I was in opioid withdrawal for a month - here's what I learned | Travis Rieder | TEDxMidAtlantic
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- Опубликовано: 4 окт 2018
- The United States accounts for five percent of the world's population but consumes almost 70 percent of the total global opioid supply, creating an epidemic that has resulted in tens of thousands of deaths each year. How did we get here, and what can we do about it? In this personal talk, Travis Rieder recounts the painful, often-hidden struggle of opioid withdrawal and reveals how doctors who are quick to prescribe (and overprescribe) opioids aren't equipped with the tools to eventually get people off the meds. Travis Rieder, PhD, is the Assistant Director for Education Initiatives, Director of the Master of Bioethics degree program and Research Scholar at the Berman Institute of Bioethics.
Travis’ work tends to fall into one of two, quite distinct research programs. The first concerns ethical and policy questions about sustainability and planetary limits. Much of this research has been on issues in climate change ethics and procreative ethics with a particular focus on the intersection of the two - that is, on the question of responsible procreation in the era of climate change. The second research program concerns ethical and policy issues surrounding America’s opioid epidemic.
In addition to his more scholarly writing, Travis is firmly committed to doing bioethics with the public. He writes regularly for The Conversation and blogs occasionally at The Huffington Post and the Berman Institute Bioethics Bulletin. This talk was given at a TEDx event using the TED conference format but independently organized by a local community. Learn more at www.ted.com/tedx
Imagine being so tired but you can’t sleep... so exhausted but you can’t relax... a feeling of absolute desperation and dread and hopelessness. You don’t know what opioid withdrawals are unless you have been in them... really there are no words that can describe it
Magnesium chelate ,vitamin b6 and chamomille tea. It will help you alot.
Worst feeling ever I’m ready to fix my life so far 3 weeks clean with some help of methadone every 3 days but hopefully I will not need the methadone anymore don’t want to be stuck on another addiction that’s hard also
Carson H. Now imagine 100 times worse.
@@itslusciousliya6964 Taking methadone for opioid reduction is like trying to get off liquor with liquor. The answer is IBOGAINE, its a faster cure.
@@arnoldskit where do you get ibogaine?
For anyone who cares... this ted talk saved my life. I am a disabled veteran. I was on a large amount of pain meds for almost 19 years. After watching this talk I had a long overdue talk with my wife. I was able to get off the medication completely and I definitely feel better not only physical but definitely mentally. Just hearing the raw emotion from this man just went into my heart. Thank you so much
Good for you brother.
Stay clean!!
What meds were u prescribed for 19 years
Sim Tard true
Did you go cold turkey or use medication
"just hearing HIS emotion" you must of went through it yourself!??
My withdraws are so severe that i would rather die than go through it. An addict for 26 massive dose years.
Those of you who are withdrawing/detoxing now, like I am, remember you’re NOT alone! We’re in this tough process together and we’ll come out of it even stronger ☺️🤝
Kratom helped my withdrawal symptoms be way more manageable
What ever you do try to kick the habit because once you get on methadone your in for life unless you go to jail and are forced to detox
@@rnbooguff9780 i have heard it is tougher to quit kratom ... i dont know though ? if it is helping you then thank God you found some relief
Keep fighting the mighty fight, it literally will be the fight of your life! 💜🌙💫
Please tell me you made it, I’m on day 5 right now
Today i chose to end my battle with opiate addiction. im tired of always being broke because i have to buy drugs to feel better. i’m tired of seeing my life slowly pass by me. i’m tired of not being the outgoing laidback person that i used to be, the kinda person everybody wanted to be around. my addiction changed that. everybody in my life knows that i’m struggling with an addiction, and i didn’t even have to tell them that i’m struggling. today i’m choosing to get treatment, to get my life back, to get my personality back, to be the person i once was. it’s gonna be a long and tough journey, but well worth it. i’m so excited to come out of this, not relying on drugs just to feel “normal”. i want my life back, so i’m getting it back. wish me luck guys.
Hope you're doing ok x
Good luck ❤
Good luck my friend. May lord help you get back the life that everyone was so used to to your life.
Apparently he OD on fentanyl
No response= Not actually quit
Never look down towards people who are addicted to opiates. It could easily happen to any of us .
Although some of us do it to ourselves you’re right it can happen to the best of us.
Yes it can but u can’t blame the pills. Blame the person cuz they the ones who went over their limit.
@@megaton8184
Some don't go over their limit & it still grabs them by surprise.
Only in America. This stuff isn't prescribed commonly elsewhere.
Thank you for your comment. It can happen to anyone, even those who take exactly what their doctor is telling them.
Day three I’m dying slowly but I want my life back!!!!!
Kratom life saver
Me too!
@@BrendaSwagg how are you doing? I've been tapering off tramadol for a couple months now. Just stopped them entirely four days ago. Feel like dying. Could never have imagined it being so bad. I hope you're doing ok.
@@joeysalazar4356 I had an addiction to Tramadol I got off them and started suboxone in 2014 I was on suboxone till about 2018 then they put me on buprenorphine I'm currently on two 8 mg and two 2 mg buprenorphine and still reducing. From day 1 when I started my treatment I've had no cravings for Tramadol. I sweat a lot now but I've been told it's a side effect of the bupe's but it's getting less now I'm reducing. Then the sweats started my anxiety. My nurse told me that suboxone isn't being made anymore it's too expensive, I'm in Scotland so I don't know about the rest of the UK or the US etc.
H oh w are you doing now
It's one of the hardest, darkest things I have ever had to do. The depression and sleepless nights were killer but...there is no better feeling than the high I get from being sober again. I wish everyone the best and please never give up 🤘🏽🙏🏽
Love you Kind comment. Wish you much success and happiness. Being terminally ill I’ve been on over 200 mg a day of morphine, fentanyl patches,oxy and more. Been ill for close to 11 years with half my organs failed while the other half are failing. Stroke took my left eyesight and right ears hearing on my 50th Birthday (almost 5 years ago). I’m down to 10 mg a day on my own. Still going to the cancer center infusion center at least once a month for the entire 11 years. Hopefully I can fully come off? I have blood clots in my intestines that are Extremely painful drinking water or eating. God Bless you
@@toddsmith1690 God bless you ✝️
How long do the stomach issues last? I'm having severe diarrhea for a month now since I went to zero mg
it’s impossible to fully grasp how traumatic opioid addiction is until you go through it… i wouldn’t wish it on my worst enemy.
Day 1. Scared and feeling like I'm dying. If you are feeling like this too, stay strong. We can do this
how are you????? i know idk you but i’m curious, i’m on my 9th day clean also using kratom i feel so much better..
@Nite & Day the red and green helped me the most honestly!
@@babyfacesoph4581 Please be careful with that. Kratom acts on the same receptors. I know lots of people that have been stuck on it 8+ years. It caused hair loss and other issues.
Day 4 and I couldn’t do it.
@@2jcward that's ok. You are not a failure
opiod withdrawal is like being in a horror movie for real. Every part of your life goes through your head like ghosts attacking you.
The feeling of bed mites under your skin, paranoia, impending feeling of doom, hallucinations, and crazy leg syndrome. Everything I've just mentioned are the good bits.
@@gigantor62 it's not impossible to get through
It don't get rid of it only suppresses it, only life and will power alone can get rid of all the pain of life, opiates only comatoses..
@@gigantor62 I had these head jerks that caused actual neck injuries when I tried to sleep, from the jitters and restlessness! can you believe that? And, I used to get so horribly ill from prolonged withdrawal, that when I finally got my fix, I had to take so much more to fully cure myself, and I had to rest and recover from my "withdrawal injury" (that's what I call it)...it's absolutely insane, especially for someone like me who's anemic and already physically weak
Omg methadone is the wooorst and longest miserable withdrawawl
This story is the reason why it’s almost impossible to get off opiates. Not only are you fighting an up hill battle, but you are doing it while feeling the WORSE you have ever felt in your life!
The deaths from od in 2015 has risen 500% since then until now.
And in my case, in pain every day.
I could and would do it in a heartbeat if I could sleep. When I dont have any, I will go for days without sleep until I can finally pass out from exhaustion, I will sleep exactly 45 minutes and wake up wide awake again, and start all over.
I was an opioid addict for about 10 years starting the age of 18. And about for the last 4 of those I was prescribed fentanyl for chronic pain. I was in pain management, but of course I abused it because I loved the high it gave me. It was complete euphoria and gave me energy and made me a lot more social and outgoing. I finally hit rock bottom in 2018 and quit cold turkey. I have never been more sick and miserable in my life. Sweating, chills, insomnia, restless legs, diarrhea, extreme fatigue, runny nose and sneezing and terrible body and joint pain. Lasted a good month before I finally started to feel better. The depression was horrible. And the boredom was something I wasn't expecting. I was extremely bored, and I didn't know what to do with all this new found time. I wouldn't wish withdrawal on my worst enemy.
Imagine feeling like that all the time and then finding out that opioids make you feel normal and even allow you to work. Drs kept saying it was withdrawal but I hadn't even started taking opioids yet. Without them I wouldn't stick around this place for long. Now I use kratom and it works better than oxycodone and you don't have to pay half your income to the Dr and pharmacy. I was making
did you ever blow a CK for a fix ?
I adopted a kitten a month before my withdrawal started. He got very sick and nearly went blind. I spent my days and nights caring for him and nursing him back to health. I managed to save his life and sight in one of his eyes. We became very close. He imprinted on me, needed me and trusted me. My sweet dog watched on. I had a reason, a purpose. I was needed. I didn’t realize how much it helped me through the worst parts.
