Addicted to Heroin

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  • Опубликовано: 8 июл 2024
  • Get $10 off at Nutrafol.com when you use promo code Insane!
    CW: This episode contains discussions of drug use, addiction, and miscarriage.
    Heroin is a drug derived from opium poppy plants that can quickly lead to addiction. Heroin use can cause an overdose, increase the risk of contracting infectious diseases, and lead to a range of health problems, including mental health problems. Prescription opioids, like OxyContin and Vicodin, can also be addictive. They can cause physical dependence and increased tolerance, leading to misuse and a higher risk of addiction. Some people turn to heroin when they can no longer get prescription opioids or need a stronger high. To reduce the risk of addiction, it's important to take prescription opioids as directed by a healthcare professional and to never share them with others. If you or someone you know is struggling with addiction to heroin or prescription opioids, seek help from a healthcare professional or addiction treatment center.
    Resources:
    Search for Oxford House vacancies in your area: oxfordhouse.org
    Find a Suboxone doctor: www.samhsa.gov/medication-ass...
    Hope House Treatment Centers: hopehousemd.org
    Hope House is currently asking for donations of self care items (masks, razors, deodorant, shampoo, conditioner, etc.) Donations can be brought to 26 Marbury Drive Crownsville, MD 21032
    Anne Arundel County Safe Stations. Go into any fire station in Anne Arundel County MD, ask to use Safe Station, and they will take you in no questions asked and usually place you into treatment within 24 hours: www.aacounty.org/departments/...
    Baltimore Needle Exchange Program and Schedule: health.baltimorecity.gov/hiv-...
    Where to get Narcan and Fentanyl test strips in Maryland: health.maryland.gov/pha/NALOX...
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    00:00 Nutrafol
    00:27 Childhood
    02:40 First experience with pain medication
    03:55 Withdrawal
    05:30 Drinking
    07:30 Trying harder drugs in college
    09:00 Everyone at work is on pills
    11:05 Making good money
    12:50 Everyone she surrounds herself with is on drugs
    13:45 Back to college
    15:50 Dropping out
    17:00 Introduction to heroin
    20:45 Pipeline to heroin addiction
    22:50 Fentanyl
    24:00 Baltimore
    25:30 Safety farthest thing from mind
    26:10 Gunshots
    28:55 Age regression
    30:20 IV use
    32:00 IV cocaine
    37:37 Psych ward
    38:20 Mom gets sick, passes away
    41:40 Trying not to grieve
    43:45 Family wanted nothing to do with her
    45:15 Recovery housing
    46:40 Dad supportive
    47:51 Nutrafol
    49:38 Flying under the radar
    50:40 Hope House
    51:30 Withdrawal
    54:40 Recovery Housing
    56:50 On opioid blocker
    59:45 Pregnant, miscarriage
    1:02:00 Relapsing
    1:03:30 Pregnant, nonviable
    1:07:10 Pregnant again-got into treatment
    1:08:30 Hope House-final treatment
    1:09:30 Oxford House
    1:11:50 CPS
    1:13:45 Difficulties of raising a baby in recovery housing
    1:16:00 Covid
    1:18:25 Facing judgment for addiction recovery
    1:22:30 Boss judges her harshly after she opens up
    1:27:00 Second-guessing herself
    1:30:00 "Inspiration" and strength
    1:34:00 Concluding thoughts

Комментарии • 589

  • @Sarahxxxxxxx
    @Sarahxxxxxxx Год назад +2538

    This is one of the best podcast ever. Like everyone says, the fact you don’t interrupt the guest and let them just tell their story is awesome.

    • @Girlhead
      @Girlhead Год назад +38

      I agree- this is an excellent podcast.

    • @naomigary7930
      @naomigary7930 Год назад +8

      yessss

    • @SM-vb8fj
      @SM-vb8fj Год назад +13

      She's the opposite of how Whitney Cummings interviews lol

    • @chrisdom2010
      @chrisdom2010 11 месяцев назад +1

      NEVER!!! Lie ti your DR. THEY TOOK A OATH TO PRETTY MUCH BE COOL NO MATTER WHAT

    • @benwyatt8715
      @benwyatt8715 11 месяцев назад

      @@naomigary7930o lol lmo

  • @geniebeanie6988
    @geniebeanie6988 Год назад +1485

    Yesterday, I celebrated 8 years opiate-free. Recovery is possible ❤️

  • @emilyhubbard137
    @emilyhubbard137 Год назад +1383

    Thank you for having me on! You truly have one of the kindest, most supportive fan bases I've ever seen. Thank you everyone for your kind words and encouragement ❤ Please see the description for more resources (inpatient treatment, Oxford houses, narcan training, medication assisted treatment, needle exchange/harm reduction, etc.)

    • @Marcellestanley23
      @Marcellestanley23 Год назад +28

      Thank you for sharing your story. This is my favourite episode on this channel as I can relate to your struggles. You’ve been through it and came out the other side. I’m proud of you and we can absolutely recover 🩵

    • @aoasimex529
      @aoasimex529 Год назад +13

      Emily! Our journeys have been incredibly similar, it’s crazy. I’m also a new mom, my son was born 10/14/20 and we had to deal with the CPS bullshit, ive tried cosmo school and college and many jobs with shitty people. We would be able to talk for hours. Do you have an instagram? ALSO, I think that when you found your file at the therapist office, that was meant to be. You were able to see her true colors before you wasted anymore of your time there. And it’s funny to me that she saw you going above and beyond for a potential patient by searching for resources when you didn’t have to, as something to hold against you. That was something many wouldn’t do out of the kindness of their heart, and it really says a lot about who you are as a person. I think you would do great working in the recovery field, even if it were patient coordination like finding people resources. You’re awesome & Im so happy that you’re doing so well.

