Why fentanyl withdrawal is so unbearable

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  • @bombjelly5795
    @bombjelly5795 8 месяцев назад +2028

    I quit at 21. I’m 32 years old. Anything is possible. ❤

  • @Karmafuzion2.0
    @Karmafuzion2.0 10 месяцев назад +4544

    I hate when people say withdrawal is like the flu. Withdrawal brings me to the brink of suicide

    • @whitemamba0089
      @whitemamba0089 10 месяцев назад +165

      Facts I made it 5 days locked in a room an decided to try to get on a methadone program I kno I was gonna relapse its miserable

    • @wievc1942
      @wievc1942 10 месяцев назад +9

      @@whitemamba0089dam foreal bro ?

    • @wievc1942
      @wievc1942 10 месяцев назад +1

      @@whitemamba0089u still was feeling bad after not using 5 days ?

    • @whitemamba0089
      @whitemamba0089 10 месяцев назад

      @@wievc1942 it is the worst experience I've ever had, like suicidal type of ideas to escape that an I was a light user I could only imagine a full on "junkie" if the devil is real he's in that drug lol

    • @Real-time22
      @Real-time22 10 месяцев назад +287

      Going through it now. Week 3. Suicide thoughts finally gone. Still an emotional wreck. I’m doing all I can, eating, exercise, win hof, gummies, vitamins, hydration. Still sux.

  • @empale1
    @empale1 2 месяца назад +78

    1765 days clean and sober no addiction medication.

    • @popsik891
      @popsik891 Месяц назад +2

      Im so proud of you and I hope your doing well keep going

    • @empale1
      @empale1 Месяц назад +2

      @ 1807 days ☺️

    • @popsik891
      @popsik891 Месяц назад +1

      @@empale1 Thats so great!!!

    • @erinwilson3369
      @erinwilson3369 Месяц назад +2

      @@empale1 . I’m 2 yrs clean and haven’t had to spend even 1 hr in a dingy church basement drinking stale coffee and eating cheap cake. I win.

    • @empale1
      @empale1 Месяц назад

      @ whatever works for you

  • @GlaGlaGlaTRIP
    @GlaGlaGlaTRIP 8 месяцев назад +1237

    Perfect description! It's rare in the media.
    I'm clean for 4 years. 17 years of drug use and 3 rehabs.. A long fight....

    • @randylal
      @randylal 8 месяцев назад +17

      Yet you winning the war keep it up your victory is near , GOD BLESS AND LIVES YOU AND I AND ALL ELSE LOVE YA BRO

    • @donaldjesus5382
      @donaldjesus5382 8 месяцев назад +8

      CONGRATS, I hope you are loving life bro!

    • @oneloveboob
      @oneloveboob 8 месяцев назад

      Nice. I’ve already been to 3 rehabs and it’s only
      Been 11 years… I can only imagaine how much worse it gets if I don’t stop now. I’ve tried 3-4 times this year and a half anyways!

    • @TermlessHGW
      @TermlessHGW 8 месяцев назад +14

      Quite often ppl fail to mention that withdrawal, so physical pain but also emotional despair is only the beginning of quitting opioids. Real battle with yourself starts when the pain stops and you try to live without the high.

    • @DisiLLusioNed316
      @DisiLLusioNed316 7 месяцев назад

      19 years heroin jabbing and smoking along with 10 years mephadrone and meth jabs quit multiple time about 11 rehabs over 6 months leanths....each time... started methadone 2017 and quit methadone cold turkey 2023 it was tha hardest withdrawals ever I couldn't handle it 14 day I was put on beuprinorphine but since I continued smoking H like minimum along with the beuprinorphine.. quit beuprinorphine a month ago continued smoking H quit H 7 days ago started taking Kratom now. After puking all the bile out and restarting my system..... ill be on kratom for a while then quit this too..... the main shit is looking at what I've done to myself my hands, my legs, being at my prime.. just hurts n sucks bad shit to swallow.... I live in india and we still have H here... fk fettys I won't even go close.... But congrats for kicking it off nd more power to you...

  • @UlfhedinnNorsk
    @UlfhedinnNorsk 9 месяцев назад +1470

    I am a combat veteran who was on opioids for 5 years due to severe spinal injury and when the doctor said “No more. Deal with it” I went cold turkey. I lived in my bathroom for 3 weeks begging for death. But the absolute torture was severe RLS and emotional instability! And I heard getting off fentanyl is a lot worse. Can’t even imagine anyone wanting to go back to it after they quit once and went thru this hell.

    • @eustab.anas-mann9510
      @eustab.anas-mann9510 8 месяцев назад +23

      How do you manage the pain?

    • @UlfhedinnNorsk
      @UlfhedinnNorsk 8 месяцев назад +1

      @@eustab.anas-mann9510 Marijuana (I use very little time after time but absolutely hate how I feel) and Kratom. We are all different and what works for me may not work for someone else. I know Kratom is addictive substance as well, but I rather rely on something legal and readily available. 🤷🏻‍♂️ Some of us live day to day and count small victories. I also suggest physical activities. Finding something that hurts the least and do it. Try to trick your body into thinking you’re somewhat healthy and it might help.

    • @morpheus_9
      @morpheus_9 8 месяцев назад

      Wtf is wrong with your doctor?

    • @00loudog
      @00loudog 8 месяцев назад +59

      The emotional instability it's terrible I've tried to explain this too it's terrible

    • @theanimeboy9953
      @theanimeboy9953 8 месяцев назад +15

      how long did you have to deal with the withdrawal symptoms before your body finally adjusted and you were finally able to stop this addiction?

  • @LeprosuGnome
    @LeprosuGnome 8 месяцев назад +924

    Lack of compassion for addicts is one of the things I despise the most in society. It demonstrates an enormous lack of knowledge, intelligence AND moral.

    • @JeremyFacer
      @JeremyFacer 8 месяцев назад +83

      In most communities in America drug addicts are getting more recourses and helping hands than struggling families yet still chose to live on the street and use. That why is people are no longer compassionate

    • @Maxibo234
      @Maxibo234 8 месяцев назад +102

      @@JeremyFacer your comment belies your understanding or lack thereof with regards to the subject at hand.

    • @JeremyFacer
      @JeremyFacer 8 месяцев назад +37

      @@Maxibo234 okay nerd. You’re really putting mommy’s thesaurus to good use aren’t you

    • @holmavik6756
      @holmavik6756 8 месяцев назад +59

      I agree on every word. It’s unbeliveable how arrogant and heartless some people are. One day they might find themselves in a situation more miserable than they thought possible

    • @cheesygorditacrunch96
      @cheesygorditacrunch96 8 месяцев назад

      @@JeremyFacerI wouldn’t go as far to say that. There is plenty of help available…if you have private insurance. If you don’t, you’re SOL. I’ll have two years off fentanyl in July, before getting clean I tried for months to find a treatment center that would take me while I was uninsured. All I got was my name put on long waitlists or outright refusals; I had a family member who ended up offering a spare room to me so I could try to do it on my own…the withdrawals were hell on earth but I made it through and am a better person because of it. Treatment in the US needs a complete overhaul, if you aren’t rich you aren’t getting real help other than harm reduction.

  • @IusedtohaveausernameIliked
    @IusedtohaveausernameIliked 9 месяцев назад +550

    This person is smart and articulate. And is able to talk about this difficult subject without moralizing. Well done.

    • @djquinn11
      @djquinn11 9 месяцев назад +11

      Yes, an excellent job.

    • @2tarynn
      @2tarynn 6 месяцев назад +5

      i’d argue that she actually moralizes drug addiction and withdrawal with medicinal stats.

    • @kalebanth8323
      @kalebanth8323 6 месяцев назад +3

      @@2tarynnYes she’s amazing 👍

    • @valvodka
      @valvodka 6 месяцев назад

      No morals is the root cause😅

    • @solar0wind
      @solar0wind 5 месяцев назад +5

      ​@@valvodka Your comment is exactly what she said is counterproductive and harmful. You should rewatch the video.

  • @yingandtheyang924
    @yingandtheyang924 10 месяцев назад +7784

    Day 9 no Fentanyl ❤
    56 DAYS
    Edit: 56 days sober, and still going strong. You can do that shit, never thought I would be able to, and I did it even when I didn't want to! You can get clean....AND be happy❤️💯🤙

    • @SageSoundz
      @SageSoundz 10 месяцев назад +75

      How are you feeling?

    • @yingandtheyang924
      @yingandtheyang924 10 месяцев назад

      @@SageSoundz I'm feeling pretty good, thank you for asking! Noticing the bordum starting to kick in alot more now that my withdrawals are calming down, the whole chaos of that lifestyle keeps you busy and always having something to do/think about. Now I'm just at my aunts waiting for the rehab bed to open up, and no longer have some daily adventure to attain dope that I gotta go on lol. My last couple of family members took my car and kicked me out and that did it for me!

    • @robertkenney6002
      @robertkenney6002 10 месяцев назад +341

      I’m on day 7 but I been a HEAVY iv user fet fkr last 7 years and oxy and h 10 years before that. I’m miserable can barely strength tk write this

    • @jose-qb8tr
      @jose-qb8tr 10 месяцев назад +132

      Hold on there guys I'm also here trying my best

    • @TheGrimmjow1995
      @TheGrimmjow1995 9 месяцев назад +175

      Day 6 no fent blue pills. Was using 4-5 yrs daily. This was the hardest battle I ever experienced but it did so much for me mentally. I’ve always had a addictive personality so with this new start I’m building myself mentally and physically. We got this 🤝

  • @Nishmcbay
    @Nishmcbay 29 дней назад +86

    Amazing video.. It’s crazy how many people go through so much traumas from this abusive drugs. Fentanyl addiction actually destroyed my life, i suffered severe depression and mental disorder, not until my wife recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment changed my life for better. I can proudly say i'm totally clean for 6 years and still counting. Always look to nature for solution to tough problems, Shrooms are phenomenal.