I swear we saved each other. 🙏🏼🐾🐾❤️
Not many talk about the boredom- not like a kid stuck in a house on a rainy day boredom but the kind of boredom where want to do something but also nothing at all.
You described it perfectly ...
The cold-sweats, the restlessness, the lack of appetite, the aversion to water on my body, the lack of bowl movements, the overpowering of sickly sweet smells, irritating smells, difficulties drinking fluids, exhaustion, depression, having to pee all the time but not much, lack of cleaning, songs that repeat in your head until your driven crazy, loss of interest in everything that brought you joy before, disgust with yourself, nausea.
I’m going through fent withdrawal for like the 40th time and I swear your the first person to ever mention the irritating smells! It’s like the minute I get clean I can smell everything and anything it’s horrible! and everything else to a t
@@iiCodyYT that part is torture for me
@K Ker thanks been clean for 6 yrs now
Closed that chapter of my life and don’t have to deal with any of that anymore
I especially feel the part with these songs constantly repeating in ur head..
Defenetly the cause of an overstimulated brain, probably because of a higher adrenaline activity.
This just summed my last two and a half weeks up completely
To understand opioid withdrawal ask a fish what it feels like to be pulled out of water.
I asked the fish he didn't say anything.
Wow nailed it.
That's a perfect comparison. It's this feeling of extreme discomfort, pain & fear, confusion, misery, suffering & restlessness
@yoshi thegod im on suboxone and No. Suboxone wasnt for him.
The fish dies, the addict not.
I was an opiate addict and an alcoholic for close to 15 years. Sober for almost 6 now. I don't wish opioid withdrawals on anyone, especially with booze being involved. Truth be told, I have no idea how I'm still alive, but I'm beyond blessed to be here for my daughter who is about to be 7!!
If someone struggling right now reads this, just know that there is a light at the end of the tunnel. That, I can promise.
After 8 years taking them for multiple back surgeries, I’m 8 months off of them, taking Suboxone. I was told it would still help my pain. It doesn’t. I’m still having the effects of not having the opioid, as it came to a place where they just made me feel normal. Now, I feel lost. I can hear my own flat affect and tone. Emotions are practically nil. I’m like a zombie. Sleep and enjoying food are a thing of the past. I’m quite miserable. Does it seem right to feel like this after 8 months or possibly side effects from Subx? Both? No one seems to have the answer. I’d like your opinion. Thanks. ✌🏼
Also, good for you! 👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼
God bless you, stay strong
Thanks I need help
thank you.. congratulations thank you for sharing your story
5 years sober off opioids. Anyone going through it, I suggest find a "happy place". Sounds weird, but for me, that moment I was at the worst during my withdrawal days, I would sit with the shower water running down on me and play music that reminded me of a time before I ever used opioids. You can do this. Fight the feeling of remembering the high. Nostalgia only lets you remember the good things, not the bad.
This is so good. Thank you
I’ve been doing this, I’m on day five and it’s been the worst so far.
for some reason music does help with withdrawal symptoms. I guess your body is releasing endorphins so there is comfort there for a few moments. I sit in my car and blast music I love to help the withdrawal I am going through today and it helps dramatically.
So true. My happy place is made inside my head, as I'm bed ridden, but I just go and lie in the sun, in my head, and feel it soothing me xx
@@heatherlynsey5438 hey, are you good?
I was on 5 80 mg oxycontin per day. More when I could afford it. As awful as the withdrawals were it was never enough to make me quit, what made me quit was the fact that I was not allowed to meet my newborn niece. That shattered me into a million pieces and that's what brought me out slowly but I'm out. I'm proud to say she loves her Uncle.
Best comment on this thread.
If you want something you do it.
Do or do not there is no try.
@@LeslieandLukeSoCal hey thanks for the lovely comment, it's kind words like that help me keep me going 👍
@@LeslieandLukeSoCal yeah i wish this reference worked in this instance, but it really really really doesn’t…. Addiction is one of the most DIFFICULT things to understand let alone over come.
Being a cool Uncle is not ONLY very important, it is very rewarding.......FACT😉
Awesome for you, Uncle!!! That is an incredible accomplishment!!!
Yeah I know the feeling. Liquid diarrhea for days on end, not enough energy to eat or take a shower. Sweating profusely all the time, restless legs all night long, crying all the time for no reason. The guilt that hits you because you realize you just put your kids, your wife, your family a distant second behind the opiates which became first above everything. The anxiety and impending doom you feel around the door all day everyday. I never want to feel that ever again.
How are you doing
I cried watching this. This...this is EXACTLY how I felt during my withdrawals. I had no hope, I thought I would never be ME again. I was hiding my addiction from my family because I was ashamed. I went to a methadone clinic in November 2019 and I'm happy to say that in May of 2023 I will be officially off of all opioids. It's been a very long road but I have completely changed myself physically emotionally psychologically. Thank you so much for this video. I can't wait to share it.❤
How are you doing now? Did you make it? I'm praying for you
Here's my story (in short)... I had to suffer for like 2 months when I quit....I pray for all who are fighting this demon...I went cold turkey...no rehab...no professional help...I prayed alot and drank coffee...i exercised and smoked some weed...eventually I was ok without my beloved methadone...I will never forget the love we shared...but I must move on for the sake of my life, peace and happiness... I must keep going forward with God's spirit and Holy Power....its been over a year...I stopped counting early on....it was best for me not to count the days of sobriety
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You went cold Turkey off Methadone? How long were you on, & how many mg?? I'm at 75, & I've been on for 13 years. I
pretty much concede that I'll never get off it, but...I'd like to. After this long though, I literally don't know if I could survive getting off it. Especially cold Turkey, or a rapid detox.
chris smith I was at 30 for 5 years maybe u should try to reduce first.....I hope you are ready one day...I was ready...it’s a powerful drug...I loved it very much.
@@roxanneharrow6486 yeah I know what you mean about needing to be ready. I quit smoking cold Turkey, because I was ready. Drinking too. Methadone though, is a completely different animal. My entire body, mind, spirit, everything is TOTALLY dependent on methadone. I'm not even sure I should get off it, but...I'm thinking more & more about it, so...maybe I'll get "ready" eventually. Without that motivation it will never happen. You did just fine, as long as you made it off, have no regrets. Do you remember how long it took until you were...ok, or feeling "normal"? Until you could sleep through the night?
Opioid withdrawal is literally living in a nightmare
How goes the battle
imagine going thru benzo and opiod withdrawl after being on both every day for years. it could always be worse
While having nightmares and crazy drug dreams 🥵🥶🤧🤢🤮
@@Tetrahfy I don't have to imagine I went through it and September I would wake up everyday praying for death I would be pissed off that I woke up I was hoping my body would just give out in my sleep
@@stopasking9745 how are you now??
Congratulations, Travis Rieder! When I heard the crowd clap I felt it. 6 years clean. Not easy but worth it.
Really not east 4 days clean by far this been the worst month of my life but yes it is worth it 🙏🏼
Simply having the bottle sit next to you was enough to alleviate some of the symtoms. The mental craving for these substances is the most powerful part. Any addict will tell you the waiting to get their drug is the worst part. Just having it in their hand will alleviate so many of the symtoms. The mind is a powerful thing. Sometimes it's also our biggest enemy.
Don’t forget the wife stying with him and providing complete support!!!!!
Brian D my wonderful husband did the same. I’m extremely lucky.
Imho having that support nourishes your soul to endure the agony over anything else
You’re all lucky, mine literally left during it / because of it.
@@pommiebears not me. I sleep in a tent under a bridge. I have no one and its unbearable. I hate being alone.
That in itself is the biggest part. Having some one in your corner.
Day 12 for me, just broke the cycle, feels amazing to feel like a real human being for the first time in over 2 years. Much luv to all my missed ones and good look to everyone else struggling. One love
I bet it still hurts tho, no?
wat day did u start feeling better?
Im on day 12 today as well... the physical symptoms are gone but I am still battling the mental symptoms
I smoke about a gram a week so my physical withdrawal only lasts about 10 days for me too.. but I’m still caught In the cycle ...
@@casey-capri2914 What day did the physical symptoms go away?
Withdrawal is real, painful, damaging, and almost lethal. These same and more agonizing symptoms can come from coming off SSRIs. It’s maddening that doctors and therapists push your withdrawal symptoms as YOUR depression coming back. But before i took the meds and while I was on it I never heard my eyes move, heard the blood rushing through my heart, feeling my internal organs quiver, feel electric shocks in my brain, limb and muscle spasms, skin crawling to where my itching has caused huge bruises on my body, terrifying nightmares, muscle and joint pain, violent and sadistic thoughts, homicidal and suicidal thoughts, loss of appetite, lethargy, extreme anger and agonizing agitation, to start. I’m 2.5 weeks into this and am not sure if I’ll make it out. Docs say get back on the meds, therapist has never heard of withdrawals from SSRIs. I’ve written the entire medical community off. There is no “care” in healthcare, only thicker prescription pads and higher copays.
Do you mind me asking what SSRI you are trying to come off of? So sorry you're hurting and I hope youre okay 😢
2 days clean. Depressed . I know it’s gonna get worse. I was sober 6 months went coke turkey relapsed and now it’s gonna be bad again. But I’m trying to fight. I am worth it if anyone is struggling u aren’t alone I feel your pain brother or sisters much love -Allen
I pray you are doing well man. People who have not experienced it do not know how easily a relapse happens or how quickly the addiction sets in.
