I want to support that. The interviewer has fabulous listening/interviewing skills. It's so annoying when an interviewer makes a long question just to let you know how 'informed' they are or step all over the answers. I have stopped listening to so many because it's not what we're waiting to hear. This was excellent, Thank You
Putting children in jail for not going to school is absurd. You take a child who is struggling, give them a criminal record, and treat them like they're a deviant - you're setting them up for further trouble.
charges as a child dont go on your record. and i feel like theres more to that story because typically children dont go to jail for that - the parents are the ones who get in trouble, usually
She’s not lying about the old men thing. When I was 19 and going thru a breakup I used to go hangout at this place called “the man cave” my cousin would go hang out with 4 or so guys in their 60s ( old mechanic coworkers of her dad!) my cousin would essentially play private bartender for them while they fed me meth and let me ride runt bikes. They never propositioned me but one guy would squeeze onto the bikes with me and another would always massage my legs and back while I’m crashing on the pool table. It always trips me out that my cousin would let me be in that position when she’s one of those older cousins that if she’d see me walking down the street in a skirt she would pick me up and yell at me for “walking around like that” meth really fucks with your 🪵 c tho. When Lana del Rey put out the video for “Ride” that was my life with these old men
@@austiniscoolduhmy friend got locked up two different times for not going to school her dad also got fines but they definitely do lock children up for not going to school after several attempts of fining the parents
She's probably my most favorite guest ever. Every sentence leads the story forward and she doesn't get bogged down in the details! What a great speaker
Yes Well unfortunately she was raised around non stop talkers, tweekers, so the girl knows how to Gab But yes I was thinking the same thing too. She is a great story teller. Even Devorah is encompassed in ole girls speech
I thought about that too. On one hand it sounds rehearsed like she’s told it a million times. Then I remembered that this is how we speak when in trauma. She lives this her entire life. Relives this. Every single day and night.
I started doing drugs years ago as a teenage, got addicted to meth. Meth addiction actually destroyed my life. I suffered severe depression and mental disorder. Got diagnosed with cptsd. Not until my wife recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment saved my life honestly. 6 years totally clean. Much respect to mother nature the great magic shrooms.
Thanks for sharing your story. That's rough I sympathize. Save your health save your mind. Life is better without heroin, cocaine, alcohol and cigarettes. And you have more money in your pocket. God bless everyone who has rejected the devils intentions to be addicted to alcohol and cigarettes etc which can cause so much damage to health. I will pray for you all.
Can you help me with the reliable source 🙏. I'm 56 and have suffered for years with addiction, anxiety and severe ptsd, I got my panic attacks under control myself years ago and they have come back with a vengeance, I'm constantly trying to take full breaths but can't get the full satisfying breath out, it's absolutely crippling me, i live in Germany. I don't know much about these mushrooms. Really need a reliable source!! Can't wait to get them
YES very sure of Predroavaro. I have the same experience with anxiety, depression, BPD and addiction and Mushrooms definitely made a huge huge difference to why am clean today.
Mushrooms are very medicinal. This is why anybody familiar with psilocybin and any other kind of fungi will tell you, "They are alive." They have a very ancient wisdom. To my experience, all mushrooms have always said, "Pay attention to your life. How you think, how you feel, and what will you do with the information that you always knew, but now are seeing in this point of view." This is why mushrooms are so respected in tribal cultures. This mental health treatment works for me too. Half micro doses do the trick for me. At least a few days at a time with lengthy time in between. Never addictive. Thank you for sharing this point!
Hearing her story about driving her car into the ditch just so she could feel an ounce of care or concern from her boyfriend is heartbreaking and hits so close to home. God bless this girl, and may she find the love within herself that she sought out in others. She seems like such a beautiful soul.
HORRIFOC I HATE SHIT PARENTS I HATE THEM GOSH DAMN IT I HATE THIS I HATE THIS I HATE HOW THIS IS HOW PEOPLE RAISE THEIR CHILDREN I HATE IT I FEEL THIS SO HEAVILY IT HURTS SO HORRIFICALLY I HOPE WE SHIT FOR ALL THESE SHOTTY PARENTS OUT THERE
It was definitely heartbreaking, I have also been in a position where I put myself in danger by purposefully overdosing on pills to end up at the hospital in hopes that my boyfriend would come see me. It is hard to understand that hopelessness and level of desperation, it was definitely one of the lowest points in my life. I'm so glad to see Hannah is in such a better place, and had the courage to share to her story.
Honestly, this girl is a fighter. How was she able not to do meth for all that time when everyone, EVERYONE, was doing it and especially the people she loved is a miracle. Thankfully now both her and her mom are doing fine, but damn it must have been hell for years on end
@@austiniscoolduh Austin you have to work on your literacy skills, “for all that time” meaning they’re surprised she didn’t do it until she was 18-19 even though shes been around it all her life. thats a really hard thing to do.
Did we hear the same story? Lol she didn’t protect her … at all. Kicking him out of the house isn’t enough. She needed to call the cops even if she thought they wouldn’t do anything. That’s th most ridiculous thing I’ve heard. Mom had zero reasons to not call and she could’ve kept her daughter.
@@nineteen8122 "more than likely" lets not judge out of assumptions. i know a lot of victims have situations where their parent allow the abuser back in however the mum shouldn't be judged by others actions. At the end of the day the mother attempted to protect the daughter with the limited resources and help she had as a recovering addict. I'm not saying applaud the mum cause she is still responsible for a lot of the trauma however shaming her out of assumptions of her character is just wrong
@@kimmyymmik The fact that the preacher even turn around and did the anonymous tip behind their back, someone that the mum would of trusted really instills their point of town being corrupt. If the preacher could do that, what makes you think that the police wouldn't? especially as being a firefighter the abuser probably had a better relationship with the police. In this specific situation, the issue isn't the mum, it was the police for a creating an unsafe atmosphere where the wellbeing of society isn't prioritized but instead connections which leads to corruption. The whole point of the police force is to protect society, prevent crime, and improve the quality of life however in a society with a corrupt police force there's more reason to not call the police as not only will those aims not happen, but it's very possible that the family or victim will suffer more
Was engaged the whole video, my gf suffered a child molestation and is currently in outpatient care/ ED hospital for Anorexia, pray for her plz. MUCH LUV TO WHOEVER SEES THIS GOD BLESS
"I was at home alone with mike" Me: This isn't going anywhere good "Ask me all these weird questions" Me: How did I fucking know. Also, why was I genuinely shocked when her mom kicked him out instead of ignoring it or blaming her?
It's sad but the fact of the matter is too often in hearing stories like these we hear of the mother/adult not doing what's best for the child. Her mom is amazing! Just proof that being an addict doesn't mean youre a completely awful person/parent. Her mother did exactly what a mother should!
@@Catthecatlady I agree! They should not automatically take away children because of drugs. I’ve known terribly abusive sober people and loving, protective drug addicted parents as a child victim advocate. Excuse missing punctuation…My editing is not working.
I thought the same thing. I’m so used to hearing about little girls being blamed for their abuse (even by their own moms) that it genuinely surprises me when they don’t. I’m really glad she was believed and that evil freak was removed from their home.
The fact that your mom defended you makes my heart happy. When my mom found out /saw what my step dad was doing to me she cut me out of her life and told everyone I was being inappropriate. I was 5.
How awful and traumatic when they took her away from her mom. Like I was just like her, super attached to my mom and I can’t even imagine how traumatic that must of been. Don’t the police know how traumatic it is to be separated from your parent like that? She is so so strong.
My daughter and I went through it they took her from me the day before her 13 birthday she was a cutter I didn’t get her back home til she was almost 16
Yeah but isn't that her mother's fault? I don't get blaming the police for trying to protect a child from a drug addicted parent who should be accountable themselves for their lifestyle and their child.
