Sorry buddy :( I wish I could live on your shoulder and whisper positive things in your ear all day, even a few jokes to make you smile. Know your strength comes from those who care and love you. It's ok to lean on us we can take it.
Jon after that beautiful letter you prepared me for Christmas you were so kind to emphasize your appreciation for what I have done for you its time you applied that same appreciation for what you have done for yourself which has made me very proud of you and your achievements and I remain there for you. Love GP
Ive been considering ketamine infusions and that’s what brought me to your first video of the actual infusion. When I looked at your channel and saw the last video is from nearly a year ago, it was very concerning. I see there are others wondering how you’re doing in the comments. My hope is maybe you’ve recovered and left this channel behind because of it.
I see it's been over a year since his last post, I hope he's ok and we hear something soon. My son went through the 6 treatments and now does a daily ketamine lozinge, these can be mixed at a compounding pharmacy. This has worked well for him.
I wonder if this fellow is okay now? 3 years ago this video was made... I have had 2 Ketamine treatments for depression and anxiety. I am in it for the long haul. I can tell a improvement in anxiety for sure and even with my depression. I have tried everything under the sun in 7 years to help myself. All I have read has been great about Ketamine but I do get infusions not injections. I think there is hope for me after all but I am very careful to not get my hopes too high. I would love some input from this guy of some sort. This video is a first that I have seen that Ketamine is not helping.
At this point, I am more invested in your journey than I would be rooting for a hero in a movie. I’m curious why you chose a practitioner who administers Ketamine via injection versus an IV. It seems like the protocol is three IV’s over the course of a week at which point you assess the benefits. If it is beneficial, they do another week. Follow up boosters range from monthly or up to six months. It seems like your journey wasn’t the established protocol. Wishing you peace. Gratitude for sharing your journey.
Ketamine is a process. I personally don't feel the Ketamine failed you but more so that you may not have been prepared for the emotions that the Ketamine treatment brought up. Sharing is very difficult when you are vulnerable. It is immensely painful at times. Sharing in open forum runs the risk of haters. Being honest with those in your world is a risk too. I know from experience with Ketamine therapy it sometimes takes time to process pain and because of the pain I have found I confused the process with my depression and anxiety disorders. I watched your video and listened to your words and I totally believe the Ketamine allowed you to have these insights and often these views into our psyche are depressing and extremely painful. I feel so much of your struggles. Ketamine helps but we still have to endure the pain and process of getting healthy. I hear all that you say and feel it. I know it. Therapy is so important. Jon- Call for a sooner appointment! I have had a similar experience with Ketamine therapy once. It was a one time thing and really a break through in disguise. Ketamine is Hope. Ketamine allows clarity and often to is very, very difficult to to feel this turmoil because depression has numbed most of our emotions and memories of pain. I am constantly frustrated with learning all these new emotions and finding the correct descriptive words for what they feelings are. I usually leave feeling uplifted and once I didn't get that relief and I was angry. I was so bloody angry. Ketamine works in mysterious ways and after 2.5 years of treatments I am often struggling with much of what you stated in your video. It is life. Ketamine allowed you to process however painful that has been. My default setting makes suicide seem like a logical solution but I believe that knowing that Ketamine has given relief at all when nothing else has is powerful! I am so confident that your next treatment will give you relief. I am. I strongly suggest and recommend moving your appointment up. You will probably obsess for the next 6 weeks in fear of it not working. It is difficult to need Ketamine. It is painful and utterly uncomfortable. I used to worry obsessively about what I would do if it stopped doing the job I expect but I am here over 2.5 years later. I had one experience where the Ketamine didn't get it right. I laugh because looking back it did. It made me work harder to figure out why it didn't. I know that it was exhausting and I obsessed on the same pain I caused because of my illnesses and only wanted to die. Life often feels pointless to me. I feel these are default settings and the depression is a lying bastard that wants to destroy us. I worried about it all. Ketamine gives us clarity and we may not always be ready for what it shows us. We have been in darkness so long that the sunlight burns. Please hear me. I am hearing you. Ketamine was telling you that it was time for you to face these painful feelings of regret. Just wait until you reach the anger stage. I am so there now. It is frightening but I know I have to process and push through and to be honest with you most of the time it hurts so bad that I want to die instead of live through the process and work. Change comes. I strongly recommend that you get an appointment quick. The Ketamine will give you relief and you need it. After your next treatment you will kick yourself for waiting so long for relief because the ego and illness want 100% control and it lies to keep that power. You have my email. If you want to discuss this please don't hesitate to contact me. I realize that you are in a bad place right now and if the only things you can absorb from my ramblings is to make a sooner appointment I am Okay with that. You will torture yourself unnecessarily! Trust me I do know.
