Its funny how you speak about how Chris Cornell was such an inspiration and affected you so much even though you didn't know him personally.. you are that person to so many of your subscribers, including myself. I do not know you personally but I am so inspired by you and your strength. Keep on going, Jess. Be proud of yourself. All of us are!
I'm only 5 minutes in but I want to thank you for posting this update and sharing your thoughts, anxieties and the way your brain works. Even though you worry that you won't make sense, to me I understand so much and it helps to know I'm not alone with my bipolar. You're incredibly brave and strong to offer this up to the world. Light & love to you, Jess 💗
coming from a mum who has mental health problems etc. i totally understand the anxiety that comes along with being a good mum to your kids. i have been a mum for 12 years and they have been hard for me mental health wise. i have always worried the children would pick up on it or be effected by me not being so present as i want to be. i beat myself up a lot about it, however i have learnt to be honest to myself and my children. my oldest is a lot like me and im trying to really teach healthly awareness of emotions. she is learning to understand how she feels and how to talk to someone about it if needed. i have found i have two very intuitive children, caring and spiritual that if i had been well i dont think would of happened. i know it has made them more empathetic. i have made sure they never have to experience what i did as a kid. i was used as a scapegoat for everyone elses anger etc and really grew uo thinking it was my fault and i want worth it. therapy helped me to realise it wasnt my fault and ongoing therapy will be needed for a long time. you are doing awesome girl please keep doing what your doing it is helping because if you dont get it under control you will make your body very sick. i developed chrohns because of the amount of stress my body was going through. you remind me so much of myself if you ever need to talk please reach out im hear if needed x
Welcome back, I've missed you so much ❤ Thank you for letting your supporters be a part of your life and sharing with us your happy moments and your not so happy moments. I feel like you and maybe a select more are the only real youtubers. Your honest, your loving, your caring and your amazing. Your so strong Jess and I admire you. You may not feel like it sometimes but when your not feeling strong come back and read your fans comments. Thank you Jess thank you for being exactly who you are. I Hope your back to stay but I 100% understand and I will still be here no matter what. I love you Jess ❤❤
Jess, you have such a beautiful soul. I've been subscribed to you for years and years and although I haven't watched your videos for quite a while now, when you pop up on my feed I sit and can just listen to you talk for the whole thing; thank you for sharing your thoughts and it's crazy how much I'm relating to some of the stuff you're talking about. It's refreshing to hear someone talking some real shit as I know what you mean about finding it hard to film / watch make-up videos and the like when in the grand scheme of things it really has no significance whatsoever. Stay strong ❤️
You are doing all you can to help yourself right now and I send all my love to you. I understand feeling helpless and anxious from all the horrible things that have happened. It's terrifying. Channeling pain into creativity and singing is cathartic and I hope you can keep doing that. You are incredibly insightful and are building yourself up with any resources you can and I want to acknowledge you for that cause I know how damn tough that is to do. You deserve to use your voice, getting stuff off your chest is important and I hope things get brighter for you Jess, I've been a subscriber for 6/7 years now and your videos have helped me fight through my own mental health issues, and reminded me to use creativity against the negative thoughts.
You're an absolutely beautiful soul and I feel for you so strongly. You have to know that your art and your videos do make a difference and inspire those around you, and through your struggles I hope you can always remember that. I'm wishing you and Athena all the best, you're an amazing and caring individual and mother and I'm sending positive thoughts your way
I was diagnosed with bipolar shortly after my daughters first birthday. It's interesting to see how much I was drawn to people with mental health problems for 5 years iv been watching your videos and it's made a big difference for me. Thank you for posting!!
You're so lovely and strong as hell. ❤️ to you Jess. Anyone who has had the privilege to speak with you knows how great you are inside out. I wish you nothing but the best in the world.
Just keep the faith and know you are loved by many . Life has many hardships and each of us deal with it in our own way . You truly are a wonderful person with the very real issue of being human ! My heartfelt prayers to you for strength !
I definitely know what you're going through, as annoying as that is to hear, when each situation is different. Hang in there, Jess. You're a wonderful mother and human being. 💗
Y see both of my sons as angels to me. Depression, anxiety and so many more things. Our little angels helps us. They make it harder cause we have to just.. Hold on... But it's worth it. It is hard but we can do it. I'm sorry to hear all you've been trough but I'm glad to see how down to earth you are and you have just gotten stronger. I'm just proud of you.
I truely think you're the strongest person I've ever come across. You inspire me to keep fighting. I really hope you get the help you need from the NHS soon, I know the waiting can be a nightmare. I feel so much of what you have said about the events in the UK over the last few months. Just remember that for every person who doesn't value others there are thousands of people just like us.
