The Tragedy Behind Nirvana's 1994 'In Utero' European Tour
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- Опубликовано: 10 июл 2024
- Looking back at the dreaded 'In Utero' European tour back in 1994.
I look at all the events leading up to this Nirvana tour and how Kurt didn't really want to go on it in the first place. I go into the tour and shows that were played in detail and also comment on the tragic aftermath that followed.
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Thinking about the amount of stuff Nirvana accomplished from the end of 91 to early 94, seems like 10 years of worked packed in to 2 full calendar years. All those world tours, all those recordings, albums, b sides, special MTV appearances, music videos, buying houses, getting married, having kids, all those magazine shoots, interviews, collaborations. It's insane. Non-stop. With the drug problems on top of it.
It's like they wanted a legend and just put it all on their heads
Sometimes you gotta do what’s best for you, rather then doing things for other people
Just to think of how much great music was done in general in that amount of time. My daughter is 14 going on 15 right now and I play all of this stuff for her and I just tell her "imagine this was all out in a three or four year period" meanwhile it's been forever since I've had a new rock band knock my socks off
How insane that Smells Like Teen Spirit ended up being left out of the final show due to the power outage. Like final favor to Kurt.. RIP
In milan italy when they played smells like teen spirit that would be their last time playing slts
Just like the doors Jim got tired of Light my Fire
Yes sometimes they would skip it too after being expected to play it. They felt they had written better material
May have been left out anyway. It also missed the previous gig in Slovenia. Think they had tired of the song by then.
That's not why it was left out. They could have easily played it if he wanted to.
That tour should never had happened, but I guess the show must go on at any cost. Just sad that it was the life of the most talented songwriter of his generation.
The tour was ok, but Kurt was secretive, he was heartbroken deeply for Courtney didn't meet him all February (14, 20, 24 important dates) even at their wedding anniversary which is only year 2 then, that is why he got worried and stressed, he want to end the tour he felt being cheated...imagine performing all those songs daily in different countries , meanwhile his mind is so exhausted, torn, doubting...he certainly had doubts and pains, and by March he wanted Divorce
Are you gonna do anymore covers?
Just shows how they care more about the money than the artists :(
Yeah I dunno about that most of their songs are pretty simple and poppy. Laynes a better singer, and writer.
@@jonredcorn862 also Layne didn't really write as many songs. It was mostly Jerry. However his Mad Season stuff, epic 😎
Realistically Kurt was probably out of dope and withdrawing. As a recovering heroin addict myself I can't even imagine touring.. let alone being in a different country every few days and trying to support my habit. What a nightmare scenario. Especially from his perspective having to perform in front of people every night. When I was withdrawing I would isolate. All signs point to him acting like an addict who ran out of his supply.. esp with all his excuses to cancel and ontop of being burnt out and mentally checked out, he def acted like an addict.
If he didn’t have dope he at least had methadone . There’s no way he’d be able to play while dope sick .
this is exactly what i was gonna say. that would have sucked.
When it comes to guys like Cobain and Staley, I sometimes wonder if Suboxone had been introduced a decade earlier would it possibly have prevented their deaths??
I know it saved my life, or at least my quality of life.
I think the fear of hellish withdrawal is enough to scare sensitive types to recklessness and thoughts of suicide.
Unless you’ve experienced hardcore withdrawal you just can’t grasp it.
Right on I agree but Suboxone only works if you work a program
Yes, Agreed
You gotta work a schedule and you have to be at the point where you’re no longer in love with the High, you’re just sick of the life and sick of the withdrawal.
In other words, Suboxone only works when you’re ready to stop H.
For me personally, methadone was just as destructive as H and pills in general. It wasn’t til I started putting 8mg of Sub under my tongue right before my coffee and morning work meeting that I could focus on my job instead of my addiction.
Everyone responds differently to drugs like Suboxone, but for me it eliminated the cravings to get high again and again. Sub gave me a feeling of warmth and confidence and motivation that I had lost.
Again, I realize it’s not a cure and I’ll always be an addict. I’m not cured. It’s a crutch. But it’s a crutch that has allowed me to be a great father and decent husband for the last decade.
