Emotional Song About My Brothers Drug Addiction

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  • Опубликовано: 21 авг 2024
  • Gremlin Real Talk Part 4
    A very personal song about my brothers meth addiction. My real brother, mom and aunt appear in it so every emotion is real. I hope to raise awareness to an epidemic affecting millions of people.
    Gremlin
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    Directed by Big Lyrik Entertainment
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    Prod by the amazing Sinima Beats
    Mixed / Mastered by Lou Koo

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  • @Gremlinmusic24
    @Gremlinmusic24  8 лет назад +1427

    Hope you all enjoy this video! Was hard to shoot since i used my real brother and family but it paid off, thank you!

    • @MinorityMusick
      @MinorityMusick 8 лет назад +42

      This hits home for me...a lost father, and a young brother struggling with his demons. It's tough when it's family. Wish your brother well. Thank you for this video.

    • @alishagood537
      @alishagood537 6 лет назад +11

      Gremlin i think you are amazing

    • @DudeOG.GAMING
      @DudeOG.GAMING 6 лет назад +5

      Cool

    • @mydangforrester1176
      @mydangforrester1176 5 лет назад +2

      love it bro

    • @mydangforrester1176
      @mydangforrester1176 5 лет назад +7

      air freashener good one

  • @jessicahernandez6445
    @jessicahernandez6445 4 года назад +213

    :( I feel this , makes me see what I caused my family during my meth addiction , thank god I'm sober 🙏🙏🙏

    • @theparanormalsacrificer3639
      @theparanormalsacrificer3639 4 года назад +1

      Meth is better to keep your mind focusing on a the theft LETS GO LEFT BALLSVGSDHOB

    • @MaverickMcGreasy
      @MaverickMcGreasy 3 года назад +3

      Fuck yea Jessica.

    • @jesusfreak6538
      @jesusfreak6538 3 года назад +3

      AMEN🙏🙏.. I lived in that world I've lost hope Lost dreams lost life, lost hope lost faith,, I just thank God that he brought me out of it...no I pray for my own younger brother to get his life out of the world of the drugs and the streets...

    • @codavegarbs7585
      @codavegarbs7585 3 года назад +5

      I thank god your sober also. Over 2 years clean and it's so hard! God bless you and the strength you need forever.

    • @stefanculo
      @stefanculo 3 года назад +2

      Meth is hell was hooked ever since i was 15 now as 18 i got sober but i dont regret going trough that i regret hurting everyone but then again i proved and inspired my close ones as i grabbed my life amd told it im the one in charge not the damn drugs. I never stole from family i became more of a criminal never stole or got violent with close friends and family i kept holding on to my self i think thats the reason i in the end got the motivation everyone got worse and worse and people started dying only one friend from juvy left alive. I have adhd and bipolar and my addiction was more of a symptom of problem i had wich i ironically self treated with spirtual training and dmt and shrooms drugs are not evil itself. And some drugs helped me actually but im off everything now i live normally without meds or drugs studying and learning to be a part of a society. My parents where addicts so that lifestyle was normalized. Hold on to your hope and yourself and find who you really are no one is a born sddict even if you have an addictive personality since you where a kid you can beat it. Never say never.

  • @angiebeavers9706
    @angiebeavers9706 3 года назад +11

    I have been clean for 80 days today I am crying right now while watching this video I was a meth head and opiates addiction I went to palematto addiction and recovery in Rayville Louisiana I just got out May 3 of this year I have been in and out of Recovery since 1985 I am 53 I will be 54 September 25 this video made me stop and think what I put my family through I lost my mom last year I have four daughters my youngest daughter got killed by a car April 30 2018 Recovery is possible I hope that your brother chose Recovery

  • @mr.e1902
    @mr.e1902 4 года назад +249

    4yrs ago I had to give my own brother CPR but it was just too late. He killed himself after he got out of rehab.. He left no note behind which has always fucked with my head. Most nights I don't get much sleep so I scroll through songs to help me cope. I came across this song n the part about your brothers point of view just brought me to tears. You'll never understand how much of a bittersweet blessing that was for me. Thank you for sharing your story n your lyrical gift with the world 💙

  • @wendywingate2671
    @wendywingate2671 2 года назад +41

    My first time hearing this.
    I can't even describe what it made me feel.
    My husband of 17 years died from OD in a rehab center in 2008.
    Left me to raise 5 kids on my own. My youngest was 7.
    I let my grief lead me to addiction.
    My kids suffered. I suffered.
    I'm clean now going on 21 months.
    My baby boy is about to turn 21 and he's struggling.

    • @GTFCEO
      @GTFCEO 2 года назад +4

      Wendy so sorry for your loss, if I can help id love to. Great listener w good advice here!

    • @cristiweiland525
      @cristiweiland525 2 года назад +4

      I know this is late but your comment touched me. Hugs.

