Citizen Soldier - My Own Miracle (Official Lyric Video)

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  • Опубликовано: 25 апр 2023
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  • @KingCenture
    @KingCenture Год назад +488

    This song hit different than any other. While suicide and other awful things have been around in my life. I've never put thought to them. But the concept of walking my path alone has been extremely prevalent. Thank you for making this song. Continue the work you guys

  • @jasonc7503
    @jasonc7503 Год назад +1008

    These guys can never miss. The fact they don't stray away from what makes these songs so special is so amazing. We truly are blessed to have them.

  • @kagonotori6804
    @kagonotori6804 Год назад +275

    This is my new favorite song. Shout out to all those like me who stood alone in their darkest times.

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  Год назад +48

      shout out to them and you! 🫀

    • @jakubduzy5766
      @jakubduzy5766 Год назад +15

      And shout out to all who came through hell and came out singing

    • @peytongustafson2580
      @peytongustafson2580 Месяц назад

      Right. I asked so desperately for help and all I got was people telling me to kill myself

  • @lenablanc7162
    @lenablanc7162 Год назад +149

    "Fake smiles are holding me together". Everytime I leave my apartment. Don't let them see, don't let them know. Great song. You're really creating art ❤

  • @dead.channelbruh
    @dead.channelbruh Год назад +387

    As someone who suffers from ptsd, anxiety, and depression… this song is nothing but facts. Good job as always. Keep up the awesome work.

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  Год назад +52

      glad the music helps 🫀

    • @cjlogan3412
      @cjlogan3412 Год назад +9

      @the jay guy I'm the same

    • @OverdramaticAngel
      @OverdramaticAngel 7 месяцев назад +3

      I'm diagnosed with those 3 things too and I totally agree with what you've said.

    • @theJediSaiyanh
      @theJediSaiyanh 6 месяцев назад +4

      ​@@CitizenSoldier
      Can you do the song about "standing up to your abuser", please?

    • @HunterNeyorApollo
      @HunterNeyorApollo Месяц назад +1

      We got the same issues

  • @loryannelalonde
    @loryannelalonde Год назад +13

    my boyfriend has autism and he has already tried to take his life but the rope has to let go and now he has only one goal to share his story and give hope to people like him that despite their autism they can go far in life and this song explain exactly what he’s been trought

    • @ThatCampingOwl
      @ThatCampingOwl День назад +2

      This is a year old comment, but I do hope both of you are alive and well.
      The world is an extremely cruel place for the kind, intelligent and loving people

  • @reneegood6393
    @reneegood6393 Год назад +137

    "I don't know how to love cause I try to trust but then I remember "
    I'm in tears because this has been my life struggle. Thank you for this song.

    • @LobiJani
      @LobiJani 4 месяца назад +1

      Same! Lost count as to how many times this song made me tear up/cry because of how much I can relate to it!

  • @rebeccamichael626
    @rebeccamichael626 Год назад +141

    The lines
    "fake smiles are holding me together"
    and
    "I've been through things that you can't see, a kind of suffering the eyes don't notice"
    is how it feels to have Epilepsy. 💜🎗
    It's also how it feels to have other things like depression. But honestly, I've never felt the first line or been depressed, but that's just me. 🤷🏻‍♀️

    • @Rick-mg1nv
      @Rick-mg1nv 10 месяцев назад +3

      Yep and other things

    • @FallingAsh20
      @FallingAsh20 7 месяцев назад +7

      "fake smiles are holding me together" is like definition of what I do every day

    • @jakubduzy5766
      @jakubduzy5766 6 месяцев назад +2

      Depression can be here too. 12years and keep going. Keep going too fremns :*

  • @asyrafratim3235
    @asyrafratim3235 Год назад +69

    One thing I love about this song is, you can feel the pain, the exhaustion, the frustration every second I hear this song, and the scream at 2:03, really something to be taken note on. It sounds really personal from that scream itself. Really a masterpiece

  • @dit.2465
    @dit.2465 Год назад +142

    I wish this song was out sooner, I’ve been in a very dark place once again. Everything keeps getting worse and as a teenager with PTSD and depression, it is really hard for me. Especially because I deal with other disorders too. A very great song, It’s going into my important song playlist❤😊

