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  • The Truth About My Bottom Surgery (SRS/Vaginoplasty)
    Male to Female Transition Update
    Instagram & Twitter: @_samanthalux
    this video was created with the intent to educate on lower surgery for transgender individuals. this surgery is deemed medically necessary for many reasons, not purely sexual reasons. this video focuses on aspects other than the sexual ones.
    hi everyone, yes... this is exactly what it seems lol. i wanted to make this video to help any of my trans sisters out there, or even anyone else that's curious, and give my honest experience having my gender-affirming surgery. i've kept some stuff to myself, and it really isn't fair- so here you go! let me know in the comments if you still have questions :)

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  • @_samanthalux
    @_samanthalux  4 года назад +562

    feel free to ask any (appropriate) questions! I love u guys thank u for the support 💓 Instagram: @_samanthalux

    • @marcusshaffer7814
      @marcusshaffer7814 4 года назад +29

      I'm trans and the cost is CRAZY!!! Would you recommend the bottom surgery despite the cost and if it gets botched? bc that's what I'm afraid of the most.

    • @_samanthalux
      @_samanthalux  4 года назад +89

      @@marcusshaffer7814 definitely don't choose a surgeon based on price! you only get one chance, pick a surgeon you trust with your life

    • @marcusshaffer7814
      @marcusshaffer7814 4 года назад +28

      @@_samanthalux ok I'm still in the closet but I'm planning for the future and ik I'm what I'm gonna get but like I'm still a little scared if the surgeries get botched

    • @The_Boogi3man69
      @The_Boogi3man69 4 года назад +2

      Are you single 😏

    • @marcusshaffer7814
      @marcusshaffer7814 4 года назад +11

      @@The_Boogi3man69 are you asking me

  • @emilyreed28
    @emilyreed28 4 года назад +1487

    Girl, I'm cis and I still worry a guy is gonna think i dont look good down there. The way people have decided a vaginal should look isn't the way the majority of women look. Your anxiety about your vaginal appearance is just part of being a woman. ❤ thanks for sharing your story. So intense. I cant believe how much you went through. I hope everything is going well with you physically, mentally, and emotionally. *new subscriber*

    • @gagifri2776
      @gagifri2776 3 года назад +1

      Star Gazing what is IG?

    • @606movedtonewchannelsaeyou5
      @606movedtonewchannelsaeyou5 3 года назад +1

      Gabi Fri Instagram

    • @gagifri2776
      @gagifri2776 3 года назад +3

      606 Hahahahahahahahahahah good to know 😅😅🤦🏻‍♀️

    • @beardiemom
      @beardiemom 3 года назад +67

      You said that a lot better than I did, but yeah, that feeling is probably a universal insecurity women have. xD

    • @Ashley-vr4qf
      @Ashley-vr4qf 3 года назад +12

      @@stargazing9342 that’s just creepy. If you have any queries or something... let them know here or something. But directly asking is just creepy

  • @Mayavhenry
    @Mayavhenry 4 года назад +1006

    Thank you so much for sharing! Resources like these with honest testimonials are SO important. Thank you for everything you do girl! ♥️

  • @Jiian
    @Jiian 4 года назад +1129

    Thanks for this. My girlfriend is trans and I am constantly worried about her mental state. This is helpful. I don't know if she is going to be a non-op type or not (don't really care), but I find this to be helpful insight.

    • @lanis57
      @lanis57 4 года назад +97

      *boyfriend...be real.

    • @aridoesntexist
      @aridoesntexist 4 года назад +502

      Alana Wells someone needs to take away your wifi 🙄

    • @Jiian
      @Jiian 4 года назад +383

      @@lanis57 I was being real, TERF

    • @gabe204
      @gabe204 4 года назад +60

      You have a boyfriend

    • @gabivichova6830
      @gabivichova6830 4 года назад +194

      Gabe stfu! geez

  • @DariaJane13
    @DariaJane13 4 года назад +645

    I couldnt relate more to you Samantha! From one trans youtuber to another, talking about it openly is so important and I loved the way you described the whole situation. Relatable af! Its funny cuz almost any girl has different complications down there post-op. I had to delay my flight with 3 weeks because they had to RE-insert the catheter due to an urethra inflamation. Even 2 years after surgery I struggle with a chronic UTI, but its not because of the surgery itself. It could happen to any other girl that used a catheter. Like you, I had to go to college 1 month after surgery and it was horror! I could barely sit on a chair, let alone walk normally. But I feel like these experiences we have make us unique, stronger, and they really show how much we can fight for our truth. I love you so much! ❤

    • @michell-natalycorona1565
      @michell-natalycorona1565 4 года назад +29

      Wow you ladies are strong AF

    • @Jerbies_Kimmers
      @Jerbies_Kimmers 3 года назад +22

      I couldn't even begin to imagine the trauma that you girls have to go through just to truly be who you have always been. I have huge admiration for you!! Much love and many Huggs😁💜

    • @Jackie-lj2ts
      @Jackie-lj2ts 3 года назад +2

      Hey girl! I don't know if you've tried it already, but D-mannose supplements have helped my chronic UTIs so much

    • @zoesmith1063
      @zoesmith1063 3 года назад

      Sugar is bad for UTI, I read somewhere online that drinking fruit juice will make you 5 times more likely to have UTI

    • @mimijansen3262
      @mimijansen3262 3 года назад

      @@zoesmith1063 except cranberry juice, that one actually helps with UTI

  • @ryannchristine1704
    @ryannchristine1704 4 года назад +215

    I've had the surgery... at the end of the day it is the most painful thing to put yourself through, mentally and physically. The surgery is all about commitment What you put into it is what you will get out of it. Just like anything in life.

    • @caterinas6863
      @caterinas6863 4 года назад

      Do you think it was worth it in the end ?

    • @banenabug3806
      @banenabug3806 4 года назад +11

      Im curious about this too. From a completely genuine standpoint. Do you feel better after? Has your mental state improved? How long ago was your procedure?

    • @amanesmoonrock
      @amanesmoonrock 3 года назад

      if you dont mind, were you ftm or mtf?

