6 Telltale Signs You're Feeling Numb
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- Опубликовано: 17 май 2024
- Have you ever been feeling numb but you don't know why? You may have heard someone who suffers from depression or another mental illness say they feel emotionally numb, but what does this mean exactly? Suffering from emotional numbness doesn’t mean you have to feel nothing all the time. Your emotions can even merge together from an unconscious, or conscious, suppression to create a primary feeling that can accompany your numbness. So, how do you know if you feel numb? Here are a few telltale signs you need to look out for.
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Have you been feeling emotionally numb lately? Comment below.
Sadly yes
Right now....
Kinda yea
yea
Sadly both numb and empty
one of the worst parts of feeling this way is when you start to cry and really let your emotions out and after like 2 sobs you just stop and don't know why you can't cry anymore
I can relate. It just hurts not knowing why I can't continue crying..
BRUH IKR IT MAKES ME SOO MAD 😩 I BE LIKE MF WHO SAID U CAN STOP CRYING
Crying is a natural way of self soothing and when this happens to me, it doesn’t make things much easier :/ 💕
it started happening with me 2 years ago, now everytime i see something sad i'm like "time to cry" **struggles to cry and starts questioning if i'm really sad**
i think the only things that make me cry is what my parents say about me and sad songs/movies/games (when people die and i wasn't expecting just like danganronpa and your turn to die, i love it because i cried so fucking hard playing it)
That’s how I am right now, I just want it out.
7. You want to get better, but you’re afraid you won’t recognise yourself.
Bruh EXACTLY
I don’t even know who I am anymore
@@callizto1964 🥺I’m sorry, I wish I knew how to help you properly but I’m currently struggling with the same thing.
I’ve felt this way for so long that it’s like it’s become part of who I am, ingrained in my personality.
I hope that one day you will find yourself, I hope we all do. But for now, just remember that tomorrow could be the best day of your life, give yourself the opportunity to experience it.
❤️Good luck
LadyLemon 20 thank you, and you too! I’m planning on getting help from a therapist or something, and I hope that will and least start to help with my numbness. Don’t give up on getting better, and always love yourself. You deserve it ❤️
@@callizto1964 I feel like never did :')
I’m not living, *I am surviving.*
Edit: *I am now alive once again.*
That's half the battle.
That's how I have felt for many years. Going through the motions, struggljng, and not feeling. I was so sensitive in my earlier years. There has to be a balance between feeling nothing and feeling over sensitive.
🤧🤧🤧
and I'm like the old ham in my refrigerator, that's just rotting.
@@wybiethetherian Why do you continue to leave a rotting pig in your fridge?
Seven signs you're feeling numb:
1. You're tired of being what they want you to be.
2. Feeling so faithfulness
3. Lost under the surface
4. You don't know what they're expecting of you
5. You're put under the pressure of walking in their shoes
6. Caught in the undertow (just caught in the undertow)
7. Every step you take is another mistake to them
8. Caught in the undertow (just caught in the undertow)
9. You’ve become so numb you can’t feel them there
10. Become so tired- so much more aware
11. You’re becoming this- all you want to do
12. Is be more like you and be less like them
W song btw, i also listen to LP
Lol
🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣 nice one
i feel like it took me too long to catch on..
In memory of Chester Bennington.... 😔
That whole "you only feel something when reading or watching shows/movies" really hit home. It's why I'm so attached to fictional universes. They make me feel something that's not nothing.
When everytime I watch romantic/action genres I never feel something but when I watch comedic/horror genres the only thing that came out of me was my laughter and fear-
💯
I like living in my head. I don't mind doing chores because Its on autopilot, I can do the laundry while in my head.
Steins Gate, Clannad, Life is strange. Bojack Horseman. I fell in love with these because they were the only times I've cried in five years.
Exactly
hey you, stay alive.
Thank you, I'm trying. And yeah you too STAY ALIVE
aRe yOu dEpPrEsSeD? sToP!.
I'm trying, but it gets harder everyday. Everyone else who reads this, also stay alive
Thanks u too
@@walterreynoldsthefourhundr819 I really hope things get better, stay strong
This is actually the first time I’ve actually felt completely understood, this entire video explained how I am and I thank you for opening my eyes.
Big time! DITTO
Same!
Each point hit the mark a liiiiiittle too close for comfort
@pa_2600 if only therapy was affordable
Christ that is sad
It's honestly just so heartbreaking to see how many views this has. It's not the content, I absolutely love Psych2Go's content and want everyone to support the channel but just the fact that so many people feel the might be numb, including me. I'm praying for everyone
You'll have to pray harder, because there's no one listening
Am I the only one who doesn't just get angry sometimes but also cries every once in a great while and then goes numb again? And when I cry, I feel a lot of pain.
Honestly I’ve always hated crying but rn it may be a negative emotion but that moment of crying gives me something other than feeling numb
Yes, i feel the exact same way, but sometimes i do get really angry real fast. Though sadness and crying are what bring me out of the numbness for a little while
Although, I admit that my anger is almost always caused by something that made me angry. I get too frustrated, too irritated, too enraged, and I take it out on others because deep down I guess I have a lot of inner turmoil.
same
Ugh I hate it. I’m always so irritated then I feel numb. After that I randomly burst into tears feeling so broken and hurt. It’s the worst pain. Then the cycle repeats
I feel colorblind while everyone else is riding the rainbow.
That's exactly how i feel, you're describing it perfectly.
More like, almost everybody is colourblind and are failing to see the rainbow
That's a good analogy
When you dont like skittles:
Seeing everyone in my life kinda pass me up makes me feel even less. Still happy for them, but I've been so uncommitted to my own life being numb for so long
I think the lack of empathy is the most relatable for me. A friend of mine told me my jokes are cruel, but I don’t see the cruelty. Often when some of my old friends were crying, venting etc.. I really struggle to comfort them. I just don’t know what to say. When people are enjoying their lives, positively venting to me, I’m not sure what I feel. Am I happy for them, or I’m salty it didn’t happen to me? Stuff like that. Also, not sure if this is related, but I hate seeing people suffering the same way I do. I always avoid comments section in mental health videos, because reading about it makes me very irritated. I’d sometimes read some, then immediately regret it. How ironic that I’m commenting, but yeah.
I like reading the comments for the opposite reason, it helps me feel less alone. I have a boyfriend tho and he tends to irritate me by just being happy when I'm not ? I don't wanna bring him to my level but I'm not up there at his
@@tia82706 i see, i suppose it would help people feel less alone. but for me, i just hate seeing anyone doing anything the same as me. ive always hated kids learning stuff i do well knowing one day theyll be better than me... but i should shut up, im just a really salty person.
