Alia's Detransitioning - 1 1/2 year update!
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- Опубликовано: 28 авг 2022
- UPDATE: we checked my estrogen levels and they’re at 109. We checked 10-17 days after the first day of my cycle. 10/15/2022.
Thank you all for watching!
You can purchase the strapless bra at : www.amazon.com/shop/aliaissa
The film is at Ayearintransition.com
And lastly my TikTok & Instagram handle is @aliaxismail
I think you should drop the idea of masculine and feminine things. Sometimes a girl lounges around in basketball short and a t-shirt cause it’s comfy. Doesn’t mean that you are trying to be masculine. I steal my husbands clothes all the time because it’s just comfy, doesn’t mean that I secretly want be a man.
Exactly what I thought. Honestly, I just kept thinking just live your life, babe. Just drop the "how I view my gender" mess. Just chill, no need to be so uptight.
True! People need to understand that liking or seeking out things that aren’t common for your sex doesn’t make you trans! For fighting so hard against “gender norms” people are further reinforcing the idea that looking/acting/thinking a certain way means you just alter your body.
Exactly. It is not surprising that people who end up identifying as "trans" or "cis" often have strongly held views about sex role behavior.
Sex roles are antiquated patriarchal social constructs to support male domination over women, that are unfortunately being promoted and brought back by trans-identified people.
"Feminine" actually means "of the female animal." That means anything that women are biologically capapable of: exceling at STEM, sports, fashion, domesticity, able to commit murder. "Masculine" means all the same things.
It's so important that we reject the sex stereotypes for both sexes. These stereotypes, as with all stereotypes, are limiting, constraining, and dehumanizing.
Far more fulfilling to strive to be a whole human being, unlimited by sex stereotypes.
Exactly you're a woman! Nothing will change that- even having had taken testosterone or whatever. You're a woman. I lounge in my husband's boxer shorts all the time as it's comfortable. LOL I remember when wearing boxer shorts for girls was all the rage in the 80's. Poor kids now are so OBSESSED with what's male or female - it's insane.
Well said!!
Wearing a t shirt and basketball shorts does not equal masculinity baby. Breast size DEFINITELY doesn't either. Wearing make up, dressing in pink, getting your nails done...does not equal femininity. It's little things like that, that people should pay attention to. The smallest thoughts can balloon into giant issues that don't actually exist. Much love
Yea definitely I had to go through those things to realize that!
@@aliaxismail glad for you, just remember...it's more about what you embody. I wish you the best with your journey! It would be so dope if you'd come on my radio show and share your story though! I gladly invite you
Im so glad i came across your content. You gave me the confidence to re-explore my feminine side and make the choice to detransition with less self shame. Thank you so much. much love
Hey Alia, thank you for sharing your story, I've seen your story just about everywhere on the internet, especially on snapchat! I'm glad that you're doing well in life.
One thing I have seen in many detransition videos, is that women are not so happy with their voice, and some feeling like it has been 'ruined' by testosterone; and yet, their voices aren't deep or masculine in my opinion. I am a cis woman, with a naturally low voice. At the age of 13, I was in my school choir, and was one of the two or so female altos. Now, as an adult, I sing as a contralto, which is the lowest pitch as a woman. I used to be embarrassed of my voice, I feel like having a high pitched voice is associated with femininity, whereas a low voice made you masculine. My adolescent years were tough for many reasons, especially since my mother was convinced that I "was supposed to be a boy", because I'm left handed, tall (my mother is short), and took after my father a lot. There came a point where she would just give me my older brother's clothes to wear, instead of the the more form fitting stuff a girl would wear. I guess my life was sort of opposite of what you have gone through recently, I always knew I was a girl, yet someone tried pushing 'boyness' on me.
I've healed, all these years later, but the voice thing still got me. It wasn't until last year that I finally became proud of my voice. Crazy enough, I started listening to Cher and Grace Jones, who are both contraltos, and it made me proud of my low voice. Simply put, your voice is still higher than mine, and there's nothing wrong with it!
The pressure our society puts on us females to be as feminine and socially acceptable as possible is ridiculous. Almost no-one can actually appease such standards, and in places like the movie industry, we're thought of as "old and washed up" by the time we hit 30. It's crap. I'm 5'9, and have a friend that is 6'0. It's hard being a tall female at times, because mean people are quick to call you "a man" if they want to hurt you.