I've really missed your videos. It's good to see your face. I was diagnosed with BPD a month or so ago so I relate to the self criticism, confidence and generally just feeling anxiety ridden about doing things that used to be second nature to me. I agree that self awareness is a double edged sword with mental health - ESPECIALLY when you are seeking therapy and help and it's out of your hands. You end up feeling so stressed because you know what you need. I'm only 5 mins in but everything you have said resonates with me so much. I think you are amazing and I think you should be proud of yourself for being this open. I'm not sure i could do it on such a big platform. I wish you all the happiness in the world and i hope your road to recovery starts to get easier and therapy benefits you the same way it seems to help me.
Thank you so much for your genuine thoughts and expressing such difficult but real emotion. In all of this I've definitely noticed your absence and I've been thinking about how you are. For me, with all of these senseless deaths, it really makes me feel bad with how consumed I am with my mental health. I'm conscious of how fragile life is, and how these people just have theirs taken away like that.. I feel guilty with my insecurities, day-to-day anxieties, and little obstacles.. they seem 'petty' or so small, and I should be thankful for the life I have right now while others don't have the opportunity to experience theirs.. I don't know. It's so hard. I feel like I also have just been eating, working, talking to my significant other who is far away from me, and then sleeping.. like everything is so mechanic and I haven't been able to really feel and process all that is going around me. :/ But this video has helped me. Honestly just now I've had a good cry with how you expressed your own thoughts and emotion because it's so relatable, and with the events that have happened I haven't fully let myself feel them, it's honestly helped me release some pent up emotion.
I relate to you so strongly, I've been soft my entire life and taken advantage of so much because of it, i have to put up a strong exterior to it's so tiring, I have also been through anxiety eating problems it really helps to know someone has the same struggles I am..❤️ Thank you so much Jess, so glad you're back! ❤️ We're strong together, Manchester🐝
I love you Jess you can do anything you set your mind too. It may be hard. I know how that feels. Some days can feel like a struggle, sometimes everyday feels like a struggle for awhile. But you are so strong we've all seen you overcome things before and you will triumph again. We are all here for you, you will always have support. So much love hun. You are never alone.
Side note talking about the pressure on your head, you should really try crystal healing it really has changed my life. I know you are into tarot cards which is also really helpful! They actually have tarot cards that coincide with a crystal that could help you with that area!
You are such a beautiful soul! I know this was a hard video for you to do, but it's good to let it out. I really hope you get the right help that you need soon. Nothing like battling your brain and having shit happening to add on top. Stay Positive and stay strong! Just think of all the things you have yet to experience with you daughter...you have a lot of excitement ahead of you 😊😊❤❤
Thank you for your honest opinion and for being true,I had the exact thoughts when the attacks happened why did I bring my daughter Into a world like this it's truly scary!
I understand this so much cause I suffer from insoma is one of the worse things possible but also scary. it's goes over n over where the demon comes from and how to deal with it. music is a release for many who suffer from mental health. what happened in Manchester should of never happed n it freak me out what next going happen . thank you for being honest Jess . I love the art video it heart warming and an eye opener that people to come together as one.