Still thinking about you, and hoping you stay the course. With these new therapies such as ketamine, microdosing, psilocybin, they are very useful tools but often not magic bullets. Difficult experiences are common. I hope your doctor was well- trained in helping you to open to the challenging experiences. For me, I need to use every tool available and the progress is slow, but I feel I'm getting somewhere. I hope the same for you. Many of us have come to care for you and would like to know how you're doing even if it isn't happy, upbeat news.
I'm so sorry your in such pain. Don't torture yourself over not being able to answer comments & emails from us when you're ill & feeling low from depression. I have thought & felt many, possibly all, of what your thinking & feeling. You may not feel it now but you are so loved, more than you can ever imagine, by the entire spiritual universe.
I have depression . I have been on antidepressants, mood stabilizers, 6 months of ect and ketamine infusions with nasal spray. The infusions are hit and miss. The antidepressants (certain ones) almost compelled me into suicide ideations. Ketamine has been the best treatment so far and the higher doses work better. The nasal spray keeps me from spiraling down into the dark abyss . Reliably so. Good luck Don’t get discouraged yet, many more options to try. Ketamine is good.
I'm on my fifth ketamine treatment. I can't tell anything different. I have suffered from depression since living the Marines in 1999. I literally tried everything but ECT. If this dies not work, ive made my mind up that I'm checking out. My depression is so severe that I don't want the pain. I hope and pray this Ketamine works.
I know very much how you are feeling. I am about to undergo treatment. I also am still dealing with the loss of a very long relationship with my ex. My depression is killing me. I'm not even able to work. This is my greatest fear. If this doesn't work, what next? I'm not doing ECT. I don't see how seizures can help the brain recover. I'm so sorry.
Didn't work for me at all - 1st, 2nd times. Was a fairly good trip but soon as it wore off, depression came back. Other side effect set in - flu like symptoms. Depression, for me requires real existential answers. Guilt is key to it at the base of it but to can't deny, on the outside, the "hard wired" conditions of the CNS. Guilt should be considered a primary disorder in psychology. Already attempted in 2016 - OD barbiturates, after which quit Benzos. Been in w/d since - has been a freaking nightmare.
I did recently come across another new treatment for depression called swiss cell therapy in Web MD magazine. Does anyone know any other good resources for researching new treatments for depression?