The way she still makes excuses for Austin when explaining the abuse… I felt that. So happy she got out of that situation and is brave enough to publicly tell her story ❤
She stated that they spoke nonstop her entire time in south Georgia for the 4years of high school. Perhaps there was a feeling she owed him for helping her excel at that healthier time in her youth. Likely also a hope that if it could be like it was long distance that was one of the few good things she had to hold onto at that point in life.
ive never been so proud of a stranger. shes been through so much shit and is so well spoken and such a great story teller. im so glad shes out of those situations
That triggered me. I was left in the middle of the night in an alley downtown by my drunken daughter’s father. Left to fend for myself 😢 I could relate to that so much..
This girl is so strong and an amazing storyteller. I hope she starts writing or maybe puts all this into a book. I’m astonished at how great she speaks
Exactly what i was gunna say.. you can tell when someone is telling a story over and over again just by the look on their face and ease of sharing harsh details@@austiniscoolduh
She’s so right about the mental abuse. You really don’t know what that attachment is like until you’ve gone through it. I’m happy for her that she got out 💖
The abandonment she became so accustomed to breaks my heart. Of course, her mother being in and out of jail is a huge example of that… but her explaining when she was left with her addicted mom and paralyzed grandfather as a teen AND the bf dumping her at a campground really got me.
Hearing these stories just breaks my heart for all those little babies who had to experience so much pain and trauma. No one deserves to go through all of that, and I'm so proud of all these people who can come out the other side and take something from all they went through.
I haven’t finished this yet but so far I am just blown away by the trauma this poor girl had to endure. I have heard soooo many horrible childhood stories but this one sticks out. What a brave fighter you are ❤ I hope you end up writing a book about your experiences, I will 100% be first in line to buy it.
Pretty hard to stick to the roof of a vehicle "...going 80 miles an hour" he hits the break and she still sticks to the vehicles roof. It's almost as if she is Spiderman. So I presume she used to be Peter Parker before he transitioned.
poor girl, she’s really been thru so much . the end had me crying 😭 , i can’t imagine going thru what she has. thank you for telling your story !! addicts do recover and i’m so proud of you and your mom. 💓💓
I remember the first time I used meth i was in a meth house and I used for three days straight. That first day I knew there was no way back from this. I felt like I was free falling into a bad drug addiction. I needed it from the first day. Few months later I lost absolutely everything. My car, all of my belongings, my phone was stolen. I owned nothing but the clothes on my back and a tooth brush. I was 90 pounds. I was extremely delusional talking to people in the attic(where there wasn't an attic). I believed people could become clones of other people. I believed this guy I loved who was in jail became a clone of another person to get out. I believed people were doing brain surgery on me during my sleep(because when you finally crash you are out for a day straight) and turning me into a boy. I started wearing boy clothes. I would hear voices and random strangers were talking shit about me. Meth is the devils drug. I still believe to this day.
This girl I went to college with did meth one night and stabbed her roommate to death. She’s in prison for 25 years. One bad night- crazy. Don’t touch drugs
I dont know whether any of you are telling the truth or playing around but I have used meth, plenty of times and what you guys are describing just does not seem believable
Did you ever look into the history of Meth? I'd recommend looking into the Opioid wars in China too. It might help you understand why these substances are circling around communities and different countries and the absolute carnage it causes.
As someone who just got out of a relationship similar to the one she describes it is extremely therapeutic to listen to her tell her story. It’s good to know that I’m not alone because I always feel like no one in the world can understand what it’s like to be in a relationship like that. Thanks for giving her a platform to speak
I’m a meth baby and I grew up almost the exact same way the similarities are crazy this makes me sad but happy to know there are people who understand and are ok! Also made a promise to never do meth.💓
I swore never to use drugs, because of my dad, but then I was abused by my husband, ended up homeless after “giving” every paycheck to him, had to have multiple surgeries to put my skull back together and got a staph infection. I suffered terrible chronic pain from it, and went through a lot of trauma on the streets. Just don’t ever get down on yourself if you ever stumble. Addiction is a disorder and it runs in the family. Shame and self-hate make it worse and none of us deserve it! I got help…and it took 5 tries to find a compassionate counselor in recovery ❤️🩹. She made me want to do what she does (and think I could) and I’m certified now! That said, I’m so glad you have made that promise to yourself! Please always know you’re worth it. I tried drugs for a man (besides the ones I was prescribed…and I wish I had questioned that). I’ve seen so many people die…you will have a long, healthy life!
Literally cried a few times threw this whole story. If anyone wants to know how meth can affect you this is a good accurate story. Very similar to mine
Gosh i agree kinda still rumbling with it but it is hella accurate i feel like I relate because that is my preferred substance, incredible how we can all relate yea? Happy new year
Psychedelics are just an exceptional mental health breakthrough. It's quite fascinating how effective they are against depression and anxiety. Saved my life.
Can you help with the reliable source I would really appreciate it. Many people talk about mushrooms and psychedelics but nobody talks about where to get them. Very hard to get a reliable source here in Australia. Really need!
Yes, dr.sporessss. I have the same experience with anxiety, depression, PTSD and addiction and Mushrooms definitely made a huge huge difference to why am clean today.
I wish they were readily available in my place. Microdosing was my next plan of care for my husband. He is 59 & has so many mental health issues plus probable CTE & a TBI that left him in a coma 8 days. It's too late now I had to get a TPO as he's 6'6 300+ pound homicidal maniac. He's constantly talking about killing someone. He's violent. Anyone reading this Familiar w/ BPD know if it is common for an obsession with violence.
this is by far my favorite episode. hannah is a truly amazing storyteller and kept me invested from start to finish. i am so proud that you and your mom are both clean and happy.
Wow the things she went through and her and her mom both being sober now and coming out that dark tunnel. They should both be so proud of themselves and I wish nothing but the very best for both. I came across this randomly on my timeline and instantly subscribed . I love the way you just let her talk and you listened. Great interview 💗
I don’t know how everyone isn’t talking about this podcast!!! Absolutely love the recovered addicts stories…. And not all about gossip or pop culture;) REAL PEOPLE AND REAL STORIES!!!! ❤️
@@freaxfilm and? If it resonates with someone and makes them not feel alone that is amazing. To have someone who they relate to that came out on the other side, its inspiring
@@lauraburke5127 hi I don’t think they meant it disrespectfully I think they were just commenting on how everybody seems to go through the same things and end up in the same scenarios ❤
@@lauraburke5127 I agree, I also think that it was just maybe to point out that this is such a tragic unfortunately common story, which is why it is so important that once someone is ready to try to share the experience so others can relate and find strength and hope.
it would be so cool to have someone with depersonalization/derealization on. i know she touched on dissociation a bit here, but it would be really awesome to see someone that’s going through the same thing as i am. keep doing what you’re doing, it’s so lovely for people to have this space to tell their stories
i've gone through derealization a few times now! twice after smoking weed, and the most recent time was brought on by stress, i'm thinking. the first time i went through derealization was in university and i had just smoked weed, cigarettes, and drank alcohol all for the first time... went a little too crazy and thought i was dying, so i was brought to the hospital and everything lol. i'm thinking my brain had just gone through too much trauma in such a short amount of time that it resulted in dissociation. any time i know i'm going to be experiencing something stressful, i worry that i'm going to dissociate again. every time i've dissociated it's been for about a week. it's honestly terrifying. i don't even know how to explain it to my friends and family... it's like nothing is real, and time is just passing me by and i'm stuck here wondering if any of it is real life. it is so weird. just know that you're not alone and there are way more people experiencing this than you think! i wish you all the best and i hope you get through it. (+1 for a guest to speak about dissociation!!)