    • @jennetteraspatello8558
      @jennetteraspatello8558 11 месяцев назад +4

      Holy shit! From Annapolis too...also, got my tonsils out at 17, started my addiction in the restaurant business also. ... did u work at the bikini barista place on route 2?? Like between Pasadena and severna park??

    • @emilyhubbard137
      @emilyhubbard137 11 месяцев назад +7

      @@jennetteraspatello8558 That's the one! (which is now under new management, I feel inclined to say lmao)

    • @makeupwithdrea6617
      @makeupwithdrea6617 11 месяцев назад +1

      @emily are you on medication still for the addiction? Congrats on sobriety! It's a process my bf has been sober for 8 mths of heroin It's not easy.. God speed!!

  • @raerae9212
    @raerae9212 Год назад +361

    I've been sober from heroin for almost 13 years to the day. For those people who are still in the early days of sobriety, or they're struggling to take the first steps, there will come a point in time when you won't recognize the addict that you used to be. It does get better. It may require you to give up relationships, opportunities, places, and other things, but it's worth it in the end.
    I grew up watching my father pretend to be a functioning alcoholic. By the time I was in middle school and began to experiment with drugs and alcohol, I was hooked. I hit the ground running with weed, alcohol, and pills. The drugs eventually lead me to a person who would become my fiance, but also my sexual, mental, and physical abuser, of over 5 years. When we met, I was still a minor in high school when he was almost old enough to drink. During the last few years of our relationship, he would threaten to leave me, to kill himself, or to cheat on me unless I shot up heroin with him. So eventually I succumbed. I wanted to save our dying relationship. I had given this person the best years of my youth and I thought that I deserved every mistreatment that he gave me.
    My last time shooting heroin, I OD'ed and ended up in the ICU. As soon as I woke up from the horrible pain of a catheter and the narcan, I knew that I had to change my entire life around if I wanted to get clean. I eventually pushed my fiance safely out of my life, disappeared from my current friend group, and started outpatient therapy. I made it out. I cannot say the same for so many people that I knew during my addiction. They're dead. And my ex fiance is in the penitentiary for a myriad of things including assaulting his current girlfriend at the time. I still have to work to keep my sobriety safe and my identity/location safe from my ex fiance. But being able to live without the pain of drugs is one of the best gifts that I've ever given myself.
    If you're still here, thanks for reading my story.

    • @whittaker6868
      @whittaker6868 Год назад +12

      im just a stranger but reading this im so proud of you !

    • @katalinaradi7472
      @katalinaradi7472 11 месяцев назад +5

      Thank you for telling us your story ♡

    • @keandradavis1593
      @keandradavis1593 11 месяцев назад +5

      ❤great job to you

    • @vali3462
      @vali3462 10 месяцев назад +2

      You are so strong❤

    • @jillianlemons
      @jillianlemons 9 месяцев назад +1

      thank you for sharing🤍 keep going & stay strong

  • @CHiCguitar
    @CHiCguitar Год назад +858

    I just have to say this is my favorite podcast. You bring on the most interesting people whose stories both need and deserve to be heard. You never interrupt. You let them speak. Keep doing this stuff.

    • @liarliarbandanaonfire6667
      @liarliarbandanaonfire6667 Год назад +4

      I couldn't agree more! I'm always so excited when I see a new episode notification!

    • @larajayne4934
      @larajayne4934 5 месяцев назад

      YESSSS!!! I just found this channel earlier and I've been watching a few videos already 😊

    • @miatorelli7387
      @miatorelli7387 5 месяцев назад +1

      What podcast are yall watching bc she is constantly interrupting and trying to finish their sentences

  • @ninevahkathreptis196
    @ninevahkathreptis196 Год назад +396

    My brother was/is addicted to fetanyl and hydros. I was mad at him for a such a long time and really couldn't see past what he had done to my family and I. But listening to you talk about your withdrawal put so many pieces of his behavior together that i couldn't help but cry for him. He's dealt with stuff that i didnt consider. Thank you for changing my perspective of him

    • @seinfields
      @seinfields Год назад +24

      This is so wholesome. God bless

    • @KiwikimNZ
      @KiwikimNZ 11 месяцев назад +10

      My brother was a herion addict for many years but he died of an overdose several years ago. Don’t be angry at your brother, make the most of every second you have with him, he maybe gone tomorrow. ❤ being addicted to Opioids and herion is a really horrible addiction to break, even though you think you are in control of it, your not because the minute you decide ok I’ve had enough now, is usually when you realise your physically addicted. I was on huge doses, 600mg of morphine a day! For multiple spinal fractures, I can tell you right now, the withdrawals are the most horrible thing I have ever experienced, you can not function, you can not think, you feel like you have the worst flu ever with the worst anxiety and restlessness ever, your hit and cold…. Honestly, it is incredibly hard for those addicted to give up. I managed to reduce my dose down and I’m only on 20mg a day now. It took a long time to reduce my dose in small increments over about 2 years! You never think it’s going to happen to you and the guilt and self loathing addicts have every time they use is enough, they don’t need their loved ones to judge them or be angry, they need your love and support, it’s a very lonely place to be in. Please forgive your brother, he is sick. Those that chose drugs, have something to escape from, they are usually sensitive people and find life hard. Xx

    • @magvs_mæstro216
      @magvs_mæstro216 11 месяцев назад +1

      Reading that made me tear up.

