It's so true. I've been saying this for YEARS, "I'm X (31 now) years old and I've lived through more trauma and experienced more in life than the majority of people who make it to 80 ever have"
this needs to be higher up. i wish her the best. i relate to her a lot as someone who has a huge hunch they are autistic. i am diagnosed ADHD, have CPTSD, i handle my trauma with humor.. the list goes on. she is relatable to me - although i don’t deal with being overweight or a lot of things she went through. our avenues of getting trauma are different - but it seems our mental side is so similar and traumas are the same. if that makes sense.
My high school boyfriend groomed me into feederism. He was bulimic and obsessed with being skinny to an unhealthy degree (he thought the loose skin on his stomach was fat). I guess my chubby appearance was fascinating to him especially since I didn't seem to care about my weight? I kind of became his vessel for eating - I'd eat for him because he didn't want to consume all those calories. I didn't put two and two together at the time. He'd bring me loads of snacks and ask me to eat them all in one sitting. I wouldn't cause there was so much and I wanted to keep some for later so I'd squirrel them away back home. There was I point at which I proudly told him I had managed to lose 20 pounds to which he reacted negatively. He seemed almost appalled and acting like I had been starving myself and yelled at me that he wanted me to gain it all back twofold. At that point I realized something was wrong. We broke up shortly after that. Absolutely horrible, horrible shit.
I'm very happy for you that you got out. He never loved you & didn't see you as an individual. What a sick being. I hope you're doing well now & will find someone who truly loves you, not just benefits from you.
Thank you all for your comments! I'm doing much, much better now! In a way, I'm almost thankful for the experience because it taught me how to recognize abusive behavior and cut toxic people out of my life. He still contacts me on throwaway accounts but I just block and move on. Can't believe it's been 4 years and he still hasn't moved on. Guess my bitch was too bad lol
it’s really a shame that plus size women are either shamed by society or fetishized by weirdos and sociopaths. everyone deserves love no matter what their body type is
Devorah!! Thank you so much for having me. I just finished watching the play back bc I left this interview beating myself up that I didn’t share enough context, that I forgot this or that, but you did a wonderful job editing my rambling and keeping me on course! I really appreciate this opportunity to share my experiences and get to travel somewhere I have never been! I just uploaded my vlog of this day as well, and I hope that whether ppl agree or disagree with where and what I’ve done in my life they learn something from my mistakes, trials and traumas. I thank you so much for opening your platform to my story, and for continuing to be a shining light in the RUclips space 💗
This was such an interesting podcast episode and I learned so much. You are such a strong human being to come and share your story and I really appreciate it!
Thank you for sharing your story 🫶🏽 you don’t understand how important this is for so many young people who cannot speak this themselves. You’re a beautiful person ♥️♥️
Rosie I love your way of speaking and telling a story, your humor and wit combined with your honesty and vulnerability is truly wonderful to listen to.
I’m genuinely impressed with her ability to like tell a continuous story. I would have lost my train of thought so much, but she was able to bring her side topics back into the timeline 👏🏽
happens with trauma. going through therapy we do timelines of good and bad through our life to be able to move forward. Going through so much therapy you are always telling your entire story. Shows how much she’s been through to me because i’m the same way with my life story. It just comes easy because we’ve worked on it so much ❤
Omg I feel that way too much… with the past month I’ve dealt with having a baby I didn’t know I was pregnant with (she’s okay; nicu for 3 months) and a very long story, to pneumonia and a pulmonary embolism, to my father passing away, to last night going to the vigil for my sisters’ best friend who was like another big sister to me. She was found murdered in downtown Laguna Sunday morning. A friend I haven’t seen in years stopped me and spoke with me, asking if I needed someone to walk me to the car, which I actually did because I have a syndrome called POTS where basically if I stand, especially just in one place, for too long I faint. More likely if it’s hot, humid, exercising, etc. and it’s gotten a lot worse since I lower had seen her so I told her about it just in case. I don’t know how I was there so long and managed to not faint. My mom saw how I was, and she’s a nurse, who agrees with me about that. I genuinely am fucking shocked because I was just not there at all. The friend who walked me back up the pier and parking lot was probably like “WTFFFF” because I was not speaking at all and if I did it was just random like “I’ve always hated this parking lot” and giggling when she said “you’ve had a rough year, huh?”. If anyone wants to know and make his life more of a living hell, her name is Tatum Goodwin and she, nor any of us close to her, know the guy that was just arrested for it. People always talk about the person lighting up the room and all that, but she really was actually the person you could sit and confide in. I always spoke with her and we’d express some of each-others worries. Other times, it was being (gratefully) dragged to parties since they were 2 years older and of course I was down to go with them. She was genuine, hilarious, humble, and kind hearted. This was such a trauma dump and I don’t feel bad at all if you chose to read this far lol. Some shit needs to be told.
my ex had a breeding kink and i think he chose me because of my weight and physique. he groomed me into a lot of stuff and listening to Rose’s story really unlocked a lot of things for me that i didnt realized i had buried. thank you for sharing your story, it helps shed light on things like this
She’s clearly an intelligent and strong woman. I applaud her for being so open about her trauma. It’s so, so important to spread awareness. The dry humor is an added bonus to this wonderful lady. My best wishes to her.
@@tb4544 She comes across as very intelligent. The dry humour, the ability to storytell, even being able to escape her Mormon upbringing already requires a significant level of open-mindedness.
This is actually so interesting. The way that angry, jaded girls will get diagnosed with bipolar when they’re really struggling with emotional dysregulation and misunderstanding societal cues. Same experience occurred with me. Never experienced mania but was very angry and given bipolar pills and it did NOT help
since she brought him up: hans aspergers job was to determine which disabled people were sick enough to be termed a 'useless eater' and sent to the death camps and which disabled people were to be sterilized so they cant reproduce, but allowed to live. The research he published on autistic white boys indicated thus: the boys with high support needs were diagnosed as autistic, deemed useless eaters, and killed-the boys with low support needs were diagnosed with aspergers and were sterilized but allowed to live, as long as they worked. We still used the word aspergers to diagnose lower support needs autistic people under the same criteria that hans created up til the middle of the 2010s, and a lot of people and (some) doctors still use asperger's as a preferred diagnostic label today, but its all just autism. We dont need a seperate diagnosis for "autistic people who are abled enough to live according to a nazi", its kind of a fucked up scale to use.
We don't use Asperger's as a diagnosis anymore. It's still used by laymen. Most people don't know it's outdated, people who were previously diagnosed are still alive. A lot of people just don't care and prefer pop psych over being informed.
@@hotpinkie01ifyit’s doing something that acknowledges the fact that they’re in a movie/show or acknowledges the audience. Usually done in fictional movies. It breaks the wall between fiction and real life
this is nothing against her at all because i understand her circumstances. i’m only about 48 minutes into the video, and this is just my own observation…but she has spent such a huge portion of her life online and it’s sad honestly. even down to when she said “oh i didn’t tell my followers that i was visiting my ex” and sounded almost guilty about it… interacting with people online can be exciting and it’s a great way to find support and community. however, a lot of it can be SO fabricated and it’s very easy to get wrapped up in. i’m going to finish the video, but i’m hoping that she has found more support from individuals in her real personal life.
I love that you have a wide variety of guests. It exposes the public to a range of topics and victims coming forward with their stories. Thank you Dev ❤
It takes a new level of kind to use your platform primarily, if not SOLELY, to uplift and support others. thank you for all you do and all the love to Rosie for sharing her story ❤
I was groomed by a feeder as a teenager. It is a special kind of psychological hell. All my love and good vibes to Rosie for coming on your show and sharing her story ❤
@@lariae it's a double edged sword, honestly. it's really hard to do some things in person as an autistic individual because your behavioral habits or grasp on social cues can make things pretty difficult, alongside a lot of sensory issues with light, sound, even different textures of surfaces. wherever she is, i hope she can either find or develop a space for herself to feel important and understood.
@@gurogaishaso true ❤❤ but if you don't safely test out new things, you never expand your comfort zone. Safely doing so, safely. Its uncomfortable but days later I am so excited i actually did that "thing" . Maybe its just having my facepainted at a party(when i was 6) As someone with overlapping mental health issues, I hide so often. It's really helpful to try to challenge yourself safely. If you dig into the label and say "oh that's too hard" , then you hide. I'm 40, ive struggled my whole life mentally. But, my best times have been when I've pushed myself just a wee bit❤❤. Safely, with safe people😊 because I often stress and get mad at myself for things I dont do(because im panicked in the moment) then days later I'm depressed that I didn't do the "thing".
Psychedelics are just an exceptional mental health breakthrough. It's quite fascinating how effective they are against depression and anxiety. Saved my life.
I wish they were readily available in my place. Microdosing was my next plan of care for my husband. He is 59 & has so many mental health issues plus probable CTE & a TBI that left him in a coma 8 days. It's too late now I had to get a TPO as he's 6'6 300+ pound homicidal maniac. He's constantly talking about killing someone. He's violent. Anyone reading this Familiar w/ BPD know if it is common for an obsession with violence.