No I get it ,I don't like anyone doing anything I do . I bought this necklace and have seen like 5 people in it since and ngl it makes me pretty salty too 😂I think I am just insecure with my own self
@@tia82706 it does make me feel better actually knowing you have the same problem
I understand @whitefox508, except it isn't my jokes but my demeanour. I will act in a way or say something that I think is perfectly innocent only to be told that I sound judgemental or superior, even if that is not the intent behind what I said.
I've been acting out emotions for so long, I just wanna feel them genuinely again. The whole thing about only really feeling when intrigued in a piece of fiction was extremely accurate too. I still have motivations and feelings, they're just so stunted and barely noticeable sometimes.
bro literallyyyy,,, word-to-word bro
@emu1028I sweaaaar, but no one really understands when I tell them this, it feels like I'm just never going to feel genuine emotion in real life situations again
Being numb for so long you miss being sad whoops
huh no wonder i actively seek things that could make me cry
@@kizen1632 same.... its just funny and sad at the same moment
@@Nobody-hp6rg indeed
me
this is why im binging on kdramas lately lol ._.
Number 7 when you find something funny you laugh like a Maniac for a couple of seconds and go numb again
Me everytime:
Me and people think im crazy
LITERALLY
Yes.
WHY ME😂😭
infj: what's the hardest part of your morning routine?
intj: summoning the will to live
Accurate
SO ACCURATE... IM AN INFJ-T 6w5 (basically Izuku Mirdoriya but female)
AND GOD IS LITERALLY THE ONLY REASON I HAVE FOUND TO EVEN EXIST.
I HATE LIFE UNLESS I CAN FIND MEANING IN IT...
THE ONLY MEANING I'VE FOUND SO FAR IS GOD AND LOVE. 😢❤
I've been feeling something like this for a while, and I realize its starting to become a problem. I'll leap at a chance to escape reality, like watching a movie or video. Sometimes I'll just daydream for a while, making up characters with emotions in my head and playing them out, and then realize I didn't do any work but have trouble caring. Recently, my mom put a restriction on youtube, and its been really hard. I've started to self harm just to feel something...
You should try writing. I think it might help ♡︎
*6 Telltale Signs That You’re Becoming Numb*
number one: getting recommended this video
This! 😂
next time just @ me 😔
number two: you click on it
ouch
Bro for real!
When I feel numb, things get really boring. and it's really annoying.
Yes, I have derealization and I have been feeling this numbness for about a year now. It really sucks.
SORRY KINDA Unrelated... but is that THE jade leech 😳
@@jfjdgdsvkdfifbndhsbsbdd9239 yes😳
@@jfjdgdsvkdfifbndhsbsbdd9239 I never thought someone would notice that. but yes (o^－^o)
Well I constantly feel numb so my life is boring as HELL
Loss of empathy hit me really hard i want to congratulate them but i also don’t feel like it i don’t even know why
it just feels like your surviving through a terrible war, but unable to become traumatized. Looking at all the people you experienced it with not liking loud noises, crying from the trauma, while you just act like a normal person. It just feels like your a Sim whos personality slots havent been filled in
im only “happy” when im with other people and i dont even know if it’s even real
LMAO same i feel u
Same
fr
Same I feel like two separate people cause the second I leave my friends I'm like this empty shell
same i only feel around others
1) you're living on autopilot
2) you don't enjoy the happy events, even the big ones
3) when you DO feel something, it's anger
4) when you DO feel, it's through watching a movie or TV show, or reading a book
5) you're dealing with emotional blunting
6) you can't empathize with others
Still watch the video to find out more about these points! Stay save y'all 💗 you can do it, some day you'll have what you want. You've got this
I bet you used heaven's door to summarize.
❤
Thank you for the summary
Well guess my theory of being numb is real
Safe *
Is anybody of you here has gotten numb for no reason? Like suddenly lost all the feelings he didn't face a certain problem like his life was totally normal and one day suddenly he waked up numb? Because this is what happened to me
Yeah that's wht happened to me from yesterday...idk whyy
And I everyday cry, heal,think about it again , and that's wht I do next day
Lose interest in everything.... Feel like nothing to do....
Whenever I feel anger, joy, or probably even sadness, there's always this sinking feeling in the stomach... and when it touches down, I immediately feel nothing.
Anyone else heard “your family and friends throw a surprise party for you” and went that would never happen 💀
I did 💀✋️
yep never happening.
Yup id be lucky if they remembered my fucking birthday
My friends surprised me on my birthday once. I felt happy at first but after the greetings the feelings are gone and feel like its just a normal thing.
Ill get a call maybe from two people and that's about it
In my opinion, you don't need to die to be dead.
Edit: so, I've read all the replies and I honestly didn't think there'd be so many if you. I hope one day you can all find joy and feel alive again soon. I hope you all fall in love with truly being alive. Good luck 💗
This resonates with me. I feel like the walking dead. Total autopilot. It’s exhausting. I hope you have been freed from this awful state ❤️
That’s sad but so true
@@joleaver7763 Hope you'll feel better soon ❤️
Indeed.
R/I am 14 and this is deep
I did not see this when i was feeling numb.
My mother died, 2 days before my birthday. And I did not feel anything when i heard the news. I forced myself to cry to show my grandmother and family that I was feeling something. I knew that I was feeling numb and openly talked to my sister in law about it, but no one really helped me. So for the rest of the month of February, I felt numb. and let out my anger on my father..
I masked my emotions for so long. I should have looked for this video a long time ago.
i feel you,when my mother was dead i felt nothing my chest was just empty, i went numb and sometimes I let out my anger on my father too...
the things I related to to you
I think I am starting to feel numb more and more as day passes
The way she said “the only problem is that it’s fiction” hit hard
It does.
ikr when im not watching a movie or reading i only have happiness by pretending im in the movie or book...
Mhm
For real
@@rubyw3073 same tbh i have more books then friends XD
"you are on auto pilot" that hit me hard.......I realized that I was waiting a better future version of myself to take control and be productive. It hit hard
me too
Same, day dreaming of a nice and better future while in real life nothing is happening
Yeah, 🥺 God knows when everything will be good inside our mind .
Yes
@L.F.D.F relax take a deep breath and learn to whatever exist and real is this moment not your memories.