Don't worry about those stray hairs, if they never completely leave. It's true, that some women will just randomly grow some as they get older. I have a stubborn chin hair that doesn't like to leave, and a spotty "happy trail" that I have to shave each week. These didn't appear until after pregnancy. I've worked with middle aged women that started growing facial hair just because they got older. It's just something that happens, which I've had to learn too.
It feels like we have to fit into cookie cutter portions of what gender is supposed to be like, and yet, life isn't so black and white. Some days, I want to be the girliest, dress wearing, makeup outed girl. Other times, I embrace my masculinity and wear some of my mens' shirts. Hell, a lot of the time when I go to the store, I buy the male version of shirts, since they fit better.
Sorry for the long ass comment. I hope you're doing alright in the world.
Aww I love ur comment, I can tell your an down to earth, awesome person!
Women have never had more freedoms or options or privileges than they have today. (if you are from a western country). Media has never been more accepting of diverse body shapes or diverse backgrounds. Its never been easier to create your own brand online for free and to produce content with a smartphone. Women have never had so many options in life.
@@tubester4567 ok
Love your comment
Thank you for that thoughtful comment! I agree and resonate with alot of what you said. Glad we crossed paths 😊
It’s a learning process and acceptance makes it easier.
Alia, you are amazing and perfect the way you are! It makes us happy to see you happy!
oh thank you so much ❤️ hope life is going well for you!
@@aliaxismail Cannot complain, thank you beautiful
I stumbled upon your video somehow on Facebook. I wish you all the luck. Thank you for being so honest about your experience. I think you're going to help a lot of people going through the same thing
For some reason RUclips has been recommending these detransition videos to me lately - I don't know why, I have no personal experience - and I ended up watching few, just to understand the issue.. And it has really made me think many things.. I am 47 years old female, since my childhood I have always been a "tomboy". I hated skirts, stockings and dresses, had lots of boys as my friends and I have basicly - till today - walked through my life wearing pants, hoodies and sneakers. I own one dress which I tend to use in the summer time when the temperature reaches such high levels that wearing anything else is too much. I rarely wear make up - maybe once every second year - if there is a special occasion (someones wedding etc.) where I want to feel little bit special myself too.. And wearing make up for me means mascara, eyeliner and maybe some lipgloss..
Anyway, all though I have never felt very feminine, I never questioned my gender, maybe because in 1970-80-90's Finland it was not important.. Like no-one questioned my gender just because I hated dresses and liked to run wild in the forests in my brown pants rather than playing a princess. Like there was not even such atmosphere around me at home, at school etc. And today - when the US identity politics have been imported to our society too - suddely sexuality and gender have become some kind of public performances and statements people have to make in their confused teenage years.. I am really worried about kids like me, like would my mind have been f**ked if I had been a child or a teenager today, cause this talk already starts in kindergardens and primary schools, when I think, children should just be allowed to be who they are without thinking about it too much.
I also later found out I am a (romantic) asexual, for which I did not have any term or words for when I was younger, I just realized I was different of my friends on that aspect, and I was actually over 40 years old when I heard an interview of an asexual person on the radio and was like: "Wow, there is something like that..? I am not alone being weird.." But if I look at the way the things are today, I am happy I did not know or have any term for it. I did not build my identity on that matter, I just went along with my intuition and followed my heart on that. I definitely think that we as human beings are just so much more than our gender and sexuality, that I think todays western society focuses on that all too much. I wish in the future we will go towards the direction where we are all seen just as individuals with all kinds of sides to ourselves not having to make statements and take a stand on everything.. Just live and let others live too! ❤
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I'm curious, do you now live in the US or still in Finland? The reason I'm asking is because you mentioned identity politics and what's taught in school starting in kindergarten. I can tell you that here in the US, unequivocally there is nothing taught in kindergarten or elementary school about gender identity. That's what is being pushed by one particular side of the political spectrum. They have convinced their followers that public school is pushing certain ideas. Not true. I don't know of k-12 curriculum where gender identity is taught but if they can get people riled up and believing that, it is something they can use in their campaigns and they do and unfortunately it's working.
Thats wonderful that you’ve found a piece of yourself! I’m a teenager going through all the identity crisis nonsense right now and I *think* I’m non-binary and asexual. I’m a pretty tomboyish kid, I’ve always liked dinosaurs more than dolls. I have however always loved fashion. I’m not planning on doing anything permanent to my body until I’m 25 because the decision making part of the female brain usually finishes developing by then. For now I’m just saying I am what I am and if that changes, that’s okay!