    • @valeriesanchez3074
      @valeriesanchez3074 3 года назад +6

      The worst would have to be dilating the wound frequently so the opening doesn't close.
      From stories I hear,
      It isn't very pleasant

    • @aprilrae6551
      @aprilrae6551 3 года назад +5

      I also heard that the wound(vagina) can become infected. It's probably healthier to keep what you have.

  • @rencogu2877
    @rencogu2877 4 года назад +89

    that sounded so painful but im so happy for you that you're all healthy and you've got what you wanted now!!

  • @microsofterror880
    @microsofterror880 4 года назад +314

    Being a good trans ally is always my intent, and I know that for some trans people they would rather not speak about this subject as it is their body, not the publics. So I'd just like to say thank you for being open about this to educate others on this topic through your experiences.

    • @Northstander
      @Northstander 4 года назад +16

      Likewise and video clips like this mean that anyone who we know who is trans can just mention the name of a procedure and we will understand what they are talking about. I have learned so much about gender reassignment from watching Samantha's videos, and my opinion is that greater knowledge and increased understanding is never a bad thing.

    • @MurdermiesteR
      @MurdermiesteR 4 года назад +6

      Try being a good person. Ally is a term of war that solidifies that you see them as an other you are willing to work with in the right conditions.

    • @pampe333
      @pampe333 2 года назад +2

      Never never change what GOD created on you...human beings can never never never have GOD'S Heavenly materials for your body and hell is real when you do it...cancer and slow painful smelly death. So be proud of who GOD created you to be Psalm 139. It's an insult to GOD but the devil will say it's good for you then laughs at you when your private part starts rotting and no doctor can fix it...never🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼.

    • @bellaxxi4116
      @bellaxxi4116 2 года назад

      @@pampe333 “private parts rotting” you bonehead the human body only rots when you die 🤦🏻‍♀️. You don’t have to post such nonsense.

  • @Roberta-ly9fw
    @Roberta-ly9fw 4 года назад +235

    This sounds intensely traumatic, sending love to you.

  • @kellyadams5128
    @kellyadams5128 3 года назад +152

    Girl, trust....even for a WHOLE LOT of women trans or not, its hard to get off. We are more mindful. Sex isn't just "thrust, pump, enjoy" lol. Seems like a lot of emotion and thoughts are all mingled in there. So you are not alone. Try some mindful yoga, it can help clear your mind. Good luck babe. You are gorgeous, funny, smart and sarcastic....you are perfection! 😘

    • @Rygir
      @Rygir 3 года назад +7

      It's not "thrust, pump, enjoy" by default for men either...first thing anyone needs is confidence! Second is the right mindspace. Otherwise non of the physicality matters.

    • @molly702
      @molly702 3 года назад +4

      I do not think that’s completely true, if it’s hard to get off someone is probably not doing the right things to make you feel good cause it’s not supposed to be like that. It makes me sad that women think that it has to be that way and that it’s tougher for them when the other person might not even know how to meet your needs, which deserve to be met and when they are it isn’t hard.

    • @humb1s3rvant
      @humb1s3rvant 2 года назад

      @@molly702 you all are talking about a "woman" who doesn't even have a real vagina! Okay, back to the internet, thank you very much dog darnit

  • @JessicaDK1996
    @JessicaDK1996 4 года назад +440

    I guess I’m feeling horrible as a CIS girl to hear what you had to go through just to feel and be who you were meant to be. You are so brave and beautiful. Also , I think a lot of women worry about what they “ look like down there” ..at least I have on occasion. We are all so different. Much love!💕

    • @apttmh494
      @apttmh494 4 года назад +33

      You're not a CIS girl, you're a girl, a REAL woman. You dont need to feel horrible about anything. They chose the delusion, not you.

    • @nataliemilburn2585
      @nataliemilburn2585 4 года назад +96

      Crikey! And if we look above we can see a transphobe in it’s natural habitat, the youtube comment section

    • @TheRubinator13
      @TheRubinator13 4 года назад +46

      @@apttmh494 woah no they did not!
      Just imagine you woke up the next morning in the body of the opposite sex, how would you feel? THAT is how they feel EVERY SINGLE MINUTE OF EVERY SINGLE DAY. I couldnt imagine being born a boy, im so happy to be born in the body i was in. I can only begin to imagine how incredibly horrible it must be to walk around every day feeling like you were born incorrectly. Their life is already incredibly hard and painful with out WILLINGLY IGNORANT people like you making it harder for them. Its hateful people like you that make this world so crappy to live in. They arent hurting anyone by being trans, let them be whatever makes them feel happy
      If you dont have anything nice to say, then shut the fuck up and don't say anything at all
      Trust me life is far better when you figure out that everyone has issues and we can all accomplish so much more by just supporting one an other instead of trying to break people down

    • @jazmynlawyer4959
      @jazmynlawyer4959 4 года назад +7

      I don’t think transgender women want you to guilty we all have difficulties and they differ from one person to another but we can all choose to be compassionate to each other

    • @Sebadoh1994
      @Sebadoh1994 4 года назад +4

      Jessica K I feel the same way and I’m also a CIS girl. We all worry about what our boyfriends are going to think, I get nervous that something will be wrong lol.

  • @simills7495
    @simills7495 4 года назад +332

    I truly can't believe why people are so anti trans...Try being anti - poverty, homelessness, war..any number of things..But not anti people feeling comfortable in our own bodies...Seriously, what is wrong with people in this world! :-(

    • @picklep9812
      @picklep9812 3 года назад +3

      I’ve been homeless and grew up poor. So don’t be anti anything.

    • @picklep9812
      @picklep9812 3 года назад +15

      Oh sorry I took that the wrong way...that’s interesting I saw that as instead of being against trans people be against poor people...maybe it was your wording or my brain or a combo 🌟

    • @orianamarquina6801
      @orianamarquina6801 3 года назад +10

      They are not comfortable. That's why they change everything about their bodies

    • @Sunshine-eq1kx
      @Sunshine-eq1kx 3 года назад +13

      Ironic how you said "own bodies" lol. when you change yourself to something you are not it's not really their "own body", no?

