Citizen Soldier - Monster Made of Memories (Official Lyric Video)
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- Опубликовано: 17 май 2022
- Nothing scares me more than my memories.
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Normally don't check out merch but I think I might this time :) You guys are awesome! ❤️
I wish I had money to get all your merch
You guys are awesome and should be supported
I fckng love it!!!! Begging record it angrier. ❤
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"It's alive like a parasite inside of me, and it feeds on the trauma of what used to be" - is a lyric that speaks to my soul
И от которого не избавится. Забудешь но он придёт в твоем сне ........
My anger and thinking
This song Just is a story of my own battle with trauma that all this is
Same here
Yeah same
As a teenager with PTSD, this hits me hard. I’ve been listening to you for years and it’s always helped me through my hardest times. I’ve had so many people tell me I’m wrong for having PTSD because I’m “too young”, or never been in war. But this illness is caused by more than war and any age can have it. Thank you Citizen Soldier for being with me, this song will always be one of my favorites.
Your emotions are absolutely valid and real, people trying to invalidate that are wrong, plain and simple. I hope you can manage not to let words like that affect you too much and perhaps find some further help through therapy. All the best
I totally agree with what you have said.... I also have PTSD and have had it pretty much all of my life.
I’m 22 and I have had ptsd since I was 8 so I understand your pain @Rei I hope you get better and find the best ways to cope with it, mine is listening to music or punching a punching bag
I got PTSD at 13 and just found their songs when this one released. I definitely agree that music helps disorders and nobody is to young for it. And yeah..it helps other disorders as well
Same here. Im a bit older and can tell you it never gets easier for most of us but you'll learn to live with it. Just keep going young buddy
"I'm a cage, I'm a prison for what no one sees"
That hits deep
You guys are so great
You seriously need more listeners and fans ❤️
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Iw so you don't have you
Honestly the fact you say if he's on the trauma of what used to be just hit my hard too hard it makes me think of my trauma and I want it to just go and leave me alone
This describes exactly what I feel. My dad was very physically abusive and my mom was very emotionally manipulative. All I remember is the memories and it causes me panic attacks. All night and everyday all I do is replay the memories. It’s like I’m alive but trapped in the memories. Amazing job capturing what people feel when memories haunt them.
We hear you 🧡 Hope the music helps
I hope everyone who's having a hard time sees this and knows that they are not alone, and you're stronger than you think ❤
Well said 🧡
Holy Heck, you guys are on a grind this week! Or at least posting wise! You guys are amazing and I hope you guys are taking breaks! These songs are helping me through my dark days and I wanna let you guys know how must h your songs mean!
Appreciate that 🧡
I’m pretty sure they have had the songs released, but they have just been releasing the lyric videos all at once
I think they're about to drop an album
@@dameonlamb5368 this is the first song of new album
Same I'm going through to and there songs are so amazing
I related to "Ashamed like I'm sleeping with the enemy" It's how I feel a lot of the time. I feel like my memories are keeping me awake, and ashamed of what I remember in the past, it's like a monster on my shoulders that was made of things I wished to forget. You guys are truly amazing, and I hope you keep doing what you are doing. And don't forget to look after yourself too! Since you do so much for us! So many songs in one week is crazy! I loved them all!
me too
Even when I was little, I've felt my body was a cage for what's inside that is actually me. I want out.
I love your songs
Thanks Lyra 🧡!