I can relate to this. I don't understand how not being fitting in a traditional gender role should mean that you're not really your gender and should rather start referring to yourself as nonbinary or trans... It's very common in fact to not fit in a gender stereotype.
@@mamacitachang it is initiated starting in kindergarten/first grade as a foundation here in the US and the crazy teachers build on it over time. So yes it is being taught here in the US starting at those grade levels. And you are right it is one side that acknowledges the fact it’s happening while clearly your “political side of the spectrum” are typically the sickos committing these atrocities on the kids.
I watched all of your videos and you explained everything so very well and gentle that I’m as a cis woman - who got fed up this past months with the TQ+ because of the bullying - are coming back to the position I had before. Namely the tolerance to let everyone live the live they choose for them, the respect for every living human soul and a deep empathy for all people whose lives weren’t easy peasy but trying to heal in the best way they choose for themselves! Thank you very much for your sharing so bravely!!! 🌹🌹🌹
I think this is a very important subject to talk about right now. Thank you for you're honesty. Glad you're being true to yourself.
Congratulations on being a licensed and working barber!
thank you!! such a long road!!
I love you
@@aliaxismail would you date a cis man and since detranstioning have you dated cis men
Such an elegant and honest lady! So proud of you!
Really? Still believing "aliens"? - to help others wake up towards the truth, we all must speak about stuff with correct wording: "ALIENS" = FALLEN ANGELS.
The word "alien" is just a name, that the fallens took to be hide themselves and their offspring from mankind.
There is no aliens and there is no outer spaces, there is GOD - ANGELS - FALLEN ANGELS - MANKIND - ANIMALS - BIRDS - HYBRID BEINGS.
ruclips.net/video/Wp63E07We6k/видео.html why haven`t some of you still received the COMFORTER? How to eny of us even dare to understand stuff that`s heavenly without someone who came from above? - THE HOLY SPIRIT = THE COMFORTER.
Ecclesiastes 4:1 | View whole chapter | See verse in context
So I returned, and considered all the oppressions that are done under the sun: and behold the tears of such as were oppressed, and they had no comforter; and on the side of their oppressors there was power; but they had no comforter.
John 14:16 | View whole chapter | See verse in context
And I will pray the Father, and he shall give you another Comforter, that he may abide with you for ever;
Lamentations 1:9 | View whole chapter | See verse in context
Her filthiness is in her skirts; she remembereth not her last end; therefore she came down wonderfully: she had no comforter. O LORD, behold my affliction: for the enemy hath magnified himself.
John 15:26 | View whole chapter | See verse in context
But when the Comforter is come, whom I will send unto you from the Father, even the Spirit of truth, which proceedeth from the Father, he shall testify of me:
Lamentations 1:16 | View whole chapter | See verse in context
For these things I weep; mine eye, mine eye runneth down with water, because the comforter that should relieve my soul is far from me: my children are desolate, because the enemy prevailed.
John 14:26 | View whole chapter | See verse in context
But the Comforter, which is the Holy Ghost, whom the Father will send in my name, he shall teach you all things, and bring all things to your remembrance, whatsoever I have said unto you.
John 16:7 | View whole chapter | See verse in context
Nevertheless I tell you the truth; It is expedient for you that I go away: for if I go not away, the Comforter will not come unto you; but if I depart, I will send him unto you.
And that we come back in 7 generations? - dear human souls, we are not the fallens (yes, we do falled aka sinned, but we didn`t become the FALLENS) (FALLENS = ANGELS, WHO LOST BOTH, THIER GLORY AND PLACE IN HEAVEN), we do not recycle back on earth, for we were given:
Hebrews 9:27 | View whole chapter | See verse in context
And as it is appointed unto men once to die, but after this the judgment:
Can`t you see? that verse from bible: Hebrews 9:27 (KJV) - proofs that none of us "evolved from monkeys nor from bacteria. We all are created DIRECTLY BY GOD - SPIRIT 1ST - THEN THE CARNAL, DUSTY BODY.
WE ARE SPIRITS CLOTHED INTO CARNAL FOR A TEST.
Jeremiah 1:5 | View whole chapter | See verse in context
Before I formed thee in the belly I knew thee; and before thou camest forth out of the womb I sanctified thee, and I ordained thee a prophet unto the nations.
Isaiah 45:18 | View whole chapter | See verse in context
For thus saith the LORD that created the heavens; God himself that formed the earth and made it; he hath established it, he created it not in vain, he formed it to be inhabited: I am the LORD; and there is none else.