    • @lexakailey6519
      @lexakailey6519 2 года назад +4

      Sending you love and positive energy ❤

    • @urdigitaldetox0218
      @urdigitaldetox0218 Год назад +5

      I'm so sorry my ex fought in Afghanistan was shot had ptsd got into drugs died of an overdose day after valentines day I know it's hard im thankful I got sober

    • @tammywesterhausen1596
      @tammywesterhausen1596 11 месяцев назад +1

      Sending prayers! I've been there as well, have 16 yrs clean

  • @adrianolivas3017
    @adrianolivas3017 4 года назад +67

    That hit so deep. Ivan was a friend of mine when I was deep into drugs, I loved him very much. He always loved and talked about his family. Especially you mark. Hope you all are doing well. Love you Ivan -Adrian

  • @looneythasuspect7549
    @looneythasuspect7549 2 года назад +37

    Im a recovering addict and this song hit at home. Thank u so much for sharing. I am now 4 years clean and i work in the field to help others who struggles with addiction and im grateful for that and i now teach groups for recovery. I have showed this video a couple of times and left them in tears. Thank u for giving ur insight from a family point of view. We needed to hear this. Much love homie.

    • @evelynmcknzie3267
      @evelynmcknzie3267 10 месяцев назад

      Hello I was wondering if I can email you in regards to your recording very group program ?

    • @jamiefarrell2289
      @jamiefarrell2289 6 месяцев назад

      Hey man this was one of the songs that helped me through my recovery, well done on getting clean, and even better your helping other addicts I'm currently 2 years 7 months and 19 days clean, I lost my mum last year 3 days after hitting my 2 year milestone and I managed too stay clean by going back to groups and sharing and having a very supportive fiance and her 3 kids, if it wasn't for that I would of just ended up back on the stuff

  • @willbeeley1000
    @willbeeley1000 10 месяцев назад +2

    my little brother sent me this song in the middle of a full blown relapse & it almost caused me to end my life but now i can listen 2 it it keeps me going

    • @UwUEmmittationUwU
      @UwUEmmittationUwU 2 месяца назад

      thats good ur continuing to push on, and im sorry this happened

  • @jaquelineanaya9489
    @jaquelineanaya9489 8 лет назад +42

    3 years and I'm still here. this is amazing. every song is amazing.

  • @jessereynolds7590
    @jessereynolds7590 3 года назад +10

    Im an older brother, and a son. Ive been here, I am here. This has been me. This is me. Thank you Gremlin. Stay blessed brother bear. From every older brother to his younger counterpart, I'm sorry

    • @ShannonSizemore-h6w
      @ShannonSizemore-h6w Месяц назад

      JESUS CHRIST PLEASE,FORGIVE Travis..FORGIVE me for FAILING YOU..MYSE..MY WIFE KIDS AND LOVED ONES.
      I HAD ALMOST 4 YRS..UNTIL A COUPLE WEEK'S AGO 😢

  • @brendahill5055
    @brendahill5055 3 года назад +17

    Song hits deep i felt this 10 years of drug problem and it was hard to over come at times but 3 years clean today

  • @katrinamorgan9216
    @katrinamorgan9216 2 года назад +1

    Miss my sister. Almost 30 years lost to addiction. 30 years of my mothers lost hope and worry. Just praying you can look in the mirror and feel pride one day before you are lost forever. You are missing today. Been missing a week. Just put of prison 2 weeks ago. Another hope lost. 😭

  • @shileensanders3471
    @shileensanders3471 7 лет назад +85

    It hurt to watch this, & listen to those lyrics cause I lost a best friend from meth... she was such a good person, then she got screwed up in meth & other drugs. Then one day she ended up overdosing on meth...
    you really are talented! I couldn't imagine making a song out of this, it hurts too much. My mom was on drugs when I was little, so was everyone she dated. So I know what it's like to go through with people who have that addiction...
    Your songs hit home for me! 💯😭. But I love your music. They need to become more popular!! Love the lyrics!!!

    • @jennifercorona3802
      @jennifercorona3802 4 года назад +3

      You fucking idiot!! You don't KNOW the lifestyle unless you've lived it YOURDAMNSELF! You don't UNDERSTAND the lifestyle unless you've lived it. And obviously you don't know shit about CRYSTAL METH! But I'll school YOU AND ANY OTHER DUMB FUCK OTHER THAT DON'T KNOW SHiT about this LiFESTYLE... One thing is for sure YOU CAN'T OVERDOSE ON METH! THE ONLY THiNG iT DOES TO YOU iS PUTS YOU TO SLEEP iF YOU'VE "CONSUMED" TOO MUCH OF iT!!!

    • @robgp69
      @robgp69 4 года назад +1

      @@jennifercorona3802 why you so mad?😂

    • @Packmeacone
      @Packmeacone 4 года назад +2

      @@robgp69 she's on meth

    • @carolynjesusisreal8213
      @carolynjesusisreal8213 4 года назад +2

      @@jennifercorona3802 SHUT UP SHE CAN EXPRESS HERSELF IF U DONT LIKE IT DONT RESPOND
      fueldbyhashbrowsancof she is

    • @MatthewSmith-co4ug
      @MatthewSmith-co4ug 3 года назад +2

      I'm sorry but you cannot overdose on methamphetamine my girlfriend overdose and she was on methamphetamine but she did heroin and what's that had caused her to die so in all reality I've been hooked on meth for so long I tried overdosing the only thing you can do is over m you cannot overdose and die on methamphetamine heroin is with killing everybody

  • @ohnooyoudied9584
    @ohnooyoudied9584 2 года назад +3

    5 years ago. This song still hits man.

