I feel you! it was 3.30am in Russia and I also had insomnia, but I was able to watch Jake going live on tik tok! Definitely not going to be salty about it
“What a terrifying place, left alone here in my head” a poor mental state, like mine, makes your head and inner thoughts hell to be around or live with
i feel like a lot of these lyrics call back to past songs. "i cant forgive, i cant forget" (youre always in my head) - I Hope It Haunts You "the darkest part of me" (im gonna burn it to ashes) - The Cage and not exactly, but "i will not be defined by the life i left behind" makes me think of "i refuse to be defined by what i almost did that night" - Stronger Than My Storm there are probably others, that's just what stood out off the top of my head. anyway, amazing job as always! I'm loving the defiantly hopeful tone of a lot of the latest songs
"I fought the devil and I'll live to tell" I have gone throught a lot, I have cried and I have struggled. But one thing is certain, my Body and mind want vengence over all those bad moments and are willing to live throught more pain and struggle to prove people with evidence that even insignificant people like me can become so much more than they thought they were. I have fought the devil, and I live to tell the tale.
This is why I love rock and metal. Your song is ABOUT something, and it's about something important; living with your scars, standing up to your problems, making a change for yourself. And man, it sends that message in a way that frickin slaps. Well done, looking forward to more
I agree, but I believe Hopsin’s “the ill mind of hopsin” 5-9 all have a decent meaning behind them as well. Having said that, nothing beats citizen soldier
I did fight the devil in me and lived. I just got out of a state psychiatric hospital a few days ago after being there 7 months and let me tell you. Having a good support system helps. If ANYONE needs a good support system, just ask for help. I know it's hard, but it's a huge relief to get it out. Thank you guys for your music. It has helped me a lot this past year.
I always love these songs, they are filled with burning passion that is addicting. I just love the choice of dialect as well, is unique and powerful. They lyrics could have been "I won't give up without a fight" but instead "I'd rather die on my feet, than live of my knees". It had similar sentements, but they way the lyrics are written feels more powerful, and I absolutely love it. Keep up this amazing work.
Maybe it’s possible you’ve found this out already (and partly thinking out loud) So you’d rather resonate with this song and agree with “damn my life sucks” and continue to live like that and live in that clouded vision, rather than _doing _*_something_* about it and taking it upon yourself to get to the point to where you finally don’t relate to the song at all? That’s the end goal from what I can tell.
Thanks for putting out such a inspirational song.. i am a 54 yr old woman who is battling stage 3 cervical cancer.. everyday im face to face with my devil.. this song gives me more drive to keep pushing thru.. today is the first time i heard this song called face to face.. it rocks and its a song that has so much meaning when i listen to it.. my life is worth the struggle.. keep jammin out songs like this.. it gives people like me who are facing real demons hope to keep fighting thru everyday.. i will be jamming out to this song during my chemo treatment.. thank you for this song #FCANCER
"If i face my darkest days will i finally make my peace". This just is so true. Exactly now. Everyone has something that is hard for them and its hard to face it. But with no fear anyone can defeat their devil inside. ❤ love the song.
I'm still fighting the devil and my shame. Citizen soldier thank you for the words "my past will not define me" and "my life is worth the struggle" and "my scars are my war paint". These word really give me confidence
As usual with the music you release, this is a song I needed to hear. As I’ve commented on past videos, I’ve been professionally diagnosed with OCD, depression, and anxiety. Now I’m looking into Borderline Personality Disorder, Obsessive Compulsive Personality Disorder, Avoidant Personality Disorder, PTSD (car accident, abuse/witness to domestic abuse, and sudden loss of a love one), Complicated Grief Disorder, Depersonalisation/Derealisation Disorder, and Bipolar (none of them other than BPD and depersonalisation/derealisation disorder is currently ruled in. I have not spoken much to a professional about any of the other diagnoses but I have an appointment coming up in a week and I’m hoping to get to the bottom of this). I’ve done a lot of things that I regret, and things that have happened in my past and people I’ve lost continue to haunt me to this day, and I blame myself for all of it. All of the music you’ve released has spoken to me on a personal level and has been a comfort for me when nothing else was. I’m glad I was able to be here from the beginning with you guys. Thank you for continuing to create and release amazing music. I’m looking forward to future creations in the future.
You know Jane, it takes a lot of courage to tell this, even online. I may not know what you are going through right now, but keep standing strong. You'll get past these, you hear me? You'll face your demons, and you'll beat them. Every. Single. One. Of. Them.
I struggled with depression for one year, In that time I lost the love of my life, I fell out with my parents, I almost killed my brother and I was a cutter because it had gotten to a point where physical pain was better than emotional pain. But now I can say that after struggling to get though a single day, waking up in the morning, of wanting to die everyday. I faced it and I can't say I'm a hundred percent better but I'm trying to be. Your songs always encourage me(only God knows how many sleepless nights your songs have made me feel not alone). Thank you so much !
Hey brother, I noticed you capitalized God. So I’m going to take the assumption that you’re Christian. If so, and if those urges come to fight you again. I’d like you to take a look at Leviticus 19:28, 1 Corinthians 6:19-20 (different context but I’d say it still applies). Hope you’re beating those trials brother.
I love how Citizen Soldier throws back to their other songs. It creates this connection that tells a story of hurt, struggle, despair, and a will to survive in spite of it. It shows this choice to live that, while positive, doesn't sound corny or like a socially expected response. It sounds real, and doesn't gloss over or ignore the negative that's still there. To me, that makes it so much more powerful.
Yeah, cause the thing is, their songs are mostly based on Jake's personal experience of attempting suicide :') But also he is practicing as a therapist
"I Am Not Afraid My life is worth the struggle" That line right there. That gets me up every morning to tackle the day. That needs to be on a t-shirt or something lol 😂
"My scars are my war paint" sent a shiver down my spine; the lyrics you all put together never stop hitting me in the feels. It's amazing what you all do to bring awareness of different struggles people keep quiet about.
Citizen Soldier, I just want to say thank you for making such amazing music. When I lost my brother back in February I was so helpless and depressed. I was scrolling through TikTok one night and just found your song "Face to face". Ever since that night, I have been fighting for my life. I just want to say thank you and God bless you.