Earth is DIRECTLY CREATED BY GOD AND SO ARE WE, HUMANS.
@@theharshtruthoutthere nobody is reading all that
You’re looking great 😊 and most important you look happy !! Congrats on the job
thank you so much!! ❤️
I’m very glad you’re enjoying finding yourself after such a long journey. You are a beautiful person, both inside and outside. Enjoy both your feminine and masculine energies!
You look incredible. Very much a light around you and glowing. However, when I watched your previous videos you had this light as well. Keep staying true to yourself
Admire your courage, fearless humility to explore yourself and your heroic willingness to change and share your journey with others! Wish you every joy in every way. 💝💐
It takes a lot of courage to share such a personal story! I hope you have no long term damage from all that you have been through with your transition. I grew up as a tomboy in a troubled family and definitely thought men had it easier/better as a young person. It takes time, life experience and maturity to learn many of these important lessons. I’m very troubled to see so many young people going through this on top of the challenges of becoming an adult. I feel bad for all of them!
Hey boo. Happy to hear from you. Much love.
Good luck, and much success on your new path in life! Many people do not do a sex change or taking hormones, and still, never find out who they are, the way to find yourself is not easy. May you find the happiness and peace that was denied to you before!
You are a Real Champ! Congratulations 🙌
Just saw your story on TikTok. Thank you for sharing your story. Ones like yours are very important and so are you.
You’re still so pretty. Wishing you a safe journey back.
You're glowing, you got this!
thanks so much for sharing your journey, Alia. i'm a genderfluid person, and i clicked on your laser updates because im grappling with enjoying how i feel on T vs facial hair making me feel more, not less, like i see a stranger in the mirror.
your videos answered those questions, and just also reminded me why i enjoy being fluid - that it's okay to explore gender and just find joy in the journey.
and you look so bright in this video. not just aesthetically beautiful, but there is a visible lightness to you. it's obvious the joy and comfort you are finding, and i wish you best of luck and that you will only find more of that joy. thank you again. 💙
Beautiful 🙏🏼💕 & this is very important & inspirational for others! Women: embrace this beautiful soul!
good for you. i hope everything continues to go well
This is super helpful being in so much detail! I’m on the same journey, 2 years off T but my laser wasn’t very successful. I’m going to try electrolysis so I’m glad to have heard your take :)
I wish you the best of luck! Do you have support?
Honestly, I really think people have over thought the concept of gender. What you are describing in terms of your gender identity changing depending on context is how most people experience gender. If you're a woman you can dress/feel more feminine or masculine, you're still a woman.
I was thinking the same thing. People are definitely overthinking things these days.
I would be no less of a woman if I were to like ... fishing and cars instead of... let's say knitting and cooking!
There are days when I dress in pink dresses and there are days when I feel I want to put on ripped jeans, a jacket and sneakers instead of heals. But I am still me! I am still a woman and it does not change anything about my gender.
Gender can't exist without stereotypes
@@WildWinterberry Gender is pure biology; you're born either male or female... or in extremely rare cases, intersex. Gender roles are influenced by cultural norms, but are still mostly based on biology.
@@barrettorth8413 that's sex. Then you have gender roles. They're not to be confused
@@WildWinterberry Sex and gender have always been synonymous terms, but leftist activists recently redefined gender to suit their political agenda. However, that doesn't make their definition valid.
Thanks for sharing, handling dysphoria is always difficult, whatever you do or need.
You should do a video talking about your tattoos! (If you want). They look awesome.
Also, have you found that the overall reaction you've had from people has been understanding? I feel like the second gender gets brought into anything, things can get touchy. Even when the subject is just innocent/curious.
I actually have one on my tiktok! On the top of the page it should say “tattoo tour”.
My handle is aliaxismail.
I have found a good amount of people to be understanding. Especially in my day to day life. I think people can sense my energy and have compassion for my journey. I am also so open in my day to day that I speak with confidence about who I am, so there’s not much room for folks to judge.
Your voice sounds lovely ☺ Glad you're doing well xo
You are so put together, congratulations! My child didn’t survive the experiment and I’m glad you have. Stay strong.
You look like you feel good! All we want is a happy Alia. Also.... one does not mention puppy and not show puppy! 😁🥰
God Bless You on your journey 🙏
Sending You hugs & comfort & prayers for You to have Peace in your heart & life ~
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Really happy for you
Congrats on the job.
