Retired Drug Dealer
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CW: This episode contains discussions of addiction, SA, DV, and miscarriage.
According to a 2019 report by the United Nations Office on Drugs and Crime, cannabis is the most widely used drug globally, with an estimated 192 million people using it in 2018. For years, Kristina grew and sold cannabis products throughout the United States. There are many risks involved in selling any kind of drug, including legal consequences, violence, and relationship strain. Now retired from dealing, Kristina details her experiences from getting arrested, to experiencing drug-induced psychosis, and later, finding a new lease on life.
Kristina: @kristinapineda999
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00:00 Lume
00:20 Upbringing & family
03:20 Sister deported
07:40 Didn’t get to walk at graduation
08:55 Close friend dies
10:30 Trying meth
11:09 Meeting a new guy
13:00 Being taken to his house blindfolded
15:00 Selling and shipping weed
16:45 Electric bill and police raid
17:35 Boyfriend takes off, getting arrested
20:15 Bail & charges
21:40 Abortion
22:15 Charges mostly dropped, on probation
22:45 Mushrooms, extracting
24:45 Tumor & medical card
25:50 Lume
28:04 Using boa constrictors as a cover
29:50 Business is booming, got into fishing
31:30 Buying a tackle shop
32:50 Boyfriend starts cheating
35:50 SA’d by a customer
40:00 Meeting current boyfriend
42:25 Dark web
46:10 Passing off work to others
49:00 Cheating on her ex
56:50 Breakup and moving on
1:01:30 DV
1:05:30 Pregnant
1:10:25 Miscarriage
1:12:10 Current boyfriend begins to struggle with a heroin addiction
1:16:00 Covid
1:18:40 Starts selling weed on her own
1:25:10 OF experience
1:27:20 Losing friends bc of OF
1:28:30 SA
1:32:15 Becoming a target for harassment and stalking
1:35:00 Paranoia and mental breakdown
1:45:30 Psych ward experience
1:51:47 Drug-induced psychosis due to coming off of meth
1:55:15 Depression, trying to readjust
2:02:30 Moving forward, life improvements
I think she‘s a good person and has a lot of therapy left to do. It doesn’t seem to me like she’s really understanding the insanity of some of these situations yet.
Years of therapy have helped me understand the insanity of my situations. It may seem that I speak of my experiences nonchalantly, but that's just the level of acceptance I've reached. Thank you for your input, I'm glad you enjoyed ☺️🤝
@@kristinapineda999 such a sweet response
Why leave opinions/criticisms on her as a person? That’s not what this is about, we’re listening to her story. If she decides to get therapy that’s her business. Just seems unnecessary dude.
@@user-ri3oz1hi4k thank you, you're so right
I‘m not criticizing her as a individuel. I‘m just saying that she was in multiple bad situations which would leave any of us in need of therapy. And from an outside perspective it’s always way more insane than people who experienced it think… It’s common to normalize the situations we‘re in. It takes years to distance yourself from these experiences and realities.
I hope she realizes that her boyfriend is not the one for her. Him getting made about her getting assaulted and leaving is crazy. no matter if you freeze or not ITS NOT YOUR FAULT!
i was thinking exactly that!!!! she had been talking him up the whole time, so when she got to that i was shocked beyond belief
please never stop these interviews girl. these are so powerful and you are spreading so much awareness
She’s so brave for telling her story this is a lot to unpack
Thanks so much for this opportunity! I honestly feel this podcast has helped me heal what I THOUGHT was already healed, and for that I am so thankful. I appreciate you ladies beyond measure. 🤝💖
I'm only a few mins in but it's so amazing hearing your story!
Thank you for sharing yourself with us! I appreciate you and send you love 🌹
KEEP healing, even when you can't see the scars 💖✨️
@@Theyluvvaria thank you sm!!