This is the first wave of cruelty in the world that our generation has had to experience and it's hard. You're definitely not the only person who's mental health is being adversely affected by everything that's going on. With me for especially I flat out don't want to believe that Grenfell happened, every time I think about it I get so angry and so frustrated about every single aspect of our society that allowed something like this to happen. And then I think I need to live in this world, there's not another option, there's not like a World.2 that's lovely and perfect that I can pop off to when I've had enough, I need to work in this one, find love and in the future have children in it, and enjoy my own life and it's just completely overwhelming. Completely overwhelming. Even for people who aren't suffering from other mental health issues, if you're a thinker then you're struggling right now. I've rambled on but basically you're not on your own in being affected
I have been following regular updates on Grenfell over on Instagram. There's so much still happening that they haven't spoken about on the news etc. If you have it, I suggest you check out djisla_ :) She has been updating the public on the flaws in the system, exposing the truth of how the survivors are getting on etc. She's done so much for the survivors, it's mind blowing. The way the community has come together for Grenfell is amazing but it makes me so angry that it's situated right next to the richest part of London and it's not being prioritised, there are people still in hotels scattered around and the building is still to come down/be covered up etc. It's awful, it breaks my heart that there's nothing that I can do and I am powerless. I totally understand how you feel when you talk about the overwhelming thoughts etc. I'm going through so much crap in my personal life and then on top of that, the news is full of death and disaster, war and greed, corruption and poverty... It most certainly makes us think and feel a sense of guilt that we are lucky enough to be in the country we are in but at the same time, we are numbers to the masses and as humans, we deserve to be free and choose our way of living.. but in this society, we can't all have that which is another stressor I believe on our generation. So many restrictions that most of us think we are incapable of reaching our goals and feeling content in all aspects etc. Could speak about it all day lol Thank you for watching, and I've started therapy now since filming this video :) I was pushed up because of my current circumstances and I already know it's going to be incredibly beneficial for me :) x
We can see and hear u fine, no worries! Glad ur friend convinced you to make this. I have what sounds like the same issue. Racing thoughts that work out great when I'm being funny etc. But sometimes when I'm trying to explain things I struggle to get the right words out or over explain things. Sucks that u guys seem to have such problems getting therapists. It makes me wonder if Americans are sicker or just better at complaining (jk on the latter I believe therapy is very important). Seems like we have a million therapists here the only reason I couldn't see one is if ur insurance won't cover it n u don't have the money. But a lot of states like the one I live in automatically give state insurance that will cover it if u can't afford it. Yes it definitely seems like life tests me a lot more than others for some cruel reason. Sorry you are struggling, thank you for sharing so the rest of us struggling don't feel so alone.
Its funny how you speak about how Chris Cornell was such an inspiration and affected you so much even though you didn't know him personally.. you are that person to so many of your subscribers, including myself. I do not know you personally but I am so inspired by you and your strength. Keep on going, Jess. Be proud of yourself. All of us are!
I'm only 5 minutes in but I want to thank you for posting this update and sharing your thoughts, anxieties and the way your brain works. Even though you worry that you won't make sense, to me I understand so much and it helps to know I'm not alone with my bipolar. You're incredibly brave and strong to offer this up to the world. Light & love to you, Jess 💗
coming from a mum who has mental health problems etc. i totally understand the anxiety that comes along with being a good mum to your kids. i have been a mum for 12 years and they have been hard for me mental health wise. i have always worried the children would pick up on it or be effected by me not being so present as i want to be. i beat myself up a lot about it, however i have learnt to be honest to myself and my children. my oldest is a lot like me and im trying to really teach healthly awareness of emotions. she is learning to understand how she feels and how to talk to someone about it if needed. i have found i have two very intuitive children, caring and spiritual that if i had been well i dont think would of happened. i know it has made them more empathetic. i have made sure they never have to experience what i did as a kid. i was used as a scapegoat for everyone elses anger etc and really grew uo thinking it was my fault and i want worth it. therapy helped me to realise it wasnt my fault and ongoing therapy will be needed for a long time. you are doing awesome girl please keep doing what your doing it is helping because if you dont get it under control you will make your body very sick. i developed chrohns because of the amount of stress my body was going through. you remind me so much of myself if you ever need to talk please reach out im hear if needed x
I'm happy to see you again
Welcome back, I've missed you so much ❤
Thank you for letting your supporters be a part of your life and sharing with us your happy moments and your not so happy moments. I feel like you and maybe a select more are the only real youtubers. Your honest, your loving, your caring and your amazing. Your so strong Jess and I admire you. You may not feel like it sometimes but when your not feeling strong come back and read your fans comments. Thank you Jess thank you for being exactly who you are. I Hope your back to stay but I 100% understand and I will still be here no matter what. I love you Jess ❤❤
You're amazing, stay strong.
Chris Cornell was indeed a huge talent and will be sorely missed
So fucking proud of you for finally posting this beautiful
Jess, you have such a beautiful soul. I've been subscribed to you for years and years and although I haven't watched your videos for quite a while now, when you pop up on my feed I sit and can just listen to you talk for the whole thing; thank you for sharing your thoughts and it's crazy how much I'm relating to some of the stuff you're talking about. It's refreshing to hear someone talking some real shit as I know what you mean about finding it hard to film / watch make-up videos and the like when in the grand scheme of things it really has no significance whatsoever. Stay strong ❤️
All that I can say is that I love you. Thanks for existing, Jess. Lot's of love for you and Athena!
So glad you're back. Means a lot to me
You are doing all you can to help yourself right now and I send all my love to you. I understand feeling helpless and anxious from all the horrible things that have happened. It's terrifying. Channeling pain into creativity and singing is cathartic and I hope you can keep doing that. You are incredibly insightful and are building yourself up with any resources you can and I want to acknowledge you for that cause I know how damn tough that is to do. You deserve to use your voice, getting stuff off your chest is important and I hope things get brighter for you Jess, I've been a subscriber for 6/7 years now and your videos have helped me fight through my own mental health issues, and reminded me to use creativity against the negative thoughts.