Saw the notification and clicked immediately! All your songs are great, keep up the good work. 💙
Appreciate the support 🧡
To all those who need to hear this. You are loved. You are wanted. “What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger”. “No pain, no gain.” You are all living proof of these quotes. Your abuse hurts and will probably continue hurting but this will make you a stronger person. Your bravery and strength to hold on will be rewarded in the future. Don’t give up now because there is so much out there worth living. If you die, you’ll never experience the joy and happiness of life. You’re your own jury, your own judge. Don’t look at others. Only look at yourselves because you matter. You always have, ever since you were born, and you always will. “Every child deserves a parent but not every parent deserves a child.” You aren’t the monster. Whoever is torturing you is. Love yourself and others will love you. Respect yourself and other will respect you. “Your abuse is your glory” as Citizen Soldier has said in one of his songs. Your abuse is your glory and the story you will write in your future. No one is like you. God makes everyone different and if you die. Your uniqueness dies with you. No one wants that. If your loved ones can’t see that then they are not truly your loved ones. There is no one else like you. Don’t think you are inferior. Everyone is the same. What matters is what’s in your heart, nothing else. Remember that and live your life to the fullest so one day, you can look back and say “I really did it all.” Live life with no regrets and leave this world happily knowing you experienced everything you’ve ever wanted. Karma will punish those who’ve hurt you and Karma will reward you for your glorious bravery. You’re the next generation and the warriors of this world. You’re special. One day this world will see that. Everyone who’s ever doubted you will see that. You don’t need anyone’s approval other than your own. Never forget that and live a life full of love, happiness and fulfilment. We’re all with you :)
Sorry if I started rambling but seeing all these comments about how people have suffered just made me want to say this to everyone who needs it. I hope you don’t mind if you’ve read all the way to here and sorry if I wasted your time but I’ll always be here for anyone who needs to vent.
Can I give you my Facebook or discord? I don't feel comfortable venting on here
My friend, I’m so sorry but I don’t have facebook. I don’t really know what discord is but if it can be accessed on ipad without the app then I’d be happy to help :)
It's the weight of things that gets a person and many many years of no happiness, even when a person has tried very hard for happy times, but awesome rant, alot of people need to hear that
"But I know the devil, and he told me I'm fine
What doesn't kill you will only make you stronger
That's what everyone keeps tellin' me
I'd rather capsize than chase an old horizon" -5fdp
“Up all night cause we can’t sleep
With a monster made of memories”
Bro I’ve never heard more relatable lyrics in my life😎
Agreed 💯, Literally been up all night again,
Random thought but this line always reminds me of one of the songs in Willie Wanka and the chocolate factory sorry just ignore this comment I just had to say it
My life has been okay lately, but my thoughts are making me so afraid that I'll be the reason it gets bad. You guys always release music at the perfect time. Stay gold 💙
Glad the music helps 🧡
My mental health has been in the toilet as of late and these songs seriously help me cope. Hell, I used I'm Not Okay to convey to my husband just what exactly is going on in my head. I appreciate you guys so freaking much. You have no idea.
You might also need my little secret sorry if I wrote the name wrong I'm still new to these amazing artists.
They play to my soul
Btw I hope your doing better. Be strong 💪🌟
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This is exactly what i needed at this point in my life. I'm currently in therapy for PTSD and in my last session, we talked about this very topic. Thank you citizen soldier, you deserve so much more credit than you are getting.
God damn you guys are on a grind with these new songs, you’d expect the quality to be lower with the amount of songs you guys are posting but it just keeps getting better
Happy to hear that 🧡
This has been blasting all day! 🧡 you guys are amazing 👏
Appreciate you Heather 🧡
This will be blasting on my phone for a long while. As someone who do have traumas, this is on point. Many nights I stay awake or have nightmares about these. Sometimes waking up with tears in my eyes. It's not always easy to live with this. Being paranoid that it can happen again... But I keep my head up and try to keep going forward. Kicking my ass to move on 💙
Stay strong friend 🧡 Much love
''And it feeds on the trauma of what used to be'' hit me real hard
This song hits hard in all of the right ways. There's a lot of misconception when it comes to mental health, such as the outside perspective of "they looked fine to me"
Probably the toughest misconception though is that getting help makes it all go away. It doesn't make everything just magically disappear... just makes it easier to live with it.
Absolutely love this song!!!🧡 it’s like you guys are always able to read my mind. Can’t wait for the rest of the album!!🧡😆
More on the way Jaimie 🧡
Thank you, Citizen Solider. You have saved my life, and many, many others. We all hope y’all are doing okay and enjoying where you’re at in life rn. Have a great day ☺️💙
You have a great day too 🧡
I had never even heard music that was specifically about trauma.. This is amazing..
For those who have a traumatic experience (like me) this is a very in-depth music because of the lyrics... The memories are controlling my mind... everyday is a huge battle.. I'm sick of the bad, terrifying experiemces, memories.. I wish I could forget them...