    • @status0
      @status0 11 месяцев назад +1

      Thats awesome, try to be with him when u can safely

    • @bartrese
      @bartrese 10 месяцев назад

      He is so lucky to have survived that. Fentanyl is no joke

  • @mineuser5584
    @mineuser5584 Год назад +230

    My withdrawal process has lasted from 17-20 days of pure torture I’ve done it twice at home and once in the hospital. I’ve been clean 216 days today. My lady use was Thanksgiving. 🙏🏼 Prayers for all my fellow addicts. You’re worth it and you deserve peace in your soul and freedom from the grasp of addiction. I love you all 🩷

    • @xavii.t7421
      @xavii.t7421 Год назад +3

      congratulations on being clean for so long it takes a lot of work im proud :)

    • @CertifiedDyme
      @CertifiedDyme 11 месяцев назад +1

      Congratulations🎊👏🏽💐🥳🎊

    • @kaylakayla8713
      @kaylakayla8713 11 месяцев назад +2

      I hope you’re proud of yourself and I am so glad you gave yourself another chance 🩷

    • @proctorsledge
      @proctorsledge 10 месяцев назад

      i’m so proud of you! keep going! it gets hard but it is so so worth it and you are so deserving of peace and a healthy life.

    • @mai129i
      @mai129i 10 месяцев назад

      would u say it was easier at home or in the hospital?

  • @dominiquealaska7490
    @dominiquealaska7490 Год назад +291

    Y’all read my mind WTFFFF I LITERALLY WAS THINKING ABOUT HOW I WISH I COULD COME SHARE MY STORY YESTERDAY… so weird…. Thank you for giving a recovering addict a platform to share their experience!

  • @Lelasings
    @Lelasings Год назад +146

    I learned recently that most addicts are functioning, seemingly "normal" looking people. It shocked me more than I want to admit but it makes sense because they're stereotyped as secretive and sneaky but when you're so used to a drug i'm sure it's not hard to begin to function and be high. Congrats on your sobriety this pod is so inspiring and raw! I love it

  • @Madgoodtimes14
    @Madgoodtimes14 Год назад +216

    As a sister of an addict, this helps me better understand what she went through. Thanks again for such a powerful podcast Devorah!

  • @macaronigaming1127
    @macaronigaming1127 Год назад +170

    I’m obsessed with these videos found this channel about 1 month ago and have watch almost all

  • @shae1539
    @shae1539 10 месяцев назад +18

    Her dad is such a hero I don’t know many dads that could take all that trauma and still be a rock

  • @hiccup363
    @hiccup363 Год назад +356

    as a current fent user, this episode is so relatable, insightful, and just feels good to know I’m not alone. She is speaking such facts

    • @Michaela-ub4ue
      @Michaela-ub4ue Год назад +47

      Same. Wishing the best for you

    • @ivys9544
      @ivys9544 Год назад +46

      Sending u both all the best! Take care of yourselves

    • @esthekatie
      @esthekatie Год назад +15

      Sending you all the love and support Erica 🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻

    • @emily-wb4fv
      @emily-wb4fv Год назад +8

      Wishing you the best Erica ❤

    • @kylafish
      @kylafish Год назад +8

      sending you good energy

  • @nikailx22
    @nikailx22 Год назад +94

    as a recovering addict myself… 3 years clean now.. it was almost uncomfortable hearing how similar our stories were, but it was also very confirming. it made me feel less alone. this was an awesome episode for me

  • @lillyvanilley7586
    @lillyvanilley7586 Год назад +26

    She met the devil that day at work…
    I’m a recovering prescription stimulants/meth addict. Been in recovery since October 2018. I have done almost every drug there is out there to try. I’ve never done Heroin. I know that would be the end of me if I were to Ever try it. I’ve lost two friends to Heroin and have seen what it can do to someone you know…
    Thank you for sharing this story and helping drug addicts, including myself, to not feel so alone.

  • @TheChibiTewii
    @TheChibiTewii Год назад +50

    A lot of people do not understand how hard it is to get out of drugs, seeing her do everything for her daughter I wish my dad would’ve had the strength for me. Thank you for sharing your story, never hesitate it’s a beautiful story that you should always be proud of. I’m so happy for you and your daughter you’re an amazing mom

  • @bryannawells7066
    @bryannawells7066 Год назад +46

    my father passed away from a heroine overdose, they said he had enough in his system to kill an elephant at his time of death. i've always an insight into what he felt and went through, i loved this episode and i'm so happy i found this episode. thank you both so much. this is so brave.

  • @karmabrown4635
    @karmabrown4635 Год назад +42

    I haven't watched yet, just seen the title....I was a crack and heroin addict for ten years. Currently 3 years clean and life is amazing. I went from having sepsis, infected blood clots and nearly dying to now having an amazing life, meeting my partner and having my gorgeous baby boy who is now 2 months old. If anyone had of told me 3 years ago I would be clean and have a family I probably would of laughed in their face. It's been a battle to get here but now I experience a good life and that makes me know I will never go back and the fact that a tiny human depends on me and I love him more than any words could ever describe. Well done to all the recovering addicts out there and a prayer for the ones who haven't got there yet

  • @ericacruz7550
    @ericacruz7550 Год назад +70

    My cousin recently passed away from drug use. THAT is why you share your story. You share to show people you can come out on the other side. Also you should share because it’s something to be proud of! ❤️❤️

  • @bethh4786
    @bethh4786 10 месяцев назад +9

    I don’t know why people have a problem with the pot gateway drug theory, it’s absolutely true. Not everyone who smokes pot becomes an addict, but everyone who is a drug addict, has started with smoking pot.