You're an absolutely beautiful soul and I feel for you so strongly. You have to know that your art and your videos do make a difference and inspire those around you, and through your struggles I hope you can always remember that. I'm wishing you and Athena all the best, you're an amazing and caring individual and mother and I'm sending positive thoughts your way
I was diagnosed with bipolar shortly after my daughters first birthday. It's interesting to see how much I was drawn to people with mental health problems for 5 years iv been watching your videos and it's made a big difference for me. Thank you for posting!!
You're so lovely and strong as hell. ❤️ to you Jess. Anyone who has had the privilege to speak with you knows how great you are inside out. I wish you nothing but the best in the world.
Just keep the faith and know you are loved by many . Life has many hardships and each of us deal with it in our own way . You truly are a wonderful person with the very real issue of being human ! My heartfelt prayers to you for strength !
I definitely know what you're going through, as annoying as that is to hear, when each situation is different. Hang in there, Jess. You're a wonderful mother and human being. 💗
I don't know you personally but I have love for you. You're an elemental force and I know you'll make it through the waves. 💙
Y see both of my sons as angels to me. Depression, anxiety and so many more things. Our little angels helps us. They make it harder cause we have to just.. Hold on... But it's worth it. It is hard but we can do it. I'm sorry to hear all you've been trough but I'm glad to see how down to earth you are and you have just gotten stronger. I'm just proud of you.
I truely think you're the strongest person I've ever come across. You inspire me to keep fighting. I really hope you get the help you need from the NHS soon, I know the waiting can be a nightmare. I feel so much of what you have said about the events in the UK over the last few months. Just remember that for every person who doesn't value others there are thousands of people just like us.
I've really missed your videos. It's good to see your face.
I was diagnosed with BPD a month or so ago so I relate to the self criticism, confidence and generally just feeling anxiety ridden about doing things that used to be second nature to me. I agree that self awareness is a double edged sword with mental health - ESPECIALLY when you are seeking therapy and help and it's out of your hands. You end up feeling so stressed because you know what you need.
I'm only 5 mins in but everything you have said resonates with me so much.
I think you are amazing and I think you should be proud of yourself for being this open. I'm not sure i could do it on such a big platform.
I wish you all the happiness in the world and i hope your road to recovery starts to get easier and therapy benefits you the same way it seems to help me.
Thank you so much for your genuine thoughts and expressing such difficult but real emotion. In all of this I've definitely noticed your absence and I've been thinking about how you are.
For me, with all of these senseless deaths, it really makes me feel bad with how consumed I am with my mental health. I'm conscious of how fragile life is, and how these people just have theirs taken away like that.. I feel guilty with my insecurities, day-to-day anxieties, and little obstacles.. they seem 'petty' or so small, and I should be thankful for the life I have right now while others don't have the opportunity to experience theirs.. I don't know. It's so hard. I feel like I also have just been eating, working, talking to my significant other who is far away from me, and then sleeping.. like everything is so mechanic and I haven't been able to really feel and process all that is going around me. :/ But this video has helped me. Honestly just now I've had a good cry with how you expressed your own thoughts and emotion because it's so relatable, and with the events that have happened I haven't fully let myself feel them, it's honestly helped me release some pent up emotion.
I relate to you so strongly, I've been soft my entire life and taken advantage of so much because of it, i have to put up a strong exterior to it's so tiring, I have also been through anxiety eating problems it really helps to know someone has the same struggles I am..❤️
Thank you so much Jess, so glad you're back! ❤️
We're strong together, Manchester🐝
Missed you!! Thanks for coming on again, but we understand. ❤️ You take the time you need.
I love you Jess you can do anything you set your mind too. It may be hard. I know how that feels. Some days can feel like a struggle, sometimes everyday feels like a struggle for awhile. But you are so strong we've all seen you overcome things before and you will triumph again. We are all here for you, you will always have support. So much love hun. You are never alone.
Side note talking about the pressure on your head, you should really try crystal healing it really has changed my life. I know you are into tarot cards which is also really helpful! They actually have tarot cards that coincide with a crystal that could help you with that area!
You are so lovely Jingle, I wish you the best of luck in everything you do.
WE LOVE YOU!
Sending good vibes Jess. Stay strong hun lots of love to you.