Hey I was wondering if you've heard of ayahuasca, and if that remotely interests you. I feel like it has potential for your recovery from depression. Just look into it at least
Ayahuasca saved my life three years ago, I was into severe suicidal depression, anxiety and consuming tremendous quantities of alcohol, amphetamines and benzodiazepines just to be able to make it day through day... I desintoxicated from benzos, antidepressants , antipsychotics and evrything else in about a month, then started ayahuasca... It was a complete breakthrough and this medicine gave me strength and hope (the experiences and ceremonies weren't easy as you really have to confront yorself and your demons, and sometimes you feel like you're dying), gave me a whole new perspective... I was able to stop all medications, including clonazepam which at other times gave me seizures just trying to stop it; also alcohol... I was very well for several months, but then again my life became very stressful, began taking benzos again, alcohol, drugs... and then I was back to the misery again... I haven't been able to begin an ayahuasca treatment again because of very severe anxiety (haven0t been able to stop benzos) and also because of the clinic I was going stoped to operate formally... Ayahuasca saved my life, but it is also a very demanding medicine, it requires you to being super commited to do heavy life changes and ot to come back to previous patterns. I'm now seeking to start a ketamine treatment... doing it with doctors resulted to be impossible because of the ridiculous expensive coasts, so I am trying to buy the medicine by myself (I don't care it is not legal) and carefully apply it by myself... It is that or continue with this fucking misery which will eventually lead me to suicide... So I hope I can have success. So only thing I want to tell to the maker of these videos is DON'T GIVE UP... keep trying with ketamine, if it no longer is working then try with ayahuasca or psylocybin mushrooms, which according to recent studies have the same effectivity as ketamine, both from psychedelic ceremonies and from microdosing. BLESSINGS, BROTHER
You know there's nothing wrong with casual dating and sex, its lite, good for the body and some girly attention will make you feel good :) Not sure what else you like to do, but getting outside in nature, wading in a calm river can have surprisingly positive effects, adopting a dog.... dog will give you sense a purpose, you can only get/stay so low when a dog wants to go for a walk, then you walk it down the street and some cute gal tells you how cute said dog is. How are you doing now? Is there a follow up video coming out?
I've had periods where ketamine didn't work. I thought to myself "that's it" when it didn't work. But after going back to it after a year or so, it worked perfectly 100%. Don't think that just because one session didn't work, that that is it.
Sorry buddy :( I wish I could live on your shoulder and whisper positive things in your ear all day, even a few jokes to make you smile. Know your strength comes from those who care and love you. It's ok to lean on us we can take it.
Jon after that beautiful letter you prepared me for Christmas you were so kind to emphasize your appreciation for what I have done for you its time you applied that same appreciation for what you have done for yourself which has made me very proud of you and your achievements and I remain there for you. Love GP
Ive been considering ketamine infusions and that’s what brought me to your first video of the actual infusion. When I looked at your channel and saw the last video is from nearly a year ago, it was very concerning. I see there are others wondering how you’re doing in the comments. My hope is maybe you’ve recovered and left this channel behind because of it.
I see it's been over a year since his last post, I hope he's ok and we hear something soon. My son went through the 6 treatments and now does a daily ketamine lozinge, these can be mixed at a compounding pharmacy. This has worked well for him.
I wonder if this fellow is okay now? 3 years ago this video was made... I have had 2 Ketamine treatments for depression and anxiety. I am in it for the long haul. I can tell a improvement in anxiety for sure and even with my depression. I have tried everything under the sun in 7 years to help myself. All I have read has been great about Ketamine but I do get infusions not injections. I think there is hope for me after all but I am very careful to not get my hopes too high. I would love some input from this guy of some sort. This video is a first that I have seen that Ketamine is not helping.
At this point, I am more invested in your journey than I would be rooting for a hero in a movie.
I’m curious why you chose a practitioner who administers Ketamine via injection versus an IV. It seems like the protocol is three IV’s over the course of a week at which point you assess the benefits. If it is beneficial, they do another week. Follow up boosters range from monthly or up to six months. It seems like your journey wasn’t the established protocol.
Wishing you peace. Gratitude for sharing your journey.
I hope this guy is okay.
I hope you're doing better now than the day this was filmed.
Ketamine is a process. I personally don't feel the Ketamine failed you but more so that you may not have been prepared for the emotions that the Ketamine treatment brought up.
Sharing is very difficult when you are vulnerable. It is immensely painful at times. Sharing in open forum runs the risk of haters. Being honest with those in your world is a risk too.
I know from experience with Ketamine therapy it sometimes takes time to process pain and because of the pain I have found I confused the process with my depression and anxiety disorders. I watched your video and listened to your words and I totally believe the Ketamine allowed you to have these insights and often these views into our psyche are depressing and extremely painful.
I feel so much of your struggles. Ketamine helps but we still have to endure the pain and process of getting healthy.
I hear all that you say and feel it. I know it. Therapy is so important.