Do meditate it'll help you
I relate to all. I’m in counseling but it’s not working. I just feel it’s something I have to do to work to get better. I’m at the point of just giving up and not caring anymore.
Energy of a therapist matters as well. Try changing a therapist, if you haven't. It might help. They all use different strategies.
Somatic experiences go not talk therapy
I co-sign this. I literally don’t care about anything.
The intense feelings of anger really hit hard 🥲
"you don't enjoy big events."
me thinking that christmas is just the same as everyday -_-
every holiday is just like any other day.
ur 9
Same👀 especially this Christmas
Me, but I act the way I used to on the lead up to it because I know that I loved it so much and so that it doesn’t seem like I’ve gone off track and I want to convince myself that I am still the way I should be based on how I actually am but when it comes to it I sit there n just eat and receive stuff, that’s it nothing special no strong joy or excitement but still appreciation for the people and things
Tfw your birthday hasn’t felt special for years 🙃
Been numb from burnout
Oh
Same
Oh, might that be my case? If that's the case what should I do?
it's important to get some rest if you need it 😊
@@Kat-cq5mu sleep
The numbness is eating me alive. 2021 and 2022 were largely pathetic years for me. My grades slumped in 11th and the entirety of that year was frustrating due to covid lockdowns, online school, my grandma passing away and having no friends. I still somehow managed to pass 11th with decent grades. The first half of 2022 was quite good as there was minimal school pressure and i was enjoying the freedom from covid. August 2022 was when things started to go to shit. I had 3 exams, in Aug, Nov and Jan 2023. I screwed all of them up and I just ended up hating myself for it, i lost faith in myself and became numb. Now as i write this is in March 2023, my final exams are over and i did pretty ok. But i still feel numb and i dont think i have recovered from the 2 yrs of trauma yet. I want to feel alive again...
My numbness is eating at me too. In 2020, schools shut down and I didn’t do that great with online school. I also got diagnosed with type 2 diabetes at the end of that year. In 2021, three of my family members had died. The only reason I got by was because I had school, Church, and my friends to “distract” me. In 2022, two out of three of my best friends moved away to a different state. Also at the end of last year I got diagnosed with ADHD and started college. My dad also got diagnosed with cancer. I realized that with the combination of past childhood trauma and everything that has gone on in the past few years I became numb. With the combination of numbness and ADHD I feel like I’m failing.. I often have days where I have no motivation to do anything. I just finished my second term of college and I almost failed all my classes.
I relate to this 100% with my grandpa dying and the school thing and everything, but right after the traumatic events I actually found great success. I actually am engaged and opened my own business. I still feel numb regardless of the accomplishment, if anything it almost makes it feel worse. Glad I’m not alone but it’s hard cause I just want to feel genuine happiness again. I hope we can figure this out and get in a better head space one day.
Find a hobby you like. Passion for something can help. Try something new. A sense of adventure may help stir up your emotions. Humans are not meant to do repetitive tasks everyday that can cause emotional numbness too. So doing new things makes you feel alive.
Sounds like you're doing great though, buddy. I'm here to talk to you if you need to laugh, or vent.
I used to be super bubbly and happy and people said I was the funniest and nicest person they ever met. Everyone wanted to be my friend. However bad things started happening to me and I started feeling stressed and overwhelmed and I had a mental breakdown. After the mental breakdown I felt numb. I felt empty and emotionless. I don’t care about anything anymore. My friends notice that I keep my hood up and hide myself from everyone now. I don’t take my earbuds out. My face, my eyes, everything is empty. All I wanna do is sleep.
Edit: So I felt like this for over a month, and it got worse. I started feeling suicidal. I got help and I finally felt emotions again. I had to cry and cry and cry until I felt ok. I’m slowly getting a little better.
I promise it will get better 💗💗
Alhamdulilah
Im glad ur ok ❤️
The numbness, from my view, happens when something traumatic happens and u block ur emotions to protect urself. It may also be that u dont want to accept ur reality after something bad happens, and numb urself. Having someone to speak to( a loved one is better) helps a lot.
1 : you are living on autopilot
2 : you don't enjoy the happy events, even the big ones
3 : when you do feel something, and it's anger
4 : when you do feel, it's through watching a movie or reading a book
5 : you're dealing with emotional blunting
6 : you can't empathize with others
Thanks for the bullet points. It’s just sad that I finally found something that describes me. Pharma can’t be trusted so I’m not sure where to go next. It’s not like I want to be like this...
@@themicrochip find a therapist to talk to. It may not solve all your problems but it makes it easier when someone can point out your cognitive dissonances and tell you ways to cope that are healthy. I got over my anger issues and hating myself that way. I’m still severely depressed, especially since I haven’t seen a therapist regularly in almost 2 years, but trust me, it might be able to help you
@@beesquestionmark they can’t be trusted. They don’t, wouldn’t, and can’t understand people like me.
@@themicrochip That's a self-fulfilling prophecy. Yes, it can be hard to find the right fit. But you're not allowing the possibility. Psychologytoday allows you to filter for your specific wants in a therapist
Me : all the above please
"Therapy"
Me: My filipino parents sense bullshit.
Try having African ones, "there's no such things as mental illness in our family blood, you're looking that up on the internet"
Try Indian parents who say "You are not depressed, now go to your room and study. You just need to get higher marks. No such thing as depression. You are just reading crap on your phone."
Agreed
Well, shit
this world really is full with shits yall🙃
The bursts of anger are the worst. They happen and you just sit there for a moment and think "WTF was that?!?"
Thanks for the list. I knew I was emotionall, numb for the past 10-15 years, already talked with my therapist about part of it, but it was nice to see the symptoms collected, like a confirmation that "yeah, that is why you felt you are struggling in that situation". One thing my therapist said that might help someone who reads this - and I am reminding myself again and again of this when I feel uncomfortable that I am not empathizing with people why my brain knows it is terrible what they experienced -: is that I have so much of my own problems going on, I just don't have a place for others'. She made the example of a person with broken arm and a person who is drowning. The one who is drowning will not be able to give any care about how terrible breakin an arm is until they themselves are out of the water.
Me: has all the signs of numbness
Also me: I'm fine!
Same
Fine doesn't mean fine. Me and my friend use "fine" as a code, sense everyone know what it actually mean...
...expect her's and my family and friends.
Anyone who is depressed or going through hard times knows what it means though...
@Student Destiny Flores don't worry, you have the strength to survive this...... Actually we all have the strength to survive this.......
same
@@loveroses4556 lmao your nickname is love Roses while mines is dead roses (im using another account)
Whenever I felt numb, I used to watch series and read books to prove myself I’m not. Now I understand why whenever a show ended for days I would feel so bad.