Thanks for sharing- I also relapsed due to trying to go cold Turkey 🦃 and am going to try again ☹️🙁I’m f****** terrified. It helps to know I’m not alone. I have so many bad feelings about not just seeing the first attempt through, but it was my first ever real attempt going completely cold turkey. Been on methadone n subs. Hope you’re alright man- wish me luck plz🤞🙏🤞
But it gets better
Don't think that way your create through thought stop setting your self up
Day 89 and will never turn back!
I am so jealous... Which I hate to say. I think it's awesome that you have gotten so far!
This is the biggest BS ever, he is so dramatic, I was on Norco 10 ml for 15 years. 8 a day when l quit it took 3 days agony and restlessness , 2 days depression, after one week it leaves your system for good nd i was off of them for 4 years than i started again, than l quit again many times, none of this BS he is talking bout ever takes place, little depression and crying yes, but please LOL, as he dramatized? NO ,
Good for you, stay strong.
This brought me to tears! My son died. I didn’t know or understand what he was going through until watching this. It makes me so angry!!!! I am so happy that you made it through!!
blessings to you!!!!
@King Croc you’re a horrible person. she’s not an addict, she had no idea what he was going through
You will feel and see your son again someday, we all "die". Dont think of death as an ending, (but that doesnt mean death is any less bad, for example if you have a pet with cancer that can be taken out to give your pet another 5 years, you need to do that) but think of death as just another part of life, a transformation. It's just impossible for death to be the end, otherwise there would be no point in living. It is hard to put into words, but you get the jist. I still take death just as serious even though I have come to this conclusion.
@@johngallagher9151 Exactly how I feel about death I’ll see my boyfriend again who died. Death is not the only ending it’s a part of life and we all die maybe transcend to another place.
Me too, Kelli!
10 years of opioids almost took my life. This guy has a lot of great feedback. It took me 2 years and a very very small dose of an opioid to finally begin recovery. Just like him, I could not find any doctor who would help. In those 2 years, I tried to take my life once and lost my home. In the end, I had to figure out my own tapering and recovery. It sucked and no one should have to do this alone. I hope by now the medical field has successfully addressed this issue. Best wishes to anyone fighting this battle.
I fight it everyday. I’m not a Bup fan
What about methadone? You can get on that and then you can slowly come off that and I speak from experience. I’ve done it. I came down super slow an eighth of a milligram every two weeks and I had virtually no problem. No withdrawals. If you could find a doctor that would prescribe you that under the understanding that your intent was once stabilized on it to come back off of that very slowly that’s what I would recommend. I’m not a doctor, but again, I’ve done it myself. Under a doctors supervision. The only thing with methadone is you have to be very very careful when you’re first starting it because it stays in your system much longer than you can feel it so it’s one of those things that is very easy to OD on. For chronic pain, a doctor should absolutely prescribe a short term opiate along with the methadone until the methadone is stabilized. Then you can withdraw the short term opiate because the methadone has about a 56 hour half-life. Very long. And then slowly from there very slowly come down off the methadone. I wish you the best of luck. Don’t give up just keep going into you find doctor that will work with you just make sure they really understand the pharmacology of methadone.
@@matthewkelleher3467 me either I prefer methadone
@@joeglennaz I’m taking 165mg methadone a day. If I were to taper an eighth of a milligram every two weeks I would make no progress dude that would take forever. Is there a faster taper? I don’t think it has to be that slow
@@michaelmartinez5337 I'm not a doctor but I do believe you can come down much quicker if you are using those large amounts. For instance, I was taking 30 mg and dropped to 20 overnight BUT then went real slow. So I would think you could drop 10 mg every two weeks or even 10 a week until you got down to 30 or 40 and then go slower like 10 every two weeks down to 30 then 10 for a month, then down to 20 then start going very slow. As you get way down THEN you'll need to go really slow. Again I"m not a doctor but that was my experience.
As quick as doctors are to prescribe, it is not acceptable that the majority just don't know how to safely taper or patients off! Going VERY Slowly is the key. VERY slowly. I am so sorry you went through this. Anyone doing it now - taper off as SLOWLY as you can...it will help lesson the sometimes brutal side effects of withdrawal. Thank you for your honesty, I'm sorry you had to go through it, but am glad you're helping others. What a bodhisattva you are.
It's also not often as bad as you think it will be in your mind. I came off a several years Suboxone addiction in prison and within only like 2 weeks I was feeling a lot better then after like a month even way better still, then after about 6 months I was so glad it was past. That lingering post acute withdrawal can last years but it becomes so subtle that you can learn to beat it down and overcome it until it passes.
When he said "I made it out" I started crying
... Why am I listening to this at work?
Whitley Beaver,
He is brave to have endured this phase and then help others with his video ! " 🤗💮
drink Kratom
I started bawling too
@Housekeepers home hang in there. You can do this! 💙
Same here I'm glad there's people out here that understand what it's like because for a lot of people they don't
This story really touched me. My husband was on oxycodone chronically for about 8-10 years for inoperable herniated lumbar discs as well as a herniated cervical disc and spinal canal stenosis. He relied on this medication daily, sometimes multiple times per day just to be able to function, sleep, and get any relief. Since this past March/April, my husband had been dealing with a very severe, gaping diabetic foot wound that was extremely painful and caused him to be septic. He was in and out of the hospital for 2-3 months because of this and required several surgeries. His primary care provider had always prescribed his opiates, but a couple of years ago they transferred him to a pain management clinic about an hour away from where we live, who took over prescribing. Not only did they continue the instant release 10 mg oxycodone, but they also added 15 mg extended release oxycodone on top of that, so he was on more opiates than ever before. Due to his very painful foot wound, he was told by his podiatrist to just use his already prescribed oxycodone that he uses for his back and neck pain for his foot as well, which he did. He informed his pain clinic that he needed to take extra due to this foot wound. At his very last appointment in late June, they told him that they would no longer be seeing him as a patient or prescribing his opiates because his pill count was off for the first time ever. He told them that he had already explained to them over the phone that he was also using them for his foot wound (he was facing amputation), so that was why his pill count was a bit off. They didn't care. They just cut him off cold turkey after he had been on these opiates chronically for nearly a decade and was in more pain than ever between his spine issues and his huge diabetic foot wound. Sadly, my husband passed away a few days later due to sepsis from his foot as well as a pulmonary embolism from his PICC line, but he spent his final days in AGONY because they had so cruelly stopped his opiates so quickly and suddenly with NO tapering dose to avoid withdrawals. I have filed a complaint with the medical board on my husband's behalf.
I'm so sorry for your loss
I’m so sorry! That’s awful. They shouldn’t have been allowed to do that.
No they shouldn't have been allowed to do that fckn Drs could care less forgive my language but your story about your love one reminded me of going into the hospital having emergency surgery while I was in rehab treatment and the hospital staff treated me like I was less than everybody deserves to be treated with kindness like a human being they are so quick to put you on the opiates but they have no real out for you no real way to help you to get off go to expensive rehabs where methadone or Suboxone is handed out and that might save some but that's just something else no real freedom sorry for the rant your story about your husband just brought me to tears my heart breaks for you🙏😭
This is aggravated assault.
I am so sorry for your loss, sorry that your husband died from a medical nightmare, and sorry you had to experience all that with him. That is just absolutely horrible.
The memtal addiction to the pain killers was worse than the physical for me. It magnified my depression that i battle everyday. But im still here 3 years later, and im still fighting the good fight
Good to hear brotha, hope you’re still hanging in , and if not then just do your best to get back on the path. Writing this from a sober living home. Been clean a month, finally feeling better everyday
Well done mate I’m rooting for you. Starting Sub myself. Hoping for Good things
@@apollobukowski4275 its a good starting point to help quite the addiction then i went cold turkey on the sub
This is absolutely, 100% accurate. My physical symptoms after years of abusing opioids were mild. But the depression...unspeakable.
Proud of you xx
It’s crazy to think that all I have to do is go through 3 weeks of pain, severe pain and I’ll get my life back. I can handle the physical symptoms, it’s the anxiety and depression it gives you that makes me fail each time. Fair play to this guy for battling through it, I wish I could.
Man withdrawals won’t last that long. Max 7 days
@@damiano3885 Not true. Sometimes they go on much longer.
Yeah I think his were that long because he tapered … if he would’ve gone cold turkey than they would have been shorter I think . That makes sense to me at least . I’m on day 4 of suboxone withdrawal. I finally slept last night after not sleeping at all the night before … the cold sweats are something else but having Jesus by your side is the key . It really is !! No turning back now ! I have a 7 year old daughter with leukemia … I keep telling myself if she can take chemo every week for 3 years .. I can certainly get through withdrawals for a week or so . Green Kratom has helped tremendously but I’m getting off of that as soon as this is over . Kratom is legal in my state … I feel like big pharma doesn’t want people to know about Kratom Bc they want you to stay on their meds . All about greed . You can do this !!! This comment section has Been a lifesaver for me …. Gotta keep your mind busy . @georgemoulton
@@ciaramcclellan9584how do you take kratom without withdrawal
Hope it worked out for you. Currently trying to figure out my own tapering system.
Just like you, the physical effects are easy; the depression is simply impossible to overcome.
Doctor had me on opiates for 4 years. Gave me a 2 week taper. The worst feeling of my life. I was junk…. I couldn’t do anything. A lot of what this guy said hit home to me and for anyone trying or thinking of trying you can do it. It’s not going to be easy… but that’s part of the fun. In a year after you’ve stopped you’re going to know how strong you were. And how fed up you were and you changed that about yourself.