Jon- Call for a sooner appointment! I have had a similar experience with Ketamine therapy once. It was a one time thing and really a break through in disguise.
Ketamine is Hope. Ketamine allows clarity and often to is very, very difficult to to feel this turmoil because depression has numbed most of our emotions and memories of pain. I am constantly frustrated with learning all these new emotions and finding the correct descriptive words for what they feelings are. I usually leave feeling uplifted and once I didn't get that relief and I was angry. I was so bloody angry. Ketamine works in mysterious ways and after 2.5 years of treatments I am often struggling with much of what you stated in your video. It is life. Ketamine allowed you to process however painful that has been. My default setting makes suicide seem like a logical solution but I believe that knowing that Ketamine has given relief at all when nothing else has is powerful! I am so confident that your next treatment will give you relief. I am. I strongly suggest and recommend moving your appointment up. You will probably obsess for the next 6 weeks in fear of it not working. It is difficult to need Ketamine. It is painful and utterly uncomfortable. I used to worry obsessively about what I would do if it stopped doing the job I expect but I am here over 2.5 years later. I had one experience where the Ketamine didn't get it right. I laugh because looking back it did. It made me work harder to figure out why it didn't. I know that it was exhausting and I obsessed on the same pain I caused because of my illnesses and only wanted to die. Life often feels pointless to me. I feel these are default settings and the depression is a lying bastard that wants to destroy us. I worried about it all. Ketamine gives us clarity and we may not always be ready for what it shows us. We have been in darkness so long that the sunlight burns.
Please hear me. I am hearing you. Ketamine was telling you that it was time for you to face these painful feelings of regret.
Just wait until you reach the anger stage. I am so there now. It is frightening but I know I have to process and push through and to be honest with you most of the time it hurts so bad that I want to die instead of live through the process and work. Change comes.
I strongly recommend that you get an appointment quick. The Ketamine will give you relief and you need it. After your next treatment you will kick yourself for waiting so long for relief because the ego and illness want 100% control and it lies to keep that power.
You have my email. If you want to discuss this please don't hesitate to contact me. I realize that you are in a bad place right now and if the only things you can absorb from my ramblings is to make a sooner appointment I am Okay with that. You will torture yourself unnecessarily! Trust me I do know.
Still thinking about you, and hoping you stay the course. With these new therapies such as ketamine, microdosing, psilocybin, they are very useful tools but often not magic bullets. Difficult experiences are common. I hope your doctor was well- trained in helping you to open to the challenging experiences. For me, I need to use every tool available and the progress is slow, but I feel I'm getting somewhere. I hope the same for you. Many of us have come to care for you and would like to know how you're doing even if it isn't happy, upbeat news.
I'm so sorry your in such pain. Don't torture yourself over not being able to answer comments & emails from us when you're ill & feeling low from depression. I have thought & felt many, possibly all, of what your thinking & feeling. You may not feel it now but you are so loved, more than you can ever imagine, by the entire spiritual universe.
Jon, I think all your videos are amazing. Please let us know how you’re doing.. I really care! I hope the next treatment works!
I have depression . I have been on antidepressants, mood stabilizers, 6 months of ect and ketamine infusions with nasal spray. The infusions are hit and miss. The antidepressants (certain ones) almost compelled me into suicide ideations. Ketamine has been the best treatment so far and the higher doses work better. The nasal spray keeps me from spiraling down into the dark abyss . Reliably so. Good luck Don’t get discouraged yet, many more options to try. Ketamine is good.
I hope you are ok. Lots of love. Please keep us posted.
I'm on my fifth ketamine treatment. I can't tell anything different. I have suffered from depression since living the Marines in 1999. I literally tried everything but ECT. If this dies not work, ive made my mind up that I'm checking out. My depression is so severe that I don't want the pain. I hope and pray this Ketamine works.
How’s it going?
im sorry you are in pain. i wish your situation was better, i need my treatment to work.
