i'm back
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- Опубликовано: 8 июл 2024
- its been a long time coming but i am finally returning to youtube. i hope you stick around for my next chapter: graphic design for the yearning soul.
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this video covers some heavy topics, so it might not be appropriate for everyone. toggle through the chapters if you want to skip some subjects.
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ig @kel.lauren
t @keldotlauren
portfolio kellauren.design
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shot on panasonic lumix gh5 with leica dg vario-elmarit 12-60 lens
music & edit by matty @gaptxxth
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0:00-05:25 2020-2021 recap
5:25-9:15 pet health, harry getting sick
9:16-13:15 freelance taking off, mental struggles begin
13:15-17:15 alcoholism
17:16-20:13 health problems begin
20:13-21:16 adhd diagnosis
21:17-22:24 reestablishing my work relationship
22:25-25:30 pet death, harry's passing
25:34-32:17 mental health problems, suicide
32:18-34:25 my mental health now
34:26-40:35 my plan for the future 
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WE ARE SO BACK
love u both
U GUYSSS ARE THE REASON IM IN GRAPHIC DESIGNNN
make some videos bro cmon we are waiting
Stfu lol. She’s a nobody. who cares if
You are better 😅
we're so back it's crazy
hello mayor 🫡
KURTIS WATCHES KEL???
@@buho_guy147They design for him quite often!
@@buho_guy147 kel does kurtis’ merch design!
kurtis what are you doing here
the second coming of kel
RO RAMDIN LIKES KEL !! TWO FAVS
Moneyyyy shpreaad 🗣💵💸raaaaaaah 😝 rockin in my way 🤘💪
The new intro is actually the cutest thing ever! It's so intricate and still has that handmade look!
thank you!! it’s all made with handmade paper pieces and photos i cut and scanned by hand 🙂↕️ it went through so many revisions, but i knew i would make the right version eventually. and this was my favorite one!! glad people are liking it.
it feels nostalgic
When goats wander, they usually don't come back... Glad that when GOATs wander, they do.
Welcome back Kel!
I know everything must've been so hard to share... Covid was so awful for all of us. But I appreciate your willingness to tell us what's been going on. I'm glad that things have been getting better for you and look forward to the next video! 😁
i appreciate everyone’s patience and support as i worked on rebuilding everything! it was hard, but it feels so much better. happy to be back ❤️
the fact that u didn’t cry nearly as much as i did is so impressive
same here
It's crazy. Since you left, I ended up becoming a graphic designer. Not really on purpose, I just so happened to find myself in the roll. I've used what I learned from you to help me in my role. I'm glad you're back and hope you have a great future.
WE ARE BACK
was not expecting turning the tables to show here
All praise the OG of design on RUclips 🙌
you have been continuously on my mind for the past several years. my heart hurts to hear what you've been going through, and i am SO incredibly proud of you and so happy you're here. thank you for sharing with us, i'm wishing you continued love and healing 🫶❤️🩹🕊️
My favorite RUclipsr is finally back words can't describe how happy I am😭😭
Kel!! Was so stoked to see this in my sub box 💛💛
Damn dude, mental health stuff really is the absolute fucking worst. Especially when your self-esteem keeps you trapped in a loop of feeling undeserving. I'm happy to hear that you're getting help and unpacking ways to be healthier. Everyone deserves that -- yourself included. You're rad and I'm stoked to see your new content.
Thank you Kel for opening up, to see someone I admire very much talk about struggling through a lot of similar things I've gone through is very relieving. Thank you!
I’m glad you’re back. Grieving a pet is very hard, listening to Harry’s story made me tear up thinking about my own cat (it’s been 8 years since he passed). I dealt with and am currently recovering from a drinking problem, you can do it. Also I myself got diagnosed with Bipolar 2 this year and it has actually been a relief finally knowing what i have. Hope you can give your own diagnosis a positive perspective.
Happy to see you back. The craziest thing about being a human is that the worst thing can stop your world but the world keeps spinning. Continue to prosper, it’s hard work but you can do it.
