TCAV TV: Beating Withdrawals - Story 73
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- Опубликовано: 2 июн 2024
- The path from jail, to United States Navy SEAL, back to jail, kicked out of the United States Military, to joining the French Foreign Legion.
The wise learn from the mistakes of others. Listen and understand so you don't have to learn the hard way.
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Been there too brother. I am a Marine (discharged). And my head was in a bad place. They prescribed me pain killers and that turned to heroin. Been clean for 14 years now. My wife and kids never seen my anything other than sober. Now I am a therapist and help other vets primarily.
I have a friend's son calling to me today, he wants me to help him get into the military, anyhow; the kid is already a heroin addict other than what Taylor has said have you any advice for me to try and sort this guy out.
Ditto ( Army ) had 13 years yesterday
Thank you for giving back to veterans ❤
Semper Fidelis Brother. I also got hooked after an injury in 2003 while deployed. Lost everything. Wife kids friends job......been sober since 2007...keep on keeping on.
@@j.jwhitty5861 I quit opioids and other drugs to enlist. He has to be sick of it. Sick of the people, sick of himself, and sick of the trajectory his life has taken. The old adage you can lead a horse to water, but can't make them drink applies. I did what Taylor did here minus the emergency room, I had sleep meds on hand to help. You can use high dose loperamide(immodium) to help dampen the physical symptoms a bit. It is an opioid that does not bind to the receptors in the brain, just the gut.
I kicked 3 different drugs at the same time in County jail.. H, xanax, & coke.. kicked for two weeks straight and didn’t sleep the entire time.. kicking in the comfort of a hospital bed is excruciating but this was another level.. I remember wishing I was dead instead of enduring that suffering.. I still have nightmares about it all the time.. then I’ll wake up panting and thanking god it was just a dream.. looking back though it was the only way I was gunna stop because jail forced me too.. I have nothing but gratitude for my life, what I’ve been through and who I am today..
Best advice ever is "change your location" . This is platinum level advice. The reason is because the brain is forced to lay down or forge new neuro pathways . It doesn't have the quick option to relapse by simply following that addiction pathway in your brain. It's got no map, no contacts , nothing familiar to accomplish that high it seeks. Change of location is a "check mate". The old map is no good, so it becomes a blank slate , a new canvas to paint a new portrait of you. Proceed with caution, establish new contacts and comforts carefully. A new clean canvas is as much an opportunity to paint a wonderful new portrait as it is to paint something worse. Still, it's the way to go for real shot at a new life. Thank you Tcav, you are doing the Lord's work. You're a real one, you're a hero and good brother to all your brothers out there. Life sucks, but having leaders like you makes it better. Thank you again sir, ..permission to go ashore!
I appreciate that brother🤙🏼
This is the truth and what I’v always said! My heroin addiction led me to force my self to move to the other side of the country and it worked. It sucked and was depressing for a bit but I got myself back.
You've got to get to a safe place, around people you can trust hopefully. God it sux. Never again.
@@ericaddis7414 a support system of good people with no ulterior motives is indeed as important. Relapse happens because the healthy connection we need is not there(not blameshifting, just highlighting a missing piece).
Always remember this brothers.." the opposite of addiction is NOT SOBRIETY...IT' IS CONNECTION TO PEOPLE, ACCEPTANCE, COMMUNITY, COMPANIONSHIP. "
That high we feel and chase is nothing more than a quick concentrated dose of the SAME feel good chemicals we get when we are a part of a group of good people!!!
Drugs are a supplement to what's missing in our lives.
Keep pushing brothers..you are not alone, many are hurting along side you..help replace what's missing out there by having gratitude and love and willingness to help others...lift others first and you will be lifted! Tcav emphasized this as well! ...huge huge service to humanity by Tcav making this video and so many adding in on this thread. God bless you guys! Stay in the fight! We are the just cause and the motivation to win!