@@ekboobooboobie thanks, God bless you !
i lost my virginity through rape. i always thought if i was put in an uncomfortable situation where i wasn’t in control, that i would kick, scream, and fight. but i couldn’t move. i felt like i was out of my body. i blamed myself for years bc i felt like it wasn’t rape bc i didn’t fight back. hearing you say that you experienced something si limar was really validating. thank you❤
More often than not this is exactly how it goes. We get an out of body experience and it’s actually our fight or flight response, I believe, but unfortunately flight is what takes over in that situation. Anything to lift you out of that experience in the moment is a defense mechanism that we are engrained with to ensure our survival. Biology, am I right? I am a CSA survivor as well and lost my V-card the same way. I still choose to say that when I lost it by choice (many years later) is the real way I lost it, but I will always clarify if need be. My choice of losing it was not the right choice either in the time, so it doesn’t make for that much better of a story or an internal feeling. But life is life. Please know that you’re not alone and that it was not your fault. Anything less than an enthusiastic “YES!” Is not getting actual consent and I hope more and more people know this. Even an awkward mmmm sure… should be understood as being a NO.
I had a similar experience, long story, but I TOTALLY checked out. I think I felt like if I fought it would make it more traumatic. It was going to happen regardless, when "NO" is not enough, when a total lack of reciprocation isn't an enough, when attempts at stopping aren't enough... Fighting wouldn't change anything. Some people are entitled and feel they can TAKE regardless... It's NEVER your fault just because you didn't kick and scream or act the way you "think" you would. You never know, NO ONE DOES, until they are there and confronted with a situation how they will respond. I hope you have healed!
As a rape survivor myself, virginity is a social construct and no one can "take it" from you, you can only give it willingly. Thats a mindset that helped me a lot with feeling robbed of my "first sex experience" bc it's not sex if you didn't want it it's just rape.
I loved everything she said but she lost me at sipping lean and doing acid with 16 year olds at 27 and excusing it by saying ‘where’s their parents’…. If it was a man doing that to a female teenager it woulda been a different story
Facts. Women get away with so much shit men can't get away with. It's honestly sad.
But what exactly did you mean by "if it was a man doing that to a female" . Uhhh doing what in particular?
Also the "where are their parents" statement wasn't ever used as an excuse in conjunction to the drugs.
I kept so many kids alive and safe just by being present.
When I realized these kids were toting actual guns, I emphasized the importance of firearm safety especially.
You will never be able to keep weapons out of the hands of children, as much as we wish we could.
Especially in the wild west..
I had multiple children hand me their guns saying they don't trust themselves because they're suicidal. God put me in that position for a reason.
On the other hand , Protect the 2nd always.
i think her current boyfriend was one of those teenagers right? or did i hear that wrong? when she said they hooked up i was like uhhhh
@@koukonei no he was 20
@@koukonei almost 21 . We are 6 years apart
nah nd she was saying "i was guidance for them"🤣🤣
I dig the vibe of this podcast, it’s casual in a good way, like Reddit brought to life, instead of like a formal interview/studio situation.
I agree 💯
Good way to put it! I agree
similar vibe to soft white underbelly but for suburbanites
Reddit? REDDIT? Devorah is interviewing people who have actually lived life. Reddit is full of people who haven't lived life and are just giving their opinions from behind the computer screen. TERRIBLE comparison. Reddit is full of people who are on the spectrum and lack social skills. They couldn't hold a conversation irl about their own lives for 10 minutes, let alone 2 hours.
@@barbrothers2 Lol what? This was meant as a compliment, clearly, you’re not familiar with Reddit.
So proud these started getting sponsored!!
Right! I was so flattered to get such a good sponsor on my video!!
This series is so amazing! I love hearing about people's lives. I've had a strange history, so it feels kind of comforting to know how many other people have also had their trials and tribulations.
I want to read your story!!
I so appreciated her talking about her sexual assaults and how it was so hard to tell the men in her life and how she froze. Same with my story! I also had a miscarriage because of similar reasons. So great to see people given a platform to tell their stories.
Thank you so much. 🥺🤝It kills me that some people will never understand but then again I'm glad they themselves didn't have to experience anything similar. Victims have a special place in society, most importantly as teachers.
@@kristinapineda999 ❤❤❤
I watched this bc i wanted to empathize with her. I just couldnt get over the fact that she was giving drugs to minors just like her mom did??? like she acknowledged that it was wrong of her mom, but not of herself to do that?? This was really educational tho, and i hope she has a happy life after all she has had to endure.
She’s lucky to be alive. As a woman, you really cannot be so generous and invite strange men to stay at your house.