"I'd rather die on my feet than live on my knees" such a powerfull line This song goes to my workout playlist, thank you Citizen Soldier for this amazing song 👍
as someone who has survived 10 attempts on my own life this band is a breath of fresh air, great music and songs that remind me even in my darkest moments there is someone out there who knows exactly how I feel and what I am going through. Much love to you and your music and mission. Has helped me through a lot of dark moments in my life.
The same thing for me.. Everyone is scared of the truth I speak . Everyone sits by idly and blindly while sit awake at night seeing so much wrong.. I never chose to be born but I live this life anyways. My choice to conform is real.. I won't give in
Especially after I threw my stuffy, pillow, nlanket, clock, toy Pennywise, roller skate, sketch book (and much more) at the darkness. Boi, them monsters got more cu cussions than I've had (8)
"My scars are my war paint." Yes they are. I've carried mine for 16 years, and I'm still standing. I'm still standing, still fighting, still alive. I'm still fighting my demons to this day, but as time goes on... I'm growing stronger than them. 🖤
Facts about Citizen Soldier - never disappoint - makes the greatest lyrics and music in the world -you Guys are the best -still Citizen Soldier in 2040
Out of all of your songs I have listened to. This one is one of my favorites because this song speaks to me about both my depression and my past abusive relationship. It shows how much you can face but still be able to live strong despite what has happened to you. So thank you so much for producing these songs for us fans. That have stories that relate to each other.
The is the definition of the life I live now and how much I have fought my past. Your music always speaks to me in one way or another. Keep going your music has made this fight much easier
Hearing this, it reminded me that my life is worth the fight. I overcame my inner demons already, but the emotional scars I have still exist. They are no longer signs of dark thoughts, but signs of the fact that I still live a life worth living for.
"Scares are my war paint." "I'm face to face with the devil." That hits me so hard. I always call my dad the devil because of the why he acts. This song hits me hard. Great work guys.
"Something had to change, so I faced it." Yes, this is so true. You are in charge. You are the one who can change your world. Don't rely on others to do it for you.
I found that reason in my family. My parents, my sister, in my darkest days when every inch of my body wishes to leave this hell on earth, I cling to them, I can only imagine how much pain I'd cause them if I'd leave and I never wish to make anyone feel that
I absolutely fell in love with the song! The lyrics are so meaningful, especially the lines „my past will not define me“ and „my life is worth the struggle, my scars are my war paint“ really hit me as I heard the song for the first time. Especially when suffering from depression, I often think way too much of my own mistakes and it’s incredibly helpful to hear encouraging songs like yours. Thank you so much!
I am a clinical psychologist from Romania, I just wanted to thank you, because you helped me alot and my patients. I use your songs to help them to rationalize the ``problem``. You got some fans in my country mate. (I am sorry for my english level tho).
"I rather die on my feet than live on my knees" Just wow...you guys did amazing work again - I didn't expect anything else from you! So much power in one song
I've been struggling with depression for years found you guys on tictok and your now part of my power playlist to pull me out of my head. This song says exactly what I need to be thinking
I can relate to this so much rn. I fight 2 chronic illnesses for about 16 years now, the biggest battle is to accept them as a part of me. Your songs are an emotional refuge on the days I see no light. Thank you so much and keep up the amazing work.
The past informs what we are, but it does not dictate who and what we will ultimately become. Trauma is an unrelenting beast, but that doesn’t mean we owe it a damn thing. So break your chains, stand on your feet, don your war paint, and let out a fierce battle cry that will make the devil himself cower in fear. God gave us each a story to live. Let’s make sure we give ourselves the best possible ending.
This is so precious! I love how you play with music and this moment with the voice behind the song. Everything is just incredible! And I have a soft spot for red so the video is even more amazing because of it! The lyrics are so inspiring. I will definitely try to stand firm on my feet (I just need to stop standing on my knees first lol) Thank you so much for the song, going to have it on repeat for the next month for sure
"I'd rather die on my feet, than live on my knees!" Gosh, you are THE BEST, and you always hit the right spot to save/help someone in need! Thank you for that! ♥️🍀🤘
I have waited a while for this I know I’m commenting so fast but I can’t not immediately click the notification!!! Love you guys!! I can sleep in peace now.(somewhat haha) 😂🖤🖤
I know right 😂 some of them are so relatable and i shouldnt be able to relate to them bc ive never been through it but bam hits me right in the feelz everytime 😅
I'll admit, your songs bring peace inside my deranged and depressed mind. I was in a pretty tough place until I discovered your music, thank you for this, I feel like this is a voice to my life.