Maybe Kurt would’ve been able to avoid the gun if he had a steady supply of Sub
But then again, if he still was chasing the dragon then he would’ve used his money to keep getting H
Sad
Sad
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I had a ticket to see them in Cardiff on the 1st April 94. I was 14. Still one of the biggest low points of my life! Was a fan since 91 when Nevermind came out.
RIP Mr Cobain!!
I was 14 also so it was the same for me except I had a ticket for Manchester. I was absolutely devastated by his passing, still am.
14 too, but lucky enough to have been living in Madrid.
Me too. I keep my ticket in a frame. I remember seeing a package deal in a magazine to see them in Paris but I opted for Cardiff instead. 😩
Sucks 😞...must of made you extremely upset and angry with Kurt.
Wow!!
If only Kurt picked up Neil Young’s message then April 1994 could have been totally different. Heartbreaking stuff.
tell me more about the message
Shame he didn't go record with Stipe too.
😢😢😢
The guy clearly wasn't well and clinically depressed with a drug problem. The suits obviously wanted productivity. No wonder he said he felt like clicking in a time card before going on stage in his note. Look at his eyes at 2.05. They're emotionless and dead. It's really sad.
Dude just check all the shows they were doing and still had to do. Schedule was nuts. He was the elvis presely of grunge. McDonald's in organic form. Nirvana became an endless pit for suits.
Dude just check all the shows they were doing and still had to do. Schedule was nuts. He was the elvis presely of grunge. McDonald's in organic form. Nirvana became an endless pit for suits.
I always get sad watching live footage from 1994
I was almost 11 when he died,
I only bin a fan since there 92 MTV performance, that's when I got hooked,I wish he were still around,r.I.p kurt
Please name dumb acoustic version played in the end
Me too. I was 12.
Burn out is a real thing whether you’re a rock star or work as a bank teller. Sometimes you just have enough and the thought of doing another shift fills you with dread and depression. If you’re ALREADY as psychologically disturbed as Kurt was this kind of burn out can be fatal.
Yes, and factor in jet lag, thousands of people, and waking up in a different place every day... :(
@@JadeDude1973 add trying to find dope in a foreign country to not get sick
but job burn out is not a real condition, it's just another way of saying youre tired of doing the same thing over and over which any normal human should be.
I don’t think it was burn out. He was dope sick
When you think you know everything about Kurt Cobain and then something else comes out. Really good job on your video man and all the videos you've done about Kurt Cobain and Nirvana as a fan myself I really appreciate it brother.
Everytime i see a 'grunge and rock' upload, i read the title in his accent. Proper good videos though
Indeed
What accent? Lol
Me to dude 😂
What accent? Seriously. I don't hear one at all.
@@oldeays5085 I just read it in he’s voice, he’s awesome throw! Love he’s videos
I saw the last gig they ever did basically. It was in Ljubljana, Slovenia in 1994. It's weird because I thought after that they went to Italy where they didn't finish the last show, but on this calendar Italy is shown before Slovenia. We loved the gig. Kurt did seem very distant and almost like he didn't want to be there but from what I remember it was still a good show. The place was packed and very enthusiastic. It was one of my first shows I ever went. Previous year I saw Faith No More on Angel Dust tour and just missed Metallica & Megadeth in Hungary because I had an elbow injury.
He wasn't "worn out", he spent a week blasted on heroin in Paris. Thanks to that photographer, who hooked him up with a dealer. Once the drugs ran out, Kurt was frantic and irritable, and wanting to cancel the tour. And of course he got sick, both dope sick and viral sick from being on heroin for a week in France on some dealer's dirty couch. This has all come out recently by the photographer who hooked him up.
Where can I read that photographer's statement? What's his name?
boring. blaming everybody except kurt himself.
Please name dumb acoustic version played in the end
Exactly! When you get sick you can't do anything.
@@olexandrs6639 That's not Nirvana. I think it's a cover done by the guy who's doing the video.
Adding to what you mentioned about Kurt wanting to cancel the tour because of his stomach issue....
Kurt did a very candid interview with MTV. He was asked about his stomach aliment and he said there were days he felt like he wanted to end it the pain was horrific and unbearable. Adding that it had been going on for 6 yrs nonstop. He then said that at long last a doctor had prescribed a medication that actually worked. His pain was finally gone although he never received a prognosis.