Don’t know how I got here - but thank you.
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Beautiful, stay strong sister
You look amazing!
You have a new subscriber after watching your interview with Sam
You could have fatty liver! Please get a scan to check.. it’s not a big issue but it could cause health issues down the line ❤️
So how do u feel about gender identity now? Has your opinion on it changed and do u regret any of the hormones/surgeries?
Thanks for the video. Congrats on becoming licensed as a barber!
haha me and you got off hormones same month, same year. I was incarcerated and they denied me my hormones. It srsly was a blessing in disguise. I don't mind my changes, bc now I look like I am simultaneously both genders (still more towards male bc of my voice being deeper than most cis men). But I identify as NB so it fits me. The hair is alright bc I was already hairy bc I am middle eastern lol
the elevated liver enzymes could be from the hormones yes, but also from weight gain know as "fatty liver" this gain could be from the hormone shift though, it seems like based off your levels your body is still finding it's balance. Do you have your period yet or did you get a hysto? (sorry I'm just a nurse not a doctor!)
Oh wow, glad you could find the positives in your journey.
All my levels and such are back to normal actually now, but I was feeling a little off for a moment before.
you look so healthy and pretty
Well done!
احسن شي تسويه حالياً انك ترجع اذا طبيعتك الذكورية بكل الوسائل ❤
بسمِ اللهِ الرَّحمنِ الرَّحيم
اللَّهُ لاَ إِلَهَ إِلاَّ هُوَ الْحَيُّ الْقَيُّومُ لاَ تَأْخُذُهُ سِنَةٌ وَلاَ نَوْمٌ لَهُ مَا فِي السَّمَاوَاتِ وَمَا فِي الأَرْضِ مَنْ ذَا الَّذِي يَشْفَعُ عِنْدَهُ إِلاَّ بِإِذْنِهِ يَعْلَمُ مَا بَيْنَ أَيْدِيهِمْ وَمَا خَلْفَهُمْ وَلاَ يُحِيطُونَ بِشَيْءٍ مِنْ عِلْمِهِ إِلاَّ بِمَا شَاءَ وَسِعَ كُرْسِيُّهُ السَّمَاوَاتِ وَالأَرْضَ وَلاَ يَئُودُهُ حِفْظُهُمَا وَهُوَ الْعَلِيُّ الْعَظِيمُ . لاَ إِكْرَاهَ فِي الدِّينِ قَدْ تَبَيَّنَ الرُّشْدُ مِنْ الغَيِّ فَمَنْ يَكْفُرْ بِالطَّاغُوتِ وَيُؤْمِنْ بِاللَّهِ فَقَدْ اسْتَمْسَكَ بِالْعُرْوَةِ الْوُثْقَى لاَ انفِصَامَ لَهَا وَاللَّهُ سَمِيعٌ عَلِيمٌ . اللَّهُ وَلِيُّ الَّذِينَ آمَنُوا يُخْرِجُهُمْ مِنْ الظُّلُمَاتِ إِلَى النُّورِ وَالَّذِينَ كَفَرُوا أَوْلِيَاؤُهُمْ الطَّاغُوتُ يُخْرِجُونَهُمْ مِنْ النُّورِ إِلَى الظُّلُمَاتِ أُوْلَئِكَ أَصْحَابُ النَّارِ هُمْ فِيهَا خَالِدُونَ .☝️
Can I ask some questions? I have someone close going through similar things. God bless!
My liver levels were raised before at the doc too and it was because i drank alcohol the night before. Got rechecked after month sobriety and it was normal
Also I just want to be your friend. I am a detransitioned woman for reference. But you are so positive, its genuinely refreshing
It's so fckin cool you work as a barber now!!!!!!!🎉
I think it’s super acceptable to ask about body parts in regards to a potential romantic and therefore sexual partner
Definitely, but definitely not at first meet or first conversations when getting to know someone romantically. Especially if you’re not being sexual with them. It’s about getting to know the person. It’s like someone asking if you have a big dick or not or big breasts or not or a large clit or not or a big ass or not or whatever when you are on a first date. It’s denouncing the person to their physical body and it’s superficial and shallow. Unless you are on the same terms and are speaking of hooking up right from the start of meeting.
I think the people who understand that as a first knew what I was talking about when I said it in the video.
I get hairs too in my face and I’m a bio woman. I pluck them ❤
She's also born a female. She transitioned to a male and then came back to being a female.