    • @gusna82266
      @gusna82266 29 дней назад +3

      I love hearing great life changing stories like this. I want to become a mycologist because honestly mushrooms are the best form of medicine (most especially the psychedelic ones) There are so many people today used magic mushrooms to ween off of SSRI medication- its amazing! Years back i wrote an entire essay about psychedelics. they saved you from death buddy, lets be honest here.

    • @Morrisbraga-jm9lc
      @Morrisbraga-jm9lc 29 дней назад

      Can you help me with the reliable source 🙏. I'm 56 and have suffered for years with addiction, anxiety and severe ptsd, I got my panic attacks under control myself years ago and they have come back with a vengeance, I'm constantly trying to take full breaths but can't get the full satisfying breath out, it's absolutely crippling me, i live in Germany. I don't know much about these mushrooms. Really need a reliable source!! Can't wait to get them

    • @canerbakar-jv2si
      @canerbakar-jv2si 29 дней назад +5

      Sure of mycologist Pedroshrooms..I'm so very happy for you mate, Psilocybin is absolutely amazing, the way it shows you things, the way it teaches you things. I can not believe our world and our people shows less interest about it's helpfulness to humanity. It's love. The mushrooms heals people by showing the truth, it would be so beneficial for so many people, especially politicians and the rich who have lost their way and every other persons out there.

    • @Jack-w1t9j
      @Jack-w1t9j 29 дней назад +3

      Can I reach this dude through Google?

    • @Mathhew-y6b
      @Mathhew-y6b 29 дней назад +1

      Yes he's Pedroshrooms

  • @awkwardautistic
    @awkwardautistic 8 месяцев назад +525

    I had a heavy IV fentanyl habit and the detox was so terrible that I don't have the words to describe it. I couldn't eat, drink, or sleep.. I was just sweating, hallucinating, and wanting to d i e. The only reason I was able to get through it is because my kids were in foster care with strangers. It was brutal though.. and that is honestly a part of what's kept me from relapsing. Its been 6yrs now.

    • @missindependent1973
      @missindependent1973 8 месяцев назад +67

      I got clean for my kid. I was at the court house and just tested positive for fentanyl, my kid was about 1.5 years. They told me they were taking him into care and I lost it. I begged them to give me one last chance and she gave it to me (shockingly). I never fucked up again. Been clean since Jan 2010. CAS case closed since Dec 2010 💪. My son just turned 16, he’s my world ❤

    • @awkwardautistic
      @awkwardautistic 8 месяцев назад

      @@missindependent1973 in 2017 DCFS in Cleveland wasn't testing for fentanyl yet...we were coming up clean and had to argue and tell them we were not sober!

    • @jacobishii6121
      @jacobishii6121 8 месяцев назад +2

      I'm got on to a program by the time oxy became a huge problem.I come from the days of H before all this fent......I was wondering if people were shooting fentanyl.
      Are the blue fent pills something that can be injected IV or is it another form like the powder or rock they got posters about at the VA up here?

    • @tantawan6
      @tantawan6 7 месяцев назад +3

      Just keep remembering how you hung out with the 'Jone's'.6 years clean ? it must have been a bad one. All the best from 'Down Under'

    • @daniellam2752
      @daniellam2752 7 месяцев назад +2

      I’m so happy for you just think about this every time you think about relapsing and you’ll be good every time

  • @jasonjones1336
    @jasonjones1336 4 месяца назад +107

    For anyone that’s wanting/trying to get clean off fent. Try to get some gabbapentin. My mother went to rehab for fent & they gave her gabbapentin & she told me that you don’t feel the symptoms at all. She said she felt completely normal as if she was sober with no symptoms. Hopefully this helps someone. It’s a tough battle but you got this! You’re future self with thank you & love you so much for doing so

    • @Nick_80599
      @Nick_80599 3 месяца назад +11

      Yes this! And pregabalin (Lyrica) was given to me when it was realised Morphine was not suitable for my nerve pain and the withdrawal symptoms were very bad, Pregabalin wiped away the withdrawal within hours and was able to find a lower suitable dose for nerve pain

    • @JosephWalker-ip7pd
      @JosephWalker-ip7pd 3 месяца назад +18

      It helps but the withdrawal is still very painful.

    • @jessegruber3650
      @jessegruber3650 3 месяца назад +32

      Gabapentin would take a small edge off of fentanyl withdrawal at best. It helps, but to say you don't feel symptoms at all is just completely untrue unless you were the lightest user EVER

    • @kristine432
      @kristine432 3 месяца назад

      Research the side effects of Gabapentin they are life altering and not in a good way.

    • @krufty47
      @krufty47 3 месяца назад

      ​@@jessegruber3650facts. I went to rehab for fent and they gave me gabapentin, clonidine, and ativan. & Still felt some pretty rough symptoms but it was at least bearable. Detoxing off fent by yourself with no medications was impossible for me

  • @FYBBoogeyG
    @FYBBoogeyG 4 месяца назад +108

    I'm currently battling addiction with fentanyl, I want to stop SOOOOO BAD but I don't know where to begin, I have no insurance or Medicaid . I pray God just takes it away from me or send me an angel to help me out . I'm at a cross road and do not know what else to do . I'm scared of dieing , I'm scared of telling my love ones what I do . I just want it all to stop 😢😢😢😢 crying as I write if your seeing this please pray for me

    • @fogcreature
      @fogcreature 3 месяца назад +7

      I’m battling too. It’s really hard to find where I live. Hope you get through it

    • @bshaw1753
      @bshaw1753 3 месяца назад +8

      Go to a state run facility -- I been to 2 of them without any insurance and you can stay for 7-21 days and prescribe comfort meds and 3 meals.

    • @denisekay1783
      @denisekay1783 3 месяца назад +2

      Praying for you.

    • @renemadrid6094
      @renemadrid6094 3 месяца назад +3

      Same boat

    • @1will111
      @1will111 3 месяца назад +7

      Sending you a hug and please know I don’t know you but I pray you overcome this and have a beautiful life that you deserve and CAN have!!! Much love to you. ❤

  • @elitetrainingnetwork
    @elitetrainingnetwork 9 месяцев назад +658

    Amazing how many people commenting on this video are going through it from all walks of life. Just shows what a universal struggle addiction is.

    • @MfConnor
      @MfConnor 9 месяцев назад +11

      ❤In the same sense, it's amazing to see how many people have tapped into There strength to overcome the hardest thing that they'll ever overcome addiction and change their life around To See another day

    • @Bobby-n2q
      @Bobby-n2q 6 месяцев назад +4

      Should ban narcan and hand out decades for simple possession

    • @SilenceOase
      @SilenceOase 6 месяцев назад +1

      @@Bobby-n2q ah yes thats exactly how you treat it, putting people behind bars for drug posession. Haven't people learned anything from the war on drugs? It doesn't work and it ruins people's lives

    • @bigredracingteam9642
      @bigredracingteam9642 6 месяцев назад +4

      @@Bobby-n2q You sound like a really compassionate guy, Bobby! Hopefully you also love paying taxes - the "gubmint" is going to need a *lot* of money to keep a *lot* of people incarcerated "for decades for simple possession."

    • @valvodka
      @valvodka 6 месяцев назад

      ​@@bigredracingteam9642he's right. They are going to overdose eventually so get it over sooner. The drugs will wipe out the customer base. Call it a really late term abortion and libs will hold protests in favor of the cause😅

  • @vlee3880
    @vlee3880 8 месяцев назад +238

    Social worker and counsellor here - this was a fantastic video; i wish everyone in health care had this perspective and information.

    • @Dearhorai
      @Dearhorai 8 месяцев назад

      Hey I am looking to study social work currently in a small community collage What program would you recommend if I want to go into mental health field to become a psychologist

    • @Yosetime
      @Yosetime 8 месяцев назад +1

      @@Dearhorai It is strange to be asking for such major, life-changing career advice from a complete stranger on YT. Especially since that person has no idea what courses are offered at your particular community college. You have access to plenty of information and advice at your college. Why not just ask there? One can't even begin to answer such a question without having much more information about what you want and what you can do.

    • @vlee3880
      @vlee3880 6 месяцев назад

      @@Dearhorai well it sounds like you live in the US. I dont, so i dont really know. But if you want to be a psychologist, why not study paychology? I mean social work is awsome - im all for it, but your question is a bit confusing. I dont want to assume, but it might be good to learn some more about the differences in the practice options for each field. They compliment eachother, but ultimaty have very different scope of practice and knowledge.

    • @AbstractJJJ
      @AbstractJJJ 6 месяцев назад +1

      She dropped a whole lot of good information in just 6 minutes.

    • @GigglelandEmperor
      @GigglelandEmperor 6 месяцев назад +1

      Social worker = unemployed with extra steps

  • @TheInnerVision
    @TheInnerVision Месяц назад +7

    ive quit opioids twice now, once back in early 2010s, stayed off till the pandemic.
    Then during the pandemic i fell back in with the "new" wave of opioids. After a few years on this i realized what a bad idea this was, and i needed to grow up, its been two years now and ill never go back

    • @tlhogid663
      @tlhogid663 Месяц назад +1

      Well done. Don't go back!