We hear you Sofi 🧡 Much love to you
This is bringing tears to my eyes. I've never heard anyone say exactly what I feel like this before. I don't sleep at night cause my brain is going through every bad part of my past even stupid little moments that no one else would remember like embarrassing myself in front of a friend etc. Thank you so so much I needed this song more than anyone will ever know.
Just told my mom I have depression and it went good I suppose and now this is just pure amazement you guys are the best thank you
Glad the music helps 🧡
Not even 30seconds in and I know it's yet another masterpiece. New song from Citizen Soldier first thing in the morning is something awesome to wake up to
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As someone with ptsd, this song helps explain how it feels more than I ever could
This is exactly the song I wanted to hear. my emotions cannot be put into words. but I will say one thing, Thank you for such a wonderful song. this song is soothing to me.
it's a good day when there's new Citizen Soldier music
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Wooooow En cada cancion mejoran mucho, esto deberia inspirar a muchos, muchas felicidades y sigan haciendo grandes canciones :D
Gracias 🧡
these lyrics hit hard
"every thought is like a Hurricane,Destrorying everything but it leaves no trace
" four walls made of skin feeling paper then dont know if they can take what they're holding in"
" ashamed like im sleeping with the ememy"
"it's alive like a parasite inside of me and it feeds on the trauma of what we used to be"
AND ALL THE REST NGL like i cant even explain how much i relate to this damn song and most of the rest for that matter i just CANT
First day of summer vacation and one of the hardest-hitting songs I've ever heard drops. Well done!
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Hooold up you guys, I feel like a spoiled kid now after getting so many songs :DD thank you so much for making me feel like it is Christmas already!
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This song has got to be my next theme song! I love your music! It's helped me through so much. Thank you 💚
Glad the music helps 🧡
I've made several OCs just based on individual songs by one of citizen soldiers, all of their works speak deeply to my heart
Your music always helps me with my darkest days and moments. You have saved my life in many ways even my relationship.
Amazing, powerful song!!
The simple line, "Of what used to be" made my cry. I wish it was all in the past, but more of these "memories" that are killing me are being made every day.
Thank you guys! I battle with anxiety, depression.. but you are helping me. ❤️
Glad the music helps 🧡
Once again youve dropped another song that hits home for me at just the right time! Love what yall do! Keep it up!
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Gotta say this describes ptsd perfectly. It really puts into perspective what we go through on a daily basis. Thanks for another amazing song
I love every song y'all do... I've been in such a depressed state lately and unsure how to get out of it.. the mental hospital tried giving me antidepressants which made me wanna die even more.. been told my whole life that it's just a phase and suck it up because no one needs to hear what you have to say.. it's hard to open up to people without having those memories.. thank you for the songs, they are the only thing that's keeping me alive
And again a brilliant song that speaks out of the soul!! Music takes over where words stop
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This song is so catchy, I just know it's going to be playing in my head for years to come
This came out while I was going through a bad period, my mind stuck on the years I spent being bullied. Life's better, but this song sums up the PTSD really well, which is actually nice when you consider how lonely it can feel. It's ond thing to know in your head that others feel like you do, but having an anthem for the feeling really drives that knowledge into your bones.
Thank you for giving me music that I need.