I can't believe the doctor gave you two weeks! As little as they know, one truth is to taper off SLOWLY. That will help. It funny, all of these docors are quick to prescribe, yet they seem to know nothing about helping people get off. I wish you the best.xx
That's a FACT thank you for your comment. People will find out how strong they really are from the DISEASE OF ADDICTION
@@dnice4653I look forward to the day. 8 months off, on subx, still struggling.
I wouldn’t wish opioid withdraws on anyone... getting sober was the hardest yet most rewarding thing I’ve ever done. I hung on to every word this man spoke, as I has the exact symptoms... when he spoke on the crying, I felt a sense of relief I wasn’t the only one. I would just cry, and cry without warning.
Joannie Chorjel how did you do it :( I’m currently weaning. Week one. I’ve cut my daily dose to what i would take in a morning , I just can’t stop these headaches and my stomach is broken :(
Joannie is there any way I could contact u
I am at the very end of tapering off- I’m struggling with restless legs all through the night; it’s excruciating not being able to sleep- do you know how to help this? It makes me want to go backwards on my dose just for one good night of sleep. How long will this last?
@@elineman7 If you have a doctor have him or her write you a script for gabapentin -- it's like a miracle drug for the restless legs, and it does really well at taking the edge off the rest of the withdrawal symptoms, too. I guarantee it. It isn't a controlled substance, so there should be no problem getting a prescription. It'll make you a little groggy but under the circumstances, I found that to be a plus. Hang in there, I'm rooting for you. Check back in and let us know how it's going. xx PS Magnesium helps me with sleep as does a couple of diphenhydramine. I keep the diphenhydramine to a minimum, though, as my doc said some studies show it may increase risk of Alzheimer's with daily, long-term use.
@@elineman7I recommend THC gummies or edibles. They help my restless legs, crawling skin and sleep. It relaxes the whole body, a body “high”, different from smoking.
For anyone just starting this process, I commend your courage and strength and I PROMISE you, it gets easier with every day that passes, stick in there and don’t give up there is a heaven on the other side of this tunnel. I promise you.
Thank you and god bless I'll update my progress here
@@zen608 How are you?
Thanks I needed to hear that, 13 days in & suffering a lot xx
This is the biggest BS ever, he is so dramatic, I was on Norco 10 ml for 15 years. 8 a day when l quit it took 3 days agony and restlessness , 2 days depression, after one week it leaves your system for good nd i was off of them for 4 years than i started again, than l quit again many times, none of this BS he is talking bout ever takes place, little depression and crying yes, but please LOL, as he dramatized? NO ,
5 days here, tomorrow is 6.
Today my RLS symptoms were gone.
this is the kind of mental and physical pain i don’t wish upon my worst enemy.. coming off fentanyl by myself literally made me suicidal
I’ve been off all pain meds for the first time in 20 years. I’ve been off for 3 months and I’m still suffering but haven’t craved the drug at all. Never again, I’ll deal with my lifelong back pain without them.
Day 1. I'm addict of 12yrs. I've managed to keep a full time job over the years a home and a family but I feel I have a hidden life.
I haven't had anything since yesterday and already I'm restless, bone aching, being sick, headache and the voice in your mind is the worse. It's a constant battle in your mind as the pain in your body is so bad.
This is the 5th attempt over the years for me trying to get clean. I want my life back and to be happy, but it's so hard. I don't have anyone to talk to about my drug use. I want to change I'm 32yrs old and I don't want to live this way any longer. I hope I have the strength to do it this time.
This videos give me hope and know I am not alone in the struggle. 🧘♀️
@ Katie Baldwin how are you doing?
How r u feeling Katie? Im in exactly the same boat as u. Im 32 like u and have been addicted to codiene for 12 yrs. Im 4 weeks free of them and after a horrible withdrawal im feeling better but still feel weak with periods of no energy. But like you i felt i had a secret life. If i could not get pills from the dr i took ibuprofen and codiene tablets and as my tolerance was so high after so many yrs of taking them i ended up taking alot of ibuprofen and codiene tablets aday fr yrs. In then end i messed up my body. I feel so much better now my mind feels free of the shackles. But it is a struggle 12 yrs of addiction is a long time so we will take a while to heal especially the brain. I took suppliments U can do it
@@rosiebradley6471 😘 love u..
I had a month long withdrawal as well! Or rather, it was a whole month before it started to slowly get easier. I'm so happy this man shared his story on a Ted talk. People don't believe me when I tell them. I felt like no one knew how hard I fought to get sober. What it means to me that I am free from drugs.
This is the biggest BS ever, he is so dramatic, I was on Norco 10 ml for 15 years. 8 a day when l quit it took 3 days agony and restlessness , 2 days depression, after one week it leaves your system for good nd i was off of them for 4 years than i started again, than l quit again many times, none of this BS he is talking bout ever takes place, little depression and crying yes, but please LOL, as he dramatized? NO, ,
Did u taper?
@@007supertime Your experience is not the norm. If you knew anything about addiction you wouldnt be saying that this man is "dramatic". If you are drug free....congrats but you have NO room to sit there and discredit someone else's experience. People can have withdrawl symptoms months and months down the road. Its called PAWS. Look it up and educate yourself.
@@007supertime I feel like you’re lying lol
@@007supertime you're one of those people who can get physically but not psychologically addicted. 80mg norco for 15 years is a lot, this difference may be genetic. just look at your yt profile pic.. turkey, the worst colonizers of all time, canada, the uk, japan, brazil, spain....... perhaps your ancestors didn't pass on any trauma to you if stand under these strong symbols of imperialism.. countries that have never been occupied but who occupy indigenous peoples everywhere. either way, you obviously don't have substance abuse disorder. he's not talking to you. congratulations on your success. keep in mind it's not everyone's experience & you obviously had a genetic & probably environmental advantage.
My son is going through fentanyl withdrawal. He says the same thing about dying. We As parents just found out about this 2 weeks ago. Shocked, we got him inpatient immediately. He’s just 24, called the crisis hotline with a VU in his lap. We were devasted. He’s doing much better so far. I wish someone would do a Ted talk on the impact to parents trying to put the pieces together. He had just graduated college, athlete in high school. How does this even start?
all it takes is few dose of fake percs. and that it ur hooked. i use be in control. now i lsot control few months back. im on lke 20 pills a day rightnow. that 200 day habit.
There’s alot of answers to your question… only your son can answer.
We all are ( the whole country are dealing with this epidemic)
Please start prayed up this is a physical , biological, neurological, emotional and mental issue that is addressed and confronted appropriately can be overcame.
I am a survivor… may GOD BLESS YOU AND GUIDE YOU TO VICTORY
For me it's the anxious sinking anxiety feeling and fear. And of course the goosebumps and sweats. Absolutely miserable to feel constant uncomfortability.
As a opiate addict for 17 years of my life I truly empathize with this man. I have made two conclusions out of all of this however.
One is he had a loving person right next to him the entire time and two his willingness to not give up no matter what!
💯 agree with you.
I've not touched it inb2decades, I had someone that cared enough that whenever I needed help was by my side within 15mins usually. I'm sure there have been ppl that somehow did alone, but having someone that cares and respects you, you respect them. Is the most successful way I've seen people stop permanently.
Amen
@@Julie1102j absolutely. I’m fortunate as well. 🙏🏼 It’s still hard, but I can’t imagine doing it alone. Feelings of loneliness are already there.
as an ex opioid addict, this hit home. i had been an addict since the age of 14 (16 now), and neared death twice. (i still suffer with urges and such, but i haven't touched a single pill in months) america wonders why there's an opioid crisis, when they don't even try to truly fight it. if anyone out there suffers with the same addiction,
know you can make it out.
you will make it out.
and it's worth it.
Amen
Try Ibogaine followed by ayahuaska in a proper protocol in mexico. The legit cure
How did you near death?? And where did you get the drugs from?
"I believed that if I saved myself with the drugs I would never be free of them"
When he said this it resonated with me very deeply. It is currently been 17 days since the last time I inj. Fentanyl and even though I am currently going through everything he's describing here and more because I also have the actual flu and am currently in heart failure, I refuse to go back to using the same drug that I am fighting so hard to get off of.
@Mr. Tibs thank you so much for reaching out and checking in to see how I'm doing. I am currently 40 days clean and no longer have the flu either. I am feeling amazing and better everyday. It took just over three full weeks for the withdrawals to completely stop and I'm finally getting real sleep as of the last week or so.
I really appreciate you.🩵
Good for you. I came off methadone in July and only started feeling better the last few weeks. Hope you're still doing okay
@Karla Gordon I'm doing very well thank you. 61 days today and I am so very proud of you as well. It can be a fight for sure but so very, very worth it.
Thank you for making this video. The healthcare system destroys lives and families. Unfortunately, my parents didn’t recover from being over prescribed as you did. Myself and my siblings were then raised by addicts in horrible conditions, and years later both parents passed due to their opiate addiction. My story is way too common. I hope their is a resolution for this soon.
You are correct. Watch dopesick and it becomes more evident than ever. Big pharma is a crime syndicate.