    • @tupakkaonhyvaa
      @tupakkaonhyvaa 5 дней назад

      Sad that you got addicted, this sounds amazing in moderation.

    • @TheInnerVision
      @TheInnerVision 4 дня назад

      @@tupakkaonhyvaa as the guy who got me into it said, its lts like being held by god. Hes dead now (due to opiates)

  • @teresat2819
    @teresat2819 8 месяцев назад +53

    I am a Federal drug ccounselor..to every one who is admitting ise and ahowing clean... DAMN IM PROUD OF YOU!!!! KEEP GOING YOUR DOING GREAT!

    • @tanyapulliamtanya1343
      @tanyapulliamtanya1343 2 месяца назад

      8 yrs clean and sober. I have a great life. Thank God no more withdraws. I had a one step program Jesus Christ 🙏 ❤❤

    • @tupakkaonhyvaa
      @tupakkaonhyvaa Месяц назад +1

      Don't care.

    • @tanyapulliamtanya1343
      @tanyapulliamtanya1343 Месяц назад

      @tupakkaonhyvaa You are using I take it.

    • @tupakkaonhyvaa
      @tupakkaonhyvaa Месяц назад

      @@tanyapulliamtanya1343 I wanna try it.

    • @tupakkaonhyvaa
      @tupakkaonhyvaa Месяц назад

      @@tanyapulliamtanya1343 I want to try it.

  • @mikehopkins7384
    @mikehopkins7384 8 месяцев назад +434

    It’s like drowning and feeling like you’re fighting for air,, an endless feeling of doom and pain..

    • @Frankfanja
      @Frankfanja 8 месяцев назад +3

      Thank you for sharing

    • @Bbfishman
      @Bbfishman 8 месяцев назад +11

      brings you to the point that you're literally yelling out at the sky, begging for some relief. by day 3 or 4 you just want to have a break from the monotony of the misery, even if its just 3 minutes of relief

    • @Afrikanbootiscratcher
      @Afrikanbootiscratcher 8 месяцев назад +15

      Withdrew thousands of times from heroin, fentynal, alcohol, and xzylazine. The inpending doom feeling is bad. No energy. Restless leg pain. Now im tapering from methadone and sick.

    • @dfweurocars
      @dfweurocars 8 месяцев назад +1

      @@Afrikanbootiscratcher ur a masochist bro lol

    • @trippplecup1563
      @trippplecup1563 8 месяцев назад +5

      @@AfrikanbootiscratcherI feel that. H, pharma, fent, subs, xan, now I'm on methadone scared to come off..

  • @jdmlover12345
    @jdmlover12345 3 месяца назад +12

    Thanks for acknowledging to have compassion for addicts, they're struggling and the last thing they need is someone forcing them withdrawals. They can heal if we develop compassion

  • @memphisherbert5746
    @memphisherbert5746 10 месяцев назад +514

    17 year old kid, i've had my issues with blues/fent/wtv you'll call it since i was 12. i just had a slip up and had a week of life that wasn't real. im so horribly dope sick now and feelings the consequences deeply. for all of you out there fighting this disease know you're not alone, you're loved and you matter. you're going to win. and so am i. humans make mistakes and it doesn't change your worth. keep fighting

    • @richevans609
      @richevans609 10 месяцев назад +5

      Detox buddy...

    • @rapwasinventedinthesuburbs3884
      @rapwasinventedinthesuburbs3884 9 месяцев назад +4

      👊🏾👊🏾🫵🏾✊🏾

    • @xinneselae4762
      @xinneselae4762 9 месяцев назад +34

      I've been where you are, entire time I was 16 and 17 I was doing the same shit, im 18 and I still use sometimes, im homeless now though and currently trying to get out, I feel you dude I'm sorry, we'll get better tho yk? love you dude fr.

    • @danielquintana4963
      @danielquintana4963 9 месяцев назад +25

      Big ol facts don’t let one slip up throw u into full relapse. We all fuck up just pick up where you left off and take it one day at a time. Learn from you’re mistakes so you don’t keep making the wrong decisions expecting different results that’s insanity.

    • @dmo848
      @dmo848 9 месяцев назад

      ​@@danielquintana4963took me almost 20 something years to realize I was doing the same thing over and over again really thinking I was going somewhere. 1 step ahead but 2 backwards

  • @gabriellahuerta3214
    @gabriellahuerta3214 3 месяца назад +6

    I really appreciate this woman making this video it’s really informative and what she says about addiction and how society views it is so true and it’s good to know their is good ppl out there that try to help addicts. Addicts need love and support too

  • @Jack-c2d8w
    @Jack-c2d8w Месяц назад +1

    This world needs more well read, compassionate, and understanding people like this doctor. Truly amazing people like this make real positive changes to our world.

  • @AdamsDonnaJean
    @AdamsDonnaJean 3 месяца назад +142

    Mushrooms made a huge difference in my life. I was diagnosed with CPTSD in my teens and spent years struggling with it, along with severe depression and other mental health issues. Everything changed when my wife recommended psilocybin mushroom treatment. Honestly, it saved my life. I’ve been clean for eight years now. This is something that should be used worldwide to help others facing similar challenges.

    • @ElenaRossi-y4f
      @ElenaRossi-y4f 3 месяца назад +13

      Congrats on your recovery! Most people don’t realize that psilocybin can be a life-saving miracle treatment. A few years back, I even wrote an entire essay about psychedelics. Let’s be honest they really pulled you back from the edge, man.

    • @AZLShipping
      @AZLShipping 3 месяца назад +5

      Can you help me find a reliable source? I’m 31 and have struggled for years with addiction, anxiety, and severe PTSD. I managed to get my panic attacks under control a while back, but now they’ve come back stronger than ever. I’m always trying to take deep breaths, but I can never quite get that full, satisfying breath, and it’s really taking a toll on me. I live in Belgium, and I don’t know much about these mushrooms, but I really need a reliable source. Can’t wait to try them

    • @BidoDanielJ
      @BidoDanielJ 3 месяца назад +6

      Of course, I totally get it. I’ve been through the same struggles with anxiety, depression, PTSD, and addiction, and mushrooms have played a huge role in why I’m clean today. You can contact him benmycology

    • @AlabranJarredRay
      @AlabranJarredRay 3 месяца назад +7

      I tried shrooms at home last month, and they really opened my eyes to how much trauma alcohol had caused me. I was able to heal from a lot of past mental wounds, forgive, and let go. For me, shrooms are more of a remedy than a vice. The next morning, I even felt refreshed no hangovers, no lingering depression, and no anxiety. Now, I have a much calmer mind.

    • @ColeStephanGregory
      @ColeStephanGregory 3 месяца назад +3

      How do I reach out to him? Is he on insta

  • @shawnmurphy2047
    @shawnmurphy2047 9 месяцев назад +632

    The withdrawal was torturous. The restless legs for 12 hours over a seven day Period made me crazy. I never could’ve got through it without the help of my woman. She was my savior.

    • @chicagolifetv
      @chicagolifetv 9 месяцев назад +53

      Hell yea I feel you. The sleepless nights are horrible

    • @mikehunt4797
      @mikehunt4797 9 месяцев назад +69

      12 hours damn. Mine lasted like 6 days.

    • @Jakeman205
      @Jakeman205 9 месяцев назад +55

      I’m saying. 12 hours? Mine was like that for probably at least 6-7 days. It got better day by day. I can feel it now just thinking about it. I hated the smell that comes out your body and your pee stinks. Feet are sweating and too lazy and hurting to get a shower.

    • @shihtzu291
      @shihtzu291 8 месяцев назад

      ​@@mikehunt4797- Even with huge amounts of Diazepam and Temazepam, Zopiclone and I still couldn't sleep properly or relieve my restless legs and that duvet thing where one minute your cold and then you throw your duvet off because your hot and clamy and you keep repeating that process along with the diarrhoea! This was a Heroin /Methadone withdrawal so I can't say if it is any worse than Fentynal as our Heroin ain't tainted with it but what I will say is thus is Methadone is worse to come off than Heroin. 🇬🇧

    • @chrism6904
      @chrism6904 8 месяцев назад +15

      Jesus bro… why didn’t you go to your doctor for medicine? Requip is GREAT for restless legs. It stopped mine completely.

  • @anthonychrismignella
    @anthonychrismignella 3 месяца назад

    Very good job at explaining in detail what withdrawal is really like. Very informative. Good video.

  • @djquinn11
    @djquinn11 9 месяцев назад +97

    With my addictive personality I’m glad I never tried this poison. Must be a nightmare to get off of, my heart goes out to all of those suffering in the throes of addiction and trying to quit. I hope you all get the help you need.

    • @JudeTheYoutubePoopersubscribe
      @JudeTheYoutubePoopersubscribe 8 месяцев назад

      Im glad i only ever went as far as weed and alcohol. I dont mind being dependant on weed but had to quit drinking as i was beginning to have the shakes in the morning.

    • @watchitsukka
      @watchitsukka 6 месяцев назад

      @@djquinn11
      My buddy's name is addictive personality the one thing is moving on to a new relationship geta rid the previous relationship

    • @happyhatter
      @happyhatter 20 дней назад

      Same here.