@@tcavofficial it's an honor to highlight this sir. If the minds of men are like gardens..you have enriched the soil , planted seeds, pulled weeds, poured water where needed, and helped the overall eventual harvest of good fruit to grow much bigger. A job well done on a harvest you won't really see for yourself...that's love brother..for that I am thankful....only one will see this harvest.. the owner of the farm and His Son, and many will rejoice at the banquet because of your work and the work of others like you. Keep working brother. The harvest is coming.
1 week to get over the physiological addiction
1 month to get over the physical addiction
1 lifetime to get over the spiritual addiction
Six weeks off methadone from a fetty habbit of two years just now feeling normal your videos are an inspiration
Only we know..how precious life is to be walking and talking. Thank you.....make sure the devil has a bad day
LOVE THAT
I love this.....and I am going to start living this everyday. Thanks! It is funny how one little thing like this might change someones life.
One week sober for me. Alcohol is a mean bitch and I needed to hear this! Thanks man
Right there with you man. Working on my 3rd day.
I will pray for youl, Matthew!! Peace be with you.. xo
I'm glad you backed away from the precipice. You have a lot to teach people.
I appreciate that
Brother I know that feeling very well.I was a heavy opiate addict for many years.Got hooked like most, Oxy for injuries.I drove 1100 miles to a secluded home in the woods.First 4 days not a wink of sleep,Sheets soaked,shaking couldn't eat,etc..I thought I was going to die in that place,and in a way,I made peace with that thinking I earned every second of agony I felt.It was a month of HELL.10 years sober this past May..Love your content.Its gotten me off my ass and in the Gym.
👊🏼 If you're in the gym now let's shift gears brother and really elevate. Email me: tcavofficial@gmail.com
Ive been off dope (H) for several months now. Its so freeing. I feel so accomplished.
real H died in the 90s--early 00's, you were probably dropping fent unless your source was mega legit, you probably saved your life without knowing it bro
@@ChristopherGray00 most of what I was getting was fent but I did have one guy who had real H. I know this because I drop twice a month for the methadone clinic.and after doing his stuff I would be positive for dimorphene (H). And while some may say that methadone is just another addiction - all I know is that I have been able to hold down a job and an apartment.
Also I don't know if TCav remembers but if you go a few months back you will see me posting on every video asking for advice on how to get sober. These videos definitely gave me the strength to not be a baby about stuff and just deal with the punches right then and there as they come.
Can I ask how you did it? And congrats man… amazing!!
I feel so trapped right now with opiates. Need off them and have no idea how to do it. 😢
@@angelagreen1266 one thing i would say is talk to your doctor and see if you can get on a suboxone or methadone taper, i did it cold turkey but that's really unnessecary brutality if you can get access to one of those two.
if that doesn't work, your second option, depending on your local jursidiction it may be legal to buy, which is kratom, long story short it's an opioid plant but it's a lot more mild and in terms of OD potential is essentially impossible (if you go overboard you'll get sick though, don't try that), that will help mitigate withdrawals and you can easily scale out your doses and cut each 7 days or so by 0.5g.
I have so much respect for you, Taylor! You've been there, and you know what it's like. Thank you for being vulnerable in order to help others who are experiencing the hell that you went through to get clean and start to really live your best life!
We gotta get real to get real results👊🏼
Thank you for giving us your story, I'm an addict who still struggles. Just thank you
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Great story Tyler! Some see addiction as a lifelong disease but you are living proof that it isn’t the case.
This is such a great video for those struggling. Your advice is spot on and honestly works, I lived it too. Been addicted twice and both times relocating helped me defeat my habit. When you have a dealer living 10 mins away, on a phone number you memorized because you tried blocking it and that won’t work. You try taking off work, and toughing it out. Or go camping for a week. Well, when you come home you will be that close all over again, and giving in is always easier than sticking it out. FORCING yourself by relocating, even temporarily (6 months to a year) can do wonders. You have no contacts, no way back to the source, and you have no choice but to go for it. This alleviates so much of the mental temptations and makes it easier to go through, at least in my experience. Thanks for your video bro you’re the man
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Drugs and alcohol absolutely 💯 suck the soul from us and I would commend anyone who's choosing the path on Recovery. I live, eat, sleep Recovery, I have to otherwise I will use again. Thanks TCav for the pointers bro!
totally just changed my location and kicked, bro being uncomfortable for a week or two is worth the work and you know it! ty brother for the support i appreciate you dog!!