    • @heidiraitio8660
      @heidiraitio8660 3 года назад +13

      Whats wrong is men pretenting to be women🙄

  • @Angela1111122222
    @Angela1111122222 3 года назад +11

    I'm so glad there's education about being trans out there. I'm cis but I have lovely trans friends and I get so angry hearing old conservatives spewing complete nonsense. I really hope putting educating stuff out there will clear a bit of prejudice against trans people.
    You're amazing and so strong for sharing all of it!

  • @ofanichan
    @ofanichan 4 года назад +17

    I’m a trans woman and I’ve pretty much decided against bottom surgery, because you know... I don’t really see why personally. (Although everyone who does it is perfectly valid, and if it’s right for you, absolutely go for it!!!) But it’s so nice to see this video and hear your story, always nice to keep an open mind y’know? Thank you so much!

    • @nickmarble7226
      @nickmarble7226 4 года назад +5

      Cerulia yeah irreversible damage you can never get back don’t do it

    • @PGOuma
      @PGOuma Год назад +1

      @@nickmarble7226 that's the point

    • @CuteDeadGirl666
      @CuteDeadGirl666 7 месяцев назад

      @@PGOuma 😂😂😂😂😂 love you lmao

  • @juliahofman2861
    @juliahofman2861 4 года назад +242

    Anyone who things being transgender is a choice needs to talk to people who have to go through all this pain just to feel comfortable with their own body!

    • @miafranchetti8715
      @miafranchetti8715 3 года назад +32

      A lot of them regret it in later life

    • @doctorfuckmen
      @doctorfuckmen 3 года назад +34

      @@miafranchetti8715 sources please. Don’t spread bullshit k thx.

    • @miafranchetti8715
      @miafranchetti8715 3 года назад +3

      @@doctorfuckmen lol 😂 your jokes there are videos about it on RUclips just look it up idiot

    • @doctorfuckmen
      @doctorfuckmen 3 года назад +28

      @@miafranchetti8715 then send them. I’m not an idiot, you make a claim. You back it up. Don’t get offended because I ask for evidence for a claim YOU made.

    • @miafranchetti8715
      @miafranchetti8715 3 года назад +3

      @@doctorfuckmen the evidence is on RUclips just type in detransion story’s idiot

  • @mikhaellevin3353
    @mikhaellevin3353 4 года назад +178

    Thanks for sharing! I am FTM and I can’t imagine having bottom surgery. I would take the results in a second! I would spend any money I had in a second. I feel like some body parts yell “this is wrong” constantly. But the surgery part. There’s just so much of it involved below the waist. Like you explain, complications might not happen, but they might. You have to be mentally prepared for major surgery. I am not. Maybe I will be one day. I think you are brave. I think everyone who commits to these types of surgeries are brave. I think it is important to tell other trans people the truth because we can’t make good decisions without the truth.

    • @evoman44
      @evoman44 4 года назад +1

      Here is a good example of why not having surgery could be more of a blessing. ruclips.net/video/WwuRSS2whTg/видео.html

    • @brittaolson6550
      @brittaolson6550 4 года назад +12

      Yes, people should be talking about the reality, so everyone can weight their choices, themselves. The same goes for all surgeries. There is such a need for patient forums to discuss the process and results! I’m so scared about my upcoming hysterectomy, and deciding whether to get my neck fused. For example with the hysterectomy, I’ve heard some people say it completely ruined their sex lives, and others say they should’ve got it done way sooner because it improved. Reading those kind of accounts helped me decide decide which type of surgical procedure to have (which bits to let them take & which they should leave). But even with the neck surgery, there are a lot of people who say that was the start of the worst pain of their life, and others who say that it fixed their pain, and everything in between. It’s really rough to make those decisions!

    • @MurdermiesteR
      @MurdermiesteR 4 года назад +3

      Better off using a strap on.

    • @Ava-jy1rt
      @Ava-jy1rt 4 года назад +16

      @xxxtentacion and pewdiepie are bitches its not a choice... do you really think people would chose to be living in the wrong body?

    • @henryohana6349
      @henryohana6349 4 года назад +4

      I'm sure you don't mean to be, but this comment is transphobic. Trust me, we have thought DEEPLY about ALL the changes that will occur if we chose to have surgery. It is not something that is taken on lightly, usually years of thought have gone into it. Please don't try to persuade trans people to not have surgery. Just listen to them and support them in however they're feeling. You don't need to be the "devil's advocate" for us, we have a very active devil's advocate that lives inside of us.

  • @jocelynarias8940
    @jocelynarias8940 4 года назад +134

    I was so excited when I saw the notification I kinda cried

    • @_samanthalux
      @_samanthalux  4 года назад +26

      Jocelyn Arias heheheh don’t cry!

    • @buffylow68
      @buffylow68 22 дня назад

      @@_samanthalux New to your channel just glad to see you helping out your fellow trans that’s all!🤍❤️💕

  • @janold0808
    @janold0808 3 года назад +6

    Thanks for being so honest!!! It is probably really hard to go through everything you went through and it's a real testament to your strength that you can talk about the difficult times of your life so openly!!

  • @windowsxp7823
    @windowsxp7823 3 года назад +6

    I hope that in the future, the process becomes less painful and difficult, because this really sounds like hell, you need a lot of strenght to be able to go through this. You are very strong ♡

  • @kt114
    @kt114 3 года назад +4

    These kinds of videos are so important. I’m sure you were uneasy about putting something so personal on the internet but it’s important for other people thinking about getting the surgery to know what they’re in for. And also just for people to learn about life as a mtf trans woman. Doctors sometimes sugar coat things or don’t talk about certain important details so it’s good to get the account and perspective of someone that’s been through it. I’m sorry you had to go through such a difficult process but I hope ultimately it’s worth it. 💜

  • @natashaainscough1258
    @natashaainscough1258 4 года назад +145

    Omg I’m such a big fan !!
    And first !!
    And I’m also transgender so I’m so inspired and proud of you !!