  • @battledog5708
    @battledog5708 6 месяцев назад +2

    I looked back and realised I was never given real love 😢 but has become a man, who is blessed to see everything and everyone for who they are

  • @manuelito2yasabe117
    @manuelito2yasabe117 4 года назад +59

    This song hurts me. Addiction is a bitch, but we can get over it. Withdrawals are tough, but the will to do right is stronger😔💙

  • @jessye.9828
    @jessye.9828 4 года назад +10

    I’m here again brother...chills to the bone.. my life was just like your brothers.. I had no brothers but two loving sisters and a mother I was causing damage too. Till they confronted me and let me in their feelings.. many years of damaged can’t be reversed but I know I can make things better from now on.. I’ve been clean for 6 years now. Keep doing what your doing brother.

  • @MacBobby1408
    @MacBobby1408 3 года назад +4

    How did I never see this till now? My brother was an addict for close to 10 years. Meth Heroin, you name it he was on it. Crazy now he’s been clean for almost 2 years, and I’ve never been so proud of anyone in my life. Never ever ever thought he was gonna change, and to see the changes he’s made is incredible, I love him to death & were closer than ever now.

  • @alibeniot1234
    @alibeniot1234 3 года назад +15

    This hits hard 😭😭😭 I put my family through everything he has talked about

    • @brandonwood2757
      @brandonwood2757 4 месяца назад

      Hey man I don't know you but I respect you for saying that shit that's a big thing to come out with and you know what you did and took responsibility for it

  • @monicacasillas8220
    @monicacasillas8220 5 лет назад +169

    💔
    this was dope something most families can relate too! 😔

  • @susanmallett7723
    @susanmallett7723 8 лет назад +5

    this reminds me of my past....now sober and I survived....now I have to watch my baby brother go through this....its the hardest thing....thank you for making this song....this is raw...this is what people need to see....

  • @heathersherman-kelley
    @heathersherman-kelley 4 года назад +8

    I wish I had my family like that at my worst !!!!!

  • @redneckyeeyeefortnite9546
    @redneckyeeyeefortnite9546 3 года назад +1

    Lost my brother when I was 9 an he was 19 to drugs an I miss him alot reminds me of him any time any one says his name i try to hold my tears in an fist up my fists an stuff I wish he was still here to see me grow up an see me an hug me an be there hanging out with me an help me out when I need it

  • @monicagjesdal5358
    @monicagjesdal5358 3 года назад +2

    This song touched me deep. I'm 8 days sober off meth and my own brother could've wrote this song about me and him. Made me cry.

  • @marie8975
    @marie8975 10 месяцев назад +4

    Thank you for putting yourself out there to help everyone!! You express what we all go thru in away I never could!! You are BOTH EXTREMELY GIFTED!!🙏

  • @tylersmith6079
    @tylersmith6079 3 года назад +3

    This is my life right now sadly😢

  • @kathleentarin1632
    @kathleentarin1632 3 года назад +2

    My son is 23 out in the streets off and on with his addiction. I've tried everything. One day I hope he comes home clean 🙏 It's tooken a toll on our family watching him go thru this. Never did I think my son would be this person. He was very popular in HS and played sports football and basketball he has medals, trophies shirts, hoodies that he earned thru the years he played BB and football. He was well known for his sports. He threw that all away to drugs. I want my son back 😭

    • @tabithacobb7648
      @tabithacobb7648 3 года назад +1

      My heart breaks for you & your family. It's so hard, I've been there....If you need to reach out to vent, to talk, scream, or cry my personal email is:
      tcobb9971@gmail.com
      It's a battle, but your son can overcome addiction. Prayers going up for you

    • @aileencaramonte5250
      @aileencaramonte5250 3 года назад +1

      Hi Kathleen just pray to God…. God will help us I believe in Him! My brother is very intelligent but drugs made his life miserable… they also are struggling. Drugs can kill the person and his family. We have to pray and if you can let him stay in drug rehab before everything gets worse…

    • @aileencaramonte5250
      @aileencaramonte5250 3 года назад +1

      When they are into drugs they become another person all they need is money and drugs. Put him in drug rehab he can still be helped…

  • @brentalexander3791
    @brentalexander3791 Год назад +1

    Love this song last year. When I was in my addiction, my brother played this for me on the car emotionally, but something the heart needs is truth.

  • @89trosky
    @89trosky 3 года назад +5

    I hope your brother got clean and is still here with us. Great song. I am a recovering heroin addict.

  • @aaronanonymous4974
    @aaronanonymous4974 3 года назад +13

    Don't ever turn your back or get mad at different roads siblings make, cause soon they will turn back!

  • @JacobBrown-t8w
    @JacobBrown-t8w Месяц назад +2

    My name is Mercedes. Jacobs fiance. I was so lost. I started using the needle after my son got taken from me. I felt like i lost my soul. I became so bad on it. It took sometimes hours and id be screaming out and crying because i couldnt hit myself. I kept telling myself and everyone else i couldnt live like this anymore. I had to stop not only for myself but for my son. But everyone kept saying its alright heres another hit. Mostly because they thought once i was high, id give it up..... when i met jake, he showed me that someone is willing to stand by me no matter what and its been a struggle but im finally clean. Since may 5th of this year. He listens to your songs so it gives me motivation not to want to do it anymore and remind me how terrible that life was. Thank you so much for inspiring us all and sharing your story. We love you.