This video was well done...
Sending positive vibes from the Windy City 💚
Thanks for making this, I have seen most of these clips, been a lifelong Nirvana fan. I like the way you created this video very much, with the calendar/imagery, as well as your narration of the events unfolding and how you simply present what occurred within this timeframe objectively. Subbed, fantastic video and thank you so much for helping me attempt to understand my favorite artist's death!
I just came across your channel and I’ve sat here and gone through so many videos. I looove it!!
He deserved so much better in life, i wish he had more people in his life who cared about his life. Gone too soon, will never be forgotten. Hope those last shows were worth it.
He was probably the most famous person in the world at that time. I think he did alright. He had plenty of people that cared but being an addict it dosent matter how many people care about you. Your gonna keep doing dope until you want to stop. Unfortunately heroin is so good people never want to stop especially if they have unlimited funds to do as much as they want all day everyday. People usually only stop because normal people can't afford the habit and the lifestyle is just so hard to maintain unless your rich.
@@jeffreyval9665 im a recovering meth addict so i know this all too well. At the end of the day we'll never know his perspective or how he was feeling, can only enjoy what he left behind.
Michael Stipe of REM was his best friend & tried helping him.
@@exdemocrat9038 I didnt know that he was close with REM, thats cool.
Dave and Krist are probably the only ones who could genuinely understand what he was going through at the time, it’s a shame that he seemed to keep them at arm’s length during those last few months. Maybe things could have been different if they insisted on staying closer with him.
Some footage in here I've never seen before. Good video. Thanks for sharing.
It's a bummer Kurt couldn't pull it off. I understand the power that opaties have on a person once they sink they're teeth in you. It's too bad the prescription drug Suboxone or Subutex wasn't around back then. It keeps you from withdrawing, helps with cravings, gives you energy and helps with depression. I believe if Kurt would have been able to get on this medication he would have finished the tour and possibly not committed suicide. I guess we'll never know. 😕
Even methadone would help him alot. I don't know why he didn't get a scripts from England. Johnny thunders did and travelled the world scoring coke and dope as and when. But always had a big bottle of nazi juice
They did have it back then buprenorphine is what’s in suboxone and subutex the difference between the two is suboxone has naloxolone and opiate blocker and subutex does not they gave him that in rehab I believe. Just back then it was called buprenorphine
We'll never know whether he actually committed suicide either.
@@bigballz4u he did. end of discussion.
@@cardrop33 what makes you so sure? Have you ever seen a case where somebody shot themselves up with 3 times the lethal amount of heroin for the most severe heroin addict, then take the needle out, take off the band, roll their sleeve down, put them away then shoot themselves... he had way more heroin in his body than Philip Seymour Hoffman and they found him with the needle still in his arm. The paramedic that responded said it wasn't like any other gun suicide he had seen and that his head wasn't deformed or anything and there was no blood splatter, just a pool around his head. If there was no splatter or spray then his heart wasn't beating, it just isn't possible man. Its sad because it most likely will never be reopened but Courtney has controlled the narrative from the day his body was found. Any death, including suicides have a death investigation that takes multiple days, even if its obviously a suicide. They go through victimology and try to confirm their theory but Seattle PD treated it as a suicide immediately and it was announced as a suicide 2 hours after his body was found. Tom Grant has 10s of conversations with Courtney that catch her lying. She's the one that gave the note to the press, she's the one that had the person closest to Kurt before it happened come over to "talk to Tom" and then shot him up before they talked so he was nodding off. Shes lied about so many things, and it can be proven too ..who was trying to use his credit card for 2 days after he died? Theres no way that he died under the circumstances they say.
Kurt's last song was Heart Shaped Box, Layne Staley's last song was Man in the Box. Never write songs about boxes.
yeah, boxes are bad
As rough as this tour was, I'd still highly encourage fans to check out the bootlegs of the European In Utero tour. Here and there Kurt just seems totally out of it, but by and large the band is still fantastic. Especially check out Milan from February 25th, 1994. Even Teen Spirit from that show is incredible. I only bring up that song because even here, at the very end, I think Kurt had a much more complicated relationship with that song than people generally consider.