  • @soumiu.8264
    @soumiu.8264 3 года назад +21

    I’m trying to binge on these videos to support/understand my trans best friend cuz I know he’s going through a lot. He’s feeling way better after cutting his hair and getting all the girly things gone from his wardrobe/coming out, but he’s preparing for testosterone and if any trans dudes have advice for me on how to be the most supportive and helpful person I can during his difficulties, it would be much appreciated ❤️❤️❤️
    By the way we’re both teenagers and I’m a straight girl, edit for grammar

  • @Maria-jl7ql
    @Maria-jl7ql 3 года назад +9

    I am not trans but I have to say how brave you are to go through this just to be who you really are. It sounds horrific but it sounds like it was worth it and you are happy! Stay beautiful xxxxx

  • @That_Woodland_Gardener
    @That_Woodland_Gardener 4 года назад +75

    YOU HAVE BEEN MISSED GIRL!! GLAD YOUR BACK 💛💛

    • @_samanthalux
      @_samanthalux  4 года назад +6

      Kylie Tanner ahhh thank u 🥰💓

  • @jayciekemp2135
    @jayciekemp2135 4 года назад +12

    You really inspired me sis. I'm not trans, but I've gone through some things recently. I keep coming back to this video because it reminds me to never give up, like you did. Thank you for sharing your experiences with us and reminding me to never give up. Love you

  • @nessajadexo
    @nessajadexo 4 года назад +31

    thank you so much for sharing! i plan on having my surgery in a few months and i'm trying my best to mentally prepare, this helps a lot

    • @_samanthalux
      @_samanthalux  4 года назад +4

      Good luck! 💓

    • @buffylow68
      @buffylow68 22 дня назад

      @@_samanthalux Not going to watch much of your content ordinary person just glad to see giving good advice to fellow trans reaching out to you reminds of my trans friends Torii and Nikki!🤍❤️💕

  • @maiawaive9566
    @maiawaive9566 4 года назад +8

    I think there is also an a very significant psychological impact when you have bottom surgery that is why surgeons normally require a psychological evaluation and a strong support system before they qualify you for bottom surgery.

  • @alec3823
    @alec3823 4 года назад +101

    sounds like a scary process. damn.

  • @jaymefunny7424
    @jaymefunny7424 2 года назад +7

    I thought SRS was supposed to cure dysphoria but instead it creates all new dyshorpia.

  • @QueerCripple
    @QueerCripple 3 года назад +9

    Thank you so much for this!
    My girlfriend really really wants bottom surgery, and due to health issues, would VERY VERY LIKELY have complications like the ones you mentioned here. In fact, her assumed recovery time would be a couple MONTHS, not weeks, because she just heals poorly from literally anything ever.
    She still CAN get it done, BUT she would need to prepare herself and her doctors for the PROBABILITY that every complication that can happen, WILL HAPPEN.

    • @ashleymariah841
      @ashleymariah841 3 года назад +1

      Look into doctor Christine McGinn! She is also a transgender woman and performs phenomenal surgeries.

    • @stuff1784
      @stuff1784 Год назад

      Then don’t do it

  • @paulamartinezdelucena9050
    @paulamartinezdelucena9050 4 года назад +7

    Girl, I got a breast reduction (which is obviously a lot less invasive than this) and I had 2 full months to recover and when I went back to doing things it was a struggle, IMAGINE getting back to regular life as soon as you did

  • @thevirgotay
    @thevirgotay 4 года назад +30

    why is this sounding a lot like how I felt after I had my baby girl. 😂 some stuff is a lot different obviously and maybe more traumatic but from the world dilation, how it was a process to heal down there, how I had that mental block for like the first 3 and half months after having, from me being scared it wouldn’t go back to normal (just normal for you) lol crazy. but I’m glad everything workout out!

  • @huneycream
    @huneycream 3 года назад +25

    I'm a cis female and I never knew the full extent that you brave ladies had to go through. I know it sounds immature (because it is) but I thought it was a simple snip & tuck type of procedure. I've been doing research and I'm glad to have come across this video to further educate me on this process. You are beautiful and brave for sharing and I wish you the best!💋

  • @jerrysmith2349
    @jerrysmith2349 4 года назад +26

    Wow, you're pretty. I saw your picture and thought, wow she's pretty. Then I read the description and thought, wow, she's pretty.

  • @Alex-pn2hn
    @Alex-pn2hn 4 года назад +3

    Surgery can be so scary. Im so glad you got through the complications! I can't imagine that pain 😭

  • @Urrelles
    @Urrelles 4 года назад +104

    That surgery is a huge gamble for anyone. Especially a male to female change.
    Your body treats it like a wound and will try to close it up constantly.
    Any surgery that involves moving nerve endings around is a unique special experience for each person.
    Some people will get lucky and say they have full feeling and sex is great etc etc. Others will completely lose sex drive like a castrated person. They will feel nothing or feel pain. What is felt is weak and unsatisfying.
    Nerve endings is NOT an area in the medical field that has been masters. Be warned.

    • @richardcabanas1360
      @richardcabanas1360 4 года назад +12

      Bruh I'm sorry but that sounds terrifying. I wish I didn't have to ever worry about shit like this. But I feel fucking terrible. Now more than ever. I wish I could just be myself without having to worry about this shit. Do I stay unhappy forever- or do I take a gamble on my feelings and this procedure?

    • @gauravmohore3034
      @gauravmohore3034 4 года назад +8

      @@richardcabanas1360 you can find happiness without playing with nature's laws

    • @Nour-ey5le
      @Nour-ey5le 4 года назад +19

      @@gauravmohore3034 unfortunately, that's incorrect

    • @JoeyXJameson
      @JoeyXJameson 4 года назад

      😢

    • @transgoddess31
      @transgoddess31 4 года назад +13

      I'm not getting a sex change as a ts woman. Being a woman socially is enough for me

  • @fragileasglass3192
    @fragileasglass3192 4 года назад +6

    There's something i've always wondered: After SRS, you have to dilate for the rest of your life? or is it only for a certain period of time and then you just can live without dilating at all?

    • @michaelifecent7901
      @michaelifecent7901 4 года назад +1

      You have to dilate, everyday or once a week to maintain the depth, or else it would be not that deep or even worse it well be close.