Yet another powerful, emotional and empowering anthem! I don't know how y'all do it but your music makes people feel seen and heard, you put words to feelings that otherwise couldn't be explained
This song really hits me in the heart guys this tune is an awesome healing song of me not giving up my life and I’m healing from the pain I fought in my life for the last 8 years When I saw the lyrics in this video those lyrics remind me to leave my painful past behind I’m learning to do that and focus more on my happy place and my dreams for myself to pursue melodic rock music as a melodic rock singer this song really hold a special key to my heart I’m now leaving my painful past and my depression behind it’s a big change for me I’m now open and honest with myself and learning to love myself more and healed my wounds and my scars I left with my soul guys this is an awesome song u guys change my life for me to become a better young woman young adult young lady i can’t thank u enough you guys are my savior you saved my life and your music gave me so much hope in my life love you my angels your great mentors to me love u awesome album you rock and your vocals touches my heart love u 😍
Three words: I GOT THIS!!! I have fought many times. My head can be such a scary and dark place, but if I can beat it ONCE, I can beat it again. I will always stand up. I am bulletproof against many things now. I went to hell and back but I am still standing. IF I CAN... YOU CAN TOO!!! My issues do not define who I am... 💜💜💜💜
@JUDE CULBERT I am sure you can get out of this. I know it's easier said than done, but you are way stronger than you believe when being strong is all that's left. You're human and making mistakes and feeling sadness and everything is valid. YOU ARE VALID IN EVERY WAY POSSIBLE!!! I don't know you, but I have faith in you. Sending healing vibes your way 🤗🦋
@JUDE CULBERT I just know how it feels like to be left all alone because of the issues I have and more. Many ''friends'' I had left me because I was ''too much'' to handle. I was all alone. Many nights I tried and tried to keep the thoughts at bay, but they kept coming back to haunt my brain. I almost gave up a lot of times, but I know I have people here who cares about me and would be devastated if I was gone forever. Sometimes we tend to forget them in our darkest moments. They give me strenght to keep on fighting. These people are a rare gift and I know you have some by your side. I have psychotic depression and chronic generalized anxiety. Had that since childhood due to intense psychological bullying. I am an adult now and let me tell you something: It's not always easy and I still cry myself to sleep sometimes, but I keep on being brave like it did not happen cause I know I am stronger than my demons. I fought them for so long. They get me at times, but I get up and run head first until they remain quiet again. Hell started when I was 5... I am still alive. If I can, you also can. I will keep you in my healing thoughts. To heal and to help everyone in need of a hand 💜💜
@JUDE CULBERT I can understand all this (is an adult). Your family that you have and trust should never judge you for this. They might even have their own demons that you do not know about. Everyone faces their own battles and are worthy to ask for help when it is needed the most. Of course it's not easy, but you have to give it a try. You have to give it a shot even if it scares you. You are worth so much more than you believe. You need that therapy? Get that therapy!! I am rooting for you!! 🤗💙
@JUDE CULBERT I can also provide you some links from people I watch. Those are streamers I watch all the time so I am almost always in the chat. They are not family-friendly so adult subject and cussing at times so I warn you. Hope to see you there!! Furan: m.ruclips.net/channel/UCEJtn-7wtaphW_-e2h-Yh5g SnapClickKat: m.ruclips.net/user/dangerouskat
2:04 - 2:08 This is super inspiring, y'all. I mean, the whole thing is inspiring but this line in particular. I am so tired of being pushed around by other people and by my own thoughts (which, in truth, are my biggest bully). Your songs are always so relatable in so many ways and that is what makes a piece of art. I lost my grandfather last night and this song truly helped. It reminded me that no matter what the pain be it life-inflicted or self-inflicted, we have to keep going. We have to wear our scars with pride. Everyone just remember that.
I was having panic attacks an hour ago. I was breaking down and bawling because I felt so lost because the mountain of pain on my shoulders from what's happened the last couple of years was about to break me. I'm okay now. Thank you. So much. Metal, rock, it's the reason I'm still here and alive and able to love. Keep making badass music, know you are helping, I'm sure there are thousands doing the same thing and feeling the same way.
This song made me realize everyone can get through life to get better from whatever has happened to them in the past but it does take a fight to do so. This song is really good!!
its awesome finally seeing you guys get recognition for these powerful songs. Never though a small town Christian gal would be a fan of rock music but you have changed my mind. Still dealing with PTSD and Panic attacks from severe abuse but I am stronger than they ever knew. I will not be stopped my voice will not be silenced ever again.
I have to admit that you have become one of my favorite bands ever. Once I heard one of your songs a few months ago, I had to hear them all. I love your deep voice and find it quite soothing, even though the lyrics tell a different story. But I love the lyrics so much! My parents are both working in an Opera theatre and I followed them on the stage and was singing in the youth choir for 11 years, so music was always a big part in my life and I am capable of recognize different voices instantly. And whenever I hear your voice I instantly know who is singing, even if I don't know, that I am hearing one of your songs. I'm always so excited when a new video is out. My favorite songs so far are If I surrender and Stronger than my Storm. Both songs are full of strong feelings and I like that these two Songs show the exact opposite of each other. On the one side you just want to give up and embrace Death and on the other side you fight for your life and wear your scars with pride. I love that. So I wanted to thank you, that you are uploading so many songs right now! You have a big new fan over here in Germany 😁
The worst demons are the ones we fight inside ourselfs. Great song as aways, and it's beautiful to not feel so alone. I wish relief and a BIG hug to everyone who is dealing with suicidal thoughts and deep depression, I hope that WE can win this fight in the future.
Each time this song comes up i remember when i first started to follow jesus and my memories began to flood back things i made myself forget its brings tears to my eyes but i will fight
I’ve recently been feeling like I’ve defeated my demons, but sometimes it feels like they’re always going to come back and take me down again. Songs like this is what keeps me going. Songs like this and Let It Burn, Hallelujah, and Hope It Haunts You. Thank you so much for making these sorts of songs, they really help a lot of people 💜
I absolutely love this song. Sometimes ill be screaming at the top of my lungs in a pissed off mood with tears in my eyes in revenge, other times I will be sitting at my desk staring into the abyss while crying my eyes out from my trauma. No one is alone in the world, just know that everyone is loved.
I feel like Citizen Soldier is way too epic and far too relatable with their music. You'd be hard pressed to find a song that ISN'T inspiring rather than the other way around, holy. So good.
This song hits every single thing for me. I’ve survived more in my life than most - severe child abuse, became a widow at age 25, and the last 3 years I’ve slowly been pulling myself back together “…because my life is worth the struggle, my scars are my war paint”. Picking up the pieces and trying to just survive has been so damn hard and Citizen Soldier has really helped me every single step of the way. I’ve survived the abuse. I endured the loss of my husband which almost killed me. Fighting not to take my life took everything in me, but looking at my fur baby who needs me I could never have left him alone. I have a chronic illness that is partly due to the abuse I live with every day. But the pain, the scars, the pain, it will NOT break me. My scars do not define me. It’s always been me against the world to shield the people I love from the pain I live with every day. But I’ve fought so hard to get up off the floor and rebuild my life. Now Im in trauma therapy for my grief and cPTSD, I have a boyfriend that I love deeply and we are forming our own family. I still fight my devils every single day, but I will not break.
I took to using scarification to prove my changes to myself so that line "my scars are my war paint" really speaks to me thank you for making such meaningful songs
This song is giving me courage to get through all the things in my life. School, past trauma coming back to haunt me, work, etc.. I've been abused for several years and am only 16, this song gives me the strength and motivation to move on and face my devil
Wow! You said in the live stream that this song is about therapy and facing your inner demons through that, right? This encompasses exactly how I feel as I literally printed out new patient forms for a psychiatrist a couple of hours ago. It's exciting and terrifying to finally (hopefully) get some help. Your songs have really been helping me put my anxiety/depression into words after years of struggle, so thank you for everything you've done!