Please there is a treatment for opioid, ibogaine is good and successful treatment of opioid,my mother was an opioid until a friend told me about ibogaine.which clean my mother perfectly, within a short period of time today she fine and today she is not on Medication again
Most people watching this video are probably battling the withdrawal's at this very moment. I wish you guys the best of luck and I hope you are able to get through your detox as comfortable as possible. Waking up that first morning feeling just a tad bit better is the light at the end of the tunnel. I like this guy.
thanks
Nothing or nobody can explain withdrawal from opiates. It's like a living nightmare
This was wonderful! Thank you for sharing your experience & being so real! I'm currently in withdrawal by choice, & on day 2. I'm super emotional & felt every emotion you displayed! I needed to hear that you made it! I have 2 young children& they need me! I know I can do it, but hearing stories like this, I NEED!!🙌
You can do it..for yourself and your children 🌝🌷🙏
Hope you're doing ok 💜✌️
It’s been 2 months, how are you doing?💕🙏
@@janadams1490 🤦♂️
You can do it. Think of your children as inspiration.
This is absolutely heart breaking. Your story is exactly what I went through. Word for word. Thank you for the hope
The depression and insomnia is the worst for me... I get anxiety through the roof after 12am. Feels like I wanna tear my skin off.
I hope you’re feeling better
It gets better..... Eventually.
I hope by now you’re feeling better
How long before it gets better?
Same
It literally feels impossible to mentally let the drug go at first
Imagine going through all this and having to maintain a full time job and be a parent. It will get better tho
This is what I'm going through now
@@elizabethLiz-ff9rb Hey, I've BEEN there. Mssg me if you need to talk. It's so worth it.
My wife took the kids to see family for 2 weeks, out of the country. The day they left, I called my work and told them I quit, for personal reasons but, necessary! They said good luck. I took care of immediately matters then, went home locked the doors, and then....wait it out. It's day 3 now.
@@johnryan1798 You're probably feeling right now as bad as you will. If you can get through it, it'll be worth it. It's not easy. But you can do it. Keep your mind occupied with something else. Remember, what one man can do? So can another. Reach out of you need support.
@@plainliloleme5216 Thanks for reply. I've been through this before but, I didn't allow my self enough time to get over it last time, 3 years ago. I stopped for 3 or 4 weeks then but, I started a new job that was very demanding. Just climbing the stairs to clock it would wear me out. I'll find myself taking naps at work at lunch. So, I started Tramadol again just so I can move. I'm worried I'll never have the energy again on my own. I'm terrified
Wow! Even 3 years later I feel like the majority of this rings true. I am going through something similar right now and trust me when I say, I cried with you. Thank you for sharing your story and your success.
How are you doing now??
Went to a 10 day drug detox center. No meds , stayed up for 6 days straight. Thought it was 3 days. No staff helped. Became paranoid that someone there is trying to kill me. Ran out in January barefoot to a pizza place they called the cops, took me to a hospital, had to stay 4 days I was dehydrated and almost in kidney issues. My true story. Found out about taking Imodium that took the edge off almost completely.
Sorry, but Imodium? Please explain. ✌🏼
@@moongoddess8568immodium is an opiate but the molecular structure is too big to cross the blood brain barrier, so you dont get high. We have opiate receptors all over our body, not just in the brain.
I’m 4 years sober now and going through withdrawal is one of the worst things ever. I’m so happy to be sober now and to be living life free of the dependence of opioids. I had overdosed more times than I can count and honestly should’ve died on multiple occasions. But I’m so thankful to be here today and to be able to help others who have gone through the same thing. This is an amazing speech, thank you for this. 💙
I'll be 4 years sober next week (Jan 1). Congrats on your sobriety! I've also OD'd several times. One week I OD'd 3 times in 4 days. The ER was about to put me in 5150 because they felt I was a suicide risk. Luckily my wife coached me on what answers to give them so I'd be allowed to go home. One would think that's your bottom but I still felt like I could use safely. It was two years later when I finally decided I was done and would accept help. Life hasn't been perfect in sobriety, but it's a helluva lot better than being so addicted to something you'd stand on your own child's head to get it. My love, respect, and strength to everyone fighting addiction who reads this!
Restless legs are a B....
The worst
Agreed
The absolute worst part
Worst part hands down
Purriah 101 the one thing that will make me use more than anything. That’s misery I don’t think any will power could overcome
I’m a pharmacy technician, and the frustration I feel seeing these prescriptions being given out like candy on Halloween boggles my mind. Knowing that I am aiding in someone’s opioid addiction upsets me beyond words. Some of these doctors prescribe such high doses and quantities to not have to deal with the patient, then we are left with no choice but to fill the prescriptions. There is major patient negligence regarding opioids, and learning how negatively these substances can affect one’s body, how are doctors capable of participating in this activity knowing they are starting a potential dependence on said drugs.
I’m just coming back off a pretty bad relapse after over a year of sobriety, 45 days today to be exact. I just started feeling semi normal maybe 5 days ago. I would not wish this disease or withdrawal on even my worst enemy. I could relate to everything this man said. From the suicidal thoughts, hopelessness, unprovoked crying, restless legs, insomnia, exhaustion, being starving but not being able to eat. I overall wanted to jump out of my skin. I l remember praying for god to take me because the pain was so bad. Then when you add the psychological issues on top of it, it becomes unbearable. I actually downloaded this video so I can keep the pain fresh in my mind. It’s like the more time you have away from the detox, you start go forget how bad it truly is and the disease tells you in your own voice that you can have just 1. To put it into perspective, just in the last 45 days I lost 2 friends to overdoses. To anyone out there struggling please seek help, the world needs you here even if it doesn’t feel like it. You have a greater purpose in life and things will be better! ♥️🙏🏻
God bless you beautiful 😢
try baclofen or micro philosybins?
@@davidrosenbloom6652 I was on a new medication this time, Lucemyra. It did help tremendously BUT it most definitely delayed the detox symptoms so I felt them much longer this time. Happy to say I’m feeling much much much better now though, thankfully! 🙏🏻
112 days today! 🙌🏻
My experience as an addict for 20 years... and kicking 50 different times... Sir, you did it the worst way, because you tried to wean down. You're better off just quitting cold turkey. From just OxyCodone, you would have been on the UP swing by day 5 or 6. By 'weaning', you were constantly giving your body just enough opioids to constantly restart the withdrawal process, but not enough to get accustomed to a dose. In other words, either kick, cold turkey, with nothing, or wean down, much more slowly with diminishing doses in smaller steps.
But had you just went cold turkey on day 1, by days 6 and 7, you begin feeling better. You're screwed for about 2 weeks, but the week isn't nearly as bad as the first. And it may take months for everything to be perfect, like a person that was never physically dependent, but 95% of the withdrawal misery is gone after just 2 weeks.
Or... Just wean more slowly so you have a chance to adapt to each new lower dose. And then stay on each lowered dose for a longer period, to get that as your new norm... And repeat.
Either way, though, for me, cold turkey is always the easiest. Tappering is impossible. It's like tappering with cigarettes. For me I want at least a pack a day, or none at all. The 'little crumbs' is more frustrating and painful than just getting past withdrawals as fast as humanly possible. Jail works to finally give people clean time for the first time. Because the reason kicking is so hard is because we know we can always cave in under the misery. Willpower. It's really a doozy when you know your dealer is there for you. Jail, though, willpower plays no role. You know the cops won't give you squat. So your brain just accepts that, and there isn't that mental torture of having to be your own gate-keeper, so to speak.
Weaning too fast makes withdrawals worse by just stetching the days out needlessly. The small bits of opioids you take just restart the entire withdrawals. You don't want to have anything touching those mu-opioid-receptors, that way, the healing can finally begin. It's the only way. I wish there was a short-cut. We all do. It doesn't exist yet.
Fun fact: Adrenaline plays a vital role in withdrawals being easier. One weird perk of jail withdrawing is you're constantly on guard from the other people there... so the whole experience keeps your body on a low-dose adrenaline drip which helps. I can prove adrenaline works wonders, depending on how much is excreted by your body. When a dope fiend is withdrawing... nothing can get him out of bed, just moaning and feeling like death. But if he suddenly knows where he left a pill, or bag of dope, etc, he suddenly has all the energy and happiness in the world and pops out of bed like a flower and runs to take that sweet relief. Sure, it sets back withdrawals. Of course. But the addict will have this energy boost and happiness before he even takes the pill. Because knowing he's got relief now releases adrenaline and happiness on its own.
Mick Obrien that is not entirely true. I was able to get clean by weaning off of suboxone over a 1 year period. I was on it for over 9 years. I basically cut tiny pieces and was extra strict about it, and felt literally 0 withdraw symptoms. The last day I forgot it take my tiny square, literally I cut them into specs at the end. The key is how much to cut it should only be about 1/10 of your normal dose per week, not 1/2 or 1/3 then like you said your kicking immediately.
@@LittyJonez OK.... But what's not entrely true? I didn't say weaning wouldn't work. But you spent a YEAR doing it. That's a long time. And don't tell me that wasn't a complete doozy mentally. The point is cold turkey may have the most intense and acute agony, but it's the quickest method and in my opinion that's easier, as opposed to a year of tappering. And once the w/d misery is over, you're so glad it's just behind you so you can completely put opioids behind you. Tappering is harder than cold turkey because you're forced to think about opioids, in some respect, for that much longer... And it's like this thing constantly reminding you of getting high... your willpower constantly has to battle the thoughts. That's the torture. As opposed to just getting them out of your life as fast as possible. This is really opinion based and a moot issue to argue. So nevermind.
Kratom is the answer to withdrawals.
100%. Anyone who says otherwise has never been through it.
The worst symptoms were gone in 5-6 days. I quit oxycontin cold turkey.
