My Active Fentanyl Addiction//Withdrawal Update
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- Опубликовано: 16 сен 2024
- Hi everyone!
As I said before, I would keep you in the loop and film the process of me coming off of fentanyl. Well, this past few months has been a rollercoaster to say the least! I feel slightly more stable now but I’m still finding it incredibly difficult and especially as I had planned to be but life doesn’t always go as planned. I feel confident I will get there in time though.
Thank you so, so much for watching! It means more than you know 💕💕
Was addicted to opium and black tar for 15 years ( 15 to 30) and your story is mind blowing in comparison with the withdrawals. You’re really one tough lady. Hope you got through to follow your heart.
I didn’t know someone could look so beautiful going through Fentanyl w/d!! 😊😊 I wish there was a magical word to help but there isn’t. You honestly just have to embrace the suck each and every day and understand that the higher we fly the harder we fall so to speak but it does get better each and every day your fighting. Your best friend is TIME just don’t give up even if u have some bumps to overcome!! I was a addict for 10 years and I’m coming up on 3 years sober. It’s so possible if u really want it!! I hope u reach your goal sooner then later but the more u try keeps it all possible in time.
Thank you so much! I know what you mean and it’s massively tough at times. I’m confident I’ll get through to the other side even with all the bumps in the road. That’s amazing that you are almost 3 years sober 💕
@@amieelizaa You got it pretty girl!!💪💪💯💯
Oh you poor darling. I can't IMAGINE what a withdrawal from fent would feel like.
I was a big massive junky for years, getting clean was honestly the hardest I've even done. I know the battle and the struggle your facing.
I can't say anything that will make or better, but I can tell you that it's so, so worth it. I'm so sorry this happened to you 🖤🖤
So glad to hear how well you’re doing now though! You’re right, it’s horrible. I know it’ll be worth it on the other side but it’s so rough now. Thank you for your kind words 💕💕
Stay strong mentally and stick to your plan of slowly reducing the dose. You will come out stronger on the otherside. Man I struggled with drink and coke addiction for the best part of a decade, literally turned my world upside down.
Thank you for your lovely comment! It’s full of ups and downs but I do slowly feel like I will get there. I’m glad to hear you’re on the other side of things now!
I used to be addicted to m3th.. and was using the n33dle now I understand what you’re going through I really do and I’m so proud of you you’re amazing
@@destinycritcher3527 thank you so much for your kind words! Glad to hear you’re on the other side 💕
Also do not under any circumstances go anywhere near suboxone i was on 8 mg for 2 years and the nhs made an error with the script and said it could not be rectified for 3 or 4 days so i decided to go cold turkey it was horrific did not sleep for a month and the restless legs drove me insane it will get better keep going your a warrior
I’ve not heard of people getting it often over here. Nothing I’ve ever been offered. But that sounds horrible! Thank you 😊
We get it here it’s under a different name buprenorphine/ it used to be able to be abused but it has a point where you can’t take any more there’s a ceiling where the affects stop so it can’t be abused . It’s an alternative to methadone x
These kind of sweeping, generalized comments aren’t helpful. Suboxone is a vital tool for millions of people. Just because your care provider didn’t know how to prescribe it doesn’t mean that everyone shouldn’t try it. Spending a couple months on suboxone to **easily** come off off extreme opiates is a lot better and a BREEZE compared to cold turkey. I’m sorry you had a doctor that didn’t know what they were doing but for many it’s a godsend.
Brave, so brave. Any person who can beat Mme Morphine dessrves praise and support. Im 20 yrs in, every day is a delicate balancing act, measuring, cutting pills in quarters and keeping the habit under control, always aware the pain is still there, worrying about the future pain control without opiates. Once the dr thinks you're addicted, they cut u off cold, and in the streets we go, it is cruel. Your NHS sounds fab. Are u clean now?
Thank you for your lovely words. I can totally understand how you feel. It’s so frustrating and so difficult to manage when there’s pain involved alongside the addiction. The NHS is amazing, just so overrun and understaffed so there’s a lot more that can be done and the waiting lists can be awful. But I would take that any day over ridiculous medical bills you’d see elsewhere in the world. I’m still (very slowly) decreasing as I hit a bit of a bump in the road. So I’m on half the amount I started on but the pain is really causing me a lot of problems atm. Hoping my physio can help me get that back on track so I can drop again 🤞🏼
So awesome! It’s definitely a journey, and so worth it on the other end! There are plenty of helpful things I learned along the way if you ever need anything!
Oh yeah it will 100% be worth it when I get there, just not a fun journey 😩 thank you so much! I would appreciate anything at this stage 😊
@@amieelizaa I have no idea how to PM on YT...😩I can send you a link to my video (ya, didn't really tell anyone about it quite yet) that has a bunch of info and also a ton of links in the description. I actually am just starting to make the how-to videos that explain a lot of what I talk about. The term you want to know is "EXTINCTION"!!! You can absolutely kill off those neuropathways, and the journey there doesn't have to suck! I can post the link here if that's easier. Either way, so happy for you!