  • @user-sw3sh2pm9m
    @user-sw3sh2pm9m Год назад +151

    It's so hard to explain how deeply the lines from this song touch me... how it touches the deepest scars on my heart...
    At school, I was regularly bullied every day until the 9th grade. It was very difficult for me to socialize, but despite this, I tried my best to be a good person, tried to find friends, love... In general, ordinary human happiness. All thanks to the instructions of my grandpa - the only family member who somehow cared about me. But at some point in my life, something seemed to break. First my grandfather passed away, and then I was betrayed by two people whom I considered close friends. In a row...
    I was left all alone, I was covered with thorns. Everything that I had to go through at school (and not only) began to seem so meaningless to me... I didn't have any friends anymore, and other members of my family always didn't care about me because I was a loser and a complete disappointment to them. I had incredible trust issues, I didn't let anyone into my life all this time, I was afraid of getting even more pain. Everything was so bad that at times I could walk home from work and just cry on the way for no apparent reason, while no one sees. All that occupied my thoughts in the most difficult moments was "how I want it all to end," but I didn't have the courage to finish it all myself...
    And ofcourse, nobody showed up. I was completely alone, fighting for my mind and life for several years. And when I was at my darkest, I came across the songs of Citizen Soldier. The songs Would Anyone Care and Wanted made me cry, but at the same time gave me more strength to cling to hope. But this song.... It describes so well all the thoughts that tormented me all that period. I hated myself, but I had to love me. I was desperate, but I had to have hope.
    It was only recently that I let a person into my life again. A person who really loves me, who cares about me. Just recently I was able to look in the mirror for the first time without feeling disgusted. Just recently I stopped crying convulsively in my bed at night. But all the time until I met her, I was fighting in absolute solitude. All my life. I was my own savior, my own miracle. The only person I had by my side. This is an experience that I never want anyone to go through.
    Thank you Citizen Soldier, thank you Jake, really... I cried again when I recalled this experience during the song. But I remember very well how your songs helped me feel that I was not alone, that a happy outcome was waiting for me in the end. That my life is worth fighting for. I was fighting for my life. I'm still alive. And right now I finally see the light. Thank you

    • @balanc-joy9187
      @balanc-joy9187 Год назад +8

      I'm glad these songs helped you, and I know what it's like to be alone, though I never felt the kind of pain you have. I'm glad you have someone in your life to be your miracle now, you deserve that and all the good fortune in the world!

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  Год назад +25

      wow. thanks for sharing. glad to hear you're doing better. much love🫀

    • @does-it-really-matter-who-am-I
      @does-it-really-matter-who-am-I Год назад +4

      Пусть твоя жизнь наладится. Для меня Let it burn стала знакомством с Citizen Soldier, это сложно принять, но прошлое это действительно лишь выученные уроки и опыт. Мы никому не обязаны тащить дальше как обузу эти травмы, мы и так пережили из-за этого боль в прошлом, незачем травить ими настоящее и будущее. Удачи тебе, пусть всё теперь будет лучше прежнего!

    • @Tori12445
      @Tori12445 Год назад +3

      I'm going through the trust issues part right now but i let a couple people in my life and everything changed but still have issues trusting even the people that u love so i want y and everyone to know that there not alone in this big world cuz so many people are struggling

    • @makogushiken6989
      @makogushiken6989 Год назад

      Same Here, and cause pain to others that haven't done anything wrong my only regret was never being strong enough

  • @Nermal-vk1is
    @Nermal-vk1is Год назад +78

    *I've walked a path that would kill most*
    I have said this many times in my life! Thank you guys for this. I didn't know I would be crying about a song today, but these lyrics really hit home. Please keep them coming, these new songs are so powerful! 🖤🖤

    • @darkmagicbeta5574
      @darkmagicbeta5574 Год назад +13

      Dont walk a mile in my shoes. That would be boring. Go 30 seconds in my head instead and you would come out crying

    • @michaeltinkham6894
      @michaeltinkham6894 Год назад +2

      @@darkmagicbeta5574 Same here. :( Hope ur doing oki

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  Год назад +5

      more on the way! 🫀

    • @darkmagicbeta5574
      @darkmagicbeta5574 Год назад +2

      @@michaeltinkham6894 Hehe... could do better

  • @emilyhauger
    @emilyhauger Год назад +123

    Thank God for you all, Citizen Soldier! This is another song that I relate to and that reminds me that I am not alone. I have been struggling with mental health struggles and abuse for the majority of my life, and I was introduced to your band about a year ago. I never found any "therapeutic techniques" that work as much as listening to your music. Thank you!

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  Год назад +10

      glad the music helps Emily 🫀 much love

    • @ExplosionMare
      @ExplosionMare Год назад +9

      @@CitizenSoldier Y'all are like therapy to me too, and I don't know where I'd be right now if I never found your music!

  • @bensalemomar8001
    @bensalemomar8001 Год назад +59

    [Verse 1]
    Fake smiles are holding me together
    For worse or for better
    Cause I've never had anyone
    To stay long enough to see the weather
    The pain and the pressure
    I carry like a loaded gun
    [Pre-Chorus]
    I've been through things that you can't see
    A kind of suffering the eyes don't notice
    I'd rather hide when I'm hurting
    Than be a burden 'cause all I've known is
    [Chorus]
    Nobody showed up
    Nobody slowed down
    They must have been deaf
    I was screaming so loud
    Nobody had faith
    I'd ever be found
    Born into a hole
    Six feet in the ground
    I had to love me when nobody cared
    And be the family that never was there
    Had to have hope when I didn't feel spiritual
    Had to be my own, my own miracle
    [Verse 2]
    Worked twice as hard through the diseases
    To make up for the weakness
    And vices not visible
    No friends to pick up all the pieces
    No sympathy or sweetness
    No wonedr I'm cynical
    [Pre-Chorus]
    I've walked a path that would kill most
    Where a heart closed and it left a temper
    I don't know how to love, cause
    I try to trust, but then I remember
    [Chorus]
    Nobody showed up
    Nobody slowed down
    They must have been deaf
    I was screaming so loud
    Nobody had faith
    I'd ever be found
    Born into a hole
    Six feet in the ground
    I had to love me when nobody cared
    And be the family that never was there
    Had to have hope when I didn't feel spiritual
    Had to be my own, my own miracle
    [Bridge]
    "Are you okay? You need to chat?"
    The questions I was never asked
    I should feel strong, but I just feel sad
    So just let me grieve what I never had
    [Chorus]
    Nobody showed up
    Nobody slowed down
    They must have been deaf
    I was screaming so loud
    Nobody had faith
    I'd ever be found
    Born into a hole
    Six feet in the ground
    I had to love me when nobody cared
    And be the family that never was there
    Had to have hope when I didn't feel spiritual
    Had to be my own, my own miracle

