Understanding Postpartum Psychosis | Rachael Watters | TEDxHieronymusPark
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- Опубликовано: 14 май 2024
- Rachael Watters holds a Doctorate of Physical Therapy. She is
a full time wife and a mom to Micah (7), Adeline (5), Emerson
(3) and Chloe (17 months). She understands the demands
and isolation that being a mother of young children can bring.
Over the last year she has been involved in a storytelling
endeavor entitled MOMedy. This project consisted of writing
and performing a one woman tragic comedy based on her
postpartum experiences. Rachael considers herself to be a
maternal mental health advocate and hopes that sharing her
story and bringing awareness to the realities of perinatal mood
and anxiety disorders can break down the stigma surrounding
maternal mental health and encourage others to seek support
and treatment.
Video Recorded by the Event Crew. Video Edited by Christian Ackerman of FastCoast Productions fastcoastproductions.com and Sound Mixing by Robert Parr of Yellow Seahorse Records yellowseahorserecords.com Rachael Watters holds a Doctorate of Physical Therapy. She is a full time wife and a mom to Micah (7), Adeline (5), Emerson (3) and Chloe (17 months). She understands the demands and isolation that being a mother of young children can bring. Over the last year she has been involved in a storytelling endeavor entitled MOMedy. This project consisted of writing and performing a one woman tragic comedy based on her postpartum experiences. Rachael considers herself to be a maternal mental health advocate and hopes that sharing her story and bringing awareness to the realities of perinatal mood and anxiety disorders can break down the stigma surrounding maternal mental health and encourage others to seek support and treatment. This talk was given at a TEDx event using the TED conference format but independently organized by a local community. Learn more at www.ted.com/tedx
I promise I will be there for my daughter when she has children. My family just stood back, watched me suffer, and gossiped about it because I made my kid and my mental health my first priority instead of them and their drama. I will NEVER allow my daughter to go through what I did. But I am getting help now and I am feeling much better ! & I'm never looking back. Bye-bye postpartum and bye-bye fake family! ☺️
Thata so sad..i was watching this young lady speak about her experience. Maybe u can help her
I’m so glad you feel better. This is devastating. I have grown daughters with children. My second baby girl suffered it. We recognized it right away though and as a family we helped her through. Her husband was a rock. And her sisters, mom, aunties, we were all on their team. Forgive them if you can one day and break the cycle. Change that for the next generation’s wellness.
Absolutely agree ❤️👍🏼
@@Firstthunder
That indeed is part of the true healing and I pray that it will come at one point. It took me a while to forgive, too. But when I finally did, it was a relief.
I needed to hear that , your comment is everything while I’m going through the same situation crying in my car…
My question is why are OBGYNS not educating women about the possibility of these postpartum symptoms? They spend nine months monitoring your baby’s progress, but I never heard about it once during those appointments nor did I hear about it at any follow up appointments after the birth. OBGYNS are usually going to be the first line of defense here. It would be nice if that education were a part of post and prenatal care. Also many women are struggling with mental health issues during pregnancy and that needs to be addressed better too. A Ted talk is nice, but doesn’t look like this has been viewed very often. I hope it helps someone whose either going through it or has a loved one who has experienced this
My thoughts exactly .. I have now barely came to the conclusion on what I went though when I had my daughter .. mind you my daughter is 6 and I never got help
So Midwives are the ones that usually educate on these things OBs don't care.
Cus its rare. Why would a flight attendant scare you about the low possibility of a crashing plane? These professionals want to keep the peace instead of informing you of the reality of the risk. Its also a social taboo and not normalized. They avoid to talk about the hidden shame associated with these types of thoughts.
It's not just this, though. It's many different mental and physical problems mothers have during and after birth. They are a lot of the time completely overlooked.
@@jorel5933It is not rare to have mental health issues during pregnancy and post partum. Women should be being evaluated for mental health conditions throughout the entire pregnancy and postpartum visits.
I found this video after the Lindsay Clancy story came out. It’s heartbreaking. We need to do more as a society for new mothers. There is far too much stigma surrounding these topics.
Do you feel she was experiencing psychosis now after hearing the arraignment today?
Absolutely. Many women suffer in silence. We have to have compassion and empathy when understanding this condition for things to get better.
Part of the problem is the insane and unacceptable cost of medical care. The special hospital which safely houses mothers who have PPP with their newborn is thousands per day. Even if they can afford it, there’s usually not one nearby, and if there is, there usually isn’t room. Moms need more support for the government, society and family. I will do anything and everything for my daughters when and if they decide to have children ❤
So sad people give (perhaps we’ll intended ) opinions and critics with no knowledge at all . And that in all topics
Same
This woman is so brave sharing her story, you could tell it was a struggle to tell her heavy truth. My heart breaks for the pain her mind put her through. I’m pregnant with my first and am so thankful to have the knowledge this exists in case I’m one of the sad few who go through this. And will make sure to check in with every mother in my life in the future. Thank you so much for sharing your story.