After the Seattle show on January 8th they should have stopped and took time off because Kurt was still addicted to heroin. And in Europe some of the states they'd tour in wouldn't have heroin and the time to get help was actually much earlier than March because I read somewhere that after tours Kurt would go home and isolate himself from everyone. So what Nirvana should have done is take time off. Offer Kurt some help for his heroin problem and allow him to recuperate and then come back and do the European tour and if there unable to do lollapalooza that's fine Kurt didn't want to do it anyway.
That would’ve been nice to do for Kurt.
Well they put him in rehab but he jumped the wall at the place and went back to Seattle to score more dope so he had plenty of people helping him but honestly I think he just wanted to do his heroin and be left alone for a while but I think he finally realized that he would never be able to escape this rat race and he wanted out I honestly wish family members even though they mean well shouldn’t try to force any one in rehab until they are ready it’s a lot of stress because you feel like your letting everyone down
@@thebayharborbutcher9115 nope, he put himself in rehab, the strange thing was he could have walked out any time he wanted but he jumped the wall??
@@oldwelshlady6584 Courtney and his MOTHER put him in Rehab.
King Buzzo said the last tour was very sad and uncomfortable the entire time.
He didn’t seem surprised by what Kurt did.
Man, it's hard enough being on the skag when you are a normal person. Screw being on the gear and have to tour the world. How can you ever guarantee that's you will be able to score dope abroad or even have enough plugged to last. If your away from your local dealer for 3 months In 16 different countries I guess your gonna rattle
Well honestly you would think he would buy enough dope to last if I had that much money you can bet your ass I would have keilos of h at my house and on the tour bus I would have a connect in the u.k and my stateside connections because when your in that lifestyle you know that it’s literally your daily medicine but honestly I think Kurt was telling himself that he wasn’t going to use every day but eventually he would break down and use for more than 3 days in a row and boom he was hooked again you really can’t have one foot in when it comes to h I’ve been there and it always ends up eventually with you being sick
So thankful that he got to make his music but also so sad for his early loss. I was thinking about how very young he was. As you get older you really start to gain perspective on life and things change so much. I feel like a completely different person at 45 than I did at 27... I can only imagine what his life might have been like had he waited and gained that well needed perspective. I wish he never would have felt he had to do that last tour as maybe he wouldn't have been pushed too far.
He deserved better. Someone should’ve helped him more
True, nobody even asked him seriously what was really bothering him deep inside... ;-( #RESPECT
@@janecarolbaldivia1430 The worst thing that ever happened to Kurt was getting trapped into a marriage with the vile CL.
@@gregoryholstein4224 YEAH I THINK SO, even Krist mentioned a lot changes beginning 1992, hmmm... (after Feb 1992 Marriage with CL)?
@@janecarolbaldivia1430 Yes, in the less than a 1000 days he was married CL, he was dead and CL inherited his massive fortune.
King buzzo said at the last show he tried to help him and said it was very sad. He even told him to quit the band and get away from all the parasites near him and just make art
🔥🔥 just keep going
Reading the comments and watching the video, I think it is informative. If Dave or krist knew about addiction, it could have helped Kurt so badly. Just someone in his life he needed, but there was no one for him.
It is weird that Kurt goes to rehab and decides to leave. Which as a recovering alcoholic myself, rehab is the best place in the world. Rehab has amazing therapy, support and positivity. It changes your life. But why did Kurt leave? According to 'Tom Grant', private investigator evidence, Kurt ignored 13 Courtney's calls. He was visited by his baby and Kurt seemed happy and positive and wanted a divorce. Then the weird murder were Kurt disappears for days and found in the most horrific and highly suspicious crime scene. Which was immediately ruled out as a suicide and all evidence erased. Including the body to be recklessly cremated 6 days after and the place to be torn down where Kurt was murdered at.
@@WestSeaSpirit he killed himself end of story. Nothing is odd about cremation 6 days later, my in law was cremated the following day after passing. 6 days is actually a bit of time to wait, he didn’t want to be clean that’s why he left
@@cosmokramer5055 he didn't though!
@@WestSeaSpirit what about the gun he used that he bought? THINK before writing nonsense but it's you and millions of other fools, I wish i had a comment filter to prevent seeing any more gdmed conspiracy bs about his death.