Fantastic!
Glad u made it out.
Cav dances with the Devil!!! Outstanding Cav, by far the best yet of real world shit!! Deep Dark and how to get out!!! Let’s roll Cav!!
Airborne All The Way!
LETS RIDE‼️👊🏼
Thank You Cav nobody tells it like it is, your are Fucking Seal, A Legionnaire , and a wise man. Thank you for being there for us!!!
Airborne All The Way!! Let’s fucking roll Cav!!!
When you said high vibration = help people if you can. This is true. I was feeling terrible recently but have been trying to give some meals to homeless people and give water and food to the stray dogs around me, and what do you know , some thing started to improve, not just in my own mental state but also I noticed that strangely enough, I was receiving more kindness from people. 💯 agree
You should speak more on this. There's no shortage of people who need to hear that there IS a a way out and it CAN be beaten. The hopelessness that addicts face every day is overwhelming and to see someone who has beaten it and not looked back is like hope to them. Most addicts only see other addicts and the like so they spiral downward but hearing from someone who cut all that loose and moved on really sticks with them. You may never know how many people you've helped but I bet you'll be blessed for it. Karma works both ways.
Appreciate that brother👊🏼
Damn brother, this brought me back to a place I will NEVER be again, as we discussed!!! Tne “crawling out of your skin” symptom is something I wouldn’t wish on my worst enemy
My MAN‼️🫵🏻👊🏼🏴
Clean shaven 👍 on a more serious note, I can totally relate. Solid video. 🇺🇸
Right on!
There's only one way out of this, and that's to make a complete change in your life. You need to have the determination to improve yourself, become stronger, and take charge of your life. Get rid of all your drug-dealing contacts and stop hanging out with friends who are addicts. That last part should be easy, considering how dangerous fentanyl is these days!
As a opiate addict in recovery, since 2016 i relate to everything you've said. Your an inspiration. Keep those video's coming😊
I thought I was hallucinating listening to this video, kept checking behind me for the little kids laughing in the background, really trippy lol
Excellent video 💥 Opiates are the worst ever to withdrawal from. Been there. Insomnia is the worst 😆 I thank you Taylor for that reminder. You are an inspiration. Stay smart ☘️
Congratulations on 5 years.
May 30th was 2 years clean of opiates.
So many of us have had this struggle.
Personally i dont like the "its an illness or disease" angle because I feel like its makin excuses. I did it cause it felt amazing.
Once i got so fed up i was in a full on rage and disgust at myself for allowing myself into that position, thats when I was able to stop and mentally tough it out
Prayers to all still in the fight
Karmic debt!
You nailed it!
U got to feel good n high so long, u gotta pay that karmic debt n go through the crappy feeling to balance out
Straight up bro
Coming off in jail is the Absolute worst. Noone to come bail you out. Sitting, skin crawling and the time drags. I would rather have been torturted physically than to go through that hell again. It didn't kill me but man i felt worse than death.
🌄 Morning coffee ☕️ and story 73. Very serious content. I have been lucky not to have addictions in my life. I hope this story reaches out to others that do. I cannot even imagine the symptoms. Thanks for talking about this serious health risk. Stay safe.
Good morning!
T I got 20 years clean and sober July 4 was the last time I picked up a alcohol before that went to the penitentiary in 96 over drugs and booze and just out of my mind going crazy off the dope coke and booze for 9 1/2 years got out clean in 2004 picked up a beer and started drinking again hit the legion fucked that up kept on a tear that July 4 my last. Drink detoxed and never looked back withdraws sucks one reason I will not pick drugs or booze up not letting some asshole make money off my misery and life has been great every year my mental state and physical health gets better and better its a battle not from wanting to use but too get my growth and getting on point .thanks for your honesty that takes alot T keep going strong dog another for real delivery thanks
WE ON IT BRO‼️👊🏼🏴
Im 5 years this month, too. I still say I'm not over it. I still miss the escape... but I'm a much happier man. I feel like a real fuckin man now
I had a zoom call with Taylor, was not disappointed. No bullshit.