Same
Doing something I'm passionate about can make me feel more alive I guess I could put it.
I watch RUclips. Lol
Me too like I left my family or something
@@ariolejones yes then i start searching for another show instantly just so i can feel at home again
I never thought I was had this, I knew I was numb but I thought it was because I was a bad person. This video really helped me.
I've actually been thinking about this kind of stuff, realizing how I haven't really felt much in a while, like I was more observing than interacting. This video hit home. I relate to all of these bit the medication, as I don't take any of those listed. And then the anger point is true, but instead of anger it's guilt and/or regret for whatever reason.
The empathy part felt real too. My realization of numbness came from a venting friend, and me noticing that I didn't feel bad for her, or empathetic at all. I was just listening, uncertain of what to say.
I know how most of that feels bar the medication and empathy. While I also personally don't feel what they feel and feel nothingness, I feel the ability to empathise is much stronger than usual instead a I'm 99% on point whenever I'm using it. Dunno if it's just a really accurate imagination or just constant lucky guessing
"Your family and friends planned a huge surprise party for your birthday"
Almost every Psych2Go watcher: Is this a trap?
Lol yep 😆
Me who never got a party on my birthday and saw my family planning for it now: Am I in trouble?
I'm like, people get a suprise party?
@@xFireAmy feeling you
What if the instant response to everyone jumping out and the lights coming on "SURPRISE!!!" resulted in throwing myself out the nearest window with a panic-stricken fountain of obscenities???
Haven't even celebrated a birthday in more than a decade... and the possibility concerns me. ;o)
If you ever lived on autopilot.. At least for a few days or weeks ; it's the weirdest feeling ever. Like, you don't socialize as much, you don't realise what's happening. You feel like if you took some drugs or too much medicine. Like if you had a strong fever ; you don't know what's going on. You are there.. Yet you aren't. You kinda feel sad if anything at all.. Yet if someone asked you, you feel nothing. Life passes in front of your eyes and everything becomes obsolete, unimportant. It's just... Weird
This kinda describes what most of middle school was like for me.
All my life. Literally. 65 years of it.
It feels so weird...
It’s kinda nice to me tho
I am on autopilot right now..
Here´s an interesting question:
What if there´s an event that SHOULD make you feel a certain way? I.e. loved one dying or other "traumatic" events, but instead you just feel nothing? Like while everyone is going through the reasonable responses you just kind off accept reality and move towards the next thing without the felt need to grief?
My maternal grandma died during pandemic from cancer. It was not an easy period, she was suffering and we knew what was to come but we tried everything that could help her anyways.
Unfortunately it was not there when she passed away. I received the news on call from my mother crying. I just hummed and went to sleep. The next day went to funeral feel extremely empty. I didn't shed a single tear and i know for a fact a couple of my relatives judged me because of that.
Anyways, i would never admit this irl cause it will be cruel to my mother who was having such a hard time, but the days following her funeral were the happiest days i had that year.
Honestly, i don't want to make excuses but we all have different ways of grieving and some of us have not discovered them yet.
Some of us can't let grief hit us like a train, we need a passage of time to come in terms with the tragedy and more time to deal with it. Sometimes it involves living our life as it was without feeling anything.
But don't worry grief finds it way to come out always
My dad had a heart attack A month or two ago now, and he is fine, but in the process of the whole thing I didn't feel anything, like, at all. I felt numb
@@emu1028how old are you
Me too!!! I really tried to think about when this lack of feeling began and it seems it started with my Grandfather's death. I was eerily numb when it happened and since then it's like I don't have the same capacity to feel as I once did. I really miss it.@@emu1028
@@emu1028same, there was a point in my life when I felt so lively and emotionally rich (I'm 16 rn), I felt pleasure in the simplest of things, but also compassion and grief on sadder occasions. It all seemed so perfect, and at some point I remember feeling like it had to go downhill at some point, it was just this tinge of oversatisfaction, and that scared me. And over the next two years, that is exactly what happened. Now I don't really know who I am. don't feel anything like I used to. Emotions are not entirely uncommon for me, but I mostly think I'm putting on a mask and am never 'happy', so much so that I don't really understand what it means to be genuinely satisfied and happy anymore.
I’ve had small bursts of numbness stemming from a young age, and it honest to god scared me so much that when I went into my teenage years, it had already grown into full blown anxiety.
I guess in my own way, I began to read novels and stories with heavy amounts of angst, and also fluff, and so far, I have not felt so many bursts of numbness that I did throughout my young age.
I suppose getting through novels, which I’ve been reading since I was young btw, heavy or fluffy, has been my coping method with it.
Edit: oh crap, I made this before watching the video and got to the “you only feel stuff through movies or media” 💀 Damn, really got me.
Tbh, I’m in a much happier place now, and if you ask my friends, they can tell you that I’m high strung and optimistic which doesn’t sound very numb, right? Well, I immerse myself in several different things, games, novels, etc. Fiction basically. But I’ve found that if I didn’t have such an interest or if I had never discovered my interest, I would’ve been completely emotionless. Unfortunately, to other people, it just sounds like I base my entire personality on what I’m into at that time….which is completely true now that I think about and write this down. 😅😅😅😅😅😅 Why is that so true it almost makes me want to cry. 😭😭
I feel numb almost all the time, but when I feel something it’s sadness, never anger. I don’t remember ever feeling actually angry tbh, just a bit annoyed sometimes.
same
honestly, me too
Mine is both, anger and sadness but both are terrible and hurt me and the people around me psychically it sucks
This.. i wanted to ask if it then still counts or not..
@@ImkeStevens of course is does, your feelings are valid no matter what. Everyone feels numbness in a different way, there is nothing wrong with that.
I’m not going to lie not being able to empathize one made me feel less crazy. Because normally I’m a very empathetic person and not being able to do that anymore makes me almost feel inhuman. It’s God awful to see myself turn from a nice caring person, to someone that’s dead inside.
I relate to your comment strongly, Maria. Well said.
I know how you feel
That's what's happening to me just now , I used to really care about everyone , now I hardly feel a thing I'm so burnt out and feel so used up
Same
wow. same
I can relate to all signs but mostly 3. It's so on point.. either there is anger or nothing.. I almost like being angry once in a while because its the only time I feel something.