To be honest this awesome video , great musian , wonderful guy , and great band.
Thanks dude 😊
much beloved and dearly missed. no amount of time can heal this wound
Thanks for this… May I suggest comparing different sources to create your video…
I recognise the details are from 1 particular book and yet I know a few other book tell different stories…
Hey there Honey! I was thinking of sharing this to the "Kurt Cobain was Murdered" FB group. What do you think?
@@joshuayettou3552 Hey hey! Sure Josh :)
I just don t think he killed himself.
@@joshuayettou3552 please don't
@@Lighthousepreserve I usually don't get into these debates on YT comment sections but I'm just curious of what makes you think he committed suicide other than the fact the mainstream media said so? I don't want to start a nasty type argument or anything. I'm just curious is all. Enjoy your day sir.
can you please attach links in the description box for where you get all your facts? you always have information that i’ve never ever heard.
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Where can I find that cover of dumb that played at the beginning and end?
I saw them in early Jan in Vancouver. They seemed weirdly distant. The music was still good though.
After that European tour the band was to play Australia awesome video , great musian and band , Still very very sad #Nirvana #KurtCobain #InUtero
I don’t get how nobody especially Krist tried to personally talk to him.
He would of been the only one
who new him well
enough and not on drugs.
Wasn’t his responsibility or fault in anyway
What version of “Dumb” plays in the intro and outro?
Hi, does eanybody have a link to a this version of "dumb" in the end of the video? thanks
Now seeing all these facts . There is no doubt in my mind he ended his own life
Right, that photograph of Kurt at 13:31 is one of the saddest photos I have ever seen. of anybody in all my life for that matter. I'm contemplating suicide myself as I type these words.
@@mikeyj.3605 take it easy mike stick Around a while . Eventually your gonna die anyway .if your dead things can’t get better . Give yourself a chance
@@mikeyj.3605 Please talk to someone who you care for about how you're feeling. I wish you well, and please hear me when I say that Jesus loves you and that God is good, and you can do good things with the rest of your life. Please take care.
@@mikeyj.3605 It’s easy to get caught up in “drama” and get caught in a moment of depression. Things change and move on. Hope you’re feeling better.
Look at the evidence on his death, check out Soaked in Bleach. Kurt had 3 times the lethal dose of heroin in his system before supposedly shooting himself, physically impossible. It was a staged suicide.
It's so funny, reading Kurt's account of the story. It's all "Well, and then what happened was....."
I just wish Kurt was alive he’s so handsome 😍❤️🥰
He'd be in his mid 50s by now and would probably be fat and half bald. 😆
The competition would be tough.
@@joleneloveland2942 yeah true
@@rexx9496 the dude was 90lbs soaking wet, so he doubt he would’ve been fat. But ok.
@@nickfanzo people put on weight when they get old. I used to be 130 in my early 20s while eating like crap. Now in my mid 40s, eat way better and I can't get below 185 no matter how hard I try.
Rest in peace Kurt, you were great, we all miss you ❤
I just can't get over the impossible things that supposedly happened surrounding his death, like the amount of heroin in his blood, but great video.
It’s 100% possible, an addict like Kurt who had ample money and supply you quickly build a big tolerance. As time has went on doctors now see tolerance as being a real thing and plausible. He simply had a high tolerance a heavy addiction and that’s about all.
he just happened to buy and then carry around the gun that they killed him with?
hey man how are you
As i recall from watching MusiquePlus/MuchMusic at the time Kurt died, it was in the music news that week that Nirvana pulled out of Lollapalooza and he might've fired the band as well.
Whats the name of the song at the beginning of the video?
I don't think anyone could've changed his mind he was clearly utterly miserable and just over everything: (
Love that coat!! Kurt looked great when he got some dough at end. Cracking coat, eyeliner, great hair and those beautiful rings. Geezer!
Bands had so much more engaging stuff to talk about back then instead of what labels they're wearing
I had tickets for the Manchester gmex , to see Nirvana on that very tour. Such a shame
Dublin simmons court pavilion April 8 th Friday ... doors never opened at 8 pm. I still have the ticket.
Who does the cover at the very beginning of this video? Sounds really cool.
The guy who makes these videos
@@alexv1190 nice
Very good indeed! Can we hear more please and how?