I suffered after my first baby. Unlike you, I didn’t know a thing about ppd and ppp.
I was then scared to have another child but when it happened, unexpectedly, I looked for a carrying doctor and a loving team of nurses. Well, he told me to take omega D3 extracted from deep water sardines and anchovies, to help prevent another ppd. I believe it helped a lot. I believe it also helped that this time I had help with breastfeeding and a wonderful delivery, unlike the first time.
My advice to you, take Nordic N omega D3 and make sure you have a doctor that genuinely cares for you, who takes time with his patients. When you go for delivery, if you don’t like how you are treated by the nurse they gave you, please ask for someone else. They are supposed to be patient, knowledgeable and on task but many are not.
As soon as she said her husband was a physician I was so relieved but thought of all the single moms who have these thoughts ALONE! We need to do more to support WOMENS health rights and choices!!! They are the only ones who are affected by those laws.
What’s scary is the recent case, a woman who was a nurse in a labor and delivery ward, who knew about PPP, still just killed all 3 of her children - despite knowing about it and trying to prevent it.
Same
Choose better before you open your legs
@@YABUKIJOE2077 be better
You can see how guilty and ashamed she feels telling this story. I recognize it because I feel the same way when I tell my postpartum psychosis story.
It's been 29 years for me and I cry just thinking about it.
Agreed it’s scary for me to say it aloud to people even years later because they assume I’m insane and going to hurt or wanted to hurt my family- it’s unexplainable unless you have walked through the darkness before
I’m so sorry. Have compassion for yourself. As you do for others, I can tell 💜
This needs to go viral for Lindsay Clancy 🥺 now they're saying she planned it, it's good to hear from someone who has experience it. What a horrible experience to going through!
I had postpartum psychosis for both my pregnancies… They were seven years apart, and there were no signs or symptoms before hand… Anxiety turned to depression, turned to OCD, and then it became full-blown psychosis where I was having made up delusions and creating probabilities and possibilities that just weren’t making sense. I my son was nine months old when I finally was hospitalized for a week to really go over everything and to get me back into some mental help… So much came out of it and it took a long time to get back to what’s considered normal is the hardest route I have been on and don’t wish this on anyone…
I am so thankful that you had the support and help you needed to put you on the road to recovery!
Thank you for sharing your story.
When you said you started to loose touch with reality... it just hit me, you’re telling my story. thank you so much for this
How would I know if I have ppd or ppp?
@@yviquiz i honestly didn’t realize i had it until my son was about 6 months old and i just felt like i couldn’t get myself together and everyday was a struggle. i would say if you don’t feel yourself and you just feel off then i say it’s safe to go ahead and talk to a doctor ❤️ sometimes they won’t prescribe you anything which sometimes makes you feel a lot better about yourself!
@@yviquiz PPD is defined as depression that does not subside after 3 weeks, PPP is a medical emergency where you are no longer in touch with reality, are experiencing thoughts of harming yourself or you baby, experiencing delusions and hallucinations. Please seek help from your providers and be honest about the thoughts and feelings you are having.
Same I’m dealing with this and don’t know what to do and I just had my baby girl and my 3 year old it is so hard
Terrible mother how could you be annoyed with your kid? You should do something permanent about that
I work as an EMT. My first month on the job we had a call for a 6 week old baby boy who was apnic and pulseless because he was strangled by his mother. She had postpartum psychosis and had not taken her medication. This condition is no joke and mothers afflicted by it need intensive psychological treatment and cannot be left alone with their babies for even a moment or they are likely to harm themselves or their baby.
Did the child survive?
@@omobolajialebiosu6114 We got pulses back in the ambulance, but the baby was already brain dead. The family pulled the plug a few days later. The grandmother was an absolute mess and just kept repeating “I knew I shouldn’t left her alone with him” and the grandfather was in complete shock. I can’t even imagine the state the father was in when he got home from work. This was a suburban middle class family with a very nice house in a great neighborhood on a beautiful Saturday morning. You would’ve never thought something like this could occur there. Do not play around with this disease it touches mothers from all backgrounds and makes them capable of horrific things.
@@RickRoss440 I do hope the mother got hose to get fixed and didn’t have any more children. I don’t say to be mean, but such a woman is highly dangerous and, even when medications, can stay dangerous or decide not to take them anymore on a whim and kill again. The fact that she’s not responsible doesn’t change how dangerous she is.
@@thecreativebusiness1316 I suffered from PPP as a first-time mom. Thankfully, I pulled through and didn't harm my child, probably because I committed to take my medication and be honest with my doctors and husband. Are you saying that I should never have another child, that I should be sterilized? Would you say the same for a mother with a history of PPD/A?