  • @opulenceharbingerofchaos3939
    @opulenceharbingerofchaos3939 Год назад +26

    1 year ago, I left the mental hospital. My life has been turned around in such an amazing way. I am my own miracle. Thank you, everyone in Citizen Soldier. This song is my anthem.

    • @frankiewestwood
      @frankiewestwood Год назад

      Well done for your own miracle hope u are ok now

    • @opulenceharbingerofchaos3939
      @opulenceharbingerofchaos3939 Год назад +1

      @@frankiewestwood Yep, I’m doing amazing right now. Every aspect of my life is significantly better than it once was, and I wouldn’t want it any other way.

    • @frankiewestwood
      @frankiewestwood Год назад

      @@opulenceharbingerofchaos3939 that's is great news glad for u

  • @Ona_JluBep_BblJle3
    @Ona_JluBep_BblJle3 Год назад +58

    Очередной отличный трек, спасибо!!!

  • @mystiangel96
    @mystiangel96 Год назад +30

    "I should feel strong
    But I just feel sad
    So just let me grieve - what I never had"
    Much love! ❤️ Counting down the days until I see you in concert!👀🤞🏻❤️🎶

  • @Queen_Bread
    @Queen_Bread Год назад +71

    I have no words
    Update: I found some
    I never thought someone would be able to hit that specific spot,
    "a heart closed and it left a temper"
    The moment when your grief and pain turns into unreasonable anger and annoyance, such a painful moment because you can come across so offstandish from your pain
    You're just so hurt and scared that seeing others around, the slightest thing, hurts, you're so defensive, and you know nothing but to fight and defend yourself

    • @ExplosionMare
      @ExplosionMare Год назад +3

      That's a pretty good way to sum that up

    • @draidenwolf
      @draidenwolf Год назад +4

      This be how I felt when my mom passed away

    • @balanc-joy9187
      @balanc-joy9187 Год назад +5

      Truth, nothing but the truth. It's how I felt after my family stopped proving that they loved me, and treated me with dismissal and pettiness instead of love. At first I was sad, then I got ANGRY, and I'm still dealing with it...

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  Год назад +10

      we hear you 🫀

    • @Queen_Bread
      @Queen_Bread Год назад +1

      @@balanc-joy9187 it's something I've taken years to heal from, it's a hard process and a bit painful, it takes time, and honestly, I don't think I'll ever be the same, but I'm better, I'm working on it and, hey, I've learned so much, I just need to find a middle ground, it takes time to deal with, but it's worth it
      It's OK to feel this way and it's not your fault, you were wronged, and it's normal to be so bitter when something like that happens, it's not an instant easy heal, I believe in you though

  • @hjm9571
    @hjm9571 Год назад +86

    I've been battling mental illness for 18 years and ended up adding post concussion syndrome to that concoction 3 1/2 years ago. I haven’t had that many people in my corner throughout this battle, so I had (and still do) to fight for myself.
    It's been 18 years, and here I am, a walking miracle of my own design. 💜 Thank you for yet another powerful and relatable track, CS. Much love.

  • @CoffinEmoji
    @CoffinEmoji 8 месяцев назад +25

    "And be the family that never was there" Hits so hard, struck every cord in my body. Love it so much 🥴

  • @CitizenSoldier
    @CitizenSoldier  Год назад +126

    Stream/Download 👉 citizensoldier.band/myownmiracle
    Shop for merch 👉 citizensoldier.band/merch
    Follow Us on Twitch 👉 citizensoldier.band/twitch
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    Talk to us on Instagram 👉 citizensoldier.band/instagram
    Please SHARE it with someone that needs to hear it.

    • @LyricThePoetryCollective
      @LyricThePoetryCollective Год назад

      And I love this so much!!!!

    • @tinatvarelashvili643
      @tinatvarelashvili643 Год назад

      💜

    • @scottmadsen9964
      @scottmadsen9964 Год назад

      Every bit as amazing as Afterlife and Would Anyone Care I'm glad I could get to listen to these notices hopefully you still recognize me after the account name change XD

    • @joeski_77
      @joeski_77 Год назад

      Love it 😊👍❤ hey how long make you make a new video ???

    • @tinatvarelashvili643
      @tinatvarelashvili643 Год назад

      @Citizen Soldier
      You used to release songs after every week or so, I see from shorts that u have many songs, plz release them 💙

  • @diamondgirl698
    @diamondgirl698 Год назад +27

    This one cuts me open 💔
    "I should feel strong but I just feel sad"
    Thanks for putting my station to music
    I'll be blasting this one all day 🎧❤️‍🩹

  • @thekatherinewolff
    @thekatherinewolff Год назад +39

    As someone who was my mom's parent more than she was mine, with dad absent in my life - "be the family that never was there" - hit me he most.
    One of few ways I get to feel anything at all, other than panic attacks, these days is through your music.
    Thank You for another brilliant song!