  • @kaylamarie9993
    @kaylamarie9993 Год назад +96

    Imagine firing somebody for being a recovering addict when that could literally ruin everything for them.. So glad to know that she’s doing amazing regardless. ❤

    • @alilyahnajucutan3337
      @alilyahnajucutan3337 Год назад +1

      You don’t just get a free pass cause your an addict, don’t get a. Job if you can’t be responsible.

    • @jvnebugged
      @jvnebugged Год назад +2

      yeah very upsetting tbh.

    • @Selicular
      @Selicular 2 месяца назад

      @@jvnebuggedRelapse rates are so high with heroin. Over 90% people fail within a year, so it’s no surprise some employers would rather not get involved with such person.

  • @raegaia999
    @raegaia999 Год назад +23

    i lost my mum at 14 to severe heroine addiction - it was horrific. I wish I could hear her story as well, it would be huge. I'm so glad to see her here today in recover, literally brings tears to my eyes. Wishing all the best for her.

  • @albert.robles7
    @albert.robles7 Год назад +28

    Psychedelics killed my drug and alcohol dependencies - one trip two years ago to purge my depression and chronic anxiety from my system was the best decision I ever made. I've done psilocybin mushrooms a few times since, but after my last high dose trip I realized that the medicine has taught me enough for now. I might return to psychedelics later in my life if I ever find a source.

    • @katlinkate
      @katlinkate Год назад +1

      Once I took shrooms on accident they were in a chocolate bar and my fat a** thought it was regular chocolates 😂

    • @userconspiracynut
      @userconspiracynut Год назад +1

      [adamsflakesss]
      Ships psychedelics

    • @albert.robles7
      @albert.robles7 Год назад +1

      @@userconspiracynut okay but how can I reach out? Is it Instagram?

    • @userconspiracynut
      @userconspiracynut Год назад +1

      @@albert.robles7 Yeah, he has variety of stuffs like mushrooms, LSD, DMT even the chocolate bars

    • @michystorms
      @michystorms Год назад +1

      Wanna try, buy keep being told I can't do it alone for the first time but I'd literally be so much more comfortable alone

  • @jessicamasonfobert
    @jessicamasonfobert Год назад +77

    As an addict in recovery myself with 2 children, this is one of your pid days that meant so much more to me than any other❤. It’s incredible for her to tell her story and not let ANYONE discourage her from sharing her truth. I’ll be clean for 4 years in august and to have just a little reminder once in a while that “hey you’re not alone” keeps me grounded. Thanks for sharing and congratulations to you and anyone one else 1 day to any amount clean🎉! I’m so proud of US!!!😊❤

    • @tanie3543
      @tanie3543 Год назад +1

      Can you explain why you used 'addict in recovery' and not "recovered addict' if you've been clean for 4 years? Genuinely asking, i mean no hate.

    • @juliagreenberg9724
      @juliagreenberg9724 Год назад +4

      Girl, I am also in recovery and have 1 child. Congratulations on your recovery success thus far as well ❤love to see the positivity being spread! △

    • @chelseahayllar5853
      @chelseahayllar5853 Год назад +3

      @@tanie3543you are never fully ‘recovered’ from addiction. It’s something you always battle with

  • @allisara16
    @allisara16 Год назад +56

    Emily looks like Scarlett Johansson! She’s so strong and her story is proof you should never judge a book by it’s cover. Thanks for this podcast and pleaseeee keep doing what you’re doing Dev!

  • @rukirei7777
    @rukirei7777 Год назад +17

    My brother was an addict but died before he could get sober. i wish everyday that i could have seen him sober. thank you for sharing . i feel like i can understand him a little more now

  • @chelseymakes
    @chelseymakes Год назад +30

    I'm also a mother who is in recovery. I take Suboxone long term for maintenance and it's saved my life and made me a more present mom. this episode feels so healing because I've been through some of these same things. thanks for sharing, mama. sending you strength 💖

    • @KaileyB616
      @KaileyB616 11 месяцев назад +1

      Subutex saved my life too ❤️

    • @chelseymakes
      @chelseymakes 11 месяцев назад +1

      @@KaileyB616 it looks like art had an influence in both of our recovery 💖

  • @BeeRitt
    @BeeRitt Год назад +27

    My boyfriend is almost in year two of sobriety. I met him one month before he started recovery so I’ve watched him build himself from the ground up.
    It’s really challenging from a partner’s perspective to watch them go through all of their ups and down. On his absolute worst days, I ask myself “Do I really want to keep putting up with this?” but I remember that when I was in my lowest point (not with drugs, but with mental illness) I had NO ONE there to support me. I am to him what I wish I had for myself. And I love being there to watch his journey all the way through.
    So to those who are in my shoes who have a partner that they’re supporting through recovery or sobriety, I say keep pushing through and remember why you’re there. Not just for love, but to give the support that you wish you had.

  • @KourtneyBlack
    @KourtneyBlack Год назад +36

    This was absolutely what I needed today. 6 years in recovery and it’s sooo hard. Even through trying to heal all the trauma it IS better on this side! Thank you for staying strong and sharing your story with us ❤❤❤

    • @animalover1211
      @animalover1211 11 месяцев назад +3

      6 months is so long!!! congratulations 🎉 keep going, I believe in you❤

  • @dezdovalina
    @dezdovalina Год назад +24

    The boss of a therapist office being prejudice against their employee who just so happens to be an addict in recovery makes me concerned about how this boss treated the patients. Out of all people, shouldn't a manager of a THERAPIST office be more understanding towards ppl who struggle from mental illness, considering the sole purpose of their job is to provide services to the mentally ill?