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Gonna fight the devil, and I'll either live to tell or die setting people free. Fuck this "normality" even before the virus. We shouldn't have to live on our knees.
Another amazing song! You honestly seek deep down into mental health and bring such beauty from it! You help more people with your music than you realise
The songs just seem to get better and better, incredible. I play these songs over the speakers in the gym and a lot of the guys comment on how they like this band.
I have struggled to forget my dark past and have failed over and over again but this song helped me to get on my feet and push forward to fight my demons
This song...where to start, I'm fighting with depression and weight loss, I've seen death and spat in his face on multipole occasions, this song bring all those emotions back and reassures me whatever shit I'm going through, I can fight it
To any of you facing and hardship right now Your worth everything in this world. Without you the world would be broken. We need to stand up and fight for the depressed and fight for the suicidal because this worlds breaking and we have to save it. You guys are worth so much more than you think. Remember that someone needs you. We all need you. We need to come together. In order to do this we need to screenshot this and post it everywhere so others can see that we are standing together. Let's do this!!
Your words are very touching to the heart.I however would not be missed if I took my life right now.The ones I loved most have hurt me and I have no one now :(
@@TanakiahWolf actually I am going though the same thing. All my best friends, the people I loved most have replaced me. Not a single person from my old group. And they convinced the person I was dating to breakup with me. You are not and will never be alone in any situation. Just reach out to someone. I’m here to talk too, just maybe on something more private.
I just subscribed and I love all of songs (the ones I have heard so far) very relatable and motivation. Keep ascending you're music is great. The fight is worth it just keep trying cause if you give up it's like you never even tried to stand up for yourself. If you're at that low spot in life whether it's someone else, or something, you have something to live for and give to life whether big or small it helps. My friend wanted to feel loved and had a mental breakdown the other day with her mom. My sis and I got her stuff and she didn't even know and when she got it she felt like crying because someone try to put in the effort for her. It was the most expensive thing we ever brought for someone even ourselves and I don't even have enough money for food or surgeries but I feel happy with life a bit more knowing I helped someone smile.
"What a terrifying place Left alone here in my head Remember every last mistake I can't forgive, I can't forget" "At war with monsters in my head" My head is definitely a scary place sometimes and it doesn't make healing easy. Thank you for this song, all of your past songs, and all of your future songs.🎶❤
"I'd rather die on my feet than live on my knees" hits me in my soul. Super motivational. This song is awesome
My fav part it is just amazing song but this line is just wow
I get chills when I listen to this
I just learned today that it is a quote from George Washington
If it was actually motivating, you’d get on your feet and _do something_ instead of resonating with the song and doing jack sh*t.
I'd be willing to bet big money that this comment, from a year plus ago, is far more relevant "today'
One of the few perks of insomnia is being able to listen to these songs as they come out.
you aint even wrong lol
Much love 💜
06.00 here for me.. days off are hard. I work nights normally but still.
I feel you! it was 3.30am in Russia and I also had insomnia, but I was able to watch Jake going live on tik tok! Definitely not going to be salty about it
Totally agree
This song speaks to me I battle depression and anxiety and I’m still here thanks to my wonderful family who helped me with all my struggles
Just remember to keep fighting! Nothing in life worth doing is easy.
@@WarCriminal-y1u yes I agree!!!
No you don't
Your blessed n highly favored I don't
@@JonathonDobesh hahaha I’m better then ever brother
“What a terrifying place, left alone here in my head” a poor mental state, like mine, makes your head and inner thoughts hell to be around or live with
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but at least you dont let them rule you, that is the key, they can be there, but they wont define you
he i have had nights like that, but i also more often have nights were being in my head has been blessings over human interaction
@@lechking941 I know that feeling
Sound's fun, and different from my madness
i feel like a lot of these lyrics call back to past songs.
"i cant forgive, i cant forget" (youre always in my head) - I Hope It Haunts You
"the darkest part of me" (im gonna burn it to ashes) - The Cage
and not exactly, but
"i will not be defined by the life i left behind" makes me think of "i refuse to be defined by what i almost did that night" - Stronger Than My Storm
there are probably others, that's just what stood out off the top of my head. anyway, amazing job as always! I'm loving the defiantly hopeful tone of a lot of the latest songs
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They do that.
I agree with that
"I was In such a hard place , something had to change." Wow!! This group is becoming one of my favorites. Amazing music
"I fought the devil and I'll live to tell" I have gone throught a lot, I have cried and I have struggled. But one thing is certain, my Body and mind want vengence over all those bad moments and are willing to live throught more pain and struggle to prove people with evidence that even insignificant people like me can become so much more than they thought they were. I have fought the devil, and I live to tell the tale.
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This is why I love rock and metal. Your song is ABOUT something, and it's about something important; living with your scars, standing up to your problems, making a change for yourself. And man, it sends that message in a way that frickin slaps. Well done, looking forward to more
Appreciate that 💜
I agree too many pop songs that are called motivational but are just describing what being a slut is like
@@CitizenSoldier you are a legend 💜
I agree, but I believe Hopsin’s “the ill mind of hopsin” 5-9 all have a decent meaning behind them as well. Having said that, nothing beats citizen soldier
Thank you so much for doing this song. I feel like you said everything I was thinking
I did fight the devil in me and lived. I just got out of a state psychiatric hospital a few days ago after being there 7 months and let me tell you. Having a good support system helps. If ANYONE needs a good support system, just ask for help. I know it's hard, but it's a huge relief to get it out. Thank you guys for your music. It has helped me a lot this past year.
This song makes me want to find the devil in me, fight it and reclaim the whole me.
Love it 💜
Same.
Exactly
Same
Amen to that.
I always love these songs, they are filled with burning passion that is addicting. I just love the choice of dialect as well, is unique and powerful. They lyrics could have been "I won't give up without a fight" but instead "I'd rather die on my feet, than live of my knees". It had similar sentements, but they way the lyrics are written feels more powerful, and I absolutely love it.
Keep up this amazing work.
Thanks for listening 💜
Maybe it’s possible you’ve found this out already (and partly thinking out loud)
So you’d rather resonate with this song and agree with “damn my life sucks” and continue to live like that and live in that clouded vision, rather than _doing _*_something_* about it and taking it upon yourself to get to the point to where you finally don’t relate to the song at all? That’s the end goal from what I can tell.