  • @actionboy3221
    @actionboy3221 4 месяца назад +3

    5:55 thank you so much for trying to help people understand that addicts are sick. And just as human as everyone else. 🙏 🖤

  • @Anaddictspeaks
    @Anaddictspeaks 28 дней назад

    This is stunningly accurate, I’m an addict from Kensington Philadelphia, still struggling with the reality of addiction. I hope this message finds its place…

  • @distilledfreedom1840
    @distilledfreedom1840 5 месяцев назад +141

    Imagine those people living on the street and going through withdrawal. What a nightmare. Don't do drugs people.

    • @samia6888
      @samia6888 4 месяца назад

      Unfortunately you never know when you will encounter a situation when you need the drugs (getting into accidents, spinal injury, chronic pain) and then get addicted to it. They prescribed my dad oxy for his incredible back pain before his death (even that wasn’t strong enough for the pain). We never thought there would be a day that would happen but it did. He died before being addicted to it due to complications from renal failure but this opened my eyes to how people can get addicted beyond recreational use and that is pretty scary.

    • @aprilegunn6818
      @aprilegunn6818 4 месяца назад +6

      I think about that every time

    • @theketaminekid1241
      @theketaminekid1241 4 месяца назад +5

      Don't do fentanyl lol

    • @tylerbarrett2492
      @tylerbarrett2492 3 месяца назад

      drugs aren't bad, idiotic people abusing them are

    • @theketaminekid1241
      @theketaminekid1241 3 месяца назад

      @@tylerbarrett2492 this

  • @koolertrek
    @koolertrek 10 месяцев назад +291

    It’s the hardest thing I’ve ever done in the 65 years of my life.

    • @allahgod298
      @allahgod298 10 месяцев назад +8

      That's heavy 😮

    • @CindyMabry
      @CindyMabry 9 месяцев назад +10

      Me too. The hardest thing in my 50 years

    • @eustab.anas-mann9510
      @eustab.anas-mann9510 8 месяцев назад +5

      Easily the hardest. It's truly a nightmare come to life.

    • @DominikKoppensteiner
      @DominikKoppensteiner 8 месяцев назад

      What would you say, which part did your faith play in your struggle, or was it before you became a Christian?

    • @koolertrek
      @koolertrek 8 месяцев назад +13

      @@DominikKoppensteiner I was on a path of getting rid of ungodly things in my life and this was one of them. The Lord has given me the desire, hope, and most importantly the strength to endure these trials: smoking first, homosexuality second, drug and alcohol abuse next, all kind of abuse. I’m a totally different person now.

  • @michaels192
    @michaels192 2 месяца назад +2

    Gosh, how wonderful to see someone express the understanding, empathy and expertise with such a non-judgemental take on the World as we've evolved to. For better or for worse...

  • @conspiracytherapist1869
    @conspiracytherapist1869 2 месяца назад +3

    Thank you Sackler family

    • @BSGMFKS
      @BSGMFKS 22 дня назад

      @conspiracytherapist1869 Yeah, they also are responsible for Valium.

    • @KeyshowJi
      @KeyshowJi 14 дней назад

      😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂

  • @nandechi7563
    @nandechi7563 8 месяцев назад +31

    Never used Meth Heroin Or Fentanly never will.
    We need more research in drugs despratly. Knowing and educate younger generations is vital to keep our society functional.
    Edit: much thanks for the video. Very intresting

    • @tulayamalavenapi4028
      @tulayamalavenapi4028 4 месяца назад

      HARE KRISHNA
      HARE KRISHNA
      🛌🏼🙏🏼🙏🏻🛌🏼

  • @Juztice763
    @Juztice763 3 месяца назад +2

    More people should interact with this video and content like it. This type of education is so important for helping people and destigmatizing addiction and dependence. Withdrawal is super serious and I have unfortunately seen reports of people dying in jail because of it and because the medical people in charge didn’t do their due diligence.

  • @davy1458
    @davy1458 5 месяцев назад +18

    You describe withdrawal all you want....but you'll never understand until you've gone thru it.

    • @Hagurmert
      @Hagurmert 2 месяца назад

      This is also true for many of the disorders/disabilities as well. You can never relate to anybody exactly without experiencing it.

  • @itsicearmour
    @itsicearmour 8 месяцев назад +94

    Stopped taking fent with no subs, no kratom, no benzos, no immodium n been clean for almost 7 years now. Don't let videos like these put you off. Stay hydrated, try and eat as much as you can, even if it's two bites, and focus on filling that daily void. Start walking, start reading, start painting, do whatever the fuck, just keep yourself busy.

    • @nifa21
      @nifa21 7 месяцев назад +4

      Congratulations you are winning a difficult battle. You are strong and worthy.

    • @kazikian
      @kazikian 7 месяцев назад +3

      Why no Imodium tho?

    • @DanielGregory-h5x
      @DanielGregory-h5x 7 месяцев назад

      Do not listen to this guy. Go to a hospital or a detox. You need medical supervision. Withdrawal is lethal. Fentanyl is lethal.

    • @dinadaughtry8993
      @dinadaughtry8993 7 месяцев назад +1

      ​@@kazikianit's an opiate

    • @brendamiller6951
      @brendamiller6951 4 месяца назад +3

      Thanks for the suggestions at the end.

  • @donpeters9849
    @donpeters9849 9 месяцев назад +509

    If you say "it's like the flu" you've never did a cold turkey withdrawal

    • @sharpasacueball
      @sharpasacueball 8 месяцев назад +14

      For me it was pretty much like a flu, but a reallllllllllly bad flu

    • @max1point8t
      @max1point8t 8 месяцев назад

      thats a fact, IDK wtf kind of flu these people be getting....

    • @IanScott-kq5jb
      @IanScott-kq5jb 8 месяцев назад +37

      Dude i know right, ill admit herion withdrawl did kinda feel like a really really bad flu, but fentanyl?!?!?! Whole different level.

    • @bobloblaw9679
      @bobloblaw9679 8 месяцев назад +6

      ok how about it is like the flu, but for people who did it to themselves and should have known better?

    • @donpeters9849
      @donpeters9849 8 месяцев назад

      @@bobloblaw9679 Your ignorance of substance use is amazing. I can almost see the diarrhea dripping down your chin.

  • @izzywoowoo4799
    @izzywoowoo4799 3 месяца назад +14

    This woman is absolutely amazing in her knowledge and compassion for people experiencing fentanyl withdrawal. I have been trying to quit for months now and it's so fing hard. I want to be free but I'm so imprisoned

    • @RomineHamilton
      @RomineHamilton 3 месяца назад

      ya she is good at the definitive narrative as well as the accuracy of the horrific all consuming brutal process

    • @Comrade_mommy
      @Comrade_mommy 3 месяца назад

      It’s rough. I got put on fentanyl patches bc of complications from spinal surgery & fibromyalgia but my insurance suddenly stopped paying for it. I didn’t really want to be tied to pain medication & spend the $ so I decided to just quit. What ppl don’t tell you is that after that first hellish 1-2wks, that you just experience a new kind of misery tho not as intense. Like you just feel like sht, & you’re dealing with deep depression. That’s why I rec ppl taper if at all possible. & take your time tapering. Also if you can get into a suboxone program that can help a lot. My ex got hooked on heroin after we broke up & suboxone got him off heroin. I also highly recommend ppl read chasing the scream the last days of the drug war. It goes into way we developed this weird moralization over drugs. It helped my ex to not be so hard on himself for suffering from addiction. Also most ppl who become addicts have a reason they became addicts. As early as the early 1900’s drs knew this. Unfortunately politics and the drug war changed a medical and mental health issue into this harmful moral panic. More likely than not you have something that pushed you to where your at and I hope you can 1, have empathy for yourself, addiction doesn’t make you a bad person, but 2, I hope you can get some help to figure why you felt the need to self medicate. Opiates don’t just help with physical pain, it eases mental pain, and getting out of pain can often be more addictive than the drug itself.

    • @danashton5265
      @danashton5265 3 месяца назад +1

      You can do it, man. I will pray for you.

    • @RomineHamilton
      @RomineHamilton 3 месяца назад

      @@danashton5265 thank you for your peace and positivity 👍🏼..all the best to you 💯✌️

    • @tupakkaonhyvaa
      @tupakkaonhyvaa 24 дня назад

      I wanna try it. It sounds so good.

  • @robbieg3113
    @robbieg3113 3 месяца назад

    What a very compassionate person who really understands withdrawal and treating people with dignity.

  • @AltClev37
    @AltClev37 5 месяцев назад +32

    Opiate withdrawal is the worst pain I’ve EVER experienced. I’d rather die than go through it cold turkey. Just thinking about it makes my skin crawl and palms start to sweat.

    • @RoyalsOGs
      @RoyalsOGs 5 месяцев назад +5

      Going through it right now.i feel like im crawling out of my skin >.< but i tell my Self The punishment After Death is going to Be Much Worst, if i let myself Go

    • @sadbwoy97
      @sadbwoy97 22 дня назад

      @@RoyalsOGsgood job

  • @AvahManarite
    @AvahManarite 3 месяца назад +20

    15 months clean. Feel the best I've felt in years

    • @verajones
      @verajones 3 месяца назад +1

      Congratulations! That's huge!

    • @DinDooIt
      @DinDooIt 3 месяца назад

      Excellent job, now just stay strong, 8 years clean here.

    • @tupakkaonhyvaa
      @tupakkaonhyvaa 5 дней назад

      How does it feel to dose this?

  • @bwright79
    @bwright79 3 месяца назад

    WOW did you hit the nail on the head!! Thank you for articulating with precise visceral details what most can’t not fathom!!!!