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  Год назад +11

      glad the music helps Katherine 🫀

    • @thekatherinewolff
      @thekatherinewolff Год назад +8

      @@CitizenSoldier It's being understood that helps the most though. No one has ever understood before. ❤️‍🩹

    • @unknown-unseen4824
      @unknown-unseen4824 Год назад

      Ughh, you are right

  • @shadowblade2725
    @shadowblade2725 Год назад +36

    NOW THIS IS WHAT I WAITED FOR! l love this so much this song I relate to so much i'm always having to put on a fake smile to hide my pain from others and lately my anxiety been through the roof because i'm always mostly alone so my thoughts get worse thank you guys for making all of us music we can relate to you guys will always be the number one band! ❤️

  • @Dima666Air
    @Dima666Air Год назад +30

    (1 куплет)
    Поддельные улыбки позволяют мне держаться
    К худшему или к лудшему, потому что у меня никогда никого не было
    Кто остался бы достаточно на долго что бы увидеть погоду
    Боль и тяготы которые я несу как заряженное оружие
    Я прошел через то, что ты не сможешь увидеть
    Те страдания что не заметить глазами
    Я лучше спрячусь когда мне больно, чем буду обузой
    Ведь я точно знаю...
    (Припев)
    Никто не пришел, никто не остановился
    Должно быть они глухие ведь я так громко кричал
    Никто не верил, что я когда нибудь найдусь
    Родился в дыре шесть футов в земле (6 футов под землей - глубина на которую закапывают гроб)
    Мне пришлось любить себя когда всем было плевать
    Быть для себя семьей которая никогда не была рядом
    Пришлось сохранять надежду когда не чувствовал себя одухотворенным
    Пришлось быть своим собственным, своим собственным чудом.
    (2 куплет)
    Работал вдвое усерднее преодолевая болезни
    Что бы компенсировать свои слабости и пороки что не видны
    Нет друзей что соберут все осколки, нет симпатии или нежности
    Не удивительно что я циничен
    Я прошел путь, который убил бы большинство
    Где сердце закрылось, и оно оставило характер
    Я не знаю, как любить, потому что
    Я пытаюсь доверять, но потом вспоминаю...
    (Припев)
    Никто не пришел, никто не остановился
    Должно быть они глухие ведь я так громко кричал
    Никто не верил, что я когда нибудь найдусь
    Родился в дыре шесть футов в земле
    Мне пришлось любить себя когда всем было плевать
    Быть для себя семьей которая никогда не была рядом
    Пришлось сохранять надежду когда не чувствовал себя одухотворенным
    Пришлось быть своим собственным, своим собственным чудом.
    Ты в порядке? Тебе нужно поболтать?
    Вопросы, которые мне никогда не задавали
    Я должен чувствовать себя сильным, но мне просто грустно
    Так что позволь мне оплакать то, чего у меня никогда не было.
    (и еще раз припев)

  • @dangername6996
    @dangername6996 Год назад +16

    Увидел в шортсах, теперь уже встречаемся в моем в плейлисте)
    Спасибо за отличные треки!

  • @hannahstrong8354
    @hannahstrong8354 Год назад +20

    This was a great song and as someone who suffers from deep depression I constantly felt like no one was there for me so thank you for making this song and for making me feel like I am not alone

  • @elisad2592
    @elisad2592 Год назад +47

    Это просто прекрасно. Вокал, лирика, все на высоте)

  • @jacobstowe2371
    @jacobstowe2371 Год назад +17

    The way these guys can sing about what people go through when a topic thats as hard to talk about like this one, and these guys express those feelings through songs perfectly, amazing work as always Jake and the crew, absolutely love it 💙

  • @squisshhiieeee
    @squisshhiieeee Год назад +17

    This song is just what I needed. I'm suffering from PTSD from a situation with my ex fiance and how he was abusive.. I recently got out.. This is truly how I can put my words into.. Well, words. Thank you, so much. Truly, your music has saved me on so many occasions. Please, keep doing what your doing.❤ Remember to hydrate and rest too!!

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  Год назад +5

      glad the music helps, and yes hydrate! 🫀

  • @VoidGalaxy484
    @VoidGalaxy484 Год назад +12

    As an auDHD person who's now physically disabled due to the damage it did to have to be my own miracle through the trauma, & as a member of a D.I.D. system, this....this song hits really hard. This hits us really hard. 🥺💜 ~Nico

  • @scootskie
    @scootskie 3 месяца назад +5

    “They must have been deaf, I was screaming so loud.”

  • @lilstinkers123
    @lilstinkers123 Год назад +21

    Thank you so much for this song! It is nice to finally have words to describe so much that I can’t find the words to say. It is also healing to feel validated on my long journey to healing ahead. I just hope my therapist enjoys this song as much as I have!

    • @lilstinkers123
      @lilstinkers123 Год назад +3

      Well I wanted to make a quick update incase anyone was curious. I just got out of my therapy session and showed her this song. She honestly really liked it and wanted to know more about citizen soldier. 🥹 it was a nice ice breaker to start the session with so I could explain more about my thoughts and emotions I can’t find words to.