@@jessdonnell that’s how it happened for me too! i had an edible, 100mg, and it just wrecked me. i thought i had died and gone to hell lmao. i almost made my mom take me to the hospital because my vision was blacking out and i couldn’t breathe. i’ve actually experienced DPDR for three and a half years straight, but it didn’t come on until three months after my edible experience. it goes in waves for me, but it’s always there. it is really terrifying, so i empathize with you on that. i also get really scared when i go through a lot of stress and i’m scared that i’ll be stuck in that place forever. i hope that your journey goes well, too! we’re in this together!
She is a great story teller and you’re a great host 🥹 she really overcame so much and still speaks about life so beautifully even thru all the scaries 😭
I went to her TikTok in the description, only to discover I already follow her! I found her a while ago because of her posts about edm. I didn’t even realize it was the same person, what a small world. Hannah, you carry yourself with such positivity and Ik you don’t know me but I’m so proud of where you’ve come 🥹
I absolutely admire the love you’ve held for your mother and the bond that you two have seemed to keep through it all. Thank you for sharing your story with such clarity- it is what it is- and compassion for yourself and your momma. I’m so glad you both came out of it all on better paths in life and I wish you both so much love and happiness. 💜
Devorah you seem like such a good person for putting your platform towards such stories it’ll help so many ppl and all of your guests should feel so proud of themselves ❤️
I had a boyfriend who used meth. He also had a 70 year old friend who did meth with him. And for a long time I couldn’t figure out what they have in common that he liked this old man so much. It’s a form of grooming I think. Grooming into drugs. When all the friends of these old men get their lives together and move on…they need new friends. But my boyfriend went from a person full of life to a complete and total zombie. Skin and bones. Not sleeping. Becoming erratic. It was horrible.
I started watching this not thinking I'd stay tuned for the whole 90 minutes (ADHD) but wow what a wonderful story teller this young lady is. Thank you for your powerful story. This is my new favourite channel and straight away subscribed 😊
She really is a great story teller. I could imagine everything she said, and she spoke so long without needing the conversation to be shifted or be asked questions.
just found this channel. i LOVE these stories. you never know what people deal, or have dealt, with behind closed doors. it's critical to give these stories a platform, for a lot of reasons - the biggest being removing the SHAME associated with the human existence so people feel comfortable seeking out resources to help themselves. normalizing the sharing of "unsavory" (but insanely common) experiences develops a culture of empathy. i love love love this.
I was totally not expecting to watch someone’s story so close to home. I’m 15 minutes from Perry, GA. I haven’t finished watching yet, but I’m so proud of her ❤️
If there’s any young girls watching, this is not love, love does not look or feel like this. It’s hard to break toxic relationships when you don’t know any difference. Self love is so important, set the standard and take nothing less💗💗
Being from the same area, I’m so PROUD of you! Thank you for sharing your story, I know many people struggling that could definitely benefit from hearing you talk.
What an incredible person Hannah is. I’ve been really enjoying these video’s lately. Hearing them share their story with addiction and coming back strong is amazing. Thank you Hannah and thank you Devorah for simply being you. Love your podcast ❤
It's absolutely disgusting that we send kids to jail for not going to school. I can understand having some consequences or even just an investigation, but jail? For kids??? Ridiculous.
I would love to point out how much of an amazing podcast host you are for not interrupting the speaker so that she was able to explain her story with all the details. Amazing . love it
I really appreciate how you allow your guests to speak and tell their story! This isn’t like many other RUclips “interviews” where there’s constant interruptions. Thank you!
This is why I don’t trust these “protection” programs: they leave kids with people who abuse them every day and then take them from families who are trying their hardest. You know how many moms would have not believed their daughter, staying with the man and even becoming resentful of them? This mom did exactly the right thing but because she had substance use disorders, she gets her kid taken. This is also why people should be more mindful of the adoption process. THIS is what the “system” looks like.
Her mom was the one who brought the predator around her in the first place and then she didn't report it. It took an anonymous person turning her in for something to be done so her mom didn't do exactly the right thing imo. And drug addicted or not, they would have removed any child who had been SA and the parent didn't report it.
Wow I’m not a fan of just listening to podcasts for this long.. I tend to get distracted. But this was so good. The way she explained everything, it felt like I was there. Thank you for this!
I could listen to her all day .. what a great story teller .. She did an amazing job . Im so glad she's clean and her mom is also. Good luck in your future endeavors and Blessings 💛
She really is a gifted speaker, she would excel telling her stories to people, just as she is here. I was entirely entranced in her life stories the entire time, she is one of the strongest people I have heard before, right after another she had another major traumatic events knock her left and right. "The best people have character," and I agree. Overall I really loved her perspectives and personality.
Dude honestly touched my heart. Never have I seen a video like this and I decided to listen to it while driving & I have so much simpathy and respect for her and for sharing her story. I’ve been through some similar stuff and it’s nice that you guys talk about it openly on the internet. Felt like when your up late at night with a best friend telling them everything about you. I miss that. Thank you for sharing ❤
her story of fomo is super familiar to me. I got brought to a party group where they drank and smoked a loooot. I felt a lot of fomo when seeing how often and much they smoked/drank. I had tried drinking a lot of alcohol, and it got rid of my anxiety. When I realized that I kinda WANTED to drink for the first time in my life. It terrified me when I realized that. Now look, weed or alcohol isnt the worst, but substances can have a lot of unintended impacts and before i tried it, were things I intended to only ever do not at all or minimally to match the social. Talking with my brother reminded me that having 7 shots in one night ISNT normal, and not something i should be doing to feel like I fit in. I tried going a couple times near sober/ completely sober, and it spiked my anxiety SO BADLY, so I left. I concluded that coming here wont have any outcomes that I would like. I think alcohol and weed arent horrible, but theyre still quick fixes and i was terrified that once i started relying on them to escape anxiety + depression, I would lose track of my plan/life, and it was in hindsight heightening the number of panic attacks I was having on a normal day. Or not making the changes because I could escape it all friday. I finally entered therapy and Im glad with how things are heading rn.
She is such a great speaker. Wow. Her story was sadly captivating. My heart breaks for her and her mom so much. It was so surprising to hear how great her mom was, how much she loved her child despite being an addict. I’m thankful that she believed you about being abused and took your side. That rarely happens.
the way she said she felt at 1:06:00 is the worst feeling ever. being in a relationship with a narcissist and having mental health issues of ur own is one of the most mentally draining and traumatizing thing u can put urself through :/ this all really spoke to me because i’ve been thru sum shit myself. i hope everybody here is able to heal and keep their heads up through whatever ure going through!! ♥️♥️
Who is this girl? What she is saying is unreal.. I was raised about 45 mins from Young Harris.. the entire area is filled with this type of lifestyle. Loved this episode!!
Hannah! Your so adorable!!! Aghhhh! I love the way you describe and tell the story of relationships and addiction. I really enjoyed hearing your points of view because I feel my ex girlfriend at the time of my abuse probably felt the same way you have in the past. Dealing with addicts and being In love is such a toxic spiderweb of abandonment insecurity’s miscommunication violence and depression, but also good times you can’t repeat in life with anyone else. You get lost in your drug relationship of false feelings from all the dopamine connected with being together and being high. I’m glad you got sober. Even 6months with a background like yours can go dark fast so much respect for knowing your worth and getting sober!!!!
She’s such an amazing story teller and such a fighter. I’m from north GA & stay very close to the areas you mentioned!! ❤small world. I relate to her more than I can explain. The toxic boyfriend issues, family issues, addiction surrounding me until it got ahold of me, too. I’m going on 4 years sober from meth, crack cocaine, opiates, herion & Xanax. Thank god we make it out sister! And thankful your mom got sober too. Sending hugs and love! We DO recover ❤
Meth is the devil in disguise. That first line I put up my nose led to 3 long term addictions in my 30's. Rehabbed myself, dealt with a black pit of depression but I came out on the other side after several years of restructuring my life and doing the work on myself. 22 yrs clean and I don't recognize that person I was anymore. Stay clean, live clean and life is good!