Is not as usual as other fetishes (better said forms of abuse) are but unfortunately it does exist. In my nursing career I have seen one victim and she died under our care :(
Sadly, there's a fet for pretty much everything. Some are low-key hilarious and weird, such as fart pron. Others are straight up evil, such as death feederism or being into extreme anas (think Eugenia Cooney types.) Idk the name for the ones into Eugenia Cooney types. (She's very pretty, but most of us would rejoice if she'd gain some weight.)
As someone who has been SA’d multiple times as well, I hope she knows that the experience can be different from event to event. That doesn’t make different occurrences less valid. It just means that it was a different set of circumstances
I’ve been SA’d multiple times, too. Some fit the traditional idea of being SA’d and others are still SA but less black and white I guess? So I discount those. It’s hard to understand
Pretty early into the convo, but it is so cool that a debate in a social studies class about gay rights and such changed your life. Makes you think that even if a conversation feels like it led nowhere, it can make an impact.
I was on 4chan and all that when Rosie was a popular lolcow, had her nudes leaked, herpes diagnoses outed etc. I always felt so horrible for her and this interview was extremely eye opening.
Hey, the herpes thing was a lie. Just to be very clear. I made a post after I lost my virginity when it wasn’t herpes. I went to the doctors, it was post sex guilt that manifested into a mental break down and I was scared and reached out to an anonymous forum. But please don’t say that as fact because that and many other things on the forums were lies. I was never diagnosed, I used my childhood username to get advice. It was never an STI.
@@bmosoulthegr8 personally I’ve known of 4chan since I was 10 in 2010. It’s been around for a while, lots of ppl know of it for better or (mostly) worse. Expecting ppl not to lurk on 4chan (esp if they know what the site entails) is like telling people not to rubberneck while passing a horrible car accident. Humans are curious. And fucked up.
When she talked about the guilt she felt for lying to the bishop. As a child who grew up in a penecostal church, i too felt those same guilty feelings. Religion and being molested as a child fucked me up. May your pain in your heart ease ❤
As an autistic woman who was diagnosed at 16, thank you so much for this. I was recently diagnosed with cptsd from being bullied in high school and the damage undiagnosed autism does to women needs to be talked about way more.
Fucking agree!!! THANK YOU! Also I can relate to everything you just said sooo much except I was diagnosed at 11. Went through tons of bullying, had an alcoholic family and finally suspect I might have autism at 23.
Yes I still haven't been formally diagnosed but my therapist thinks I have autism and adhd. It really explains a lot of my struggles and quirks and how much I have struggled and the traumas I am 36 and feeling like I am just now discovering myself.
Yes people should not be fetishized. It’s never ok to make fun of people who are living and thriving in their bodies that they were born with. Such a strong woman she is amazing.
As a future psychiatric mental health nurse practitioner I really appreciated this episode. I may be working with the pediatric population soon and I love hearing from patients experiences in order to better my own practice. Thank you for giving people a platform to share their story on.
Please, please reform the system. I got severe ptsd from how I was treated. Patients are currently denied agency and basic human rights and leaving with severe, debilitating PTSD….. is not good or okay. Please, please recognize policies and actions that dehumanize people and please, I am begging you - please do everything in your power to stop them. Please.
I took care of a lady that was a victim of this in icu. She was inpatient cos she needed to have both her legs amputated due to complications from diabetes. She was so big the special bed broke. She was intubated and dying and her abuser still came into itu bringing Chinese food with the intention of feeding her!!!!!!! We reported him of course. It was sad that she died but at that point I think it was the better outcome for her she was so far gone. Awful form of abuse
I wanna not believe this as a knee jerk reaction, but I took a breath and realized that this could very well be true. I’m really glad I finally questioned myself and where I was headed because thats…. Holy fuck that is a lot
Yeah and I bet he didn’t even know what feederism is. Y’all need to understand that just because someone is doing that doesn’t mean they’re into feederism the fetish . They are just abusers. Feederism is by definition a consensual fetish.
It's hard to comprehend that someone can go through so much and come out the other side as bubbly and positive as Rosie is! She's such a beautiful soul and her strength is kick ass. I love to hear these stories I would've probably missed otherwise if it weren't for this podcast. :)
@@LePingouin92 They blame women for their involuntary celibacy. Not finding a partner doesn't automatically make you an incel. They blame women for dating struggles and don't work to improve themselves, believing they're owed time and sex.
Okay I LOVE when she brought up when the bishop was asking her chastity questions- it was the strangest thing to be in high school and have everyone go through the ‘are you a virgin’ phase and you DONT KNOW WHAT TO SAY because does being sexually assaulted count?? We need to talk about this lol.
She is such a strong and inspiring speaker. I’m so glad her story was able to be told. I suffered negligence in a mental health facility during a hallucinatory episode, I’m glad people are speaking out against the negligence people face while seeking care.
Omg she was “groomed” into everything. So she’s not responsible for nothing? And the pain is probably from your weight and not from being in a facility for 3 days.
The TBI part is so weird. You can't psychologically induce a violent brain injury. TBI's are only from actual force to the head (getting punched, car crashes, falls etc.).
I watched this with an open mind, and what i've gathered is that she is very quick to victimize herself and blame others for literally every misfortune she's endured. Her describing her hospital visit was so dramatic and I don't believe the entire hospital staff would gang up on her to make her miserable on purpose. She claims she gets "assaulted", "traumatized", or is inflicted "permanent damage" in every situation, everywhere she goes. She even dodged responsibility for cheating on her bf. Bffr
i relate to everything Rosie said. i thought this video would be triggering but turned out to be validating and kinda healing. thank you so much for being brave enough to share this Rosie. You made me feel less alone and I can't thank you enough
I thought the same thing. There were definitely aspects of it that triggered me but by the end of it, I felt so inspired by Rosie's strength and resiliency.
All of her story is so new to me. I'm so glad she shared this with us! P.s. if you ever read this YOU ARE A GOOD STORY TELLER. I COULD LISTEN TO YOU TALK FOR HOURS! I WISH YOU NOTHING BUT SUCCESS AND HEALING!
“The neck beard is Strong, but the facial hair is weak” the jessica alba part 😂😂😂 ahhhh she’s so right they have the most audacity EVERRRR… the NERVE! I hope she does this TikTok! she is sooo fkkkkn funny! I love her! 💕
I actually once ended up on r/Fatpeoplehate, the way I ended up there ironically enough was because I was talking about my bulimia on an ED forum with other eating disorder sufferers, they found a before/after picture of me where I'd lost my first 30 kg and basically they made a post on the subreddit along the lines of "this whale thinks they're skinny", reality is that that picture was from early on in my ED, after that I ended up losing another 60 kg, I went from being 150 kg down to 60 kg in 2.5 years.. Let's just say that that Reddit post did not help with my ED spiraling out of control. I'm currently recovered but being fat in reality is rarely a choice, I have an auto-immune disease since I was 11 years old that caused me to gain weight, I lost all that weight back when this happened literally only through keeping no food in at all for 2 years. Trauma or physical illnesses are most often the catalyst for obesity and getting below the point of an 'overweight' BMI is genuinely not feasible in certain circumstances (combinations of illnesses, disability, permanent mental health problems, environment and yes even genetics). There are people out there that exploit and harass fat people for no reason other than them being terrible people that want to humiliate others.. But fat people deserve to be heard when they struggle just as much as everyone else.
I’m going for my formal diagnosis in November after spending literally years independently researching it. All my other diagnoses mentioned are from my care team. You’re welcome to assume whatever you want, but I wouldn’t be spending $1000’s out of pocket for assessments if I didn’t think it was valid. I’m not self diagnosed, I’m self determined until I can get in front of a doctor. It’s been a very long process bc services of autistics tend to mainly be for children, or non-existent. And ppl like you don’t make it any easier. Cheers tho. Anyone reading this and questioning yourself I highly recommend you read “Unmasking Autism” by Devon Price, and no one knows your story better then yourself. Don’t let detractors stop you from figuring out your story. Diagnosis is very hard to access without a lot of resources. That’s a fault of our health care system, not a moral failing.
I’ve seen people say similar things about Eugenia Cooney as well, though she’s on the opposite end of the spectrum. The clips of her struggling, going out of her way to pick things up, move things around etc.
I don’t want to victim shame at all. I just think many of this young woman’s troubles would disappear if she would drop her use of the internet. But she didn’t ask for my advice.
I also question if she's Mormon. It seems to be a trend right now, same with autism and ADHD... all buzz words. The way she describes her time in the Mormon church makes me think she wasn't in it or at least never really practiced or that her parents didn't care about it that much. Mormons are pretty intense about dieting and staying thin. If you go to church every week, you'll feel bad if you look a certain way. I don't believe her.
This episode was actually really difficult to follow. I feel like Rose jumped back and forth a lot an assumed the listener to know certain things so she didn't explain or elaborate. I get it, I am also autistic and have ADHD. But I wish Dev would've stopped here and there to clarify more and guided the conversation more to be a bit more understandable. Usually I am a fan of her just letting people talk but in this case I think Rose could've used a bit of help to tell her story. I also noticed that usually guests seem to have notes and she didn't. Maybe that would've also helped
I agree, but I also noticed that it seemed very difficult for D to get a word in between Rosie’s stories. I think the communication needed to be a little more mutual. But I get it, there was a lot of detail to include.