    • @amyabbott3925
      @amyabbott3925 28 дней назад +1

      Your son wants you healthy please give up for your son if your still using if your not anymore keep it up ❤

    • @JacobBrown-t8w
      @JacobBrown-t8w 28 дней назад

      @amyabbott3925 I'm not. Been sober since may 5th. And today's his 2nd bday and I get to have him today. :)

  • @lisalawrence6398
    @lisalawrence6398 2 года назад +2

    This is spot on! Little brothers got in in him! Hope your listening big bro it’s never too late to start over! Hope he gets help!

  • @davidgozte9832
    @davidgozte9832 8 лет назад +264

    No words to explain how good this is, tough subject but you killed this !

    • @Gremlinmusic24
      @Gremlinmusic24  8 лет назад +12

      +David Gozte thanks bro

    • @phoenix_beatz3961
      @phoenix_beatz3961 4 года назад

      @@Gremlinmusic24 hey if you see this I wanted to ask if your still uber driving and rapping

    • @jasonhowell8937
      @jasonhowell8937 3 года назад

      @@Gremlinmusic24 thank u brother u help me so much thank you

    • @wattsybfd1062
      @wattsybfd1062 3 года назад

      Emotional seing the lads grandma there wish i still had mine an my dad man 😔 he killed this tho

    • @mattakaguccikingwordlife6355
      @mattakaguccikingwordlife6355 3 года назад

      I use too be like ur brother gremlin

  • @jenniferthompson9851
    @jenniferthompson9851 3 года назад +1

    I lost my baby sister this past April who was addicted to crack, she was only 32 years old. I had cut off communication with her because she was killing herself and I'm having a hard time dealing with my choice. I'm happy to see that you have the strength and will power to fight for him, I wish now that she is gone that I could have done more for her.

  • @freddyweber9095
    @freddyweber9095 Год назад

    I dont know where id be without my lil sis!!!! She helped me get clean and made my life so much better!!!! This is exactly how she treated me and i wouldnt ask for anything else! I love you Bri!!!! 8 yrs clean now!!!

  • @MonstamaniTV
    @MonstamaniTV 3 года назад +3

    My brother was an addict.. sadly once he finally got clean a month later had a heart attack.. but I’ve always been his ride or die even if he was drugged up I never treated him like he wasn’t my best friend he died when I was 17 he never got to see me graduate or anything.. he’ll never meet his future nieces and nephews or see his own kids grow old .. cherish your family always even in the lows cause when they’re gone that’s a wrap 💯

  • @talksickstoner3486
    @talksickstoner3486 5 лет назад +3

    Five years clean, and it's really not as easy as everyone thinks. It's hard, when life kicks you and you're already down, you know you could feel great again, unstoppable. But they will not quit until they are ready. Hard truth, but I'm not here to sugar coat it, hope the best for all of you and yours, it hurts when I see people addicted.

  • @gailgrant3209
    @gailgrant3209 4 дня назад

    Relatable to millions. I’m one. Intervention at 60. 40yrs, IV. Heroin and speed. It finally worked. I was able to give my mom 6yrs. At 98 with stomach cancer, on hospice. We’re sitting on her bed. She’s weak. The end was near. She puts her head on my shoulder and asks ‘ What took you so long?’ I said, “Mom, you can’t believe how powerful the addiction. I COULD NOT STOP!” Got 10yrs now. Don’t give up. ❤️🌟💙

  • @kattkennedy8821
    @kattkennedy8821 3 года назад +1

    This video gave me chills and made me sad it reminded me of my middle son the last time he saw his older brother who died 11/28/2016 at 39 yr ol his name is marty. Cody didnt understand opiate and heroin addiction they were so close for years i know he watches oveer him from heaven hope your bro is good and got clean don't give up on him love him you never know when that last time is. God bless you and your family

  • @daisyleon98
    @daisyleon98 8 лет назад +29

    gave me the chills but dope and deep

  • @jaynorris7596
    @jaynorris7596 3 года назад +7

    Damn...I'm coming from both sides of that story. Older brother addict, now 2 years sober and just lost a brother yesterday to it ain't we all though...

  • @mrshaw7602
    @mrshaw7602 2 года назад +2

    This is honestly unbelievable song. My brother was addicted, I always hated it. Till finally I flipped out on him one day for all the disappointments he's done and all the broken promises, I let it all out. We didn't speak for years. I was only 16ish. When I was 26ish we spoke about it. He thanked me for opening his eyes, he knew he was addicted and needed to change but believed he wasn't that bad. He said he'd change multiple times after I spoke up a few times back then but never did. Thankfully he's clean and thanks me for it. Now he has a family and the happiest dad there could be. He went through hell to clean up.