Thanks for putting out such a inspirational song.. i am a 54 yr old woman who is battling stage 3 cervical cancer.. everyday im face to face with my devil.. this song gives me more drive to keep pushing thru.. today is the first time i heard this song called face to face.. it rocks and its a song that has so much meaning when i listen to it.. my life is worth the struggle.. keep jammin out songs like this.. it gives people like me who are facing real demons hope to keep fighting thru everyday.. i will be jamming out to this song during my chemo treatment.. thank you for this song #FCANCER
"If i face my darkest days will i finally make my peace". This just is so true. Exactly now. Everyone has something that is hard for them and its hard to face it. But with no fear anyone can defeat their devil inside. ❤ love the song.
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Just the fact that is a song of this guys is enough to know that will be AWESOME!!!
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I'm still fighting the devil and my shame. Citizen soldier thank you for the words "my past will not define me" and "my life is worth the struggle" and "my scars are my war paint". These word really give me confidence
As usual with the music you release, this is a song I needed to hear. As I’ve commented on past videos, I’ve been professionally diagnosed with OCD, depression, and anxiety. Now I’m looking into Borderline Personality Disorder, Obsessive Compulsive Personality Disorder, Avoidant Personality Disorder, PTSD (car accident, abuse/witness to domestic abuse, and sudden loss of a love one), Complicated Grief Disorder, Depersonalisation/Derealisation Disorder, and Bipolar (none of them other than BPD and depersonalisation/derealisation disorder is currently ruled in. I have not spoken much to a professional about any of the other diagnoses but I have an appointment coming up in a week and I’m hoping to get to the bottom of this). I’ve done a lot of things that I regret, and things that have happened in my past and people I’ve lost continue to haunt me to this day, and I blame myself for all of it. All of the music you’ve released has spoken to me on a personal level and has been a comfort for me when nothing else was. I’m glad I was able to be here from the beginning with you guys. Thank you for continuing to create and release amazing music. I’m looking forward to future creations in the future.
Sending tons of love 💜
You know Jane, it takes a lot of courage to tell this, even online. I may not know what you are going through right now, but keep standing strong. You'll get past these, you hear me? You'll face your demons, and you'll beat them. Every. Single. One. Of. Them.
I hope you have a great life despite your challenges. The universe gives the strong the hardest challenges.
I hope your appointment goes well
You've got my respect, all of this and you're still in the ring fighting for another round, stay strong and I hope you can get on top of things,
I struggled with depression for one year, In that time I lost the love of my life, I fell out with my parents, I almost killed my brother and I was a cutter because it had gotten to a point where physical pain was better than emotional pain. But now I can say that after struggling to get though a single day, waking up in the morning, of wanting to die everyday. I faced it and I can't say I'm a hundred percent better but I'm trying to be. Your songs always encourage me(only God knows how many sleepless nights your songs have made me feel not alone). Thank you so much !
Appreciate you Charles 💜 Let's keep fighting
You are not alone.
Hey brother, I noticed you capitalized God. So I’m going to take the assumption that you’re Christian. If so, and if those urges come to fight you again. I’d like you to take a look at Leviticus 19:28, 1 Corinthians 6:19-20 (different context but I’d say it still applies). Hope you’re beating those trials brother.
"I'm not okay" and "Would anyone care" are still my favourites. But this slaps.
Those two are my favs also
Mine's I'm tired
try hearing "Mess of me" from Citizien Soldier, it's so good.
Mine's either golden weather or scarecrow :)
Absolutely 💯% epic goodness I get so excited when you post a new song and video thank you Citizen soldier 🖤
Appreciate your support 💜 Much love
love it great song
I saw comment on many songs before
@@dgafffxp8263 no it says IGAF
I love how Citizen Soldier throws back to their other songs. It creates this connection that tells a story of hurt, struggle, despair, and a will to survive in spite of it. It shows this choice to live that, while positive, doesn't sound corny or like a socially expected response. It sounds real, and doesn't gloss over or ignore the negative that's still there. To me, that makes it so much more powerful.
Yeah, cause the thing is, their songs are mostly based on Jake's personal experience of attempting suicide :') But also he is practicing as a therapist
"I Am Not Afraid
My life is worth the struggle"
That line right there. That gets me up every morning to tackle the day.
That needs to be on a t-shirt or something lol 😂
I agree 💯
The lyrics are so powerful, especially "My life is worth the struggle" and "My past will not define me"
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"My scars are my war paint" sent a shiver down my spine; the lyrics you all put together never stop hitting me in the feels. It's amazing what you all do to bring awareness of different struggles people keep quiet about.
Appreciate you 💜
Least it makes sense for Todoroki
@@worldeater2414 it suits asta from black clover
@@worldeater2414 YOU DID NOT
@@Inked_Wing I did UwU
Citizen Soldier, I just want to say thank you for making such amazing music. When I lost my brother back in February I was so helpless and depressed. I was scrolling through TikTok one night and just found your song "Face to face". Ever since that night, I have been fighting for my life. I just want to say thank you and God bless you.
"I'd rather die on my feet than live on my knees" such a powerfull line
This song goes to my workout playlist, thank you Citizen Soldier for this amazing song 👍
get those reps George!!
"My scars are my war paint" Man, Citizen Soldier always hitting me with the chills, keep on being awesome you guys
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as someone who has survived 10 attempts on my own life this band is a breath of fresh air, great music and songs that remind me even in my darkest moments there is someone out there who knows exactly how I feel and what I am going through. Much love to you and your music and mission. Has helped me through a lot of dark moments in my life.
I used to be scared of what hides in the dark, now everything what is in the dark is scared of me.
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I love your comment
The same thing for me.. Everyone is scared of the truth I speak
. Everyone sits by idly and blindly while sit awake at night seeing so much wrong.. I never chose to be born but I live this life anyways. My choice to conform is real.. I won't give in
@@insaniacgaming2009 then what is the truth you speak of
Especially after I threw my stuffy, pillow, nlanket, clock, toy Pennywise, roller skate, sketch book (and much more) at the darkness. Boi, them monsters got more cu cussions than I've had (8)
Perfect thing to go to bed too! The song already sounds like fire!
Thank you 💜
"My scars are my war paint" goes so hard. Love it.