I agree, leaving a mother with PPP alone with a child is dangerous. However, there is healing and a family can and should pursue a new normal. Eventually, with proper treatment and medication, I recovered enough from PPP to become a SAHM. We didn't attempt leaving me alone with my baby until I was stable and not experiencing any psychiatric symptoms. I was very consistent with my medication, and still am. There is hope after PPP to become a healthy, happy mom. It's not a life sentence for always being on a supervised visitation status with your child. Not everyone has such a happy result as mine, but there is hope.
My mom had postpartum psychosis. I am listening to your story to get a better understanding of the events that happened when I was a child. Thank you for telling your story, I think it is important to spread awareness.
In sharing my story I have heard this many times. It finally made sense why my mother suffered the way that she did and no one truly knew what she suffered from, they just sent her to an institution because she was "crazy"
I can't imagine how much bravery this took from you to speak about, and I could see it in your eyes . You are a hero, a healer and a protector of all mothers struggling with any form of postpartum psych issues, thank you thank you and thank you for your bravery.
Thank you for your kinds words!
@@rachaelwatters5765 thank you so much for sharing your story…. The general public and our judicial system do not appear to know how real post portal psychosis is …. We need more specialized education and training as well as treatment for postpartum depression that exacerbates into psychosis especially since the stories continue to happen with some having very tragic consequences, such as the deaths of Lindsey Clancy’s children at her hands and her attempted suicide..
Thank you for shedding light on postpartum psychosis. I am also a postpartum psychosis survivor.
Proud of you for fighting for your life. Not easy to get through.
So proud of you 😭
me too
How long did it take for you?
We going through this since may and still not out yet
@@gajdanviktor2774 I'm sorry you're experiencing this. I was in the hospital for 12 days with psychotic symptoms, then after that I dealt with a lot of paranoia off and on for about 6 months. It does get better though. You (or your loved one) will be back to or better than "normal" with treatment and time.
Sleep and proper nutrition/taking a post natal vitamin is so important as well as writing down gratitude for your life and your children’s lives…journeying is very helpful.
Yes my B12 and Iron was very low. B12 is a big factor in mental health disorders and being pregnant really depletes you even more! I had intravenous iron in hospital and B12 in my last trimester. Clearly far to late and the NHS here in the UK need to make women aware of postpartum mental health disorders, and to check nutrient levels much earlier on in pregnancy. Keep taking supplements and iron, vitamin D, B12 etc rich diet post birth. Harder said then done as I already had a 3 year old and worked 4 days a week. I was a knowledgeable on diet and lifestyle, exercise, runner, yoga, meditation etc but it still happened to me because I was unaware of Postpartum Psychosis as condition. Luckily for me, my husband and got help quickly! I hope I can go onto raise awareness and remove the stigma. I’ve already made family, friends and colleagues aware so more people know about it
I had post partum depression with my first son. When I knew what I had, I tried reaching out for support and was either ignored or treated with stigma. Those people have been cut from my family lives. I was sleep deprived (I wouldn't sleep for days), barely ate, and I think that with the lack of help, manifested my post partum depression. It was a really hard 2 years. I tried ending my life, but my husband walked in and stopped me. I had thoughts for months before attempting. What helped me, was therapy, cutting toxic people (friends and blood who would constantly make me feel crazy or not good enough, when I was trying so hard as a first time mom to do everything "right"), destroying my image of what a perfect mother looked like, and having my husband more involved. My husband and I learned with our first child what to do with our second. He took 6 weeks leave to take care of things, our kids, and me. I was able to sleep and eat, which in turn gave me strength to care for my new baby. He was and is really supportive. I don't know what I would have done without my husband.
For me it was definitely sleep deprivation. Sleep deprivation is greatly underrated.
Thank you for sharing. I experienced postpartum psychosis just 5 months ago. Luckily, I had a support system that recognized I wasn’t myself, and I received the treatment I needed.
Hi Hanna,we going through as well at the moment since may.
How is your process and do you take any medication?
Did you have ppd or ppp ? They are very different illnesses. Ppd is very common and ppp is very rare …
My parents where there for my through all my traumas while I was pregnant and after. Everything was extremely traumatizing. All I wanted was to have the energy to be the kind of mom I always wanted to be to my son. One of the best things you can do for a mom is take care of HER. Feed her. Listen to her when she feels something. Make her and her baby feel safe. It’s one of the hardest jobs in the world.
The first months of a baby’s life are not filled with joy for most… it’s a HUGE transitional period for a woman, and transitions are messy and anything but joyful. we women shouldn’t expect perfection or unwavering happiness in this transition. Transitions are filled with mistakes, failures, and emotions of all kinds. I think we mothers put unrealistic expectations on ourselves. I had pretty severe depression after my second pregnancy… lots of dark thoughts concerning my older twins… but when I reframed that time period as a transition, it helped me feel hope that the difficulties wouldn’t last forever. I had support but I wasn’t convinced they truly cared for me so I didn’t share anything for a while. Ask your moms close to you specific questions like the ones this presenter suggested. It’s so hard for a new mom to realize that people care about her and not just her baby.