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Mr. Cavanaugh, your buddy Jimmy Watson released an important video where he spoke out against the attacks currently taking place against high-profile veterans of special forces. Might be something for you to consider speaking on, too. There's a lot of interest in that stuff right now, and I think it's a message the pro-military community really needs to hear. A passionate video from you about it would have (at least) a decent chance of going viral, I'm sure.
Either way, this was another great talk and we appreciate all that you do! 🙏 🇺🇸
I appreciate it, i stay out of all the cross talk and i only stay focused on my message. I always appreciate your support Yeaenia👊🏼
Thank you for the reply Taylor! But I need to clarify: Jimmy was NOT causing drama or crosstalking! He was encouraging veterans and pro-military people to SUPPORT one another and to STOP crosstalking! But I appreciate that you're focused on your mission, because you're obviously doing a world of good (just based on the comments from this video alone). All love! ❤️ 🇺🇸
Went through this, a short jail stay was all I needed after a decade of pain pill addiction. Was always scared to quit because of the withdrawals. Nothing like being in a holding tank for the first 3 days with 5 other dudes in 150 square ft. It was actual hell…. Nothing short of hell. Not a single aspirin, anti diarrhea, nothing…. Just 2 inches of foam. I’m 5 almost 6 months free and never thought it was possible… with the grace of god that all in my rear view for good.
Bro I wasted 5 years of my 20's being a junkie addicted to opiates. Now at 33 I'm well into my growth as a new me, I've been clean for over 7 years healthy and jacked with a 6pack. Bro tcav you have been a huge motivator for me in more ways than this, I wish I could sit down and talk with you about how you've helped me.
Email me lets setup a video consultation call: tcavofficial@gmail.com
Much Love and Respect!!!! Im also an addict in recovery and life really kicked me in the teeth this past mnth and ya videos have been an inspiration to me and a huge help with getting back up. Thank God no relapse but a knock down just the same. Ty for having the balls to be so transparent and delivering a message ppl like myself need to hear!!! Godbless bro!!
You got this!
Wow thats the first time someones explained exactly what I've been through with regards to withdrawal. And it's advice from obviously real experience which I will listen to. Thankyou Sir and much respect.
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Great advice. Thank you! 😊
I needed this. Thank you brotha
Got u bro👊🏼
People that haven't been thru withdraws have NO idea how bad it is and what you are willing to do to make that feeling go away. I had some dark thoughts back then.
Man, I felt this story... been there, worst thing I've been threw.
Got news for the drug free drinking types like me. Choosing not to was amazing especially getting rid of cigarettes a year afterwards. Then the inflammation began. I could barely get up at 4AM to go to work a 12-14 hr easy day on my 6-7 day workweek. You realize part of the reason you boozed was to kill your inflammation and joint pain. Once I realized a Fck ton of it was nutrition I began to use my booze $$ I used to spend at the bar on certain supplements. Keeping what worked getting rid of what didn’t. Pretty soon the body that “Wanted” to repair began to. Because it realized I wasn’t trying to prevent the process anymore. Then after retiring I got back into the gym. Haven’t missed days other than 4 injuries from skipping brain day lifting wrong or too heavy. But at 59 I’m in better shape with more mass than I was at 25-35. The gym is the answer for raising energy levels and getting into a business friendly attitude that is change friendly. Tx for sharing T/Cav. Glad you pushed through it. Keep writing things down and focusing on future not past. Enabling you to stay in your present frame not your past. You should seriously consider starting a one or two week retreat camp for guys who want to improve lifting techniques and nutrition intake and attitude improvement somewhere it’s sunny AF like the keys so guys like me in New England can plan a winter vacation but still lift and get the necessary Vitamin D we lack up here. The good weather just happened here 2 days ago. Spring this year has been pretty limp. You can market yourself as the John Anthony West of bodybuilding retreats like he used to with trips to the pyramids. Get Goggins to do motivational seminar days. Hell I’d go just to hear him make us all laugh our balls off busting out jokes.