This episode and the addicted to herion has been a huge wake up call but especially this episode in particular because i am still somewhat dealing with my meth addiction and i this was a reminder that i need to set myself straight this episode spoke to me more than the therapy sessions i had even more than the support system i have and had to hear it from another person who similarly went through what i went through it just really opened my eyes thank you devorah so much for this it means a lot ❤
I went through some similar incidents as a child and I went to truancy court and jail as well. It’s heartbreaking how they’d rather penalize children then help them, when they quite literally have NO OTHER KNOWLEDGE!
it's just very telling that you trusted your mom to tell her about the abuse and she immediately did something about it it just shows that trust between the two of you and I'm happy for that
I turn on podcasts to help me sleep. This one kept me up to 2:24 am. I feel so lucky that I was born to very good parents who never let me have a sniff of any of that life. Congrats to you Hannah for making it out of that misery.
thank you for sharing your story, seriously. i’ve had a couple family members who’ve been through this and it makes me understand their story more. im glad your clean
Viewer from the UK, London here 🙋🏽♀️ You’ve lived so many life times Hannah in such a short space of time. Thank you for sharing, you are so much stronger & wiser for it. Wishing you and your family all the best in your future ❤
This is crazy how much I relate to this!! I was in a “relationship” with my meth dealer- and the craziness of that type of a relationship is actually insane. I had to laugh at a few parts because it was so relatable😅
I agree!! Its insane how much my story relates to Hannahs!! I also was in a relationship wit my dealer....and that was the darkest most stressful relationship of my life and almost 10 years later it still affects me to this day!!
Wow I am so grateful I found your channel. I literally clean and moved my whole room around listening to this story. Everyone has a story and I sure have mine. I was an addict, homeless, got pregnant at the age of 13. I had my baby boy at the age 14. I was a freshman in high school star basketball player. While I was pregnant I still played basketball at 6 months cause I was the lead player and I didn’t want my couches to know about it. While playing sports taking care of a newborn I was also dealing with my mother that was a bad alcoholic. Along the way I ended up in prison married to the love of my life and I had already had 3 kids. My beautiful husband waited for me and kept the family together. After 2 yrs I made Parol and we were all so happy. Well 2 hrs before I was released.. my husband passed of an heart attack. There is so much more to my story and I would be honored to tell it. I need to get this hurt out of my system. I pray for everyone that has been on your broadcast.. until then my story continues and there is so much more!❤❤❤❤
The DV part made me cry a little it reminded me so much of when i was in that situation. That's crazy that she mentioned Chattanooga that's where I'm from. Happy to see that she's now sober.
OK, this girl can tell a story. Find a writing partner and write your life story; would be a great movie. Good Luck to you. Congrats on surviving and thriving thru such chaos. Another path: motivational speaker. You have a great speaking/storytelling skills. You need to find a way to apply and capitalize on them.
I’ve watched a lot of your videos and this is my favorite one. Hands down. This is so incredibly important, mainly for the people who can’t imagine what drug addicts or the loved ones of addicts experience. Also helps this recovering addict feel less alone so thank you❤
I’ve cried a few times throughout this because our stories have a lot of similarities. I’m actually 25 as well and I’m just getting out of an abusive 7 year relationship that had alot of the same situations. It’s like she said you won’t understand the whys, unless you’ve been through it. So happy for her and the way she is taking ahold of her life now ❤ thank you for telling your story
As someone who was addicted to meth from 12-16 heading someone else’s story is like watching my life in a crystal ball and I’m screaming at myself no. God how I prayed for someone to be there for me but honestly it is how everyone says. You gotta be there for yourself and go through it
This caught my full attention. I can relate so much with this girl. I've been sober from meth for over 12yrs. Bad abusive drug addict boyfriend to bad relationships. But i found the light and got out of that life. Best wishes to her living her best life and her sobriety ❤❤❤❤❤❤
Ok let's just applaud the fact that her mother believed her and had that pedo removed.
A lot of mothers blame the child victims wildly enough
the bare minimum 😭
this is literally a MINIMUM, nothing to applaud ...
@@skaio.5279 we should absolutely applaud any and all good doings. When we don’t. They no longer become the societal standard.
@@xxxxxxxxx1652 the bare minimum is also graduating. Did you get applauded ?
This !!!
I was born from a addicted mother, i spent 18 years in opiate and meth addiction. This month i celebrate 7 years clean.
7 years! That is INCREDIBLE.
Good job 💪🤗
❤ love a happy ending
Great job! Keep it going!
Hell yeah!! Im hoping now you've done celebrated 8 years! I'm going on 7 now.
I really like how you let your guest talk and only say enough to steer the conversation in the right direction.
couldn’t have said it better myself. she’s such an amazing listener.
I want to support that. The interviewer has fabulous listening/interviewing skills. It's so annoying when an interviewer makes a long question just to let you know how 'informed' they are or step all over the answers. I have stopped listening to so many because it's not what we're waiting to hear. This was excellent, Thank You
Agreed❤️❤️
She just sucks at narrating the conversation that she just sits there in such a offensive leg crossing way. Who sits like that professionally?
That’s what I love the most about this channel
Putting children in jail for not going to school is absurd. You take a child who is struggling, give them a criminal record, and treat them like they're a deviant - you're setting them up for further trouble.
charges as a child dont go on your record. and i feel like theres more to that story because typically children dont go to jail for that - the parents are the ones who get in trouble, usually
@@austiniscoolduhdepending on the age of the age, yes they can be sent to juvenile for missing school. It happens where I live.
She’s not lying about the old men thing. When I was 19 and going thru a breakup I used to go hangout at this place called “the man cave” my cousin would go hang out with 4 or so guys in their 60s ( old mechanic coworkers of her dad!) my cousin would essentially play private bartender for them while they fed me meth and let me ride runt bikes. They never propositioned me but one guy would squeeze onto the bikes with me and another would always massage my legs and back while I’m crashing on the pool table.
It always trips me out that my cousin would let me be in that position when she’s one of those older cousins that if she’d see me walking down the street in a skirt she would pick me up and yell at me for “walking around like that” meth really fucks with your 🪵 c tho.
When Lana del Rey put out the video for “Ride” that was my life with these old men
Not absurd, infact that straightened her out. I bet she would say she was glad it happened
@@austiniscoolduhmy friend got locked up two different times for not going to school her dad also got fines but they definitely do lock children up for not going to school after several attempts of fining the parents
She's probably my most favorite guest ever. Every sentence leads the story forward and she doesn't get bogged down in the details! What a great speaker
Yes
Well unfortunately she was raised around non stop talkers, tweekers, so the girl knows how to Gab
But yes I was thinking the same thing too. She is a great story teller. Even Devorah is encompassed in ole girls speech
I thought about that too. On one hand it sounds rehearsed like she’s told it a million times.
Then I remembered that this is how we speak when in trauma. She lives this her entire life. Relives this. Every single day and night.
I feel like all the guests on this podcast are great speakers. I don't know how they do it
Great description, talented speaker for sure
@@johnaldabbagh6870 I'm iikmmii
I started doing drugs years ago as a teenage, got addicted to meth. Meth addiction actually destroyed my life. I suffered severe depression and mental disorder. Got diagnosed with cptsd. Not until my wife recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment saved my life honestly. 6 years totally clean. Much respect to mother nature the great magic shrooms.
Thanks for sharing your story. That's rough I sympathize. Save your health save your mind. Life is better without heroin, cocaine, alcohol and cigarettes. And you have more money in your pocket. God bless everyone who has rejected the devils intentions to be addicted to alcohol and cigarettes etc which can cause so much damage to health. I will pray for you all.