My grandpa used to say i had the devil in me, little did we know it was him the entire time. He is dead now and i am so glad i didnt keep that statement glued to me forever.
To listen to her describing her stalker, I felt like I was listening to another woman talking about one of my ex-boyfriends who exhibited some of the same behaviors. It never got serious enough to see how extreme he was, but the fact that there are people out there like this is scary.
Hearing someone else who has C-PTSD that was misdiagnosed and put on antipsychotics wrongly is affirming to hear. I’ve been through much the same being diagnosed with BPD and put on so many different medications in my younger years.
Rosie you gained a subscriber, you are really articulate about traumas and mental health and just explaining yourself in general. Wow. You are very strong for real! Peace and love to you! 💖
She clearly isn’t that strong. Strong women don’t have so much self inflicted traumas nor do they allow such horrible things to continue for years , as well typically a strong woman isn’t so easily coerced into any and everything for attention
we are either shamed or fetishized. I had a guy like that, they take advantage of your feelings. Gladly I grew from that and now I'm on a weight loss journey (already lost 20 kg!!!)
Though they are not the same, after having weight loss surgery you have to eat an extremely restrictive diet. I was anorexic around the same time my mother was recovering from her surgery and it was the first time I realized I might have a problem. She had “safe foods” that she was able to eat without getting sick and “safe foods” that fell within very specific calorie restrictions. It was heart wrenching to watch her throw up everything in her stomach if she ate slightly more than the allotted amount for a meal. Definitely not the same, but when you consider weight loss surgery does have a component of implementing a drastic calorie deficit in the effort to reach a target weight, there are clear parallels there.
@@allmasalerius7093 a diet isn’t necessarily disordered, and most definitely having “safe foods” isn’t either. restriction can be medically beneficial, like a fast before a colonoscopy or restraining from gluten if you’re celiac. i think that’s equally as prevalent and worth a quick mention
Well yeah, of course, I agree, but in the case of weight loss surgery most people only get to the point of going through with it because they already have a form of disordered eating. It is a physical alteration that does not help to solve the psychological struggles of the patient. So being on one end of the spectrum then being thrust into another extreme form of a diet can be very psychologically intense and to the detriment of the individual. It all depends on the person. I was speaking from experience where I saw my mom struggle in many ways similar to how I did even though our conditions were different. My point really was to make a point to the og commenter that they can nit pick people’s words when they are speaking about their trauma like they should have a script, or they can take a step back and see no offense was intended and aside from that there can be similarities drawn between the two and there’s nothing wrong with pointing that out.
@@allmasalerius7093 i definitely agree that anyone who gets weight loss surgery has internal psychological struggles that weight loss of any type won’t fix
@@sewerratlifestyle5711 surgeons in Canada will not preform any bariatric surgery (gastric sleeve/bypass, etc.), if you aren't cleared by a psychologist to be ready for the surgery. I had binge eating disorder so I was denied sugery, which I'm okay with bc there are a lot of "rules" around eating and the smaller stomach after sugery. Canada doesn't preform gastric band/lap band sugery bc they are very high risk, can slip around, and even cause death Surgery has the best longterm succes rate for weightless (compared to dieting, exercising, etc). Obesity is a very complex disease
Am I the only one who thought she seems like the kind of girl who feeds into a lot of drama and then acts like she was victimized??? I’m confused about the “groomed into feederism” thing too…. This girl said when she was 18 years old before she ever found about about bbw, she was already 400lbs. Home girl fed herself and the guy just added to it.
She was already overweight before the feeder community groomed her. She's not blaming the feederism for making her overweight, I don't think she even mentions in the interview whether the feederism caused her to gain weight. The feeder grooming was bad for her because feederism is a kink, and it's damaging to be groomed into participating in a kink that you wouldn't otherwise want.
I dont know a lot of these things can be comorbid it makes sense to me. Ptsd + MDD + Cptsd are easily connected. Autism + Adhd is also a very frequent comorbidity n they r neurologically close to eachother. As well as cptsd + bipolar being able to mimic symptoms of adhd & vice versa. its probably hard for her to narrow down & its easy w our modern understanding of these things to get caught up in identifying w them.
I feel horrible, but my intuition tells me something is off. Something isn’t adding up. I have 5 mental health disorders, abused at age 3 till 27 and I’m 30 now. Been getting treatment since my early 20’s, what irks me is when people lie about abuse and mental health. It’s not a joke and makes it harder for the people who actually suffer from trauma to be taken seriously. In the end I wish her the best.
@@Ms.Lucipursame. My intuition tells me something is off too. I don’t believe her. There may be some truth in her story but I think she is greatly embellishing her story for attention. Don’t feel horrible. Our intuition thinks something is off for a reason.
I agree. Did you catch when she was telling the story about talking to a nurse during her hospitalization, she says “without looking up, she literally looked right at me” and then immediately realizes she contradicted herself. She can’t help but lie.
I’m so sorry you had to experience such a traumatic upbringing and I hope you keep finding peace as time goes on ❤️ I gotta say Rosie you are so charismatic! I am really glued to following Rosie’s story.
i feel like more people who have so much hatred for fat people need to hear stories like this. you never know what someone has gone through, and it is so unfortunate that people have the misconception that all bigger people choose to be overweight. for me personally i had gone through a really traumatic event, got on heavy psych meds, and it was like one day i just looked in the mirror, weighed myself, and i had gained almost 60 ib in 6 months due to stress eating and sleeping. i just wish we lived in a world with more compassion for eachother it sucks that so many people can feel like they are better than others based on weight :/
exactly, my fatness is directly linked ot multiple traumas and the resukting mental illness. i didnt ask for this. sometimes people cant *just* do whatever *insert useless advice* others think are simple things to do to reduce fatness. its majorly genetic, environmental, and mental health related for so many. im not just weak or pathetic, ive survived things that would horrify and break the same people who look down on me for how i look.
@@jkatttt1699 i wish people could understand how greatly trauma can affect one’s life. it gets so mentally exhausting that it affects the way you are physically. there was a point in time where it was hard for me to get out of bed to even go to the bathroom/shower/clean/etc. let alone workout or stay active. i’m glad to be better now, although i’m still heavier (which isn’t a bad thing, i know this doesn’t determine my value/worth) i’m very lucky to have support all around me with my partner, friends, and family. i hope you have this as well and are healing however that may look for you 🫶
@@jkatttt1699depends on what you consider surviving. Sad you sxperience these situation. Hope you heal from this situation. You stil choose you live regardles of you backpack in live inflicted on or self inflicted
I dont like that she was directly going after appearances during 33:47? Like of course someone that cannot get laid due to their looks wont look GREAT & will become isolated & bitter? Especially since she has been bullied id expect her to be a little more empathetic
Apparently she is very very full of herself. I did a bit of research into her after this video and she thinks she's gods gift to the world. She doesn't have a lot of empathy for anyone who isn't her it seems.
It's depressing how many commentators are victim blaming or trying to forcing their own unrelated views and opinions about body positivity, looks, kink, feminism etc into the conversation. Punching down is never funny. If you're that desperate for attention that you need to insult people you've never bet then you're the one with the problem.
My heart aches for what she had to go through :( She has such a kind and understanding disposition despite all she had to endure, when many people would have already crumbled. She is healing so many others by sharing her stories and experiences, and I truly hope she will create better relationships in her life that are healing especially for her inner child. I am sending you so much hope and healing Rosie
@@carolinegallegos_ And if she goes in expecting to be diagnosed with autism any tests they do will effectively be invalid. She'll subconsciously be picking based on what she thinks has the highest autism score, not what genuinely affects her in her life
Anore*xia and physically reducing your stomach size to reduce portions are NOT similar in nature at all! It is closer to mimicking natural fasting. Yes its an intense, dramatic, procedure... but its done on bodies that need intense, dramatic, solutions. Bodies that have the fat reserves to safely push through the restrictions and are not harmed by it. If they were doing these procedures on bodies that were on the lower end of healthy weight or emaciated? Now THAT would be messed up and harmful. Its okay to not want these operations though, they ARE extreme and are certainly not the ''easy'' fix they are often touted as being. They are a legit available tool that can be right for some people however, and they have helped many. Also bu*limia can include bouts of binge eating followed by severe restrictions. People tend to think you can only be bu*limic if you make yourself puke or take laxatives, but day-long restrictions between binges can also be a type of ''corrective'' behavior people with the disorder might exhibit. If you find yourself trapped, for months if not years, constantly going back and forth between both ED behaviors? That could be what is going on.
I love your podcasts your almost emotionless which I find baffling sometimes with the crazy circumstances but it allows the guests to really tell their story your sooo pretty ily
A lot of people will do research online and a lot of self-reflection to arrive at the conclusion. Some people choose not to get a formal diagnosis because it's too expensive and they don't see the worth in it. I think there are other reasons too.