  • @lisacarden7781
    @lisacarden7781 2 года назад +1

    Thank you so much for this. My brother and I used to listen to you together. Drugs caught up with him and I lost him a few months ago and every day hurts. Your music still helps

  • @LandofOzOfficial
    @LandofOzOfficial 3 года назад +3

    Wow. I hate yt algorithm. I'm now crying uncontrollably. Only families with real addiction can appreciate how real this song is. You are one talented person my Friend. Subbed.

  • @figeuiraduvenage230
    @figeuiraduvenage230 3 года назад +7

    Bro have you ever been addicted to something.. You say in your lyrics "bro just quit the addiction" it's not that simple just to stop using stuff you have been using for years.

    • @charlesclarke8402
      @charlesclarke8402 4 месяца назад

      Grew up with a mother the had multiple docs for Valium and watch her fucked up drueling so left my mom for almost 20yrs until the woman of my life talked .e into talking to mom I thank her every day that I had the chance to say goodbye now I'm a drunk and coke head I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place wish I had the strength to be better

    • @dustinmacdougall2308
      @dustinmacdougall2308 3 месяца назад

      ​@charlesclarke8402 you are strong enough. You just don't know it

    • @n0lackin74
      @n0lackin74 2 месяца назад

      He obviously hasn’t lol

    • @austinivie3231
      @austinivie3231 Месяц назад

      Addiction is a bitch. I watched my brother use since he was 13. Then I got addicted. People who don't know anything about addiction shouldn't talk. My brother and I are sober now but still battle it. But at the same time when I didn't know about addiction I hated my brother. But now I understand.

  • @samweeks581
    @samweeks581 3 года назад +2

    Driving to crs training and came across this song man did I get the chills all the way thorough fight this fight with us we do care it’s sad but drugs take us away from everything and everyone

  • @A.j.glock206
    @A.j.glock206 2 года назад +1

    This hurts hard my brother is currently addicted to H&meth but this song helped me a lot these few months. Thank you.

  • @justinkalanquin7787
    @justinkalanquin7787 2 года назад +6

    I feel your pain I have brother's who have an addiction problem and I still have one who still is in the struggle. I have also struggled with addiction as well. I literally got out of prison two days ago and I am in a Halfway House now. Thank you for this song I shed some tears and it honestly helped me a little more as well as the help I am and have been seeking for my own addiction!

  • @luv-myfam8424
    @luv-myfam8424 3 года назад +3

    I just lost my brother to addiction 💙this song remind me what my brother has faced 💔 but when he was sober he was a beautiful soul 😞

  • @mistyjomay6272
    @mistyjomay6272 3 года назад +2

    For my brother, a drug addict. I still love you and I'll never give up on your recovery❤

  • @carriestephan6378
    @carriestephan6378 2 года назад +4

    I’m a mother listening to this after my 21 yr old son died 6 months ago! 💙💔

  • @justinday6788
    @justinday6788 3 года назад +5

    Damn man you killed this song Gremlin. I have been struggling with my addiction with meth I have stop several times but always fall back into it. I lost my wife and kids because of it but where I'm from there is drugs but not drug help I don't know what to do anymore I really want my kids back in my life I have the will to stop but can't find the power to

  • @arkaholicn1456
    @arkaholicn1456 2 года назад +4

    This hit me hard. Especially the anger aspect. Like so many others I relate to this. Much love and respect.

  • @johnnykelley269
    @johnnykelley269 3 года назад +3

    Gremlin my name is John and I started looking at your RUclips videos yesterday. I too have an addiction except mine is your videos. I'm old school til the day I die. I don't like alot of rap I can count rappers on one hand, actually you will be number 3. There's something about the lyrics, the reality of your songs. The message in your music. I come from a era where singing was singing, melody, rhythm, hitting notes. I always thought anyone can talk a song. I heard your stuff and realized that back then all the things that attracted me to my favorite songs and groups was the message in the music and the everyday issues that we can identify with is how. I and alot of your present and future fans will continue to identify with you talking about real things . Continue to keep giving positive messages that others can use. I know what the consumers are looking for and personal positive information and what you dealt with and how you turned it positive for yourself and family is real and more common than you think. I'm 56 years old and I will continue to follow you. You have something that is going to blow up. Keep doing what you are doing. Much love.

  • @jessewilliams2949
    @jessewilliams2949 3 месяца назад +1

    I grew up the addict of the family as a teenager and got clean when I had my son. Now.... Both brothers are addicted to drugs and watching them destroy themselves is worse than any day I've ever had in active addiction.