Day 14 and I feel truly amazing. I feel a sensation of freedom and relief like no other. The worst part for me was the depression in the first week especially day 3 and 4. I just want anyone going through their withdrawal right now that freedom is fingertips away. Keep fighting it, you can do it 💙
I'm on day 3 and am so grateful for your comment.
Day 1 just going to start i am fear bcoz i experiences it mny times but home detox will only make me clean becoz rehab had forcibly detox but will to detox quit clean of my will never ever developed in rehab so i choose home detox while going to work also fighting for my life i am fear. But mny addicts can do it why I can't. U can plz blessed me
@@TarunKumar-er1jk I'll be thinking of you and cheering you on in your journey. Best of luck to you! You can do this!
That’s awesome, I’m about to start day 1, I think. Can’t find any good info on weather I will withdrawal from the amount I’m taking
@@suzybearheart530 I’m starting day 1 tommorow
Bless this darling man - I am mind-blown by his honesty. Thank you, Mr Rieder for sharing and for making me feel valid.
Same story here. Took them for an initial injury. But for me I got euphoria and it was over. Started doubling my dose, getting them from others and buying illegally. Did that for many years. You have to have a motivation to stop and a good rehab clinic although the rehab clinic isn’t an absolute must but for me it was. I couldn’t stop by myself as most others can’t. The thing about addiction is you take a substance and your brain sees this huge spike in dopamine and rewires your instinctual midbrain and says “this is necessary for our survival.” Once that happens you’re hooked. Been clean a while now thank the lord. It’s all a lie. The good feeling you’re getting is a lie. The “they make me work better.” Or “they make me a better more loving person.” Is such a big lie. Your brain is telling you what you need to hear to maintain what it thinks is necessary for your survival even though it doesn’t deserve that spot. Opiates are absolutely horrible to come off of.
Yup i almost never hear anyone saying that but it's 100% true And the best way to depict it,is that your brain is now in survival mode,to where it views opiates like it does food and water,that's how powerful it is especially if your wired that way an addict,and you have to get clean before your brain will change and think normal
Well said. I battled heavy opioid addiction for 12 years. Every time i tried to quit the withdraw was too unbearable to deal with in practically all aspects. When i finally got past the month of physical withdraw then i had to concentrate on the mental withdraw. I can truly say when you finally get out of that long dark tunnel the reward waiting for you is a better natural high and feeling than you can imagine.
Is it possible to hide an opioid addiction? I dated a guy in his 20s for years who sweat a lot at night and gained like 100lbs and complained of fatigue, nausea and dizziness. This was after he had an oxycodone prescription for a gunshot wound he admitted to abusing. He stole a fortune from me and I always wondered if he used my money to buy street opioids even though he didn't look or act to me like he was on drugs.
@@cw7069 absolutely possible. I used for years without my family knowing. I worked, raised a child, was a manager who handled an entire staff, but I hid that secret for yearrrrrs until it became too much and I told my family and within days I was in a rehab/detox program. There comes a point where you aren’t even getting the high u once did and you’re only using to not get sick. I bet he was at thst point so that’s why u never saw him high or anything. He was probably just trying to get thru life day to day without going into withdrawal. I’m sorry you went thru that. I hope he’s clean now and you don’t hold onto the pain he caused.
You're absolutely right. I keep thinking, how will I be as good as I was?
I can relate to when the symptoms just get better over night. It's like they get worst and worst to unbearable and then all of a sudden it gets better. So if your feeling really awful it's very likely your near the end
This is the biggest BS ever, he is so dramatic, I was on Norco 10 ml for 15 years. 8 a day when l quit it took 3 days agony and restlessness , 2 days depression, after one week it leaves your system for good nd i was off of them for 4 years than i started again, than l quit again many times, none of this BS he is talking bout ever takes place, little depression and crying yes, but please LOL, as he dramatized? NO ,
@@007supertime how long was your longest opiate addiction
@@007supertime it was so bad for him because he was tapering instead of quitting cold turkey.
@@josephburnside2135 tapering is supposed to be easier - cold turkey is more difficult. I've been there. I'm tapering and it's no picnic.
Joseph Burnside that literally makes no sense… cold turkey is more intense but for a shorter period of time
You are very lucky you had a loving advocate (your wife) to stand by you! She went through it too. Love and support doesn’t get enough credit.
I also have experienced opioid addiction after requiring very high doses for over 4 months while my brain hemorrhage healed. Very glad this is being addressed and discussed ✅️
The emotional withdrawal is the hardest for me. The sudden awareness to all the things that were being numbed by the drug, the ugliness of ones character, the selfishness, the effect ones behaviour has had on loved ones. CBD has been a Godsend for me.
Yesssss! Life becomes like that movie The Voices with Ryan Reynolds
O yeah it gets real when your not numb !!!
I had a therapist who explained it this way: You’ve lost your tolerance for reality.
Thank you so much for this! I hate the fact that we have to rely on a non-opioid addict to explain how devastating opioid withdrawal is, but the sad fact is, it's very difficult to make people listen to addicts. The general public thinks that an addict's fear of withdrawal is overblown. We can only hope that they will listen to someone who is not addicted, just dependent. You are performing a pure gift by explaining your experience.
This is the biggest BS ever, he is so dramatic, I was on Norco 10 ml for 15 years. 8 a day when l quit it took 3 days agony and restlessness , 2 days depression, after one week it leaves your system for good nd i was off of them for 4 years than i started again, than l quit again many times, none of this BS he is talking bout ever takes place, little depression and crying yes, but please LOL, as he dramatized? NO ,
@@007supertime glad that was YOUR EXPERIENCE
@@007supertime that was FOR YOU. I am currently, like as I am typing this in ACTIVE WITHDRAWL and this almost perfectly described how I have felt. Good for you that it wasn’t that bad but that’s not how it goes for everyone.
@@007supertime you are definitely in the minority. I think I'll believe the countless people that have described their experiences on here. And also my experience of seeing a family member struggle with this addiction.
For me it was an ice storm that hit my area hard. I ran out of my opioids that I was taking for a little over 2 years. I couldn’t drive to get more. I couldn’t do the important things in my daily life without it. But this storm was a blessing in disguise, I woke up the next day and had to go cold turkey and have now been 2 months sober. I have no withdrawals now, but the first month was awful but my girlfriend kept me honest to my goals. There was no planning involved, it just happened to be the right situation. I was out of work for the week and it was perfect timing for me to transition out of it. Best decision I’ve ever made. I can eat better, think with a clear head, sleep and wake up at better times, gave up recreational drugs, good on being on time. I understand cold turkey is not the best decision, but it was my only option. Good luck to every one else struggling with this.
Freind of mine says cold turkey is the only way he could have done it and even that was totally against his will ,he got arrested, spent 2 weeks in county with most of that in isolation under medical watch. Same as you he realized this was his chance and has been sober since then. By time court came he was 4 months clean ,doing meetings with a sponsor, judge reduced his year or more to fines ,meetings and community service. Glad you made it out ,too!!
You’re so strong- I wasn’t able to successfully complete my first cold-turkey attempt. Gonna try again. Thanks for the inspiration
I played soccer in college and after an injury my freshman year I had major reconstruction surgery on my ankle which required a heavy prescription of oxycontin. The physical pain I experienced from the surgery alone was excruciating and the opioids worked like magic for that first week post-op. Similar to Travis, there was never any conversation between my doctor and my family about the dangers of long term addiction and the process of tapering off...fortunately, my parents were there for me the entire time and they constantly monitored how many pills I was taking (sometimes they would even deny me despite my complaints of being in pain). Without my parents, I could’ve easily slipped into addiction and the current life I live could've all been striped away. The American healthcare system is backwards and the experience really changed my view on opioid addicts, regardless of how they became addicted.
Two things to add:
(1) From the second I took that first pill, I was hooked to that feeling instantly. I'd describe it to laying on a cloud: nothing can hurt you (physically + emotionally), you feel elevated above all the good and bad going on around you, you feel guarded yet warm and soft on the inside--complete euphoria in every sense.
(2) I took them for only a couple weeks and I still experienced withdrawals for about a month after taking them. Opioids don’t discriminate, they can and will take anyone.
I’m going through withdrawal from several months of binge drinking and I feel like I’m so alone and going insane.
Thank you for sharing this
Ur not alone friend, u got it
I've been there, it does get better, you can do this. Thirty months sober now. It took about a year to start feeling normal. I had a lot of childhood wounds to heal. I believe in you!!
Try this: hold your breath for as long as you can. Really fight the urge to take a breath. That moment when your body is in full panic, when your whole existence shifts to filling your lungs with fresh air. That unrelenting panic is what it feels like to need a dose. The physical pain of it, words can’t describe.
Neurotica great way of putting it!
I say it’s like standing on the edge of a building and someone pushed you
Yes! Exactly
pussies
I have kept my monkey quiet for 15 days
Remember folks, when the sneezing more than once at a time stops. You are pretty much there = )
Thank you that’s so helpful I was wondering when it’ll get better
@@amberdakota7933 from what I have gleaned from looking into the googles scientists don’t know why withdrawl causes sneezing.
From personal experience I’m able to tell how intense the withdrawals going to be on how many times in a row I sneeze. As time goes on and my body slowly starts fixing itself I would sneeze less and less. sneezing 5-6 times in a row on day 1 then on week 3 I’m down to only sneezing twice in a row and mild goose bumps. I correlate the two because the day I wake up and only sneeze once is usually when the last of the goose bump chills stop.
Either way GL on staying sober. Wish ya the best.