I've noticed that no one has commented how soon this was.
I relate to her in many ways.. a lot of ways. I lost my virginity through a rape when I was 14, everything went downhill from there. I was a dealer for a few years, I didn’t even have to work a normal job.. I fell in love with it and that’s when I lost myself. The money, the substances.. it ate me alive. I got addicted, I got robbed at gun point, I was abused.. it’s a vicious cycle I’m so glad not only I got out of, but so many others, including this beautiful woman.
Thanks so much for having her on. Xoxo.
Thank you so much for your uplifting words.🥺 They really mean more than you can imagine. I'm so glad you enjoyed my story❤
What an incredible story. You always find the most interesting and diverse guests. You’re such a good listener and I love your input and how you are never judgmental. ❤❤
I recently found your channel and I love it I’ve never liked podcasts but I’ve binged all of your episodes this past week. Driving, working, walking my dog whatever I’m doing. I was so happy to see a new episode! ❤
I have tremendous sympathy for her with her assaults/abuse, as I am a survivor myself. But I do think she still has a lot of processing and emotional maturing to do, in order to be able to acknowledge how she was toxic herself. (i.e. providing and enabling drug use for minors, physically threatening the rival female drug dealer, etc) her demeanor here kinda feels like she hasn't done all the inner work yet. i also do feel bad that she is still with this Skylar person, who left her due to her r*pe. of course who she dates is her choice, but i think she deserves better than being victim blamed. despicable behavior on his part. all things said, i wish her the best in her future
I think she has insecurity stemming from when she was bigger. She still thinks Skylar is out of her league, yet she could do so much better and be so much better
Everything about this podcast is just perfect , the decoration, the colours , their tone when theyre talking. I usually never invest more 20 minutes on videos on RUclips, this podcast is magnetic ✨️
Thank you dearly for your support 🥹❤️
i have a lot of respect for a lot of the things she’s gone through but as someone who has worked at animal shelters and now works in veterinary medicine the snake breeding and especially the micro bully breeding is giving me lots of red flags. pets should never be used for profit
i though the same. i feel bad for her situation, but thats not okay.
@@reaganbrianne2241 i also work in vetmed, it’s so sad what breeding for profit instead of breed health has done for so many dogs
Yah well pets do gets used for profit all of the time. Get over it bud.
@@IgorMironov-rq4ye ah yes, because cruelty is a pervasive issue in our world we should just sit down and accept it and never condemn it! that’s a super good idea i can’t believe i never thought about it that way! surely if everyone turns a blind eye to everything bad that happens our world will be a better place. you’re so smart for saying this
I usually like all of the people you bring on, but she seems super concerned with her image while telling this story. Along with saying she was doing drugs and alcohol with teens, she seemed oddly proud of it and while it is a lot to unpack and I am sure she hasnt fully processed it all, that was a really frustrating way to tell her story and makes me feel like she isnt taking complete accountability for it.
I definitely got the same feeling and I feel like she should have waited a bit longer to process before she came on yk
you didn’t understand at all then
@@cherrycokee wym ?
@@cherrycokeelove your username and pfp
@@jvnebugged OMG tysm lol
this episode is it... 50 mins in and I can say this is by far my favvvvvvvv
Thank you so much!!!!!
This was so hard to listen to, but somehow I couldn’t stop.
so proud the pods are becoming sponsored🫶🏼 best podcast genuinely. love ya dev
Omg I love her. Her fierce ass heart reminds me of my best friend who passed away in 2017. People with hearts and energy like that are very special. You would be very, very lucky to ever have a best friend like that. I just love this beautiful girl. ❤️
Just started listening to this podcast and I'm really loving it ! I love how you listen so well and let your costar talk . I love how interesting these people you bring on are (: all around interesting.
I and many others are much too sensitive and self centered to conduct such a wildly successful safespace for people who normally feel shunned. Bless your journey. You've come a long way 🥰
I really appreciate the way she come out and spoke on everything, I really needed this and I hope she is taking care of herself
I sure am, thank you for the support, it really does mean so much to me. 💖
This is such a sad story and I can tell she is really struggling mentally/ is traumatized. I hope she comes to terms with the mistakes she has made and takes accountability so she can grow. The dog breeding and snake breeding is all so cruel. Even influencing minors so negatively with the drug and alcohol abuse. It’s all so weird and sad that she thinks everyone is a hater. With that mindset, you will never believe you are at fault.