  • @BKL6068
    @BKL6068 Год назад +76

    I love this podcast so much. I really hope the ones who believe that addicts are choose this lifestyle instead of understanding it is an illness, change their mind.

    • @Emorydawn830
      @Emorydawn830 Год назад +16

      It is almost impossible to convince people who haven't gone through it. It's truly an interesting thing like the age regression etc. I truly believe that human suffering causes drug use, and human suffering will never go away.

    • @BKL6068
      @BKL6068 Год назад +7

      @@Emorydawn830 couldn’t agree more. Well said!

    • @MultiY4
      @MultiY4 10 месяцев назад +1

      I agree with you to some extent but in some situations addicts have to take some blame for experimenting with drugs in the first place. She was prescribed opioids after her surgery but she admits that was not the primary reason for her drug addiction/use

    • @SomethingClever_
      @SomethingClever_ 9 месяцев назад

      @@MultiY4unfortunately a lot of addicts blame a prescription for their addiction. Prescriptions taken as prescribed as safe. Trying dangerous drugs is NOT and there should be some from of accountability for making that choice.

  • @william1078
    @william1078 3 месяца назад +5

    I know this is an older video, but I’m celebrating 10 months of sobriety tomorrow from fent after using for 8 years. I’d really love to come on your podcast and tell you my story from a view of a type 1 diabetic addict.

  • @Ragdollcatlover
    @Ragdollcatlover Год назад +26

    My ex boyfriend is a heroin addict. He’s ok at the moment and seems to be having a good life. We broke up because of a relapse he had and it was a very painful time. I still have a special place for him in my heart and hope that he never relapses again.

    • @Michaela-ub4ue
      @Michaela-ub4ue Год назад +2

      Relapse is a part of recovery

    • @Ragdollcatlover
      @Ragdollcatlover 11 месяцев назад

      @@Michaela-ub4ue what I mean is, I hope that the addiction doesn’t steal years more of his life than it already has. I know it’s complicated though.

  • @Michaela-ub4ue
    @Michaela-ub4ue Год назад +44

    As a current her0in user I wanna say thank you for sharing your story it's very inspiring I'm going to start to get serious about getting clean

    • @juliagreenberg9724
      @juliagreenberg9724 Год назад +16

      Keep going girl, you can do this. I have 1 year 10 months after years and years of continued relapse and I promise you, if I can do it, anyone can! Reach out if you ever need support ❤

    • @Girlhead
      @Girlhead Год назад +7

      Hang in the Michela- I wish nothing but the best for you.

    • @esthekatie
      @esthekatie Год назад +6

      Sending you all the love and support 🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻

    • @Michaela-ub4ue
      @Michaela-ub4ue Год назад +2

      @juliagreenberg9724 that's amazing by the way, thank you for sharing -you're inspiring

    • @caitlinlewis1797
      @caitlinlewis1797 Год назад +3

      I really hope you do. You are valued no matter what. I’m sending you love and healing on your journey. Remember no matter what, you are loved and valued.

  • @JuanRodriguez-bx8yp
    @JuanRodriguez-bx8yp 8 месяцев назад +4

    I woke up one day and shot heroin for the first time ever. I started with meth and my uncle basically shot me for the first time with heroin. That shit was 11 years ago and shit has destroyed my life…

  • @ofthesoundX
    @ofthesoundX Год назад +17

    So happy to hear someone speak on Oxford Houses. I’ve been clean from meth since 3/9/2020 and Oxford House is a big reason why. It’s a community like no other and really holds addicts accountable in all aspects of their life.

  • @skn907
    @skn907 Год назад +13

    It's ironic how much you can have in common with strangers. I can relate to so much of her story in my own situation. I've been sober for 9 years, and I can relate to how much appreciation she has for every single thing in life.

  • @user-lt3ov8hz5l
    @user-lt3ov8hz5l 6 месяцев назад +3

    I had such a similar experience. From being introduced to “hiding from my family” so similar to my experience. So grateful to have almost 300 days

  • @isaherrera7059
    @isaherrera7059 Год назад +15

    8 months drug free. this is so insane to watch and relate to. sobriety rocks. keep going!!!!! recovery is possible

  • @cassieblack1776
    @cassieblack1776 4 месяца назад +2

    Addiction is full of “Nevers“ that’s you inevitably end up breaking …. Is the best quote and the saddest reality of addiction.

  • @johnna3279
    @johnna3279 Год назад +7

    4 years 5 months clean from heroin and I just started working as a recovery specialist at the first inpatient treatment center I went to at the start of my recovery journey!

  • @tonyaurwin
    @tonyaurwin Год назад +12

    my mom is celebrating 20 years clean next month! 🎉❤ NA was something that helped her find her community, I really believe that is what has saved her in her recovery! My older sister, however is still struggling in her addiction, even though our mom has shown by example how she was able to turn it around, it isn't that simple, every addict is different, and what works for one won't work for the next.... 💔 to anyone here struggling I hope you are able to find the support and help you need, know you truly aren't alone in this, you are capable of choosing a different path 🙏🙏🙏

  • @Tamsin_bear
    @Tamsin_bear 10 месяцев назад +5

    I’m not an addict, but I have massive struggles of other kinds and this has given me hope. Thank you. Wishing this lovely woman and her family the best

  • @itsdrobunnybitches1973
    @itsdrobunnybitches1973 Год назад +5

    I was on heroin for 20 years....I'm now 4 and a half yrs clean. I identified with everything she said. Loveddddd this one!!!