I remember sobbing around 20 weeks before going to bed begging god to help me, so scared to go to sleep because I didn’t want to go back to the land of nightmares.
I am not a mom, but my whole heart goes out to every person who experiences this. I watched my mom suffer with her mental and physical health without support, and I will forever be impacted by the experience of having a sick mom. I can only say, you deserve support. You deserve compassion. I hear you. Thank you for sharing your story and normalizing conversations about these experiences.
Random question but have you heard about the Lindsay Clancy story in Mass? That’s what landed me here. Trying to understand this complex diagnosis. Just tragic.
You seem like you care for your mom. I think the best you can do for your mom now that you’re older is be a support to her. Becoming a mom is so life changing and we can keep those wounds with us through the rest of our lives. But healing can come from our children forgiving us when treated them poorly when we weren’t at our best and having our children support us by taking off some of the load of what we expect ourselves to do (cleaning, cooking, planning activities and parties, etc)
Amazing talk....my Mom had this...I had postpartum depression...46yrs ago...FINALLY, with your speech, I understand my mother and what happened, also myself...this was VERY healing to me, even at this stage of my life...God bless you...KEEP SPEAKING for all women...a must know...thank you so very much..xo
I am so glad that you were able to heal after all these years. That is a huge reason why I share my story. God bless you as well!
I dealt with this after my second child.. I felt so lost. I don’t have the best recollection of what all happened during that time either. But I do know that I was not the same person. I had never dealt with any mental health problems before this so I didn’t understand why I was thinking and feeling the way I did. My doctor at the time just gave me pill after pill until I was taking 16+ a day. Which ended up making everything so much worse. Thank you for telling your story because someone going through this and seeing this it will probably save someone’s life.
My mom had this really severely when I was born, thank goodness even though my dad had no idea what was going on he took her to get help and was the support system that she needed. I was passed around to stay with relatives while she was there and After several months in a mental hospital and psychosis medication for another 2 to 3 years she was able to overcome it. I’ll be 31 this week and I’ll be honest it’s a big part of why I am really terrified about having kids one day... Unfortunately there’s just not enough research out there on genetics and if this is passed down.
Well, if your mum had it, your chances of getting it is higher. I got a perinatal mental health assessment on Monday. I'm at a much higher risk due to this and other issues with my (currently very stable) bipolar disorder as well as a traumatic abusive upbringing. They assured me I should still have a baby if I want, because I'll get put in a psychiatric mother and baby unit as long as I need it and they'll check in on me constantly until my baby turns 1. They won't adjust my meds as an unhealthy mum could cause stress on the baby, but then I'm not allowed to breastfeed.
So... I'm going to go for it. I'm on the system now and I feel supported. I love the NHS.
I understand your hesitancy toward having children, but if you do decide to have a biological child let your practitioner know during your pregnancy that you are at risk for a perinatal mood disorder because of your genetics. Unfortunately the medical profession is not always as knowledgeable on this subject as I would like. Things are changing, but we still have a long way to go. You will have to be your own advocate.
Not a mental health professional, not a mother, just a curious person about what a mother may go through, it was very eye opening, social media has given us the idea of a perfect pregnancy and early motherhood, like it’s all joy, but it’s important to talk about perinatal mood disorders and break the stigma surrounding it, considering PPD is also very common
Sending lots of love and support to anyone that might be experiencing something similar❤️
Liz, thank you for your interest and kind words, they mean so much!
This needs to be more seriously considered, for the mother and father and children.
What she is saying is true. Women must have people around them to recognize the symptoms. Unlike Andrea Yates husband. And we can't be ashamed for seeking help
They took my baby when i went for help. Even though i already had her in the care of my husbands mother. They listed me thinking i was a profit as one of the reasons for taking my baby but altimately wrote i was going to cause imminent harm to my baby!!!
Andrea Yates had a very potent combination of both Postpartum Depression and Postpartum Psychosis.
@@420bottles I am SO VERY SORRY. This is heartbreaking.
Nobody wanted to talk about this when I went through it….i was so alone and i ended up losing my child to family…. Who in turn did everything in their power to never let me get him back…. He is 20 now and he is a messed up human …. I begged for help and nobody ever did….. i hope nobody ever has to experience this without help and all alone…. I’m still not over the trauma of the whole situation
I struggled with severe post partum depression after my first baby. Slightly less so with my second, as it was during Covid lockdowns and my husband was working from home. Now his employer offers a wonderful, very necessary paternity leave. Having my husband here while in the newborn phase of our third child is helping more than I dare to believe. With the pressures of two other kids and the new born, I worry daily that I would not be making it.
I hope more employers will recognize that paternity leave is also crucial to helping mothers.