Since I can't cry AT ALL it's my only chance to release emotions and I don't know how to get out of this state :/
When I’m not angry I just feel… tired. Like my soul and spirit are exhausted permanently. I related to some of these signs, but I still feel things and just afterwards I’m drained. Like no amount of physical rest can revitalize the spark I lost.
“You feel great...the only problem is it’s fiction”...eek that’s me
I’ve lost complete interest in hanging out with my friends and I don’t like doing fun activities anymore because they don’t bring me joy and tend to just irritate me. I don’t know why I’m feeling this way. My therapist thinks it’s because I am not busy enough and need to find more things to do. It’s hard to find things to do when nothing sparks an interest at all.
Same
absolutely same... all the passions I had before just make me frustrated too... like why did i even like them in the first place... now they just make me feel emptier because i can't feel what i remember feeling... i feel so weak... like im losing to my own mind
@@siana8807 I feel the same way 😭 it really sucks. I can’t even go for a walk anymore without breaking down crying because other people are walking around with their dogs and it makes me sad to see that.
Yesss. I feel this comment Completely.
Same, the only thing I partially enjoy is playing games, which help me with pain management.
Right when I finished watching this I tried to reflect on what mess of emotions I have in my head. Then when I did I just noped and decided not to feel anything.
"You don't feel like yourself"
I never feel like myself; sometimes I feel like someone else, and other times I might feel like not-me and someone else
I feel emotional numbness since a long time ago, but in the recent years not even fiction is able to make me feel something. I used to love playing video games, especially JRPGs, but not even that makes me feel anything anymore.
I'm really scary about living a life that's not fun anymore. I don't feel excited about anything anymore. The only thing I'm getting better at is at faking my emotions so no one notices. I really don't like to talk about my own problems.
Same, games that I love turns to get boring when you really love it. Until then, some of my favorite hobbies turned numb to me and I didn't feel enjoyment to it anymore.
Same. Nothing is interesting or fun to me anymore. Even the things that I really have a passion to do are slowly becoming uninteresting everyday. And if I do feel something, it’s either anger or sadness.
Towards the end of last month started meditation. First week cried a lot, it really helps me stay focused. Before that I felt stuck in the past mostly angry. What I referred to as being in a coma
Same. I don’t have the confidence to talk to ANYONE about my feelings and anxiety. 😔
ive been feeling the exact same
“you don’t enjoy big events”
**me having an existential crisis before christmas because i’m not five years old anymore**
omg same
same, i miss when christmas used to feel magical and it was the most exiting feeling ever
*Me before Christmas* : **Has a breakdown because I’m not old enough to drink my dad’s beer as I’m unsure of what to get people** (that’s one of the only times I show some kind of emotion).
Dudeee same with birthdays
@@brittg2188 omg ikkkk
last year i was the most numb ive ever felt. and i completely relate to the loss of empathy, and im normally a pretty empathetic person. its so hard to show emotions when you feel absolutely nothing but emptiness inside, and its so uncomfortable. its especially hard to fit in when feeling numb because you can't put yourself into fun conversations you would normally be apart of. the most uncomfortable part of numbness is when someone is extremely happy about something but you just can't bring yourself to care even though you love the person deeply.
I don't know for how long I've been like this, most likely since childhood because I remember being really, genuinely happy and like myself at some point, but from then on, I barely remember any memories except if it was something I did or negative things. In some critical moments when something big happens I feel really shocked as If I just woke up from a comma or deep sleep and everything overwhelms me.
Yep, this is me. I also am constantly disassociating from reality, and I sometimes feel like I'm floating near myself, just observing. I also only feel through my imagination, and feel like I'm on the outside, looking in. And I feel like I'm on autopilot, and have little control over my life.
that sounds really bad. Maybe you should talk to somebody about that?
True, I feel like a puppet controlling by my own self
Same..
You are not alone
@@ohmfg omg that's so me
When your fantasy is fake
And reality makes you cry
Do you ever feel like your stuck in the
Sky?
Stop writing relatable things basically stop writing my life in the comments
I'd really like to be in the sky
Yeah in the sky... with the angels.... in a better place.... =)
@Rose isStudying Ik ik i can understand..it just sux
nice one 👍
This is absolutely me. I've been feeling this way for a long time and I used to say my friend, "It feels like you won't cry even if you're shot with an arrow. No feelings, no emotions. And never feel the pain, because I'm used to it."
I feel very sad now after watching how accurate this describes me. It scares me that no one understands me and that I'm wasting my life and i feel like i won't ever be normal again. sometimes i just remember how hopeful and positive i was about life and just be depressed. I can't get professional help
1. You're living on autopilot 1:15
2. You don't enjoy happy events, even the big ones 2:04
3. When you do feel something, it's anger 2:50
4. When you do feel, it's through watching a movie, TV show or reading a book 3:53
5. You're dealing with emotional blunting 4:51
6. You can't empathize with others 5:54
I hope your pillow is cold on both sides and that your ramen is cooked quickly and perfectly every day🙂❤
Thank you!!
The comment we really needed
@@aliciaaaa200 my god bless such a thoughtful person 😅😂
I cant feel happy sad angry, just i dont care..
The video: "3. When you do feel, it's usually anger."
Me: "Oh, then I'm not numb. I rarely feel angry and I feel something when I watch a TV show--"
The video: "4. When you do feel something, it's through watching a movie or a TV show or reading a book."
Me: "(sigh) ... damn it."
I think it's highly possible other emotions can take over the primary emotion. Like sadness. Or anxiety. That's been my experience - at a hairpin trigger it explodes and I'm crying & my body gets aches from tension in different areas.
And I haven't been taking in fictional media bc I know the feelings they used to give me aren't real & I need to know what's real.
This is really hard. I was actually talking to a friend about how entertainment media can give us (individuals in society) a fuller sense of something we might otherwise experience in a well-rounded, socially-fulfilling life (ie for neurotypical ppl *or* folks who face mental health challenges). I actually wonder if feeling things from media dulls what we're able to feel in other areas, if we rely on escapism to fulfill us. I'm realizing that it doesn't really matter right now bc everything is wrong & bad & I need gas in the tank.
Now it's just overwhelming to even think abt what I want to intake... I've seen it said that some ppl w anxiety watch the same show/movie over & over rather than try something new bc what they know is predictable, reliable for the emotional experience, not a wasted time & energy investment, and for sure not triggering bc we know it start to end. But that's not how real life is either.
I think I watch ppl play video games bc there's a level of socialness overlay on the media I'm ingesting, reminding me it's not real even if it's compelling and giving me a sensation of social interaction, experiencing something "together" w the player in the video on my screen.