I don’t understand that either!!! It’s rough enough to get a diagnosis of having bipolar disorder. She’s very articulate in describing her story. I’m no expert, but at face value I just don’t see where she’s autistic.
She is a storyteller that is the victim in all her stories. Rosie shops for diagnosis to explain her behavior.Continues to overeat and uses her channel to trauma dump. She doesn't want to work
Rosie is my favorite fellow shitshow. We are all in this together. I wish more people understood that. None of us are professional humans. We are all on our first time through life!
I want to make sure i understand this: Sexually molested at 6--by a familiar person Started eating emotions at 9, Heavily involved in the church until 18, Sought SOME psychological help at 16... Now here's where I got lost: she stopped therapy sometime around this time where she was diagnosed as Bipolar because she was put on an antipsychotic? THEN she fell into the internet and her troubles multiplied? Since she had stated that she was overweight by 9 and by middle school there was only one other person who was about of a size, sounds like she groomed herself into eating and fell into a group of like-minded people.... now THIS part sounds familiar with me and my alcoholism; (welllll before the internet) *I* got caught up in a group of miserable coworkers who would go out and drink to avoid their family life. I had just gone through a breakup and was ripe for the picking. The only difference is: I didn't blame anyone else for the alcohol I shoved in my face... and I *have* been diagnosed with Asperger's. Still don't blame others for ten plus years of drinking....
You can’t groom yourself by definition. She started emotionally eating and was overweight at 9 from being molested, it’s not her fault that it was that specific coping mechanism (eating) that she happened to pick up, when you’re 9 you can’t understand the repercussions of that, for example comforting youself with ice cream or snacks or pizza, it just makes you feel better because you’re a kid and kids love sugar etc. It’s a guardians fault for not restricting how much junk food she could have, which is what leads to childhood obesity. It’s never the kids fault for not having the discipline to make sure their diet is appropriate, that’s the guardian’s responsibility.
I’m so sick of seeing bored overly privileged ppl creating chaos. For themselves and competing to have the worst trauma. It’s fucking annoying and it’s taking up resources from ppl that need them.
Overly privileged? Are you serious? I definitely don’t subscribe to playing trauma Olympics. This is just my story. And I definitely shared what I went through. And not that it matters, but I’m privately insured and employed now. But when I wasn’t, I needed resources and wasn’t provided ones. This entire platform is about trauma sharing if you don’t like that idk why you are here
When she said “Some 40 year olds couldn’t imagine what a 7 year old has been thru.” WOW. What a powerful statement
Never heard it phrased that way either… But such a mindful way to put things into perspective. Thank you💜
And what she said after! She is so well spoken. I’d love to be her friend!
It's so true. I've been saying this for YEARS,
"I'm X (31 now) years old and I've lived through more trauma and experienced more in life than the majority of people who make it to 80 ever have"
Thats a lie though
@@2loaves388 huh? Wat are u even talking about
I will always recommend to never call stalkers “My stalker” but “the stalker”. It deepens there attachment.
this needs to be higher up. i wish her the best. i relate to her a lot as someone who has a huge hunch they are autistic. i am diagnosed ADHD, have CPTSD, i handle my trauma with humor.. the list goes on. she is relatable to me - although i don’t deal with being overweight or a lot of things she went through. our avenues of getting trauma are different - but it seems our mental side is so similar and traumas are the same. if that makes sense.
Thanks for the tip. 💗💗
this!
Yes!
oh wow never thought about this. very true.
dumping your trauma then saying “not fun, nor fresh” is the most cptsd thing ever i relate so heavily
HAHAHAHAH THANK YOU I’m literally cackling at this comment ty
Oh my goodness! This chick is so lost! You don't need to be morman but you definitely need Jesus!
i’ve said it so many times lmao , it breaks the tension
sksksks literally! i definitely giggled at that
i felt so seen in that moment lmao
My high school boyfriend groomed me into feederism. He was bulimic and obsessed with being skinny to an unhealthy degree (he thought the loose skin on his stomach was fat). I guess my chubby appearance was fascinating to him especially since I didn't seem to care about my weight? I kind of became his vessel for eating - I'd eat for him because he didn't want to consume all those calories. I didn't put two and two together at the time. He'd bring me loads of snacks and ask me to eat them all in one sitting. I wouldn't cause there was so much and I wanted to keep some for later so I'd squirrel them away back home. There was I point at which I proudly told him I had managed to lose 20 pounds to which he reacted negatively. He seemed almost appalled and acting like I had been starving myself and yelled at me that he wanted me to gain it all back twofold. At that point I realized something was wrong. We broke up shortly after that. Absolutely horrible, horrible shit.
I'm very happy for you that you got out. He never loved you & didn't see you as an individual. What a sick being. I hope you're doing well now & will find someone who truly loves you, not just benefits from you.
So glad you dumped him because that could have ended up badly.
I am so sorry you had experience. I hope you are healing and doing well.
Thank you all for your comments! I'm doing much, much better now! In a way, I'm almost thankful for the experience because it taught me how to recognize abusive behavior and cut toxic people out of my life. He still contacts me on throwaway accounts but I just block and move on. Can't believe it's been 4 years and he still hasn't moved on. Guess my bitch was too bad lol
Oh my! I'm so sorry!
Was he trying to make you fatter so he felt skinnier by comparison?
I'm so glad you were able to get out. ❤️
it’s really a shame that plus size women are either shamed by society or fetishized by weirdos and sociopaths. everyone deserves love no matter what their body type is
💗💗💗💗💗💗
For real, or the situations when the dudes who shame fat women are the same ones to mess with them on the down low. But never in public🤦♀️
@@cyb3r.punk13FACTSSSS
My ex is one of those weirdos and this shit almost happened to me too (I’m normal weight and he was trying to make me obese)😂😂🤣🤣
😮 be m
Devorah!! Thank you so much for having me. I just finished watching the play back bc I left this interview beating myself up that I didn’t share enough context, that I forgot this or that, but you did a wonderful job editing my rambling and keeping me on course! I really appreciate this opportunity to share my experiences and get to travel somewhere I have never been! I just uploaded my vlog of this day as well, and I hope that whether ppl agree or disagree with where and what I’ve done in my life they learn something from my mistakes, trials and traumas. I thank you so much for opening your platform to my story, and for continuing to be a shining light in the RUclips space 💗
This was such an interesting podcast episode and I learned so much. You are such a strong human being to come and share your story and I really appreciate it!
@@GraceCantDancethank you grace! It’s really appreciated
Thank you for sharing your story 🫶🏽 you don’t understand how important this is for so many young people who cannot speak this themselves. You’re a beautiful person ♥️♥️
i loved your "rambling", your energy is infectious- thank you so much for sharing your story
Rosie I love your way of speaking and telling a story, your humor and wit combined with your honesty and vulnerability is truly wonderful to listen to.
I’m genuinely impressed with her ability to like tell a continuous story. I would have lost my train of thought so much, but she was able to bring her side topics back into the timeline 👏🏽
happens with trauma. going through therapy we do timelines of good and bad through our life to be able to move forward. Going through so much therapy you are always telling your entire story. Shows how much she’s been through to me because i’m the same way with my life story. It just comes easy because we’ve worked on it so much ❤
Omg I feel that way too much… with the past month I’ve dealt with having a baby I didn’t know I was pregnant with (she’s okay; nicu for 3 months) and a very long story, to pneumonia and a pulmonary embolism, to my father passing away, to last night going to the vigil for my sisters’ best friend who was like another big sister to me. She was found murdered in downtown Laguna Sunday morning. A friend I haven’t seen in years stopped me and spoke with me, asking if I needed someone to walk me to the car, which I actually did because I have a syndrome called POTS where basically if I stand, especially just in one place, for too long I faint. More likely if it’s hot, humid, exercising, etc. and it’s gotten a lot worse since I lower had seen her so I told her about it just in case. I don’t know how I was there so long and managed to not faint. My mom saw how I was, and she’s a nurse, who agrees with me about that. I genuinely am fucking shocked because I was just not there at all. The friend who walked me back up the pier and parking lot was probably like “WTFFFF” because I was not speaking at all and if I did it was just random like “I’ve always hated this parking lot” and giggling when she said “you’ve had a rough year, huh?”. If anyone wants to know and make his life more of a living hell, her name is Tatum Goodwin and she, nor any of us close to her, know the guy that was just arrested for it. People always talk about the person lighting up the room and all that, but she really was actually the person you could sit and confide in. I always spoke with her and we’d express some of each-others worries. Other times, it was being (gratefully) dragged to parties since they were 2 years older and of course I was down to go with them. She was genuine, hilarious, humble, and kind hearted. This was such a trauma dump and I don’t feel bad at all if you chose to read this far lol. Some shit needs to be told.
Narcissists don't usually struggle to talk about themselves.
@@driggledraggle7702 nobody asked
well it was also very edited, but yes
my ex had a breeding kink and i think he chose me because of my weight and physique. he groomed me into a lot of stuff and listening to Rose’s story really unlocked a lot of things for me that i didnt realized i had buried. thank you for sharing your story, it helps shed light on things like this
Lol a breeding kink aka the desire to procreate
@@djohnson5469"that's not a kink that's normal! 😡"
that is what i was getting at that its not a kink its just your survival instinct @@diminarchy
it is a kink because its forcing someone to reproduce@@djohnson5469
@@djohnson5469yeah no. Breeding kinks arent just "wanting a baby".