You can see the sadness in Kurt’s eyes during the TV taping they did in Italy. So sad 😞
It was in 1993 ,the recording sessions,wasn’t it?
the fear and dispair in his eyes terrible you can see it in his eyes in that last picture what ever happend kurt its a strange and misterious death the whole investigation the overdose of herion in ure blood its al weird and strange rip mr kurt i wish you could explane more about ure death
Well krist when it mentally is effecting Kurt yes that's very serious medical condition. If he had the time off people were with him and not against him maybe he would still be here to relish his achievements
Coming off opioid is fierce. You have to titrate...he was in places w no heroin. It's a " monkey on your back" Ten Years After.except their songwas " ain t no monkey on my back "
Ppl were not against him? How???
People don't realize it can be both. Like, sometimes when you're constantly physically in pain it makes you feel awful mentally and vice versa. I call bullshit on Krist saying "it was all an act", wtf dude.
Krist was irritated because his career was hanging in the balance. He couldn't earn a living if Kurt was non-functional. It's hard not to be angry, even if it's a friend.
9:47 Oh god no I can't stop crying it's in his voice💔💔💔
I don't know why you didn't mention Kurt having bronchitis on the last show?
How big could nirvana have gotten?if nirvana were still here. Pretty darn big almost world leaders
Last 2 milan shows are excellent
Nulle parte aillers "a dead finger, dead movement, if I was dead, those parts dying and killing me"
he was a great musician, but just because you're famous doesn't mean addiction works any differently than for any other person.
people seem to be blaming the whole world for what Cobain did with his life, which is ironically what a drug addict does. They try to shift the blame for everything bad that happens in their life on external forces to justify their addiction.
The fact that his life was so miserable that he decided to end it was noone's responsibility but his own. In order to recover from addiction you need to accept this fact. Stop blaming the label, his band, his wife, his manager, the world, his back, the society, stop painting him as some sort of a hero or a martyr. He was his own victim, just like every other addict in history. It's sad and tragic.
very well said.
Exactly! Kurt someone to learn from, but not someone to become.
Have been on the last show in Munich, Kurt was upset cos the crowd was really cheesy towards the Melvins and you could see that he was not very comfortable at all playing the show.
As he should have been. The Melvins rule
@@humanothumqn659 yes you hit the nail!
so he killed himself 'cause they wouldnt be nice to the melvins?
cover of Dumb is by????
Nirvana had one more photo shoot on feb 15 94 with the photos of kurt in torn green sweater with a pistol
Last photoshoot with him posing with a pistol in his mouth and side of the temple and ppl still think it's murder..
@@lottofever3061 imo i think who knows it def could of been both personally ive got pictures like that and im not suicidal 😂
I saw them in Spokane in January right before they did two shows in Seattle and poof just like that they flew to Europe and into the history books. I’m glad I got to see them although I don’t remember the show that well. I went with my girlfriend at the time. So I didn’t really get to enjoy the show like I would’ve liked.
Lollapalooza freaked him out if u ask me 😐 he seen the headliners and was like no way am I doing this..would of been epic.
Please name dumb acoustic version played in the end
Fitting that the last song they ever played was NOT Smells Like Teen Sprit
Imagine Nirvana and Green Day at the same concert
Green Day w/ Nirvana? HELL NO!
Well Green Day did play a house party with Nirvana back in I believe 1988 or so? It was somewhere in Washington State (Olympia or somewhere like that?). I do like Green Days first 3 albums and some of their later songs but Nirvana is on a completely different level of good in my opinion.
I prefers Nirvana over Green Day but they’re completely different sounds, I think Green Day did a cover of Drain You too.
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Why?
What version of Dumb is that?
Who lived up the street from Kurt when this happened? I had a weird dream. How would I know Kurt was disappointed about in bloom wasn't the hit single like he wanted? They chose smells like teen spirit wich Kurt fucking hates that song obvious he would not play it!!!!!!!!!
He liked teen spirit as a revolution notion not the deodorant. He went w it.
I think Cobain held out for Krist on that Ljubljana, Slovenia show on Feb. 27th, 2nd to last show. He knew it was important to Krist to make it happen.