@@CandyKitty_Doll no shit☺️ the point is that even women who have never transitioned can also have some facial hair
Habiti I want u to know that u r such a brave person . I see you as a person. Sorry to say this but I still can see the boy in you. But whallahi you are absolutely amazing and wonderful thank you for speaking up
I appreciate the compliment, but I need you to understand that everyone has feminine and masculine qualities in their appearance, man or woman. Some more than others. That rigid standard is what caused me to transition when I didn’t need to. Also, I was on hormones for almost 7 years. I at the time was only off for 1 1/2 years. That’s a big difference. Change takes time.
Beautiful 🥰
Thanks for this
Wow you're looking great
I recommend checking out a gentle way to detox your liver, and there are some herbs that are estrogen regulators that also help restore that system. Natural dopamine is a big hormone regulator, an herb called Mucuna Pruriens has L-Dopa that crosses the blood-brain barrier
Thanks I’ll check it out!
You're a brave woman mazel tov 🙏
What's extremely odd to me about trans people are that it is not ok just to be what you were born but be different in the things you like. This has never made sense. They've literally got to the ponit where "if you're a male that likes pink you must live as a female". Why can you just be a boy that likes pink? Or a boy that likes dolls, sewing, and fashion. Or a female (girl) that like sports and cars and computers, and doesn't like dolls, pink, and dresses? Or whatever combination.
I'm a straight male that really has never been a big sports fan. I don't mind sewing a button or repairing a small tear, doing housework (cleaning a restroom doing dishes etc.). This doesn't mean I'm actually a "girl". It just means I'm a male that doesn't mind these things.
For me I have no doubt they are encouraging the use of technology to solve problems, and in this case, it is NOT something technology is good at "solving". They are creating lifelong customers, medications, surgeries, etc. creating a lifelong dependency on these services. So I would say keep that in mind that it is THEIR benefit that you "desire" to use the technology they can "offer".
There is a ton of this that I agree with! The sad part is that at this time in the world, hormones and surgeries are saving lives for people who just mentally can’t grasp that ideology and feel comfortable in it. So this is something that’s helpful in moments and certain cases. Hopefully we can all get to a place where gender doesn’t matter and we can just be.
@@aliaxismail Not to be disrespectful, but I disagree. I think that in solving a short-term problem, we (and by we, I mean doctors/drug companies/etc) create a long-term problem. A lot of the times it is disguised as help, when in reality it mostly only helps those companies.
And another thing - gender should never be abolished. Gender should always matter; only in a respectful way, of course. To live a life where gender doesn't matter is like denying all the beautiful and amazing things that women are because we are women. Also denying amazing things which men could be. I personally want to live in a world where men are men and women are women and we need each other because we complement each other. That is the true harmony. The jing and jang.
@@Lina-lq7jm and that’s okay to want that and that I want something different! Everyone’s experience on this earth is different. And that’s the beautiful thing.
I have a nephew who likes pink and likes more "feminine" things. Because of this some of the adults around him kind of freak out thinking he will be gay or trans in the future. This kind of behavior from adults is extremely harmful to kids, and could lead to a lot of confusion and maybe even kids questioning whether or not they are supposed to be the other gender. Maybe they are, but not necessarily..
But I believe for trans people it is WAY more than that. I imagine, just as I feel like and identify as a woman, trans women feel like and identify as women. Not just because they might like feminine things.
I hope that makes sense! I definitely can't explain what a trans person feels like because I'm cis, but I try my best to understand..
@@katikati4 You said "But I believe for trans people it is WAY more than that. I imagine, just as I feel like and identify as a woman, trans women feel like and identify as women. Not just because they might like feminine things.
I hope that makes sense! I definitely can't explain what a trans person feels like because I'm cis, but I try my best to understand.."
And that's just the thing. Whatever you were born as, what's it "feel like" to be that? For example, if you were biologically male what does it feel like to be male?
You look beautiful 💜
فلسطين حرة. اللهم انصر إخواننا في فلسطين.
I'm 67 and have a dime sized "beard" on my chin, right where yours are, that I have to pluck pretty regularly.
hi! any update? 💕
Will her voice go back to normal?
Just be yourself now!!
A company I recently worked for would align perfectly with your career path: Hairclub (you need a hair dresser license to get the job) the brand is very inclusive and has many LGBT people in executive positions
thank you
sorry I cant help saying it, you are so cute!