    • @speeeee35
      @speeeee35 4 года назад +1

      It is technically an open wound so it will try to close up if you don’t dilate. But as she said in the video you do ween off of having to do it in most cases... though of course everyone is different. I had a friend who couldn’t even get piercings bc her body would try so hard to heal it that it would literally push it out.

    • @sylviaswayne
      @sylviaswayne 4 года назад +5

      Drats Smithsonian it’s not an “open wound” except for when it’s healing (as with any major surgery; my mom had an “open wound” on her foot when she had her tendon fixed). Once it’s healed, you dilate because the surgery involves creating a gap for the neovaginal canal between two pelvic muscles that normally touch each other, and dilating keeps those muscles separated. It’s true that, while healing, you can permanently lose depth by not dilating, but once healed, most lost depth from not dilating can be regained by gradually dilating and re-training those muscles to separate. The “open wound” thing is a myth and makes the surgery sound more barbaric than it actually is. I know you don’t mean to perpetuate that, just wanted to let you know! 💕

  • @darkprince56
    @darkprince56 4 года назад +3

    I can't imagine the horror and I would not be able to go through with it, personally. Whether it be F to M or M to F surgery. I've seen videos of these surgeries and it's horrific. I hope you heal and that you never have any complications.

  • @beanj580
    @beanj580 Год назад +3

    I think what troubles me is that this was covered by insurance, yet I wouldn't mind some elective procedures myself. Hey, maybe even on my vag. I mean childbirth does change your anatomy, but we would certainly have to pay for that. Even facial feminization surgery is covered for trans women, yet natural born women can have just as much mental anguish from aspects of their face, but no we must pay for it

  • @elliecambrige8935
    @elliecambrige8935 4 года назад +7

    I look up to you so much for being able to share with us this experience. I can't imagine how hard it must’ve been. Your amazing! ❤️

  • @stonefreews
    @stonefreews 4 года назад +4

    Wow... I had my surgery at the beginning of March this year right before the COVID-19 situation escalated in the US. Fortunately I haven't had any issues yet. Dilating has become almost like a part time job. Working from home has helped. It's interesting to hear how different surgeon's have different requirements. There's no 2nd stage operation for me unless some complication occurs requiring a revision. Congrats on getting through it all. All the best...

  • @sagwa1985
    @sagwa1985 3 года назад

    I've never seen something this honest before. Thank you for opening up your life to us and providing an outlet for people who are going through the same thing.

  • @garyallen1473
    @garyallen1473 4 года назад +3

    Thank you so much for sharing. As more and more people are accepting of who they are and wanting to be genuine with themselves, advocates such as yourself help them learn and prepare for possible changes in their life.

  • @suffak8
    @suffak8 3 года назад +2

    Samantha, I know this vid is about 8 months old so please forgive me, I’m a new subscriber to your channel. First, I want to tell you thank you. I am a cisgender woman in my mid(late) 30s with young child, and your channel has educated me and helped me to educate my child about transgender humans, and helped me normalize this conversation in my home. I’ve learned things that I may not have learned otherwise about trans people, which allows me to accurately educate and teach compassion and acceptance to my child, and that is a gift that will carry hopefully generations into the future, and create loving, accepting people down the line. You have impacted the future of me and my child forever, in such a positive way. Thats pretty profound ❤️ I just adore watching you, you are funny, super smart, wise as an owl, and beautiful. Thank you so much for what you do ❤️❤️ much love 💕

  • @starrysmile7646
    @starrysmile7646 3 года назад +3

    You're opening your heart and telling difficult stuff to help other trans women and to bring information and how it was for you , congratulations Samantha

  • @makaylatherrian5944
    @makaylatherrian5944 3 года назад +1

    I just started watching her about two days ago and I really appreciate her views and explanations of the lgbtq community. So many people in that community have dramatized it so much. My mother dated a woman for four years and they both raised me. It make me respect her so much that she looks at this as who she is and isn’t loud and dramatic, not saying everyone in the community is like this but many Lgbtq influencers are. Thank you for showing people that this is not a choice and that your whole life does not revolve around your identity physically but rather as who you are inside. It’s so nice to watch someone who understands this is simply a part of them, not everything they are.

  • @emilycheshire
    @emilycheshire 4 года назад +7

    So I rarely watch your channel, but anytime I come back, you are just evolving to be a better and better woman.
    You are always so pretty, I envy it, because, you are just so amazing. You are such an inspiration!

  • @JawslinJabers
    @JawslinJabers 4 года назад +21

    Wow. That would make me panic hard core. The second go around I'd be telling the doctors I'm going to need a 100% guarantee that everything's going to work right and I'm going to need it in writing in triplicate from all of them and to swear on the bible on public TV that it will work. Lol. But that's me. The last time I saw the dentist they said they were going to numb my gums. I said no you're going to knock me out I don't care if you have to use a frying pan! You have some major guts. Hats off to you.

  • @KobiLightRacing8
    @KobiLightRacing8 3 года назад +7

    I’m 13 and I’m very nervous on telling my parents that I’m coming out as trans and I really want to. But I’m afraid they’ll not support me and I’ll make them sad.

    • @Cosmiccaturn
      @Cosmiccaturn 3 года назад +2

      I wish you the best of luck dude! I understand your concerns but you’ll have so many people supporting you no matter what :)

    • @gidivibes
      @gidivibes Год назад

      Don't do it!!! And do not let them corrupt your pure soul. The Bible says you are beautiful and fearfully made and also in the image of God. Your parent will also be upset and you don't want that. They are there to protect you. Please do not let them down. I pray God to protect you with his light. Amen

  • @jamescottrell8578
    @jamescottrell8578 4 года назад +2

    I served in the Marine Corp and have seen shit, but I actually cringed at your story. Strength and Courage are great if your fighting for your country. You fought yourself and you are probably one of the bravest warriors I've heard of. Thank you for sharing your story.