You forgot to include the Switzerland show
If only kratom was a widespread thing around this time. Kurt could've just taken 12 grams of a strong red maeng da everytime he was beginning to get dopesick and bam his engine is a quarter full instead of completely empty
Any Heroin addict who has unlimited funds, isn't gonna do anything but heroin
I always felt the "stomach issues" thing was his public way of not admitting the heroin use. It was an excuse to use ultimately and unfortunately addicts do that. Wish he had never been introduced
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The music business killed him 😔
Show this to all of the people who refuse to understand why he wanted to take his life, the “man I wish I he was still here” crowd. It was tragic for all involved but he had every right to want to take his life.
The music was great but he realised he was part of a tawdry, money making enterprise and saw only one way out of it.
he could have quit it all and lived alone in obscurity comfortably without ever working again. People forget that everything really is about the money; once you get the big money you win your freedom.
Very simple and straightforward sentiment I'd like to share and no blame to anyone. If you can, believe someone when saying he's not doing good and give support. Burnout is also a darker reality than people imagine and can lead to suicide very fast! No joke here! People can become very desperate quickly, especially on top of feeling guilty and ashamed. Many people commit suicide, not so much, because they want to end suffering, but also because of guilt and feeling it's for the best for everyone concerned, like some sort of sacrifice to stop hurting others. People who are burnt out don't have the best mindset to realize that reality is probably not as grim as they think it is. However, other people aren't aware or trained to understand what someone goes through when burnt-out, anxious, prone to panic attacks, loss of sleep, delirium, psychosis, depression and all sorts od ailments that can affect someone in downward spiral and feeling isolated and with no real support. Like I said, no blame to others, but if people knew better, maybe some wouldn't have putten so much weight on Kurt, maybe he just needed some love, affection and emotional support, that he's free to cancel a tour until he's better, than he'd still be there. I think a great deal of things were going through his mind, withdrawal, having a wife and daughter, feeling the chore of leading a band, playing songs over and over he grew tired of, a pretty long tour he couldn't handle and a whole lot of shame and humiliation as well, for not living up to his own but also what he thought was everyone else's expectations.
The reality, life is the most valuable thing there is, not a tour, not the money, not all the hopeless expectations life throws at us. If we're dead, all of one owns, becomes utterly meaningless.
Something about this needs to change in society and politics. Burnout is an emergency, suicidal ideation is an emergency. If someone is asking or begging for a day off, cancel or anything like this, benefit of the doubt, let them do so or gently ask if they can help with a few things and see if he or she can agree to have a little workload. Maybe if there was an agreement to cut the tour shorter, that may have helped a lot already.
And if the person really can't, it is a medical situation.
Last but not least, we should allow a person to take days off and propose help, but kindly so, not in a hurry. I am saying all that, because this literally could save lives, and again, nothing is more precious or has more value than being alive. If a person dies, there is no return or way to bring a person back. Also never forget, giving affection to someone who's at the end of the rope, can make the whole difference between life and death, just being there, also not being brusk and sharing time, even without words.
Burnout and mental illness is real, and a whole of people don't know what it means, worse a lot of people think they know, but in reality still don't know what it means. Nowadays we have a lot of information and knowledge that can literally save lifes. Be informed and educate yourself. Among us are many Kurt Cobains, who deserve the best chances to heal and grow.
The whole kids on drugs ,giving thumbs up: that was exactly what was said on Layne Staley info videos.
you didnt read the article in the inrocks (french magazine) on those last days in paris? Its a very detailled (like 5 full pages) account of what happened during thoses few days. They were traveling in the 2 buses (the ones that took drugs; kurt smear and the cello girl) and the others. It explained kurt was only thinking about getting drugs and cancel the tour to back to seattle. Lenquette hooked him with a local rock musician who was heroin consumer (they interviewed him for the article) and could get some H for him, after that he spent the next 24h with this dude in his hotel, almost overdosing at one point, he almost never went to the paris show, and the next day he didnt want to leave for the show Rennes, they had to beg him at the hotel to go out (he wound eventually like 4 hours later causing the show to start super late cause he was still in a train). And he was begging lenquette to come join him in munich (offering to pay all the expenses for lenquette and his girlfriend to take plane + hotel there, so he wouldnt be alone). And lenquette turned him off saying they wound spend time together in Cambodia (lenquette origin country) as they planned to spend holidays there later in the year. Krist even told the show in slovenia, kurt only did it for him (because he knew krist’s relatives would be there) otherwise he would already have cancelled. Kurt even asked the tour manager (regarding the insurance fees etc) « what happened if someone dies, do we still have to play the show ». You really have to read that one, it’s a very detailled account (with testimonies of the witnesses) of the total downfall that happens in those few days, leading to the incident in Rome and the end of nirvana
Whats it called? I really wanna read it. Thanks for your reply.