Best of luck to you. Being numb fucking sucks. I hope you find a way to feel more w/o too much of that "more" being awful & bad.
@@TrulyAndCompletely I used to believe in coincidences but not now. Your reply came in when I needed it. Just few days ago, I snapped at someone close to me because of something trivial and, due to an old unhealthy habit, I redirected the anger to myself. Afterwards I ended up watching some movies that made me feel something other than the anger. I guess we do consume entertainment media as an escape but, yeah, it also dulls our true emotions. I think some of us who are going through this numbness, including me, have become too afraid and/or exhausted to share and feel emotional experiences with real people. A part of me wants to get professional help but by the end of the day it all goes back to the one question: "Do I want it to change?" We know we need to change something in our life to stop feeling numb; the problem is some of us end up holding on to this numbness because we're used to it even when it sucks. Thank you for sharing your story; it's always good to know that there are those who are trying to go through it. Best of luck to you, too.
@@matorihidensnow2998 I'm glad it was helpful. You can choose to change and still maintain coping skills for tough emotions. As long as you come back around to your feelings - in this case internalizing anger - you can deal w it w ppl who care abt you; I think they'd rather understand how you felt & why you did what you did than let you feel angry towards yourself.
I'm trying to get professional help, too. You're worth investing in; whether or not you seek out a pro brain sleuth, know that being vulnerable opens the door to things getting better. Things you'd never experience if you watch a movie to fix every time you feel bad. You deserve *real* good feelings but it takes consistency in doing hard things.
If this is a sign... You're gonna be okay. And I am, too. 💕
(Oh hey, btw - I've really appreciated reddit communities for putting things in perspective this past year, lurking *and* responding. We're kinder to others than we are to ourselves. Maybe that could help crack open some hard nutshells - seeing what other ppl go through, their questions for the internet, and the cumulative brainpower/experience in the advice given on how ppl deal (and what happens when you don't). Various subreddits; only you'd know what'll be helpful to you.)
SAME MAN
@@matorihidensnow2998 yea, im numb and id love to not be, but i don’t have the energy to fix it and im used to it, its sad tho bcuz im only 13..
The worst thing is when you do let the emotions out and it comes out negatively and then the people around you get so angry and outraged by the outbursts, and don't try find a way around it or to help it
I am way past this - I am good at pretending to be happy if people come over. However, I have locked myself away..
Whenever I'm sad i believe that its just a mood swing, I'll be out of it. And then i do become happy but i feel like my happiness is a phase and sadness is just with me always, even though its hidden. It follows me like a shadow. Anybody else?
Um, yeah 😣
Usually I get a "sad phase" whenever something bad happens (even if it's only mildly upsetting), and it lasts for a little less than a week long. Then I feel mostly fine, but the pain still lingers. It's like an inescapable cycle.
@@LL-nc7ne for me, its like i forget about the event. But the next time something bad happens, i suddenly remember everything. And it is an awful feeling. I just don't want to experience it.
@@apoorva6237 Well I can definitely agree with the fact that I remember everything. It's weird because when I'm feeling okay, I don't remember much about how I felt or why I felt that way. It just comes rushing back to me when I'm back to not feeling good.
@@LL-nc7ne yeah exactly the same, and boom eyes filled up with tears, that weird heart snatching feeling. Ohh it does not feel good
yeah, I will literally make myself scared or cry just to feel something
I was thinking of doing that myself
same🌚
same
This is why I like horror movies
The accuracy
Once upon a time I in school was annoyed so badly I literally burst in tears and then I felt like nothing happened
3:31
With line between first two words and last word: "and you dead"
Without line: "you are dead".
i literally don’t know anymore. im not depressed or sad i just dont feel anything. i only feel genuinely happy in my daydream life, i live the best life in my head, or reading wattpad, but then when its time for a reality check i just feel nothing. 💁
I think I know exactly what you mean
I feel the same way...
Honestly yeahh that's exactly me, like for real the only thing that can make me feel alot of emotions is reading wattpad or just watching movies,,,,,
exactly. and its starting to interfere with my real life too
I thought it was just me... I can feel happy throughout the day with family members or with my best friend, but while everything is going on I fantasize about an alternate world where exciting things happen and I can have a purpose and we could all just have fun going on adventures in this fantasy land. I use so many escape mechanisms to fulfill this desire, sometimes I get so entangled in these thoughts I always feel excited as though I’m preparing to go to that world, only to be hit with the reality that it doesn’t exist. Thinking about growing up and having to deal with adult things and college soon, just everything, it makes me wanna dive deeper into this world I have in my head. It makes me feel like I’m really crazy, but I just feel so disconnected with this world. When I go outside I’m aware that I’m here, but I’m not. I wonder if you feel this way too
One of the worst things about feeling numb is that you feel so hopeless, pathetic and useless. Like you can't stay focused on one thing and get really upset about it because you know deep down how bad you feel. You'll try to read or watch something and find it really hard to stay invested in it because you feel so numb. It's really hard to break the cycle and I'm currently going through a period of numbness so I know how it's like.
I don’t really feel bad or sad about the things I do I don’t really even feel anxiety or stress I know I’m failing school rn but I don’t really feel a type of way about it
Can someone that is human tell me how to go emotional numb? I don't want to feel anything. Feeling is making me a bad person.
@@mattjacobson3616 I think it's better for you to seek professional help. Don't know abt. You, yes we have different preferences and all but numbing your emotions won't resolve all of this. I'm currently experiencing emotional numbness. And for my type, it feels like I'm a walking dead ltrlly.
@@mattjacobson3616 idk I can switch off my emotions pretty easily but I think it’s cause I have another issue but depression can make you numb, starving yourself, being a sociopath but it’s all terrible
@@mathildelongchamps3559 well I thought going emotional numb would be the answer to my problem. After reading your comment it does sound like I would make things worse for myself. Thanks for the reply I can not believe I did this to myself, I've done something's in my past that have hurt me but this takes both the cake and the icing.
Currently going through this as of now. Seeing this made me realize that, despite my current situation, I will eventually be me again.
Sometimes I just snap and think to myself “Oh I’m living. Or aren’t I?”
Yet still being in autopilot
The burden of those autopilot decisions come bite me back hard
The real question is: how do I cure it?
I got out of it by talking more to the others and engaging more in social interactions in general. Also tried stuff I didn't usually do (drawing for example). Getting out of daily routine. Also, I went in some trips, it's amazing how helpful travelling can be.