She’s clearly an intelligent and strong woman. I applaud her for being so open about her trauma. It’s so, so important to spread awareness. The dry humor is an added bonus to this wonderful lady. My best wishes to her.
How is she clearly intelligent? There's nothing she's saying that comes across as very intelligent to me.
@@tb4544 And based on your other comments, why are you diagnosing her? What certifications do you have? Why do you dislike this woman so much?
@@tb4544 She comes across as very intelligent. The dry humour, the ability to storytell, even being able to escape her Mormon upbringing already requires a significant level of open-mindedness.
"not fun, nor fresh" made me giggle. as a fellow survivor, thank you for speaking out about grooming and SA/CSA.
i love this so much because it’s nice to see a podcast where the host simply just listens. giving people a voice is so important.
This is actually so interesting. The way that angry, jaded girls will get diagnosed with bipolar when they’re really struggling with emotional dysregulation and misunderstanding societal cues. Same experience occurred with me. Never experienced mania but was very angry and given bipolar pills and it did NOT help
She is hilarious 😂😂😂 I love her!
“The neck beard is strong but the facial hair is weak...” Ok, I got it 😅 I can see the loser very clearly!
I was engaged to one, it’s like she was describing him to a T 😂
No she is not
@@jua.z3077 Aw 🥲
@@ShanaLawson nooo we can’t marry strong neck bearded men 😅
@@jua.z3077they dont really know her.
since she brought him up: hans aspergers job was to determine which disabled people were sick enough to be termed a 'useless eater' and sent to the death camps and which disabled people were to be sterilized so they cant reproduce, but allowed to live.
The research he published on autistic white boys indicated thus: the boys with high support needs were diagnosed as autistic, deemed useless eaters, and killed-the boys with low support needs were diagnosed with aspergers and were sterilized but allowed to live, as long as they worked.
We still used the word aspergers to diagnose lower support needs autistic people under the same criteria that hans created up til the middle of the 2010s, and a lot of people and (some) doctors still use asperger's as a preferred diagnostic label today, but its all just autism. We dont need a seperate diagnosis for "autistic people who are abled enough to live according to a nazi", its kind of a fucked up scale to use.
Everything in psychology is fucked up man. Agree tho
We don't use Asperger's as a diagnosis anymore. It's still used by laymen. Most people don't know it's outdated, people who were previously diagnosed are still alive.
A lot of people just don't care and prefer pop psych over being informed.
@@bigbangluvabc123Do you have a source? I'd be interested to learn more about that
this was so interesting that i read in it 15 seconds
Wait, didn't the two get combined recently as Autism Spectrum Disorder?
She's smart, entertaining and charismatic, I really enjoyed listening to her, especially as a fellow neurodivergent person
Thank you so much!! 🫶🏻🫶🏻
@@Quirkyloveroseehonestly! You kept me engaged and listening from start to finish. ❤️
Omg! Every human alive is neurodivergent!
@@gingerale496 you’re the type of person to say “everyone has a little autism in them” which isn’t true at all
@@weese03 just had my coworker say that
i love how Rosie carries herself and is breaking the fourth wall all the time lmaoo
What’s breaking the fourth wall mean ?
@@hotpinkie01ifyit’s doing something that acknowledges the fact that they’re in a movie/show or acknowledges the audience. Usually done in fictional movies. It breaks the wall between fiction and real life
@@hotpinkie01ifylike when Peter Pan told us to clap to help tinker bell
Carries herself? They had to use a fork truck to get her in there.
You have set up 4 different jokes that’s I’m not proud of… you knew what you were doing 😫😂
this is nothing against her at all because i understand her circumstances. i’m only about 48 minutes into the video, and this is just my own observation…but she has spent such a huge portion of her life online and it’s sad honestly. even down to when she said “oh i didn’t tell my followers that i was visiting my ex” and sounded almost guilty about it… interacting with people online can be exciting and it’s a great way to find support and community. however, a lot of it can be SO fabricated and it’s very easy to get wrapped up in. i’m going to finish the video, but i’m hoping that she has found more support from individuals in her real personal life.
Very much this, you’re right. My current life is a lot more balanced online versus how it use to be.
i feel the same!!
It doesn’t get better
@@nicotinedietcokeur username is so real
You do have to factor in that she couldn’t find her community at all in person. But I agree a balance is necessary still
I love that you have a wide variety of guests. It exposes the public to a range of topics and victims coming forward with their stories. Thank you Dev ❤
She definitly the WIDE variety lol
@@mikewilliams-no9cmif you don’t have anything nice to say DONT say it!! wtf
@@mikewilliams-no9cmhow unfunny.
@@Tmaiariimcmartinpaiti seriously.
@mikewilliams-no9cm you need to leave!
Okay the being groomed into polyamory hit so close to home in a way I hadn't conceptualized my own experiences until now
It takes a new level of kind to use your platform primarily, if not SOLELY, to uplift and support others. thank you for all you do and all the love to Rosie for sharing her story ❤
I was groomed by a feeder as a teenager. It is a special kind of psychological hell. All my love and good vibes to Rosie for coming on your show and sharing her story ❤
Nothing wrong with indulging a little every now and then. It won’t kill you. ;)
@@BJ52091Wtf dude
@@BJ52091 that's a weird thing to say to someone who is talking about how they were groomed into feederism
@@BJ5209199% sure you’re also a feeder.
@@BJ52091you are sick.
I feel like Rosie would benefit from spending a lot less time online. It’s not good for her, especially since she’s been so hurt at a young age.
I felt the same watching this video. The real world is much less fucked up than the internet.
@@lariae it's a double edged sword, honestly. it's really hard to do some things in person as an autistic individual because your behavioral habits or grasp on social cues can make things pretty difficult, alongside a lot of sensory issues with light, sound, even different textures of surfaces. wherever she is, i hope she can either find or develop a space for herself to feel important and understood.
But there’s a middle ground
She's literally said she's put herself in the hospital away from the Internet multiple times. Shut up, you don't know her daily life.
@@gurogaishaso true ❤❤ but if you don't safely test out new things, you never expand your comfort zone. Safely doing so, safely. Its uncomfortable but days later I am so excited i actually did that "thing" . Maybe its just having my facepainted at a party(when i was 6) As someone with overlapping mental health issues, I hide so often. It's really helpful to try to challenge yourself safely. If you dig into the label and say "oh that's too hard" , then you hide. I'm 40, ive struggled my whole life mentally. But, my best times have been when I've pushed myself just a wee bit❤❤. Safely, with safe people😊 because I often stress and get mad at myself for things I dont do(because im panicked in the moment) then days later I'm depressed that I didn't do the "thing".
woah.. even through all of the horrible tramua she has experienced, this girl just radiates peace and positivity. thank you for sharing rosie!
Psychedelics are just an exceptional mental health breakthrough. It's quite fascinating how effective they are against depression and anxiety. Saved my life.
I wish they were readily available in my place.
Microdosing was my next plan of care for my husband. He is 59 & has so many mental health issues plus probable CTE & a TBI that left him in a coma 8 days. It's too late now I had to get a TPO as he's 6'6 300+ pound homicidal maniac.
He's constantly talking about killing someone.
He's violent. Anyone reading this
Familiar w/ BPD know if it is common for an obsession with violence.
Microdosing helped me get out of the pit of my worst depressive episode, a three year long episode, enough to start working on my mental health.
Can dr.porass send to me in UK?
My neighbor became psychotic after psychedelics. They don't produce the same effects on people. I wouldn't recommend it.
as with anything in life, your results may vary. psychedelics were kinda fun for me but ultimately did not affect my depression or anxiety.
devs videos are insane. i didnt even know feedism was a thing until today, educational and insightful for sure.
it’s one of those things that you wish you didn’t know exists, because it’s so vile.
Is not as usual as other fetishes (better said forms of abuse) are but unfortunately it does exist. In my nursing career I have seen one victim and she died under our care :(
@@freya7084:((
Sadly, there's a fet for pretty much everything. Some are low-key hilarious and weird, such as fart pron. Others are straight up evil, such as death feederism or being into extreme anas (think Eugenia Cooney types.) Idk the name for the ones into Eugenia Cooney types. (She's very pretty, but most of us would rejoice if she'd gain some weight.)
Its one of the reasons why Mukbangs are so so popular :/
As someone who has been SA’d multiple times as well, I hope she knows that the experience can be different from event to event. That doesn’t make different occurrences less valid. It just means that it was a different set of circumstances
No it actually does invalidate it. If you’d been held down or drugged and assaulted then you’d know what I’m saying.
@@Lily-wk8kvI have no idea what ur saying
@@Lily-wk8kv Are you a dummy? Are big no no brain dum dum?