  • @BryanCharlesGibbyGibson
    @BryanCharlesGibbyGibson 2 года назад +3

    On January 10th I lost my brother to an accidental overdose on fentanyl. My brother tried to go for his Narcan but it was too late. He was trying so hard to get clean and it seemed like he was doing good. But the drugs got a hold of him. He had a drinking problem and he had a drug problem. Me and my brother didn’t talk for five years and it felt weird when he came around. He stole all my shit and sell it and he stole my parents stuff and sell it. My brother has two girls and they always ask where Dad is at. We have to tell them there father passed away and he is in heaven now. It is so heartbreaking. This fentanyl shit is so fucking crazy. My brother went to rehab in California and That didn’t work and he was homeless on the street in California. Then he came back home and it just got worse. Before my brother passed he said this it’s most likely that you go to rehab and die in rehab or you get out of rehab and die anyway or get sober and stop taking drugs and die as well. These might sound like excuses but it’s also true. An the pain hurts so much for me when I know the guy that sold the drugs to my brother and killed him. I can’t wait for the day when they arrest that guy and they put him away for life. I have so much hate and anger and resentment. I hate drug dealers so much. I think they all should be put away for life. They just ruin families and hurt innocent people and crave off their sadness and emotions. An give them drugs to fill out their pain. It’s just sick. An I can’t take it anymore. I wish me and my brother were closer but he kept pushing me away and he didn’t want to get closer and I understand why now. He didn’t want me to get wrapped up in his shit. My parents tell me he was happy with all the accomplishments that I have done in my life and how I’m the better man and he wished he was like me and that he loved me but I couldn’t believe that. Because my brother was a complete asshole to me all the time and said some pretty fucked up shit to me. I was always told he was jealous of my accomplishments and he was just a failure in his own life. But I just know the drugs deluded his mind and he couldn’t remember who he was. I always wished and hoped he would turn things around and get clean and do better for his kids but in the end the drugs won. Now I have to sit here with the pain and anger and resentment and the justice system not doing their jobs to get justice for the lost souls that the drug dealers have took from people and families. When family and friends just want to get justice for their love ones. So we can move on with our life and get some grief and feel better. So I like your video and I can relate. It had me bawling in tears. Thank you for that.

  • @JaysA51candles
    @JaysA51candles 3 года назад +3

    Hope your brother is doing alright, he is talented

  • @mokurai6663
    @mokurai6663 3 года назад +1

    Brought tears to my eyes addiction is a tough subject since i lost my brother to his addiction and that a pain nobody should experience

  • @sarahmaddix2394
    @sarahmaddix2394 3 года назад +3

    Wow thank you so much that's my brother he's in jail right now again and I get it because we're not alone and thank you for letting us know that but I've got my own addictions thanks because your music and music is the best therapy that has been had thank you

  • @MrJstah
    @MrJstah 3 года назад +39

    Shouldn't ever judge an addict. Never give up on family never. No matter what. Addiction is dark. I'm an addict and I never thought ever I would have done the things I've done to others and my family. I was on top of the world once but now I'm in hell. We as addicts always chase the good times in our past because our present is hell and there's no hope for tmrow.

    • @neelkent5319
      @neelkent5319 2 года назад +3

      I'm in the same boat brother no family nothing so I feel you

    • @petercambridge229
      @petercambridge229 Год назад +2

      So true 100%

    • @oplicity5369
      @oplicity5369 Год назад +3

      sad this is how people see us sometimes. seems like there is no way out

    • @tiedie6699
      @tiedie6699 Год назад +3

      @@neelkent5319 me to

    • @karleykb8881
      @karleykb8881 Год назад

      U addicted just don’t understand how painful it is to go through ur projections my mother told me to kill myself while high …. I don’t care how sorry u can be u don’t get to be forgiven for the things u say and think just because your in pain too

  • @burkey_88
    @burkey_88 3 года назад +3

    This song is literally me talking to my brother and I’m still struggling to this day to forgive him. This song with the video had me in tears. I hope one day I can bring myself to forgive.

  • @christopherjoseph4166
    @christopherjoseph4166 2 года назад +1

    Powerful even at 3 and a half yrs clean. This still hit my heart ❤ I'll nvr stop apologizing to my fam.. even after 3 yrs

  • @adamdavis5383
    @adamdavis5383 3 месяца назад +1

    One of the best addiction songs I heard

  • @janetramirez7304
    @janetramirez7304 4 года назад +11

    This song is deep♥️ Many can relate.. made me cry😢

  • @M_Ak332
    @M_Ak332 3 года назад +4

    Dahm this shit hit me hard I also have a brother addicted to drugs I still miss the old him I’ve been threw tough times just because of him 😔

  • @LisaLisa-re3jm
    @LisaLisa-re3jm 4 года назад +19

    I feel this so deep, I love my brother but he always hurts us/ family. Im so mad at him but I want to huge him also! I dont know where he is and it hurts! I hope he gets help!

    • @lagirlda
      @lagirlda 4 года назад

      Same girl my brother is hooked on meth and breaks me seeing my mom and dad hurt.. we want to help him but he refuses and hes only 26 yrs he prefers staying at parks or streets 😣

  • @kadin-we5iu
    @kadin-we5iu 4 года назад +21

    I sadly do relate with this... i wish i could have my brother back, the real him not him when hes high or comin down

    • @amberbaker4128
      @amberbaker4128 3 года назад

      I feel ya pain..my brother is an addict as well💔

    • @nunyafuknbiznz9631
      @nunyafuknbiznz9631 3 года назад +1

      Man Tough Love Don't Always Work For All From Heroin To Pills Now Meth I Ain't No Quitter Fuk Rehab Some Of Us Just Grin An Bear It N Still On That Shitfight Of A Merrygo Round , Strum That Violin Again Sam N Hit Me With Ur Best Shot...