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You have been through a lot! It was an amazing accomplishment to get through this stuff. So many people haven’t made it through similar circumstances.
You have a strong spirit and I think that your life has a higher meaning and purpose with a lot more good things to come! Keep going you’re an inspiration!
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Great recovery video. Thank you. I never served my country in the military but I can relate to many of the things you talk about. Your channel adds a lot of value to me; much appreciated.
“ Wow , Fantastic “ thanks for sharing . Yes Sir , low point . Not a happy time for most of us 😀. Will do , Out-Here 👍😎 🇺🇸
Love it
Man even hearing about it sends me into that feeling...never again
I've battled addiction as well. Somehow, my withdrawal wasn't extreme, but instead I suffered a lot of mental health issues like schizophrenia and bipolar disorder. I'm past all of that now after lifestyle changes, a long period of medication and growth, and treatment with neurofeedback. I know that I am actually cured and sober no longer need meds and have been off then for years, but am still working my way through the stigma and governmental restrictions of having these kinds of records. I've had to learn the hard way that stuff like that, legal and mental health records, don't go away easily or never go away, and this might be a lifelong process. However, everything you're saying is absolutely true, especially about location because that's how my bf did it, and I hope this message reaches a lot of people. It can truly change many lives for the better. ❤
@@FLOWERSandTHORNS Stay strong bud, I lean on Jesus to provide everything I need, even in times when I can not provide for myself ❤️
The only thing I'd add to your advice is to find a substitute. Kratom and running replaced the endorphins i was missing without the Opana 40 i was crushing and snorting. Congratulations Cav, youre part of the 1% that makes it out alive. 🙏💪
T Cav! Keeping it a 💯! Love your videos! Always forward Brother! Will always root for you! Remember me! Sincerely US Army Vet!
U KNOW bro‼️👊🏼
Steals your soul
Been through it too
Not any more 🙌🏾
Thank you for sharing this TCAV
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You are so welcome
Now that's hell week.🔥
Thank you for sharing your experience. !
My pleasure!
Yup! .... this 1 hit a nerve with me...
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Love your content brother! Keep it coming!
Thanks! Will do!
Solid advice TC!
Keep sending it...
U KNOW‼️👊🏼
Great messages. Can’t imagine how hard it is to get over that.
Clear and direct words of wisdom. Kharmic debt perfect
Been to that same hell. Crawling in your skin is something we know all to well. I had a therapist that was big on philosophers and he’d tell us about Sisyphus and pushing the boulder up the mountain. But man I loved how you put it, fighting back to zero.
Straight up bro
Thank you brother.
You are welcome
Great video and spot on with this one once agin !!!
Glad you enjoyed it
I used to do that same thing when life became unmanageable and it worked…temporarily. Only temporarily. The problem always remained.
Salute!
Well said brother
WE LOVE YOU KING!!!
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Thanks for this today
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3:30 on the dot. Been here since episode one TCAV. struggling for a while, been having hours of your videos on repeat, trying to soak in the wisdom and guidance hard hearing each word. what pulled you out of the abyss when you were in the truck in hawaii? You are next up tcav.. doing amazing things for people taking the time to listen
Email me brother let's get you setup with the correct blueprint. Taking that first DELIBERATE AND DECISIVE step us what pulled me out: tcavofficial@gmail.com
I can use that, thanks mate!
Great video
Thanks!
Appreciate your honesty! Its wild how withdrawals effect everyone so differently. For me it was heart rate and blood pressure high, hot then cold, sweating when cold and sleeping for only 30 to 45 min at a time for 4 or so days then my joints hurt and had zero energy, appetite ect for another few days and finally came out of it. I was put on percocet for multiple surgeries then put in pain management. The crazy thing is they wanted to give me another drug thats also physically addictive to come off the opiate which i thought was crazy. Keep killing it man really appreciate your honesty and content! The gym & my dogs luckily keep me sober and focused on something else on those days when the suck is bad now
The ones who get it, get it👊🏼
@@tcavofficial no doubt
We do recover 🙏✊️
Thanks.