  • @the1greko
    @the1greko 11 месяцев назад +157

    I used heroin for 20 years, started using at 15y.o. Now in rehab for 12 years. All this is true.

    • @shayharris6544
      @shayharris6544 10 месяцев назад +6

      I mean I don't think anyone would lie about being an addict. Congrats tho🎉

    • @daraudobong7195
      @daraudobong7195 8 месяцев назад +2

      Praying and wishing you all the best during your recovery🤍🙏🏽

    • @Zagreus_07
      @Zagreus_07 8 месяцев назад +1

      Fentanyl is 40 times stronger than Heroin and 100 times stronger than morphine. Heroin is only 2-3 times stronger than morphine. Obviously it must be hard enough getting off heroin, imagine getting off something 40 times more potent.
      Spent some time in hospital recently, was a chronic alcoholic and got acute pancreatitis, the pain was so bad morphine wasn’t working.. The “pain team” came and put me on fentanyl with a machine called a PCA (patient controlled analgesia) so I was in control of how much I was getting with a little button.. I had to wait 3 mins between presses to avoid an overdose but still, that stuff is wild.. Never been a drug user, was the first time even having something like morphine, but fentanyl is mad.. Not promoting it, I was in a safe place being given very safe doses but still, it’s crazy how strong it is.. I fully understand now why people get hooked on opioids, they’re like alcohol on steroids but without the negatives of being “drunk”.. I spent 3-4 days in the clouds before being put into a coma and put on life support for a week.. 4 weeks sober now though, never wanna go through that again, have scared myself straight.. Being in ICU on a ventilator, coming out of a coma, it’s traumatic.

    • @tulayamalavenapi4028
      @tulayamalavenapi4028 4 месяца назад +1

      HARE KRISHNA
      HARE KRISHNA
      🛌🏼🙏🏼🙏🏻🛌🏼

    • @gudda2glory326
      @gudda2glory326 4 месяца назад

      You've been in Rehab for 12 Year's? Why so long and what Rehab would take you for 12 year's? That's a Long time 💯 Even with 20 year's of Use your Brain 🧠 should have BEEN Gotten back to It's regular self a long time ago!!

  • @AiNaKa
    @AiNaKa 6 месяцев назад +14

    it's very rare you see something this informative about the suffering addicts endure without villainizing them.

  • @doffyrobert
    @doffyrobert 26 дней назад

    Well spoken and seems very knowledgeable

  • @whyaddnamehere
    @whyaddnamehere 8 месяцев назад +23

    11 years clean of opioids. Withdrawal was absolutely horrible.

    • @an0therdimensi0n99
      @an0therdimensi0n99 8 месяцев назад +1

      11 here too. no opios and not a drop of alcohol may 2013

    • @theonlylucyliu
      @theonlylucyliu 7 месяцев назад

      you will relapse in three days. mark my words.

  • @brandondenton494
    @brandondenton494 10 месяцев назад +164

    Day 4 today !!!

    • @wievc1942
      @wievc1942 10 месяцев назад +2

      how u feeling brother ?

    • @wievc1942
      @wievc1942 10 месяцев назад +6

      day 1 today

    • @janycebrown4071
      @janycebrown4071 10 месяцев назад +10

      Day 10 ! I hope that you are doing well ❤
      Suboxone saved my life ❤

    • @ChicagoGurl
      @ChicagoGurl 10 месяцев назад +5

      How’s everyone’s recovery doing today?

    • @janycebrown4071
      @janycebrown4071 10 месяцев назад +7

      I am still doing good 🌝

  • @graypistachio4141
    @graypistachio4141 2 месяца назад

    Wow, what a eloquent and clear way of communicating

  • @BlueCardGanks592
    @BlueCardGanks592 6 месяцев назад +42

    I love how realistic and empathetic this is. We would live in a different world if drug addiction was always viewed and treated this way

  • @russellboone6759
    @russellboone6759 8 месяцев назад +59

    Its time we kill this "2-5 days of withdrawal" myth.
    I've had serious physical withdrawals well into 20 days or more. And that's just the majority of major physical withdrawals.
    Then there's the paws (post acute withdrawl) that lasts up the TWO YEARS. This is a (mostly mental) withdrawal that consists of SERIOUS depression, major lack of energy, uncontrollable mood swings, as well as lingering physical withdrawals (SLEEP disturbances, restless leg syndrome, general aches and pains).
    The " 3-5 days" timeline is a tell tale sign that a person has NEVER went through withdrawal themselves and only have clinical experience in treating (usually short sighted and very limited) opoid withdrawal.
    Plz make this correction every single time you hear the "3-5 day" joke being made. The faster we kill this myth the better (and sooner) we can start treating opiate withdrawl accordingly.

    • @kimberleymansfield1099
      @kimberleymansfield1099 8 месяцев назад

      Hi Russel, thanks for your post. Back in the day ,(70's-to early 90's) medically supervised withdrawl was done in select hospitals using a combination of meds, the first ones were anti anxiety followed by muscle relaxants and finally methadone .was provided 12-18 hours after admission to the ward in dedicated single occupancy rooms (for the first 3 days). after which you moved to a normal shared hospital room on the ward and atended mandatory group meetings while being tapered off. I assure you that 3-5-7 day treatment iwas standard practice. It was hell to be sure but effective.

    • @jordanr9921
      @jordanr9921 8 месяцев назад +4

      From my experience it depends solely on what you use, how much you use and how long since your last detox. Withdrawal from using perv 10s everyday for 2 months will be completely different than withdrawal from using powder fent everyday for 2 years.

    • @russellboone6759
      @russellboone6759 8 месяцев назад

      @@kimberleymansfield1099 we knew less about opiate withdrawl then than we do today, and we continue to know more every day.
      It may have been "standard treatment", but that doesn't mean it's the most effective or most efficient. What they essentially did, was replace heroin with the methadone, as they occupy the same opiate receptor sites, tell the patient they were through the majority of withdrawals, and then send them home only for the patient to re enter their detox 48 hours later. They basically post poned or prolonged the withdrawl and upon symtoms returning These patients were not re admitted, as they were told they had already received "standard" treatment. The data looked great because patients reported no withdrawl upon leaving the hospital, and due to not being re admitted following "standard" procedure could not dispute this data. This is the same thing "rapid detoxes" do. They usually pump a patient full of buprenorphine, and keep them unconscious for any PRECIPITATED withdrawals they might experience.
      These patients feel fine upon awakening with the buprenorphine in their system, are told they are "cured" or past the withdrawl ( when being discharged), only to find themselves in the deepest throws of withdrawl as soon as the medication wears off around 24-48 hrs later.. (Although some are given a 30 day supply of buprenorphine). This in the end only prolongs or post pones it..
      The protocol for opiate withdrawl decades ago were Probably why the relapse rate for heroin during that time period was estimated to be at around 85% or more.
      Don't get me wrong, some patients do see a significant reduction in symptoms after the 3 to 5 day mark. And some might even see reductions due to suggestion in a placebo type effect. But for most ppl, it's near impossible to convince a person who is going through hell at day 5 that they aren't experiencing withdrawl symptoms anymore. With methadone, withdrawl often doesn't even start until day 3 and peaks around day 10. Usually lasting around 25 days or more.
      I'm not disagreeing with you so much as I am trying to share education. I have explored the data from this topic foe 2 decades and have a similar amount of time with FIRSTHAND experience.

    • @russellboone6759
      @russellboone6759 8 месяцев назад

      @@jordanr9921 yes, what you use and how much, and mostly for how long. Other deciding factors are genetic makeup, existing medical conditions and course of treatment for detoxing.

    • @russellboone6759
      @russellboone6759 8 месяцев назад

      I replied but those comments disappeared. "Standard treatment " doesn't mean most efficient or effective. We have learned a lot since back in the day and continue to learn more every day.

  • @bluedarkness7125
    @bluedarkness7125 4 месяца назад +2

    I am wondering if reducing size of dose over time and slowing by tiny and tiny. It is helpful?

  • @user-yq7yi3dm8m
    @user-yq7yi3dm8m 10 месяцев назад +96

    The worst kick ever. Pure hell. Drenched in sweat while freezing. My hair hurts. Can't ever get comfortable for weeks. No sleep.

    • @ChicagoGurl
      @ChicagoGurl 9 месяцев назад +9

      Hey how are you? ❤

    • @user-yq7yi3dm8m
      @user-yq7yi3dm8m 9 месяцев назад +36

      @@ChicagoGurl I kicked. I'm back to normal now. Took almost 3 weeks but I'm feeling good hitting the gym, working. That was a hard-core withdrawal but I white knuckled it out.

    • @ChicagoGurl
      @ChicagoGurl 9 месяцев назад +1

      @@user-yq7yi3dm8m that’s so awesome. Stay strong, 💪 You did it!!!!

    • @eustab.anas-mann9510
      @eustab.anas-mann9510 8 месяцев назад

      ​@@user-yq7yi3dm8mHow are you now?

    • @larrytate1657
      @larrytate1657 8 месяцев назад

      @@user-yq7yi3dm8m remember those feelings if you get a thought to use.

  • @skiman5289
    @skiman5289 5 месяцев назад +11

    I was hallucinatiing from fentanyl withdrawal. Plus i felt terrible and was sweating extremely. 439 days clean. I am going to make it this time. This drug killed most of my friends and i have overdosedover 40 times. I hate this substance with everything i have. You can get clean if i did. If you reading this you still have a chance because tomorrow you might not.

    • @kwader_1404
      @kwader_1404 Месяц назад +1

      any updates?