I’m glad you brought up the animal breeding. That shit is so fucked up, and she still thinks it’s cool. I have a hard time feeling bad for a person who does that. And the “hater” mentality was weird too.
This was another wonderful podcast. I’m so glad she’s turning her life around for the better. I’m sure she will be fine she’s Defitely on the right path. Devorah your podcasts keep getting better and better. Keep up the great work your doing allowing people to come on and open their heart and share their stories with us.👌👍❤️
I love this podcast, raw uncut footage of real beautiful stories
Uncut your blind but yes it's a good podcast
it’s so interesting to learn about people who are so opposite of you. what a wonderful story. I’m glad that she found her current boyfriend
I can relate to her on so many levels it's insane... happy shes doing better my heart goes out to her
Thank you sm!🤝😇
I’ve been looking forward to watching your podcasts I’m sure this one will be great!!!
Her mindset is just…. different
Ok? If everyone thought the same that could get a bit problematic 🐑
maybe bc she was tripping balls on drugs nearly the entire time🤨🤨 u don’t think straight when ur like that
She is so strong to speak out on her abuser and abuse. It took me so long to be able to get out and talk about my abuse. I hope she continues to heal ❤
I really enjoyed listening to this. Honestly she’s such a strong women I don’t know how she dealt with all that.
Thank you so much. Kindness means a lot to me. 🥺💕
It’s crazy how criminalized growing weed is in some states. Where I live (WA state) it’s illegal to grow more than 4 plants without a permit but it’s sooooo less common to get on police radar for it. Years ago I’ve been to multiple peoples grow OPs to trim and they all have random people coming in and out of the house, it’s crazy hearing the secrecy the first guy felt he had to go through. It would’ve never crossed my mind to get arrested for being a part of a grow op here. One guy I trimmed for got shot at his house so police obviously had to search the house for the investigation, found his grow op but he didn’t get any consequences for it except they just confiscated everything. Im pretty sure that same guy now has a legit permit to grow more plants. Crazy how things have changed
living in a legal state its absolutely insane to me how weed is seen as narcotics
I try to feel sympathetic for people who made poor decisions. It's really hard to do that when said person knows the impact of their actions and still chooses to partake in it because it benefits them. 😕
I love you Devorah ❤️ my face lit up when I got the notification that you uploaded 😊❤️
I love your podcasts and the concepts bc it’s what we learn and gather through life.
It's crazy how you can relate to someone so well that you never met.
Girl I love your podcast I listen to them at work makes my time go by so fast 💗
I’m so glad she was able to open up
She is so sweet and generous given all she had to deal with. I wish the best to come for her
Thank you Melody! That means so so much. I wish the best for you as well!💖🤝😊
For sure x
@@clairelicciardo6198 thanks sm Claire!!
She seems like a good hearted person but I wish she learned that breeding dogs is such a inhumane thing 😢
I did 😇
I don't generally watch podcasts such as this but I gave it a shot and really enjoyed the story. I wish I had a genuine person in ny life like you. 🤗
I was looking forward to your post!!
she’s so dope. props to her for bettering herself
Thank you sm!
Right from the jump…I can relate to her. I grew up in Anaheim, CA….former dealer also.
She was ABLE TO GROW 99 plants?!? Holy crap
Yes🙌
My boyfriend had a tumor in his pituitary gland as well. You skim over it girl, but I feel for you. Those hormone imbalances can seriously affect you.
Yes,you are right. I guess I just got tired of people pitying me when they heard "tumor"
But I have another MRI today and then next week I'll be going to Vegas to see the endocrinologist again. 🙌 Thank you for your concern ❤☺️
@@kristinapineda999 good luck with your appointments!! i hope everything goes well
@@treymcglawn thank you ! 🤞
@@kristinapineda999 RSO RSO RSO. Rick Simpsons Oil. You're probably familiar with this though, considering you have been in the cannabis game.