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  Год назад +4

      you're note alone 🫀

    • @lilstinkers123
      @lilstinkers123 Год назад +2

      Thank you so much! I wish you knew how much it means to me to hear that. Also how much your music is comforting and helping!

    • @YouTubeArtisticallyChallenged
      @YouTubeArtisticallyChallenged Год назад +2

      @@lilstinkers123 Hugs her best friend tight. He's right you are not alone. You have someone who care about you even when it may not seem like it. I love you like you're my own sister. I am grateful to have you in my life. You helped me become a better person and I thank you for that.

  • @JustinSchieck
    @JustinSchieck Год назад +14

    For me it was my mother who kept me from going to far every single time I've been in that much of a darkness, suicidal ideation is not a fun thing to have on a daily basis but when i didn't have her to help me, I had to be "my own miracle". Amazing song again guys. love it.

  • @bottomofastairwell
    @bottomofastairwell Год назад +6

    love the empowerment. it's often hardest to love ourselves, especially when it feels like no one else around us does, like no one cares enough to help. But sometimes we CAN be the miracle we need.

  • @doublespur1748
    @doublespur1748 2 месяца назад +2

    I'm a DV survivor. I suffer from PTSD DEPRESSION ANZIETY. This hit home the second I heard it... my family never helped me I had to save myself once I did I had nowhere to go but to my family's house and all they did was trigger my ptsd and I was so on edge I responded with anger... this song is 💯 me

  • @GothicAngeles
    @GothicAngeles Год назад +12

    I waited so long for this song and it was so worth it. Thank you for releasing a song I relate to so much.

  • @mikeyreeves585
    @mikeyreeves585 Год назад +6

    Just as I predicted, this song is fantastic and one that I will be listening to a lot on repeat. Thank you Citizen Soldier.

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  Год назад +2

      glad it didn't disappoint 🫀

    • @mikeyreeves585
      @mikeyreeves585 Год назад

      @@CitizenSoldier I don't know how to express how much I appreciate you and your songs. Thank you for everything you do.

  • @pennyhester3646
    @pennyhester3646 Год назад +9

    Unfortunately this song resounds way hard for me. However I'm on the road to recovery which will be a very long one but I've NEVER heard music that has hit every aspect I've been going thru. Also music that has helped me heal as much as Citizen Soldier! I have to thank you guys for it because I express everything thru music when regular talking just doesn't cut it. Thank you and may everything in your lives and careers continue to shine as bright as the sun.

  • @coracollins8649
    @coracollins8649 Год назад +5

    This song hits hard for me. I had no one for years and I had to struggle on my own. I somehow managed to hold on long enough to find my loving husband. I love all your songs!

  • @ambrissakaminari6926
    @ambrissakaminari6926 Год назад +4

    This was me in 2018-2019... And I became my own miracle with one word from a stranger who has since become the greatest person in my life.

  • @michaelsuitt5658
    @michaelsuitt5658 Месяц назад +2

    This song describes me perfectly. Nobody there hits me the hardest, but I'm keeping my head up and choosing to believe that will change one day

  • @Sam_StillDrawZz
    @Sam_StillDrawZz Год назад +4

    Another song that hits directly- genuinely impossible for these guys to produce anything less than amazing.

  • @Azeas1993
    @Azeas1993 Год назад +7

    I've been through things that you can't see a kind of suffering the eyes don't notice
    I've walked a path that would kill most
    Those two lines struck me like a baseball bat to the head.
    Love you guys 💔

  • @lyssnicole
    @lyssnicole Год назад +3

    I’ve been waiting for this song to come out since December honestly I want to say this is my favorite citizen soldier song. My comment can’t cover how much I needed this song you wouldn’t believe how excited I got seeing this. No one has stayed when I witnessed loss and grief you have to tell them your fine so they just move on so quickly I seriously thank you guys for putting this one. I actually teared up after playing the full song
    I love you guys

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  Год назад +1

      we know how it feels Alyssa 🫀 appreciate you. sending hugs

  • @DemiRed-zq8um
    @DemiRed-zq8um 3 месяца назад +5

    Been neglected most of my life this song is very relatable....

  • @momtazurshilpy8442
    @momtazurshilpy8442 Год назад +10

    Those lyrics hits hard. Such an amazing song❤💫

  • @supersaiyanred2650
    @supersaiyanred2650 Год назад +12

    Thanks for the new song citizen soldier much love

  • @_crimsonwxnter
    @_crimsonwxnter Год назад +6

    This would've been my anthem before September 2022. 100000/10

  • @ludwigvonchomse888
    @ludwigvonchomse888 Год назад +5

    I try to trust but then remember" I can't describe how the line touch me. But what I can definitely say is that I think the song is super great! I've already added it to my playlist. I hope that the song gives everyone as much power and strength (can't really put it into words) as it gives me. Thank you Citizen Soldier for all your songs!🖤

  • @mistam.3764
    @mistam.3764 Год назад +2

    Nobody showed up, nobody slowed down... its amazing how in a world full of people one can feel so alone

  • @adelinevogt04
    @adelinevogt04 Год назад +3

    There are already so many comments, so I don’t think anyone will see this, but I want to say thank you for making the music that you make. All of your songs put into words a lot of things I’ve never been able to say, but this one hits a little closer to home than usual. My home life is so much better than so many people get and I know this, so I don’t know if my feelings are valid or not, but this song voices all of them much better than I ever could. It makes me feel seen and understood. I’ve listened to this song multiple times per day since it’s coming out (as well as many others before this) and it gives me hope that some people know what I’m going through and that I can make it to the other side too. So thank you for making this song, and I hope you keep making this music for as long as you possibly can.