will you link this
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POV: your watching grunge and rocks RUclips channel: 🤘😀 Kurt would be proud
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Never met anyone in my life who claimed drugs were the best decision they ever made.
happiest ive ever been was when me and my friends would drink and take valiums and get extremely wasted but have so much fun, that was long ago, didnt hurt me, here i am and no regrets.
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Albini banned Courtney from the studio. She wanted to get on the album. He nicknamed her "Hoser beast"
Why is dave holding a gun down his pants.?? Odd
Tyler?
Maybe his father told him the truth about his mother
Whats the truth. I am not aware of anything
More like 3 weeks after the Rome incident.
Everyone knows that Heart Shaped Box was Courtney's fav song.
And he played it...I don't know why.
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Nothing beautiful lasts...
Ond irait qu il fait une référence à Courtney Love avec ses lunettes, cigarettes et la pause, comme en plus il voulait se séparer d elle....
Kurt was without a doubt in the middle of divorcing Courtney Love during 1994 and shortly before Kurt was murdered. RIP and Justice for Kurt Cobain
@@joshuayettou3552 exact
Are you implying that Kurt feigned his illness to cancel the tour? Why would he need to that?
As far as I know (and believe me I am very aware of a lot what was going on with Kurt during his last days before he was murdered), Kurt genuinely was dealing with throat problems. A doctor did write a note for him to be able to cancel the rest of the tour and to go home to rest so there's that.
@@joshuayettou3552 I suppose.
Yet from the sound of it, some people around him seem to be under the impression that Kurt was worried about something. Some private matter. Then he asked about cancelling the tour. He was told that it would be problematic for them to cancel it unless the reason was because of an illness. Then he went and visited a doctor who told him he had laryngitis and advised him to take two months rest.
Hearing that, it sounds like he feigned illness to cancel the tour. Especially if he had been asking to cancel the tour days before he performed in Germany.
Not that I'm fully sure this was what happened.
Maybe it's true that he had health problems.
I think he was getting so sad and very worried altogether because Courtney has been away too long, and so does his baby...remember that his empathy, affection, and thinking level is extremely high. Deeply caring, loving and actually very sentimental. Why didn't anyone think of this right away, when all of them his environment of people that are usually with him... who were considered to be very close with him and that they know him well?
He have asked Courtney to come meet him be with him while on tour for many times within that 1994 February, and wondering a lot: How hard was it truly for wife Courtney to spend just a few days in between her promotional activities for her album, for her husband and child to be together??? It was possible and they are abled financially then, Kurt wanted quality time and moments...in between of his tours...
@@janecarolbaldivia1430 I did read something similar Kurt did when he was dating Tracy Marander. He felt homesick and lonely and stressed out from the tour he was on. He called her and even sent a letter to her where he wrote 'I love you' several times.
I think I read that in the book Come As You Are or maybe it was in Heavier than Heaven.
But yeah, I can see that could be one reason why he wanted to cancel the tour.
Plus, I read there would be some problematic people in the audience. Like people who throw shoes and glass bottles or any object at Kurt and the band members .
Kurt was always worried about violent 'fans' coming to his shows.
That may have been what was stressing him out the most.
I thought nirvs last gig was the Unplugged set
Nah that was 93
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I think Kurt really just wanted to be with his family and chill , I Think Nirvana needed a break and some time to recharge , kurt probably wanted to pursue other things outside of music , I also think kurt felt ganged up on and put in a corner for his drug use and around that time , depression and mental illness seemed taboo to discuss. He might has passed due to over dose or mis adventure but he could have lasted after 94 at the very least.
Grunge makes a tragidy out of everything.
Burnout is the worst...stress anxiety, depression all at once ,😔