HOLLLYYY why are all yall attacking her? yall have obviously never been in a similar situation AT all, all ur supposed to do is listen and move on. Dont need to critize her for past mistakes
THANK YOU
like this girl is talking about her mental health problems , let's attack her for it
ofcc frfr its always encourage others until the person had a diiferent life style then you- god forbid it be shady- there are WAYYYY worse drug dealers out there n their only experience w that was probs euphoria
She says she has “haters” …probably cause you were “balling” on middle schoolers money for selling them drugs lmao weird mindset fr
weird fr also dating/hooking up with the 6-7 year age gap??? Shes 31 and hes 24 now in 2023 and she was hooking up with him/sucked his d*** in around 2013... he would have been 14? confused on the ages cuz he should have been 18 before they did anything...
Yeah…. Her parents need to be held accountable for not hugging her as a child . This is terrible.
I think the high school treating her like a criminal lead to the the first few years of facination with the illegal stuff. I remember getting treated like a criminal all the time because im Mexican. I felt like that was a legit option lol but then i was taught that it was all more human trafficking.
The Saturns return thing is so true. My husband told me as soon as we met “27 is always when something happens. It’s always a pivotal year.” I was like ya whatever. He switch careers at 27 from what his family wanted to what he wanted. I had our daughter at 27. It’s legit
Wow 27 was when I left a bad relationship and graduated hair school. It started my entire life over
27 is when I went back to school!
that's crazy, my mom and dad were 27 when they had me
So crazy I just started watching this channel and I live in kingman which is right next to Laughlin and Bullhead and I could Invision most of her story for the locations
Awesome! That's exactly what I was going for!☺️ Im an overdescriber to the max but it's because when people talk I visualize, so I try to provide as many adjectives and details as possible lol
Really really hoping for her to get her stuff together and have a good life 🙏🏼 ESPECIALLY if she wants to have a kid, it's okay to fuck up and make mistakes in your own life but if you bring a child into your mess, that is really really unfair to them. Please consider that.
omg im from Laughlin and i always describe it as a mini Las Vegas! wishing the absolute best for her 💕
Thank you 😊
I’m from Vegas! I always wanted to go to Laughlin but never did
@@sydneyellis2141 you should! It's so laid back and if you love the outdoors we have so much fun recreational activities like the lake, the river, hiking, shooting etc
Is it me or this isn’t like a “drug dealer” like she’s the average person in Los Angeles 😹
Yesss lol I was torn about the intro but we didn't really get stuck on anything better. "drug dealer" was used very loosely .
@jemal_spores on IG, ships, Shrooms, Dmt, lsd, MdMa fed
LMAOOO same here in Austin tx. It’s giving basic. It’s crazy that she is okay with her bf being a heroin addict. “I don’t want him to die”, but the only way out of that life is OD or jail
New subscriber here I LOVE THESE PODCASTS ❤
Thank you for sharing your story! Wishing you all the best girl ❤
Thank you 😊
I pray that Kristina gets the help that she needs 🙏🏼 I hope she finds some peace in life.
“We do therapy so those around us don’t have to do therapy”
She’s so genuine and such a good soul❤️. I’m routing for her!
I really appreciate that sm!!! 💖💖💖
This comment section did not pass the vibe check!! People fuck up, learn and grow up and learn the lessons they are supposed to learn. Thank you for sharing your story 🥰
I love hearing these stories! This girl has done it all lmao
I hate throwing this term around but their relationship is giving twin flame like a MF .. not the romanticized version, the real nitty gritty, send me into psychosis, deep inner shadow work, bringing out the ugliest and purest sides of each other type of spiritual turmoil .. It gives me goosebumps every time she talks about their relationship
I love the way she talks😭
Right when you said Laughlin I’m like girl!!!! I have seen you a few times & have you on FB! I’m like where’d she go 😭😭
Omg really lol
hi, here I am 🤣
42:01 ngl her necklace jingling sounded so real to me I got freaked out lol i was like I am not messing with metal rn wth
Same
Ugh I missed you last week!!
@kristina Pineda
I really appreciate you telling your story.
We’ve had similar experiences and I know the strength it takes to better yourself after those experiences
I’m proud of you
Keep it up
PS, when you mentioned being born in Fountain Valley i knew exactly in what hospital. Lol
I’m from Santa Ana, California😊
Aw thank you sm! I'm proud of you as well ☺️🥰
So proud of u kristina keep it up🙌
THANK YOU!