  • @erikapowers4545
    @erikapowers4545 3 года назад +6

    This hit home. Pictured it coming from my sister. :(

  • @coltonmeadows7767
    @coltonmeadows7767 4 года назад +3

    This song speaks wonders to me bro both my brothers and my mom were on meth, my brothers got sober but my mom still doing her thing. Thankyou for this

  • @manuelalmendarez2150
    @manuelalmendarez2150 2 года назад +2

    Bro I wish I could get though to my brother this brought tears man cause its exactly what has been going on

  • @eddienzz
    @eddienzz Год назад +2

    Broooo my god just randomly found you on RUclips and broooo your stuff is incredible! I been crying for the last hr and just feels like it's what I needed to do for a long time! Thanks for sharing your talent with us man! You are really gifted

  • @samanthaprice4229
    @samanthaprice4229 4 года назад +10

    This song hits hard ice been clean 8 years oct 31! Im in tears to see the pain it causes thr people around you really makes you hurt deeply! Your not you when you have an addiction. Its a choice we made and one we have to fight to stay away from when we do over come! Love this song💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙

  • @esquivelrichard9449
    @esquivelrichard9449 7 лет назад +10

    this shit hit me hard bro bc i was addicted to whatever i could get my hands on from xtc weed coke crack ice the whole medicine cabinet but this is real shit that you spittin iv been there and was able to kick it cold turkey with the help of my family (shout out to all the addicts dealing with their deamons inside thinking there is no way out..........there is)

  • @wheelchairdad1760
    @wheelchairdad1760 6 месяцев назад

    Going on 6 months of sobriety this song was amazing hit me to my core an me and my brother ran together at one point 19 yrs of pain an living in them trenches jails ect just blessed God spared me an forgave me for my sins anyone going threw a struggle you can do it I was shot twice and paralyzed in 2015 an it changed me forever but drugs an st life do that there is hope an help you just gotta put the work in stay blessed ppl

  • @tafadzwanasho2634
    @tafadzwanasho2634 4 года назад +2

    Snap Gremlin, I'm only seeing this song now. I relate to the words of this song in every way. I've battled Crack Cocaine addiction for 13 years! Your words to your brother are my family's words to me.Your brother's words to you are my words to my family. Thank you for your vulnerability, it's a quality I wish I was better at.

  • @Thirst4livingwater
    @Thirst4livingwater 8 лет назад +41

    I feel like you wrote this song for me man. I watched my older brothers life get sucked out of him for 5 year. at one point I just stopped caring. the pain is too much for me. I'm done with tears I need to focus on me and my family . tears can't help him but I hope my prayers does man. I too wish that I could go back to our childhood... anyways dope song. best wishes to you and your family

    • @Gremlinmusic24
      @Gremlinmusic24  8 лет назад +8

      +Fester MP Stay up g!! thanks for the support man!

  • @clottos1lottos180
    @clottos1lottos180 4 года назад +4

    This song is amazing... it hit hard.. both me and my brother was drug addict but we both are clean now.. ive been clean for 4 yrs now and hes comin up on 3 yrs... i love this song bro you did amazing job..

  • @edwardguzman7657
    @edwardguzman7657 4 года назад +1

    When life opens up the door for me it shuts it twice, I'm living life horribly but I'm glad you've done it right

  • @amercedez9919
    @amercedez9919 7 лет назад

    I cried the whole song.. It's so hard to have the people you love on drugs. May God bless you and your family. ❤️

  • @randycarroll9540
    @randycarroll9540 4 года назад +37

    Man!!! Gremlin I just want to let you know that you have some serious power in your words and that this song really made me look at my life and made me want to take this road to recovery more seriously!!! Not only for me but for my loved ones as well... You never really know how your actions and behaviors are effecting the ones around you until you hear it out of somebody else's mouth!!! Thank you for everything you've help me realize, keep your head up and keep producing this fire, your the best!!! 💯💯💯
    -Panda7414-

  • @heatherchandler275
    @heatherchandler275 7 лет назад +9

    My brother just got out of prison after 6 years. He's back on that shit and it's killing me inside and all I can do is cry.. Drugs kill more then just the addict... It kills the whole family...

    • @stephanieturner1430
      @stephanieturner1430 5 лет назад

      It's so hard but all you can do it be there for him through his pain.

  • @pocketcalzone2262
    @pocketcalzone2262 3 года назад +2

    My brother broke apart my mom and dad. Destroyed my perception of trust and made me numb. Ironically developed my own addiction after telling me him I wish he were dead and ended up so. I have a lot of pain I still don't allow myself to feel. I'm scared of it and I miss my brother.

  • @firedragongaming7502
    @firedragongaming7502 11 месяцев назад

    this song hit me so hard as i am recovering after 4 years and i am still fighting this battle and hurt so many people and without my family pushing me the way they did and my best friend who i lost due to this curse we recovering addicts bear everyday i wouldnt be here today thank you for making this its truly amazing. keep up the good work bro

  • @lifeadventuresofthetricities1
    @lifeadventuresofthetricities1 3 года назад +5

    Omg this really had me in tears, I was feeling you and your family's pain! Really sad song but very amazing song as well!