Can you help me with the reliable source 🙏. I'm 56 and have suffered for years with addiction, anxiety and severe ptsd, I got my panic attacks under control myself years ago and they have come back with a vengeance, I'm constantly trying to take full breaths but can't get the full satisfying breath out, it's absolutely crippling me, i live in Germany. I don't know much about these mushrooms. Really need a reliable source!! Can't wait to get them
YES very sure of Predroavaro. I have the same experience with anxiety, depression, BPD and addiction and Mushrooms definitely made a huge huge difference to why am clean today.
Mushrooms are very medicinal. This is why anybody familiar with psilocybin and any other kind of fungi will tell you, "They are alive." They have a very ancient wisdom. To my experience, all mushrooms have always said, "Pay attention to your life. How you think, how you feel, and what will you do with the information that you always knew, but now are seeing in this point of view." This is why mushrooms are so respected in tribal cultures. This mental health treatment works for me too. Half micro doses do the trick for me. At least a few days at a time with lengthy time in between. Never addictive. Thank you for sharing this point!
How do I reach out to him? Is he on insta
This podcast is so underrated I actually sit through the whole thing and enjoy every min
I just found it today and I’ve been binging it
@@woadxqueen666 same i’m obsessed
You know her chair smells like feet
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The host is hot and doesn't interfere
Hearing her story about driving her car into the ditch just so she could feel an ounce of care or concern from her boyfriend is heartbreaking and hits so close to home. God bless this girl, and may she find the love within herself that she sought out in others. She seems like such a beautiful soul.
At least she didn't stage a kidnapping😏
HORRIFOC I HATE SHIT PARENTS I HATE THEM GOSH DAMN IT I HATE THIS I HATE THIS I HATE HOW THIS IS HOW PEOPLE RAISE THEIR CHILDREN I HATE IT I FEEL THIS SO HEAVILY IT HURTS SO HORRIFICALLY I HOPE WE SHIT FOR ALL THESE SHOTTY PARENTS OUT THERE
as someone with bpd i understood her so much
She said she was too tired of goody goody types
It was definitely heartbreaking, I have also been in a position where I put myself in danger by purposefully overdosing on pills to end up at the hospital in hopes that my boyfriend would come see me. It is hard to understand that hopelessness and level of desperation, it was definitely one of the lowest points in my life. I'm so glad to see Hannah is in such a better place, and had the courage to share to her story.
Honestly, this girl is a fighter. How was she able not to do meth for all that time when everyone, EVERYONE, was doing it and especially the people she loved is a miracle. Thankfully now both her and her mom are doing fine, but damn it must have been hell for years on end
I was thinking the same thing. That's a lot of bad luck to happen to 1 person. Austin sounds like a total tool.
wait what. she did do meth...
@@austiniscoolduh Austin you have to work on your literacy skills, “for all that time” meaning they’re surprised she didn’t do it until she was 18-19 even though shes been around it all her life. thats a really hard thing to do.
@@s4dbunny497 damn, you don’t gotta roast me like that.
@@austiniscoolduhSome people are born dicks
So proud of her mom for removing him from her home in order to protect her daughter. She chose her daughter
Did we hear the same story? Lol she didn’t protect her … at all. Kicking him out of the house isn’t enough. She needed to call the cops even if she thought they wouldn’t do anything. That’s th most ridiculous thing I’ve heard. Mom had zero reasons to not call and she could’ve kept her daughter.
Plus, it was literally only weeks until they came and took her out. More than likely, she would have let him right back into her home soon after.
@@nineteen8122 "more than likely" lets not judge out of assumptions. i know a lot of victims have situations where their parent allow the abuser back in however the mum shouldn't be judged by others actions. At the end of the day the mother attempted to protect the daughter with the limited resources and help she had as a recovering addict. I'm not saying applaud the mum cause she is still responsible for a lot of the trauma however shaming her out of assumptions of her character is just wrong
@@kimmyymmik The fact that the preacher even turn around and did the anonymous tip behind their back, someone that the mum would of trusted really instills their point of town being corrupt. If the preacher could do that, what makes you think that the police wouldn't? especially as being a firefighter the abuser probably had a better relationship with the police.
In this specific situation, the issue isn't the mum, it was the police for a creating an unsafe atmosphere where the wellbeing of society isn't prioritized but instead connections which leads to corruption. The whole point of the police force is to protect society, prevent crime, and improve the quality of life however in a society with a corrupt police force there's more reason to not call the police as not only will those aims not happen, but it's very possible that the family or victim will suffer more
@@pharrell4448 the mom didn’t protect her period. She could’ve gone to another town and reported it.
Was engaged the whole video, my gf suffered a child molestation and is currently in outpatient care/ ED hospital for Anorexia, pray for her plz. MUCH LUV TO WHOEVER SEES THIS GOD BLESS
wishing your girlfriend the best!!
Godbless her hope she's recovering!
hope she’s doing ok!
Mushies trips have been some of the greatest experiences of my entire life
The insights I've gained from magic mushrooms have been invaluable. They've helped me understand myself and the world in a new way.
Supporting addiction treatment Some research suggests that psilocybin can be helpful in treating addiction
After my trip yesterday, I did understand why mushrooms are praised... you can have some beautiful experiences on them..
y'all talk about the benefits of mushrooms, but no one talks about where to fetch from.
Doctor.hayles
"I was at home alone with mike"
Me: This isn't going anywhere good
"Ask me all these weird questions"
Me: How did I fucking know.
Also, why was I genuinely shocked when her mom kicked him out instead of ignoring it or blaming her?
Same! I was so happy her mom listened!!!!
It's sad but the fact of the matter is too often in hearing stories like these we hear of the mother/adult not doing what's best for the child. Her mom is amazing! Just proof that being an addict doesn't mean youre a completely awful person/parent. Her mother did exactly what a mother should!
Same. I was like "nah Mike sounds like a good guy, there's no way-"
@@Catthecatlady I agree! They should not automatically take away children because of drugs. I’ve known terribly abusive sober people and loving, protective drug addicted parents as a child victim advocate. Excuse missing punctuation…My editing is not working.
I thought the same thing. I’m so used to hearing about little girls being blamed for their abuse (even by their own moms) that it genuinely surprises me when they don’t. I’m really glad she was believed and that evil freak was removed from their home.
Choosing your daughter over a man is always the right choice….CHOOSING YOUR DAUGHTER OVER A MAN IS ALWAYSSSSS THE RIGHT CHOICE.
Which is why men refused to date single moms 😂
@@jimbojones9118 what men babes? Sounds like just you? You’d prefer we choose a dusty over our kids? Pls
@@jimbojones9118 real men wouldn't make someone choose between them and their child.
@@RealElongatedMuskrat hahaha simp! 😆
@@jimbojones9118 I'm a 21 Yr old girl but sure bud
She’s such a good storyteller.
Yes 🙌🏼 probably the BEST one.
She’s verbose. 😅
We need to start a go fund me for Hannah so she go back to college! She is such a strong and inspirational person! Thank you both!
agreed
Absolutely! I agree.
It's not hard to get aid for school...
@@BLVCKSEA can you help her then?
College is over rated and another form of indoctrination.
We actually need more people in the trade businesses these days.
She is such a great speaker & storyteller! Glad to hear she’s doing better now ❤
Meth users usually aren't short for words lol
@@freaxfilmshe’s not a meth user she’s a recovered user
@Sky Spriggs
What's the difference?
@@daixer3156 the meth
@@freaxfilm The fact that you want to use her experience to take away from her qualities as a person is beyond my understanding.
The fact that your mom defended you makes my heart happy. When my mom found out /saw what my step dad was doing to me she cut me out of her life and told everyone I was being inappropriate. I was 5.
❤
You did not deserve that.
I know the feeling.. how could we, as children make any sort of inappropriate anything??!!! This hit so close to home 😢
I can relate. Your never alone mamas ❤
How awful and traumatic when they took her away from her mom. Like I was just like her, super attached to my mom and I can’t even imagine how traumatic that must of been. Don’t the police know how traumatic it is to be separated from your parent like that? She is so so strong.