  • @AliciaM5555
    @AliciaM5555 11 месяцев назад +11

    I love her she's so self aware, articulate and honest! I'm a recovering H addict myself, I never thought I had the strength to get clean and I didn't have this self awareness until just recently and I'm middle aged. God love you girl, don't EVER go back! Here in Cali ALL drugs are laced with fentanyl I'm so grateful I got out before this new epidemic 💪💖

  • @artemis4935
    @artemis4935 Год назад +9

    this podcast is so good, this is the second ep i’m watching and it feels so respectful to the victims stories. you’re able to have sponsorships on these videos and still your style of interview and active listening, only adding to their story. very impressive!

  • @camgotvaslee16
    @camgotvaslee16 Год назад +13

    grateful for coming across this. im nearly 2 months clean (fent/meth) but lately ive noticed myself reflecting on “good times” & neglecting my recovery. definitely needed the reminder to keep going (:

    • @wadewarriner139
      @wadewarriner139 Год назад +4

      Clean from heroine, fent and coke for 2 years now..... Just remember that those "good times" come with "very bad times" never forget the low feeling that comes with it. You got this

  • @PanthORandPonAY
    @PanthORandPonAY Год назад +16

    9 years clean 💗 We DO survive. 🙂

  • @SummerDreamzzz
    @SummerDreamzzz Год назад +17

    This women is so amazing. Her self awareness and maturity through all of this is truly the purpose for this in and of itself.

    • @lbessai5356
      @lbessai5356 11 месяцев назад

      Literally! She’s awesome!

  • @zoop1280
    @zoop1280 Год назад +15

    Viewer also from annapolis! The drug addiction here is definitely rampant, glad to have heard her story ❤

  • @deanjackson625
    @deanjackson625 Год назад +37

    I'm truly proud of Emily and congratulations to her on the role to sober and addiction.
    Especially her being a wonderful mother, when I was watching her story I wanted to tell her it's OK and I'm proud of her support group of friends and family helping her and never letting her fall bye the waist side.
    Keep up the magnificent effort Emily and never let others dictate your success and happiness. Much love and happiness to you and your family. Stay safe and strong Emily 🎉🎉🎉🎉❤❤❤❤😊😊😊

  • @Journey975
    @Journey975 Год назад +4

    Just found this podcast and I’m so obsessed. I absolutely love your style and how relaxed and easy it is to listen.

  • @valeriedanette3612
    @valeriedanette3612 Год назад +42

    alcohol/weed at 13 isn’t that normal to me 😅

    • @victoriapitt2305
      @victoriapitt2305 Год назад +6

      It depends on your social circle. Kids in my neighborhood had that around at 14. But my friends from school that lived in other towns didn't really get into all that until 17-18 or for some, college.

    • @Openjointsurgery
      @Openjointsurgery Год назад +4

      You prolly weren’t around it. Consider yourself lucky 👍🏽 even SEX was normal to me at 12. Anybody who knows what i mean by that knows that’s really really not normal

    • @SomethingClever_
      @SomethingClever_ 9 месяцев назад +2

      Right? I have a 13 yo and he’s not doing any of that, nor do his friends. At 13 kids are still very sheltered and innocent.

  • @kanyewest5862
    @kanyewest5862 10 месяцев назад +5

    this podcast is so beautiful. dev provides an outlet for these people who otherwise may not be able to share their stories and gives them full freedom and support in whatever their story is. its amazing to watch a podcast host be so supportive of their guests and leaving them to tell their own stories.

  • @skiandcomment
    @skiandcomment 11 месяцев назад +7

    Crazy to hear how you were treated by the Psychiatrist you worked for… glad they’re the public facing arm of early treatment. I’ve been clean for years and have a surgery coming up, my gf doesn’t understand why I don’t want to talk about my difficulties in the past with the surgery team- they treat you like an irresponsible criminal and subject you to unnecessary pain. Unfortunately I’ve had to experience that firsthand.

  • @lunaticlilyy
    @lunaticlilyy Год назад +6

    i absolutely love this podcast & you giving people a platform to tell their stories. keep doing what you’re doing!! this is inspiring to so many people. love your inputs & the way you give your undivided attention. 👌 learning about different people’s journeys, perspectives & hardships is such a passion of mine, i get so excited when you upload!!!!

  • @kelseyjohnson8182
    @kelseyjohnson8182 Год назад +18

    I love this podcast. My only complaint is that there aren't more episodes to watch. Keep up the great work ❤

  • @barbaranaiman9783
    @barbaranaiman9783 Год назад +18

    Emily you did a great job of telling your story step by step how you went from one drug to another. So proud of you great job for being clean for five years. I’m sure your also a great mom. Your doing amazing. Devorah another great episode for all the guest you have on sharing their stories I’m sure it is helping so many watching. Your a wonderful interviewer keep up the great work❤️👌👍

  • @TCGhottie
    @TCGhottie Год назад +44

    Love your videos dev. I like the laid back feel. In your socks and loungewear. Letting the person tell their story. Super cool. Props girl. Definitely an amazing choice you made for your channel. All hard topics. 🩵🩵🩵🩵🩵🩵

  • @ceresewilliams9423
    @ceresewilliams9423 8 месяцев назад +5

    To her boss: look at her now! So many people relating and commending her. This is why she wanted to share her story. I am able to relate to her in a lot of ways and hearing her story is awesome

  • @victoriapitt2305
    @victoriapitt2305 Год назад +4

    Thank you for sharing. I always look at my life in awe, because when I was younger I had a lot of bad influences around so I have to wonder why I was so fortunate to not go down a bad path when others did. Many friends developed addictions. I had an ex bf who was an addict. I've had friends OD and die. Somehow, I never struggled with drugs or alcohol, I made it through school and built myself a life. Ironically, the same thing that at first drove me to party ended up being the same thing that drove me towards a healthy lifestyle. I don't have children but I have a sister who was rendered mentally disabled after being assaulted as a teen. An absolute tragedy. At a certain point, I think in my mid 20s, I realized I owed it to her to live my life as best I could. I'm 40 now and I'm so proud of myself looking back. You should be immensely proud of yourself too!