I’ve been SA’d multiple times, too. Some fit the traditional idea of being SA’d and others are still SA but less black and white I guess? So I discount those. It’s hard to understand
Pretty early into the convo, but it is so cool that a debate in a social studies class about gay rights and such changed your life. Makes you think that even if a conversation feels like it led nowhere, it can make an impact.
People need a break from the internet from time to time :/
This girl just needed to get all of that out. Thank you for your story. ❤️
I was on 4chan and all that when Rosie was a popular lolcow, had her nudes leaked, herpes diagnoses outed etc. I always felt so horrible for her and this interview was extremely eye opening.
Hey, the herpes thing was a lie. Just to be very clear. I made a post after I lost my virginity when it wasn’t herpes. I went to the doctors, it was post sex guilt that manifested into a mental break down and I was scared and reached out to an anonymous forum. But please don’t say that as fact because that and many other things on the forums were lies. I was never diagnosed, I used my childhood username to get advice. It was never an STI.
Okay but real question is why were you on. 4chan lol
@@bmosoulthegr8 personally I’ve known of 4chan since I was 10 in 2010. It’s been around for a while, lots of ppl know of it for better or (mostly) worse.
Expecting ppl not to lurk on 4chan (esp if they know what the site entails) is like telling people not to rubberneck while passing a horrible car accident. Humans are curious. And fucked up.
@@bmosoulthegr8 why not
@@bmosoulthegr8 Because I was a curious teenager
When she talked about the guilt she felt for lying to the bishop. As a child who grew up in a penecostal church, i too felt those same guilty feelings. Religion and being molested as a child fucked me up. May your pain in your heart ease ❤
As an autistic woman who was diagnosed at 16, thank you so much for this. I was recently diagnosed with cptsd from being bullied in high school and the damage undiagnosed autism does to women needs to be talked about way more.
Fucking agree!!! THANK YOU!
Also I can relate to everything you just said sooo much except I was diagnosed at 11. Went through tons of bullying, had an alcoholic family and finally suspect I might have autism at 23.
Same. But I was diagnosed at 21 😭
Yes I still haven't been formally diagnosed but my therapist thinks I have autism and adhd. It really explains a lot of my struggles and quirks and how much I have struggled and the traumas I am 36 and feeling like I am just now discovering myself.
Being autistic is not an identity! STOP
@@gingerale496 being neurodivergent can be important to someone and their identity. Who are you to say otherwise 🤔
Yes people should not be fetishized. It’s never ok to make fun of people who are living and thriving in their bodies that they were born with. Such a strong woman she is amazing.
idk, this statement is kind of asexual, imo everyone should be fetishized.
nobody is born 600lbs overweight
@@sma1616lmao
600 pounds is not thriving 😂😂😂
@@sma1616this is the dumbest thing I've ever read...
As a future psychiatric mental health nurse practitioner I really appreciated this episode. I may be working with the pediatric population soon and I love hearing from patients experiences in order to better my own practice. Thank you for giving people a platform to share their story on.
Please, please reform the system. I got severe ptsd from how I was treated. Patients are currently denied agency and basic human rights and leaving with severe, debilitating PTSD….. is not good or okay. Please, please recognize policies and actions that dehumanize people and please, I am begging you - please do everything in your power to stop them. Please.
Hopefully ur a better ones than the ones around now
I took care of a lady that was a victim of this in icu. She was inpatient cos she needed to have both her legs amputated due to complications from diabetes. She was so big the special bed broke. She was intubated and dying and her abuser still came into itu bringing Chinese food with the intention of feeding her!!!!!!! We reported him of course. It was sad that she died but at that point I think it was the better outcome for her she was so far gone. Awful form of abuse
I wanna not believe this as a knee jerk reaction, but I took a breath and realized that this could very well be true. I’m really glad I finally questioned myself and where I was headed because thats…. Holy fuck that is a lot
Yeah and I bet he didn’t even know what feederism is. Y’all need to understand that just because someone is doing that doesn’t mean they’re into feederism the fetish . They are just abusers. Feederism is by definition a consensual fetish.
@BBWLayla if it potentially harms you it is still abuse. To some extent is okay. But the moment the scale goes to overweight its over
It's hard to comprehend that someone can go through so much and come out the other side as bubbly and positive as Rosie is! She's such a beautiful soul and her strength is kick ass. I love to hear these stories I would've probably missed otherwise if it weren't for this podcast. :)
These kinds of comments mean so much to me. Thank you 💗💗
Positive? I felt very uncomfortable when she made fun of Incels. Thought that she'd learn compassion after all she's been through. Nvm
@@LePingouin92 Why would you be compassionate towards sexists? Found the incel
@@xobunnyfangsxo first of all, Be compassionate with everyone. Then Incels are not all sexists. They just don't find gf. How is that sexist?
@@LePingouin92 They blame women for their involuntary celibacy. Not finding a partner doesn't automatically make you an incel. They blame women for dating struggles and don't work to improve themselves, believing they're owed time and sex.
Okay I LOVE when she brought up when the bishop was asking her chastity questions- it was the strangest thing to be in high school and have everyone go through the ‘are you a virgin’ phase and you DONT KNOW WHAT TO SAY because does being sexually assaulted count?? We need to talk about this lol.
YOURE GIVING A VOICE TO PEOPLE MOST WOULD NOT
thankyou for taking the time to make this happen, great video.
Appreciate your work girly ❤
Sorry for the ignorance, but how does one get convinced to keep eating that way?
I’m so glad CPTSD is starting to come up in conversation more bc learning about it helped me immensely.
She is such a strong and inspiring speaker. I’m so glad her story was able to be told. I suffered negligence in a mental health facility during a hallucinatory episode, I’m glad people are speaking out against the negligence people face while seeking care.
I think an incel is more than the looks. It’s a mindset.
Of course
Omg she was “groomed” into everything. So she’s not responsible for nothing? And the pain is probably from your weight and not from being in a facility for 3 days.
“The neckbeard is strong but the facial hair is weak” HAD ME DYYINGG 😂
Her description of what an incel is is so far my favourite part of this video lmaooo she went in 😂😂
fr that part had me dead 😭
@@yumi8787 frr and the way she just kept going it just kept getting funnier
Yeah but if it was a man describing a morbidly obese women you'd be upset about that.
@@shadfallfanin this context, it's acceptable.
@@Amanda-ie4vw This thing is bigger than a beluga whale. Damn it's skin is disgusting. Imagine the smell of that thing! Acceptable right?
The TBI part is so weird. You can't psychologically induce a violent brain injury. TBI's are only from actual force to the head (getting punched, car crashes, falls etc.).
You are so good at giving these women their space and helping them stay confident through pretty traumatizing recollections
I watched this with an open mind, and what i've gathered is that she is very quick to victimize herself and blame others for literally every misfortune she's endured. Her describing her hospital visit was so dramatic and I don't believe the entire hospital staff would gang up on her to make her miserable on purpose. She claims she gets "assaulted", "traumatized", or is inflicted "permanent damage" in every situation, everywhere she goes. She even dodged responsibility for cheating on her bf. Bffr
Yikes.
The watching criminal minds as a coping mechanism and then not being able to watch it later on in life is so real oml.
i relate to everything Rosie said. i thought this video would be triggering but turned out to be validating and kinda healing. thank you so much for being brave enough to share this Rosie. You made me feel less alone and I can't thank you enough
I thought the same thing. There were definitely aspects of it that triggered me but by the end of it, I felt so inspired by Rosie's strength and resiliency.
5 months later, and i hope you’re doing well my friend. ❤ thanks for sharing ❤
I howled at “the neck beard is strong, the facial hair is weak” 😂 too funny!
The whole hospital segment is insane, health care in the United States is so scary. This is so scary it sounds completely like a nightmare.
All of her story is so new to me. I'm so glad she shared this with us! P.s. if you ever read this YOU ARE A GOOD STORY TELLER. I COULD LISTEN TO YOU TALK FOR HOURS! I WISH YOU NOTHING BUT SUCCESS AND HEALING!
Thank you so much! I’ll definitely be on my channel sharing more of my stories. Appreciate you!
“The neck beard is Strong, but the facial hair is weak” the jessica alba part 😂😂😂 ahhhh she’s so right they have the most audacity EVERRRR… the NERVE! I hope she does this TikTok! she is sooo fkkkkn funny! I love her! 💕
Devorah has got a lot of patience.
I normally love the guests but this girl is crazy 😂
she is annoying af lol
I actually once ended up on r/Fatpeoplehate, the way I ended up there ironically enough was because I was talking about my bulimia on an ED forum with other eating disorder sufferers, they found a before/after picture of me where I'd lost my first 30 kg and basically they made a post on the subreddit along the lines of "this whale thinks they're skinny", reality is that that picture was from early on in my ED, after that I ended up losing another 60 kg, I went from being 150 kg down to 60 kg in 2.5 years.. Let's just say that that Reddit post did not help with my ED spiraling out of control. I'm currently recovered but being fat in reality is rarely a choice, I have an auto-immune disease since I was 11 years old that caused me to gain weight, I lost all that weight back when this happened literally only through keeping no food in at all for 2 years. Trauma or physical illnesses are most often the catalyst for obesity and getting below the point of an 'overweight' BMI is genuinely not feasible in certain circumstances (combinations of illnesses, disability, permanent mental health problems, environment and yes even genetics).