Awwwww 🏆 “ port of paradise “
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U KNOW‼️🫵🏻👊🏼
F ⭐️ yeah prep/ portion / pack
Cuz I am back and ready to party at my gym earlyyyyyy 🦄
As bad as addiction is, and it is, low self-esteem is, in my humble opinion, much worse.
They are one in the same
@@MrMaxyield How so?
@@user-ql7eb6ln1n those suffering with addiction are also suffering with esteem...
I disagree - you can't begin to build your self esteem until you are sober.
@@PaulLoveless-Cincinnati I was referring to low self-esteem without the use of substances.
Been a big fan from early on listening to your stories, experiences and motivational words for both men and women but young men especially and it gives me hope to see more men coming forward and stepping up to give and set positive representations of grown men in their communities and that applies to both online AND offline (And sadly whether we like it or not, with the current trajectories the amount of kids whose social lives and communities will exist mostly if not ENTIRELY online is increasing immensely so)
Keep up the good work bud. 🤙
(Also for anyone who might be confused because on video or text can be hard to convey content, intent and such , Opiates doesn't get woven into your double helixes *Just like methadone doesn't get deposited or build up in your bones/bone marrow* Although with how immensely pervasive and endemicly widespread its influence, it's effects - and especially the hellish effects of what happens when it's suddenly physically NOT present anymore, it's like it shouts, shoots and screams even louder to make itself and its presence known even more? it sure fucking feels like it*
And to anyone going through it right now? You will, and each step of the way even if you might have a small "slip up" you're going in the right direction, just be honest with yourself and those around you- even at the cost of upsetting/angering or disappointing someone because I can guarantee you, you're not as good at hiding it and your behaviours as you think you are, and people talk and worry. It's a marathon, not a sprint.
And when you DO make mistakes, make sure you pick yourself up, look at what just happened, WHY it happened, what decisions you made / didn't make, write shit down and take down and learn from all of those lessons, those triggers and what you will do about it next time to ensure it doesn't happen again, dust yourself off and get back in the fight.
I love you all. Be safe, and be better, for you and when you're ready, those around you who love you.
Woven into your double helixes is a metaphor bro. Not literal
@@tcavofficial I know, that's what I was outlining bud.
Taylor, this video I respect you for. Fair play for doing this.
Abe, appreciate that brother👊🏼
If the store is closed you can’t buy shit!
Best advice I’ve heard is move your location
and lose those contacts
Takes a lot to share this kind of stuff
This should be shown to kids in schools to show them what happens
Another premium piece of content TC
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Crazy man, crazy.
Looking at the man in the mirror and accepting the facts takes courage. Glad you accepted your addiction. We all have our secrets. curious if you came from a broken home? Divorced parents? Love you brother, stay strong I'm a former NA. Been sober 19 years.
Been there, not as bad as you cav but close! Heat Regulation, goose pimples, insomnia and sore muscles are the worst!! I tell people who never went through it that opiod withdrawl is like the worst flu you ever had without the fever... multiply by 100!
Straight up
Bro I was on herion for 3 years about 4 years ago. So I know about wanting to crawl out of your own skin. I got locked up toward the end of my addiction. Spent 18 days in jail and half of those 18 days I was in withdrawal. The worst part of my life. Opened my eyes for sure.
Just discovered you and I’m a new sub! I have done it all man and I remember coming off just lortabs and it was hell. I thought lol, I got myself back then and endless amount of money to buy with and didn’t run out. If I did it wasn’t long. But Fentanyl became something I clung too at the end. With the tabs I didn’t go thru anything you did but I used that same thing. I told myself I went thru Ft. Benning and that was tough I can do this. Yea I beat tabs that way but I didn’t change my location and the first day I was over it a “Buddy” hit me up and I ruined that. Then 3 years more I was coming off fent like you. Bro that is the worst! I went weeks wondering when it would let up. I finally suffered thru to an appointment I made for a sub program. Anyway years later I’m still on subs but haven’t touched a thing. I changed my location too and don’t know anyone anymore. Thing is with these I’m in that same boat. Out and gotta work and get thru, like this morning, but coming across your video helps! Great job getting thru! This shits for the birds man! I’m hoping one day to never have a second thought about “meds” ever again!