Never been so happy about a video jessssssss we miss you
You are such a beautiful soul! I know this was a hard video for you to do, but it's good to let it out. I really hope you get the right help that you need soon. Nothing like battling your brain and having shit happening to add on top. Stay Positive and stay strong! Just think of all the things you have yet to experience with you daughter...you have a lot of excitement ahead of you 😊😊❤❤
I love listening to you talk... idk why 💜
Thank you for your honest opinion and for being true,I had the exact thoughts when the attacks happened why did I bring my daughter Into a world like this it's truly scary!
You are so real and such an Amazing women and that’s why I LOVE watching your videos - you are so Beautiful! THANK YOU! for sharing ✌🏻And❤️
Me and you are literally on the same boat. I hope we reach our destination safely! xx
Yes Pray ! and I will for you Jess
I understand this so much cause I suffer from insoma is one of the worse things possible but also scary. it's goes over n over where the demon comes from and how to deal with it. music is a release for many who suffer from mental health. what happened in Manchester should of never happed n it freak me out what next going happen . thank you for being honest Jess . I love the art video it heart warming and an eye opener that people to come together as one.
Good to see you back Jess :)
The Easter egg euphemism spoke to my soul 🙌🏻💜
This is the first wave of cruelty in the world that our generation has had to experience and it's hard. You're definitely not the only person who's mental health is being adversely affected by everything that's going on. With me for especially I flat out don't want to believe that Grenfell happened, every time I think about it I get so angry and so frustrated about every single aspect of our society that allowed something like this to happen. And then I think I need to live in this world, there's not another option, there's not like a World.2 that's lovely and perfect that I can pop off to when I've had enough, I need to work in this one, find love and in the future have children in it, and enjoy my own life and it's just completely overwhelming. Completely overwhelming. Even for people who aren't suffering from other mental health issues, if you're a thinker then you're struggling right now. I've rambled on but basically you're not on your own in being affected
I have been following regular updates on Grenfell over on Instagram. There's so much still happening that they haven't spoken about on the news etc. If you have it, I suggest you check out djisla_ :) She has been updating the public on the flaws in the system, exposing the truth of how the survivors are getting on etc. She's done so much for the survivors, it's mind blowing. The way the community has come together for Grenfell is amazing but it makes me so angry that it's situated right next to the richest part of London and it's not being prioritised, there are people still in hotels scattered around and the building is still to come down/be covered up etc. It's awful, it breaks my heart that there's nothing that I can do and I am powerless. I totally understand how you feel when you talk about the overwhelming thoughts etc. I'm going through so much crap in my personal life and then on top of that, the news is full of death and disaster, war and greed, corruption and poverty... It most certainly makes us think and feel a sense of guilt that we are lucky enough to be in the country we are in but at the same time, we are numbers to the masses and as humans, we deserve to be free and choose our way of living.. but in this society, we can't all have that which is another stressor I believe on our generation. So many restrictions that most of us think we are incapable of reaching our goals and feeling content in all aspects etc.
Could speak about it all day lol Thank you for watching, and I've started therapy now since filming this video :) I was pushed up because of my current circumstances and I already know it's going to be incredibly beneficial for me :) x
I've been listening to The Day I Tried to Live a lot, it's sorta a depression song for me but also it's just a really great song
I pay for therapy now and see a marked difference in the quality of the service :) I love the yellow by the way
💖 sending love 💖
Love you, angelic
Love you so much ❤️❤️❤️
I love and appreciate you so much Jess I'm moving to Manchester on Saturday anywhere you would recommend? Xxxx
We can see and hear u fine, no worries! Glad ur friend convinced you to make this. I have what sounds like the same issue. Racing thoughts that work out great when I'm being funny etc. But sometimes when I'm trying to explain things I struggle to get the right words out or over explain things. Sucks that u guys seem to have such problems getting therapists. It makes me wonder if Americans are sicker or just better at complaining (jk on the latter I believe therapy is very important). Seems like we have a million therapists here the only reason I couldn't see one is if ur insurance won't cover it n u don't have the money. But a lot of states like the one I live in automatically give state insurance that will cover it if u can't afford it. Yes it definitely seems like life tests me a lot more than others for some cruel reason. Sorry you are struggling, thank you for sharing so the rest of us struggling don't feel so alone.
P.S. I fucking love the "not sponsored- I don't know who would sponsor this rambling"🤣 you're funny.
Oh, love
I feel like that all the time, like I'm being tested and I loose every single time
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bae. life wife goals.
You say 'like' a lot. Good video, I would like to see more of your art, like.
I just have to say I want the outro song 😊
You can start a gofundme to help pay for private therapy. x
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