There are people out there that exploit and harass fat people for no reason other than them being terrible people that want to humiliate others.. But fat people deserve to be heard when they struggle just as much as everyone else.
Feel like she’s desperately trying to misdiagnose herself with autism. And any other label she can slap on herself
so true lmao
I’m going for my formal diagnosis in November after spending literally years independently researching it. All my other diagnoses mentioned are from my care team. You’re welcome to assume whatever you want, but I wouldn’t be spending $1000’s out of pocket for assessments if I didn’t think it was valid. I’m not self diagnosed, I’m self determined until I can get in front of a doctor. It’s been a very long process bc services of autistics tend to mainly be for children, or non-existent. And ppl like you don’t make it any easier. Cheers tho.
Anyone reading this and questioning yourself I highly recommend you read “Unmasking Autism” by Devon Price, and no one knows your story better then yourself.
Don’t let detractors stop you from figuring out your story. Diagnosis is very hard to access without a lot of resources. That’s a fault of our health care system, not a moral failing.
Atleast she admits she is not diagnosed yet, she could of just lied
Like who are you to say what she says? You don’t even know here
I would be tuned the fuck in for an insider knowledge explanation for what Nickacado is doing
I have insider tea that’s it’s 1000% all for money.
(Great interview btw) Like ALL of it is for fetish views??
@@calvie420per what I was told, all of it. Idk what level he is with fetishist bc I have never engaged with his OF. And thank you!
I’ve seen people say similar things about Eugenia Cooney as well, though she’s on the opposite end of the spectrum. The clips of her struggling, going out of her way to pick things up, move things around etc.
@@Quirkyloveroseeif you ever feel like making a video essay, you already have a viewer
I don’t want to victim shame at all. I just think many of this young woman’s troubles would disappear if she would drop her use of the internet. But she didn’t ask for my advice.
I agree, as a survivor of domestic violence I deleted all of my social media immediately.
she needs help, therapy and a life offline. I don't get transparency with her at all
I also question if she's Mormon. It seems to be a trend right now, same with autism and ADHD... all buzz words. The way she describes her time in the Mormon church makes me think she wasn't in it or at least never really practiced or that her parents didn't care about it that much. Mormons are pretty intense about dieting and staying thin. If you go to church every week, you'll feel bad if you look a certain way. I don't believe her.
of course you dont believe a fat woman literally none of yall ever do when we finally have the space to open up smh
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@@1IIiII1 not every mormon is the same. what a strange assumption.
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this girl needs to touch grass
I don’t think she can bend down that far 💀
This episode was actually really difficult to follow. I feel like Rose jumped back and forth a lot an assumed the listener to know certain things so she didn't explain or elaborate. I get it, I am also autistic and have ADHD. But I wish Dev would've stopped here and there to clarify more and guided the conversation more to be a bit more understandable. Usually I am a fan of her just letting people talk but in this case I think Rose could've used a bit of help to tell her story. I also noticed that usually guests seem to have notes and she didn't. Maybe that would've also helped
wow I thought I was the only one. I had to rewind quite a few times. I wish the host interjected more to get things back on track.
I agree, but I also noticed that it seemed very difficult for D to get a word in between Rosie’s stories. I think the communication needed to be a little more mutual. But I get it, there was a lot of detail to include.
I had to rewind so many times to kinda piece together what she means.
My grandpa used to say i had the devil in me, little did we know it was him the entire time. He is dead now and i am so glad i didnt keep that statement glued to me forever.
This was so educational and I’m so so so impressed by Rosie’s strength. What an incredible kind person!
To listen to her describing her stalker, I felt like I was listening to another woman talking about one of my ex-boyfriends who exhibited some of the same behaviors. It never got serious enough to see how extreme he was, but the fact that there are people out there like this is scary.
Hearing someone else who has C-PTSD that was misdiagnosed and put on antipsychotics wrongly is affirming to hear. I’ve been through much the same being diagnosed with BPD and put on so many different medications in my younger years.
i didn't really understand some parts of her story, it was hard to keep track
Same experience 😢
something is not right.
Rosie you gained a subscriber, you are really articulate about traumas and mental health and just explaining yourself in general. Wow. You are very strong for real! Peace and love to you! 💖
She clearly isn’t that strong. Strong women don’t have so much self inflicted traumas nor do they allow such horrible things to continue for years , as well typically a strong woman isn’t so easily coerced into any and everything for attention
@@alexad7592 strong women overcome. cope and seethe
we are either shamed or fetishized. I had a guy like that, they take advantage of your feelings. Gladly I grew from that and now I'm on a weight loss journey (already lost 20 kg!!!)
Awesome work!
you dont need to lose weight just eat healthy foods and keep your body active.
update, im now 35 kg down
@@cremepuffle losing weight can be apart of being healthier
@@chimavcool what about now
saying getting weight loss surgery is the same as anorexia is actually insane ..
Though they are not the same, after having weight loss surgery you have to eat an extremely restrictive diet. I was anorexic around the same time my mother was recovering from her surgery and it was the first time I realized I might have a problem. She had “safe foods” that she was able to eat without getting sick and “safe foods” that fell within very specific calorie restrictions. It was heart wrenching to watch her throw up everything in her stomach if she ate slightly more than the allotted amount for a meal. Definitely not the same, but when you consider weight loss surgery does have a component of implementing a drastic calorie deficit in the effort to reach a target weight, there are clear parallels there.
@@allmasalerius7093 a diet isn’t necessarily disordered, and most definitely having “safe foods” isn’t either. restriction can be medically beneficial, like a fast before a colonoscopy or restraining from gluten if you’re celiac. i think that’s equally as prevalent and worth a quick mention
Well yeah, of course, I agree, but in the case of weight loss surgery most people only get to the point of going through with it because they already have a form of disordered eating. It is a physical alteration that does not help to solve the psychological struggles of the patient. So being on one end of the spectrum then being thrust into another extreme form of a diet can be very psychologically intense and to the detriment of the individual. It all depends on the person. I was speaking from experience where I saw my mom struggle in many ways similar to how I did even though our conditions were different. My point really was to make a point to the og commenter that they can nit pick people’s words when they are speaking about their trauma like they should have a script, or they can take a step back and see no offense was intended and aside from that there can be similarities drawn between the two and there’s nothing wrong with pointing that out.
@@allmasalerius7093 i definitely agree that anyone who gets weight loss surgery has internal psychological struggles that weight loss of any type won’t fix
@@sewerratlifestyle5711 surgeons in Canada will not preform any bariatric surgery (gastric sleeve/bypass, etc.), if you aren't cleared by a psychologist to be ready for the surgery. I had binge eating disorder so I was denied sugery, which I'm okay with bc there are a lot of "rules" around eating and the smaller stomach after sugery.
Canada doesn't preform gastric band/lap band sugery bc they are very high risk, can slip around, and even cause death
Surgery has the best longterm succes rate for weightless (compared to dieting, exercising, etc). Obesity is a very complex disease
weight loss surgery is in no way the same as anorexia ???
Right?? I felt for her for story during the video but her mini rant about weight loss surgery and comparing it to anorexia was rly weird to me
she was really easy to listen to and seems amazing, but i had a really hard time following what exactly was going on in the story. is that just me?
i agree, i’m still a bit confused
Yep
i think there’s so much trauma in her life that it’s hard to recollect everything in order
She all over the place
She did state repeatedly that a lot of it is fuzzy, it’s common for people with such severe trauma.
I’m grateful to be able to hear her talk so articulately and openly about her experiences - that skill is really admirable.
Am I the only one who thought she seems like the kind of girl who feeds into a lot of drama and then acts like she was victimized??? I’m confused about the “groomed into feederism” thing too…. This girl said when she was 18 years old before she ever found about about bbw, she was already 400lbs. Home girl fed herself and the guy just added to it.
She was already overweight before the feeder community groomed her. She's not blaming the feederism for making her overweight, I don't think she even mentions in the interview whether the feederism caused her to gain weight. The feeder grooming was bad for her because feederism is a kink, and it's damaging to be groomed into participating in a kink that you wouldn't otherwise want.
she didn't pick the title of the video and she previously explained how she turned eating into a coping mecanism do you even listen when people talk
She really is into having diagnosis’. PTSD, ADHD, BIPOLAR, MAJOR DEPRESSIVE DISORDER , CPTSD, Autism (she has an appointment to be diagnosed)
Literally, her whole personality is victim mentality
Exactly, and I don't know why, but I can't believe all of her story
anything but taking accountability for your actions.
Finally someone said it. I believe she has trauma but is literally talking herself into having adhd and autism
I dont know a lot of these things can be comorbid it makes sense to me. Ptsd + MDD + Cptsd are easily connected. Autism + Adhd is also a very frequent comorbidity n they r neurologically close to eachother. As well as cptsd + bipolar being able to mimic symptoms of adhd & vice versa. its probably hard for her to narrow down & its easy w our modern understanding of these things to get caught up in identifying w them.