Get off everything bro you'll be glad
Hearing "you earned it" somehow makes this suffering easier. Kicking alcohol 💪
I’m an addict and ex army flight medic. Most states have iv hydration mobile business that you can pay to come give you an iv with nausea meds and pain meds and all the electrolytes. Stuff like magnesium that will help relax you and help you sleep.
So if you’re going through withdrawal it’s well worth the money to buy the iv combo to come to your house and get you feeling better.
I have infantry basic training coming in July and I just found out a few days ago I have pancolitis so I’m on a whole lot perk tens right now I have to get clean and recover in a month wish me luck y’all
Man I wanted to change cuz I was injecting fent multiple times a day for years as well as using crack. Fent withdrawls are a million times worse than heroin. I was arrested again in my area so when I was out I forced myself into rehab somewhere far away. I did detox for a week and a half, rehab for 3 months, moves into a halfway house for 6 months, then got a job and moved into a sober house for around a year. I was still on a low rung of society but I was doing okay. Then I had to move back home to deal with court and my remaining sentences cuz I got house arrest and 2 years probation/parole. So stuck in the same damn place. Even not using those drugs my spirit is just dead being here. No job, live In the middle of nowhere, can't drive cuz they took my license. I did all this work and it just seems so wasted. I wish I could find one single thing to be locked onto. Always used to be music but everything feels pointless. Just saw your interview on that urban channel and the story was crazy but gave hope.
U got balls talking about this
Allot of people are gonna find motivation in this luckily I haven't experienced that road but sounds like hell
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I was addicted to alcohol, heroin and methamphetamine, injecting 💉 mind you, then I robbed a pharmacy at gunpoint and i ended up in the SHU in jail and there I sat for the next 9 months, had to face the music, detox and withdrawals in jail. Unbelievable experience.
Thats powerful bro
Kicking opioid is no joke recovering pill freak here. With breaking my back last yr I had that trip down a dark road but thankfully I didn't abuse meds this time. But often can taste the pill goin down.
street drugs are no longer safe, they are tainted witj high tech mind control nano technology
Willingness.... got to have the Willingness, i got sober in Washington park with testers everywhere, i was homeless and hopeless , hopeless robbed my ability to cognitively think , i couldn't see passed hopeless, there is no such thing as a rock bottom , i had a shovel and kept digging, went from alcohol to pills and tar by that time i was on the run from multiple alphabet agencies for manufacturing and was dead twice, i made a deal , if God got me out of the mess i was in id never do another bad thing in my life again...yesterday i had 13 years and im a counselor today
My MAN‼️👊🏼
Good Morning
I had to go to Hawaii to kick too! Something about the weather makes it less shitty. But, i was thinking about this when you were describing withdrawal, there's really no way to describe how bad it is to someone whos never gone thru it. God willing and the creek don rise I'll have 3 years Aug 1st.
First I want to say congratulations on your marriage proposal!!! I hope you two have a wonderful journey together!!!!!! That brings me to my question. Is your future wife on the progress train. Is she in the same game with you? Is her mindset the same as yours.? Is she working towards self fulfillment like you in her own life. These questions are with good intentions. Much Love and All the Best!!!
Yes she is
I’m a former recon Marine and I was taking 90mgs of Oxy for 10 years. I know what it’s like homie. I’d rather be in constant pain than go back on that shit
Worst thing ever coming of pain killers.
Hour by hour and day by day. You have to want it.
You had vodka? The first time I had nothing, yeah it was hell. The second time I weaned off. You have to have a real strong sense of self to wean off though. But it works beautifully if you can pull it off.
I would struggle early on in my. Addiction and get withdrawals like every day before payday and the worst was when I got locked up that sucked but I never looked back and I had 3 surgeries since and took the meds in the hospital and when I got home took Tylenol and got rid of the pain pills it’s good money sorry
dude seems like a positive version of wes watson.
Great Work Brother. Truly Proud of you, don't know ya but if I had lots of money I would be interested in investing in your goals. Stay Strong Keep Climbing
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