@@AimeeDenise_bct I’ve no idea either! Google says you can but I’m too old 😂🤷🏻♀️ yes that would definitely be helpful, thank you! It would help to have a better understanding for sure
Proud of you ♥️ slow and steady wins the race ! Any reduction is a step in the right direction. I’ve started going down in my suboxone and it’s been hard some days I would end up taking more than I was before the reduction. It’s really hard. Now I’m trying to commit to the lowered dose. Fentanyl does have a weird half life because of the lipophilic nature. You can see yours dilated in the video of you feeling like shit. Do you have any support meds ? You need some clonidine, gabapentin, robaxin and Ativan to sleep.
Also- about the morphine. It is still an improvement over the fentanyl for many reasons as you known. The accountability w the new dr will be a good thing overall definitely. Just keep telling yourself you can do this ! I believe in you. Have you tried CBD for the pain? It can’t hurt ♥️
Also Zofran for nausea or ondansetron is the generic name
Thank you so much for your kind words! Life doesn’t always go as you’d hope but I feel as though I’m going in the right direction after taking a few wrong turns 😂 anything to help me sleep makes me feel so awful and I can’t drive on it. I was on Gabapentin for a bit before and it’s awful for me, made so so unwell! Morphine helps me get some rest though so I’m thankful for that. Yeah I tried CBD but it didn’t do an awful lot really. I then tried cannabis oil which was incredibly strong and the anxiety I experienced was horrific. I had the worst panic attack ever, so I have a bit of a fear of going back there. You’re really so kind, thank you so so much 💕
I’m not sure if we have that here in the UK. I tried cyclizine and that made so dizzy that I ended up being sick so that’s great 😂😂
@@amieelizaa hmm cyclazine is something different for sure ! Gaba doesn’t help everyone sadly :( I don’t like it either but it helps ppl detoxing at my work it seems (a rehab). If you were able to fully transition onto morphine you could do a suboxone taper too. Clonidine can help but it lowers blood pressure so will make you dizzy unless you’re really in bad withdrawal or anxiety with elevated Bp. I feel there has to be something else your dr cbs prescribe to help a tiny bit that’s not an opioid.
You brave girl, really hope you are doing well and are successfully reducing from your meds. Baby steps and controlled I think is the way. Sending love and hugs from Karl and Karren In Shropshire ❤️💯
Thank you for your lovely comment! It’s a very slow process with lots of ups and downs but I do feel like I’m getting there slowly. Thank you 💕
@@amieelizaa That’s great to hear, you are sounding very positive there and at the end of the day you are still very young so you have the time to put everything into place. You keep your chin up ❤️💯
Hey just came across you Amie and so so please you’ve eventually you’ve found good advice with the lady physio after really poor medical help from your doctor with the fentanyl script, You keep going girl cause you haven’t caused your problems and so please you haven’t had to go down the black market and street route, your rocking it Amie and I’m praying for you… So refreshing to hear your story and how addiction can hit such a nice pretty girl that looks to myself that you’ve had a good up bring… Thanks for sharing Amie your an inspiration at such a young age too Pet👍👍🙏🙏🙏😘
Your comments are so kind and I really appreciate you taking the time to comment. Thank you so much, it’s really lovely to hear 🥰
Hope u are ok pretty girl!!💪💪💯💯
I’m getting there, thank you!
I hope u got through it🙏🏾
I’m getting there, thank you!
Really love your videos, I got addicted to opiates through doctor here in UK 🇬🇧 too. In hospital they put me in morphine, then exchanged it for methadone, I didn't have a clue what all these meds were, even prescribed diazepam. 8 years later Im still on methadone and a diazepam prescription 😮. But yeh live your videos ❤
It’s bad that people think it’s only in the US that this happens but it happens here too! I’m sorry you went through all of that and are still working through it all, it’s so tough!
@@amieelizaa for sure yes it not just the US, just as bad here in the UK too 🇬🇧. Have you tried looking going onto a Buprenorphine patch/tablets and wean down from that, basically Subutex. I have heard success stories of ppl switching from fentanyl to Bupe and having great success. No1 understands withdrawals like we do, and the I depending doom when you know it's coming 😭 . Lovely to here from you. 🇬🇧🙂🙏
Warrior 🤞🏻
I’ve never done fentanyl or extracy. Never will.
Well you’re fortunate enough to be in that position but I was given fentanyl having been told it was morphine from my doctor. So I didn’t know or even planned to ever take it and I trusted that a professional was doing what they said they were doing
Well done. Good good luck.
Thank you 😊
You’ve to go through that with every reduction! You should have just went cold Turkey. May as well got the full whack of symptoms put been over it quicker.