In Germany they give 9 months leave for BOTH parents.
America has made ZERO advancements since Oprah Winfrey did a show the year my son was born, 1986, about postpartum psychosis where a woman threw her baby off a bridge.
We were stationed in West Germany at the time. ALL women in the hospitals in 1986 Germany were given education and evaluation, AND free healthcare support for it.
my wife has postpartum psychosis right now and its a tough time but I know it get better
It is a really challenging and scary time for the mother experiencing psychosis, but also for the family and support system walking them through this journey. My thoughts and prayers are with you! It will get better with the correct treatment and support. Postpartum Support International has resources for fathers, those may be beneficial for you as well.
I really admire such husbands like YOU, real men who don't run away the moment problem appears and that is a real CHALLENGE I wish you and send a lot of patience and strength (her reality what she sees what she perceives its a little different right now the disease plays its role ...it will be better for SURE
As a new postpartum doula- thank you for sharing !!
Thank you so much for sharing this!
I’m not a mother yet but I did deal with disturbing thoughts, anxiety, depression, at a time. I’ve been much better and feel healed. Taking the right actions in my life from health, mental, and emotional wellness. But as I get older and want children I’m afraid of experiencing this but at the same time watching this gives me hope that it is curable!
Thank you so much for sharing this
Thank you for sharing your story, I had a lot of the same symptoms as you! So sorry for every woman who has suffered with this disorder. I have with all 3 of my children. Never stop fighting for your happiness. Don't judge yourself and get all the help you need ❤️
Not sure if she reads these but thank you so much for being vulnerable in such a hard topic, especially when it's obviously challenging for you to still talk about 💕
My prayers with the Duxbury family, the husband and esp his wife. I hope she gets help, I hope she and everyone can find forgiveness in this tragedy and she can move on to help others and help children affected as well……some how…. Thanks for this talk very insightful.
I came here because of that story also. The fact that she was a nurse in a labor and delivery ward and knew better than anyone to look out for this, and it STILL happened, it shows how serious and insidious this is.
So sorry for anyone that has gone through this and hope everyone has gotten the help they need. I cannot imagine what it is like to go through postpartum psychosis. I have always had anxiety and that increased exponentially postpartum but only in the sense that I wanted my child protected and safe at all times. I can't imagine harming my baby in any way. I cannot comprehend this at all.
You are very brave Rachel. I can't imagine what you went through. I suffered from postpartum anxiety, and lived some of the hardest months of my life after my baby was born. I felt guilty, stigmatized, and alone. Thank you.
Important topic! Thank you for sharing your story. ❤
Post partum psychosis was my biggest fear. I had full blown eclampsia and HELLP and I still feel like the lucky one. This mental illness is so unfair and so misunderstood. Terrifying to have, I imagine
So very true it presents differently for everyone but the pain of hiding and being aware of the disconnect between you and everything around you… is terrifying ❤😢
Thank you for sharing. It means more than you know.
God Bless you!! I’m so sorry that you went through this trauma. Thank you for talking about it publicly. I’m so glad you are okay 💜💜💜
I loved your presentation! I appreciate you being able to go out of your comfort zone to help others! That is so courageous!
It's a key to realize that everything in our head been produced by each person's consciousness and even thinking with inner voice- that's consciousness, but You are a Person who controls the power of Attention.
Amazing women to share her story so bravely, and to help raise awareness and reduce stigma. We need to take care of our mothers so they can be well and supported. I had PP last August and so thankful to hear stories like this, to know you are not alone in this experience and to be stronger together. Check in on your family and friends who have had babies. They need help and someone to talk to. Make it easier for them by just being there, helping them clean, bring food, taking care of older siblings, give them support in anyway. We need a village and we have lost sight of this in our modern lifestyles. Parents to be need a community and guidance before they have children. Talk to your neighbours, colleagues. You’ll be surprised how many people struggle or go through the same challenges as you. We can all support each other much more! ❤
you are saving lives by sharing your story. thank you!
It’s horrible to experience. But you can get through it and always remember it lasts for 3-6 months to a year. It’s only temporary!
facts. But in that 3 months....it is the twilight zone that no one truly understands
Thank you for this video.
Having a small child is a miracle, women don't enough credit for taking care and giving birth to children what a gynormous event ...women need much more care and safety following a birth. and when a woman has more than one child they need help caring for those children and they need to have time for themselves and excercise. Her body is deprived of nutritents she needs a fullfilling diet but also mental health care , not all women have mommy freinds or even single freinds who can come over to care for the child with them just to talk. Having a talk with freinds that have baby is so vital . Giving birth to a child and caring for one aftewards is probably one of the most stressful things you can do in life. As amazing as it can be its so full of anxiety and is super draining. For mothers who feel trapped or coerced to have a baby from a partner or spouse, its a recipe for disaster. Also if she is not excercsing and has a healthy diet, it could be so so depressing. Excercise brings your spirit up and raises your conciousness. It seems that this woman on stage didn't want to have so many kids and many women who are passive find it hard to communicate those feelings they get swept up in the mans idea of what life he wants and he forgets to check in with her to see how shes feeling, he was running with his wife getting her to excercise he knew what having so many children back to back would do to her he knew.