Never seen you guys push so much music out at once, love the songs. Don’t wear yourselves out too much ❤️
Woke up again in the pouring rain
I feel the windows shake, thunder in my brain
Every thought is like a hurricane
Destroying everything but it leaves no trace
Four walls made of skin feeling paper thin
Don't know if they can take what they're holding in
It's death-threat, déjà vu, out for blood again
It's out for blood again (it's out for blood again)
I'm a cage, I'm a prison for what no one sees
Ashamed like I'm sleeping with the enemy
No one believes me, but I'm six feet deep
It's a monster made of memories
It's alive, like a parasite inside of me
And it feeds of the trauma of what used to be
But there's no shred of evidence 'cause I don't bleed
From this monster made of memories (woah-oh, woah-oh)
Monster made of memories (woah-oh, woah-oh)
Monster made of memories
My darkest own made a creature
That feeds on the fear of everything I can't forget
It walks beside me, gun against my head
So I look terrified 'til I've paid the debt
Four walls made of skin, feeling paper thin
And I know they can't take what they're holding in
It's death-threat, déjà vu, out for blood again
It's out for blood again (it's out for blood)
I'm a cage, I'm a prison for what no one sees
Ashamed like I'm sleeping with the enemy
And no one believes me, but I'm six feet deep
With a monster made of memories
It's alive, like a parasite inside of me
And it feeds of the trauma of what used to be
But there's no shred of evidence 'cause I don't bleed
From this monster made of memories
Up all night 'cause I can't sleep
With a monster made of memories
Keeps me scared, so it can feed
It's a monster made of memories
Up all night 'cause we can't sleep
With a monster made of memories
Keeps us scared, so we won't speak
It's a monster made of memories
I'm a cage, I'm a prison for what no one sees
Ashamed like I'm sleeping with the enemy
No one believes me, but I'm six feet deep
With a monster made of memories
It's alive, like a parasite inside of me
And it feeds of the trauma of what used to be
But there's no shred of evidence 'cause I don't bleed
From this monster made of memories
Up all night 'cause we can't sleep
With a monster made of memories
Keeps us scared, so we won't speak
It's a monster made of memories
Whenever I feel the worst you release a new song as if you know about it lol.. Just thank you for every single masterpiece 💕
This will always and forever be my number one favorite song by y'all. I love all of y'all's music but this one helps keeps some thoughts in check and keep me on a balanced level. Thank you for y'all's music. Since I've become clean from my addiction y'all's music has helped me so Damm much over these past 6 months.
Thank you for all the songs you make!! They are amazing!! Each one is a masterpiece 💜💜
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HELL YEAH! Been waiting all day for this and it’s spectacular! Can’t wait for the rest!
More on the way 🧡
Thank you for making amazing songs like this it really helps me with how I feel
Every song you guys put out is written in such a profound and deep way. Honestly every song you make hits hard and I hope you guys get more recognition for it
Absolute goosebumps every time I listen. This song is amazing and captures the trauma, the triggers… everything. Thank you once again for this amazing music!! I can’t wait to re-listen with headphones and bass!!!
Glad the music helps 🧡
Another great song. Thank you guys for always being awesome. This has helped me when I needed it.
Glad the music helps Logan 🧡
This is by far one of my favorite songs EVER! It’s relatable, heavy, and the vocal work is otherworldly. I wasn’t expecting to be awake for a release though lol.
This song is just the best definition of PTSD I ever was blesed to see. I love your songs, they always have so much true and energy that makes people feel like there is someone who really understands and wants to help. THAT is one of the best ways that song can hit. Really good job
Pqp,nossa essa banda é muito bom 🔥🔥🔥
Instagram só anda mostrando coisa boa
Cabei de ver aq também slc
Verdade
Realmente
Decorei todas já, sem papo
Ediçao rapida e criativa, voz maneira, letra interessante, ritmo dahora... Gostei muito
God, is there anything better than a song with deep lyrics in a clean vocal but with some screamo additions? Please I want more of it. Even if these times are already over I still want to listen to this kind of music. This is meant to make us, the listeners, scream out of our lungs everything we keep inside. I'm so sad I didn't discover you like 2 years ago
Totally what it's like to live with PTSD that's always hunting you.
Amazing song ❤
I love all the work y'all put into these amazing songs, keep it up I love y'all 💙
Thanks Alasia 🧡
"It's alive like a Parasite inside of me" Hits the hardest for me, my Trauma is like a living creature I can't control
I can't express how glad I am to have songs like yours in this world. Knowing there are songs out there that I can relate to really helps with the daily struggles
I don't think you understand, I am OBSESSED with this song. It's scratching an itch I've had front and center for a solid couple years and I can't stop playing it.
The chorus gives me literal chills! Absolutely in love with your consistent often releases! Keeping me hooked to you on loop forever!
Glad to hear that 🧡
Каждый трек - хит! Так держать ребята! Обожаю вашу музыку!
It seems like every single time the monsters born of the memories of trauma show themselves, you put out a song (or two) that hits me right in the soul.