You can’t tell people what to do. Everyone is different and i find this much easier to cope with than when I went cold turkey (accidentally) and felt like I was dying. This is rough but easier than that and I find that’s the best way for me to cope
Keep it up 💜 I think of you and how you are doing a lot
That’s so sweet! Thank you so much 💕
When you get to zero mega dose vitamin c and i found gabapentin worked doctors and drug workers generally do not have the personal experience of withdrawal so their guidance is hit and miss fentanyl like heroin and morphine will leave the receptors in about 5 or more 6 days unlike suboxone or methadone which both have longer shelve life i subscribed to your channel so don't miss updates
@@andrewcampbell6883 thank you so much for the sub! I had an awful reaction to Gabapentin before, felt absolutely horrific so I won’t be able to take that unfortunately 😩but yeah I know exactly what you mean, it’s hard for anyone to understand unless you’ve been through it
Can you adjust the volume up on the audio? It's hard to hear.
Hi, the volume is fine my end? So not sure what’s going on there, sorry!
@@amieelizaa it's no problem. I put my earbuds in and could hear it. Good night or morning, 🙂
If Amie thinks it’s tough coming off a 50 milligram Fentanyl patch, she should consider what I would need to go through coming off my 100 microgram Fentanyl patch. I will doctor shop if my current doctor ever decides to reduce or take me completely off my Fentanyl. If I absolutely could not get my Fentanyl prescriptions, I would commit suicide and not feel one bit guilty about it.
I think you’re missing the point from my videos that I want to come off of opiates. I made that decision, not a doctor. They would happily leave me on it for the rest of my life but I want to be drug free and have children etc. so it was all my decision. Plus as we have the NHS here, there’s no such thing a ‘doctor shopping’ in the UK, as it’s all free and you can only go to your local doctor. I mean this in the kindest way, you really need to seek professional help for the way you’re feeling. I understand as someone going through the same thing but you need to deal with those inner demons. I hope you get the help you need
@@amieelizaa I feel a connection to you. Send me a text message if you think you can help me. I use a 100 microgram Fentanyl patch that I change every 3 days. Also, I take Norco for breakthrough pain and I’m going to ask my doctor to start me on Dilaudid soon. I hope I’m not asking for trouble.
Creep detected. Why would she want to have anything to do with you after what you wrote? She wants to get away from drugs and the only reason she write you is because she felt uncomfortable with your comment. Creep
Have you ever considered weed? Just forget for a second that it makes you feel good, the studies that have been done Into marijuana as a painkiller and as a mental health drug are fascinating.
It's really, really helped me.
I have yes, although you can’t get it legally prescribed in the UK so that wouldn’t be an option going down that route. Even so, I’ve tried cannabis oil to try and help with my sleep and the anxiety/paranoia I experienced was horrific. It’s just put me off for life sadly. So it negatively affects my MH. I know it can help a lot of people and I’m sure different strands affect you differently but I just couldn’t risk feeling how I did, it was awful 😭
@@amieelizaaI smoked fentanyl on the streets for 3 years it started from m 30s then Fent used to buy the 10$ grams till I started buyin the “clean “ for 25-30 I went to jail and suffered for 8 days straight im clean now though I smoke weed it makes me feel better & sometimes drink alcohol now but more weed alcohol maybe twice or 3 times a month
You have merveil song dear❤😊
try taking it slower peobebly you go to fast i know you want fast but its not possible gr from an addict
Yeah I’ve realised that now! I’m just impatient and want to be drug free now 😭
Morphine and fentanyl?! My 80 year old grandma takes both, she has cancer and less than 6 months to live. Why in the world would they ever prescribe you both those..
It’s a question I ask myself on a daily basis. I think they just wanted to keep me quiet because the NHS is so overrun that I was becoming a nuisance. I’m sorry to hear about your grandma
Change your doctor love you yourself said he or she said that they didn't really know what fent was feel for you your obviously not using to induce euphoria the withdrawal from morphine on its own will be more tolerable really feel for you maybe could help with tips for comfort meds mega dose on vitamin really helps onwards Christian soldiers
Yeah I have a different doctor now as I’ve moved. This one is a lot better but a lot of the damage is done now unfortunately. I can’t change that I’m addicted to fentanyl now! Thank you though for your kind words 😊
Let me know how things are going
I’m getting there very slowly, it’s tough but I’m determined!
It is a journey but at the end you will come out a stronger person not every one has the courage I was addicted to heroin smoking 2 gm a day then methadone and suboxone and now completely drug free its just such a relief not to be enslaved i go walking with my dog's such faithful creatures they make me so happy have a great day love
Lol I didn't shower for 3 days and just sat there in bed. So disgusting. Man I don't know why I hope I never go back. I can't believe in UK they prescribe you Morphin and stuff.
It’s horrible when you physically can’t function because of how awful you feel. I’m so sorry you went through it! I hope you manage to stay on this side too 💪🏻 yeah they will, sadly far too easily. That’s how I ended up in this mess because they just prescribe opiates like their going out of fashion 😂
Peep her pupils she's on it
Dam sure wasn’t off it.
Your pupils actually get larger when you’re going through w/d. Sadly I know by experience and this is just a reduction cold turkey u wouldn’t even see the color of her eyes her pupils would be so large. No reason to judge by the way this shit is really a horrible disease. Carry on