    • @skiman5289
      @skiman5289 Месяц назад

      @kwader_1404 still clean 551 days clean and going strong💪. Just bought a truck and close to getting my license back. Hope you are doing good in life God bless thank you for checking on how in doing i appreciate it 🙏

    • @skiman5289
      @skiman5289 Месяц назад

      @kwader_1404 551 days clean still going strong 💪

    • @etee08
      @etee08 День назад +1

      WTF? 40 times OD?

    • @skiman5289
      @skiman5289 21 час назад

      @@etee08 yup 592 days clean!!! I am doing everything I can to stay clean meetings prayers and Church.

  • @moshunless1221
    @moshunless1221 Месяц назад

    Great video, I'm subscribed 👍

  • @APOLLINAIREBARTHOLOMIEU
    @APOLLINAIREBARTHOLOMIEU 5 месяцев назад +165

    Psychedelics are just an exceptional mental health breakthrough. It's quite fascinating how effective they are against depression and anxiety. Saved my life.

    • @steceymorgan814
      @steceymorgan814 5 месяцев назад +1

      Can you help with the reliable source I would really appreciate it. Many people talk about mushrooms and psychedelics but nobody talks about where to get them. Very hard to get a reliable source here in Australia. Really need!

    • @patriaciasmith3499
      @patriaciasmith3499 5 месяцев назад +2

      Anxiety happens when you think you have to figure out everything all at once.
      Breathe. You're strong. You got this Take it day by
      day.

    • @steceymorgan814
      @steceymorgan814 5 месяцев назад

      Is he on instagram?

    • @AnjeloValeriano
      @AnjeloValeriano 5 месяцев назад +3

      Microdosing helped me get out of the pit of my worst depressive episode, a three year long episode, enough to start working on my mental health.

    • @johndoe3johndoe382
      @johndoe3johndoe382 5 месяцев назад

      I'm so tired of reading this stupid psychedelic spam in every video about addiction. You have been pushing this 10 years straight, give it up and move on to another scam topic. Yeah you're going to cure heroin addiction by eating some mushrooms. I mean that's not only false information, it's borderline retarded.

  • @miasma82
    @miasma82 7 месяцев назад +9

    I was an addict for 12 years. Opiates around 5 years. Was only using fentanyl in the end. The withdrawal was horrible. I'm glad i found a nurse who helped me get suboxone. I have a great life now. I'm happy and content

    • @estefanygarcia4342
      @estefanygarcia4342 7 месяцев назад

      so proud of you ! also glad that you are doing well ! i’ve only been using for about 3 months and today is my 3 day cold turkey withdrawal and i wasn’t having it 😔

    • @theketaminekid1241
      @theketaminekid1241 4 месяца назад

      My father went through the exact same steps, but never made used the suboxone properly and eventually gave up trying.

  • @pattif192
    @pattif192 3 месяца назад +1

    Thank you for putting out this video. What a nightmare withdrawel is. God, please help anyone going through this. ❤

  • @caiobarros7814
    @caiobarros7814 6 месяцев назад +5

    This video is perfect and so necessary. She explains everything so clearly and with such emotion. I feel like everyone should watch this

  • @roycecarter4663
    @roycecarter4663 5 месяцев назад +8

    I almost died coming off fet I was clean for 10 days using Xanax no withdraws at all then I ran out of Xanax and started taking my subs again and instantly I was in precipitated withdrawal I didn’t sleep eat or barely drink anything for the next month I thought I was going to die any day I was hallucinating because lack of sleep i remember it looked like fireworks going off in my room in the dark at night I would try to sleep but never could I could only eat a bite or two a day of food and maybe drink a half a bottle of water a day it’s no joke I wouldn’t wish that on anyone

    • @perpetualmotion357
      @perpetualmotion357 Месяц назад

      Main reason I had to travel an hour 5 days a week to a methadone clinic even though there are a dime a dozen sub docs where I live. No matter how long I waited I would go into precipitated. It got to the point where I just got rid of my remaining subs because there was no point in me ever taking another. If a week still threw me into precipitated then there was no point. It still took a month going to the clinic to feel a noticeable difference. This Fent ain't no heroin. It's gotta be the Xylazine having its own withdrawal because it's like a regular withdrawal on steroids. It's hard to put into words.

    • @roycecarter4663
      @roycecarter4663 Месяц назад

      @ ya the fet stays in your fat cells for a long time my ex gf started subs 4 days in and she was fine but for some unlucky people like us we get the precipitated withdrawals and it’s way worse then regular withdrawals I’ve noticed for myself benzos are the easiest way to get off fet I’ve been clean for about 6 months but had to take xans for a few weeks to get clean now I’m stuck on the xans which sucks to but I’ve been slowly weaning myself off of those but it’s the only thing that worked for me I went to the methadone clinic to and got up to 110 mg and it would only last me a few hours before I felt like shit with the xans I felt zero withdrawls at all I still had diarrhea but that was it so maybe just take some benzos for a week or two max I wouldn’t go any longer then that or you’ll get addicted to them like I did but they worked better for me then the methadone ever did even though there not a opiate for whatever reason they worked great for me I slept ate everything just fine idk if it would work for everyone but it worked for me

    • @roycecarter4663
      @roycecarter4663 Месяц назад

      @ I’ve also read online that only about 10% of people get precipitated withdrawls we just happen to be in that unlucky group like I said I was clean for 10 days no withdrawls at all using Xans as soon as I took a lil sub I was sicker then I’ve ever been in my life way worse then just quitting cold Turkey

  • @no_professional12
    @no_professional12 3 месяца назад

    Informative video & an intelligent lady. Hoping authorities take notice.

  • @GnarledSage
    @GnarledSage 7 месяцев назад +5

    Please stop comparing withdrawals with a “flu”. The only accurate comparison I’ve heard and can tell by experience it’s true, is what terminal cancer patients go through.
    And it has to be explained better that this pain is 24/7 without a second of relief, and that for some of us it can last for way more than the common 10 to 15 days talked about in almost every text. It can go for weeks or even months, and with long half life opioids or opiates like methadone it can go on for years.
    It’s different from person to person, and that’s why some can kick this curse and some can’t.

  • @DestinyV-px5mr
    @DestinyV-px5mr 9 месяцев назад +10

    I really loved how she explained the concept of survival instincts. That's was very well put. However, as someone who went through the whole suboxone ringer on and off for multiple years without any long term success after getting off (and detoxing off the suboxone for 30 straight days), WHY do doctors not properly explain what an opioid antagonist ACTUALLY is and what it is ACTUALLY doing? Continuing to feed the parts of your brain craving the drug. Literally antagonizing the addiction while also suppressing it. If youkep applying stress and pressure to something as cunning baffling and powerful as addiction, like our human instinct to survive like this video was comparing. My next very serious question as the target of your audience, why do we only talk about the things that are antagonizing and suppressing and yet almost no one knows about vivitrol? They don't know because prescribers don't mention it. You have to be the one to bring it up. But why is that if we are really trying to help people regain their health? It had no physical dependency. It's a once a month injection which provides a massive safety net in times of uncertainty that methadine and suboxone, that are taken daily, do not. It removed the craving for it enough that when I felt like I would have given in the first couple weeks before the vivitrol really started working, I knew I couldn't. Because it was a 1x per month injection. I only had to make the decision 1 day a month. For an addict or alcoholic that daily decision could be the difference between life and death. You also cannot get high off of vivitrol or the daily pill form of vivitrol, neltrexone. I got off fentynal and on Vivitrol and stayed on it for 4 months. I have not gone back since. After about 5 years on opioids/opiates. I have been off for almost 4 months and I don't ever have cravings. I have no desire for them. I'm truly blessed to have gotten away from Percocet, heroin, fentanyl, meth, cocaine, and tons of ecstasy after 16 years of addiction. I maintain with other things that work for me and they are not pills or drugs or anything like that. I connect with like minded people who had a solution that worked for them to offer to me for “fun and for free because someone did it for them,” they say. These questions are not to be attacking or to knock anyone who is staying off the streets by being on these medications. I'm just asking valid questions as someone these medications are targeted for and who has been through them time and time again. I believe the vivitrol worked for me as far as my physical brain goes because I was no longer feeding the addiction while also blocking it from being free to have what it wanted. And I didn't even have intense cravings. I just had to figure out what to do physically with myself instead of sit around anxious until I inevitably went back to the drugs. For me being active helps tremendously. Also magnesium. Please. If you struggle from addiction look uo the benefits of magnesiumand add vitamin D3 once a day to help with depressive symptoms. Essential oils work amazing too for depression and anxiety. Look up which ones are best for your personal needs.
    I hope this can open room for consideration and for me and anyone reading it to continue to be aware and question what we are told and not told and what other options we have available. Vivitrol is very hard on the liver so check with your doctor of course as I am not one.

    • @chodd2615
      @chodd2615 4 месяца назад

      Can I ask you somethinf

  • @kilobitti
    @kilobitti 3 месяца назад

    What a brilliant video!

  • @madeline-onassis
    @madeline-onassis 4 месяца назад +3

    Thank you for exploring this topic with such deep compassion and understanding.

  • @BellyBelz
    @BellyBelz Месяц назад +3

    3 years and 5 months clean off meth and heroine and fentanyl

  • @patjacobsen5570
    @patjacobsen5570 3 месяца назад

    Very good video and information. The difference between addiction and dependence should be better known.