    • @gdlegend6344
      @gdlegend6344 11 месяцев назад

      We all feel the exact same way as you do. Citizen Soldier has told our stories for us, without even knowing them. We love their music, and always will. And as for you, don't ever lose hope, and I wish you all the best for whatever you are going through ❤

    • @Rey-2517
      @Rey-2517 11 месяцев назад

      I just wanted to let you know that I've read your post. Your feelings are always valid. You don't have to beat everyone else at the Olimpics of suffering to be allowed to feel bad. If you relate to this song you probably have good reason to.
      Regardless, I wish you the best and hope you'll feel better soon :)

    • @gdlegend6344
      @gdlegend6344 11 месяцев назад

      @@Rey-2517 Much Love ❤

  • @angeliqestar1473
    @angeliqestar1473 2 месяца назад +3

    "Are you okey? You need to chat? The questions i was never askt " It hits hard. Becuse thats what i feel. You guys are so talented i wich i culd do songs like this one day!

  • @arianah4083
    @arianah4083 Год назад +4

    This song literally hits so hard. Especially when it's so related to my situations. Your songs actually speaks the feelings that I don't say out loud.
    The part "are you ok? You need to chat? The questions I was never asked" just revealed my feelings of how I feel whenever I need someone to talk to but they're not there for me. The feeling of loneliness and that I can't rely on anyone but myself 💔
    Great song. I love it 💙💙💙💙💙💙

  • @user-ul2wq3li4p
    @user-ul2wq3li4p Год назад +2

    Some of us are born with a network of love. Some of us need to find those people, but I promise you’ll find them. There’s someone out there that loves you. And there will be many more that care. You just need to search and that’s the hardest part. You are a stone, skipped across a still pond, and every day you’re here sends ripples that move others toward the light, whether you can see it or not. If you feel like you’re drowning, keep holding your breath. I promise you’ll get a chance to breathe. I know I did.

  • @laylahawkins4873
    @laylahawkins4873 Год назад +3

    This! This is how I felt exactly for many years! I lost so many people in different ways, both from what caused my trauma and from losing friends who couldn't handle my 'cold' self, that it got to the point I couldn't even speak to my therapist about how I feel. I have literally hardened my heart that all I feel is frustration and some bits of excitement or happiness. When I was still going through the source of one of my traumas many years ago, I wanted to be heard but any attempt I did fell on my abuser's ears (my aunt was my abuser) and only wanted me to wear/have things all so I could be popular (jokes on her, since day 1 I wasn't friends with any popular kids and kept my hoodie on over the shirts she wanted me to wear since it was always cold in classroom). Any relatives who only listen to her wouldn't listen to me like some brainwashed victim of my mother. Over the years when I finally moved back to my mom, after each traumatic event that happened, I slowly became the way that I am today

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  Год назад +2

      thanks for sharing Layla 🫀 sending hugs

  • @artic_fox2157
    @artic_fox2157 Год назад +2

    I'VE BEEN REPLAYING THIS ON TIKTOK FOR AGES NOW! I'M SO GLAD IT'S FINALLY A FULL SONG! Also my hope goes out to everyone

  • @laklomp
    @laklomp Год назад +1

    Fact. In High School I had to deal with bullying, depression - I had undiagnosed (which I know now) ADHD and Dyslexia and bit autistic characteristics. There were very few that actually slowed down, nobody showed up. I also had to make my own miracle. I had to work 10 times harder than anyone else (even the teacher said I wasn't good for that major in High School and I should change schools and that it took me 3 steps when another took 1)
    Conclusion: The fanbase of Citizen Soldier are fighters and don't give up!

  • @CLBR12
    @CLBR12 9 месяцев назад +7

    Que que isso!!! simplismente insano 🔥🔥🔥⛓️

  • @MalivoreKai
    @MalivoreKai Год назад +3

    This describes me so much right now. Recently I have admitted myself into a ward after having really bad thoughts and almost going along with them. As a long time fan since the very first song, your music means a lot. Thank you for simply existing to provide such gems ❤

  • @murasakirin8998
    @murasakirin8998 Год назад +1

    "They must of been def I was screaming so loud"
    This line reminds me a great deal of when I was younger and always only ever saw exhaustion and pain in my eyes. I felt I needed to hide, but really I just wanted someone, anyone to see it too. To see the pain and suffering I hid behind my eyes that was screaming to be seen. I'm better now at least, but the suffering I see in my eyes is still there. At least the color doesn't look quite so dull and lifeless anymore.