    • @jamescottrell8578
      @jamescottrell8578 4 года назад +1

      On a side note, your stunning. Don't tell my wife. Lol

  • @Carlita7054
    @Carlita7054 4 года назад +5

    Her voice has changed so much omg, you’re so cute 🥺

  • @kitiaraengland3860
    @kitiaraengland3860 3 года назад +2

    Honestly you didn't have to even give your experience, but you did so for the curiosity and education of others and I thank you, I have one confirmed mtf friend and one who is questioning, this will help me explain to my questioning friend since they asked me the other day. We are in high school and I appreciate being able to learn more and understand my friends better.

  • @marciwhitton6351
    @marciwhitton6351 4 года назад +5

    Oh I'm so sorry to hear about your experiences, I came out of surgery with no depth probably due to a bowel perforation, this was almost a year ago. And reaching climax is really hard to get sometimes but I am learning to accept now what I do have, with no regrets but I am not sure how I will ever have a close relationship with someone again so I guess that a fair percentage of us will have to deal with some challenges after having surgery, be strong girl we are so much more than that.

  • @jefferyneu3915
    @jefferyneu3915 3 года назад +1

    I respect your bravery being open with these sensitive issues! Thank you for giving us a better chance to understand!

  • @jedwardfanxox6
    @jedwardfanxox6 4 года назад +13

    Girl your eyes are so beautiful oh my dayssss

  • @JavierTorres-py6rp
    @JavierTorres-py6rp Год назад +1

    I am so sorry you went through this- from not trusting your "born-with" identity to the struggles of being a "female" (in my mind, you never will be a real woman but, that's me) and dealing with whatever you deal with today. Just know, it was YOU all along that did this to you. No one else. I hope someday you are fully dilated, happy, free and with the person you love. But, that is a long shot...as you will find out. NOT hating. Just old and know life.

  • @studioqueen4902
    @studioqueen4902 4 года назад +3

    Thank you so so much for being so confident and so beautiful. I’m a trans girl and you are one of the people who allow me to be ok in my own body!

  • @timothywalker3299
    @timothywalker3299 4 года назад +2

    You are so brave being so open about your transition. You have had some really rude questions. I personally think you are great for doing this.

  • @lestupidunicorn
    @lestupidunicorn 3 года назад +5

    this is the first video of yours i ever watched and im gonna be honest: i clicked because you're cute af and now that id been staring at you functioning for 11 minutes youre one of the most beautiful women id ever seen so my question is How

  • @liz9843
    @liz9843 3 года назад +1

    Thank you for being so open about your experience.
    Though I haven’t had the same experience, I’ve had a 3rd degree tear from childbirth, and I can’t imagine having to “dilate” after an experience like that! You are a very strong woman!

  • @Baker19911
    @Baker19911 2 года назад +4

    1st world problems.. it’s a luxury’s for gender to be a issue. Most people on earth are looking for there next meal while in America people are upset at “wrong pronouns”

    • @raam1666
      @raam1666 2 года назад

      It's no luxury

    • @JustAHuman101
      @JustAHuman101 2 года назад

      Because those "wrong pronouns" make people feel uncomfortable and depressed. Think before you speak.

    • @Baker19911
      @Baker19911 2 года назад

      @@raam1666 what’s worst someone getting your pronoun wrong or starving to death.? Wake up

    • @Baker19911
      @Baker19911 2 года назад

      @@JustAHuman101 like I said . first world problems. Half the world is starving to death and Americans are so sentsitive and privledge they get depressed when others don’t play along to there delusion

    • @JustAHuman101
      @JustAHuman101 2 года назад

      @@Baker19911 Because it genuinely harms them. As a trans person, it's not easy. Dysphoria leads to depression and anxiety. It's not that fricking hard to call someone by correct pronouns, it literally doesn't take any time. I think you're just lazy.

  • @MGC-XIII
    @MGC-XIII 3 года назад +1

    What an amazing time we live in where we're able to perform surgeries like these.
    I can imagine a future with easier transitions and it truly becoming part of the norm.
    Your videos are so insightful.
    I am getting so many questions answered here.

  • @MattWesss
    @MattWesss 4 года назад +5

    Hey Sam,
    Thanks for sharing this information and being so open and honest about it. I can imagine that it must be very hard sometimes to go through the pain and not knowing what to expect.
    But i think you have a very brave and strong personality to have made it this far. You can be proud of yourself if you ask me.
    Thanks again and stay safe & healthy girl 😘

  • @reina7201
    @reina7201 6 месяцев назад

    I am currently 4 days recovering from this surgery and just listening to your story makes me not feel alone cuz I’m having a hard time coping with all of the pain. (P.S - even before I physically started transitioning you have been my IDOOOOL! ❤)

  • @jaimcc6029
    @jaimcc6029 4 года назад +27

    You’re awesome. Don’t forget that sis

  • @craig3612
    @craig3612 4 года назад +1

    Thank you so very, very much for being candid and direct about this surgery. It sucks that it was so difficult for you but I feel like most people wouldn't bother to warn the rest of us.

  • @kittykaysworld
    @kittykaysworld 3 года назад +7

    Im 2 days post op & im literally just here in my room tryna watch as many videos as possible. My experience was completely opposite & everything went flawless my vagina doesnt even look swollen

    • @MinisterRedPill
      @MinisterRedPill 2 года назад

      You don't have a vagina. Silicone and plastic isn't real.

    • @stuff1784
      @stuff1784 Год назад +1

      Let’s give it time 😵‍💫

    • @kidabear782
      @kidabear782 Год назад

      Is it still complication-less?