  • @pooryorick831
    @pooryorick831 4 месяца назад +10

    I have a horror story about Fentanyl withdrawal. I can't tell it all here. It lasted years. It has been six years now and I'm still not the same. Never will be. If there is any way to do so I would taper it down slowly if I had to do it over. But Fentanyl withdrawal is a hell unlike any other. I feel for you if you are going through it. Mine is a bad story. Not everyone goes through what I did. So have hope and give yourself a break. It's ok to be sick. You ARE sick. It should not be a source of shame. You are not to blame. You never stood a chance. But please, don't quit now. It WILL get better. I am better. I'm not 100% but I am reasonably ok now. You will be too. ❤😊

  • @RareNine
    @RareNine 7 дней назад

    the visuals representing the scenarios is top tier, I felt like i was actually in it

  • @polarpreston454
    @polarpreston454 6 месяцев назад +4

    I am going into a detox as right now. I love all the positive comments and support on this page. I’ve dealt with anxiety and deep depression since I was a kid and I have been self medicating with fentanyl. My mother has been feeding me these pills for a long time and I finally had enough. I have two children and a baby due any day and I’m vary scared to face this head on. Any tips or tricks would be vary helpful

  • @Daughterchasya
    @Daughterchasya 8 месяцев назад +5

    Withdrawal of fentanyl dope and methadone & benzoids is like being tortured alive - ppl who say they feel better after a few days what??? By day 9 I was near death .. couldn’t eat drink or sleep puking violently amongst many other things …. The terror of knowing it’s coming ….

    • @elliottvest2495
      @elliottvest2495 10 дней назад

      When you’re completely done with some thing you do what you need to do it’s a mindset and usually has something to do with kids you love more than drugs

  • @l5r90
    @l5r90 2 месяца назад

    This woman's speech needs to be watched by ALL THE FAMILIES OF OPIATE ADDICTED PERSONS!!!!!....I'm serious.....She explains it so well!!!....and from the perspective of a non user to uderstand so well is amazing!!!....that you so much for understanding!!!>....this is rare!!....to help non user to understand!!!...THANK YOU!!

  • @Natalie-mz4xk
    @Natalie-mz4xk 9 месяцев назад +68

    Day three. So sick 🤢

    • @Mike_HuntizWet
      @Mike_HuntizWet 9 месяцев назад +17

      Keep going!!

    • @MoAli-wm4of
      @MoAli-wm4of 9 месяцев назад +18

      Day 1 … keep going… we can do this and live our lives to the fullest … wish me luck … but my resolve is the strongest it’s ever been

    • @AnnaFollowsJesus
      @AnnaFollowsJesus 8 месяцев назад

      🤗🙏🏼

    • @emmapeel8163
      @emmapeel8163 8 месяцев назад +6

      🙏🏼 try baths. break day into hours. chicken soup or bone broth.

    • @Mike_HuntizWet
      @Mike_HuntizWet 8 месяцев назад +5

      @@emmapeel8163 YES!!! I forgot about that. I took so many showers when I was sick 👍

  • @rossmurray6849
    @rossmurray6849 7 месяцев назад +5

    Thank you for the clear and compassionate description of the distinction between addiction and dependence.

  • @GearShifter925
    @GearShifter925 Месяц назад +2

    Those Agony, Anxiety durations may trigger
    " SUICIDAL THOUGHTS " very easily But please Be strong as time goes on... Self inner Healings goes on day by day. Each new day with great hope... !!!!
    God bless you and helps you.
    🙏🏻

  • @ShaneMclane-PrivateEye
    @ShaneMclane-PrivateEye 8 месяцев назад +14

    I was doing fetty, meth, and xanax every day. I got hit by a car and woke up a month later. Another month of learning how to walk and I left that hospital sober. That car running me down in the street was the best thing that ever happened to me. I dont even take perscribed pain killers. I smoke weed for any pain that arises from the accident, and that's it. Being in the hospital for a little over 2 months really sucked but it isn't as bad as kicking fentanyl cold turkey in a jail cell.

  • @robertkenney6002
    @robertkenney6002 10 месяцев назад +22

    I’m 7 days in and i can’t handle it anymore.

    • @SAM-zg2mw
      @SAM-zg2mw 10 месяцев назад +23

      I hear you man. I hear you, but you can. You're almost done. ALMOST DONE! Hardest part is ending. Make it one more minute, it's OK to not handle it anymore. Don't think about the past, don't think about the future, your friends, your family... just the next minute. Almost there dude.

    • @jose-qb8tr
      @jose-qb8tr 10 месяцев назад +4

      Man just drink a lot water bro. I'm here also trying my best man you can do it man don't give up man

    • @griffendorff
      @griffendorff 9 месяцев назад +3

      I'm 7 days in too man

    • @mollyram2997
      @mollyram2997 9 месяцев назад +2

      You're Golden.

    • @robertkenney6002
      @robertkenney6002 9 месяцев назад +1

      Oh hunny.

  • @harshtripathi4113
    @harshtripathi4113 3 месяца назад +2

    As someone who never had substances, even Nicotine and Alcohol, I cannot begin to imagine how people who undergo withdrawals feel like. But it sounds horrible.

    • @Hagurmert
      @Hagurmert 2 месяца назад

      I am also very comparable to you in that, never did any of these drugs, no nicotine or alcohol. The thing is, these hard drugs are basically double edged swords. Getting into them is deadly, trying to escape is also deadly.

    • @sparshdhir
      @sparshdhir 4 дня назад

      I never even have caffeine

  • @mexy04
    @mexy04 8 месяцев назад +5

    I've been clean for 6 years. I tried to bare knuckle it a couple times and my god I wanted to kill myself. I'd take a microdose of suboxone for a week and that made the wd tolerable. Then I'd detox from the sub. Euphoria got it it right, depicting what withdrawal feels like. I don't know how my ex did it bare knuckled in kuwait in 110 degree weather. When all feeling came back it was so intense.

  • @threeballedtomcat9380
    @threeballedtomcat9380 8 месяцев назад +7

    The reason that heroin and Fentanyl are so popular now is the fact that pain management is almost impossible to find. Even hospitals don't want to prescribe any kind of opioid or morphine.
    I know 3 people that have died from withdrawal because their doctor quit prescribing.
    I use Kratom , nothing else. I quit opiates Jan.20th 2009. It almost killed me.
    I'm 67 now and soon I'll be gone,but I will leave sober.....

    • @brianpan6453
      @brianpan6453 8 месяцев назад

      Sobriety is the best way to live your life.

    • @jackofalltrades3378
      @jackofalltrades3378 4 месяца назад

      This needed to be said. The doctors created the fentanyl epidemic by cutting people off safer opioids. Doctors didn't invent addiction and they didn't make it worse. Heroin addiction was in the hood many years before oxy hit the suburbs.

  • @DankKrank
    @DankKrank 3 месяца назад

    Wow for once I heard “empathy” and “compassion” used in a legitimate way. God bless you and all who have beaten this disease, you are worthy and deserve to live

  • @marccastillo965
    @marccastillo965 5 месяцев назад +4

    i could deal with everything else, but the insomnia and endless hours of restlessness, makes me insane. Its a mental battle as much as a physical one, I tried a few times to quit but after a few days with minimal sleep its unbearable

  • @bryanh4267
    @bryanh4267 7 месяцев назад +4

    As someone who is 11 years clean, this might be the best explanation I've come across. More people need to see this to help increase compassion and empathy towards those who are struggling. I was prescribed opiates for a torn ACL and subsequent knee reconstruction. After 6 months of prescribed daily use, I found I couldn't stop without getting severely ill. I feared the risk of losing my job because of the days I'd miss dealing with the initial withdrawal, then the weeks of feeling brutal exhaustion and depression that followed. This is not that you just feel sick. It's as if your soul is being sucked out of you. Unfortunately, for years, the obvious answer was to just take more. It was the biggest decision of my life to quit and probably what I'm most proud of

    • @aureliohuber9321
      @aureliohuber9321 7 месяцев назад

      Wow, I am so fucking proud of you for being clean for 11 years

  • @zescobar2706
    @zescobar2706 2 месяца назад +1

    Thank you very much, ma’am. I appreciate this video really helped me a lot on learning and getting more knowledge about what I am taking and what I have been feeling for the past year when I have not been taking my dose so I really am just trying to get more knowledge on my medication and what I am taking so that way, I don’t miss out and end up having the issues that I had when I didn’t go and take my medication, but I really appreciate you ma’am and thank you very Much. I will give you a like and a follow.

  • @Kevin60611
    @Kevin60611 4 месяца назад +10

    Just came back from Singapore.
    On decent into the airport, the flight attendant announced,' importing or dealing hard drugs is a MANDATORY deatth sentence '.
    Result, no drug problem.

    • @chrismead3150
      @chrismead3150 3 месяца назад +4

      BUllSHIT....just because you don't hear about it doesn't mean it's not there. I assure you....Singapore has plenty of users and addicts.

    • @etee08
      @etee08 День назад

      My friend was caught there after landing from Thailand with 10 kg heroine. He was sentenced to death, but after some Diplomatic efforts they change the penalty to 20 years in prison. He's at home now since 5 years...

  • @ridgegillespie2934
    @ridgegillespie2934 6 месяцев назад +14

    I'm doing it cold turkey like I did when I was addicted to pain pills,but this is way harder than imagined. The dehydration and exhaustion is excruciating. It's been 3 weeks with one relapse and I still have the extreme diarrhea and dehydration. Anyone that can get proper help like methadone should try. I have no health insurance and no i.d. so I have no choice at the moment but I feel in my soul I'm almost past the worst. I also have my children to give me strength. God bless anyone going through it,I was addicted to it for 2yrs so I can imagine the struggle for many others.