"My scars are my war paint."
Yes they are. I've carried mine for 16 years, and I'm still standing. I'm still standing, still fighting, still alive.
I'm still fighting my demons to this day, but as time goes on... I'm growing stronger than them. 🖤
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NEVEER STOP FIGHTING
@@mnhaziq5010 don't plan on it!
@JUDE CULBERT get a therapist and tell your parents or someone you trust im not good at saying these things so sorry if it sounds dull
you are not alone
"I'd rather die on my feet than to live on my knees."
This line is so deep! I love this song so much!
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This song is about fighting the devil and conquering him because God is always there helping you get through your hardships
Facts about Citizen Soldier
- never disappoint
- makes the greatest lyrics and music in the world
-you Guys are the best
-still Citizen Soldier in 2040
-never make a boring song
-never fail to make you feel strong
Haven't heard it yet but I can already tell it's going to be good!!
Let us know! 💜
@@CitizenSoldier It's an absolute banger 😭💜
Out of all of your songs I have listened to. This one is one of my favorites because this song speaks to me about both my depression and my past abusive relationship. It shows how much you can face but still be able to live strong despite what has happened to you. So thank you so much for producing these songs for us fans. That have stories that relate to each other.
The is the definition of the life I live now and how much I have fought my past. Your music always speaks to me in one way or another. Keep going your music has made this fight much easier
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got emotional there real quick-
"my life is worth the struggle"
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me too.
Hearing this, it reminded me that my life is worth the fight. I overcame my inner demons already, but the emotional scars I have still exist. They are no longer signs of dark thoughts, but signs of the fact that I still live a life worth living for.
"Scares are my war paint."
"I'm face to face with the devil."
That hits me so hard. I always call my dad the devil because of the why he acts. This song hits me hard. Great work guys.
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Yeah my stepdad is almost like the devil... I'm so sorry for you. I hope everything is going to get better
I hope you are fine with me asking but how bad is he
@@tweetthechicken3870 he's verbally abusive to my mother and I. He also has hurt my mother many times.
@@izzaireredacted3018 I'm sorry to hear about your stepfather. I thank you for your good wishes and hope you are alright as well.
"Something had to change, so I faced it."
Yes, this is so true. You are in charge. You are the one who can change your world. Don't rely on others to do it for you.
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"I'd rather die on my feet than live on my knees"
HELL YES
"my life is worth the struggle" indeed it is. Just need to find the reason for holding on this long...
I feel you. Sometimes we have to make our own reasons, even if those reasons are elusive to us.
@@astrodreamer946 and sometimes the reason was with us from the get go, we just need to find it deep within ourselves.
Hang in there 💜
I found that reason in my family. My parents, my sister, in my darkest days when every inch of my body wishes to leave this hell on earth, I cling to them, I can only imagine how much pain I'd cause them if I'd leave and I never wish to make anyone feel that
I absolutely fell in love with the song!
The lyrics are so meaningful, especially the lines „my past will not define me“ and „my life is worth the struggle, my scars are my war paint“ really hit me as I heard the song for the first time.
Especially when suffering from depression, I often think way too much of my own mistakes and it’s incredibly helpful to hear encouraging songs like yours. Thank you so much!
Appreciate you so much 💜💜💜💜
Started therapy not too long ago to deal with anxiety and depression. I'm hoping this will be my anthem.
I hope everything works out for you 🔥🔥🔥🔥
I am a clinical psychologist from Romania, I just wanted to thank you, because you helped me alot and my patients. I use your songs to help them to rationalize the ``problem``. You got some fans in my country mate. (I am sorry for my english level tho).
I am Romanian,too
"I rather die on my feet than live on my knees" Just wow...you guys did amazing work again - I didn't expect anything else from you! So much power in one song
Thanks 💜
I've been struggling with depression for years found you guys on tictok and your now part of my power playlist to pull me out of my head. This song says exactly what I need to be thinking
I can relate to this so much rn. I fight 2 chronic illnesses for about 16 years now, the biggest battle is to accept them as a part of me. Your songs are an emotional refuge on the days I see no light. Thank you so much and keep up the amazing work.
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Such an empowering song. Thank you, Citizen Soldier, for once again voicing the things often left unsaid and the pain often left locked up.
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I FOUGHT THE DEVIL AND I LIVE TO TELL I FOUGHT THE DEVIL AND I LIVE TO TELL I FOUGHT THE DEVIL AND I LIVE TO TELL!!!!!!! FACE TO FACE I LOVE THIS
The past informs what we are, but it does not dictate who and what we will ultimately become. Trauma is an unrelenting beast, but that doesn’t mean we owe it a damn thing. So break your chains, stand on your feet, don your war paint, and let out a fierce battle cry that will make the devil himself cower in fear.
God gave us each a story to live. Let’s make sure we give ourselves the best possible ending.
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This is so precious! I love how you play with music and this moment with the voice behind the song. Everything is just incredible! And I have a soft spot for red so the video is even more amazing because of it! The lyrics are so inspiring. I will definitely try to stand firm on my feet (I just need to stop standing on my knees first lol) Thank you so much for the song, going to have it on repeat for the next month for sure
Glad you like it 💜
"I'd rather die on my feet, than live on my knees!" Gosh, you are THE BEST, and you always hit the right spot to save/help someone in need! Thank you for that! ♥️🍀🤘
I have waited a while for this I know I’m commenting so fast but I can’t not immediately click the notification!!! Love you guys!! I can sleep in peace now.(somewhat haha) 😂🖤🖤
Love you too 💜
Same here. It’s an amazing song, as always!!
Me: dose nothing
Citizen Soldier: So we're going to make theses songs and there going to hit very very Close to home. Have a nice day!
I know right 😂 some of them are so relatable and i shouldnt be able to relate to them bc ive never been through it but bam hits me right in the feelz everytime 😅
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Ikr!!!
I'll admit, your songs bring peace inside my deranged and depressed mind. I was in a pretty tough place until I discovered your music, thank you for this, I feel like this is a voice to my life.