  • @TornadoCreator
    @TornadoCreator 4 года назад +1

    It's videos like this that open up the experience to others who don't know what to expect. I am finding I'm identifying increasingly as a conservative libertarian and I am often at odds with the trans community who will label me a bigot for the slightest of things; something I've come to expect from the hateful authoritarian aspects of the political left. They'll preach tolerance and diversity until it comes to diversity of thought... but I don't want to talk about them. I want this to be a positive comment.
    It's very easy to get wrapped up in the political arguments and forget the very real extremely personal aspects of the trans struggle. You sharing your story gives us all a chance to empathise with you. When I see you talking like this I don't see a boy in make up, changing their gender just to score identity points, or some screaming entitled person shouting about dozens of made up gender identities. Rather, I see a woman. A genuine real woman. Someone who's struggled to become one, but has nevertheless become a beautiful feminine inspirational woman and one I'm glad to have the opportunity to watch. Thank you for sharing. When the politics gets to be too much I seek out channels like yours, to remind me why I'm an egalitarian. When I find myself angry at the trans community for the offensive crap I see coming from it, I try to instead focus on something simple instead. We're all human deep down, and when someone can share something as intimate as the reconstruction of their vagina online, so that others can understand the struggles they go through, it's humbling and it puts all the other petty bullshit into perspective.
    Thank you again. I'm glad you're feeling happier in your skin.

  • @justlaurenslife4736
    @justlaurenslife4736 4 года назад +6

    You're so beautiful ❤ I did have a little giggle when you said "it was harder to get there" welcome to being a fully fledged woman hehe xxxx

  • @Rachel-pl5rk
    @Rachel-pl5rk 4 года назад +1

    I'm so glad this is here for ppl wanting to do this surgery, I'm neither against it or for it, and when your an adult, your free to do what u wish. But I've seen so many things aimed at young trans ppl saying oh 2 weeks down time, oh no big deal, but literally every person I've ever seen that's done it can explain the reality. It's a hard choice, the trans issue is a complicated thing indeed, and I do think transitioning is the answer for some while not for others, it's just all about individual decisions. But.. but.. to keep ppl informed, again, thanks. And from a lady.. girl, explore yourself, figure out what feels good by yourself, then you can teach them what u want. It's what all girl have to do, your just slightly late to the party. But have fun with your body, enjoy it, esp if you've healed and all good, go on a wonderous exploration! 🤣

  • @GoPinkcom
    @GoPinkcom 4 года назад +10

    Oof girl you always make the videos some people are afraid to make! You’re so inspiring!

  • @simills7495
    @simills7495 4 года назад +1

    I think that not only are you very brave, but also talking with such candour about your surgery. I'm almost 48 and trans but haven't had any surgeries (hoping that will be possible) yet and the UK gender clinics are working off data from the 80's and 90's and their approach and refusal of treatment for people that aren't fully out yet is soul destroying...
    Thank you again, Samantha

  • @sadscientist9995
    @sadscientist9995 3 года назад +5

    Surgeries, hormones, treatment etc… you really have to have a wealthy family to go thru trans transition young.

    • @MinisterRedPill
      @MinisterRedPill 2 года назад +1

      Annnd, that's nobody's fault but his. He did it to himself.

  • @precooked-bacon
    @precooked-bacon 4 года назад +1

    This is very real, and I'm sorry you had to go through it. How you are born, that area being touched for a 'surgery' for a 'correction' has to be tough. if someone decides to not do bottom surgery it's completely understandable.

  • @Den57701
    @Den57701 4 года назад +4

    I've been watching your videos now for a month.. I've grown to really like you and your videos you are very very gorgeous and i love how open you are about your transition I'm not trans but it's nice to learn more about it! You are a really strong woman and i literally would have never known, you look really good!! God bless sending love and prayers your way girl!!

  • @camrynnford1907
    @camrynnford1907 3 года назад

    I'm so sorry your recovery was so difficult. I know what it's like to have surgery wounds take months to heal and having to keep up with cleaning and bandages and complications etc, which in no way compares to what you went through, but the fact that your heal site was also in a place you couldn't see and you were unfamiliar with is completely terrifying. I'm so happy that it all worked out in the end

  • @barbara8497
    @barbara8497 4 года назад +15

    You look so cute! I wish my hair was that perfect and shiny!

  • @phirerising
    @phirerising 3 года назад +1

    Major surgeries scare the crap out of me, and I know a lot of cis women have commented, but trans men also worry about what they look like down there sometimes. (Esp pre-bottom surgery)

  • @melodystrong2114
    @melodystrong2114 4 года назад +9

    As a trans female myself, (and lesbian), I found this VERY informative! I am still about a year or so away from being able TO have my bottom surgery, but finding seriously GOOD info, is hard, so THANK YOU, for this. I now have a better idea of what I MIGHT expect. Plus, I'm older, so not sure how it will all go, but... The facial reconstruction, I hear is horrid, too, however, that, and the top/bottom surgeries, are what I need to feel complete with myself.

  • @doyuning
    @doyuning 4 года назад

    lord i just discovered your channel and i'm ftn and honestly it helps soooo much to just hear someone talk about their journey, you're really inspiring 💖

  • @mandyduff5651
    @mandyduff5651 4 года назад +4

    Thank you so much for being open about this! Like, I only just started my transition this year and bottom surgery has crossed my mind, not as something I NEED to do necessarily, but just as a possibility. I think the fact that I don't feel an overwhelming need to get the surgery or really even think about my genitals that often means that I won't go through the trouble myself. I still have so much admiration for people who are brave enough to go ahead with it and it's just amazing to hear their perspective so like, thanks for going into those details. I found this super helpful. Also, I just discovered your channel and love your content so far. Keep it up, queen! 💖

  • @StewKelly
    @StewKelly 3 года назад

    What a harrowing and traumatic experience Samantha. I am glad you have healed and have remained strong through the whole experience! I am sure many others have benefited from your sharing.

  • @davehooper4498
    @davehooper4498 3 года назад +3

    There's no way you can tell you was once a man. Your beautiful. It's amazing what can be done

    • @candle1955
      @candle1955 3 года назад +12

      She was never a male. Science shows trans women have female brains from birth. She just looked like a man.

    • @bigbawlzlebowski8886
      @bigbawlzlebowski8886 3 года назад +3

      @@candle1955 biologically she is still male. So she was in need a Man

    • @candle1955
      @candle1955 3 года назад

      @The King of Simps That made her a female who looks like a male, not a male.