    • @heost3453
      @heost3453 Год назад

      Hope you are okay now ,send you much love my dear friend 🇸🇱

  • @Khoas_666
    @Khoas_666 3 месяца назад +1

    "The questions I was never asked"
    That hits differently

  • @valtina15
    @valtina15 Год назад +3

    Another amazing song from my most favorite band! Thank you Citizen Soldier for being my comfort blanket and for always being there when I needed you the most. ❤❤❤

  • @briannataylor2571
    @briannataylor2571 Год назад +5

    This is fantastic as always ❤ I'm determined you couldn't make a bad song even if you tried!

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  Год назад +2

      haha thanks for the compliment Brianna 🫀

  • @FaeTomioka
    @FaeTomioka Год назад +2

    The chorus had me crying. You did such an amazing job portraying how most of us feel. Keep being awesome 💙

  • @jaymesonshaw9471
    @jaymesonshaw9471 Год назад +1

    I was blessed with the chance of meeting you in Chicago where I told you "I'm sure you get this all the time, but your music saved my life." And this song is just another perfect example of that. Songs that put words to the thoughts and feelings I've had for most of my life, that I didn't know how to express. Now you're coming to my home of Green Bay at the end of next month and I've got a group of friends wanting to come to the concert with me to see the band that saved my life and show their support of me as well. I'm gonna do my best to get right in the front row singing along as loud as I can ❤❤

  • @bdog95
    @bdog95 Год назад +3

    Im grateful for your music as it's not only helped me, but it's helped and saved millions of people probably without them realizing it. That's something amazing and beautiful in itself. ❤

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  Год назад +1

      appreciate that Brittany 🫀

    • @bdog95
      @bdog95 Год назад

      @@CitizenSoldier You're welcome. 😊 Keep doing what you love, keep saving lives. You're awesome.

  • @RoseOfPhantom
    @RoseOfPhantom Год назад +5

    I cannot describe the chills I got. Wow.

  • @joshnix1852
    @joshnix1852 Год назад +2

    This song speaks VOLUMES! After losing an uncle, best friend of 25 years, and grandfather to suicide in an 8 year span, there were more times than not I was fending for myself and had to rely on myself to get through it.

  • @Rays-Gamming
    @Rays-Gamming 10 месяцев назад +2

    This song open up a child hood pain, that now I can journal about and get it out.

  • @kaplararon1592
    @kaplararon1592 Год назад +4

    Let's gooo, love ya stuff. Been listening since 2019!

  • @DunnSann
    @DunnSann Год назад +4

    Always able to put what i am going through into words thank you for your hardwork

  • @louisesuter334
    @louisesuter334 Год назад +2

    I watched the audio release unfortunately it was at 4.00 in the morning in the UK it was worth it you never made a bad song brilliant song

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  Год назад

      thanks for staying up! 🫀

    • @louisesuter334
      @louisesuter334 Год назад

      @@CitizenSoldier I woke up just before and that was only because of a zombie apocalypse nightmare bloody nightmares hate them but love them at the same time

  • @ridhitler4416
    @ridhitler4416 Год назад +2

    Another song to boost my mindset.
    Things have been going critically at this age and I'm really lucky to found Citizen Soldier, a band which always helps me to feel that I'm not worth of suffer this much pain. I hope you'll keep this up ❤

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  Год назад +1

      glad you found us and that the music helps 🫀

  • @t-snow768
    @t-snow768 Год назад +3

    Another great song to add to my playlist!!🥰

  • @michaeltinkham6894
    @michaeltinkham6894 Год назад +3

    This is amazing!!! I’m so glad I came on yt when I did. I’ve been feeling really depressed lately and this really explains what I’ve going through. I love all your music, keep up the great work Citizen Soldier! -Coral T.
    11yr old girl who loves your music ❤ :)

    • @CitizenSoldier
      @CitizenSoldier  Год назад +2

      glad the music helps 🫀 much love

    • @michaeltinkham6894
      @michaeltinkham6894 Год назад

      @@CitizenSoldier omg you actually replied you have no idea what that means to me!! ♥️♥️ thank you so much 😊

  • @Henigan716
    @Henigan716 Год назад +2

    This song is such a blast, Everything they said is so relatable in my situation. I've been through alot in my life, and this explains it. Thank You @CitizenSoldier for releasing this, this is an amazing song on the album so far

  • @PhoenixFeather09
    @PhoenixFeather09 Год назад +2

    Citizen Soldier always makes music that speaks to my soul.
    I just wan to say thank you for everything.
    And I love watching you in concert! Thank you for touring!

  • @patricka5926
    @patricka5926 Год назад +5

    Wow, I know you guys not very long, but your sound and massages are amazing, I’m a big fan of your heavy songs and I think this is your best so far, keep going 💪🏼💪🏼🔥

  • @Ninjagirl19991
    @Ninjagirl19991 Год назад +1

    I'm glad I listened to this song, my grandma passed away today

  • @ArchangelOfKindness
    @ArchangelOfKindness Год назад +2

    "are you ok, do you need to chat" really hit me like bullet in chest😢

  • @Th3snip3r
    @Th3snip3r Год назад +2

    YEAAAAH, I'VE BEEN WAITING FOR SO LONG FOR THISSS!!!❤

    • @Th3snip3r
      @Th3snip3r Год назад +1

      Maybe, I dunno how long

    • @MP_Zombie
      @MP_Zombie Год назад

      Me too I've been waiting for months

  • @darklostsoul711
    @darklostsoul711 Год назад +2

    I have never related to a song more. Its gonna be on repeat for a while.

