back to "normal reality".
Would you say that your experience was still something from which you could grow and learn? I am wondering if you facing a "bad trip" if there are still beneficial aspects after you integrate it.
Esse lieber Wurzelgemüse und alles, was aus der Erde wächst und Wurzeln hat. Dann braucht man sich den Tierkonsum nicht schön zu reden. - just sayin'🙏
It's somewhat unusual for a foreign leader to meet with a presidential candidate who isn't currently in the White House
that actually grounded mee now, that’s so amazing ❤ ily and it feels so good to not be alone with all of this
Go talk to some professionals man. You need help, go and get it. I’ve been there, it helps, depression is a horrible thing.
🙏Wünsche gute Genesung! - Wenn wir in der göttlichen Liebe sind, schlägt unser Herz im Einklang mit dem göttlichen Herz.💖
❤✨ könntest du bisschen über die aktuelle Situation mit Celine erzählen ? Wie war es die Erfahrung mit Aya gemeinsam zu erleben ? Wie ist euer Verhältnis jetzt ? Noch ein paar Tips die Vlt helfen : online Shopping, Komödien auf Netflix schauen, kochen, Szenen wechseln, raus aus dieser Energie in was völlig anderes ❤
Hi Ferdi 💖 keep going strong. I know the grief can be overwhelming. What I feel you are describing is a version of grief and grieving. The reason why I know this is bc I have been there. 🙏 and I recognize it clearly. I lost my Mom abruptly in September. The self-destructive behaviors, impulses, and addictions feel bizarrely natural and even nourishing. It is so strange considering we "know better," yet it is the ONLY thing that helps. It took me months to get turned around back to honoring myself and being intentional with my self care and self-love. Love yourself and know that you are loved. Trust yourself because you are a good person, and you have so much to give and share. Thanks for sharing your story.💖✌️🌱🤗💗🌦🌌🌠🌞🌈🌊🍃🌺🌼👽
Stay in the Timeline, give it time and attention, feel it, let it sink. Distract your Brain with new things. Idk if that helps, But i wish you the best.
Hey Ferdi, ich versteh dich sehr gut und kenne es, wenn man an so einen Punkt kommt...bin ich auch schon des Öfteren gewesen & auch gerade wieder an einem ähnlichen Punkt. Danke auch, hat mich inspiriert, es ist okay den Schmerz zuzulassen und wieder zu fühlen...
Hey Ferdi! Könntest du nochmal erklären, was du mit "feeling ungrounded" meinst, oder warum du dann "dense things" brauchst, um dich wieder zu "grounden"? Danke :)
Gerne die anderen beiden letzten podis dazu anhören 🫠🫣🙈
what i think would help you: do all your appointments on the island. go to that healer. go to some in real life sharing circles. go to massage. and then ask yourself: which environment/location would stabilize me the most? and then go there
❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤ Du schaffst das !!!!!
diggie wat is mit dir passiert? Nicht mehr vegan? scheint ja ne gute Journey zu sein. lol
get well ferdi! its time for a change in your life!
Eating living creatures who didn’t want to die isn’t the way and you know that really.
You’re stuck in your head and need to get back to the real world. You’re thinking too much about yourself.
I do think your diet wasn’t always rounded enough before though (saying this as a vegan of 15 years) - you would rarely eat good healthy fat for example and I didn’t often see a variety of fresh greens. HCLF makes sense if we look at what apes eat but they do also eat around 10% bugs which are full of iron, b12, omega 3 and protein so we’ve just gotta make sure to replace those things (since eating bugs is gross and unnecessary) and eat a good balance of fruits and greens.
Get a grip Ferdi, you’re an amazing advocate for the animals and you know what’s right and wrong. Just make some changes, speak to a vegan nutritionist even, and get out of your head. Think about the victims. You’re in a position to help them and make real positive change.
Watch Earthlings and Dominion and all the others to remind yourself of what’s actually happening.
Don’t lose that awesome part of yourself, please.
Wishing you well brother Ferdi. Sending you lots of love. May you be well and at ease during this time. It’s true, what’s going on in you is yours to face, but you don’t have to face it all alone 🫶
Respect and honor you!
For me the most challenging thing to face is my inner void. I learned so much from it, but it sneaks in again and again. When I am in this void I don't recognize it. The duration of being in this void is getting less and less. I am so proud of myself facing it again and again. Feel the Void and give him meaning.
much strength for you. We are all in this together.
Let‘s make this top comment so he sees this and hopefully adresses it.
These people on the island are all snake oil sellers, have you met a single person there that got healed? Aren‘t those healers and retreats and ceremonies the reason why you wanns commit s…. now in the first place???
I understand that you may have trauma, we all do to some degree, but we go to a therapist and talk to him/her maybe cry a little and over the course of several months we get over it and continue with building a life.
You have completedly lost yourself to sharlatans, starting from Bashar to all these Healers…. Let‘s get this community together and get our boy home and get the therapy he needs to get you create cutting edge science based content again!
what do you mean with science based content
@@youtuberaphaell everything but this esotheric nonesense, are can you please explain ‚grounded‘ to me ? I dont even understand what that should mean
I remember the arc when him and red box dye woman were flipping the fuck out on IG because the other KP farang grifters were charging more money and thus making more money than them to feed people drugs on the grimy floor mattresses under the guise of ‘enlightenment’. Hilarious cognitive dissonance.