But the thing that helped me most was the connection with God, the idea that there's a light at the end of the tunnel and that He was near me was very encouraging.
@@a.t.1241 thank you so much for this!!
@@a.t.1241 thank you for this and I agree. I got numb also but in relationships. I will try these tips.
@@a.t.1241 ty :)
@@frigidguyy6316 they make you more numb
I hate how much I can relate to this..
Me too
Eternal life in heaven is a free gift from God. No human being deserves it due to his/her good works. We have all sinned and fall short in glory of God(eg.Jesus says if any man looks at woman with lust he has committed adulterly with her in his heart..No man is that pure😅). So how did God give us this free gift🤔? He sent his only begotten son to be betrayed,humiliated ,beaten and die as fine/payment for our sins and rose from the dead on the third day. Since he is a just God and has to punish sin. All you have to do is humbly repent of all your sins(read the 10 commandments) honestly turn away from them. Believe in/trust that Jesus did that for you. Confess with your mouth that he is your lord and saviour..You will be saved from hell🔥. The holyspirit(his omnipresent spirit) will in dwell within you and convert your cold heart of stone into that of flesh that can truly love God and be a slave of righteousness and not of sin. This might be the last time you read the true gospel of salvation..look around 🔥🔥 the end is nigh. Please don't reject God's gift. Your soul is on the line.Jesus loves you❤
@@keyboardevangelist8956 no jesus don't love us and that works for yourself not for others you may not see but this is nothing more then toxic
So just stop with your religion cause that's not how it works
You didn't even ask to the person if he/she wanted something like that you just said it
*Don't do that*
@@keyboardevangelist8956 Isn't it a sin to live-
@@lyx8039 i'm asking the same thing to my self.
The only thing that kind of had any emotional reaction was watching your videos and realizing how broken I actually am.
I always knew I'm kind of depressed and have a little anxiety, but I realized it's not just a bit, it's very close to the extreme spectrum. The only thing that is keeping me from harming myself really is that I just don't care if I feel anything. I realized that I should get help asap
For number 3, I'm wandering if the "strong feeling" can be fear/anxiety, instead of anger?
If so, I can relate with every single point in this video 😅
Btw , thank you so much for these short and very understandable videos, they really help me understand a lot more about different mental health issues. It is extremely useful as a future health professional, but also for personal understanding and growth
i can relate to you, i dont have much anger, but my anxiety is so amped up its crazy
other than anxiety i dont feel anything, happiness, sadness, satisfaction, empathy, love etc
Same. No positive feelings, just anxiety and anger. It cripples me. I miss feeling love.
I feel you
anger is a byproduct of fear
@@hx9801same but I have cptsd so if could be that?
I don’t want to think about how I feel or I’ll realise how sad I am ¿ ✌🏻
But you should deal with your problem and face it. Be patient with it. Ik its hard Im going through the same thing, but we can do this.
Choosing to ignore it won't make things better. Trust me you will pay for it in future.
I tell you I did that during the day and became hella sad. Guess there's a whole lot of things that is still wrong with me.
Im not sure what you faced in life but God loves you :)
Relatable
I used to laugh with a meaning, now it's for the better of the next person. Anyone else?
I often think back to when I was really happy many years ago, and how i used to laugh with my heart. Right now I don't even know how to smile...
I relate. And I hate my laugh.
Yes and or it's that one small spark of happiness that happens.
Same I always add ahahah to my messages now even tho it's not really funny
A lot of the time , yes. And then I hate myself for not being genuinein my laughter, and when if I don't laugh I blame myself for being such a bitter, lonely person.
I like being numb, it's what I know. Now I know it's not healthy but being numb is also a chore. It makes depression worse cuz I get envious of others who can feel just fine.
I been feeling like this lately. No matter how many times I rant to people about it I feel like I’m just dumping my own mental health problems on them. Even for friends when they vent I give them advice but I secretly I know the advice I give them will make them feel better. I cannot really puzzle the pieces together of what I’m struggling through, Neither I say people sometimes find hard for me to talk or I have hearing problems or even a little joke that not that deep still hurts me and even tho it’s a joke I would be called sensitive if I even told that the joke is not that deep. Now everything that people talk to me I just say: “I don’t know.” Because I really don’t even now I’m saying I don’t know because I don’t know what wrong with me I cannot really name what’s going on but yeah..
I've been so absent minded with stuff lately, i can't concentrate on whatever the conversation is ,i can't process whats going around me it's all blank inside and outside and idk what to do with this.
“You can’t empathise with people”
Me: Fu-
I peep xiao
I felt this at a personal level LOL
@@alessiazuppardi8849 xiao xiao
I genuinely cry and become heart broken because the characters that bring me joy, comfort, and I'm in love with aren't real and never will be. They can never say it to me directly and I'll never be able to hug or be comforted by them when i need to. Ig that's why I spend so much time daydreaming pretending they're with me
I enjoy crying when watching stuff like pixar films.
That's the only time when I feel stuff, feel touched.
You may want to find someone as soft hearted as you and cry and laugh together watching stuff you both enjoy.
I bet that should make you feel more connected and alive.
I myself am a 20 something year old male, I don't identify as a female but I wish I were one because that should make it easier for me to do the same thing, finding a softie buddy to cry with at movies.
I'm guessing you're a girl, should be easier for you to find a person who can empathize with you.
Mind you it won't be EASY, but should be easier than if you were a boi.
Stay alive, buddy.
It's obvious you crave a friend you can share emotions with, so go find that person.
Be on guard though, you are a vulnerable individual, easy prey, be on guard.
But never lose hope.
Why tf do I relate to this so much
That's literally me everyday wtf-
Bro. Why is this me to a tee
Oh my, I can relate to this so much. I ususally make up fictional characters and stories around them and then put me inside of it. This way I have people who I feel like they care for me. But all of this only in my head. Whenever I can I think/daydream these stories to feel. Sometimes I cannot sleep without thinking of them.
I told my mom how I felt.
1 year has passed since then and nothing has changed.
No one helped me when I asked for it.
And when they asked me to help them, I was always there for them.
That's why I became a crazy aggressive person.
this is so true, as a person who suffers w numbness for awhile now, I always get so mad easily, I feel so numb, and I feel like I cant be happy for others, nor for myself. When it’s my birthday, I just feel numb. I definitely feel anger by just such little thing. Just today, I punched my friends in the face just because she mocked me.
I cry a lot during movies and TV shows (even parts that aren't sad) but it seems like that's the only time I can cry. This video really hit home.