  • @katmyster4
    @katmyster4 Год назад +7

    Felt so good to hear her story. Heroin addict in recovery myself. Had 4 children faced abortion. Just good to hear someone else feel my pain.

  • @belindagalvan9815
    @belindagalvan9815 11 месяцев назад +1

    just recently found this channel, and i love it so much. thank you for letting these strong women come on your platform and share their stories, please don’t ever stop 💓

  • @brittanyzahn7939
    @brittanyzahn7939 Год назад +2

    This is my favorite podcast. I love that you get people from all backgrounds to share their stories, it really has opened my eyes. I have learned SO much. You are such an amazing host as well. You let these guests talk

  • @gavinsnapdragon
    @gavinsnapdragon Год назад +9

    I am SO proud of you girl❤️ So many people don’t make it out on the other side and recover as well as you have. Please cherish it and stay strong! Congrats!!❤️❤️

  • @scrilla2376
    @scrilla2376 Год назад +2

    Just another absolute amazing podcast I can't say enough how much I enjoy it! The guests are great and you as an interviewer is the perfect mix of asking great questions to just listening and letting the guest speak. This podcast is going to get big!

  • @margaridadomingues2
    @margaridadomingues2 Год назад +12

    Love putting this on while I do my makeup. These are so interesting, insightful and informative 🫶🏼

  • @opalfae
    @opalfae Год назад +6

    Thanks so much for covering stories like this!

  • @priscillakirchhoff1265
    @priscillakirchhoff1265 Год назад +3

    I look forward to a new episode every Monday. I drive for work and as soon as I get in the car Monday mornings I put you tube on and turn on your new video. Love this podcast

  • @kellysendrowski6925
    @kellysendrowski6925 7 месяцев назад +2

    she is so well spoken and insightful. i seriously struggled with cutting the cord on weed (i know it could've been a 'worse' drug but i was seriously addicted and even went through physical withdrawal for weeks) and i love hearing people who are able to show so well how the grass is truly greener on the other side. for some reason the brief mention on age regression with drug use really struck me. i had one tolerance break from weed from ages 14-22 and some days i really do feel like a teenager that doesnt know wtf im doing lol. thank you for sharing your story, so happy life is going so well for you now!

  • @thelifeofceceeee3374
    @thelifeofceceeee3374 10 месяцев назад

    i recently lost my little brother to accidental drug overdose and a long struggle with addiction, thank you for posting these videos. They are oddly comforting to hear other people had similar struggles as him, that people had it so much worse or a lot better than him, and that all of these women are safe and healthy now out the otherside. the positivity of that helps because yes my brother didnt get out but I'd rather hear a million success stories than hear someone had to go through what my family did. thank you girl

  • @ELine39
    @ELine39 10 месяцев назад +1

    Wow I watched this the other day and it touched me and made me think a lot - honestly one of the most interesting conversations I've listened to in a while. I've just come back from uni (aka 'college' for Americans) and have sat down to relisten to this again. I think the fact that Emily is naturally very good at podcasting is part of it but this conversation itself went really well. I've watched a lot of We're All Insane and (in my opinion) this is by far the best one that has come out !

  • @harlidalton8025
    @harlidalton8025 Год назад +7

    Mother’s Day will be 7 yrs I’ve been clean from heroin and she’s right! I started with pain pills and when those became impossible to find I went to heroin !

  • @cocodollydear9
    @cocodollydear9 Год назад +6

    This episode was incredible! I am almost 2 years sober from alcohol ❤ this story was so inspiring!!!

  • @abiyo506
    @abiyo506 11 месяцев назад +1

    Thank you for sharing your story. My father is an addict and it growing up I had a lot of trouble understanding things. This story helped fill in some of those gaps and questions I have always had.

  • @mlbtooth
    @mlbtooth Год назад +5

    I love this podcast. I love hearing the stories the way they want to tell them. You're amazing ❤

  • @ashleysartattack5600
    @ashleysartattack5600 11 месяцев назад +2

    I’m also from Maryland. One of my ex’s was a heroin addict. He was from Rockville( Montgomery county). And I was such a naive young girl from Calvert county. So I gad no idea what drug addiction looked like. He would go to Baltimore all the time and visit (friends), aka. Dealers. Such crazy tumultuous things happened in the 3yrs I dated him. His brother and sister were heroin addicts too. And his sister also started meth and turned towards prostitution to support her habits. His brother was in NA, but lost all his teeth and got dentures. They were all in their early 30’s. There was so much lying, cheating, and stealing they all did for the drugs. Car crashes, hospital visits, physical fights. Loving a heroin addict was the hardest thing I’ve ever done.

  • @gone.golfing
    @gone.golfing 7 месяцев назад +3

    You can tell she misses it by the way she romanticizes her drug use stories. Hope she stays clean!

  • @annaleahabbott5771
    @annaleahabbott5771 Год назад +4

    love seeing new vids from u keep it up these are amazing.

  • @petracunningham2550
    @petracunningham2550 Год назад +10

    This really brings me back. I was one of the lucky ones or maybe even smart that said id never do heroin or meth and meant it. Once eveyrone around progressed to heroin and i almost lost everything i finally made the decision to take suboxene which saved my life.