Lol I've been sneezing like a machine gun. On day 5 clean im disabled but can't stand these drugs anymore. I'd rather take the pain.
Usually 3 × in a row.
This is the biggest BS ever, he is so dramatic, I was on Norco 10 ml for 15 years. 8 a day when l quit it took 3 days agony and restlessness , 2 days depression, after one week it leaves your system for good nd i was off of them for 4 years than i started again, than l quit again many times, none of this BS he is talking bout ever takes place, little depression and crying yes, but please LOL, as he dramatized? NO ,
4 Years after you posted this I'm watching it and wishing so badly I were free from opiods 10-12 yrs ago. I broke my neck in 2009 and have gone through an experience very similar to what you have described multiple times without succeeding with being free from them ever. I now have to go to a methadone clinic daily and it is awful. I want off it so badly as when I go more than 24 hrs without it it's the same withdrawl if not worse as when I was on the pain meds.
Have you tried weaning with Kratom? That has helped several people and it is legal and natural.
After twenty years I’m finally two months clean and it’s unreal. I’m not depressed, bipolar, or a junkie. You will get better
It's really sad to see how many of us are going through this. We really are in an EPIDEMIC 😔
I've been saying for years that they need to make it a law that a correct taper program is required for any opioid prescription. I've had 25 surgeries and was only properly tapered once and it was from 100mcg fentanyl patches and I had zero withdrawal symptoms.
Please share the method used for tapering from fentanyl.. It could help a lot of people, especially right now.
Thanks
@@hansenhawke3265 what he said ^ please do
@@hansenhawke3265 You are supposed to just taper very slowly..that’s it...and whenever you make a mistake and start to feel too sick..get back up to the right dose and then go down accordingly..it’s not rocket science..I went from 18mg’s to 2 mg’s of suboxone in less then a year and didn’t feel one withdrawal symptom and then I broke the 2 mg pills in half’s and then quarters and it also should be noted that you should be drinking lots of fluids and doing light workouts and eating healthy as well as finding support groups..people want to just be able to do nothing and get off of it without any struggle, it’s not realistic..you can’t sit around worrying about withdrawal and focusing on it and become obsessed and scared of it..that is already setting yourself up for a bad time...it’s a matter of being a weak individual..I have battled addiction for 15 years..it’s all about changing ur lifestyle completely..not just stopping the drug use.
Yes, totally. But maybe they don't want you to get off your opioid prescription.
This is the biggest BS ever, he is so dramatic, I was on Norco 10 ml for 15 years. 8 a day when l quit it took 3 days agony and restlessness , 2 days depression, after one week it leaves your system for good nd i was off of them for 4 years than i started again, than l quit again many times, none of this BS he is talking bout ever takes place, little depression and crying yes, but please LOL, as he dramatized? NO, ,
I'm still battling opioid addiction after an accident in 2008. Methadone, Suboxone and every opioid pill on the market. The sleepless months was the hardest part for me
This is inspiring. I made it out of the oxycodone life, years of waking at 5am to withdraws. Calling all the shady people I know to find a few to get thru the day. Been on suboxone for 8 years no and though I live a normal life with my beautiful family, I still have that monkey hanging on my shoulder. Did I leave my subs at home, what if the pharmacy doesn’t have any, what if the airport loses my bags, what if I can’t get more. I just want it to be over already
Suboxone allowed me to get my life back after 7 years of opioid dependence. I was on suboxone for 3 years before I decided to wean off. I did a 6 month taper before I stopped taking it completely. I won't sugarcoat it, it was very difficult, but my resolve at the time was incredibly strong. I felt how you feel. "What if my supply is interrupted suddenly? What will I do? Will I be able to work? Will I lose my job?" etc. I didn't want to depend on having access to this medication in order to go about my life. It has been almost 5 years now that I've been off the suboxone. It is very difficult at first but if you choose to get off it, the main thing I want to promise you is that you WILL feel normal again. You will get through it and be able to wake up in the morning without it and feel like yourself. I firmly believe there is no shame in taking suboxone, it truly saved my life. But if you do choose to get off of it, it is truly possible and worthwhile, in my experience. Good luck to you!
I used to feel this way on methadone. What if there's a disaster like an earthquake or a war. How am I gonna get through that if I'm extremely sick.
@Tiffany Davis yes it’s still an addiction absolutely. But it doesn’t really get you high and it allows you to get away from the lifestyle and the people that you shouldn’t be around. It’s stronger in the way it binds to your opiate receptors but not in the sense of feeling high. It kind of feels like a cup of coffee, a little mood boost for an hour. But it’s still bad, it’s still a dependence and I think it might be harder to kick
Get on sublocade
Worst time of my entire life, I'd go to jail 100 times again before detoxing
Imagine detoxing in jail
@@EddieHallslittlebrother I've done that. Luckily I was able to sneak about 20 xanax bars in with me and slept almost completely for the first week. I also took about 3 suboxone in with me but didn't touch them only bc I knew I was going to be there a while and would have to come off everything at one point and I would not longer have the bars. So I traded them out for other stuff.
@@Slymbeaux I can never sleep when I'm going through withdrawals the restless leg syndrome and the pain from my chronic pain keeps me from sleeping. Its miserable I wish I was just taking these things to get high it would be so easy to quit if I didnt have chronic pain from my injuries.
@@EddieHallslittlebrother did you know when you stop opioides That make the srls restless leg syndromes i got it too Sorry for my bad english
Day 2 off my pain meds that I've been prescribed for 30 years for multiple job injuries. Read about kratom and took 4 the first day and 4 the second the withdrawal is bearable except the r.l.s and insomnia.Just wondering when i get a good nights sleep
Thank you for telling, 'Our stories'
Yeah... let's hope he never really experience wd...
This is the biggest BS ever, he is so dramatic, I was on Norco 10 ml for 15 years. 8 a day when l quit it took 3 days agony and restlessness , 2 days depression, after one week it leaves your system for good nd i was off of them for 4 years than i started again, than l quit again many times, none of this BS he is talking bout ever takes place, little depression and crying yes, but please LOL, as he dramatized? NO ,
this is almost certainly scripted, everything he says is crazy exaggerated
@@007supertime woah guys watch out we got a badass over here
All of this from a couple months? Imagine being on fentanyl 10 plus years then quitting cold turkey.
When I was 18 years old (14 years ago) I was prescribed oxys after a car accident. It wasn’t even a bad accident I just had a slipped disc. Had no idea about opiates. Spent the next 10 years of my life trying to get off of them. In and out of jails and rehabs. That pain doctor stole my life from me. I can now say I’m 4 years sober. But it took everything from me before I found a way to get my life back. I have so much resentment towards doctors. They know how to get you addicted but have no idea how to safely and comfortably get you off the drugs.
I'm 10 days clean. Omg smh. I NEVER thought I could feel like this again. I feel happy again. I know you guys are looking in the comments. And people say the same thing. " Just keep going, you'll feel better one day". But I PROMISE YOU. You will feel better and you will return to normal. I still have work to do. But after taking 70-100 mgs of perks everyday, I'm Finally free. You can do it my brothers and sisters. Just push thru for a week. 1 week..... You'll feel the difference
I’m 4 days in. Have done this more times than I can count. This time I have some people encouraging me. Hopefully I’ll be able to do it. Been on this stuff for 15 years
Going on 24 days clean. Staying strong. 💪
😎😎😎
Congrats!!! One day at a time!
Been clean since may 25th. And still clean and doing better each day.
Congrats
Your over the worst
I'm fighting everything you just described right now. Haven't slept in weeks These rehab programs only catered to switching you from opioids to synthetics like methadone suboxen. I'm so scared, depressed, and hopeless but I'm fighting through.
🙏❤️
I also can relate to this. But I went cold turkey from huge amounts of fentenyl. I didn't eat or sleep for 15 days. I could barely stand, walk or talk. It was only my faith in God and fear of leaving my family that saved me.
For anyone who's struggling, just remember you can stop and withdrawals won't kill you. Have faith you can stop.Remember you were crated for more than addiction. Stay hydrated and summon you inner courage placed there by the creator. Hope these words help. By God's good grace you are strong! You are free! You are healed!
Just repeat those affirmations and don't give up.
I know Weedborn has solutions to most diseases.
THANK U SO MUCH, this is what happened w me, NOT ONE TIME, NOT ONE DR. said ANYTHING about it being bad, dangerous, addictive, nothing. People assume u "know." Well, i didnt. THE DOCTORS KNEW...but I didnt. Im an expert now, but only after losing everything but my life. THANK YOU FOR BRINGING THIS OUT.
Cake A I am an addict of nearly 20 years. The doctors are in a "no win" position here; a) they either aren't treating our pain...then, often as not, when they ARE they get fingered for "Making an addict out of me". Finally, it's oft heard, "I didn't KNOW..." This is the reasoning of a child; "I didn't know...you didn't TELL me that throwing the baseball near mommy's china cabinet could break the glass!"
I have heard this "I don't know" and it's enough. As I said, It's not just you, it's EVERYONE these days. "Well, those DOCTORS just kept on giving me more and more..." and you kept taking them and feeling 8 kinds of far out, didn't you? You may not have been given a sit down talk...but you would have to have lived in the remotest outback in a cave not to know that narcotic painkillers are habit forming and about withdrawal. It strains credulity to think someone doesn't know. It's only the No 1 propaganda wag the dog gimmick that's been going for YEARS with no signs of letting up.
It's way past time for all of us to pick up the tab for our own addiction...and if you don't like the word "addict", then "dependence". Good luck, hope you come out ok.