Wow hearing your journey over the past few years has me on the verge of sobbing. I understand the constant shame and disconnectedness. It's such a lonely, draining, imposterey feeling. I've been working so hard to de-shame, and hearing that you're pressing on and moving forward is so encouraging.
Welcome backkk! Thank you for sharing your journey. It's nice to be reminded that we're all just doing our best in the face of difficult adversities. Sending all good vibes your way and totally looking forward to this new era! 🎉
I got my adhd diagnosis during the pandemic myself, and as with many had to fight through some though times, always wanted to do graphic design but felt like I would fail at it, that I was not creative enough etc, but watched channels like yours for inspiration, over the last six months I've been taking active steps towards graphic design and now I'm an intern just for a few months (my own choice) to test it out, and getting really good feedback! So yeah, glad to see that you've had progress and getting some answers aswell! Welcome back🎉
im a diy musician who got into graphic design bc of your content years ago. really nice to see you back for as long as it feels healthy to be here :)
I'm not crying, there's just a Kel in my eye 🥹 I'm so glad you're back! LET'S FUCKING GOOOOO
maybe the most vulnerable, heart wrenching, eloquent come back video i’ve ever been an audience of. glad to have you back, kel.
the return of the king
Just wanted to say how much I related to a lot that you went through (depression, surprise health issues, being a caretaker for my late dad), and I'm absolutely thrilled to see you doing well again! ❤
So ecstatic to see you back on this platform but even happier for your newfound journey of healing and loving yourself. Welcome back! 🎉❤ you inspired me so much back in 2020 to really pursue my career in graphic design (specifically merchandise design) ✨
So happy you're back!!
kel I want you to know that your RUclips videos inspired me to go to art school for graphic design and last August I got my bachelor's degree 🫶🏼 I will forever be thankful for your videos & tutorials 🩷
omg! congrats, this is so exciting. so so proud of you, so glad you found me ❤️
@@KelLauren eeee thank you ☺️🩷🥹
So pumped that you’re back!!! Thank you so much for sharing your journey - only wishing you the very best in this new chapter!
Extremely unexpected, but equally as awesome!!! Welcome back!!!!
KEL!!!! omggg i'm sososo glad you're back and that you're doing better now!!
I am definitely sticking around. I subscribed to you and started following during the timen you were not going on. and I stayed and waited! I'm so excited to see what's coming! Kelliot is already a great start!
Kel, I used to watch your videos back in the day and they inspired me to pursue graphic design and now I'm a semester away from graduating! So glad you're back!♡
been wondering where you've been -- welcome back!!
I’m so glad you’re back and I hope you heal from everything you’ve been through. I’m no graphic designer but I loved watching you work and learned so much. Thank you and welcome back!!!
welcome back!! really looking forward to what you have planned ❤
so happy you are here and back! ❤
So glad to have you back, Kel!!!
Kel! So excited to see you back! Wish you nothing but good things. ❤
So glad you're back - and thank you for sharing the difficult times.
glad you're here and glad you're back, sending love (and loving the intro)
I started crying when you were talking about Harry. My cat got diagnosed with HCM last year but he's unmedicated because of complications the meds would cause with his existing feline asthma. I completely relate to the anxiety around his health. I feel like I'm on the verge of a breakdown whenever there's anything even remotely wrong with him. I'm so sorry you had to experience that with Harry. Thank you for being so vulnerable. It's good to see you back at it!
welcome back!!! so proud of you, i can’t imagine the strength and persistence it took to get to this point. much much love and can’t wait to see your future videos!
It's great to see you back on RUclips. And thank you for sharing about your struggles with us I know it must not have been easy and took a lot of inner strength to do. I appreciate it.
welcome back! I can't imagine how difficult it must have been to be open with such difficult and personal things but it also made me feel more hopeful about my own mental health.
I've always loved watching your design process so I am so excited to see new things you come up with!
i’m so so glad to see you here again, thank you for making and posting this video
So excited for your new content journey and so so proud that you’ve gotten to this place!
hey! glad you're healing and that you're back :)!
Welcome back, Kel! I'm so sorry you went through all that, but I'm super glad you're doing better and to see you posting again!