Having testosterone at levels that low can be dangerous / make you feel sickly i would try to stay below 30 but above at least 5
in ur instagram bio it says ur pronouns are they/she, so even tho you've detransitioned so u still consider yourself trans/non-binary or no?
I do have them in there because people constantly ask, and they is just gender neutral for me and because of my experiences as a woman, trans man and now a detransitioned person it’s hard to just choose a box. So I don’t necessarily care for labels, but definitely resonate with those identities still.
@@aliaxismail I heavily relate to that! I don’t necessarily consider myself detrans (or even trans anymore tbh) but I do exist in a strange place in society where I’m biologically female, and read as a male, and no longer agree with the trans ideology. I totally relate to a lot of what you’ve been through.
Can you take eostrogen
Your look so so gorgeous
You look so beautiful 🌼❤
thank you so much!
Very lovely :) I sent you a message on IG about ALT/AST if you’re curious!
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Why have you not updated since?
Reality is probably settling in.
Fat grafting is not worth it, your body will absorb everything,i did that and is a waisted
You are so beautiful!
Hey Alia ❤️ assalamu'alaykum! I'm extremely proud of what you're doing. You saved a lot of girls by sharing your stories, may Allah bless you 🙏 And you look so beautiful and happy now😍
بسمِ اللهِ الرَّحمنِ الرَّحيم
اللَّهُ لاَ إِلَهَ إِلاَّ هُوَ الْحَيُّ الْقَيُّومُ لاَ تَأْخُذُهُ سِنَةٌ وَلاَ نَوْمٌ لَهُ مَا فِي السَّمَاوَاتِ وَمَا فِي الأَرْضِ مَنْ ذَا الَّذِي يَشْفَعُ عِنْدَهُ إِلاَّ بِإِذْنِهِ يَعْلَمُ مَا بَيْنَ أَيْدِيهِمْ وَمَا خَلْفَهُمْ وَلاَ يُحِيطُونَ بِشَيْءٍ مِنْ عِلْمِهِ إِلاَّ بِمَا شَاءَ وَسِعَ كُرْسِيُّهُ السَّمَاوَاتِ وَالأَرْضَ وَلاَ يَئُودُهُ حِفْظُهُمَا وَهُوَ الْعَلِيُّ الْعَظِيمُ . لاَ إِكْرَاهَ فِي الدِّينِ قَدْ تَبَيَّنَ الرُّشْدُ مِنْ الغَيِّ فَمَنْ يَكْفُرْ بِالطَّاغُوتِ وَيُؤْمِنْ بِاللَّهِ فَقَدْ اسْتَمْسَكَ بِالْعُرْوَةِ الْوُثْقَى لاَ انفِصَامَ لَهَا وَاللَّهُ سَمِيعٌ عَلِيمٌ . اللَّهُ وَلِيُّ الَّذِينَ آمَنُوا يُخْرِجُهُمْ مِنْ الظُّلُمَاتِ إِلَى النُّورِ وَالَّذِينَ كَفَرُوا أَوْلِيَاؤُهُمْ الطَّاغُوتُ يُخْرِجُونَهُمْ مِنْ النُّورِ إِلَى الظُّلُمَاتِ أُوْلَئِكَ أَصْحَابُ النَّارِ هُمْ فِيهَا خَالِدُونَ .☝️
I just don’t understand why the experience of people like you is used against trans people and to attack and invalidate our existence. I honestly appreciate what you’re sharing but I can’t agree with the type of people this content attracts.
Yeah, kinda agree. I have no problem with the video itself. Actually, I think it brings up good points. However, some of these commenters are wild 😂
@@69Satan69 Yeah, the comments are actually pretty awful. 'phobes feeling validated by the mere existence of a detransitioner.
If you go to the therapist and claim that your maimed breasts are causing you severe depression and suicidal...then they'll pay for it. Lol. They paid for my friend to remove her breast implants and then they reconstructed the leftover tissue and she looks amazing. It looks better than her breasts before implants and with implants. She looks like she never had a problem to begin with.
Thank you for sharing. Are you open to email?
Your voice is noticeably lighter/ higher now….
Astaghfirullah may Allah guide us☝️
You look great , there is no obvious signs of you ever being on testosterone. You hormones are not too far of where you want them. Please keep posting videos even if it is not detrans related, just seeing your transformation is very interesting and inspiring. Instead of surgery how about just accepting that you are a flat chested woman now. There are after all some ladies who never growany breasts. I wonder if that suction cup therapy some people do that leaves temporary moundson their skin could be used to give temporary breasts for an hour or so , could be an alternative to surgery.