I find that hard to believe. That's like saying no one told you tobacco and alcohol are addictive anything can become a addiction. Most Americans are addicted to caffeine and dont even know it. Don't even have to be a coffee drinker. If you drink 5-6+ soft drinks a day. Drink something else for a couple days levme know how itbtirr
@@JamesSmith-lt5zz Church!
Its nobodies fault, doctors are trying to help when they prescribe, they are not trying to harm anyone. At some point, we ourselves have a brain, we can figure out long before it becomes a problem that we are turning it into a problem. Yes, there are plenty of cases where a person had no choice, they had to manage their pain. I knew before I ever took one pain pill that they are addicting. I made the conscious decision for over 50 years not to take them. Back in my 30's, I had an abscessed tooth, the pain was so, so freaking bad, I went to the dentist and he gave me a prescription for pain meds to take until the infection was gone. two pills didn't even touch the pain, neither did 4 or 8 or 10, and I was serious, I'm going to keep taking these until the pain dies down, the pain med was making me so freaking sick, so finally, I went and took two aspirins, guess what, 20 minutes later the pain was gone. So not all pain requires prescription pain meds. I get an essential oil cream from one of the dealers that sells the lotion, guess what? Yup, I rubbed that cream is good everywhere I was hurting, in 20 minutes the pain was gone just from using the cream. up until just recently, I do not believe doctors realized how addictive they are now. most doctors most likely never realized that they were addicting at all. Don't expect your doctor to be a pharmacist too...quit blaming them for everything. Quit blaming anyone and everyone for things they never intended to cause. It's your body, your mind and your soul take responsibility for it. nothing more sickening than to see people, over and over blaming everyone else for their woe's, especially your mother, good grief, people just gotta be blaming others for everything so they don't have to take responsibility for anything. grow up. I'll be the farm everyone takes credit for the good stuff, huh?
@@barbaramoore1711 If you've read my above comment you know I agree with your comment. I have one comment and one question.
First, the comment: You are absolutely right about ASPIRIN. Most of my pain issues are not relieved by aspiring EXCEPT for HEADACHES, EARACHES...in these cases Aspirin is the ONLY thing that helps...I am sure there are sound medical reasons for this.
The Question: Did you take narcotic meds long enough to become habituated? I mean to say, if you did not take your prescribed painkiller in the morning, did you start to feel a malaise?
Did you wake up in the middle of the night or morning sick (dope sick is the vulgar expression we addicts employ. Crude, but it paints the accurate picture)?
Did you, when you found you were running low on your meds, start to feel a blind panic?
I sincerely hope none of the above applied to you---that you escaped dependence, let alone addiction.
This aspect I bring up because of the barbaric goings on in this country right now with NO end in sight; Chronic pain patients being suddenly cut off from their opiate pain medication, often with a far too rapid taper or, in far too many cases, NONE AT ALL.
I wrote several years ago that we were entering (as regards the treatment or lack thereof, of pain) an Age of Barbarism. It pains me to say that this prediction, based on trends I was seeing years ago, has become reality.
Lucky is the person who has a physician who is giving a humane and gradual taper to their pain patients.
It is not being reported in the lap dog media, of course, but many patients who have been cut off from their meds and now face a life of daily horror; The withdrawal, especially from an "eating" habit...pills taken as directed, given that most of these are synthetic the withdrawals can last for a month...or longer.
I can attest to the fact that I was 8 day in and the symptoms showed no signs of lessening.
Medical intervention was needed. They don't do much for the addict...they certainly do not want him/her comfortable. They'll keep you from PHYSICALLY dying; fluids, anti-emetics. If you are extremely lucky and get a HUMAN practitioner, they might give you IV push of Ativan...and you will thank Heaven for it.
Sorry for the length here, but it is important.
I hope you are well!
For all of you struggling, you are not alone.. I'm 14 days sober and everyday is a struggle, BUT at the end of the day knowing I resisted gets me through the night. I'm 30, single and live alone... If I can do this surviving off everyplate and dog parks, you can as well! Stay strong and never be afraid to ask for help!
How are you doing???
The "ideal" tapering plan is something every physician should consider and follow. I feel fortunate my PCP understood this and threw in two meds to comfort the occasional side effects: 1) Clonidine for chills, goosebumps, hot flashes, etc. 2) Valium for calming nerves and ensuring sleep. I feared #2 becoming a problem but amazingly it didn't. Followed the Dr's instructions to the letter and he was spot on. Couple with a balanced diet and exercise (only walk if you have to), is what helped me side step the terrible things the speaker shared and I've read in the comments section about withdrawal.
I've kicked like that before in jail. Jail sometimes won't give you anything but ás of late they are helping cause withdrawing from öpiates are so hard. Good luck everyone. Peace. ✌️
@@qawimuminMay I ask what they give in jail? Thanks. ✌🏼
@@moongoddess8568 They gave us Catapress and librium. They worked great, Stopped us from being sick. Have a great day. 😁
Day 3 , This is ridiculous 5am And I’m crying my heart out GOD HELP ME
SMOKE ALOT OF WEED
as im sitting here wishing i was where you are in the detox, havnt eveb starte3d yet...where are you? what part of the counrty
I know this mean nothing, I pray right now for you. I won't go through withdrawal again, I cannot go through it.
You don't deserve this, god bless.
Praying for you
Ain't no god!
Imagine that feeling u have when u wake up groggy an see a spider coming down to ur face.
The way ur body jumps like a full body spasm to escape an get off the bed with shot of adrenaline .
Now.
Imagine this feeling NEVER GOING AWAY FOR 30+ DAYS.
This is the extreme possibility of "restless leg syndrome".
Should be dam called "restless BODY SYNDROME".
I can so relate to this. But I say it’s nerves shocking from head to toe, spasms, and tremors so severe that the minute you wake up you’re gasping for air. And that’s after a night or not sleeping and wrestling it the whole time then too. It’s debilitating.
This is 100% accurate. I went to 3 doctors in one week and they did not care one bit. Even told me that’s not what I was experiencing.
I had same happen to me after motorcycle accident and tons of opioids over a long time. I used vodka over an entire summer to get thru the weaning, tapering, withdrawal. Finally I quit the vodka cold turkey and endured a two week panic, during which I discovered that swimming laps was very therapeutic.
I’m currently withdrawing from opioids. And I’m also currently drinking Budweiser to ease the suffering. I’ve been doing this for 3 nights. In the days I’m crippled. Any help?
@@dawnbartle123 hey, how are you doing today?
I remember after surgery when my dad realized his body was starting to demand and depend on medication, he refused to take any more when he still had over 100 pills......he tossed and turned for seven straight days without sleep, it was miserable and really hard to watch when the doctors had told us back then that the medicine was NOT addictive, if my dad didn’t have the will power he may have been turned into a long term addict and it would have been their fault
The doctors who said the medicine isn't ADDICTIVE needs to be fired. Didn't they just witness you dad fighting to stop taking the drug because your dad know that he's starting to get addicted to it?
Salute to your Dad for going through hardship to completely stop taking drugs . How is your dad now?🙂
it happened to me, before my surgery i never even had a beer but now i'm on percocet docs never told that its very addictive but i'm getting out of it
You have a very strong father, be proud of him
Yup. That's exaxtly what happened to me, & a lot of other people. Sadly, I did go one thking the meds, & becaem a hardcore addict. Had to turn to Methadone to deal with it.
Thank you for this im trying to get myself off of suboxone and its so darn hard the major deep depression it puts me into the runny nose and yawning the cold sweats the complete lack of energy and desire to do the things you normally love...the loss of sleep and the restless legs and body twitches the fact that I have 0 patience with my 3 year old daughter which makes me feel even more depressed. Man I'm looking towards the sky and praying for this to be over and just to feel normal again.
Hey! I'm on Suboxone too, can I ask what dose you're on? Are you trying to get off from the 2mg dose? I'm currently on 10mg
I'm also on suboxone but my dr retired in December and I don't have another dr lined up and can't afford it, so I weined down from 8mg to literal crumbs just to stop withdrawals, I have 2 days left and probably will be sick a week or so if I can get in to a dr! To me, it's helped weining and tapering down like I have. The withdrawals are a little less, but still uncomfortable!!
Girl I was in the same boat.. try getting down to a dose a 2 mg suboxone and then switch to kratom.
Dont switch to kratom, i was using suboxone to quit kratom, it's like quittin a nightmare just to wake up in another nightmare.
I did it . Twice, the first time cold turkey the second with help and the 2nd time was worse. The yawns omg all of it was horrible and I did it with chronic pancreatitis and heart failure. I feel so much better I’m on day 44 and getting compliments on my appearance and attitude. Being on suboxone changed me , I had weird drug behaviors, I was prescribed it for pain since the the clinic said it was safer for my heart. It almost killed me instead by damaging my heart further. I’m not one to say, u can do it because I did. It’s hard. Not impossible but surely seems close. I hope u got through it and are better because of it❤️
Thank you so much for this talk. This explains what addicts really go through. You are very, very strong.
I cold turkeyed a 25yr opioid addiction and discovered BOLLYWOOD Movies in the process. Took me about two weeks. My first 8 days I pretty much had his symptoms. No sleep. Sick twitching constantly and unable to relax my body enough to sleep. Then a sweet little Bollywood film that ran 3.25 hours got me so absorbed into reading closed captions that I totally forgot about my withdrawals. I spent the next 8 days watching every movie SRK & HR made to get me through it all. ❤ I’m now enjoying the world through a whole new perspective! 🥰💝