Yet another powerful, emotional and empowering anthem! I don't know how y'all do it but your music makes people feel seen and heard, you put words to feelings that otherwise couldn't be explained
Appreciate you so much 💜
This song really hits me in the heart guys this tune is an awesome healing song of me not giving up my life and I’m healing from the pain I fought in my life for the last 8 years When I saw the lyrics in this video those lyrics remind me to leave my painful past behind I’m learning to do that and focus more on my happy place and my dreams for myself to pursue melodic rock music as a melodic rock singer this song really hold a special key to my heart I’m now leaving my painful past and my depression behind it’s a big change for me I’m now open and honest with myself and learning to love myself more and healed my wounds and my scars I left with my soul guys this is an awesome song u guys change my life for me to become a better young woman young adult young lady i can’t thank u enough you guys are my savior you saved my life and your music gave me so much hope in my life love you my angels your great mentors to me love u awesome album you rock and your vocals touches my heart love u 😍
Much love Jasmine 💜
Love u more guys my heart is your heart ❤️
as a self harmer I can totally relate
"My life is worth the struggle
my scars are my war paint"
I'm clean for more than a year
I just started playing the song and oh my fucking god..this is amazing.
Thank you 💜💜💜
Three words: I GOT THIS!!!
I have fought many times. My head can be such a scary and dark place, but if I can beat it ONCE, I can beat it again. I will always stand up. I am bulletproof against many things now. I went to hell and back but I am still standing.
IF I CAN... YOU CAN TOO!!!
My issues do not define who I am...
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@JUDE CULBERT I am sure you can get out of this. I know it's easier said than done, but you are way stronger than you believe when being strong is all that's left. You're human and making mistakes and feeling sadness and everything is valid.
YOU ARE VALID IN EVERY WAY POSSIBLE!!!
I don't know you, but I have faith in you. Sending healing vibes your way 🤗🦋
@JUDE CULBERT I just know how it feels like to be left all alone because of the issues I have and more. Many ''friends'' I had left me because I was ''too much'' to handle. I was all alone. Many nights I tried and tried to keep the thoughts at bay, but they kept coming back to haunt my brain. I almost gave up a lot of times, but I know I have people here who cares about me and would be devastated if I was gone forever. Sometimes we tend to forget them in our darkest moments. They give me strenght to keep on fighting. These people are a rare gift and I know you have some by your side.
I have psychotic depression and chronic generalized anxiety. Had that since childhood due to intense psychological bullying. I am an adult now and let me tell you something:
It's not always easy and I still cry myself to sleep sometimes, but I keep on being brave like it did not happen cause I know I am stronger than my demons. I fought them for so long. They get me at times, but I get up and run head first until they remain quiet again.
Hell started when I was 5... I am still alive. If I can, you also can. I will keep you in my healing thoughts.
To heal and to help everyone in need of a hand 💜💜
@JUDE CULBERT I can understand all this (is an adult). Your family that you have and trust should never judge you for this. They might even have their own demons that you do not know about. Everyone faces their own battles and are worthy to ask for help when it is needed the most. Of course it's not easy, but you have to give it a try. You have to give it a shot even if it scares you. You are worth so much more than you believe. You need that therapy? Get that therapy!! I am rooting for you!! 🤗💙
@JUDE CULBERT I can also provide you some links from people I watch. Those are streamers I watch all the time so I am almost always in the chat. They are not family-friendly so adult subject and cussing at times so I warn you. Hope to see you there!!
Furan:
m.ruclips.net/channel/UCEJtn-7wtaphW_-e2h-Yh5g
SnapClickKat:
m.ruclips.net/user/dangerouskat
Amazing song, I remember finding this through a instagram cat meme video haha.
I DID NOT expect that begging, i love this song so much already!
Thanks Stefan 💜
2:04 - 2:08
This is super inspiring, y'all. I mean, the whole thing is inspiring but this line in particular. I am so tired of being pushed around by other people and by my own thoughts (which, in truth, are my biggest bully). Your songs are always so relatable in so many ways and that is what makes a piece of art. I lost my grandfather last night and this song truly helped. It reminded me that no matter what the pain be it life-inflicted or self-inflicted, we have to keep going. We have to wear our scars with pride. Everyone just remember that.
Appreciate you 💜
I was having panic attacks an hour ago. I was breaking down and bawling because I felt so lost because the mountain of pain on my shoulders from what's happened the last couple of years was about to break me. I'm okay now. Thank you. So much. Metal, rock, it's the reason I'm still here and alive and able to love. Keep making badass music, know you are helping, I'm sure there are thousands doing the same thing and feeling the same way.
"I fought the devil and I lived to tell"
Just those opening words let me know this song is going to be AMAZING!!!
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This song made me realize everyone can get through life to get better from whatever has happened to them in the past but it does take a fight to do so.
This song is really good!!
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its awesome finally seeing you guys get recognition for these powerful songs. Never though a small town Christian gal would be a fan of rock music but you have changed my mind. Still dealing with PTSD and Panic attacks from severe abuse but I am stronger than they ever knew. I will not be stopped my voice will not be silenced ever again.
I have to admit that you have become one of my favorite bands ever. Once I heard one of your songs a few months ago, I had to hear them all. I love your deep voice and find it quite soothing, even though the lyrics tell a different story. But I love the lyrics so much! My parents are both working in an Opera theatre and I followed them on the stage and was singing in the youth choir for 11 years, so music was always a big part in my life and I am capable of recognize different voices instantly. And whenever I hear your voice I instantly know who is singing, even if I don't know, that I am hearing one of your songs. I'm always so excited when a new video is out. My favorite songs so far are If I surrender and Stronger than my Storm. Both songs are full of strong feelings and I like that these two Songs show the exact opposite of each other. On the one side you just want to give up and embrace Death and on the other side you fight for your life and wear your scars with pride. I love that. So I wanted to thank you, that you are uploading so many songs right now! You have a big new fan over here in Germany 😁
Appreciate you 💜 Thanks so much for those words
The worst demons are the ones we fight inside ourselfs. Great song as aways, and it's beautiful to not feel so alone. I wish relief and a BIG hug to everyone who is dealing with suicidal thoughts and deep depression, I hope that WE can win this fight in the future.