She’s an compulsive liar… the more she talk the less she make sense
I feel horrible, but my intuition tells me something is off. Something isn’t adding up. I have 5 mental health disorders, abused at age 3 till 27 and I’m 30 now. Been getting treatment since my early 20’s, what irks me is when people lie about abuse and mental health. It’s not a joke and makes it harder for the people who actually suffer from trauma to be taken seriously. In the end I wish her the best.
@@Ms.Lucipursame. My intuition tells me something is off too. I don’t believe her. There may be some truth in her story but I think she is greatly embellishing her story for attention. Don’t feel horrible. Our intuition thinks something is off for a reason.
I agree. Did you catch when she was telling the story about talking to a nurse during her hospitalization, she says “without looking up, she literally looked right at me” and then immediately realizes she contradicted herself. She can’t help but lie.
I’m so sorry you had to experience such a traumatic upbringing and I hope you keep finding peace as time goes on ❤️ I gotta say Rosie you are so charismatic! I am really glued to following Rosie’s story.
i feel like more people who have so much hatred for fat people need to hear stories like this. you never know what someone has gone through, and it is so unfortunate that people have the misconception that all bigger people choose to be overweight. for me personally i had gone through a really traumatic event, got on heavy psych meds, and it was like one day i just looked in the mirror, weighed myself, and i had gained almost 60 ib in 6 months due to stress eating and sleeping. i just wish we lived in a world with more compassion for eachother it sucks that so many people can feel like they are better than others based on weight :/
exactly, my fatness is directly linked ot multiple traumas and the resukting mental illness. i didnt ask for this. sometimes people cant *just* do whatever *insert useless advice* others think are simple things to do to reduce fatness. its majorly genetic, environmental, and mental health related for so many. im not just weak or pathetic, ive survived things that would horrify and break the same people who look down on me for how i look.
@@jkatttt1699 i wish people could understand how greatly trauma can affect one’s life. it gets so mentally exhausting that it affects the way you are physically. there was a point in time where it was hard for me to get out of bed to even go to the bathroom/shower/clean/etc. let alone workout or stay active. i’m glad to be better now, although i’m still heavier (which isn’t a bad thing, i know this doesn’t determine my value/worth) i’m very lucky to have support all around me with my partner, friends, and family. i hope you have this as well and are healing however that may look for you 🫶
@@jkatttt1699depends on what you consider surviving.
Sad you sxperience these situation.
Hope you heal from this situation.
You stil choose you live regardles of you backpack in live inflicted on or self inflicted
I'm fat and it's everyone else's fault!
@@shadfallfanno it's bully's fault when they bully fat people. Being fat is value/morally neutral. Being a dick is mean and bad
I feel like I have connected so much with many of these stories and I feel so much better knowing I am not alone. Love everyone who’s shared.
She collecting mental health diagnoses like pokemon yo
I dont like that she was directly going after appearances during 33:47? Like of course someone that cannot get laid due to their looks wont look GREAT & will become isolated & bitter? Especially since she has been bullied id expect her to be a little more empathetic
Apparently she is very very full of herself. I did a bit of research into her after this video and she thinks she's gods gift to the world. She doesn't have a lot of empathy for anyone who isn't her it seems.
This woman is the reason I take my education seriously and workout everyday 😭
She doesn’t have PTSD. She has OBCD.
"Not fun.. or fresh"😂😭 you're awesome Rosie! Thank you for being you!
It's depressing how many commentators are victim blaming or trying to forcing their own unrelated views and opinions about body positivity, looks, kink, feminism etc into the conversation. Punching down is never funny. If you're that desperate for attention that you need to insult people you've never bet then you're the one with the problem.
My heart aches for what she had to go through :( She has such a kind and understanding disposition despite all she had to endure, when many people would have already crumbled. She is healing so many others by sharing her stories and experiences, and I truly hope she will create better relationships in her life that are healing especially for her inner child. I am sending you so much hope and healing Rosie
This interview is all over the place lol
blud scheduled her own autism 😭💀💀
😂😂
Apparently 99.9% of people have autism and adhd according to these ppl online lol
what do you mean??? diagnostic appointments have to be scheduled lmao
@@TheFiteShowyou schedule appointments to be tested for things. Not to be diagnosed with them.
@@carolinegallegos_ And if she goes in expecting to be diagnosed with autism any tests they do will effectively be invalid. She'll subconsciously be picking based on what she thinks has the highest autism score, not what genuinely affects her in her life
Anore*xia and physically reducing your stomach size to reduce portions are NOT similar in nature at all! It is closer to mimicking natural fasting. Yes its an intense, dramatic, procedure... but its done on bodies that need intense, dramatic, solutions. Bodies that have the fat reserves to safely push through the restrictions and are not harmed by it. If they were doing these procedures on bodies that were on the lower end of healthy weight or emaciated? Now THAT would be messed up and harmful. Its okay to not want these operations though, they ARE extreme and are certainly not the ''easy'' fix they are often touted as being. They are a legit available tool that can be right for some people however, and they have helped many.
Also bu*limia can include bouts of binge eating followed by severe restrictions. People tend to think you can only be bu*limic if you make yourself puke or take laxatives, but day-long restrictions between binges can also be a type of ''corrective'' behavior people with the disorder might exhibit. If you find yourself trapped, for months if not years, constantly going back and forth between both ED behaviors? That could be what is going on.
I love your podcasts your almost emotionless which I find baffling sometimes with the crazy circumstances but it allows the guests to really tell their story your sooo pretty ily
Unfortunate for the most part, but seems like she loves the spotlight and drama, openly cheated on her boyfriend, and “toots her own horn”. 🚩🚩🚩🚩🚩
Dude she takes no accountability for her actions lol
What should she be taking accountability for?
@@amitypride2429 Poor decision making with men, over eating, etc
@@gelatobenne4342 She literally said that she regrets what she did to her ex tho. And she has a eating disorder.
Why does she keep saying she has autism when hasn't been diagnosed with autism?
A lot of people will do research online and a lot of self-reflection to arrive at the conclusion. Some people choose not to get a formal diagnosis because it's too expensive and they don't see the worth in it. I think there are other reasons too.
Because she’s one of those people trying to win the oppression olympics and trauma competition.
I don’t understand that either!!! It’s rough enough to get a diagnosis of having bipolar disorder. She’s very articulate in describing her story. I’m no expert, but at face value I just don’t see where she’s autistic.
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Right she always act like she was always a victim lol
@@the_pinky_dolly3357no responsibility taken
Yes. And I feel guilty even saying that, but I don’t think most of this is true.
She is a storyteller that is the victim in all her stories. Rosie shops for diagnosis to explain her behavior.Continues to overeat and uses her channel to trauma dump. She doesn't want to work
Rosie is my favorite fellow shitshow. We are all in this together. I wish more people understood that. None of us are professional humans. We are all on our first time through life!
Thank you clever! ❤❤
Shes very quick to point out others looks whike not wanting to be judged by her looks
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I want to make sure i understand this:
Sexually molested at 6--by a familiar person
Started eating emotions at 9,
Heavily involved in the church until 18,
Sought SOME psychological help at 16...
Now here's where I got lost: she stopped therapy sometime around this time where she was diagnosed as Bipolar because she was put on an antipsychotic?
THEN she fell into the internet and her troubles multiplied?
Since she had stated that she was overweight by 9 and by middle school there was only one other person who was about of a size, sounds like she groomed herself into eating and fell into a group of like-minded people.... now THIS part sounds familiar with me and my alcoholism; (welllll before the internet) *I* got caught up in a group of miserable coworkers who would go out and drink to avoid their family life. I had just gone through a breakup and was ripe for the picking. The only difference is: I didn't blame anyone else for the alcohol I shoved in my face... and I *have* been diagnosed with Asperger's. Still don't blame others for ten plus years of drinking....
You can’t groom yourself by definition. She started emotionally eating and was overweight at 9 from being molested, it’s not her fault that it was that specific coping mechanism (eating) that she happened to pick up, when you’re 9 you can’t understand the repercussions of that, for example comforting youself with ice cream or snacks or pizza, it just makes you feel better because you’re a kid and kids love sugar etc. It’s a guardians fault for not restricting how much junk food she could have, which is what leads to childhood obesity. It’s never the kids fault for not having the discipline to make sure their diet is appropriate, that’s the guardian’s responsibility.
I’m trying so hard to get through this but this woman BOTHERS me
Same
Then leave
Watched this 2 months ago and yo goofy ah says then leave
She is very judgemental for someone who plays the victim so much
"Theres no clear cut definition of rape"......?????? Pretty sure there is.
Not really though
I’m so sick of seeing bored overly privileged ppl creating chaos. For themselves and competing to have the worst trauma. It’s fucking annoying and it’s taking up resources from ppl that need them.
Overly privileged? Are you serious? I definitely don’t subscribe to playing trauma Olympics. This is just my story. And I definitely shared what I went through.
And not that it matters, but I’m privately insured and employed now. But when I wasn’t, I needed resources and wasn’t provided ones. This entire platform is about trauma sharing if you don’t like that idk why you are here