Dang that hit hard :-:
Same ;_;
I have the same thing
Me too!
OMG SAME
I was having this deep talk with my brother once and he became genuinely concerned I wasn't crying or expressing emotion when I mentioned how much I was struggling. I can also relate to living on autopilot and only experiencing emotions when reading or watching something that's completely unrelated to my own life. I also get easily pissed off due to the smallest things and find myself dissociating when I get stressed out.
This is really me right now. And i am actually scared and I don’t know what to do
This is too accurate on how I feel. I'm scared
@Pop11n H34dz Tbh I feel this way, I've been feeling this way for 7-8 months (since July/August) and I don't really care at all, I can relate to every single signs in this video, add in irritatibility when I talk to anyone and we're good, I'm currently forcing myself to type this so that maybe someone has an idea on how to fix it, and hopefully something that I haven't already tried yet. Even tho my irritability is slowly starting to leave and I can handle normal conversations again. I just feel extremely irritated when someone tries to make me empathize or when I hear someone's problems. I can kinda see where this comes from but it doesn't really affect me anymore to know or not, I just hope someday I'll be back to normal, even tho I don't hope as much as I did at first and it doesn't do anything to me anymore to know that I'm in this state. I started focusing at school again 4 weeks ago because I had completely lost my motivation and stopped concentrating since the beginning of last year. I also (somehow) found something that gives me interest sometimes like, once every 3 or 4 days, which is studying the human brain because there's a huge amount of knowledge. Sometimes I don't know what to do with the rest of my days, I only get scared a few times when I'm on my way back home, especially when I finish school early because I don't know what I'm gonna do at home, nothing interests me, nothing related to dopamine attracts me either. I didn't know I could do that but, I lay in my bed, I don't sleep, I just lay in my bed, doing nothing, for hours until it's long enough for me to go to sleep and wake up early in the morning to do this again.
@Pop11n H34dz i feel like this may be me with my boyfriend, he tells me he feels this way a lot but i’m no fully grasping the concept. i rlly want to be there for him i just really don’t know how
bro same
Ok this is so off topic but that part where the character sits in the classroom, the head PERFECTLY aligned with the circular play button on my phone when I paused and it was soooooo satisfying. 😫
I remember my parents saying that I'm someone who doesn't have emotions. I do have it but I'm numb from everything now.
''when you DO feel, it's through watching a movie or TV show, or reading a book'' it's the first time i can relate to something that much...i was thinking i was just a weirdo who don't feel anything except despair and anger irl
edit : ''you can't empathize with others'' *ok so this video is my life i-*
Yes.. and that's why I am addicted to kdrama and movies cause the only time I feel normal, or feel anything for that matter, is when I am watching some show
samee i only feel something good when I'm watching anime or thinking about it
but in real life I'm just like ew what is this hell
@@11037_kuwata ikr ?
Why is this me too???? I would however like to add "playing a game", jrpg or otherwise, listening to music and watching anime...(also including hentai)
And BTS content, be it reactions to them or BTS themselves posting things.....
@Jessica Stein ikr ? the first time someone is like me lol. i can read how people feels just like if they were an open book, but i don't feel anything myself. happy or sad, i'll see it but definitly don't feel it. that's why i'm bad with helping people feeling better sometime, i bank everything on the words since i'm really not tactile (some reasons for it tho). i don't automatically comfort them, but i know how to react to some things.
I'm not numb... I have become COMFORTABLY NUMB©®™ _Sickest guitar solo of all time plays_
*Plays Linkin Park's "Numb"*
Is anybody in there?
@@c.3 relax... its just a litle pin prick...
@@krsmanjovanovic8607 there'll be no more AAAAA
This made everything so clear… currently bawling my eyes out and that feels so good
Does anyone feel like they have to act “happy” like smile or laugh in front of your friends just so you’re not awkward or don’t draw attention? Whereas your generally numb and just don’t feel anything. That’s me all the time. When my friend shows me a video that she finds funny, I feel like I am forced by a being or person to laugh so that I could fit in.
Same
i think everytime i go to work i will just smiling and pretend to laugh when thing a not even funny for me, pretend to be happy, pretend that im okay, dont know how to say no or refuse. dont know how to get angry. all i do is smile. but at home, i cant even smile for myself. empty. maybe this is why i dont even have 'friend'.
i do this but because i don't want to disappoint or hurt my friends/loved ones. i don't want them to think something's wrong so I'll act and if they do notice I'm a little off, i don't want them to feel like they are subpar or that they don't make a positive difference in my life. So i act.
Same
Same, after all these years I'm left with a strange and barely noticeable smirk as my default face
I realize I feel emotional numbness when I know I feel sad, I can't show any emotion and confused, but when I watch a movie, I cry when the character's having a problem, I feel happy when they're enjoy their life, etc.
Sounds to me like your an empath. I think being an empath and feeling everyone else's feelings is so draining that we just don't have anything left to feel our own feelings. I am an empath and I've realized I feel others feelings way more than I feel my own. I've struggled with depression and anxiety basically my whole life but for the past couple years I've been feeling numb. It's exhausting and infuriating!!
Well.... I'm an empath then.
i feel super numb pretty much all the time but recently as i was reading a story and a the antagonist toyed with the life of an innocent person, making the protagonist beg, before killing them in cold blood and i remember just seeing a line about their body and sobbing. i hadn’t cried in forever but that one scene had me on the kitchen floor scream crying like my child had been killed. it was nice being hysterical while it lasted.
This sound like me, i feel the emotions when im watching a movie or online but when im not i can't empathise or feel anything. Like when my grandmother died i knew i should feel sad or mad or something but i couldnt.
Fact
I've been in this state for many months now, following the unexpected death of my best friend last December... 10 months ago now. Outwardly it may seem I've moved on, as my low points don't show on my face and I act animated and "happy", but truth be told... nope. None of it's fake, but it's not filled with genuine happiness. I feel exactly like was described in the video, as on "autopilot", an empty shell. Lack of empathy is a big one, and I'm usually one who's the exact opposite. I noticed I feel a bit aggravated when, when asked how I am, and I just say "fine", people'll say, "Good!" or, "How've you been?" And I'll say, "Busy. Just busy." "Good, I'm glad life's going good for you." I just smile. 🙃 It's hard wanting to be honest about how you're actually feeling yet lack that certain ear from another to allow you to feel safe to actually open up..
"what do you plan to do next." After this sentence i saw myself in a place of action, thus i grab my rope by who not other but Thou who asked pushed me into it.
May the Rope be with you.