I absolutely wanted each one of my children!!!!! What I didn't expect was to experience psychosis twice! I know that there are women who end up with unplanned pregnancies, and that can be such a difficult situation in which to find yourself.
Where did you get the idea that she didn’t want so many children? That was a wild conclusion to jump to you’re practically creating your own story
My god I wish I’d seen this years ago when I had my first child
deeply felt and bravery.
Thank you for sharing your story ♡
Thank you for your bravery in sharing your story. ❤
thank you so much❤️
Prayers duxbury mom
Post partum psychosis survivor here. This is similar to my story.
Thank you so much for creating awareness re: PPP!! I also survived this condition. Unfortunately, 12 years when I went thru PPP, there was not much info on the subject and it was terrfying thinking of the possibility of remaining this way!
How long was for you to fully recover?
Hi Gagdan! It took me 1 year and a month to fully recover.
Thanks for reply,we discovered in may and she just found the right medication
@@gajdanviktor2774 You are not alone! This living Nightmare will subside! Getting the right meds was crucial to me! Doctors changed meds for me 2×. The last one I took is called Abilify. Eight months into this illness, the Dr changed both my anti depressant and antipsychotic meds and switched me to Abilify. A month into it, I started feeling better as my energy level increased. Love and light to you and your family🌸🌸
Fortunately for her she had a husband who understood and supported her. Most women are not that blessed.
agreed.
Watching this right after listening to the state’s argument about indicting Linsey Clancy on first degree murder charges. They provided a lot of “evidence” of her lucidity and organized thinking, but it will be interesting to hear what her mental health professionals have to say about her case.
TY for your courage so brave. TY
Thank you for sharing your story ❤️
Thank you for sharing your story💓💓
I too experienced postpartum psychosis. Thank you for sharing your story. 🤍
Thank you Ayana. I hope that you continue to heal and provide hope to others as well.
I’m going threw it now do you get out of it it’s so scary
@@lameshajoyner Hi love I would suggest visiting a mental health facility or getting some mental health outpatient services as soon as possible!
I will keep you in my prayers!
@@AyanaAjomi thank you
@@lameshajoyner please don’t go through this alone ! And remember that so many have been through it and come out again ! But you definitely need to reach out for help so you can come out of this 💯 much love to you ! I hope you get better soon and find more peace ❤️❤️
Thank you for being 'the voice' for so many women
Just happened in Massachusetts. God Bless.
I remember my first child 19 years ago. I literally felt like I had been run over by a truck both physically and emotionally. I had insomnia and anxiety.
I just weeped listening to this. So similar to what i felt from the time my daughter was 3 months to 10 months old. Severely, dangerously angry at nighttime…i would think about killing her or myself to put us out of the misery i was putting her and our family through. It was genuinely horrific. I still feel so much guilt for my anger, the abuse i put her through. Screaming at my infant for what she could not control 😢
I felt guilt for what I had exposed my daughter to as well; but through counseling, sharing my story and seeing how many people that I have helped because of what I have been through has allowed me to begin to forgive myself. I hope the same can be true for you.
I had it! Thanks for sharing
I had this after my first son was born. It was a very long and traumatic birth which we both almost didn’t survive. My husband dropped me off the day we were discharged and went to work. I was all alone with no help. I was diagnosed with PPD after 3 mos and the meds didn’t work. It just got worse and worse. When my son was 5 months old I started having auditory hallucinations. I was also so sleep deprived and honestly, I might as well have been single my husband either couldn’t or wouldn’t help. I tried telling my psychologist some of the thoughts I was having and he brushed it off. I never spoke of it again. I truly suffered in silence for about a year. I had horrible thoughts of harming my son but I would hurt myself instead. One time when I was alone with my son and he was finally sleeping I got in the shower. I started punching myself, very hard, slamming my head against the wall and the the screaming came. It was a primal guttural wailing I didn’t know a human was capable of. 10 mins later the police were at my door, a neighbor had called and they thought it was a domestic situation. They came in and seamed everything ok and left. I have never told anyone about all of this, not even my husband. The good news is it did go away and I had 2 more boys and even adopted another! Thank you for sharing your story.
You poor woman. I’m so sorry. You are a true survivor. 💚💜💙
Doesn’t it feel good to talk about it? I’ve only spoken to one person about it and it’s not enough. I’m too ashamed to tell it story
@@salma_Nella22 yes! There are so many things I’ve never been able to share and I still feel so much shame and guilt. I’m helping my niece with her newborn and going over 5 days a week for 4-5 hours. She already has bipolar and was off some of her meds during her pregnancy. This is a good thing that came from my experience. It’s healing to be able to help. She thanks me so much and I tell her it helps me as much as you.