  • @nalinighode8630
    @nalinighode8630 4 года назад +2

    I'm not a trans but the way you are dealing with your hardships and at end of day being yourself just the way you want to that makes me Adore you and I feel so proud of you. Love you and keep going 💜💜💜💜💜💜💜

  • @katiearmstrong4418
    @katiearmstrong4418 3 года назад +4

    she’s so pretty omggg

  • @liamdinogirl3462
    @liamdinogirl3462 4 года назад

    I was so worried in the first half thank God it all turned out alright! I'm happy that you're feeling better, and it seems like you're in a much better mental state. I hope you continue to do well, and thank you for making this educational video.

  • @amazonglamazon6633
    @amazonglamazon6633 3 года назад +3

    I appreciate your brutal honesty!! 💖✨

  • @phuti5875
    @phuti5875 4 года назад +3

    How can anyone thumb-down this?
    Stop hatin! Start lovin!
    I'll be prayin

  • @fravineas
    @fravineas 3 года назад +24

    she prob got swollen because of the plane not being pressurised properly :(

    • @arpitsri9631
      @arpitsri9631 3 года назад

      Hi can we share whatsapp number for

    • @nabeeljaved1742
      @nabeeljaved1742 3 года назад +3

      Omg it sounds so scary and painful jesus ..

    • @DoctorSib
      @DoctorSib 3 года назад +5

      I've heard that from several people who have flown after surgeries that the pressure can be a problem...even when I got a tattoo on my foot in Phoenix and flew back, it was pretty swollen. I think that's why they get worried about pregnant women flying too...

  • @sophileh6185
    @sophileh6185 3 года назад

    I know it’s hard to talk about taboo anxieties and it’s so hard to share it with the world. You are so strong and beautiful. Mad support 💙

  • @wardiya3arbiya
    @wardiya3arbiya 3 года назад +10

    I'm a woman not a cis whatever. I'm a woman period

    • @arcanevoid9199
      @arcanevoid9199 3 года назад +3

      do you know what cis means?

    • @unfortunate_bee
      @unfortunate_bee 3 года назад +4

      If ur not cis then ur trans lmao

    • @wardiya3arbiya
      @wardiya3arbiya 3 года назад +8

      Trans women are called trans.if you born woman you are simply a woman. No need to add silly sounds. At least in the majority of the world. For your little world you can make up any new meaningless nouns, pronoun or other Speach parts, like any buffon. For the rest of us, this is not necessary; a woman is a woman. Whoever was a man and changed sex is a trans woman, short for trans. We are not gonna bend to your tyranny.

    • @wardiya3arbiya
      @wardiya3arbiya 3 года назад +5

      @@peachsoda8701 you are the trans. This is how the rest of the world call you. You are the new thing trying to confirm itself in the world, you can use whatever name you like. Women are always existed and they are called women.

    • @wardiya3arbiya
      @wardiya3arbiya 3 года назад +6

      @scarlet roberts biological sex doesn't need extra word. Woman and man, that biological. trans is added when something went wrong

  • @vrku9979
    @vrku9979 4 года назад

    Your whole transition terrifies me terribly. Not only because of physical pain, but also because of mental pain. I feel so sorry that transsexuals have to go through this to be who they feel they are. But , I am glad that the abilities of today's doctors are so far that they can correct mistake of nature. Even though I'm not a transsexual, thank you for your videos because they help me understand the feelings of transsexuals.
    And I was wondering if I'm able to have a relationship with a transsexual girl. And after watching your videos, my answer is absolutely yes! Having a person by your side who can overcome all these problems is a life's win! You are extremely strong person. And I admire your openness and sincerity
    so much. I wish you good luck and not only you, but actually all those who have to go through this difficult life journey. BTW Your eyeliner, shadows and eyebrows are on fleek! You look awesome! 💓
    Jacob

  • @mistytaylor8166
    @mistytaylor8166 4 года назад +4

    Wow you are so gorgeous, I was born a woman, but girl your rocking it and looking so beautiful. I am very envious of you!!! Much love ♡

  • @Spriglithika
    @Spriglithika 2 года назад

    Oh my gosh. This was so wonderful, and honestly, hearing your reasoning at the end - I feel so validated. I am so glad you posted this in spite of the nerves!

  • @whthndrn4516
    @whthndrn4516 4 года назад +14

    Hey I'm a trans girl who has also had had bottom surgery and I find it really hard to date and find someone who wants to be with a trans girl who has had the surgery. Most guys either tell me their not interested because I've had the surgery or they want to date cis women instead. Im 100% passable (I know the trans community hates that term but it is what it is) and I get hit on all the time but when guys find out I'm trans or don't have that extra junk in trunk I never hear from them again. Where did you meet your BF and how do you date? I like to here other girls experience that have had the surgery because our experience varies a little bit from girls that have had the surgery. Thanks Love your videos and especially your storytimes

    • @barnyard835
      @barnyard835 4 года назад

      Think you have to be good looking as Samantha to date guys...🤔👀😁

    • @barnyard835
      @barnyard835 4 года назад

      @AmloGaming you need a brain MRI scan...not all trans are hot you silly dork..😒😷

    • @idiomatic444
      @idiomatic444 3 года назад

      @@barnyard835 it's all up to personal taste mate

    • @funkyfresh2053
      @funkyfresh2053 3 года назад

      @@barnyard835 dude whats wrong with you? Thats so fucking rude

  • @raymulvey9244
    @raymulvey9244 2 года назад

    Seems like a long and complex journey that you’ve handled with profound maturity and courage. Congrats on your success and messaging to others!

  • @notactuallywill3620
    @notactuallywill3620 3 года назад +6

    Anyone know if Vulvaplasty is better than this in terms of recovery? I want to be in less pain.

  • @kparish05
    @kparish05 3 года назад

    I think you summed up all the anxiety and worries and daily life in addition nicely - “It was a lot”. Thank you for sharing. The unknown and worries are some of the worst.

  • @BiNy26
    @BiNy26 4 года назад +3

    Omg, I just found you, and giiiirl, you're so cute, beautiful both inside and out, just such a nice person from the first glance! Subscribing rn, and wishing you all the best and no more health issues anymore! ❤️

  • @jenb7756
    @jenb7756 2 года назад +1

    Thank you for sharing! Recovery sounds brutal but glad that you are happier!