    • @leonidtodorovski635
      @leonidtodorovski635 Год назад

      Subs are very hard to get if I made that mistake I’m clean now but it took everything i have and more to stop it try to tapper as low as you can or switch to Buprenorphine without naloxone which is addictive as well and when they say it is not oh yes it is so pay double price Buprenorphine WD and naloxone WD that’s so your self big favor taper so low like 0.25 if you can as soon as you can and when you jump go as lowest as 0.1

  • @LorenzoGonzalesBrady
    @LorenzoGonzalesBrady Год назад

    This is such a compassionate interview. My ex went through a similar process. I’m glad you’re clean and succeeding.

  • @jaanamirjam
    @jaanamirjam Год назад +33

    this podcast is sooooooo calming and interesting/informative, i’ve loved listening to every single story, it’s just so human and relatable, maybe not every part, but i find something in every story to relate to🥹
    everyone is so strong and they tell their life-stories like they are reading us a book, that they made about it +you are such a nice host👏🏻👏🏻

  • @ash-is-napping
    @ash-is-napping Год назад +2

    5 years clean. Amazing. I am 18 months sober. I agree, the best thing about being sober is the feeling. I’m no longer anxious all the time, I’m not running from something. I wish everyone on the journey peace.

  • @melodylee4405
    @melodylee4405 13 дней назад

    Great podcast, what an eloquent speaker, her recovery and self awareness, and her awareness of other people's feelings while she was in crisis speaks to what a sensitive lady she is. I pray that all people in the throes of addiction can come out of it as she has.

  • @mirandajackson3437
    @mirandajackson3437 Год назад +5

    our stories and even timeline and how it all progressed are SO SIMILAR its acually mind blowing. been clean from both things for 3 yesrs ❤ youre brave and strong! u got this

  • @jamesmckinnon5371
    @jamesmckinnon5371 3 месяца назад

    This podcast episode put the seed of wanting to seek recovery into my head a few months ago. Today I’m celebrating my first milestone of being 30 days clean. Thank you both for providing a platform and sharing your story. You’ve helped me more than you’ll ever know. Thank you.

  • @hayleyakins154
    @hayleyakins154 Год назад +22

    i did a case study on addiction recently, recovery is possible, but damn near impossible. thank you for sharing your story❤️

    • @Michaela-ub4ue
      @Michaela-ub4ue Год назад +3

      Well that's discouraging

    • @hayleyakins154
      @hayleyakins154 Год назад +4

      @@Michaela-ub4ue how’s that? i’m emphasizing how amazing it is that someone can recover. not to be discouraging. it’s just the harsh reality of it.

    • @Michaela-ub4ue
      @Michaela-ub4ue Год назад +1

      @hayleyakins154 no I agree I don't think you had any bad intentions. Just tough knowing it's near impossible

    • @aleeeeeeexoxo
      @aleeeeeeexoxo Год назад +3

      @@Michaela-ub4ue unfortunately that’s the reality :(

    • @notaperson9831
      @notaperson9831 Год назад +3

      As an addict who has been in and out of recovery for 16 years you’re absolutely right. The vast majority of us die before ever getting any long term sobriety. I’ve outlived all of my close friends. I had 6 years clean before my last relapse. Hopefully I can get back on track before I become a statistic.

  • @c333.
    @c333. Год назад +3

    I wish I could come on ur podcast - victim of childhood sexual abuse, living with toxic parents, dad was an addict & took his own life, battled addiction myself. took me awhile but now I am sober, going into nursing school, & doing well. I would love to share that.

  • @jess-sw8cr
    @jess-sw8cr Год назад +1

    i’ve been binging these videos, so excited for a new one 💓💞💗

  • @mq199
    @mq199 Год назад +2

    A truly strong and amazing individual, sending love to you and your family

  • @amberforcen1177
    @amberforcen1177 Год назад +4

    Congratulations thank you for your stories it’s very inspirational and it’s good to know that it’s possible to recover

  • @Sofialuceros
    @Sofialuceros Год назад +1

    I loved this thanks for the vulnerability and knowledge about the subject

  • @karmakritik-marywolff
    @karmakritik-marywolff 9 месяцев назад +1

    Oxford house saved my brother's life. He now works for them and met his spouse in recovery as well. I'm very glad they helped you as well & you were able to overcome it. I know it's still a battle and I don't even know you but I'm very proud & I know your Mother is also. “Our greatest glory is not in never failing, but in rising up every time we fail.”

  • @VioletFoxisms
    @VioletFoxisms 11 месяцев назад +1

    Thank you for this very relatable podcast. I’ve been sober since 2016 and there’s a whole world of of experiences that many people will never know what it’s like to have twisted thoughts.
    Fentanyl is a deadly f’d up drug. It’s taken several of my friends in recovery.

  • @videogworl
    @videogworl Год назад +2

    I've been following you for a long time (I remember when yall got your free the girls sign lol) but I just wanna say I'm so proud of the platform you've built. This is such a huge platform for people to tell their stories. This is awesome. Good job girl!

  • @lawrencemullin2643
    @lawrencemullin2643 11 месяцев назад +1

    A well done interview! A quality, very informative discussion.

  • @nina67839
    @nina67839 Год назад +10

    loved this episode, she’s such an interesting storyteller!

  • @sarahmarie4180
    @sarahmarie4180 Год назад +5

    Great video, very relatable. The more we educate, the more we can help!

  • @brookelynrobertson1909
    @brookelynrobertson1909 10 месяцев назад +1

    watching this before going to rehab for the second time.. was feeling really down but this kinda made me feel like there could be a light at the end of this tunnel for me too. ❤

  • @Mfchannel1001
    @Mfchannel1001 Год назад +4

    Thank youuu for adding timestamps