There's also the fact that there are many women who have gotten their breasts removed after having masectomies for one reason or another and either couldn't or chose not to reconstruct them. There's a million ways to be and "look like" a woman.
Her voice is a dead giveaway imo - not that this is a bad thing! It’s merely a sign of the journey she’s been through, and everybody has certain scars like that.
@@halaagmod8948 Yep. I'm a flat chested A cup and I completely feel like a woman. I also never wear makeup, never get my nails done, never wear dresses and still feel like a woman.
You can tell because of the voice
Her voice is totally cooked it's one of the things transition took from her, that's how I see it.
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You should say ‘in my experience’ not this is the only way to get rid off hair. You’ve been off t less than 2 years most people I know don’t experience major changes in their body hair until 3 years off t sometimes longer
Also not referring to people who have detransition end per say they are all nonbinary most did not intend to stay on T forever for some a decade was enough
Were you born a boy or a girl?
Maybe you should watch my other videos and you’ll find the answer pretty quick!
@@aliaxismail right 😊 thank you for these videos and congratulations on your career
@@tonimarie6270 thank you!!!
You are a total mommy 😍
Oh Jason c'mon don't simp
Seek God brother seek God
@@Womanfemale12 I’m not simping
Alia, are you Arab and Muslim? I asked cuz of your name, if yes how did your family react to you changing your gender?
You have a beautiful face! Be kind to yourself. “The Devil is like a roaring lion, seeking whom he may devour.” Glad he didn’t get you.
The Devil is not real babes x
I pray you will be blessed with the beauty and burden of being female as all aspects of being a woman should be celebrated. BTW...your hair will disappear or grow lighter/thinner with age except in places that are noticeable such as face, ugh.
Your voice has come a long ways. Definitely feminine sounding.
will your voice ever sound like a girl again? can you have surgery done and does anyone think your really a dude based on your voice?
She could work with a vocal coach to manulaly redo the effects of testostrone
I’m a little older and I was never introduced to the whole gender concept until I discovered it online. I’m quite intelligent, yet I still don’t understand the concept, why it’s even useful etc. Everything I hear people describe as feminine or masculine aspects are literally what older people like me would call personality. Gender dysphoria was never a thing and girls who were particularly uncomfortable in there developing bodies would sometimes develop eating disorders. I totally understand why most of us older generations don’t like the whole gender ideology and it’s because it’s shallow and it forces people into boxes. It give a very negative view of being female also.
You're so attractive. It's unfortunate that if I heard your voice in the lockerroom I would think there were a guy in there until I saw you. Long live t#tomboys!
lmfao that’s literally not true on what would happen but ok!!
Detrans? For what? It is what it is. Dont go backwards, the clocks hands alway move forward...
Correct it is what it is! So I decided to move forward.
@@aliaxismail so you went from mtf and then back to male again? Why? You look great now as a female!!!
I transitioned mtf 5 yrs ago at age 50 and I'm not going back to testosterone. Never.i was miserable as a male.
@@jamestaylor5362 you’re confused, born female, transitioned to male, and now detransitioning.
@@aliaxismail but why though? Why don't you want to be your authentic self? Is it hard to find a partner? I've been mtf for 5 yrs now and haven't dated anyone. Just because you detrans doesn't mean now that guys will be flocking to you.
I’m confused what are you trying to turn into a man or woman?
You are beautiful please stay as a woman dont change please i love you
Is this a man hoping to become a women, I'm so confused 😫😫😱😱
This was a woman to a man back again to a woman
Damn this girl was so fine before she transitioned to a guy. I mean she still is pretty even now, but you can tell how the post transition has still most likely impacted her to the current time being. I'll never understand why people feel they have to be something they aren't. But that's just me I suppose. Hopefully the retransition goes smoothly though and everything works out.
Now she looks and sounds like a man.
Say “um” less. ❤️
Make a video, unedited, so I can criticize how you speak 💕
I blame schools, doctors and politics for confusing our children with that constructed gender identity crisis. After they created the drug crisis. Looks like an obsession about me, my gender, my body... NOBODY is Ever satisfied with their own body. There's always been people more feminine or masculine than they wished for, but they could live in peace and do what they wanted. Now, i just discover this gender crisis, and i m scared of the consequences in 10 years.
May God save Humankind. We could all be in peace but we always create problems: wars, drugs, racism, homophobie, confusions for the money gains of few.