I am so very proud of you for being so vulnerable.
@@salma_Nella22 You need to tell it. Shame keeps us small. You can not heal if you don't address this wound. Do you know Brenee Brown? She's written a lot of books and has Ted talks and interviews on shame. You should read her book I Thought it Was Just Me (But It Isn't). I have a feeling it could really help you understand what shame actually is and how to work with it.
importent information ,that this lady is giving
I was miserable my whole pregnancy and my birthing experience was a nightmare. I can't relate to someone who says child birth is beautiful because my experience was so traumatic.
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I went through postpartum psychosis in august first symptom was I felt really off and not myself after birth. Second was mania not being able to sleep and arguing with the nurses at the hospital. Third was and overwhelming feeling of being on top of the world being able to conquer anything being overly confident and able to stand up for myself. Fourth was extreme confusion and being lost. I started experiencing multiple personalities I could feel myself changing to someone else consistently. I started experiencing delusions and hallucinations. I would hear whispers and voices and visually the voices would show me what they wanted me to do to my daughter. My daughters smile would stretch and she started to look like a demon. After she fell asleep one night it was at its worst for me and I ran to the bathroom and locked myself in. I called my husband and told him what was going on. He came home and I told him I am not staying here I need to go I am not safe around our daughter. Either you lock me up or I will. My husband drove me to the ER that night after realizing that I was serious. The dr said I was experiencing symptoms on schizophrenia and multiple personality disorder. I was in there for a week. After getting out I spoke with a therapist and psychiatrist and my psychiatrist said I have bipolar disorder. I am so much better now and I’m glad I went
I believe pregnancy induced psychosis can happen during the pregnancy itself before any event of labor.
Both my mom and I had experienced this.
Great message
You are an icon ♥️
The book "30 Days to Reduce Depression" by Harper Daniels was also a huge help.
The statistic that 1 in 7 mothers experience depression and/or anxiety in the first year after giving birth is probably way higher because I'm assuming that they are relying on self diagnosis/mom admitting to having it. I'm sure some say they don't have it to avoid the stigma and mom shaming.
I needed this thank you. I am suffering on my own an fighting to beat it.
Praying for you
Please do anything you can to get help and not do this alone.
Please seek support from professuonals if you can - check the post partum international wrbsite she mentions? It needs treated and you don't need to feel shame, just treatment and understanding 💝
Here to support Lindsay
The repercussions of what happens if a mother speaks of the dark thoughts she is having keeps them in danger
My partner and his family abandoned me and threatened to take my daughter. I ended up leaving with her and moving back in with my parents and seeing a good psychiatrist.
My daughter is serving a prison sentence of 13 years, we didn’t know the symptoms of this killer. We need laws to protect moms when they find themselves in this situation.
There should also be Postpartum mental health screenings for mothers.
Lisa Figueroa so very sorry this is so cruel😪😪😪
I'm so sorry
I am so sorry to hear about your daughter Lisa💖
@@harmony1910 thank you, it’s almost 4 years since we lost our 5 month old grandson it still hurts, my daughter had no idea we had no idea. We need laws similar to the infanticide act of 1936(?) in the UK... I doubt that would ever happen though
In India there is no awareness about it.. we did not even know that this thing exist.. really heartbroken 💔
I think it was harder for me to understand that's what I was going through because of my past trauma because I'm an active recovery and I was already losing touch with reality before I had the baby so I just got used to that part of me now I'm realizing this is serious and the TV does not have messages for me..
ive experienced the same. it was acute stress. the most profound was tasting glutamate in my gut.
and the hallucinations and voices and wanting to kill the suppose culprit.
it comes and it goes. and coffee triggers it.
I thought I was the only one I went through exactly the same ☹️ it was awful I came out of it some how but now after another baby I am going through depression again I feel crazy once more 😔💔
You are not alone, I experienced psychosis with a subsequent pregnancy as well. You are strong and you will get through this with the right support. Please connect with Postpartum Support International.
Women need to be monitored after birth. The Dr. Office I went to did a check up after 6weeks. Had me bring my baby in at that appointment as well. And while waiting they had a series of questions to answer regarding my mental health and how I was feeling. I wonder if this is standard with OBG/YNs
This. Is. SOOOO scary!
I am struggling and need help,.my toxic family got rid of any help I could get for no reason but to isolate me, I just had a c section and they isolated me to where I have no one to help me with my newborn or toddler forcing me to lift and never sleep which is breaking me down, I need help and I need help with my toddler while I get help, what can I do or go?
@Sara G, I’m just reading this…did you ever get help?
Sara G I really hope you found help! And I hope you ok!