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I am not in the spiritual bubble but I guess it means that you are present, like while meditating. you are not in your head, or thinking about the future or to dos, but your attention is in the here and now
I experienced quite the opposite. Let everyone have his/her life theme. Not everything has to be "abc-123-problem-fixed". All the greatest pioneers and inventors have had it tremendously hard at some point. Lets not be so fixed on our perspective on whats "good" or "evil".
You might still have some Aya in your system. Just hang on for a couple days, might as well be a week or two! Wishing you the best. You will get through this and come out stronger.
Everything will be okay 🤍
Lots of joy from here to you :)
I really feel you on the meat eating. I appreciate your openness. It’s really helping me. Sending you love 💕
Besuch vllt mal Freunde mit Kindern. Kinder erden ungemein und bringen dich sofort in den präsenten Moment. Fussball spielen oder so.
I send you so much love❤ It will get better
Eat tofu motfu. Not fish
Ferdi denk bitte daran du musst dich nicht allem stellen was dich gerade beschäftigt. Be kind to yourself. One step at a time.❤ Würde dir vielleicht ein Gespräch mit Julian helfen?
Jesus loves you. Ask humbly and genuinely from your heart for his help if you can and he will help change your heart and mind for the better
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We love you Ferdi. Hang in there and be healed.
I love the hoodie on you 😍
Vielleicht würde es dich auch grounden "reactions" von zB der neuen Staffel princess charming zu kommentieren?:) + Adel Tawil (den Song "Lieder") als Empfehlung
Spiritual Warrior. Du gehst schon wieder voraus. Diesmal in die Darkness. So das jeder auch auf angenehme Art sich dem nähern kann. Und du pushst voll durch - deswegen ist es so hart für dich gerade. Du weisst gar nicht wie sehr du mit dieser Phase inspirierst! Du strahlst & tu es weiter ⭐️💛
just chew some nicotine gum instead of smoking, smoke is full of bad stuff
happy to hear that you’re feeling better 😘 Love you ❤
You don’t need to be vegan to be a savage. Just be yourself and embrace the positivity, it’s all love! Thank you Ferdi for just being yourself and honest and genuine.
Healing and improvement is challenging but you don’t need to do this alone! If you authentically call to Jesus I believe he will come to you! People call it fake and fictional, fine but what can it hurt to test if it is real? Jesus changed my life and helped me overcome my addictions, anxiety, fear, and overthinking, and all almost immediately. New age spirituality left me empty. Jesus is the way, the truth, and the life. And I respect your beliefs, I’m not trying to convince you. It’s that you asked for help, and we’re observing where your current beliefs have led you.
Smoke weed
I think he‘s not enough in tune with himself to be able to stand weed and I bet you he‘s gonna have „bad trips“ (lol) if he does it but I very much agree that he should do it nonetheless be I think he won’t😂😅
Good on you for eating the fish. You are worth it and I am sure the fish happily nurished you...
may i suggest a book that explains why it is ok, and generally, the world, in a magnificent way":
Ismael - Daniel Quinn very grounding. It will help you 🫂
Ah and i was also vegan for many many years and stopped from one day to the other, because i was unable to recover from a parasite who wrecked me in India. I never looked back and now eat a lot of organs, gelatine, meat and fish, no veggies except potatoes, no salad, and i look 10 years younger compared to my vegan years
@@mundo.do.florian good for you. Sounds like you never cared for the animals in the first place then.
@@user-re4zw2bc1g wrong, I wasn't just vegan for 8 years, I was an activist, deeply involved in the movement. I cared and still do, but as my health was deteriorating, I started to question everything...
At my worst I weighed 64 kg (at 181cm), low iron, deep wrinkles, undereye bags.... I tried to make it work for 2 years before snapping out of it ..
I know all the arguments, pro and con, I have seen many things, traveled far, India, Thailand, several vipassana, yoga teacher trainings, you name it....
All that led me to where I am today, eating meat, without guilt, because I am worth it, I deserve to live and bloom and thrive, I don't have to wear the weight of the world.
Yes, what we do to the animals is cruel, yes, I try my best to contribute to a better world by choosing more ethical animal options, but I will not apologize for doing what I had to do, to live healthy and happy..
. Living means having an impact on this world, our mere existence causes death and pain, also while being vegan, there is no way around.. Vegetable production kills animals too, flying and driving too.. being vegan meand being hyperfocused on one aspect, while ignoring all the other factors, which does not make sense...
A few notable moments: I was in Thailand, staying with some ultra vegan monks,, who cleaned the path in front of them with a broom, to not accidentally step on, and kill,an insect.... Imagine my surprise when I learned that they still ate chicken occasionally..
Do you clean the floor in front of you, or do you not care about insects?
D you use cars, or busses, or even worse, planes?? I still remember, looking at the visor of my helmet, scratching off the numerous flies I killed, wondering how vegan I actually am..
I could go on but you probably get what I mean. Not harming animals is an illusion, our existence causes harm, we are all part of this circle of life and as such we contribute to death ( and life too) that's just how it is.... Everyone makes their own choices, and for me it didn't make sense anymore, to take iron shot that barely worked, being hungry constantly , looking and feeling old and exhausted while at the same time still killing a lot of beings, even as a vegan ...
A lion kills the gazelle in the most cruel way, but is he evil for that? No, not at all... he just does what he has to do, to survive, and so do I.... ✌️
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@@mundo.do.florianyour eating habits for sure don't sound healthy to me.