  • @danielhiatt2378
    @danielhiatt2378 2 года назад +3

    Lost my brother to fetynal in 2018. This shit hit me hard. Thanks for giving me some emotions tonight

  • @jennwatts805
    @jennwatts805 7 месяцев назад

    Dang it, man! This Momma is in tears on your words that are my reality! Thank you though it needed to be said and I never had the right words. I appreciate and am blessed by the evolution of you and your family! 😢❤

  • @homemalone6811
    @homemalone6811 4 года назад +1

    My brothers been an addict for about a year now this song had me in tears

  • @kelliemiller9457
    @kelliemiller9457 3 года назад +6

    Felt this one from both sides! My brother and I are both recovering addicts. He used when I wasn’t and watched it then I lost myself and let it control me as well. So wow, this song is deep af.

  • @jayweee4283
    @jayweee4283 2 года назад +5

    Yo man this had me in tears. I was the addict addicted to heroin and using cocaine iv. For a decade. I'm 2 years clean now but hearing the frustration and emotion in your voice it reminds me of what my brother felt the whole time. Him and I were always so close he looked up to me when we were kids even in the beginning of my addiction when I had really good jobs he looked up to me and then everything fell apart and you could see a piece of him gone and then he turned to anger which I don't blame him for obviously. Now that I'm two years clean we are really starting to rebuild our relationship back to how it was and he's having a child in March and I'm going to be an uncle and I told him last night that I'm going to be the best uncle ever and that I'm going to make sure I'm so perfect that my nephew looks up to me as he used to look up to me. God bless you and your family

    • @patricknovachich217
      @patricknovachich217 2 года назад +1

      Stay clean brother, stay on the right road, I've been on the same road as you man, I wish you success and fortune!

    • @jayweee4283
      @jayweee4283 2 года назад +1

      @@patricknovachich217 thanks brother I wish you the same

    • @patricknovachich217
      @patricknovachich217 2 года назад +1

      Stay clean for the ones you care about and if no ones said this lately I care about you, my uncle that taught me the music on my channel died from heroin so did my wife's mother and my buddy Chris, heroin is a terrible drug brother, stay clean for all the people that have passed away from that! Brother love from the black metal community!!!!

    • @jayweee4283
      @jayweee4283 2 года назад +1

      @@patricknovachich217 thank you Pat you're a good dude my friend! I've lost a lot of people myself and there's a reason I'm alive and I'll stay clean and do the best I can for the rest of my life. Thank you for your kind words and taking the time to respond to what I said and to continue to respond. It shows you really care. Thank you brother you literally made my night a lot better!

    • @patricknovachich217
      @patricknovachich217 2 года назад

      No problem man!

  • @jonreeder1419
    @jonreeder1419 3 года назад +1

    Coming from an ex addict and I did it all myself I cleaned up all by myself been clean now for years and that song is really touching but brother where you went hard-core and dug deep is when you use your real family the real emotion was there the real pain was there without the video I personally think most people would look beyond that song so be thankful that you use your real family all that love got you where you are much love

  • @destinyschoenmann8144
    @destinyschoenmann8144 Год назад +1

    I'm addicted to your music man keep it up. The lyrics are🤌 spot on with all your songs for me.

  • @gryffinparish5093
    @gryffinparish5093 3 года назад +3

    Coming from an active user, this shit made me feel deep inside, got me thinking how many times I've made my own mother cry and worry were I am constantly, I fucked up alot, and if I were sober I probably wouldn't be doing this shady shit I do

    • @lizallmartino1042
      @lizallmartino1042 3 года назад

      I’m an addict in recovery . Yes this is very deep , be safe out there , remember their is always a chair for you in the rooms

  • @katie-kayyvonne3165
    @katie-kayyvonne3165 4 года назад +3

    I absolutely love this song and I'm diff feeling your pain going threw the same thing with my sister 💔🥺😭

  • @erinparker9588
    @erinparker9588 2 года назад +1

    This song gave me chills and hit a sore spot in my heart. My older sister and I both struggled with addiction most of our life. I finally got clean and got it together to get my kids back. She always told me how proud she was and she wanted to be like me when she got older. I just lost her because of her addiction. I got to her to late.

  • @candyhudgens8027
    @candyhudgens8027 3 года назад +1

    I'm so glad I got sober and now I'm closer to my family than i ever was... 2 years sober going on 3....

  • @1904.Lowridaz
    @1904.Lowridaz 4 года назад +3

    This is for my dad. i got a restraining order on him yesterday thank god. He has ruined me and my childhood i have PTSD but im not gonna let it affect me anymore. My kids will never have fo experience what i had to go through...

  • @josephchavez1414
    @josephchavez1414 3 года назад +3

    Damn this song is dope. Keep up the music

  • @raymondsaunders208
    @raymondsaunders208 2 года назад +1

    I've been clean now for a month of meth heroin and coke thank you my little brother I was hurting I was on the streets sleeping any where I could and now back at moms archived so much

  • @terrence4101
    @terrence4101 2 года назад +1

    Damn bro you just made me cry. This is my story but I'm the older brother. I'm doing a lot better but I still haven't totally quit. Thank you so much for this song. I'm gonna send it to my little brother right now. I subscribed. Keep it up young buck. That song sent chills down my body.

  • @Alwayssmiling1717
    @Alwayssmiling1717 8 лет назад +4

    Also keeep up the hard work been a real inspiration for the past 3 years again thank you ✌🏻️