I´m so happy that you are back in whatever format you chose to do so!!
SHE'S BACK!
LETTSSS GOOOOOOI LOVE YOU KEL WELCOME BACK ❤
so glad to have you back ❤
this is possibly the only good thing that has happened in my 2024🙏WELCOME BACK KEL!!!!
So happy to have you back!!! You’re an amazing designer and person
You are so strong. Thank you for coming back and sharing your story ❤
Sooooo proud of you and so excited for this new era❤
As soon as I saw the podcast channel up I know we were back!! Take your time with mental health
Glad you’re doing better!!
Good to have you back! Sending love & Support!
welcome back!! excited for this era of Kel 🫶
glad you are back! ❤
Welcome back Kel!
Welcome back !! So glad to see you again, can’t wait to see what amazing things you have in stock for us ❤️
So excited to see you pop-up in my feed! Can't wait to see what's coming next!
So glad you're back, your videos helped me through some personal very dark times in 2021 and I'm excited to see something new!
i'm so happy you're back
you deserve all the good in your life 🫶 so glad you’re back!!
i'm so happy to see you stronger than ever!!! welcome back kel!
so glad to have you back
i can relate to a lot of this, thank you! i missed you as well, congrats on coming back!
I'm happy you're here, and I'm happy you're back!
Great to have you back Kel, you have been and continue to be a big inspiration to me as a designer and person
YEEESS!!! So happy you're back and can't wait to watch all your content
So good to see you!!!
I’m so glad you feel strong enough to post this! Your content has really shaped the designer I am today, and I’ve always admired your work. Take care and looking forward to the new stuff ❤
Good to have you back. Missed you so much.
i’m so so glad to see you here again, thank you for making and posting this video 🫶💓🫂
its so good to see you back 🥲 thank you for sharing and being vulnerable!!
this is so real, thank you for being so open about what you’ve been going through. we are so grateful to have you back ❤️ also please know that you never owe us content, so if it ever gets overwhelming or not fun for you and you need to take a step back again we’ll understand too. that being said, i’m soo excited for what you have planned🫶🏻
thank YOU for coming back home! you’re a huge inspiration for me as a graphic designer, your content has helped me a lot over the years and i know it’ll continue to help 🫂
I'm so glad you're coming back to yt, you are so so strong ❤ Now I'll go on a sprint of rewatching your old videos to celebrate :)
I relate to so much of the things you’ve said, thank you for inspiring artists everywhere!
SO stoked for your return to youtube!!!!! sounds like you’ve been through so so much. really feel for you, it’s never easy dealing with a pet loss. plus the whole slew of other things you dealt with. i’m glad to see things are better now and that you feel ready to be back on youtube! your work is so inspiring and i mentioned in a previous video not too long ago that i frequently rewatch your older stuff for motivation and inspo 🖤 cannot wait to see what you have in store for us!!! 💚💚💚
I am so so sorry about Harry. Saying a prayer for his beautiful soul. Thank you for sharing and being so vulnerable with us Kel.
you put your feelings into words so well which is so comforting to know im not the only one who feels like this
Excited to see this 2.0 chapter in your journey. Not a desginer here, but your long term videos always felt like company.
Your videos single-handedly led me into the world of art direction and design and it makes me so emotional now that you’re back! I’m so happy for you!!
I actually was coming back to your channel all this time for some inspiration! I’m glad you’re back!
CRYING AND THROWING UP IM SO HAPPY UR BACK KEL 😭❣️
Welcome back!
So happy to have you back. RUclips needs you and so do I!! Your work is so inspiring! Glad you’re doing better ♥️♥️♥️
This is a breath of fresh air! I just got recommended your channel and will be following. So so cool.
the way i audibly GASPED!!!! i love you, glad you’re back 💖🌷
i wish you all the best!
I've missed you and your videos so much I've even rewatched them 😭 welcome back 🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻
So glad you’re back!! ❤
hope you doing well, kel! been following you for last three years. sending love to you, you deserve it. looking forward for your new vids!!!
glad to have you back on youtube!!! :)