I know very much how you are feeling. I am about to undergo treatment. I also am still dealing with the loss of a very long relationship with my ex. My depression is killing me. I'm not even able to work. This is my greatest fear. If this doesn't work, what next? I'm not doing ECT. I don't see how seizures can help the brain recover. I'm so sorry.
Didn't work for me at all - 1st, 2nd times. Was a fairly good trip but soon as it wore off, depression came back. Other side effect set in - flu like symptoms. Depression, for me requires real existential answers. Guilt is key to it at the base of it but to can't deny, on the outside, the "hard wired" conditions of the CNS. Guilt should be considered a primary disorder in psychology. Already attempted in 2016 - OD barbiturates, after which quit Benzos. Been in w/d since - has been a freaking nightmare.
I hope you’re ok. I did ketamine infusions and was elated. Then it didn’t, and I did another round and found no relief.
Please get the infusions. They are a ton more effective. Or maybe you need a lower dosage.
How are you doing these days? Are you alright? Hope you are well.
im going for my first treatment tomorrow. its not really what i want to hear. i need the hope right now.
Justin Davies Ketamine is Hope! Good luck today!
Are you okay?
It's been a while. How are you doing?
Where are you bud I really want to know how you''re doing ?
I did recently come across another new treatment for depression called swiss cell therapy in Web MD magazine. Does anyone know any other good resources for researching new treatments for depression?
Where are you?
How are you doing now?
Have you ever heard of methoxetamine? Or Kratom?
Have you had success with methoxetamine for depression?
Hey I was wondering if you've heard of ayahuasca, and if that remotely interests you. I feel like it has potential for your recovery from depression. Just look into it at least
Ayahuasca saved my life three years ago, I was into severe suicidal depression, anxiety and consuming tremendous quantities of alcohol, amphetamines and benzodiazepines just to be able to make it day through day... I desintoxicated from benzos, antidepressants , antipsychotics and evrything else in about a month, then started ayahuasca... It was a complete breakthrough and this medicine gave me strength and hope (the experiences and ceremonies weren't easy as you really have to confront yorself and your demons, and sometimes you feel like you're dying), gave me a whole new perspective... I was able to stop all medications, including clonazepam which at other times gave me seizures just trying to stop it; also alcohol... I was very well for several months, but then again my life became very stressful, began taking benzos again, alcohol, drugs... and then I was back to the misery again...
I haven't been able to begin an ayahuasca treatment again because of very severe anxiety (haven0t been able to stop benzos) and also because of the clinic I was going stoped to operate formally... Ayahuasca saved my life, but it is also a very demanding medicine, it requires you to being super commited to do heavy life changes and ot to come back to previous patterns.
I'm now seeking to start a ketamine treatment... doing it with doctors resulted to be impossible because of the ridiculous expensive coasts, so I am trying to buy the medicine by myself (I don't care it is not legal) and carefully apply it by myself... It is that or continue with this fucking misery which will eventually lead me to suicide... So I hope I can have success. So only thing I want to tell to the maker of these videos is DON'T GIVE UP... keep trying with ketamine, if it no longer is working then try with ayahuasca or psylocybin mushrooms, which according to recent studies have the same effectivity as ketamine, both from psychedelic ceremonies and from microdosing.
BLESSINGS, BROTHER
You know there's nothing wrong with casual dating and sex, its lite, good for the body and some girly attention will make you feel good :) Not sure what else you like to do, but getting outside in nature, wading in a calm river can have surprisingly positive effects, adopting a dog.... dog will give you sense a purpose, you can only get/stay so low when a dog wants to go for a walk, then you walk it down the street and some cute gal tells you how cute said dog is.
How are you doing now? Is there a follow up video coming out?
@@johnandrewcameron1 This isn't just well intentioned, it comes from first hand experience
so if i understand there is no hope for depression its illness for life pfff i have 25 years old. its finish? cool i love life
Man did you try videogames? It might help
max payne!
I've had periods where ketamine didn't work. I thought to myself "that's it" when it didn't work. But after going back to it after a year or so, it worked perfectly 100%. Don't think that just because one session didn't work, that that is it.