Husbands are left in the dark about this and should be trained more to recognize these symptoms. I lost my 2.5 year old and 5 year old along with my wife. Knowing this I could have acted and saved their lives in confidence.
I'm so sorry for your loss
I read a story about Lindsey Clancy and now google/RUclips needs to recommend to me a video that explains why she did this. Creepy. She wasn’t insane enough to efficiently kill herself though. She was able to strangle three innocent children to death, one of whom was only 8 months old. But she couldn’t successfully kill herself. She is admitted to the hospital and then doesn’t ask about her kids but instead asks if she’ll need an attorney.
Unfortunately in ‘merica we still have so much stigmatization and condemnation of mental health issues. We also still have so much ingrained, systemic male on female misogynistic social constructs… and female misogyny is also still incredibly prevalent. There’s too many incidences of women not helping, supporting, and uplifting fellow women and judging, criticizing, putting down other women instead. Unfortunately, until this country catches up with the rest of the modern world and breaks down a multitude of socioeconomic systems/ paradigms, women are not going to feel safe enough and supported enough to seek help for PPD, PPP, or even GAD, OCD, MDD, ect ect ect… because we still have too many incidences of women having their children taken away and never returned, shunned by their communities for having mental illness/ disabilities (“oh she’s just crazy and don’t talk to/ help her!” - “she should’ve thought about that before she opened her legs!” - “oh well, you’re a mother now so it’s not about you anymore!” - “you’re being selfish!” - “ how dare you put your baby second to be doing something for yourself!” - “you have to put that baby first and stop worrying about only yourself!” - “she’s just looking for attention!” - “Oh boohoo grow up!” -“get over yourself!” - “grow up already, nobody forced you to decide to get knocked up!”) On and on and on… So of course women fear the repercussions of seeking help in general and especially about pregnancy/ motherhood issues because the repercussions are VERY real, and that’s usually that you’re child(ren) will be taken away from you and placed into the foster care system and you’ll never see them again and subsequently be shunned by your community, as I previously stated... I’ve seen it many, many times happen to the best woman and mothers. It’s very sad, traumatizing, horrific, disturbing, and disparaging. We are SO far behind as a society, a country, and in fact, the most recent reality is that this nation has taken steps backwards in women’s reproductive health and thusly women’s rights in general. And our court systems and social programs (like the joke which is social services for example) are NOT at all in the favor of marginalized peoples, like women (especially single mothers who are are still looked down upon even in the 21st century), and even more especially those women/ mothers who have any disabilities, illnesses, and definitely mental illnesses and are only accepting of (and supportive of) women who display the unrealistic, idealistic, perfect epitome of a saintly stepford wife/ mother… the ones who are probably doing alright and already have amazing support systems with loving, caring families. If you are predisposed to mental illness then chances are you don’t have any support system or caring family because they failed you first and fostered your predisposition through childhood traumatizations. Although this video spreads a lot of awareness, unfortunately it’s falling on deaf ears, that is, the majority of the population who are unphased, unconcerned, and unwilling to be understanding and educated of others and need this education the most.
I don't have children but knowing what I know now it is so crazy to me that the burden of caring for a newborn baby is mostly if not entirely on the mom. If you think about it who is the person who has just gone through a tremendous amount physically and whose hormones and brain chemistry are all over the place? That would not be the person whom I would expect is in the best shape to take immediate charge of childcare...Sure you need to breastfeed but ideally dad, grandma, grandpa, hired help should be doing the heavy lifting for a while and taking care of baby and mom until she's fully healed physically and emotionally.
My mother started to strangle me when I was about 2 years old.
She might have had postpartum psychotic depression. One of my brothers had just been born then.
She was very abusive to me growing up, and always had it in for me, uniquely among her children. This never ended, although she denied it and minimized it and buried it.
She didn't want to be married to my father. I was the first-born, and having a baby was the nails holding down her coffin lid.
This video has no context for the woman having wanted to kill her children. She talks of it as just a symptom of her disease. And maybe for her, that's true.
But for my mother, there was huge and real hate behind it.
I’ve shared with so many and no one cares. It’s been wild.
Omg poor lady
Do patients need to be on meds consistently for a long while? Or once they recover that’s it?
The family in Duxbury, MA was trying to do everything right. The father was even working from home to keep watch over the kids and the wife. But he left to pick up food and she took that 10 minutes to kill all 3 children.
Respectfully disagree, after reading comments how she was seeking in patient care etc, those kids never ever should have been left alone with her. Family grandparents friends even neighbors coworkers ????? My god, if all the signs were there, keep the kids in a safe place. You can’t trust what they say “ I’m fine, it’s ok”
Watch out for yourselves and each other!! 😢
It’s all bs, that “mother” planned it all…
Can you please share what treatment plan. I have a cousin who is in need. She electrocuted herself after birth. %80 percent of body burned. Las Vegas no one thinks is real I need help