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Each time this song comes up i remember when i first started to follow jesus and my memories began to flood back things i made myself forget its brings tears to my eyes but i will fight
This song makes me want to fight with my own weaknesses. Amazing song to wake up with
I’ve recently been feeling like I’ve defeated my demons, but sometimes it feels like they’re always going to come back and take me down again. Songs like this is what keeps me going. Songs like this and Let It Burn, Hallelujah, and Hope It Haunts You. Thank you so much for making these sorts of songs, they really help a lot of people 💜
Appreciate you 💜
@@CitizenSoldier We should be the ones appreciating you guys!
I absolutely love this song. Sometimes ill be screaming at the top of my lungs in a pissed off mood with tears in my eyes in revenge, other times I will be sitting at my desk staring into the abyss while crying my eyes out from my trauma. No one is alone in the world, just know that everyone is loved.
When I didn't even listen to it but I already know that this is a masterpiece.
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@@CitizenSoldier I listened to this song right now after my final math exam and I'm not disappointed.
Good job 🛐👏
I feel like Citizen Soldier is way too epic and far too relatable with their music. You'd be hard pressed to find a song that ISN'T inspiring rather than the other way around, holy. So good.
This song hits every single thing for me. I’ve survived more in my life than most - severe child abuse, became a widow at age 25, and the last 3 years I’ve slowly been pulling myself back together “…because my life is worth the struggle, my scars are my war paint”. Picking up the pieces and trying to just survive has been so damn hard and Citizen Soldier has really helped me every single step of the way.
I’ve survived the abuse. I endured the loss of my husband which almost killed me. Fighting not to take my life took everything in me, but looking at my fur baby who needs me I could never have left him alone. I have a chronic illness that is partly due to the abuse I live with every day. But the pain, the scars, the pain, it will NOT break me. My scars do not define me.
It’s always been me against the world to shield the people I love from the pain I live with every day. But I’ve fought so hard to get up off the floor and rebuild my life. Now Im in trauma therapy for my grief and cPTSD, I have a boyfriend that I love deeply and we are forming our own family. I still fight my devils every single day, but I will not break.
"I rather die on my feet than live on my knees..." that hit different
Thanks 💜
Citizen Soldier: Uploads
me: This is a good day
Thanks friend 💜💜💜
Such passion and depth to your words. This song speaks volumes. Thank you for this. It connects on so many levels.
Found this song from a tiktok edit of the Rise of the TMNT movie with Leo and Krang fighting and loved this song immediately
I saw that one too! Its now sent me down a Citizen Soldier song pipeline 😭
@@HauntedIllustrator I'm so glad someone else has seen it too =D
Samee
one of the most powerful songs so far , this is definitely in my top 3 if not number 1! Amazing Job!
Thanks friend 💜💜
I took to using scarification to prove my changes to myself so that line "my scars are my war paint" really speaks to me thank you for making such meaningful songs
Damn!!
This, is killer!!!
That speaking part near the end gave me chills
Much love 💜💜
All of u guys songs hit home, it's like u guys know me more than anyone who knows me in real life . U guys are amazing ✨
Appreciate that 💜
This song is giving me courage to get through all the things in my life. School, past trauma coming back to haunt me, work, etc.. I've been abused for several years and am only 16, this song gives me the strength and motivation to move on and face my devil
Wow! You said in the live stream that this song is about therapy and facing your inner demons through that, right? This encompasses exactly how I feel as I literally printed out new patient forms for a psychiatrist a couple of hours ago. It's exciting and terrifying to finally (hopefully) get some help. Your songs have really been helping me put my anxiety/depression into words after years of struggle, so thank you for everything you've done!
Correct. Glad you like it 💜💜
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Gonna fight the devil, and I'll either live to tell or die setting people free. Fuck this "normality" even before the virus. We shouldn't have to live on our knees.
I love the song 🎸🎙🔊🎶💯
Love this 😍💜💜👏🏼
This is definitely my favorite so far, Great job guys!
Came for the cat that stood in front if a lady
me too, I assumed it was citizen soldier when I heard it and I was right lol
Me too
Another amazing song! You honestly seek deep down into mental health and bring such beauty from it! You help more people with your music than you realise
Appreciate you 💜
The songs just seem to get better and better, incredible. I play these songs over the speakers in the gym and a lot of the guys comment on how they like this band.
Thanks 💜
I have struggled to forget my dark past and have failed over and over again but this song helped me to get on my feet and push forward to fight my demons
I think I have finally found a band that understands me even though they've never met me🖤🖤Thank you guys
Love that. Always 💜
probably one of the greatest lyric vids ive ever seen. i love this!
Thanks friend 💜
This song...where to start, I'm fighting with depression and weight loss, I've seen death and spat in his face on multipole occasions, this song bring all those emotions back and reassures me whatever shit I'm going through, I can fight it
To any of you facing and hardship right now
Your worth everything in this world. Without you the world would be broken. We need to stand up and fight for the depressed and fight for the suicidal because this worlds breaking and we have to save it. You guys are worth so much more than you think. Remember that someone needs you. We all need you. We need to come together. In order to do this we need to screenshot this and post it everywhere so others can see that we are standing together.
Let's do this!!
Much love 💜
Your words are very touching to the heart.I however would not be missed if I took my life right now.The ones I loved most have hurt me and I have no one now :(
@@TanakiahWolf actually I am going though the same thing. All my best friends, the people I loved most have replaced me. Not a single person from my old group. And they convinced the person I was dating to breakup with me. You are not and will never be alone in any situation. Just reach out to someone. I’m here to talk too, just maybe on something more private.
"my scars are my war paint" damn, never thought of it that way
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I just subscribed and I love all of songs (the ones I have heard so far) very relatable and motivation. Keep ascending you're music is great.
The fight is worth it just keep trying cause if you give up it's like you never even tried to stand up for yourself. If you're at that low spot in life whether it's someone else, or something, you have something to live for and give to life whether big or small it helps.
My friend wanted to feel loved and had a mental breakdown the other day with her mom. My sis and I got her stuff and she didn't even know and when she got it she felt like crying because someone try to put in the effort for her. It was the most expensive thing we ever brought for someone even ourselves and I don't even have enough money for food or surgeries but I feel happy with life a bit more knowing I helped someone smile.
"What a terrifying place
Left alone here in my head
Remember every last mistake
I can't forgive, I can't forget"
"At war with monsters in my head"
My head is definitely a scary place sometimes and it doesn't make healing easy. Thank you for this song, all of your past songs, and all of your future songs.🎶❤
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