    • @brittclay31497
      @brittclay31497 5 месяцев назад +5

      3 weeks is fucking AMAZING!!!!!!! Man, PLEASE keep it up, NO MATTER WHAT!!!!! One thing that helped me was to literally make myself HATE that shit!!!! it keeps my fire burning to this day! clean since Nov 22

    • @mishachilume2628
      @mishachilume2628 5 месяцев назад

    • @unmushi
      @unmushi 5 месяцев назад +2

      You are very brave to do this without medical assistance for your kids! My cousin has been addicted for a while and it breaks my heart for her. Thank you for making the commitment, not only for yourself, but for your children! I am so very proud of you and wish you the best on your healing journey!

    • @heidiking1100
      @heidiking1100 5 месяцев назад

      do you have a county hospital? They can treat you for free. get that help. you can die from dehydration and electrolyte imbalance. They can help ith the symptoms!!!

  • @lynnepaquette4124
    @lynnepaquette4124 4 месяца назад

    Thank you. I really want to understand.

  • @royaltyblessed2454
    @royaltyblessed2454 6 месяцев назад +3

    Wish we had these resources and empathy during the crack epidemic...praying against all addictions

  • @coryorcutt4528
    @coryorcutt4528 7 месяцев назад +9

    Over a year. I wouldn't wish the first 6 months on my worst enemy, the first few months were the worst. Sleepless nights and endless pain.
    I'll do my best to never go back

  • @oceancat0450
    @oceancat0450 3 месяца назад

    I’ve been clean fur 5 years. He’s never heard a person describe opiate withdrawal and addiction better than this woman.

  • @ncromos
    @ncromos 8 месяцев назад +9

    Unfortunately most people only learn about something when they go through it themselves

    • @goldendiamon
      @goldendiamon 5 месяцев назад

      I understand as I am now sober from TikTok,I deleted it and still have compassion for the drug addicts

  • @Mockturtlesoup1
    @Mockturtlesoup1 6 месяцев назад +4

    The problem is, at least for me, the physical(let alone mental) symptoms of withdrawal dont just stop after a week or two. The first time i got clean for a relatively long period of time(about 8 months), i was _still_ having withdrawal symptoms, especially the sort of cholinergic symptoms, like watery eyes, running nose, sweating, etc. But the most annoying symptoms were the chills and hot flashes, along with the fact that even after 8 months, i was yawning at least 100 times a day.
    But as bad as all that can be, its _nothing_ compared to the boredom, depression, anhedonia, etc. The next time getting clean, it took 10 months before i could even begin to look forward to things.
    And for me at least, the mental and even the physical symptoms never completely stop.

    • @tulayamalavenapi4028
      @tulayamalavenapi4028 4 месяца назад

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  • @michaelbarone3377
    @michaelbarone3377 2 месяца назад +1

    2:41 When I made my first attempt at sobriety, I went cold turkey. I had been taking about 7 perc 30s a day just to try and function. I ended up experiencing withdrawals for a month straight......7 months later I relapsed because I still didn't feel back to normal. I had become disassociated and felt like I watching my own life not living it. If you are on quite the high dose, don't go cold turkey! Seek professional medical help and taper off!
    Edit: Further explanation

  • @terraincognita9614
    @terraincognita9614 9 месяцев назад +19

    The restless legs and arms WHILE AWAKE was enough to make me cry. It really fucking sucks

    • @Raggandrist
      @Raggandrist 8 месяцев назад +3

      No words can describe how torturous and relentless the feeling is.
      Being dog tired but unable to stop moving to try find relief. Praying for sleep to try kill time only for sleep to finally come and you wake up praying hours have passed but it’s only 10 minutes when you check your watch.
      Knowing you could ring someone at any moment and they can bring relief directly to your door. It’s just mental and physical torture

    • @ID30394
      @ID30394 8 месяцев назад +1

      It was sheer misery and was only compounded by my girlfriend having to observe it. My heart goes out to anyone in the throes of addiction.

  • @TexasPictures
    @TexasPictures 6 месяцев назад +2

    Great information.

    • @NiniEJ
      @NiniEJ 6 месяцев назад

      I love your channel! Thank you for giving those families a voice!

  • @dreamboiiiiiii
    @dreamboiiiiiii 6 месяцев назад +6

    Ive had trouble focusing lately and Ive never used opioids (just curious what its like).. but Dr Wakeman had me LOCKED IN.
    What a brilliant communicator and empathetic professional ❤

  • @longlakeshore
    @longlakeshore 8 месяцев назад +5

    For me it WAS like having flu for two weeks but I'm a chronic pain patient who never got high on morphine family opioids or fentanyl in 17 years at a pain management clinic the last 11 of which was on a transdermal fentanyl patch. I had no diarrhea. In fact after 17 years of constipation my stool quickly returned to normal. I did have sweats, chills, lacrimation, rhinorrhea, yawning, restless leg, insomnia and of course much higher pain levels. I required prescription ambien for the first 12 days to sleep. This all happened because the opioid crisis forced my pain clinic to go out of business. I blame opioid abusers and their litigious money grubbing for this. I know addiction is a disease and I wish everyone the best but they collectively destroyed my ability to get the only relief my lifetime nerve damaged torture chamber body has ever had. Thanks a bunch.

    • @cosmosrunner2468
      @cosmosrunner2468 8 месяцев назад +1

      I feel you. I take opiods for arthritis in my spine. The pain is excruciating and people don't understand. My fear is that if the clinic closes I couldn't live with this pain. It's like I chose to be an addict to have a semblance of a life. it hurts to read about your pain with no relief. I wish you the best whoever you are. 💔

    • @longlakeshore
      @longlakeshore 8 месяцев назад +1

      @@cosmosrunner2468 I feel you too. You're not an addict if you dose to pain relief and no higher. Addicts misuse/overuse opioids to get high whether pain patients of not. I hope your clinic does not suffer the fate of mine and wish you the best.

    • @cosmosrunner2468
      @cosmosrunner2468 8 месяцев назад +1

      @@longlakeshore thank you!

    • @RainbowRantz
      @RainbowRantz 7 месяцев назад

      A lot of addicts started by getting prescribed it. If anything they are victims of the opioid crisis as are you by not accessing needed medication. But the addicts didn’t create the drug, introduce it, prescribe it, nor the ones who enforced banning use of opioids as treatment for chronic pain. Blame it on whose actually responsible 🤷‍♂️

    • @longlakeshore
      @longlakeshore 7 месяцев назад +1

      @@RainbowRantz Blaming it on those responsible is exactly what I'm doing. I'm sorry some people suffer from addiction but I don't. I suffer lifetime chronic pain so severe only prescription opioids provide relief and the behavior of addicts, their surviving families and lawyers has denied me that relief. To blame pharmaceutical companies and health care for creating anesthesia and analgesia is the height of insensitivity. Go without the next time you have medical or dental surgery if it bothers you so much.

  • @cassiemeyer1164
    @cassiemeyer1164 Месяц назад +1

    The brain is so powerful. Even through the HELLISH, physical withdrawal symptoms and the devastation of addiction, the brain still craves that dopamine hit. Such a delicate yet powerful and determined species we are.

  • @Michael.Chapman
    @Michael.Chapman 6 месяцев назад +4

    Very few people get seriously ill from opiate or opioid withdrawal. Yes, it’s extremely uncomfortable, but that’s it. The various drugs, from heroin to methadone to fentanyl all have fairly similar withdrawal syndromes that differ mainly in the length of the process. Even when done outside a hospital, opioid and opiate withdrawal is safe when contrasted to the potentially life-threatening withdrawal seen with alcohol, barbiturates or benzodiazepines.

    • @MarkFugitive-
      @MarkFugitive- 5 месяцев назад

      I've been through alcohol withdrawal numerous times. Alcohol may be more dangerous but it's nowhere near as uncomfortable during wd

    • @jackofalltrades3378
      @jackofalltrades3378 4 месяца назад

      FACTS. Thank you. And yet, I can get benzos from my doctor but no opioids... addicts are ruining it for themselves and for everyone else, yet we blame the drugs and not the people.

  • @PrestoPickle-e4e
    @PrestoPickle-e4e 4 месяца назад +3

    i can appreciate her understanding of what withdrawal is and how it affects your brain. she obviously is not opiate addict and yet she can empathize with somebody that is. and explain why we r the way we r and do the things we sometimes have to do to get relief. every addict should appreciate people like her. they just want to help

  • @DylanMorehouse
    @DylanMorehouse 3 месяца назад

    She seemed actually compassionate and understanding. 🎉❤

  • @mellodyz9345
    @mellodyz9345 5 месяцев назад +8

    Hour 56 no fentanyl I fucking got this

    • @fasteagle9959
      @fasteagle9959 5 месяцев назад +1

      The half life of fentanyl is very short, which means the withdrawals are more intense, but that they aren’t as prolonged. If you absolutely for some reason don’t make it through this, do this. Have your doctor transition you over to a natural opiate like morphine and then go to Oregon to an ibogaine clinic. I was on fentanyl from 2001 when nobody, not even many doctors knew what it was. My addiction was long and hard. Ibogaine, in my honest opinion is the only natural cure that actually heals your brain and makes withdrawals and post acute withdrawal bearable. I wish you the best. God bless you ❤️ 🙏

    • @theketaminekid1241
      @theketaminekid1241 4 месяца назад +1

      Hope you pulled through.