Especially after going through such a traumatic event as sexual assault
Yes, they for sure know. They experience it first hand over and over.
My daughter and I went through it they took her from me the day before her 13 birthday she was a cutter I didn’t get her back home til she was almost 16
Yeah but isn't that her mother's fault? I don't get blaming the police for trying to protect a child from a drug addicted parent who should be accountable themselves for their lifestyle and their child.
@@Naturefan354she was sober.
The way she still makes excuses for Austin when explaining the abuse… I felt that. So happy she got out of that situation and is brave enough to publicly tell her story ❤
She stated that they spoke nonstop her entire time in south Georgia for the 4years of high school. Perhaps there was a feeling she owed him for helping her excel at that healthier time in her youth. Likely also a hope that if it could be like it was long distance that was one of the few good things she had to hold onto at that point in life.
I'd love to see one about someone who lives with borderline personality disorder. I hate feeling like I'm crazy and alone.
Agreed
It's hell
From one person who suffers to another, I swear by DBT ❤
I agree!! I have been through so much shit with BPD.
If you ever do this pick me! I can tell you all about it
ive never been so proud of a stranger. shes been through so much shit and is so well spoken and such a great story teller. im so glad shes out of those situations
My mouth dropped when he left her in that camp ground in the middle of the night
That triggered me. I was left in the middle of the night in an alley downtown by my drunken daughter’s father. Left to fend for myself 😢 I could relate to that so much..
SHE NEEDS A PODCAST. she’s an amazing story teller. I’m so proud of her. She’s done amazing.
She should be so proud of herself. To come from that kind of abuse to now holding a steady job and staying clean is an incredible accomplishment.
the moment that she said “he put meth in it but i didn’t say anything because i’m like… chill” was crazy but also so relatable
This girl is so strong and an amazing storyteller. I hope she starts writing or maybe puts all this into a book. I’m astonished at how great she speaks
Books a good place for stories 🙄
@@Lunatic198??
You can really tell this seems like her first opportunity to really tell her story. Such a strong person to go through this
nah i guarantee she has told this story 1000s of times at NA or AA meetings
Exactly what i was gunna say.. you can tell when someone is telling a story over and over again just by the look on their face and ease of sharing harsh details@@austiniscoolduh
She’s so right about the mental abuse. You really don’t know what that attachment is like until you’ve gone through it. I’m happy for her that she got out 💖
The abandonment she became so accustomed to breaks my heart.
Of course, her mother being in and out of jail is a huge example of that…
but her explaining when she was left with her addicted mom and paralyzed grandfather as a teen AND the bf dumping her at a campground really got me.
Hearing these stories just breaks my heart for all those little babies who had to experience so much pain and trauma. No one deserves to go through all of that, and I'm so proud of all these people who can come out the other side and take something from all they went through.
I haven’t finished this yet but so far I am just blown away by the trauma this poor girl had to endure. I have heard soooo many horrible childhood stories but this one sticks out. What a brave fighter you are ❤
I hope you end up writing a book about your experiences, I will 100% be first in line to buy it.
Lol what u think about the ending I think she was over doing it and must been high no k-9 is going to walk past drugs
Pretty hard to stick to the roof of a vehicle "...going 80 miles an hour" he hits the break and she still sticks to the vehicles roof. It's almost as if she is Spiderman. So I presume she used to be Peter Parker before he transitioned.
poor girl, she’s really been thru so much . the end had me crying 😭 , i can’t imagine going thru what she has. thank you for telling your story !! addicts do recover and i’m so proud of you and your mom. 💓💓
I remember the first time I used meth i was in a meth house and I used for three days straight. That first day I knew there was no way back from this. I felt like I was free falling into a bad drug addiction. I needed it from the first day. Few months later I lost absolutely everything. My car, all of my belongings, my phone was stolen. I owned nothing but the clothes on my back and a tooth brush. I was 90 pounds. I was extremely delusional talking to people in the attic(where there wasn't an attic). I believed people could become clones of other people. I believed this guy I loved who was in jail became a clone of another person to get out. I believed people were doing brain surgery on me during my sleep(because when you finally crash you are out for a day straight) and turning me into a boy. I started wearing boy clothes. I would hear voices and random strangers were talking shit about me.
Meth is the devils drug. I still believe to this day.
This girl I went to college with did meth one night and stabbed her roommate to death. She’s in prison for 25 years. One bad night- crazy. Don’t touch drugs
You never want to use meth past that first day, day two and three on is where shit gets very weird.
Wow, crazy shit. I’ve used meth as well and NEVER EVER HAD CRAZY THOUGHTS LIKE YOU HAVE.
I dont know whether any of you are telling the truth or playing around but I have used meth, plenty of times and what you guys are describing just does not seem believable
Did you ever look into the history of Meth? I'd recommend looking into the Opioid wars in China too. It might help you understand why these substances are circling around communities and different countries and the absolute carnage it causes.
As someone who just got out of a relationship similar to the one she describes it is extremely therapeutic to listen to her tell her story. It’s good to know that I’m not alone because I always feel like no one in the world can understand what it’s like to be in a relationship like that. Thanks for giving her a platform to speak
I’m a meth baby and I grew up almost the exact same way the similarities are crazy this makes me sad but happy to know there are people who understand and are ok! Also made a promise to never do meth.💓
I swore never to use drugs, because of my dad, but then I was abused by my husband, ended up homeless after “giving” every paycheck to him, had to have multiple surgeries to put my skull back together and got a staph infection. I suffered terrible chronic pain from it, and went through a lot of trauma on the streets. Just don’t ever get down on yourself if you ever stumble. Addiction is a disorder and it runs in the family. Shame and self-hate make it worse and none of us deserve it! I got help…and it took 5 tries to find a compassionate counselor in recovery ❤️🩹. She made me want to do what she does (and think I could) and I’m certified now! That said, I’m so glad you have made that promise to yourself! Please always know you’re worth it. I tried drugs for a man (besides the ones I was prescribed…and I wish I had questioned that). I’ve seen so many people die…you will have a long, healthy life!
Have you done meth because if you have your life is finished
@@sciencenotstigma9534I am so beyond proud of you !!
I'm glad you're doing OK. ❤ God bless.
I love you.
definitely one of the best episodes she was SO SO SO well spoken and great at story telling
The way she felt comfortable with you. This didn't feel like like a podcast, but more of someone who is willing to share her story with a friend.
Literally cried a few times threw this whole story. If anyone wants to know how meth can affect you this is a good accurate story. Very similar to mine
Mine too. I related to this a lot.
Gosh i agree kinda still rumbling with it but it is hella accurate i feel like I relate because that is my preferred substance, incredible how we can all relate yea? Happy new year
Psychedelics are just an exceptional mental health breakthrough. It's quite fascinating how effective they are against depression and anxiety. Saved my life.
Can you help with the reliable source I would really appreciate it. Many people talk about mushrooms and psychedelics but nobody talks about where to get them. Very hard to get a reliable source here in Australia. Really need!
Yes, dr.sporessss. I have the same experience with anxiety, depression, PTSD and addiction and Mushrooms definitely made a huge huge difference to why am clean today.
I wish they were readily available in my place.
Microdosing was my next plan of care for my husband. He is 59 & has so many mental health issues plus probable CTE & a TBI that left him in a coma 8 days. It's too late now I had to get a TPO as he's 6'6 300+ pound homicidal maniac.
He's constantly talking about killing someone.
He's violent. Anyone reading this Familiar w/ BPD know if it is common for an obsession with violence.
Is he on instagram?
Yes he is. dr.sporessss
this is by far my favorite episode. hannah is a truly amazing storyteller and kept me invested from start to finish. i am so proud that you and your mom are both clean and happy.
Quite a wild life she had, but glad she found the light and is on the right path now.