Also planes can fly over your house to see if there is heat lamps lighting up your house. I’ve had a friend raided for this..
the ptsd when the cop sirens were driving past u guys, poor thing, im so glad she’s where she is now she should be so proud of herself
Thank you so much for the support and acknowledgement. I AM extremely proud of myself and more so each day.🥰💕
I’m so confused, was the skylar guy 16?? Why were all the people she was hanging out with so super young and she talks about it like it’s normal still?
No he was almost 21
OMFG! I remember seeing the Wheres Baliey stuff!! Wow! Happy you were just chillin in impaintent. I'm pretty sure there was a RUclips video about you too? Or I could be crazy? I've spent weeks in impaintent because I hear voices lol I'm just talking and hearing the dead I think
The way you sit and listen…. 😍
I really enjoy your podcast. I love that you bring normal peoples stories that wouldn’t get the attention usually. Each story is so captivating and interesting and downright crazy at times but lately, I have to peace out by the end of the episode when you do your little pep talk to every guest. Seems you say the same generic thing to everyone and say like in between every word and I know you are trying to make the guest feel better and feel seen but the reason they came onto your podcast is to share it, be seen just by sharing and build awareness to the public.
I used to date a drug dealer . It’s like she described my ex almost identically.
I’d love to see any of yous as honest and open as she is. Stop judging and listen to a story.
Thank you so much. It wasn't easy to open up tbh
I was with her until she said she misses breeding the dogs…
She’s amazing and strong !❤
Thanks so much for the support , sis 💕🥹
Wowowo she’s been through so much
People telling her she was paranoid when she was heavily in the drug world is rediculous. The users seriously turn against the dealers all the time its nuts. The dealers are just trying to kill eachother for clients and its a little more obvious what the intentions are.
You're 100% right about this shit . When i went out of town it literally took A LOT of money out of dealers pockets . Didn't make them happy in the least
Wish her the best
She was definitely paranoid happened to me as well! Was sexually assaulted and the guy bragged about it to everyone! I was super paranoid after it! I don’t know why I was paranoid! But I guess it just a trauma response!
THANK YOU FOR THIS
ANOTHER story that includes a mental health facility where they refuse to help or evaluate and instead the clock while heavily medicating their patient. Sounds like another insurance scam.
You're so right.. it's shameful
I can relate to this girl soooooo much
That makes me so happy, that was my goal! Thanks for giving me your time! ❤
Never heard the work “retired” and “drug dealer” all in one sentence lol
Ooh first place!😊 Keep doin what you're doin!❤
Where is this podcast out of as in what state? Thank you.
sucks what happened to her but shes def arrogant and lacks self awareness
her bf was a piece of shit for getting mad that she was SA'd when he was in her house on HEROIN PLZZZZZZ
She had psychosis idk from what but you can get it from meth hot rails etc even if your not the one doing the drugs just being around someone doing that can cause the paranoia all drug dealers addicts ppl who are around that in that life say the same thing that they were being followed I used to be in a similar situation like her except I wasn’t the dealer but the other woman living w me was and etc. bottom line it’s psychosis.
Yes I was diagnosed with psychosis and am prescribed medication. Drug induced psychosis from past meth use.
@@kristinapineda999 me too girl. Mines wasn’t as bad. But I know exactly how you feel even in the smallest of ways. I never got prescribed anything for the psychosis because it didn’t last too long. But it’s good to know there are options. Hope you are doing better everyday. 🤍
@@TCGhottie thank you so much! It really means a lot to have support,, it makes a massive difference in progression. 🥺🥰💕
@@kristinapineda999 of course girl you got this! You’re not alone! 💋🩷
Take a shot everytime she says ummm
She said “idk if you’ve heard of in n out” ?? 😂
Justifying psychosis is not okay
She is all over the place cant keep up she's way out there
What a story! This girl is cool AF.
Thank you sm!🥰
I hope she finds it in her heart to stop breeding animals 😢.
I stopped breeding years ago ☺️
That's what animals do, all they do is bang. What's your problem? 😅