  • @JoghTmicheal
    @JoghTmicheal Год назад +2

    How does this not have 1 billion views this is so deep this song will be on replay

  • @Max-17
    @Max-17 Год назад +2

    Your music is a medicine that helps us lonely people feel heard. 🖤

  •  Год назад +4

    É uma música melhor do que a outra! Não perdem a mão nunca... Minha banda favorita ❤️

  • @Rakunka
    @Rakunka Год назад +3

    I am big Fan of your Songs. Another Best masterpiece

  • @evo7323
    @evo7323 Год назад +1

    This hit's hard and bring back my memories, i found myself in the shootout few years ago, ran 5milles for the hill's before passing out , i woke up day later in the hospital, that day i indeed experience d myself as my own miracle

  • @ashes8123
    @ashes8123 10 месяцев назад +3

    Я завидую тем кто слушает это на родном языке, но и для меня это звучит офигенно

    • @Vlad-ke3ls
      @Vlad-ke3ls 8 месяцев назад +1

      появился кавер на русском на эту песню, можешь послушать, как по мне годно вышло(ссылку не стану оставлять т.к. я не занимаюсь рекламой, хотя очень похоже)

    • @ashes8123
      @ashes8123 8 месяцев назад

      @@Vlad-ke3ls а кто исполняет?

    • @Vlad-ke3ls
      @Vlad-ke3ls 8 месяцев назад

      @@ashes8123 everblack melodies

  • @StarRacerAutoBot
    @StarRacerAutoBot Год назад +2

    this song immortalyzes my very reasoning.. I could have become one of the enemies, the dying proof of my trauma, the distrust of every single word spoken; and yet as guarded as I was - I knew the suffering I saw and fought back to be what no one had done for me. -family to the abandoned, -be the person to stand side by side, -ever genuine without a mask, -defender against those who cause pain, -hearing the silent in understanding. As to you, Citizen Soldier, I will continue sharing your songs in defiance of the evils that plague the world. Each phrase you make calls out to at least one of many that I have shown thus far. Proof that existance is possible, someone cares, there will be someone to stand against the issues, as rare and far between these people may be. -Thank you for making all of these, and being some of them we can trust

  • @Yo251097
    @Yo251097 Год назад +2

    This is a nice form to start my day! 😊

  • @Dark_Dragon1337
    @Dark_Dragon1337 Год назад +7

    thank you...
    for showing me that someone understands...
    for showing me that I'm not alone...
    and for giving me the strength to be my own miracle...

  • @--Shinobu--.
    @--Shinobu--. Год назад +2

    Sometimes people think you are okay because you use a "mask" that is happy and healthy, but behind this mask is just emptiness and pain and this is the mask you want them to accept but showing what hides behind this mask hurts more than hiding it, i love the vibes of this songs, help me so much when im sad. Thank you Citizen Soldier.

  • @lilithlynn
    @lilithlynn 6 месяцев назад +2

    Hi Citizen Soldier!
    Big fan here. I just wanted to tell you how much your music means to me. It always helps me get through the toughest of times. I found you at my worst, and you helped getting me back to my best!
    Also, this song means a lot to me. I have OSDD which means my brain developed a coping mechanism to deal with childhood trauma, splitting my personality in many parts. And this song is EXACTLY what it feels like. "I had to be the family that never was there". We are a family in one body to protect one another. "I had to be my own miracle". We can support each other at pur worst and can get our spirit up again.
    Thank you for expressing that in words. We think more people, and especially more systems should hear this song.
    Your music is the best therapy one could find. Thank you for saving me!

  • @gio-ym6bi
    @gio-ym6bi Год назад +2

    I love it❤❤

  • @michelleruiz5330
    @michelleruiz5330 Год назад +3

    _¡¡¡"Wow Citizen Soldier, lo Amo🔥🖤✨(♡ω♡ ) ~♪🌹 Me Encantó estuvo Hermoso que hasta no paro de Oírla, ustedes son los Mejores, Ayudan mucho no hay Duda, los Queremos y Siempre les Desearé lo Mejor. Saludos y Abrazos desde México🦋🇲🇽(つ✧ω✧)つ"!!!!_

  • @sereinlunas8142
    @sereinlunas8142 Год назад +1

    Honestly this song fits the story of my life unbelievably well. This is exactly how my life has gone from childhood to adulthood. We are the few who survived that path we were forced to walk.

  • @matlnl2064
    @matlnl2064 Год назад +1

    This song means so much, I had it on repeat all day "And be the family that never was there" hit really hard. Thank you for everything you do!

  • @ethanstjohn3151
    @ethanstjohn3151 Год назад +2

    All I can say is thank you. This song is like every other. It touches so many people and their personal experiences. Citizen Soilder, from the bottom of my heart. Thank you so much.💙

  • @PastaSick
    @PastaSick 11 месяцев назад +1

    My comment was deleted.....but I wanted you guys to know that your words mean everything to me. You've made my life so much better....I've always been alone and ever since I was 8 I knew that no one would come looking for me....With the music you guys make I feel I can finally cry the tears I never let myself cry when I was younger...your words comfort me in ways no one else has even noticed....thank you