Deborah is such an active listener. I love how you and tell she’s being attentive throughout.
Wow the things she went through and her and her mom both being sober now and coming out that dark tunnel. They should both be so proud of themselves and I wish nothing but the very best for both.
I came across this randomly on my timeline and instantly subscribed . I love the way you just let her talk and you listened. Great interview 💗
I don’t know how everyone isn’t talking about this podcast!!! Absolutely love the recovered addicts stories…. And not all about gossip or pop culture;) REAL PEOPLE AND REAL STORIES!!!! ❤️
It’s actually insane how similar your story is compared to mine. I’m actually mind blown at how much I relate to this
I am happy you are still here 🩵
Every user has so similar story. I know like 600 people with similar stories
@@freaxfilm and? If it resonates with someone and makes them not feel alone that is amazing. To have someone who they relate to that came out on the other side, its inspiring
@@lauraburke5127 hi I don’t think they meant it disrespectfully I think they were just commenting on how everybody seems to go through the same things and end up in the same scenarios ❤
@@lauraburke5127 I agree, I also think that it was just maybe to point out that this is such a tragic unfortunately common story, which is why it is so important that once someone is ready to try to share the experience so others can relate and find strength and hope.
it would be so cool to have someone with depersonalization/derealization on. i know she touched on dissociation a bit here, but it would be really awesome to see someone that’s going through the same thing as i am. keep doing what you’re doing, it’s so lovely for people to have this space to tell their stories
i've gone through derealization a few times now! twice after smoking weed, and the most recent time was brought on by stress, i'm thinking.
the first time i went through derealization was in university and i had just smoked weed, cigarettes, and drank alcohol all for the first time... went a little too crazy and thought i was dying, so i was brought to the hospital and everything lol. i'm thinking my brain had just gone through too much trauma in such a short amount of time that it resulted in dissociation.
any time i know i'm going to be experiencing something stressful, i worry that i'm going to dissociate again. every time i've dissociated it's been for about a week. it's honestly terrifying. i don't even know how to explain it to my friends and family... it's like nothing is real, and time is just passing me by and i'm stuck here wondering if any of it is real life. it is so weird.
just know that you're not alone and there are way more people experiencing this than you think! i wish you all the best and i hope you get through it.
(+1 for a guest to speak about dissociation!!)
@@jessdonnell that’s how it happened for me too! i had an edible, 100mg, and it just wrecked me. i thought i had died and gone to hell lmao. i almost made my mom take me to the hospital because my vision was blacking out and i couldn’t breathe. i’ve actually experienced DPDR for three and a half years straight, but it didn’t come on until three months after my edible experience.
it goes in waves for me, but it’s always there. it is really terrifying, so i empathize with you on that. i also get really scared when i go through a lot of stress and i’m scared that i’ll be stuck in that place forever.
i hope that your journey goes well, too! we’re in this together!
She is a great story teller and you’re a great host 🥹 she really overcame so much and still speaks about life so beautifully even thru all the scaries 😭
I went to her TikTok in the description, only to discover I already follow her! I found her a while ago because of her posts about edm. I didn’t even realize it was the same person, what a small world. Hannah, you carry yourself with such positivity and Ik you don’t know me but I’m so proud of where you’ve come 🥹
This made me so happy, thank you so much for your kind words ❤
love this pod. you’re a great listener and you’re doing great work :)
I absolutely admire the love you’ve held for your mother and the bond that you two have seemed to keep through it all. Thank you for sharing your story with such clarity- it is what it is- and compassion for yourself and your momma. I’m so glad you both came out of it all on better paths in life and I wish you both so much love and happiness. 💜
Devorah you seem like such a good person for putting your platform towards such stories it’ll help so many ppl and all of your guests should feel so proud of themselves ❤️
I had a boyfriend who used meth. He also had a 70 year old friend who did meth with him. And for a long time I couldn’t figure out what they have in common that he liked this old man so much. It’s a form of grooming I think. Grooming into drugs. When all the friends of these old men get their lives together and move on…they need new friends. But my boyfriend went from a person full of life to a complete and total zombie. Skin and bones. Not sleeping. Becoming erratic. It was horrible.
Same! I broke up with him. Took me a bit to do it
So glad her n her mom are sober 💞 good job both of you
I started watching this not thinking I'd stay tuned for the whole 90 minutes (ADHD) but wow what a wonderful story teller this young lady is. Thank you for your powerful story. This is my new favourite channel and straight away subscribed 😊
She really is a great story teller. I could imagine everything she said, and she spoke so long without needing the conversation to be shifted or be asked questions.
just found this channel. i LOVE these stories. you never know what people deal, or have dealt, with behind closed doors. it's critical to give these stories a platform, for a lot of reasons - the biggest being removing the SHAME associated with the human existence so people feel comfortable seeking out resources to help themselves. normalizing the sharing of "unsavory" (but insanely common) experiences develops a culture of empathy. i love love love this.
I was totally not expecting to watch someone’s story so close to home. I’m 15 minutes from Perry, GA. I haven’t finished watching yet, but I’m so proud of her ❤️
I was also raised by my grandmother and watched her succumb to early onset dementia. It’s incredibly traumatic, I feel for her.
If there’s any young girls watching, this is not love, love does not look or feel like this. It’s hard to break toxic relationships when you don’t know any difference. Self love is so important, set the standard and take nothing less💗💗
This girl should make her own podcast, she’s an AMAZING story teller, this is one of my favorite episodes so far! I’m glad she’s going good ❤❤
Being from the same area, I’m so PROUD of you! Thank you for sharing your story, I know many people struggling that could definitely benefit from hearing you talk.
Hey bud. Hru? Missed you guys at dance last weekend
What an incredible person Hannah is. I’ve been really enjoying these video’s lately. Hearing them share their story with addiction and coming back strong is amazing. Thank you Hannah and thank you Devorah for simply being you. Love your podcast ❤
It's absolutely disgusting that we send kids to jail for not going to school. I can understand having some consequences or even just an investigation, but jail? For kids??? Ridiculous.
I would love to point out how much of an amazing podcast host you are for not interrupting the speaker so that she was able to explain her story with all the details. Amazing . love it
I really appreciate how you allow your guests to speak and tell their story! This isn’t like many other RUclips “interviews” where there’s constant interruptions. Thank you!
This is why I don’t trust these “protection” programs: they leave kids with people who abuse them every day and then take them from families who are trying their hardest. You know how many moms would have not believed their daughter, staying with the man and even becoming resentful of them? This mom did exactly the right thing but because she had substance use disorders, she gets her kid taken. This is also why people should be more mindful of the adoption process. THIS is what the “system” looks like.
Her mom was the one who brought the predator around her in the first place and then she didn't report it. It took an anonymous person turning her in for something to be done so her mom didn't do exactly the right thing imo. And drug addicted or not, they would have removed any child who had been SA and the parent didn't report it.
Wow I’m not a fan of just listening to podcasts for this long.. I tend to get distracted. But this was so good. The way she explained everything, it felt like I was there. Thank you for this!
I could listen to her all day .. what a great story teller .. She did an amazing job . Im so glad she's clean and her mom is also. Good luck in your future endeavors and Blessings 💛
She really is a gifted speaker, she would excel telling her stories to people, just as she is here. I was entirely entranced in her life stories the entire time, she is one of the strongest people I have heard before, right after another she had another major traumatic events knock her left and right. "The best people have character," and I agree. Overall I really loved her perspectives and personality.
Dude honestly touched my heart. Never have I seen a video like this and I decided to listen to it while driving & I have so much simpathy and respect for her and for sharing her story. I’ve been through some similar stuff and it’s nice that you guys talk about it openly on the internet. Felt like when your up late at night with a best friend telling them everything about you. I miss that. Thank you for sharing ❤
Great story teller, the way she illustrates her personal experiences places you in that moment. So proud of you, thank you for sharing!
her story of fomo is super familiar to me. I got brought to a party group where they drank and smoked a loooot. I felt a lot of fomo when seeing how often and much they smoked/drank. I had tried drinking a lot of alcohol, and it got rid of my anxiety. When I realized that I kinda WANTED to drink for the first time in my life. It terrified me when I realized that.