You guys rock, and I can't thank you enough for making music that has such a heavy yet positive impact on my life. ❤️
I appreciate everything you do Citizen Soldier!! Your songs are so amazing and they mean a lot to so many people!!!
listened for 2 hours straight last night, so excited for this new era 🧡🧡
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I am too
Another masterpiece that speaks from both mind and soul. You guys are awesome 💜
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"It walks beside me, gun against my head
So I live terrified 'til I've paid the debt"
Much love!
Jake , who needs diamonds...you guys are the gift that keeps giving!
Gave me chills!
Epic song cant wait for more♥️
More on the way 🧡
Love these songs that keep coming out keep fighting the good fight guys and have a good day
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All your songs are wonderful. They make me feel such deep emotions. Not many bands can make me feel this much. Keep making these amazing meaningful songs that help people get through a hard time because you truly make a difference.
This song hit me hard as my son is struggling. Please keep doing what you do and thank you for touching lives and making a difference through your music.
You guys keep releasing bangers! You're definitely becoming one of my favorite bands! 🤟🧡🧡🤟
This is sooooo good. Every song of yours is a Masterpiece
Thanks Rina 🧡
I couldn't have said it better. I have had PTSD for about 26-27 years now. It has been one hell of a ride, though it has gotten better
Your songs are special, they are speaking out the real pain, what I feel, what many feel. Bless you. You are my favorite.
Much love 🧡
I love your songs! thank you guys for existing and for giving us the pleasure to be able to listen to your songs ♡♡
No, thank you for listening 🧡
Чёрт возьми, это пушка!!!Обожаю вас, ребят🖤
"It's alive, like a parasite inside of me. And it feeds on the trauma of what used to be"
I felt that, since it's how I feel. Your songs really helps me with what I'm going through, thank you!
Please release the full version of this song when I first heard it it tugged on my heartstrings and I felt like something in me mended itself back together. You’ve made amazing music and the world needs to hear this song so those struggling with any adversity in their lives know they don’t have to burn the books of their stories untold. Thank you for showing this portion of this great song.
I live your songs so much, not only are they relatable, but you are a lyrical genius and your voice is so beautiful. You need more appreciation and more fans
I was listening to this song a couple of minutes ago!!! This song is amazing. I love your songs they've helped me out so much 💖💖💖❤️♥️💕💕💖 I've been through a lot so you mean a lot to me!!
Glad the music helps 🧡
@@CitizenSoldier So much your lyrics are amazing!! 🧡
That's my absolute jam.I am going crazy over this song and it's on repeat on Spotify.Every band member goes hard and gives their 100% talent.
All of your songs help me through my depression and keeps me from ending it all reminding me that this is only temporary.
God bless you all and may you have long and happy lives. Thank you.
My God this is thr first some I've hear of you guys and this song blows me away it's a good impression of how awesome you guys are are just from this song keep it us don't stop
Glad you found us 🧡
I've been listening to this song on repeat! You guys did an amazing job on this one, it's such a head-banger. Keep up the good work, I can't wait to hear what's next! 🧡🧡🧡
When I found you guys a year or so ago I loved your messages. Face to Face absolutely hit home for me as far as my past traumas. I think this one has just dethroned Face to Face in my mind with You are Not Your Past sharing the throne. I have chills and goosebumps from how close to home this feels to what I went through (and partially still am) ❤ Please keep making music that can touch troubled souls like me and help us heal
Killer start to a new album. Love love love. Perfect for my mood today. Thanks Citizen Soldier.
Here we go! Been waiting for this video 🧡
Us too 🧡
These songs never fail to draw me in and give words to feelings that have never been spoken. Thank you for what you do, Citizen Soldier. As always, stay safe and keep making your amazing music~ 🧡
I'm loving this song, and am very excited to hear the rest of this album.
Ahhhhh! How do you guys keep releasing INCREDIBLE MUSIC?!
Thanks 🧡
Intrusive thoughts
Paranoia
Trauma
All those im suffering with but your band has helped me so much
So thank you 😁❤
You're songs are so deep and emotional. Thanks for being there for me.❤❤❤
This sums up my past. I still battle with it today but I fight daily to be on top and now I'm happily married with a baby on the way. But I swear there isn't a day my memories of my past don't haunt me, but they also feed me to be what I've become! Love your music and the way I interpret it and use it as fuel! Always saying the words i never could