Now look, weed or alcohol isnt the worst, but substances can have a lot of unintended impacts and before i tried it, were things I intended to only ever do not at all or minimally to match the social. Talking with my brother reminded me that having 7 shots in one night ISNT normal, and not something i should be doing to feel like I fit in. I tried going a couple times near sober/ completely sober, and it spiked my anxiety SO BADLY, so I left. I concluded that coming here wont have any outcomes that I would like. I think alcohol and weed arent horrible, but theyre still quick fixes and i was terrified that once i started relying on them to escape anxiety + depression, I would lose track of my plan/life, and it was in hindsight heightening the number of panic attacks I was having on a normal day. Or not making the changes because I could escape it all friday. I finally entered therapy and Im glad with how things are heading rn.
Such a heartbreaking and intense episode. I'm blown away by her expression of her story and how raw she gets. Thank you for sharing this with us
There’s a special place in hell for people who manipulate kids into feeling safe only to do heinous things. This woman is a badass
So fn gross! ygh
She is such a great speaker. Wow. Her story was sadly captivating.
My heart breaks for her and her mom so much. It was so surprising to hear how great her mom was, how much she loved her child despite being an addict. I’m thankful that she believed you about being abused and took your side. That rarely happens.
Omg u had two boyfriends w the random name 😍
@@auntymoi um what?
the way she said she felt at 1:06:00 is the worst feeling ever. being in a relationship with a narcissist and having mental health issues of ur own is one of the most mentally draining and traumatizing thing u can put urself through :/ this all really spoke to me because i’ve been thru sum shit myself. i hope everybody here is able to heal and keep their heads up through whatever ure going through!! ♥️♥️
Who is this girl? What she is saying is unreal.. I was raised about 45 mins from Young Harris.. the entire area is filled with this type of lifestyle. Loved this episode!!
I am from MURPHY! Omg..
Hannah! Your so adorable!!! Aghhhh! I love the way you describe and tell the story of relationships and addiction. I really enjoyed hearing your points of view because I feel my ex girlfriend at the time of my abuse probably felt the same way you have in the past. Dealing with addicts and being In love is such a toxic spiderweb of abandonment insecurity’s miscommunication violence and depression, but also good times you can’t repeat in life with anyone else. You get lost in your drug relationship of false feelings from all the dopamine connected with being together and being high. I’m glad you got sober. Even 6months with a background like yours can go dark fast so much respect for knowing your worth and getting sober!!!!
She’s such an amazing story teller and such a fighter. I’m from north GA & stay very close to the areas you mentioned!! ❤small world.
I relate to her more than I can explain. The toxic boyfriend issues, family issues, addiction surrounding me until it got ahold of me, too.
I’m going on 4 years sober from meth, crack cocaine, opiates, herion & Xanax. Thank god we make it out sister! And thankful your mom got sober too. Sending hugs and love!
We DO recover ❤
Yes we do! ❤️🩹
Meth is the devil in disguise. That first line I put up my nose led to 3 long term addictions in my 30's. Rehabbed myself, dealt with a black pit of depression but I came out on the other side after several years of restructuring my life and doing the work on myself. 22 yrs clean and I don't recognize that person I was anymore.
Stay clean, live clean and life is good!
I agree!!
This episode and the addicted to herion has been a huge wake up call but especially this episode in particular because i am still somewhat dealing with my meth addiction and i this was a reminder that i need to set myself straight this episode spoke to me more than the therapy sessions i had even more than the support system i have and had to hear it from another person who similarly went through what i went through it just really opened my eyes thank you devorah so much for this it means a lot ❤
I genuinely relate to this girl so much it’s so nice to just here someone talk about a situation like this
I went through some similar incidents as a child and I went to truancy court and jail as well. It’s heartbreaking how they’d rather penalize children then help them, when they quite literally have NO OTHER KNOWLEDGE!
it's just very telling that you trusted your mom to tell her about the abuse and she immediately did something about it it just shows that trust between the two of you and I'm happy for that
I turn on podcasts to help me sleep. This one kept me up to 2:24 am. I feel so lucky that I was born to very good parents who never let me have a sniff of any of that life. Congrats to you Hannah for making it out of that misery.
Her and her mother are fighters. I'm so impressed by your story telling.
Her story is insane. She's so incredibly strong.
thank you for sharing your story, seriously. i’ve had a couple family members who’ve been through this and it makes me understand their story more. im glad your clean
Viewer from the UK, London here 🙋🏽♀️
You’ve lived so many life times Hannah in such a short space of time. Thank you for sharing, you are so much stronger & wiser for it. Wishing you and your family all the best in your future ❤
This is crazy how much I relate to this!! I was in a “relationship” with my meth dealer- and the craziness of that type of a relationship is actually insane. I had to laugh at a few parts because it was so relatable😅
I agree!! Its insane how much my story relates to Hannahs!! I also was in a relationship wit my dealer....and that was the darkest most stressful relationship of my life and almost 10 years later it still affects me to this day!!
same. i feel nostalgic for those times even though they sucked. it was absolute chaos but at the same time simpler.
Wow I am so grateful I found your channel. I literally clean and moved my whole room around listening to this story. Everyone has a story and I sure have mine. I was an addict, homeless, got pregnant at the age of 13. I had my baby boy at the age 14. I was a freshman in high school star basketball player. While I was pregnant I still played basketball at 6 months cause I was the lead player and I didn’t want my couches to know about it. While playing sports taking care of a newborn I was also dealing with my mother that was a bad alcoholic. Along the way I ended up in prison married to the love of my life and I had already had 3 kids. My beautiful husband waited for me and kept the family together. After 2 yrs I made Parol and we were all so happy. Well 2 hrs before I was released.. my husband passed of an heart attack. There is so much more to my story and I would be honored to tell it. I need to get this hurt out of my system. I pray for everyone that has been on your broadcast.. until then my story continues and there is so much more!❤❤❤❤
The DV part made me cry a little it reminded me so much of when i was in that situation. That's crazy that she mentioned Chattanooga that's where I'm from. Happy to see that she's now sober.
OK, this girl can tell a story. Find a writing partner and write your life story; would be a great movie. Good Luck to you. Congrats on surviving and thriving thru such chaos. Another path: motivational speaker. You have a great speaking/storytelling skills. You need to find a way to apply and capitalize on them.
She’s such a good storyteller. She painted such an amazing and thorough picture for me, I literally felt like I watched her life movie lol
What an amazing story. Such a strong woman, thank you devorah for giving people a platform to share their life / experiences
I love this young woman. So proud of your recovery!
I’ve watched a lot of your videos and this is my favorite one. Hands down. This is so incredibly important, mainly for the people who can’t imagine what drug addicts or the loved ones of addicts experience. Also helps this recovering addict feel less alone so thank you❤
I’ve cried a few times throughout this because our stories have a lot of similarities. I’m actually 25 as well and I’m just getting out of an abusive 7 year relationship that had alot of the same situations.
It’s like she said you won’t understand the whys, unless you’ve been through it.
So happy for her and the way she is taking ahold of her life now ❤ thank you for telling your story
As someone who was addicted to meth from 12-16 heading someone else’s story is like watching my life in a crystal ball and I’m screaming at myself no. God how I prayed for someone to be there for me but honestly it is how everyone says. You gotta be there for yourself and go through it
This caught my full attention. I can relate so much with this girl. I've been sober from meth for over 12yrs. Bad abusive drug addict boyfriend to bad relationships. But i found the light and got out of that life. Best wishes to her living her best life and her sobriety ❤❤❤❤❤❤